#last time i was in survival mode

[arcaneyouth]

its kinda wild, when i made the decision to take shit super easy and give up a lot of tasks i just cant get done rn, i expected it to be like... miserable. the last time i did something like this was one of the worst 9 months of my life so i was kind of expecting a lot of that? but because im doing it Intentionally this time with Purpose, it feels more like. sinking into a hot bath when i know i dont need to get out any time soon. its nice

[rad-roche]

if i'm doing a big creative project that needs a lot of energy, i'll do something really low-stress on the side. here's something i've been tinkering with on and off for months, i remember playing with this way back when i was writing dead woman walking

it's a parisian street!

here are a few more buildings. but my favourite one is...

the bakery! isn't it cute! it's very fiddly to get two blocks occupying the same space (the bread and the glass) but i think it looks adorable. the inside is furnished, too

the big white residential building is a little bare-bones, but i did do the hallways. i forget how many, i believe six, but everything that isn't the lobby is like that second picture.

there are too many rooms for me to furnish feasibly, so i'm just doing the ones that you can see from the front windows. of those, i only have one done (they're quite big), which leaves five to do. here's the layout of that apartment, and what the rest will roughly look like

and finally, here's the little restaurant in the black building all the way on the bottom right. it's a little bare-bones, but again, mostly intended to be viewed from the outside

current plan is to put down a few more buildings, maybe change the elevation of those a little. get a real diorama thing happening. it's a very relaxing hobby!

[autobot-bumblebee]

can I offer you a crossover doodle in these trying times?

[invinciblerodent]

himh I'll make a Dark Urge that's so fucking scared

big scary bloodsoaked killer, tearing through armies with her literal bare hands? nah. a quiet, scared girl who doesn't understand why she does what she does, why she can do what she can, but is, at the same time, deeply disgusted by herself because she has just enough self-awareness to know to be repulsed.

maybe it's because I'm a tiny bit obsessed with clinging to the thought that people, at the end of the day, are fundamentally good, no matter what. that there is a fundamental human goodness in all people that makes them worthy of redemption, or at least of the opportunity for atonement.

maybe the way I want to play a story like that is with someone who, stripped from indoctrination and free for the first time to think for herself and embrace and be who she is, finds that in the deepest, most hidden pits of her soul, she is not the strong, kind, resilient person she might want to be. try as the might, she is not someone who can bear the weight of her own past, she's just a... a terrified, broken little girl, cowering in the shadows and unable to look herself in the eye. (which also gives me ideas for her relationship with Orin but that's a little bit beside the point)

cathartic self-insert who. therapy? what is that. is it on Steam or Epic.

[flashhwing]

I love seeing everyone post screenshots of Astarion where he's wearing the drow armor in dark colors and then going to my own game where he's wearing the bard tunic in white. we are having fundamentally different experiences of this character

[knightdykes]

hello??????

[hulloitsdani]

Welp I had max dragon flowers on Altina for two minutes.

[dog-girl-zezora]

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[samarecharm]

Yay :)

[missmouse25]

rambling in the tags

[wildermouse]

i have this strong feeling that everything around me is gonna fall apart and implode and wither this year but i personally thrive in chaos so i think it’ll be good for me

[faustiandevil]

I think the stress from yesterday has finally got to me and I started my day with crying.

This is normal, right?

[kordbot]

wow. I am going to die tomorrow

[famewolf]

got back from the lake last night

it was a ton of fun and we spent most of it zooted out of our minds. but it also really hit me how much has changed in the last 8+ years. seeing a bunch of people that I hadnt seen since my teens or early 20s. it strangely put a lot of things into perspective for me, especially considering I feel like I lost time due to the pandemic.

all in all, a lot of relaxing and chatting and eating good food!

[grimmjowjaegerjaquez]

Remembering the brief period in my life when i was obsessed with ashido, the only filler character with rights bc kubo originally planned to include him in the manga but had to cut him for time

[catgirlwarrior]

Highly interesting that I was starting to feel consistently ok and like I didn't want to die and then suddenly little things have been frustrating me so bad I want to kill myself again....conveniently at the exact same time (almost to the day) that summer classes started.

RSD and feeling like I'm worthless and no one wants me around immediately spiked. Feeling like I don't want to connect with anyone including people I was really attracted to a week ago the second I have to attend classes again. Even shit like sensory overload/overstimulation spiking about shit that was totally fucking fine a week or two ago. This is not a coincidence.