#last ever US 1D concert

[srldesigns6277]

Boston 2015/09/12

[srldesigns6277]

As the day has gone on, I keep thinking about my 1d concerts. 2015 was a hell of a year to see them live, especially in NY.

Just before my first concert, Liam had been receiving hate. Being called every name under the sun for things he apparently said. The Attitude article.

It was a fun energetic but slightly solemn concert due to the events around that day. Liam kept playing around and being silly. Bringing Louis, and Niall into chaos and fun. Even getting silly with Harry too. Even the Bears showed support for Liam that day, it was RBB dressed as Batman.

By my second concert it was the last one of the US tour, ever. Niall's Birthday, and Liam is amping up the birthday celebrations reading signs left and right all mentioning Niall's day. Louis and Niall also kept messing with him. I think Liam changed his clothes like 4 times that night. By the last time, the boys were all like "Where'd Liam go, again." Taking the piss out of him, but having fun. He was the first join in Niall's Act My Age stomps, even prompting Louis and Harry to join.

It's been a wonderful ride.

Rest in Peace Liam ❤️

[harryisourlover]

The Second Assistant

Inspired by the tongue guitar playing in Spain

Smut alert 🚨

Harry was in the midst of a whirlwind tour when a recent breakup left him emotionally drained. Determined to avoid entanglements with fans, he found solace in his work. Amidst the chaos, he couldn't help but notice his new second assistant, (Y/N), whose beauty and grace captivated him.

(Y/N) was a beacon of joy and laughter among her colleagues, but around Harry, she turned shy and reserved. Since day one she acted like that. But one fateful night after a particularly electrifying concert where Harry had pushed the boundaries of his attire, revealed A LOT, also was a night extremely hot in Spain and (Y/N) fainted backstage! She was overwhelmed by the intensity of the performance plus hot night and the last thing that Harry did on stage definitely was the final cause of her faint.

Concerned, Harry rushed to her hotel room after his concert, still in his revealing outfit because all that matters was to see of she was really ok!

He knocked on the door, she just got out of the shower and she was expecting her meal, not Harry…

“Oh my god, it’s you!”

“I’m sorry, are you expecting someone else?”

“Just my dinner..” she said moving her eyes from his eyes going down to his torso and abs

He noticed and explained “I’m sorry again, i just got out stage and didn’t saw you there in the corner, they told me… Are you ok?”

“I don’t understand… You barely say Hi and Bye every day, any order of what to do to you i get from Mary because she’s the first assistant and i’m the second… Why do you bother coming here?”

“Excuse me are you implying that i’m a incentive boss-monster? That i don’t care? Only once that i tried to spoke to you, you didn’t looked back at me in the eyes and everytime i see you nice and goofy around the crew but always with a bad face at me, how did you expect me to act?”

“I… i was trying to act professional with you”

“I honestly thought you hated me since day one for some reason i quit trying to find out…”

“What??? I don’t hate you! Never! I’m a fan! Actually since 1D to be honest”

“Ok, now i’m the one confused here”

“When Mary interviewed me for the job she said: 1- never mention you are a fan; 2- don’t talk to him looking in his eyes because his girlfriend is nuts jealous; 3- don’t be you the cool girl i know around him, just strict professional”

“OMG i had no idea!”

“Mary says hahahah i’m your type, she’s so wrong! Look at me! But anyway she said if i want a career i can’t cause trouble in my first job ever in this industry!”

“I totally understand She was trying to help you… and avoid drama with my ex… She’s right about you being extremely attractive to me… She’s with me for 10 years she knows me very well!”

(Y/N)’s face is red and she thinks she’s about to faint again. Harry run to her holding her and asking “Are you ok? For sure?”

“I’m fine! Not going down again! It’s.. it’s just too much going on.. i need to sleep!”

“What about your food?”

“I will cancel… can you help me walking me to the bed?”

“I will help but you will eat! And i will go to my room shower and after that i will come back to see you! Where is your extra key?”

“Don’t need to do that Harry…”

“I will! Please let me do this!”

So exactly like he said, after he was back in her room. She had fallen asleep, so he took the tray away, returned to his room but kept her spare key.

Next day, like always when don’t need to travel to do a performance, Harry wake up when he wanted, brushed his teeth and looking at himself in the mirror started to think about (Y/N) and decided to go back to her room.

He wasn’t sure if she was awake yet, was 10 something AM, so he knocked softly. With no answer he did it again… and worried decided to use the key…

She was with her AirPod, laid down on the floor, legs wide open up on the bed, rubbing her covered pussy with one hand and on the other hand watching Harry’s video a fan did of him obscenely flipping his tongue on the guitar…

Harry didn’t want to scare her but she’s couldn’t her him there! And honestly he was hard ASF!!! He decided to remove his clothes and already touching himself he walked to her bed and seat close to one of her legs, he did wile she briefly close her eyes, and when she opened…

“Ohh omg!” And removed Airpod looking at him, iPhone already on the floor and her eyes big in shock looking to Harry’s Big fat cock.

“Don’t need to say anything love, if you just let me finish here looking at you rubbing that pussy for me i will be very happy, and if you want he can pretend never happened… or…. You can get out of that floor and come here to this bed and let me taste that pussy just like you’re dreaming watching that video on repeat”

She was speechless and frozen. Harry smirked at her and that was enough to release her from the frozen state. (Y/N) started to move and stopped standing in front of him.

They connected eyes and he used one hand to hold her t-shirt up and the other hand to grab the elastic of her panties, she nodded and he started to slowly remove her panties…

“All of this mess for me darling?”

“…Y..yes!”

“May i ask you to remove your t-shirt and lay next to me?”

She nodded and did as he asked… slowly Harry moved to the top of her using his knees and hands to spread her legs saying: “Darling I don’t dare to go up there and kiss you like i want, because it’s dangerous… we can fall in love and ruin business! But if you don’t mind i will bury my head in your perfect soaked cunt… and after this anytime you or me need some relief we can count on each other secretly ok?”

“Ok Harry”

“Call me Daddy!” And with that he started to eat her like the hungriest man in the world, stroking his penis at the same time. (Y/N) came like never before and was fighting to close her legs involuntarily.

“Just another one sweetheart, one more of your sweet orgasm juice and i will let go” He said and immediately sucked her clit wile inserted his finger, she cried loud in despair and he was just so impressed by how tight her pussy was, he said “Girl, you can barely take my finger, if i try to put my cock on you I don’t know if will fit…”

(Y/N) moaned and squirted with that dirty talk, Harry drank all and released his orgasm in his hand and belly. “I don’t know if i can keep my mouth out of this pretty pussy anymore girl!”

He started to put his clothes on with the devilish smile saying “I’m getting out of here before someone sees me wile looking for me.. Angel, i will always have your room’s door keys now! This will be our secret!”

And he left…. Not knowing that the biggest secret (Y/N) carries… She’s 22 but she’s virgin…

And now all she can think about is how to tell him! And when…

[emosingles]

hello fellow girls, gays, and formless blobs <3

if you or anyone you know is going to any of the remaining tit shows and have access to preshow but are stumped when it comes to coming up with any questions- here is a list of questions i’ve made!

30 Questions for dip n pip!

1. What are your favorite 1D songs?

2. What’s the last concert you attended?

3. If you could only watch one show for the rest of your lives, TOGETHER, what would it be?

4. Create drag names for one another.

5. What’s the most embarrassing thing you’ve done trying to grab the attention of someone you fancy?

6. how do you think your style has evolved over time and who are your style inspos / icons?

7. What was the last “normal” job y’all had before the YouTubes?

8. What TV series did you recently watch together?

9. Are y’all aware of phannie Fridays?

10. Describe your first impression of each other in one word

11. What’s your favorite memory of touring from tatinof?

12. What’s the most unexpected dm you’ve ever received from a famous person?

13. Phil, will you ever do a Dan-esque one man show?

14. Do an impression of each other

15. Please explain the story behind “can Phil express an opinion” at that one panel because I felt the rage beam off the screen and still don’t know the context.

16. Phil, is it true that you won the Guinness world record for fastest coin stacking? Please explain how this even happened

17. DAN, we have heard Phil’s first impression of you (posh and annoying blah blah blah) but what was YOUR first impression of Phil when you two first met?

18. Have y’all been asked to be interviewed on hot ones? Dan would probably take it like a champ, Phil on the other hand- my prayers are with you babe.

19. If you could bonk any fictional character, who would it be?

20. What made y’all think to wear those ICONIC red and green uni sweatshirts for the photo cards- simply just for vibes or nostalgia?

21. three legged DDR challenge pt2 when?

22. Invisible string theory? more like y’all are being bound by shock collars and steel chains through every universe.

23. Please stop running off the stage I’m scared one of you is going to get hurt. Please. Omg. Stop. I. Beg.

24. Will y’all post a gaming vids blooper reel at the end of the year (for good old times sake) :3

25. who came up with the idea to do the april fools tasteful nude… just curious lol.

26. What kind of case do you have for the iphad? Or is it just free balling in the wind caseless?

27. How in the hell did Dan not realize the PVC jumpsuit was from an adult only website??

28. Who pitched the idea of the “no but seriously imagine it” sketch ?

29. when are dab and evan going to have a child? they were meant to be girl dads (also we just need some more estrogen thrown into the sims series pls lol)

30. what is a piece of merch that you’ve really wanted to do but haven’t had the opportunity to make yet?

i saw them back in austin and went overboard with creating questions and just didn’t want any of these to go to waste so pls use them and let me know if they ended up being answered!!

(i submitted one question during my show which was: who is the most sentimental, and they answered it! apparently dan doesn’t give a shit and will throw away everything but phil likes to hold onto things and savor the sweet mems)

[gracefullou]

This is the most important part from that article and like I said wbk lol

When Harry Styles's black limousine arrived at the church (in typical sensible Harry style, he was the first to get there), onlookers expected to see the other members of One Direction climb out alongside him.

After all, in their heyday they would refer to one another as 'brothers'. Only those five boys could ever comprehend the magnitude of their overnight fame and how it upended their lives entirely.

However, Harry wasn't with his bandmates Niall Horan, Zayn Malik or Louis Tomlinson. Instead he was flanked by actor turned chat show host James Corden and their television producer friend Ben Winston.

The trio are very close. Harry lived in Winston's loft while his house in Hampstead was being renovated in 2013, spending a significant amount of their free time with Corden.

Arriving at Liam's funeral separately was an illustration of just how far apart the bandmates have grown since their reign as the world's most successful boyband, when they presented themselves very much as 'besties'.

After Harry, Niall was the next to arrive with his girlfriend Amelia Woolley, then Zayn and then Louis. Outside the church, only Zayn and Louis were seen sharing a moment together before Zayn left alone shortly afterwards.

'Of course, they all wanted to be there, they shared so much with Liam,' said one insider. 'But that doesn't mean they are best friends any more. They haven't worked together for almost ten years – they have grown apart.

In fact, the last time they all met up, it was because Simon Cowell insisted they did after Louis's mum died, and that was eight years ago.

'But it was just so telling to see Harry arrive with his super-famous friend James rather than the other band members. It kind of told you what you needed to know about how the boys have drifted apart.'

I'm told there is very little contact between Harry and the others, and that it's a similar story for Niall, though he was the last of the band members to see Liam before he died.

Indeed, Liam was in Buenos Aires to see the Irish heart-throb in concert, and afterwards had what I'm told was a 'quick and fleeting' meeting with him.

It is surely agonising to all involved that one of the first times the band had reunited in years was in the hours after Liam died on October 16 – to agree on the most poignant words to pay tribute to him.

In a statement signed 'Louis, Zayn, Niall and Harry', they wrote: 'We're completely devastated by the news of Liam's passing.

'In time, and when everyone is able to, there will be more to say. But for now, we will take some time to grieve and process the loss of our brother, who we loved dearly. The memories we shared with him will be treasured for ever. For now, our thoughts are with his family, his friends, and the fans who loved him alongside us. We will miss him terribly. We love you Liam.'

To the outside world, it appeared little had changed since their days travelling the globe as the biggest boyband since the Beatles.

In fact, those closest to Liam at the end were Louis and Zayn, who have both had their own troubles in recent years.

Louis struggled following the deaths of his mother Johannah Deakin in 2016, and his little sister Felicite – who accidentally overdosed on cocaine, an anxiety drug and painkillers aged just 18 – four years later. Meanwhile, Zayn was reportedly axed by his record label RCA due to his alleged cannabis use in 2021.

Dailymail being the low of the low, posting articles about this at a time like this 😬. But it is kind of ironic that #those people said they weren't seen together as a whole bc they didn't want the attention when as usual that brought even more attention (mainly by fans) and tbh all the media would run with the "1D memebers reunited at their lost brother's funeral" (and they did) whether there where pics of them together or not, just them being there is enough to generate these articles. What's even more telling is that there were only pics of Harry and Niall together, which was already established that they get along well enough, no other pictures of the other members together (not talking about Louis and Zayn bc it's obvious they just met at the entry and ofc they would be civil to one another at a time like this, which also kind of confirms that they didn't even coordinate their arrivals to not be seen together, bc if that was the case why would Zayn and Louis arrive almost at the same time, they had a public fall out them interacting would take away the "attention" no?)

[twopoppies]

https://www.tumblr.com/twopoppies/747389355237195776/hello-gina-i-hope-you-have-a-good-day-i-dont

You make some really good points here, especially about stepping away a bit and trying to just enjoy them as musicians. I’ve tried it with some success, but it’s not easy. I do honestly love both of their music and listen to it daily. Beyond that, it’s good to back off a bit for me.

I think for me something that has really become clear this last year, is that many fans feel entitled to what I would call Chapter 118 of the Harry/Louis WIP, and the reality is it’s just not coming. Now I love reading Larry fan fiction as much as the next person, but looking at it that way is so unfair to them. They have real lives and relationships and it’s not a story that needs to be tied up with a happily ever after. Lots of Larries - especially Twitter Larries - seem to use every interview or use of a primary color as a new chapter. I’ve never been a believer in the “mastermind” theory. And you are so right when you say the good vs evil is not really clear anymore. Yes, Syco and Cowell committed a lot of abuses, but those guys walked out of there with around $50M and tons of doors opened for them that wouldn’t have been possible without 1D , so the lines are blurred.

I think it’s pretty clear from Harry’s “corner of the internet ….it’s not real” interview to Louis latest, they don’t want our help in this - whatever “this” is anymore. It’s not underdogs vs overlords and I don’t like taking away Harry’s and Louis’s agency at this point.

It’s funny, because in 2016 if someone had said this is where you will be 8 years later I would have laughed in their face. But this is where we are and finding ways to deal with it and realizing we may never have more then we have today can be hard. Who knows what will happen in the future. Tomorrow the whole thing could blow wide open and lots of questions will get answered, but I just don’t think so and I’m ok with that. Sort of…. lol!

Anyway, thanks for the nice, calm commentary. I still enjoy reading it all!

Oh, I totally feel you on waiting for chapter 118. So many people treat their lives like an unfinished fic or a game to win. It’s super unhealthy for fans and I can’t imagine it feels good for Harry and Louis. And I very much agree that where we once were helpful, we may now be a hindrance at times. Saying that, I think it’s important to acknowledge that we’re not fucking making things up out of thin air and Harry/Louis/their teams often use Larry and larries for their benefit.

That makes it difficult to feel that they’re being completely honest when they say they don’t want a focus put on Larry.

Regardless, I’m tired of playing this game. I’d prefer to just chill in my own little circle and talk about Larry with my friends and go to concerts and have fun. But I don’t enjoy being treated like shit when it’s convenient and then sent flowers when I’m needed again, you know?

[hollandsfavbabe]

I've been struggling to write this out for the last few days. As you all probably already know by now, Liam Payne died a few days ago. I have always been a huge Directioner and was literally at Niall's concert just a month before Harry and Liam went. It absolutely breaks my heart that we as a fandom have to handle a death like this so early and I am still in denial that he's actually gone.

I cannot even begin to grapple with my own feelings about this and it is so hard to put it into words. It's a strange feeling navigating how to handle this grief for a man that I didn't even know. I didn't support Liam before he died after hearing about all the abuse allegations, but I am heartbroken that he went out as tragically as he did thinking that the whole world hated him. He didn't deserve to leave this world so soon, especially without being able to recover from his addictions. My heart goes out to the other boys and Liam's family that just lost a brother, a son, and a father.

I guess the whole purpose of this is to remind you all to be kind to yourselves and everyone else on here. It might not feel like it, but everything that's put out is going to affect someone on the other side, be it positive or negative. And if you're struggling, you can always ask for help! I am lucky enough to be able to see a therapist which has helped immensely as I find healthy ways to cope and of course I have turned to writing. 1D used to be the only thing I ever wrote about and going back through my old stories where my (very obviously self-service) main characters are best friends with the band has been helpful for me as I mourn the loss of the biggest part of my childhood.

In the meantime, I'm going to be taking a short break from writing on here while I recover, but I'm available if you need to talk. I've lost too many people to suicide and no matter the cause, be it Liam's death or anything else, my messages are open if you ever need anything!

Please take care of yourself and I hope all of you are doing well. I promise to be back soon.

TPWK 💜

[lonelychicago]

hi i’m super nosy and was wondering if you could explain the 1d guy drama happening rn

oh oh anon there's SO much tea!!!

okay so i think all of this started when liam did this podcast with logan paul i think??? one of the paul brothers anyway. same thing.

ANYWAY. on that podcast he was drinking and being all... kind of talking hinself up a lot?? like, he said simon made 1d around HIM. and like he was supposed to be the frontman, the "leader" of 1d. he said that simon made 1d FOR him, like bc of a promise he made liam when he forst auditioned for the x factor. (all of this is a lie, simon didn't even formed 1d. other judge did!!!)

and anyway. the podcast was.... rough to listen to. but at one moment he told this story about something that happened during the 1d days. he said there was a fight backstage and that one member pushed him against the wall, and he said. HE SAID AND I QUOTE— "if you don't remove those hands, there's a high likelihood you won't ever use them again." KAJSJSJSJJSJSJ. (me personally i think he's talking shit and don't believe he said that at all but whatever.)

i digress. the thing is that since then it's been something everyone wondered about. like WHICH 1d member pushed him against the wall. a lot of ppl said harry, louis or zayn. (niall was never am option lmao) and it's been like a really discussed topic I'd say(??

so TODAY maya henry (liam's ex gf who also wrote a book where she tells how abusive he was to her) posted a tik tok today saying like: it was zayn guys. it was ZAYN. here's the tik tok in question.

so then ofc all the liam stans went for her throat and like complained that she was riding liam's fame. (like, WHAT fame girl, he is the least revelant 1d boy but whatever.)

so maya was like, okay bet. and basically did a 10 min tik tok exposing liam. she told how he wñuld say things like "we can do whatever we want, because the fans will always have our back and defend us." and basically like, no one will believe YOU. and also she said how he's constantly harrassing her and sending her and her family and friends messages, even though he has a gf now.

ALSO ALSO. that he shit talked the boys but then showed up at their concerts. so far he's been to argentina TWICE. once in may 18th for louis' concert, where he posted himself singing where do broken hearts go and also was photographed with one of louis' hoodies. and i think it was this week??? or maybe last week that was niall's concert. AND LET ME TELL U IT WAS SO CRINGY AND HARD TO WATCH. like he posted on snaptchat that "he had things to talk with niall, nothing bad!!! but they had A LOT to talk about" and that's why he was going to argentina. and also like danced macarena at the VIP balcony before niall was out on stage AND ignored a bodyguard when he tried to stop liam, because he was calling so much attention to himself that the fans were pushing each other and crowding and it was genuinely becoming a safety issue.

here's the longer tik tok woth all of the tea!!

[tendergore]

i wanted to write something about Liam, mostly for me because I know that most of my following now has nothing to do with my 1D days, but this is my blog after all.

Right now I’m sitting outside feeling the first cool breeze of autumn and hearing in my mind Liam’s soft harmony under Half a Heart, feeling once again in my life like i know the feeling too well.

A moment for my sensible Liam, my daddy direction, my lima bean, who became so associated with me that my very first long distance friend called me her lima bean and i called her hair style. You had a broken arm at my concert in 2014, and I’m only now realizing that means you’ve gone away from the world only a month and ten years from the only time I would ever see you in person, as it turns out, ever. Liam and Louis cowrote so many of the most beautiful songs, sacred to my heart, and for that I almost curse you for the ache it has etched permanently into my being from your absence in the living, breathing world.

I imagine the boys waking up to you gone, I imagine the last time they saw you, spoke to you, thought of you. I know a pain that cannot be untwisted in them for you. I know because I feel a fifth of it too.

Goodbye. I know you as an essential part of something that was once bigger than my whole sky, that had me staring at your face on posters on my wall, in videos on my screen, and even folders I used for school. I know your heart of hearts was good. I wish the world had been softer to you than even I could be.

Yesterday I was dancing around my office to the old albums, painting my nails with these old and fading 1D nail polishes I got many Christmases ago less than an hour before I got the news. And I think it was you in my heart, giving me one last unsullied dance dedicated to days long gone, and leaving a little reminder that despite everything, I will find you for reasons I don’t understand, walking in the wind.

[paynethepriceofbeauty]

I still can’t fully wrap my head around what happened.. I’ve cried so much.. I had this constant fear that this is how his life would end because it really didn’t feel like he was surrounded by people who cared. I am so angry at the first people that introduced him to drugs. I’m really trying hard not to blame his gf but come on how could she not know he was still using and why would she not be more vigilant of signs or sadness coming from him?! The blame lies everywhere. Fake ass fans that talked so much bad shit about him until the day he died. Jokes being made EVEN NOW that he’s dead. It’s disgusting and they are partially responsible by spreading hate behind a keyboard. Liam was my favorite, my crush as a teen and a celebrity I thought I would see grow old just like me. The last memories for all of us are now tainted by this TRAGIC death that could’ve been prevented at so many points that it just feels unfair and cruel that it came to this. I don’t know if I can ever listen to 1D again. I don’t know if it’ll ever sink in. I don’t know if I can ever watch any videos or concert recordings ever again.. it hurts. I didn’t have many friends in high school when I created this account. Writing about them every day after school was my fun and my company and it really feels like I lost a friend. I’ll always remember how sweet and kind and patient he was when I briefly met him in 2012. I will always be glad I was that privileged. Memories hurt.. moving on feels like his death isn’t important.. what’s the right thing here?? I hope the boys support each other and I hope to God Louis is fine after all the losses he experienced in his life. I hope Bear will grow up knowing all the good parts of his dad’s fame and how beloved and cherished he was by so many. I hope we can all heal and I hope his memory won’t be warped by the last bad choice he ever made. I really hope I never hear such heartbreaking news again.

[foxes-that-run]

Perfect

Zayn said he wouldn’t buy the record when he heard Perfect (so salty!). Harry's emotions varied performing it in its short 27 performance run from Oct-Dec when 1D ended. These 2 stand out:

November 20 2015, rather than sing the Bridge Harry said to the crowd "if you think it's so funny you can sing it".

3 days later at the AMAs he rolls his eyes and looks ready to walk out, the camera cuts to a kid who seems to agree. (Bridge is 2:40).

It was only performed 6 more times, in Carpool Karaoke (10:30) Harry stops singing for parts and the song cuts before the bridge, at the Jingle ball he looks away and the last time was new years.

Or this concert he put the mike into the crowd, someone stole the microphone and licked it.

Safe to say he regretted that bridge, it's savage to them both.

Writers

Perfect ties with Fools Gold for the title of the Haylor song with the most writers, at 7. While Fools Gold has all 5 of the band, Bunetta and Ryan. Harry and Louis are the only band members who worked on Perfect with Bunetta, Ryan and 3 others:

Jesse Shatkin, (cowrote Sia's Chandelier)

Jacob Kasher (Maroon 5 collaborator), and

Mozella (cowrote Miley Cyrus Wrecking Ball and Fools Gold.)

To me, Perfect has more media grabbing pop-song than Harry Styles. HS’s best 1D work was with teams of 3 or 4 writers. In fact, Bunetta said Olivia came out in 45 minutes while overworking another "less good" MITAM song.

Timeline

Bunetta also told Rolling Stone about Perfect:

"That one took a long time, just because it was written over a couple different continents. It started as one thing and ended up where it is."

MITAM was made in the summer of 2015. To have been written in a couple of continents and with USA based writers it was probably either side of the BBMAs. It could have been started 'as one thing' in April in South Africa before the BBMAs other songs that reference Style including Two Ghosts started early in the year. The "ended up where it is" with those writers would be after the BBMAs, when they got back to the USA from July. This would be at the end of the album and he was singing it daily within 3 months.

Similarity to Taylors songs

It has the same chord progressions as Style and is also very similar to out of the woods as this video on Twitter shows. He called it a love song in the made in the AM interview (6 mins) and that it wasn’t literal in another. I do love this James Cordon bit and I love his Taylor smile so much.

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Louis] I might never be your knight in shinin' armour I might never be the one you take home to mother And I might never be the one who brings you flowers But I can be the one, be the one tonight

Grapejuice, has the perfect (get it) call back to this verse, along with 'Red' and 'Pay for it' and I love him for it:

"I was on my way to buy some flowers for you (ooh) / Thought that we could hide away in a corner of the heath / There's never been someone who's so perfect for me / But I got over it and I said / "Give me somethin' old and red" / I pay for it more than I did back then"

[Pre-Chorus: Liam] When I first saw you from across the room I could tell that you were curious, oh, yeah Girl, I hope you're sure what you're looking for 'Cause I'm not good at making promises

Promises come up again in Woman "Promises are broken like a stitches is", which is interesting if both Woman and part of Perfect are written after the 2015 BBMAs.

‘Know what you are looking for’ is interesting. In "Say don't go" and the 1989 TV Vaults in general Taylor did not get what she was looking for. At 23, dating a 19 year old Taylor told us she didn’t get wavy she needed. Her most recent ex, JG was 29. (yes - JG was the age Harry is now! Imagine if he did that) So I kind of stand by this line.

The start refers to the night they met. Which neither has ever confirmed, I think it was in 2011 (see timeline) Many look at the coat he tries on in the music video, which matches both his Up All Night Tour outfit (from December 2011) and the 2012 Kids Choice Awards. The awards are fun though. The Up All Night DVD also has it.

[Verse 2: Niall] I might never be the hands you put your heart in Or the arms that hold you any time you want them But that don't mean that we can't live here in the moment 'Cause I can be the one you love from time to time

Urgh I choose to attribute 'love from time to time' to one of the 6 other people writing this. To me this line always sounds like a boy-band heartthrob priority playing out in the writers room. No wonder it took time and HS1 to overcome this.

However, this does speak to a theme of them not being available to each other because of their careers and 1D punishing schedule. If I could fly's "I'm missing half of me when we're apart" and Half the World Aways " So you're not my girlfriend / Don't pretend that makes us nothing / Tell me you don't miss this feeling" speaks more honestly to the interplay of his band image, schedules and priorities which Taylor referred to Suburban Legends.

[Chorus: Harry, All] But if you like causing trouble up in hotel rooms And if you like having secret little rendezvous If you like to do the things you know that we shouldn't do Then, baby, I'm perfect Baby, I'm perfect for you And if you like midnight driving with the windows down And if you like goin' places we can't even pronounce If you like to do whatever you've been dreamin' about Then, baby, you're perfect Baby, you're perfect So let's start right now

Here are Haylor themes we know and love, Driving at midnight (Style, HYGTG, Wish You Would) generally going from a high schooler to superstar overnight (placed they can’t pronounce like Cannes), and hidden love/hiding (I Know Places, Slut!)

[Bridge: Harry] And if you like cameras flashin' every time we go out Oh, yeah And if you're looking for someone to write your breakup songs about Then baby, I'm perfect And baby, we're perfect

The camera’s flashing is good imagery and his voice brings to life how personally challenging it was for them both in a way I Know Places didn't with very few words. Taylor also refers to this imagery in Is it over now?

But the break up songs is a low blow and I assume the part he regretted to the point of not wanting to sing it. In a later interview Harry said:

“The only time you really think, ’is this song too personal?’ is if you think about, ‘is this going to be really annoying for the other person?’ Because I do [care],” he finished.

Which I think the break up song line would have been very annoying.

If you made it through that reward yourself with Grapejuice at Wembley 🍇

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

Ellaaaa please tell us about your show!!! I want the whole account (if you want to/when you have time ofc)!! I'm so happy you got to hear fine line live ahhh you totally deserved it!!!

AAAAAAHHHHHHHH KIND ANON I CAN SCREAM ABOUT IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

so we had front of stage tickets and it was 100% the best ticket ive ever had so far: zero effort for an insane view and a fantastic place in the crowd with all the space we needed to dance and more. i've queued before and just really never want to again for more than enough reasons, and here was shown how i seriously didn't need to.

wet leg was epic. i am obsessed with them they are so fucking cute and also cool and also hot and also good. yes. i screamed my frustrations to the sky with them and all was good in the world.

and then. i'll just say immediately that the setlist is fantastic and definitely the best collection of songs i've ever heard of his, despite lights up not being there. the beginning was super fun and energetic, he is a master showperson, but it's in a way that is uniquely his. you can look at him and be in awe of the grandiose performance filling that entire stage, and then see that he's also smirking, skipping along the runway and pulling faces at his band. it's just. !!!!!!!!! you know?!?!?

my soul left my body during stockholm syndrome. goosebumps forever, bc of the sheer disbelief that im hearing a 1d song live. harry smiling, us screaming.

i've always wanted to hear she live, too, so that was just... mesmerizing. there were orchids projected on stage and it was all so perfectly fitting. our orchid, our mermaid. note the colors as well :')

then it was a big fucking party. just dancing and singing like we've never done before. he really felt happy and like he felt good, so happy and jokey. he grabbed Three pride flags during tpwk, and this was my first time witnessing the brass quartet as well. it was a BIG FUCKING PARTY

grapejuice is also so fun live. it's always such an experience to hear him sing a song live that he hasn't really sung before. i could tell that it's a tough one to sing, but he made it fun and quirky and cute.

aaaaaand THEN HE SANG FINE LINE. he sang fine line. holy shit. this is like. i grieved when he decided to stop singing it last european leg, it hit me hard. i think i've said it a shitton of times already on here but fine line is a song i listen to every morning and every night, it's the only thing that can calm me through a panic attack. it's an anthem of perseverance, hope and self-love. hearing it live was just me being transfixed, mesmerized, by what was unfolding in front of me, and slowly crying more and more. a tight tight hug from @bluewinnerangel through the sobs at the end was necessary bc we were all falling apart. in the best way

the darkness and pause after that were also necessary to get us back on track, for a show that was going to rake us through the entire spectrum of the human emotion once more. sign of the times was just. gasp

the PARTY that then ensued during wmyb. that bse intro is something else. any 1d reference obviously unlocks something unhinged in my brain that makes me fucking lose it, but hooooly shit. it goes SO HARD. wmyb always does and i'll never get sick of it.

to finish us off, of course, we have our rock: kiwi. the heaviness of that intro is addictive. his menacing gaze when he's choosing who to soak. the fucking SONG GOES SO HARD. IM HAVING YOUR BABAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY

and then it was over. but it felt extra extra good bc i knew i would be experiencing it again hahahrghr and my body is definitely stiff from the legit workout i did during the concert last night so. holy shit fuck yes

[isakyakihasmyheart]

Mind Dump 5 years on...

This is the first time I've logged into this account since 2019(ish) so I'm pretty sure there's going to be no one left here but if you are, Hi! I'm just going to dump this post here because I am a tumblr girl at heart and laying my most deepest thoughts to strangers on the internet is all I've ever known...

After the recent news of the death of Liam Payne 2 days ago I've been thinking about this website non-stop. Like many people, this news hit me so unexpectedly emotionally. Grieving someone I never knew, but also grieving a time in my life I can never ever experience again.

My life has changed so much since I last logged into this account, and yet so little at the same time. I started this account in early 2017 after I got into SKAM back in 2016, abandoning a previous Dan and Phil centred account I had from 2014. I was still in school, the last season of SKAM lining up with my own life of leaving school and starting university. I remember thinking that was so cool, watching these characters I grew to adore also experiencing their last year alongside me. I started university in late 2018, studying to become a nurse but yet never got over SKAM. Instead, I became obsessed DRUCK and connected to Matteo in a way I haven't ever experienced with another fictional character since (the only close match being Connell from Normal People in that one uni scene iykyk). However, I ultimately ended up abandoning this account in 2019.

I don't actually know why I stopped coming on this website. Because since I was 14 this website was all I could ever think about. Me and best friend in 2014 were absolutely obsessed with tubmlr. We would literally spend hours on this website reblogging the most random things, and things that at that point in our lives meant so much to us. And with this recent news, I've felt this strong tsunami of nostalgia for that period of my life.

I was never a 1D blog, but I loved 1D. Not very openly as I had older sisters who made fun of me for it. I squashed any outwardly expression of my love for them to avoid this at all costs. A major cost being turning down to go and see them in concert in 2014/2015 when my friend (mentioned above) had an extra ticket. I think about that often and regret it every time. When covid came around and we were in lockdown I was in the mid/end of my 2nd year of uni, 20 years of age. I know a lot of people talk of how they regressed back to their younger passions, and so did I. I had the full 1D experience I never let myself have, not caring about others' opinions on it (mainly my older sister). I listened to their music nonstop every single day, watching so many edits and even reading fan fics. I truly felt like I was 14 again. But there was always that voice in the back of my head saying, "you're too late, it's not the same, you've missed out on it all." I yearned with everything in me to be that teenage girl again. It was during this period in 2020 that my family relationships also became very volatile and dysfunctional, meaning 1D became an even bigger safe space for me.

I've always been a nostalgic person in the worst way possible. I can't help but let the regrets of things I never did consume me. The thoughts of how different my life could be, how different I could be, it always plagues me. I know this sounds dramatic because I'm talking about a 2010s boyband, believe me I know it does.

But I was 14 when my life started to go to shit, when my mental health first started to decline and truthfully it has never recovered. Maybe because in the back of my mind, I always felt like that 14 year old girl, scared and alone and hurting so bad with no one to help her. And the unbelievable shocking news of Liam Payne dying, it's just transporting me back to that period of my life. Even more so as I lost my dad very unexpectedly and traumaticly in March this year.

I just feel so full of grief for so many things all at once, all separate yet all so intertwined. I would truly give anything and everything I have to just relive being that teenage girl, even the unspeakable bad parts. And it makes me so angry to know I can't. And of course, I can't, because that's not how time works! Yet it feels like I can't breathe when I come to that realisation. In all its dramatic flare, it genuinely feels like it's killing me that I can't ever experience that life again.

All in all, I'll never truly forget this website. Especially not this account, I loved this account! Maybe this is just the part of growing up I'm currently struggling with. I'm 24 now, which in itself is scary because no matter what I am and always will be that 14 year old girl.

Girlhood is forever and always xx

[stilldancewithyou]

I had a dream recently that I was at a One Direction concert with my best friend, we were having the time of our lives screaming and singing along and at one point looked at each other and said "This is the best night of my life!". for some reason, they brought me on stage and I got to give Niall the biggest hug, then 2014-2015 era Luke Hemmings randomly showed up and said hi. then I woke up and I was sad. (I never got to go to a 1D concert)

last night I had a dream that they got back together and did a surprise reunion performance of What Makes You Beautiful. The song started and Liam's voice from the recording played, so his part was sung by him, then the boys came in singing their parts live and Liam's voice sang his parts throughout the whole song. The boys were smiling and dancing around the stage like they used to. it was amazing and beautiful and magical and emotional and everyone was crying and freaking out and I'm really sad that it wasn't real. It would be a really sweet way of honoring Liam if they ever did decide to perform together again.

This will probably never actually happen for real. A girl can dream though.

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Hi Sea, Love your blog. I am not a blogger and only joined Tumblr because I thought I needed to to access all your content. I am a new Louis fan (since about June last year) and have read and watched everything I can find about him. And I have seen him in concert once. Not really interested in 1D unless it’s about him. This recent talk about ‘Larry’ is interesting. I can understand why people want to cling to the idea, especially after Liam’s death. Multiple people have denied Louis and Harry were ever involved romantically. Apart from Louis himself, Julian Bunetta, Max Hurd, Lou Teasdale, Stan Lucas, Felicite, Lottie, Gemma Styles and Liam have all denied ‘Larry’ existed. These are the people who actually know him. Liam offers an explanation at the end of this interview https://www.attitude.co.uk/uncategorised/liam-payne-talks-homophobia-accusations-and-gay-1d-fan-fiction-in-attitude-archive-interview-292644/

No doubt people will dismiss this and continue to believe in their fantasies. Pity Harry has never bothered to deny it, but I guess that’s because of his character flaws.

Thanks again for your wonderful blog.

Zayn has also denied Larry.

Even if there were ever anything (even a harmless crush), I bet at this point Louis wishes “Larry” was never an issue.

It’s not as simple as some fans being “delusional,” however. I think people who are involved, including Louis, Harry, and the marketing teams at Sony, have all used Larry to market to fans. It’s not always possible to tell whether this baiting is intentional; for fans, the ambiguity is the allure.

For example, fans have debated a lot about the activity of the rainbow bears in 2015, and someone made an hour-long debunk on YouTube, finally concluding that it was the work of a 1D sound engineer. To me, this oversimplification doesn’t account for why Sony would encourage a sound engineer to control the image of their multimillion-dollar stars. As we know from the Eroda campaign, Columbia Records has a whole marketing department monitoring fandom reactions. Would they really let a sound engineer go rogue on Larry, with a huge 1D fanbase? Second, how would the sound engineer have access to Louis’ and Harry’s twitter accounts?

Finally, in 2015, “Larry” was a multimillion dollar brand by itself, with millions of fans. It was the largest of Harry’s and Louis’ fanbases. HLD remains a larger update account than any solo UA, including any of Harry’s UAs, with higher rates of engagement. At that time, Larries ran more charity fundraisers, fandom projects, and streaming events than any other 1D subfandom. It’s hard for anyone to turn down this ready-made support for a solo career launch. Without Larry, Harry would not have been able to sprint out of the gate, and Louis might not have had such a fast rise in his solo career. In contrast, Niall, Liam, and Zayn have had to work harder. HSHQ and LTHQ might think Larries are a bunch of lunatics, but they love the free publicity.

This is the aspect that makes me very cynical about “Larry.” It is a double-edged sword for Harry and Louis, and I agree mostly it’s nostalgic nonsenses now.

But their fans are taking the brunt of the “delusional” accusations while it’s pretty clear to me that fans have been baited. Clear-headed Larries themselves would agree. Most have sunken too much cost in beliefs, labor, and time to back out, even if they know it’s nonsense.

On the flip side, just because there’s this unsavory marketing tactic doesn’t erase a lot of unusual and suspect things over the years, including things that fans have seen or known but are no longer talked about. Since all of these occurrences are hearsay, I’m not going to repeat any of them. I’m sorry but it just doesn’t matter that much to me. But knowing the past makes me more certain that Larry hasn’t been a thing for many years.

[sweet-but-vicious]

Warning:

I am a Louie and a Larrie and I do not believe in babygate

Ok now that that is out of the way I watched All of Those Voices and filled this with my thoughts

Spoilers ahead!

OH GOD DON'T PLAY HIS AUDITION!

Whew! That is too painful to see again..

Oop. Relationship right as we see Larry

"Tight as could be as mates" with a 1:1 pic with each guy BUT H... like 2 pics each guy but no H

I would like to state that I was not expecting/planning to Larry this thing but I can't ignore what feels pointed

Awkward....

I feel like we are seeing him drink A LOT in the first 5 min...

H is ANXIOUS for L

LOUIS TOMLINSON YOU ARE A FANTASTIC SINGER AND IF I COULD I WOULD KICK EVERYONE WHO EVER MADE YOU THINK ANY DIFFERENT IN THEIR SQUISHY BITS!!!

tw:Cowbell 🤮🤮🤮

I HATE that their last show was in front of him 🤬

Oh god hopeful baby Lou just twist the knife why don't ya!

Oh baby you were so, so important

If i can't identify as a singer I'm gonna identify as a fucking problem- LT (probably lol)

I genuinely don't know how they managed to find so much fetus L footage that DOESN'T include H

He literally made that band his whole personality

Thank God for Johannah Deakin. Thank you so much! She was an absolute treasure who raised a beautiful family 💙💙💙💙💙

😭He didn't want his mum to feel like her death ruined his career 😭 he's grieving and he's more worried about his dead mother's feelings than his own 😭 I NEED TO LAY DOWN!

He did SO good!

SHUT THE FUCK UP SEEMON!!!

FIZZ! 😭

One of the reasons I love Louis so much and love his music is that I had some massive loss in my life and I can identify so much with how he tries to just roll up and keep going but when you have given so much of yourself to something that you forget who you are without it. I was the carer for my Gran and when I lost her and got my own apartment it was like I had to discover what my taste was, like what bits were mine and which were hers. It took years. Then I got a corporate job a couple of years ago and had to leave the house every day and I realized that I didn't actually like the way I dressed. Like how much of my style was what was available vs fit vs practical in an I need to be able to cook, clean, and change a diaper at any moment. That also took about a year of trial and error. I cannot IMAGINE having to do that so thoroughly in the public eye like that

You are so loved Lou!

His widdle wegs hanging off the chair! Lol

Honestly they did that H double WRONG with that shit wig...

Aww Liam! 😭

SOMEONE HUG LOUIS FOR ME! I DON'T CARE WHO!

Aww he shaved and cleaned himself up for the concert! He's adorable! It's giving fetus

Same. Girl, same.

Seen this clip, thirsty lady, sassy Louis, emotional James

Ykwim count: eleventy billion already

He sounds sooooo goood

He's so worried about the fans being too close to the bus!

Album a year. Jesus they ran those boys into the ground.

Aww his grandparents!

God he is so obsessed with Lottie

Who needs bio-dads? Not us!

They are all sooo pretty...

As a single boy mom I pray my relationship with my son is as close as Louis and Jay

Aw! Grease!

He's looks like a little boy sitting on the floor talking about his mum

WHAT IN THE BARITONE?!?

TELL HIM HELENE! TELL HIM HOW GOID HE IS! SLAP SOME SENSE INTO HIM!

I need a new job! I need to be able to buy tickets when he tours!

LITTLE BLACK DRESS!

Oh baby the Rona came for us all... at least he got to spend a bunch of time with H

.... ok this Feddie stuff is awkward... "the baby" I feel like they are purposely saying Freddie instead of calling him L's son or child

I feel like L is like a godfather to Freddie, I believe that he cares about him and tries to make things as nice as possible for him but I don't believe they are related.

IS HE SMOKING *IN* THE BOOTH!

I have family in Dallas, I could totally go see him in Dallas someday... once I get a job...

Aw he made himself a rolling pub!

Oh god I hope he buys a pub someday! He can decorate it with 1D stuff and Rovers jerseys and roses!

Feral!

Oh god more Freddie...

These emotions do not fit the situation. For either of them.

As the mother to a child who has never seen their father more than twice a month and who didn't see or talk to him for all of lock down this is not how I would expect Freddie to act. He's a child, obviously NOTHING is his fault but I do hope for his sake that this shit ends soon. Honestly it's bad enough that he's even in the movie and I hope that L's team is ready to cut those bits out cause that can be damaging at school in the future.

Like that kid is SO confused...

I feel like there is a better beer solution than just a regular glass being held out of the water like that

They are 12yos lol

He didn't want to lose the band so he built himself a new one

Oh god! The race!

That seems pointed; they show him singing Coacoac in the same place where they did X Factor, a song about getting chewed up by the music industry in the place where he joined the music industry? loud.

Lewis... darling... honey pie... PUT THE FOOKING MICROPHONE IN *FRONT* OF YOUR MOUTH!!!! WE WANT TO ACTUALLY HEAR YOU!!!!

Crochet Louis doll!

I love him so much

The fans love him because we can feel that he loves us

"The best of the 1D fans are now Louis fans"

I would be afraid to be near him in the pit, I feel like I wouldn't be able to help myself and I would bite him 😁

Ok Louis Christ is a bit much lol!

I love how both L and H, (Idk about the other boys,) have created their own new solo band families

I love how much Louis want to bring more good music into the world, he just wants to spread the joy

I NEVER skip the openers, I have found so many new bands that way

I need to start training...

My baby is all grown up!

YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING BABY!!

Love him so fucking much.

He thanked the boys 🥰

Aw, dedicated to Jay and Fizz 😢

Wrapping up

I'm so proud of him, and I genuinely can't wait to see what else he does. I will probably watch it again but skipping over the Freddie bits cause it makes me uncomfortable. I wish there had been more about his childhood and siblings but maybe that's being saved for a future one...

I should try to find the Harry one now I suppose...