#lOOK OKAY THIS WAS SO FUN

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hc + nanami for haibara from here | @chaoslulled

headcanon | yu haibara + his perception of nanami kento

i.  the  truth  starts  to  come  out  a  little  when  yu  starts  at  tokyo  metropolitan  curse  technical  college.  he  &  his  innate  technique  did  not  spring  randomly  into  existence  the  day  that  he  started  seeing  curses.  his  sister  is  not  randomly  gifted  with  sight.  their  father  had  been  affiliated  with  a  sorcerers’  family,  &  he  had  either  vanished  or  died.  their  mother  didn’t  know,  &  so  there  was  nothing  to  be  told  or  explained.

not  until  yu  had  been  scouted.  when  he  let  the  recruiter  into  his  kitchen,  he  was  a  little  flummoxed.  his  mother  was  at  work,  &  his  sister  at  a  friend’s.  he  scratched  at  the  back  of  his  head  &  brewed  a  cup  of  tea  for  his  company.  the  recruiter  was  nice  enough  when  he  delivered  his  well-rehearsed  speech  about  cursed  energy,  about  why  he’s  talking  to  yu,  about  the  opportunities  at  tokyo  metropolitan.  what’s  more,  the  recruiter  was  nice  enough  to  pretend  that  yu  had  much  of  a  decision  to  make.

from  what  it  sounds  like  —  cursed  energy  attracts  cursed  energy.  more  curses  flood  to  yu  than  they  do  his  sister,  &  he  figures  it’ll  probably  be  safer  for  her  if  yu  goes  elsewhere.

he  brews  the  tea  a  little  too  strong.  the  recruiter  doesn’t  drink  it  anyway.

ii.  he  goes  to  school,  &  when  yu  steps  onto  campus  ?  he  rubs  his  hands  together  in  genuine  anticipation.  he’s  always  been  the  type  of  person  who  likes  to  get  his  hands  in  the  dirt  of  a  place,  to  try  a  little  of  everything.  this  place  feels  old,  &  it  feels  like  money.  it  feels  like  traditions  &  histories  that  he  doesn’t  know.  on  one  hand,  stepping  onto  campus  feels  like  the  beginning  of  some  sort  of  adventure  novel,  like  maybe  there  is  room  to  go  on  a  treasure  hunt  here  or  something  wild.

&  then  he  had  learned  how  small  the  student  population  of  the  school  was.  there  was  no  guarantee  that  there  would  be  another  student  in  his  class  (  from  yu  hears,  they’re  still  negotiating  with  the  other  student  ).  for  the  first  time,  something  a  swell  of  panic  set  on  his  chest.  he’s  a  painfully  social  person  —  always  has  been.  he’s  been  told  that  emits  a  lot  of  energy,  that  he  has  a  way  of  making  people  feel  good  .  .  .  &  it’s  a  a  little  bewildering  because  yu  is  pretty  confident  that  he  draws  his  energy  from  his  company,  that  he  only  feels  good  because  he’s  not  alone.

also,  silence  makes  him  restless.

but  things  work  out.  he  meets  nanami  kento,  &  the  swell  of  panic  turns  into  a  swell  of  relief.  yu  wouldn’t  be  remotely  surprised  to  learn  that  others  could  feel  his  relief.

iii.  potentially,  yu  may  think  of  nanami  as  being  highstrung  &  still  .  .  .  yu  feels  too  much  relief  tied  up  in  cords  in  his  chest.  because  nanami  hasn’t  come  from  a  background  of  jujutsu  family  sorcery,  &  yu  hadn’t  knowingly  come  from  a  background  of  jujutsu  family  sorcery.

so  at  least  they’re  starting  off  on  the  same  foot,  mostly.

iv.  yu  &  nanami  become  good  friends.  yu  is  increasingly  grateful.

v.  it’s  more  than  being  grateful,  though,  because  it  really  is  a  genuine  friendship.  friendship  comes  with  the  with  indulgences  that  nanami  allows  when  yu  invites  himself  into  nanami’s  space,  with  the  the  way  yu  shoves  his  gameboy  into  nanami’s  hands  because  he’s  annoyed  with  a  boss  leel.friendship  comes  becayse  yu  shows  nanami  texts  from  his  sister,  because  nanami  sometimes  hovers  by  his  shoulder  when  they’re  everywhere.

it’s  genuine  because  they  can  make  one  another  laugh  (  granted  yu  laughs  too  easily  ).

yu  has  bouts  of  jealousy  sometimes,  that  nanami  is  able  to  handle  strategy  so  easily.  nanami  sometimes  doesn’t  like  to  be  around  him  when  yu  leaves  the  air  around  him  a  little  too  charged  with  the  signature  of  his  emotion.

that’s  pretty  cool  though.  yu  can  sometimes  be  too  much  energy,  nanami  can  sometimes  be  secluded  —  &  at  the  same  time  that  they  can  both  be  the  way  they  are  &  still  feel  good-spirited  when  they  study  together  late  at  night.

vi.  for  the  record,  nanami  does  make  him  a  better  sorcerer.  together,  they’re  good  sparring  partners.  yu  thinks  sometimes  he’s  dragging,  but  he  does  feel  confident  that  he’s  giving  it  his  all.

he  really  is  confident  in  the  decisions  he  makes,  in  the  decision  to  give  everything  his  all.

so  far,  his  sister  is  doing  all  right.

vii.  there’s  that  one  mission,  &  things  go  a  little  off  kilter.  a  girl  is  dead.  gojo  (who  almost  died)  has  a  lot  of  solo  missions,  &  geto  (who  almost  died  )  is  sinking.  yu  can’t  shake  the  feeling  that  his  peers  keep  giving  him  sideways  glances.

geto  thinks  that  he’s  being  diplomatic  when  asks  if  it’s  hard  being  a  jujutsu  sorcerer.

yu  is  the  lowest  ranked  of  them.

he  compensates  the  way  he  knows  how  —  propositions  of  food  &  making  too  much  tea.

maybe  it  works.

viii.  then  he  dies.

when  he  dies,  he  asks  too  much  of  nanami.  he  doesn’t  mean  to,  &  he  doesn’t  think  to  stop  himself  in  the  moment.

there  was  adrenaline  that  made  him  feel  more  awake  than  he  was,  there  was  fear  that  was  something  forced  into  his  lungs,  &  he  bled  quite  a  bit.  breathing  was  hard.

his  autopsy  would  show  that  life  had  been  sucked  out  of  him,  that  he  would  die  with  grey  already  in  his  skin.  his  autopsy  would  show  the  obvious  :  that  he  had  not  died  upon  impact.

when  he  dies,  he  asks  too  much  of  nanami.  his  memory  is  hazy  about  the  moment  of  death  but  he’s  sure  he  asked  for  something.

then  he’s  grateful  again.

when  he  died,  he  wasn’t  alone.

ix.  besides  that,  nanami  was  an  intrusive  thought  sometimes.  someone  that  was  too  close  &  not  close  enough.  he  was  someone  that  yu  trusted  easily.  he  boasted  about  nanami  on  nanami’s  behalf.

their  friendship  could  have  grown.

yu  turned  into  a  haunt.

[shesmore-shoebill]

"I had choice paralysis :(" is a KILLER line.

He's such a comedic powerhouse, I'm glad more people are getting exposed to him :'D

[eydilily]

🐌🐌🐌 BAM!

close up shot :3c

and a lil progression comparison

[artkaninchenbau]

Crocodile finds a strange stray cat an 11-year old Nico Robin (AU where they met 13 years earlier. Robin's been on the run from the World Government for 3 years. Crocodile's 27 and has not set up base in Alabasta yet)

It seems like I have become possessed. By some sort of demon.

Bonus:

[lemongogo]

life of regret

[joshuamj]

Okay, but what if EoW!Zelda had to impersonate Link

[mroddmod]

villain and violent; infant and innocent

[tizeline]

Sorry, he's an only child, he never learned how to share </3

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

[rasoyas]

@captain-silvera’s fantastic builds have me sobbing on my knees in thanks 🙏 komorebi has never looked more beautiful! 🌸

[krazieka2]

Here's a big old Fire Emblem Search & Find I did for the FE3H Masquerade Zine! Find the Golden Deer, but see if you can't find the rest of the students as well! For the ultimate challenge, see if you can't name every character! (Disclaimer two characters are NPCs with no names)

[wuffen]

[kyurochurro]

"gentlemen i believe... we are lost."

(entering the new year with a stv drawing since im still on a st movie kick from the marathon my dad and i had HEHE >:D)

[eddie-redcliff]

a godess and her two creature boyfriends i drew them like this so that i can make an infinate chain of x men holding hands

[msvrtt]

hear me out: tiefling Virion (+ self indulgent cool outfit because I just wanted to draw something fun and fancy)

[qunaributts]

hey so this is your permission not to improve at your hobbies. you dont gotta do more or try new things with it. you arent obligated. are you happy drawing the same 3/4 profile headshot of your blorbo??? do that. enjoy walking but dont wanna go further than your usual route at your usual pace? dont. enjoy collecting trading cards but dont actually like playing the game? never play the game. like learning the names of birds but dont care about their calls? just learn those names babeeeyyyy.

do what you want as you want and as many times as you want in the ways you want to. i am actually asking you to do this. you dont even need to get better. crush that weird feeling that you need to be doing 'more'. the goal doesnt have to be improvement. it might happen incidentally but like, thats whatever. you can set the goalposts and then just sit by them and enjoy the scenery. if you decide to move them or get up and sit somewhere else thats cool, but you dont gotta. doing things that make you happy is enough