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"My thoughts will echo your name"| Esteban Kukuriczka

Chapter seven: “I see forever in your eyes”

Lucia’s notes: I really hope you liked the last chapter on Friday. Here comes the last part of this Fanfiction.

Playlist:

 Beautiful things- Benson Boone

Dandelions- Ruth B.

Yellow- Coldplay

Speechless- Dan + Shay

Nothing- Bruno Major

From the ground up- Dan + Shay

Content Warning: Social drinking and a brief mention of being drunk, otherwise, just a cute and fluffy chapter..

Word Count: 1.2k

It was true when people said the best you could get in terms of love is to be in a relationship with your best friend. Y/N had proved it herself, as the golden sun dipped below the horizon, casting hues of pink and orange across the sky, she stood before the mirror in their cozy Barcelona apartment, a soft smile playing on her lips. Five years. Five years of laughter, tears, adventures, and love with Esteban, her Kuku.

She traced her fingers over the photograph on the dresser, a candid shot of them laughing in the streets of Barcelona when they had just moved to the city four years ago, his arms wrapped around her waist as they danced to the rhythm of their hearts. It felt like yesterday when they had decided to finally give all this a go back in Buenos Aires going back and forth between their apartments, watching silly movies that neither of them was really paying attention to, or playing Nintendo even tho the brown eyed man would always let her win because he loved her excited face whenever she did.

The place buzzed with excitement as Sofia prepared for their anniversary date. Esteban had been mysteriously busy all week, dropping hints about a surprise he had planned. Little did she know, tonight would mark a milestone in their journey together, one she would cherish forever. With a final touch of her favorite perfume and a glance at the mirror, the blonde woman headed downstairs to where kuku awaited, her heart fluttering with anticipation.

The streets of Barcelona shimmered with the glow of streetlights as the couple strolled hand in hand, the city alive with the magic of their love. They reminisced about their adventures, shared dreams, and whispered promises of forever. They went to dinner to a new and exclusive Argentinian restaurant in the city they had been dying to try, their hands only coming apart to eat, their eyes never leaving each other’s as they wine and dined. Once they were done, they walked out, enjoying the fresh air of the night and a little bit given to kuku’s insistence they went on a walk, ending up on the first spot they stepped foot when they moved here.

As they reached the special place overlooking the city, Esteban turned to Y/N, his eyes shimmering with emotion. “Mi amor, my darling Y/N, whenever I pictured the woman with whom I would share my life, I never pictured someone as perfect as you. You never fail to make me laugh, your love is evergreen and I’m so proud of how confident in yourself you’ve become since we met. I know this might sound cheesy, but from the second you walked into my parent’s place for that party, I knew that you would change my life for the better”. He spoke feeling the emotion break in the back of his throat having to swallow the lump so he wouldn���t start crying before he could get what he wanted to say out and Y/N felt her heart swell with love for this man who had become her everything so easily.

Then, with trembling hands, Esteban dropped to one knee, a small velvet box held out before him. Y/N gasped, her hand flying to her mouth as tears welled in her eyes. "Y/N," Esteban began, his voice barely steady and filled with emotion, "these five years with you have been the most beautiful of my life. You've filled my days with love, laughter, and endless joy. Will you continue this adventure with me, as my wife, my partner, and my forever?"

The blonde woman could hardly speak through her tears as she nodded, her heart overflowing with love. "Yes, yes, a thousand times yes!" With a radiant smile, Esteban slipped the ring onto her finger, sealing their love with a promise of forever and a slow kiss filled with all the love and friendship shared amongst the two of them.

Time flies when you’re planning a wedding in a different continent and the following year went by in a whirlwind of excitement and preparations. The day finally arrived, the sun shining brightly overhead as Y/N walked down the aisle her arm around her dad’s and her heart pounding with love and anticipation.

Esteban stood at the altar his boys standing beside him as Fran handed him a tissue when he saw the tears brimming the elder’s eyes. Esteban’s eyes never leaving hers, his love shining like a beacon in the sea of faces. When she reached him, Y/D/N gave kuku a short one armed hug and whispered in his ear “please take care of my princess, she’s yours to protect now, but she’s still my baby girl”. Kuku nodded softly and whispered back “she’s my whole heart, I could never hurt her sir”.

 As they exchanged vows, promising to love, cherish, and support each other for all eternity, Y/N knew she was exactly where she belonged, this was the person the universe had set for her to spend her life with, and it was simply meant to be.

The wedding reception was a vision of beauty and love, a celebration of their journey together and the adventures that lay ahead. Under a canopy of twinkling lights and surrounded by their closest friends and family, Y/N and Esteban danced until they couldn’t stand their feet hurt so much. The boys had taken it upon themselves to get everybody drunk that night, specially Simón and Matias kept the booze running amongst the group even though they were clearly drunk by now. As Matias approached kuku on one of the rounds, the older one wrapped his arms around his friend and drunkenly slurred to his friend “Muchas gracias Mati, muchas veces, if it weren’t because you insisted me to go after Y/N, we wouldn’t be here, so you should be proud” he poked the younger’s chest with his long finger.

Matias laughed softly as he planted a kiss on his friend’s temple, “man, she was crazy about you and it could be seen from that first night at the party, you two were just too dumb to do anything about it yourselves, I’m just so glad that you grew a pair eventually.”

“That’s my husband you’re kissing there Recalt!” Y/N chimed in playfully and drunkenly as she stepped closer to the group “so be careful with what you do, also, I’ll steal him away from you all for a bit” the blonde winked playfully linking her arm with her husband’s before walking away from the noise and fun from the party, their fingers intertwined as they gazed up at the sky. "I love you," she whispered, her voice barely above a whisper and her eyes fixed up on the stars.

"I love you more than anything in this world," kuku replied, his voice filled with emotion as his gaze fell on his wife’s profile “and now you’re mine forever, I can’t believe my luck” he smiled planting a kiss on her cheek. And as they held each other close, Y/N knew that their love would endure, forever echoing in the depths of their souls, a melody of love that would never fade away because she had always known, she saw forever in those big, kind, brown eyes.

THE END.

Lucia's notes: This is where this story comes to an end, I really hope you enjoyed this as muchas I did while writing it. If you have any ideas or rquests for some short scenario coming from this, please know, my ask box is always open and I'd be super happy to explore those ideas. 🥰🥰😍😍

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The important date [R. L]

Remus Lupin x fem!reader

word count: 5.1k

an: I was very excited to write this. I'm latina and Kuku completely won my heart and I think he's absolutely like a young remus. If you want to read more of this you can tell me and I would be very happy to see a comment or reblog. Kisses!

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You were quite nervous when you knocked on the door of the modest apartment whose address was written on the folded paper inside your pocket.

You had tried to look your best before leaving the house, but the wind on the way had messed up your appearance slightly and while you waited for a response you ran your hands through your clothes, trying to fix the damage.

After a few seconds no one came out and as you knocked a second time the fear of having gone to the wrong place settled in you. You were startled when the door finally opened and a boy appeared, about your height, with long black hair and whose bare chest was covered in tattoos.

“You aren’t my pizza.”

“Uh, sorry. “I probably went to the wrong house” you exclaimed sadly.

“I don't know if you were wrong, but you can come in if you want,” the boy said, smiling mischievously at you while winking at you and leaning against the door frame.

“You weren't wrong! I'll be there in a moment” a voice spoke from inside. He sounded agitated, but you still recognized him.

The stranger looked at the apartment in disbelief and then looked at you from head to toe, as if he was analyzing the situation.

“Are you coming with Remus?” You nodded. “Okay, so I… Excuse me?”

Without waiting for your response, he half closed the door and then you lost sight of him, leaving you just as confused as at the beginning.

Sirius, oblivious to your sight and hearing, practically stumbled down the hall until he reached Remus' room. He was trying to comb his hair at the same time as the toothbrush rested in his mouth.

“Do you want to explain to me why there is a pretty young lady waiting for you out there?”

“She's my college classmate,” he said in a half-understandable way.

The place was so tiny and there were so many books everywhere that he almost fell when he went to spit the toothpaste into the sink, trying to hurry as much as possible.

The apartment was always messy, in general, but the one who made the least mess was Remus. His only problem was the ridiculous amount of sweaters, boots, and pieces of literature he bought at second-hand places, which had slowly managed to plague his piece of space.

“Are you wearing that expensive cologne you bought last time?” mocked James, who had been in the living room but thought it appropriate to join the conversation. “And you're combing your hair.”

“Is she the one you stay with to study so often?” Sirius insisted, his brain spinning events.

"Yes, sometimes"

“And why did she come here?”

“Because I invited her to dinner.”

"Here?!"

“No, in a restaurant”

Both James and Sirius were slightly taken aback, as there had been no mention of you in any previous talk and it wasn't very common for Remus to do that kind of thing.

“And why didn't you go to her house for her?”

“She said it was on the way,” he responded breathlessly. He was still struggling with putting on his shoes.

“Bad there, Moony. You should be a gentleman and go pick her up at her house instead of keeping her waiting.”

“I would have done it if it hadn't been for the fact that you two idiots forgot to pay the rent that is due today. I had to pass a while ago and the time was barely enough for me”

“Didn't you pay, James?”

“I thought it was your turn!”

“Anyway, that doesn't matter anymore.” Remus got up to search his dressing table for a few golden rings “It's late and I have to go.”

“You can't leave us like this! What's her name? Have you kissed her?”

"He is right. Come on, introduce us to your girlfriend.”

“She's not my girlfriend yet,” he exclaimed, taking a last look in the mirror. He looked good, to have done it so hastily “But I plan for her to be today.”

The jaws of both listeners almost dropped to the floor at that statement and if they were already curious about the stranger's appearance, that had only increased their interest.

“I'm leaving, don't wait up for me.”

"Wait!"

“Bye,” he said, hurrying down the hallway toward the exit.

Sirius and James immediately followed him, but before they could ask anything he had already opened the door.

“Remus.”

"Hi, sweetheart. I’m sorry for the delay,” he apologized benevolently, as he leaned down to kiss your cheek in greeting.

The two curious people managed to see this exchange and then Remus closed the door, but not before giving them a warning look that was responded to with an expression of astonishment and another of pride at what they had just seen.

“How well he kept it, right?”

“Why do you think he didn't want to introduce us?”

“Possibly because you are in pajamas, I flirted with her, and because there are pigs that live in better conditions than us.”

“But he still could have told us something. We are your friends.”

“Give him his space. Maybe it's a nice thing he wants to keep for himself."

“That's why he's been so happy lately,” James reflected.

“Yes, it is likely.”

A knock was heard on the door and the two began to fumble with each other to open it first, eager to be able to see even a moment more of their friend's woman.

But it wasn't them, it was a thin boy dressed in uniform.

“Good evening, Sirius Black?”

“Yes, it's me,” he responded disappointed, taking a bill out of his pocket and receiving the pizza box in his hands while James returned to lie down on the couch.

By this point you and Remus had already left the building. During the way he offered you the full explanation for his lateness, trying so not to get angry with him.

“It's okay, I didn't wait too long,” you reassured him. “I guess those are your roommates.”

“Sirius is the one with the tattoos and James is the one with the glasses.”

“They seem nice”

“They are a little weird, but when you meet them you like them”

With one deft movement Remus placed you on the inside of the sidewalk and both of you took a moment to observe each other. You were wearing a tight white long-sleeved blouse, underneath a strapless dress with a floral print, and you were wearing your comfortable brown leather boots. He, looking completely elegant, in a beige trench coat over a light blue formal shirt and a kind of scarf with lines that combined both colors. For a few months he had been growing his facial hair, which made him look older, but in a good way.

"Where will we go?"

“There is a restaurant a few blocks from here. He looks calm and I thought you might like it. James orders food delivered sometimes and it tastes good.”

“Good” you smiled. You trusted your friend's good judgment in choosing a place.

The truth was that the beginning of your friendship was somewhat curious and you would have to go back a while to understand it.

A few years ago, Remus had his doubts when Sirius and James encouraged him to enter a Muggle university. They had decided after graduating from Hogwarts and moving to the apartment they shared in search of independence and adventure, but the brunette still didn’t have a clear picture of what he wanted for his life. 

Furthermore, he didn’t have as many financial resources as his friends to live comfortably and study at the same time. He allowed himself a year of work to raise money, even without knowing if he would use it for an education or something else, and since in that time he saw that they were both comfortable in what they had chosen, he decided that he could give the Muggles a chance. Although he had some administrative problems, since Hogwarts wasn’t a validated school for those cases, after sending a letter to Albus Dumbledore to ask for help, everything was solved and he was able to enter the philosophy faculty in a modest institution.

Before you, Remus didn't have many friends. He was able to start a conversation with his classmates and function in the classroom, however, he almost always spent his time in his books or at home. Sirius invited him to art school parties but when he attended, beyond drinking and making sure his friends didn't do anything stupid, he didn't do much.

His life had been quiet until you met him a few years later. The link that brought you together was that you had enrolled in an elective sociology class at the university and it turned out that Remus had chosen the same one. Despite being quiet, the boy quickly gained your attention due to the scars on his face and arms, which you still hadn't dared to ask about and he hadn't talked about.

Although you were curious, you tried not to observe him too much so as not to make him uncomfortable, but when he had to present a topic or answer questions it was inevitable to focus all your attention on him.

Remus didn't even notice your interest in him until, as fate would have it, the professor assigned pairs for a project and you were his lucky partner.

During the first meetings he felt out of place and even a little uncomfortable, since he wasn’t so used to spending time with other people outside his circle or studying in company. But he soon began to enjoy working with you and eventually recognized that you were an excellent teammate. You almost always spent it in the library because the atmosphere was calmer, although sometimes you would look for a lonely meadow on campus to lie down and continue moving forward. On one of those occasions you discovered that the boy carried chocolate all the time, because he shared it with you to lighten the hours, and it had become a habit to bring something to eat.

The weeks passed and when you presented the product you obtained the highest grade as well as congratulations from your teacher, with which Remus felt more than satisfied. He thought that once what you had in common was over, you wouldn't want to continue frequenting him, but he was surprised when you started looking for him to have breakfast together and he, to reciprocate, accompanied you some afternoons when you stayed in the library to study or walked with you to the bus stop.

You soon discovered that he was, in addition to being intelligent, kind and that he had many qualities that you liked. Likewise, he saw another set of attributes in you that made him feel the same.

As the weeks passed, you began to get along well and by the middle of the course you could already tell that you were friends. Less than a month after finishing it, you had already fallen in love.

“How is your hand?” Remus asked in the middle of a silence, when you had already gone quite a few blocks.

You had cut yourself by accident a few days ago and when he saw the wound he was quite worried, because it didn't look pretty at all.

“Better, it almost doesn't hurt anymore and the antiseptic helps a lot”

As you said that you raised your palm covered with a big band-aid, as if trying to show him that it was true, and he took the opportunity to capture it with his. Remus had a lot of experience with wounds and wished he could heal them with magic, however, he knew it was forbidden.

"It is good to hear"

He searched you for some sign that you didn't want him to hold your hand but, beyond your flushed cheeks, he found nothing.

You continued walking and talking about some other things until the boy stopped at a picturesque place. A couple of people could be seen through the large glass windows, illuminated by the warm light from inside.

Your hand missed his warmth when he let you go to open the door for you and then you followed him to a free table, with a view of the outside but private enough. All around paintings were decorating and some plants too.

You expected Remus to choose the seat in front of you but he decided that the one next to you was better, with your knees touching under the red table.

“Good evening, welcome,” a young girl, who couldn't be older than your age, greeted you. She was a beautiful redhead and her metal badge said Lily.

After she left a couple of menus, she asked you if you wanted any starters or something to drink, to which you denied.

“I thought we were going to a cafe or something.”

"You don’t like here?” 

“On the contrary, it is too cute. If I had known, I could have worn something better.”

"What are you talking about? You look beautiful,” Remus said, without thinking, and you laughed sheepishly.

“You're not far behind,” your hand went to his neck, where you adjusted a fold “You look like a professor.”

"Is that good or bad?"

“I like the professors. I mean, their style” you stuttered. “They look elegant.”

Although you had never spoken openly about what you felt, both of you had the suspicion that the other person felt the same way. Those moments of indiscreet flirting were signs of this, in addition to the multiple daily actions that showed interest and affection for the other.

Still, Remus felt insecure about himself. The physical marks on him were only the most superficial, since he was too afraid that if he confessed to you about his lycanthropy you would end up being scared or simply believing him crazy. He couldn't talk to you about the magical world and that made it even more complicated.

He didn't have much experience with girls in the romantic sense, but he liked to think that he wasn't doing too badly with you. He really liked you, so he wanted to try as hard as possible to win your heart and hoped that he would be worthy of your affection even despite his various flaws.

When the waitress returned you ordered a glass of wine and Remus simply ordered tea, wanting to be as calm as possible to talk to you. The last thing he wanted was for his statement to be ruined by alcohol.

The moments with him weren't awkward but, honestly, the atmosphere demanded a certain composure and it wasn't until after a while that you started chatting like you always did. You talked about final exams and products to be delivered soon, discussing the topics and making some suggestions that could be useful.

When the girl returned Remus ordered a stew for dinner and you ordered some meat pie which soon arrived. You ate it with pleasure, keeping the conversation when it was appropriate.

“Have you thought about what you will do during the holidays?”

“Probably visit my parents. And if not that, maybe enter a summer seminar”

"Study more?" the brunette laughed.

"It's a possibility. I think it would be too boring if I don't. And you?"

"I don’t know yet. Maybe look for a job, or…”

“Let's take a seminar together,” you murmured excitedly. However, you later added: “I mean, if you want.”

“I might consider it,” he murmured with a tight-lipped smile “So we could spend more time together.”

“It's strange, you know? This semester I have felt so happy studying with you. I didn't think college would be so interesting until I found you in that class."

Remus's heart began to rumble in his chest when he heard you say that and it was inevitable to smile. You liked to see him smile.

“Did I ever tell you I wasn’t sure about going in?”

“To sociology class?”

"To the University"

"Oh really?"

“I thought I could have dedicated myself to something else. In Hog... High School I was a good student and I thought it would be enough to get a job. But James and Sirius entered a college and then I thought I'd do it too."

“Remind me to thank them later,” you joked. If they had not convinced him, you probably would never have met “Will you ever introduce them to me?”

“Do you want to meet them?”

“They are your friends after all, right? But only if you feel comfortable, I wouldn't want to…”

“Okay, that would be great. I just feel a little embarrassed sometimes."

"From me?"

"No! From them. No, don't even think about it from you” he hastened to say and both of you laughed “It's about them. Sometimes they act like idiots, like Sirius did a while ago."

“I thought I was just imagining it, but he's kind of… flirtatious, right?”

"Quite a bit, I would say. I would like it to be limited to girls, but I don't think anyone is safe" he laughed. "But don't worry, he won't bother you anymore now that he knows that you...”

Remus fell silent as he realized what he was about to say and you noticed the sudden interruption.

"That?"

“That you are my friend”

To be honest, the answer disappointed you a little. You had been waiting for any kind of sign or proposal for a while and you thought that statement might have been in the answer. And although Remus already had those plans in mind, you clearly weren't aware of it.

There was silence for a moment as the two of you reflected on the conversation, for different reasons, and you tried to make it less awkward by eating some of your dinner.

“It’s raining,” you said after a while, eager to change the subject “I forgot my umbrella at home”

“We'll figure it out, don't worry,” he said happily, oblivious to the feeling he had provoked in you. You had practically finished your dinner when he asked, “Do you want dessert?”

You nodded at that and ordered a delicious red velvet cake and he, as expected, a chocolate one. After this you tried to talk about something else, convincing yourself that you were thinking about nonsense instead of enjoying the moment with your friend. With the boy you liked. 

At some point he excused himself to go to the bathroom and you were left alone at the table, playing with what was left of food on your plate. You looked around as if expecting to see something interesting, but all you saw was the rain falling outside and a pair of people sitting a few tables away from you. They looked happy and from the way they looked at each other you assumed they were a couple. As you watched them you wondered if that was what people thought when they saw you with Remus, because the way they interacted was the way you did; Is that what other students would say when you spent hours in the library, talking quietly and barely distanced from each other? Did anyone think you were a couple when they saw you laughing lying on the grass at dusk?

You considered the possibility of being the first to confess what you felt and wondered if it would be better to wait. Remus called you sweet names all the time and in the last few weeks he had started to become more physically affectionate; he greeted you with a kiss on the cheek, he held your hand from time to time, he even sheltered you in his arms that time you had a terrible morning and all you wanted to do was cry. But did that mean something else or was it just the courtesy of a good friend?

You wanted to continue reflecting on it, but your musings were interrupted by the waitress's voice calling your attention.

"Miss?"

"Yeah?"

"This is for you"

She held a beautiful bouquet of pink carnations with clouds surrounding it, wrapped in white fabric and topped with a ribbon. The sight unsettled you, but out of inertia you extended your hands to hold the gift. It was heavy and gave off a mild smell.

"W-What is this? Who sends it?" 

“The gentleman over there,” she pointed out happily.

For a second you felt nothing but confusion. Had someone been stalking you? You didn't remember anyone you knew when you walked in and receiving flowers from a stranger was ridiculous, because the most you could have imagined was that they would buy you a drink. But when you turned and saw that it was Remus who was smiling shyly at you, you understood what it was about.

“Oh my God…” you whispered barely audible, your cheeks turning red “Thank you, you’re so kind.”

“To serve you” she exclaimed, probably happy to have been a participant in that demonstration of love, and then she withdrew.

Trying to calm yourself down, you turned around to talk to the boy, who was still sitting on the stool in front of the bar. You spent a few seconds looking at each other, him slightly uneasy and you feeling completely blushing.

“Are you not going to accompany me? I have some cake that the boy I was with left”

“You'd have to be a fool to abandon a girl like you,” he muttered on the way to the table. He sat on the opposite side to where he was initially, as if he wanted to maintain the fantasy of being someone else who accompanied you. “Did you like them?”

“They are beautiful, you wouldn't have bothered”

“They have something there” he pointed out and in his eyes you could see some nervousness. You took a paper envelope between your fingers from which you took out a small note.

A modest gift for the most beautiful and interesting girl I have ever met. I feel like you brought color to my life and every day I am happy that you found me, wondering what I did to deserve the grace of such a wonderful human being.

It's been a while since my heart has been uneasy about your feelings towards me and at the same time certain about how it feels about you.

I'm sorry if I'm not that good with words, or that good in general. I just hope I'm enough to win your affection and be lucky enough for you to say yes.

Sincerely, Remus.

The boy watched you with a mixture of anxiety and concern as you read the words, waiting for what your reaction might be. You read the entire note twice, just to be sure it meant what you thought, and then you looked at him.

In your eyes, he had never looked more handsome.

“Say yes?” was the only thing you managed to say. It was the part that intrigued you the most about the note.

“To the question I want to ask you, of course” 

“You're not going to ask me to marry you, are you?” you tried to joke, feeling your heart race with anticipation.

"Not yet. But we can start as girlfriend and boyfriend, what do you say?”

Remus was a very curious guy. He was shy and quiet at times, but when an idea got into his head no force could convince him otherwise: he was determined. And he was sure what he wanted with you.

One of your hands went up to his cheek and your thumb caressed one of his scars, one that went down to touch his lips, feeling free to be able to observe him more closely now that you knew you could do so.

"This bothers you?" you asked sincerely.

"What?"

“That I am touching you like this. Your scars”

"I don't mind. I've gotten used to them."

“That was the first thing I noticed about you.”

“Do you think they are ugly?”

“I think they make you look sexy,” you said honestly again and he let out a laugh that was somewhere between nervous and amused. “They make you stand out.”

You were so close to him that he had to lean just a little to kiss you.

“I don't think anyone has ever said that about them.”

“I really like you, Rem. That's why. And I would like to pretend that I need to think about it more, but I know I would be very happy with you. I already am, but... I want to be with you"

“Is it a yes, then?”

“But first I need to do something” you explained and with the help of your hand, without giving him time for anything, you brought him closer to steal a kiss.

Remus gasped in surprise, but put up no resistance and delighted in feeling the taste of your lips mixing with the chocolate he had previously eaten. You were kind and careful with him, who tried to reciprocate as best as possible. 

When you separated from him, your cheeks were red and your eyes were bright.

“It's a yes”

“Did you need to kiss me to decide?”

“I had already decided, I just wanted an excuse.”

And then Remus laughed again. Unable to contain his excitement, he approached you until he hid his face in your neck, trying to drown out his blush, and you felt tickled by his hair rubbing against your skin. Now the closeness of that way between you was correct, no one could say anything and you had the right to do so.

“I was so afraid you would say no.”

“Have you seen how I look at you?” you murmured in his ear “To be so intelligent you miss a lot of things.”

His breathing told you that he was laughing and then you were silent for a moment. Your hand slowly caressed his side while you traced patterns on his back, although he probably didn't feel them because of the layers of clothing he was wearing. Through it all, you thought about how nice the boy's warmth felt against you. Like it felt meant to be.

“We should go,” he said, when he finally left his room and looked at the time on the wall clock. Closing time was almost approaching. “Is it okay if I call a taxi to take you home?”

“Yeah.”

“I'll go pay the bill and be right back, okay?”

“Let me give you some money…”

"No way. No,” he stated firmly. He got up from his seat and, by the way, now he stole a kiss from you “Wait here.”

You did it obediently and while you did it you took the opportunity to observe and caress your bouquet. They were beautiful and you wondered how Remus had planned the delivery. It hadn't been something spontaneous, he already knew the purpose of the date from the beginning and that only made you feel more like a girl in love.

He showed up a few minutes later and, after thanking your red-headed cupid profusely, you waited for your taxi at a table near the exit. When it arrived you practically had to run to avoid the rain, but that didn't matter to you because while you were doing it the brunette held your hand to prevent any accident.

The elderly driver started the engine after you told him your address and silence reigned for a moment, with only the barely audible music from the radio.

“Do you want to stay with me tonight?” you asked, after a few blocks. No one lived with you and it seemed cruel to you to send Remus back to his apartment.

“Do you want me to stay?”

“There is enough space. And you must be tired”

You weren't trying to make a sexual innuendo in your words. You just wanted to make the moment last as long as possible.

Remus agreed without much resistance and upon arriving at your apartment, which fortunately was in order, he was respectful by telling you that he could sleep on the couch if you wanted. He seemed so decent to you that you accepted his proposal, taking charge of bringing him enough blankets and pillows to make him comfortable.

He had already taken off his shoes and jacket when you sat down next to him to wish him goodnight. You didn't think he would look much more handsome unkempt and with disheveled hair than he did at first.

"Thanks for the invitation"

“It's the least I could do after everything today,” you said, shrugging your shoulders.

“Was it a good date?”

“It was a great date” you exclaimed honestly and for the third time that night you approached him to kiss him.

This time you took the time to savor the contact, prolonging it as much as possible and causing a spark to settle between you. Remus quickly learned that your lips were soft and definitely more expert than his, with all of that making him feel a little dizzy. You reveled in the feeling of his large hands holding your waist, not knowing where else it was correct to place them. If you could have, you would have kissed him all night, but you separated only because you knew that the desire existed in you and him, afraid that if you followed your prudence wouldn’t be enough to stop you from making love to him on that sofa.

He looked completely enthralled with you as you watched him and you knew you most likely had the same expression. After all, so many months of longing between you were summed up in the pleasure of that physical contact that you were discovering.

“Go to sleep, pretty,” he suggested “I'll be here in the morning.”

“Good night, Remus. If you need anything, go to my room, okay?”

A part of you wanted him to look for you in the middle of the night, but you knew that both of you were hesitant to make any moves to go to such extremes. The boy just nodded and then, still not convinced, you headed towards your room so you could sleep.

That night Remus dreamed of you and you dreamed of him, with the sound of the rain lulling you, only a few meters away between you, and a beautiful bouquet resting on your nightstand.

You didn't know if that was happiness, but at least that's what it felt like.

[jokergirlout]

My new work on ao3

📎Chapter 1/1

[kukuandkookie]

wip titles meme

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Tagged by @crimsonrainseekingflower! 💕💕💕

Thank you for the welcome surprise—another one I finally discovered once I looked at my notifications and stuff! Fortunately this time I’m remembering to make my own post haha. 😆

I hope you don’t mind if I also divide by fandom, and these only vaguely include a couple art wips!:

SVSSS:

Grave Matters

Cinderella III: A Twist in Time AU!?

Just a Dream (is this unfortunately a lame-ass title 😔)

Haunting You

Singles’ Day

TLJ/ZZL/LBH/SXY ADDAMS FAMILY AU??????????

Bingqiu White Snake (animated movie) AU

Waiting for the Tree Branches to Bloom Again

Safe from the Storm

I See in Both Your Eyes (Something Indigo)

AU: The Lion King II??

Family Meal Goes “Wrong”

TLJ’s Lament

LBH²

狗哥狗哥，你真了不得 (Gou-ge, Gou-ge…)

Slavic Vampires…

CNY Dumplings Competition

Enchanted (because we’re doing this now, I guess)

Limb Regeneration What If?? 🤔

Of Costumes and Candies (Something Orange)

Something Old, Something New, and… (Something Blue)

SV OTGW AU

I Ship My Rival x Me AU

I Have to be a Great Villain AU

Happiness Just Out of Reach

Lost and Found

Words to Heart

Breathing Smoke Into the Lungs

HORRIBLE NEW IDEA: Maybe title: Just Enough. Just Enough for Me

Love Letters (that’s all I got so far *insert deepfried emote here*)

Daycare AU???

Hmmm. Prince x Princess AU?

Xi Yang Yang AU

Gongzhu

Followers Milestone Celebration

Teacup scene

I Think My Uncle Ships Us Help

Unattainable

I’d Like to Try Staying Awake (for You)

Breaking the System (aka Fuck the System? Literally or—jk jk lmfao)

Bonuses include the latest chapters for I’d Rather Spend My Whole Life Asleep (With You) and To Tame a Beast, except the former doesn’t have a wip title. The latter does in the sense that the chapter title is Pixiu!

Erha:

Putting the Musing in Amusement Park

This Venerable One Will Not Be Outdone

What You Left Behind/Do You Also Miss Me?

[The] Romance of Wolf/Husky and Haitang

Ghost Bride (Corpse Bride but Chinese?? And Reincarnation)

Reconciliation

Fifteen Growing Up Flirty

Out of the Closet (and Into Your Arms)?

The Prince and the Pauper (but based on The Princess and the Pauper because I’m a criminal who hasn’t read the original 😂)

Wo Jia Dashixiong Naozi You Keng but with an Erha Twist

TW WARNING FOR THIS ONE but Passive suicide ideation fic

IDK WHAT TO WRITE FOR CWN’S BDAY… GOD SOMEONE SEND HELP GFGKDFHGKSDFHG (this one has a more polished but still wip version titled CWN Birthday Fic: Past, Present, or Future, I Want to Celebrate With You 😆)

Jiaoren CWN

Priest CWN & demon MR…hehehe (now a Dianran AU?)

More Than Just Puppy Love

Flower Shop…Redemption…Thingy?

From Wanton Wants to Wonton Wonders

A Taste of What Could Have Been

Screwdriver

First Bow to Heaven and Earth

Hidden Love AU

Mo Ran pulls a Bing-ge

Mind(-Reading) Games

Stone Lion

Swallowed Flowers

Confessions (Role-Swap AU)

TXJ Week (help we’re way past that now 😔): De-Aged Fic

A Tear in My Heart aka Read You Like an Open Book aka To Leave a Piece/Page of Me in the Nooks and Crannies of You?

Shi Mei Jiaoren Fic: [I’m] Afraid to Live Without Breathing

I also have a lot of Erha and SVSSS fic ideas that are unfortunately just blurbs in my ideas document right now and not full-on wips so they don’t have any titles I can share. 😔

Misc:

First Times, Second Chances, and Third Time’s the Charm…s (?) (Link Click)

Missing a You of Another Time (Link Click)

Danmei, xianxia-esque story (Link Click)

Suriel/Sariel

Call of the Wolves (specifically chapter 78)

Chuju the Chou

Papillon and Akuma’s Story

Papillon and Akuma Role Reversal AU Story

Circinus and Pyxis

Smoke & Mirrors

Dimension Hoppers

Take Me Back to Hell (All Saints Street)

I’ll Love You Until All the Stars Fall from the Sky (The Legend of Luo Xiaohei?)

Fengxi like Shade in Firewing (The Legend of Luo Xiaohei)

Mafia AU Xuanli x Laojun (The Legend of Luo Xiaohei)

Continuation of Falling for You (White Cat Legend)

How Could I Ever Ask You to Love Me? (White Cat Legend)

My Shadow It Follows Me

The Us of the Present Could Perhaps Be Just as Tender as the Us of the Past (Scissor Seven)

A Conversation With a Dead Man (MDZS)

Magical Girl AU (MDZS)

Xue Yang’s Regrets (MDZS)

Ao Bing and Nezha in a shoujo high school AU… That’s it. That’s the whole idea (Nezha 2019)

Surprising the Un-Surprise-Able (I Have to be a Great Villain)

Xianxia AU (Kiss the Abyss)

Breathing New Life (Kiss the Abyss)

I Will Chase You to the Ends of Time and Space (Kiss the Abyss)

A Family Outing (Beryl and Sapphire)

Just Some Gay Little Dudes (Beryl and Sapphire)

Steven Universe AU (Beryl and Sapphire)

Something as Sweet as You (I Ship My Adversary x Me)

A Present to be Cherished (I Ship My Adversary x Me)

I Ship My Adversary x Me and 严禁造谣 Crossover? AU Swap?

Additional misc wips I haven’t touched in forever are the latest chapters for The World Doesn’t Deserve You (MDZS) and Frostbite (All Saints Street). 😅

And as a bonus, these aren’t at all “official” yet but the more I read for some manhua the more I’m tempted to write fics for them… For example, a fic for Blemishing the Contaminated or My Lovely Troublemaker season 2 would be so cute, even if I don’t exactly have any clear or obvious ideas for them. 🥺

Phew, wow. I had way more wips than I expected AKFJSKFHSJS. Some are honestly just super half-baked documents tucked away in a folder with only a title and outline, but I hope something here was of interest to you guys. 😆💖

As for tagging…

I also don’t think I’m capable of tagging as many people as I have wips otl. So I hope you guys don’t mind if I tag just a few of you!

@ezrathesplit @levia-kun @yumichanhamano @softdekus @rongzhi @azunshi

(Of course, if you would rather not, feel free not to do this!)

[eauteous]

Two of us.

Disclaimer: this is fanfiction written by me and I use THE BOYZ’s Lee Sangyeon and Eric Sohn name as my character here. Everything is here is not related to THE BOYZ or IST Entertainment. Picture credit to the owner.

Tags: kissing and slightly NSFW.

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“Eric.”

Sebuah suara lembut tiba-tiba menggema di telinga Eric, membuat laki-laki yang dipanggil namanya menoleh lalu memasang senyum manis. “Kak.” ia menyahut sambil merentangkan kedua tangannya menunjukkan gesture ingin mendapatkan satu pelukan hangat.

Laki-laki yang lebih tua di depan Eric ikut tersenyum sebelum menarik tangan Eric dan merengkuhnya kedalam pelukan erat. Kedua tangannya sengaja ia lingkarkan dipinggang Eric sambil sesekali memberi elusan lembut dipinggang yang lebih muda. “Kangen gak?”

Eric mengangguk kecil. Ia sengaja membenamkan wajahnya diceruk leher milik Sangyeon — lelaki yang sedang memeluknya ini — dengan tangan sengaja ia lingkarkan di leher yang lebih tua. “Kangeeeen~”

Sangyeon terkekeh mendengar suara manja dari Eric yang diikuti dengan kecupan-kecupan kecil yang ditinggalkan Eric diceruk lehernya. Sangyeon membiarkan apa yang Eric lakukan. Membiarkan anjing kecilnya yang lucu nan penurut melakukan apapun yang ia inginkan malam ini. Sambil menikmati kecupan dari bibir Eric dikulit lehernya, tangan Sangyeon bergerak masuk kedalam kaos milik Eric lalu memberi usapan sensual sambil sesekali memainkan kuku jarinya dipunggung Eric.

“Kakaaaak~” Eric menarik wajahnya dari leher Sangyeon. Kepalanya mendongak menatap Sangyeon dengan bibir mengerucut. “Aku kangen!” lanjut Eric sambil menghentakkan kedua kakinya bergantian. Merajuk.

Lagi-lagi Sangyeon terkekeh. Dengan gerakan cepat ia menarik tangan Eric membawanya ke sofa tempat biasa mereka menghabiskan waktu untuk menonton siaran televisi bersama. Sangyeon menjatuhkan bokongnya di sofa dan menarik tangan Eric untuk duduk diatas pangkuannya. Kedua tangan Sangyeon sengaja menarik kaki Eric membuat kedua kaki milik Eric melingkar dipinggang Sangyeon yang direspon senyum lebar dari sang pemilik.

“Kakak juga kangen lho.” tangan kanan Sangyeon menangkup pipi kanan Eric, memberikan usapan lembut pada pipi Eric menggunakan ibu jarinya. “Mau cium?” tanya Sangyeon yang langsung direspon anggukan antusias dari Eric.

Eric memajukan tubuhnya, berusaha mengikis jarak antara dirinya dan Sangyeon dengan kaki yang melingkar semakin erat dipinggang kekasihnya. Tanpa menunggu waktu lama, Eric mulai mengecup bibir Sangyeon beberapa kali sebelum menghisap bibir atas milik Sangyeon.

Sangyeon memeluk pinggang Eric erat. Membiarkan kekasih kecilnya mendominasi ciuman untuk saat ini. Sangyeon menahan senyumnya saat merasakan lidah Eric sengaja menjilat bibir bawahnya, meminta Sangyeon yang bergantian mendominasi ciuman mereka.

Dengan gerakan yang teratur Sangyeon mulai menghisap bibir atas dan bawah milik Eric secara bergantian sambil sesekali memainkan lidahnya menjilat bibir bawah milik Eric, membuat kekasih kecilnya mengalungkan tangannya dileher Sangyeon dan memeluknya lebih erat.

Sekian detik berlalu dengan posisi Eric masih diatas pangkuan Sangyeon dengan bibir saling bertaut, keduanya sibuk menghisap dan melumat bibir masing-masing. Hisapan-hisapan Sangyeon pada bibir Eric mulai berubah menjadi jilatan dengan lidah Sangyeon yang sengaja membelai bibir bawah Eric, memainkan ujung lidahnya diantara bibir atas dan bawah Eric membuat sang empunya memejamkan mata dan meremat rambut belakang Sangyeon tanda menikmati setiap hal yang dilakukan kekasihnya.

Jilatan yang Sangyeon berikan lama kelamaan berubah menjadi gigitan lembut dibibir bawah Eric, meminta sang kekasih membuka mulutnya yang tentu saja dituruti oleh yang lebih muda. Ketika Eric mulai membuka mulutnya perlahan-lahan Sangyeon segera melesakkan lidahnya masuk ke dalam mulut Eric. Memberikan sentuhan-sentuhan ringan di lidah Eric dengan lidahnya sendiri. Tidak tinggal diam tangan Sangyeon mulai turun kebagian bokong Eric. Memberikan remasan-remasan kecil dibarengi dengan elusan lembut yang tentunya membuat Eric semakin memperdalam ciuman mereka.

Lidah Sangyeon semakin intens membelai lidah Eric dan puncaknya ia sengaja menyentuh bagian langit-langit mulut Eric. Memainkan ujung lidahnya di sana. Menjilat langit-langit mulut Eric lalu memutar lidahnya dengan gerakan menggoda yang membuat Eric mulai mengeluarkan desahan dan rintihan yang terdengar menyenangkan di telinga Sangyeon.

Sangyeon ingat Eric pernah bilang ia menikmati bagaimana lidah lembut nan hangat Sangyeon bergerak berputar di langit-langit mulutnya memberikan sensasi geli yang membuat Eric selalu merasa ketagihan dan Sangyeon akan terus melakukannya berulang kali dengan tangan besarnya yang juga masih setia memberikan remasan serta elusan dibokong kekasihnya.

Sangyeon menahan senyumnya di selain kegiatan mereka. Malam ini akan terasa menyenangkan karena ia dan Eric akan menemukan titik surga masing-masing yang membuat keduanya semakin jatuh akan pesona satu sama lain.

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[cryxraa]

Kado

a fanfiction about Suna Rintarou and you written by rairaa

Keping putih melantai menyentuh bumi, suhu tak lagi berfluktuasi di penghujung Desember Kansai. Malah, terus turun dengan angin berpeluk dingin serasa dihantam titik di bawah nol derajat.

Namun paradoksal terjadi pada Suna Rintarou, putih kudus salju membalut hampir seluruh permukaan kulit berlapis pakaian musim dingin trendi dimana gravitasi mengalami malfungsi.

“Maaf,”

Gigi bergemeretak rambang, rumpang dingin suhu atau panas dada yang menghangus.

Seharusnya hari ini adalah hari spesial, hari bahagia dimana 365 hari terulang untuk ke 25 kali sejak pertama kali manik limun jumpa bumi.

Fungsi otak memutar balik tahun-tahun antara ia dan terkasih. Saling mencinta memberi afeksi baik batin, mental, fisik, pun biologis. Masa yang seharusnya ia sujud syukuri diberi sosok yang perhatian nan pengertian terhadap sikapnya yang terlalu tak acuh.

“Sungguh, aku pernah mencintaimu,”

Mulai sekarang, tidak ada lagi senyum ranum dengan bento di tangan. Tidak akan ada lagi makan malam dengan tagline 4 sehat 5 sempurna yang memenuhi kebutuhan proteinnya sebagai atlet voli nasional. Tidak akan ada lagi seseorang yang kelimpungan panik jika lupa letak menyimpan gunting kuku serta saat stok tape-nya habis.

Suna terlalu tak acuh untuk semua itu.

Bukankah wajar memberi atensi lebih pada kekasih, sendiri?

Lucu.

Pria berwajah rubah itu kini hanya mampu mengepalkan tangan, membiarkan kuku berbekas pada telapak, dengan manik limun memancarkan agony batin yang remuk mengikuti hilangnya punggung kecil yang tak ‘kan lagi mampu ia dekap dalam balutan afeksi, lenyap tertelan kecewa.

“Selamat tinggal, Rin. Terima kasih untuk 5 tahun ini.”

25 Januari 2021, Suna RIntarou menerima sebuah kado terburuk dari sang terkasih, menikam lubuk rasa lenyap layaknya buih.

~END~

[huacheng-zhu]

RULES: TAG PEOPLE YOU WANNA GET TO KNOW BETTER

I was tagged by @bilboo! Thank you, this one looks really nice!

your name and then what you would have named yourself: my name’s Bee and it is also the name I would’ve named myself because I....named myself. 

astrological sign (sun/moon/rising if you know them): scorpio/cancer. I don’t care much about these things but it’s always fun to look it up. I relate to very few scorpio-related things. cancer things, however....

when did you join tumblr and why?: I joined in 2012 and I genuinely don’t remember why. I wasn’t getting involved though, I was just reblogging Doctor Who posts. I only got involved in internet-fandom stuff in 2014 for HTTYD2

top 5 fandoms: Critical Role, danmei, Tolkien, Overwatch, and gonna put MXTX novels as a branch fandom of the danmei fandom

top 5 favorite films: Professor Marston and the Wonder Women, Coco, How To Train Your Dragon 2, Dracula Untold, Frozen 2

go to song when you wanna Feel something: Uranus by Sleeping At Last. or many of his other songs, tbh, like Seven, Pluto, Saturn, Uneven Odds, Mars, etc etc.

what’s your religion or faith if you have one?: agnostic

a song that makes you feel seen: that one’s hard....given how many times I listened to them, I’d go with either Iridescent by Linkin Park or Show Yourself from Frozen 2

if you could have any career: full-time fanfiction writer :’)

do you have a type?: I can count my recent crushes over, let’s say, the past six years, even very brief, on the fingers of one hand and their only shared trait is having common interests, sooo I really don’t know. I don’t feel like I do. 

what does your heart/soul yearn for: peace, acceptance and understanding

if you had to describe yourself in 5 words to someone who doesn’t know you: lions, baking, insecurities, stargazing, cats

favorite subjects in school: english, that’s it that’s literally the only class I was interested in

where does your soul feel most at home: lying in the grass, gazing up at the stars

top 5 fictional characters: Wei Wuxian, Xie Lian, Chu Wanning, Vax’ildan, Jesse McCree (adding Bard the Bowman just for old times’ sake) (also top 5 is definitely not enough I need a top 10....let me add Hua Cheng, Gu Yun, Mo Ran, Caduceus Clay, Yin Yu, Essek Thelyss, Ye Wangxi, Shaun Gilmore, Shi Qingxuan, Yasha Nydoorin, and and and....what do you mean that’s more than 10)

top 3 moments in a show that made you ugly cry: wow, in a show? even if I counted movies that was actually a while back already. but it’d be Vax’ildan’s farewell scene in the first campaign of Critical Role. bawled my eyes out. also cried over Scanlan’s gift at the end of Vex’ahlia’s wedding. since then, the last time I ugly cried over something fictional was when reading 2ha.

the earth, the sun, the moon or the stars: the stars

favorite kind of weather: sunny, not too hot, with a warm but gentle wind. 

top 3 characters you kin with: there are actually. so few. I’ve rarely if ever related with characters on a personal level. so when I found one I just went :o the lucky (ha) one is Chu Wanning. there’s also Xie Lian and Yin Yu to some extent. 

favorite medium of art: animation? 

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: introvert

a favorite literary quote: istg I always forget all my favourite quotes when asked. gonna be super basic and say, “The one standing in infinite glory is you; the one fallen from grace is also you. What matters is ‘you’ and not the state of you.” but it’s not really my favourite. I’m just too lazy to go look for more

some of your favorite books: Tian Guan Ci Fu, The Song of Achilles, 2ha, The Alienist, The Picture of Dorian Gray

if you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?: ignoring, you know, the climate crisis, anywhere near the sea, where the water’s clear and quiet. or anywhere where there’s a clear water river/lake in which I can swim. preferably not that far off from a somewhat big city, if that’s even possible, because I actually love the city and need an easy access to it. 

if you could live in any time in history when would it be?: late 1800′s, just for the clothes. 

if you could play any instrument masterfully it would be: probably the ocarina. for some reason I’ve always liked it

if you have one, what mythological god or goddess do you feel a connection to: none because I know very little about mythology. 

and lastly, favorite recent selfie in your camera roll: don’t have one on my chromebook, but you can always check my ‘my face’ tag I guess haha

I tag, if you like obv: @ecthelions, @intellectualpencil, @inessencedevided, @forgotten-envies, @curiosity-killed, @agu5td, @kuku-is-tired, @misnomera (but really don’t feel pressured to do this it’s....long)

[anelementofsurprise]

FOURTEEN PEOPLE I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW BETTER

I was tagged by @doctor-punkenstein & @lovehugsunexpected

ONE / name/alias: Rachel 

TWO / birthday: June 7th

THREE / zodiac sign: Gemini

FOUR / height: 5′3′’

FIVE / hobbies: Watching TV shows and movies, listening to music, museums.

SIX / favorite colors: Burgundy

SEVEN / favorite books: Well since I’ve recently entered a new age of reading books Good Omens. First novel I’ve read in years.

EIGHT / last song I listened to: George Ezra - Blame It on Me

NINE / last film I watched: The Matrix last week which was absolutely incredible and now I finally get the big deal. Also the new Lion King last night.

TEN / inspiration for muse: well getting enough sleep helps I guess

ELEVEN / dream job: i dunno

TWELVE / meaning behind your url: Nothing clever, I just started to hate my last one and wanted something a bit ambiguous. I think it works.

THIRTEEN / top 3 ships: Victoria/Lord M, 12th Doctor/Clara, Petyr/Sansa, Jorah/Dany anddd Ross/Rachel, Monica/Chandler

FOURTEEN / lipstick or chapstick:  I use both daily.

FIFTEEN / currently reading:  The Hobbit as voted by insta peeps. It’s only because it was up against Game of Thrones and all my church friends voted for the Hobbit 😂

Work: cafe in a department store. It’s fun.

Fiction: Yass

Fanfiction: YAS, Also please send me recs epsecially for the ships mentioned above.

Tagging:  @goodoldbaz @absolute-twaddle @kokido-kuku @moony-you-fold-your-socks @ciara-jane @serenastella @lovehugsunexpected @gingerpop42 @maraschino-merry @ciceros-ghost @bek77 @takingaspadetoasouffle @reginaldmaudling @my-my-herecomethefuzz

[creative-heart]

"My thoughts will echo your name" | Esteban Kukuriczka

CHAPTER I: “There I was again tonight”

Chapter’s playlist: 

The night we met- Lord Huron

Enchanted- Taylor Swift

Chapter's T.W: Social drinking, mention to smoking, light reference to smut.

W.C: 2.2k

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Y/N sat down at her vanity doing her makeup for tonight’s party, to which she had agreed to go just trying to share something with Lucas again. They had been together for almost 5 years now -living together for 3 out of those-, and even though nothing specific had happened, she could feel how the two of them had slowly drifted apart; that complicity and friendship once shared long lost and gone. The blonde looked at him through the reflection in the mirror as he walked around the room getting ready as well. All she knew was one of Lucas childhood friends was coming back home from Spain after filming a movie for over a year, you had never met him, as you hadn’t any of them in fact. Maybe that was one of the things that caused her to slowly pull away from him; it almost felt as if their relationship were some kind of secret he didn’t want seen by part of his world. She slept next to the man every night and yet felt so alone most of the time. “Are you almost ready?” he barked out at the girl “don’t wanna be late yet again because of you” you heard him say as he was already halfway down the hallway of the apartment the both of them shared.

“Coming” Y/N sighed softly, getting up after putting her boots on and taking one last look in the body length mirror in the master bedroom, she had decided to wear the outfit that was once Lucas’ favorite on you, still desperate to regain that spark that had long blown out- black leather pencil mini skirt, black crop top, beige overzised corderoy shirt and knee high black suede boots- although this time around, he didn’t even seem to notice. Hastily making her way to the door grabbing her purse going straight to the car as Lucas already waited there. On the way to the party Y/N glanced at him in more than one occasion  to see if he would look at her and bit the inside of her lip, seeing his eyes always glued to the road and so she grabbed her phone going through it. “Where are we going? what should I expect? who’s gonna be there?” the petite woman looked at Lucas once again seeing his eyes fall on her for a bit “can I at least know that?” he sighed and nodded.

“My childhood friends will be there, the party’s for my friend Esteban, you know he just came home after spending over a year in Spain shooting some film, as to who’ll be there, that you know, Amelia will surely be.” Lucas stated matter of factly and a smile spread across the girl's face knowing his sister would be at the party, they got along quite well. After all, being an only child, Y/N liked having a sisterlike figure in her life.  Y/N picked up her phone texting Amelia. “Meme! I just heard you’ll be at the party, please tell me you are in the mood for drinks, I know no one but you and your brother there, you know how I get 🥺” she smiled seeing the typing immediately coming onto the screen. “Y/N/N my babe! OF COURSE I’M UP FOR SOME DRINKS! who you think you talking to? oh you’ll love the guys, don’t worry”  the smile stayed on as she read her friend's text. When the car finally haltered to a stop, she grabbed her purse and walked out waiting for Lucas, to walk in with him by her side. As soon as the pair crossed the door into the house Amelia jumped at Y/N engulfing her in a tight hug.

“Com’ere babe, let’s ditch my boring bro, I’ll introduce you to the gang” she linked their arms together walking over. Amelia and Y/N were a few years younger than Lucas, both of them shy of 25 and him and presumably his friends all around their 30s, yet she had always- much to Lucas demise- tagged along with the group. As the girls approached a group of guys all chatting away, beers in hand; Y/N's eyes felt immediately drawn to one of them in particular, messy light brown hair, sweet looking face, big brown eyes and a shaggy beard that looked like it kinda didn’t belong on there. When she looked his way, he was already intently looking at her, as if he were trying to take a glance into her soul, something about him made Y/N's insides flutter, like a million butterflies had erupted in her gut. She could kinda hear Amelia going around the group making introductions and had to remind herself to smile and greet them as she said their names, trying not to come off as rude, she finally looked at her firend “and this is Esteban, no one calls him that though, well…only his mom when she's mad at him” she chuckled. “Kuku” he interceded “everyone calls me kuku” he shot a glance at his friend that read I’m gonna kill you before turning back to the new addition to the conversation with the sweetest smile you had ever seen a grown man produce. Y/N reciprocated the gesture, not being able to stop it even if she had wanted to, with a quirked brow at the strange nickname, taking a mental note as to ask about it later on. 

“Y/N, everyone calls me Y/N/N tho, nice to meet you all” the smaller girl forced herself to take her eyes away from Kuku and look at the rest “I’m Lucas’ girlfriend” she smiled softly, stating the so called title more out of duty than pleasure. Out of the corner of her eye she caught what thought was the wavy haired man slightly drop his smile. “I think I’ll go grab myself a drink” she stated before walking away to the table where all the bottles and drinks were.

~~~~~

Kuku’s POV

He had missed being around his friends so much that when Amelia proposed throwing him a welcome home get together, and said she would be in charge of inviting the gang if he invited his cast friends, Kuku thought it was a brilliant idea. They had both decided to do it at his parents place, they weren’t in town that weekend, so that was fine, and it was bigger than the two bedroom apartment he owned, also, for old times sake -parties were always at his parents place-. As they both got the place ready the eldest looked at Amelia “What do you mean Lucas’ girlfriend is coming? he has a girlfriend now? is this new?” he chuckled as he had no idea his friend was seeing someone. Lucas could be quite reserved when it came to his private life, he had learnt to accept that in the over twenty years of friendship they shared.

“Oh, this isn’t new boo, they’ve been together for 5 years-ish I think, they live together” Amelia looked up from the red solo cups she was placing on the table by the wall, “he hasn’t told you guys? he can be a turd sometimes, I swear… he’s lucky that Y/N even agreed to go out with him back then, and that she’s still next to him”. She rolled her eyes, as much as she loved her brother, she knew he was an idiot most of the times. “She’s waayy too out of his league if you ask me..she’s my age, dirty blonde hair, stunning body, sharp witty mind, gorgeous face, she’s an artist too, she’s a photographer, you tell me what she’s doing with someone as boring as Lucas, deadass serious lawyer, always doing what he must” she rolled her eyes huffing. Kuku laughed shaking his head softly in amusement. 

But Amelia’s description did Y/N no justice if he was being honest; from the moment she walked into that room half a step behind Lucas, he could see her-only her- it was as if the rest of the people in the room had disappeared from the face of the earth. The woman was absolutely breathtaking, the petite frame half hiding behind his friend, looking down at the floor, he could tell she was nervous. And when Amelia brought her friend over to introduce them to her, and he got a glimpse of those hazel eyes, that looked like the most exquisit honey he knew, he was fucked, she smelled like a mixture of coconut an vanilla, absolutely intoxicating. He was lost in the youngest's face, so much so that he hadn’t even heard Amelia making introductions and cleared his throat gently when he heard his name being spoken. “Kuku” he could just get out “everyone calls me kuku” and by the look on Y/N’s face, she thought it was a strange nickname to say the least. He couldn’t blame her tho, if you didn’t know where it came from. When she walked away he just kept his eyes glued to her, he just hoped  he was being sneakier than he thought he was, it was his friend’s girlfriend after all.

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Y/N made her way to the drinks table, completely aware of the guy’s eyes stuck to her back and she couldn’t help but like the newfound attention for a change, plus, he was really hot, she had to admit that much. The girl made herself a drink before walking around the place taking a look at it and making her way outside seeing Amelia out at the backyard. Y/N took  a sip of the drink in her hand and came up to her friend, “so…those are the childhood friends huh?” an innocent smile on her lips, not wanting to let it be known that she couldn’t care less about all but one of them, the relationship might be as good as dead, but they were still technically together and she wasn't one to disrespect the vow that it implied.

As the night went on, Y/N found herself naturally falling into the groups where Kuku was more than once; conversation just flowed so naturally between the two, it was easy, fun, it made her feel less anxious being around him. Even if she had just met him a few hours ago, and maybe giving its due credit to the alcohol running in their bloodstream, but it was familiar. “so…Kuku, where does it come from? it’s quite an unusual nickname if do say so myself, and they called me bubbles when I was little” the blonde chuckled sitting at a bench out on the yard with him, they had ended up alone not long ago while he joined her as she had a smoke.

Esteban chuckled running his hand through his unruly hair looking at the girl, and there it was again, that spark of electricity in the air between them that Y/N had felt earlier when shecame into the house “it’s short for Kukuriczka, my last name, teachers would always mispronounce it and kinda repeated themselves on the first bit, and so Lucas started calling me that and it stuck” he shrugged his shoulders lightly. Mentioning him in that conversion felt wrong, not that the two were doing anything bad, but it just felt that way. Shelet out a small laugh at the story of the birth of his nickname, finding it quite endearing. When he heard the girl's laugh, melodious and unique he had to hold himself back from kissing her, it had been tugging at the edges of his mind all night, the way she licked her lips before she spoke; or how she bit at her lower lip when she started feeling anxious, and now, the way those plump rosy lips curled around the cigarette as she smoked, he could only think of how they would look curled around other things; and each time one of those dark thoughts came across his mind, he had to remind himself she was his best friend’s girlfriend, and it was utterly and completely wrong to be thinking what he was. 

As the night came to an end, and Y/N were to leave with Lucas, saying their goodbyes to the group and Kuku, he stopped her, gently placing one of his hands on the girl's arm; “Y/N, could I have your number? I’ve been kinda getting into photography myself lately, and I would like to pick your brain some more about it” he smiled as she nodded holding her hand out for his phone so that she could add her contact in it for him. Y/N could feel Lucas’ glare stuck to the back of her neck, not that she cared all that much about it now, any excuse to get to see the chocolate eyed man again was good enough. As she walked back to the car, she could feel it in her gut, this wasn’t going to end up well, the chemistry was palpable in the air with kuku, and he made Y/N feel seen for the first time in what felt like forever. This was either going to be the change her life needed, or the end of the world as she knew it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A/N: I'm really sorry if your name is the same as Lucas' sister, feel free to change it 🤗. Ok, it's been edited a bit, sorry, can't leave it alone 🤭

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"My thoughts will echo your name"| Esteban Kukuriczka

CHAPTER II: "Startin' up a fire"

Playlist:

Liar- Camila Cabello

Only love can hurt like this- Paloma Faith

Favorite crime- Olivia Rodrigo

T.W: Slow burn; angst; couple’s argument, some ssexy thoughts. Word Count: 2.2k

That night after the party, Y/N laid in bed wide awake, all she could see whenever she closed her eyes where swirls of light brown hair accompanied by those gorgeous eyes of Esteban; she took a deep breath and looked to her left seeing Lucas fast asleep and bit her lip. All in all, he wasn’t a bad man, he had loved Y/N back together when they met, her being a utter mess. They used to get along so well, always that witty banter and laughter whenever they did anything and everything together, the smallest situation was a date to them. Somewhere along the way they had lost that, Y/N didn’t know if it had been after he graduated law school and started working, or if it had just been the routine of living together, but as of about six months ago, they had nothing to talk about. She tossed and turned, before deciding to just give up on sleep altogether and get up, she had some pictures to edit anyway. She threw an old big t-shirt on, before walking to the kitchen and making herself a cup of tea as she turned her laptop on.

Little did Y/N know, that Esteban was across town in no better situation than her, he stared at the ceiling, the movie of the night’s events replaying in his head and he groaned. -Why of all the women he knew, of all the ladies that were at that party did he have to find himself swooning over his best friend’s girlfriend.- He felt quite guilty about it to be honest, but he couldn’t help what he felt. Kuku couldn’t be imagining what he sensed between them, the spark was there, that chemistry, it all came so easy around Y/N, her name sounded so good when he spoke it as well. And those eyes, those gorgeous hazel eyes, they were so deep and earnest, Esteban knew nothing could be hidden from them. He groaned covering his face with a pillow, feeling himself growning restless, he got up and went to take a shower before heading to the kitchen to get a glass of water. He needed to get his mind of Y/N as soon as possible. As he rested against the kitchen counter taking a sip, he found himself looking through Instagram until he stumbled upon what seemed to be Y/N’s photography account; of course she was also talented, did she have no flaws?. 

As he went through the photos, he came across a couple of black and white portraits, one seemed to be of Y/N with her hair short, it really suited her -though Kuku started thinking that everything would suit her- next to that one, was a portrait of Amelia, he would recognize that face anywhere, he double tapped his friend’s photo and bit his lip. As Y/N sat at the kitchen table, dark room, her phone screen lit up with an IG notification, who could be on there at 5 in the morning?; she looked down at the little message bubble and felt the heat crawl up her cheeks, the notification read “kuku.esteban liked your post” it was one of her artistic account’s posts, -how had he come across that one- she opened the app and tapped on the profile looking at her screen for a while, debating whether or not she should hit the follow button, she finally did and closed her eyes. Kuku’s eyes widened, he didn’t expect her to reach back out, he got into her DM’s and typed a quick “up so late?”.

“Couldn’t sleep, what about you?” Y/N bit her lip, it felt wrong, as it had when they were talking on the bench at the party, maybe what felt wrong was what she felt while talking to him. Sure enough, her screen soon lit up again “same, mind wouldn’t shut up :/”, he took a deep breath and muttered “oh fuck it” he went through his contacts and called Y/N waiting for her to pick up, he almost hung up a couple of times.

“Hey insomnia partner” the girl greeted him on the other side, and everything felt quieter in his head. “couldn’t shut the mind up, huh? I wonder what might have been going through it” she said quietly playing with the hem of her shirt.

You, he thought “so many things to be honest, it’s nice knowing I’m not alone” he smiled biting his lip it’s nice knowing it’s you. “For example, I was thinking about those pictures you got on Instagram, you’re really talented Y/N” the girl could feel the heat rushing to her face once more “I mean it, it’s hard getting that kind of emotion on a portrait, I think I’ve chosen the perfect teacher for my new adventure”. They talked for so long that Y/N didn’t even notice when the sun had come out.

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Few days later, Y/N waited for Esteban to show up at the park where they had agreed to meet so that she could show him some photography tips. Fidgeting with her hands far more nervous that she had expected to be, though it was true they had been talking more and more everyday, by text and through the phone, on those late nights when Lucas was still working and Y/N was left to have dinner and go to bed on her own, kuku had been a steady companion. She was lost in deep thought when Esteban approached her from behind and placed her the coffee order she had told him was her favorite on one of their chats in front of her face “Penny for your thoughts sugar?” The tall guy said softly as he sat down.

Y/N smiled taking the cup and took a sip of the hot beverage “Hazelnut caramel latte, you remembered?” she looked up at him, smile still plastered on her face “just thinking” she shrugged “how have you been?” Esteban took a long sip of his coffee looking at every single detail on her face. Lucky bastard you are Lucas he thought to himself as she spoke; absolutely taken by the way her eyes fluttered shut when she took a sip from her coffee, as if she needed to focus all her senses on the smell and taste of the drink, the soft noises that escaped her as she drank, making the guy spiral down into a dark train of thought. The past few days he had found himself constantly thinking about the blonde woman sitting across from him on the grass and how good she would surely look naked beneath him, how hot and yet sweet it would be to hear his name coming out of her in soft moans; wondering how would her hazel eyes look darkened by lust. He found himself being snapped back into reality by Y/N’s hand waving in front of his face. “Earth to kuku” she chuckled “where did you go? I’ve been talking to you for like five minutes dude”.

He rubbed the back of his neck quite embarrassed “sorry sorry, I got distracted” he smiled sheepishly. Y/N smiled nodding softly as she looked at him- how can a grown man look so adorable and sexy all at the same time? god I’d like to photograph him some time-. “Ok, so I’ve been going through your photography on instagram, how do you get such raw emotions from people? how are you able to draw emotions from places? that is baffling to me, honestly woman, how can one be so talented?” Y/N blushed hard looking down, no one had ever praised her work so much before.

“I don’t know really, I just capture what I see, I guess emotion’s just there, with people, you just need to capture them while they just are, not make them pose, posing drives everything out, but I don’t think my work is that remarkable to be honest, not enough to support myself at least” she smiled softly; as Esteban finished his coffee she took her camera and snapped a few pictures of him “like this for instance, you look like you could be Vogue’s next cover” she smiled showing him the picture she had just taken.

And that’s how the afternoon went on, shared between laughs, chats and pictures. Y/N kneeled behind him to show him how to frame a shot, her head landing right on his right shoulder “and now, once you’ve found what you like, you hold yourself still, and press the button” she said softly looking more at the guy’s profile than the picture, biting the inside of her lip;- had he always smelled this good? perfect mix between musky wood and something sweet she couldn’t place, oh lord she could nuzzle her face in his neck all her life- The hazel eyed woman cleared her throat moving away a bit and smiled “just like that, see? not so difficult, you’ll get the hang of it in no time.”

Esteban had caught her looking at him through the corner of his eye and had to hold back from kissing her and took a deep breath “with a teacher as good as you, no doubts”. He needed to pull it together, Y/N was Lucas’ girlfriend, it’s his best friend he was talking about- pull it together Kukuriczka, this is not funny anymore.

~~~~~

As Y/N made her way back to her place, she sent the pictures from that afternoon to Kuku, having her camera linked to her phone. 

Y/N/N 🤞:This way, you can go back to these later on, when you want to check your first work ;) 

Y/N/N 🤞: I had a really good time today by the way, thank you, I really needed to get out of my place, those walls can get trapping.

Esteban looked down at his phone smiling at the texts like a damn school boy and quickly texted back.

Kuku 🤭: thanks for the pictures, and I’m also glad that I could help you feel better, always happy to help a damsel in distress 🤭 

He mentally cursed himself for that stupid reply. As Y/N got home, she uploaded the portrait oh him to her instagram with the quote “deep in thought @kuku.esteban” she smiled and put her phone down going to take a shower letting the warm water run through her body. As the blonde woman was going through her after shower ritual, humming softly to the music she had playing from her phone, she heard the slam on the front door and closed her eyes knowing Lucas was home, and probably in a bad mood.

“Where are you Y/N!?” he called out, the angry tone evident in his voice. Y/N walked out of their bedroom in her pjs and looked at him her face rid of all emotion as she could sense the argument coming her way, god knows why now.

“Hey babe, how was your day?” she said in the most agreeable tone she could master.

“How was my day? It was great until I saw your fucking picture on Instagram, what’s that about you going out on a lil coffee date with my best friend? Do you think I’m fucking stupid?” She looked at him, her eyebrows quirked up in disbelief.

“Are you serious right now? Not like I owe you any fucking explanations, cause you’re not the boss of me, but Kuku and I went to the park because he wants to learn some photography, and knowing I’m a photographer he wanted my help. Also, can’t I get along with one of your friends? You should know better than to accuse me of cheating, you of all people, when I forgave the things I did to be with you Lucas! what cheekines you have” Her tone getting louder and louder as her blood boiled hotter in her veins.

“Oh please Y/N you must really think I am in fact stupid, that, or you’re the dunce, because I could see the way Esteban was looking at you at the party! he was all but undressing you with his eyes all night!” he crossed his arms over his chest.

“At least someone was if what you say’s true! you haven’t even looked in my direction in over six months!” she finally cried out, feeling surpassed by the situation and tired, just completely exahusted of the arguments being the only kind of interactions they had these days. “Why don’t you just fucking go to your parents, or wherever you fucking want tonight, cause I honestly don’t wanna stare at your face right now!” As soon as those words left her mouth and she saw Lucas turn around so easily and slam the door again on his way out she regretted it. She knew she had just pushed him into Alma’s arms with what she had said, not that it took much for him to run back to her, as much as Lucas had sweared that was over years ago, she never fully trusted it, and as bad as their situation was, she still loved the man for some reason. 

Y/N sat down on the staircase holding her knees to her chest trying to protect her heart in any possible way, she wanted to run, she needed to run, but she had no idea where to, all she could think about was Esteban’s kind eyes and warm smile, and how much she’d like to be in his embrace tonight.

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Sunday Fluff to make your heart melt.

Lucia’s notes: OK, so, this drabble came about from this ADORABLE tiktok here that my lovely @cyliarys-starlight sent my internet’s lil sis @madame-fear. ENJOY 💗💗💗💗// PLEASE let me know if I let any grammar mistakes behind.

"Little Mousy" | Esteban Kukuriczka.

TW: none, Kuku is just adorably and sneakily munching away on cheese. The fluffiest fluff to ever exist.

Word Count: 477

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You half wake up in the middle of the night, not feeling kuku’s arms wrapped around you like they usually are, and knowing sometimes he has a hard time sleeping, you asume he’s downstairs playing video games; you reluctantly get out of bed and throw on one of his t-shirts- that are a couple sizes too big on you- you usually sleep in and paddle barefoot out to find your boyfriend and usher him back to bed.

Still rubbing the sleep from your half open eyes you walk towards the kitchen, seeing the dim refrigerator light on and stop in your tracks as you reach the doorway; seeing Esteban hunched over halfway inside the fridge, back turned to you,  munching away on the parmesan cheese you had brought back from the store that afternoon. He is so into his cheese eating endeavour he doesn’t even realise you are standing behind him until you clear your throat, causing him to startle with a little jump banging his head on the edge of the freezer door above him. “Fuck” he mutters half from the hit he takes to his head half from being caught in the middle of that little act,as he scrambles to put the cheese back in its bag and into place in the fridge before turning around to look at you with a sheepish smile.

“Were you just eating away on the parmesan I bought today for lunch with your parents?” you cross your arms trying so hard to fake being mad at him, but finding the situation absolutely adorable as some crumbs are left on his moustache. When you catch that you just can’t help but laugh walking towards him to brush the rest of the evidence off of his adorable face. The blush on his cheeks noticeable even just being lit up by the street lights coming in from the window.

“No…” he is quick to reply before letting a nervous chuckle fall from his lips “well…maybe just a little, you know I can’t control myself with cheese my love, I love it almost as much as I do you” that declaration alone could have made your heart melt, he definitely knows how to swoop you off your feet in every way. You reach your hand upwards to his face bringing him down to your level sharing a short, soft loving kiss. As you part ways you let your hand fall to his chest and smile.

“Come on mousy, let’s head back to bed, it’s late, and you clearly cannot be trusted to be unsupervised here at these time”, as you hold his hand he lets you guide him back to your shared bedroom, knowing full well you won’t let him live this scene down easily, and smiles at the picture of your feigned annoyance when you for sure tell this story on. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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All right it’s not exactly like I can host a poll on Tumblr, but since this is meant to be a Christmas gift to my followers, I can at least make an attempt at gauging interest!

We’re cutting it a bit close now, but it’s finally the holidays for me (although I still have a lot of marking to do), and I want to try and write an SVSSS ship I’ve never written before as a thank you to those who’ve supported me. ♥️

I’ve gathered some suggestions and compiled them here, so if any of these (as a quick one-shot in “my style”—whatever that may mean lol) sounds intriguing to you, let me know!

Mingling (LMY/SHL)

Bingxiao (LBH/GYX)

Liushen (LQG/SY!SQQ)

Gongzhi (GYX/ZZL)

Scumplane (SJ!SQQ/SQH)

Something NYY-centric (maybe no ship, maybe with a ship—if the latter, I might do GYX/NYY or NYY/MF~)

Liujiu (LQG/SJ!SQQ)

As you can see, there’s no Bingqiu, Bingjiu, Moshang, or Qijiu because I’ve already written fics centred around them specifically asjakfl. 🙈

If you have any other ships you’d like to see, you can also feel free to let me know~ I can’t guarantee I’ll get them done for Christmas obviously, but it could be fun to keep them in mind for the future! Even if I’m someone who obviously has their own favourite subjects to write (*cough cough* Bingqiu and/or Bing-ge *cough*), I wouldn’t mind considering other possibilities~

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That Esteban drabble was just what I needed! After an awful day being stuck to the desk (why can't it be Enzo's lap???? 😭😭😭, college sucks), and crying about money, the idea of going out, getting drunk and being pampered by a pretty boy sounds like heaven.

Thanks for tagging me baby 🩷

Isn't that what we all need? I relate so much with the being stuck to a desk, been there done that, full time jobs suck as well 😭😭 I'm glad you enjoyed it! Ofc! You'll be on my tag list until you ask me not to be anymore

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Ok, so as I always make good on my promises, I'm starting to work on this, I already have the name, and a really general plotline, I'm really inclined on doing this a multi part series, don't know yet how many parts. It will come out every Friday. 💗💗💗

Just a little sneak peek at what's to come to scratch your itch...

"My thoughts will echo your name" | Esteban Kukuriczka

Where Reader goes to a welcome home party for Esteban, a friend of her bf Lucas, while in the middle of a relationship crisis, and meets Esteban, the sparks are instant, both fighting against them not wanting to hurt Lucas.

XOXO

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So, to all of my 10 followers, and whoever comes across this poll and wants to chime in.

I was just listening to enchanted by Queen Taylor, and I kinda got this idea for a fic, it will have fluff, angst, may even have some +18 content in there, maybe....maybe I will try and do a multi part one, but I don't know which fandom to make it to, so please vote!!

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taggy tag

I was tagged by @piyo-13 thank youuu friend <333

1. What is a recent happy thing in your life, and what is a current struggle (serious or not)?

recent happy thing: being into a new ship? one that’s actually alive, as in there are new posts/fics/art every day? like, for real. it feels so good to be into something and see there are more than five people still into it with you. I don’t know, waking up to new posts in the tag and the like? it makes me feel like I have something to look forward to. otherwise the only happy thing in my life atm is my friends everything else is uneventful and I’m tired ://

current struggle: finding a job. and when I find something that I’m totes ready to consider? ‘competence required: speaking dutch’ 

2. What is a character that you identify strongly with, that you just “get”?

Aled Last from Radio Silence. We’re not the same, but damn, it was quite something to read that book and think ‘holy shit that’s pretty much me??’ because it had never happened to me before??

3. What’s something you want to share, but can’t tell anyone in person (either because it’s too silly or too complicated or whatever)?

most of the things I’d like to share but can’t are things that people would find annoying, and call me a party ruiner for voicing them haha. mostly stuff about objectifying celebrities, rpf, and some fandom/fanfiction stuff (but that last one is more of a personal thing rather than a ‘everyone should think like me and stop doing it’ thing.)

4. What’s an odd habit of yours?

I had no idea so I asked my sister and she said ‘when you talk to people and at some point you don’t know what to say you make humming sounds and it’s the weirdest thing I’ve ever seen. yes. yes you do that all the time.’ ??? like I knew I hummed when there’s a silence and then I stop myself because god bérénice why are you humming for nothing. but to strangers?? right after being awkward? dammit

5. What would you like to see more of on tumblr?

less bashing stuff before seeing them lmao. and more barduil I miss the good old days so much. ;w;

6. What’s a name you’d like to be called (can be a nickname, a chosen name, or a given name)?

uuuh I’m fine with my current name, Bérénice (and all the nickname variants of it), but I like Aaron as well, though no one ever calls me that so I don’t know how I really feel about it?

I tag @ecthelions, @absoluteabsolem, @kokido-kuku, @thewoodsattheworldsend, @mademoiselle-lani, @gastonsbiceps, @chaboykravitz, @northerntrash, and @remuslupinsmiled! :)