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and i won't forget to put roses on your grave

ִֶָ ᯽ .ﾟEVERY ROSE has its thorn ╱ meet the circle of blue rose ╱ tw for mentions of verbal abuse, neglect, drug use, death, and bullying

on a cold christmas morning in a buzzing hospital, bae minseok was born in incheon, south korea to a educated and ambitious firefighter for a mother, but with a cowardly and insecure data entry clerk father. it was quiet growing up, due mostly to the fact that he was not the most sociable, considering that mom and dad weren't home during the day, and minseok spent most of his afternoons distracting himself with boring yet interesting extracurriculars, the relationship between him and his parents wasn't really anything for the first eleven years of his life.

his parents' relationship slowly became unconventional, they became not only a problem for their son, but for each other. it was a norm for minseok to listen to the constant back and forth between his mother and father, and it amazed him to think that those two were once in love. he would listen to all his fathers stupid theories, oh no his wife had a promising career ahead of her? how disturbing! i should turn our son against her! after the first few years of his parents back and forth bickering, minseok decided to turn to something else to get his mind off everything.

in one of his previous extracurriculars, he learned how to play several instruments, but none of them interested him as much as the good old guitar did. if there was anything that could get his mind off the incessant shit talking his parents would do to each other, it was the beauty of the chords he produced on the stringed instrument. playing the guitar, to him, was just a coping mechanism, nothing too serious and nothing meant to be taken any further than a hobby, a thing he did when all the shouting was too much for him.

it wasn't until a friend, a very specific friend, nudged him one day and suggested that he auditioned for a company, at even the sound of those words, an immediate laugh escaping his lips as soon as his friend uttered them. what could he even do besides play one instrument and sing just a little well? what was he supposed to do with his lack of talent? (in his opinion, of course) every company would turn their backs on him, send him out of the door the moment he walked through those doors, but no matter how much he dispelled the words, his friends kept urging him and urging him to at least try to audition, because they just had an inkling that he would make it in.

after the constant harassment from his friends, minseok would roll his eyes and step into the audere media building on an early august morning in 2012, and like his friends predicted, he passed, with much surprise to himself. now— he knew about the shady reputation under the company, but he had also been promised to debut, a promise that would be fulfilled after four years, several lineup changes, and the loss of close friends he'd made in the corner of the practice room. over the four years he found himself trapped in the practice room of a shady company, minseok would lose, then gain, then lose some more hope, he had been accepted into the company for his talents, but he felt as if they were never truly considered by the higher ups. he often felt as if everyone was disregarding him, and he'd never be considered to even debut.

after all the work, the long nights spent in the practice room, and the hundreds of times he almost quit, minseok would finally find his place, with a group of people who understood him, for him, debuting in blue rose was one of the best things in his life, but he'd never admit that to his members, he remains stubborn.

ʬʬ . THE BASICS !⠀

STAGE NAME CUPID ( 큐핏 )

BIRTH NAME BAE MINSEOK ( 배민석 )

DATE OF BIRTH DECEMBER 25, 1995

PLACE OF BIRTH INCHEON, SOUTH KOREA

HOMETOWN INCHEON, SOUTH KOREA

NATIONALITY SOUTH KOREAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

ʬʬ . THE CAREER !⠀

OCCUPATION SINGER-SONGWRITER, GUITARIST

LABELS AUDERE MEDIA ( 2012 — 2016 ) LUXE DESIGN ( 2016 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 4 YEARS 6 MONTHS

POSITION LEAD VOCALIST, RHYTHM GUITARIST

DEBUT DATE FEBRUARY 13, 2016

ʬʬ . THE PHYSICAL !⠀

FACE CLAIM YOON JEONGHAN

HEIGHT 178 CM ( 5'10" )

WEIGHT UNKNOWN

BLOOD TYPE B

on a snowy february evening in hat yai, thailand, vidura sukkasem came into this world angry, an emotion which would become a staple for him throughout his life. often compared to a "ticking time bomb", the fury he had seemingly been born with wouldn't disappear with age like his parents had hoped for. instead it manifested into something more, something which would become a liability to his parents. he had not been showered with the same kind of love as his siblings, he was often "too much" for the adults in his life to handle, so as a result, he began to lash out.

his emotions would range from angry, to frustrated, to absolutely fucking pissed directed towards everybody. he eventually became a problem, so much of a problem that his parents had "no other choice" but to ship him off to some boarding school for troubled children, hoping that the harsh lessons would put him in shape, but the schools, just like his parents, stated he was "too much to handle" and he eventually became nothing but your no good troubled teen stereotype (not so much troubled, he just lacked the attention children so needed from their parents). he would battle his own demons all on his own, he didn't need friends, he'd already gotten this far with his parents not giving two shits about him, whilst his siblings pretended he was never there, it was no surprise to anyone that he wasn't interested in the whole making friends part of life.

his personal interests would all be a little wishy washy, from snowboarding, to composition, to dancing, and finally, the guitar (specifically the electric guitar). vidura would stay up all night watching performances from popular rock bands, watching as they did their thing, so effortlessly, he knew that teaching himself how to play such an instrument would be a challenge, but he was never one to give up. having been inspired by bands such as aerosmith, van halen, and of course, queen, the second eldest would find himself borrowing his coworkers' instruments to test them out, just until he could save enough money to buy his dream guitar. over the next few months, not only would he almost completely learn how to play the electric guitar, and keyboard on his own, but he also did some considering, and that considering would eventually manifest into a want, he wanted to be in a band.

even with the constant remarks, chortles, and snickers from family, vidura wouldn't just halt with what he'd wanted for so long, who were they to talk about his life? when they did nothing but cast him aside? it seemed idiotic to him, which he had no problem voicing, yeah it lead to a less-than-stellar altercation between him and a few cousins, but he would say it was all for a good cause. it seemed that his prayers would be answered, when a scout from a familiar (then still) small record label szene vinyl stopped him on the street, having recognized him from a video his manager had posted online, he almost didn't accept the scouts offer, convinced they were a scam, or some sort of cult trying to brainwash him.

but after pondering for a good week, continuously staring at the business card in his hand, he'd try at the audition, even with the way he was clearly nervous, stumbling through the little korean he knew, and uncomfortable under the stare of so many strangers, he would pass, he likes to think it was a miracle, or the clear passion that seemed to ooze around him, or maybe they were just pitying, to this day, he will never truly know why he actually passed.

everything seemed to fast track after that, the titular thai 'wannabe rockstar' (that's what dione calls him, rich), would go through several practice rooms, sleepless nights, two almost life ending injuries, arguments with dance instructors and his fellow trainees, as well as a few predictable breakdowns and broken nails. if vidura is anything, it's a fighter, he wasn't about to be tossed out by this company for being "a nuisance" like he'd been by his parents and the tens of schools in the past. he doesn't care if he fought tooth or nail to be in that lineup, he did it because he deserved it, and he knows that better than anyone else.

ʬʬ . THE BASICS !⠀

STAGE NAME JUNIPER ( 향나무 )

BIRTH NAME VIDURA SUKKASEM ( วิฑูรา สุขเกษม )

DATE OF BIRTH FEBRUARY 18, 1996

PLACE OF BIRTH HAT YAI, THAILAND

HOMETOWN HAT YAI, THAILAND

NATIONALITY THAI

ETHNICITY THAI

ʬʬ . THE CAREER !⠀

OCCUPATION DANCER, COMPOSER, GUITARIST, DRUMMER

LABELS SZENE VINYL ( 2012 — 2016 ) LUXE DESIGN ( 2016 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 4 YEARS

POSITION MAIN DANCER, VOCALIST, LEAD GUITARIST

DEBUT DATE FEBRUARY 13, 2016

ʬʬ . THE PHYSICAL !⠀

FACE CLAIM CHITTAPHON LEECHAIYAPORNKUL

HEIGHT 176 CM ( 5'9" )

WEIGHT UNKNOWN

BLOOD TYPE O

on a blinding july afternoon, noh hyeon (though originally born noh jaewoong) was born in the heart of daejeon, south korea to a freelance photographer of a mother, one who had such a bright imagination, an ambitious future ahead of her, well— not before she got pregnant with her previously named son, and dumped by her college school boyfriend, who stated he just couldn't "take care of a child with all of his other responsibilities". so, at 22 years old, no college degree, only $1000 under her belt and a whole child under her care, she'd try her best to maneuver through life, and give her son the best life he could ever ask for.

for most of his life, hyeon could recall his mother being unhappy, she'd try to cover it with fake smiles and laughs, but he always secretly knew it. he wished he could help her, but he could do nothing but watch her suffer in silence, as he was just a defenseless child. he would stay up all night thinking, dreaming of a day where he could finally save his mother from the suffering she was put through trying to raise him, he prayed that one day he would find success in a field which would help him provide for her. it was no surprise to anyone who met him that hyeon had quite the imagination, the only things at the forefront of his mind being caring for his mother and his one true dream—

becoming an idol.

baby v.o.x, shinhwa, and of course, h.o.t became big inspirations for the soon to be leader, well, as much as an inspiration as they were an escape. he recalls sitting down at home and watching in fascination as the idols did their thing, so effortlessly, so flawlessly, dressed in stage outfits he could only dream of wearing. for most of his life, though, he only thought that dream would stay like that, a dream, something he could fantasize about in his mind but never truly fulfill, though his mom would enroll him in dance practices, singing lessons, and do all sorts of karaoke in the living room, he never actually thought he would make it, it all seemed like an actual thing he'd accomplish.

but it'd all go to his head, it'd become his main focus, something he couldn't stop thinking about. it got to the point that he couldn't focus on school, too busy thinking about being one of those idols, singing and dancing catchy songs on a stage, loved by the korean public.

it seemed that his mother could see right through the act he was putting up, and she didn't hesitate to drop a train ticket in front of him on a random day, telling him to audition either now or never. though very puzzled by the sudden way his mother decided to tell him to go audition like he'd been itching to, but he knew this was a once in a lifetime chance. so, with adrenaline coursing through his veins, a fourteen year old hyeon hopped on a train and took the whole two hour ride from daejeon to seoul, shaking nervously the whole entire time. he would walk into that audere media building and never look back, his future somehow decided for him in that very moment.

of course, the six years spent in that company were nothing short of hellish, like all of the members, who once considered quitting and going back home, feeling as if he had been wrong at what he thought he wanted to do with his life. it took so much perseverance, encouraging words from (ironically) minseok and remembering what his mother told him to not walk out of those doors and flip the bird at absolutely every person who worked there. it would all eventually be for good, even if he was stuck with the position of bass guitarist, one he wasn't truly keen on receiving (he was much more skilled in terms of the keyboardist position, he even would've settled for being the drummer). still, he'd persevere, spending almost two and a half years working on his skills as a guitarist, he has the lovely juniper and lim jaesang to thank for that.

ʬʬ . THE BASICS !⠀

STAGE NAME HYEON ( 현 )

BIRTH NAME NOH JAEWOONG ( 노재웅 )

LEGAL NAME NOH HYEON ( 노현 )

DATE OF BIRTH JULY 27, 1996

PLACE OF BIRTH DAEJEON, SOUTH KOREA

HOMETOWN DAEJEON, SOUTH KOREA

NATIONALITY SOUTH KOREAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

ʬʬ . THE CAREER !⠀

OCCUPATION SINGER-SONGWRITER, RAPPER, KEYBOARDIST, GUITARIST

LABELS AUDERE MEDIA ( 2010 — 2016 ) LUXE DESIGN ( 2016 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 6 YEARS 2 MONTHS

POSITION LEADER, LEAD VOCALIST, LEAD RAPPER, BASS GUITARIST

DEBUT DATE FEBRUARY 13, 2016

ʬʬ . THE PHYSICAL !⠀

FACE CLAIM CHO SEUNGYOUN

HEIGHT 186 CM ( 6'1" )

WEIGHT UNKNOWN

BLOOD TYPE A-

born with what is described as a "natural aura of bad luck" on a rainy may day in ulsan, south korea, ji hansaem was never a blessed child, stuck in the middle of seven other children, he was quickly tossed aside in favor of his less fortunate siblings (which he easily understood, they all needed to be taken care of), so from a young age, he seemed to always be on his own. his three older siblings were either much older or found him boring, whilst his three younger siblings were too young and suffering with life-altering diseases, disabilities, or simply disadvantages. it was no surprise to anyone that the lack of attention from at home caused him to start acting out, taking his anger out on anyone and anything, often resulting in his knuckles ending up bruised.

wherever hansaem went, trouble seemed to follow. it was always chalked up to his horrible situation at home and the fact that he seemed to be the only one of all seven children to inherit his father's angers issues, so he never found any actual help for the constant frustration he felt towards strangers who'd done nothing to him. so, he looked to other ways of coping, because if none of the adults in his life would try to help him, he was going to try to help himself, even if it would take so much time.

the leftover anger he decided to not channel into fistfights would instead be channeled into newfound instruments, namely rapping, dancing, and his mission to be able to play at least 10 instruments by the time he was 30. rapping was always an interest of his, time not spent at home (due to how the apartment had literally a whole village living there), would be spent in his close friends sihyuk's garage, taking free sample beats from not always legal website and rapping over them. he wasn't good at it in the beginning, which he clearly states every chance he gets, but as long as he was left alone with his thoughts and a random beat before him, he could come up with anything (but he would never be considered for the rapper position until last minute).

hansaem doesn't exactly know why, or what kind of confidence had overtaken him at that very moment, but he found himself walking into a familiar company on a horribly humid day in august of 2011, sm entertainment (not sure if you've heard of them or not..), but with all shock, he passed, and he found himself in a mundane day-to-day routine full of practice rooms and gossip about if he would debut in the upcoming nct. unfortunately, his popularity as an sm rookies members didn't immediately mean he was going to be a member, which was clearly hinted at him by the actions of his beloved former company. not wanting to waste his time rotting away in a company that didn't really give two shits about him, he would exit after only 1 year of training, but all hope would not be lost, as he would quickly be approached by szene vinyl with an offer that he just couldn't refuse, of course it meant he had to be stuck around just the single most annoying person ever (i.e juniper), but if it meant debuting, so be it!

ʬʬ . THE BASICS !⠀

STAGE NAME DIONE ( 디오네 )

BIRTH NAME JI HANSAEM ( 지한샘 )

DATE OF BIRTH MAY 23, 1997

PLACE OF BIRTH ULSAN, SOUTH KOREA

HOMETOWN ULSAN, SOUTH KOREA

NATIONALITY SOUTH KOREAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

ʬʬ . THE CAREER !⠀

OCCUPATION RAPPER, DANCER, DRUMMER

LABELS SM ENTERTAINMENT ( 2011 — 2012 ) SZENE VINYL ( 2012 — 2016 ) LUXE DESIGN ( 2016 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 4 YEARS

POSITION MAIN RAPPER, LEAD DANCER, DRUMMER

DEBUT DATE FEBRUARY 13, 2016

ʬʬ . THE PHYSICAL !⠀

FACE CLAIM YOO TAEYANG

HEIGHT 181 CM ( 5'11" )

WEIGHT UNKNOWN

BLOOD TYPE B

on a cloudy autumn afternoon in jeju city, south korea, jeon yunseok was born as the second of three children, stuck in the middle and becoming the only boy born in his family after 25 years of just girls being born. from the get go, his family members knew there was something special about him, he had a bright smile and seemingly bulletproof optimism, nobody could ever wear him down, he was just strong like that. he was born naturally sociable, always ready to talk to people, never seen without a smile on his face. yunseok was a boy full of dreams, dreams he wouldn't discard until he at least excelled in one of the fields.

one of his biggest dreams included being an idol, and he would find that dream coming true when he debuted in the former "child" idol group DVIX in 2010, being only twelve at the time. now, the whole thing about the group was that the members would graduate when they were eighteen, then a whole new lineup of boys would show up and repeat the process, but it wouldn't be all smooth sailing. for starters, the lineup was full of children, and children are mean, his fellow members wouldn't think twice before deciding to torment every waking day of yunseok's life, his groupmates found it amusing to call him names, whilst his former company found it entertaining to overwork him with stupid brand deals and acting gigs. all he ever truly wanted to do was be an idol, but he had members who made it unbearable and a company that decided to make him do everything but that.

so, yunseok confided in his parents about the whole situation and they weren't any happy, they immediately removed him from the group in 2013 and sued his former company for child endangerment. the most he knows is that they did eventually get paid, he just doesn't know the specific amount they did. his dreams of being an idol wouldn't falter, though, because he would go on and audition for another company, namely audere media, and with his previous expertise in the idol industry, it was no surprise that he passed.

he would never say that his time in the practice room of audere media was a "horrible one", compared to his previous label, they seemed like angels. of course, his bright personality and constant optimism was still meant with hostility from fellow trainees, but most of them actually liked him, cherished him even. he was known as the "unofficial therapist", as he was an amazing listener and advisor. his shiny reputation would carry on to when he debuted, known as the "brightest member of blue rose".

ʬʬ . THE BASICS !⠀

STAGE NAME YUNSEOK ( 윤석 )

BIRTH NAME JEON YUNSEOK ( 전윤석 )

DATE OF BIRTH SEPTEMBER 25, 1998

PLACE OF BIRTH JEJU CITY, JEJU ISLAND, SOUTH KOREA

HOMETOWN JEJU CITY, JEJU ISLAND, SOUTH KOREA

NATIONALITY SOUTH KOREAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

ʬʬ . THE CAREER !⠀

OCCUPATION RAPPER, DANCER, VOCALIST, KEYBOARDIST

LABELS HAZE2! ( 2009 — 2012 ) AUDERE MEDIA ( 2013 — 2016 ) LUXE DESIGN ( 2016 — present )

TRAINING PERIOD 7 YEARS 2 MONTHS

POSITION LEAD RAPPER, SUB-VOCALIST, KEYBOARDIST

DEBUT DATE JULY 1, 2010 ╱ FEBRUARY 13, 2016

ʬʬ . THE PHYSICAL !⠀

FACE CLAIM LEE JAEHYUN

HEIGHT 182 CM ( 5'11" )

WEIGHT UNKNOWN

BLOOD TYPE AB

on a seemingly random november day, right as the month was coming to a close, song rinhyo (though he is preferred to be called riley) was born in rochester, new york, as the eldest of four children. his mother- a desirous music teacher who dreamed of doing more with her life, and his father- an equally determined children's book illustrator who was trying his hardest to recover from a once almost life threatening addiction. his father was a man who, like everyone, made mistakes, and had many regrets he wished he could've taken back before his inevitable demise. he would die when riley was only 4, leaving the love of his life and three kids behind (along with a fourth one who would unfortunately be born after his funeral).

as a child, helping around the house was never a foreign concept to him, considering his mother had now become a single parent and didn't have a partner available to watch over the kids anymore. riley would take over the position as "surrogate parent" with ease, mostly because he had a natural instinct to protect everyone younger than him, his siblings are his lifeline, he'd go to any lengths to protect them, so much so that he basically became their parent for a good chunk of their lives. he'd make them breakfast, take them to school, then go to school himself, pick them up from school and proceed to take care of them at home. his routine was a mundane one, the same thing every single day.

as a child, singing was always something he was interested in. his mother was a music teacher, the person who taught him everything he knows about how to advance his vocals, as well as play his two main instruments (the guitar and drums). he would often sing his siblings to sleep, though always begrudgingly due to the fact that he never really enjoyed singing in front of people that weren't teachers or his mother, believing he wasn't exactly amazing or that he would embarrass himself. he always described his skills as "mediocre", he was just your regular guy who enjoyed singing on some occasions and playing guitar solos for fun.

everything would come to a stop when, without him knowing, his younger brother noah would send a video of him singing the song (and playing the guitar instrumental) stairway to heaven by led zeppelin to szene vinyl as an audition tape. he had previously tried to convince the older to audition for the company, having read that they were accepting trainees from everywhere around the world, riley, though he clearly wanted to audition, refused profusely each time due to the fact that he didn't exactly want to just up and leave his family to chase some idol dream that probably wouldn't come true considering his odds. he wouldn't even know until his siblings brought it up to him awkwardly, he swears he almost punched them in the face when learning what they did, but he was even more shocked to know that his audition was accepted, he passed.

riley thought about it for a long time, talked about it with his mom for several days, but she persuaded him, and a decision was eventually made. in a matter of two weeks after his brother had sent that video to szene vinyl without him knowing, he was now on a plane to seoul, able to fulfill a dream he once thought would be impossible to. after arriving at the building for the first time in 2013, he would eventually train for 3 years until he got the chance to debut in blue rose, as their maknae, and as the only member with two instrumental positions. he often thinks his debut was only due to the fact that his best friend, louyoung, left the company, he often feels undeserving of his position, but the members and his family never fail to remind him that he deserves what he has.

ʬʬ . THE BASICS !⠀

STAGE NAME CERES ( 케레스 )

BIRTH NAME RILEY KIERYN SONG

KOREAN NAME SONG RINHYO ( 송린효 )

DATE OF BIRTH NOVEMBER 28, 1998

PLACE OF BIRTH ROCHESTER, NEW YORK, USA

HOMETOWN ROCHESTER, NEW YORK, USA

NATIONALITY AMERICAN

ETHNICITY KOREAN

ʬʬ . THE CAREER !⠀

OCCUPATION SINGER-SONGWRITER, GUITARIST, DRUMMER

LABELS SZENE VINYL ( 2013 — 2016 ) LUXE DESIGN ( 2016 — present )