#klonapin

[lunatea]

// personal vent yadda yadda

this is a terrible time to be in social isolation, on top of the fear (current events). i dont have any friends presently in my life and i desperately want to reach out to folks (positive) i havent spoken to in years since my health disintegrated, but im in too much physical pain and have too much brain fog to even hold a conversation, and im ashamed. ive been too brain fogged and exhausted to be able to keep hold on any of my hyperfixations like i used to, so i barely even have anything interesting to talk about. my panic attacks are too much for me and for other people. i'm completely embarrassed even though i'd have total sympathy/patience for anyone else in my situation

im so tired and terrified. trying to reach out to people gives me severe panic attacks which triggers my POTS flares (and then after all that usually still just dont work out) but i need to pace myself to save my energy for my final projects, so all i can do right now is just sit in my room alone and rot.

distractions help but. fuck man. i dont want to be alone right now but i literally dont have the energy to spare to do all the work to fix that/build a support system from scratch and cope with the resulting panic attacks/POTS flares On Top Of keeping up with uni courses and health appointments. i need help but i dont have anyone present in my life who can help me in the ways i actually need. i dont want to have to spend another birthday like this.

[gaydiesaster]

cross-posted from twitter but. i love shul bc my new best friend is a 40-year old divorcee with two children who takes klonapin during the Torah service.

[swordwizard]

Feeling rather ill and the girlfriend has given me a klonopin.. klonapin… I’m feeling quite strange 😃

[rgr-pop]

okay daytime half a klonapin is really helping me get on top of this, but i only have like four left and my doctor is being a bitch ("on vacation") and none of my drug industry friends "fuck with pills"

[sweetcreaturetm]

What’s the panic lyric that’s like take the pills to offset the pills to offset the pills? I’m trying to think. That’s me taking a klonapin to stop the shakes from my adderall lmao

[glittergutts]

I'm having some anxieties today. I'm trying to just work through it and not let my feelings get the best of me.

Friday is my whole house clean day, so I've got plenty to do to stay busy. I did my .5 mile on the elliptical, then I had a nice cbd bubble bath and did my skincare and make-up because even if I feel like shit I don't want to look like shit.

I don't feel like cleaning, I'm tired, and I tried unsuccessfully to take a nap. I've only got to clean the kitchen and bathroom. There's only a few dishes to be washed, and so mopping will be the most energy consuming thing I've gota do today. But I don't wanna.

I've been thinking lately how I'm not good at mental self care. I do face masks and bubble baths, but I don't do anything meaningful. I need to practice some old hobbies I used to enjoy or find something new that's relaxing for my mind. Also I need hobbies or something so I don't die of boredom because ever since I got off the klonapin I've felt like the days go on forever and I never do anything different day to day.

[extracherries]

‘anyone but you’ was NOT bad. why was everyone saying it was so bad? idk i really enjoyed it, is it the best romcom ever — no? but it’s definitely enjoyable in the way a romcom is supposed to be. it’s cheesy, over the top, and cheeky fun. honestly, the world needs more romcoms. glen powell, glen powells wonderfully. gata is delightful as always. the star studded supporting cast sparkled and there was a dog named klonapin — what more could you ask for in a romcom? 8/10.

[stupidjewishwhiteboy]

Also apparently Hamas has now been accused of releasing all the hostages after getting them high on Klonapin, so there’s that too

if you take the obviously coerced statements of POWs as facts exonerating their captors, you are impossibly and inconceivably stupid.

[zuchinnidreams]

Dreamt that I was in a therapy session. Jesse was there, and the therapist asked me if I've ever considered xanax. I tell them I dont like xanax and I want to remember my life. In my mind I am thinking of asking about klonapins but my anxiety says that they will think im a drug addict.

[mroverride1]

my monthly Kpins <3

[mashupofmylife]

There’s a light at the end of the tunnel, and its not a freight train for once in this whole soul-crushing saga.

It looks like I will be done with dealing with all of this bullshit on the university, state, and certifying body levels very soon. At a minimum I know what I need to do to resolve residual concerns. Very slightly tempted to say fuckitall to the local government, and if I didn’t love the people I volunteer with so much I really might.

[lark-in-ink]

I was thinking “I feel weird” and then I realized that the reason I feel weird is because I’m not anxious. 

[glittergutts]

I decided I didn't want to stop smoking just so I could take klonapin. I would rather just keep living how I've been the past year without it and enjoying my life in a cloud of smoke where at least weed doesn't hurt my life or relationships the way pills do. It feels like a big decision because I know I'll probably never be able to take the shit the way I'm supposed to, but life is also hard without it. Idk with or without. I seem to struggle in different ways, and I'm being forced to really think about my life and the future I've been trying to build. I don't want anything getting in the way of that. Or especially in the way of my marriage. I know my drug use is going to drive my family away if I don't stop so I'm just going to fucking stop. I mean, ideally. It's difficult, but if I don't have a prescription, I can't take them. I have to prevent further damage to my soul and this is the only way even though I fucking hate it. I'm going to miss the comfort I find in being medicated, but hopefully, I'll find that somewhere else in life. My brain feels weird, but damn I'm trying my best.

[archbudzar]

Pillhead // A.J. // xxx

[rgr-pop]

i have 2 klonapin left and ONE REFILL AVAILABLE that they WON’T REFILL and my doctor has ghosted me