#kit death

[goofy-clan]

Anguish

Moon 10

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[edwinspaynes]

I love love love the scene where Thomas and Alastair get back from their Carriage Ride(tm) and Thomas immediately smash-cuts to seeing Christopher's body in the bier. Like, there are so many fascinating things here!

One thing I find intriguing is Thomas's physical appearance here. In the carriage, Alastair ripped the buttons off his shirt. He is EXTREMELY out of place, and in a past context, it was hot. Sweet, even. But now, it makes him look even MORE wretched. Like, he is fucking shattered, and his appearance is reflecting that.

Two, Thomas's grief in this scene is PALPABLE. Like, his grief almost always takes the form of action - hunting down the killer post-Barbara dying in ChoI, and (after this scene) going through London and desperately hunting Watchers once Kit died. But here, his legs give out. Cordelia describes it like falling to the ground like a puppet whose strings were cut. We see denial, and then bargaining, as he pleads with Lucie (who can't do anything, and is horrified about that) to bring Kit back. We see Thomas unable to act for the first time, because the grief has not just hit in such a massive wave. It hit immediately after a moment of profound joy, and he is JARRED.

God, I love Thomas. I love his thoughts, and his PoV, and the ways that he grieves.

And I love that Alastair is his "talisman against pain and grief," because even when things are unspeakable awful, there is always a spark of light.

[dahliaclangen]

Content warning: animal death, kit death below the cut.

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[residents-of-the-darkforest]

Dark Forest Resident: Cliffprance

Aliases / Nicknames: Cliff, Clifffoot

Gender: tom

Sexuality: grey-pansexual, demiromantic

Family: Pebble (mother), Flail (father), Shellsmoke (mate), Redpoppy, Icykit (daughters), Croakpaw, Junipercloud (sons), Roachfreckle (mate, formerly)

Other Relations: Bluemouse (mentor), Dappledlight (wet nurse)

Clan: ThunderClan (formerly), WindClan (formerly)

Rank: rogue (at death)

Characteristics: curious, easily amused, likes telling stories (formerly), cold, emotionless, prefers silence, likes being left alone (currently), bossy, has constant joint pain

Murder Motive: vengeance

Number of Victims: 23

Number of Murders: 19

Murder Method: leading into wars, tricking into wars, have other cats fight for him

Known Victims: Dappledlight, Galepaw (accidently), Agavepaw, Roachfreckle, Flail (indirectly), unnamed foster sister, unnamed warriors, unnamed kits, unnamed apprentices, unnamed elders

Victim Profile: Clan cats [WindClan, ThunderClan], rogues

Cause of Death: redcough

Cautionary Tale: The kit rejected by the Clan will be the one to burn it down.

Story: 

It is a long told saying, passed from mother to kit, father to brother, or mentor to apprentice. As generations passed, it became unclear of its origins. Did it start with Cliffprance? Or had his story simply been a result of the cats in his life neglecting to heed its warning:

The kit rejected by the Clan will be the one to burn it down.

Anyone who had met the tom when he was just a kit had been horrified to see the monster he had became, and anyone who had suffered in his reign of terror would refuse to believe that even he had once been an innocent, sweet kit.

In fact, many point to his very first murder, committed when he was only six moons old.

Cliffkit and his father, Flail, were welcomed into the Clan after he had just been born. His mother died while kitting, and between being unable to take care of him on his own and the rising aggression in the other loners, Flail had no other choice but to seek help.

The Clan was strongly against outsiders, but turning them away would go against the code. Flail was determined to prove himself and his son, which meant that he spent most of his time out of the camp to hunt, patrol, or gather supplies. Cliffkit, meanwhile, spent most of his time with Dappledlight, the queen that reluctantly and begrudgingly nursed him.

She was not his true mother, blood or adoptive or anything else, and she was keen to make sure he remembered that. She would growl and push him away if she thought that he was drinking too much milk so that her own kits would have enough, and she would make him sleep in another nest because she didn't want his loner-sickness spreading to her litter, only allowing him to sleep beside them when the nights were especially cold, though that was only because she got in trouble for neglecting his health when he caught whitecough.

Cliffkit was able to make friends in spite of this, and, surprisingly, his days in the nursery were the best he would experience in his entire life. Maybe if things had gone differently, if he hadn't made that one mistake that would lead him to a dark and bloody path, everything would have been better.

Perhaps it would have been better if it was his blood that spilled.

Cliffpaw didn't mean to do it. He and Galepaw were best friends! They had been excited to train together....but then Cliffpaw's muscles began to spasm. He knew what was happening, but he couldn't control it. His legged kicked out--

Cliffpaw only had a moment to stare in shock, horror, and dispair before Galepaw's mentor, Harefern, tackled him to the ground, hissing angrily in his face words that Cliffpaw's mind was racing too fast to understand, clawing at his pelt before Cliffpaw's own mentor finally bothered to pull him off.

He was shunned after that.

Cliffpaw's nest was pushed closest to the entrance, far from the others. Bluemouse, his mentor and Dappledlight's mate, hardly allowed him to train with the others following the incident, and on the rare chance that he did train with another apprentice, his once-friends would call him a murderer, and state that they didn't want to be killed as well.

Had they ever loved him?

Was his kithood filled with lies?

They now treated him the same way as the warriors did, if not worse. They spit awful words in his ears and poked fun at his lack of Clan heritage. Cliffpaw couldn't stop himself from wondering if they had always held these thoughts toward him...if they only bothered to be nice because Galepaw was nice to him. Now Galepaw was dead, because of him....

He tried to explain to them, to his mentor, the leader, anyone, that it had been an accident, that his muscles shake sometimes and he couldn't control it. But they pointed out that Bluemouse and Harefern would never had allowed the battle training to continue if that were the case, and neither mentor stepped in to corroborate his story, two worried for their own backs, because yes, of course they would have stopped the fight.

Bluemouse's lessons grew more violent. He had been assigned as Cliffpaw's mentor because of his strong prejudice towards outsiders. Duskstar had said that it was because Bluemouse would push him the hardest. Cliffpaw would later believe that that was just an excuse to allow one of his warriors to beat up the useless loner-blood.

The worst was when Cliffpaw began to spasm again. Whether they lasted seconds or longer, Bluemouse would kick at him with his claws unsheathed, demanding he cut it out.

Cliffpaw would beg Flail several times to leave. Though Flail loved his son and tried to protect him, he said that since they joined the Clan, rogues had entered the territories around the Clan, and that it was safer here than anywhere else.

Shortly after their conversation, Agavepaw offered Cliffpaw extra lessons. Cliffpaw happily agreed, all too eager for a friend. But when the two were alone, Agavepaw accused Cliffpaw of being part of the rogue gang, being sent here as a spy.

Cliffpaw was startled, and nothing he said could reason with her, not when her grief for her father--killed recently by the rogues--blinded her to his innocence. She leaped, bit and clawed--he had no choice. He was only defending himself.

Their words rang in his head.

Murderer!

Rogue scum!

Monster!

Killer!

Were they right? He was a killer...he killed two cats....he was a murderer.

But there was another voice, a burning flame that turned his tears to ashes.

They deserved it.

He dragged the body back to camp, explaining that they were attacked by one of the rogues. More than a few cats were skeptical, but it made enough sense for them to believe his story.

That didn't make things any easier for him. The apprentices hated him now more than ever. They refused to speak to him, to so much as eat near him.

The first was an accident.

The second was in defense.

But the third would be when his murderous deeds became fully and utterly intentional.

Bluemouse took him on a solo border patrol. There was nothing out of the ordinary about that, Bluemouse rarely allowed him to patrol or train with others, stating that he didn't want his foul stench to stain anyone.

They spotted a squirrel in a thin, flimsy tree. Bluemouse ordered Cliffpaw to go after it. Cliffpaw didn't protest--he had learned by now that it only lead to him being cuffed around the ear, or worse. His body weight caused the branches to bend dangerously, and his heart had raced--but when a yowl split the air, he realized he was lucky to be in the leaves.

He watched as three rogues attacked Bluemouse, pulling at him and slicing at his fur. They were clearly having fun as they bit, jumped away to avoid Bluemouse's swinging paw, and jumped back to bite him again.

Cliffpaw's alarm melted into dark pleasure. His heart was still racing, but differently now. It pounded in a way he never wanted to end, the thrill at seeing Bluemouse's pelt be torn to shreds bit by bit, the satisfaction as his angry growls became painful whimpers...Cliffpaw wished the show would never end.

When the rogues were long gone, he left the tree, gazed happily at Bluemouse's corpse, and trotted back to camp. His story this time was that Bluemouse got tired with him and sent him back to camp early. Since that already happened many times in the past moons, no one batted an eye.

Cliffpaw's apprenticeship had already been extended two moons for Galepaw's death, and now with his mentor dead, Duskstar saw no point to letting it go on any further. He named Cliffpaw Clifffoot. Of course he did. Even with Bluemouse gone, Cliffpaw couldn't forget.

The cheers of the crowd were low and half-hearted, all but Flail's, who shouted it to the Stars.

Clifffoot tried not to care. He didn't need them. They were too weak for him. But though the darkness had gripped its ugly claws in his heart, it still ached to belong, to be loved, to just have one friend that wasn't his father.

After his vigil, he spent the day curled alone in his nest and crying into his paws.

Whenever his emotions were especially getting to him, he would send silent prayers to his mother. He had never been able to meet Pebble, but Flail had talked about her often enough for Clifffoot to picture her perfectly in his mind. From there, his imagination built her more and more, as he pretended she was curled around him or watching him play so that he had someone other than his father to talk to.

That day was no different. Alone in the den, his shaking voice called to her, begging for her forgiveness as he cried that he didn't want to be a monster. He begged her to take him from this place, something he had begged of her many times in his kithood, when he pretended that someone was curled around him in the nursery. But like all the times before, there was nothing but silence.

He was dumbfounded when Shellsmoke, a pretty she-cat, confessed her feelings for him. He had thought that everyone in the Clan either hated him or tolerated him, so he met Shellsmoke's words with skepticism.

But the more time they spent together, the more open he became. It took a moon, but finally Clifffoot was able to realize and accept that he loved someone and someone loved him.

Someone loved him!

Curse StarClan for taking that away.

Moments before a rainstorm broke, a patrol returned with her bloodied body, stating that rogues had attacked and killed her.

Dappledlight spoke up first, voicing her doubts of Flail's innocence--who had been on the patrol. After all, everything had been fine until 'those two' arrived, then suddenly cats were dying like flies and rogues were getting bolder.

Her words were quickly joined by her remaining kits, Clifffoot's once-friends who now demanded he be exiled into the unknown.

With so many warriors against them, Duskstar listened and sent the father and son into exile.

Flail was determined to keep his spirits high. He told Clifffoot not to blame the Clan, that they were scared and needed someone to blame. Clifffoot didn't listen, too bitter to. He didn't even get a chance to grieve for his mate before he was kicked out just because of his origin.

Flail began to say something else dull and supposedly encouraging again when the pair were jumped. They hissed and clawed at the rogues, and when they were shoved to the ground, the weights were lifted and they found themselves facing Clan cats. Different Clan cats.

Flail thanked them, and right when he was about to introduce them, Clifffoot stepped in and announced them both as kind loners--Flail and Cliff--looking for shelter from the rogues.

Flail privately questioned him after they were welcomed, but Cliff figured that they wouldn't have as high a chance if they told them the truth. How would they explain why they were exiled, and how could they prove their innocence?

It was only luck that Duskstar decided to keep the loners a secret from the other Clans, and that the rain had washed most of the Clan-scent from their fur.

All was peaceful, at least on the surface.

Cliff's Clanmates were warmer, though still wary due to the rogue attacks. They were still willing to share prey and a den, and when they patrolled with him, they were more than happy to engage in small talk. One of the cats, Roachfreckle, even asked him to be her mate! He agreed, only to keep up the appearance of a trusted Clanmate. One of them.

But he wasn't. He spent too many seasons having that lesson beaten into him.

It could have been a second chance for Cliff to finally live happily.

But it all came too late.

He was denied a mother that loved him.

He was denied a mentor that didn't take every opportunity to beat him.

He was denied littermates, blood or otherwise, that cared for him.

He was denied friends.

Even before he was born, he was denied health.

And when he finally found love, it was struck down from him and he was kicked out of his and his father's home.

Cliff couldn't easily forget.

He couldn't easily forgive.

All his life, he was pushed and pushed and pushed, each shove adding a sliver of ice to his heart. There was no longer warmth, no longer affection, and there was not a single trace of the gentle kit he had once been. It was all frozen, forgotten and buried, and there was nothing left but bitter resentment--resentment for his old Clanmates, resentment for the rogues that first caused their distrust, even resentment for the Clanmates he had now, and for his father that hadn't even noticed how much pain his son had suffered. They were all worthless, and they all deserved to die.

It was the only logical next step, wasn't it? After all, he was already a murderer in seemingly everyone's eyes.

He didn't care if he was killed, and that kept fear at bay. It was why he could take some extra prey from the pile late at night, when he was the only one awake--sitting guard.

With no terror against the rogues and what they could do, he walked through the moors unbothered until he came across a scent trail. He followed it, growing larger and larger until cats sprang out and demanded what he was doing so close to their home.

Cliffprance spat what he carried to the ground and offered them the food.

While they eagerly ate, Cliffprance noticed how skinny they were. Bones with a veil named 'cat.' It was no wonder they were crossing over the borders. They must have been starving!

Cliffprance tried not to show his delight at seeing their suffering. He hated the rogues just as much as the Clan cats.

The leader of the small group introduced himself as Domino, and questioned Cliffprance's reasoning for helping them. Cliffprance told them the truth, part of it at least. He told them that his parents had been starving just as they were, and that he, too, suffered by the Clans' cruelty.

The more they talked, the more he learned.

As far as these rogues--'loners' they called themselves--knew, they only tried to hunt, but anywhere there was plentiful food, there were Clan cats who chased them away. Of course, some of the loners became aggressive. Wouldn't anyone who was desperate to eat? And with more cats becoming aggressive, less Clan cats were tolerant of the remaining loners.

Cliffprance offered them help.

He would be their 'saviour.'

He snuck out food to them once a day, whenever he could sneak out. With that, he gained their trust. More and more cats heard about the generous Clan cat offering meals, and more and more cats trusted him with their lives.

He spent moons feeding them, talking to them like they were buddies, and soon enough, training them to fight. You know, in case those Clan cats give them trouble.

Slowly, he planted the seeds.

First it was just a thought, a joke, a random thing. "I wonder why Clan cats think they're so much better than everyone else. Can't they see others are starving?"

Then it was feeding their resentment. "I can't believe anyone would turn their backs on those that need help! How cruel can they be?"

Then it was hypothetical. "What would you do if you could say something to a Clan cat, other than me?" "What would you do if you could take vengeance?"

Then it became planning.

But while the gears were still turning, voices became doubtful. Domino was the most loud of them all.

Cliffprance had to show them that harming the Clan cats was the only way, while squashing all doubt.

He acted distressed when he returned to them one day with food and they told him that Domino had been killed by the Clan! They had found him with his throat slit, a mouse in his jaws. He only wanted to feed them--there weren't even any signs of a fight! They just jumped him without warning him or chasing him off! They wanted him dead!

Things became incredibly easier after that. Moons of being chased away from good food that they desperately needing, of being torn into for 'trespassing,' and now for being killed, all for being different than a precious Clan cat made all of the loners, rogues, whatever, willing to follow whatever Cliffprance said that they needed to do in order to serve justice.

He didn't want to attack all at once. Instead, he lead the occasional patrol in a certain direction, and would return home panting and distressed that the rogues! The rogues had attacked them!

Of course, he wasn't stupid enough to lead all of the patrols that died. Sometimes, he happened to be out at the same time and told them of this great place for hunting he found the other day.

It was only after two and a half--the final patrol was just two cats--were killed that Featherstar declared that no cat should leave the camp unless accompanied by four of their Clanmates. Cliffprance figured that that was a good enough time to strike.

He lead the rogues under cover of darkness, their scent hidden by the lavender fields they rolled in.

Cliffprance took out the guard before she could raise the alarm, his identity as a fellow Clanmate allowing him to get close enough before she realized something was wrong.

Every den was attacked. The warriors, the elders, the medicine cat, the queens and even their kits were thrown into the fight.

If there was one thing that Cliffprance had convinced the rogues of, it was this:

the Clans had to be culled.

Flail had looked at his son with such horror, begging, asking why he was doing this.

Cliffprance only stared at him coldly, maintaining unblinking eye-contact as Flail was jumped.

Then, when he was satisfied with the damage--he yowled into the air. "ThunderClan! Retreat!"

The trick had worked.

After they had rolled in lavender, the rogues caked themselves completely in mud. Their scent had been disguised and so too their appearance. Cliffprance had given them the names of his old Clanmates to use during the attack. "Duskstar, over here!" one cat would say to another.

WindClan had believed that Cliffprance--and possibly Flail--were traitors all along, sent by ThunderClan to infiltrate them. The irony. That's just what ThunderClan used to think of them.

Cliffprance only had to sit back and watch gleefully as WindClan and ThunderClan tore each other apart.

He returned to the ThunderClan camp one day, while most of the warriors were away in one of the many battles. Any remaining cats that tried to force him away were easily beaten by the five rogues that accompanied him.

Cliffprance followed Dappledlight's scent and found her, amazingly, in the nursery. But she wasn't the one that had had kits. No, the vile she-cat was an elder now and merely visiting her daughter, one of Cliffprance's foster-littermates-turned bully.

Cliffprance didn't do the killing himself just yet. No, he sat back, wanting to watch the carnage as well as the horror on both she-cats faces as the rogues did what had to be done to their kits. Only after bathing in the cries of their anguish did Cliffprance rise to silence them.

Now both Clans knew of Cliffprance's horrid actions. Both knew he was a monster--not the kind they imagined him to be. No, he was much, much worse.

But the battles would continue a while longer before either Clan figured the connection and realized that they had been tricked. Knowing now that they had a common enemy, they joined forced against the rogues.

But by then Cliffprance had already left.

He knew what was going to happen--he had known since the beginning, and he smiled as he walked as yowls rang out in the distant air.

All it took was a little bit of manipulation and he had started a war. Two, in fact, depending on how long the rogues lasted.

It was the fault of those filthy rogues that had ThunderClan distrust Cliffprance so much, and it was ThunderClan that had treated him like filth most of his life.

He only had to be friendly with one before he he got them to kill each other.

He knew that ThunderClan would live on, and so would WindClan--though with much smaller numbers. The rogues were more of a mystery, but he guessed one or two may live.

There was one thing that was certain:

they would not forget him anytime soon.

Additional Information: 

--Cliffprance was a cat collectively created by many of us! Together, we designed him in Clangen and gave him his conditions, and decided via poll the range of his victim number. I decided to specify his story using some ideas from things that happened in Clangen.

These things include his father's name, becoming mates with the two named, and dying as Clifffoot (and me reviving him as Cliffprance and writing it as him being exiled and finding a new name that way).

You can see who did what here

--Base: Full Reference Cat FTU Base by Naxolite on DeviantArt

Yes I realized I messed up his foot placement on the refs.

--It doesn't show too much on these refs but he is a longhair!

--It didn't make it into the story because I couldn't find a spot that flowed right, but Cliffprance lost his paw in a training accident by a twoleg trap. Bluemouse likely left him there.

--I might explain it in a more detailed post, but basically some loners became more aggressive as they became more desperate. One accidently killed a Clan cat, causing many ThunderClan cats to hate them and become more violent when they chased them off, in turn causing the rogues to become more violent against them.

I might also make a thing where the ThunderClan cat was actually murdered and it was pinned on the rogues?

--While ThunderClan did majorly suck in not noticing Cliff's pain and not stepping in, many of them did not hate Cliffprance as much as he believed they did. But who could blame him for thinking what he did?

--Roachfreckle either died in the ambush or in one of the battles against ThunderClan.

[warriorstickers]

Cavernclan Cherryfreckle brushed against her mate, as they returned from their hunt together. Burntheart, her dark pelted mate, carried their spoils in his jaws, the rabbit dangling side to side as he walked. It had been so nice to spend some time alone with him. He had been such a steady presence by her side, through everything, always. Even when he didn’t always agree with everything she did, he stuck by her side. I don’t know what I would have done without him. She was glad he had recovered from his heat exhaustion, just as she was healing from her wound. “I had better go get my final checkup.” Cherryfreckle muttered to her mate, and they exited the dark tunnel, which opened up to the large cave the clan made their camp in. The camp was alive with noise, as usual. Talondrift was getting praised by Goldstar for working so hard despite her recent injury. Oaknettle loudly called Talondrift a ‘suckup’, before Oddthistle batted the young tom with a paw. Cherryfreckle would have preferred to skip the checkup, if it were her choice, but she didn’t want to give Goldstar another reason to be upset with her, and she knew Burnthear worried too. “I’ll meet up with you after?” She asked him. Her mate nodded, and headed in the direction of the fresh-kill pile. She turned, and headed towards the Medicine cat den. As she got closer, she could hear voices inside. “-that's why Goldstar did that? I didn't know.” She paused. That was Reedburr’s voice. Was the red Deputy having a private conversation with the Medicine cat? Maybe I should leave… They were talking about her? That was Glowfish’s voice.” I… I went through a lot those days. I was just an apprentice, and I couldn’t save everyone that was hurt. How could I? I hadn't even done my training.” Her voice was sad, and Cherryfreckle’s chest hitched. She didn’t want to hear this, as thoughts of her lost daughter filled her again, and the grief that was always just held back at the sidelines flooded her again. It hurt. She ached so badly to have that little kit back. I don’t want to hear this. “I tried. I tried to save her kit. I didn’t have the right herbs, and even if I had, I couldn’t have done anything. She was likely in Starclan already by the time she was brought to me.” Glowfish’s voice hissed. “The other clans were monsters for mixing up a kit in their attack, and I think Cherryfreckle would have every right to hate them. For whatever reason, she’d chosen to blame me. I don’t know why, and I wish we could share our grief over her daughter together instead. But if it makes dealing with the loss easier for her, she can hate me if she wants to. I don’t think Goldstar should have hurt her. I can take it.” No, no, NO! Cherryfreckle could feel her heart beating quickly, as her head swam with flashing images. Her happy daughter. Her daughter, still and un-moving. Glowfish standing there, not doing anything. Why wasn’t she helping?! I have to get away!  Without knowing where she was going, her paws turned and ran. Through camp, and straight into a dark tunnel. She didn’t want to be seen by anyone, she didn’t want to think. She wanted to disappear.

She ran until her paws took her to the surface. She was on Hayclan territory by the look of it, at a small pond. She looked down at it. Her wound from Goldstar was healed, but it was a scar, occasionally visible on her, under her fur. The dark part of her heart was visible now, forever. She collapsed on the ground, alone in the night, and sobbed. 

~ Burntheart felt as though he was constantly walking a narrow tree branch. His love for his mate was there, as it had been for many many moons now. Since they were apprentices. He understood her grief better than anyone else. He had also lost their daughter, and that pain was one of the coldest aches he could imagine, never fading away. Yet his feelings were complex. He knew his mate was blaming the wrong cat. Glowfish had suffered immensely that day too, only a young apprentice. She had lost all of her family, and he was sure she already blamed herself for not saving them. She had managed to keep the current clan members alive, and cared for them diligently as their current Medicine cat. Already more of them would have likely died without her. Aside from that, she was a kind and lonely molly. He couldn’t help beginning to resent his mate’s treatment of her, and yet at the same time found it impossible to chastise her. He would simply hold the guilt and shame in his own heart instead. “Glowfish?” He called into the Medicine cat den softly, knowing she was likely asleep. He hated to disturb her when she was sleeping, but after hearing from Reedburr again about the effects of his mate on Glowfish, he had felt compelled to come and speak to her, when she would be alone. He heard a sleepy rumble, followed by Glowfish’s sleepy voice. “Burntheart?” She asked in confusion. “Come in. Is everything alright?” The dark tom made his way into her den, and sat in front of her. She was short, like his mate, though her tortoiseshell pelt was much brighter. “I’m healthy. I wanted to talk to you, if I can?” “Of course.” Glowfish responded and he smiled. She sometimes reminded him of her deceased mentor. She had served as a councilor for the clan, along with a healer, always listening to mate’s squabbles, sibling rivalries, and helping to shoulder the burdens of the clan leaders. She had believed that helping to heal the mind was also a Medicine cat’s job. A value it seems she had also instilled in her apprentice Glowfish, before she died.  

“Reedburr spoke to you today, and came to me concerned about Cherryfreckle.” Burntheart began. He hated to watch the way his mate’s name filled the Medicine cat’s face with a twisted pain. Almost exactly the same as his mate’s. They were like mirrors. “I can’t change the way she thinks. I have explained to her what I believe, which is that you are completely blameless in my daughter’s death. I want you to know I believe that.” He watched tears well in Glowfish’s eyes, and his chest tightened more. He should have told her this sooner. No, his mate should tell her this. Yet he couldn’t push her any harder, afraid she would break. So he let the guilt settle more firmly in his chest before he continued. “I think in her heart she knows. However, the whole of Hayclan and Mossclan are too broad of an enemy for her to hold onto. I think her anger is the only thing that can hold her grief back, and that’s why she can’t let go of her anger for you, even when she knows it’s wrong.”

Glowfish nodded along with his words. He knew she knew, but it still needed to be said. She was intelligent, and wise for her younger age. “I want to make a cruel request of you.”

“You do? What is it?” Glowfish asked, trying to shake the emotion from her face.

“If she ever decides to let go of her anger, and comes to you to make amends, I’d like to ask you to try and forgive her. I know how deeply she’s hurt you, and I’d understand if you didn’t want to forgive her. Still, as her mate, I know her best chance of healing is to make up with you, and share her grief with you.” His lips pulled back in frustration, and he bowed his head. “Please. I love her so much, and I have for so long. I want her to heal.”

He kept his head bowed until Glowfish spoke. She had moved close to him and reached up to brush her forehead against his. “I will try. I want to share the grief with her too.” She stepped back, and met his eyes as he lifted his head. “You’re a good mate, and she’s lucky to have you. Thank you for not blaming me.”

As he wanted his mate to do, he let his grief out in front of the Medicine cat. So often he felt he was trying to keep his mate together, how long had it been since he had cried for his kit, himself? Maybe not since her death. So he cried now, and Glowfish cried with him, silently in the Medicine cat den, and they shared their grief. 

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Lots of crying this season on Cavernclan! But they will be in for more in the future...

[i-fear-the-moon-rp]

Lore Spotlight

(TW; kit death, blood)

T H E O L D V I X E N

This she-fox is cunning and dangerous. Having lost her kits to RunningClan moons ago, she is hardened from a vicious territory struggle.

She is known to steal kits and lure trusting apprentices to their doom. Though she speaks cat well enough, there is nearly no reasoning with her once you’ve met her gaze.

Having recently been evicted from her home (the Owl Skull Tree RunningClan periodically stays in), she is furious and ripe with anger. A darkness has built up in her for so long; her spirit tired… exhausted.

Her only desire is to see them suffer as they did to her babies… Revenge will never be enough for this broken canine. She craves more and more of their misery, desperately hoping one day the Clans will finally get what they deserve.

How dare they challenge her season after season.

[bumbleclan]

me seeing a "!" over births and deaths after a hushclan timeskip: please dont be another litter of 4-5.....

A Hawk Stealing A Baby:

[blackbird-brewster]

Empire of Death, a Summary.

[glitterclan]

MOON 29 - Greenleaf

FIRST PREVIOUS NEXT

[elven-kisses]

devotion / death / delusion

[kitsquared]

Yeah you did your best

To keep him alive

[edwinspaynes]

basically for saying to the others to not fully turn their backs on Grace because she had a bad situation with not many ways out, so many wished he died in that moment which he did not long after actually

I mean, they've known Kit all their lives. They're not going to turn their backs on him.

I do agree that Christopher probably shouldn't have defended Grace in that moment just as James was saying that she literally sexually abused him, but I'm not mad at him.

My only real #hot take here is that I'd rather him die than him voluntarily leave Thomas forever, but I dont think it would have come to that. A Merry Thieves confrontation would have been interesting, but it would have needed to be resolved for the books to be sarisfying since TMT is one of TLH's strongest points.

And, like Thomas, there is no world where I wish Kit would die. He didn't deserve it, and being upset about this to the point of wishing death on Kit is frankly insane. Im glad I've never seen these people.

[karuinekom]

when everyone thought frenchie would secretly bring lucius food as he hid in the walls, but then we got frenchie sneaking izzy medicines, and something in the universe suddenly shifted.

[vuelode-irbis]

Been wanting to draw some fanart for Poor George MAP since it's my favorite one, and because it was its anniversary recently, I finally did it :>

ID: A digital drawing in two panels with characters from Warriors. In the panel above, there's Yellowfang watching Brokenkit play with a moss ball, she looks endearingly at the little kit; they're in a green environment and plants surround them. In the panel below, Yellowfang is in the same possition, looking down at an adult Brokenstar at her feet, already dead, she looks sorrowful. Fireheart is by her side, looking at her with compassion. They're at ThunderClan's medicine den.

[mourningsbane]

Uhhhh imma need you to elaborate on palekit’s teeth being ‘deep’ in the gums 😶

Tanglefern shudders at the memory and is quick to dispel the thought. It is better, perhaps, to move on and forget.

[payasita]

They're Just Cats