#kinda lonely

[arthur-lesters-tits]

does someone wanna join me on my Dreamlands adventures

[shinyrhinestones]

Kinda sad about the fact that i have no friends to talk about shifting and my DR’s with also when i have shifted.

[anxietlockedup]

[iamnotawomanimagod]

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[hwanchaesong]

me thinks & rants—

i was gone for sooo long here in tumblr bc of my busy schedule last year. like a year perhaps? there were some (rare) updates and ik those weren't enough. and now i realized that a lot of my moots from before have been out too like 🥲🥲

[madeleinelovescolours]

🙍‍♀️ 🌸 🤍 🌇 🍚

[the-great-dumpster-fire]

God I need to find a partner. I won't complain about being lonely to my friends, they don't need to feel guilty for being in a happy relationship. Everytime a friend gets a date I feel an ugly flash of jealousy and resentment, it lasts less than a second but I still don't like it. Everytime I'm in a relationship I tear my heart open and make a nest inside, I give them a part of me, I give them so much. I have so much to give. It's too much for me to be alone with. I can feel desperation oozing out of me. I just want to hold someone close, feel them breathe, and press them against my chest. Maybe I'm too eager to give someone my whole heart, but I don't really care. My last relationship was pretty much doomed from the start, mainly because I got way to invested in someone who couldn't do the same for me. But closing myself off isn't a lesson I'm willing to learn. I'm going to tear open my chest cavity and see who wants my heart.

Anyone interested plz DM me, I'm a minor so keep it saw. Honestly I'm not sure anyone will even see this, but if feels really nice to say it.

[littleoldpessimistme]

20230525

One of the hardest things for me that I have struggled my whole life with and probably will for a long time is loneliness and I’m fine with that fact most of the time, but lately it’s been on my mind a lot.

This sounds really lame and pitiful but the thing is: I’m not alone. I have friends, wonderful ones, and I’m also pretty close with my family (at least my dad’s side, haven’t really talked to my mother in the last 6 years) so I do have people in my corner.

But sometimes I just get this overwhelming feeling of sadness and anxiety that this isn’t gonna last forever and I already sometimes feel like they don’t care as much about me as I care about them.

Basically I have this feeling that all my friends are eventually gonna find partners, settle down with them and start their own life and I’m not gonna be important to them anymore.

I have a wonderful friend. We’ve known each other since we were 10, we were classmates all through high school as well and also best friends. We had a short period when we didn’t talk as much because we used to have the same group of friends but it was kind of toxic (as groups of high school girls sometimes unfortunately are) so I started hanging out with other friends but this girl stayed in that group (we’ve had multiple conversations about this since then and they were actively ruining her life as well lol) so we just kind of stopped talking for a hot second. In the last year of high school we slowly started to talk to each other again and it turned out that she wanted to go to the same university as me and we decided to be roommates.

Two years have passed since then and I feel like we managed to form such a beautiful bond and although neither one of us is really one for displays of affection (we even joke about this sometimes, that we’ve known each other for more than half our lifetime and we’ve only ever hugged each other like a couple times) I really cherish her presence in my life. We just click so well, I don’t think we’ve ever had an argument since we moved in (and I feel like that’s a telling thing, because living together with someone comes with a lot of compromises and is a big milestone in any relationship it’s normal to have some bumps in the road). I sometimes think that I could live my whole life like this just existing in a shared little two bedroom apartment, watching movies on her bed, having deep converastions at midnight when we have to wake up early the next morning, going grocery shopping together, sitting in our tiny kitchen having dinner and laughing until we can’t breathe just like we always do.

I always hated those questions when they ask you to describe how you imagine yourself in five years because I genuinely don’t know what to say. I never had any sense of what I want from the limited time I get to experience on this earth. The only way I could ever imagine being content is to spend my whole life in my childhood bedroom surrounded by my books and blankets and just being left alone, because I’m so incredibly terrified of the responsibilites of adulthood and life and human interactions. But I feel like living with her the way we’re living right now would make me happy. I would go as far as to call her a platonic soulmate.

I know that sounds incredibly cheesy and domestic and honestly kinda like I’m in love with her, but I have no romantic feeling for her at all, it’s just that my platonic feelings are so deep, that they scare even me sometimes. Especially when they come with feelings of jealousy. She has a fiancé, they’re gonna get married next year if everything goes well and I’m truly happy for them. He’s a great guy, we used to be classmates as well, they’ve been dating since the start of high school and they are just so meant to be.

And I feel like such a terrible person for being jealous of him. He’s studying in a different city but every once in a while he visits us, and I see how they are with each other and it always leaves me with such a bitter feeling because I can clearly see that he is to her what she is to me. They are each other’s soulmates, and it’s so stupid but that hurts me so much, the fact that I’ll never be as much of a central person in her life as she is in mine. That I’m not her soulmate.

And I know that I’m being extremely childish and it’s not like people can’t have multiple people they care deeply about but I just feel like people favour romantic relationships way more than friendships and I don’t know if I’ll ever have a romantic partner because that’s just not really someting that I find all that appealing (I may or may not be on the aroace spectrum). I don’t want kisses and dates and lovey-dovey words and sex, I just want someone to be there for me all the time, like a super best friend, someone who also thinks about me as their soulmate, and not just the other way around.

And I know that my friends love me I just can’t help but feel overwhelmingly hopeless sometimes.

[ryokazu]

Hi everyone. If anyone is seeing any of my posts.

I don't like it when I get on something and put myself way out there and not many people respond or react to anything I do.

I feel like a ghost.

No wonder I feel like Ryou Bakura, Pluto or the reverse version of Bill Cipher.

It hurts when I see very cute people together and I'm happy but I feel empty.

I'm ready for anyone to complete me that won't use me for a free place. I work my butt off to be me but everyone around me is moving and I'm not. I make sure everyone else is taken care of before myself. I'm 32 and in April I will be 33 and I just feel like I haven't done much. I am a manager of a tobacco shop in AR but not much more than that.

[ohcinderbaby]

[aineasu]

Hello humans of this hell world.

I’m not sure how one can actually make friends but I thought basic communication would be a good attempt!

My name is Ari and I’m looking to actually start making some friends (duh that’s what you just said.)

I’m 25, I’d personally like to interact with people my own age. Ok? Cool.. I’m a nerd, that’s easy, I enjoy anime, manga, I game a bit, I’m a huge bookworm, I’m not good at explaining myself.. I’m a bit shy, this is more or less my own personal style of how to open up.

If you happen to stumble across this post! Feel free to attempt to chat with me! Thanks

[cannibal-dollzartz]

I made homestuck roblox friends:> now I have 3 friends only 1 irl tho

[seongwin]

I think I just realized I like pda????? Like don't try to make out with me but I love hand holding or linking arms. I am affectionate or at least I would like to be. Most of my friends aren't super into skinship or anything so I try not to be overly clingy. But dang I love hugging and cuddling and being all up in my friends aura! It's not like I have a partner either so all my romantic love is just kept to myself which isn't a problem but sometimes I wish I had one just for a smooch and a hug. Being physically affectionate is hard. Most of the time I combat it with trying to say it instead of how I would normally show it. But it's hard cuz it doesn't feel as authentic as I want it to be. To me at least. Not that it isn't but still. I hope this makes sense to someone.

[anxietlockedup]

[lolitsbuckybarnes]

To all 5 of you🫶💖

To my sad mutuals…..CATCH!

[arloconroy]

Hey, so I'm bored and feeling kinda like shit.

I'm gonna ignore sleep and chaotically rant/vent on here. Mostly to pretend I'm actually talking to someone who'd care or want to listen and not talking to the empty void of my room (it's like 11pm rn and my room is just darkness)