#kinda heartbreaking i CANT lie

[residentrookie]

getting vulnerable on the dash if u saw this no u didn’t

[nebbistrs]

more bnha/mha headcanons!

part one!

(i recommend you read through my first set of hcs bc theres a few references jajaja. i did say its a ref. on those points specifically tho lol.)

• katsuki wears hearing aids, but refuses to learn sign language. does he know it? yes, but hes very pissed about it

• even before the final arc, katsukis arms were already very messed up. fighting at the end just worsened it, almost to the point his arm may never recover if he breaks it again (kinda laike izuku)

• katsukis hero costume head gear thingy also works as a muffler on his ears

• katsuki listens to heartbreak songs even if hes never experienced one

• izuku spies on hitoshi when he trains. hitoshi always catches him and its super awkward each time, but they become rly close over time

• izuku plays persona games (nebstar is totally not planning a persona 3 au with bnha characters)

• besides katsuki, the person in the class izuku takes the most notes of is shoto and ochako

• izuku buys hitoshi banana milk (ref. to prev. headcanons lol)

• izuku use to be an undertale fan

• ochako works part time after school at a nearby cafe

• ochako listens to heavy metal when she works out, but her other playlists are early 2000s songs. she asks izuku for recommendations sometimes (referencing pt. 1)

• ochako originally voted for tenya to be class representative, but thought he would be too stuck up so she changed her vote to izuku

• ochako wants to take up sewing, its one of her after school clubs

• tsuyu loves to watch romance shows even though she usually complains about how unrealistic they are

• tsuyu didnt see toru one time, so as she was using her tongue in training and smacked the absolute shit out of her by accident. she still feels bad about it to this day

• whenever its too cold, tsuyu asks mezo if they can cuddle. theres been times (multiple) mezo has to take her to her room because she falls asleep bc hes so warm and gentle

• momo depises wearing pants. she grew up a prim and proper lady so she lives in dresses and skirts. even a majority of her pajamas are night gowns, if not, it has to be a silk matchibg set

• sometimes when the girls notice tsuyu missing her family, specifically her brother and sister, they let her do their hair

• momo has an intense fear of heights, which is why she never gets on roller coasters

• momo listens to classical music. theres no way she doesnt.

• until U.A, momo never had any real friends. even though she went to private school, her 'friends' were very fake and used her for her money

• mina lives in gyaru fashion & makeup outside of school. even during school she tries to do her heavier makeup but is often reprimanded for it

• despite her whole pink aesthetic and room, minas favorite color is actually purple

• mina actually hangs out with eijiro and tetsutetsu a lot

• watches your lie in april every april. and its not one day, its everday of april. and mina cries every time

• hanta moves very well with his quirk, but actually prefers to skateboard

• hanta actually won a skateboarding competition right before enrolling at U.A. bro did some crazy stunts

• when he has nightmares about fighting villains, tape shoots out of hantas arms and hes unaware until the morning when he finds himself covered in tape instead of his blanket

• hanta has a pair of cargo pants for every possible occasion. yes, cargo pants.

• automatically in winter, mezo will wrap his arms around tsuyu to keep her warm and snow away from her.

• even though modified outfits for quirks are actually very common, mezo still cant find coats for his body. he has one and its been through shit. instead he turns into elsa from frozen and says, "the cold doesnt bother me anyways"

• mezo keeps a stuffed animal in his room despite saying having a lot of stuff was unnecessary. he keeps it because it was from the girl he saved when he was younger. she gave it to him and told him if he felt sad that the stuffed animal would be there for him

• mezo would sneak into the city because he hated how he was treated when he was younger. he ended up joining a dance group where everyone was 18 and older. they still reach out to him and support him. literally, they were cheering for him at the sports festival even if he didnf make it to finals

BONUS!

• momo and tenya have study sessions together. since she is the top student he doesnt go to anyone else

• shoto gives nicknames to all his pokemon. they are named after his classmates. there is at least 5 of each classmate as he tries to complete the pokedex (ref. to part one)

• rikido has a big fat crush on one of the girls in class 1-b but doesnt know how to confess or even if she will accept so he bakes cakes for her and gives it to her before school starts

• denki sneezes like a girl and kyoka sneezes like a 50 year old man. they always tease each other about it

• eijiro had a wedgie and pulled it when he thought no one was looking but tetsutetsu and mina did and they will never let it go.

[yeondollie]

ʟɪɴɢᴇʀ 𝜗𝜚 ᝰ.ᐟ

'so why were you holding her hand?' 𓏲 ๋࣭  ࣪ ˖

. . paring ; toxic! soobin x fem! reader

. . warnings ; ANGST .ᐟ, heartbreak, soobin cheats, pet names (my love, baby, honey), argument, mentions of jake from enhypen and karina from aespa (i love them sm sm), language, jake falls in love with reader, kinda fluff with jake, established relationship, soobins manpulating reader, breakup, nonidol! au, college au, crying, reader is struggling, if i missed anything let me know ! :p

. . words ; 1.1k ⟡

a/n ; hiiii !! i was listening to linger and i was like wait this would make a great angst so please please enjoy! frat! yeonjun and jennifers body x txt are comingggg i promise you guys :p im really liking the frat one so enjoy enjoy i love u guys sm sm ♡

there you were, sitting on soobins bed while he was in the shower looking through his phone. you had his password, he had yours; everything was normal. you just wanted to transfer some pictures you had taken on his phone to your own, until you saw it.

it was some girl, some girl laying on his shoulder and he took a picture of it. it looked like his hands were placed on her thighs, what the fuck? your eyes couldn't believe that you saw. suddenly you were filled with anger, angry hot tears filled your eyes.

you watched soobin fiddle with the bathroom door until it opened, his eyes locking with your now tear filled ones. "_____ what happened? is everything okay?" he tried wrapping his arms around you, still semi wet from his shower but all you did was protest. "no, no dont t-touch me." you sniffle and push him off of you, leaving him clueless.

all you did was shove his phone in his face, not saying a word. it's not like you could speak from all the tears flowing from your eyes anyways. "baby no its not.. that was a while ago." suddenly you burst out in anger on him. even if it was a long time ago, he still cheated.

"i dont c-care.. you cheated on me? was it worth it soobin?" you raise your tired voice at him. god he hated when you called him soobin. why not binnie or bin or even baby? " my love please _____ call me bin.. i-its really not what you t-think." he says, which immediately ticks you off. did he think you were that dumb you'd believe a lie like that?

“so what is it? please inform me.” your sniffling still but have regained enough strength to speak. he paused for a moment, pondering on what to say. “karina- fuck.. _____ s-shes just a..” karina? was that who that was? “karina? who is karina? was that the girl in the picture? was that the fucking girl you're cheating on me with?” he was lost for words, you were right.

he met karina in a club while you were at work. you always told him you worked not only for yourself, but for him. you did everything for him, whatever he wanted you would give it to him. you bought him the stupid stuff he would want and spoil him with all your love and affection. he gave all of it up for a one night stand?

"i do everything for you and you cant even be loyal to me? i-im in this dumb fucking college because of YOU. i had the chance to go to princeton, PRINCETON soobin, but no i gave it up for YOU. e-everything i do.. i-is for you." you started with an angry and loud tone yet it only got softer, weaker. you were breaking and he could tell, only wrapping you in his arms tight.

"i know my love.. i know. i-it didn't mean anything.. i was drunk i-i didn't know please. i'll stop, i'll do whatever you ask of me i promise. i love you so so much baby." god those words hit you like a truck, why were you so wrapped around his finger? when he would speak to you in such a soft and caring tone it was like all was forgiven, you suddenly had forgotten he had cheated but not this time. no, this was over.

you pushed him away weakly. you couldn't do much, he was tall and strong and at the moment you were at your weakest. you managed to get up and start grabbing your belongings weakly. he couldn't believe his eyes, his words didn't work this time. shit.

"honey please i told you it was a mistake! please d-dont leave i-im nothing without you please.. i can't. i can't l-live without you." oh how that was all bullshit and he knew it. he was coming up with whatever lie and pathetic excuse he could to make you stay, you new this tatic all too well.

you simply continue, frantically looking around for more of your stuff. picking it up and throwing it in a random bag you had found. "i-i can't do this anymore soobin. i have done nothing but be supportive and loving to you and you can't even return the favor." you say, sniffling while reaching his doormat to exit. he didn't even make the effort to fight for you; he just muttered something you couldn't quite hear.

"i need you." and thats the last you've heard of him since then.

it's been about five months since you and soobin had called it quits. he tried calling you about 347 times the night you left his apartment. on the way out of soobins place, you saw the cafe your friend used to work at. it looked very cozy and you just needed a little pick me up before driving over to your friends house to get some comfort so you stopped by.

when you picked up your order, something on the cup looked different. the design didn't change, no not that. it had some black sharpie writing on it, seemed to come from your barista as it read: 'call me, its jake btw. also you're really pretty :). is that weird lol?' you giggle and read off his phone number. maybe you would be calling him later.

that night you spent all your time giggling on the phone at his stupid jokes but to you they weren't stupid at all, they were everything to you. this is everything you could've wished for, someone who actually cared about you and made you feel warm inside again.

you and jake continued to be in the "talking stage" for the next month or so until, he asked you to be his girlfriend. it was such an intimate moment, you two were at the yearly carnival and you showed an interest in the tallest ride there. he was scared of heights but, he couldn't tell you that now.

you noticed him shaking, closing his eyes, and holding onto your hand extra tight. "jake are you.. okay?" you ask, looking over to see his eyes still shut. at the very tip top of the ride, before the big drop he said something you'd never forget.

"i'm terrified of heights, i-i really am.. shit but _____ i really, oh my god, need to tell you something. I LOVE YOU!" and before you could get a response out, the ride went taking off leaving you both a screaming mess.

of course after the ride you hugged him close, thanking him for everything and absolutely becoming his girlfriend. the whole night he wouldn't let go of your hand, holding you close, being protective of his pretty girlfriend. you left the carnival a happy girl with her happy boyfriend and to your surprise, hadn't thought of soobin in a while. but, he was thinking about you. thats all he could think about.

part two ?

[certifiedlovergirlsstuff]

cant remember to forget you

pairing: chad meeks-martin x fem!reader

wc: 1.6K

warnings: drinking (at a party), little making out. think thats it.

summary: he just cant leave your mind and maybe thats a good thing

A/N: shakira shakira.

🎧 can't remember to forget you (fucking bop!)

masterlist / chad meeks-martin

you shouldn’t be doing this. you know you shouldn’t be doing this. it’s all a bad idea in the end. an idea your fuzzy brain thinks is genius when it’s the complete opposite.

but you follow through with the idea without a complaint.

feet moving on autopilot, carrying you to your destination without needing directions. you always manage to find the treasure. 

you didn’t bother with niceties when pushing past people. everyone was either drunk, high, or lost in their world to care about ‘sorry’ and ‘excuse me’. you went to the foyer where you last spotted him just before he dipped away. pushing to the tips of your toes, creasing your converse as you tried to look over and through the moving bodies.

you couldn’t see him.

maybe this was a sign. a sign from the universe to stop you from going through with this idea that wasn’t fully formed. it was trying to save you from embarrassment and further heartbreak… but this idea was becoming more appealing by the second.

so you ignored this possible sign and continued your search.

so you turn on your heel back towards the kitchen when you bump into a body. a flat palm to their chest and their arm wrapped behind your back, no alcohol spilled in the process. without even needing to look up, you already know who it is. your treasure, a sign thrown in your face that this was a good idea in the end.

“chad… hi. i was- was just… uh…”

“still can’t lie for shit.” 

even with the music blaring through the multiple speakers, the sound of chad’s deep chuckle rang like a gong beside your ear. it was so nice to hear the sound again. the touch of him again, even through clothes, sets your skin ablaze.

a lull in your interaction causes chad to drop his arm and take a step away. the hand previously on his peck reached for his wrist to keep him from departing. he looked at the skin-to-skin touch but didn’t comment or show discomfort. progress.

“hows- hows classes going? enjoying them?” lips dart to wet the stained skin.

chad seemed taken aback by the questions, not anticipating them. his head cocked with that pinch to the middle of his brows, how you wished to smooth it out with your thumb. 

“classes are- are okay. mostly boring. thinking of taking a- a creative elective.” he gained that step back. arms going slack between your stomachs.

chad twisted his hand so his fingers were able to curl to your hold. more progress. you couldn’t stop staring at your limbs with a dopey smile.

“how’s mindy? and everyone?” subconsciously letting your index finger rub at his bone.

chad seemed to be a bit sad at the question. and you kinda already assumed what he was gonna say.

“well, everyone’s good. but you would know that if you continued to hang out with us.” you could see the tension in his shoulders so you finally dropped his wrist. this was probably where the conversation would die.

“right. i just- after everything i wasn’t sure if-“ you’ve just put your foot in your mouth. brain not being able to catch up to fix any of those mistakes to right the conversation back to a few seconds ago. “i- i miss you.” now both your feet are in your mouth.

chad’s forehead creased and his mouth parted at the words you spit out. you should’ve listened to the universe the first time. now you're thinking if you should make this worse or just run for it.

“i- i know i shouldn’t miss you, 'cause we decided it was for the best to end things. but i just… i know i should let you go, it seems you have, but i just can’t. i can’t let you go, it’s like i can’t forget you.”

he licked his lips and looked around the room. you're making this so much worse for you, for him. why can’t you just let him go?

“sorry. i probably shouldn’t- too much drinking (more like not enough). i’m gonna…” you pointed a finger over your shoulder and threw a meek smile to chad. your dignity is gone.

“wait, don’t- don’t leave.”

you kept your back turned to chad, but turned your head slightly just to get some view of him. he looked nervous but took another step closer. and this time he reached for your hand. it made you turn completely to face him.

“why don’t we go upstairs… to talk… privately.” his honey-sweet voice only made you nod dumbly. you let chad take the lead, keeping your hands together as he weaved the both of you through people and up the stairs. he stopped at different doors to see if they were unlocked and free, after a few tries and seeing too much-exposed skin there was an unoccupied room.

chad pulled the both of you and closed the door with an added click to the lock. you set your cup on a desk before taking a seat at the end of the bed. hands clasped in your lap as you just looked at chad and waited to hear his words.

he downed whatever was in his cup, face scrunching at the taste before he set it down. he walked to the bed and sat beside you, a sigh leaving his lips as he rested his forearms on his thighs and hung his head. you weren’t sure what to do at the moment. you wanted to run a hand over his hair, pull him close to you. but you stayed quiet and frozen, letting him take his time.

“god, you have no idea how much i miss you.” 

honestly, you weren’t expecting to hear that. when you and chad decided to break up it was mutual. it just felt like there was no longer that spark in your relationship and neither of you wanted to drag the other around if that was the case.

but it seems after only a month apart, the two of you realized how much you cared about each other. maybe another chance wouldn’t be so bad.

“you know,” chad gave a light chuckle, “when i first saw you walk through the door, i thought i was dreaming. how the colors bathed you in their glow, you dressed in my favorite outfit of yours. looking like your stunning self.” he turned his head your way. “i was really worried someone was gonna sweep you off your feet before i could get to you.”

you shuffled closer. thigh to thigh, shoe to shoe. the two of you sat up straight, no longer hiding away from each other. your hand sat on your thigh, palm down. chad glanced down and then back up, silently asking a question. a quirk to your brow was all and he knew what it meant. his larger hand fell over yours and then after a second of staring at each, you flipped it so it was palm to palm.

fingers intertwined once again.

“chad… when i saw you talking to that girl earlier… i got so jealous. i knew i didn’t have the right to be jealous as you talked with someone else, but when you leaned in close. your lips near her ear, i just remembered all the times you did that to me. sexual or not, and it just caused a flash over my eyes, remembering the feel of your lips on my skin.”

eye, lips, eye. you did that multiple times, in different orders. you all but sighed his name in a plea. free hand touching chad’s cheek and his own holding your wrist. “i want us to try again. we don’t have to be perfect or change anything, i just want us to be us again.” thumb brushing over the scar on his cheekbone.

then sliding down slowly and thumb going over his top lip. “i can’t get you out of my head, chad. and i never want you to leave.”

his touch tightened. both of you are quiet, just staring at the other, seeing who’ll make the first move tonight. your glossed lips parted ever so slightly, finger taking a second pass over his lip. you leaned in, lids dropping and darkening your iris.

you didn’t notice that chad was also leaning in until just a breath away from connecting. he licked his lips as he moved his hand from your wrist and to your neck as he asked, “are you sure? cause i don’t think i’ll want to stop if we start again.”

it was like a punch to your gut as you quickly sighed, “i never want to stop.” and you both dove in.

it was like that spark you thought died out was suddenly reignited into a full-blown fire. both of you were starved of each other's touch, mouths devouring every sigh and gasp of pleasure and happiness. hands roaming over fevered skin, needing to rememorize the dips and curves, the natural push and pull your bodies gave.

one of chad’s hands slid down the side of your body, thumb pressing into the exposed skin of your stomach while his fingers curled over your waist. his other one held your neck in a firm, but gentle hold, his thumb pressing into the underside of your jaw. you held his shoulders to keep you upright, head tilting to your right as he went left, noses pushing into cheeks, and lips were sucked and bitten.

reluctantly you pulled away first, air from your lungs disappearing and as much as you wished to keep your mouth connected with chad’s you need to be breathing to continue the endeavor. your palms pressed into chad’s cheeks to keep his head away as he tried following after

you, a girlish giggle as the action.

“i’ve missed you so much.” a breathless confession from chad as he kept his eyes closed.

you bit into your bottom lip and leaned your forehead into his, both of you taking deep inhales through your noses. you held his cheeks tighter and he squeezed your waist as you whispered, “it’ll work out this time. i know it.”

-

[idaredivel]

Spoilers Ahead In This Post

Scroll pass if you are not caught up with the One Piece manga

I decided to re-read Marineford and let me tell you that, with everything else that has come to light till chapter 1116, it's even more painful.

Now that we know how much Ace was actually loved and how impactful his existence was it makes me even more sad that he still didn't see himself worth it. Like, yeah you can get mad at him from turning around and facing Akainu, even after everything that everyone did to save him, but let's be for reals; If someone insulted the person who gave you actual stability in your life, wouldn't you confront them too?

I'm not saying he didn't somewhat had that with Luffy and Sabo and, sometimes, the bandits and Makino, but it wasn't the same. I think Ace was more focused on surviving and making sure his brothers did too, than actually living. Hence why i think that's part of the reason they wanted to become pirates.

And Kuma, fucking christ, Kuma. That his last act, of what he thought was going to be his final days at being himself and not a fully-turned-machine controlled by the govermment, was trying to make sure the Strawhats made it out of Sabaody alive is so fucking heartbreaking, because he valored freedom so much he defied the world government—in spite of what could happen to him if word went around—and he still is. He is still trying to make sure his dear daughter gets to live the life she deserves after everything the w.g. put them through, after his body is literally falling appart. Kizaru and Sentomaru's part on all of this tug on my heart strings a bit, too, because Oda showed that they actually cared for them on their own ways. I have more sympathy for Sentomaru than Kizaru, i'm not gonna lie, i just cant have that much sympathy for someone who can make a change, have the power to back it up, and do nothing to make it happen (...kinda side eyeing you too, Garp).

I may be able to understand the motives and how they try to make up for it, and i can fully admit that their characters are pretty well thought of and they're definitely not simple, but that doesn't mean i have to like what they did, either.

I do have more thoughts on everything but i'm already stretching this post too much for my liking (...i ramble a lot about these pirates) but anyways; 0/10 too much hurt, would not recommend doing the same.

[dyketennant]

small details that have me Fucked Up upon my first viewing of the first three episodes (kinda in order but not really):

in stede’s dreams he and ed tackle each other to the ground hugging and then lie next to each other in the sand

ed eating frosting off his knife during the wedding raid

izzy’s weak “unhand me” but not fighting back when fang hugs him, his whimpering and failed attempts not to cry.

jim using they/them for the wooden boy. just everything about that scene tbh. archie’s litre smile in the background. fang’s tears turning into giggles. it’s perfect.

pete tackling lucius in a hug followed by their tearful reunion kiss. i’m eating so fucking good rn

ed crying in the auxiliary wardrobe lying on a pelt, then tipping the stede cake topper out the broken window, then his own. everything about that scene.

how casually ed shoots izzy when he says the reason the ship is fucked is because of ed’s feelings for stede. ed doesn’t even look, just nods as he turns away and does it.

the whole fucking scene where ed says he had a dream that izzy killed him. how it’s almost intimate but in a fucked up and heartbreaking way, because he knows izzy loves him and knows that he cant love izzy how he wants him to. ed standing with his back to the bed with his arms spread.

ed individually breaking off each knob of the steering wheel rather than taking the whole thing off. jim reaching for archie when she’s sliding down the deck in slow motion. just everything about the fucking storm scene tbh. i’m unwell

jim immediately saying “i kissed someone” upon reuniting with oluwande. something sooo tender yet so heartbreaking about that whole interaction

“girl, how are you?”

stede showing how well he knows ed, following by izzy admitting that it wasn’t just stede’s fault, that he also hurt ed. not an izzy apologist but idk man just something about it

stede not being able to say anything about ed’s murder to izzy because izzy is the one who lied to his face about it

stede taking all of the knives out of the walls one by one

stede handing out the towels and knocking that guard out with it was such a fucking power move tbh i did NOT see that shit coming

izzy reaching across fang to stop buttons from talking while they’re escaping

stede carefully treading across the water in the room where ed is resting. taking the cloth over his face off as though it might burn him. holding his head to his hands as if in prayer while apologizing.

ed’s fingers twitching as he awakes. as if begging to be held. the look of absolute love he has for mermaid stede in his dream

in conclusion i am not surviving this season :-)

[mysimsyuri]

FUCK IT im infodumping abt swap au frank lore on here. ive been listening to his playlist a lot today and he wont. leave. my brain.

ok so i know ive shared that frank is canonically dead before but ive got a swap au where. youll never guess. he Isnt /lh

(the gist is just that he survives whereas nick doesnt, and thus takes his place in the story. a Lot of things change cuz frank and nick are Different People !)

ok so,, i Was originally gonna have the main plot points be the same so its still recognizably the same story but tbh. i think gatsby wouldnt die. frank isnt held back by catholic guilt and whatever else is wrong with him (affectionate ofc) i dont think hed let that happen

today ive specifically been thinkin abt chapter 8 and like... frank still leaves for work (he Does still do the "theyre a rotten crowd" bit but he changed his wording cuz hes Different. hed prolly say smth gay like "theyre all ASSHOLES and youre worth the GOD DAMN lot of em" (he swears a lot)) but he comes back like an hour or two later like ".....i changed my mind."

he also Does stop wilson but gets shot in the process,, and gatsbys like "omg old sport are you okay :((" and franks like. bleeding out on the ground like "what do you think pal,,," (he calls ppl pal and buddy. idk where this came from tbh it just feels Right)

idk what happens after that tbh. ive had the thought that gatsby just,, leaves after that but idk. its both hilarious and heartbreaking to think abt frank getting the "happy ending" w him that nick never got to but also like,, its a tragedy. smths gotta happen. WHAT IF FRANK DIED SFHDGJK YOU CANT ESCAPE FATE BITCH!!!!! thats funny as hell actually

ok wait back to the general swap stuff cuz like. i wanna share as much as i can while im thinkin abt them...

frank is very much Not related to daisy that would be Weird. he Does however meet tom at a speakeasy and they like,, kinda hit it off?? tom likes the cut of franks jib and while he does make frank kinda uncomfortable hes like. the closest thing he has to a friend in this new place (and also frank mentions that he knew a guy named nick in the war and tom is like "...i know a nick. hes dead?" and thats how frank gets invited to dinner the next day)

also daisy tries to set up frank and jordan but frank doesnt like to lie and isnt catholic abt being gay so hes just like "listen pal. im sure youre neat and all but im a faggot" and jordans like "oh i know. me too" and now theyre friends<3 besties even<3

AND frank just straight up tells gatsby hes handsome when he sees him. gatsbys all "im gatsby :) i thought you knew im sorry :)" and frank, drunk off his ass on champagne, is like "my god. youre the most beautiful man ive ever seen. i think im going to cry"

ok that. might be it. im all outta juice. (for this particular au anyway,, i have so much for some of my others.... one day ill share the entire lore for the au where everyone is happy and alive together<3 yay<3) goodbye

[aajjks]

NWO!JK

“WILL YOU JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME TAKE CARE OF YOU!!!!! you’re clearly in pain and i can help you!!” you say angrily as you pull into the park spot at your apartment complex. but to keep you from helping him any further, he shoots a web to keep your hand stuck to your steering wheel which buys him enough time to get out of your car and swing away. “FINE THEN!!!” you yell. “LEAVE!!!! leave when i need you the most”

when jungkook is far away from you, he leans against the wall of a building and takes his mask off. he wonders if he should see you tonight so you can help patch him up but you probably don’t want to. his mind then goes to the bruise he saw on your arm—the bruise he gave you when he shoved you to the floor and it’s heartbreaking.

the last thing he’d ever want to do is hurt you but he did. you looked so scared of him. it’s a look that will forever haunt his dreams and with the black cat using the crystals to her advantage, he’ll never win against her. he just keeps taking losses: first you and now the black cat at 2:1.

what will he do now?

~🫧

He really needs to take care of his wounds. And there’s only one person who will willingly help him out…jungkook doesn’t really think that it’s a good idea, but… he can’t risk you finding out.

And that person is way too dumb to figure something out, He will just make up a lie of getting into a fight, she will help him willingly.

He also cant go and ask eunwoo for help. Because he fucked it up with him as well.. so yeah, she’s the only option left, jungkook sighs, his heart full with guilt as he walks out of the the small road after changing his suit.

He’s now back into his regular college clothes as he decides to walk to Morgan’s place.. he’s not going to regret it, right? He’s just in so much pain right now, cuts all over him, that even his clothes are bloody.

Jungkook walks, and soon he’s at her complex.

He needs aid. And maybe she will help him out of kindness.. He wishes that it was you who would patch his wounds up.. but he just HAD TO fuck it up all.

But out of kindness, you picked him up as a Spider-Man wanting to help him, but he refused…

This is all his fault he has no right to you

•••

Jungkook knocks at her door, feeling completely exhausted. He rings her bell. “HELLO?! MORGAN ARE YOU THERE?” He rings her bell again.

“Ugh is she not home?!” He rolls his eyes, giving up before he turns his back to walk away. But then, a soft female voice calls out his name.

He turns back to face Morgan.

“Oh thank goodness- please can you help me out? I’m kinda injured and… please help me? I know it’s so weird but..” he grabs his abdomen, a sharp pain erupts.

“Ugh fuck.”

[deceptive-daydreams]

Underground update! 😍 im so pleased that a longer chapter won out. thank you for giving us the choice 🖤

Her character is getting more concrete in these flashbacks. Her choosing to sit on her own rather than with Steve to avoid his friends, being known as one of the shy ones, her berating herself over thinking anyone would even be interested... its all so heartbreaking. I feel like loneliness is such a big theme in this chapter, she was lonely at school and she's lonely present day, thinking everyone has essentially been having a laugh at her expense.

Especially Steve, so he was there for the falling out that she describes as heartbreak, helped her through it and cant not have known there were bigger feelings there for Eddie, whatever happened. Yet Steve still chose to get his 'selfish needs' met with him. Thing is, his needs being met wasnt her issue at all, just who he chose to meet them with. The way Steve thinks about this kinda makes me think it might just be hooking up, no big feelings, and i cant decide which would be worse, him choosing someone who hurt her just for the hell of it or that they do genuinely like eachother. But then if they do really like eachother, where does that leave R? I need so much more information! The flashback parts seem to say Eddie was into her just as much as she was him, which even Steve saw! (Plus Eddie's internal conflict over selling, not wanting to become his father - so sad 😢) I wonder how a conversation went between Eddie and Steve after last chapter. I kinda want them to call their thing off, but what if they are in love and stuff? I mean, I dont think they are..

And then R and Eddie's interaction present day, she thinks hes a liar but whhyy? What did you lie about Eddie?! I mean, he says nothing.. so who's in the wrong here? And he seems just as angry at her.. I need more info before i pick a side 🤣 and then her feeling so alone, not wanting to bother anyone and feeling so isolated from all her friends 💔 Plus still having to go into work because bills and just the stress that situation will have caused her, felt it big time. I hope Will in particular doesn't let her keep feeling that way.

Then both boys at the coffe shop and thier totally different approaches was interesting. Steve getting straight in her face didn't do much good, and Eddie's peace offering.. yea it was sweet, but pal, it's going to need much more than a coffee. Loved this as always, got me in all the feels 🖤🖤

you have no idea how excited I was when I woke up and this was in my inbox 🥹 I LOVE YOUR COMMENTARY AND I LOOK FORWARD TO IT EVERY TIME

lmao me worrying about it being 9.9k when the poll said like 10k-12k IT WAS ALMOST 10 OKAY but it needed to end where it did

Yeah loneliness fucking sucks even when you do have people around you cause it’s like well why are you lonely? And it’s just this thing you can’t really explain so you self isolate and make it worse especially in times of need. UGH SHES REALLY GOING THROUGH IT

I can’t say a lot but Steve done fucked up

we’ll have to see their story unravel more to see who’s right about the past and whether Eddie actually lied or not cause after all, there’s two sides to a story and then there’s the truth.

yeah Steve is a little inept in that way, tbh everyone is just so emotionally stunted in some way or another in this situation 🫤

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING I ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR THOUGHTS AND IT MAKES ME ALL GIDDY AND EXCITED

[theravenkin]

I posted 3,886 times in 2022

That's 1,789 more posts than 2021!

90 posts created (2%)

3,796 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 823 of my posts in 2022

#aftg - 119 posts

#andrew minyard - 114 posts

#all for the game - 110 posts

#neil josten - 109 posts

#andreil - 91 posts

#the foxhole court - 53 posts

#the raven cycle - 48 posts

#kevin day - 47 posts

#trc - 43 posts

#pynch - 34 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#(im not very good at it but i love when my mutuals who are all so smart make posts about it and then i can reblog it and say sooooo true &lt;3

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

ok i'm back from my disappearance. here's some more "aftg as shit my team has said" as an offering

neil: wow, aaron's actually kinda feisty.

andrew: sure, but not feisty enough to get out of a headlock.

aaron and andrew: *intense sibling rivalry stare*

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kevin: we are /not/ losing to that team. they're wearing /green/. if we lose to a team wearing green, i swear to god-

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dan: okay guys, big game today! Please show up with a good attitude even if you're on your period or can’t breathe!

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neil: yeah, they may think they're the shit, but look at the scoreboard. scoreboard doesn't lie, bitch!

kevin: ...neil...we're losing.

neil: well, yeah, but only by a little bit.

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neil: *getting a little too intense while watching the game from the bench*

wymack: neil, have you ever- this is a genuine question, coming from a place of genuine concern- have you ever considered just...trying to calm down? have you ever tried that? i really need you to calm the fuck down.

473 notes - Posted May 9, 2022

#4

cant get over the idea of remus taking regulus under his wing. remus seeing through reg's arrogant ice prince facade and seeing a scared little baby gay underneath. remus slowly getting reg to open up to him, to show his blushy awkward teenager self for once. regulus spilling all his insecurities, his secret crushes, his embarrassing interactions with remus. remus hyping reg up when he likes somebody, encouraging him to be himself, teaching him how to flirt. remus teasing him about being "slytherin's resident heartbreaker" and regulus going bright red every time ("ugh, lupin, shut up."). reg having One (1) interaction with the person he likes and SPRINTING to tell remus immediately ("we touched hands, remus" "oh, you minx!" "shut the fuck up"). remus and reg being able to share a Look and immediately breaking out into giggles. sirius HATING IT. (james finding it kind of adorable.)

sirius: what the fuck are you two on about now??

reg and remus: NOTHING. god. don't worry about it. so nosy. *suspicious giggling*

just. remus being like the "fun aunt" to reg. god i'm so obsessed with this someone help.

605 notes - Posted September 28, 2022

#3

not only does andrew read books; he annotates books but only by underlining every other sentence and writing "gay" in the margins

636 notes - Posted June 22, 2022

#2

hc that kevin has a really hard time remembering to knock instead of just walking into a room because there was no privacy in the Nest and he has no concept of boundaries due to the way he was raised there.

do with that what you will.

773 notes - Posted May 20, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

something i just really like to think about is neil starting to show his actual personality to the rest of the foxes post-canon and them being shocked.

before they knew about everything, he had to keep up the shy, quiet, ordinary, unsuspecting neil josten act. but post-canon, i like to think that he lets loose a little, allows his real personality to show. he actually lets them see ruthless, blunt, hot-tempered neil josten.

i believe in neil having a very specific "im about to raise hell" expression where he does his scary smile and his eyes go absolutely feral, and the others learn that if they see that expression, they need to step aside. also, i think the others might underestimate how good of a liar neil is. he'll have them convinced that he's innocent but andrew will insist that he's lying; the others, at first, think andrew's being mean and bitter, neil's too sweet to be faking this time, why would he lie about something small like this? ...and then neil's expression completely changes from "innocent child" to "chaos demon" frighteningly quickly. it's absolutely terrifying. andrew sees the horror on the other's faces and just goes, see? gullible morons.

what makes this even better: i like to think that once andrew sees that neil won't be pushed around anymore, and also that neil won't let his people be pushed around either, that andrew feels like he can let down his guard a little bit. like...he feels like there is someone who is willing to and capable of protecting him for once. so andrew might actually relax a little bit...while neil gets more unhinged. i just love this trope and all the possibilities.

like, imagine neil does or says something shocking to the upperclassmen, and they turn to andrew and are like "??? are you gonna control him??" because they're used to andrew being controlling over his people. but andrew doesn't feel the need to control neil when he's like this (tbh he's not fully sure that he could). so he just shrugs nonchalantly and stares blankly (and, if you look closely, admiringly) at neil while he wreaks havoc.

it's just like...wait til the upperclassmen realize that neil is far more willing to fuck shit up than andrew ever was. wait until they realize that andrew just wants to drink hot chocolate and talk shit with his therapist while neil crosses people off his hit list. you know?

2,388 notes - Posted February 24, 2022

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[sixsidedsex]

September 4th 2024

I dont know how coherent this is going to be. Im just going for a whole stream of consciousness thing. Ive included the date on this because I dont know when or if my feelings will change. I like to keep track of things

For who this is for. Its an ex partner of mine. If you see this, which I doubt you will, I want you to know that these are my genuine feelings laid out as candidly as possible. 

I think its a testament so how upset I am that im writing a letter to you at all.

So. I loved you. Very much. It wasnt a lie when I said i never felt the way i did with anyone than with you. You felt like everything to me. You can imagine how it felt when you split on me.

Issues I wasnt even aware of, problems I was willing to solve. All ignored in favor of a split second decision

I think I should have dealt with the grief then and left. But then you came back and I felt relieved. It was a chance to redeem my mistakes. Mistakes I didnt even know I had made

And I was willing to work through that with you is the worst part. I was willing to talk and work through My issues to make You feel comfortable. That is how much you meant to me. But you drifted and drifted without a damn word. It took me literally almost yelling at you to get anything out of you.

You can imagine my fucking heartbreak when you said you “didnt want to do this anymore” and that it was because i was “trying to change you”

Yknow i think part of the issue is your stubbornness against change. Because that what makes a fucking relationship work. You change each other for the better and its a wonderful thing. But youre too damn stubborn to admit you were wrong

It wasnt my fault. I dont care what you think. It was Not my fault.

Now let me address some of the problems I had with that conversation

I couldnt do anything to remedy you “feeling sick” around me. I cant do anything about that. But you assuming i felt the same was complete bullshit. I wasnt sick around you. I was aching for you if anything. Because i missed you and wanted our relationship back to the way it was. I loved you

A fucking part of me still does.

And its disgusting that I would be willing to talk again. But youre just not that kinda person.

Another issue was with the change thing. I didnt want to actively change you. I wanted us to both be better. 

But youre selfish. Uncooperative. Stubborn in the worst way possible.

Im not going to bullshit you when i think your brother was part of the problem. He obviously didnt like me and obviously had issues with your past relationships.

But that is not my fucking burden to carry. I shouldnt have to carry the weight of your brother’s, his friends’, and even his god damn Mom’s judgment. 

I think his attitude has definitely rubbed off on you. I mean it.

I know I used it as a “gotcha” in our final conversation but. I do think some kind of therapy would help you. 

Another thing i want to address is you saying you were “doing this for my wellbeing”

Bullshit.

I dont care if you were doing it for yourself. If you were doing it for yourself i wouldve respected that more. The fact that i had no say in my own decision to trust you again is insane. 

Part of me really hopes you never come back

The other part of me really hopes you do. And that youre sorry. And that if you are ill forgive you.

I dont know.

Its horrible that i miss you.

At least i have college to distract me

-Nico

[werewolf-femboy-maid]

HEARTBREAKING: Despicable Me 4 was mid af

explanation with spoilers below! other than that, have an excellent day <3

no im serious :"( I really thought it was gonna slap brah :"( so sad brah :"(

cause like at first I was like "omg gru and Lucy have a baby just another trope to continue the series lmao"

and then I heard the song and then I was like "WOAH THIS GONNA BE GOOD bro what if there's like gru having to choose between his family and his beloved life of crime? Lie detector time? oh boy, what kind of tense and high stakes plot that covers the importance of choosing what you love and respecting others could this be hinting at? oh boy its gonna be so intense to see if gru has to lie to Lucy to do some crazy money making heist so they can go family vacation. or maybe the baby will be difficult to raise and raising the baby together teaches gru and Lucy about working together. or maybe they learn about splitting the attention between the gorls and the new baby. or literally the so many rich thematic elements that were expressed by the song."

and then I actually watched the movie and... :"(

omg none of it. it was fucking mid. it was bad because it was just so mid. just. </3

ok so Lucy's character was not explored at all, just kinda taking care of the baby on the side until gru goes on the mission with the baby.

and then the gorls didn't age at all even tho the baby seems to be at least a year old. oh and they didn't get character development either. except margo was bullied :"( why did they do that to her :"( yeah no Edith being badass or Agnes being baby either. I mean kinda? Agnes got to see her baby goat again at the end and that was cool. but that was it, unfortunately.

ok what about the villain? ooooh cool design! aaaaaaaand boring plot. ok well I mean it was a funny back story with gru stealing his song at the school talent show, but like. that's the most interesting thing I can remember. like what did he even do... oh it was cool that he communicates to cockroaches n shit. that was cool af. dude I was so fucking hyped for stinky bug villain but no. I got stinky plot.

(im really sad that I cant eat takis that much anymore they're so good but holy fucking shit I have HUGE meltdowns on the days after I eat them fuck red40)

ok what about the baby? yeah no the baby hates gru and loves Lucy haha and the baby likes gru only if he's being a villain. idk man it was cool but I kinda feel like he was overhyped for his role in the movie.

ok what about Gru? well yeah he was gruing around. but not really. I mean kinda...? there was no real crisis for him tho, he didn't have to choose between villainy or his family or even anything really. his goal was kind of ambiguous.

ok what about the minions? I have no strong opinion, they were definitely minions. they weren't even as funny tho. if anything, I realized maybe they represent the working class, the lowly proletariat. its more scary when you think about how "minionese" is just a bunch of languages mashed up (English, Spanish, Chinese, Tagalog, French, Russian, Italian, Japanese, Korean) and there are theories that certain people at the top are mixing all the races to dumb everyone down into a slave. I think that if that's really happening, then the plan is going to backfire, because mixing races makes people stronger and more resilient against a broader spectrum of problems. Anyway it became apparent that the minions represent the working class because they were seen working for the good guys after a life of crime. too much to articulate, not enough care to bother with it.

ok what about the themes of the movie? I really don't know. I have no fucking idea. I thought it was gonna be family or commitment or something but I really have no clue. um I guess uh... ... ... ... ... holding on to a grudge wastes time? I mean yeah cause the cockroach guy was very upset about his song getting stolen, but gru could've chosen to be upset about getting pantsed in school. but he took revenge instead, and the cockroach guy just couldnt stand the taste of his own medicine. so he lives his life alone and miserable (not implying being single by choice is miserable. y'all are lucky and smart) while gru doesn't let that past experience bother him and he lives doing the things he loves with the people he loves. but other than that yeah I have no fucking clue.

maybe I was high but idk, the whole movie just seemed very uh.. hmmm... idk the word for this, but yknow those sketches where you erased and drew over the part over and over again? and then the paper gets worn out and thin and grey because you kept erasing? yeah that. that's what the plot and basically the whole movie felt like.

ok no this was weird... ok so the fucking teenager who was kinda mean to margo and she's the daughter of that neighbor. like she does this villain thing with gru and the baby and I really have no idea what they were trying to do. gru met her up at her treehouse and just. what... I I really hope im just an insane conspiracy theorist but fuck I got p3do vibes from it... idk... and speaking of p3dos and Hollywood, the Deadpool wolverine movie was so good, but I cant shake off the tiny boy penis joke they made when Deadpool was regrowing his body. just... I know Deadpool is adult, but idk with the baby legs. maybe one joke was alright but they dragged that one on. like all the characters were really GAZING at it man. idk I hope im just insane and its not a p3do reference idk. I still don't know how she has anything to do with the plot besides being the gateway for gru to talk to her dad and get the sports club membership...

(I need someone to beat me almost to death so I can experience real pain and I can appreciate my life more)

hey guys this is unrelated to the post but PRO MONEY TIP

see anything like an exclusively decorated soda can or a limited time package? save one or a few of those and save them for thirty years or however long you think. and the longer you wait, the more those bidders from the future are gonna pay for your unopened can of Mountain Dew Freedom Fusion.

ok wait I just talked about it to my bf, I realized even more money is possible if there is a Beloved FranchiseTM on the can for a limited time offer. like Mickey Mouse Coca Cola or something.

[pvssychicken]

The Things I said

Pairings: Nate doe x SLS

Summary: Im not gonna lie, i have no idea what to write for the summary, it was just an rp i did in c.ai

Warnings: swearing, making out, pet names, getting caught (kinda?)

a/n: This is just a scenario i did with charachter ai, so some parts may not make sense. Some parts were copied and pasted, but some parts were changes a bit so they make sense.

Dividers by @issysh3ll

"Y/N! I'm Inviting Nate over!" you hear matt yell.

You roll your eyes "Why do you have to invite him over here? Why cant you just go over to his place?"

He looks at you, knowing you're gonna give him a hard time.

“because I think Nate’s lonely, he just went through a breakup. The guy needs a buddy.”

"Damn, im not shocked, who would wanna date his ugly ass" You say, knowing damn well youve had a crush on him since you met him.

Matt laughs “oh please, girls literally salivate over him, he’s just a heartbreaker.”

"Ha! I bet you he had to pay girls money to date him."

"Oh please, I've seen firsthand how girls act around him. You're just jealous a guy like him doesnt look in your direction."

Your jaw drops, shocked at what Matt just said. "Erm actually, i have a boyfriend thank you very much."

Matt crosses his arms, raising his eyebrows "Oh? Is that so?"

You nod and the doobell rings "Oh look! There he is now!"

Matt laughs, going to the door. Nate is standing at the door. He smiles when he sees Matt, giving him a quick hug. Matt raises his eyebrows and turns back to you "Last time i checked, nate wasnt your boyfriend, so you can stop lying"

Nate overhears them speaking and walks over to them “what’s y/n lying about now?”

Matt chuckles “she was bragging about having a boyfriend like ten seconds ago”

"UGH FINE I DONT HAVE A BOYFRIEND" you pout, crossing your arms.

Matt laughs, having fun tormenting you “well, that didn’t take very long to confess.

Nate smiles, amused. Your lack of a boyfriend was a well-known fact that everyone teased you about.

Everyone knew that yiou had never had a boyfriend, even though youve liked several guys, and been in several talking stages, some instnces even led to the guy leading you on, but eventually breaking your heart. What people didnt know though, is that this made you very self concious, your self esteem was very low and you felt like you were unloveable.

Nate always knew that you struggled with low self esteem, he also knew about the guys that led you on and he hated that for you. You may be feisty and mean but you didn’t deserve how some of those guys had treated you. And he would be lying if he said he never caught himself finding you attractive.

You quickly went back to your sassy attitude when you caught Nate staring. "What the fuck are you looking at?"

Nate snaps out of the small trance he was in and quickly looks away, trying to hide his blush. “I’m not staring at anything.”.

Matt stands there observing the interaction between you two. He knew you both for long enough to see that there was a tension between you. A tension different than usual. It was like you kept glancing at each other when you thought the other wasn’t looking, you both seemed to get along yet have the urge to bicker. There was something there but neither of you realized it because youre too stubborn.

“oh come on, you totally were”

Nate looks back at you, not wanting to admit that you caught him staring, so he does the next best thing and tries to deny it “No I wasn’t, I think you’re just desperate to be looked at by someone."

This was the last straw for you, you felt tears well up in your eyes, but instead of letting them fall, you chose to let anger take over "SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE" You run up to your room and slam the door

Nate’s eyes widen at Payton’s reaction. He knew he had hit a soft spot and immediately regretted what he had said. He looks back behind him at Matt who stares in shock at your abrupt exit.

“Well now look at what you did dumbass”

“I didn’t mean to..”

Matt rolls his eyes at Nate

“Oh shut up yes you did. You enjoy getting on her nerves. You just got a way more emotional reaction than usual”

Nate sighs, feeling bad for what he said. He rubs the back of his neck, frustrated with himself.

"Yeah well, I didn’t mean anything by it.. she shouldn’t be so sensitive about it"

Matt, glares at him "Well? Areent you gonna go tallk to her?"

Nate sighs, he knows he should go talk to you. He runs a hand through his hair. "I don’t know.. isn’t she gonna just yell at me if I go up there?

Matt rolls his eyes again, knowing damn well that Nate was just looking for excuses to not talk to you "You never know unless you try. Just go up there and talk to her"

Nate groans, but reluctantly decides to go talk to you. "Alright, I’m going. But I’m blaming you if it goes terribly”

Nate starts walking up the stairs, and pauses a moment to build the courage to knock on your door. Then finally he musters up the courage to knock, hesitantly calling your name.

“Hey, y/n?”

"Go away. Dont waste your time on me, Im irrelevant" you sob. This makes nate immideately open the door

Nate opens the door and sees you sitting on the bed, tears falling down your face. He immediately regrets what he had said. Sure, you guys bickered, but he never wanted to see you cry. Seeing you like that broke his heart. Nate quickly walks up to your bed and sits down next to you.

“Hey, don’t say that..”

You refuse to look at him, feeling embarrassed that he was seeing you cry.

"Im serious.. You dont need to waste your time on me, I’m just a hopeless loser-"

"Baby, dont say stuff like that, you are the complete opposite" Nate says

You wipes your tears and looks up at him.Youre taken by surprise by how tender and caring he sounds. It’s so different from your usual fights.

“But I am.. no guy has ever looked at me twice, and every guy I’ve been interested in has either lead me on or dumped me. Its obvious that there’s something wrong with me, that no guy can find me good enough..”

Nathan cups your face with his hand and wipes your tears away

Your face turns red. Youre embarrassed that he’s seeing you so vulnerable like this

“Hey, you don’t have to pretend to care, I know you were only trying to insult me earlier.”

Instead of responding, nate pulled your face closer and kissed you.

Your eyes widen with shock, but you quickly melt into the kiss, closing your eyes and placing a hand on his chest for support. You start to kiss him more passionately, enjoying the feeling of your lips against his.

Nate pushes you down onto the bed as he kisses you. Your bodies getting closer. Nates hands rub up and down your side, as he gently starts to kiss your neck, finding your sweet spot almost immedately.

Matt walks into your room, wondering whats taking so long, but he is disgusted by what he finds. "WHAT THE HELL MAN. I TOLD YOU TO APOLOGIZE TO HER, NOT FUCK HER!!"\

Nate quickly sits up, embarrassed that Matt walked in on you. You, who’s hair was messy and face flushed, were blushing intensely

”M-MATT ITS NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE”

Matt glares at you both, arms crossed

”Then what in the hell are you two doing then?”

You and Nate look at each other, not knowing how to explain to Matt what he walked in on. Nate rubs the back of his neck, feeling awkward, and your face was red as ever.

“We- um-“ He sighs, knowing that he had no excuse for what he did, and he didn’t want to lie “We were just making out..”

Matt looks at you, not buying your excuse for a second “Just making out, sure. Y/n I thought you said you didn’t like him, and Nate, I thought you said she was a pain in the ass?”

"OMG MATT JUST GET THE FUCK OUT!" You shout

Nate nods quickly, also wanting him gone

“Yeah, just get out dude..”

Matt rolls his eyes at you both

“You both are so lucky that you’re cute”

He closes the door, leaving You and Nathan alone in your room again.

a/n: I gave you guys some fluff before i break yall again. This story is going to just be background info for the next one. Im not exaclty going to call this part one, because its bascially a prequel.

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[arillusionist]

reaction to the last 3 eps of s&b - im doing it all at once bc i wanna get it over with considering im gonna be rlly sad watching these knowing we'll never get a real ending.

also YES i was heartbroken over the cancellation even tho i hadnt finished the show. im emotionally attached to the books okay!! leave me alone

oh this is the hallucination scene i've heard too much about

the fucking BUTTERFLIES

bye not wylan's overly dramatic ass

"a village boy cut in half by a plow blade" isnt that literally what happened to kaz's dad

"hope is an illusion. a lie" hes such a kaz ripoff

oh i didnt think tolya had a hallucination i've never heard anyone talk about it

whos blood is that im gonna guess tamar

why am i so smart like

if they rush jesper's developement with one hallucination im gonna be mad

what happened i cant tell. he better not have rejected her again or whatever ugh theyre so cute tho

WOW i love how they always go from established relationships to some angsty kanej scene.

love how he doesnt stare at her lovingly or shit hes just fucking glaring she knows her man fr

oh never mind the soft voice is crazy

uh ya i didnt want to make assumptions until now but making inej's hallucation about kaz was Not it.

like in a way ik its about how she wants consent but its mainly so she can leave kaz at the end of the show kaz kaz kaz its always about kaz

this is why we needed the spinoff they couldve FIXED it

"erm they shouldnt have done it wrong in the first place" how righteous of you unfortunately im too emotionally attached to the characters so i wish they had another chance

ok bad choice aside her realizing its not real bc she knows kaz could never be like that or even try is kinda heartbreaking!! 🙂

oh hell no did she eat the fucking butterfly i thought it was the petal at first 🤡

"if you have no one left to fight for" and then cutting to inej aaaa

no the way his eyes softened and the way inej stroked his face w her thumb ... and then he realized

okay thank god cuz for a second i thought the crows were gonna js be dead the entire episode

hes the firebird what the fuck?? (sorry chat i havent finished r&r yet)

why does that kinda downplay malina like knowing that they're meant for each other cuz of destiny or some shit

then again they never had to fall in love just find each other they did the romance part on their own

where tf is kaz

oh what the fuck. this scene is so messed up (Talking abt the one where the darkling is holding baghra)

my laptop's screen time is almost up so i must pause unfortunately. i could watch on my phone but thats boring so

uhm so its been 3 days have i been stalling?? maybe 🙂 can you blame me??

is that old guy her husband?? uh

seeing kaz smile for more than a fleeting one second is so unnatural

oh my god oh my god is her whole speech about love not being a weakness gonna make kaz realize something

wow okay they did rush jesper's development with one hallucination

toyla is the #1 wesper shipper fr ‼️‼️💪🏽

"someday someone is going to sweep you of your feet so hard" haha nikolai

"me and my "slab or fur" will be far away, off the map, deep in love" uh babe i hate to tell you this..

not kaz shaking his head at wesper as if hes not the reason theyre together 💀

see here they go butchering inej's character again!!

like. in the books she realizes she needs to let go of kaz because she finds her purpose - hunting slavers. in this she just realizes it because of some fuckass hallucination which was about him Why Is It Always About Him

cant tell if im slightly relieved that they cancelled the spinoff because they might have ruined her more or more mad that they cancelled it because they couldve fixed it

i am eating the malina angst up 🗣️🗣️(not bc i dont like them i do like them thats why i need them to be sad. all my favorite ships need angst)

ooh he knows he knows abt mal

next episode except i have to sleep so im probably gonna watch like 2 minutes of it. but i'll try to finish this and the last one tmrw because the more i delay it the sadder i get about the cancellation though my brain wants me to believe otherwise

she (the tidemaker girl idk her name) looks so ready to punch him like yeah girl me too

help the grin on that one girls face when he says kill the king

ok 2 minutes r over so bye

and im back its only the next day also the deleted footage oh my god im on the floor?? plus the fact that it got "what business" trending on twitter with 33k tweets is so fucking funny to me

anyways.

bye i jumped when the darkling showed up in mal's room why do the smallest fucking things always scare me

oh ya theyre cousins. alina has a type huh

mal would kinda get along with inej i can feel it!!

wait whos the arm for also david is lwk smooth wow

they keep mentioning the crows but WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY its been almost 20 minutes 😐

why that is the only tamar and nadia moment all season like not that i was expecting more from netflix but Still

oh thats the last line from the book (i havent finished r&r yet but i skipped to the end as i do with every book so. lol 💀)

omg matthias i kinda thought he wouldnt show up again

oh god i feel like this show has such a lighting problem sometimes

its bad enough that i have no idea whats going on in general

INEJ

INEJ I MISSED YOU

she gotta stop bowing down to alina she is as much of a saint

did they kill off david and genya wtf

i have to pause for a bit bc my laptop needs to charge also i still have no idea whats going on

back

no theyre (david and genya) alive yay 🙏🏽🙏🏽

what the fuck is he doing

oh OHH now theyre killing him off. how could they do that to genya

the other crows are here FINALLY

when ur entire onscreen developemnt is literally 5 minutes 😍😍👍🏽👍🏽

no i will not stop being salty about jesper. fuck you

"well if you dont die we dont get paid" shdjfk

zoya inej nina the friendship i needed

wow what a beautiful and touching moment. it feels anticlimatic but okay 🙂‼️😐👍🏽‼️💪🏽🤡🗣️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️😭🙏🏽💪🏽🗣️

oh nvm. i keep forgetting this isnt the last episode

is that a giant CROW

lol of course it isnt

okay now its the last episode :')

"yes my man! oh we havent actually put a label on it" bye that is so jesper of him

oh. wow. she actually did it.

at least inej and zoya are being badass MY GIRLS ‼️‼️

"let me be your monster" stop being such a kaz ripoff please

FINALLY. his villain speech was taking too long

did she use merzost :(

tolya's random ass burst of poetry 💀💀

HE SEES HER

he literally cannot take his eyes off of her

I CANT. I CANT. THEY WANTED TO HUG SO BADLY YOU COULD SEE THE RELIEF IN THEIR EYES KAZ ALMOST SMILED

but she would never know what it was like for him to see nina pull her close watch jesper loop his arm through hers, what it was to stand in doorways and against walls AND KNOW HE COULD NEVER DRAW NEARER

im sick. theyre so sick for this and knowing we'll never get a chance to see them even hold hands. i cant 🙂

they way she moved towards him then moved back killing myself thnx

"five of cro-" bro predicted the ending of ck

not the malina angst too is this show trying to kill me?? i think it is

"i'll claw my way to one. if he'll let me" IM TELLING YOU!! TRYING TO KILL ME

HE LOOKED AT INEJ

SHES HIS HAPPILY EVER AFTER IM SO DONE IM GOING TO THROW MY LAPTOP ON THE FLOOR 😭😭😭😭😭😭

did they kill off david or not omg

i love how the crows just started walking away they were so eager to get out (except nina's lingering glance at zoya)

oh. oh hes going to be to be sturmhond

see hes so much like inej they both leave to the seas to find themselves outside of the person they love because they want a life for theselves and freedom

i reached the text limit imma make a new post

[qjaiden]

jasmine and chamomile for the ask game :)

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

ohhh im kinda like this with books like i cant reread it but i love it i love "im glad my mom died" by jennet mccurdy beautiful story but v heartbreaking i wont lie

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

LIL CUSTOMIZED STUFFF OMGGG playlists, notes, trinkets, hair stuff etc

[ahoneesan]

ok fuck it im talkin about it. ep8 and uh post ep8 umi spoilers below

do the added chapters to the ep8 manga kind of wholly work against the whole thing that ryukishi was doing with protecting the culprit and not needing the guts and goats and etc etc etc? definitely. but i cant lie, that shit rules! like, i feel conflicted abt it still but like pulling back the paternalistic blackout protection curtain and letting us just see sayo in all her un-fantasy complexity and heartbreak and sorrow is really good! i wonder how much if any of this was meant to be in the original ep8 before the backlash to ep7 hit. god i wanna know about that version of 8.

that was the thing i was struggling to pinpoint in ep7cast: the whole protect the culprit thing is kinda paternalistic! like, a little! i dunno! like, transness as something to be hidden to be kept secret to be understood but not acknowledged...... i do Get it. and i even like it in some respects but also...... well, the era hes writing in and the guy he is and etc etc etc. maybe ciconia will illuminate this more if it ever comes out.

ok i just reread the last bit of our confession and i lied im umipilled again greatest story ever told

after finally editing and releasing ep7cast im thinking about the the last bit of material we have to cover a lot. cant say more than that rn but im thinkin abt it! a lot!