#kendy listens

[strawberrystepmom]

u already know what’s happening

[0-dear-rose-0]

uhm so i had ths band idea where wendy and tolkien and kyle are all in a band bc UHM i like to thinkt hey have study sessions together and one day they were like ong what if we start a band togethr!!?

and uhm they also invited kenny because they needed a drummer lol

[grapecaseschoices]

ive been fighting all day with these QF mods

[purinsesukinny]

this picture but it’s wendyl helping kenny do her makeup <3

[anotherpapercut]

I have 115 titles in my "to listen to" tag on Libby 😩 how in the fuck am I gonna listen to all of these books?? they range from 4-28 hours long 😭😭

[childhoodtheme]

oh brother i am suddenly so terrified kendall is not making it out of the series alive............

[ekip]

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[bookfangeek]

Could you please provide a list of each one of the power pills friends/ other important people from their part of the webcomic? i keep getting confused between each character friends….😭

:D

OC INFORMATION REQUESTED

Okay this is gonna be a long one strap in.

Also, have a little key for how important to the plot all the characters are

MAIN CHARACTER/VILLAIN | MAJOR PLAYER | MEDIUM PLAYER | MINOR PLAYER | JUST THERE TO GIVE A CHARACTER A FRIEND

TEAM SOUL SEER

CALEB BUDDE | SOUL SEER

The first member of the Power Pills. He's shy, awkward, and is somehow the unofficial leader of the Power Pills. Mostly everyone looks to him to make the final call on stuff because he's been around the longest.

GUY FOUST

Caleb's roommate and best friend. Went with Caleb during his first superhero mission and got physically shot while there.

KATE DHANANI

A friend of Guy's who eventually became a friend of Caleb's. She's the martial arts trainer for the Power Pills.

AVERY RODRIGUEZ

The first supervillain created by Future Tech. He's 16 years old and was given to Future Tech as an experiment by his parents in exchange for promotions.

TRAVIS BIRMAN

Guy's childhood friend and Merri's boyfriend. He's just the only friend character who doesn't know that his friend is a superhero.

TEAM WAX GUISE

DAN WIRSCH | WAX GUISE

The second member of the Power Pills. He's the literal embodiment of a theater kid. Despite his energetic and carefree attitude, he's one of the smartest members of the team.

JASON KENDI

Jason is Dan's roommate and the go-to costume designer for the Power Pills. He's a MASSIVE nerd and loves doing closet cosplay. He seems to have some kind of connection to Lightbringer.

LUCY CIPHER

The manager (and drum player) of Dan's band. She matches him in energy and personality.

NICO HYLAND

Lucy's fiancee and the keyboardist for Dan's band. He's the type to sit back and listen to Lucy's energetic ramblings for hours.

MAX ARMIJO

Dan's second roommate and lead guitarist for Dan's band. He's a more successful actor than Dan and does his best to help Dan get roles.

TEAM BULLETPROOF

MERRI BODKIN | BULLETPROOF

The third member of the Power Pills. She's a sweet-hearted individual with boundless optimism. She's the heart of the group. However a lot of her personality DOES come from the fact that she's a Catholic and her suppressed frustration tends to come out when she's fighting as Bulletproof in the form of a SUPER brutal fighting style.

AMBER LUPE

One of Merri's best friends. She is just as kind and sweet as Merri, but much less energetic.

PERCY VAN STONE

Merri's foil. She is energetic, she is bold, she loves everything Merri hates.

TEAM QUICKWIT

KRISTY EDA | QUICKWIT

The fourth member of the Power Pills and the resident "basically normal guy but with a bow" of the team. She's an independent artist trying to make it in the art world.

GEMMA VOSS

The sculptor to Kristy's painter. She has almost no shame and has no problems both speaking and acting her mind.

JAKE WESTLAKE

Probably also an artist of some kind but we haven't seen them do any sort of art so I'm not sure. They're relentlessly supportive of their friends.

TEAM STREAMLINE

Hahaaaa oh god sorry, Tate.

TATE PALMER | STREAMLINE

Tate is the fifth member of the Power Pills as well as the most energetic. She's a massive cosplayer and makes her living selling her work online.

TEAM THE WEB

(boy that one doesn't have a ring to it at ALL, does it)

SIBYL DEMIR | THE WEB

Sibyl is the sixth and newest member of the Power Pills. He's the resident scientist, studying biology. He's been through a lot, but once he settles into a network of supporting friends, he reveals that he is a a snarky, strong-willed man.

SEBASTIAN CROWL

A superpowered cult member who saved Sibyl and Caleb's lives when they were captured. He sacrificed himself to help the two of them escape. His status is unknown though he reassured Sibyl that the cult wouldn't kill him.

BENNY O'KEEFE

Benny is Sibyl's biology teacher and is the person who helped Sibyl through the darkest moment of his life.

VINNY RAMONE

Not seen onscreen, but he's Sibyl's ex.

JENNA BEGER

Sibyl's childhood friend who tried to trade away his life in order to join The Cult of Lacrima. Her status is also unknown.

TEAM ███████

MATT NOTTON

The recipient of the Pink Pill who needs to be put on a GODDAMN LEASH. The only pill candidate who decided to use their powers for selfish reasons.

DAMIEN BRIDGES

A man that Matt kidnapped in an attempt to learn how to control his powers. He's... god he's still there.

DALTON RENTFRO

Matt's teammate and a MASSIVE Matt hater.

OTHERS

????? | LIGHTBRINGER

The person who gives out the pills to the candidates. He's stoic but generally friendly.

??????

Only called "Scarecrow Lady" in comic so far, this is the woman who broke into Merri's dressing room in book 3 trying to kidnap her. Caleb erased her memory of their identities but she hinted that she had something "Way better" than her memories.

LONDON KURTZ

A mean girl who peeked in high school. She is obsessed with status.

PHYLLIS WORRALL

One of London's obligatory lackeys. The other of which, Lilith, apparently left London very recently for unknown reasons and has not been seen onscreen.

KRAVEN GREEVES

The owner of the martial arts dojo that the Power Pills train at. He knows what's going on with the superheroes, but he knows it's not his place to say anything.

And I reached the maximum number of images I can put on a post apparently so I have been hard capped here.

Btw if you want to see or ask more about my OCs you should check out @bookfanocs. I don't post much on there but you never know when I'll be inspired.

[fairyk133]

Hallo (^_^♪)

I have seen your arts and your ocs and they are very cute!! I wonder how my characters would look like in your style, and I wonder what kind of relationship would be between our characters:3

If it's not too hard for you, can you draw or describe them?:3

Pretty please 🥺🩷

Okay, due to the fact I have school work, and my head hurts, I can't draw a picture for your ten ocs, with my three ocs. Sooner or later I'll draw your oc's for fun, but I gotta get through these asks right now. (please don’t hate me if this is short)

Ruth:

Kimberly, like you said, she would find her boring, they have similar things in common, but I can't change your view on this one. Ramona, Ruth hates sleezy woman but will loosen up with her, because she reminds her of a girl from her past. Cassidy might dislike Ruth since she hurts people but wouldn't mind having tea or listening to jazz with her. Roxy, I can see them eating the well-done food, while the rest of the students eat trash food, would be confused about her religion but wouldn't say anything. Trixie, Ruth doesn't like her that much, she acts like someone from her past, same goes for Barbra. Blaine, they participate for different sports so she might as well be neutral with her. Frederica, she doesn’t know townies that much and will avoid her too. Gabriella, if someone is wary of Ruth she will leave them alone, she doesn’t wanna give a person another reason to feel cautious around her.

Jason:

Kimberly, will stay the hell away from her, sure, he reminds her of Ruth but stays away from greaser women.Ranoma, she’s prods flirt with him. Blaine, might compliant him on his soccer skills once in a while, Cassidy, would be kind to her, give her his jacket if needed :). Frederica, feels fine near her since he gets along with townies. Doesn’t like girls like trixie, hates self centered people since he used to date girls like her, goes the same for Barbra. Kendis, would tell her on the regular she’s actually pretty, he would be kind to her. Snezana, if she dislikes Ruth, he would probs not talk to her, since he knows she’s misunderstood. Gabriella, loves go listen her play rock music, would be her male cheerleader for sure!

Joetta:

Wouldn’t talk to Cassidy, due to her dislikes for preps, but will realize she’s kind and wouldn’t mind being neutral with her. But would hate Barbra, Trixie, would be annoyed with Blaine. Ranoma, this one is odd, but I guess due to how she acts Joetta would just stay away from her.Senzana, since she dislikes Ruth she wouldn’t go near her. Kendis, neutral, doesn’t see a problem with her. Kimberly, no. Just no. Gabriella, likes music so wouldn’t mind telling her to play the Beatles on her guitar.

[fairygeek777]

Here is part 2! Find part 1 here

This one goes straight into episode 83 and begins after Kendy meets the senshi and TM in Crystal Tokyo.

Reminder that this is just a casual exploration of the idea. A proper fic would be posted to AO3 <3

Mamoru found himself in the 30th century listening to his future self describe events that seemed so impossible. Perhaps the most hard to believe, was that the child he and Usagi had thrown into their laps, the little Usagi that fell from the sky was their child. He and Usagi would be married nearly 1000 years in the future and Chibiusa would be their daughter. For weeks he was being led to believe that if he didn't stay away from Usagi, he'd lose her permanently. He was doing everything he could to protect her from that, and it was making him miserable. Now he finds out that he and Usagi are going to rule the Earth together? He was so confused.

Mamoru balled his fists at his sides and interrupted the King when he couldn't stand it anymore. “King Endymion, I don't understand. If you really are my future self then why? Why would you come between me and Usako like this? Why couldn't you just trust that we could overcome this?”

Usagi turned to him “Mamo-chan…”

“I understand your frustration, Tuxedo Mask… but it's not as simple as that.”

He continued on, increasing his volume with each sentence “But why split us up? Why make us miserable when we were destined to be married anyway?! What made you think that filling my head with nightmares every night was a good idea?! Why did you do it??!!!”

“Mamo-chan.” Usagi put a hand to his chest while Chibiusa stirred in her arms. He looked down at her responding to her calm attitude at learning all of this. She didn't look at him and instead her eyes gazed at the child. “It's okay.” Her fingers lightly latched onto his shirt. The touch slowly calmed Mamoru down and he looked back at his future self with a more level head.

“Sailor Moon, Tuxedo Mask. I showed you those nightmares because I was testing you. The two of you will have a stronger relationship for it. But I didn't want you to take that love for granted.” King Endymion paused and placed a hand on the console. “I'm sure you're aware, but as a teenager, I was always plagued by dreams or visions of some nature. And often, those dreams led to my resolve becoming stronger. Especially when it came to protecting my future queen. If you are to overcome the enemy you now face, such resolve is required.”

He turned his attention to his past self. “You’re free to hate me, Tuxedo Mask. But know that I carried no malicious intent in my actions.” His voice was now in Mamoru's head. “I know too well how deep your desire to protect Serenity goes. My actions were brought about because my Serenity is in need of saving and in my current state I am powerless to help her. Your fierce and unyielding love for Usagi is what will drive you to protect her. It's how you will both win this battle. She’ll be safe if you trust me. And if you trust in her.”

Mamoru accepted his words. “I understand.” Usagi looked at him with relief and he placed a hand on her shoulder. His attention fell on their future daughter as she slept. To anyone else it would be impossible to suspect such a thing. But if he and Usagi had gone through reincarnation twice, he supposed anything was possible. Even living for 900 years or your daughter traveling in time to find you. In fact, looking at her, she could only be Usagi’s child. With her bangs that framed her face, her large expressive eyes and the unmistakable bunhead hairstyle. He could see himself in her too, he realized with a bit of pride. He let his lips quirk into a slight smile and his eyes softened. So, we can be together after all? King Endymion walked up to both of them and placed a transparent hand to Chibiusa’s forehead.

“I am unable to protect Small Lady as I am now. Please, keep her safe in my place.”

Mamoru put a hand to his own chest and vowed “I promise. I will protect her with my life.”

King Endymion smiled at him “Thank you. Truly.” He paused, “I apologize. It takes too much power to keep up this form. I leave things to you all.” With that, the King's holographic form vanished.

A black fog began to surround those who remained in the monitor room. “So, you've finally made it to the 30th Century! Welcome, Sailor Guardians and Tuxedo Mask.” The voice boomed and a man clad in a white uniform with a white cape emerged along with a harsh black wind. The intruder had a Black Moon clan Insignia on his forehead and stark white hair that reached just past his chin.

The senshi, Mamoru and the two cats struggled to keep standing as the wind blew around them. Is he- the leader? He's… so powerful. A strong red aura overcame Mamoru and the senshi and it became nearly impossible to move. Suddenly, Usagi was lifted high into the air. “N-no!” Mamoru tried reaching a hand out to her but it was too difficult.

“I welcome you to my Crystal Tokyo. Now, come with me, Sailor Moon or rather, future Neo Queen Serenity.” A primal expression was on the man's face that terrified Mamoru and then a third eye opened where the black moon symbol was.

“No. Sailor… moon!” Mamoru called out to her.

“No!! Let me go!!” Sailor Moon cried. Desperately, Mamoru summoned all his strength to extend his cane and throw it in the enemy's path. It hit his target's shoulder which almost made him drop Sailor Moon but it only caused Chibiusa to fall out of her arms. “Ahhh!! Chibiusa!!!” Sailor Venus caught the child before she hit the ground. In the same moment, the enemy resumed control of Sailor Moon and brought her even closer to him. Finally, he had her in his grasp and took hold of her forearm. “No!!! Put me down!!!”

“Pity. I was hoping to grab both of you in one move.” He stared at Sailor Moon with a smile. “But no matter, I have you. My true prize. Muhahahahaha!”

“I- I can't move” Sailor Moon's voice lowered and she fell into a trance as she stared into the man's dark Eyes.

Mamoru looked on in horror “Let her go!!! Sailor Moon!!!” And then, before Mamoru could blink, the two of them vanished. “Usako!!!” He fell on his knees when the intruder's spell finally lifted. He arched his back to the ground and pounded his fist “No. No! No!!!” He dug his fingers into the ground.

King Endymion's holographic form reappeared before them. “Forgive me. I used too much of my power to speak with all of you. When it was depleted, it caused a breach that allowed Prince Demande to enter the palace.”

Mamoru rose to his feet and clenched his teeth and fists. “Prince Demande?”

“Yes, he is the Leader of the Black Moon clan.”

“Do you know where he took her?! How do I get her back?!” Mamoru's voice rose in desperation.

“Mamoru-san! Calm down! We'll get her back.” Sailor Mars reassured him.

“What if he does something to her?! What if-” he shut his eyes, unwilling to entertain the idea. He couldn't get those damn eyes out of his head. The way Prince Demande looked at her like prey.

“Don't panic.” The king brought up an image on the monitor. “There. That black monolith is where you'll find the black moon headquarters.” He pointed in its direction outside “It's very close by. They monitor the crystal palace non-stop.”

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To be continued...

Thanks for reading this silly thing <3

[japonyamesken]

..

Tahmin edin ne oldu? Hollanda otobüsü çok geç kaldı, bu otobüsten sonra bir de trene binmem lazım ve son trenlerden birisi, bakalım ne olacak? Yina başlıyoruz o zaman;

>> Geçen sene AB’ye iltica başvurusunda bulunan Türkiye Cumhuriyeti vatandaşı sayısı 100.000’den fazlaymış. AB nezdinde büyükelçimiz verdi bu bilgiyi. Vize almanın zorlanmasının en büyük sebeplerinden biriymiş. Bir o kadar da Legal uzun süreli oturuma sahip olup da süresi bitince kaçak kalan varmış :[

>> Kahve molasında işin pratiğinde çalışanlar çok ilginç şeyler anlattılar, hiçbir bağlantısı olmadığı halde fetöcüyüm diye iltica edenler çok fazlaymış, onun dışında baya ciddi sektör oluşmuş mesela “ateistlikten mi yoksa eşcinsellikten mi başvurayım?” gibi danışmanlıklar almak, kendi evini taşlatmak gibi “tehlike” kanıtları oluşturmak gibi.

>> Bu arada vize serbestisi konusunun gruptaki bazı insanlar tarafından bile yanlış anlaşıldığını bir “mansplaning”i engellerken fark ettim. Türkiye’nin AB’den almaya çalıştığı vize serbestisi girip oraya taşınmak, işe başlamak, eğitim almak gibi alanları içermiyor. Herkesin yeşil pasaportu olacak gibi düşünebilirsiniz, 6 ayda 90 gün AB ülkelerinde bulunma hakkı olacak, bu kadar. Düşünün yani şu basit şey bile olmuyor, diğer imkanlar imkansız..

>> AB’nin Türkiye, Belçika ve Macaristan büyükelçilerini dinledik. AB kurumlarını ziyaret ettik. Yaklaşan parlamento seçimlerinden dolayı her yer bununla ilgili “oy ver” afişleriyle donatılmış. Ve Brüksel gerçekten de AB’nin kalbi, sokaklarda her yer AB’yle ilgili bir etkinlik, oluşum, proje afişleriyle dolu.

>> Parlamento seçimlerine katılım düşük AB genelinde. Belçika ve Lüksemburg’da ise %90’lara yakınmış çünkü oy kullanmamanın cezası varmış, bu yeni bi bilgiydi benim için.

>> Gece otururken baskı ve takip rejimine dair bazı konuşmalardan sonra dünkü videoyu içinde üçüncü bir şahıs olduğu için silmek zorunda hissettim. Freedom of cencorship mlsf.

>> Şu tarz smart casual giyinip sırt çantası takan ve bisiklete süren beyler benim için Brüksel’in bitki örtüsü gibiler, büyükelçilerin yanında gelen yetkililer de böyleydi, nayss.

>> Bu tarz ziyaretleri özlemişim, sadece turist olmaktan çok daha güzel ve ilgili çekici geliyor bana. Ama artık aynı şehirleri defalarca görmektense yeni şehirler görmek istiyorum. Aklımda tatlı ve ilk kez deneyimleyeceğim bi plan var yaz için, benim için sınırlarımı esnetmeli bi süreç olacak gibi, bakalım.

>> Brüksel mon amour, tıpkı Avrupa Birliği gibisin, sana karşı ne hissettiğimi kestiremiyorum pek. Yine de bu güzel üç gün için teşekkür ederim 🌸

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Notlarım:

İlk ikisi bizim büyükelçimizden, o da alıntı yaptı.

Democracy is listening to people, not necessarily following them.

Public opinion is what governments give to the public.

Bu ise Belçika’nın AB büyükelçisinden ama kendisi çok kötü, herkesi bayan bir konuşma yaptı. Sözü de Rusya - Ukrayna savaşı bağlamında AB’nin öncelikleri için söyledi ama ben tabii başka yerlere gittim.

• Sometimes you need a crisis to understand what’s important in life.

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Ve şimdi bekle beni küçük, düzenli, sakin, gürültüsüz, telaşsız tatlı şehrim, önümüzdeki haftalarda bizi bekleyen bir sürü deadline ve iş var 🎈💃🏻🚲

[god-forsaken-sp-confession-blog]

kenny is 1 of the most shippable characters,in the WHOLE of sp,imo.

like,ship him with any of the other main 4? it works. (kenman can b slightly subjective-,but it makes more sense than other cartman ships.like idk stan x cartman.)

butters? yes,it works.

marjorine? literally,just bunny but straight.hell yes it works.

wendy/wendyl? hell yes.

bebe? HELL yes. (1 of the most underated sp ships,imo,,but thats another take.)

literally any of the other girls? yes,it works.

clyde? hell yes.

tolkien? odd,but hell,yes.

kevin stoley? it makes no sense…but it works!

any of the other boys? yes!!! it works.

hell,ud,prob b able to ship kenny with tweek/craig and itd still work.ALSO!! kenny canonically has 2(?) love interest characters/ships (kelly+tammy!!),but even those ships r underated as hell??

bunny is decent enough,,but errggh..its everywhere.idk!! i feel like theres so many opportunity for diff kenny ships/rarepairs,but none get explored/mentioned/exist ig.its always either kenjorine or bunny,lmao,but i can understand y..its bcz it works.no hate to bunny/kenjor fans btw!!! its literally the butters ship i draw the most fanart of lmao.

to throw my extra 2 cents in,,my personal fave kenny ships r:

•stenny

•k2

•clyenny??? (clyde x ken)

•kenlly (kenny x kelly)

•kenny x bebe

•kenjorine (i like bunny,,but i prefer kenjor more idkk)

•kendy/kendyl

•kennie (kenny x annie)

•crenny (i used to b MAJORLY hyperfixatsd on crenny,lmao,idm it as much now.another take;idrc for creek,or craig n tweek ships in gen.)

my ken otp??? stenndyl (stan x wendyl x ken.stan has 2 hands.I DONT LISTEN TO OTHER OPS,ARGUMENT CLOSED 😡😡 /s.)

n prob sum other stuff i forgot.idk,,i js wanted to ramble abt kenny n ships.since i literally only see bunny lol,some variety wouldnt hurt.the art is always good asf tho soo

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[grapecaseschoices]

shuffle your On Repeat playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, then tag 10 people. thanks @bansheeheart

Spiracle - Flower Face

Paint - The Paper Kites

Waves - Dotan

Say Less - Rosie Darling

Green Light - Lorde

Best Friend - Saweetie, Doja Cat

Deep End - Holly Humberstone

She - Dodie

Dancing With Your Ghost - Sasha Alex Sloan

Walk - Griff

i don't remember who i had in my previous 'always tag' list (since it's been a minute), so i'm tagging the first 10 names that show up on my activity (also no one has to do this and anyone that wants to feel free to tag me!): @sunshineandviolets @unitedindistaste @finalgirl-horatio @tolltale @girlinthevoid @quaxorascal @amlovelies @brother-genitivi @thee-morrigan @thats-a-lot-of-cortisol

[by-hulusi]

BİR KADINA MEKTUP

Bir liste var önümde; yıllar sonra edindiğim. Senin bir kenara not düştüklerin gibi; bunlar da benim biriktirdiklerim. İster altına ekle, ister kendininkilere kat. İster dikkate al, ister kaldır at.

1) KARİYERİNİ KIZLIK SOYADINLA YAP

Şimdi toz pembe, biliyorum; öyle oluyor başta. Ortalarda da idare ediyor hatta. Ama gün geliyor; “kocanın soyadı ile” tanındığını fark ediyorsun. Boşanma aşamasına geldiğinde, yeni bir SEN inşa etmek zorunda kalıyorsun. İş hayatında o güne kadar yaptığın her şey – eğer kocan, mahkeme kararıyla onun soyadını taşımana izin vermezse – alt üst oluyor. Hem, ne gerek var ki “izne” vs’ye? Adınla soyadınla, şânınla yürü. Kalıcı olan SENsin.. senin emeklerin.

2) ÇALIŞ. SAKIN DURMA

Kocan sana diyecek ki “Yahu ne gerek var, ben para kazanıyorum zaten. Sen tadını çıkar evdeki hayatın. Çocuğuna bak, günlere git, spor yap, mutfakta oyalan, alışverişe falan çık, devril yat, takıl istediğin gibi.” Tatlı gelecek, kolay gelecek, işine gelecek belki. Yapma. Kendini geliştirmeyi, kendine yatırım yapmayı bırakma. Yeteneklerine yönel, hayallerini unutma. Oku, çalış, üret. Seçimlerinin; bir zaman sonra “bir başına ve ayakta isen”, anlamı olacak.

3) KENDİ ÖLÇÜNÜ KENDİN AL

Sana “o kadar güçlü değilsin” diyecekler. “Sen başaramazsın” yaftasını yapıştıracaklar. “Bu da nereden çıktı”, “ulaşabileceğin hayaller kur” falan diye de yumurtlayacaklar. Yavaşlatacaklar seni. Şaşırtacaklar, yanıltacaklar. İşin kötüsü, bazen potansiyelinin olmadığına “inandıracaklar” da, kimbilir.. Aman ha, sakın durma, kanma. Sen, neyi başarmak istersen O’sun. Bilfiil kendisi hem de. Nereye bakarsan, oraya gidersin. Senin ölçünü senden başka kimse alamaz. Kendi kıyafetini kendin dik. Nasıl istiyorsan, öyle ol. Uzlaş ama değişme, dönüşme.

4) KANTARIN NE KADAR TARTIYOR?

Her topa girme. Her sorumluluğu alma. Her yükü taşıma. Sonradan ruhsal çöküntü yaratacak, sana “keşke” dedirtecek hiçbir şeye soyunma. Rol çalma. Unutma; her kantar, belirli bir ağırlığa kadar tartar. Fazlasını almak, kantarı yorar. Her şeyi başarmak zorunda değilsin; her sorunun çözümü sende değil. Sen de diğerlerinden farklı değilsin. Enerjinle, moralinle, zaten taşıdığın yüklerinle, gidecek epey yolun var. Çünkü ne oluyor biliyor musun; bir süre sonra insanlar seni takdir etse de, kıyamadıklarını söyleseler de, bu naif (!) yaklaşımlar bi’ b…ka yaramıyor. Madalyan ve hastalıklarınla başbaşa, hayatı sorgulamaya başlıyorsun. Nerede mi? Hastane koridorlarında, uykunu aradığın akşamlarda, elin kolun kalkmadığında, hayata dair umutlarını sorguladığında. Yapma. Sakın yapma.

5) KENDİ ŞARKINI SÖYLE

Seninle dalga geçecek kimileri. Giydiğin elbiseye, kahkahana, oturuşuna-kalkışına karışacaklar, sözüm ona “doğru”ya çekecekler seni tüm iyi niyetleriyle (!). “Aman dans etme, beceremiyorsun” diyenler çıkacak. Sesinin kötülüğünden dem vuracaklar.. Susma. Kendi şarkını söyle. Canın nerede, ne zaman, nasıl istiyorsa, öyle söyle. Hayatın, “senin şarkın”. Notalar senin, kulak senin, ses senin. Ne istiyorsan, onu söyle. Kendi şarkını yaz. Bağıra çağıra söylemeye başladığında, altında senin imzan olsun. Kendi şarkısını yazamayanlar lâf atacaktır; gülümse.

6) HAFIZANI DİRİ TUT.

Neydin sen? Neredeydin? Nereye gidiyordun? Nasıl olacaktı? Neler yaşayacaktın? Sorularını sakın bırakma. Her sabah, kahveni içerken listene göz at; neresindesin, n’apıyorsun? “Biz” olup bambaşka bir maratona girmişken; “ben” bir yerlerde tıkanmış, arkadan nefes nefese, önündeki kâfileye umutsuzca bakıyor olabilir mi?

Sakın unutma. Başlangıç noktanı, başlangıç sebebini; yürüdüğün yol ile teyit et.

7) KALBİNİ DİNLE

Ne olursa olsun, neye mâl olursa olsun, kalbini dinle. Seni nereye götürürse götürsün, sana ne yaptırırsa yaptırsın, kalbini dinle. Dibine kadar sev, sonuna kadar git, olmadıysa bambaşka bir yola git.. Hattâ istiyorsan dur ama hep kendini, hep kalbini dinle. İnsanların eğilimlerine, tepkilerine, eleştirilerine aldanıp, “onaylanan” yolu seçme. Kendi yolundan git. Kalbinin yolundan.

8) VAZGEÇMEYİ BİL

Israr etme. Bittiyse, diretme. Serbest bırak kendini de, yolundakileri de. Eğer kader diye bir şey varsa, elbet tecelli edecek. Eğer “farklı” olacaksa bir şeyler; elbet o “yeni” de paşa paşa önüne gelecek. Bırakmayı bil. Vazgeçmek=Özgürlük. Vazgeçmek=Yeni seçimlere ilerlemek. Ve hiçbir seçim, geleceği “özünde” değiştirmeyecek: Özendiğin insanlar kadar özgürsün, sürprizlerle dolusun, rengârenksin sen de.

9) HERKES GİTTİĞİNDE, KALAN MANZARA SENİ MUTLU ETSİN

Kocan gidebilir. Çocuğun Allah’ın emri gidecek. Annen, baban.. Eninde sonunda yalnız kalacaksın. Cebinde ne varsa, kaderin o. Hesapladın mı, neler birikmiş çıkınında? Ne kadar erken, o kadar iyi. Henüz harekete geçmediysen, şimdi başla.

10) HER BAŞLANGIÇ İYİDİR

Seçimlerini yaparken, şartlara takılma. O şartlar, bu ânın şartları ve senin bugüne kadarki tecrübelerinle geliştirdiğin inançların. Hepsi bu. İçindeki o BAMBAŞKA SENle tanışmadın, onu keşfetmedin daha. O SEN, seni hep mutlu edecek, yalnız bırakmayacak; emin ol. Kendine tutun. Başlangıçlar insanı diri tutar. Bitişlere tutunursan, düşersin. İÇİNDEKİ SENe şans ver. Seni utandırmayacağını göreceksin.

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