#kendis&austyn lmao

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shuffle your On Repeat playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, then tag 10 people. thanks @bansheeheart

Spiracle - Flower Face

Paint - The Paper Kites

Waves - Dotan

Say Less - Rosie Darling

Green Light - Lorde

Best Friend - Saweetie, Doja Cat

Deep End - Holly Humberstone

She - Dodie

Dancing With Your Ghost - Sasha Alex Sloan

Walk - Griff

i don't remember who i had in my previous 'always tag' list (since it's been a minute), so i'm tagging the first 10 names that show up on my activity (also no one has to do this and anyone that wants to feel free to tag me!): @sunshineandviolets @unitedindistaste @finalgirl-horatio @tolltale @girlinthevoid @quaxorascal @amlovelies @brother-genitivi @thee-morrigan @thats-a-lot-of-cortisol

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wip wornsday

@magebastard tagged me fifty eleven years ago to post a wip but at the time i didn't have anything i was working on. and now i do! sooooo, yeah lol. technically this is a cheat but technically it's not (as tho i posted the narrative, it is a part of a bigger thing. so still a wip, yes?) this is a flashback/backstory piece for a teenaged kendis and their first love for a rp i'm in.

tagging: @sustainably-du-mortain @griffin-wood @wayhavenots @ava-du-mortain @thedeadthree @aeruh @honeylemonbutte and whomst ever else!

Kendis’ breath caught in her throat as her heart thumped hard for a different reason. She rolled her eyes and bit the inside of her cheek to keep from smiling.

But Austyn saw. She saw everything about her. Even the things Kendis wasn’t ready to say out loud.

Thin, long fingers reached up to tuck her short curls and for a moment Kendis’ head leaned against the gentle touch, reveling in the feel of the soft fingers soothing the tension that seemed to always thrum through her.

The moment splintered like a snapped rubber band when Kendis caught the look in Austyn’s gaze.

Kendis could read Austyn too. She wished she could say that she didn’t like what she saw but she couldn’t. Smugness made Austyn's eyes twinkle. And Kendis waited for the sensation of feeling trapped, of feeling tricked and frustrated, because as angry as she might have been with Austyn at the moment - in this past week - there was no denying that she wanted to kiss the older girl again. Kendis wanted to press her into the bed and just … (her heart skipped and her cheeks warmed at the ridiculous thought …) inhale her.

Somehow she had ended up here. Except it was no mystery. No more of a mystery than how a fish ended up caught at the end of hooks since time immemorial. The thought suffocated her, but it also warmed her. They were teenagers — neither of them foolish or romantic, neither of them unaware of the intensity of their feelings or the consequences of being together, yet here they were. Willingly. Kendis almost wished she could feel badly about this. Even at sixteen there wasn't much that could make her bend.

The most she could say is that it rubbed her wrong, so she did:

“You’re a blister up my asshole sometimes, you know that, Aust?” Kendis swung off Austyn, stepped off the bed and let her long legs take her across the room. As if space from the other girl would grant her clarity of a purpose that was stronger than the desire to rub her nose against Austyn’s throat. To kiss her there and —

“You’re running away from me now?” The hurt in Austyn’s voice was genuine; as genuine as the purposeful choice of words. Ninth grade might have been when Kendis had fallen in love but tenth grade was when Austyn had taunted her - long story short - into whatever is the piss they have now.

Attending school mostly dressed in black or bold colors with a smart mouth as well as a bored look on her face, most people could read Kendis as someone who revealed in doing the opposite of what she was ordered. However, it was Austyn who truly figured how she couldn’t resist a challenge, no matter how detrimental. (Maybe she wasn’t as mature as she thought.)

[‘Yes, kids. Back then your mom and I weren’t dating. Yet we were dating. She wasn’t not my girlfriend, but she wasn’t not not my girlfriend. Does that make sense? At the end of the day, what matters is your mom was my best friend. Except when she pissed me off. And sometimes even then …’ A fish on a hook, indeed.]

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@plasticdodecagon: Audacity

"Here," Firmly, Kendis pressed the hand-made pamphlet against the passing student's chest. Her fingers slipped away as the -- [Junior? Senior? Wait, no. He looked ... familiar? (Her eyes flicked down, and she glanced at the textbook dangling in his hands; it was 10th-grade English ...) Get out of town! This ... Fee Fi Fo Fum was a Sophmore??What bull hormones did they slip into his Coco Puffs?] -- dude grabbed onto folded paper.

Her brows furrowed as lips pinched together and pressed into a flat line. "Um." Her mouth needed a moment to catch up with the wheelies her brain was doing - (Was he on steroids?) - but once she did, she plowed on as if nothing happened, "Vote Stewert Langley for Class President! You want change from the audaciously good-for-nothing council we had last year? You'll look into Langley! His stats speak for themselves. Check out the pamphlet. I made it myself." 

"Uh, s-sure?" Stuttered the Goliath-Who-Apparently-Was-A-Sophmore-But-Whose-Name-She-Didn't-Recall-But-Was-Definitely-Thinking-She-Should-Learn-Because-Then-She-Could-Skip-Out-On-Borrowing-The-Janitor's-Ladder-To-Put-Up-Banners (also hand-made).

Kendis' lips quirked in a small, yet pleased, smile as they gave him a sharp nod of satisfaction, "Then I'll see you tonight, yeah? We're holding an information session after school!" 

She moved sharply forward, excited about filling their meeting numbers, but her efforts were met with multiple steps back. He looked a bit startled. Kendis frowned abruptly but remained still.

"Err, I'll - I'll think about it." 

"Do that. There'll be cookies. And it'll count toward your activity participation credits." 

'Goliath' blinked rapidly. It took an exorbitant amount of self-control for Kendis not to start bouncing on the balls of her feet in response. But she couldn't suppress her grin. She knew she'd gotten him. It was near the end of the school year, and everyone needed more activity credits. People were consistently always short. Making attending campaign meetings a way to reach those credits had been her idea. 

She'd told Langley that picking her as a manager was a sure thing. There was no doubt in her mind that he'd win. He was going to win and crush those --

"Okay. Okay, sure! I'll be there tonight. Thanks!"

"No problem Gol -- guy. See you there!" 

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Did I miss a chapter in kendis lore? Who's austyn? 👁️👁️🫣🫣

I also had another question where do u find such gorgeous face claims? And how do u come up with such great oc designs? 👀👀

you're so cute. Kendis lore 233we q<3

Well, since you asked [and I don't get to talk about austyn a lot] Okay, so TL;DR TIME.

Og, OG Kendis - Kendis Crawford Gagne - lost her mom. Rather young from cancer [if I recall right]. It definitely impacted her a lot. However, when I ended up playing Kendis in another RP game, I really liked the backstory we [me and her older Ben's wrietr] had for the mom [we ended up getting her played too for a bit which was FUN!] i was like what if she lived~~ But I also wanted the impact of lost in Kendis' history [bc im unimaginative and couldn't think of another trauma point --- though I ended up doiing so, but that's another story], I came up with Austyn.

Austyn Blanchard basically - or actually - was Kendis' first love. But she died when Kendis was eighteen thanks to drunk driving [I can't remembebr if I said Austyn's or the other driver's. probably both]. Austyn was very much teen Kendis' opposite? In a sense that her family was wealthy - where as Kendis' had been lower middle class and was moving toward middle middle by the time Kendis came around/grew older - and popular ... where as Kendis' mother was seen as an outsider and that weird witch woman. Because she was bi and Kendis' parents were polyam.

Anyway they weren't in each other's circle but came to know each other bc Kendis babysat Austyn's younger sibs. They fell in love but it was hard for Kendis to say the L world and Austyn could never publicly date a woman because her parents were super christian, and a face of that community. [They had plans of being together after HS!!] But then Austyn died. LMAO.

It's in part why Kendis ended up going through to medical school, because that had been their dream. Austyn as a lawyer and Kendis as a doctor [for KCG it had been bc her mom's death. Death leading to healing and ambitions etc etc]

Anyway, it DEVASTATED Kendis. And if it wasn't for her brother Ben -- yikes. Anyway, they moved past it but they also ... kinda didn't lmao.

[I also played around with the idea that Austyn might've been the reincarnated love of Kendis' past life*. But I never settled on it because I'm not a big fan of soulmates.]

If you want to be sad, here is their playlist. And their tag.

[I shall answer your question in another post bc this shit is long.]

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@thee-morrigan has tagged me to pick five songs i like! i decided not to go with my top five spotify repeat songs, and instead go with recent ones that have been puttering in my brain [the ones who SHOULD be top five lool].

1] Dear Wormwood - The Oh Hellos:

But now I understand you/And I will not be part of your designs/I know who I am now/And all that you've made of me/I know who you are now/And I name you my enemy

So, I've been "working" [haha. smh .... no] on a possible future Kenedis, who is a mix of TWC!Kendis, Exile!Kendis, and a couple of past RP concepts. So, ofc, this mean shit parents have to be a part of the backstory. Hence this song that I feel fits my nebulous ideas for an arc, lol.

2] Seven Devils - Florence + The Machine: What playlist wouldn't be made better without this song? I just don't know which one to put it in yet, lol. I am making a series of playlists for a set of future characters for a RP i might be joining [the one mentioned above], it started with me wanting a Florence song for Kendis [bc I've had at least one Florence song or at least a song by an indie rock/folk artist in my past few Kendis playlists]. But I'm still deciding if this is the one I want. But I just ended up thinking about this song a lot as well as about how much I like/d it. So here it is!

3] Silence - Khalid, Marshmello:

I'm in need of a savior (savior)/But I'm not asking for favors /My whole life, I've felt like a burden/I think too much, and I hate it/I'm so used to being in the wrong/I'm tired of caring/Loving never gave me a home/So I'll sit here in the silence/I found peace in your violence/Can't tell me there's no point in trying/I'm at one, and I've been quiet for too long,

Been on and off so in love with this song [have I ever been fully off it? LMAO]. To keep it short - since this entire thing is lengthy - I feel this would fit Austyn if I ever did a playlist [probably won't] in her POV, particularly re: her relationship with Kendis [oh first loves~].

4] Ready For Anything - Blackway, Aeph, Koko:

Even as prey I can chase off the predators/You can′t run with me lil boy you too delicate/Hold Up/I′m feeling a little bit dangerous/And they looking a little bit anxious/If I'm laughing when/ I′m twiddling my fingers/It's only a warning that you can′t just/Walk up to me

I haven't strongly with the desire to write, but I've been still low-key itching with ideas. And one of the ideas, is for this future RP, involving a darker Andy. I usually play Andy before or after the travesty that really fucked up his life [he has a few too, so I should say ADULT life]. But not during for many years. I'm [nervously] hoping to, and this song fits real well what I've been pondering. Not 10, 000% but strongly enough.

5] Achilles Come Down - Gangs of Youth: You crave the applause yet hate the attention.

Sooooo I recently realized this song is perfect for Kendis. I don't know why I never have, lmao. I mean in general but particularly for specific Kendis'. Again, like the above it''s 10, 000% but it's ENOUGH that I've re-fallen in love with this song. Ugh. It hurts.

(Honorable mention [as this recently has gotten back into my head] The Moss - Cosmo Sheldrake)

just gonna tag 5 people, sorry if you've done this!: @quaxorascal @wayhavenots @agnes-nutter @thats-a-lot-of-cortisol @laufire

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tell us more about kendis pls. 👀👀👀

i need to know more about ur ocs bcs they're so interesting. you always develop them so well. 👁️👁️

I don't even know what to say? qwere roflmao. What do you want to know, anon? (THOUGH, thanks so much for the compliment :-D)

I've been writing Kendis since 2019. At least a version of her. The first concept of Kendis, the og of most ogs was never written, but she was a free-wheelin', hot mess. This was back in 2018. I THINK. I ended up tweaking her and creating Kendis Crawford-Gagne. The proto-Kendis. She was a bit sweeter, a lot more femme, more of the drunk girl you meet in the bathroom. A touch less chaotic. But very much selfish, stubborn, into science, and willing to go all out for a loved one.

This Kendis' mom died when she was young, she was raised by her older (half) brother -- and somewhat by her dad who loved her but was still grieving.

That Kendis was 18. KCL - Kendis Crawford-Louel - came about because I wanted an older Kendis. This Kendis was more queer -- I felt more comfortable in exploring her as a demi-girl (not right away, but eventually. Had to go through the crisis of 'can I as a cis person do this?'). I changed a lot of her backstory too so I think that changed a lot of how they presented themselves. And I think also that KCG was human and KCL was not also really changed their outlook in life, and thus behavior.

This all sounds very boring and tl;dr. LMAO. I'm sorry anon, I don't have anything intriguing to share. Hrm, I guess I could say:

og KCL is the youngest of four -- there is their half-brother Ben and two sisters from Ben's dad, that they consider their own sisters. And I tend to carry Ben over in their canons if they don't have siblings as a cousin or someone who used to baby sit her. Kendis changes a lot of they don't have youngest child syndrome lmao.

Kendis is almost always a creature. The only acception is TWC Kendis, but they have the speshul blud~~. og KCL is a three-beast (a creature of my making). kotsam Kendis is a draka. Exile Kendis is a mythosi (wolf). twc au Kendis is a werewolf.

And sometimes they're a creechur with elemental powers bc I'm extra like that

Kendis is usually demi-romantic bisexual. KCG was demi-sexual, bi-romantic. Kendis will always be on the ace spectrum and bi.

KCG and KCL were sickly as kids. KCG lost her mom. KCL lost their first (and only) love. It was ... a mess. LMAO. Austyn Blanchard. I still keep Austyn in most Kendis' backstories. Austyn is replaced by Syfyn in the Exile.

Kendis loves fashion. Money. Independence. Their people. Nature. Animals. Kids. They love trying new activies and hobbies, I usually go with hiking and pottery for them. I'm not sure why on the pottery.

Kendis (most of them) abhors violence against living beings (which ofc is a thing I've explored with them, because terrible) but isn't against fucking up privite and public property.

I've written Kendis as a parent before and I love. Of course, they were a single parent. Kendis and romance is --- roflmao. (I don't usually do romance with my characters. But Kendis. lmao. Ahhh, Kendis.)

Kendis isn't touch averse (they've had sex) but Kendis is very big about being the one to initiate touch and having people check in with them always before touching them. Touch can make them feel clausterphobic at times -- or not exactly touch but people pressing into their boundaries/personal space. I once took a love language quiz and they scored 0% for touch. Even Andy didn't score that low. LMAO.

Kendis is probs one of my characters with the most sympathy, but they're also probs one of my most frustrated. And selfish. It leads to fun times.

This was actually fun, so thanks <3

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kendis interview questions

i saw @/heroofpenamstan doing this and i’ve been missing og kendis/brainrotting twc so. i might do this for my other ocs (probably twc and infamous. maybe fhr) later. but we shall see!!

🥀 [WILTED ROSE] How good is your OC at meeting deadlines? What motivates them? 

Extremely good. I’ve said it often that Kendis main (sole, jkjk ... or am I) is stubbornness -- but I don’t think I can fully express how much so. It isn’t even the whole ‘if you looked up the word, you’d find her picture’. If stubbornness had an avatar, it would be Kendis. That is her motivation -- and often supplemented by passion and spite (oh hey, her other personality trait). Dogged and drive is Kendis Crawforod-Louel to a T (to their own deteriment at times ...)

🌹 [ROSE] Does your OC believe in true love? Why? 

No. Yes. Not in the traditional soulmate/star-crossed lovers sense. And not in the there can only be one sense. I don’t know how to explain it --like they don’t. BUT they believe you can be soo truly, ardently, unrepentantly devoted to someone(s). That you can love someone(s) with your whole heart that can shift/shape you. And it doesn’t have to solely be romantic. 

It’s kind of hard not to with their parents -- whether you mean og Kendis’ parents that are cute as fuck and still sweet on each other years later (even if they sometimes have sex with other people). Or Rebecca for as hurtful as she is one cannot deny she broke irreparably after Rookt tied. Or even her parents in kotsam, where Isabella is a great mom, who has a full life, but there feels like sometimes there is a ghost lurking behind her.

How can one not? Also OG Kendis and TWC Kendis has Austyn in their background and that’s .... yeah. And EXILE Kendis had Syfyn. And yeah. 

🍄 [MUSHROOM] How likely is your OC to eat random berries/mushrooms they find? 

Unlikely. LMAO. If they’re doing so, it isn’t random, it’s because they know what they’re doing. Most, if not all, versions of Kendis are wilderness trained. 

🍂 [AUTUMN LEAVES] Does your OC view piles of dead leaves as a mess or as fun? 

Are they a joke to you? Fun!

🌻 [SUNFLOWER] Where would your OC get lost in the moment/beauty of the place? 

Forest/woods. There are many places -- because Kendis is like a bear (hehe) in that whole gonna stop and take it in when I’m wowed by something lovely, but that’s usually the most likely. 

🌾 [RICE SHEAF] How picky is your OC with food? What will and won't they eat? 

Probably not at all??? Kendis is my foodie. They’d try anything at least once. 

☘️ [SHAMROCK] How passionate is your OC about things they love/hate? 

qqwertewq3456 ROFLMAO. Anyway. SEE FIRST RESPONSE. I’d say they’re pretty dang passionate. 

🍀 [FOUR LEAF CLOVER] Would your OC spend hours looking for a four leaf clover? 

Probably not hours but they would definitely spend some time. A couple maybe. 

🌳 [DECIDUOUS] What's your OC's favourite thing to do at the park? 

Harass the animals -- I mean pet and feed them. 

🍃 [FALLEN LEAF] What's the darkest period of time your OC has been through?

For most Kendis’ it is losing Austyn. For exile Kendis probably losing Syfyn, Tristan, and their family. And maybe that whole purge on the magic folk situation. 

🌵 [CACTUS] How physically resilient is your OC? 

Highly. Minus the fact that they’re fairly in shape, and most Kendis’ are of of the supernatural variety so pain and endurance process is different than a human, cue the fact that they’re spitefully stubborn. Kendis would put with a lot for what they wanted and then minimize/brush off the aftermath.

🌸 [CHERRY BLOSSOM] Does your OC believe in legends/myths? 

Kendis is a skeptical optimist. Not quite the Scully. She’ll believe if she sees it. Or she’s done enough research on it to satisfy herself. But experience (sometimes) guides her. So, a Kendis living with myths and legends would be open to considering new ones. 

🌷 [TULIP] What is your OC's favourite flower and colour?

I don’t know they have a favorite FLOWER (I need to ponder) -- but their tend to like pothos plants. Favorite color(s) are fandango pink, shades of purple, gold, and red. There are probably others but off the top of my head ...