#keats listens

[scftdevil]

ok. good morning lovers! i am up, i am writing and i have no plans today, so depending on my pain, i should be around a fair bit. i am still sick, i got a bunch of test done yesterday (we are at least one step closer to knowing why my body is falling apart, though my mom is still on eds. my connective tissue blows.) but like i said, i am going to work on the drafts! anyway, this is the song i'll be jamming to through the day. and i'll likely be crying while i do jam lol.

[lcnelyday]

✱ spotify on repeat playlist !shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first ten tracks, then tag 10 people.

mine (taylor's version) - taylor swift

up the wolves - the mountain goats

janta - marcelo camelo

bejeweled - taylor swift (this is my niece's favorite, she calls it shimmer)

growing sideways - noah kahan

lonely day - system of a down (i would be offended if this didn't come up)

all eyes on my - vines

bounce - oliver tree

vampire - olivia rodrigo

boy friday - rebounder

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tagged by: @vvfied tagging: if you see this, tag you're it!

[littledots]

listen. sometimes. not often. but sometimes, i will sneak a little line in my writing, either inspired by if not directly pulled from a taylor swift song. ok? it's my toxic trait. but no one has called me out on it yet, and fucking blame me, when i more often than not, listen to folklore and evermore while i write. it's just. call it a quirk of my writing. call me a simp for mrs swift. i know what i am.

[octaviasdread]

my professor is so Mr Keating coded that I’m out here with dead poets déjà vu every romantic lit class

literally WEEK ONE he goes full Keating by screaming mid-lecture to shock us into full-body understanding of interrupted narratives

you don’t understand the amount of future fic credits I need to give this man

[random-lil-illing]

i love making headcanons and, inspired by @blakenation1 making dps headcanons, i wanted to try it out too :) 

so, dead poets society going to a mall!!

- mr keating goes with the dead poets to the mall to act as adult supervision since Welton requires the students to have a chaffeur. he just enables their chaotic behaviour though and literally does not act like adult supervision at all - he tells the dead poets that if any other teacher (especially mr nolan) asked, he was watching them like a hawk the entire time (he wasn't, he was watching them like a mole)

- they manage to run into ginny and chris in the mall and the two just sort of. join their group for funsies

- the group is sort of split into three categories: the ones having fun, the ones who are just here for shopping, the ones who want to go home

  - people who are actually having fun: neil, charlie, mr keating, chris, meeks, and todd

     - they actually love the mall because of all the places they get to go and the aesthetic in general (like neil, chris, charlie, and a little bit of mr keating) OR they found a store they really like and are just browsing what they have (todd in a bookstore, meeks with casettes/records/posters, and mr keating at a thrift shop). the latter need to be physically dragged away from the stores they chose to be in

  - the ones who just wanna get their shopping done: cameron, pitts, ginny, knox

     - they don't hate the mall, but they're not giddy or excited about it like the people having fun are. they're still somewhat enjoying themselves because of the people around them or because they found a nice store. either way, they're mostly focused on actually shopping for what they NEED

  - the ones who wanna go home: todd, cameron, a little bit of meeks

     - they get overstimulated outside of their chosen stores very easily :( the food court is loud and bright (they're just like me fr)

- they mostly split up to go to whatever store they want to, but they plan when they're going to meet up at the food court so they can all go together. cameron, ginny, mr keating, and knox all just regularly check their watches to make sure they're not late to the food court meetings while everyone else has to set alarms to remember (especially meeks and todd, since they're so immersed in their respective stores)

- charlie's running around with neil from store to store, browsing each store and buying a couple things from each. they visit the shops everyone else is in to hang out with them a little and talk about what they're buying. sometimes they go to drag the other poets somewhere else because they're spending too much time in one place. neil spends a lot of time with todd in the bookstore, and in turn charlie talks about different records with meeks

- chris will occasionally join along with charlie and neil to talk with the others, but mainly sticks with ginny and knox, who are happy to follow her around as she browses each store. she usually ends up in stored that ginny and knox needed to go to anyway. they buy each other jewellery and other gifts, and point at couple things or plushies and go 'us'

- cameron came into the mall with the intention of sticking strictly to business and simply getting what he needed, but he gave up pretty quickly when he saw just how unserious everyone was being about the whole thing. don't get them wrong, they still got what they needed, but they let themself be taken places too. they even buy the others a couple of things too

-charlie is spoiling EVERYONE, especially neil and the girls. oh, this costs a little too much for their liking? don't worry about it baby, charlie will pay. they can't justify buying something for that price? charlie can! they're eyeing this thing but know that their parents will be mad if they buy it with their money? buy it with charlie's money! charlie is loaded, and what better way to spend his money than on his partners friends? he himself is mainly buying magazines or books, and clothes too. random trinkets too (he buys a mini sax figurine)

- pitts is mainly trying to buy stuff for the radio, along with other projects he wants to start. whenever any of the other poets come around to the store he's in, he'd ask them to visit meeks next and remind her to drink water or to straighten their posture or to take a break in general (modern au! pitts would just call/text meeks to tell her to do so) since it reminds him to do it himself too. he also buys a couple posters and merch in general of his favourite pieces of media to put in his room back at home, or subtly place around his dorm at Welton

- neil is trying not to spend too much of his allowance, and he's succeeding because charlie's buying everything for him, despite his protests. he can't even buy just what he thinks is necessary either, because charlie eill catch him staring longingly at something he wants and buys it. he buys things like flowers, props and very extravagant accessories for future plays and such. and jewellery, so much jewellery. he's also buying things that remind him of everyone else in the friend group, and he and charlie jokingly buy everyone nail polish (which they all end up loving and, by the end of the weekend, they all have matching nails)

- mr keating is buying the wackiest things from the thrift shop - weird and honestly haunted looking decorations? he's taking them. dad-joke shirts? into the cart they go. random trinkets he knows the dead poets will love? buying. he also buys some subtle pride merch, just to let his students know he's a safe space for them. though, he has a feeling they already know, based off of the way they freely talk about stuff like that in front of him

- todd, chris and neil LOVE the perfume (and scented candle) aisle, and they pass by it multiple times while in the make-up store - it's why todd and neil follow her and meeks into there. though, meeks, while occasionally dipping into the make-up store, avoids the perfume aisle like the plague. her senses are extremely sensitive, especially her sense of smell, and the strong perfumes make her sneeze and breathe weird. she quietly encourages the poets in the perfume aisle from the other side of the store

- chris and ginny dip in and out of women's clothing stores and occasionally drag meeks in with them. meeks feels a little shy there but chris and ginny hype her up so much it's hard to feel nervous. they all help each other pick out clothed that suit them and help them feel comfy in clothes they like but are nervous about

- ginny definitely frequents the thrift store too, she just loves the vibes of the clothes there, and she's in and out of the arts and crafts store too. they spend an absurd amount of money in the crafts store (same), and they definitely have stuff they don't need in their bags, but she's happy and besides, charlie covered half the cost, and chris covered the other half. she also buys any necessities she needs, but mainly trinkets from the crafts store

-chris definitely spends some time in the more 'girly' stores (make-up, women's clothes, jewellery, etc.) but she also buys a fair amount of merch for her favourite shows and games (unrelated but i think modern! chris and ginny would play call of duty together - if they can't beat a campaign mission or online round, they ask chet to help). also she buys 'weird' trinkets that remind her of her friends/partners

- also, charlie, knox, todd, cameron, and meeks, the instrument kids, definitely visit the music store a couple of times. charlie brings up the idea of sneaking a piano into Welton and while it's entertained for a minute ot two, meeks eventually rules it out as impossible

- the food court is extremely overstimulating for cameron, todd, and meeks. throughout an all-day trip to the mall, they have three scheduled meal times in the food court (brunch, lunch, befor-dinner-meal). each time they go there they get more and more worn out and by the end of it they're all one inconvenience away to breaking down. cameron and todd at this point desperately want to go home, while meeks, despite knowing that if she doesn't go home now, she'll be throwing up soon but also she wants to stay at the casette store a little longer. still, it's a breath of relief for them all when mr keating finally announces it's time to go back to the campus

- mr keating drops chris and ginny back off at home since they walked to the mall and, with arms full of stuff, they would have a hard time walking back home or taking the bus. it's... definitely a tight fit in the car, and someone has to sit on someone else's lap or on the floor, but they manage. everyone pretends not to notice that both of them get dropped off at ginny's house, even though chris doesn't live there

- by the time they get back to the dorms, everyone has arms full of bags, and all the other teachers give disapproving looks to mr keating, like 'you were supposed to control them >:(' and mr keating, arms also full of bags, most of which aren't even his, just shrugs with a smile. they had fun, that's what was important!

i'm so sorry these are all so long, i love elaborating in my headcanons. and i apologise if some of my headcanons (cough cough transfem meeks) are a little too in your face during this

[desire-mona]

dps boys (and keating's) favourite songs (aka me projecting because i love music) (also modern au because you cannot limit me to music before 1960 you just cant)

i made a playlist of all these songs in case you wanna give em a listen, you can find it here. if you totally disagree with me or wanna add more then absolutely let me know!

neil: talia - ride the cyclone (the musical)

yes i KNOW it's obvious to choose a song from a musical BUT. ride the cyclone is special, i think he'd really like the lack of an ensemble and enjoy the dark premise despite the comedic nature of a vast majority of the show. also i totally think his favourite performance would be by gus halper bc of the use of the projector. mischa or noel is definitely a dream role of his.

todd: vincent - james blake ('s cover, og by don mclean)

don mcleans lyricism is like catnip to poets and it has gone unacknowledged for far too long. a lyrically gorgeous, vaguely queer sounding song about a tortured artist, covered by someone with an ANGELIC voice. can you name anything more todd? not to mention the piano is so far beyond moving, nothing short of a masterpiece.

charlie: dear prudence - siouxsie and the banshees (again - a cover, og by the beatles)

firm believer that charlie was an avid beatles hater for a WHILE until eleanor rigby grew on him, much to his dismay. is now a casual beatles enjoyer, only due to the fact that their vocals annoy him. so a cover by siouxsie sioux (whom he most definitely has a crush on) is basically a blessing in disguise. loves the instrumentals, loves the vocals, loves all of it. insists that its better than the original and will ultimately die (correct) on that hill.

meeks: love on the line (call now) - her's

as much as i love and adore meeks, i have been loyal to my headcanon that he is an annoying music snob since day one. of course, this culminates in his favourite song being by THE indie pop/rock band that pretentious people love to bring up the death of. he is no exception, any time the band is mentioned he will without fail go "did you know that they died in a car crash?" either way, id be lying if i said this was a bad pick. the upbeat vibe mixed with the actual meaning of the song being about a guy wasting all his money on a sex hotline? it makes the whole song so fun, and thats right up his alley! super danceable too, which plays a huge part.

pitts: bad fruit - jean dawson

will mona ever shut up about jean dawson? signs point to no. anywho, if you've followed along with my pittsie musings then you KNOW that i consider pitts to be the most well versed music guy to ever step on welton academy campus. realistically, im sure his favourite song changes on a day to day basis, but he always comes back to this. jean dawson makes art that ive seen few do similarly, everything he brings to the table i find so incredibly unique and well crafted. definitely pitts' biggest music crush.

cameron: '39 - queen

absolutely, 100%, without a doubt, an extremely guilty pleasure. i take his parents as the type to ban queen in their household (for reasons that im sure youre able to pick up on) but i ALSO take cameron as a sucker for classic rock, match made in hell. of course, since brian may does the vocals on this song instead of freddie, he can listen on the dl and be fine. also, the concept of time travel in music is SO!!! INTERESTING!! would absolutely go on a 10 minute long tangent about the story and meaning of the song, which only mittsie would actually listen to.

knox: lavender buds - MF DOOM

fine, FINE. i'll give knox a proper headcanon, but i wont be happy about it. i think i would listen to MF DOOM a lot more if i was a former bully, but thats not actually based off anything so dont take that as an insult, avid listeners. honestly i dont really have an in depth explanation for this one, just look at the lyrics and youll understand.

(this repeats 3 times)

i also take him to be a big r&b/ blues enjoyer, also based off nothing at all, so the sample probably appeals to some sense of nostalgia.

keating: clair de lune - claude debussy

yes, even modern keating's fav song would be classical, you can rip that from my cold, dead hands. this song was based off the poem by the same title by paul verlaine, which i'll include because it is just so damn beautiful.

Your soul is a select landscape

Where charming masqueraders and bergamaskers go

Playing the lute and dancing and almost

Sad beneath their fantastic disguises.

All sing in a minor key

Of victorious love and the opportune life,

They do not seem to believe in their happiness

And their song mingles with the moonlight,

With the still moonlight, sad and beautiful,

That sets the birds dreaming in the trees

And the fountains sobbing in ecstasy,

The tall slender fountains among marble statues.

Paul Verlaine, 1869 (originally written in french, so this is a rough english translation)

now the song itself does SUCH a good job at capturing the beauty and moving parts of this poem, and it fits perfectly with a plethora of different emotions. i know without a shadow of a doubt that its his kryptonite. is that me projecting because i love this song and i love keating? absolutely, but i still think its true either way.

[moregraceful]

my dog is almost entirely deaf but i just found the register he can hear and it's whatever register abba's "gimme gimme gimme (a man after midnight" is in 😭😭 he started barking so much and would not calm down until i changed the song.

[dk-thrive]

How F used to read English poetry to me—Keats, Shakespeare — stumbling, putting the stresses all wrong. It was electrifying. The power of the work came bursting through — his utter lack of pretension, acting, expression — nothing there but WORD.

— Helen Garner, One Day I'll Remember This: Diaries 1987–1995 (Text Publishing Company, October 12, 2021)

[elizabethplaid]

Start-of-September reading

"The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows" (2021) by John Koenig

"Cutting: Understanding and Overcoming Self-Mutilation" (1998) by Steven Levenkron

"Twilight" (2005) by Stephanie Meyer

I've mentioned "Obscure Sorrows" lately, and "Cutting" was amid my first month of posts on tumblr, 15 years ago. I'm revisiting both, each as a refresher. Also revisiting "Cutting" to see how much still feels like "me" and what is now the "older me(s)".

As for "Twilight", I was a hater when the movies came out. The books started right after I graduated, so I missed 'em. During the last few fan resurgencs, I decided to give it a fair try. And after procrastinating for years, I'm already halfway through.

I get it now, why it's appealing. It's about being seen when you feel alone in a crowd, as you wear a mask to fit in. And it's about intimacy, cherishing a partner, understanding you can do all the right things and still mess up.

But, baby, that's just real-life romance, a mature romance. Perhaps a sexless romance, where it's the heart is driving things more than the body.

I'm not ace, and I know the story's vampire seduction is a metaphor for sex. Basically, I'm probably not the best person to speak for that angle. But being older, the emotional connection has become a priority for what I want in relationships.

I have a mild fondness for Bella's (the narrator's) pretentious phrasing, showing off that she loves English class. Oh that was very me in high school, as a way to feel better about myself. Edward speaks the same way with her privately, though his diction is excused by being over 100 years old.

The intimacy in their conversations (just read the first scene at the meadow) was appealing. It's been too long since I read the "Outlander" series, but I would say those characters had a better example of that connection.

However, when you're thirsty in a desert, you slurp what you can find. (Auto-suggest offered "slut" next to "slurp", haha.) I love cheesy romance novels of my mom's era (80s to early 00s), because of the silliness.

I assume modern readers want more, especially with sincerity between the characters. I mean, "Outlander " was more popular than I expected, until I read it myself. I gave up on the series, not wanting to watch them march into the American Revolution. That said, the series started in the 1980s, so you never know what other gems there made be out there.

"Twilight" is not a gem, but I can see the appeal, especially for younger readers. There's a spark of what I like, though it isn't enough to satisfy; but it at least reminds me of what I like.

[lingeringscars]

layla told simone that she fell in love with jordan because he stayed, and this is true. but she started realizing after carrie that it had always been true. they grew apart, liv was her childhood best friend, but when she needed someone, jordan has never hesitated. he's always given her exactly what she needed. in cotilion, after layla found out about what went down in vegas, and everything he did after carrie solidified that he was someone who was stable. layla felt unstable her entire life, believed that everyone would leave her, but jordan never did.

[l1veleak]

“this is what drivers usually call happy hour” bro i have not felt happiness in the last 10 hours

[scftdevil]

good morning loves. i am not around much today. it's my best friend of college's 31st birthday, and so he's having a big sleepover and trip to the arcade because we're basically kids. i don't think i'll do the sleepover thing, but i'm certainly going to try and go for a little bit. for now, i am going to fall down the rabbit hole that is the band ghost. i am broken, i think, way too obsessed with swiss. i love him. i hate that it's so easy for me to fall for a band, and feel like i am thirteen again.

[lcnelyday]

good morning. last night i sobbed over ts and watched d20 and had the worst sleep of my life. today is for pasta salad, replies, more d20 and sims 4. i'll be in the drafts.

[littledots]

I see you right in front of me as close as you can get And I pray that you won't leave this daydream yet @wynterlanding suvi & landon

[ask-pisssoc]

ur giving james taggart/peter keating energy but if they listened to too way much lana del rey

I've never heard of James Taggart, so he must not be that important. But is he hot?

[desire-mona]

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