#kagehina fanfic

[ushouldwatchhaikyuu]

,,,,,, so yknow how kageyama sucks at compliments,,,, and hinata thrives off praise and often looks for his approval,,,,, which leads to a lot of funny haha moments but like. what if,,, what if it actually became a problem at some point ,,,, like one day, for some reason, hinata's mood & energy at practice starts getting lower each day. and he seems uneasy & stuff. and the guys start to notice its worse when he's around kageyama, so they ask if something's going on between them and Kageyama's like "of course not lmao everythings fine what r yall on about". until at some point it gets too much and hinata ends up telling him he thought the reason kageyama never complimented his abilities was bc he thought hinata sucked and was gonna drop him. which leads to an Emotional Team Speech and to kageyama having to learn how to express himself a bit more explicitly cause apparently calling hinata a dumbass wasn't gonna cut it anymore

(Edit: lmfao i made a fic about it)

[pearlsephoni]

Just Between Us

Can also be read on AO3!

Rating: E

Fandom: Haikyuu!!

Pairing: Kagehina (Kageyama/Hinata), mentions of Bokuaka (Bokuto/Akaashi) and Iwaoi (Iwaizumi/Oikawa)

Characters: Shoyo Hinata, Tobio Kageyama, Atsumu Miya, Kotaro Bokuto, cameos from Korai Hoshiumi, Wakatoshi Ushijima, Aran Ojiro, Tooru Oikawa, and Hajime Iwaizumi

Word Count: 12.5k

Summary: Hinata Shoyo has fulfilled his greatest dreams: reach the top of the volleyball world with Kageyama Tobio, and be loved by Kageyama Tobio. One is very public, while the other is hidden only for each other and their closest loved ones. A risk gone wrong threatens to change that.

A/N: Originally published on AO3 on June 24th for @/Lmc_thph this year's Kagehina Exchange, and beta'd by @/danatooine. Further author's notes can be found on AO3.

***

“God damn, Tobio-kun!”

Shoyo’s shoulders shot up with Kageyama’s, even though his name wasn’t called. When he looked around, he immediately saw the cause for Atsumu’s loud surprise, and his heart sank.

The broad, defined, beautiful expanse of Kageyama’s back was marred by red lines, a set of four on each of his shoulder blades like wings.

There was a burst of shuffling and murmuring as other members of the National Team tried to get a look at Kageyama’s back. To Shoyo’s relief, the setter had already tugged his practice jersey on, covering up the implicating marks.

“Didn’t think ya had it in ya!” Atsumu cooed with a shit-eating grin. “Who’s the lucky lady? Or— hold on, you’re gay, right?”

“Please stop talking, Atsumu-san,” Kageyama muttered. Atsumu did not look like he was going to listen, but Kageyama was saved by Ushijima clapping his hands and urging the lingering team members to get out to the court already.

Shoyo didn’t look away from Kageyama fast enough to avoid meeting his eyes for the briefest breath, and he felt a jolt up his spine at the stormy anger in that blue gaze.

Oh, he was fucked.

***

“Fuck me.”

Shoyo pulled away to stare wide-eyed at Kageyama. “Really? But your team won the 3-on-3’s.”

“Yeah, so I get to choose. Fuck me.”

Oh. Huh. Shoyo was straddling Kageyama’s hips, fully prepared to stretch himself out and seat himself on his thick length. That was how it usually went when Kageyama won a game, and Shoyo had nearly gotten them exposed to the team. Honestly, he’d been kind of…looking forward to what kind of punishment Kageyama was going to dole out.

Not that he was going to complain. He eagerly scrambled to climb off of Kageyama’s hips and in between his legs, grabbing the bottle of lube on the journey. “What’s the occasion?” he asked as he slicked up his fingers.

“Do I need an occasion for you to fuck me?” Kageyama grumbled.

“Mm-hm! Maybe you remembered how much you love me, or how good I played earlier, or how I fuck you better than— wah!” His clean hand just barely caught Kageyama’s foot before it could collide with his face.

“Are you going to fuck me, or not?”

“Patience, Bossy-yama,” Shoyo cooed, brushing a light kiss to the inside of Kageyama’s ankle. He heard a quiet, sharp inhale, and he smirked into Kageyama’s soft skin before brushing another kiss to his ankle, then the inside of his knee, then tracing a path along the inside of his thigh.

With every brush of his lips, Kageyama’s breaths quickened, until his lips hovered over the hard curve of Kageyama’s cock. His tongue darted out to lick at his flushed cockhead, and that finally dragged a hoarse “Sho…” from Kageyama’s wet lips.

“Hm?” Shoyo hummed, looking up with wide, innocent eyes. “What’s wrong?”

Kageyama was flushed with heavy-lidded eyes, but he still scowled down at Shoyo with stubbornly closed lips. Shoyo didn’t mind—he knew how to break him. “Gotta use your words, To-bi-o,” he sang, brushing a kiss along his cock with every syllable of his name.

“I already did,” Kageyama bit out. He wrapped a leg around Shoyo’s waist, dragging his foot up until it pressed into the small of his back. “Fuck me.”

“Bossy,” Shoyo tutted. Without warning, he sank a finger into Kageyama, smirking when his foot immediately dropped from his back and went limp on the bed, matching the way his head fell back with a low moan.

He loved fucking Kageyama, loved feeling him wrapped tight and warm around him, but he especially loved watching him unravel like this. It was one thing to watch him grit his teeth and furrow his brows with concentration as he pounded Shoyo into oblivion, that concentration breaking only when Shoyo clenched tight around him. It was another thing entirely to melt him down from the inside out.

One finger became two, then became three, all crooked perfectly and pressing just enough to pull another cry from Kageyama. “Fuck, Sho—!”

“I know,” Shoyo hushed, leaning up to ghost a kiss against Kageyama’s wet, parted lips.

“I’m ready,” Kageyama groaned. “I’m ready, c’mon, just— mmh!”

“Okay, okay!” A fond huff of laughter escaped him as he reached for the lube. “Condom?”

“No.” Sweat-damp strands of black hair clung to the pillow as Kageyama shook his head, unable to even lift it.

“Really?” The word came out as more of a moan than a question, Shoyo’s concentration nearly escaping him at the slick grip of his own hand around his throbbing cock. He was almost dizzy from how badly he wanted to pump himself fast and hard, but he held himself back, letting the wet, filthy sounds of his strokes reach both his and Kageyama’s ears. Those dark blue eyes widened for a beat, before growing heavy with desire again.

“No condom?” Shoyo murmured, leaning down just enough to bump their noses together. “You want me to fill you up? You want to spill with me? What if you can’t get it all out and it leaks tomorrow?” Anyone else might have looked mortified at the thought, but not Kageyama. His teeth sunk into his bottom lip, biting back another moan. “You’d like that, wouldn’t you? Want everyone to know their best setter is a slut who gets filled up after practice?”

“M’not—” Kageyama’s protest trailed off into a shuddered breath of anticipation, distracted by Shoyo lining his tip up with his stretched rim.

“I know,” Shoyo hummed with a smirk. “You don’t spread your legs for just anyone, right? The only one allowed here”—he began pushing in, watching Kageyama wilt against the bed—“is me.”

“Only you,” Kageyama breathlessly agreed, wrapping his legs around Shoyo’s hips. “C’mon, Sho, fill me up.”

“Fuck.” That was all Shoyo could manage, all his focus narrowed on slowly pushing in, bit by bit, soaking in the sound of Kageyama’s bit-back moans and the sight of his heaving, flushed chest, until their hips finally met. “Good?”

“Wait,” Kageyama gasped, eyes screwed tight from the stretch.

This was one of the only situations where Shoyo was happy to wait. He trailed kisses and lightly sucked at Kageyama’s collarbones as the setter adjusted, pulling away just to watch his bites bloom like roses against his pale skin. Normally, this was the only time he could mark Kageyama up without getting yelled at, his nags replaced with shuddering sighs from the stretch.

But instead of melting more, Kageyama seemed to become unnervingly alert, eyes fluttering up to look down at Shoyo and lips curving down around his deep breaths. When he finally said, “I’m ready,” his voice came out more as a grunt than a sigh.

Shoyo obeyed, but not without asking, “Is something wrong?”

“What?”

“You look grumpier than usual.” Truthfully, Kageyama rarely looked grumpy at all in bed, but Shoyo wasn’t going to pass up a chance to tease him.

“Maybe because a dumbass nearly had us found out today,” Kageyama snapped. Despite his grumpy words, his legs tightened around Shoyo’s hips, urging him to move.

“You like when I mark you up!”

“Yeah, in places people won’t notice! Not—ah!—scratches the whole locker room sees!”

“Who asked you to—nngh—change in the middle of the locker room?”

“Who asked you to scratch up my whole back?”

“Didn’t hear you complain last night!”

“You little—mmh!”

Shoyo dipped down and cut him off with a kiss, his hips speeding up with every bite and lick. Driving into Kageyama with nothing between them was sublime. It never failed to drive Shoyo’s greed and want higher and higher with every thrust—

“Aahhh, the hell—?!” Shoyo arched away from the nails digging into his back, scratching sharp lines down his skin and making a mixture of pain and pleasure spark through him. His hips stuttered before driving in even deeper than before, pulling a whine from Kageyama. “Ow, Tobi!”

Shoyo’s heart skipped a beat at Kageyama’s smirk. How could someone look so annoying and so hot? “Oops.”

“You were just nagging me about that!”

“I wasn’t nagging— ah, fuck, there!”

Shoyo pushed himself upright until his hands were free to clutch at Kageyama’s hips, holding him in place so he could thrust fast and deep and hard into his prostate. The pressure would’ve been too much for Shoyo, but it was perfect for Kageyama, unraveling him until he was reduced to wordless gasps and moans.

“Good, Yama?”

“Ah, ahhhh, Sho, fuck!”

“That a yes?”

“Fuck off, you know— fuck!”

Shoyo felt spellbound, watching Kageyama like this: flushed, sweaty, black hair a mess, eyes half-lidded and dazed, lips kiss-swollen and parted around helpless noises. A grin pulled at his lips when those noises grew higher and almost-panicked. That was Shoyo’s cue to wrap his hand, still slippery with traces of lube, around Kageyama’s cock. He only needed one tug to make Kageyama cry out, “Yes!” That normally-gruff voice was ragged and whining, adorned with slutty moans that Shoyo knew only he would get to hear.

“Close, Tobi?”

“Yeah, fuck, Sho—”

“C’mon, baby, come for me.” Shoyo dipped down to brush his lips over the marks he’d sucked into Kageyama’s collarbones. “I wanna feel you go all tight around me.”

He punctuated the sentence with an extra squeeze to Kageyama’s cock. That was all he needed—with a cry, Kageyama arched off of the bed as white spurted across his abs and down Shoyo’s hand. His walls rippled around Shoyo, sucking him in deeper and tighter until he had no choice but to fall over the edge behind him. “Nnh, Tobio,” he groaned, grinding in until he finally emptied himself.

His cum was already seeping out around his softening length, and when he pulled out, he could barely grab a towel in time to stem the small stream that began to leak. “Wow, I filled you up,” he laughed breathlessly.

Kageyama didn’t respond beyond a low groan until Shoyo finished wiping him as clean as he could. The moment the towel left his skin, he planted a foot on Shoyo’s stomach and gently nudged him away, wincing at the movement in his leg. “Ow,” he grunted, weakly rubbing at the underside of his thigh. “The hell did you do?”

“Gave you the best fuck of your life?” Shoyo answered sweetly, until his eyes looked at where Kageyama was rubbing. “...Oh, fuck.”

“What? What’d you do?”

“Um…” There were deep red marks right where Shoyo could remember his hips driving in. He knew he fucked Kageyama hard, but he didn’t mean to bruise him. “You…might have more marks tomorrow.”

“How?” Kageyama snapped, looking much more alert from his post-orgasm daze.

“What do you mean, how?” Shoyo snapped back. “I fucked you! It’s not my fault you bruise like a peach!”

“It’s not my fault you have such bony hips!”

“Yeah right, like you weren’t groping all over them last night!”

“God, shut up,” Kageyama growled, grabbing Shoyo around the back of his neck and pulling him into a hungry, angry kiss. Shoyo went easily, more than happy to let Kageyama flip him over and part his legs.

It looked like he was going to get that punishment after all.

***

Shoyo loved playing volleyball. He loved playing it indoors and on the beach, in Japan and in Brazil, in casual games and in international championships.

But nothing, nothing, could measure up to standing on the court with Kageyama. It didn’t matter if they were on the same team or staring at each other through the net—Shoyo felt alive playing with Kageyama in a way no other team or player had ever made him feel.

Yes, he loved playing against Kageyama as much as on the same team, but the perk of being on the National Team together was training in the same city, in the same gym. When the best of Japan’s volleyball players were gathered in Tokyo, barely a night passed where Shoyo wasn’t with Kageyama.

The only problem was, the rest of the team didn’t know they were dating. Never mind that they were as good as engaged, only missing a ring. With how public everything else about their lives was, it was almost a relief to have something so intimate, so sweet, so comfortable be kept private, just for the two of them and their closest loved ones.

So, they had a system: Shoyo rented an apartment in the same building as Kageyama’s, so that it wouldn’t seem suspicious for them to be leaving together in the morning. They staggered their returns home, and Shoyo made sure to have his hair hidden under a cap when he stayed over at Kageyama’s place. They kept up their usual bickering, teasing, comfortable rapport at practice and during games, but anything more than brushed hands or “sportly” hugs were saved until they were behind closed doors.

But they weren’t perfect. They had their close calls, their stolen kisses in deserted halls and their ill-placed marks. Shoyo especially liked to live on the edge with the marks and hickeys he left on Kageyama. Yeah, he was much more disciplined now than he had been in high school, and that included thinking through his choices more.

Man, did he like to tease the limits when it came to Kageyama. Not too much, of course. They’d managed to avoid scrutiny for the most part. The instance with Atsumu was an isolated incident, nothing more. When Shoyo woke up the next morning to find scratches down his back, hickeys along his collarbones and the hollow of his throat, and bruises pressed into his thighs and hips, he wasn’t that alarmed. Sure, some would be trickier to properly hide, but even if some showed, it’d be fine. It wasn’t like any of them would be photographed or otherwise immortalized.

Then they walked into the gym, and were faced by their coach and two photographers lingering at his elbow. “Ah, Hinata, Kageyama, welcome!” their coach greeted them.

“Hey, Coach.” Shoyo answered for himself and Kageyama. “Who’re, um…”

“Ah, them?” Their coach threw a careless glance over his shoulder. “I’ll go into more detail when the rest of the team gets here, but basically: the Olympics committee wanted to build up some hype for the upcoming games, so they’re sending photographers to get shots of all of Japan’s national teams in action.”

Shoyo’s stomach dropped. “...Photos?”

“Yeah?” Shoyo squirmed under their coach’s raised brow. “Is there a problem?”

“N-no! Not at all, just…” Shoyo slapped on an attempt at his usual charismatic smile. “I forgot to double-check my good side, Coach!”

“Oh, ha ha. Go change and warm up.”

Kageyama had stayed silent through the exchange, and managed to hold himself together until they were alone in the locker room. “What the fuck?!” he hissed.

“What?!”

“What do you mean, what? We’re getting photographed, dumbass! For the whole country to see! Shit, maybe the whole world, oh, fuck me—”

“Already did,” Shoyo joked automatically, only for his words to crack into a yelp when Kageyama sank his fingers into his hair.

“Shut up! Look what you did!” With his free hand, Kageyama jerked aside his collar, and Shoyo winced at what was revealed: clusters of now-purpling bruises lined his collarbones and reached the precise line where the collar of his shirt landed. “The second I raise my arms to set and lower them again, everyone will see these! Including the photographers.”

Shoyo winced, not even bothering to squirm when Kageyama yanked his collar aside to look at the damage he’d created. He watched that handsome face go pale, and felt his stomach grow leaden with dread. “What…what do we do?”

“What can we do?” Kageyama grumbled. “We’ll just have to hope we play well enough to distract people from…anything else.”

He began pulling away, but Shoyo caught his hand and, after making sure they were alone in the locker room, chanced a brush to his palm. “I’m sorry, Tobi. I didn’t know—”

“Dumbass, don’t apologize. I went overboard, too.” Kageyama brushed his thumb across the back of Shoyo’s hand before finally pulling away. “Come on. We gotta warm up.”

Predictably, but thankfully, practice ended up being exactly what they needed to distract themselves. Even if it was less of a proper practice and more of an impromptu publicity photoshoot. Shoyo didn’t mind, not when the very photographers they’d feared ended up directing him and Kageyama to carry out both freak and regular quick attacks. Yes, there was a special thrill that came from landing the freak quick during an actual match. But when Shoyo whirled towards Kageyama for a celebratory high five, and his smile was met by a grin of pride and quiet adoration, the rush of love he felt still filled him with warmth and happiness separate from the court.

“Wow, Kageyama, how come we never see that smile in your ads?” Hoshiumi chuckled from the sidelines after the fifth quick for the cameras.

Kageyama’s cheeks flushed a pretty pink that was different from the usual ruddiness of exercise. “It’s…it’s because I’m never playing in those ads.”

“You play in the Power Curry ads,” Ushijima remarked, not to tease, just to state a fact. “But you never smile in those.”

“Because I’m focusing.”

“So you’re not focused when you toss to me?” Shoyo gasped, eager to join the group teasing. “Are you distracted with your precious freak attack partner, Yama-kun?”

“My what?” Any and all signs of embarrassment were sapped by annoyance as Kageyama shot a hand towards Shoyo’s head. He missed, as usual, because Shoyo expected it, as usual. “I’m not distracted, dumbass, just…” The truth was clear in his eyes, but stalled on his tongue, leaving him stumped and not a little panicked.

“You’re happy playing with Hinata-kun!” Bokuto oh-so-helpfully piped with a bright smile. “I get it, man, I felt the same way playing with Keiji! His tosses were always the best!”

“Bokkun, ya wound me so.”

“Aw, that’s not what I meant—”

Bokuto’s interruption was both the best and worst thing that could’ve happened. Kageyama looked like he might pass out from their partnership being loudly compared to what Bokuto had with his husband, and Shoyo, for his part, felt like he would get whiplash from how quickly he looked at the photographers to see if they’d connected any dreaded dots.

To his relief, they looked too busy snapping photos of the entire interaction, with the team lead looking delighted by all the shots of the team’s natural rapport. “I’ve photographed a lot of teams over the past few weeks,” he laughed to their coach, “and these guys are definitely the most close-knit bunch we’ve seen. What’s your secret, Coach?”

“No secret here. Just the team’s history with each other. It’s not often you have an Olympic team that played with and against each other in high school.”

“It definitely makes a difference.”

The photography team lead didn’t make any other comments after that, but for the rest of the practice, Shoyo couldn’t shake the distinct feeling that he was being watched.

***

Shoyo loved the National Team. He really did. If he could tell his high school self that he’d be playing on a team with Ushijima, Bokuto, Hoshiumi, Ojiro, and Atsumu, on top of all the other great players he’d admired, he was sure he would’ve seen his 16-year-old brain implode.

Yes, he loved this team. But sometimes…sometimes they got the worst ideas, and decided to make it the rest of the team’s problem.

Exhibit A: they had just finished their final practice before the few days they got to have as a break before they moved into the Olympic Village and began preparations for the opening ceremony. Instead of going home and getting a good night’s rest to let their bodies recover from practice, they were now sitting in an izakaya sharing enough beers and snacks to send the workers into a bit of a panic.

All thanks to Atsumu and Hoshiumi.

Shoyo wouldn’t have minded—he’d managed to build up a bit more of a tolerance in Rio, though he usually didn’t have more than a beer at a time once he’d joined the V.League. Kageyama, on the other hand…

“Yama, sit up,” Shoyo hissed, trying to fit his hands under Kageyama’s ribs to push him away. It didn’t work: Kageyama lifted an inch or two from Shoyo’s push…and fell right back over his shoulders. It was all Shoyo could do to not tip over from the extra weight.

“Alright there, Hinata?”

Shoyo looked up to see Ojiro watching him from across the table, brows raised over curious gray eyes. “Ah, yeah! I just…always forget what a lightweight Yama is.”

He punctuated his words with a poke at Kageyama’s side. Somehow, that worked to get him to sit up better than his shove. Annoyance pricked at him, but was quickly swept away by fond exasperation when Kageyama jerked upright, frowned into his almost-empty beer mug, and dully mumbled, “...Ow.”

“Hey, man,” Ojiro started, sounding like he was making a valiant attempt to hold back his laughter, “how much have you had to drink?”

Kageyama blinked slowly at Ojiro, visibly processing the question before silently raising three fingers. “M’not drunk,” he managed to mumble, “just…tipsy.”

“Alright, if you’re sure. How much more are you going to drink?”

Kageyama shrugged.

“You get one more beer,” Shoyo answered instead, raising a single, stubborn finger up to Kageyama’s face and grinning when his boyfriend nearly went cross-eyed trying to look at it. “One more! And that’s it!”

“Dumbass, you’re not my mom,” Kageyama grumbled, pushing away his finger with a frown that Shoyo easily recognized as his embarrassed grimace.

Shoyo, for his part, allowed himself to add one more shot to his tally of one beer and two shots. He was good about slowly nursing his beer, but he could never put up a good fight when Bokuto and Atsumu offered him shots of shochu. By the time the team finally cleared out of the izakaya, a flush was warming his face and he was laughing a little louder than usual. Kageyama, on the other hand, had gone basically silent, and was swaying like a tree in a non-existent breeze.

Loud laughter echoed in the night air when Atsumu pulled Shoyo into a hug, covering his quiet, “Sure you’ll be okay getting him back?”

“Yes, Tsumu-san,” Shoyo laughed with a reassuring pat on his back. “This isn’t my first time dealing with him drunk.”

“You’ll have to tell me that story later,” Atsumu chuckled before pulling away. “Be careful, Tobio-kun!” he said, whacking Kageyama on the shoulder and grinning when his fellow setter stumbled from the force. “I’ll never forgive ya if you squish my favorite spiker!”

Kageyama finally looked halfway alert when he frowned at Atsumu and grumbled, “He’s my spiker.” The quiet words were quickly overwhelmed by Bokuto and Hoshiumi’s affronted gasps at Atsumu’s declaration, but Shoyo heard him loud and clear, grinning wide as Kageyama dodged his gaze with scarlet ears.

He waited for the rest of the team to disperse before whispering, “Can you walk?”

“Yeah!” Kageyama answered a little too loudly. “Of course I can!”

They made it all of four blocks before Shoyo threw up his hands. “Alright, that’s it!” He crouched in front of Kageyama. “Climb on.”

He didn’t need to look over his shoulder to know his boyfriend was blinking down at him with a confused frown. “...What?”

“Climb on! I’ll piggyback you home.”

“Dumbass, you can’t carry me!”

“Yes, I can! Come on!”

“I’m gonna squish you!”

“Then squish me! At least we can get home faster!”

“M’not that slow.”

Shoyo scowled at the sidewalk when his back remained weight-free. “What’s wrong, Yama?” he suddenly cooed, inspiration striking just in time. “Scared I’ll carry you further than you can carry me?”

“M’not scared!”

“Then prove it!”

For a moment, all he heard was inscrutable mumbling. Then, all at once, the weight of a soon-to-be two-time Olympic athlete fell onto his back. Compared to his slouchy weight in the izakaya, Kageyama now felt like the weight of the world falling onto Atlas’s shoulders. Or, well, Shoyo’s.

“Woah, Tobi, the hell!”

“What?! You said get on!”

“Yeah, like a human, not like a sack of rice! Nearly broke my knees.”

“Whiny dumbass.” The mutter accompanied a shifting of Kageyama’s weight on his back, and Shoyo quickly tightened his hold around his thighs before he could try to stand back up. “Lemme go.”

“Nope!” With that, Shoyo began the slow, painstaking process of getting to his feet under more than twice his usual weight. “Why’re you so heavy?!”

“Lemme go or quit whining.”

“I can carry you and whine at the same time, Drunk-yama,” Shoyo snorted. Naturally, out of everything that night, bickering was when Kageyama sounded more sober than he had all evening. “Just don’t puke on me.”

“That’s a good idea.”

“Tobio!”

Unflattering snorts practically echoed in Shoyo’s left ear as a chin hooked over his shoulder. He didn’t flinch, not wanting to make Kageyama straighten up. Despite his aching body, he couldn’t help smiling at the brush of Kageyama’s nose at his cheek and his breaths ruffling his hair.

Somehow, through a sheer stubborn need to prove himself and the soft love spreading through him at Kageyama’s sleepy, drunken, snuffling breaths, Shoyo managed to reach the front stairs to their apartment building. He stared at the four measly steps up, felt the burning shake of his legs, and grunted, “Yama, get down.”

Nothing.

“Tobio!” Shoyo gathered every last bit of his strength to bounce the setter. “On your feet, c’mon!”

He heard a snort, a confused grumble, then, blessedly, all that Olympic weight slid off his back. His legs shuddered beneath him, longing to give out and let him crumple to the ground, but first: “Alright, let’s go inside.”

“No.”

Shoyo’s step forward was cut short by Kageyama tugging back on his hand. “What do you mean, no?”

“Kiss me first.”

Shoyo turned and gaped at his boyfriend, who frowned at him with a furrow to his brow that would have been frightening to anyone else, but that Shoyo recognized as being the equivalent to a childish pout. “Why?! We’re still outside!”

“Don’t care.” Kageyama took one unsteady step forward and rested his forehead on Shoyo’s. “R’you…mad at me? F’r getting drunk?”

“What? No! When have I gotten mad at you for something like that?”

“Then kiss me.”

“Tobiiiiii. What if someone sees us?”

“Say it’s my fault. M’drunk.”

“Yeah, no kidding.”

Kageyama just grunted and nudged his nose against Shoyo’s. The pressure was just ticklish enough to make Shoyo break into a soft giggle. “If I kiss you, will you go inside?”

“Mm.”

“Promise?”

“Yeah.”

“Fine. Kiss me.”

There was a beat, then Kageyama pulled away to pin Shoyo under a confused pout. “Wha?”

“I already hauled your drunk ass home! You gotta at least work for the kiss!”

Those sweet pink lips twisted, but Kageyama couldn’t argue. So he cupped Shoyo’s face in big, clumsy hands, and haphazardly teetered forward until their lips bumped each other. It reminded Shoyo of their first awkward, mismatched kiss, and when he helped fit their lips together, his were stretched into a grin.

“Quit smiling,” Kageyama mumbled into the kiss.

“I can’t! You’re too cute!”

Kageyama grumbled, but he didn’t nip at Shoyo’s lips nor try to kiss him again. He just let his head fall forward onto Shoyo’s shoulder. “Dumbass.”

“Uh-huh. Dumbass that got you home! C’mon.” Shoyo manhandled Kageyama’s arm around his shoulders and began leading him inside.

“Sho.”

“What?” Shoyo didn’t bother holding back his laughter. It wasn’t like Kageyama would remember it enough to be upset by it.

“Shtop…stop laughiiiiing.” Kageyama somehow slumped even more onto Shoyo’s shoulders. Shoyo was strong, of course he was, he couldn’t be a professional athlete if he wasn’t. But even he had his limits, and walking while carrying most of the weight of his co-athlete, very drunk, very off-balance boyfriend was threatening to step over that line.

“God, I love you so much, you lightweight idiot,” Shoyo sighed. “Are you sure you only had beer? Did Atsumu-san sneak you a shot?”

“No! No liquor! Only beer!”

“You’re like this after four beers? How did you survive Italy?!”

“They’re not…alcolics…like”—he stumbled over the edge of the elevator, and Shoyo barely managed to keep him on his feet—“like bajilics.”

“Like what?”

“Bajilics,” Kageyama repeated, sounding more certain and like he thought Shoyo was an idiot for not understanding.

“...Oh my god, do you mean Brazilians?”

“S’what I said.”

“Of course, so sorry.”

Kageyama grunted, lapsing into silence as he squished his cheek against Shoyo’s hair. “...Sho.”

This time Shoyo took care to choke back his laugh. Somehow, in the space between the izakaya and their building, the last bit of alcohol had been soaked up by Kageyama’s body and made him cross the line between sleepy silence and drunken chatter. He was only ever like this when drunk and alone with Shoyo, which wasn’t often. Truthfully, Shoyo still wasn’t used to it. “Yes, Yama?”

“I think…I drank too much.”

“Really?” Shoyo gasped. “Where’d you get an idea like that?”

He swore he could feel Kageyama’s frown pressed to his hair. “Shut up.” There was a deep sigh, a beat of silence, and then a mumbled, “Smell good.”

“What does?”

“You, dumbass.”

His cheeks grew warm. “Trying to seduce me, Tobi?”

“No,” Kageyama snorted. “If I wanted to seduce you, I’d just suck your—”

Ding!

The elevator chimed just as Shoyo slapped a hand over Kageyama’s mouth. “God, Yama, public!!”

He could feel Kageyama smile against his palm. It was the only warning he got before he was jerking his hand back from a wide lick. “Gross!”

“Gotcha,” Kageyama mumbled, immediately falling back over Shoyo’s shoulders. “M’tired.”

“Yeah, yeah. Let’s get you home.”

In hindsight, Shoyo wasn’t sure how he did it. He got Kageyama home, managed to get him to wash up as well as he could and have a bite to eat with a glass of water, then got him tucked into bed. It was hard, and annoying, and more than once Shoyo wanted to squish his cheeks until some sense was forced back into his head.

But then he looked down at Kageyama, at his sleepy blue eyes peering over his covers, and he thought his heart might burst from all the love pressing at its walls. “Good night, Tobio,” he murmured, dipping down to press a kiss to his forehead. “I’ll check on you tomorrow, ‘kay?”

He straightened up, ready to leave for his own apartment…only to be brought up short by strong fingers in his sleeve. “Stay.” The word was muffled, filtering through the thick covers obscuring Kageyama’s face.

“Tobio?”

“Stay with me. Then you…c’n check easier.”

Yeah, Shoyo’s heart was definitely going to burst by morning. “Uwah,” he gushed, letting a smitten smile pull at his lips. “You get really smart when you’re drunk!”

The fingers in his hoodie slipped away to the sound of a halfhearted growl. “Never mind. Go away.”

“Nope!”

Shoyo washed up and crawled into bed in record time, but he still couldn’t make it before Kageyama had dozed off. “You okay, Tobi?” he whispered, just in case.

“Mm.” Kageyama turned towards him and burrowed into his chest, silky black strands tickling at his chin. Strong arms wrapped tight around him, essentially locking Shoyo into bed.

“Good night,” he murmured again, laughter coloring his words.

“Mmf.”

“Love you, Tobi.”

He didn’t get an answer. But he did hear a content sigh, then the softest, snuffling little snores he ever did hear. When he fell asleep, it was with his nose buried into Kageyama’s hair and his arms holding him close like a teddy bear, the warmest, strongest, snuggliest teddy bear in the world.

And all his. Just his.

***

Shoyo was already used to being the first one up when they were both sober, so he wasn’t surprised to wake up and find Kageyama still asleep with a furrow in his brow the next morning. He was surprised to still be wrapped so tightly in his arms—usually they drifted apart at some point in the night, keeping at least a hand or arm on top of each other like an anchor. He wasn’t sure how to untangle himself without waking Kageyama up.

So, he didn’t.

“Yama,” he whispered.

“Mm.”

“Tobioooooo.”

“Mmfwhat?”

“Wake up.”

To his surprise, Kageyama actually obeyed, extracting his face from Shoyo’s chest and slowly blinking his eyes open…and immediately burrowing back in with a groan. “Too bright.”

“It’s not too bright,” Shoyo laughed. “You’re just hungover.”

“‘N you’re too loud.”

“Sorryyyy.” Shoyo lowered his voice to an exaggerated whisper. “Is this better?”

“You’re teasing me.”

“Am I?”

Kageyama pulled away again, this time to narrow his eyes at Shoyo. “...Dumbass.”

“Be nice to me, or I won’t make breakfast.”

Kageyama groaned and rolled away, stuffing his face into his pillow. “Don’t wanna eat. What if I throw it up?”

“I’ll bring you some water, Your Highness, then you should be okay to eat,” Shoyo snorted as he sat up and swung his legs over the side of the bed.

A foot suddenly planted itself in the small of his back and pushed him off the bed with a firm shove, forcing him to stumble to his feet. “Hey!”

“Go make breakfast.”

“Jerk,” Shoyo muttered under his breath. He pulled his phone from its charger and shuffled to the kitchen, putting the kettle on to boil while he checked his notifications.

That’s when he saw it.

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 hey man, bokkun and i kinda…followed u n tobio last night just to make sure u were actually okay to carry him! and…we saw this [photo attached]

Shoyo’s stomach dropped to his feet when he opened the image and squinted at it. It was blurry and taken from a distance with terrible zoom, but there was no mistaking his orange hair, and that was their apartment building, and he was definitely kissing a tall figure with dark hair and a black Olympics hoodie. “...Shit.”

They knew. Atsumu and Bokuto knew. They followed them last night and watched Shoyo kiss Kageyama to coax him over the threshold. The one time, the one time he indulged the chance to kiss in public, and this happened.

His fingers tightened around his phone. He nursed the irrational desire to squeeze it until it broke, but he didn’t have the money for a new phone. Besides, there were more texts from Atsumu to read.

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 we’re not gonna tell any1 ofc and i deleted the photo after sending it to u just wanted to let u what we saw since u 2 probs wanted to keep ur rs a secret idk y tho the team would understand bokkun already cant shut up bout akaashi-san

Shoyo’s stomach slowly rose back to its rightful place, only to curdle with guilt. The messages had Atsumu’s patent sense of showy apathy, but Shoyo knew him too well. He could read the hurt he felt over not being trusted.

Because he was right, at least a little. The team would understand. Never mind Bokuto and Akaashi’s marriage. Most of the team had known each other for years, down to each other’s sexualities and dating histories. They already knew Shoyo was bi and Kageyama was gay. Their relationship would barely clock as a surprise to any of them.

But telling a whole team, even a team they knew so well, felt so…public. So real. So close to being revealed to the whole world, especially considering they were an Olympic team. Keeping their relationship under wraps from the team had just been a habit to Shoyo and Kageyama. They had kept this secret for long enough that being up front about it never even occurred to either of them.

Now the consequences of that unspoken decision was glaring up at Shoyo from his phone.

What should he say? What could he say? Any apologies felt hollow, and as guilty as Shoyo felt for making Atsumu feel untrusted, he didn’t think of the reason as a mistake that needed complete rectification.

He stared at the messages and the photo for another few breaths before finally bringing his fingers to the screen.

From: me morning Atsumu-san! ah…I didn’t realize anyone was following us 😅 thanks for letting me know and for not sharing the photo with the rest of the team I promise keeping our relationship a secret from the team wasn’t anything personal! just...force of habit really I’m okay with you and Bokuto-san knowing and I’ll let Tobio know what happened but could you guys not tell anyone else? at least not yet?

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 hey dude, no worries, i get it but uh about not telling the rest of the team have u opened twitter today?

From: me ? no why?

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 remember those publicity photos from practice a few weeks back? they got published today and the photos of u and tobio r REAL popular rn

At any other time, that would have been good news, if only because Shoyo could enjoy Kageyama’s pleased embarrassment over so many people seeing his photos. But just then, in the context of the already-scary conversation he was having with Atsumu, Shoyo could only feel a heavy dread settle on his shoulders.

He closed out of his messages and opened Twitter. He didn’t even need to scroll. There, at the top of his timeline, was a tweet with photos of the volleyball team from the Olympic account, as well as a thread of individual photos from the JVA account. The photos of the full team made a tiny smile rise to Shoyo’s lips despite everything: out of the four in the post, two were of the team in action, and two featured them bantering during a break. Shoyo’s favorite showed him and Kageyama standing next to the bench, fresh off the court and chatting with Hoshiumi, Ushijima, and Bokuto, all of whom were seated and relaxed. Even Ushijima had a slight curve to his lips and a glint in his olive eyes.

Shoyo couldn’t linger too long on the Olympic tweet. Whatever Atsumu was referring to must have been in the individual shots from the JVA. So Shoyo scrolled through the thread, occasionally pausing to appreciate a good action shot, before he finally reached the tweet with Kageyama’s solo photos.

They weren’t all solo photos. In fact, two of them also featured Shoyo, which should have been the first sign of danger. In one of the actual solo photos, Kageyama was pulling his collar to his chin, revealing a hint of his chiseled, sweaty abs, and in the other, he was throwing the ball up to serve.

Then Shoyo swiped to the third photo. In it, he was soaring through the air, and Kageyama was floating next to him, tossing the ball into a perfect arc, right to Shoyo’s hand. He could practically feel the ghost of the ball hitting his palm to slam into the court. The fourth photo showed him jumping again, this time to slap a high five to Kageyama’s offered hands.

The tweet with his own individual photos were fairly similar: a resting shot, a solo action shot, an action shot with Kageyama, and a resting shot with Kageyama.

Sure, it might have been strange for them to be the only ones to share photos in the thread, but the world already knew them as the “freak duo.” It shouldn’t be surprising to see them featured together.

From: me idgi what’s wrong w the photos?

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 zoom in on them

Frowning, Shoyo obeyed, first zooming in on Kageyama’s solo shots. For a moment, he was distracted by the detailed close-up of his boyfriend’s perfect physique, as though he didn’t already get to enjoy it up close and personal every night.

Then he saw them.

There, just above Kageyama’s waistband, were two, barely-there bruises. Bruises that Shoyo knew were his fault.

Once he saw the first ones, he saw them everywhere. Kageyama sported bruises on above his waistband, along his collarbones, over his pulse point, and, most incriminating of all, between his thighs, right where Shoyo’s hips hit when he fucked Kageyama hard and ruthless.

Shit.

Shit.

Bruises were common in volleyball. Hell, they were common in any sport, but especially in volleyball, where collisions with fast-moving balls and hard gym floors were the name of the game. But those bruises were on knees and elbows, maybe the insides of forearms or outsides of thighs. They weren’t in the most intimate places on a person, places where the only marks that could be found there were almost always made on purpose.

The bruises on Kageyama could not have been more clearly from sex. No wonder people were talking about his photos—who wouldn’t be tantalized by a glimpse at a sexy setter’s intimate life?

The bruises were a little risque, sure, but no cause for scandal. No, the problems came with the photos of Shoyo, and his bruises. Because he had them. A lot of them. They marred his arms, his throat, his thighs, and if he really squinted, he could just the slightest glimpse of the red scratches Kageyama had left on his back peeking above the collar of his jersey.

From: me oh shoot do u really think ppl will think we gave those to each other? we’re all adults! we do adult things!!

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 sho-kun buddy do u think tobio of all ppl usually gets marks like that?

From: me he better not!! >:(

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 …wrong q thats on me look tobio and i were on the vleague a few years longer than u ive had my fair share of scandals bc of marks being visible hickeys n stuff we all do even bokkun from akaashi-san but still but tobio didnt he never had a single scandal for dating or sex or anything then u joined the vleague and whaddaya know ushiwaka-kun texted omi bc he was worried about tobio being more bruised up than usual

From: me oh my god I'm so sorry!!

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 dont apologize i thought it was hilarious thats not the point the point is that you also had marks but somehow none of us really connected the dots until jnt practices started and wouldja look at that you *both* were looking like old apples w all them bruises tbh i suspected something a while ago but i didn’t want to make you uncomfortable then last night happened and…yeah

From: me …yeah shit Atsumu-san what do we do??

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 well 1st dont panic besides the team i dont think any1 noticed anything yeah the fans are losing their minds but thats just them being horny i dont think any1 will suspect u gave those 2 each other at least not 4 a while but i think coach will want u guys to figure out what 2 do if or when ppl get suspicious so just…brace urself ig we’re on ur side either way! 😤

From: me ok ok thanks Atsumu-san srsly this means a lot

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 ofc man lemme know if i can do anything else k?

From: me I will thank you! I’m gonna wake up Tobi and let him know what happened we’ll see you at practice!

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 tobi? tobi??

From: me …um don’t tell him I told you that

From: Atsumu-san!🏐🐺 nope too late u owe me this see u l8r

Despite the panic swirling through him, Shoyo couldn’t help scoffing a little at Atsumu’s messages. Sometimes, the setter still texted like he was using a number pad and not a proper keyboard. Dork.

His smile slid off his face when he opened the pictures once again. The photos that had been a sweet tribute to his partnership on the court with Kageyama now looked like terrible evidence, a perfect chance to compare their bruises and see where they could potentially fit together like puzzle pieces.

Shoyo wasn’t ashamed of his relationship with Kageyama. Quite the opposite, really: he wanted to shout and brag about their love from every rooftop of every building in Tokyo. But it was because they loved each other so much that they kept a tight lid on things. What they had was too precious, too hard-earned, to let others cast judgment on it. They already had enough of that from every other aspect of their careers and public lives.

Now, though…if they didn’t have a choice…then Shoyo would much rather reveal everything on their own terms. But that wasn’t a choice he could make on his own.

The kettle suddenly began whistling, jolting Shoyo out of his thoughts and forcing him to hurry and remove it from the stove. The damage was done—his ears were ringing from the noise, which meant he’d be getting a very grumpy companion, any moment now.

“Sho, what the hell?”

He flinched and turned to offer a grimace to Kageyama, who stood shirtless, rumpled, and adorably bleary-eyed at the entrance to the kitchen. “Sorry, I just…was distracted.”

“By what?” Kageyama was still grumpy, but when Shoyo turned towards the counter to begin making some tea, he was immediately surrounded by warm arms, with a sharp chin nestling into his shoulder.

“Um…” To his horror, Shoyo’s voice caught in his throat and his eyes burned with tears. Having Kageyama with him, a tangible reminder of what was at stake, made the threat of…of everything finally sink in.

“Sho?”

“I’m okay, just…” With their tea ready to steep, he turned in Kageyama’s arms and held him around the waist, burrowing his face into his chest. “We…we need to talk.”

“About what?”

Shoyo’s throat ached more from the wary tone of Kageyama’s words. “Something…something happened.”

***

They arrived at practice early, and their coach took all of one look at them before sighing with a small, sad, understanding smile. “So…you guys know.”

“Yeah,” Shoyo murmured, squeezing at Kageyama’s trembling fingers. “We know.”

“Well, then…you two aren’t opposed to staying after practice to meet with the PR manager, are you?”

“No, sir.”

“Good. Then go ahead and warm up.”

Practice was awkward. Not because of their playing—they were both determined to not let this mess affect anything on the court—but because of the worry emanating from all of their teammates, even Ushijima. Every time Shoyo was off of the court, whoever was with him murmured a check in of some sort.

“Are you guys okay?”

“What’s going on?”

“We’re here for you, man.”

It was sweet. A relief, really.

It also made Shoyo want to crawl out of his skin.

For the first time in his life, he was relieved when practice ended, because it meant that he could escape the stifling concern of the team and finally do something. Kageyama, on the other hand…

“Hey.” Shoyo grabbed his hand, a small part of him thrilled at being able to do so without looking around. “Breathe.”

Kageyama obeyed, and thankfully looked a little less green. “Sorry.”

“Don’t apologize, stupid,” Shoyo laughed softly. “I’m scared, too.”

“Yeah, but…you’re supposed to be the anxious one.”

“Hey!” A small smile nudged at Kageyama’s lips and made some relief wash over Shoyo, even as he frowned up at him. “Doesn’t feel so nice, does it?”

“I’ve literally never said it does, the hell?”

“Yeah, but you used to get all annoyed about it!”

“In first year! That was almost ten years ago, are you kidding me?”

Shoyo stuck his tongue out, only to squawk when Kageyama pinched his nose. “Ow, Yama!”

“That’s what you get, dumb—”

“Um.” They froze mid-scuffle, and looked towards the locker room entrance to see their coach staring at them with a bemused grin. “Sorry to interrupt, but…shall we get this meeting started?”

Their hands fell away from each other as they both offered sheepish bows. “Yes, sir. Sorry, sir.”

The crux of the issue, they were told, was the opening ceremonies looming in the very near future. It would be one thing if the threat of their relationship being revealed could be mostly contained within Japan. But with the Olympics happening in a matter of days, any big news about any member of any Olympic team would inevitably be reported on an international level.

“I don’t tell you this to try to encourage you one way or another in how you want to deal with this,” the team’s PR manager assured them. “But it is something important to keep in mind. Do you understand?”

Both men nodded.

“Good. Well then…now that you have some options…how would you like to move forward with this?”

Shoyo chewed at his lips, eyes flickering from the PR manager, to their coach, to Kageyama at his side. Their gazes met, and Kageyama silently reached towards Shoyo’s lap and took one of his hands with a squeeze. That decided it.

“Don’t…confirm or deny anything. Not yet. We…we have an idea.”

“An idea?” Eyebrows raised. “Can we…know this idea?”

They could. So the couple told them.

Their coach let out a low whistle. “That…is a hell of a risk.”

“Yes,” Kageyama answered simply. “We know, sir.”

“You two are certain about this?”

“We’re certain about each other.” Kageyama’s fingers tightened around Shoyo’s. “So yes. We’re certain about this.”

Shoyo still couldn’t believe how much love could fit in his heart for the man at his side. He dragged his eyes away from him to look at their coach, whose brows were creased in fond exasperation, and the team PR manager, who looked five seconds away from happy tears.

“Alright,” their PR manager sighed. “Well…I guess I’ll see you all at the Olympics, then.”

“Enjoy these last few days of peace, you two,” their coach said with a soft chuckle. “I get the feeling you won’t be having any peace for a while after the games.”

Uneasiness churned in Shoyo’s stomach. “Thank you, sir…you, too.”

“Oh, one last thing.” The couple paused in getting to their feet. “Tell the rest of the team before you see this plan through, alright? This won’t just be affecting you two.”

It was obvious, even something that they had discussed before. But hearing it from an outside party made the reality of it crash into Shoyo, and his quickening breaths reduced him to silence as he stared at their coach and PR manager.

“Yes, sir,” he distantly heard Kageyama answer. “We’ve already started. Have a good weekend.”

Shoyo let himself be tugged out of the gym and onto the sidewalk, where Kageyama grabbed his shoulders to spin him towards him. “Hey. What’s going on?”

“Nothing,” Shoyo tried to say, wincing when his words came out breathlessly. “I just…it’s a big change. And…the others…we…”

Complete sentences were beyond him, but the solemnity of Kageyama's handsome features told him he understood. “We don’t have to do this,” he murmured, sliding his hands down from Shoyo’s shoulders to squeeze his arms. “We can…we can deny everything, say something about how our competition just…riles us up, and that’s why we have more hookups after our games together. They’ve been reporting on our competitiveness with each other for years, it wouldn’t be that unbelievable.”

He was right. Shoyo knew he was right. But hiding their relationship was one thing. The thought of actively denying it made bile rise in his throat. He couldn’t do that, wouldn’t do that, and the tension around Kageyama’s eyes told him that his partner also hated the idea. “No,” he said firmly. “It’s like you said: we’re certain about each other. The attention will suck for a little bit, but you’re worth it, Tobi. I’m not going to lie about how much I love you.”

From his first “no,” the tension around Kageyama’s eyes melted into a bittersweet mix of nerves, relief, and certainty. “I’m going to kiss the hell out of you when we get home.”

“Just kiss?”

Shoyo’s sweet smile broke into a surprised yelp when Kageyama pinched his nose. “Don’t be greedy. C’mon, let’s go home.”

***

The Olympics Opening Ceremony and the days leading up to it were everything Shoyo could have dreamed and more. They were a whirlwind of settling into their dorms in the Olympic village, some practices on the Olympic courts, milling around and meeting fellow Olympians from around the world and every sport, all culminating in the Parade of Nations.

“Tobio,” he whispered when Japan wrapped up the parade and took their places on the stadium floor.

“Yeah?”

“We did it. We’re on the world stage.” He looked up at his partner in volleyball, in love, in life, and smiled through his tears. It didn’t matter that Kageyama had already done this once before—this was the first time they were here together, and Shoyo felt like he could float away on the bubble of sheer joy at finally fulfilling the vow he’d made as a small, scrappy, stubborn 16-year-old.

He could see the same realization and joy in Kageyama’s shining eyes, before he was being pulled into a tight embrace. It was safe, something that could look like a happy, platonic hug between teammates, but Shoyo knew better. He shuddered when he felt lips brush his ear and whisper, “I’m so fucking proud of you. You have no idea how much better this feels with you here.”

“Show-off,” Shoyo laughed, burying his face into Kageyama’s shoulder. “...Me, too. I’m proud of us.”

Everything in him screamed to forget the plan and kiss Kageyama right there. It was a miracle that he managed to contain himself until the door to their shared dorm room closed behind them, mere seconds before he pressed Kageyama to it and finally, finally pressed their lips together. “Hey, Yama,” he whispered between smacking kisses.

“Don’t. I already know what you’re going to say.”

“Wanna see if these beds are really sex-proof?”

“What did I just say?” Kageyama pushed him away, letting Shoyo get a good look at his exasperated frown and soft eyes. “Our first match is tomorrow, we can’t be sore from fucking.”

“Geez, I thought we could be more romantic,” Shoyo sniffed. “You won’t be sore from love-making.”

“Who said I’ll be the sore one?”

Anticipation zipped up Shoyo’s spine and had him hastily dropping his clothes to the floor as though they weren’t a once-in-a-lifetime Olympics blazer and pants. “Hurry up, then! We gotta get a good night’s sleep!”

“Don’t pretend to be responsible now.” The nag was the last thing Kageyama said before he pushed Shoyo to one of the cardboard beds and crawled between his legs.

Neither of them said much more after that. They were too busy unraveling each other to gasps and moans muffled against sweaty skin.

(Later, when Kageyama’s softening cock slipped out of Shoyo and freed him to slide off of the setter’s hips, the small bedspace still kept him half on top of him, one leg hooked across his cum-splattered abs.

“So? Are you sore?”

“Nope! Wanna change that?”

“Quit fucking around or I won’t toss to you tomorrow.”

“Yama! What kind of partner are you?!”

“A responsible one. Get off me, we need to clean up.”)

***

They lost to Argentina in their first game, a blow that stung less only when Shoyo stumbled across Oikawa sobbing in Iwaizumi’s arms by Team Japan’s locker rooms.

“You did it,” he could just barely hear Iwaizumi murmur.

“I did it,” Oikawa echoed with a tearful laugh. “I beat them, Iwa. I beat all of you.”

“Yeah…I’m proud of you, Shitty-kawa.”

“Oh, come on! I beat your team at the Olympics and you still can’t be nice?!”

“I said I’m proud of you. Take it or leave it.”

It would have sounded like their standard bickering if Shoyo didn’t know both of them well enough to recognize the tender adoration in their voices. When he returned to the locker room, Kageyama pinned him under a suspicious frown. “Why’re you smiling? We lost.”

“I know. So we’ll just have to beat France!”

A quiet laugh rippled through the team, chipping away at the heavy weight of disappointment hanging over them. “Sure, we’ll just go ahead and do that,” Hoshiumi snorted.

“We can!” Shoyo insisted. “Come on, guys, it’s not over yet! We’ve got more volleyball to play! As long as we don’t fall out of the running completely, we’ll keep playing! Isn’t that what matters most?”

“That’s the spirit, Hinata!” Bokuto cheered, slinging a heavy arm over Shoyo’s shoulders. “I’d expect nothing less from my greatest pupil!”

“Bokkun, it’s been almost ten years,” Atsumu groaned with a badly-hidden smirk. “Can you drop the whole ‘teacher-pupil’ thing?”

“Never! The bond between mentor and mentee is unbreakable! Right, Hinata?”

“Right, Bokuto-san!”

“Tobio-kun, are ya gonna let this stand? Bokkun’s takin’ more credit for Shoyo’s growth than you!”

Kageyama blinked, expression bland. “I’m not his teacher. I’m his partner.”

“Jesus, forget I said anythin’.”

“Already done.”

“Omi!”

Just like that, the sullen atmosphere shifted into something a little sweeter, more hopeful, and by the time their match against France rolled around, they were newly determined to settle for nothing less than a total victory. “Are you ready?” Kageyama murmured before they made their entrance to the court. The intensity in his eyes told Shoyo he wasn’t just talking about the match.

Shoyo gently rocked into his side with a smile and a chipper, “Of course! With you, I’m invincible!”

“Invincible,” Kageyama repeated with a smile so slight, Shoyo would have missed it if they didn’t know each other so completely.

***

The ball seemed to move in crystal-clear slow motion, sailing over the net to bounce off of Yaku’s arms in a perfect arc to Kageyama. Around him, Shoyo could see Bokuto, Ojiro, and Hoshiumi run for a synchronized attack, and his legs moved to let him perfectly blend in with his teammates.

He watched the ball meet Kageyama’s fingers just as he poured all the power he had left in him to jump as high as possible. There, at the peak of his jump, the ball appeared before him, and in that perfect split-second of suspension in the air, he found his target on the other side of the net.

His hand hit the ball with a delicious sting, and as he fell to the ground, the ball sped towards France’s libero, only to deflect from his arms and fly out-of-bounds. The wing spikers couldn’t move fast enough—the ball landed, with a thrilling slap against the court floors, just outside of the boundary lines.

Silence reigned over the stadium for a breath, only cracking open with two shrill whistles that sounded like the sweetest sirensong to Shoyo’s ears.

They did it. They won.

Noise exploded through the stadium. Shoyo’s ears rang from the screams and cheers of his teammates, but he didn’t care. It didn’t matter. All that mattered were the blue eyes finding his, and the breathtaking smile spreading below them.

His legs felt like they might give out from under him, but he pushed himself forward, barely aware of the tears falling to his cheeks. He was too focused on taking hold of Kageyama’s cheeks and pulling him down.

Later on, he would remember it all in parts: the sweet taste of Kageyama’s lips parting against his, the familiar comfort of his arms wrapping around his waist, the pressure of his hands pressing against Shoyo’s spine to bring him impossibly closer. Then there were the renewed screams of their teammates, this time in celebration of their announcement.

Because it was an announcement. With that single kiss on the world stage, they were finally breaking open the secrecy of their relationship and proudly baring their hearts to the entire world. Maybe it should’ve been terrifying, but in that moment, Shoyo only felt peace and love and joy, pure, unadulterated joy, overflowing in tears that flowed faster when his ears caught a soft whisper beneath the screams surrounding him.

“I love you.”

***

For the second night in a row, Shoyo and Kageyama entered their dorm room mid-makeout, only closing the door behind them so Shoyo could press Kageyama against it. “Yama,” he breathed, sucking kisses down his neck and soaking in the sounds of his shameless moans. “Tobio, what do you want? Tell me what to do for you.”

“What do you want?”

“Anything you want.”

“Dumbass, that’s not— ah, that’s not an answer— mmh!”

“I asked first.”

Before Kageyama could snap anything back, Shoyo slid his thigh between his legs, pulling the setter’s hips down until he was moaning from the pressure against the tent in his pants. “Fuck, Sho—!”

“Answer me, Tobio.”

Kageyama’s eyes fluttered open, and whatever he saw on Shoyo’s face made him bite his lip with a whimper. “Fuck me,” he gasped when Shoyo pressed his leg up.

“Yeah?” Shoyo murmured, leaning in to ghost their lips together. “Want me to fill you up? Want me to fuck you until you’re begging?”

Challenge glinted in those hazy blue eyes. “Make me,” Kageyama grunted. “Make me beg, Sho.”

“Yes, Your Highness.”

With a growl, Kageyama took his lips in a hungry kiss, rutting against Shoyo’s thigh despite what he’d just asked for. Shoyo could’ve sworn he could feel the heat building between Kageyama’s legs in time with the increasing hardness trapped in his jeans. “Tobio…shit, Tobio…”

Kageyama just hummed into the kisses, whimpering when Shoyo’s hands wandered under his shirt, sliding higher and higher until he could pinch at his nipples. “Let me see,” Shoyo whispered, “c’mon, Tobi, lemme see you.”

Despite his grunt of protest, Kageyama obeyed, nearly tearing fabric in his haste to rip his shirt off and bare his beautiful chest to Shoyo. He wasted no time diving in, sucking a nipple into his mouth to the sweet tune of Kageyama’s keening whines. They had showered before the celebratory team dinner, but the summer heat made sweat sting on Shoyo’s tastebuds, sharpening the delicious taste of Kageyama, Kageyama, nothing but Kageyama.

He wanted to eat him whole, wanted to drag his lips and tongue and teeth across every lightly-tanned inch of his perfect body. But for now, he was satisfied with gripping at Kageyama’s trim waist and stopping him from curving his plush chest away from his lips. He didn’t pull away until he heard his moans pick up in pitch and eventually break into a desperate, “Sho, Sho, m’close, fuck— wait, no—”

Shoyo ignored his pleas, sliding his thigh away and pinning Kageyama’s hips to the door. “Not yet, baby,” he whispered, pressing a sweet kiss to his gasping lips. “Wait for me, hm?”

He didn’t let go of Kageyama’s hips until they stopped twitching forward in search of more friction. Only then did Kageyama wilt in his hands, letting his forehead rest against Shoyo’s as he nodded. “Okay?” Shoyo asked.

“I won’t be if you don’t hurry up.”

Shoyo snickered, unabashed under Kageyama’s pout. “That’s a yes. C’mon, get naked and show me how you want me to fuck you.”

He could feel a shudder run through Kageyama’s body before he was being pushed away. He obeyed the gentle nudge, letting his hands fall away from Kageyama and watching shamelessly as he shoved his pants and socks off and climbed onto his bed. Arousal made his breath stop when Kageyama held himself up on his hands and knees and looked over his shoulder with an impatient frown. “Why’re you still not naked?”

“God, you’re hot,” Shoyo huffed, stripping himself and grabbing a condom and some lube. “Why’re you so hot when you’re bossy?”

“I’m not bossy,” Kageyama grunted, failing to look away before Shoyo caught a glimpse of his flushed cheeks. “And I dunno why you think weird things are hot.”

“Calling yourself weird, Yama?”

“No. I’m calling you weird.”

Shoyo snickered as he joined Kageyama on the bed, letting his cock nudge against the perfect swell of his ass. “Yeah, and you’re into me,” he murmured, brushing a kiss to his spine and relishing the soft whimper he earned. “So what’s that make you?”

“An idiot. Hurry up.”

“Aw, does it hurt?” Shoyo cooed in false sympathy. He slicked up one hand, but instead of tracing circles around Kageyama’s puckered hole, he reached around and took hold of his straining cock.

“Fuck!” Kageyama cried, head lolling between his shaking arms. “Sho, please—”

“Begging already? That’s not good.”

“Shut up, I’m— hah, I’m gonna— no, come on—!”

“Not yet,” Shoyo insisted, letting go just as he felt Kageyama’s cock harden that last tell-tale bit. “Shhh, Tobi, the others will hear you whining for me.”

“Fuck you,” Kageyama bit out.

“Nah, not tonight.” Shoyo snickered as he dodged the half-hearted swat Kageyama barely managed before he had to support himself on both hands again. “Okay, okay, here.” He slid his slippery hand between Kageyama’s legs, letting his slick touch trail along the curve of his tight balls and through the hot, tight space up to his puckered rim. Kageyama tensed beneath him as soon as he began drawing cold circles over his hole, and Shoyo brushed a kiss under his ear before slowly pressing in. “Relax, Tobi,” he whispered, grinning when he felt him obey. “Good boy.”

Kageyama just whimpered wordlessly, trembling when Shoyo’s finger slid home. “Is this good?” Shoyo asked quietly.

“Mm…yeah,” Kageyama groaned, slowly rocking his hips into the slight intrusion. “Yeah,” he repeated with a pleased sigh, “yeah, gimme more.”

“Yessir.” With that purr, Shoyo carefully slid out his finger to the last digit, before sliding it back in with a second finger. He pressed kisses along Kageyama’s shoulders and the back of his neck as he carefully stretched him out, following the sound of his gasps and moans. Yes, he knew exactly how Kageyama liked to be stretched out, but that didn’t mean he stopped relishing the way his name sounded when he finally curved three fingers into his prostate. “Sho—!”

“Good?”

“Yeah, yeah, fuck, it’s good!”

“Good.” He was more urgent than usual as he worked his fingers in and out and spread them wide, his own arousal burning through him at the sight of Kageyama trying to fuck himself on his fingers. “Shit, Tobio, I thought you wanted to come on my cock, not my fingers.”

“I do, hurry up!”

“Ask me nicely,” Shoyo huffed, as though he weren’t already slipping his fingers out and sliding the condom down his aching dick.

“Fuck me, Sho, c’mon, fill me up.”

Oh…that wasn’t quite what Shoyo had in mind, but damn, if he didn’t care.

He slid home to the sweet harmony of them moaning together. He tried, truly tried to hold still and let Kageyama adjust, but he couldn’t stop his hips from twitching forward, trying to reach even deeper. “Sho—”

“I know, sorry, I can’t— fuck, you’re tight,” Shoyo groaned. His fingers pressed at Kageyama’s hips, tight enough that he knew they would leave bruises. But Kageyama didn’t complain, too focused on relaxing around Shoyo’s hard length reaching deep inside him.

“Move.”

Shoyo was pulling out before the word finished leaving Kageyama’s lips, thrusting back in and setting a desperate pace. This wasn’t what he’d planned, didn’t match the image he’d had of a slow, drawn-out fuck, leaving Kageyama panting and begging under him. But Shoyo couldn’t help himself. After everything they’d been through that day—a loss, a win, revealing their relationship to the world and navigating the resulting rush of last-minute interviews, and celebrating both their win and their reveal with the team at dinner—all Shoyo wanted was to lose himself in the sublime, tight heat of the love of his life.

“Ah! Right there, fuck—!”

“Yeah, I’ve got you,” Shoyo panted, keeping up the perfect angle as he kept plowing forward. “You feel so good, Tobio, you’re always so good for me.”

“For you,” Kageyama breathlessly echoed, his words melting into soft, whining moans that left his lips with every thrust.

“Good boy.” Kageyama’s next whine was almost a wail, and he fell to his elbows, sweaty bangs brushing the plain covers and cock drooling beneath him. “That’s right,” Shoyo hissed, pressing his hips to Kageyama’s and grinding in as deep as he could, “you’re my good boy, aren’t you?”

It was still incredible to Shoyo, the way the pet name so thoroughly unwound Kageyama. He went wordless, reduced to whines and clumsy attempts to fuck himself on Shoyo’s dick. “Shhhh, easy does it.”

“No,” Kageyama mumbled into the sheets, “more, need more, m’close.”

“What do you need, Tobi?” Shoyo already knew what he needed, but it was always heady to hear Kageyama stumble over his words when he was usually so taciturn.

“Touch me, fuck me, c’mon—!” This time, he really did wail when Shoyo took hold of his cock. He couldn’t seem to decide between fucking back on him or thrusting into his hand, leaving him shuddering with twitching hips. “Yes, yes, yes—”

“Are you close? Gonna come for me?”

“Please, Sho, please—”

“I’ve got you. C’mon baby, come for me, you’re so close.”

“Close, close— nngh, Sho!” Kageyama pressed his face to the bed to muffle his shout when he finally broke, spilling onto the bed sheets and rocking against Shoyo. He tightened impossibly more around him, trapping Shoyo and leaving him only able to grind in until he followed him over the edge with a drawn-out groan.

Neither of them could say anything, their lips only parting around gasps for air and a last few shuddering moans from the aftershocks. Shoyo could only form words when Kageyama nearly collapsed into his own mess on the bed. “Woah, careful—” He just barely caught him by the hips and tipped him to the side, earning a soft grunt of thanks. “You okay, Tobio?”

“Mm…yeah, just…god, Sho.”

Shoyo could only laugh bashfully, tilting forward to kiss Kageyama’s hip before slowly standing on his own shaking legs. “I’ll clean us up, and then we can move to my bed, okay?” Kageyama just nodded into the sheets, but that was good enough for Shoyo.

They moved predictably slowly as Shoyo cleaned them both up, then urged Kageyama to help him strip the dirty covers from his bed and climb into Shoyo’s bed. “You sure you’re okay?”

“Yes, dumbass, I’m fine.”

“Are you gonna be sore tomorrow?”

Kageyama frowned as he gave a tentative stretch of his hip. “...I don’t think so. Nothing that’ll impede my playing.”

“Okay.” Shoyo finally let himself fully collapse into bed, fitting himself against Kageyama’s side like a puzzle piece. Kageyama shifted around until his head fit under Shoyo’s chin and he could nestle into Shoyo’s chest, letting him stroke his fingers through dark hair.

They laid there in silence, curled together so closely, Shoyo wasn’t sure where he ended and Kageyama began. He didn’t mind the quiet, never did when he was with Kageyama. But just as his eyes began drifting closed, he heard, “We kissed at the Olympics.”

“Hm?” Shoyo grunted, jolting awake. “Oh, yeah. Yeah! Just like we planned!”

“So the whole world knows about us.”

Apprehension pricked at Shoyo. Kageyama’s voice was flat, matter of fact, with an undertone of nerves that Shoyo couldn’t parse out. “Yeah, but…we planned for that. And that’s what we wanted, right?”

“Right, just…”

Why did he sound so nervous? What was Kageyama thinking about? Shoyo looked down at his smooth black hair and joked, “You’re not breaking up with me, are you?”

Well…he meant it as a joke, but he could hear the tension in his voice, which meant Kageyama would hear it, too.

Sure enough, Kageyama pulled away to frown at him. “No, dumbass! I’m just thinking…”

“Don’t hurt yourself.”

“Fuck off.” The phrase was flippant, with no heat or bite behind it. Shoyo pressed his lips thin to hold back his snort of laughter and waited for Kageyama to go on. “I was thinking,” he continued with a roll of his eyes, before he settled back down against Shoyo, “the world knows. The whole world knows that…that we’re together. That we love each other.”

“Yeah…?”

“And that we’re serious about each other.”

“Right…”

Calloused fingertips began drawing patterns across Shoyo’s chest. Despite the worry swelling in him, he still felt a jolt of fondness at the nervous habit. It had been a while since Kageyama last doodled on him like that. “Like…serious enough to be together for our whole lives?”

“Yeah!” Shoyo scoffed, indignant at the mere thought of the alternative. “You’re stuck with me, Tobi!”

He heard a soft snort, then silence for a beat, before, “Then…should we make it official?”

“I thought we just did that?”

“Dumbass, I meant…legally.”

There was heavy intent behind Kageyama’s words, but Shoyo couldn’t fathom what he was trying to imply. “Legally? What do you mean?”

“I mean marriage,” Kageyama scoffed, before raising himself to look Shoyo in the eye. “Marry me, dumbass.”

Oh. Oh. Oh, Shoyo loved him so much. He had never felt so certain about an answer in his whole life. But first: “Wow. That might be the least romantic proposal I’ve ever heard.”

“Hah?! Who else proposed to you?!”

“No one, stupid!” Shoyo said with a light flick at Kageyama’s forehead. “But I’ve heard other couples’ proposals, and they were way nicer than that!”

The nerves lining Kageyama’s eyes stiffened into annoyance. “So what, you’re not gonna marry me because I didn’t propose right?”

“What? I didn’t even answer!”

“Then answer, dumbass!”

“Yes, dummy! Of course I’ll marry you!”

Somewhere along the way, Shoyo’s voice began shaking with gleeful laughter, and soon Kageyama was laughing with him, and they laid there, laughing and laughing, and Shoyo had the idle thought that if someone could die from too much happiness, he would have perished a thousand times over by now.

Their laughter faded away, leaving Kageyama gazing down at Shoyo with the soft look of adoration that never failed to make love spread warm through him like a hot cup of tea. “You’re my future, Tobio,” he murmured, bringing his hands to Kageyama’s cheeks and stroking over their curves with gentle thumbs. “I’m never gonna stop running forward. I don’t care if I’m chasing you, or you’re chasing me, or we’re running together. I just…I want to do it with you. Forever.”

“Good.” Kageyama pushed himself up properly and fit himself between Shoyo’s legs. “Because I’m going to love you forever, Hinata Shoyo.”

Shoyo knew everything was going to continue changing now that their relationship was public, and that those changes were going to be daunting, no matter if they were good or bad.

But as he gazed up at Kageyama, at this man who had so inextricably woven himself into his heart, he knew, with a rare sense of certainty, that it would be worth it, all of it. He was worth it.

“And I’ll love you in this universe and the next, Kageyama Tobio.”

Because as long as they had each other, they’d be invincible.

[weathertheraine]

Do you want to kiss me?

My piece for Kagehina Big Bang, for @lilac-writes fic ‘Fledging’. Thank you Lilac for being a wonderful partner and for writing this beautiful fic!! I cannot wait to read the rest of it.

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Tobio thinks it's just a yes-or-no question. Shouyou insists it's not that simple.

With their third and final year at Karasuno slipping through their fingers, and the pro team scouts watching their every move on the court, Shouyou and Tobio both have to face their desires and fears head on, and decide where to go from here.

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Support Lilac and read it on ao3!!

[shovellyyy]

Lick me Until Ice Cream, a Kagehina fanfic where Hinata wants Kageyama to meet his family, but Kageyama thinks he's asking for something... else 🥴

Their former and current upperclassmen get the pleasure of watching them both be stupid.

[artemisia--hq]

Coffee’s on Me

Hinata Shouyou x Kageyama Tobio

Rated E, 21.6k

College/University AU, Jock/Med Student

First Meetings, Developing Feelings

Getting Together, Eventual Smut

“What’s that supposed to mean?!”

At the raise in Tobio’s voice, Hinata returns his glare and the bite in his next words. “I said nothing! I’m just saying you’re way prettier than I imagined you’d be!”

Tobio blinks.

Oh.

Okay.

What the fuck?

You know how their love story's going. Now you get to learn how it started.

Read on AO3

[sunnytobio]

sweet dreams turn into coffee

“I didn’t even know it was possible to hold this much love for a single person, but I do, and it’s you, and everything you do for me, and I want to marry you.” He takes a breath. “So bad.” — kageyama tobio will be the first to propose, of this he is certain

hinata x kageyama

8,834 words, 1/1 chapters

this is part of my coffee au universe, but it can be read by itself (with only some mention of previous fics)

[freezethebeez]

new Haikyuu fic posted for those interested! make sure you're logged in because it's for registered users only ^_^ it's a short, somewhat erotic oneshot of Hinata and his new vampire roommate, Kageyama. It's a light snack of a lil over 2000 words. Read if you're interested :]

[wrendeavor]

Kagehina Fic Update <3

Prince!Kageyama and Consort!Hinata

Two warm hands gently began tracing down near his ankle, precise fingers finding the strong taught line of his achilles and gently beginning to knead into it. Every touch hurt, but slowly and surely the muscles gave way to the slow presses and soft circles of Kageyama’s hands.

“Oh-” Hinata choked back a soft groan as the prince’s thumbs dug deep into the meat of his calf, finding a painful knot and taking it apart with a strong easy slide of skin on skin.

Hinata had spent a long time that day watching Kageyama’s hands, observing the way his long fingers played with the edge of his drinking glass, slow and precise- bored but not anxious. He’d studied the shape of his square palms and noted the slight callouses where he now knew a sword hilt must slot into place as a natural extension of Kageyama’s arm. And now those same hands were on Hinata’s body, large enough that they easily circled his calf.

Check out chapter 7 here!

[r0mantic-era]

a little more stupid, a little more scared

KageHina Celebration Week 2022! Day 5

Prompts: Promises, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Sex

Rated E, 32.1k words

Summary:

When Hinata Shouyou retires from professional volleyball, it’s bittersweet. At thirty-four years of age, he’s represented Japan in three different Olympic games, played for four different professional teams in two countries, and spent more hours on the court than he can even fathom calculating. Thirty-four year old Shouyou has long since achieved the wildest fantasies and farthest-reaching dreams of fifteen-year-old Shouyou and he has loved every minute of the journey.

But, like all things, the career of a volleyball player must come to an end.

Hinata and Kageyama navigate life after volleyball, experience life crises, and realize that they are dumb about love — all at the same time.

[kagehinafromtheconcrete]

afterglow || snow day (fictober day 08)

fandom: haikyuu!! pairing: kagehina fic summary: Kageyama has learned a lot of things since befriending Hinata Shouyou. Things about Hinata, things about himself. How to open up. How to be vulnerable. How to love. And Hinata? Hinata learns more about Kageyama than he ever thought he would. First-year Kagehina/Hinakage drabble collection ft. the rest of Karasuno, written for sarahenany. Slowly working through the remaining Fictober 2022 prompts! fictober day 8: "do you remember?" by @fictober-event ch summary: School is canceled due to the snowy weather. Hinata bikes into town and shows up at Kageyama's house anyway.

entire drabble below. :) find the whole collection: ao3 // tumblr

“Whoa, it really snowed a ton,” Hinata exclaimed into the phone, panting. “No wonder they canceled school before it even started yesterday.”

Kageyama winced at the loud volume of his voice, although he didn’t know what he expected. Of course Hinata would be wide-awake at—at whatever time it was. Kageyama, personally, had decided to sleep in until his phone started ringing.

“You called me to tell me it snowed?” he grumbled, rubbing an eye. “I coulda looked out the window, idiot.”

“Wow, ok, you’re an idiot,” Hinata shot back. “We don’t have to sit through boring classes! Where’s your excitement?”

“I’m too tired for that shit. Give me one reason why I shouldn’t hang up so I can go back to sleep.”

This time, Hinata chuckled nervously. “Well, um… I’m kind of at your door, so…”

Kageyama shot upright, eyes blowing wide. “You’re what? ”

“I’m at your door,” Hinata repeated, slower, his words tinged with more nervous laughter. “...can I come in?”

For a moment, Kageyama’s sleep-clogged brain failed to register Hinata’s request. He just sat there with dinner plate eyes, mouth hanging open, struggling to process his words. 

Hinata. Hinata willingly came over, on their spontaneous day off from school. And now he was at his door. For what reason? It snowed enough to cancel the whole day of classes, not to mention volleyball practice, and this idiot had left his house—a house that sat on a damn mountain—and how did he even get here? On foot?

“What the hell is wrong with you?” Kageyama burst out finally, throwing himself out of his bed. “It’s gotta be freezing outside and you’re—did you bike here?”

“Uh,” Hinata fumbled, and the silence that followed was enough of an answer for Kageyama.

“You idiot,” he went on, and it didn’t matter that he was only in pajamas because moronic Hinata was at his door, had ridden his bike in the snow, and something about those facts had him rushing to let Hinata in.

“Hi,” Hinata said meekly when he finally reached and opened the door.

Kageyama nearly dropped his phone.

Hair damp, nose pink, and the shell of his coat dripping, Hinata looked like he’d been caught in the rain. His bike lay on its side, discarded in the yard, and a glance down at his shoes showed Kageyama that they were soaked.

“Oh my god, get in here, you moron,” Kageyama hissed, yanking him by the arm immediately. “Are you stupid? It’s freezing outs— you’re freezing!” 

“Yeah… I realized that riding my bike probably wasn’t very smart,” Hinata said nervously, looking down at his shoes as he removed them slowly. “I slid on the ice a few times, so… I got all wet from the snow…”

“What were you thinking?” Kageyama said as he closed the door. “You could get sick! You could’ve been hurt—did you get hurt? You didn’t scrape yourself up, did you? We have a game next week!”

“I know, it was pretty stupid,” Hinata said. “And impulsive. I just… Natsu and Kaa-san were held up because of the snow, and the buses aren’t running, and… and I wanted to see you, I guess.”

Kageyama’s rant withered in his throat, and his mouth snapped shut. What did he say to that? His brain blanked on him as he stared at Hinata’s sheepish but genuine expression, once again failing to come up with the right words to respond.

“Oh,” was all that came out, faint and inexplicably breathless, when his voice finally decided to work again.

But then he saw the way Hinata’s lip quivered, and everything came back online in an instant. He tugged at Hinata’s gloved hand—what was the point of wearing them if they were wet?—and dragged him along as he marched off to his bedroom.

“Wha—where are we going?” Hinata squeaked. “What’re you… what’re you doing?”

“You have to get those wet clothes and get warm, dumbass,” Kageyama told him because, hello, wasn’t it obvious? “You’re going to get sick.”

When they reached Kageyama’s bedroom, he released Hinata to dig through his dresser for something even a little small for Hinata to wear. He wasn’t very successful—all he had was old clothes from middle school, but he ultimately decided Hinata in clothes too large for him was better than a sick Hinata, right?

“I’m sorry,” Hinata said sheepishly. “For, um. For intruding…”

“That’s not—” Kageyama stopped, trying to collect himself. He wasn’t trying to yell. “That’s not the point. You could come over at any time and I wouldn’t care, I just don’t want you getting sick!”

Hinata looked up at him, then, his eyes now blown wide in surprise. “Huh?”

“Do you remember?” he went on. “We have to be careful with ourselves, for volleyball! You can’t play if you’re hurt.”

Hinata blinked a few times but didn’t respond. Instead, he just stared up at Kageyama as if he’d just revealed the secret to getting good grades in school or something.

Then, eventually: “Do… do you mean that?”

“Mean what?”

“I can… come over whenever,” Hinata echoed, with a slow-growing smile. “And you wouldn’t mind?”

“I—”

Kageyama stopped himself again, because yeah, he totally did say that. And as his brain finally caught up with his mouth, heat ascended up his neck and across his cheeks. His gaze darted immediately to his socks, embarrassed.

“Well, you’re the only person who comes over besides when Nee-san visits, so,” he said, and then one of his hands found its way into his hair, as if moving would get rid of the sudden nervous energy that flooded through him. “It’s—it’s not like it bothers me.”

“It doesn’t?”

“N…not really, no.”

In fact, Hinata’s company was… pleasant, in a way he didn’t expect at all. He’d never been invited to other people’s houses before attending Karasuno, much less invited others to his own house. The only other time he’d gone to someone’s house other than Hinata’s was when they studied at Yachi’s place.

Was it like that for everyone? Did people just enjoy the company of their friends, or… or did it have to be a specific someone? Kageyama didn’t know. He wasn’t good at this whole people thing.

(He wrinkled his nose at the thought of inviting someone like Tsukishima over.)

“I like visiting you,” Hinata told him abruptly, and when Kageyama lifted his gaze, he saw the wide smile stretched across Hinata’s face. “It’s fun.”

“I don’t—” Kageyama shifted awkwardly, uncertain of how to take that. Was it a compliment? “I don’t really do anything special, though.”

“Well, even if we don’t do anything, it’s fun spending time with you,” Hinata said. “I like y—um, I like your company.”

If possible, Kageyama’s face grew even hotter. He looked away again, just because he wasn’t sure if he could handle looking at that bright smile of his. 

“I…”

He, what? He didn’t know how to put his thoughts into words. 

“Just, um, just get into dry clothes,” came out instead, turning away because—because Hinata needed privacy to change. Yeah. “Then we can, um. Do something together, maybe.”

“Do something?” Hinata said, still wondering. "And you wouldn't mind? It doesn't bother you to hang out?"

“Sh—shut up! I wouldn't—um. I wouldn't... mind."

Of course I wouldn't mind. Of course I want to do something with you.

“I did bring my Switch and our game! Nice and dry in my bag.”

“At least you’re capable of taking care of something.”

“Hey! I’m good at taking care of things,” Hinata defended. “I’m an amazing older brother, just so you know.”

Yes, I know. “Mm. Yeah.”

“Just ask Natsu!” And then, playfully: “You wouldn’t know what it’s like being an older brother because you’re the younger sibling.”

“Wha—why does that even matter, you dumbass?!”

He turned around just in time to see Hinata pull his shirt—Kageyama’s shirt—over his head, and when it fell over his chest, twice his size, he grinned up at him. His bedroom light wasn’t on but Hinata seemed to glow in the dimness anyway: a piece of the sun itself, wedged into the body of one tiny person, shining bright just for Kageyama.

And in that realization, he found his answer to his earlier question:

Nobody was like Hinata. Nobody smiled like him, and nobody’s company felt the same. Hinata Shouyou was in a league of his own, and nobody else compared.

[that-willowtree]

I should be sleeping but instead I’m going to make a roulette wheel of all my favorite ships so I can decide which one will be my hyperfixation for the next 3 days

[ushouldwatchhaikyuu]

cw: k1nk mention

fic where kageyama (who's usually a dom) wants to try subbing, cause he found out his crush is exclusively a dom. but the thing is, he doesn't even know how to do it.

so instead of risking embarassing himself if he ever tried it with his crush, he does the most normal thing one could do in that situation, and asks Hinata to dom for him so he can learn without that much pressure.

(clearly, they end up falling in love because they're gay like that)

[pearlsephoni]

At the End of the Sun, Ch 13: Uncovered

Can also be read on AO3!

Rating: E

Fandom: Haikyuu!!

Pairing: Kagehina (Kageyama/Hinata)

Characters: Shoyo Hinata, Tobio Kageyama

Word Count: Chapter: 5k; Whole Work: 160k

Summary: The euphoria of returning to the wolf's side is tainted by the doubts looming in Shoyo's mind...and the temptations they leave behind.  

A/N: Originally published on AO3 on February 24th. Further author's notes can be found there.

Shoyo knew the bracelet and its magic stone were responsible for the reduced trip between his childhood home and the home he shared with the wolf. But the moment he noticed the birch giving way to the pine trees that had become so familiar to him, he began running through the forest so fast that he felt like he could have run the entire, non-manipulated distance himself.

The snow crunched beneath his feet and he nearly slipped on icy patches more than once, but he didn’t slow down, not until he saw the familiar fence up ahead. “Okami-san!” he yelled as soon as he stepped into the yard. “I’m back!”

The sound of thumping steps running from around the back of the house made an excited smile spread wide across his face as he set aside his pack and fell to his knees. It was a marvel, the way his heart leapt at the sight of the wolf running full tilt towards him.

He only managed to call out, “Okami—!” before a black mass barreled into him and knocked him backwards. He couldn’t even take a full breath without the wolf settling in on top of him and snuffling a cold nose all over his face. His thick tail was thudding against Shoyo’s legs, wagging so quickly and heavily that he could feel a bruise forming beneath it.

It was by far the most physically uncomfortable homecoming Shoyo had ever experienced, and he couldn’t have been happier.

“Hi,” he laughed on a thin breath. His arms wrapped tight around the wolf’s heavy weight and held him even closer, burying his face into soft, thick fur.

“You’re back,” he heard at his ear, accompanied by wet nose nudges and messy licks. “You’re back, you’re back, why were you gone so long?”

“It was a week! Just like we promised!”

“Then it was the longest week of my life.” The wolf finally pulled back enough to meet Shoyo’s eyes, only to duck back in to bump his nose against his cheek again. “I missed you, dumbass.”

“Missed you, too, jerk.”

The snow was beginning to seep into his clothes, but any cold he felt was immediately eased by the wolf’s warmth. He wasn’t aware of shivering, not until the wolf grumbled, “You’re shaking. Let’s go inside.” He shuffled in Shoyo’s arms, but the hug didn’t loosen at all. “…Dumbass, let go of me.”

“But you’re warm.” Shoyo had barely finished speaking when there was a tongue licking at his ear. “Wha—gross, Okami-san!!”

The sound of that familiar huff-laugh sapped Shoyo of whatever annoyance managed to break through his happiness. He finally let the wolf go, though he still found himself having to navigate around his broad, black weight as he pushed himself to his feet. He didn’t mind—if anything, it was a sweet relief, seeing that the wolf was just as happy to be reunited.

They only had an hour before sundown arrived and hustled Shoyo to bed—not to actually sleep, but to enjoy his reunion with the wolf’s human self, too. It was a little embarrassing, how different his excitement was to reunite with the shadow compared to the wolf. He knew they were the same person, and he loved both forms so much.

But the gleeful exhilaration of being bowled over by the wolf couldn’t have been more different from the slow, heated anticipation that crept through Shoyo when the shadow tucked himself in next to him with a soft, “Sho…?

“I’m awake.”

Calloused fingertips brushed Shoyo’s cheek, tracing the curve to his lips. It was like a sweet reversal of their first kiss, when Shoyo had learned the lines of the shadow’s face. Now it was Shoyo’s turn to let his lips part against exploring fingertips, whispering, “Okami-san…kiss me.” It was his turn to feel those fingertips get replaced by hesitant lips.

His lips stayed parted, letting his tongue dart out and deepen the kiss immediately. That was all he needed to do to rouse the shadow from his nerves, and he was rewarded with fingers under his jaw and gentle teeth tugging at his lip.

They didn’t get much talking done after that, apart from the shadow groaning, “Fuck, I missed you.” He didn’t give Shoyo a chance to respond before he pressed their lips together again. That was fine—Shoyo just answered with wordless gasps and moans.

He really had missed everything about his wolf, his shadow, his lover, and he felt that same longing in the lips that brushed his skin and the fingers that carefully stretched him open. Shoyo clung to the shadow, arching into him and biting back breathless moans with every rock of their hips, running greedy hands over the firm body braced over him. Sweat made their skin slip on each other, but still, they held on tight.

Even when a mess was cooling between their sweaty bodies and they were gasping to catch their breath, they couldn’t bring themselves to pull away. When the shadow eventually began cleaning their messy skin, he kept a hand ghosting along Shoyo’s body like an anchor.

“M’not going anywhere,” Shoyo mumbled, as though he wasn’t catching the lingering hand and holding it close.

“I know,” the shadow grunted as he settled back down and tucked Shoyo into his chest. “I’m just…happy, having you back. I…I hated being alone this week.”

The unexpected confession made Shoyo’s breath catch. “You’re not alone, Okami-san,” he whispered. “I won’t leave you alone again. The next time I go home, I’ll go with you.”

“Really…?” Oh, he sounded so surprised, so uncertain, even after everything they’d been through and done together. “You…you want me to meet your family as…myself?”

“Of course!” His pout was wasted in the dark. “Of course I want the most important people in my life to meet each other. After we fix this, and you’re not a wolf anymore, I’ll bring you home. To both of our homes.”

As he spoke, he let his hand trail up the shadow’s chest, past the sharp lines of his collarbones, to rest on his cheek, and could feel the shadow’s breaths stutter under his touch. He traced along the features that were so familiar to his fingertips and still foreign to his eyes.

“Hey…it’s still me. I haven’t changed much in a week.”

“I know.” Shoyo’s fingertips came to a stop over the shadow’s lips. “I just…I missed you so much, but I couldn’t picture your face.” When the shadow didn’t pull away, Shoyo let his fingers drift over his nose and brows. “Remembering how you feel was as close as I could get.”

The shadow was silent, holding still beneath Shoyo’s fingers until they reached his lips again. Only then did he catch his wrist and press a kiss to his palm. “I’m sorry,” he murmured into his skin, “One day, Sho, I swear.”

“I know.” When the shadow let his wrist go, Shoyo ran his fingers up the back of his neck to sink into his soft hair. “Don’t apologize. Just kiss me.”

The shadow was more than happy to obey.

☾

Shoyo was used to being teased for how simple-minded he could be. If something wasn’t an immediate pressing concern presented right in front of him, then he could easily set it aside for later, provided he didn’t forget about it. And…he usually forgot about it.

For once, his forgetfulness was proving to be a good thing. He couldn’t fully forget the worries his mother had planted in his mind, but once he tucked the candle away into the closet behind the shoji screen, it was no longer a looming, threatening possibility.

Out of sight, out of mind.

With his mother’s gift hidden, he was able to spend the next month enjoying the slowly-warming weather and preparing the garden for the arrival of spring. A few hibernating animals were beginning to emerge, allowing Shoyo to close the gap between his kills and the wolf’s.

“Why bother cleaning this up?” the wolf asked one day, laying at the edge of the garden and watching Shoyo pry out some stubborn wintertime weeds.

“It’ll be spring soon, stupid,” Shoyo scoffed, “so it’ll be time to plant some things again.”

“But you’ll be gone before the end of spring.”

His fingers froze in the dirt. “…Well,” he murmured, “then whoever is here will have a nice surprise.”

“I wonder who that’ll be.” Shoyo stole a look at the wolf, and felt the grip around his heart ease at the sight of a sweetly tilted head and big dark eyes watching him. I’ll be with you, the wolf’s relaxed pose told him, not here.

When Shoyo was done with the preparatory weeding, he didn’t stand up without catching the wolf’s face in his dirty hands and pressing a kiss between his ears, letting him go with a cackle to the sound of an indignant, “Gross, dumbass!”

He’d been back for a little more than a month when the wolf’s sister showed up at their gate. His only warning was the sound of a distant gasp, before he turned to see her running at him with a bright smile. “You’re back!” she cheered, catching him in a tight hug. “I wasn’t sure you would be!”

“Neither of you thought I’d keep my promise?” Shoyo pouted. His arms were pinned to his sides, but he managed to pat her back. “I told him I’d be back!”

“It’s not that we didn’t trust you.” She pulled away with a softer smile. “It’s that we missed you so much. I can’t believe I came by right when you were gone!”

“I missed you, too, Nee-san.”

His soft words earned him a kiss on the forehead, before she pulled away with a brisk clap. “Alright, let’s get this load off my poor girl.”

The wolf returned from hunting as Shoyo was unloading some packs into the kitchen, and when the horse was fully unloaded, they all gathered on the engawa to enjoy some tea under the surprising warmth of the afternoon sun. It was touching, how interested the wolf’s sister was in hearing about his time at home.

But her attention was distracted when a breeze blew Shoyo’s overgrown hair into his eyes. “Shoyo-kun,” she hummed, reaching over to brush his bangs off his forehead, “who cuts your hair?”

“Um…I do.”

“And when was the last time you cut it?”

“I dunno…maybe before I went home?”

She let out a low whistle, the casual affect marred by the eager glint in her eyes. “Tell you what,” she said as she set aside her empty teacup, “why don’t you let your favorite big sister cut your hair? I do it for my family, and I’ve gotten quite good at it!”

“He doesn’t have a big sister.”

“I fail to see your point.”

“Oh…sure!” Shoyo agreed, nipping the siblings’ bickering in the bud. “My hair’s kinda weird, though.”

“Not weird! Unique.” The wolf’s sister's grin was both sweet and mischievous. (Did the wolf have a smile like that?) “Besides, that just makes this more fun for me!”

And that was that. At the sister’s request, Shoyo found a spare blanket to drape over his shoulders, and sat on the steps to the engawa, sitting one step lower than his impromptu hairdresser.

“Goodness, your hair must grow fast,” she laughed as she ran her fingers through Shoyo’s wiry curls. “I wish you’d asked me to cut your hair before, instead of trying to do it yourself.”

“You never said anything before,” Shoyo mumbled, ears flushing beneath her gentle fingers.

With a quiet hum, she picked up her scissors and began her work. “I wouldn’t be surprised if your hair grows fast enough for me to never see the worst of your handiwork.”

“I’m just…not used to doing it on myself.”

“And now you won’t have to get used to it.” She tilted his head, and he moved easily, relaxing under the soothing sensations of her fingers working through his hair and the feathery snips of the scissors. “Thank goodness To— ah, Okami-kun’s hair grew so slow.”

Shoyo’s heart leapt at the near-slip of the wolf’s name, and he had to fight to keep his voice steady when he carefully asked, “Really? Did you cut his hair?”

“Only sometimes, when he refused to come for the barber’s visits.” He could hear a smile in her voice, unaware of the hint she’d just dropped—only the wealthiest families could afford to have a barber personally visit their home. He’d already suspected the siblings’ wealthy background, but that didn’t keep a jolt from zipping through him at the extra glimpse into the lives they kept so carefully hidden. “I would have to wait until his bangs were in his eyes and he kept blowing at them to get them out of the way. Then I could tell him that cutting his hair would help him spar better, and he’d finally let me at him.”

“He knew sword fighting? Was he any good?”

“Eh…” The half-hearted response was followed by a low growl, and Shoyo couldn’t help snickering with the wolf’s sister at his grumpiness. “Yes, he was good,” she sighed with exaggerated annoyance. “Sometimes I wished he wasn’t so good at it. He’d always get in trouble, sneaking into training—”

“Nee-san!”

That wasn’t the whine of an embarrassed little brother. That was the urgent warning of someone with something to hide.

Shoyo could feel the weight of the silence that fell over the yard. It was almost suffocating, especially with his racing mind and short breaths.

A young, dark-haired boy, sneaking into combat training…whose training? Samurai training? But no, it was impossible for anyone from outside of the palace grounds to get in. He’d always assumed his first rival was the son of a samurai who simply got sent to train in his own craft.

It wasn’t possible. There was no way the wolf was that little boy.

But who was he?

“…Right,” the wolf’s sister murmured, tugging Shoyo out of his spiral. “Sorry, that’s a story for a different time. For now…I think you’re all set, Shoyo-kun!”

He blinked. Had he really been sitting there for so long? Or was she just unnaturally skilled at giving haircuts? “Already?”

“Are you accusing me of lying?” she gasped, a smile coloring her words. “Or of being an amateur hairdresser?”

“You are an amateur hairdresser,” the wolf grunted. Shoyo could hear him shuffling around before he appeared at the corner of his eye, coming around to sit in front of him with his head cocked. “Oh.”

“…What?” Shoyo asked, eyes narrowing at the wolf as he let his sister remove the hair-dusted blanket from around his shoulders. “Do I look bad?”

“Rude!” the wolf’s sister laughed with a nudge at the back of Shoyo’s head.

“I’m not saying you did a bad job!” he backpedaled. “I’m saying he’d have bad taste!”

“Hey!” the wolf growled. “Fine, you don’t look good, you look stupid!”

“You look stupid!” Shoyo snapped back, before all of the wolf’s words sank in. “…Oh. You think I look good?”

The wolf’s ears leaned back just a bit as he looked down at his paws, shuffling in the dewy grass. He muttered something that Shoyo struggled to make out and that made his sister groan, “Spirits, you’re awful at flirting. I’m leaving; any requests for my next visit?”

Shoyo held himself back as he watched the wolf’s sister ride away, waiting for the outline of her and her horse to disappear down the path before he grinned at the wolf. “So…”

“Shut up.”

“I always look good, huh?”

“Shut up!”

The sound of Shoyo’s laughter echoed around the yard as he ran into the house and away from the wolf’s playful growls.

☾

The hints and slip-ups from the wolf’s sister lingered at the edge of Shoyo’s mind for the rest of the day, even as he joked with the wolf and finished cleaning the porch. He didn’t realize how quiet he’d gotten until he was sitting on the engawa with a cup of tea in hand, watching the sun sink towards the horizon.

“Hey.”

He blinked out of his thoughts to see the wolf laying down next to him, resting his head on Shoyo’s knee. It was instinct at this point, the way Shoyo’s fingers sank into his fur as soon as they settled next to each other. “What?”

“Why’re you thinking so hard?”

Shoyo shrugged before draining his tea and setting his cup aside, freeing his other hand to pet the wolf. “Just wondering…does Nee-san know about…us?” She’d mentioned “flirting” before, but that just as easily could’ve been a petty tease.

The wolf’s ears flattened against his head. “She, uh…she guessed. And asked me about it a while ago.”

“Oh.” Shoyo’s cheeks warmed in matching embarrassment. “What’d she say?”

“She thought it was funny at first,” the wolf grumbled, “but then she said she was happy. Said I haven’t seemed this happy in a while.” A low rumble ran through his body. “And then she joked that she didn’t know what you saw in me, and that I better prove that I’m worthy of you.”

A soft laugh escaped Shoyo when he opened his mouth to reassure the wolf, only to be beaten by a quiet, “As if I don’t already know that.”

“Hey.” Shoyo jostled his knee, just enough to get the wolf to lift his head and meet his eyes. Never mind the slowly rising fur along his neck. “You know she was joking.”

“Yeah…”

“And I can decide what I do and don’t deserve!” He squished the wolf’s cheeks, grinning at the quiet growl he earned. “I chose you, Okami-san, and you chose me. That’s all I care about.”

His hands gentled into lightly scratching the wolf’s cheeks. Their eyes never left each other, and Shoyo found himself getting lost in those deep blue depths.

He knew those eyes better than his own, could read every emotion that flickered through them. What if he didn’t recognize them in the wolf’s human face? What if he didn’t recognize the wolf himself? All he knew was his wolf and his shadow. How would a man fit into that?

“Oi.”

“Hm?”

“You’re spacing again.” The wolf leaned forward to lick his cheek. “Go to bed, dumbass. All that thinking’s gonna make you tired.”

“Fuck off,” Shoyo chuckled. He caught the wolf’s face again and pressed a kiss to the top of his head before standing up to follow his suggestion.

By the time he was locking up the entrance, the sun was sinking beneath the horizon and the wolf was nowhere to be found. It was normal, routine, yet as he stood there, all alone, Shoyo felt something crack inside of him, leaving him trembling as he fled to his room and burrowed into his futon.

How many months had it been? Ten? Eleven? And he still didn’t know the wolf’s name, didn’t know his human face, didn’t know anything about where he came from outside of his vague anecdotes. Even the house still held secrets from him, hidden away in the room across from his.

Still, he’d made it this long. Why couldn’t he last another month? He’d known he would only have to wait out the year before he could get all the answers he craved.

But why a year? He couldn’t even know that much.

What did it matter? He knew the important things. He knew enough to slowly sink him into a love so sweet, he never wanted to surface.

It mattered because he deserved answers.

Answers he would get soon, if he just waited.

But how much longer could he live like this?

When the shadow crept in, Shoyo was still awake and shivering beneath the covers. “Shoyo…? Hey, what—”

“Kiss me,” he gasped, grabbing at the shadow and pressing in close. “Kiss me, please.”

“Sho—”

“Please.”

There was a quiet curse, a harsh word that contrasted the gentle hands searching out Shoyo’s cheeks. Once the shadow knew where he was, he pressed their lips together, making Shoyo melt. Just like that, his shudders eased away, leaving him loose and pliant in the shadow’s arms, and letting him pull in slow, deep breaths between slow, deep kisses.

“I’m here,” the shadow whispered against his lips, “I’m here, I’ve got you.”

A whimper escaped Shoyo. He tugged at the shadow, pulling him impossibly closer, until the shadow groaned and pushed him to his back. His weight slowly lowered onto Shoyo, warm and solid and comforting, and he felt heat bloom below his stomach, making him arch into the shadow.

“Tell me what you want,” the shadow breathed, “tell me how to help you.”

“Touch me,” Shoyo pleaded, “please, I just want to feel you.”

“Okay.” That was all the shadow said before the warm weight of his body lifted off of Shoyo, and he shivered as he listened to the sound of rustling fabric falling to the ground. He clumsily shoved his own nightclothes off, leaving himself naked and ready when the shadow covered him again.

It was messy and hasty, nothing more than the shadow holding their cocks together and smearing their precome down in quick jerks of his hand. Their lips ghosted against each other in wet butterfly kisses, hanging open on strangled gasps and moans and mouthed pleas.

The pleasure didn’t matter as much as pressing skin to skin, letting each touch hold Shoyo down to earth, even as he rose higher and higher on the waves that the shadow urged from him. Those grunts, those moans, the intoxicating scent of sex and sweat and warmth, the strong body under his fingers—they were all so sweetly familiar to him, and all came together into the body he knew better than anyone, better than his own.

The months, the near-year they’d spent together…that time wasn’t for nothing. He wouldn’t feel so safe, so instantly comforted at the hands of anyone else.

“Shoyo…” He shuddered as the shadow’s nose traced a path along his sweaty cheek to his ear. “Sho, are you—?”

“Yeah,” he gasped, “m’close, so close, you’re so— nng!” Suddenly there were lips wrapping around his nipple, making him arch into the suction. A few licks and sucks were all he needed to crest the wave swelling inside him. A choked-off cry tore from his throat as he trembled through his orgasm, cock jumping in the shadow’s hold and spurting warm ropes over his stomach.

He found the shadow’s face and pulled him into a deep, messy kiss, nipping at his bottom lip and curling his tongue behind his teeth. It didn’t take long for the shadow to follow him over the peak, arm shaking to hold himself up as he drained himself and moaned Shoyo’s name into his mouth.

The silence that fell over the room was broken only by their panting, until the shadow let himself fall to Shoyo’s side with a low groan. “Gimme a sec,” he mumbled, weaving his clean fingers between Shoyo’s, “I’ll clean us up.”

“Let me.” Before the shadow could protest, Shoyo managed to find the old rag at the edge of the futon. He quickly cleaned himself, more interested in taking his time on the shadow.

“Sho…” His heart sank—he knew what the shadow would say, but he didn’t say anything to interrupt him, no matter how tightly dread knotted his stomach. “Sho, what happened?”

“Nothing,” he murmured, letting his free fingers dance over the shadow’s muscles to make sure he hadn’t missed anything. “I just…kept thinking about everything I still don’t know about…everything. About you. There’s so much I still don’t know about you, but…I know you. You’re still you.”

“Mm…and I’m still yours.” The shadow caught his wandering hand to press a kiss to the back of it, and as soon as Shoyo set aside the dirty rag and laid back down, he was tugged into the shadow’s chest by an arm over his waist.

“Mine,” Shoyo echoed, running his fingers along the shadow’s jaw, his nose, his lips. He was still tracing the shadow’s Cupid’s bow when he felt his breaths deepen into a slow, steady rhythm. Even in sleep, when Shoyo cupped his cheek, he could feel the shadow press into the gentle touch.

His. His shadow, his wolf, his lover. His.

He had to know. He had to see.

He carefully slid out from under the shadow's arm, his heart squeezing at the way he kept sleeping heavily. The shadow slept so much deeper now, nothing like the early days when he would mumble “you okay?” any time Shoyo so much as rolled over.

Shoyo knew why the shadow slept deeply: because he trusted him, knew he didn’t have to be on-guard around him. Guilt curdled in his stomach, worsening when he tied his robe tight around his waist. What he was doing was wrong. He was breaking the shadow’s trust. He was already in love with him, couldn’t that be enough?

Shoyo loved him so much, he could barely breathe from it. He loved his voice, his hands, his body, the quiet adoration that shone from his eyes as a wolf, the comfort of his fur during the day and his lips at night. He loved the care that hid under his awkwardness, the quiet confidence that had bloomed over the months, the stupid taunts and nicknames that held more love than the most flowery of poems.

He loved him, he loved him, he loved him. But he couldn’t keep imagining him as a collection of mismatched features gathered from his fingers and comparisons to his sister and what he knew carried over from the wolf form to the human form. He just…needed a face for that love. That was it. A quick look with the candle, and then he’d blow it out before the shadow could even wake up. Maybe it wouldn’t count if the shadow didn’t know.

With that, he knelt with the candle and his striker in the further corner of the room, careful to keep the sound of the striker as far from the shadow as possible. He lit the candle as quickly as he could, and immediately froze, listening for any extra rustling from the futon.

Nothing. The shadow was well and truly asleep.

In all his years in training and working as a samurai, Shoyo had never moved as carefully and silently as he did just then. The flame barely flickered with his slow shuffle back to the futon…back to the shadow.

The first thing Shoyo could see was that the shadow was tall and lean, all tight, compact strength packed into a long frame. He’d always known that from the way he felt under his hands and in his arms, but he still felt a flush wash over him at the sight. He fought the urge to run his hands along the shadow's muscles as he moved up his body, until, finally, he held the candle over his sleeping face.

His breath caught in his throat.

The shadow wasn’t a monster, a youkai, nor a wolfish being. He was just…a man. A young man around Shoyo’s age, with messy, silken black hair falling into his eyes. There was something almost regal to his face—maybe it was the sharp cut of his jaw, the delicate slope of his nose, or the full cheekbones that his long eyelashes fluttered against. All those nights of tracing those features under his fingertips hadn’t prepared him for the jolt seeing them would give him.

Shoyo couldn’t stop staring at him, couldn’t stop greedily drinking in every twitch and flutter of that unfamiliar face. The idle thought of tracing those features while looking at them, just to connect the two in his mind, found him leaning over the man with a hand reaching out to cup a slightly-stubbly cheek.

He’d forgotten about the candle in his other hand.

It happened in slow motion. The candle holder tilted when Shoyo leaned over the man, just enough to let some of the melted wax flow to the edge of the holder…and begin to drip. Shoyo caught sight of it and tried to straighten it back up, but it was too late: one, two, three drops fell onto the man’s chest, and instead of cooling and hardening on his skin, the droplets seemed to sink in, until they were nestled into the burns they’d created.

Shoyo’s eyes shot up to the man’s face, just in time to see him wince in his sleep and begin to blink awake. There was a moment, a brief, sweet moment, when he was still in the space between sleep and wakefulness, unaware of himself and only focused on taking in his surroundings. He looked at Shoyo, and a sleepy smile full of adoration curved his lips. “Sho…?”

No sound would come out of Shoyo’s throat. He stared back in silence, soaking in those beautiful features in motion, watching the shift from drowsy happiness to confusion. The man raised a hand to the three dots of wax that had hardened on his chest, looked down, and found a human body where he’d been expecting a wolf’s. And then, with a twist of dread in his stomach, Shoyo watched his confusion morph into horror.

“No,” the man gasped, his eyes jumping from his body, to Shoyo, to the candle illuminating the room with a flickering light, back to his body. “No!” He scrambled backwards from Shoyo, either unaware or apathetic to his own nakedness as he stumbled to his feet. “What did you do?”

Finally, Shoyo managed to pull his voice out from the corner it had run to. “Okami-san…”

“What did you do?” The man's eyes jerked back up to Shoyo, ablaze with an anger that made him shudder. “One month. You just needed to wait one more month!”

“I didn’t…I didn’t know—”

“Because I couldn’t tell you! You knew that! I thought—” He dragged his fingers through his hair, agitation etched in every line of his body. “I thought you trusted me! I would’ve told you everything once the year was over, I…”

All of his anger drained out of him as quickly as it had come. “I thought you trusted me,” he repeated, voice hollow with defeat and grief. “It’s over. We failed.”

Art by the incomparable Fish (please zoom in on mobile)

[weathertheraine]

a different drum

TeddyTakeda

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Pairing - Kagehina

Rating - Teen

WC - 6.5k

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Hinata and Kageyama’s relationship has always been a little outside the norm. When a fellow student reveals that everyone on campus thinks they’re ‘secretly’ dating, they spiral into confusion because- well, ARE they? Surely Tsukishima, their smartest (and least-interested-in-talking-about-this) friend, can help them figure it out!

Or: Teddy has a lot of feelings about the word ‘partners’

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[shovellyyy]

I AINT FORGET

No no, this is actually so cooked. Like I might actually do this before I do anything else

[artemisia--hq]

The Morning Special

Kageyama Tobio x Hinata Shouyou

Rated E, 4.5k

Canon Universe, Established Relationship

Birthday Sex, Consensual Somnophilia

Careful not to move too much (even though Kageyama sleeps like a log and would take a literal earthquake to wake him up; but he’d rather not take any chances), Shouyou props himself up sideways, smirking at the serene, sleeping face of the man below him. His boyfriend is already blessedly shirtless—a common occurrence after a night of rowdy activities—and Shouyou’s hands immediately go to work on his impromptu “present.”

Hinata belatedly realizes he doesn’t have anything prepared for Kageyama for his birthday, much to his horror. Not wanting to break his streak of being the best boyfriend giving the best birthday presents, he decides to wake Kageyama and start his day in the best way he knows how.

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