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That’s Not What Friends Do (part 3)
Pairing: Lando Norris x reader
Warnings: a little bit of smut
part 2
"Charles Leclerc? You're fucking Charles Leclerc?"
"Lando!" You jumped off the couch, moving away from him, completely surprised by his choice of words. "Don't talk to me like that!"
"Answer me!" He said in a raised tone.
"No, I don't have to justify myself to you"
"Of all the people? Of all the people in this world, you choose fucking Charles Leclerc?"
"Oh, you're the one to talk about fucking love choices." You fired back irritated with the way he feels entitled to criticize you.
"This is not about me. This is about you dating someone I can't stand!"
"Yeah, it's never about you, and yet somehow everything is always about you!" You said bitterly gathering your things and preparing to leave. "I'm sick of it!"
"Where are you going?" You were almost shocked by his question. What did he expect? For you to stay and continue listening to his complaints? Nuh-uh. You were not one of his girls who would obediently do anything just for a little bit of his attention.
"Leaving, obviously." You said walking towards the door, and he followed you.
"Don't you dare!" He ran after you and just as you opened the door, he slammed it before your face, preventing you from getting out of his apartment.
"Have you completely lost your mind? Let me out, now!"
"Just-just stop, please"
"What do you want from me? First you lecture me about who I should and shouldn't date, and then you won't let me leave. Just so you know, no one has ever treated me as nicely as Charles. Unlike you, I don't fuck around like you accused me of." Your face was red, your body tense from how angry you were. But at the same time, you were also trying not to cry because this was your firs fight ever and it wasn't normal or natural for the two of you. You felt like a stranger was standing in front of you, not Lando. You just wanted to go home, lock yourself in your apartment and cry your eyes out.
"You didn't sleep with him?" Lando asked in a now completely calm tone.
"You're unbelievable.."
"Please..just tell me, I need to know."
"You need to know?" You sneered.
"Yeah because," He took a deep breath in. "I don't want him near you. Not just him, I don't want anyone near you."
"What are you talking about?" You asked confusedly, running your fingers through your hair, moving it away from your face.
"Y/n, I..I know I might regret telling you this now and the very thought of losing you because of this terrifies me, but..I can't stop thinking about kissing you." He sighs, finally confessing everything that's on his heart. He takes a risk taking a step closer to you so that your faces are just inches apart. "You awaken feelings in me that I didn't even know I had. When you're not here, you're all I think about. When you're gone, I just wait for you to come back. I want you all to myself and by my side all the time, y/n."
You were overwhelmed by the emotions and words coming out of his mouth, but also by the sudden change. From arguing to declaring love. Somewhere along the way you got lost.
You wanted to believe so badly that everything he was saying was true, but you knew Lando. You knew how he was with girls. Who's to say you weren't just another one in a row? There was simply too much to lose here so you just stayed silent looking straight into his eyes and trying to control your breathing.
"Please, say something.." He pleaded.
"Do you say that to every girl who visits your apartment?"
"No girls come here. I don't bring them to my apartment, ever."
"Oh, please-"
"I'm serious. You're the only girl I've ever brought here. You're the only girl I can lie next to and just look at. The only one I can picture myself with, the only one I want to be with and the only one I don't have."
Finally, he carefully placed his hands on your cheeks, gently caressing your skin with his thumb. You didn't resist, in fact, it was only when he touched you that all the tension seemed to evaporate from your body and your gaze continued to wander from his eyes to his lips.
"I wanna be better for you" He said softly, almost whispering leaning his head towards you. "Please, baby. Give me a chance, would you?"
Your only response was to press your lips together in the long-awaited kiss that left you both gasping. Your hands were working faster than your mind and before you even allowed yourself to think about what if this didn't work out, your legs were wrapped around his waist as he led you towards his room.
He gently laid you down on the bed and started to take off your clothes without breaking the kiss. Your back arched and you moaned into his mouth as you felt him press himself against you. He could easily read on your face how eager you were to feel him deep inside you.
"You're so pretty like this" He murmured against your neck. "My girl, aren't you?" You nodded as he asked.
"Lan, do something.." You moaned digging your nails into his back.
"Fuck, baby.." He was barely able to control himself. "Lay back" He slowly lowered himself down to the floor, settling between your legs, leaving gentle kisses along your thighs. "I wanna take my time with you"
And he did took his time with you. He took the whole night to show you how much he was yours. You lost count of how many times he made your legs tremble under his touch and he, once again, convinced himself that, for him, there was no one but you.
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26/01/25
fifteen years ago Matt and Mello were killed.
if you go to wammy's residential cemetery, you will see a small headstone that marks where their ashes are buried. it was decided that Matt would be cremated. Mello didn't really have a choice.
like the other three graves, there's nothing notable about the memorial to the two of them. it is newer, but as the years have gone by, nature has reclaimed the stone, ivy crawling up the surface like a blossoming green crack against the greying facade.
Near found it difficult to visit for the first few years, unable to leave his room during the funeral service. he kept putting off his visits, primarily justifying it as being too busy to return to the House. but he knew it was that particular grave he had been neglecting, and so he finally decided to go pay his respects.
the first occasion he stood and stared at it, noting how small it is. it does not feel like an appropriate tribute in that regard. Roger had made it clear that it was nothing personal — L's grave is even more inconspicuous, a small plaque that had long since been buried amongst the tall grass — but Near had never met L, and he had known Matt and Mello all too well.
the next time, he brought offerings. he sat down beside the grave and lay a bar of chocolate and a packet of cigarettes on top of the headstone. he knew that neither would last very long, what with the tendency of the wammy's children to steal and hoard the very few items they found for themselves. Near certainly didn't think Matt would mind if he contributed to a child's imminent nicotine addiction, but he imagined Mello would be slightly bothered to think of anyone enjoying chocolate on his behalf.
he sat down and talked to them. it was ridiculous, he knew, but he detailed the case he was working on, explained his strategy for dealing with the evidence he had gathered, and how he intended to capture the suspect. he could hear their responses as he spoke, hardly encouraging, but rather familiar nonetheless. he wondered if they were proud of him, but let go of such musings as soon as he was aware of them. it didn't matter. not really.
today is the last time Near will visit their grave. it is raining heavily in winchester and Halle insisted on joining him with an umbrella, which she holds over his head as he settles down into a seated position. his pyjamas will be dirty, but he doesn't care about that right now.
Near explains that he is stepping down from being L, that he has chosen his next successor and that they will be taking over the position effective immediately. he has not yet told this to Roger, but will do so in a few hours. he is the first resident at the House to live long enough to retire, and he doesn't know what that will mean for his ability to visit the orphanage. he just knows that he will be leaving, while Mello and Matt will forever remain on the grounds of their childhood home. they had both dreamt of a future far greater than themselves, a life that the world they grew up in would never allow. they were forever nineteen and twenty, and Near does feel guilty about that. he always had done.
Halle asks if he is ready to speak to Roger, and Near nods, standing up. he reaches out and touches the grave, the stone wet and rough against his fingers. he says goodbye.
#mello#mihael keehl#matt#mail jeevas#mellodramattic#near#nate river#death note#headcanon#vamphorica writes
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Arlecchino x Fem Reader Angst
Arlecchino angst because I hate myself and I’m incredibly depressed atm, listening to good luck, babe for the past four hours LMAO
arlecchino x fem Reader Angst ,internalised homophobia, reader marrying a man tw.
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The ballroom was gilded in gold and excess, every chandelier a mockery of the weight crushing your chest. Guests danced in practiced elegance, their laughter ringing hollow in your ears. Your fingers clenched the fabric of your white dress as you stood at the edge of the festivities, trying to make yourself invisible. But no amount of opulence could dull the aching in your heart.
You shouldn’t have looked. You promised yourself you wouldn’t, but when her piercing gaze found yours from across the room, it was as though the ground beneath you disappeared. Arlecchino stood in the shadowed corner, her presence impossible to ignore despite her effort to blend into the background. The tailored suit she wore fit her perfectly, but it was her expression that broke you. Her normally unreadable face now bore something raw, something vulnerable.
You forced yourself to look away.You have a husband now you're supposed to give your undivided attention and support to him.
This wasn’t supposed to happen. You weren’t supposed to fall in love with her.
But you had.
Your father’s voice lingered in your mind like a cruel shadow, a constant reminder of why you were here tonight. His words were sharp, not with pride but with practicality, as he justified your union with the Demoisters, the family you're now bearing your last name with. It wasn’t about love or your happiness—it never was. This marriage was nothing more than a transaction, a lifeline for your father to pull himself out of crippling debt, no matter the cost to you.
Sometimes, in the back of your mind where your unspoken dreams slowly die , you wished the weight of his failures would finally crush him. Maybe then, you could finally escape the invisible chains he had wrapped around you for as long as you could remember. Even now, as a grown woman, you were nothing more than a pawn to him, your life reduced to serving his needs, his ambitions, his mistakes.
You’d tried to tell yourself it wasn’t his fault, that he was only doing what he thought was necessary to save your family. But that excuse had grown thin, and now, standing in the midst of this charade, you couldn’t ignore the bitter truth. He would never see you as more than a tool. And you—despite everything you wanted to believe—were too afraid to break free.
The realisation sank deeper, heavier, like a stone tied to your soul. You weren’t living for yourself. You never had been.Marrying the heir of another family wasn’t just an expectation—it was a lifeline for your family’s survival. You couldn’t afford the luxury of choice, let alone the freedom to love someone as dangerous as Arlecchino.
She’d warned you.
All that rang through your mind was the night before all of this happened. The last encounter you had with Arlecchino before she called off things with you for good.
“Your father is just using you,” she said, her voice low but trembling with restrained anger. Her eyes, usually so piercing, now brimmed with raw pain and frustration. “He doesn’t care what you want. He never has.”
You flinched at her words, but it wasn’t because she was wrong. It was because she was right, and hearing the truth from her lips made it unbearable.
“I—he’s my father,” you mumbled, the excuse tasting bitter in your mouth. You couldn’t meet her gaze, your eyes fixed on the floor instead, where the shadows of candlelight danced—so fragile, so fleeting. “It’s not that simple. I don’t have a choice.”
“There’s always a choice,” she snapped, stepping closer, her voice growing more desperate. “But you’re too scared to take it. You’re scared of what they’ll say. What he’ll say. That’s why you’re going through with this farce of a marriage, isn’t it? Because it’s easier to let them decide your life for you than to fight for what you actually want.”
Her words hit like daggers, and you hated how well she could see through you. She always could.
“You don’t understand,” you whispered, your voice cracking under the weight of your own emotions. “I have to do this. It’s my family—”
“It’s not your family,” she interrupted, her voice sharp enough to cut through the air. “It’s him. It’s always been him. He doesn’t care about you, about what makes you happy. He’s doing this for himself—to save his business, to save his reputation. And he’s dragging you down with him, forcing you to live a life that isn’t yours.”
Tears burned in your eyes, but you refused to let them fall. Not here. Not now. “It’s not that simple,” you said again, but the words were hollow, and you knew she could hear it too.
“And for what?” she pressed, her voice softening but losing none of its intensity. “For a family that doesn’t see you for who you are? For a man who doesn’t love you—and never will? That’s why you’re marrying him and not me, isn’t it?”
The silence that followed was deafening.
She took a step back, her shoulders trembling as she let out a bitter scoff, the sound laced with heartbreak. “Because they’d rather see you miserable than happy with me. Because they’d rather you live a lie than accept the truth. And you’re letting them. You’re letting them steal everything from you, including me.”
Your chest tightened, and the tears finally fell, hot and unforgiving, streaking down your face. You wanted to tell her she was wrong, to reach out and beg her to stay, but your voice caught in your throat. Because deep down, you knew she was right.
“I can’t,” you whispered, your voice so quiet it was almost inaudible. “I can’t fight them. I’m not strong enough.”
Her expression crumbled, her mask of anger giving way to something far more devastating—grief. “Then that’s it, isn’t it?” she said, her voice barely above a whisper. “You’re going to let them decide your life for you. And you’re going to lose me in the process.”
She turned away, and for a moment, you wanted to reach for her, to beg her to understand, to stay despite everything. But you didn’t. You couldn’t.
“I love you,” you said, the words breaking on your lips.
She paused, her back still to you. “Then you should’ve chosen me.”
And with that, she walked away, leaving you alone in the suffocating quiet of your own cowardice, your heart shattering into pieces you would never put back together.
But you had no choice.
Now, the gilded ring on your finger felt heavier than lead. Every step you took toward the man you were bound to felt like another nail in the coffin of your happiness. He smiled at you, oblivious to the storm raging within you, as he held out his hand to guide you into the first dance.
You moved mechanically, your heart somewhere else entirely—across the room, where Arlecchino stood unmoving, watching.
When the music slowed, and the crowd dissolved into polite applause, you excused yourself under the guise of needing air. The garden was empty, the cool night breeze biting against your skin. But it wasn’t the cold that made you shiver.
“I shouldn’t have come.”
Her voice was low, cutting through the silence like a blade. You turned to see her standing there, her suit blending into the shadows.
“Then why are you here?” you whispered, your voice trembling.
She stepped closer, and for a moment, you thought she might touch you, but her hands stayed firmly at her sides. “Because I had to see it for myself,” she said, her voice cracking. “Had to see you give yourself to someone else.”
“I've told you a million times it wasn’t my choice,” you said, tears welling in your eyes.
“There’s always a choice,” she hissed, her calm veneer cracking to reveal the fury and heartbreak underneath. “But you’ve made yours.”
Her words stung, but they weren’t untrue. You had made a choice. A cruel, impossible choice.
“I love you,” you said, your voice breaking as the tears spilled freely now. “I love you more than I can put into words, but—”
“But it doesn’t matter,” she interrupted, her tone hollow and sharp. Her hands twitched at her sides, as if fighting the urge to reach for you, to pull you close one last time. “It never mattered, did it?”
“That’s not true,” you whispered, stepping closer, but she stepped back, the distance between you an unspoken barrier you knew you’d never cross again.
“You’ve already chosen,” she said bitterly, her voice trembling in a way you’d never heard before. “And I’m not going to stand here and beg for the scraps of your heart. Not when you’ve already handed it over to someone else—someone you don’t even love.”
Her words struck you like a physical blow, and you recoiled, clutching the fabric of your dress as though it could hold together the pieces of your breaking heart. “This isn’t fair, Arlecchino,” you choked out. “I’m doing this for my family—”
“For your family,” she repeated, the words dripping with venom. “What about you? What about what you want? Or does what we had mean so little that you can throw it away without a second thought?”
“It’s not that simple,” you pleaded, your voice barely audible.
“It is,” she snapped, her sharp eyes blazing with a mix of fury and heartbreak. “You just don’t want to admit it. You’re a coward, and you’re running from the one thing that’s real.” Your shoulders stiffened as you raised your head up to look her directly in the eyes.
“So what?” you snapped, the words spilling out before you could stop them, sharp and defensive, laced with fear you refused to acknowledge. “I’m doing what’s best for my mother and my sisters. They need this—they need me to do this.” You folded your arms tightly across your chest, trying to steady the tremble in your voice. “You don’t understand. They would never… they’d never look at me the same if they knew about—about us.”
Your voice cracked, and you swallowed hard, willing yourself not to cry. You hated how weak you sounded, how transparent. “They’d disown me,” you whispered, almost to yourself now, the words like broken glass in your throat. “They’d hate me. My own mother, my sisters—they’re the only family I have, and if I lose them, I’ll have nothing.”
Her silence stung, and when you finally looked up, the hurt in her eyes was unbearable.
“They wouldn’t hate you,” she said softly, but there was an edge of disbelief in her tone. “They’d come to understand. They love you. Isn’t that what family is supposed to do?”
You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head. “You don’t know them like I do. Love isn’t unconditional in my family. Love is earned. And if they found out about this, about me…” You trailed off, your chest tightening as the weight of it all pressed down on you,while fiddling with the ring chained around your finger, “They’d never forgive me for ruining everything.”
“You’re not ruining anything,” she argued, her voice rising with frustration. “You’re just too afraid to live your life—our life. You’re letting their expectations cage you, and for what? To keep their love? What about your own happiness? What about mine?”
You flinched, her words cutting deeper than you wanted to admit. “You don’t get it,” you hissed, desperation creeping into your voice. “This isn’t just about me. This is about them, about saving them from losing everything. And—and being with you? It’s wrong, don’t you see that?”
Her face fell, her expression crumbling into something between anger and heartbreak. “Wrong?” she echoed, her voice barely audible. “You think this is wrong?”
“I didn’t mean it like that,” you said quickly, but the damage was already done.
“Yes, you did,” she shot back, her voice trembling. “You think being able to allow yourself to love me is wrong. You think you are wrong.”
Tears pricked at the corners of your eyes, but you refused to let them fall. “You don’t understand,” you repeated, weaker this time. “It’s not about love. It’s about survival. And if that means I have to bury this—bury us—then so be it.”
Her shoulders sagged, and she let out a shaky breath. “I hope it’s worth it,” she said quietly, her voice devoid of the fire it once carried. “Giving up everything that matters to you. Including yourself.”
The silence that followed was unbearable. You reached out, desperate, but her cold, empty laugh froze you in place.
“Do me a favor,” she said softly, her voice cracking under the weight of her own words. “When you stand at that altar tomorrow and say your vows, don’t think of me. Don’t look at him and wish it was me standing there instead. Because I won’t be waiting for you, not now, not ever.”
Her words broke something in you, but before you could respond, she turned and walked away, her silhouette dissolving into the shadows.
You didn’t follow her.
You stood frozen in the cold garden, the echoes of her parting words wrapping around your throat like a noose. When you finally found the strength to move, your steps felt heavy, every movement dragging you closer to a future you no longer wanted.
As you re-entered the ballroom, the weight of the ring on your finger seemed to double, a gilded chain binding you to a life of pretense. Your fiancé greeted you with a warm smile, but you barely heard his words. You saw only Arlecchino’s back as she disappeared into the darkness, taking your heart with her.
And as the music swelled and the guests toasted to your impending marriage, the truth settled in your chest like a dagger:
You would love her for the rest of your life, but she would never forgive you.
And you would never forgive yourself.
Live,love,lesbian angst.
Me writing this fanfic:
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As I mentioned last week, I was going to do an anniversary post for episode 5 and 6 of "Hazbin Hotel" airing, so here you go! ^_^ This is when we officially got introduced to Lucifer and many of us instantly related to his "Take that, depression!" line. ;) I thought it was adorable though seeing him be sweet with KeeKee as well as briefly go dad-mode on Razzle and Dazzle. ;) XD Lucifer and Alastor's rivalry cracked me up and I can't wait to see it continue in Season 2. ;) XD We also got treated to some amazing songs in these two episodes like "Hell's Greatest Dad," "More Than Anything" and "You Didn't Know;" I know I listen to the first one at least once a week. ;) Yikes though to seeing Alastor remind us all how beneath his charming persona, he's still a manipulative, scary and violent Sinner who refuses to be seen as weak. O_O
Getting to see Lucifer and Charlie's relationship start to heal after years of barely seeing or even talking with each other melted my heart, and I'm so glad Lucifer is going to do what he can to support his daughter now so he's not like the angels before him that crushed his ideas. <3<3<3
The club scene had me mainly distracted by Sir Pentious being adorable and trying to get with Cherri, but Angel Dust standing up to Valentino was awesome! ^_^<3<3<3 I'm also glad Niffty got some of Valentino's neck fluff as a bit of retribution, and he better watch out so that she doesn't come for more. O_O ;) It was nice to see Husk look out for Angel Dust too and for Angel in turn to look out for Niffty when she got drunk. ^_^<3<3<3
I'm excited to explore more of Heaven in Season 2, even though I'm with Vaggie here that the place seems really bright and I know seeing Heaven benefit from humans being given free will so they could be able to have ideas and discover stuff leaves a bad taste in my mouth. :/ Also, I know most of us already assume Vaggie was an ex-exorcist, but to see how she was viscerally maimed and left behind for showing mercy was intense. O_O Meeting Emily was delightful in my opinion too and for sure Charlie is going to need all the allies she can get with Sera, Adam, Lute, and any others that think the Extermination is justifiable/necessary despite the hypocrisy it means for Heaven to allow it. :/ Her joining Charlie at the end of "You Didn't Know" was great and the court (but especially Sera) needed to hear it, even if Sera still refused to really hear them out about redemption. Adam was definitely being a petty asshole though for revealing Vaggie's secret like this. >:(
I'll do the anniversary post for episodes 7 and 8 next week, so stay tuned as Alastor would say. ;)
#lucifer morningstar#hazbin hotel lucifer#charlie morningstar#hazbin hotel charlie#vaggie#hazbin hotel vaggie#alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#husk#hazbin hotel husk#sir pentious#hazbin hotel sir pentious#angel dust#hazbin hotel angel dust#adam#hazbin hotel adam#cherri bomb#hazbin hotel cherri bomb#valentino#hazbin hotel valentino#lute#hazbin hotel lute#sera#hazbin hotel sera#emily#hazbin hotel emily#hazbin hotel#vivziepop#<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3#gifs
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I’m thinking about it, and I think Optimus banishing Megatron from Iacon with the High Guard was probably one of the worst decisions he could have made to deal with this situation
Because Optimus pretty much left him alone, outside of his home and I’m fairly certain the only remaining city on Cybertron, so to live out in the wilds of the surface, with a bunch of complete strangers whom they literally call nut-jobs and have a strong belief of “strength of one bot over another”, and are also much older and more experienced than him
And in leaving him with the High Guard, he’s likely isolated Megatron even more than if he was banished alone. Because while Optimus and the others have friends they can be vulnerable with and be comfortable talk about their feelings, Megatron does not know these people, and they don’t know him. But he’s now their leader in a group that values strength above all else, and emotions are usually considered a weakness in these sorts of settings. So not only does he have no one to talk to, he has to bottle up his very strong and raw emotions to appear stronger and worthy of his position, thus making them far worse and probably leading to unhealthy coping mechanisms
This could end up not being the case, and the High Guard are very considerate of his emotions. But it’s also very possible the case that they aren’t, or Megatron believes he can’t be vulnerable around them. They (the quartet I mean) don’t know these people, and they’ve really only seen them be violent and aggressive, and Megatron knows he’s an outsider to them. It’s a more likely scenario that they’ll be harmful to Megatron’s mental state rather than helpful
And again, they’re a lot older than him too, and they probably all know this, at least on some level. And thus, he’s far more likely to be influenced by the High Guard’s mentality and beliefs, which we already know aren’t great (even if it’s somewhat justified why they’re the way they are by this point). And assuming they’re pissed at Optimus as well, they could very well try to have Megatron distance himself from his old friends, and it be more successful than if he was alone
But moving away from the High Guard, there’s the fact that Optimus banished him from his home and left him to fend for himself, which Megatron would absolutely take personally just on its own. He was clearly not in a mentally stable place at that point and I think he thinks what he’s doing is right, he’s the one not being like Sentinel while Optimus is. It definitely isn’t right, but he thinks he is. And the banishment to him could not only be Optimus/Orion standing against him, but essentially him saying he’s given up on Megatron, making him leave his home. And I mean, Sentinel did kind of do this to the High Guard 50 cycles ago, so yet another parallel to be made between Optimus and Sentinel
But note that when I say all this, I don’t mean it as a criticism of the movie, that this is a flaw of the plot. I’m fairly certain this was 100% intentional by the writers. It wasn’t just Megatron that created Megatron and led to the war, it was Optimus too, even if he didn’t intend to
Optimus probably thought at the time that this was the best solution in dealing with him. He doesn’t agree with Megatron’s actions but he understands where it all comes from, and he was someone very important to him. So he probably doesn’t want to arrest him, punishing him for what he thought was right and making himself more like Sentinel, oppressing those who were supposed to be on his side. But he still has to be punished for his actions. So by banishment, he is punished while still being allowed to essentially be free, just not in Iacon, and maybe in turn he’ll see his wrongdoings and come back better. And even if the High Guard aren’t ideal, they did help Optimus and Elita rescue their friends, and maybe he thought at least with them he wouldn’t be alone in his thoughts. Also they agreed with Megatron’s ideals and probably shouldn’t be allowed to just roam free in Iacon, especially in this politically fragile state it is right now
But in doing so, Optimus essentially threw Megatron to the wolves and created the perfect environment for his anger and pain to fester and cause him to become more like the Megatron we know in the future
I’m not sure what the actual best solution would have been to this issue though. Maybe it would have been just jailing Megatron? Granted in the short term, it’d probably sting even worse for Megatron, that his own friend would lock him up, and it’d probably make him even more resentful. But at least there, he’d still be in Iacon, with his friends and people who want to help him, and with Optimus and Elita at the helm, they can probably see that he gets treated well and has access to people that can really help him work through it all and see what he did was wrong
But that’s not what happened
#just a thought I had earlier this morning#I really do hope this analysis of the situation was correct#I’m pretty sure what the writers were going for is that Megatron’s fall and the future fall of Cybertron was not just on him#it was ultimately both Optimus and Megatron’s fault#both making the wrong decisions and choices that they thought were right at the time#I’ve seen people bring this up with Orion and D-16 as well before The Fall#but I think it applies here too#and also despite me essentially defending Megatron here he was absolutely not in the right either#wanting to burn down everything and even attacking Optimus who actually has the Matrix and was brought back to life#not being a false Prime like Sentinel and once being his closest friend#but he was also in an emotionally volatile state at this point and having a mental crash out#and now having been encouraged in this mentality by the High Guard#also he wasn’t at all like this before the reveal of Sentinel’s betrayal#so it’s not like he’s an irredeemable monster at this state either#just someone who’s making the wrong decisions and needs help even if he doesn’t think he needs it#I don’t know I have a lot of thoughts on this#I should probably stop here so I don’t flood the tags with even more#transformers#transformers one#optimus prime#Megatron
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↠ Tim & Lucy ↳ 2x10 - The Dark Side
#jesuis-assez edits: chenford season 2#jesuis-assez edits: chenford#jesuis-assez edits: chenford scenes 2x10#I really didn't want to gif a single frame of Caleb. But I did want to gif this scene. So sacrifices had to be made 🤣#Absolute INSANE behavior Tim. INSANE! and yet justified given how much of a piece of sh-- Caleb turned out to be. He had creepy vibes#from the get go. It's interesting how Tim said that Lucy hesitated with Caleb.#The only hesitancy (and frustration) I detect is this conversation taking place while Tim is there and Lucy being very aware of that.#And Tim at the end handing her the paper. Lucy observing how he's acting and how quickly he shifted into protective mode. Tim standing#there with a part of him not feeling right about this whole thing & later projecting that as Lucy being the one who didn't.#He was overwhelmed by his guilt and in such anguish. Just falling apart at the thought of losing her because he gave her advice#as a friend and not as her training officer. Something awful happening to someone else. To Lucy... collecting more guilt#and piling it on top of all the other times that happened. That someone suffered because of 'his actions'#Neither Tim or Lucy saw this sadistic monster coming. And Tim may not have suspected him...#But there was something about Caleb and that interaction that had Tim stepping into that role of the fierce protector.#And Tim isn't only emitting protective energy here...🟢 * Puts a green circle there and doesn't elaborate * Yaass queen give us nothing 🤣#The green circle of jealousy and Tim is standing inside of it.#But he's also coming across as distrustful of Caleb's intentions which is not alarming as they're in the midst of the chaos#surrounding a serial killer. It's rather expected to be that way. It's how Tim said he should've known. He should've suspected him.#He's a cop. And yet he started interrogating like a cop would & as if he were a suspect. Asking for a last name. What he does for a living.#He behaved in that way for a reason. So something definitely felt off but the need to be Lucy's friend in that moment#that he encouraged her to go out with him came before his instinct to be a cop or even her T.O .#In other words... He prioritized Lucy and what he thought she needed. He shifted the focus from the case onto her by#suggesting she focus on something else. And when she was taken... that focus on her became heightened by the gravity of the situation.#+ The EYE CONTACT. Tim & Lucy having their own private moment. The silent communication between them while Caleb rambles on#in the background about something unimportant. I have so much more to say but I've reached my tag limit 🤣*whispers with feeling* f**k..
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Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship
#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it#it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper#provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the#interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after#50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked#his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it#he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from#when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has#his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever#but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how#we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe#cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna#back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed#practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence#we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one#who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted#to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say#goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art.#you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea?#if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa#the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding#his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.
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Thinking about my Shepard and how much more fucked up it is for a Sole Survivor Shep to be forced to work for Cerberus. Thinking about that personal quest in me1 where you find Corporal Toombs: a survivor of the Akuze tragedy that no one knew about because he was taken BY CERBERUS to be experimented on because he survived the thresher maws that CERBERUS SET UP IN THE FIRST PLACE. Yeah, apparently Akuze was a Cerberus experiment the whole time, and a Shepard who was there and survived is then forced to work for the very people who are responsible for the wholesale slaughter of his entire unit on Akuze. And they have to just act like that's okay because bioware says so. Like Shepard doesn't even mention Akuze when arguing with any of the Cerberus people. There's no option to say anything about it. I am fine.
#mass effect#mass effect 2#yeah fuck cerberus and everything they stand for honestly#the ends do not justify the means if you have to do horrible experiments on the people you're claiming to want to help#in me2 toombs sends Shepard a very angry very deserved message and I would like to think Shepard agrees with everything toombs says#and that they are proud of him for speaking up and calling them out on it#because he should#anyways in my canon raien shepard will not shut up about Akuze in the second game#he brings it up at every opportunity#yet he's still forced to play nice for the time being and it eats him alive the whole time#and that's how a paragon Shepard very quickly becomes a renegade Shepard
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i have many thoughts about self hatred, self destruction, existence, the community vs the self, family, duties, ethics, and responsibility, but i struggle to put them into one coherent work
#i think these are thoughts i have struggled with since 4th grade#not the last time my dad hit me but the first time i thought about killing myself#he made me stand in a corner crying and i came up with a list of ways i could die#i read a book back then. 'the meaning of life.' i struggled to make meaning of it until that day it clicked. there wasnt one.#now i am slightly better#i don't think about killing myself anymore but the hatred and desire to have never existed is still there#and is only offset by a tenuous recognition that i can still justify my existence by being useful to others. my new meaning of life#(this is the main reason why i study ethics so that i can justify every action i take or potentially take)#i say tenuous because i often feel like i dont do a good enough job at being useful anyways#i will still readily accept messages that people hate me or that im worthless because it means i will perform a net good by not existing#to be free from being useful. to be free from having to justify myself. to be free from every person who pisses me off#from every person who i will disappoint from every person who i can't help#responsibility is a thing that no person will ever be free from i know that#but it would be better if my self esteem and will to live wasn't linked with it#yap#vent#cw suicide#suicide
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#lindsay horan#uswnt#nwsl#people trying to justify it like ‘fans are dumb everywhere’#or ‘it was better in context’#or ‘most Americans only watch the uswnt once every few years when the big tournaments are’#like. sure#but a player. a captain. who’s meant to be an ambassador for the sport#and is meant to be captaining the uswnt through a pretty temultous time#should keep this shit to herself#(her carli lloyd number 10 bullshit is showing but we been knew)#and people who are saying go to any nwsl game and the stands will prove her right like#idk what experience you are cultivating for yourself but I have had a good time every time I’ve been at a Gotham game#last time I was there was Kriegs’s last home game and we were seated near families who were there with their little girls#who were players#and the dad or whatever to these children heard my gf and I talking about the games that were ongoing#and he and the little girl would ask us questions#like#perfectly pleasant people#grow the game do not fucking bash people who would otherwise be your fans#lindsey horan#just discovered I spelled her name wrong idc she a bitch
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Justice for jolyne wdym emporio defeated pucci
#can i say maybe i dont like where this is going bc i dont like the priest. like why not have dio do all this. i have to endure his boring#self while not having any motivation bc i still dont know why he wants to do all this bc that backstory doesnt justify anything#while dio is in the background and he has a motive to hate the joestars and create a world without them. idk#this is like light and near but unjustified#i would have prefered the priest resurrecting dio in some strange way than him doing all this i think#and i still dont like his powers ☝🏻 they dont make sense to me and the evolution doesnt either. how can you just flip stands.#also his rant about how he killed all his enemies... josuke and giorno are out there now lmao#retracting my statement they changed the opening but just this last episode#i do like the destiny stuff like the same thing happens in a new world bc of necessity and the whole plot has been about things happening#because it needs to happen but why does this reset need to happen??? why does pucci want it?? so everyone can be happy?? why??#literally nothing that happened to him has been the joestars fault. dio brainwashed him? ok SHOW IT#like the plot is okay but the priest doing all this makes no sense it could be anyone at this point#okay i get it now destiny is like gravity.... but his stands changing makes no sense still. the disc thing got out bc of the plant baby. ok#but the gravity just changed to something else entirely??? to time??#he kept repeating time and space but a space stand would be the hand. gravity is something else entirely#its not like velocity>acceleration or star platinum and the world velocity>time. that makes sense#gravity and time is like my stand makes anything into ice cream and then it makes things disappear#rant at this point but yeah#okay control. the priest wants to know exactly what is going to happen at all times to be prepared and evolve?? and why would dio want this?#weather report...... i mean it was meant to be#yeaaahhh emporio roast him#irene and anakiss ajdhaisjaisjakakakak#i might be crying but this doesnt change my pucci criticisms#the ending song..... incredible choice#i think i liked golden wind too much and i cant control myself and not compare#but pucci doesnt make sense to me here apart from being a priest and wanting to fulfill 'god's' purpose or whatever that means#so now there is a new world but with joestars but they dont have stands?? or just pucci doesn't exist (or dio)#so just the prison gang doesnt get them. but ermes didnt go to prison either. idk#talking tag#watching jojo
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itd be cool if the reason for crowley's fall was literally that he tried to overthrow god. like he went all in on the rebellion. he downplays it later like he just asked questions he just hung around the wrong people he just got swept up in it etc bc he cant remember the details a lot and that makes it easier for him to maintain that he didn't even do anything. but like i want the truth to be that he DID do something. and this is not to say he would have deserved it, or that trying to overthrow god is wrong or anything. it would just unambiguously be like yeah, there was a rebellion, he was part of it, he chose to reject god first. and then he AND aziraphale have to come to realize that that still doesn't make what was done to him and the other demons justified
#i mean i think crowley sort of already realizes this#first offense and all#shades of gray#but like i said it'd be easier on him to be like 'i was just a little birthday boy and she was so mean to me'#and i do think it'd be uncomfortable for him to have to confront that he did Do Something. again even if that something was#morally justifiable!#idk its late at night is this making sense. crowley tries to wiggle his way out of responsibility so much itd be fun for him to have to own#this action and know what it was and choose to stand by it#and THEN if he wants to still be like 'i didnt do anything wrong' then that would be great and id agree that he didnt#but its easy for him to say that about asking questions#its harder to say it about spitting in his mom's face#i want him to learn to say it though
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I'm the LAST person to suggest that you have to preface every single comment you make about a character/fictional relationship/etc. you like with a reminder that you Know™ it's pRoBLeMaTiC, but I DO question what the point of acting genuinely for real like there were no problems is.
#I don't even mean in a 'what would it look like if this relationship were healthy' or 'what if this character were a good person'#because I think that's interesting to explore and I have several things I'm working on with elements of that#but I genuinely will hear people go 'there ARE no flaws in this thing' with their whole chest in a completely serious manner#when they could just. talk about how they like the thing without that qualification? and I feel like...#...idk. just because *I* am someone who enjoys horrible characters and deranged unhealthy fictional relationships#I feel like it's a disservice to act like there were never any faults or problems or [insert applicable noun here] at all? it gets rid of#the narrative complexity that's present#I was talking to long-distance best friend last night and I went on a rant about how I wouldn't like jaime as much if he actually WAS as#Super For Real Actually A Completely Good Person Who Was Never Flawed In Any Way as some people act like he is.#it's BECAUSE he does shitty things and isn't A Super Good Person™ that makes him particularly interesting#if you want to imagine a version of this story where he doesn't act horribly and is a 100% Stand Up Guy then go for it you don't need to#justify that by saying that that is completely for real without exception who he actually is in canon?#(this wasn't even the example that brought this on. he's one of many MANY examples.)#and you know I could write a story (I won't) where like. idk altena for example. handles her issues and doesn't become The Antagonist™#where she gets therapy and ends up with a fulfilling life where she participates in society as a more well-adjusted person.#but again it would be an INCREDIBLE disservice to the way this character (a complicated fascinating character) is written to act like#she was Always Like That or that this turn of events was intended by the story or that She Genuinely Never Did Anything Wrong Actually#it's less 'oh people are having sympathy for [xyz] in a story context that I think isn't merited' & it's more 'acting like this is the way#the story was all along and the way it was meant to be interpreted all along is a misreading of the text and I don't think that's fair'#mel's media criticism
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The Question #15 (1988)
#book club#vic sage#the question#dc comics#comics#I've seen people misinterpret this as vic stating that there are no bad people#and i think it's a half baked idea which is why i included the first image#he clearly hated McCarthy's guts. for obvious and justified reasons. i would too.#what he is classifying as a hero here is a person that consistently does good actions. and a villian is someone that consistently does bad.#McCarthy was unequivocally a piece of shit. literal kkk member and all around disgusting individual.#and his final moments were spent saving Vic's life. even a creep like this idiot is capable of saving another person.#even when that person just spelled out in plain words how much they cant stand him#although this also showcases McCarthy's bias. he definitely would not have done this if vic was not white.#which adds his motives into the analysis of this 'act of good'#would he have jumped into the line of fire if it was other kbel crew members? safe to say the answer is no.#he's definitely no hero. but it's hard to classify someone that saves any life by sacrificing their own as a villian.#anyway he is a piece of shit. im sure we all have known someone like this.
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also love the idea of eddie bringing buck along to help out at some pta event and all the single parents are like 👀👀 and hit on him and eddies just losing his mind watching it happen
#like a mom comes up to buck and is like. heyy do you mind helping me set up? i cant lift this myself#and ofc buck is like. yeah absolutely#and after shes like oh wow youre so strong. and touches his arm#and eddie seed this happen and is like. well i gotta put a stop to that. and walks over and stands wayyyy closer to buck than normal#and wraps an arm around his waist and the mom is like. oh. and send eddie an apologetic smile#or eddie gets cornered by a few moms and theyre like. eddie youve never mentioned your friend was so handsome. he is also a firefighter?#does that mean he is too busy for a girlfriend?? im sure hed like some thing to help him wind down after work#and eddie gets all huffy and is like hes with me actually#so hes not available.#and theyre like oh.#my bad didnt realize when you said he was your friend you meant your BOYfriend#and eddie is on roll so he says my husband actually#and everyone is like huh#because when did eddie diaz get married without them knowing#anyway#but eddie would say some wild shit and the moms and dads would be like okay so no more hitting in buck (in front of eddie)#and eddie would be sitting there trying to justify how telling people buck is his husband was helping buck out#like. well he said hes not looking for a relationship rn this is helping that. or those moms arent really what buck needs in a relationship#and eddie watches buck and the way he smiles and the way his spine curves when he laughs and his hands curl around something and hes like#none of them deserve him. they dont even know that hes the most amazing person to ever walk this earth (after chris) they just want him cuz#hes big and bright and smiley but hes so much more than that.#and so all the parents stop hitting on buck (well. most of them. some of them are lowkey tryna be homewreckers) and buck notices and is lik#hey. eds did you say something at one of the meetings? like all of sudden jill isnt trying to lure me into the bathrooms after pta meetings#and eddies just like. fuck. fuck. fuck. and says oh well. see. actually. it turns out they all think we are married.#oh. well. did you correct them?#uh. no?#and buck just stares at him and eddie stares back until buck is like. you told them we were married didnt you#yeah. sorry its just. it bothered me when they were hitting on you. i shouldve talked to you about it but idk i just had to stop it.#oh. it. uh. bothered you? why?#idk. they dont. they dont know you.
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really funny seeing someone who is the problem commenting on how and why the server died... lol
#niyah.txt#love her but she's like ''man ever since these annoying ppl left it's been dead'' wanna address why they left#1 left after (rightfully) being told he was stupid and talking nonsense but you and others kept mocking another guy who eventually went mia#this sounds meaner than what it actually is but tl;dr they kept saying this one unfunny ass joke he would say#so i imagine he felt unwanted in the server#(which is true tbh i couldn't stand him and neither could others)#and then the nail in the coffin was one of the other active ppl stopped coming in the server bc she got into a petty argument w him#and instead of it being handled in a mature manner it wasn't#and then she grabbed all of the active ppl she liked and made another server that afaik is more active (idk bc i muted it)#you are the common denominator beloved#in general ppl have a problem with finding glee in bullying ppl out the server and while there HAVE been instances where it was justified#the last handful of times it was not so it got more cliquey than ppl are willing to admit
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