#just wanted 2 articulate these thots i guess

[meme-loving-stuck]

okay and I know this might come off as "kek don't be a whiney snowflake who gets offended at everything" it's not. I've been using this site since I was 13. I've received the suicide-baiting anons, ive made 50k+ note posts that get you a following overnight, I've had work stolen, ive had the way-older-people harassing me, I've latched onto shitty social and political ideas because it was the norm in my little corner here. you know why ive never had a breakdown or had to have some serious "time away" from Tumblr?

because it's a goddamn hobby website. sure some people earn their money here this post aint@ them. NO website should be what you live and breathe every single day to the point where anything on that site is giving you panic attacks or breakdowns. if that is happening you need to grow the fuck up and learn how to interact with the content on a goddamn hobby website.

you control LITERALLY everything you see on this hellsite. every single thing on your dash is there because YOU followed someone who put it there. don't like seeing lizard fetish art? then don't go following the fucking lizard fetish artists. block the tag "lizard fetish art" or w/e the fuck they use. it's not that fucking hard! theres the funny thing: most of us don't see lizard fetish art on this website because WE DONT SEEK IT OUT.

the same exact principle applies to....everything...every single thing on this website. don't want to see racist shit? unfollow the racists. stop supporting racist content creators and seek out people who actively oppose racism. "but they're my fwiends" "but my favowite awtist" not even valid arguments at all. if you don't want to see it youre responsible for not seeking it out AND for not supporting those who create it

dont like that person? block them. tired of hearing about that show? blacklist it. get a hurtful message? delete it. close your inbox. turn off anon. there are SO many ways to filter out the bullshit that could potentially come your way. use them.

and staying in your goddamn lane isn't a CHORE but some of you need Everything to be All About You At All Times so you go into "discourse" tags and blogs and argue with strangers and stress yourself out to Prove Youre Superior when you could LITERALLY just...not do that. its literally inaction its the LACK of doing anything it is not HARD I swear to god what is so difficult about this. just shut the fuck up. if you disagree with them and you have nothing valuable to add to the discussion other than "I disagree with them and theyre wrong" just shut. the fuck. up.

if youre so angry over something that you want to send someone a pissy little anon about it STOP, know that you are not the first one to have the idea and their inbox is already flooded, and SHUT THE FUCK UP. youre not owning anyone. do something else. open up youtube or somethin for fucks sake just stop. and then your own feelings wont get hurt when people eventually come after you for being a shithead and wanting to argue

if the entire fucking appsite itself is somehow upsetting you im sorry but youre using it wrong. and that's okay! this shithole isnt for everyone. but dont blame others for your inability to filter what you consume, because even on this absolute abomination of spaghetti coded nonsense, all the tools are literally right there for you. nobody is sitting in your house forcing you to look at any specific posts or see any specific opinions or read any specific messages. block the post. block the user. delete the goddamn message.

the terms and conditions and age restrictions exist for a fucking reason if you cant navigate this dying appsite like an adult then dont make a goddamn account

I dont care if this is condescensing as fuck I love seeing really long essay posts about how toxic and terrible this website is like "you HAVE to disconnect you HAVE to find other communities this place will DESTROY you it's SO TOXIC and people will DISAGREE WITH YOU" like no you people just dont know how to do anything in moderation, stay in your own lanes, or walk away from an argument lmao

[mikeshanlon]

iwwv anon and PHEW OK. I def did not expect that essay and now I feel bad cause I KNOW my thots r not gonna be articulate or right. nonetheless! i think Oliver does qualify as an unreliable narrator cause hes. very oblivious but not like... Richard papen (who is a whole ass clown don't get me started on tsh) but not like addy from dare me(I will support till the day I die that dare me is da like I WILL die on this hill) who sees what she wants to see. 1/?

i think he just... thinks that his friends r diff ppl than they actually r? that doesnt rly make sense but yea. what I mean is that everything the characters do is coated in that empathetic view Oliver has which is usually wrong? so we don't get an objective look into the characters. meredith is my girl like I love the hot popular girl trope deconstruction but at the end of the book she's not at a great place like she's w someone that doesn't love her like she needs to be loved... 2/

I guess the most probable ending is that James never meets Oliver again and that everyone is kinda stuck on what happened but that's soo sad and I really don't want to think abt it. ngl iwwv wasn't like my fave book ever and I really don't understand why people are so obsessed with dark academia sometimes but what i rly liked abt the book is that despite how fucked up everyone is and how toxic they r to each other they do at heart care abt one another...3/

like I rly liked that esp cause at that point the only other da book (other than dare me!) that I had read was tsh and godd every character is so fuckinh annoying and they all hate each other. i was super confused by it till I saw someone saying that it's satire and I felt my mind explode. I feel like this is so long but I didnt rly properly answer all you wrote sorry! I think its a pretty good book tho it has some crazy quotes like hold awn Im gonna look at the highlighted stuff on my copy.. 4/

Were you in love with him?” “Yes,” [...]Yes, I was.” It’s not the whole truth. The whole truth is, I’m in love with him still. LIKEEE PHEWW OK OK OK. WE OUT HERE. that line literally made me go crazy. I'm so sorry for any spelling mistakes or like general mistakes I made here English isn't my first language, it's 1am and I wrote this in the notes app w/o looking it over. so like.. NOT a professional review lemme tell you. 5/5

 Ahh im so sorry I did not see this before I yeeted for a month!!!

Oooh okay first of all dare me as a DA… I’ve only watched the show but like yeah I see the Elements for sure.

Also yeah I can understand what you mean abt Oliver being an unreliable narrator now… Ig my view of unreliable was more like they are purposefully twisting the truth or omitting facts or just literally don’t know shit but I get how personal bias can make the narrator unreliable. I do think the assertion that Oliver thinks his friends are different than they actually are makes sense. He sees James in a very positive light and though I like James a lot and think he is better than, like, Richard, he definitely has darker moments and manipulates Oliver at times (again I’d like to think it’s not the most nefarious thing in the world but like him just being shitty bc he’s in a dark place and he one, wants to do anything he can so Oliver doesn’t figure out he fought Richard so Oliver still thinks of him the same way/bc he knows Oliver would do something stupid like get himself arrested for James; and two, is very jealous that Oliver is with Meredith after Richard dies and has sort of a somewhat positive outcome from Richard’s death versus James being riddled with guilt and anger). And yeah, the probable ending is they never meet but I refuse to acknowledge that so LGNRG. Also that line makes me go CRAZZZZZZZZZZY!!! There are so many great lines, both using Shakespeare and on their own and its like okay give me a moment im going bonkers…

Personally, I haven’t read that many dark academia novels yet (bc for some reason i can barely finish a book rn sigh) but the concept interests me. I think what’s compelling is the setting/atmosphere of like ~mysterious college vibes~, and the idea of a sort of niche, obsessive bond and pursuit of knowledge with a tight knit group of friends (and the like inherent homoeroticism in every single DA elrngenrg). Like Dead Poet’s Society (the film I haven’t read the book) isn’t Dark in the same way most other dark academia is by like, obsession and death and manipulation (though of course there are dark elements with Neil’s storyline), but I think the other building blocks of academia are present there in a more wholesome way and you can see why people are drawn to that idea. As for the more Dark aspects I think it’s interesting to analyze things like group psyche, obsession, manipulation, etc, like what went wrong for everything to take such a dark turn???

 But, like everything else, it really has to be done well or else its just like okay….… I’ve tried to read TSH twice and I may try again but from the 100+ ish pages I read I totally get what you mean. IWWV is so interesting to me bc the characters are all very compelling and multifaceted and I like that they are a close friendship, we come in after 4 years of them spending all the time together and to me that is apparent. Like you said, we can see fissures and problems especially as the novel continues but there is care there between them. That also makes the decision to let Richard die much more interesting and sinister imo, as well as how all of them interact with each other after he dies, and how the roles of the group change without their “leader” so to speak. Also, maybe it’s just bc I like Shakespeare, but I think the academia part of IWWV is so much more accessible compared to TSH. Like I don’t know every Shakespeare play or anything so I didn’t understand every nuance or was like immediately like oh this is from Cymbeline or whatever the fuck, but you could understand the gist of things and it made sense that they spoke in Shakespeare lines bc that’s all they’ve been doing for four years and also theatre kids are Like That. Their pretention also provided any Layers to the story, like the parallels between the characters they play and their own arcs, how some of the lines echoed their own thots, foreshadowed, or they were able to say things through Shakespeare (I’m thinking of like, Oliver realized he loved James during Romeo and Juliet, the foreshadowing that James was going to ruin Richard’s life and that he dislikes Meredith/Richard when he quotes Mercutio at the start “A plague o’ both your houses”, the exchange Oliver and James had onstage and had that kiss during King Lear before Oliver was arrested,etc.) (Also I think the structure of some of the dialogue being formatted like a play really helped make it feel more realistic and immersive). Versus TSH which is just so pedantic and dense and hard to follow at times im like I get they are smart but what??? And maybe that’s part of the satire aspect (or maybe im dumb) but like donna I read TGF I know you are pretentious and info dump abt random obscure shit anyways so erglknerg. Like to me there was a Point to all of the academic Shakespeare stuff in IWWV and it was the soul of the book, and M.L. Rio made it very interesting—like the way that the directors reimagined the plays and had Julius Caesar be like a modern political play, the cool mirror shit in King Lear, the Macbeth and Romeo and Juliet performances where they did them at events and interacted with their environments (which were one of my favorite parts of the books bc I just think that concept is so interesting), etc. For TSH the shit they did literally just felt like “okay look at them they’re smart see you can’t even keep up!” like okay… I felt lost a lot and only like snapped into reality whenever Henry (?) was like oh… murder….. and even then I was like idk what this dude is saying but like he’s being darksided LMAO. And I also agree that it’s just like… Richard being thrown in the middle of this group could lend itself to some cool ideas but its hard to believe that he fits into the friendship group and hes just like hell yeah I love Greek so much and lets go kill this guy other than like okay ur gay and stupid and just want to impress Henry or whatever his name was (which he was but I digress). It’s just not as impactful to me as this close friend group falling apart. Ik TSH fans might be angry if they see this (and of course I haven’t finished the book so my perception may be warped but I also kno many ppl felt that way u did) bc I’ve seen ppl say IWWV is just like TSH but “lackluster” or whatever and while I can see some parallels (mostly b/w Richard and Henry and Alexander and Francis), I really think M.L. Rio expanded upon common DA tropes and the interesting parts of TSH but made it her own and interesting and oh yeah there are actually multiple compelling female characters and LGBT characters (and no incest)!!!

[poisener]

ELLE    &     GWEN  :  TWO FRIENDS TORN APART ONLY TO BE BUILT BACK UP AGAIN  :  a mini essay on friendship    &    more . 

       this is gonna be a semi - long ass post    &     hopefully one that is articulate    &    not some garbled mess but here we go .   i have a theory /  inkling about elle & gwen and it’s that they were ACTUAL FRIENDS at one point but had a vague falling out , i.e.  exhibited in the way that gwen’s circle of friends   ( god i don’t really know the girls names except erica & madison so forgive me but you know which girls that are always over at her house  .  ) treat /  regard elle .          elle is perceived as quiet  (     she herself has said she is sensitive /  doesn’t like change     )  ,         i personally write her as having some form of anxiety (    most likely a sort of social anxiety   )      &      people      (     especially girls who run in packs     )     don’t like things they don’t understand /   other girls they can’t control or ‘ figure out ‘ .        elle is one of those girls .  she’s pretty enough to be perceived as a threat by the girls who have hunky    &     potentially stupid boyfriends that would cheat on them  (   clark, jason , etc  ) .  she’s talented enough to be envied  .   she’s determined    &    strong enough to hold her own against people who would speak ill of her   ( though she always seconds guesses herself     &    probably doesn’t think of a comeback until after a situation  ) .  

GWEN’S GROUP OF FRIENDS  .  

     in episode 2  “ our to.wn “  we see elle getting ready for something,  she’s putting on makeup  ,   picking out what one might consider a nice dress, wearing accessories , case    &     point she’s making an effort.  she’s making an effort to distract herself from the dissolving world around her.  she comes up to the house   &    is turned away by one of gwen’s friends told to “ go”  after elle urges that she just wants some company.  the girl then says  “  why don’t you try one of your friend’s houses ??? “  .     at first glance, this is just an obvious reference that she’s a loner .      she has no friends . she has secluded herself from groups . but i think here , beyond her trying to make an effort in this new world , this might have been her old group of friends.       though she’s never been considered the most popular or running with the likes of harry /  kelly ,    she might have been friends of their friends,  mid level acquaintances / tolerated if you will because one of the people in this friend group genuinely liked her    &     i think that person might have been gwen .  

one thing that i did notice    &    that might be deemed insignificant by others or seem as far fetched is how they decorate their rooms .  gwen is in gymnastics /  possibly cheerleading     &     elle is in ballet  / other forms of dance .  they both hang their gymnastic accessories / cheerleading bows    &    ballet point shoes up on the wall straight in a row , as close as possibly to their bed or on an adjacent wall .  now, you may be saying ?  well , a lot of people display their competitive sports / trophies like that but i say ,   like minds think alike    &    i believe either gwen    &    elle were civil and knew each other from shared classes or shared sports / dance centers OR their parents were friends and thus they decided to decorate their rooms the same .  i think there’s some sort of shared /  history and bond between them .   another possibility is that gwen tried to integrate elle into the friend group    &    no one else really liked her so what did gwen do ? she badmouthed her ,  she possibly talked shit about her to her boyfriend who then told jason    &     luke who then told helena who then called her a thot in the hallway.  and yes,  that does seem like a silly / trivial thing in a show such as this to bring up but i think it was significant enough point to be made be elle    &    helena to bring up the past . words hurt especially when you don’t deserve them    &     they come from someone you respect or someone that doesn’t even honestly know you.  helena probably said it in the heat of the moment, there were probably rumors about elle floating around ,  vicious hurtful rumors or “ locker room talk  “ by clark    &     the other guys .  guys who would be influenced by their girlfriends perception of another female . 

now onto how gwen’s friends treat elle (  EP 2  thru finale )  .       they treat her as someone to be ignored . someone to scoff at . someone to pick on so they won’t get picked on by the god tier high school rich kids .      it’s a those who are bullied bully others mentality .     or those who don’t understand someone /  won’t take the time to get to know someone end up making fun of them mentality .      ex.   at prom when elle’s dancing mostly by herself but in their vicinity , the one girl with the wavy hair sort of rolls her eyes /  gives her friend a “ wth she’s fucking weird” look that normally would hurt elle but the girl in the red dress encourages her to dance / grabs her hand    &     twirls her around , this is also the scene where seconds later she bows in front of campbell    &     then they dance to a slow song later on.   it’s pretty sad to realize she probably got ready in her house alone while gwen ,  helena    &     the other girls all got ready together .  

this brings me to the other major theme in this essay that i think     ELLE    &     GWEN ARE BOTH CLOSETED BI’S OR QUESTIONING    &     SOMETHING HAPPENED BETWEEN THEM.   from like episode 4/5 or whatever on  ,  gwen is seen distancing herself from clark     &     she is seen QUESTIONING OTHERS RELATIONSHIPS    &    HER OWN RELATIONSHIP IN THIS NEW WORLD.  

elle    &    reaching out to gwen /  gwen’s friend group  :  

in the church in ep 1 she can be seen sitting close to kelly    &    gwen .  

ep 2 ,  she goes to gwen’s house only to get turned away . 

ep 3,   she gets excluded from the church all girls meeting .  

ep  3.  in the cafeteria, before campbell gives her the prom dress,  she is seen hesitating when seeing gwen, lexie    &    the other girl on those risers in the cafeteria.  gwens looks over for a split second ( so does lexie i think  )    &    elle ultimately chooses to sit by herself for fear of being turned away once more . 

ep 4 , after elle proposes movie night to kelly   &    elle attends movie night by herself ,   clarke    &    gwen walk her back to campbell’s house .  elle even mirrors her own words in ep 2 saying “thanks for the company guys. “ the company she so wanted in ep 2 but was denied .  gwen also lowkey picks up on the off vibe between elle   &    campbell ,  not only because she probs thinks campbell is a creep but because she knows elle personally . there’s a brief flicker of concern right after c kisses elle   &    starts petting her head . yeah, anyone could be weirded out by this but i think she showed genuine concern that a friend would have seeing another friend in this situation . 

ep 9 after the pie poisoning  ,   helena takes elle in     &     elle ultimately leaves helena’s home because she doesn’t want to put her or their other friends in danger. 

  ELLE    &    GRIZZ TALKING  (EP 2 )  /   GWEN    &    GRIZZ TALKING ( EP 1 thru THE FINALE  )      yes,  i don’t think it’s a coincidence that both girls are seen opening up   /  talking about intimate issues with grizz, the other half of a gay m/m couple who are completely the softest in all of new ham  .  grizz approaches elle unprompted in episode 2  “ our town  “  (  cause he’s a nice guy and he could see she was uncomfy  )  when she’s seen on the fringes of the fugitive game .  grizz tells her that everyone is scared    &     sometimes a silly game makes things better, she says that she doesn’t think it’ll help her much    &     she admits that she thinks GOD IS PUNISHING HER .      when i first rewatched  / heard this i was like “ oh she’s talking about campbell “  but i realized we don’t really seem them  together until later on in that episode where campbell  solidifies his choice with her /  they go to prom in the later episodes .   i think that elle thinks god is punishing her for SOMETHING SHE DID RELATED TO GWEN’S FRIEND GROUP OR FRIENDS  .   

quotes from gwen or instances where it seemed to be coded towards her questioning not only the world around her but her own sexuality /  curiosities . 

“  we might have to marry them one day, i mean ,  who else is there ?”   ---- gwen  in ep 2 after the fmk game where they talk about the boys.  

idk what ep but when she just randomly brings up that seth guy.  idk it reeked of “  lol boys like me . i like boys.  i met one once that i’m totes gonna get with later energy “   when everyone knows that’s a damn lie.  i think she overcompensates a lot when talking about guys  / making inappropriate jokes or playing fmk  , etc. 

when helena    &    gwen are getting ready for prom , gwen tells her that she wasn’t even going to go to prom with clarke. their relationship was already over in her mind    &     she was moving on .  she also asks helena about luke    &     them staying together saying ,  “how can you be so certain?” , ALSO , when she mentions stan/ford    &    says there are so many people  “ hot people. hot surfer people . you don’t think you’d be curious?”  got my bi antennas going WAY UP cause she totally could have said “ hot guys / dudes, etc. “   

she also says “  luke wasn’t just the best you could do for now?”  which is how i think gwen views her relationship with clarke    &    the small town that they are in    &    now the current situation they’re in . 

okay but grizz    &    gwen’s whole interactions in the finale screamed questioning / curious to me because g reading thoreau really fucked up gwen i think espc the whole  “ and not when i came to die, discover that i had not lived . “  i.e.  gwen not discovering / exploring her sexuality / her place in the world. 

gwen cuddling g  /  trying to lowkey put the moves on him    &    then grizz admits he’s gay to her.  

“ are you gay through    &    through or mostly gay?”  yeah, that’s insensitive wording    &    ignorant ,  but to her ,  it’s an honest question cause she’s curious about grizz . i wholly believe this was also a hopeful asking for her in terms of “ wow i guess that could be me too eventually?”  like i think she has so much respect for grizz so to see him out here living the best life he can and accepting who he is and telling her about that like  idk i just read that scene of it really opening up her world views /  the possibilities of life as someone who is questioning things. 

TLDR   ;    ELLE & GWEN USED TO BE GOOD FRIENDS . THEY   ARE BOTH QUESTIONING THEIR SEXUAL IDENTITIES  & PLACE IN THE NEW WORLD . THERE WAS SOME SORT OF FALLING OUT THERE I JUST  KNOW IT. GWEN & HER FRIENDS WEREN’T JUST BEING MEAN GIRLS, THEY WERE BEING MEAN EX FRIENDS  .   

[questioningpositivity]

So I've been thinking this for awhile I think I might actually be a lesbian??? Like it's a fact that I love girls but my questionable liking for guys is different? Really looking back at guys I've liked I feel like it had something to do with compulsory heterosexuality? Like feeling I had to/should? Plus the guys I do think I like have to be really specific. Also found out that finding a guy attractive doesn't necessarily mean I want to date them, just want to appreciate them from afar and (1/4)

that’s ok? When I’ve pictured my future as a kid seeing myself with a guy felt strange I thought being bi that sure I could like either but that being with a guy would be almost settling. Like it would be just ok in comparison to a girl. Like if people are ever like “oh one day your husband…” i get really annoyed. And no guy could ever meet my high expectations of them. But then I don’t want to reinforce the idiotic stereotypes people have about the bi community just being confused and (2/4)

eventually picking a side. Like I don’t wanna be that. Also if I am attracted to some guys to some degree then it must mean I’m bi. And then calling myself a lesbian would mean I’m CHOOSING a sexuality and not just liking people naturally. The whole community is always trying to say sexualities aren’t a choice and I’m going against that. Like what if I could have or end up falling in love with a guy and could be so happy, but I ignore it because I simply “don’t want to”. Labels can be great (¾

but they feel either too confining or too broad AND THEN I’m the bisexual who doesn’t like labels trope and here we are again and wtf. So if I don’t like men after all then MAYBE I’m not a lesbian because I didn’t add that I do like people that don’t conform to the gender binary and go by other identities. But still could like identifying as les. So do I just have a weird thing against men? Guys I’ve been “with” wasn’t that great to me but maybe it’s cuz they’re the wrong people idk (4/4)

Hi there!

First of all, I can’t figure out when this was sent but I’m gonna guess not recently, so I’m really sorry for that. I’m going to reply now bc maybe you’re still out there and following this blog? I have been busy and sorta abandoned this blog, so I’m really sorry about that as well

You aren’t a trope because you’re a real person with a complicated sexuality and hey! same! I used to ID as bi and I don’t atm and that’s totally fine! Neither of us are hurting anyone by questioning our identities or changing what language use!

With that said, in my experience of reading, listening to, and talking to LGBTQIA folks (specifically outside of tumblr!), I’ve found this is a fairly common experience. There’s an argument that was created partially in pursuit of marriage equality that people are “born this way.” Yes, it did help get some of those “movable middle” straight people to be less homophobic. It can also be super resonant and true to any given LGBTQIA person and I don’t want to invalidate their lived experiences.

However, it rests on this idea that being gay (or otherwise lgbtqia) is bad/wrong but must be forgiven because us lgbtqia people Can’t Help It. Instead, I’d rather choose to celebrate my own queerness. For me right now that looks like: 

-using gay to describe my orientation when I am being read as my assigned gender and among acquaintances, because I am not pursuing any romantic or sexual relationships with men

-using queer when I am in my community

-working on learning more about my nonbinary gender and figuring out how I want to transition (socially, medically, etc)

I’m struggling to articulate this well, but the thing that has helped me the most is listening to real, adult lgbtqia people. I know that they’ve discussed this before on the podcasts Food 4 Thot and Queery with Cameron Esposito. Those and other podcasts I’ve found incredibly helpful and fulfilling, especially now when I have very little in-person access to a queer community. Hearing people’s voices and earnest, good-intentioned discussions about LGBTQIA experiences is validating, fulfilling, and challenging in a way that’s really helped me. I would also recommend reading memoirs, poetry, and fiction by LGBTQIA authors! Many of them will likely disclose similar uncertainties and questioning. 

Ultimately, you are a real and complicated person with a rich inner life and background of experiences. No one word is ever going to be able to perfectly encapsulate that or convey it to everyone else. You get to take your experiences and feelings and to try to find language that articulates it for other people. You get to choose which label works for you. And whichever it is, you’re not lying, I promise.

[pagannightwitch]

Tumblr Writers Q&A Thanks for tagging me @javierpinme !🌿🍄🌿

1) How many complete fics/one shots do you have that you have not published (yet)? No complete ones! Just a bunch of lil WIPS.

2) How many WIPS do you have right now? Do you take writing requests or write original ideas, or both? Mmm, two I think? The sequel to "Heart of a Mandalorian" and a possible continuation of my Frankie short series "The Dance". Technically three, I have the beginning scraps of a Marcus Pike one, but doubt that's gonna go anywhere.

I would take requests if anyone wanted to send them in, but mostly it's shower thots or dreams that spark mine.

3) Do you take writing requests or write original ideas, or both? Right now? Only original ideas. Original-ish, most of the stuff I write are my take on particular tropes. :p

4) If you do take requests, how many do you currently have? I ain't got none, hon.

5) How many fandoms do you write for? Just the Pedro Pascal men. <3

6) Are there any fandoms you wrote for in the past that you no longer write for? Nope, I've never attempted writing anything before the Pedro character stuff. :) 7) Do you write for ships, reader inserts or other? Right now, just reader inserts. I don't feel comfortable trying to write anything else. Just easier for me to articulate what I want the characters to feel if it's from "my" perspective.

8) Niche fandoms/characters you write for? No? lol, I don't think I understand this one...What's a niche character??

9) Do you read fics as well as write them? I read so much fic it's fuckin' nuts. I don't know that I read much else at this point in muh lyfe. I dabble in writing.

10) What is your favorite genre to write for? SMUT. Sweet stuff, usually fluffy sweet smut. Though I do have a 4 part fic that has no smut at all in it. A feat for me, but one of my favorite things I've personally done.

11) What is your favorite trope (to read/write)? Ooh, I love this question. Friends to lovers, coworkers to lovers, idiots who don't realize they love each other, one bed, grumpy and sunshine love each other, uuuummmmm. There's more. I love caretakers, sweet folks, and love. I don't like sad endings.

12) What do you do to get motivated to write? Read other peeps fics! Daydream, listen to music, watch movies. I mean, there's lots of stuff to motivate but most often it's something like, screaming at myself silently in my brain, staring in the middle distance. "WRITE, EGGHEAD. WRIIIIIITE."

13) Is there a trope/genre you like to read, but not write? It's not that I don't like to write it, it's that I don't feel comfortable yet attempting it...Smut with more than two people. I love reading it, it can be gorgeous, sweet, sexy, etc, it's just difficult handling two fictional people trying to bump uglies and make it sound nice, more than that and I'm like, HALP. TO MANY GENITAL

14) Any characters/fandoms you want to write for that are never requested?Nope, coz I've never gotten a request. Tho, they're not open atm coz I'm SCARED. What if I do the thing wrong? I DON'T WANT TO DISSAPOINT D:

15) How long have you been writing fanfiction? Uhhhh, couple of months I guess? Do daydreams count? I've been making up elaborate stories in my head, inserting myself into my favorite media since I can remember. But this is the first time I've attempted to share it with the outside world.

16) Did you read fanfiction before you started writing? Oh yes. So much fanfiction. So much.

17) Do you only post on Tumblr, or any other sites as well? Nerp, just Tumblr for now.

18) What do you personally consider the word counts of “Drabble”, “One shots” and “fics”?

Errr, drabbles are short, yeah? Maybe a thousand words or so? One shots is just that right, a one time fic in that little story you're writing. A fic I use as a general term for all of it. Any fan created story I call a fic.

19) Which do you prefer to write more? HC, drabbles, oneshots/fics, multi chapter stories, other? I'm still finding myself. One shots at the moment, but I did enjoy the short series I wrote about Frankie, "The Dance". Since I am so brand spanking new at writing, I prefer to just get my thots out and see where they take me. I'm not super strong with long term story elements or dialogue. It takes me a long time to write anything for how many times I edit and re-write things.

20) Are there any stories you have discontinued? If so, why?I started writing something that didn't have a title that I never posted ANYWHERE. Just as practice with a thot I had about Din Djarin. AU where the reader lives in a universe where Star Wars doesn't exist, who is plunged into the Star Wars universe after wishing herself there during an abusive episode from her husband/boyfriend. Din and Grogu take care of her. She slowly opens up, befriends the boys and falls in love. It didn't feel very strong, but it was great practice. All 40k words live in my drafts on googledocs.

21) What is one of your main “pet-peeves” as a writer on Tumblr? Anon hate and people only liking content and not reblogging. If you don't have anything nice to say, fuck off. Nobody needs that kind of negativity in their life, seriously. If you like something REBLOG IT. Jesus, it's polite ok? It gets the content creator out to a wider audience and it just FEELS NICE TO SEE AS A CONTENT CREATOR. It means that what we made wasn't utter shit, and some other little internet gremlin liked it. It feels good.

22) Do you write at a particular time of day? Anytime the fic gods see fit to bless my brain with thots.

23) Do you listen to music, ambiance/noise, etc. to write or do you need silence? Honestly? I rarely listen to music when I write. I have two kids I homeschool, and we often have something educational on tv, or spongebob or something on when we aren't doing school. I feel most comfortable writing on google docs on my cell phone now, since that's easiest to cart around, and I can whip it out and jot things down wherever I'm at. So amient sound of two small goblins, spongebob, murder shows, WAP, whatever. It's never super set. I write when I get a minute, sounds around me are not even a secondary thought.

24) Do you outline your fics at all before writing? Hell no, buckle up bitches! Not even the writer knows where this shit's going. 🤣😂🤣

25) Do you post your writing as soon as you finish it, or do you schedule it to come out at a specific time/day? It takes me two weeks of writing, two weeks of editing, another week of should I post/should I not post, this is trash, lemme edit it one more time and it'll be right. Ah fuck it. YEET. Have some smut, fellow internet gremlins. THERE IS NO SET TIME. THE TIME COMES WHEN THE FIC IS DONE.

No pressure tagging! @write-and-buried @musings-of-a-rose @rosellacwrites @lowlights @stefiangel2 @chaoticgeminate @daddydindjarin @youvebeenlivingfictional

[exaltings]

I had a dream last night that I was hangin w my ex who isn’t rly my ex bc he wasn’t exactly ever my bf he just leeched off me emotionally u know......anyways I had a dream we were outdoors near his new place and I guess I was moving back to the area and he was like “yeah and we can hang out all the time” and I was like “no.” And I explained all the things I’ve been thinking about the situation and rly articulated all these issues well that I’ve never been able to organize when we talked abt it and now we aren’t speaking at all (my choice) but 1. It felt so good even though it wasn’t real and 2. I want to be able to articulate my thots in person better