#just now he said something thats pushed this from being uncomfortable into actually scary and im trying not to freak out about it

[coolxatu]

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i think i have a stalker

[tastyykpop]

Will you do a dating headcanons for WayV? I love the 127 one!

Yayy I'm so happy you loved that one😌 its honestly one of my favs that I've written on this blog :)

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Kun

Possibly the only normal boyfriend in wayv

He actually treats you like the members because he's just so used to it

But he's nicer and more lenient

Though if you start acting up he just stares at you until youre like 'lmao jk~"

Everyone sees how whipped he is and are always making fun of him as he tries to ignore it

"Kuns a whore for y/n!!!"

"Shut the fUCK UP LUCAS!!"

Kuns always babying you too >:(

Just loves to spoil his baby for no reason

Would actually get the most expensive clothing for you just because you stared at it longer than 5 seconds

Aways says he can get you anything since he has the money and you're like "baby, no save up😀✋"

And hes like "baby, yes heres some clothes😀✋"

Kuns the type to actually bring you onto his insta lives whenever he's bored

So hes like "y/ns here again!"

But the thing is people watch his lives for you😐

Jk jk

Nah most fans are super supportive though

Hes only once called someone out for being rude and until then, no ones messed with you

Kuns lowkey scary

He can be very assertive when he needs to with you but its nothing too serious

You find it hot dont lie

Ten

Hes like a mix of haechan and jaehyun (if yall have read the 127 one)

Hes very touchy but won't hesitate to bully you

In a nice way shh

He wouldn't actually be mean :)

Buttt like if you did something embarrassing, hes gonna bring it up everyday up until you die

"This bitch knocked over a vending machine rip" hed say at you're funeral when yall are like 94

No but he's kind

And so cute around you

Calls you baby all the time

Thats like his thing

Imagine how he calls yangyang baby yangyang, now its baby y/n

Some members find his cuteness disgusting but you're like 😍🥰😘

Teaches you some dances no matter if you're good or bad

He'll also praise you for trying and doing a good job

Also sneaks in some touches because, like I said hes touchy

And clingy cuz why not

Hes always on top of you, kissing you, or just playing with your hair for the fun of it

If a member says something to him about it, he goes "ok and ? you jealous i don't kiss you like I kiss y/n?"

Just give him lots of attention cuz he's like a cat

Catboy ten is vibing

Winwin

Since he doesn't like pda too much, hes not going to do it a lot

He doesn't care if you initiate it though, in fact, he thinks its very cute

Sicheng knows its because you're a bit needy for his touch since he doesn't do it so he won't mind

Once in a blue moon he'll just walk over to you and kiss you suddenly

Then he steps away, blushing cuz he doesn't know what came over him

"Why did you get a kiss from him?? What the fuck!?"

"Because I'm his girlfriend, yuta🧍‍♂️"

"But did you marry him like I did? Didn't think so."

The amount of times his members actually glared at you because yall kissed is immaculate

But its funny cuz you made them jelly

Sichengs easily embarrassed by little acts of kindness or if you give him a small compliment

He laughs it off and puts his head down as he blushes but its cute asf

Bruh pinch his cheeks, like sometimes he's like 'oh fuck off' but most of the time he's like scrunching his face so adorably.

His patience is also pretty low so listen to him

Hes not afraid of showing hes angry or annoyed with you

His face just goes stone cold and you know your fucked up

Like wtf happened to the cutie that let you punch his cheeks

Other than that though hes a big baby boy

Lucas

Oh this goofy ass would be fun to date

Its just a bunch of laughing and giggling

You cannot even sleep in the same bed without wanting to either punch him or laugh

And though yall do laugh a lot, you're actually very madly in love with each other

Lucas is very nice and will not stand for anyone messing with his girlfriend

Hes possessive but not in a toxic way

Its more of him wanting to keep you safe

He'll also makes sure you both are happy all the time and if you guys need a break then you'll take a break for a bit

Moving on to some fun stuff ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

You and him have like daily rap battles

It goes back and forth in different languages and its funny hearing it

Members laugh every time Lucas goes "y/n...rap time!!!"

Another thing is Lucas can't keep his hands off you in anyway

Your hips? Free real estate

Your ass? His hands go there

The back of your neck? Seems like a nice place to grab every so often

Like he has so many places that he holds you by and its completely normal

Hes always saying stuff like "God, im so handsome." Then says "and you're so hot, no wonder why we are dating."

And you kinda just sit there like "yeah sure go off king🧎‍♀️"

There's no way he can go a day without complimenting you once

Its either your face, legs, ass, boobs, arms, hands, hair, this bitch could go off

And of course he expects it back, dont make him sad

"I complimented you twenty times today and I didn't get a compliment back what the fuck y/n😐"

".....you're hair looked really good today, I love the color."

"Oh my God really😳!? Thanks babe🥰, at first I wasn't sure i was gonna li-"

Just compliment him, it'll be ok

Xiaojun

The nicest person ever istg

Hes not normal in any way though but he's just really sweet

Will definitely make fun of you but not as bad as ten

Is such a bitch sometimes in a funny way

Just feels like complaining for no reason and you're like "i'm tryna watch a movie luv...."

Nah but he's amazing

Gets you a bunch of gifts whenever he feels like it

Sings for you if you ask

Jokingly says no sometimes just to see you pout but he'll do it regardless

Get him a gift and hes gonna refuse with the cutest smile while your just forcing it into his hands

Anything you give him is the most precious thing to him even if its stupid

Hes so in love omg

Bruh you guys in public is just adorable because this kid is shy but wants to hold your hand so bad

So hes like hesitating and so are you

Then bitch ass hendery comes in and grabs both of your hands and places it in each other's before he walks away with a smile

So now you're both walking with flushed cheeks but at least yall are holding hands

You can thank hendery for that

Hendery

My guy is a mix of loving, funny, and stupid

Hes so fun to be around though like there's never a dry conversation with him

Unless the room in awkwardly quiet or something

But then again you'd probably start laughing because he's so uncomfortable in silence

Is always lowkey judging you if you do something cute

Even though he asked you to do it

So you just glare at him after

Ask him to act cute and he'll do it without hesitation but its so funny

His eyes scream help but the rest of his face is normal

Omg yall compliment and roast each other on a daily

Its nothing too bad like how otherd would be but its something

You and hendery go shopping almost all the time even though yall don't get anything

You just kinda stare at the things saying "thats cute" then walk away, never batting an eyelash at it again

Some members would even say that henderys the same as he is with them, with you

Just more lovey

And more kisses

Ooo and hes also gentle

Especially if your just going for a kiss, hes always softly holding your hips or cheeks

Holding hands is an absolute must in public too or he fake crys

Actually let him cry cuz its hilarious to the rest of wayv and you

Jk no hold his hand cuz they're warm <3

Hes gonna swing his and your arm back and forth too while skipping because ✨priorities✨

You better skip along

Yangyang

Haechan but make him chinese

No seriously, go back to what I wrote in 127's headcannon and thats basically what's gonna be here

Except yangyangs less bratty

Don't get me wrong hes still a brat but not haechan level of brat

He'll dead ass let you sleep with him just to push you off and laugh at you after

Would go for a kiss then blow in your face

You guys are more of bffs though but not because you kiss and do other shit together

Pranks!!

Omg

Always pranking the members with him

Its the funniest thing if its on kun and no one knows why

Sometimes ten joins and its ten times better

Wait did I accidentally just make a ten joke-

Anyways

Yangyang loves holding you

But at the same time doesn't because too much pda

Don't worry doe you can always just catch him off guard and sneak some kisses to make him blush😗✌

Then let him tackle you afterwards because you did it in front of everyone

[shhhlikeme]

“Losty Aone” / “Losty Mountain Man🏔” Series:

Outtake Collection #10:

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A/N: please reload if you saw this early! HAD TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES WITH THIS ONE. Smh! Some fluff after so much smut, but the next outtake is a MUST read.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

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6 Months Into Dating - Aone Introducing Y/N To His Pet Turtle 💚🐢💚

“Okay, you can open your eyes now.” Ordered your boyfriend kindly.

You quickly opened your eyes, immediately greeted with the most adorable sight in the world: your giant scary-looking mountain man holding a small shelled reptile in his both of his hands.

“Oh. My. God!” You yelled, hopping off Aone’s couch to run to him. Aone lowered his turtle so you could pet him and he watched your eyes fill with unmistakable adoration. You pet the reptile softly with your small index finger, and Aone noticed his turtle lean towards you automatically, just like he does whenever you touch him.

“He likes you.” Aone smirked.

You looked up at your boyfriend. “What’s his name! What’s his name! What’s his name!” You squealed, coming in close so that your nose was close to the turtles nose.

“Perdu.”

A/N: y’all know I speak French so search up what that means AHAHAHA

Also, if you haven’t had your daily dose of cute today google imagine search ‘aone turtle’ and see our baby!

I would have included a pic but not enough artist credit

You started jumping up and down out of excitement. “Ahhhhh! Hi Perdu!!!! I’m your new mama!”

Aone sucked in a breath at you calling yourself his pet turtle’s new mama. He always embarrassingly dreamed of having kids with you one day so it really hit him in the feels.

“He’s perfect. Can I hold him?”

Aone grunted and nodded.

“Can you show me how, Aone? I don’t want to hurt him.”

Aone gave you instructions and then placed the African Aquatic Sideneck Turtle in your hands. Takanobu stood there with his hands to his side like a lovesick idiot, watching you speak baby-talk to one of his best friends and just melting inside. He loved the fact that his love loved his other love. He was beaming.

“Hi Perdu! I am going to be taking care of you because daddy is going on a volleyball trip! But I promise you will have so much fun staying at my house!”

“I’m sure he will love staying with you, Y/N. He doesn’t like Kenji-san very much, bites him every time Futakuchi tries to pet him. You, he likes.”

Your eyes shone with pride as you cradled Perdu.

“Babe, he’s so cute!!!” You switched your expression to angry, glaring up at Aone. “Now Can I know why I’m just finding out about him now and why the hellyou hid him away in the basement when I came over?! 😡”

Embarrassed, Takanobu looked away. “Well.......”

You stared up at the white-haired beauty expectantly. “Welll.... what?”

“Well....... I um, I didn’t want you to think I was weird. For having a pet turtle.”

Your jaw dropped. “What! Excuse me?!”

Aone frowned, looking at the floor. “I apologize Y/N, Kenji even said that if you didn’t like Perdu then you may not be the one for me—but—I didn’t want to risk anything..... I didn’t want to risk you thinking I was odd and then not giving me a chance.”

Your face softened, hearing your boyfriend’s insecure thoughts.

☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

“Aone baby, come here.” You used one arm to cradle Perdu then used your other hand to lead your boyfriend to his living room couch so he could sit down. When he did, you sat in his lap, so that he was behind you, looking down at your son together.

“Aone, you make me so happy. I think of you some days and think that you’re too good to be true.”

Aone’s eyes widened over your shoulder. “Really??”

You nodded earnestly, going back to petting Peru softly on his head. “Can we talk? I think it’s time.” You said and Aone felt his heart drop. He knew what this conversation was going to be: and while he didn’t dread it per se, it was kind of embarrassing— and he just hoped you didn’t scare easily.

“Yes, we may talk, I’ll just put Perdu back in his tank for a bit.” You kissed your boyfriend’s cheek and got up to hand him your son. “Don’t forget to change his water tank, it’s been 2 hours!” You called as he made his way downstairs.

Aone stopped, turning back to look at you with admiration in his eyes. You remembered everything about Perdu already: it made him fall in love with you even more.

“Well done, Y/N. I will. I’ll be back in 10 minutes.”

10 Minutes Later - Aone Embarrassingly Telling You About The Things He Did When He Was Crushing On You :/

When you two were settled back on the couch, Aone sat far away from you as if you had cooties. Knowing that your bf was just uncomfortable with this convo, you did what you always did and crawled over to him, climbing into your favourite spot on his lap so you were sitting on him sideways like:

This position had a way of instantly calming him down as he loved having you so close. You saw him visibly relax. Good. You took a deep breath and turned his chin so that he was looking at you.

“Aone. I’ve always wondered—did I do something when we weren’t together? Like is there something I did that made you feel like you couldn’t just approach me, say hi?”

Aone blushed, then shook his head. “No, not particularly.”

You knew there was more he wanted to say he was just being shy. “Go on.......... I promise not to judge you. I’m here to stay.” You leaned in to kiss your boyfriend’s lips, knowing that he was terrified of you finding him creepy and deciding to leave. You had to reassure him that that couldn’t be further from the truth.

Mountain believed you, and hearing your reassurance gave him the confidence he needed to begin:

“Y/N. I need you to somehow understand that you weren’t just some ‘crush’ to me. Not in the amateur sense like the way Katana is crushing on Futakuchi, or Koganegawa’s crush on Kusa. I mean yes, I was definitely crushing on you, but I realized early on that it was.....different. It was a bit more than that. It is like this: You were—are—my dream girl. Like, if I had never met you and someone asked me to describe my ideal woman, I would have described you......to a T. So, when I saw you for the first time at the pep rally, my mind went: thats her. That’s the perfect girl.”

You melted, listening intently and trying not to interrupt by jumping him. He continued.

“So, you kind of startled me. Because everyone always thinks their ‘dream person’ is just that....a dream.....right? They seem very unattainable. Very intimidating. Not to mention I am not one to approach a woman. And then add the fact that you’re one of the most popular females in our grade, plus you don’t notice me despite the fact that—according to Futakuchi and Koganegawa—I was painfully obvious in my pining—combining all of those factors, it was hard to just one day go up to you and ‘say hi.’” He stared at your thighs, beginning to draw random designs on them. “However, I wanted to. Every time I saw you I wanted to go over and introduce myself and ask you if I could walk you home but.......” he sighed. “I guess I was too cowardly.”

You went: 🥺🥺🥺🥺 grabbing Aone’s face and showering it with kisses, making his heart race.

“Oh, Aone, I wish you approached me baby. You were in pain—“

“Pain? Only at certain points. Actually, for the most part I was rather happy to be crushing on you. You made my everyday better. As soon as I began having feelings for you seeing you in the halls was like being presented with tickets to my favourite sporting event! I looked forward to class because you would be there, meaning I could hear more about you and see you smile. I’ll admit I stared at you quite a lot.....but it was because you were always smiling with your friends and that smile alone brightened my week, too.”

You heart clenched. “That’s so sweet Baby. But then when were those painful moments?”

Aone frowned, recalling the memories. “Uhhh......when you were seeing that baseball player.”

You scoffed. “Ew I was never seeing that fuckboy—“

“—And when you asked the teacher who on earth I was.”

“What?!” You gasped.

Aone peaked up at you, not wanting you to feel bad. “Please, don’t feel bad now, Y/N..... it’s not your fault my presence wasn’t really on your....”

“I did?! When ?!”

Aone sighed and shyly told you the story about how he had slowly packed his books so he could eavesdrop on you/his crush’s academic conversation. He explained how what happened when the teacher suggested him made him lovesick for a while.

“Ohhhh, my poor baby......” mortified, you put your head in your hands and shook your head. “I’m so stupid! I’m so sorry! please..... oh God and you were right behind me?! That is so unbelievably rude of me! What the hell did you see in me!” You we’re MORTIFIED.

Aone placed his hands around your wrists , gently prying your hands away from your beautiful face. He leaned in so that you were looking at him. “Y/N. my intention is to not make you feel bad about any of this. You didn’t know I was there, and you didn’t know who I was. I didn’t even try to get you to notice me, not really. If anything you asking who I was that day probably subconsciously pushed me to defend you against Tsume Lian weeks later. Everything happens for a reason.”

Still mortified, you nodded, looking down.

Aone was desperate to cheer you up because that frown of yours tugged on his heartstrings more than anything else in the world:

“When I was crushing on you, and you were a genie on Halloween, I was the one who donated 106,000 yen on behalf of our volleyball team.”

You snapped your head up, eyes wide and hit your boyfriend on his chest. “YOU DID WHAT!”

He rewarded you with a chuckle. “I’m so embarrassed right now. I’m sorry. I just wanted you and the team......but mostly you.......not to struggle.”

“Aone Takanobu! You mean to tell me that you were a perfect boyfriend to me before you were even my boyfriend?!”

Aone shrugged, kissing your cheek and turning red. He’s glad that his embarrassing admission made that frown leave your face. Worth it. “Futakuchi seemed to think so. And while we are admitting things..... and Koganegawa already exposed your birthday plans...... I also feel inclined to tell you that your Halloween costume last year made me weak.”

You pouted out of sheer adoration for your boyfriend! “What! Really?! The genie thing?! You liked it?”

Aone nodded, feeling himself get a semi just by remembrance. “We had a math test that day and I almost failed for the first time. I couldn’t stop looking at you. I’m sorry please don’t think I am one of those perverted boys. I just couldn’t help it.......”

Feeling aroused by the idea of you arousing your boyfriend in class, you moved to straddle him and gave him a deep kiss. Aone moaned into the kiss and pulled you closer, internally joyous that you weren’t running away after all he’d admitted to you.

You both pulled away at the same time, trying to catch your breath. You leaned your forehead on his.

“Aone, I think it’s adorable that you liked me for so long. I’m kinda kicking myself because if I wasn’t so lost and just noticed you, we would’ve been together way longer now.”

“No! Please don’t feel bad.” He begged, “Time with you since that day with Tsume has been the best part of my entire life. It may come off as pathetic, but.......when you spend time with me—no, when you simply smile at me not anyone else.....it makes up for the years I spent hopelessly pining and dreaming about you.”

You smiked, deciding to tease your boy because a word he’d said spiked your interest. “Dreaming about me....huh?” You raised your eyebrows.

Aone flushed—he really walked into that one—then shook his head firmly. “Yes. But before you ask any more questions: the answer is absolutely not. I am not telling you about my wet dreams about you, Y/—“

You eyes widened. 👀 “WAIT, WET dreams?!?!?! As in the things I did in your dream made you cum in real life?!?!”

Because he hadn’t realized what he said, Aone stopped breathing. He stood up abruptly with you in his arms, leaning down to place you on the couch. Looking anywhere but at you, Takanobu tried to come up with a reason to escape. He looked so fucking cute so-crippling shy you were going to combust!

“I m-must take Perdu out f-for a walk, now.” He said awkwardly, clearly making something up to get himself out of that one.

Your eyes twinkled. “Aone baby, I think it’s cute......”

Aone looked at you in horny disbelief. “.....Hm..... y-y-y-you do?”

You smiled, taking his hand. “Sure. I just want to know what you dreamed about so I can make the real-thing that much better......” you said seductively, leaning in to ghost a kiss over his pants where his dick is. “I’d love to act out one of your dream sequences right now, before I go....” you bit you lip while batting your eyelashes at him.

Aone bit back a moan, immediately growing hard. He wanted to tell you that real-you always felt better, but he couldn’t think straight. “Yes. Yes, If y-you’d li-like....... 😩 I’m powerless to resist you.”

You stood up happily, still holding Aone’s hand, and lead him back to his bedroom. “Look on the bright side babe,” you squeezed his hand. “When Perdu grows up you can have a father son chat with him when you tell him from experience that dreams really do come true.”

While Aone was relieved because the conversation he’d been so scared to have ended up being taken light heartedly and fun, he’d soon come to regret having it at all.

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Taglist: @crushzone @galagcica @chaichai-the-weeb @nairobiisqueen @bisasterrr @juminly

A/N: hold onto your seats folks. Last outtake post next! ....and you’re going to want to read it.

Outtake #11: CLICK HERE

[calypsoff]

Twenty Seven. Part 2

I dipped out of that bitch quick as fuck, I ain’t waiting around, why would I and who am I waiting for. I found out that TJ is having a son and that is all I need to know; shit was weird though. To be in that environment, to be in that situation where people knew me, where I got pointed out and they wanted pictures with me, for what. I am not famous, my girlfriend is but me, no. I don’t do pictures with people, I am not there for me. I think that made me feel uncomfortable, so I wanted to leave, I’m glad I did. I’m just going to go home and and relax now, I did my thing. Tomorrow back to Texas and the Cali, it blows my mind that this is my life now. I am city to city, I am free. Like when I was living in VA, when I was here I felt locked and I had people after me, not saying I don’t have that now still, but I am happier and I feel less the need to hide, I always wanted to hide because I felt trapped within myself, I feel like my personality is coming back. The kid I was, being locked up crushed me, I was fucked up. I think maybe I was depressed, but Robyn has helped me. I can’t thank her enough, she has been my rock even though she is angry with me about going but nothing happened, there was no drama at all. Now I am home, I did try and call Robyn, but her phone was not on, she did say she was in rehearsals. I kind get like Seiko would have had me in the photos with her, like I felt she wanted that. She was edging towards me and stuff, I had to go because it was getting weird quick, it was getting a little too much for me anyways. All is well, I am happy and home because no drama happened today.

Closing the door behind me “is that you Chris!?” My mother asked “yeah” making my way into the living room “oh” my auntie is here, I’m sure she said she never wanted to see my face because of her son being where he is now “you look well” everyone keeps saying this “thanks” I mumbled “I am going to be in my room” I rather be there “sit with your auntie” oh this bitch doesn’t want me to sit, she wants to question me about how I am living life and her son isn’t “I’m cool” I waved her off “how is your girlfriend?” See I knew it “which one?” Laughing as I said that “I don’t see you as a cheater, I mean who cheats on Rihanna. Rihanna cheats on you, that’s how it goes” I shrugged “I don’t have one” I don’t like speaking about Rihanna, it’s not just not something I want to speak on to everyone “Chris, stop it now” taking in a deep breath “she’s good” I answered properly “I would get her pregnant, least you will get paid” who says that “least I can get a girl pregnant, can’t say that about your son. Tell him to google me” walking off, she can fuck off and die. Who the hell says that I expected my mom to tell me off for what I said but no. She knows that she did wrong, that was wrong of her when I didn’t attack her like she did me “going to bed already?” My sister asked at the top of the steps “you think I’m sitting with that, no way” shaking my head “did you go to the gender reveal then?” Nodding my head “it was nothing, went there and it was just nothing, saw a few people then came back here” my sister walked off rolling her eyes “surprised she let you go” how can they be surprised by that, it’s not a big deal.

Is it just me or my followers are going up, yes they are going up “that’s weird” I said to myself, my phone started to ring, the WhatsApp group is calling, answering the call “hey” placing it on speakerphone “I just want to say thank you both so much for coming, I decided to call my child Bhris. Include both of your names” TJ is dumb “man whatever, I came for you and now you owe for whenever I do need you. It’s funny right, I went to thats shit and come back to more followers, how does that even work out” it’s confusing “you getting titty pictures again?” I busted out laughing “man, I need to look in my messages, but I don’t know. I ain’t like that people was saying that I am Rihanna’ boyfriend like I am Chris, now shut up!” It’s so stupid “you were literally the day, fuck my child. People were hyping you up, oh that is Rihanna’ boyfriend. Is Rihanna coming and shit, bro. It was funny to see that anyways. They were shocked anyways, but check. See if you’re getting nudes”  I chuckled swiping up on my screen “yeah well I will check but I don’t know, I think it’s just people probably trying to be nosey to see Robyn” Barry and TJ love going through my messages, it’s because there is so many thirsty bitches in my messages talking shit and sending me nudes and saying they want to be my side bitch, like no I am good with that “ayo, oh shit. You remember that one chick. The big one? The one that sent me pussy pictures and it was scary as fuck, she in my messages again” TJ screamed out “yo, her pussy was big as fuck. I could wear that shit as a crown, is it full of females still!?” nodding my head “yep, they want a light skinned daddy I guess” I am just a regular nigga, these girls are doing the most.

Stifling out a yawn as I tapped on my tagged posts “uh, what the fuck” tapping on the first picture “what is it?” Barry asked “yo, please go in my tagged posts” looking at the page, this is Rihanna fans, why are they zooming in on my sweatpants like that, scrolling down to the caption ‘I see why my queen @badgalriri is with him! An Anaconda’ the caption states and I couldn’t help but laugh, that shit is fucking hilarious “no fucking way! I can see why Rih is with him, yooooo they are zooming in on your dick. But where is the actual picture” backing out of the picture, my tagged posts is full of my bulge, scrolling down and then there we have it. Tapping on the original picture “The Shade room!” TJ and I both said in unison “no fucking way!” Barry cackled “nigga you made it, oh shit, what is it” staring at the picture of me just stood staring, people were taking pictures. Swiping across, oh god not Kristie and I, that was harmless conversation “oh my god” how the hell they made this look bad, I was pointing at Seiko bump as I walked off, I told her good luck but that picture looks something else “Rihanna’ new boyfriend was caught attending his ex-girlfriend baby gender reveal, he was in high sprits talking to the ladies. Chris and his ex-girlfriend are friends, Chris denied any rumour that the baby is his but him attending the gender reveal without his girlfriend by his side seems a little off. Rihanna was last seen in California and looked less amused to be back, trouble in paradise?’ is this a joke “so that is why I am getting these follows, Robyn is going to kill me. It was all harmless” this is pathetic “another one from the party, why is people taking off guard pictures of you. Rihanna’s boyfriend, this is all they keep saying about you. You ain’t even Chris anymore” this is so fucking stupid.

Walking out of Giorgio Baldi, covering my face as the paparazzi took pictures, I have finished more rehearsals and thought I would have my meal with my manager and brothers that are here currently. Getting into the SUV, shuffling over in the seat to make space for my manager to get in. Tour is drawing so close and yet I skip over that one song, I have not rehearsed it being there, I skip it every time, it is too painful to do it. I feel like I am going to cry when I do it, nobody will ever know the pain I went through to finish off that tour in the first place. The pain of losing my baby, nobody will ever know, just the ones I want to know “that was eventful” Jay said, I am glad he spoke. I was about to cry “what was?” I asked “the meal, I like the way you are going and aiming for. I mean I was a little concerned at first, I was thinking where is Robyn’ mind at. She is doing no interviews; the album just gets released but the album is doing great. This tour will push it even more, it’s doing numbers. I can only see you going up, Queen Rihanna” I chuckled “what can I say, I try. But I am excited about this tour. It is my best one yet, the stage, the direction, the outfits. It is just me; you know. I feel comfortable” Jay clapped his hands “finally, we see eye to eye, but I am hype to see it in action for the first night” it will take my mind off a lot this tour.

Home sweet home “my feet hurt, my god” placing my bag on the kitchen counter “publicist” Tina held her phone up to me “really?” I said a little confused “mhm yes” taking the phone from her “hello” answering the phone “I have tried your phone, it’s off but there is something going around, a conversation from a clip that was taken. Chris was there, it’s very distorted and it’s talking about you getting pregnant. I am unsure, but the headline is baby on the way for Rihanna, is that at all true?” I am so confused “Chris said it!?” I spat “no, the other guy. The sound is not good, but he says about the line of Rih pregnant” I am going to blow “right, that is a lie. I am not pregnant” Mel’ eyes widened hearing that “Chris has made a lot of bad press about you being with him, it’s crazy ok. Bye” they disconnected the call “what did I say?” I said to Mel passing Tina’ phone back to her “you knew this would happen” nodding my head “now this is the drama that has happened, my phone is off apparently. I left it here, the battery might has died but this is on Chris, I knew this would happen. He wanted to go there and now look, just drama for nothing” sitting down on the bar stool “you think Chris will be calling you? Or has called you” I sniggered “I know my man, he will. I can bet you money. I know for a fact he is or has called me. Well my phone is off so he can’t contact me, he will assume I am angry” Mel’ phone started to ring “it’s Barry” Mel grinned, she is happy as fuck “hey boo” rolling my eyes, they are sickening already. I don’t like this “I am at home why?” Mel said, I guess I better go and get my phone to check on it. Maybe also charge it “yeah she’s here, we were out. Why are you asking? Has Chris done something wrong” Mel winked at me and then put the phone on speaker “no, he ain’t do anything wrong just wondering if Rihanna is ok” these niggas ain’t shit “but there must be a reason why?” Mel questioned “just Chris was saying Robyn is ignoring him, so just yeah. Nothing to do with us” shaking my head laughing, I just knew this would have happened, but it’s not even that I am ignoring him, just my phone died, and he assumes I know anything about it.

Mel came back into the kitchen as I continued to stuff my face full of fruit “so like I asked him again, I said did anything happen. What is up? Blah blah. He said oh nothing just that his words are being twisted and he is annoyed, what did you say about being pregnant? To your publicist?” Mel asked “oh erm a clip of Chris talking, something to do with a baby. I hope he hasn’t said that I was in any way like that, but the clip is distorted a lot so it’s a lot of assumptions about what was said, anyways I am going to charge my phone. But I told you, I said this would happen. I hate being right” sliding off the bar stool “I don’t think he would, he better not have. Have fun anyways” nodding my head as I took the plate with me, I cut this damn Melon for myself “Rorrey, we will be leaving in a few days so if you need to do anything do it now, you know I want someone here. Rajad, just do nothing” Rorrey snatched some Melon from my plate “asshole” I mean if my brother wasn’t doing this for me then I would have got a house sitter, it’s not good leaving a home like this alone. I mean a home I was forced into because I needed to prove a point to Chris that I do have a home.

As soon as my phone switched on, I am not even joking. No time for my notifications to come through Chris called, like he sensed it but I will pick up now. It’s a little too much to just ignore him because only god knows how long he’s been ringing “hello” answering the call “seriously Robyn!? Why is your phone off, that has really pissed me off” he sounds it “my phone died clearly, nothing bad” placing my phone on speakerphone “but it is bad Robyn, I got worried. I am sorry, damn!” I sniggered “what are you sorry about?” placing my phone on the bed laughing to myself “about the headlines, the shit that is being said about me. None of that happened” eating my Melon as I laid back smirking, I just knew this would happen “tell me more” I mumbled “but uh what is that about pregnant and me?” I pointed, I need to understand that “that shit was never said, TJ was speaking on he wants us to have a baby so we can open a day care, it was a joke. Nothing about you being pregnant. I am sorry, I just didn’t think that would happen. It’s fucked up” maybe now he will listen to me “mhmm right, so say this after me. Ready?” I said, I swear this boyfriend of mine will learn “what?” placing my Melon down “I am sorry Robyn, I will listen to you because you are always right. Say it and then you and I can move on and be free from the chains of an argument” the line went silent; I know for a fact he dislikes being wrong. He is going to be irritated but if he was a silent life he will “I said sorry already?” he said sounding all annoyed “and? When you are ready” I have a all night for him to say it “I am sorry Robyn, I will listen to you because you are always right. Dang, are you done?” I guess I have to forgive him “just know, I know what these blogs are like, so anyways. I hope you had a good time at a gender reveal” I know he regrets the mess “first I am Rihanna’s boyfriend and now this, damn” he is miserable, I am glad he is “I mean what else are you? Next time you will listen to me Chris” rolling my eyes.

[eeunoia]

An Idol’s Girl | l.ty

Okay, first of all, thank you to those who liked the part one. Here’s the part two hehe! Enjoy!!!

Summary: Y/N’s and Taeyong’s relationship is on a rocky road.

Part 2

Y/N

Saturdays should be relaxing for me. It used to be my favorite day of the week since that is the day that we won't have training. But today wasn't just happy for me.Things between me and Taeyong are slowly breaking. It wasn't really great specially that one of his members told me that he maybe cheating behind my back

It was already late at night but my annoying ass craved for food so I have to get out of the dorm and buy some snacks. Since I don't have anything else to do, I gave in from my cravings and decided to go.

After successfully buying all the snacks that will satisfy my cravings, I started walking back to our dorm. I was about to turn at the corner to our street when something caught my attention. It was a familiar built of a person. I tilted my head trying to shaken up my thoughts. That won't be true! He can't be outside at this hour since he have schedule tomorrow.

"That can't be Taeyong. I heard from their manager that they have a schedule tomorrow morning." I muttered convincing myself and was already ready to push forward when I heard the person talk.

He's actually not alone. I can see another figure with him and I can pinpoint that its a girl because of its long hair and mini-skirt. They were at the other corner. That street were usually quiet but it wasn't a scary one. It's just, people living around that area usually sleeps earlier than other people.

"Yah! You're so unfair, baby." He sounded so like Taeyong.

I'm slightly far away from them. A safe distance enough for me to see and heard both of them without getting myself caught. I crouched myself hiding behind some post and stared at the two figures.

I grabbed my phone then dialed Taeyong's number. I took a sneak over the guy and saw how he pulled his phone from the pocket of his jacket.

Wtf? So it is Taeyong? But I was even more shock when he answered my call!

"What?"

Wow! And he even sounded pissed at me for calling! Shouldn't I be the one to be pissed? I sighed heavily and quickly composed myself. I need to act normal or he'll think weirdly at me.

"W-where are you?"

"I'm at the dorm. I need to sleep now since I'll be early tomorrow."

Great. What a great liar. I gulped trying to lose the lump slowly building up inside my throat. I even tried hard to stop tears running down from my eyes. Why am I crying? I already expected this! Why does it still hurt as hell?

I turn my heels at the direction of our dorm but I stopped my tracks. I decided do one thing I think I should have done before.

I marched myself towards the two of them and now it was clear to me. I saw him holding one of the hands of the girl in front of him. She was familiar since she's a new trainee in our company. Probably why she's together with Taeyong now.

I pushed the girl hard that shook both of them. They looked towards my direction and I saw how Taeyong's reaction changed. He looked stunned seeing me right in front of him and the girl looked annoyed that I pushed her.

"How dare you cheat over me when all I do is to be loyal to you? How can you do this to me Taeyong? What did I ever do to you? What did I do to deserve this?" It was too late to stop the tears. It was way too painful to prevent them so I let them all out. I let my emotions take over me. 

The girl looked like as if it was her first time to be betrayed.

"Is that true?" she sounded hurt as well but I'm sure that's nothing compare to what I'm feeling right now. Taeyong just looked at her not saying even a single word.

I didn't flinched when the girl slapped Taeyong.

"I hate you! Cheater!" she didn't waste a time to leave.

Soon Taeyong's glaring eyes were on me. How can he be mad at me when he's the one caught cheating? He's really unbelievable.

"Happy now?" he asked, voice full of sarcasm. I shook my head.

"Not yet." his brows furrowed at what I said and there I slapped his face without a warning.I heard his soft grunt from pain but I don't mind. I think he deserves it.

"This will be the last time I'll let you hurt me. Let's break up, Taeyong." 

And after that, I left. My heart was broken but at least I think I saved myself from a toxic relationship.

After 2 weeks

"Hi Y/n!" I saw one of the staffs greeted me so I waved at her.

I'm so excited for us to debut. We really prepared for it and the management said that we'll shoot our music video next week. That made us really really excited and everything felt real now.

"Hey, Y/n! What time will you go home?" I turned my head at her then chugged to my water bottle before answering.We have finished practicing our choreo and dismissed early since they said we did great for today.

"Maybe later. You can go ahead first, unnie." I said to Jiguem unnie. She nodded her head and heads out.

I've been dreaming for our debut so I really want everything to be perfect. I decided to stay for a little more so I can practice. Being a trainee for only a short period of time surely burdens me since other people may think I don’t deserve to debut right away if I don’t achieve their standards. 

After tiring myself down, I started fixing my things so I can leave already. I was finishing tidying up when I heard the practice room's door opened.

I looked over and didn't expect to see all the members of NCT 127 were here except from Taeyong. Why are they here?

"Y/n..." Yuta oppa called me. I smiled at them.

They walked inside and Haechan quickly walked his way to me. I pursed my lips and smiled again when he soon hugged me. Aww this clingy baby. I hugged him back as he snuggled closer.

"What are you doing here oppa?" I asked curious why they're here.They have their schedules thats why I was wondering what they're doing right here.

"It's because we missed you, Y/n. Why aren't you visiting us in our practice room? In our showcases? Our shows? Our dorm?" Doyoung oppa fired questions at me and I was slightly taken a back. They still don't know?

"Doyoung hyung's right noona! We miss you cooking for us!" Haechan complained still giving me a hug.

I tried smiling at them. Alright, I think Taeyong's having a hard time admitting to his members that we broke up since I was close to them. He doesn't want to upset them I guess. I should just wait for him to tell himself. For now, I'll pretend.

"Mianhe~ I was just busy these past few weeks so I c-couldn't visit." I said almost choking up with my own voice. If theres anything I hate the most, it would be lying.

They sighed and I felt Jaehyun's stare at me. I'm close to him since he's the same age as me. He was the first one to know about how I feel about Taeyong. He also updates me about him before and we somehow grew bond from it.

"You lose a lot of weight, Y/n. I don't like it. Are they pressuring you for your debut?" Jaehyun asked softly. He's just beside me so he was staring at me. I felt a little uncomfortable so I just gave him a chuckle.

"Jaehyun's right, Y/n. You don't have to lose so much weight. You already look amazing for us." Johnny oppa.

Ah jinjja, this boys are sent from heaven. Ever since that I became close to them, they cared for me like their very own sister.

"You should eat more, noona. You'll be tired because of the debut. You should take care of your health even more." Mark then followed up with his worried looking face.I pouted almost tearing up. I'm so thankful for all of them.

"Make sure to eat at the right time, Y/n-ah." Taeil oppa

."They're right, noona!" Jungwoo. 

Oh this cutie!I chuckled, "Yeah I'll make sure to eat." I said trying to make them feel assured.

"You should." Jaehyun said again.

We all looked at the door again when we saw their manager. "There you are, we need to go." He said then gave me a smile.

They all nodded their head and told him they'll follow. He then left and the boys soon gave me hugs before leaving.

"We know theres something wrong with you and Taeyong because he's not himself lately as well." Johnny oppa said when it was just him and Jaehyun that are left. I laughed bitterly.

"You should go, oppa." I said convincing both of them. They nodded then Johnny oppa headed towards the door.

"What?" I asked Jaehyun when I caught him staring.

"You better take care of yourself, Y/n." he warned me. I chuckled then just gave him a nod before tilting my head to motion him to leave.

He rolled his eyes before messing my hair before finally leaving me alone.Wtf? Taeyong's not himself lately? Why? Is it because we broke up?

Ey~ Y/n, pabo-yah! Of course not! Its surely not because of me. Maybe because of the other girl? Hmmm, right. That's probably it.

Why is he still bothering me after the break up? Aish.I sighed heavily and just tried to shrug the thought off. I should get him out of my system.While I was heading towards the building's halls, somebody called my name.

"Y/n." My head snapped towards him when I heard his voice. I hated myself for reacting so fast.And my heart! Why is it beating so damn fast for a cheater like him?

Despite of the hatred, I kind of feel worried when I saw how stressed he looked like right now. I wanted to scream and nag at him to take good care of himself. But who am I? I should stay away from him and just mind my own business.But my heart slightly ache at how lifeless he looks like. It reminds of me weeks ago. That was how I look like during my miserable state.

"Why didn't you told your members that we already broke up?" I asked him straight-forward when I remembered about it.It still hurt me honestly but I should just get used to with the pain. Maybe that'll make me stronger.

"I d-don't know how to say it." He said in a low voice. I saw how he licked his lips then ran his hand over his hair.

Alright. I admit it.I still have this small hope that he'll tell me he still wants me. That he couldn't tell his members because he's regretting what he've done to me. That he wanted to fix us.

"Ahh." that was all that came out from my mouth. I was disappointed and I didn't even bother to hide it from him. So what if he saw that he still affects me? That he still hurt me? That's the truth!The moment I turned away from him, my tears fell like crazy. All the tears that I'm preventing to fall poured out the moment I turned my heels.I thought the moment I stayed away from him it will lessen the pain. I thought my feelings will slowly subdue because of the awful things he made me feel.

But I was wrong. It only made me miss him.

1 week later

It's been a week since the day I met Taeyong. I tried even hard to avoid him. I even avoid his members so it will be a little chance of meeting him. I felt bad since I'm also close to them already but it did help a little.

"Y/n!" I looked at one of my members when she called out my name. We're at the practice room.

"Hmm?" I asked.

"NCT's manager is looking for you." I felt nervous at what I heard.I went out without wasting a time and I did see Manager oppa outside. He looked serious but still he managed to give me a small smile.

"Oppa." I said as I greeting.

"Can we talk, Y/n?" he asked using a low yet calm voice.I was hesitating but nodded my head afterwards. We both went to the cafe just inside the company and settled ourselves in. He even ordered a drink for me so I thanked him.

"Okay, I want to be straight-forward." Manager oppa. I looked at him still feeling nervous

."I think you and Taeyong needs a break from each other, Y/n. The President and I noticed that he's not doing well lately and we're worried its because you're affecting him."

I wasn't expecting what he's saying right now. My tears unconsciously fell without me even realizing it. I saw him getting aware of it and looking worried for me.

"You've got to be kidding me, Manager oppa." I said sounding a little amused.

"No. I mean---" I cut what he's saying."We're already over, oppa. It's been almost a month since we broken up." I said coldly.

Taeyong still didn't told them about us? What is he thinking?

"W-What? Why didn't he told us? Why didn't y-you told us? Is that the reason why he's not okay right now?"

"I don't know oppa. But the last time we talked he told me that he doesn't know how to say it. I'm pretty sure he's perfectly fine when we broke up." I said then wiped off my tears. I stood up and bowed once again before walking off but stopped mid-way.

I sighed then look back."Please take good care of him, oppa."

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3rd Person's

Their manager still can't process what he figured out. Taeyong and Y/n have broken up and he's keeping it from them. He knew something was already wrong but he didn't knew that they broke up.

He sure find it odd that Y/n don't come and visit him oftenly like before. He thought she was just busy because of her upcoming debut.He sighed heavily and went back to where the NCT are.

"Taeyong..." All the boys were exhausted because of the hardcore dance choreo but they still manage to look over him.

"We need to talk." He said seriously and the members can't help but to look over their leader wondering what's going on.

Taeyong gave him a lazy nod before following him."I talked to Y/n." he started and just enough to caught his full attention.They boy were full of sweat and now looking nervous as he saw him bite his lip and ran his hand over his now covered with sweat hair.

"W-what did you say to her?"I told her to break up with you." Taeyong gulped at what he heard.He felt like as if all of his strength just flew away from his already weak body. He can't believe how he copes up even though he don't sleep that well. He's not getting any sleep this past weeks. Every since she left him, it wasn't the same anymore. Everything's a mess.

"And what did she told you?"

"She told me the truth, Taeyong. Why didn't you tell me? Why are you keeping it to yourself?" He was actually sad to found out the two ended up like this. He always thought they look perfect for each other.

He saw how they both loved each other. He didn't know they'll end up breaking up. He even supported them.

"I was just waiting for the right time to tell you." Taeyong said coldly. He doesn't want to talk about it anymore. It'll just worsen his feeling. It will just give him more sleepless nights.

"Right time? Taeyong, theres obviously something wrong with you! You look miserable! Y/n's doing fine! Why are you like this?"

Taeyong looked away.

"I regret hurting her, hyung. I was a jerk for cheating over her. I was an asshole because I took her for granted. I don't know what else to do. I just... want her back." he said using a low voice before walking away.

Their manager almost didn't recognize the Taeyong he talked to. It wasn't him at all. The Taeyong he knew is always determined over things and very lively.

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Y/N

I entered their dorm and I found them all gathered up in their living room. All of them looked so worried.

"Where is he?" I asked them. But even before they can give me an answer, I heard a loud crash from his room.I looked at his room. I walked towards it and I felt some of the members followed behind me.

"Taeyong! Open the door!" I shouted then knocked at his door.I got no response from him and my heart can't help but to thump even louder. I'm worried for him! I was just having a peaceful night at our dorm and they just called me out of nowhere because he locked himself inside and didn't come out all day.

"Do you guys have a spare key of his room?" I asked them. They all nodded.

"Why didn't you open it and just talk to him?"

"He won't listen to us, Y/n. W-We don't know what to do anymore." Taeil oppa said completely worried. I sighed then told them to get the key and hand it to me.

I opened his room's door and broken things were all over. Beers in cans are scattered over the concrete floor of his room. Even the broken bottle of some liquors.

I found Taeyong sitting on the side of his bed with his hands clenching his hair.I felt like my heart was broken once again at the sight of him. He don't look like Taeyong at all. What happened to him?I slowly went closer to him as I saw the members silently shutting the door to give us privacy. I crouched in front of him so we can be at the same level.

"Y/n?"  

He sounded so shock to see him in front of him. I tried my best to smile at him.

"Yes, its me." I said then slowly held his hands and take it off his hair.He did but I was shock when he embraced me tightly.

"I'm a jerk for hurting you, Y/n. I was a fool to think you cheated on me over Jaehyun! I confronted him when I couldn't take it anymore and he told me that you guys were just friends and it was just a misunderstanding." Taeyong said sobbing.

I was heartbroken at what I heard from him. He cheated on me because he thought I cheated on him with Jaehyun? That's why he became cold suddenly!

"Taeyong, you need to lay down at your bed." I said when I felt that he's slightly burning up. He have a fever.

"P-Please take me back. I was wrong. I'm sorry, Y/n. Please, I love you. I can't take it anymore. I'm in so much pain. Please save me." he said continuously that made me cry too.

"Shh, enough. Can you stand up?" I asked him softly.He didn't answer but I supported him and luckily he cooperated. I managed to make him sit over his bed.

I wiped away his tears and sweats as well. He's still staring at me and I really need to change his clothes because it's soaked. I don't want to get sick even more.I stood up to go and get some clothes but he took a grip at my wrist.

"Please don't leave me." I was taken a back at what he said. He sounded so scared.I smiled then dropped a kiss over his hot forehead, "I'll just get some clothes so you can change." I said.

He was hesitating to let go I but I managed to convince him. I made it quick. I just grabbed a t-shirt and a face towel. I damp it with warm water so I can clean him before I change his clothes.

When I went back over his bed, his eyes were following me.

"Clothes off." I said. He was a little weak so I assist him.I changed him into new clothes and even clean him. I made him lay down and he did obey. He probably feel really bad right now since he doesn't complain.

"You have to eat so you can take medicine." I said and was about to walk towards the door to tell the members but he grabbed my hands once again.He still looked weak but you can tell he doesn't want to let go of his grip of me.

"Where are you going? Please don't leave me." I felt bad hearing him beg. I smiled at him warmly.

"I'll just tell the members to cook for you. I'll be back, okay?" I said softly at him.I saw fear over his eyes.

"B-Be back." I smiled then nodded.

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T A E Y O N G

I was woken up by the beam of sun-lights that is touching my face. I quickly sat up at the fear that what happened yesterday was all a dream.

A towel fell from my forehead and I feel a lot better now. I think I have gain enough strength again.I'm not dreaming? She's really here? Y/n's here? She came back? I stood up even though I still feel a little bit dizy.

I roamed my eyes around my room and felt nervous when I saw that my room was clean. Theres also no sign of her.I went outside of my room and I saw them at our living room. They all looked over at me.

"Where's Y/n? Did she really came here last night? I w-wasn't dreaming right?"

"Chill hyung! Y/n noona's at the kitchen cooking for us." Mark answered with a smile over his lips.

I think I sighed heavily at what I heard. I walked towards the kitchen to check for her.My heart raced at the sight of her back. She's really here. I wasn't dreaming! I was just starring at her and since she's busy cooking she didn't noticed.I enjoyed looking at her. I missed her. I so fucking missed everything about her.

She turned around and her eyes grew big when she saw me standing at the entrance of the kitchen.

"Taeyong! Why did you left your bed? Are you feeling okay now?" she said sounded so worried and rushed herself towards me.She placed the back of her hand at my forehead to check if I still have a fever but I pulled her into a hug. I buried my face in her neck and I felt her stiffened.

"I'm sorry baby. Please take me back."I started and I felt her stood still because of what I said.

"I saw Jaehyun and you went out one time and me being the jealous boyfriend jumped into conclusions that you cheated behind my back."

"Why would you think I will cheat on you? Don't you trust me? And besides, Jaehyun's your friend! He won't do that to you!" she said.I pouted and inhaled her scent. I loved her scent and I missed it so much. I almost buy the perfume she's using so I can spray it all over my room to ease the longing feeling I've felt for her.

"I've always thought you liked him first before me. You two clicked the first time we met each other." I admit for the first time.

"That's because I'm nervous around you! I felt completely okay when I'm around your members but when it's you, I'm very conscious of myself. It's you who I liked first, Taeyong." she said. I pulled of the hug and looked at her with a pouty face.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me for what I've done." I said and I saw how she stares at me.

"I really love you, Y/n. I was stupid to do that to you. Please, forgive me and give me another chance to prove my love for you."

I was very nervous actually that she'll never forgive me. After what I've done, I understand her.We were both silent and I'm slowly losing my hope when she suddenly held my hand.

"I love you too, Taeyong and yes. I'll forgive you. Let's start again." she said.

I leaned over and kissed her over her cheeks. I stopped myself from kissing her over her lips because I'm afraid I'll get her sick too.

"You have no idea how happy you made me." I said then hugged her once again."I love you so much, Y/n."

The End

Hi! Thank you for reading!!! 

[that-gt-and-vore-stuffs]

What about Davey messing with spot?

I like your style, Anon. Let’s see what I can do with this >:)

As always, Vore under the cut

Going full momma bear for his boys wasn’t something new to Davey. The last time it had gotten this bad though the Delanceys had avoided him out flat for a whole month. Even now he could scare them off with just a toothy grin or “absentmindedly” tracing a path down his throat. Seeing them pale and back away never failed to bring a smile to his face. He earned quite a bit of respect for that too. Not many Newsies could do that. Only two that he could think of in all honesty: himself and Spot Conlon.

He and Spot weren’t on bad terms at all. At least, that’s how it seemed. They talked on occasion, could get along better then Spot and Jack, and both had the brains to keep their respective gangs in line. Not too long ago though he had an exchange with the leader of Brooklyn he never expected. One that stuck with him.

————

“So how’d you do it?”

“Huh?”

“Scare Th’ Delanceys that damn bad. How?”

Davey looked at the leader of Brooklyn with an expression that seemed a mix of conflicted and embarrassed. Oh boy. A nervous laugh sounded in his throat as he pulled at his tie with a finger like he was suffocating because of it. “Oh it wasn’t anything all that special.”

“To scare the Delanceys that bad? Bullshit. It takes a lot t’be able t’make those two pale like ghosts. So how’d ya do it?”

Oh boy. Spot seemed serious. That wasn’t good for him. He knew the shorter boy wouldn’t stop until he got an answer and he wanted to walk out of this without a bruise or a broken limb. Wasn’t this perfect? “Y-you wouldn’t believe me if I told you.”

“Really now?”

“Yeah. It sounds cra-“

“Then show me.”

Davey pales a bit. Oh. Oh no. That was a bad idea. “I-I don’t think I should-“

“They wasn’t physically hurt at all. I can take it. So show me.”

His throat bobs as Davey gulps. Spot really....this wasn’t going to end good for him. No sir. “I can’t.”

“Why not?”

“I can’t do it here at least. I-It takes preparation and such. About a d-day or so.”

“I didn’t peg you as one for such elaborate plans, Dave. Though, I suppose I should ‘ave. You ain’t like Jack-Be-Nimble Jack-Be-Quick after all.”

Davey laughs, the nervous undertones sticking out like a sore thumb. “No, I’m not.”

“Well then, think you’ll be able t’show me tomorrow? Seein’ as ya ain’t got that school shit or whatever over th’ weekend.”

Oh perfect. He isn’t going to drop it. Just his luck. “I.....I suppose so. But, I should warn you now, anything that I say or do is solely acting. So please don’t take anything personally.”

“Why? Insultin’ part of it?”

“Yeah. And some other things I wouldn’t do to anyone if they didn’t deserve it. But....you’re asking and I’m not going to deny you.”

“Good choice, Dave.”

“Heh. So I’ve heard.”

One spit shake later and Davey was practically put on the execution list. The clock was ticking....

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His time was up. Shit. Shitshitshit. This seemed like an even worse idea now that he was here, looming over a unconscious and tied up Spot Conlon in the dark of the night, in the abandoned warehouse, with an empty stomach and a death wish for doing this. One he was certain was going to be fufiled thanks to this.

The first sign of movement and consciousness he slipps into character. “Well....looks like someone’s finally awake. Took you long enough.”

The last thing Spot expected was to wake up shrunken and tied with seeming expertise. Or for Davey to be over him in such a manner. “What Th’ hell is you talkin’ about David?! What’d you do to me?!”

“Oh don’t act suprised. You asked for this. I thought it was obvious what you were getting into when you decided to do what you did.” The sickeningly sweet tone and smile fit almost too well on his face. Like he was designed for this.

For a minute Spot is ready to try and fight the taller boy, despite his size. Then it all comes flodding back. Right. He did ask to see this. Davey was acting. Damn, kid could act. He seemed like a completely different person. Guess it seemed fair he only threw his hat in the ring with this acting show. To fully understand what this was about. How bad could it get after all? He made sure to flash Davey a look of understanding before starting to fight his bindings. “What th’ hell do you mean?! I didn’t ask for shit!”

That look....Spot remembered. Thank god. Davey doesn’t dare drop his act though. That same psychotic laugh from that night weeks ago rings through the room. “Oh sure you didn’t. Then why do I remember what you did so vividly? I am simply....teaching you a lesson.”

Holy shit. Now Spot was staring to see why the Delanceys were so scared. Davey seemed straight insane! He was more then grateful for it only being acting. “I ain’t in need of no lesson, nutjob! Let me the fuck go!”

A hand slammed down next to him, making him jump. He really was small...

“Oh I don’t think I will. Not for a while....” As he talks, keeping his tone sweet and speed slow, he brings his other hand up behind the leader of Brooklyn. When all seemed calm he quickly took hold of the boy and hoisted him into the air. “My my, and I thought you were short before.”

“Thats low.” Spot can’t help the little out of character comment that escapes him with a smirk before he drops it and starts to squirm in the seemingly giant boy’s grasp. “What‘s that supposed t’mean?! You’s is gonna let me go, that clear?!”

“Oh I don’t think you want me to do that now, Spot. Not when a drop this far could break one of your legs. Or snap your spine. But enough talk. I’ll get to my point.” Here’s where his improv skills were going to get put to the test. He wasn’t excited about it. “I have a offer for you. A deal if you will. You agree to leave me and my boys alone and I’ll spare you. Disagree.....well I am very creative when it comes to fun executions.”

Spot feels his blood chill. Davey was acting, but damn did this feel real. “Prove it.”

“Oh? Much feistier then those brothers, I see. Well....I could snap each of your limbs one by one and leave you to die. I could crush you under a hand or foot. I could strangle you like a snake with my hand. Need I go on?”

Oh. Those.....he could actually do those. That. That made him uncomfortable. More aware of his size. “N-no. You don’t haf’ta. So I just have t’leave Manhattan alone?”

“Yes. That’s all I ask.” Davey shoots the boy a borderline insane toothy grin. “Do we have a deal?”

Silence. You could hear a pin drop.

Tension. You could cut it with a knife.

“Deal.”

“Goodie! Now do stay still. This will only take a moment.” Davey doesnt wait for a response before he snaps off the bindings with his teeth. He sets Spot on the ground. Just like with the Delanceys when the boy tries to back up he slams a hand down.

“Now where are you going?”

This wasn’t done? Oh boy. Just what did Davey do to the Delanceys? “Leavin’. I agreed t’ya deal.”

“Oh...why are all who I shrink so naïve?” Davey doesn’t wait to snatch the tiny back up. “I’m not done yet. I just like to see my captives have hope, only for it to be crushed.”

“W-What th’ hell is that supposed t’mean?! What else could ya want wit’ me?!”

Davey doesn’t have to say a word, his stomach growling seemingly on cue. “Well...you see, setting this whole thing up and caring for a bunch of Newsies is enough to make you forget the simple things. I’m just...so hungry and you look, dare I say, absolutely delicious~”

Spot freezes. Oh. So that’s what Davey did. What he ment when he said he wouldn’t believe him. And he was too far to turn back. Oh no. “I....I’m not some meal for you, ya psychopath!!”

“Oh don’t look so down. It’s not like it’ll hurt you. I just need something to fill my poor stomach for a while until I can get something to eat.”

“How Th’ hell is EATIN’ ME ALIVE not gonna hurt me?!”

“Well the Delanceys are still walking around, aren’t they? What I used to shrink you...see, it makes you immune to things like stomach acids. Convenient, isn’t it?”

Another insane laugh rings out in the warehouse as Spot processes this. “Oh Spot. I tried to warn you. Tried to tell you not to poke the bear. Now you can deal with the consequences. So do me a favor and don’t fight until you get to the bottom like a good meal, alright?”

Spot isn’t allowed to get a thought out before he’s dangling over Davey’s maw. A yelp of alarm sounds from the throat of the shrunken Newsie. This....Davey was right, but....this was bad. He wants to fight, he really does, but for the first time in years he’s frozen in fear.

Davey’s grip steadily loosens until the boy is plummeting strait onto his awaiting tongue. The jaws around Spot snap shut, trapping him as the tongue underneath him starts to lick him over and toy with his frozen body. He can’t move. He’s paralyzed and it’s scary. No. Terrifying.

Satisfied with his work, Davey brings a hand to his throat. A soft yet strong gulp tugs the leader of Brooklyn down, his hand tracing the path all the way with each swallow until he feels him drop into his stomach. His tongue snakes out over his lips, ending with a satisfied sigh. “Ah~ Now that is much better.”

Spot isn’t ready to be met with a pleased gurgle as he drops into the chamber. Finally he can move and he’s able to start to fight. The hitch in the breathing of the giant lungs above him signals something. Something he’s so very glad to hear.

“S-Spot?! Are you ok in there? I didn’t hurt you right? Did I go overboard? I’m sorry if I did I just get too into character and I can’t-“ Davey cant help but drop the act and start to ask the shrunken boy in his gut a million and ten questions and the presses against his form.

Spot yelps as he’s pushed back by the pressure of Davey’s hand from the outside. At least Davey was back to himself. “I’m fine Dave. Physically fine. I....I now see why you didn’t want to show me. And why the Delanceys are scared stiff of you.”

Davey’s usual nervous laugh sounds deafening as it shakes the chamber holding Spot. “Yeah....that. And could you speak up a bit? You’re really muffled.”

Spot’s fighting calms down, him relaxing against the wall that’s oddly comfortable. The only thing that’s strained at the moment is his voice but he can take that. “O-Ok....so, you’s is gonna spit me up, unshrink me, an’ then we go our separate ways, yeah?”

“Uh.....” Davey knows he should but...it’s so nice to be full again after a day of not eating and he doesn’t really want to go to bed on a empty stomach. It wouldn’t hurt to just... “not yet.”

“I’m sorry, what?”

“Well, I wasn’t lying when I said I was really hungry. Missing a day’s worth of meals then also running around with the boys does a number on a empty stomach. “It’s not like you aren’t safe after all.”

“Dave, are you tryna say you ain’t gonna let me out?”

“Um....y-yeah. Sorry...?”

This is where the fighting picks up again. Davey’d be lying worse then Pinocchio if he said he didn’t miss it. A hand started to rub at his belly again, almost like he was trying to get Spot to move.

“Lemme guess. You’s wasn’t lyin’ bout the squirmin’ thing either?” Spot’s tone is somewhere between annoyance, anger, and amusement. This was certainly something.

“They....it feels nice....” Davey sheepishly admits. It does feel nice to have a squirming meal under his skin.

“Well ain’t that good for my case!”

“It really isn’t.”

“Oh trust me, I know!”

They talk for a while more, Spot having to constantly yell at the top of his lungs for Davey to hear him. After a while a yawn echoes around Spot, followed by the swaying of the chamber hes in as Davey stands up.

The taller teen forces himself to his feet, a hand rubbing at his gut all the while. Boy is he lucky that his prey never seems to make a bump in his flat stomach. Makes it easier for him to hide his special “punishment,” though he’s certain the boys of Manhattan know. “Hey Spot? I’m getting pretty tired and am gonna head back to the lodging house for the night. Do you think you could keep it down?”

Spot seems silent. He’s not but after so much shouting he needs a break. The fighting says all he has to though.

“Alright then, as long as you don’t manage to wake up any of the boys.”

Slowly Davey stumbles through the sleeping city, a hand over his stomach at all times. Back at the lodging house, trying to get through the mess of boys and to his shared bed for the night with a squirming meal in his stomach again. He really couldn’t think of a better way to end his night. With a few pats to Spot he snuggles down for the night, leaning into Jack’s sleeping presence without thinking. Once he’s drifted off he leaves Spot to himself. It’s awkward but eventually he tires out. Not long after, the leader of Brooklyn finds himself unconscious listening to the sounds of the boy’s body around him.

/Note to self: If David tries to avoid a topic, don’t press him on it./

[desolationlovers]

oh yall thought i was done x posting? lol. kamui character rant under the cut

the thing about kamui is i dont know that hes a very deep character??atleast not how clamp has written him and esp not in the manga.

he spends a lot of the manga being confused and often manipulated. and hes really just a kid.

his first big character arc is debastardization basically. when hes introduced hes a TOTAL asshole (the anime added scenes to make him more of a dick at the start but also has a bit of an explaination? ill get to it). hes shown as very rude to everyone around him, yelling at people to get out of his way or get lost, including his previous friends. hes also shown to have absolutely no care for his surrondings and regularly fights and uses his powers in places where bystanders could be injured and leaving roads bridges or nearby buildings in ruins. when confronted about the latter by hinotos knight (his name is saiki) he straight up says he doesnt care if anyone gets hurt. which i mean ok nothing wrong with a character being an asshole. the extreme in your face way kotori and fuuma describe kamui as a kid being very shy and Very quiet and gentle makes this characterization confusing but hey people can change i guess. the confusing part is that as kamui slowly beings to let his guard down he says that the big reason he was so standoffish especially wrt kotori and fuuma was because he wanted to keep them at a distance so they wouldnt get involved with all the end of the world stuff. which makes sense obviously! kamui was absolutely aware of how dangerous it might get. his entire plan was to get the shinken (the sacred sword) and bail because he didnt want any part of any of it. what i dont get is why he was totally cool with bystanders being injured or killed. during his fight with saiki they were in a neighborhood! on people roofs and shit!! saiki is the one to lead them to an abandoned construction site so no one gets caught in the crossfire. and kamui almost kills saiki!!! which i will let slide a bit because kamui was being followed and had been attacked by spells literally that morning. but later on he apologizes to saiki but never explained his reasoning why he didnt care about destroying peoples houses??? and its never brought up again?????? also theres a scene added to the anime where he kicks the shit out of kotori and fuumas dad??? because he wouldnt give kamui the sword?? bro thats ur best friends dad you jackass!!!!!

in the anime they added flashbacks for the time after he moved away from tokyo which i think make his whole character make much more sense. when he first moves and goes to a new school he accidentally uses his powers and makes everyone afraid of him. fast forward past elementary school to high? school? its unclear. at school hes a lazy slacker that never goes to class and never talks to anyone, big ol loner. he sees that a local gang has been stealing kids money and beating them up. so he decides to put on a tough guy persona and confront the gang telling them to knock it off and scaring them shitless with some fun ass kicking psychokenesis. now i am SO on board with this addition. kamui being ostrisized for being weird and scary when hes already a super shy kid, so he embraces this scary intimidating image and tries using it for good because hes still ultimately kind hearted. he gets too absorbed in this tough guy persona that he loses touch with the original purpose of it and just uses it as a shield because he himself is afraid and confused. and maybe even hiding behind it because hes so afraid of having this huge destiny that he doesnt know if he can live up to and how can someone who decides the fate of the world be just some quiet oversensitive guy.

except all of that is my own speculation and analysis because they really do not go into ANY detail about this. i wouldnt say its to the point where it feels like they just flipped a switch and hes nice now but it def feels like that. and it annoys me because after he kind of apologizes for being a dick it doesnt really get brought up again?? i think he broods over it once or twice. but i would have really liked to see flashes of it coming back in high stress situations or something? he has a lot of points of grief and depression but its always meloncholic rather than angry and it really makes him feel like two different characters i wish it was way more of a mix.

anger would also be good with the whole overarching theme of trying to break out of the path destined for you. its constantly said that theres only one future by the dreamgazers although hinoto wants to change it. its supposed destined that kamui will lose and earth will be destroyed. anger but more importantly PASSION is whats needed break out of what has been preordained and to carve your own path. passion is also whats needed for the main part of the second half of kamuis character arc, figuring out what it is he REALLY wants. what his true wish is.

i also think anger could have been a good inverse to the deliberate mirroring of kamuis character and subarus character. subaru really represents despair and being completely swallowed by grief. his story is that the man he fell in love with (named seishiro) was just manipulating him for fun and is actually an emotionless assassian. subaru is so destroyed by this realization he goes into a depression and because of this is unable to save his sister being killed by seishiro. his goal is literally to be enough of a nusance to seishiro that hell kill him. literally he wants to be acknowledged as important enough to bother killing. its pointed out often how subaru and kamui are so similar, with how fuuma killed kotori, and how theyre both kindhearted ro a fault. its an intentional reflection. subaru even pulls kamui out of a similar depressive state after kotori dies. he and kamui have a whole heart to heart about how some peoples happiness can look pitiful to others and how hes going to fufill his goals even when other people are worried for him. and most importantly about how not everyone can be happy with an outcome. i think it would have been really good for subaru to represent someone overcome with depression about how awful the world is and paralyzed with that sadness and kamui would be the rightous anger and compassion needed to actually change the world. “lets this radicalize you rather than lead you to despair” you know? it would have been a really good parallel considering part of x’s themes are literally about having compassion for humanity. but that reading possibly shoots itself in the foot because the language used wrt the two possible futures are things to stay as they are or for a “revolution” to occur, meaning killing everyone to let the earth heal. so ideas of change are insinuated to be connected with the seven angels and genocide. which uh. not going to get into that.

i do like when he starts going to the clamp school he goes back to being shy and quiet and kind of gets pushed around by people with more force of personality. very fun uncomfortably relatable. its ok man im extremely passive too.

anyway final thoughts kamui needs more passion. clamp give me the rights. also let subaru and kamui hang out and have a brotherly bond. no creepy shit. just subaru being an akward older brother that knows what kamuis going thru and gives bad advice bc he has god awful coping mechanisms.

side note we arent ever told about his likes/dislikes hobby or anything of that nature. the blankest of slates. so my city now. i think hes into obscure indie music and has thousands of hours in various life sim games like animal crossing and stardew valley.

[wongiemei]

iKON Relationship with New Girl Member

Jinhwan:

Basically, her dad

Takes care of her the most dealing with her problems

He’s the oldest and he is used to dealing with the boys’ shit so he can handle hers too

But sometimes, it can be overwhelming

The girl member would listen to him like he would for her

Whenever she gets in trouble, he would always defend her (which annoys Bin a lot)

When she’s in that *cough* time *cough*, she would be the most comfortable with him

Jinhwan wouldn’t hesitate but go to the store 2 streets down and buy her chocolate, medicine, heating packs, chips, and tampons/pads

out of all the boys, she would trust him the most

if she needs something, she would go to him first

jinhwan loves to brag about that to the boys

he also loves the fact that someone is finally shorter than him

the boys still call him short but the girl defends him saying he’s taller than her

if anything, they should call her short

the first time it happened, jinhwan almost cried bc finally someone stood up for him

whenever he’s upset or hurt by what the others said, he hides it but she can usually tell 

the only one he speaks his problems to

she experiments with makeup on him since he’s the only one who lets her

ngl, she’s actually pretty good

‘i didn’t spend 2 all-nighters watching jeffree star and james charles for nothing’

but as long as he sees that bright smile, he’s happy

i think he would be the im-never-letting-you-go type with her because he sees her as the girl he saw for the very first time

shy and innocent

and he will be damned if someone corrupts her

Yunhyeong:

if Jinhwan is her dad, he’s her mom

makes sure she does laundry, gets up early, goes to bed on time, showers before the boys

will feed and cook for the girl even when he’s tired

thinks shes the cutest little thing

but he knows that if he finds chanwoo and her are talking amongst themselves, shes gone

gets pranked on the most

the boys would use the girl to take advantage of his kindness to her for a prank

then the girl would be guilty later on and secretly tell song what theyre planning

believe it or not, yunghyeong is pretty scary when he’s mad

so she rats the others out bc she knows he wont punish her and she could watch the boys suffer

its like killing 2 birds with one stone

but really, she appreciates him

without him, she would be stuck eating delivery and ramen every night

since she rooms with him, chanwoo, and hanbin, hes always cooking something

ikonics see her a lot in his vlives and YT channel

when he went to the jungle, she was very worried

‘hyung, you’re going to get sick there! who’s going to feed me when you’re gone? you know Bin can’t cook for shit!’

‘yah! do you only see me as your chef?!’

‘what do you mean i can’t cook?!’

he looks out for her a lot

during ikontv, she was the only one excited for the mungap trip

out of all the boys, she appreciates him the most

okay, maybe she appreciates him and jinhwan the most

but, he was the one who made her feel welcome and tried the most to help her fit in and make sure she was comfortable

will never forget when he left her a tray of food at her door when she refused to leave her new room

there was a post-it note with encouraging words and she still has it to this day

just a wholesome mother-daughter relationship that will never be broken

Bobby:

oh, my baby

as i mentioned in the earlier post, he wasn’t very upset but he wasnt happy

but he wasnt upset enough to make her feel uncomfortable

bc jiwon is such a baby and so nice that he subtly helps her

over time, they build a cute relationship where he is like her older brother

steals her food all the time

‘no! song-hyung cooked that for me! Only for me!’

‘yah! it’s rude not to share with your elders!’

‘*mumbling* wdym elder. you’re practically a 5 year old’

jiwon has no mean bone in his body and you were practically an angel to him

well, when you’re not fooling around or goofing off

although he thought you wouldnt survive in iKON, he tries to help you as much as he can

even though bin is literally a big butt and gives you a hard time, jiwon helps you

like the time bin screamed at you because you couldnt get the dance right and you, being a strong woman who wouldnt let people push you around, screamed at him too

it resulted to you having a screaming match and the elders having to push you back because you were so close to punching him in the face and the youngers holding bin because he wouldnt hesitate to come at you

more on that in a sec

but you slammed the practice room shut and walked to the river to cool down

granted you were new to korea and didnt really know where you were going, you went to the place the guys took you to

bobby found you crying there and hes a very awkward little bean so it was hard for him to comfort you

since youre a girl and all

but you wrapped your arms around him and cried to his chest *cue confused and frozen bobby*

jiwon slowly wrapped his arms around you and whispered sweet nothings into your ear

since then, hes vowed to protect you bc youre basically the little sister hes wanted

B.I:

okay, lets get this bread

as i said in the beginning, he didnt like you

aT aLL

he wanted to give you a hard time bc he wanted to see how long you would last

these boys have been with him since their survival days and suddenly this girl comes in? no thanks bitch

but i think bin is just really frustrated bc he couldnt figure you out

the others, he knows like the back of his hands

but you? he doesnt know shit about you

*cue his bratty self*

we all know bin is actually a soft little puppy who needs to be protected by iKONICS and will sacrifice himself for his boys

and dont worry, he will soon come to love you too

when you locked yourself up in your room, jinhwan grabbed his ear and pulled him outside to scold him

but it resulted to bin and jinhwan arguing

‘if you dont get your shit together, we’re going to have some problems. you’re the leader arent you? then act like it’

every day you try to be nice to him but he just shrugs and sometimes even outright ignore you

but as time goes on, hanbin slowly figures you out

youre still scared of him and thinks hes a douche but you can see hes trying

he really is trying

he picks up your weird habits like unintentionally pout when you dont understand something or the tip of your nose sweating when youre nervous

before, he used to not ask for your input in any tracks but it has come to the point he would knock at your door in the ungodly time of 2 in the morning, asking if the draft is good

love scenario was your guys’ combined efforts

there will be an imagine with that^

since you came in bling bling era, he didnt really give you a lot of lines because he couldnt figure out your voice and your strengths

but now, he knows you very well too

‘yah, be careful. dont be eating a lot of that ice cream. you shouldnt even have any in the first place. youre lactose intolerant, remember?’

‘yes, bin. i think id remember if there was something wrong with me.’

there are petty little fights between you guys that used to be mean and hurtful but are now playful and downright cute

but that dreaded day of your biggest fight yet

in love scenario during bobby’s rap, there’s that fast move that even the others struggled in

but hanbin already got it nailed down bc hes a GOD

but you were struggling the most and hanbin tried to be patient and help you

it was just hard for you and you couldnt get it right

by the 100th time of him repeating it over and over again, he exploded

‘yah! how are you a dancer when you couldnt even get this right!’

you looked down ashamed while mumbling ‘sorry’

he yells again and you mess up 

AGAIN

he throws his hat down and gets up towards you

‘if you cant do it correctly, why bother with it? go home. you’re done’

jinhwan nervously puts a hand on his shoulder and goes in between them to try and difuse the situation

‘hanbin-ah. we’re having a hard time too. its not just her. the dance is just hard.’

‘i dont get we’ve done WAY harder choreo than this’

‘well, hanbin, remember. she wasnt here for that.��

‘maybe it was a mistake to put her here then. she isnt ready.’

you look up at him with flaring eyes

‘listen, you dont know anything that ive been through to get to where i am today so dont even say im not ready. YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME!’

everyone stayed silent, even the maknaes bc theyve never seen her lash out like that

hanbin scoffed.

‘maybe if you actually opened up yourself to us and not hide in your damn room all day’

she stomped to him and pushed him

‘no MAYBE if you pulled your head out of your ass and take the time to get to know me then maybe you would! but NO! you decide to be a little bitch and throw tantrums just bc a girl joined your group. was your ego hurt that yg sent a girl to you? that you would need someone to make sure that this group doesnt crumble to the ground? bc with the way youre acting, the guys arent here just because youre a good leader. YOURE A TYRANT! THATS ALL YOU WOULD EVER BE!’

shit

Hanbin was FURIOUS

he pushed her back and the guys held on to them

you pushed them away and sent one last hateful glare before you made your way to the door

‘but dont worry, kim hanbin. because ill send my resignation letter to yang in the morning. im not putting up with your shit any longer’

there will be a whole ass imagine about that so it will contain when yall make up

but after that, yall are so cool

his sister loves you and he might start having a ‘thing’ 

more on that in a sec

Donghyuck:

oof my baby sunshine

previously stated, he was the only one excited for your arrival

so obvs, yall are very tight

you, bob, and dong do vlives together a lot and ikonics look forward to it all the time

always cheers you up

remember that prank for ikon tv where dong literally started comforting the girl?

well, he does that to you

he knows when you start to get upset and he rubs your back

sometimes, just a hug from him makes it all better

did i mention that he gives out the warmest hugs?

ace dancers

both of you love to do covers as bonding time

whenever you can’t sleep, you just go to the other dorm and go under the covers while he sings to you

he sees you as his little sister and reminds him of his own little sister back home

btw, he loves to give you gifts

but so do you

when yall were filming ikon tv, he always picked up something that reminded him of you

like when he went shopping with bobby for their studio, he got you a little cute figurine that you still have to this day

or when you went to lotte mall for your day off and bought him a little necklace

fans get excited bc they always see matching yall have

the two of you wear the most fan gifts

like when someone gave hanbin a shirt, you snatch it and wear it

like how dong takes bobby’s clothing

yall are so cute together and fans wish they had a brother or a sister like yall

Junhoe:

this hoe

jk, but he really looks hot in this one

yes, he hated you in the beginning but once he found out similarities between you, he started tolerating you

also to him, i think he oesnt like the fact that him and the others worked so hard to get where they are and he doesnt really know what you went through to get there

junhoe has the personality that may seem very cold at first but he easily opens up to others and that causes them to open up to him

he knows the struggles you went through to be in ikon

you’re older than him by a few months and you treat him like your child

‘junhoe-ah! dont forget to take your makeup off!’

‘yah! clean your room! its like a pigsty!’

he gets annoyed with it but he knows you just look out for him

he calls you ‘noona’ with that cute ass smile if he wants something

how can you say no to that

yalls laughs are so loud and yall are just loud in general

one time, yall had a competition on who could sing louder and the guys almost banned you from the apartment complex

the neighbors weren’t happy

he always asks you for fashion advice even though you don’t have a good fashion taste

you have the habit of spoiling him of clothes and shoes

‘noona, you don’t need to do this. take them back’

‘wtf they’re from busan. i’m not about to take a train ride there to return those. keep them.’

his mom absolutely adores you

always tells you to look after him and junhoe blushing like a maniac

‘mom, i’m bigger than her. i think she’d need more protecting than me’

he turns red whenever you pinch his cheeks together 

ngl, he had a crush on you but it faded away when he saw another member having a crush on you too

hes scared of him so hed rather back off

but you love him a lot and comfort him bc hes a little baby that really needs to be looked after

Chanwoo:

fuck, so cute

at first, chanwoo ignored you and made sure you were uncomfortable

even going as far as to disrespecting you

like being rude and being un-chanwoo

lets just say yunhyeong beat it out of him

as the youngest member, you baby him the most

‘oh, my little baby!’

initially, he was uncomfortable with it 

but now, he lives for it

pouts when you give another member too much attention

teases you about your short height all the time

helps you grocery shop mainly for him to carry the bags

‘dont worry, noona. im strong’

you find out that chanwoo actually joined the group last and had a hard time fitting in

you used this to your advantage to get closer to him with your similar situations

‘you know, being in an unfamiliar environment is hard. but having someone who understands your feelings makes it easier’

and he just looks up to you with those big brown eyes and you just melt

gamer buddies

love to go to pc cafes even though yall have your own respective computers at home

only goes for the food

always calls him when you’re stuck in one level

*cute Hanbin’s voice*

‘CHANWOO-YAH!!!! JUNG CHANWOO!!!’

even though he might act like a bitch sometimes, hes actually so soft and cute

hes your little baby and will always be your little baby even though yall are like 80

[ihaveanimagine]

For the ask thing: [4. UF/Pap] [17. SW/Sans] [20. UF/Sans] (if thats your limit you dont have to do the rest ♥, or choose wichever you want to do!). [42. LOKI] [45. UT/ Sans]

(I’M SO SORRY IT’S TAKEN ME FOREVER TO FINISH THIS! THESE WERE VERY FUN PROMPTS TO DO AND I GOT REALLY EXCITED FOR MY FIRST LOKI ASK :D)

4- “Watch your step.”

17-  “This movie is really scary but you’re into it so I’m trying not to to cover my face the whole time but — WHAT IS THAT?”

20-  “Wait, don’t pull away. Not yet.”

42- “No, like … it’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

45- “You’re a big piece of inspiration for this.”

Underfell Papyrus (Edge)

(Thank you to @lmao-idk-but-aight for the idea!)

“Is that what you think of me? Helpless!?” You cried, curling your hands into fists, shaking with rage. “Quite frankly, YES!!” Edge towered over you, physically blocking you from the doorway out of the house. “You’re small, weak, fleshy, and you practically have a walking sign on the back of your head, begging monsters to dust you and take your soul!!”

You glared and stepped right up to the taller skeleton monster. “I can take care of myself! I took care of myself well enough until you took me in!” Edge huffed and bent down to your level, almost taunting you with his height advantage. “Don’t make me laugh, human! The only reason you survived until I took you in was because of my superior hunting skills!!”

“You only caught me because-”

“Because you’re weak and can’t protect yourself!”

You growled louder and felt tears sting your eyes. “Well if you think I’m so weak, why don’t you just kick me out!” Edge narrowed his eyes and glared down at you “Do you think I’m stupid? That I’d just kick you out for no reason!?” You hated how fast the tears slid down your face as you shouted “Well clearly you think it’s too hard to keep watch over me so you might as well!!”

Edge growled loudly and leaned down to your height and pushed you back inside with a firm grip on your shoulder. “I’ll do nothing of the sort!! Now STAY HERE!!” He shoved you onto the couch and stomped out the door, slamming it behind him. 

Hot tears spilled down your face as you sunk slowly into the couch cushions. You hid your face in your hands and felt despair wash over you. Edge and his brother have been working very hard to keep you safe. They escorted you every time you left the house, Edge would often strut next to you, glaring or growling at every monster who came too close to you.

His brother often teleported you out of sticky situations and kept you busy with bad puns and jokes, but Edge was the one who took the brunt of the work. He always said that since you were the only person to pass his incredibly dangerous traps that you deserved the finest treatment he could offer you.

Which, over the course of the time you’ve spent there, included personally cooked meals (mostly lasagna and pasta dishes), late night discussions about the best way to protect each other, and the occasional shopping spree out in the Snowdin shopping area. 

The first time Edge took you out shopping you were a bit…surprised. You didn’t exactly expect him to be interested in fashion due to the world he lived in, but Edge turned out to be really good in picking out outfits that both looked amazing on you and kept you warm and safe. 

Since then, you’ve made little…dates(?) where the two of you went out for the night in town and did a few activities before hiding in his house again. You’ve seen so many different sides of Edge that he has trouble showing even his brother sometimes.

You’ve seen him laugh hard enough until he snorts, weep at a Mettaton Tragedy Special, and completely lose his skeletal mind when you tell him stories about your life on the surface. But the moments that were the most special to you, were the nights neither of you couldn’t sleep and converged to the couch in the living room to just…talk.

You’ve shared hopes and dreams, fears, childhood stories, and even wishes for the future.

But…that all seemed to have been for nothing…Any emotions you had been gathering for the tall, imposing skeleton man felt as if they had been cast aside when Edge practically screamed at you for being helpless…

The tears had stopped a while ago and you were left clutching an old, worn pillow while staring blankly ahead. You took a shaky breath and wiped your face with your hand, clearing the dried tears from your cheeks. You let yourself calm down after your cry and you found yourself grabbing one of your warmer jackets as you headed out of the home. 

You didn’t know what you were doing but…you knew you had to find Edge.

Your body was on autopilot as you traipsed through Snowdin town towards Edge’s old sentry station in the outskirts. You saw him before he noticed you (which was a first). You managed to get within arm reach of him before he noticed you. 

When he did see you were standing there with him his eyes widened in shock before narrowing. “Wha- what are you doing here?!” He hissed, turning his head away from you to scratch at something on his face with the back of his hands before turning back to you.

“I…came here to look for you.” You mumbled, doubt creeping into your bones. “Well, you shouldn’t have! The Great and Terrible Papyrus can take care of himself!!” Edge crossed his arms and puffed his chest out to prove his point.

“…But thank you…” Edge practically whispered and for a second you weren’t sure if you heard him. You gave him a half-hearted shrug before silence enveloped the both of you.

You both said nothing for a while, just stared at the thick forest of trees that created a border around Snowdin. The silence wasn’t awkward or uncomfortable but you knew there was something you both wanted to say.

“I’m sorry.” Both of you looked at each other blankly before laughing softly. Turns out both of you worked up the guts to apologize at the same time. “I shouldn’t have insulted you like that.” Edge said, giving the back of his neck a shy rub. “Me too.” You said, shuffling closer to Edge “You’re just protecting me, I shouldn’t have yelled at you for that.”

“We cool?” You asked, looking up at him, a smile breaking out when Edge nodded. After another moment of silence, Edge turned around and motioned you to follow him. “We should head home.” 

You nodded and moved to follow him before Edge halted you with an outstretched arm. “Watch your step.” He pointed to a patch of ice you were about to step on and gave a loud sigh.

Before you could say anything, he swept you up in his arms and carried you bridal style before trudging on. “Honestly if it weren’t for me, you’d have stepped on every piece of ice in Snowdin!”

You giggled and laid your head on his chest with a smile and thanked him for looking out for you. Edge let out a small huff but pulled you closer as he continued on his way home.

Underswap Sans (Blueberry)

Tonight was a night to binge All the Spooky Media!

A nice rainstorm was thundering outside the comforts of your home and you and your wonderful boyfriend Blue decided to have a date night.

At-home dates were usually spent bingeing movies or tv shows while snacking on everything (“everything” ranging from gourmet meals to a gas station donut). This particular night it was your turn to pick a movie genre to binge and you had chosen Thrillers and Horrors!

Part of it was mostly just to formally introduce Blueberry to the world of Zombie Fiction to see his reaction, the other half was to see if this guy was afraid of anything. You already knew he really didn’t fear any animal or insect on Earth but now it was just a competition to see what scared him. 

About two movies in, Blue didn’t seem affected by much of the zombie stuff so you switched to a classic thriller that always gave you chills. 

But while you were enamored by the movie, you failed to notice Blue creeping ever so much closer to you until he was practically burying his face in your arm. It wasn’t until there was a jump scare that made the both of you jump did you realize where he was. You both screamed at the appropriate time and Blue launched his body at you, curling over you protectively as if he was defending you from a real attacker. 

Unfortunately, any sweetness you might have found from his reaction dissipated as gravity took over and sent the both of you sprawling to the floor.

“Blue!” You shouted, trying to wiggle out from the spot on the floor where he had you pinned “Let go! I’m being squished!” Blue’s head popped up and he suddenly let go of you, backing up completely off your body before helping you up. “S-sorry! I uh, just heard you scream and uh,” He coughed nervously into his fist “Reflexes happened?”

You accepted his hand to help you up but you gave him a suspicious look “Reflexes, huh?” You questioned flatly.” Blue shyly smiled and rubbed the back of his neck “Don’t worry! I promise it won’t happen again!” He quickly sat back down on the sofa and glued his eye sockets to the TV.

You gave him a suspicious squint and saw your normally upbeat and cheerful boyfriend flinch when the Thriller’s soundtrack hit a high note at the same time a horrified scream ripped out of the protagonist’s throat.

“Blue, sweetheart…are you scared?”

“W-what, who? Me? Scared psssshhh, no-!”

Blue’s face darkened as he avoided looking at the TV. “I-I’m not scared! Are you? I mean-”

Another scream came from the television and Blue’s entire body jumped and he hid his face behind a pillow. “Okay, yes! This movie is really scary but you’re into it so I’m trying not to to cover my face the whole time but — WHAT IS THAT?!?!!!” He ditched the pillow and wrapped his arms around your waist before burying his face in your stomach right as the main villain made a dramatic, horrifying jump-scare reveal.

Sensing this had gone on long enough, you maneuvered over to the remote and paused the movie before gently running your hands up and down your boyfriend’s skull. “Easy, sweetheart” You cooed, keeping one arm firmly wrapped around his shoulders while you petted his skull. “You’re alright I promise.”

After a moment of silence you added “I’m sorry I didn’t check in with you sooner to make sure you were okay with the movie.” Blue shook his head and nuzzled your stomach before peeking up at you “N-no, it’s alright…I should’ve spoken up sooner…”

You gently brushed your thumb on his cheekbone and pulled him up for a quick smooch on his forehead. “How about we forget the thrillers and binge childhood movies, hmm?”

“Heh, I like the sound of that. Thank you.”s

Underfell Sans (Red)

You woke up slowly, trying to avoid the inevitable by snuggling into the body radiating warmth next to you. You felt a low rumble beneath your cheek as something reached around behind you to draw you closer to the warmth. 

“Heh, mornin’ Dollface.” The gravelly baritone of Red’s morning voice was barely above a whisper as he nuzzled into your hairline. Too tired to verbally respond, you simply nuzzles back and curled your entire body to press against his. You felt Red chuckle again before his hand started lazily playing with your hair.

“Yer adorable, ya know that?” He mumbled softly, wrapping his legs around yours while resting his chin on your head. You hummed in response and softly kissed his clavicle. 

The two of you drifted in and out of sleep for a little while longer before your body decided to wake up even though your comfort level was sky high. You whined as you pried your eyes open to meet the afternoon sunlight drifting in through the window. 

“Afternoon already?” You asked sleepily, still not fully awake. Red smiled and gently brushed his finger on your cheek before kissing your forehead. “Mhmm. Ya looked too cute to disturb so I’ve been here with ya since ya woke up earlier.”

You hummed and reached up to kiss him softly before plopping your head back on the pillow. “Have you eaten yet? We should probably get up to eat.” You stretched out slowly to wake up the rest of your body to prepare for the difficult task of leaving your comfy bed.

Red’s hand suddenly darted out and caught your waist before pulling you back in. “Wait, don’t pull away.” He buried his face in your neck and curled around your form “Not yet.”

You smiled softly at your big, totally threatening mate and gently scratched his skull. “Alrighty, few more minutes then.” 

Loki

Adjusting to life on earth was no easy task for your boyfriend Loki, Son of Odin, King of Jotunheim, God of Mischief. But with your healthy balance of patience and loving teasing, he got the hang of it pretty quickly.

He went from cursing at earth’s primitive technology to only swearing at it when it refused to work at him. He no longer used his title and Asgardian power as intimidation tactics, and he even came up to speed with pop culture references!

(Did this mean you accidentally unleashed the event where Loki would shout “yeet” as he threw his knives? Yes, yes it did. And you were so proud of him.)

Another point to be proud of him was Loki made some friends! All on his own! And at the Avenger’s Tower no less!

You weren’t too sure on the details but from what you understood, Peter Parker, Tony Stark’s unofficially adopted son, had straight up asked Loki if he tried to conquer New York and responded with “Cool, cool. But have you tried a street vendor hot dog yet?” Then went out on a quick run to buy himself and Loki some hot dogs when Loki admitted he hadn’t. 

Now the only major thing left was to get your man to wear something other than a fancy suit!

Not that you didn’t enjoy the view when he did wear a nice tux, a dress shirt, or a fancy trench coat, but you wanted your boyfriend to enjoy the comforts of earthling life and that mean oversized sweaters and sweatpants!!

You already had several pairs of those yourself and you kept trying to convince Mr. Tall Dark and Sassy to wear them with no luck. 

“It’s not like I can’t wear anything else.” He told you once “But suits feel more…my style. It’s not as if I can prance around in Asgardian clothes, right?”

You had to shrug and concede but internally promised yourself that you would see your normally put together boyfriend relax in Comfort Clothes one way or another. 

Several weeks passed by and you had practically forgotten about that promise until you came home from work one day to find Loki, Peter, and Ned showing Loki the Star Wars movies. You brushed past the three of them with a quick hello and flew to your room to remove the icky feeling of work clothes in favor of your favorite sweats and jacket.

But as you searched in your closet for your favorite jacket, you found that you couldn’t find it. You frantically raced around the room pulling out drawers and searching through the hamper and tossed clothing on the floor. When you finally admitted defeat, you huffed, grabbed a comfortable tank top and headed out the door to join Loki and the two boys for the movie binge watching. 

“Welcome back, Darling.” Loki said warmly without looking behind him. He lifted his arms for you to sink into as you launched over the sofa’s backrest onto the cushions before snuggling to his chest. “How was work?” He asked before pressing a soft kiss to your temple.

You moaned and hid your face in his arm. “No.” You said flatly, “No?” Loki repeated with a small chuckle “Work is banned from conversations for the next century.” You snuggled into him and sighed “I just wanna curl up with you and my comfy clothes and hibernate.”

Loki chuckled and nuzzled you.

“Speaking of which, have you seen my sweater? I couldn’t find it when I got home today, do you know where it is? Is it in the wash?” You asked, twisting around to look up at him. Loki’s face flushed and he chuckled nervously, his eyes darted down to his sleeves and your exhausted brain slowly began to recognize the fabric hanging off of him.

You suddenly lurched forward and turned toward Loki before eagerly cupping his cheeks. “You’re wearing my clothes!!” You cheered, excitement bubbling inside you “Y-yes, I am” Loki’s cheeks flushed with color “Is something wrong with that?”

“No, like … it’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

You felt a squeal catch in your throat as you suddenly pulled him forward for a chaste kiss. “I’m! So! Proud of youuuu!!!” You giggled before curling up on his chest, moving his arms to curl around you. “You’re relaxing! In comfy clothes!”

Loki’s blush deepened and he hid his face in your hair to save some of his dignity. “Yes, well…Peter and his friend insisted that binge watching movies should only be done in the highest of comforts so I uh, borrowed from your wardrobe.” You felt an “aww” escape your lips as you smiled up at him.

“Awww, you guys are so cute!”

“Ned!!”

Yours and Loki’s heads snapped up to see Peter trying to gently smother Ned with a pillow before lifting a hand up in innocence. “I’m sorry!” He squeaked “It’s just that you two were being cute and we weren’t sure if you wanted privacy so we tried paying attention to the movie but then-”

Ned pushed the pillow away and gently placed his hand over Peter’s face “But then you guys started cuddling and being all cute and blushy and it was adorable and I couldn’t help but say so!!”

You and Loki shared a laugh before shaking your heads at the two teens. “It’s alright, you two. Loki knows he’s adorable-”

“Not quite as adorable as you, love.”

“Shush. Loki knows he’s adorable and we both accept your compliment.” 

Loki simply rolled his eyes amicably at you before smiling and nuzzling you again. 

Undertale Sans

Being a full-time, interactive artist was not always easy.

Sometimes you had days where you had idea upon idea upon idea for your next gallery or show but sometimes your well of inspiration was so dry, the Valley of Death got thirsty. 

Lucky for you, Sans, your muse, aka your husband, aka your hus-bone had given you all the help you needed to meet your deadline.

For this specific gallery you had worked with a private therapy office who took cases ranging from student apathy, to heavy depression, to addict recovery. You always liked promoting a good cause while you shared your art and had found the perfect way to do both.

The gallery was to be shown at a small warehouse near a popular coffee shop and you intended to take full advantage of the location.

Since Sans played a big role in creating this specific gallery for you, you invited him to come see it. Naturally he said yes and on opening day, you gave him a quick tour before anyone came in.

The warehouse was covered in pillows of all shapes, sizes, and colors. The biggest pillow Sans has ever seen was propped up on the left side of the entrance and the pillows that lined the wall gradually shrunk to the tiniest pillow he had ever seen to the right of the entrance. 

Sections were split by large sheets suspended by rope and blankets were piled on top of pillows to create “couches” and pillars. In one section, there was a black box labeled “Dark Thoughts” with a plaque that read: “We’ve all been someplace dark in our lives. Some of us are still experiencing it. But healing takes time and it can start with letting go of something that makes you low. Take the time to write something you need to let go of and put it in the box. This box is directly emptied into a shredder. No one will see it.” 

The next section had several bins filled with weighted blankets and a plaque that asked everyone to take one and give the blanket to someone who needs it. The section after had a therapist from the office sitting on a mountain of pillows with a big smile. She shook Sans’ hand and told him she was part of the exhibit to encourage people to find outside help and to give therapy a chance. The section after her had stuffed animals with different labels on them like “Love”, “Hope”, “Motivation”, “Peace”, “Security”, etc. A sign stood next to the stuffed animals that said “Sometimes we all need an extra friend to keep us going. Take a stuffed animal with you to keep you going or to spread the love to someone else who needs it!”

From there, the exhibit focused on healing from whatever pain someone was in. There was a section on Laughter Makes a Good Medicine, Comfort Foods, and Hobby Making to provide outlets and ways to slowly push someone out of their comfort zone to open up. 

As you brought Sans along the exhibit he began to tear up a bit, remembering the different times of despair and hopelessness he’d experienced while Underground and on the Surface and how they have mostly been replaced by joy and contentment.

When you reached the end of your private tour, you took Sans’ hands in your own and smiled up at him. “So? What do you think?” You asked him. Sans grinned and gently brushed a loose strand of hair out of your face “I think this is amazing. This is a big topic to tackle but you did it pretty well, babe.” 

You smiled softly “That’s good to hear.” You cupped his face softly and continued, “You know, you’re a big piece of inspiration for this.”

Sans’ eyes widened and he looked both shocked and humbled “Me? How???” You giggled and shrugged “Well, I know you’ve had a few rough days while I was putting together this gallery so I knew I wanted to do something nice for you. But at the same time it felt like you had forgotten all the progress you’ve made with your issues and I wanted to remind you that big or small, any progress you’ve made is wonderful and I am so proud of you.”

Now Sans was really crying. Big fate tears rolled off his cheeks as he took the hand cupping his cheek and kissed the palm of it before drawing you in close. He rested his forehead on yours and took a shaky breath before speaking.

“If I could marry you again, I would. I love you.”

“I love you too, sweetheart.”

[kessem-the-mage]

Could I possibly be transgender?

Could I possibly be transgender?

For context, I am AFAB (Assigned Female At Birth). I am currently trying to find out whether I am a boy

Heyo, it's me again. I came over here about a month ago (?) to talk about the possibility of me being transgender. Some things have changed and I have learned new things, and I have "come out" to my family as possibly being transgender.

First, here are my symptoms:

Gender Euphoria - I feel happy when referred to as 'he' or called by a specific masculine name (I've tried David: it makes me immensely happy :) )

Discomfort with assigned genitalia and the female aspects of my body. This includes but is not limited to my breasts, sexual organs, wrists, hips, eyelashes, face shape, thighs.

Discomfort when referred to as female, or as my birthname. I used to be OK with being called she/her and with my birthname, but now two years after puberty and almost a year after I started questioning is when it started. Although, in my earlier years (elementary school) I did refer to myself as a boy in my head sometimes, because I thought it was fun. I also detested feminine things, and I tried to portray myself as masculine as possible at all times.

Discomfort in how I see myself internally. It's confusing, and scary. I'm not sure if I'm actually a male inside or if it is just a symptom of my depression (I have been formally diagnosed) or some sort of body dysmorphia thing. I don't see myself as a girl, I don't think.

I want to have male anatomy. All of it. Penis, flat chest, deep voice, Adams apple, everything! My parents have told me that I think this way because I think having a period is too hard or what I have to do 'as a girl' is too uncomfortable, but thats not exactly the reasons I want to be a boy. My parents tried to deter me from wanting to be a boy by saying that 'boys deal with uncomfortable stuff too!' and I KNOW that! But I don't care. I just... need a male body.

OK, those are the brunt of my symptoms. Now on to the caveats of this dilemma:

My mom pointed out the possibility of 'penis envy' to my. She said that lots of girls my age feel envious of males having a penis when they do not have one. Could I be experiencing penis envy, or is it something more serious?

I am young. Thirteen. I know for a fact that practically nobody knows or even questions if they're trans when they're in the seventh-eighth grade, so are my feelings still valid? My mom also pointed out that the human brain isn't full developed until you are twenty six, and that I cannot make a valid decision until then. I feel like that is maybe pushing it too far, but is she right? Could all of this just be me being a dumb, angsty teenager? That's what she thinks, at least.

I feel like I am faking my symptoms. The more I learned about how a trans person's dysphoria feels like, the more I start to feel that way, too. Could this be me making it up or is this normal? I am really not sure...

I am seeing a counselour right now, but we aren't talking about these things. I feel so awful keeping all of these feelings pent up but whenever I try to talk about them my counselour just steers the conversation in a different direction entirely. The only time I have truly talked about my symptoms was with my mom, and that is when she brought up the penis envy and age stuff.

I've been so confused lately, and I just don't know what to do. If any of you can help me sort this all out, it would be greatly appreciated.... thank you so much.

(side thing here that goes with my symptoms; in band we (the girls) had to try on dresses. Everyone was happy and smiling and stuff, excited about the dresses, but I was about to have a dead on panic attack. When I put on the dress, I felt disgusting and wrong. I couldn't stand to look at myself because now, more than ever, I didn't look like me. I cried a lot. Luckily, the tailor was a very nice woman, and actually the mother of a nonbinary pal that I have! She was very nice about it, and told me to ask my parents if I could wear a suit for concerts instead. Of course, my parents won't ever let me do that, but I appreciate the sentiment. Thank you, Mrs. S!)

[dolansmith]

Thoughts on the “Trisha Drama”

I’m going to preface this with my previous thoughts of both sides. I didn’t know who Trisha was until after I found out about the vlog squad about a year ago. I didn’t mind her, i thought she brought out an interesting perspective to the group. Then I thought she was literally off her rocker. 

I loved the vlog squad bc I found them in a really difficult time in my life and they kept me from getting too deep into a depression. While I saw some of their mistakes, I saw the best in them all and hoped for change or at least some kind of accountability. 

This is gonna be really long and idk if anyone is even gonna read this/care lol but Im just so frustrated with a lot of the people that are into the vs. Like after really looking into everything that happened, I felt kind of ashamed to be backing the vs bc they’re doing some fucked up stuff tbh. 

So lets do a basic rundown of mistakes made. 

Mistakes in their public relationship:    -Trisha: made sexual jokes about jason’s friends, started arguments about her insecurities instead of starting a conversation.     -Jason: made sexual jokes about girl’s a decade younger than trisha (and 2 and a half decades younger than him), would complain about having to go do things trisha liked doing and would pout the whole time  (i.e. disneyland and a couple of the hamilton viewings), would egg on trishas insecurities, literally dumped her on a daily basis and call her crazy when she voiced said insecurities and then would basically get back together within an hour and practically give everyone whiplash, also talked about her weight and eating habits CONSTANTLY (fucking dick)    -David: inputted himself in their relationship, recorded their fights and encouraged their toxic behavior to both his friends and his audience

Mistakes in the “official” breakup:    -Trisha: talking about jason’s ex and kids, comparing david to ted bundy (a lil wild but tbh not that big of a deal bc no one actually believed thats what she meant but anyway), the brandon thing (we’ll come back to this)    -Jason: continuing to make jokes about fucking a 19/20 year old despite his gf saying she didn’t like it, not putting an end to David “pressuring him” to making said jokes, the brandon thing    -David: ignoring his “friend” when she said not to put something in his vlog, putting his image and career first

Mistakes after:    -Trisha: constantly going on rants about david and Jason.    -Jason: staying in contact with trisha secretly. (ill get back to this too)    -David: putting his image above all else. 

Now we’re going to get into some uncomfortable hot takes. I’m gonna get a whole lotta hate from stans but tbh idc anymore

The Brandon Thing (I’ve done some digging since her video exploding at Jeff): 

   -Brandon began a relationship with a high schooler. She was underage the first time they had sex. There’s receipts and timelines set up. I’d recommend Petty Paige’s Youtube video on it for specifics.     -Lot’s of vs fans say she only brought it up when her and Jason ended so that meant she didn’t really care, but I’d like to point out that she has stated (on more than one occasion) that she voiced her thoughts on this multiple times to the group in Private and no one cared. Y’all are always going on about how she should say whatever she has to say in private but when she does and is ignored, what then? Just a thought.     -Let’s also bring the rest of the vs up in this. How come none of them ever said anything? They’re the ones still out here tolerating him. Pretty hypocritical. I’m not gonna aim anything at the girls bc none of them have Brandon in their videos but the guys? Jeff, Jason, David, Todd and I think Scott too, have all had Brandon in at least one video. They’re out here talking shit about Trisha amongst each other but are friends with a predator? Lmao Okay, cool. 

Jason Keeping in Contact for months: 

   -This was dumb.     -As someone who has suffered from mental health issues and has been in a mental hospital and suffered from attachment AND abandonment issues, Trisha would’ve been better off had Jason ended things and kept them that way. Instead, he ended their public relationship and friendship. He kept her a secret from even his “friends” and then dragged on their “friendship” for months. For what? He should’ve just given her her things and closure and kept it pushing.     -On that, why did he keep her belongings for so long and refuse to give it back until she said something public about it? He ignored her calls and texts about her very expensive things for weeks. Then she made a video calling him out on it, and she got her stuff back.    -I’m seeing a pattern here, aren’t you?

The Jeff Thing (did some digging on him too...by digging i mean google):

   -This one makes my blood boil for several reasons. ESPECIALLY AFTER TODAYS VIDEO. It rlly put everything into perspective omg.     -The starbucks story that Trisha told was the same everywhere: ‘I saw Jeff at Starbucks and said hey. He ignored me and was such a pussy he left his order at the counter after having paid.’ His masculinity is SO FRAGILE that he twisted it into ‘I’m not gonna be fake with someone who fucked over my friend. Can’t fuck them up either tho lol’ and ‘i’m not gonna make shit easy on you, i’m gonna make them feel weird’. What a baby lmfao    -His assault joke rubbed me the wrong way. I know Jeff’s schtick is the whole “I was in jail for a few months and I was a drug dealer I’m big and scary” blah blah blah. Listen, I’ve met men that have been in jail longer (he was in for only 4 months he once said I think) and had worse upbringings than he did and HAD to do some of the shit Jeff was doing (which lemme remind yall, was on his own accord). The men that I know that have lived similar and worse lifestyles than Jeff, would never and I REPEAT NEVER, make a joke about assaulting a Woman over “fucking my friend over”, when the situation was what it was. Which was: an exposé, basically. That’s some petty shit, it’s for the birds. (Also, Todd and Jay’s jokes about the assault joke? Ain’t it. They were just as bad as Jeff’s original joke.)    -Do y’all know what Jeff’s been to jail for? He tried to assault someone that worked at a 7-Eleven after he and his dumbass friends were fucking around in the store and got yelled at and ended up assaulting a woman walking by.     -He also talked about her mental health issues. Maybe he wasn’t talking about her specifically, but it was REAL specific. He said that it was crazy that a “psychopath” that’s been in a mental hospital still had a platform on youtube. That they shouldn’t have one. Trisha made a really good point of, “some could say the same about your time in jail.” Because they could. And mental health can be managed. So can your outrageous anger issues, Jeff. This was really ignorant on his part.     -I also want to remind everyone about the time he said he didn’t understand how men could be sexually harassed. That all you had to do was say no.    -He says he likes to “make things awkward” and make everything a joke when really he’s just being ignorant and doesn’t want to get real hate when he gets inevitably called out

Trisha’s “Dirt”:

   -Trisha doesn’t know anything that the rest of us don’t. We’re just all IGNORING it. Why? Bc David’s charming and Todd and Jeff are pretty? Ridiculous. This is the last vlog squad post i’m going to make because I’m done. So the following is going to be a rundown on the “dirt” on them that made me come to the decision that I wouldn’t be supporting them anymore. I’ll also put my own thoughts and comments underneath in case y’all are curious. Staying silent about these situations is the same as complacency.     -Brandon Calvillo: Covered this but to reiterate, he dated a high schooler and slept with her/dated her knowing her age. He then lied about it in a video to cover his tracks.           *I am well aware that she was months from being 18. This doesn’t make it okay. What does a 26 year old have in common with a 17 year old? And just because this is the first girl we know about, doesn’t mean she’s the first at all or even the last.     -Durte Dom: He was accused of assault at vidcon.            *This hasn’t been confirmed. But it also hasn’t even been discussed. This girl is getting hate from vs stans and the vs have stayed silent. I can understand not wanting to show attention to people who make accusations for clout, but assault is serious and should at the Very Least be acknowledged privately or legally bc it could be considered slander. Don’t let your fans (or your friend’s fans) do your dirty work.      -Jeff Wittek: He has major anger issues. Makes jokes about assaulting women after actually having assaulted one in the past (accidentally but doesnt take away from what he did) and has made jokes about sexual harassment against men not being viable             *tbh he has a “pretty white boy complex”. Meaning he knows that he can say and do what he wants and most people will let it slide bc he’s a pretty white boy. No education needed.     -Jason Nash: Is friend’s with a predator, is quite possibly setting an awful example to his kids, namely his daughter.          *Listen. I’m a feminist, a woman should be able to decide what to do with her body after she turns 18. But being groomed and hit on by grown ass men when you’re barely legal, ain’t it. If you want to and feel ready, there’s nothing anyone can do to stop it BUT 9.9 times out of 10, that fucks a woman up in the future. One day, she is going to see her dad hitting on a 19/20 year old Tana and see that her dad’s  26 year old best friend dated a 17/18 year old and lied about specifics and might think that’s normal and how men should treat her. I won’t support that shit.

And as for all the other member’s of the vs, they either don’t care enough about what their friends or friends’ friends are doing, or they’re not bothering to even consider it’s happening and that isn’t cool either. 

Be better. 

As for Trisha, she’s had her own faults and fuckups, no doubt about it. I’m not a big fan of her content but i FELT for her. Her name has been dragged through the mud because of this more than anything else and it doesn’t sit right with me when her only real fuckup in THIS situation was bringing the ex and kids into it the way she did. Everything else either could have been avoided or she had a right to say to the public since they put everything about the relationship out in the open as much as she did. If Jason and David had reached out and admitted their own mistakes and asked her to stop talking about them online the way she was, she probably would’ve chilled out. What happened, what they and their fans (us) have done has been nothing short of traumatizing, no doubt. The way these 30 year old boys (Jeff, Todd, Scott and Jay) are reacting to her? They’re the real joke if we’re being honest.

Note: I’d also like to say that if you do still support them and have differing views than I do, I’ll respect you and your views no matter what. Everyones entitled to their opinion and thoughts. These are just mine. 

[bladekindeyewear]

Boots reads Homestuck Epilogue(s) Part 5 - Meat Page 7

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Okay, time for Rose and Dirk to talk delicious politics or something.

Heh, customary show-end riots.

Rose, stop causing all of us undue alarm.

Ascending? Is she going to fade out into a concept or something???

Oh shit, Dirk’s doing something similar.  Some sort of inevitability once God-Tier is reached or some such.

Dirk has a solution to the problem in the works.  That’s... well, Rose already cautioned that that could be ominous.  I hope it doesn’t involve decapitation.  Or robot bodies, or turning her into an omniscient cueball or something.

==>

Okay, stage play time.  I can see a weird-seeming text color choice for Caliborn down below, hm.  Time to read down to there...

Ah, the classic finale-callback thumbs down.  Nice.

...yeah, reinforcing the point he was trying to make a little less explicitly with his earlier finale of Homestuck that Lord English had really just, sort of, trapped them in this narrative that their ultimate reward would be to escape, realizing it never really mattered too much compared to their own long lives and happiness or something.

==>

Epilogue TWO??????  D:

Okay now it’s, like, Andrew commenting isn’t it.

Oh shit, it DOES suck them up and trap them? Huh. That explains how Jade was dealt with, I’d forgotten. Also because it was one of the huge goddamn unanswered fucking hugepoints that made it seem like a slap in the face when we were told it didn’t matter and-- yeah okay let me just keep reading.

Huh, broken glasses.

And, phew; the ages it takes is from an OUTSIDE perspective.  Let’s see what it is from an inside perspective...

==>

Jaaaane!!! :D

Okay let’s read about Janey.

Mhmm, that’s not that surprising... Dirk knew that Karkat was going to run against Jane, but Jane didn’t, even though Dirk was ostensibly “working” for her.  There’s definitely a plan here.  Maybe it involves Jane and Karkat smooching publicly at the end.  ...No, that’s just my wishful imagination talking, isn’t it.

Oh my god she’s screaming into a pillow at hearing she has competition.  That’s adorable.

YES, JANE.  UNDERESTIMATE KARKAT.  YOU WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM LIKE EVERYONE ELSE (though probably platonically).  It does upset me that they’ve taken this long to really get acquainted, though; I’ve argued for years that their personalities are naturally compatible as the straight men for all their friends’ bullshit.

In fact, Jane is pretty sure that Karkat Vantas would probably literally burst into flame if too many people happened to look at him at the same time, like a vampire walking out into the sun.

Yes, but he’d get over it.  And be a flaming president or something.

In fact, Jane cannot remember a single conversation she’s ever had with him that wasn’t about the economy. She thinks back to one time at John’s eighteenth birthday when Dave engaged her in a rigorous and rather one-sided debate about deregulation and the failure of “neoliberal austerity measures” until Karkat had to come over and put his hands over his roommate’s mouth to make him stop talking.

Oh my FUCKING god, it’s true.  Dave’s appropriately liberal in the modern, Krugman-esque, statistically grounded way.  Karkat has my vote already.

She’d be happy to accept a graceful, temporary defeat and let Karkat play president for a couple of years. After all, unlike her, he was not immortal.

Hey fuck you.  Also, why the FUCK haven’t they used one of the myriad likely ways to extend Karkat’s lifespan basically indefinitely yet???  Heck, JANE could probably do it with Life powers if she crawled back out of her own butt!  We already know the Condesce could extend other trolls’ lifespans with weird troll powers so Life powers are almost certainly enough to suffice.  >:(

Ohhh, so maybe Jane is just, like... slightly traumatized by trolls? And thus a little tiny bit predisposed against trusting them cause of the Condesce? :(

Interesting how she views her past reliance on / pursuance of Jake as something that made her “weak” specifically.

Okay, I’m getting a slightly uncomfortable vibe that Jane is willing to almost play at seduction with Jake falsely to get his endorsement on--

And she’s willing to do more than that, too.

Okay FUCK, JANE.  GET YOURSELF UNDER CONTROL.  I’m starting to believe the shittalking the others have given about you!  You’d better shape up by the end of this epilogue or what have you.

==>

Okay, trapped John can hear the other three through the walls of their prison or something.

Conversation and musings, conversation and musings.....

Wait, Jade LIVES with Dave and Karkat in that SAME HOUSE and they didn’t even mention it??!??  What is even up with their thing.

Heh, John’s thinking he really could have used a nice kismesis riling him up to better himself.  That’s what they’re for, really.

There there, John.

==>

Oh my fucking GOD, Jane rolls with supply side economics???  TAKE.  HER.  DOWN.

And Jade is just... here?  Huh.

Yeah they DEFS weren’t listening.

JADE: especially when JADE: there are much better things we could all be doing with our mouths.....

HOLY SHIT.  HOLY SHIT.  JADE IS SO INTO EITHER OF THEM THAT THEY CAN’T TAKE IT, CAN THEY.  THAT’S FUCKING AMAZING OH MY GOD

Her tail swishes from side to side

SINCE WHEN DOES SHE HAVE A FUCKING TAIL HOW IS THAT SUDDENLY CANON

I’M NOT MAD IM JUST SURPRISED

Wasn’t that something that the ask-responses from Andrew said she canonically DIDN’T have or what the fuck

Since I guess it wasn’t confirmed IN CANON he just decided he liked it enough to offer it here or???? I DON’T KNOW????

Wow why am I all worked up by this all of a sudden.  It’s just transferring from her earlier line isn’t it.

three of her bras

Okay no nevermind Andrew’s just fucking with us.

...Even though this can probably still be considered canon.  Which only makes how he’s fucking with us work even better, really.  I mean, why WOULDN’T he lob this at us on the ten year anniversary and watch us squirm, really.  There’s no incentive not to.

--oh wait wait never mind reading further these are just bras from different days she threw over the couch.  PHEW.  I thought for a second that we were dealing with dog anatomy stuff that would REQUIRE multiple bras on her.  Jesus.  I wonder if Andrew intentionally phrased things so some people would think that for a minute.

JADE: also you know trolls dont actually have two dicks dave thats an offensive stereotype

Pffffff

Wait, is it that Dave and Karkat’s relationship isn’t quite full-hearts sexual and Jade is incessantly shipping them?? :O

because that’d be hilarious too??  --*reads*

YESSSS JADE BEING SUPER STAT WHIZ WITH HER SUPER PARTOMNIDOG SPACE BRAIN YES

The thing about Jade Harley is that she’s not as good at personal things as she is at other things. Like science, or mastering fraymotifs, or kissing, the last of which she has definitely put a lot of levels into over the past few years because, well, what else are you supposed to do with immortal godhood once you hit the age where the dog hormones start kicking into overdrive? 

f uck

dog hormones

i’m wheezing

Alright, Jade’s springing a thorough relationship talk on them.  That’s cool.  Also she’s throwing statistics in there and I LOVE that now that Jade is older we’re reinforcing just how scary science smart she is, I can’t wait to see other people roleplaying her properly because of it too.

...Yeah Jade would definitely date a chess couple

Jade sighs and crawls closer. She takes one of Karkat’s hands in hers.

JADE: i think wed all work good together

AAAAAAAA :D :D :D

JADE: and i think weve been dancing around that for years now JADE: i wanna try dating for real KARKAT: HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDERED KARKAT: SORRY IF WHAT I’M ABOUT TO SAY TOTALLY BLOWS YOUR MIND KARKAT: DATING A SINGLE PERSON, FOR MORE THAN HALF A SWEEP, FOR REASONS OTHER THAN INITIATING THE CONCUPISCENT EXCHANGE OF FLUIDS?

PFFFFFFFFFFFFF OH MY FUCKING GOD THIS IS PERFECT

Jade being

literally the thirstiest person in this ENTIRE CAST OF CHARACTERS

to the point that everyone’s calling her out on it

in something that’s virtually goddamn canon

holy fucking shit I love everything.  I love life.  Living in a universe where this hilarious shit happens is fun.

....pFFFF JADE DIDN’T KNOW OBAMA WAS REAL THIS IS AMAZING

Ooh, dueling god-tier powers for petty reasons.

OH NO DICK DRAWINGS ARE LIKELY IMMINENT

THAT OR A CHART

OR BOTH

...yeah her hair would get everywhere, wouldn’t it.

yes make fun of ship names some more

What Jade leaves in her wake is not quite the emotional scorched-earth situation that she was going for, but a few of her needles have definitely gotten under some skin. Dave and Karkat both stare after her, silently caught in their own private rationalization spirals.

So this whole time Jade’s been all “JUST KISS ALREADY” and they’ve been all “what no” and now she’s just laid it all out in the open and left them to it.  Yeah that sounds about like what would’ve happened.

Aaaand of course, since this is Dave and Karkat, they just choose to stall some more and play video games.  Jade really DOES complete this relationship with her pushing them to accept reality and stop downplaying their own feelings and self-esteem and all.  But that’s what I thought would happen BEFORE I even read any epilogue stuff so I’m biased.

==>

Pff, Vriska time.

You’ve now got two bitches of either gender at your side

Vriska, shame!  Don’t use that kind of language!!

Yep, this version of her didn’t learn her lesson and is still pretty much completely delusional.

Alright, Real Terezi™ is still flying out in the abyss trying to scoop Vriska out of this jam, cool, cool.

Flailing and spinning, screaming, not being able to see the final event or whatever-- someone save her already we know it’s gonna happen!

JOHN: Emerge from the juju.

Oh.  Well, that’s uncomfortably in line with earlier presumably-discredited theories.  About John saving Vriska from the black hole the Green Sun left in its wake and all.  :|

Yawns too wide and snaps in half?  The moment he was dreaming about?

==>

Oh hai Jake.  This really IS the perfect time to get to see some attempted-exploitative discomfort between Jane and you.  I mean that!  The narrative timing is pretty hilarious.

The sunset has turned the head offices of Crockercorp into a shimmering glass monolith—a beacon, if you will, of the future, visible for miles in every direction.

Jane probably likes to think about it that way at least.

Wow, Jane REALLY sounds like she needs to be knocked down a peg or seven.

The whole place is candlelit, and Jane is reclining on her desk, sprawled out like a lounge singer on a grand piano.

OH MY FUCKING GOD JANE STOP BEING A SLIMEBAG!!!! D: D: D:

Thank you, Jake, for coming through and tanking this.

This is not really the kind of conversation you initiate if you’re looking to extract a sexual deal out of someone. It is, however, the kind of conversation that you might have with a childhood friend who has become somewhat emotionally estranged from you.

THANK FUCKING GOD.  Jane has been saved from herself for the moment.

Okay I see a whole bunch of paragraphs of black text down below just as these two are likely coming together for a kiss.  Uh oh.

...Yep, kiss there.  And, uh...

Okay whew, most of it is Jake privately soliloquy-ing to the narrative about the circumstances leading up to this. I can deal with that.

...Oh my god he keeps thinking of Dirk while getting in close to Jane.  This is gonna blow up in his face isn’t it.

Reading on....

--Ah, yeah, he just realizes he’s more into Dirk I guess.  Ouch.  Ouch, Jane.

DIRK: Were you nice to him? JANE: Well, I... DIRK: I told you, you can’t be nice to Jake. JANE: ...

PPFffffffffff

DIRK: Why don’t you leave Jake to me?

Now ain’t that telling?

Ooh, getting down to plot business with Rose.

==>

Back to John.  I see a bit that says “Listen” there, is he going to hear Vriska screaming? Or is Terezi going to pick her up? Since, like, I mean she has the jetpack and has been searching for her longer and stuff.

Yep, big ol’ LE tantrum.  Though alt!Calliope seems at least as much at fault for the end of the universe as him, if not moreso.

Ah, right, Andrew wanted us to THINK he’d hear Vriska screaming just so he could troll us like that.  Makes more sense, anyway.

Huh, the Juju just pops away.

OW.  Down a spare Rose, just like that, huh?  Probably part of why main Rose knew what the plan was supposed to be for all this.

Ah right, can’t use your Green Sun powers here, Jade.

OW.  Another quasi-doomed side-character death.

Yep, you have to make a tough, leaderly decision and let go.  :C  --Oh crap, you saved her body.  Are you gonna put the ring there or what, I’m not sure where that’s going plotways.

Pff, the whole fight going south just due to John losing his glasses... that’s pretty funny from a perspective.

Oh huh, real ghost Tavros gets nuked.

Oh shit, Meenah’s going in!  Don’t die, I actually care about this version of you!!

--Ah, thrown out and fate unclear, that’s a bit better than clear death.

Hm, Davepeta vs English round two?  I wonder what the purpose of all of this really is, anyway, beyond just a sense that some only implied-wrapped-up things are being actually wrapped up?  This whole Meat arc?  Is Candy going to be ultimately more important to everyone, as was part of the point, or?  Huhhm.

Final Round!!

Hammer buffet!

Slight obligatory feelings allusion via hammer!

Oh no! VORE!!! D:

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < wrow you almost got vored to death

Phew, avoided

Ow, another decapitation.  There’s a killing blow and being trapped forever in a black hole for LE to look forward to, though.  Weren’t there theories about him being trapped forever at the center of that black hole or whatever?  Huh.  I mean there WAS the garbage disposal that his metaphorical Jigsaw-head gets stuck in early in the comic after all.

Alright, Davepeta sticks him in there?  Cool.

Yeah, you just had to remind us that he’s going to be plunging into his dead sister’s gaping hole, didn’t you? >:|

Davepeta. How they were so unfettered and brave. How they sacrificed themselves by flying right into the black hole like...

Like a fucking piece of garbage, you can almost hear Dave saying. May God rest his soul.

Yup.  Closing another callback.  Why is it silent, though?  Did the black hole stop sucking now that it’s gotten almost everything but John, or is it just his blackout?  I mean, is the end of everything just a thing that “happens” (which is still pretty fine, Paradox Space had a pretty good run), or did it just stop, or is it yet to be resolved or re-John-creates-Paradox-Space’s-beginning-because-hes-the-only-thing-left-constituted if he inexplicably doesn’t die from his heroic wounds or?  And Terezi definitely didn’t go flying around Paradox Space’s dying remains just to get sucked in too, right?  I definitely haven’t seen the whole picture yet I guess.

==>

Alright, back to Rose... actually this post’s getting long so I’ll cut here and keep going in another post.

[seouledbysisi]

Moonlit

Chapter 15

Riley stood and smoothed down her gown. “Will you excuse me for a moment?” She leaned down and whispered to Junwon.

Junwon nodded and grabbed her hand softly. “Everything okay?”

She nodded with a small smile. “Yeah, I need to freshen up.” She walked over to where Sapphire was seating.

“Hey come to the bathroom with me.” She smiled at Bloo as if to ask if it was okay if she stole her away for a moment.

Sapphire looked over to Bloo. “I’ll be right back, okay?”

“Yeah for sure. I’ll be here waiting.” He fiddled with his hands.

Sapphire knew he was a bit uncomfortable with the situation at hand but there was nothing she could do about it.

Riley grabbed hers and Chaeyoung’s hand and they headed out of the ballroom and straight to the bathroom.

“Everything okay Riley?” Sapphire asked as she watched Riley stare at herself in the mirror.

Chaeyoung took a deep breath. “Who the hell is that chick? She’s awful!”

Riley and Sapphire burst out laughing.

“Oh yeah you didn’t get the pleasure of meeting her. Well that is Woojae’s ex or something. She was also at the hospital visiting him.” Sapphire explained.

Chaeyoung’s eyes widened. “She’s all over him and it’s nauseating! Like get a freaking room. This is a gala and she’s acting more like it’s a strip club or something.”

Riley smirked. “That’s why I had to get away. It’s awkward with her at the table and Woojae seems uncomfortable. It’s just annoying. Why the heck would he bring her and not even ask you?”

Sapphire shrugged. “I don’t know and honestly I don’t care. Bloo asked me and that’s all that matters. I’m honestly having a really good time with him. He’s different now.” She gave them a shy smile.

Chaeyoung smiled. “At this point in team Bloo since Woojae wanted to bring that skank here!”

Sapphire laughed. “I better get back out there before Bloo thinks I’ve made a run for it.”

Riley poked her lip out. “The torture is real at that table and I don’t understand a word anyone is saying because no one is speaking English except when Junwon talks to me directly.”

“It’s because that girl is occupying the conversation so much. She’s really getting on my nerves. She’s an atheist toon whore. I’m ready to go.” Chaeyoung pouted.

“Me too. I’m done eating and Bloo’s friends are talking about going to a club or something in a little while.” Sapphire told them as they exited the restroom.

“I’m ready to get out of this gown and take off these heels and throw my hair up in a bun!” Riley was exhausted.

“Can we go back to y’all crib and just have a movie night?” Chaeyoung asked.

Sapphire and Riley both were in shock. “You actually wanna hang out with us?” Sapphire asked.

“I miss y’all.” She admitted and pulled them into her embrace.

“I’m pretty sure Junwon is staying over but I’m down if y’all are!” Riley agreed.

“Can Noah come?” Chaeyoung asked with her hands clasped together.

Riley rolled her eyes playfully. “Of course silly.”

“I guess I’ll be third wheeling it with you guys which I’m totally okay with!” Sapphire added and walked back to the table where Bloo was sitting.

“Boo!” She said in his ear.

He jumped a little and laughed. “You know you could’ve gave me a heart attack, right?”

She shrugged. “You already had one when you first saw me tonight.” She winked and sat down beside him.

“Aye man, you clubbing tonight with us?” Nafla asked.

Bloo glanced over at Sapphire.

“You’re free to go. You’ve made tonight good for me. You don’t owe me anything else.” Sapphire nodded.

Bloo thought for a moment. Did he really want to go to a club when he could spend more time with this beautiful lady. “What are you planning on doing?”

“I’m going home and getting comfortable. I’ll probably lay down and watch movies or just go to sleep. You can go with the guys, I swear it won’t make me upset.”

“I could go home too, maybe call you?” Bloo suggested.

Sapphire shrugged. “Whatever you wanna do.”

“Or-“ Bloo started.

Sapphire raised an eyebrow. “Or what?”

“I could come over your place and watch movies with you? I don’t really want the night to end. We don’t need to do anything I just want your company.” He explained.

Sapphire’s cheeks warmed up a bit. “No sex involved buddy.”

“I don’t want you for that. I’m down to cuddle, I’m really good at that. But you already know that.” Bloo pulled her into a hug. “I am trying to change, let me prove it to you.”

Sapphire took a deep breath. “Okay.”

Bloo began to grin. “Riley won’t mind right?”

“No, Chaeyoung and their boyfriends are going to be there anyway. I was just going to join them for a movie night.” She laughed a bit.

“Well now you have me, so you won’t be alone.” Bloo grabbed her hand and pulled her towards Riley’s table.

Everyone stood getting ready to leave.

Woojae looked over at Sapphire. They locked eyes. He could feel the tension and he had no idea she would be there and he didn’t know how to explain why he was there with someone else but he knew she deserved some type of explanation. He could tell by her aura that she didn’t want that explanation right then though and he was trying his best to respect that but something in him really wanted to talk to her. His date excused herself from the group and went to the bathroom.

Woojae tapped Sapphire on the shoulder. “Hey how are you?”

Sapphire looked up at him and simply stared. “Hello. I’m really good actually. This has been a nice night!”

Her enthusiasm took him aback. It was like a slap in his face. “Oh...wow. That’s good. Can we talk for a moment?”

She looked over at Bloo.

“I’m going to go tell Nafla that I’m heading with you guys. I’ll be right back.” He kissed her cheek and walked away.

Woojae hated their interaction. He actually thought Bloo might be out of the picture finally but clearly he wasn’t. “So you’re here with Bloo I see.”

She nodded. “Yep, he invited me.”

“Well that was nice of him. I wanted to invite you but-“

She shook her head. “You don’t owe me an explanation.”

“No but I want to. I need to. I wanted you here with me, even more now that I see you with him and you seem happy but my parents have really been on me about her. Actually my dad doesn’t care who I date but my mom really likes her. Her family and my family are pretty close. There’s nothing happening between us though I swear!”

Sapphire chuckled. “Honestly it doesn’t matter if there was something going on. You chose who you wanted to be here with and that’s fine so don’t try and pacify me over a decision that you felt was best for you. I promise you I’m good. We’re good.”

“It’s not like that-“ Woojae started but Bloo walked up so he ended the conversation. “Y’all have a good rest of the night.” He nodded in Bloo’s direction and walked away.

Bloo figured it’d be best not to even worry about what their conversation was about. “You ready to go?”

“Yes because my feet are killing me! These heels have got to go.” She said as she walked hastily to his vehicle.

Sapphire and Bloo made it to the apartment first.

“I’m going to get changed and I’ll meet you back out here.” She told him and headed to her room. Before she disappeared she stepped back. “I’m being rude, would you like something to drink?”

He shook his head. “I know where the fridge is. Go get comfortable, I know your feet hurt.” He gave her small smile.

The others arrived shortly after and the other two men sat down in the living room with Bloo.

“I don’t think we’ve officially met but I’m Noah or Haon. Whichever is fine.” Noah extended his hand to Bloo.

Bloo shook it. He was shocked that this moment wasn’t awkward. “I’m Bloo. Nice to meet you.”

“So you’re dating Sapphire? Are y’all serious or-“ Noah interrogated.

Bloo chuckled. “We’ve been hanging out for a while but this was our first date I guess.”

“Hm. Do you want it to get serious?”

Junwon pushed Noah. “Noah, Stop! You gonna rub him off.”

“No it’s cool. I really like her if that’s what you’re getting at. I think she’s special and I like her in my company.” Bloo shrugged a little. “That’s all i got for now.”

Noah nodded. “That’s all you need, bro. Thats the perfect recipe for something good to happen. Me and Chaeyoung aren’t perfect but I like being around her and when I’m not around her I’m wishing she were there. I’m not the most romantic person but we have fun and she seems to like me so it’s all good right now.”

Junwon nodded quietly.

The girls came out with their jammies on.

Sapphire sat on the couch next to Bloo. She made sure she wasn’t right under him. She still felt a little weird spending time with him on this level.

Riley snuggled into Junwon’s side at the opposite end of the couch.

Chaeyoung took it upon herself to sit in Noah’s lap.

Riley cleared her throat as she eyed her little sister.

“What?!” Chaeyoung exasperated.

Riley sighed. “I forget you’re growing up. Watch those hands though Noah.”

“Duly noted ma’am.” He threw a thumbs up at her.

Sapphire grabbed a blanket and draped it across her legs. “Are you cold?”

Bloo smirked. “Are we sharing covers now? Man we’re moving on up.” He laughed.

“I’m sorry, I can get you one too if you want.” Sapphire squeezed her eyes shut from embarrassment. She didn’t want him to feel as though he was being treated like a boyfriend. She knew that was too much for him.

He grabbed the blanket and pulled it over his legs as well. “That was a joke, you know that right?”

She exhaled softly. “I’m sorry I’m just in my head.”

“Just calm down. This doesn’t have to be weird. You know me and I know you and I want to be here with you. Capiche?” He rubbed her leg softly with a whisper.

She looked up at him with dough-like eyes. “Okay.” She whispered back.

They had decided to watch a horror movie and boy was it scary. The girls were covering their eyes the most of the time.

Bloo pulled Sapphire’s legs up on his so she’d be more comfortable. He started to massage her feet.

Sapphire flinched. “I don’t like my feet to be touched.”

Bloo stared at her for a moment. “Do your feet still hurt?”

“I mean yeah but-“ she started.

Bloo continued to grip her feet so she couldn’t pull away. “Then let me massage your feet. You’ll love it by the time I’m done.”

She rolled her eyes and tried to take her mind off of it.

Riley was mesmerized as she watched their interaction. Bloo had really left a mark on her tonight. “You never told me why he was being weird earlier.” She whispered to Junwon.

Junwon looked up at Bloo & Sapphire. “He’s really feeling her. Like a lot. He told me and Noah that he likes being around her. He’s smitten for sure.”

Riley smiled a bit as she eyed Bloo and Sapphire and then Chaeyoung and Noah sleeping on the loveseat. She felt like things were finally coming together as they should. She felt like Sapphire was finally getting back to herself. She felt like love was actually tangible for her. What shocked her was that she was oddly comfortable with the idea that Bloo could possibly be her saving grace. She didn’t see that coming.

“Why are you smiling so much?” Junwon asked as he pulled her closer into him.

She shrugged and stroked the tats on his arms. “Because tonight could’ve gone a lot different and I pictured it differently but in the end everyone’s happy and that makes me happy.”

He kissed her forehead. “Well I’m as happy as I’d like to be. . .” Junwon started.

Riley craned her neck around to look up at him. “What? Why?!”

“Because I really want to get closer to you and I can’t do that if we’re out here with everyone else.” He pouted.

Riley rolled her eyes. “You want some of mamas love?”

He nodded as he caressed her cheek.

She stood from the couch and held her hand out. “Then i’ma give you what you want.”

[tumblunni]

Ehh i think i finally summed up why all of this steven universe diamonds stuff has been so underwhelming.

YES you can redeem a villain

but you have to

actually

TRY

Yes you can write a story about the world’s most fuckin horrible person being really actually sad at heart

Yes you can write a story about an abusive parent actually being able to change

Yes you can write a story about some wild genocidal alien civilization of asshole space rocks actually only doing it because something something societal pressure DESPITE BEING THE ONES IN CHARGE WHO SET THE DAMN RULES I GUESS

But fucking hell its not gonna be EASY and you shouldn’t treat it that way.

All of this shit was SO fucking quick?? And everything else WASNT!

You spent SO long hyping up these guys you spent SO long convincing us that they WERE evil and that they had entirey different motives for what they were doing and EVEN WITHIN THIS FUCKING EPISODE you spent more time showing us White Diamond being absolutely ridiculously existentially horrifyingly awful and refusing every offer everyone gave her to help and refusing every chance and fucking fucking goddamn violating people’s entire minds and just.. fuck.

After all that you cant just fuckin have steven walk up to blue and yellow and say “hey everything you did was bad” and them go “GEE WE NEVER KNEW!” for some reason this time they’re convinced in a single sentence despite it being the same sentence steven said before in every damn episode and pink said to them years before and every person they abused and enslaved and mutilated and KILLED said while they were DYING

And you can’t fucking have white diamond never redeem herself and never change and never admit she’s wrong and steven SOLVE IT WITH FUCKING FIGHTING WHILE SAYING HE DOESNT WANT TO, WHILE THE ENTIRE SHOW TRIES TO CLAIM THE REASON THEY ARE DOING IT THIS WAY IS BECAUSE OF PACIFISM

because seriously he?? just defeated her?? and this made her?? change???

redeeming a villain shouldn’t be easy. redeeming a villain has to have the villain TRY. white diamond has done nothing to prove she really has a heart, prove that she really did all this for sympathetic reasons, prove that she’s able to change, AND ESPECIALLY NOTHING TO MAKE IT UP TO ANY OF THE PEOPLE SHE’S HURT

she just got defeated and basically admitted she’s wrong cos she has no other choice. and i guess her blushing because steven issued a SICK BURN to her is meant to be enough proof that her entire motivation so far has been because of self confidence issues forcing her to put up a false front aka her entire personality we saw so far. If you wanna tell me she’s entirely different to what we saw so far then please could you please give it more screentime than twelve goddamn seconds.

This is like how yellow and blue just suddenly were accepted as part of the family and steven agreed to go with them to homeworld literally just because they realized he “is really pink diamond”. Like they never fucking repented or actually learned to empathise with humans or ever explained why they dont empathise with humans no nope the only answer we got is that they were sad about their sister/daughter/friend dying even though they were already doing all the same evil stuff before that and its what caused her to leave in the first place. no we’re gonna just completely trust them instantly and not even continue making an effort to convince them? we’re gonna trust them so much we’re gonna trust that white diamond will also change just cos we beat her up? COS SERIOUSLY STEVEN FUCKIN DEFEATED BLUE AND YELLOW IN A FIGHT AND THATS THE END OF THEIR ARC, HOW IS THIS PROVING THE POWER OF PACIFISM!! beating everyone up and then saying the same singular sentence again and somehow now it works!! or saying “my mum was pink diamond” and it doesnt convince them but hey if we say it again with magical proof its true then i guess it works now. wow that sure does argue the power of words i guess

everything EVERYTHING they did was just a fuckin misunderstanding cos they dont UNDERSTAND they were doing bad and thus they dont have to face any form of consequences beyond being mildly embarassed i suppose.

if you wanna make that the ending then you need to work to disprove all the hours you spent implying that.. yknow.. they were doing things because they were evil

and even if theyre sympathetic they still did evil things and they still need to work to prove that theyve changed

and ESPECIALLY if you’re making a show very heavy on subjects like LGBT discrimination it shouldnt be FUCKIN WOW UNEXPECTED that the audience would see this plot as a metaphor for stuff like homophobia and abusive parents and.. yknow.. societal oppression in a law system that forces you to live in the closet in constant fear of being discovered and killed. and all the other apparantly accidental undertones of racism and extermination of indigenous people in stolen land which YOU REALLY SHOULD HAVE EXPECTED PEOPLE TO SEE WHEN THE PLOT IS LITERALLY EXTERMINATING PEOPLE TO STEAL THEIR LAND

all of that means you need to do MORE work to prove that that isnt actually what the plot is supposed to be, and more work to redeem villains who are very heavily goddamn triggering to a large part of the vunerable audience YOU SPECIFICALLY MARKETED YOURSELF TOWARDS

this was just so fucking overwhelming and somehow rushed despite being an hour long episode, and i hate it because the show spent so much effort on so much other stuff yet decided to half ass it at the really important part that NEEDED to have thought and time put into it if it was gonna nail the landing

especially after ALL THAT FUCKIN TIME AND EFFORT INTO THINGS THAT ONLY AMPED UP THE VILLAINY AND TENSION OF THESE GUYS AND MADE IT SO MUCH WORSE

like fucking hell how can you be so tone deaf??? this has been in the planning for so damn long and theyve been working on it forever and THIS is what they chose to rush over? this is the priorities they thought were important? even just within this episode if youre struggling to fit it all in then like seriously cut out some of the stuff like the montage of unseen fusion forms that did basiclaly nothing but a few jokes, and the equally as rushed bad lars and sadie romance resolution. Which is another thing that needed a lot of work to fix when the introduction we got to these two was a really unhealthy relationship and a dude who refuses to change despite being given twelve chances but suddenly changes COMPLETELY on the thirteenth one and i guess cos he died that proves he’s all good now. Except he acts all weird and creepy in the very next episode and endangers his new friends by acting all possessive over sadie again and getting angry that she has other friends????

i hate it because ive had to deal with the fandom telling all the people who were rightfully uncomfortable with how these subjects were handled that oh we’re just overreacting and oh wait and see cos they totally have a big plan for the ending or something that’ll make it all make sense. And comparing people being triggered by child abuse and racism to “huhu those dumb su criticals who hate the art style” or whatever...

god, man, its just a deflection of what the issue really is

“oh youre saying NO VILLAINS can EVER be redeemed and NOBODY can EVER talk about dark stuff in shows without being SECRETLY BAD AND SUPPORTING IT IN REAL LIFE?”

no im not saying that im just saying the subjects are fucking depressing to people who’ve suffered from the real life stuff and the villain redemption should be GOOD and should THINK ABOUT THOSE PEOPLE IN THE AUDIENCE if it wants to make up for it

like fucking hell look at how much zuko from avatar went through before his redemption. look at how long he struggled with his morality and how long it took him to realise he was wrong. look at how much detail they showed us on all the people who negatively influenced him into making the bad choices he did. look at how much he went through to make up for what he did and apologise to everyone he hurt. look at how everyone he hurt didnt believe him at first and it took a while for everything to work out. look at how sometimes he messed up and took steps backward before getting to where he needed to be. and look at how he actually changed as a person and continued learning and growing and trying to be a good person even far into the future after the story ended.

hell, fuckin look at PERIDOT! peridot had a full goddamn zuko arc! peridot had more screentime than all of the diamonds combined, and it was way better utilized! she had a full process from being introduced as a scary villain BECAUSE OF MISUNDERSTANDING WHO SHE REALLY WAS, then being revealed as having a fully rounded personality, flaws and redeemable traits while still being a villain. and moments of her proving that she did indeed only become a villain because she didnt understand what she was doing was wrong, and a personality that matched with that reveal rather than having NO INDICATION she was like that until it suddenly happened only after she was defeated. and her redemption came slowly through friendship with steven and it had moments of the other characters not instantly trusting her and also of her making mistakes and struggling with believing steven’s philosophy when it went against everything she knew about life. and speaking of which it was established that she had a very different life which had negative influences pushing these ideas upon her, and tough stuff that made her scared and pressured. Not just being in a high position of ruling over a planet in the lap of luxury and ONLY AFTER BEING DEFEATED do we learn that they feel pressured by the societal expectation to be perfect and they actually would have agreed all along with dismantling the system but they were just too afraid to be honest. Or whatever the fuck that rushed ending was trying to go for! And man even after peridot joins the team she’s NOT redeemed yet, she’s initially only halfway doubting herself and only teaming up with steven because they’re both afraid of the cluster. And she messes up and says horrible shit to her new friends and feels the consequences of her actions and chooses to change. And her ultimate choice to switch sides is REALLY hard, she gets so close to going back to the diamonds and its a great personal sacrifice on her part when she chooses to give it all up and make an enemy of the person she was so scared of!

and GAHHH that good redemption is one in a million episodes that really set up the diamonds Being Bad and should have been a goddamn tally in the “effort required in the fuckin ending” chart!

could we not have even just had one ten minute episode of blue and yellow going around earth and experiencing human life and realizing there’s things worth protecting? or a few damn scenes foreshadowing white being actually insecure and lying to protect herself, rather than GENUINELY ABUSIVE BECAUSE SHE’S BAD?

and seriously even if you hurt people because you hate yourself YOU STILL HURT THEM

a sympathetic backstory should be a reason why they COULD be redeemed, not proof that they already are redeemed just because the backstory was stated in words and nothing else has fuckin changed.

imagine if zuko just lost one fight to aang and said “yes but my dad abused me” and aang was like “oh no now lets team up with zuko to beat up his dad” and none of the bad things zuko did were ever mentioned again and also he keeps his season 1 personality throughout the entire series

imagine if peridot fuckin.. just changed sides cos she’s funny and we like her. people wantedher to change sides as soon as she acted funny and likeable but they still made the effort to actually prove she had changed! the diamonds didnt act remotely harmless or remotely good until they just suddenly are in the very last episode.

hoo

fucking

ray

also why are we constantly just ignoring all these dark things about homeworld? like the episode with holly blue agate and the famethyst slave caste and all the creepy ways the entire place operated. i totally thought thatd.. yknow.. EVER BE REFERENCED AGAIN?? its never even mentioned that anyone even WANTS to go back and save them?? and the human zoo were outright stated to be like.. unsaveable. “oh theyve never known real human life and theyre happy in their slavery so itd be cruel to take them away from it” One off episode, forgotten about. And the creepy as fuck scenes of gems being BUILT INTO THE WALLS AND DOORS AS SECURITY SYSTEMS and the confirmation that more lapis situations are constantly going on yet somehow that singing hairbrush person doesnt get all the sympathy that she did. And steven going daww at the pebbles instead of being horrified that theyre born to work as servants and forced to live in the walls because the noblewomen dont want to look at them? and he asks them to make him a new outfit?? and theres no plot anything involving them except them puttering around in the background outfitting?? like was none of this meant to be seen as PROOF THAT THE DIAMONDS WERE EVIL and PEOPLE WHO NEEDED TO BE SAVED????

goddddd

please say they were rushed or something please say this is all the faultof being given less time than they expected please say there were other plans for other episodes we didnt see that would have given at least slightly more substance to any of this

also why wasnt this even advertised as the last episode if its the last fuckin episode

hhhh well at least obsidian was a great character design and so were the other fusions and new outfits even if they only appeared for twelve seconds. and white’s whole scary evil mind invasion stuff was really good even if it actually hurt the episode by being good, kinda

man im not even mad or anything i just feel mehh and bored and like im actually glad its over. i never wanted to feel that way about a show that used to be so good. i kinda wish the earliest episodes werent so good if the answers to all those well set up mysteries were gonna have so much less effort than the setup itself

...man i should make a whole post about all the mistaken ways i THOUGHT the show was gonna go that actually would have been way more interesting than the real answer.

i’m just super glad that my last theory was wrong cos wow that would have been the only thing worse than this ending! when white pearl first appeared before we’d actually seen white diamond, and it had all this thing that white diamond hadnt been seen in ages.. well i was worried it was setting up some sort of reverse twist where actually white pearl is bodysnatching white diamond instead of vice versa. So the whole evil empire would actually be run by a member of the slave class that its oppressing, and the diamonds/representative of the upper class would actually be poor victims all along. dear god i am so glad i got that wrong! tho im weirded out by how evil white/pink pearl looked in that first hint that she was originally pink pearl??

anyway basicallly im just so fuckin tired

[simplykpopaus]

A Fight I’m Willing To Take

Requested: Hi~, could I request an NCT scenario where the main character is cold to strangers, has a hardcore resting bitch face, appears really strong and independent, maybe a bit manly?, but she jokes around a lot with her few close friends, and has a beautiful smile, when she finally does smile. I don’t have a specific member in mind, just whoever you think would be attracted to her and be up of for the challenge of getting her :)

A/N: Thank you for requesting this! Hope you enjoy it! 

The day he met you Lucas wanted to get to know you. He had class with you. You never really spoke up. Always sitting by yourself, on your phone. People scared to sit near you because you looked “mean”. He didn't think you looked mean, he though you just needs someone to talk to, someone who understands  you. He was determined to be that someone. 

He had noticed one day that outside your class you were talking to Mark, Jaehyun, Ten and Johnny. he saw that you didn't seem uncomfortable around them, how you were speaking to them, like you were actually friends and it wasn’t someone bothering you. He figured they were your friends, it was a good thing because he is friends with them too. When you walked into the classroom, he walked over to them. 

“Hey Lucas! Whats up man” said Mark. 

“I didn't know you guys knew them” replied Lucas.

“Who, Y/n? Yeah man we have been friends with her for years now” said Jaehyun.

“Does someone have a crush on y/n? and by someone I mean you.” said Ten. The rest of them looking at Lucas waiting for an answer. He was about to say something to them but instead turned around and walked into the class. Laughing at how nervous he was. 

From inside you could see them talking to him and laughing at him when he walked in. Thinking to yourselves ‘Are they being mean to the kid?’ You wanted to say something to him ask him if he was okay but you didn’t know him so you just decided to stay quiet. When class was over you went to talk to Mark, but you found him sitting with the guy from your class. 

“Hi there y/n” You turned around shocked because you had no clue Jaehyun was there. 

“JAE! Omg you scared me don't do that” you said. Making him laugh. 

“Y/n off guard?? WHAAAAAT this is crazy what has you so distracted.” he said in a teasing way. Pushing him a bit you said “Nothing, I was going to talk to Mark but he is busy” Looking over your shoulder Jaehyun see’s him talking to lucas. 

“Oh that’s just Lucas, He seems scary but he isn't I promise” he said about to walk towards them he turned around to you and said “Oh he was asking about you earlier.” Smiling he turned back around and started walking towards them. He turned around to drag you along with him but you were nowhere to be seen. 

You had walked off the second he turned around. Going to the café you always go to. There you met up with johnny and Ten. You had been there what seemed like two hours now. The three of you cracking jokes and having a good time. Not seeing Lucas, Mark and Jaehyun walk in.

“Wow that a beautiful smile” Lucas whispered to himself, but Mark had heard. 

“Wait so you do have a crush on them?” Mark asked him, Lucas looked at him and said “You heard me whisper that?” Mark laughing at him he said “Well it wasn’t really a whisper, but i’ll let you know now, it won’t be easy to get y/n to open up to you.” Smiling to himself he looked over to Mark.

“I don’t want it to be easy, I want to fight for it” he said making Mark shake his head and drag him towards your table. You had been in the middle of a laugh when you noticed three bodies stop next to the table. Looking up you were a bit surprised to see Lucas there. 

“Here sit with us we were just talking” Said ten making the three of them sit. You scooted over letting Mark and Lucas sit with you while Jaehyun sat next to Ten and Johnny. You guys had all started to talk again but this time you weren't talking as much. Not being used having someone else in the group. 

At school you would go sit in your normal seat but this time instead of being alone Lucas would sit next to you. Always trying to have a conversation with you. You never letting it go past a his first question. 

“Hi Y/n whats up” he would say and you would always reply with “nothing” and putting your headphones in.

You had gotten used to it. Everyday the same question. Everyday the same happy attitude. This happened for weeks. Making you wonder why he wasn't giving up. If your reply was always going to be the same. Mark had also given him your number. Your replies always short then too. He hadn't showed up one day which made you a bit sad. You somehow missed his bright smile in front of you. 

Later that night he had texted you. Wanting to know what the assignment was for class. You had replied a bit too quick which had surprised him. “Omg y/n you replied so quickly...DID YOU MISS ME TODAY?!?!” he sent you. You not being able to hold back the laugh because he was right replied with a small “yes”. This is something you shouldn't have told him.

After a couple of weeks, you accepting the fact that you might have a small crush and him always being there around you. You opened up. All of you hanging out at the same café every friday.

You had been laughing at the joke Ten had said. 

“You know Y/n you have such a beautiful smile, another reason why I like you so much.” You all turned around and looked at Lucas. Noticing everyones stares he said “I said that out loud didn't I...” All of them nodding and you just string at him shocked. One by one they got up and left you two alone. 

“So...you like me” you said. He stared at you for a second before saying. 

“Well yes, I do, I have for a long time. I understand if you don't like me, if you just see me as a friend I get it. You don't have to like me back. We can be friends if thats all you want” 

“Hey hey wait Lucas I like you too okay, ever since the day you didn’t go to class I realized I liked you” you replied. He instantly smiled and grabbed your hands. 

“So...Y/n will you go out with me?” you smiled at him and nodded. he leaned across the table and gave you a kiss on the cheek.

From outside the café you could hear the guys cheering. Looking out the window they were all just staring at you two with he biggest hear eyes ever.

[sincerely-us-imagines]

Fool me once (evan hansen x reader)

 “Request for #2 of the hilarious writing prompts with Evan x Reader (and a lot of fluff pls my boyfriend just dumped me I need to live vicariously through these ficlets) thank you!!!” Requested by anonymous

I’m sorry to hear that dude :(  i hope this helps!

As usual, I’m too lazy to proofread things, so let me know if there are any mistakes! Also this gets super ooc near the end i’m really sorry.

warnings: swearing? i think thats it??

Fall was always Evan’s favorite time of year. He loved watching the leaves change colors and drift off the trees. He loved the feeling of crisp autumn air on his face, turning his cheeks and nose a little pink. He loved being able to walk around in nature without getting uncomfortably sweaty or freezing his ass off.

He had called you early this morning, buzzing with excitement at the first cool day of the season. He invited you to go apple picking with him; something you had never done. You agreed, of course, and promptly hopped out of bed to get dressed and run a few errands before picking him up.

Now you were strolling hand in hand back towards the old barn at the entrance of the orchard in your light jackets and knitted hats. Evan swung a wooden basket half full of red apples at his side, talking excitedly about everything he wanted to do with you this fall.

“...and Ellison State Park does this scavenger hunt. Oh! And the old farm at the edge of town, you know the one? It does this- this haunted corn maze thing! I don’t actually like scary things, but if you do-” he approached the counter in the barn to weigh and pay for the apples. You saw the way he faltered when he realized he was about to have to talk to the cashier. You squeezed his hand gently and stepped forward, paying and making polite small talk with the woman at the old fashioned cash register.

“Thanks,” Evan mumbled, not looking at you, once you were headed back to your car, “Y-You really didn’t have to. I could’ve--” You waved his statement away with a smile.

“It’s fine. Now what were you saying about a corn maze?” He looked up with a smile and kissed you on the cheek before continuing telling you about every-- every- harvest time activity in town.

You unlocked your front door and made your way to the kitchen to set down the apples.

“Oh! I got caramel squares this morning so we could make caramel apples!” You told him, digging around in the cabinet to find the aforementioned candies, knocking a box of Kraft macaroni into the floor in the process.

When you finally found them, you stood up and turned on the stove, dumping them into the pot to melt.

Evan stood beside you, skewering the apples through what he called “their belly buttons” and lined them up on some wax paper, bumping his hips into yours as you stirred the caramel sauce.

Evan’s phone rang in his pocket. He stopped to dig it out and checked the screen.

“It’s Jared.”

“Well, answer it then.”

He made a face but swiped the screen to answer anyway.

“Hello?” you could faintly hear Jared’s voice on the other side.

“I’m at (y/n)’s.” Jared said something and Evan’s face turned the color of the apples on the counter. “I- Jared!! NO! W-We’re not-- we’re making caramel apples!!” You heard Jared cackle and continue taunting him. Evan gestured towards the back door and you nodded, watching him hurry out, repeating “Shutupshutupshutupshutup,” the entire time.

You laughed and leaned back against the counter, looking around the kitchen. Your eyes locked on an onion on the island and a devious plan began to unfold in your head. You bit your lip and glanced out the back window. Evan was flushed, talking to Jared with grand hand gestures he couldn’t see. You grabbed the onion and a skewer and rolled it in the caramel until it was evenly covered, following it up with a couple apples for camouflage, snickering the whole time at your brilliant plan.

Evan would probably want something to wash the taste out of his mouth, you figured, eying the box of Kraft mac and cheese. You dug an empty plastic pitcher out from a cabinet and began to fill it with water.

“Sorry,” Evan came back inside after a while. “He was being… him.”

“Don’t worry about it.” you took a breath to keep yourself from laughing. “I dipped a couple apples to make sure the sauce was thick enough.”

Evan’s eyes only briefly drifted over the wax paper.

“And it’s good?”

You nodded. He grabbed an apple and dipped it in the pot, accidentally slinging the caramel all over the place as he turned it.

“Oh! (Y/n), I-I’m so sorry!” Evan grabbed a towel and tried to wipe the caramel out of your hair but ended up just rubbing it in. His eyes went wide as he watched your sticky hair grow more tangled.

“Oh no…” He wet the towel in the sink and tried again, only succeeding in making a slimy mess in your hair.

“I am so sorry, oh my god.” Evan looked close to tears.

“Baby, baby, it’s okay.” you grabbed his face between your hands and placed a small kiss on his lips and giggled, “I promise.”

His cheeks were hot to the touch.

“Let’s finish the apples first and we’ll worry about it after, okay?”

He nodded and dipped the remainder of the apples very slowly and carefully.

“Let’s go fix this while they cool, yeah?” you suggested, gesturing towards the clump of sugar in your hair.

“I’m really sorry, (y/n).” Evan apologized for probably the hundredth time as you leaned over the side of the bathtub. He took a plastic cup and dumped warm water over your hair before reaching for the shampoo.

“It’s okay, Evan. Really.” your voice echoed in the tub. “I’ll get back at you later if it’ll make you feel better, okay?” he couldn’t see the smirk on your face from your position.

He mumbled something you couldn’t hear over the running water and began to lather the shampoo in your hair.

You sat on the sofa with your hair wrapped in a towel and Evan laying between your legs while you watched television.

“Think it’s been an hour yet?” you asked casually, despite the giddiness in your stomach.

“Jared called at 2:30 so,” Evan checked his phone for the time. “Yes. Do you want me to get them?” he started to sit up. You slipped out and pushed him back.

“I’ve got ‘em!” you sang, skipping into the kitchen.

“Oh. Um, okay.”

You returned to the living room seconds later with a caramel covered treat in each hand.

“Here!” you held your left hand out towards Evan with a wide grin. He returned your smile and took his “apple”.

You watched as he bit into the sweet sugary lie. He was fine at first, but as he began chewing his face contorted into an awful expression. A giggle escaped your mouth.

“What the fuck??” he coughed around a mouthful of onion, eyes watering. Your giggle evolved into a full belly laugh. Evan didn’t usually swear.

He stood quickly, running to the kitchen and spitting the onion into the trash can, wiping his mouth on the back of his hand. You were right behind him, unable to control your laughter. Evan looked up to glare at you, spitting again to get the taste out of his mouth.

“What the hell?!” he shrieked.

“We’re even now.” you wheezed, gesturing to the towel on your head.

“Wha-- But- But you did that before I even got in here! And my thing was an accident!”

You grabbed the plastic pitcher from the fridge and poured a glass.

“Here,” you handed him the glass, still giggling, “Wash it down with some orange juice.”

He drank half of it in one swallow before sputtering and retching, spitting what was left in his mouth into the trash on top of the chewed up onion.

“What is that?!” he looked at the glass, bewildered.

You were absolutely wheezing when you picked up the empty mac and cheese packet from the counter behind you. He leaned over the sink and drank water straight from the tap.

“Y’know,” he leaned back against the countertop, crossing his arms defensively over his chest, “Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on you again for taking advantage of my compassionate and forgiving nature! How dare you!” he said with no real conviction.

You walked over and wrapped your arms around him. He kept his arms crossed and turned his head, pouting.

“I’m sorry, baby.” you kissed his cheek.

“You are not! You’re still laughing!”

You pressed your face into his shoulder to try to stifle your giggles.

“That was pretty mean, (y/n).”

“It was,” you agreed, calming down.

“I guess it was kinda funny, though.”

“It was.” you repeated.

“You’re taking a bite out of every single one of those before I eat them.” he gestured towards to apples still on the wax paper.

“Fair enough.”

“And,” he looked at you. “We’re not even anymore.”

“What? What do you mean?” you questioned, suddenly not finding much humor in the situation.

He only shrugged.

The next week you were at Evan’s house watching a movie when he entered the room with two Drumstick cones, handing one to you. You mumbled an absent minded thank you and bit into it, not diverting your attention away from the screen. An awful taste filled your mouth. It took a moment for you to register what it was.

“Is that toothpaste?” you asked incredulously.

Evan laughed and took a bite out of his own cone.

“Revenge is a dish best served cold.”