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I didn’t post anything about Adam Parrish’s bday today and now I’m mourning my own youth :(
#trc just represents this magical innocence and coming of age#and I’ve spent a lot of time really invested in and dedicated to the trc universe#and I guess I’ve just grown away from it and that’s not inherently a bad thing#but it feels so symbolic and it feels like a death in a way#and I feel like a bad person for not sticking with a series that has helped me through so much#like even though the characters and universe aren’t real it feels like I’m abandoning them#I have a nasty habit of overly anthropomorphizing things and ideas and feeling empathy for them as if they are real#and it’s particularly bad with this#I’m not interested in engaging with the series or fandom much anymore just bc I’ve changed and grown and whatever#and that makes me feel so guilty#as if the abstract idea of this series will feel sadness and dissipointment that I’ve abandoned it#idk guys I’m just mentally ill
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cuties i love talking about kevin day with you and this blog is mostly run on asks and kekeing with you all but i must ask that you don't send me any more asks doomguessing about tsc. i understand and sometimes i even agree but it's just not something i'm interested in talking about! the world is so beautiful and large and kevin day has the prettiest wettest biggest eyes in the world. send me asks about him instead ok
#im not anon scolding its just that (motions vaguely)#ive done my due talking about all the things that are bad in aftg#the racism specifically gets to me the most and i dont want to talk about it anymore#if you scroll down my blog you will find my criticism of how thea and nicky and riko were handled#you will find it all#and im not interested in rehashing it anymore#i dont know if nora sakavic has changed or not in the past ten years#and im not particularly interested in guessing either#i enjoy the original aftg work and its what ill keep blogging about unless#kevin day is so prevalent in tsc its inevitable for me to read it#if that is not the case then i probably wont bother with it#and if youre afraid itll be a bad book you shouldnt either#lets talk about kevin instead. Forever#i promise outside of my little kevin day microblog i already have plenty to worry about re: the horrors#i am a real life communist if you can believe it#so i understand. and i know. but we must be happy#its the only way to exist#txt
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Oh my g-d the fucking. Visual double-take Jimmy does IN MINECRAFT to Pearl saying no he doesn't have Judge Judy and Executioner. The realization dawning on his blocky little face
#i didnt know someone could go sheet white in minecraft but the way he just Freezes alshdlshdkddk#nosey neighbors#bigb#pearl#also love the little moment of Bigb turning to Pearl before he says maybe you dont even have the frog anymore#theyre such an interesting team#jimmy#also jimmy is. particularly cringefail this ep#limited life spoilers#limited life#24lsmp#24lsmp spoilers#salem tag
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kind of annoys me sometimes how I can happily listen to my roommate explain the entire plot of whatever she's currently into but when it comes to my interests she can only listen for a few mins before wordlessly walking out of the room
#ive only slept 4 hours and its a sunday so im probably just cranky and getting irrationally annoyed idk.#but i wanted to talk abt revenant gun bc im enjoying it and havent gotten to discuss it w anyone :-(#i dont wanna post on here bc i dont wanna see spoilers and i dont have anything to say that other fans would find particularly interesting#ik half the arcs of the veilguard characters despite the fact ill never play it bc i like listening to her + hearing her opinions#but damn i guess she doesnt gaf shes got better things to do. im not being fair i get we jusr socialise differently n thats fine.#and ik its not true but sometimes i feel like she doesnt like being around me very much bc shes always halfway out the door#and she doesnt suggest we watch shit together anymore n has turned me down the last few times ive suggested it#but ik shes doing shit w other ppl shes always calling n playing games n stuff w other friends so well maybe its a little true#and she acts so strange around me sometimes like she'll move to the other side of the room if i go open the fridge or whatever#like damn girl im not gonna fucking bite u. whats up with the constant 5ft distance. bc u dont ever do that with other friends just me.#and then it pisses me off when it sort of comes up as a side thing to smth else bc it ONLY ever comes up around other ppl she'll never#bring it up directly with me and she'll blame it on me as if we havent had this conversation multiple times where ive explained exactly#why im weird abt shit sometimes and where my boundaries are and what i would like and then nothing at all changes#like last time she brought it up around another friend she was like oh well we can hug more if u want like no we fucking cant bc u act#like we're magnetically repulsed u hate me being in ur space and only tolerate it when we're around other ppl which is why it makes ME#uncomfortable when she does try to be physically affectionate or whatever bc she 100% exclusively does it in front of others#like man u dont have to put on a fucking performance??? or even worse do it just bc u feel guilty abt leaving me out i hate being pitied#even if ik i very obviously do get hurt at being left out. but thats my problem man i would never fuck w someone elses boundaries#i hate hate hate when ppl have inconsistent conditional boundaries and never communicate what the fucking conditions are so theyre#constantly moving the benchposts around and acting unpredictably like how am i supposed to know where they are!!!!!! please#snd then so embarrassing to pointedly say its bc of MY behaviour in front of someone else like oh ok. u couldnt have told me this before.#in private so we could actually communicatr. sorry this has gotten so off track im feeling so gross this morning and everything is#frustrating me im so tired i feel nauseous ughhhh#okay well anyway. got my list of tasks lets just focus on this shit instead before i spend yet another sunday miserably ruminating#.vent#im not actually mad at her or anything like i said we just socialise differently we have different incompatible flavours of autism#and thats not her fault but its just so frustrating that we cant seem to communicate very well. i think im allowed to be frustrated#anyway yeah sorry im leaving it im leaving it. i should go polish my boots before i shower
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so down bad for any sort of real life in person connection and community and engagement opportunities that i dont have to commute to the city for or pay for and isnt a job and isnt over zoom what if i started going to church
#ppl always say “just go to the library!!!!” when ppl complain about zero free third spaces anymore but like. To do what. yes my library#hosts events but nothing im particularly interested in and half of them are on zoom. i cant tell u how much i DONT want to join a zoom call#ever again. i need Real Life Face to Face connection. its Dire.#cowboy posts
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was gonna drop I Want In after ep 3 since i was kinda put off by the toilet humor in the first couple of episodes and it didnt fully earn my favor back after that but the few osc people i still follow were raving about the most recent episode so i tuned in anyway and. Yeah i still dont like it that much... sad! well theres other shows
#its like. fine i dont think theres anything particularly wrong with it it just doesnt really grab me#tho i will say uhh it really irked me personally when the known whiny brat character that nobody really likes character yelled at everyone-#-to quiet down 'bc they had a migraine' and this was visibly annoying to everyone else#bc like. idk man i have chronic migraines and i always feel bad asking for accommodations.#thats not like an actual condemnation of the show though of course#like i 100% recognize that is way more a reflection of Me than the actual writing and i dont think its worth kicking up a fuss about at all#but yknow. still irked me specifically. i cant be Un Irked#i like some of the character designs though. fake fake candle is really cute#brifdi#i will say though that uhh since like. object shows as a genre are not my current primary interest anymore#i think ive kinda just lost interest in watching shows besides the ones i love the most#so i think that also is playing a part here
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do you. Have commissions open
yes and no? well not officially with set rates at the moment. but if you or anyone else is interested we can dm and figure something out with your budget!
#i also don’t have the energy or the interest rn to officially open commissions and then have to draw a portrait of someone’s boyfriend#no offense to the boyfriends i just don’t particularly gaf#also i have no idea how to set a reasonable rate anymore cause i have a degree and i should be getting paid a decent amount but also#im not trying to rob people dry over a fan art jpeg so#idk!#ive only been doing them for friends and family for the past few months#but if ur really really interested ofc dm me i can definitely squeeze in one or two
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#man browsing the dorian tag tonight is serving as a very good reminder#of why i don't like npc/npc romances in rpgs as just a general rule of thumb anymore#because unless one of them is a garrus-level fan fave; people tend to just decide that it's CANON and that's that#if it's an option that exists; that pairing just becomes synonymous with the characters themselves#and every second bloody post in the character tag is going to be ABOUT the pairing#so if you happen to be squicked by it or if you just don't particularly enjoy their dynamic; that's it; you're SOL&JWF#nothing quite like having to add filtered terms back to your list after literal years#and then seeing half the character tag get greyed out#sigh#squirrel plays dragon age#and tbh i'm fairly sure this is also exacerbated by the tumblr fandom being majority women but i'm gonna be real quiet about that#i don't mean this in the “women be shipping” type of way; this is not in a negative way ofc#i mean it as “women/afab people are more prone to playing female characters and romancing characters interested in women in general”#so like..... ten years on; yeah; probably few people who rolled male characters and romanced dorian#actually post in the dorian tag still#oh well back to my carefully curated dash i go#poking yall with a stick; keep posting please#i'm not sleepy and i lost interest in the short i was writing for the time being
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You can mute/blacklist certain words and tags. So when those people use certain tags you can mute it and you won't see it
I know, but unfortunately the way tumblr handles it is shit, plus it doesn't work if people don't tag this stuff.
plus, and I know this will sound petty, it does get really, really annoying when I'm scrolling through my dash and all the posts are just a grey square that just says 'POST CONTAINS TAGS YOU BLOCKED: DISCOURSE, QSMP' like that's nice but that's still 30 posts in a row that are greyed out and taking up space. I might as well just J past the posts after catching the first signs of it covering something I do not want to see
#asks#I genuinely hate how tumblr still shows us the posts we dont want to see but just slaps a sticker on top so we dont see it directly#theres a lot of jokes and memes about this topic as is like OOOH TEMPTING but honestly its just kind of a nuisance?#plus the filtering is just Bad#to give an example a few years back I had a mutual who got really into Thor. and I really dont like marvel so i blacklisted the word#however i am also a huge tolkien nerd and was following a lot of lotr/hobbit blogs. lotsa bagginshield especially#so every time there was a post about thorin it would be caught in the filter because yknow. THORin#plus again just the fact that people dont really tag this situation is just ://#I am neither too interested in ccs anymore nor is this a particularly pleasant topic for me so I want to stay away from it#for the record i do have muted/blacklisted tags and words. a lot of em#it just doesnt always work#and muting people for a week would just be easier
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A character study on Vlad’s descent into villainy and crumbling mental state, as well as how being the first (canonical) Halfa in history would have an effect on the state of religion, governments that claim to be separate from the church but in reality are not (because let’s be real, they’d fully take advantage of Vlad for their own ends), and the post-Pariah Dark Ghost Zone in particular.
#danny phantom#vlad masters#dannymay2023#this was an interesting piece to write#as someone that was born and raised catholic but doesn't practice anymore#and isn't atheist; i just don't practice religion#normally i approach religions in fiction w/ the same amount of wariness that JRPGs do#and by 'wariness' i mean 'FIGHT GODS'#but i was also feeling particularly vicious yesterday#especially given the state of the political climate in the states#so i decided to lean into it and tear it apart#and what better way to explore the concepts of religion and government and the fallout from learning about the Halfa#than through the big V-man himself?
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Does Steve have the best redemption arc in TV, or does he simply have the loudest?
#like. look. I think his heel-face turn at the end of s1 is an inspired piece of TV writing#not because it’s particularly deep or realistic#(it’s passable)#but because it’s fun and energizing and sets up a more interesting dynamic than if he died or stayed bad#but in all subsequent seasons the show tries to capitalize on the goodwill from his redemption#without having him meaningfully change#he’s just kind of stalled out at being basically nice but sort of clueless#which would actually be fine#if his arc was presented as one of self-actualization#I can root for Steve just finding his unconventional path to happiness while also being basically nice#but it’s galling to have everyone fawn over him for not being a high school bully anymore#while also minimizing his s1 behavior by framing Robin and Eddie’s initial hostility as mostly jealousy#(also. I would hope he wouldn’t be a high school bully anymore)#(as he’s not in high school)#I believe people can change after being shitty teens#it’s incredibly common because teenagers have poor impulse control and still-developing empathy#and also no one’s at their best in most high school environments#I would not care about his past if the show weren’t always insisting i like him so much for it
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#from interview: 'F8 key'#andrzej sapkowski#reading about him and his father and then about him and krzysztof i cry and it is really hard. i won't lie#i want to refrain from commenting on it too much because it's private and shouldn't be commented on by strangers like me#but i just. my heart goes out to him for the sole reason of family. that's all i should say and all i have to say#on a lighter note. thinking about all of the many posts i've seen which all give a variation of the same account:#'i haven't read since high school and i hated reading but i read the books after playing the games/watching the show and... this is awesome#it was similar for me indeed. i mean i love reading but i was not inspired to read for pleasure since childhood#not that i didn't like reading anymore but that i didn't feel there was anything particularly interesting to me#i wanted to read fantasy but i had the misconception that every 'adult' fantasy was intensely complex and dense writing#'adult fantasy' as in: i didn't want to read a children's series and i didn't want to read a YA because... well...#let's be real a lot of YA is romance#i am rambling here all i want to say is that this project is moving at a snail's pace but it is also very rewarding even in its infancy
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the unaffordability of one bedroom apartments in my area is something that can be so oppressive to me personally
#when i’m actively cooking something over a fire with earbuds in i’m not interested in having a five minute conversation with you.#when there’s visible food and grease all over the countertops that DOES in fact mean the kitchen should be cleaned soon yes even if we’ve#let it get worse than this before. if you want to send a text to the house group chat about pooling money to buy a new vacuum that’s great#and you can go ahead and do that without asking me while i’m busy exactly how you should phrase said text. if you use my knives you should#fucking PUT THEM BACK (three are now missing) and preferably without bits of food stuck on them though at this point i’m not even picky.#there are youtube videos about how to wash your dishes if you really can’t figure it out yourself it’s not the kind of thing you need to ask#your female housemate how to do. just. jesus CHRIST#my food is burned and i’m in a cranky mood and i can’t fucking take this anymore#my standards of cleanliness are clearly different from everyone else’s in this house which is just not a great situation to be in#god. anyway i’ve been feeling guilty because i’m finally starting to learn how to play the guitar so i’m going to be making a fair amount#of unpleasant noise in the house this year probably but tbh they can all just learn to live with it.#i am no longer feeling particularly interested in being considerate#caseyposting
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Black Widow: Deadly Origin (2010) #2
#finally#since Black Widow (2004) dropped major retcons regarded Natasha’s backstory and didn’t explain how any of that would work logistically#or fit with all of her prior history#this book is taking the time to make sense of it#and I am finding it super interesting#I haven’t made up my mind about how I feel about the portrayal of Ivan yet#I had been enjoying him as a positive father figure in Natasha’s life#but the portrayal of him as inappropriately in love with Natasha doesn’t not work for her story#and there are a few specific moments in this book where it came across as particularly compelling#though I did not find the conclusion of this book neatly conclusive enough regarding Natasha’s feelings about that situation#the original idea that Nick Fury orchestrated Natasha’s defection to the U.S. through hormones was /terrible/#just removed so much of her agency for so much of her history in one swift blow#so I really like how this book portrays Natasha as struggling with her programming#in a way that it’s not as neat as someone else making all the decisions for her#and just the layering of the two different backstories on top of each other#confusing Natasha#'I can't tell what's true anymore.'#'For some reason I feel I have skills I can offer- women I can be!'#it's very compelling#marvel#natasha romanoff#my posts#comic panels
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I think it's interesting to look at ideas they played with in dark souls 3 that made their way into Elden Ring, because while I don't think the Lord of Londor ending is nothing, it's fairly. A whole load of nonsense that's just kind of there.
And like, to a degree that fits the vibe of dark souls 3. It's all a whole load of nonsense; linking the fire, an age of dark, usurping the fire, it's all equally desperate attempts at mending a world that started circling the drain long ago.
And becoming Elden Lord in Elden Ring is similarly kind of vague as far as what it means and what exactly you accomplish by becoming elden lord. And it's similar to me in the way these desperate masses bow to you and beg for you to "make Londor whole", somehow.
Slightly less vague in Elden Ring; like the first flame, the Elden Ring has power, and power specifically to enforce a new Order upon the lands. And you get to choose what kind of Order that will be, or you can reject it and burn it all down, or you can reject it for something dark and frightening and uncertain.
#me vs dark souls 3#me vs elden ring#just ramblings. I have nothing concrete to say about it all#always struck that no matter what it's never an entirely independent enterprise#even as the Lord of Chaos despite what Melina says#you are *someone's* lord. There are those who want you to rise as the lord who denies and burns and destroys everything.#just interesting.#dark souls 2 keeps repeating the question 'what is a king' and more than not really exploring the answer in a manner I care about#I don't think dark souls 2 does a good job of. Why is this even a relevant question. Why do I care.#where dark souls 1 is more along the lines of. Just what Godfrey says. Whatever other trappings there may be#whatever other moralizing and propaganda may come about after the fact#a crown is warranted by strength.#I don't think dark souls 2 is nothing either I just don't think gathering the crowns granting you the ability to not be hollow anymore#is anything particularly interesting or relevant. Maybe 'what makes a king?' is explored but not well to my tastes#and certainly not well enough to repeatedly ask this question.#Aldia and Vendrick are annoying and I'll die on this hill
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I feel like whatever was going on with majima/mirei/katsuya in the early 90s was some sort of complicated bisexual love triangle situation. like majima is majima and katsuya’s handsome and eloquent and absolutely doesn’t seem straight to me, but on top of that it feels like there was some sort of confusing tension between katsuya and mirei, not sure if it was romantic or one-sided or what but. SOMETHING. I don’t know what the hell was going on with those three really but no way in hell do I believe the romantic/sexual/??? depth ends with majima and mirei
#katsuya is HANDSOME and CHARMING and ELOQUENT. I just KNOW at least one of them was into him. probably both#one way I’m imagining it could’ve went is like#katsuya introduces majima and mirei to one another and mirei crushes on him pretty quick (because she is 19 and quick to do so)#majima doesn’t really particularly have an interest in her- not cause she’s unattractive or anything probably mostly because she’s almost a#because she’s almost a decade younger than him and barely legal. but at some point she confides in katsuya about her feelings for him and#katsuya being the sweet and honorable kinda dude he is acts as a wingman and tries to get majima to go out with her#and eventually majima relents because he doesn’t want to end up admitting to katsuya that he actually had a thing for KATSUYA#and by playing wingman for his good friend mirei majima takes it as him being uninterested and thus doesn’t shoot his shot and yeah#katsuya’s hard to say no to and hey I mean maybe mirei- a civilian- will make his life more capable of Normalcy#she’s conventionally attractive and is a decent enough friend- albeit he didn’t really know what she was like as a person before she was#crushing on him and also. again. she’s 19 and an idol. so inevitably her identity in general is NOT solid yet#almost as if rebounding off a relationship he never even Got- things move insanely quickly with mirei and they’re married in less than a#year. the whole time katsuya is there cheering them on- he’s smart and I think he’d see the red flags when it comes to their ages and#maturity at least but I think that’d become more apparent over time and he’d start to have regrets but#it’s way too late for that. especially when she comes to him bawling her eyes out because she’s found out she’s pregnant and she has no#idea what to do. both for her career and because she’s literally barely an adult she doesn’t want a child at that point but obviously she#knows she’ll feel guilty and- more than that- deep shame for terminating. she’s insightful even at that age and also maybe can read majima#well enough to know that he might take her abortion as a sign for him to book it to no longer cause her anymore issues. katsuya reassures#her cause what else is he gonna do. but of course she’s right and his commitment issues kick in big time and yeah. over the years katsuya’s#the in-between still close with both of them. specifically he’s closer with mirei and they trust one another a lot more than majima with#either of them- just because majima’s Like That and his trust issues create distance easily. nonetheless at some point majima asks him if#he’s been single for so long because he was hung up on mirei and apologizes if he got in the way of them and that leads into some really#long overdue admissions and likely hooking up. but of course majima is STILL majima and again kinda books it because feelings are#inconvenient and their time for something like a relationship has passed (or something like that).#mirei often wonders if things would’ve been better if she’d have ended up with katsuya instead but similar to majima she’s career-focused#now and just wants to value him as a friend regardless of any lingering potential feelings. majima ends up falling hard for kiryu#sooner than later and life just moves on from any romanticism beteeen the three of them- a nostalgic closeness lingers instead#rambling#that was. a lot.
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