#just needed to get out of my system

[idsalgay]

not pointing fingers, but this is a reason i can never really have a platonic relationship in peace EVER (besides a couple people) online.

i dont know if this person in particular thought we were dating just because i called them lovey dovey sort names, AND got fake married ON the internet, but whats the point of saying and doing this then?

i dont talk on discord much, ever really. i have it for emergency reasons or art commissions. if im in a platonic relationship with you i started in october, i'll go on with my own life, with my own health, by myself, taken by myself. i'll be busy, considering nothing stays for me

i was always aroace in general, as i have stated many times in that server. i do not want a real relationship, nor have i agreed to one in there. its platonic. yeah, i married @moonysfavoritetoast, yeah, i married other people at school,

but breaking up? its stupid unless you explain why.

you can, i dunno-- say you dont wanna be friends? im sorry, but we weren't together if it was always platonic. i dont know if breaking up meant something else, but im still not really ever looking for relationships.

i call many people relationship names. such, shown here below.

theres more obviously, but these are intended platonic, which i stated before starting the fake online marriage. i do that with close friends as a joke, always. (again, ask evan what i do)

again, im not online much, im theorizing supposedly thats the reason, which i can understand

either way, i dont know what the point was, i dont know what i did,

and if you find my tumblr, respond to whatever im stating, please and thank you. i dont ramble much on here, or atleast mean to-- but dont start bringing a server into it. directly contact me if your uncomfortable.

[bigweldindustries]

going through the hades 2 stuff and im sorry but i just have to ramble a second because look at Hephaestus

he's not just a wheelchair user but also an amputee. an above knee amputee. wheelchair users are already next to nonexistant in video games but amputees exist in this really...disheartening? spot where they're pretty much just reduced to "person with a cybernetic limb" - it's always just somewhere from "just a cool visual design" to flat out "superpower". I can't think of a video game amputee that is actually disabled by their limb differences - I'm all for futuristic worlds where prosthetics and other disability aids are far advanced from what they are now, but that's not really what's implied by these designs. They're just... Cool designs that in no way reflect on the real-world experience of being an amputee.

Look at Hephaestus, though. Look at that prosthetic. Whilst stylised it very much looks like it functions like common mechanical knees - knee bends when thigh is lifted, knee straightens when thigh is lowered. He's a wheelchair user as well as a prosthetic user - every prosthetic user I know is also a wheelchair user as a prosthetic is not usable in every occasion and also cause exhaustion and pain if used constantly.

Whilst we can't see much of his wheelchair the position he's sat in and the wheels very much evoke active wheelchair to me - this carries on to very specifically the thickness of his arms. Whilst a lot of Hades designs are muscular Hephaestus has very noticeably thick arms - which makes sense, as active wheelchairs require a lot of arm strength.

Just overall this design is making me want to cry - he's not just an actual wheelchair user in a video game, he's a realistic depiction of an amputee, a disability usually brushed over in order to give a character a fun design quirk and nothing else. He's fat and he's hot and he's a realistic depiction of an above knee amputee. Oh my god. Oh my god?

[nouverx]

*proceeds to drink the whole bottle*

Yeah Alastor you're gonna be loved and appreciated wether you want it or not :)

[800db-cloud]

i’m literally shaking buy them brown contacts pls

[maiaczy]

Sometimes taking a leap forward means leaving a few things behind.

[r4trave]

GO MY MOUTHWASHING POPIPO PARODY

[modemica]

“I keep on trying to embrace you both, why won’t you let me?”

[loserrofthecentury]

I think the funniest thing about the rhetoric that butchfemme is somehow heteronormative is that a lot of the things butches are called heteronormative for, men don’t even do.

[heavyhandedhex]

—the one to rise.

[hattersarts]

rebound ship

(one youtube video was recommended to me and then i read fic for like 4 days)

[idsalgay]

knowing i'll never recover from hypersexuality.

"your lying! you asked for it!"

i got groomed twice online. i was manipulated multiple times.

"just go seek medical help!"

i cant speak up infront of my parents nor my friends.

"its just hormones and puberty"

i was 6.

"i know your young, but i understand"

you do not understand me one bit and what i went through.

"why couldnt you speak up earlier?"

nobody believed me.

"the age gap wasnt that much! it was just a young relationship"

7 years isnt that much? even up to 13?

"your disgusting for doing that to yourself"

i cannot help it. i know i am disgusting.

"i cant believe your own cousin and family found that on your ipad!"

i didnt mean to seem weird.

"cant you have another coping mechanism?"

SH and pica does not help me one bit. i get yelled at for it.

for the people who saw pornography on my ipad a bit ago (targeted mostly)

sorry for the awkwardness in that moment. sorry if i weirded you out. sorry if on that day, you wanted to get out of there. sorry if you thought i was a monster.

im sorry for ending up like this in general. im sorry for being a failure child, nobody ever being proud of me for relapsing, and just sucking in general. i am guilty for everything i do then and now still.

[tubbytarchia]

I told you I never stop thinking about merpearl

[shepscapades]

Your highness… I don’t feel so good

[holographings]

i could not prevent it

[shovelin]

where are my big lavellan girlies at

[monod1cot]

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