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People online will describe a piece of media that focuses on dark themes and critiques certain glorifying mindsets like âunfortunately this work delves into xyzâ like yes Jessie that is a feature not a bug maybe acquire some reading comprehension
#just watched a reel about the virgin suicides and in the comments people were complaining about how the main characters were viewed as like#mythical beings instead of real girls in trouble#and like my guyâŠthatâs the fucking point#yall really need people to spell out narratives for you huh like unless an author is like âthis thing is bad. do not do this thingâ shit#just goes right over your heads
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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i yet again do NOT understand why people think that what happened to steven in future came out of nowhere. the main show beats it into the ground how fucked up all this stuff has him! just cause he ends the main show in a good place doesnt mean that everything was solved! he solved the gem stuff but not himself, that was the whole point!
like. those people show that they didnt even pay attention to the show AND they dont understand trauma. like. shut the fuck up !!!!
#my post#su#liveblogging#how do you fucking miss the whole EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN THE MAIN SHOW#no child or teenager should go through that!! no one should tbf but especially them#like ok fine. other shows do this stuff all the time and theres no consequences. but su was never the show to do that lol#i know im bringing up discourse from years ago but the thing is is that people STILL hold these opinions!#like. bro athena p on youtube has THE MOST JANK su opinions. she doesnt like pearl or future ? hello?#like ok whatever you dont have to like something but then she starts going into *why* and its like. bro stop talking no#yet again its just like people that say that cassandras betrayal came out of nowhere. NO IT DIDNT FUCK OFF#im so mad dude its so easy to understand this stuff for me#also trauma can absolutely wait to manifest or show its ugly head#he showed concerning behaviors in the main show but. aughhhh whateverrr whatever whatever whatever#its also that he was finally in a good calm place in future and when youre in a calm place your trauma brain goes THIS ISNT RIGHT#it gets so used to the stressful situations you were in that itll still think things are wrong even when nothing is#because it cant risk bringing its guard down in case stuff happens all over again#or some shit like that. fuck#and steven? babey hes been in stressful situations for a long time#ew why does this post have notes lol i thought itd get like 5 notes. im not opening the notes thing lmaoo fuck that
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Today years old when I realised Alecto liked Harrow's face so much because she resembles her ancestor, Anastasia.
#gods I'm dumb#the lesbians are just so lesbian it goes right over your lesbian head#well some flavour of sapphic anyway#but yikes what sadness to realise the she may never really see her again#she must have known this just as she knew her identity as nona would have to end someday#ntn#ntn spoilers#tlt#tlt spoilers#the locked tomb#alectostasia#alecto#anastasia the ninth#alecto loved anastasia#or she does#i don't know
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what if the world was made of pudding
#yapping#like. im sorry but none of this means anything#you are making up hypotheticals about the devs with no basis in reality#and then saying the personal beliefs of the devs dont matter#just write rpf at that point#do you think the people who make the games have no say over what goes into the games or what#you dont need to spend so much energy explaining how IF you were right you would be right#like. what kind of thought exercise is that.....#we're talking about why you ARENT#theres facts to support this. instead of unfounded brainstorming#masu is right that this is a result of being uninformed about the developers#which is completely fair btw#but youre like. rejecting that information as irrelevant#what exactly are you interested in discussing then#i cant even. wrap my head around it#anyway these are rhetorical questions im just ranting#i promise you rggs is not half as obsessed with kazumaji as you are#theyre not sitting there thinking man. how the hell are we gonna make this ship canon with all these difficulties.....#i guess we have no choice other than self-censorship!#have you played these games. you can tell what their priorities are#it is not. even 1% of any of this#they are not interested in exploring queer romantic love through kazumaji in the way you think would be the#biggest diversity win in all of gaming#or whatever#and they are not concerned about right wingers#they simply do not share your worldview
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kind of a dumb rant but i feel like getting into posting on tumblr has been good and bad for me at the same time. like on one hand its given me motivation to draw more without feeling cringe over certain ideas cause i know people on here like them. but then ive also been struggling cause now it feels like every single fun au idea i come up with has to be tinkered on and sculpted into this perfect thing i can bring over to tumblr to show off because seeing the likes and reblogs go up makes me happy. which isnt great cause that combined with my adhd has made it almost impossible to focus on any idea or artwork without feeling like im neglecting every other project i could be improving on. i wanna work on my next life series design cause ive only done 2 but it feels like i might be experiencing self inflicted burn out despite having not really posted much at all compared to other artists. idk anyone else deal with this or know how to not feel weird about it?
#lemonywings#fr this is hell#i try to work on a character design but then brain says âno work on grimpulse oneshotâ#so i run over to the grimpulse oneshot document and brain goes âno work on splatoon auâ#once again i run to the splatoon au and brain says âwtf mate go work on your grian/scar/impulse storyâ#like i cannot win#this is just the tip of the iceberg btw i literally cannot count how many ideas i got in my head right now fighting for attention
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conflict, anger, clashing *smacks table* - i love things getting heated. Violent. Emotional. I love conflict and confrontation. I love the heavy shit. I love muses being stuck in that too, unable to leave the scene, together whether they like it or not. It's just a mess, let them despise each other in those moments, hurtful shit. Let it have to slowly heal. Slow build of understanding.
#â àŒș âŸâ* wishlist. â§. â#(Me when I have these threads I go feral I am blessed)#(Complex please. The only way she can bond. Unless everything she says just goes right over your head)#(And she can only stare blankly. Because you are so strange. Weird. Now she's a bit creeped out)#(Little bit insane? Laura is always just. Blinking. Less hostile to you)
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y'all I knew my fellow student was a t**** supporter but like. she's a SUPPORTER supporter
#she fell off the cadillac and hit her head#and the third student is a nurse so she was asking her all the usual questions#and she went 'who's the president'#and this bitch goes 'trump elect. but. biden right now.'#like girl you just hit your head why is it still so far up his ass that that's your answer#anyway the student who hit her head and the student who's a nurse and our instructor all went to the ER#so I'm here just waiting for them to come back#btw this is the same student who told me that it must be nice to have a brain that remembers things#cause I keep doing well on our tests and she's not#she's in her 50s I think and she was in a car accident like 40 years ago and that's her entire personality#she barely puts in any effort for studying and then blames it on lingering effects from the accident#and listen I totally understand that not everyone can study in the same way and it's gonna be way harder for some people than others#I also understand that I'm lucky in that I work at this pilates studio so instead of making a trip to the studio to self practice#I can just stay an hour later and practice then#like it does make it easier#but she self practices like once a week for like 30 minutes and then reads over her book and expects to do well on the tests#like girl don't make weird remarks at me about how my brain just magically remembers things#as if I'm not studying my ass off cause I care about this class#also like I really hope she's okay I do but it is a MIRACLE that it took this long for her to fall
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baru cormorant seems to me to be a series that suffers miserably for me having read machineries of empire first. unfortunately everything BC is doing strikes me as something MoE did better and more believably and with much a greater and more grounded eye for how systems, complex system interaction, and oppression like. work
#red rambles#also i don't like the writing very much so I'm not having as much fun with it as i did with MoE#but YHL straight up writes with the exact approach and methodology *i* write - the narrative frame is extremely close. the lines are punchy#the description is sparse the info we are delivered is typically in short wacky one-off chunks that tell us not only something about the#world but something about the narrator who is also the main character whose head we're in#the timing. so on and so forth#someone told me that seth dickinson is transfem but i cant find her (?) pronouns anywhere so if anyone knows where to see them i'd#appreciate a link if only to complain that i don't like her (?) writing that much in comparison because it is a lot less.... rewardingly#entertaining i suppose. when compared to the way yoon ha lee structures his. there are much fewer twists#and of course the major huge twist of Baru Cormorant was hidden from the reader which i just think is *bad form* when it comes to intrigue!#when yhl will lay all the moving pieces of the plot before you openly and say 'hey. isn't that a funny side tangent. anyway look to your#left; something is exploding' and then as it keeps unfolding he goes 'and here in small scale is how it is being used! isn't that#interesting to see how these pieces move? now look to your right; something is exploding' and then at the very end it all comes perfectly#together#the way i felt around the middle/end of Raven Strategem when i understood the spy network the first time is something that BC cannot do#you aren't trusted with the pieces and you don't get to play the game of understanding that you weren't *told* literally everything#i'm reading monster baru cormorant today as i go about my errands and I kinda don't think it's what i want because i want it to be the kind#of working awful poisoned bloodstained empire as the hexarchate and i want it to be a complex contradictory overlapping system like the#hexarchate's army and i want the banal cruelty of perfectly decent people condemning strangers to awful awful bloody deaths because they're#'not like us' instead of the petrified horror *everyone* has of the Social Contagion Agents because i just do not BUY the construction of#dickinson's Social Hygiene Offices and their place in the world#but i cant just read the MoE books any more. i'll get bored. i'm already kind of bored of reading them over and over
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hang on are cougars like panthers
#'the cougar also known as the panther' SCREAM#dont mind me rewatching carmilla as a side effect of my newfound interest in vampires#you'd think it was renewed interest in vampires but no#i actually have never been all that interested in vampires as their own thing i was just gay#and i dont think carmilla really explored the concept itself#like A* in using the medium. D or whatever in exploring their subject matter#actually tbf their subject matter was lesbianism so. again probably an A. they knew what they wanted and they did it well#idk how letter grades work tbh#also not actually sure how much they got into the vampire thing which is why im rewatching to check#bc i was reading iwtv and i was like damn carmilla left stuff on the table#but i also think a lot went over my head#even just english wise im a little stunned at how much i didnt catch. like i was fluent in 2015 for sure but. you do keep learning words#also carmilla is like a popculture remix and i dont have a lot of popculture knowledge so a lot of that went over my head too#now i have just enough to know that im missing a lot#like theres a line in s1 where laura goes 'im living with a vampire. an honest to lestat vampire' and like. never caught that#bc i didnt know how the fuck that was fhkjghgh#but anyway im watching s2 and laura's like 'vampire seductress here is just crabby bc im not falling for her 17th century idea of game'#and like they keep calling armand Ancient right? but carmilla is not much younger#just the difference in framing is what made me start thinking abt it all#like carmilla is 400smth and laura is aware abt that to joke abt it and probably thinks it's a little hot but then you think abt how they#depict that kinda age with armand like what he says to madeleine. 'how do you go on when everything from your era is gone'#and sure carmilla has that loneliness but DAMN. like fuck. shes been doing this same trick. being like the abigail hobbs to the dean for#centuries? i mean there was that century or idk how long where she was buried alive or whatever. but THAT TOO#like damn fuck!!!!!!!!!! ive been going through the fanfic again this week and like there really isnt much#at least doesnt seem to be much that explores this. unless it's in all the aus bc i filtered those out (and still got them)#also interesting difference is if i remember correctly the hollstein happy ending is that carmilla becomes human#in iwtv of course like every important relationship is between vampires. and every lover turns vampire. and every vampire is a lover#sorta. bc abuse themes and stuff. so the inversion makes sense but wouldnt it have been kinda cool if she turned laura tho#anyway. can you believe they were like 'well shes a cougar thats her job and also her supernatural power' dhfkhjgkh as i said: A*
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Digitally yours đ«°đ
#this phrase has been stuck in my head#since at the moment#i may be more active#through digital means#as far as my social life goes#which this go round i dont see as the worst thing#i do have irl friends#who i do love#i just dont always have the spoons to drive over to see#since#im usually the one driving out...#there may be#one person in particular#as of right now#this is MORE aimed at đ#but#im digitally yours#as well#beep boop
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i think if you grew up in my household you would have put a gun to my mom and dad's heads already
#help i came home and they got so ballistic that i didnt say hi to them#after my 9 months of driving myself home and entering the house from work not once have they urged a greeting out of me#why the hell do they care now???#like mom got so mad and i was like um ok * goes back to watching danny gonzalez * then i get shouted at to come to parents room#and im like siiiighhh let me put on my jacket i know this will be a while#and im just getting yelled at and standing there like. is the song and dance over yet. can i get back to my computer#and my dad is like your MOM and I DONT TREAT YOU GUYS LIKE THAT#and im just in my head like.....you give us greetings rather than treating us like human beings.....ok....i would prefer the respect rather#than the greetings....#and my dads like whenever I come home I always greet everyone#and its like. yeah ? i can think of a few times where you havent but it doesnt matter when its you right#oh you can come home and greet everyone yeah but can you treat us with respect? are you capable of not having everyone groan when they hear#your car horn that indicates you're home? do you have the ability to not make everyone hide and vacate to their rooms when they hear your#key unlocking the door? no? then i dont care about the fact you can say hi to everyone#and mom is like lecturing me and my sister about not cleaning as well and its like hi what about your husband#hi maybe you should question why we cant clean our rooms#maybe its the fact you never taught us how to organize or how often to clean? did you know you've never taught us how to properly clean?#did you know i cant clean without a timer? are you aware that your eldest daughter that gives you attitude and promised to be mean when#she's taking care of you in your last years of life doesnt clean whatsoever? the 26 year old that acts just like your husband? the one whos#only chore is to wash dishes and doesnt even do that? she complains shes too tired because of work but even on her off days she doesnt do i#? do you remember that she only does the dishes when she's going out with a boy? do you remember the 3 months where i took it upon myself t#do everyones chores because i had the time? the way you dont acknowledge i helped out a lot during that time and helped keep peace through#the house by doing that? you dont because you love to focus on the negatives and as a result you make your own life miserable#and everyone else's?especially mine because im the one who actually feels guilt? but dont do it bc im tired of doing someone else's work?
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do i let feminism lose and spend all of my savings on a rhinoplasty or do i continue to just. live Like That lol
#kms idk what to do#it's doing research on best surgeons in your country hours while your friends with normal noses are sleeping#anyway it's been a great little vacation and i had a lot of fun but the absolute fucking dread whenever someone is taking a picture#and i cant control how it looks. is ruining all the fun.#i said fuck it once today and then saw that picture my friend took of me and wanted to yeet myself into traffic straight away#the worst thing is im obsessed with big unusual conventionally unattractive noses. i love them.#but mine is not this hot sexy aquiline kind. its just a huge round bulbous fucking potato in the middle of my face#its the kind of nose no one will ever find pretty or hot or even interesting. its just comical. it looks like a fake clown nose.#and while it is indeed very in character of me to have a fucking clown nose attached to my face 24/7 forever#its literally making me wanna wear a paper bag over my head#goddd idk. cause like. what if something goes wrong lol knowing my luck it definitely could#and then uhhhh idk i guess i really would just kms lol#funny thing - didn't even really notice it before uni. like i always knew there was something seriously fucking wrong with my face#but could never put a finger on what it is exactly#and then this uni friend made that one comment about my nose and suddenly everything clicked into place#you're absolutely right queen the fucking nose aka the CENTRAL thing on my face is the main culprit here lol#anyway not a day has gone by since then that i wouldnt look into the mirror and felt awful and pathetic about it <3#i am ready to go against all of my ideals and just do it. ill have no money left but maybe its worth it. to get a little peace of mind. idk.
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Cho Hee đą
Do they like amusement parks? Whatâs their favorite ride?
Oh goodness. Cho Hee LOVES amusement parks. Her parents never took her to any, because they found such places unbecoming for people of their status. The only time her dad went near amusement parks was for publicity stunts.
She's beyond excited when Jumin and V take her to one for the first time. And after she rides her first roller coaster...
Okay, first she needs a moment to recover (which V definitely warned her about, which is why Jumin would not let her ride anything that goes upside down for her first roller coaster ever). THEN she's a menace and they're chasing her around the park.
The problem isn't even that she's an adrenaline junkie with ADHD. The problem is that when you're dating Jumin Han, you get to skip to the front of all the lines because he buys the VIP pass. If she had to wait 30-60 minutes in between rounds that'd be one thing, but she can basically go nonstop. Her poor stomach cannot.
#I don't know enough about amusement parks over there to name a favorite ride but let me tell you#I imagine Cho Hee's reaction to be akin to the first time I rode Kraken at Sea World#We went for my birthday and my sister wanted to ride Kraken#NONE of my friends wanted to ride it because it goes upside down#I gave in because hey she's my sister and birthdays are supposed to be memorable right?#I was terrified though#Anyway after we got off my sister had to FORCE ME to sit down for 10 minutes#I was SO hyped and full of adrenaline that I started heading for the line as soon as we got off the first time#We had a fast pass because of disability and the park was pretty empty that day#Nothing quite like getting humbled by your teenage sister who knew your stomach would Not be ready for round 2 just yet#Cho Hee#Cmc#Thanks for the ask!#Anon
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Knight of Roses - G.S.
Synopsis. You, heir to the throne and fated to be married off to a royal youâve never even met. Gojo Satoru, your personal knight and the one man that will not let this happen. He will not.
Pairing. Gojo Satoru x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! princess! reader, knight! Gojo, childhood-friends-to-Iovers, PINING, arranged marriages, Naoya is awful, Gojo YEARNS, flower language, politics, slight vïżœïżœolence, slight angst, matĂng presses, cervĂx kĂssing, creampĂes, cĂșmplay, PĂSSYDRĂNK GOJO, oraI (fem rec), he goes FĂRAL, cĂșmming in his pants, manhandIing, spĂtting, biiig stretches, dĂșmbifĂcation, cĂșmflation, p talking, p sIapping, overstĂm, proposals, happy ending, pet names, swĂ©aring.
Word count. 12.7k
A/N. What happens when ya let a girl listen to Golden Brown by The StrangIers.

âYou are not to speak, you are not to look.â The king intertwines his decadently ringed fingers on his lap, the royal signet glinting pointedly amongst them. âYou are not to so much as breathe in the princessâs way from tomorrow onwards.â
And itâs only with his hard-earned years as your knight that Gojo stops himself from shuddering where he knelt, head bowing to hide the clench in his jaw.
Though, surely something must have flashed across his features - because the next few words have a familiar warmth that twisted Gojoâs heart much more than his royal timbre, âSatoru, my boy, you understand that this is your duty? Yes?â
âI understand.â The answer is instant, as is the raise of the other manâs brows.Â
âAnd do you understand that this marriage is my daughterâs duty?â Your father barks out a disbelieving laugh into the barren throne room. âWe wouldnât want Prince Naoya getting the wrong idea between the princess and a- a knight.âÂ
The words make his eyes prick wetly, and Gojo canât help but bend even lower as he whispers. âIâŠI understand, sir.â
After all, it was the second thing that Gojo Satoru had drilled into his mind from the very moment he first met you.
The first being that heâs loved you ever since.Â
Which - retrospectively speaking - mightâve been an incredibly bold declaration coming from the scrawny, fidgeting six-year-old you happened to catch sneaking in and stealing lilac blooms from the royal garden all those years ago.
He remembers how youâd giggled, looking positively like a little blossom in all those gauzy layers of gown. Piping up from under the lilac tree he was latched onto, âMy father says thatâs not allowed.â
Gojo had fallen then - literally, startling about six feet from the branch heâd been straddling and straight into a scratchy pile of leaves with a dull thud! Back hurting, head spinning, it was a wonder that he hadnât sprained anything, but right then and there he remembers thinking he was in heaven.
Because here was a pretty lilâ angel his age ogling down at him, speaking in a regal accent so different from his. âMy father says thatâs not allowed either.â
Your grin beamed down on him and warmed his skin even more scorchingly than the balmy rays of sunlight filtering in through the leaves. And for the first time ever in his life, Gojo Satoru had stuttered.Â
âYer- yer father sounds stupid.â He had spit out, chubby cheeks puffing out the more you stared at him. What? He was sure he looked ridiculous with all those stray sticks and leaves stuck in his cloudy locks, but did you really have to look at him likeâŠthat?Â
âMy fatherâŠâ Your lips curled even further, as if you knew something he didnât. â-the king.â
Oh.
Oh.Â
And itâs only then that Gojo notices the thin, silver tiara on your head, a delicate wreath of jeweled flowers that twinkled almost as bright as your eyes. It reflected specks of light into his gaze almost mockingly.
Idiot- it felt like someone had thrown a bucket of icy water over him that chilled him to the very bone.Â
Even at the tender- well, wise and sensible age of six, Gojo had heard from the adults in town all about the torture chambers and p-prisons that the royal palace was home to.Â
Just why did he feel the need to escape from his mother at the market to bring her a batch of those wispy, amethyst flowers anyway?Â
Sure, they were her favorite but- the royal family would have his head before even she did. And he didnât even get to butter her up with the lilacs!
âForgive me!â Gojo had squeaked out in a cry so shrill that you hurriedly took a step back, eyes widening once the interesting boy in front of you dropped to his hands and knees. âAh- I mean uh- forgive me, your highness- your princessness.â Drooping into a bow so low that his soft tufts of hair brushed the warm ground. Words tumbling out a mile a minute, âIt was an accident- I mustâve been um sleepwalking and I pinky-promise wonât do it again-â
âThose lilacs havenât bloomed yet, yâknow?â Youâre cutting him off smoothly, and Gojo remembers feeling a pang of irritation- let him recite his apologies before you throw him in a cell, dammit! Right before flooding with confusion, eyes snapping up to meet yours hesitantly.Â
Pointing at a pretty white gazebo, overlooking the lake only a few meters away, youâd shrugged your shoulders. âThe garden staff puts the best ones in a bouquet over there.â
At which, heâd replied with an exceptionally eloquent, âHuh?â
âWell, what my father doesnât know wonât hurt him.â
Itâs only after hours upon hours of picking every lilac flower in sight and chatting about all the worldly topics a pair of six-year-olds knew that you were dragged away by one of your worried attendants.Â
And he almost feltâŠsad about it. Weird.Â
The yolky setting sun that day cast shadows for Gojo to hide himself in behind one of the gazebo pillars as he peeked at your retreating back. In-step with an older woman muttering about âlosing her job oh- the king will banish her.âÂ
And if there was one thing that he would never forget - well, amongst everything else - it was the way his heart banged selfishly against his ribcage with a repeated turn around turn around turn around-
You did. And youâd smiled, and Gojo hasnât been able to step away from your side since.
Well, he had to - to go home that evening and proudly proclaim to his thoroughly cross mother how heâll become a knight, that is.Â
Honestly, even the colossal lilac bouquet did little to deter her scoldings about running off. But despite how bad it was - and the fact that he was sentenced to be confined to his room for a whole month - it didnât matter.
Gojo visited you the next day, too.Â
And the day after that, and the day after that- and again and again no matter how many times youâd teased him about coming so often to see you. Because you were right there no matter what royal duties or lessons dictated, waiting in the lilac garden for him.Â
Every day.
When Gojo was eighteen heâd applied for a position in the royal guard, breezing through the demonstrations of physical strength because of course, he did. Heâd been training for his very day for years.
And it showed - oh, how it showed.Â
It showed in the way he stood almost a head above every other man lined up there, veering numerous inches above six feet. All sculptured, Herculean muscles and arms toned from years spent climbing the palace orchards with you. The strongest.Â
He considered himself exceedingly humble, too, of course.Â
Humble enough to not brag outright in your face once Gojo had climbed the treacherous way into being your personal knight before the age of twenty.Â
âHah, I can tell your father- erm, his majesty all about where you sneak off to now.â Gojo snickered, flicking your forehead in a way that a princess simply shouldnât be treated. âPerhaps Iâll bargain titles with him- tell the courts about the way you climb trees, and ride horses and-â
âSnitchâ
âHarlot.â
âKnave.â
âHobgoblin.â
âSatoru.â Youâd deadpanned up at as six foot four inches of white-haired nuisance clinging onto whimpers out a dramatic ouch, that one hurt. Desperately trying to keep the smile off of your face, âYouâre with me each and every single time.â
Well, was.Â
It seemed like the king was to be putting a stop to that very, very soon. With your looming- he gulps to keep the leaden ball of tears away from his throat, your engagement.Â
âToruââ Your voice snaps him out of his hazy little reverie, and he finds himself straightening his back into a respectful posture outside of the throne room. Warily eyeing the way you bound up to him, âWhat did my father want to talk to you about so suddenly?â
âAhâŠâ Gojoâs throat feels hoarse. Parched. The smile plastering onto his face wobbly, âJust- just security measures for the visitor weâre going to have, your royal highness.â
Your brows quirk upwards, pretty lips falling open just enough for him to realize you were about to comment on his use of that. That title.Â
âNow if you pardon this knight, maâam-â Gojo pipes up before you can bludgeon him with questions, striding down the luxurious hallway to his newly-assigned post at the royal treasury. Far, far away from your chambers. â-I have been called by Knight Commander Yaga to my-â
âSatoru- wait.â
He shouldâve known better than to have thought he could escape you - not when even his own heart didnât want to.
Lurching up in an almost-nauseating swoop the moment your voice echoes from behind, hitting his glinting armor. âYouâŠare you okayâ? You havenât called me any of those silly formal titles since we first met.â Words practically dripping with concern, fuck- he was sure your face was furrowing. And if it was up to him he would kiss away every tense crevice.Â
But no, that was not his place.Â
His place was to stand rooted to the spot, face turning only a half-degree to grace you with a soft bow. Gojo knew it wasnât the epitome of respect, but a singular look in your face right now and he would break.
âI am in perfect condition to carry out my duties, maâam.â Heâs nodding, voice oh-so-brittle in his throat for how hardened it thundered.
âThatâs not what I mean.â Stubborn.
Gojo turns back to the winding corridor in front of him, âThen if that is all, I shall be on my way. I hope you have a good day, maâam.â
âSatoru.â
And if his cheeks were cold and encrusted with a few streaks of salty tears when he reached the treasury, Gojo was only grateful that his fellow knight Ijichi was too afraid of him to say anything.
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Gojo Satoru was avoiding you - marching the other way if he glimpsed you, running around the palace for menial tasks, he wasnât even your personal guard anymore, for goodnessâ sake! Your best friend was ignoring you and you werenât sure why.Â
Was it because you had to skip out on your daily walks in the lilac garden to greet the visiting Zenin royals?Â
No, he was always so understanding of the royal responsibilities that you couldnât skive off. Besides, his strange attitude had sparked up even before Prince Naoya and his family arrived at your kingdom - ever since that meeting with your father.
You were dying to ask the king what exactly was talked about that day, a meeting so confidential that he didnât even have the royal advisor transcripting it. But your father was always so busy with the older Zenin couple these days, cooped up in office rooms surrounded to the brim with official documents.Â
And that left you withâŠhim.
Naoya Zenin. A prince if there was ever any, who couldnât talk about anything but that.Â
âSoâŠum.â Your eyes dart around the palace gardens, you always did love it here - that comforting smell of flowers wafting in clouds around you. But right now you felt anything but comforted. âHow are you liking the garden, Prince Naoya?â
He shakes his brown-tipped locks, eyes narrowing. âRather plebian for a royal palace, if I do say so myself.â
âR-rightâŠâ Youâre sputtering in an unlady-like fashion, âWe do have orchards too if you wanted to-â
âOf course, the gardens in my palace are much bigger-â Heâs waving a gloved hand loftily, nose crinkling into a sneer at the bustling gardeners planting beautiful white blossoms everywhere. Honestly, you were informed there was a grand ball soon - but wasnât this a bit much? âAnd we teach the help to stay out of sight.â
âWell, I think theyâre really nice.â Youâre huffing, brows marrying together.Â
He scoffs, âNice- or useful?â
âBoth.âYou fight the urge to just storm off then and there - it wouldnât do good to start a war between the two most powerful kingdoms right now.Â
âAh yes yes- nice.â Naoya repeats airily, words warbling as if he was biting back a laugh. âSuppose the low-borns are tolerable if theyâre nice.â
A vision of Gojo - tiny and trembling into a bow in front of you - flashed through your mind, and you find your pretty heels digging hard into the dark soil. That was it.
âPerhaps.â Your voice comes out dangerously even, dangerously. Naoya only raises his brows in faint interest, âYet, even the least tolerable tch- âlow-bornâ would be more tolerable than a pompous, arrogant-â
âThere you are, your highnesses!âÂ
Satoru.Â
You would recognize that low, lilting baritone amongst a thousand others. And before you can turn around to face your best friend that had been missing for days, he plows on, âA little gift- from this lowborn.â
Thud!
Before you can even blink, pale hands reach out to unceremoniously dump a radiant yellow flower crown on Naoyaâs blond bangs. And you swear Gojo pushed down on his head harder than necessary.
The first thing you register is the warm wall of muscles pushing up against your back, lecherously counting every ladder of washboard abs and Gojoâs plush pecs in your mind. Mindlessly, youâre leaning back even closer, savoring the way his breath hitches. Harlot.Â
The second thing youâre realizing is that Naoya Zenin - for the first time in twenty-something years - had gone quiet. Very, very quiet. Suspiciously so.Â
You force your words into some semblance of levelness, âAre youâŠare you alright, Prince Naoya?â
But Naoya didnât speak - you didnât know if he was even breathing. Long face growing greyer and greyer by the second, he doesnât answer you.
No, instead heâs pointing a trembling finger behind you. âYou thereâŠyou- what shrub have you placed upon my royal head?â
âLaburnum.â Comes the answer - and just as soon comes a drawling, strangled squawk.
Your first instinct is to look towards the shimmering lake not too far away from you, eyes searching for any trace of those familiar ducks- before gasping in surprise and looking back to the prince. Mouth ajar, still making those undignified noises.Â
Him?Â
âYou- you will-â He hisses, so furious that you have to take a step back - right into Gojoâs waiting arms - to avoid his flecks of spit. â-you will pay for this.â
In only a split-second, Naoya had thrown the flower crown onto the ground and wheezed his way up the flowery pathway back to the castle. What a sight it was.
But nothing compared to the way that Gojo comes into your line of sight and preens. One hand tapping at his cheek in thought, the other held behind his back. âWhoops- I forgot that the king specifically informed me that our honored guest was allergic to laburnum flowers. Guess, low-borns arenât of good memory. Right, my princess?â
âSatoru- you- you ass.â Youâre yelping through fits of laughter, not caring for the way the rest of the gardening staff smiles knowingly. âWhat if that bastard gets deathly sick? The blame would be on you.â
He rolls his summer blue eyes, âProudly.â
âI should send you to the gallows for this.â
Gasping in faux shock, âMost salacious indeed!â
And for the first time in so long, it feels normal.Â
The breezing heat of Gojoâs body against yours feels normal, and you couldnât bring yourself to think too deeply about it. Too enchanted by the sheer lack of armor - all billowy white poet shirt and flattering cotton pants.Â
âY-yeah well-â Shit- why was your skin burning this way? The sun wasnât even at peak temperature for today. Absentmindedly, youâre playing with one of his silk lapels, âThank goodness weâre losing him in a few days, I asked mother and she said the Zeninâs are only visiting until the fast-approaching ball.âÂ
âPrincess-â It all comes out in a rush, â-that ball. The reason for it is actually-â
âYour highness! The queen is asking for a conference with you!â The curious voices of your maidservants drag you away from Gojoâs arms, into a much less scandalous position.
And yet, with only a nod behind - you still stay standing in front of him. You stay.
âRightâŠâ Gojoâs prominent Adamâs apple bobs as he takes a deep gulp. Shadowy gaze darting away, âI should get back to my duties, maâam. Suguru has been abusing his position as head gardener to work me like a mule.â
The way your face crumples with disappointment makes Gojoâs heart feel sliced open. And raw. âOf course. Iâll see you around, Gojo.â
Gojo. Gojo.Â
And of course he couldnât let you walk away - of course he couldnât let you leave his life just yet.Â
So without thinking, without even realizing, heâs clasping a slender hand around your wrist to pull you back. To reel you in. To him.Â
Velvety strands of snow-white curtain Gojoâs eyes, and the doughy fingerpads on your skin shiver. Mumbling, âBefore- Before you go, my prin- maâam. I just wanted to give you-â And you donât know what makes your heart race more - the cherry-red blush painting all over Gojoâs cheeks and up to the very tips of his ears, or the sunny flower crown clasped in a hand pulled from behind his back. â-this.â
Your mouth drops into an awe-struck oh! It was beautiful - trickling blossoms of every shade of yellow entwined gently together. Embedded with celestially dainty buds of an amber so pale it looked almost white, diamonds on a tiara fit for a princess.Â
You had a feeling it would be your favorite one. Â
All you could think of was Gojo with his staggering hands, and his battle-worn fingers, making something so delicate for you.Â
âIsâŠis this one just as allergy-inducing as the other, Satoru?â Youâre breathing, rustled by a breeze so gentle that it almost hurts. Â
âNo.â Gojo whispers, just as quiet. As if the slightest sign of a raised voice would break whatever saccharinely thick moment this was, âYellow acacia and yellow carnation. For you, my princess.â
For the way heâd be losing you just as soon as he loses that asshat.Â
And even once youâd adorned his crown and been hurried off by a few palace staff, Gojo stared. Even once you were nothing but a speck of royal satin and yellow crowns, he stared. Even once you were gone, and he was left so very alone, he stared.Â
Only thanking the heavens above that you always slept through your flower language lessons.Â
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Over the next few days; wherever you were, Naoya Zenin was to follow.Â
And Gojo was sure that it was pushing the young royal closer and closer to a spectacular aneurysm any time that you called specifically for him to accompany you. Blatantly refusing any other knight that came your way.
The pointed third during âromanticâ boat rides on the lake, always the guard overseeing dinners, the one to step in with a blunder if your future fiancĂ© got tooâŠopinionated. Gojo was always there.Â
It was more like you spent your time trying to make his dutiful façade crack than supposedly entertaining your guest.
Sneaky princess.Â
After all - Gojo found himself pacing and arguing out loud with himself any time you did - he was simply doing his job, right? Even if the aforementioned job went against just a few direct orders from the king himself.Â
But these were a direct order from the princess. His princess. And Gojo had stopped his procedural traversing and ranting since realizing this.Â
Although- the head chef, Nanamiâs, veiled threat about turning him into pig feed the next time he heard stomping may have played a slight part in this, as well.Â
And it was on such a day that Gojo found himself stationed to guard the inside of the royal drawing room. Spine ramrod straight, eyes flooded with steel while he took in the sight of you and that bastard- Naoya sketching the other in silence.Â
It was a dainty, sunlit room, and the hours might have almost been peaceful - if it wasnât for the split-haired bastard, that is.Â
After that flower fiasco and a thorough telling off for misremembering the princeâs allergies, this was meant to make up for a âbonding activityâ according to the king; which to him read more like a desperate attempt to push the two of you together before the grand ball tomorrow night.Â
Gojoâs chest caves in with a sudden spike of pain, tomorrow night. Your engagement ball, where you will surely be handed off to a man who wouldnât be worthy of you in a thousand different lives.Â
Fuck, had it really been days since already?
It hurt too much, and so he looks towards the princeâs parchment- how insulting. Hundreds of royal art lessons, yet Naoya still couldnât capture the exact curve of your smile. And those pretty crinkles by your eyes- they were entirely the wrong number! And Gojoâs sure that any fool could see the way your lips-
He was getting ahead of himself. And reminded embarrassingly of the hundreds of sketches of you over the years stowed away underneath his bed alongside a stubby piece of charcoal.Â
And he was leaning over the prince in a way that he was sure would get him strung and quartered in the Zenin palace. Or, at least, thatâs what Naoyaâs daggered glare was telling him.Â
With a sheepish smirk, Gojo snatches a glimpse at your artwork. Stifling a laugh at the way youâve given up on drawing the other man and started engaging in idle scribblings of weasels and hollies.Â
âThat one looks like him, donât you think?â He canât help but whisper from the corner of his mouth, stomach swooping in delight as soon as your eyes light up.Â
Tacking on a familiar hairstyle and sneer onto a particularly shoddy caricature of one of the weasels, giggling. âHe does.â
Gojo points at another drawing - this time of a bullfrog- honestly, what interests for a princess. âAnd thatâs-â
âThat Jinichi.â Youâre finishing off for him, carelessly drawing away a few more - quite frankly, Gojo finds everything you do beautiful, but these were appallingly ugly - scribbles of foxes and goats. âThat oneâs Oji Zenin, and thatâs Gakuganji and thatâs-â
âAhem.â
There was only one person who could make the clearing of a throat sound so snobbish. And that was Naoya Zenin.Â
Brows raised, feet tapping impatiently on polished marble as he snatches the parchment from your grip.Â
Schwingâ!
âToru- no.âÂ
Gojo doesnât even realize heâs pulling out his famed, silver sword until youâre stopping him with a hand to his tense bicep. Shit.
Growling through clenched teeth once more at Naoya while he nestles it back into its scabbard with unsteady fingers - only because you asked.Â
But the other man doesnât even flinch - wearing that perfect mask of regal stoicity, though Gojo manages to catch the way his eyes flicker nervously down at the hilt of his sword. Doesnât show anything other than the tightening of his thin lips as he gazes upon your humorous drawings.Â
The impatient tap! tap! tap! of his feet slowing down, stopping - before Naoya throws your paper down onto the floor and stomps. Gojo wouldâve almost found it comedic if it hadnât been for your startled demeanour.
âExcuse me-â Heâs hissing, angling his broad body between you and this unseemly sight. Gojo looks dead-on into Naoyaâs spit-fire red face, â-but I would have to hope not to remind a young prince of royal etiquette.â
âExcuse me, sir.â
âNo need to call me âsirâ, your highness.â
Naoya looks up, death in his eyes.
Gojo thought this might be the end. The missed trip to the dungeons all those years ago was finally catching up to him, and he would be thrown in today for drawing his weapon on a royal but goddammit- if he wasnât going to keep you safe from his ire for as long as he breathes and then some.
But - to both you and Gojoâs surprise, and perhaps even Naoya himself - he simply turns swiftly on his heels and walks out of the room. Letting the heavy double-doors SLAM! deafeningly behind him.Â
It takes a beat. One. Two.Â
He counts every raging ba-dumpâ! of his heart against this ribcage- before the terse silence shatters with laughter.Â
âToru- To- Satoruâ!â Youâre wiping away genuine tears, ââNo need to call me sir-â where did you even come up with that-â
âFuck! You can laugh but I thought I was headed to the gallows.â Heâs exclaiming, and it was quite difficult to act as if your laugh wasnât the most beautiful thing heâd heard in his entire life. âAlthough- it would have been a killer last line. Wouldnât it, my princess?â
The two of you stare at each other for one singular ba-dumpâ! Before bursting into peels of undignified cackles that could make an entire court shiver in scandal.Â
âKiller- killer alright-â Youâre rolling your watery eyes, âThis is just as bad as the time you caught Yaga in his interpretive rain dance routine- I thought you were surely dead then.â
Please, Gojoâs stomach and his heart were hurting - though, for very different reasons. âNot as bad as when you wanted to play dress-up with the sacred royal crown and lost it.â
âDonât remind me, my father was-â Thatâs when your tear-lathered lashes flutter, a hand coming up to swat softly against your cheek as if to jolt back your senses. Youâre groaning over Gojoâs whine, â-my father. Oh no! What will he say about this?â You almost knock your cushy stool over with how fast youâre teetering into a stand, âI must go apologize to weasel- Naoya right away lest relations with the Zenins-â
âLet me.â
Your brows raise, âWhat?â
âLet me.â Gojoâs repeating, more firmly this time. Thumb grazing briefly down your knuckles as he pulls you back into your seat.Â
Just for a split-second - like he couldnât even think of letting himself touch such a precious treasure.Â
He knows you will argue this, he knows your stupidly selfless self will fight to apologize; which is why before you can say a word, heâs marching hastily out of those same doors and towards the luxurious guest chambers.Â
Truthfully, Gojo Satoru didnât give a fuck about Naoya Zenin - but heâll be damned if you, his beloved, was cast in a hameful light because of his childish actions.Â
He has to do something for you, while he still can. While he still has you. While he can still love you.
The corridors are winding, decadent. He takes a deep breath when nearing the slightly-open gilded door of the Zenin suite, that distinctly nasally tone of Naoya drifting in conversation from within. Shuddering in a deep breath, âPardon m-â
â-drew me as a weasel!â The prince bursts, fury seeping into every hard syllable of his. Gojo stills where he stands outside, hand on the cool metallic doorknob. âI have never met such a vulgar, unrefined-â
âOh, do bear it until the engagement Naoya.â The gruff voice of a man responds - and he recognizes it from all the recent chiding at palace staff to be the princeâs cousin, Jinichi Zenin. âAfter that ya can take your time breaking âer in.â
What?Â
âA boor telling me to break in a wench.â The younger man scoffs, though he sounds much calmer than just moments before.Â
Gojo thinks he could throw up all over the gleaming floors, he thinks he wants to keel over and beg at the kingâs feet to keep this from happening to you. He thinks he just might.Â
But right now, he canât bring his feet to move a single inch. Pressing himself up closer against the adjacent patterned wall, sharp ear yearning for more shards of the conversation.Â
âTheyâre all the same anyways.â Says Jinichi, âJust give âer something sparkly or flowery and keep her sated. Donât want another one running off before you can dig your claws into the crown, now, do we?â
And perhaps heâs a hopeless fool for praying that Naoya might say something - anything - else. Wishing for the non-existent good in your soon-to-be fiancĂ©, who only grits out a displeased, âFine. Only because I want to see her pretty lilâ face when I break her to my will.â Thereâs the sound of urgent footsteps, âBut if father doesnât give me the throne for my efforts then Iâm killing her and you, you brute.â
Stood stock still.
Gojo doesnât think he could move even if he wanted to - and right now, ice-cold spikes of anger were the only thing latching him rooted to the spot, not even flinching once Naoya closes the door behind him and walks- seeing him.Â
His jaw clenches, eyes harrowing. âYou.âÂ
And Naoya had very clearly taken the opportunity to arm himself in his family chamber, because his spindly fingers itch towards the hilt of his dangerously glinting sword. Just seconds away from-
âPlease.âÂ
Gojo drops onto one knee, the tendons of his neck aching with how far downwards he had it bent into a pitiful bow. âI ask his highness to please let the princess go- to call off this impending engagement. I- I will bear the brunt of committing an offense, and will gladly take any punishment that is bestowed upon me. I just please beg of you to-â
âThe same hand.â
âWhat?â Gojo forces himself to look up with tear-filled eyes, to face the prince squarely in his chestnut gaze. His delighted chestnut gaze.Â
Pointing towards his right hand, âThe same hand you were to raise your sword at me, the same hand you used to put that wretched toxic flower crown on me-â And then his blade, â-I order you to repent.â
The other man breathes, âRepentâŠâ
âRepent.â Naoya stands up taller, perhaps the most self-confident that Gojo has ever seen him. A barbarous curl of his lips starting to form, âRepent, and I shall consider ending my engagement with the princ-â
CRUNCH!
Pain. Blinding pain was all that Gojo could feel, andâŠrelief.Â
He couldnât even register the steady trickle of warm crimson on his skin and onto the floor in rose-like splotches - even though he could see it through bleary eyes. Head still spinning to catch up with the nanosecond events of drawing his sword and slicing a wide gash down his forearm.Â
Through half-lidded eyes, he puts back his bloodied blade into the scabbard and looks up at the stricken prince.Â
Repentance.Â
âSo you love her.â Is all that Naoya hisses. And Gojo canât lie, nor can he muddy your name.Â
So he simply waits quietly, silence speaking enough for eons. Waiting for you to be set free. And if he tried, he could even manage a smile-
Sniffing insolently - though, it sounded more like a snicker. âHow valiant, for a low-born.â All that is said before he spits furiously at Gojoâs feet and breezes past in a swish of capes - as if nothing ever happened. âI might even invite you to the princess and Iâs wedding ceremony.â
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In a palace of thousands, it was only Gojo Satoru that could manage to stand out.Â
None of the royal jesters could make the court laugh quite as loud. None of the other knights - no matter how muscled, or chivalrous - could make the ladies-in-waiting swoon just as much. And none of the other reputable men could make you seek him out in every chamber, state room, or training ground just like this. Â
It was strange not to see even the barest glimpse of Gojo for an entire day, and the palace didnât quite feel like a home without him.
âIâm telling you, Nobaraââ Youâre wheezing out in condensed puffs as your eager right-hand attendant continues mercilessly tightening away the undergarments of your ballgown. âSomethingâs probably happened to him or-â
â-or heâs being locked up for offending some uppity duke.â Sheâs rolling her honeypool eyes, one of the few who wasnât afraid to express themselves this way in front of you. Flitting about the opulent dressing room you rarely liked to use, âYou know how that eugh- Gojo is.â
âWhich is precisely why Iâm worried.â
Honestly, you didnât even care for a grand ball when you didnât know where your best friend was. Whether he was in the dungeons orâŠworse.Â
But Nobara wasnât here to hear you ramble about Gojo Satoru - you oftentimes got the impression that he irritated her too much for her own liking - she was here to doll you up in costly pale blue silks and muslins that draped off of you prettier than a painting.Â
And you felt dizzy by the time she let you be escorted off towards the emanating music of the ballroom - with an excited goodbye and a reluctant promise to keep an eye out for Gojo.Â
Hair done more intricately than you couldâve even imagined, your jewelry caught every light in the room, a bejeweled flower tiara weighing heavily on your head. Adorning your face in a crown that reminded you of the one Gojo had made you only a few days ago.Â
It was almost a struggle to keep your face held high as you took the first few steps down the winding imperial staircase. To the ball.Â
You have to stop yourself from tilting your head down at the thrumming masses of decadently dressed-up nobles and clinking champagne to check whether Gojo was hidden away somewhere down there.Â
Manners. Posture. Eye contact.Â
It was all painfully practised, and so was the tightening of your features as your own father started reading off your introduction. He never took on this task - what was happening?
âAnd now, for the most important guest of all-â Booming voice thundering in your ears almost as loud as your heartbeat was. The king addresses the congregation in the middle of the dancefloor, more ruler than father at this point. â-my daughter, princess of our beloved kingdom. And the queen of the next!â
Your hand stills where it had been helping you balance in your heels down the stairway- what?
Thankfully, your father carries on - or rather, not thankfully, considering what his next words are.Â
âYes, my people, this may come as a surprise to you all.â He chuckles above the deafening murmurs, and you slowly find yourself scurrying onto the raised platform your fatherâs throne was seated on. âBut tonight is not only a simple celebration of our nation, itâs a celebration of love. Of two nations.â
Thereâs a beat of silence as he reaches out a withered hand to you, and you find yourself wordlessly taking it.Â
âF-father, what-â you whisper, but thereâs no response. Your skin bristles with goosebumps, and youâre not sure whether itâs from the summer breeze wafting from the gardens, or from the speechâs implications.
Letting yourself be pulled right into the middle of the stage,right into the spotlight - where Naoya Zenin was waiting for you. Dressed in his finest suit of white silk, adorned with layers upon layers of military accolades and velvety medals.Â
The bright, blazing light of the chandelier was scorching, and your hands clench in unease. What was happening?
âThat is right, my people.â The king drags your hand up to mesh in an entwinement with Naoyaâs clammy ones, holding it up for the eager public to see. âAfter much consideration and forethought, our royal families have decided that today my daughter is the beloved princess of our nation. But tomorrow, she will be the future queen of the Zenin kingdom.â
Thereâs cheering - but you canât hear any of it. In fact, the entire world could be falling upon you and you donât think you would have noticed.Â
All you can feel is the queasy churning of your stomach, and the stern whisper of Naoyaâs voice against your ear. Fingers tightening around your own, bruisingly. âDance with me before I break this pretty hand, princess.â
Youâre like a ragdoll, being puppeteered in a rigid beeline onto the dance floor.Â
If it wasnât for one of Naoyaâs hands bracing onto your waist, you wouldnât even have realized that the royal orchestra had started up a gorgeous waltz. A slow, romantic melody that you mightâve otherwise loved if you werenât trapped in the arms of a fiancĂ© you never asked for.Â
âLooking pretty out of it there, princess.â The prince sneers after a few practised motions of your dance, making your dazed eyes stray from the swooning crowd and onto his pointed features.Â
And despite it all, you canât help but feel betrayed. You thought that the two of you might have rapport at your obligation, if nothing else. âYou- you didnât even tell me. An entire engagement and you didnât even bother to-â
âAs a husband, I donât owe my tch- wife anything.â His nose crinkles at your wandering eyes, the way your feet itched ever-closer to the surrounding people rather than the dancefloor. âWishing it was someone else dancing with you?â
âYes.â Youâre spitting out before you can stop, trying oh-so-hard not to let your face twist into even a semblance of the fury steeped inside of you. âAnyone but a husband that I never wanted and never will want.â
âAs if you deserve any bett-â
Your nails dig into one set of his fingers enough to engrave deep craters, almost enough to make him bleed. âI wouldnât marry you if you were the last man on Earth.âÂ
Naoya seems stunned for a few seconds - but, alas, just when youâre hoping that youâve shut him up for good, youâre faced with the fact that the universe isnât that kind to you.
âYou mean you would marry the tch- low-born.â He pulls you into an incredibly rough twirl when the music crescendos, pulling you even closer. Itâs all you can do to not fight his grip- âIâm not below finishing off his other hand if thatâs what it takes to break you.â
âWhat are you even talking about?â
Each word jagged. âThe knight. You love him, donât act stupid.âÂ
Raising your chin in defiance, âSo what?â And just as much as confusion filled you, as did panic. Because Naoyaâs grip was only getting firmer, his moves much harsher. Opening his mouth to spit out-Â
âPardon me, your highnesses.â A deep bass cuts in, startled- you almost give yourself whiplash peering up into those fathomless mahogany eyes. Yagaâs thin brows furrowing into something heavily-set, âMay I cut in for a dance with the princess?â
You donât wait for an answer from Naoya - and neither does Commander Yaga. Swiftly sweeping you into his engulfing embrace as the orchestra changes into something slightly more upbeat.Â
Dressed in a thick suit adorned with even more medals than Naoya - ones you knew for sure were real, unlike his. And you couldnât help but wonder just how good Gojo would look with his own.
âSoâŠâ Yaga starts, once more couples join the floor and his words canât be heard over the shuffling of feet by anyone other than you. His calloused hands let you lead him through a waltz much more mellow than what Naoya had with you. You always did think that the leader of your knights was a gentle giant. âBegging you to forgive my indiscretion, maâam but ah- trouble in paradise?â
âTrouble in hell, as expected.â Youâre shuddering, gaze bouncing off of any flash of sapphire blue around the room.Â
The man in front of you nods gravely, âRight right. I might not be a married man, but even I know that times like these often call for a walk in the lilac garden. You know, to- ah, clear your head.â
Quirking a brow, you stare at him. âWhat?â
And oh, Yaga simply looked like all the gold in the world couldnât pay him enough for this.Â
âTimes like these-â Heâs emphasizing, boring deeply into your eyes as if to mean every syllable to strike your very core. And it does. You donât know why, but it does. â-call for a walk in the lilac garden.â
Oh.
âOh.âÂ
Yagaâs lips twitch upwards into an almost-smile, and his rumbling voice is soft for the next few words. âGo, your highness.â
So you do.
Youâre realizing, with an ache of such gentle appreciation, that the commander had danced you two until you were practically teetering on the massive veranda. Open to the garden; where every prim hedge, bush, and tree was gorgeously decorated until your eyes sparkled.Â
Your breath batesâŠa choice. Head turning back to the luxuries of a royal ball that was none-the-wiser.Â
Then, with a brief hug you bully Yaga into, you run - as much as the delicate heels digging into your feet would allow. Faster.Â
If this was any other time, you mightâve felt disappointed at how you werenât even stopping to admire the beauty of the moonlight-bathed garden. But right now, your heart was only pounding to go faster and faster.Â
Nothing else mattered.Â
Gojo was leaning on one pillar of the same white gazebo - and he was beautiful. If you didnât know any better, you would have thought he was a faerie of the night.Â
Just a lone, tall silhouette that you could recognize so well; azure eyes twinkling, ivory strands of his hair shimmering with the silvery blue of the moon swimming amongst a dark sky. One he couldnât seem to take his eyes off of until he jolts his head towards the sharp snap! of a twig underneath your rapid feet.
âMyâŠmy princess.â He falls onto one knee.Â
It all comes out in a whisper - as if Gojo had dreamed of this moment so many repeated times before and wasnât sure if this was a dream, too.
âSatoru-!â
It wasnât.
Gojo stands up to embrace you like itâd be the last time he ever would, like you were the one thing connecting him to this life and he was a dying man desperate to breathe.Â
Strong arms winding around your waist, youâre pushed against one of the closed-off walls of the gazebo before you can even realize it. Arching off of the cool wooden surface and into his blistering heat. Into every ravenous, panted-out cloud of breath against your ear, âYou came.â
He sounded pained. And you were sure you did just as much when youâre whimpering, âYou disappeared.â
Gojo lets off a choked-up noise that couldâve been anything from affirmation to blatant shock. Half-lidded eyes boring deeply into yours, he shrugs off the jacket on his non-dominant arm to you with a low bow.Â
âMay I have this dance, my princess?â
Youâre gasping at the sight of starchy white bandages around his other hand, fingers hesitantly falling into Gojoâs heated flesh. âS-Satoru, what happened ah-â
But he drifts you gently into a soundless dance, the distant crickets and swish! of lilac branches your only tune.Â
And you never even understood just how much Gojo was a part of your life until he was moving through the exact same steps of waltzing that youâd learned growing up. The exact same once that you used to force him to sit through.
âI thought you were here because you read my letter.â Gojo mutters, lips so close now that they grazed the sensitive shell of your ear.Â
Youâre having trouble finding your voice, âWhat letter?âÂ
âThe- the one that I left-â Just for you. His long lashes flutter open in shock, features contorted into something almost devastated. You wonder what made him feel this way. â-the one that I left in your chambers- about the- the prince, and the engagement and-â
âI got prepared for the ball in the dressing room today, I didnât go to my room.â Youâre continuing, voice small. Scared. âSatoruâŠyou knew about the engagement?â
And Gojoâs voice told you everything you needed to know.
You feel your angry flare up hot and red, fists curling into Gojoâs delicate lapels. But that only proves to inch him even closer and make you sound much more breathless than you intended, âYou knew about it and- and you didnât even think to give me a hint that I was being carted off like a prize for some pompous asshat?â
He looked like he didnât know whether to laugh or cry, lips still so pink in the night, wobbling. âIâŠI couldnât let you be married, I just couldnât. I would give my life if it meant you get the freedom to choose who you wanted.â Your dance had stalled, and you almost feel disappointed. âBut Iâm a coward, and this-â Gojo throws his hands across, voice hitching, â-sneaking around, hiding, running away is the only way I could ever-â
âYou should have told me. Not just in the letter.â Youâre insisting, running your hands through your hair. Suddenly, something strikes you, âThat arm- itâs because of Naoya, isnât it?â
He doesnât even have the energy to protest, and that only spurs you on even more. âI-I could have talked to my father- maybe the council and we could have made it so thatâŠâ
âSo that what?â Gojoâs voice hardens as much as it could with you, which wasnât very much at all. His fists clench and unclench at his sides like it was taking everything in him to not justâŠâSo that you can be the laughingstock of the kingdom when you marry a low-born knight?â
He was right. They would never accept him, no matter how much you did.
Youâre rendered speechless, shivering at the way he rubs his wet eyes with the back of his hand. âOh, I donât want you- I need you.â And he was so beautiful like this, just centimeters away from you in the escape of the night. âI need you. I need you, I need you- I need you more than the sun above my head, and the air that I breathe, my princess. You have bewitched me, and I am yours. But you cannot be mine-â
You breathe out, âSatoruâŠâ
â-and maybe in another life-â
âMaybe in this one.â
Soft hands rover their way onto the sides of your arms, and Gojo shakes you feebly as if to snap you out of this hypnosis and urge you to run. Eyes wide, yearning. âI have always been yours, body and soul.â
You always have wondered whether there was a method to shut Gojo Satoru up. And, right now, you think you may have found the perfect answer.Â
Because his entire towering figure just melts into your touch the very second you press your lips onto Gojoâs plump ones. Soft. Velvety.Â
His nostrils flare through a breathy sigh when you tilt your head mere sultry degrees to deepen the kiss. You were addicted to the honey-coated taste of him, the flat drag of his scratchy tastebuds rolling over your loosening maw.Â
âNgh- my princessâŠâ Heâs puncturing your kisses with kiss after sloppy kiss, heavy hands wrapping around your body to wrangle you flush against his hardened ones. And you could count every glissade of his washboard abs through that thin poetâs blouse, âI love you.â
Youâre not sure if itâs a fragment of your imagination, or- itâs not.Â
Gojo manhandles you - and himself - to sit on the opulent gazebo bench with you plopped into his manspread lap, without breaking the kiss for a split-second. Because it hurt to part from your pretty, candied lips, to let those slippery strings of saliva break in the clouded air between you two.
Even if it was to purr outâ
âI love you I love you I love you-â The straight edges of his pearly white teeth sinking into your lower lip, groaning from the back of his throat. And your jittery legs shift needily on his warm, meaty thighs, â-I love you.â
âSatoruââ Just about the only thing that you can say right about now, your tone resounds in Gojoâs ears and makes him grunt. Your fingers tangle into his cushy locks, âT-touch me.â
He snickers, one hand clawing onto the crown of your sweat-dampened scalp and wrenching your face away until youâre huffing and puffing cutely for more. âMmm, how about we use those princess-y manners of yours, hm?â
âPlease-â
âLouder.â
âPlease.â
âHarlot.â Gojo slides in a looong few digits past those impossibly endless skirts of yours, making your thighs dampen with treacly webs of needy slick. Letting those doughy fingerpads fringe over the covered mound of your pussy, just the very edges. âThat was my f-first kiss, yâknow?â
He had been hopelessly saving it for you, after all.Â
Your eyes roll all the way to the back of your weighted lids as soon as he teases you, mewling. âWas mine too, so weâre even-â Your hips shift in a lazy back nâ forth on top of his heated core, â-just- just want you to touch me.â
âI dunnoâŠâ Gojo drawls - drunken. And you feel the edges of his kiss-bitten lips warp around the very tip of your plummy tongue to suck on like his favorite gummy candy, âWanna kiss my princess just a lilâ bit more.â
Panting, âK-kiss?â
âMhm.âÂ
Your eyes shutter in a heady blink, oh-so-cutely ready to crash back into a filthy, filthy French kiss once more, Gojo pulls away-
A noise of disappointment fresh on your lips and just about to spill out, before he lifts you up easily with only a single beefy hand underneath your body. Splaying you out on the sprawling wooden table right beside you, your back hits the ice-cold surface and makes you gasp into the crisp night air.
The lecherous sound of it almost as loud as the sudden clack! of Gojoâs knees collapsing down onto the floor. Your face contorts into a wince because surely it sent a stinging pain up his legs?
âMâquite used to being on my knees for you, my princess.â
But he didnât seem to care - didnât even seem to notice when he was much more enamored with the heavenly sight down there.
âThese lips-â He smears away your lacy layers upon layers, budging up to nuzzle the soft skin of your inner thighs. And shit- the filmy glaze over his eyes told you that Gojo doesnât even realize the way his bubblegum pink tongue lolls out over the splotchy spatters of your juices. â-were tellinâ me they feel a littleâŠleft out.â
Your mouth waters with a syrupy lamination of saliva as soon as his murked breath strikes your cunt. And the drag of his rumbling bass is so delicious â you couldnât help but imagine just how it would feel on you.
âJust- just get it on with it-â youâre hissing, fingers latching onto a few thick locks of ivory to drudge him ever-closer.Â
âImpatient.â
As if Gojo himself wasnât impatient.Â
As if he wasnât just leaking out thick wads of drool from the parted sides of his twisted grin at just the thought of tasting you. Sliding the pointed tip of his button nose languidly up the crevice of your puffed-up slit, he breathes you in and feels his cock twitch-
âOh, princess.â Gojo canât move, he canât breathe if it wasnât around your needy cunt right now. Heâs ignoring those shooting bites of pain up the sides of his arm to tug on your useless garments.
Pulling- shit, he always did fucking hate how many layers you royalty had to wear.Â
Pulling and pulling until the slow trawl of your undergarments by his nimble fingers wasnât enough, and he just had to lunge his cottony head over to plummet his pearly whites into your panties and ripâ!
A proper, gaping hole where your teary pussy was- and you looked even more gorgeous down there than he couldâve imagined.
Gojoâs face was blank, eyes wide and locked right at your geysering orifice like a man starved. For eons it felt like, until you were bucking up with pure need.
Youâre humming in concern, struggling up onto your elbows to stare down at him. âSaâŠToru?â
And at your pretty voice, Gojo twitches. He gasps - full-bodied, like youâd just sent a zillion volts of shock down his sloped spine just by speaking to him. And he was well and fully intent on acting on it-
âPrincessâŠprincess princess princessââ Leaking from between his lips like he couldnât stop, he hits the cute target of your cunt instantaneously with a fat thud of spittle, one. Two. Three, until your entrance was overflooding. Heâs drawling the plummy end of his spit-glossed maw across your folds, âOh, my princess. Just look at you.â
You feel his mess drool off the side of your plumpened pussylips and smear all across your peaked clit with only a simple touch of Gojoâs round-ended thumb.Â
Just down-right filthy when he crashes forward to slot the curvaceous nub of his sweltering hot tongue over the brim of your hole. Drawing all over that snug orifice with slow patterns round nâ round-
âToruâ!â Itâs the only thing you know at this point. âToru.â
âWhaaat? Jealous, my princess?â The words clang in your head- and the realization hits you at the same moment Gojoâs thickly viscous swab of spit does on your own tongue. A soft nudge at your slackened chin urging you to swallow-
And he canât waste a second, canât spend even a mere moment away from his favorite spot between your legs. Because now that Gojo got a taste, he wants alllll of it.
Stumbling back down in haste to plant so many uncountable smooches on your bawling pussy folds. Skimming his tastebuds just along your quivering hole.
âShit- shiiiitââ When youâd heard court ladies giggling about this, you didnât think it would feel this good. Or maybe thatâs just because it was Gojo stuffing himself impossibly deeper between your legs. âM-more, Toruââ
Your voice was cracking just as much as his fucking sanity was.Â
Trilling out into frenzied shrills when Gojo swerves his eager thumb to pry open your gluey folds even further and give your fattened clit a flick!
You swear you feel Gojo depart his jaw with a giggle when your hips are bucking up pliably off the splintered table and into the bustling hot cavern of his mouth. More. âEasy there, your royal highness-â
âD-donât call me thatââ Youâre whimpering, fingers tugging on Gojoâs bangs in some form of retaliation. But, of course it backfires on you just as soon as the force makes your knight moan.
âWasnât calling you that.â Gojo rolls his eyes, and your heart races in anticipation when the pointed edge of his chin strikes the drowned ends of your cunt. Lathering his pretty features in all the collective beads of slick raining fountaining out of you. His summer blue eyes flick downwards - and you canât help but follow. âWas talking to her. Isnât that right?â
Fuck.
You were fucked.Â
And you were losing your mind when Gojo drags you roughly towards the edge of the table with only an ounce of his strength. Mouth making out greedily, heels digging into the fleshy mounds of his back, you can only sob and beg for more more more-
âSâfuckinâ chattier than my girl.â Heâs nodding along with every saturated squelch after squelch! resonating in his eardrums - as if it was a full-on conversation with your noisy pussy. âLetâs hope that fiancĂ© of yours doesnât hah- f-fucking hear.â
But Gojo was acting like he wanted him to.
âHope the- the king doesnât find his princess beinâ eaten out by- ngh- a knight.â Barrelling long, slender inches of his index and pointer past your tight ring of mushy muscle.Â
Your head throws back when he digs into the velvety depths of your pussy with just a single quirk-
âO-oh my god, Satoruââ Youâre gasping in the flowery night air, tummy aching with every pump deeper because he was just so close to where you wanted him. âMore- j-just a bit more.â
And yet, he acts like he doesnât even hear you right now.Â
Cupping over one massive palm over his ear and drifting ever-closer, âWhaâs that? C-canât hear ya, girl- ngh ya gotta be- louder.â
Louder and louder he was getting with the vulgarly fast thrust graced upon your gummy walls. The sound only makes him giggle all drunk on you, âWhatâs that? Here? That turn you on? HmmmâŠâ
And just when youâre letting your vision blur with stars- just when you think it couldnât get any better-
âMmmmâ wanâ another taste-âÂ
Itâs the last thing your ringing ears hear before Gojoâs lurching forwards and burying his nose into your sensitive clit to give your overstuffed entrance a leeengthy lick. Right at the very split-second the globular edges of his digits scratch at that magical spot.Â
âW-woah.â Your head snaps up blearily to steal a glimpse at what had Gojo Satoruâs voice so airy nâ cracking in awe.Â
Only to see him fluttering his lathered lashes, the slick-gleaming apples of his cheeks blushing. Like some maiden in love. âGot even wetter fâme, your highness.â Heâs breathing out, spitting out another voluminous cobweb of drivel and watching the way it sliiides across with the ribbons of slick pouring out of you. âOhhhh, even b-better than any candy- better than a-any dessert.â Â
You yelp when one rugged and grabs a rough handful of your ass and latches his lips even sloppier against your hole. âT-Toru your arm!â
âOh? This?â Heâs glancing down at the bandages as if heâd forgotten they were ever there. âSânothing for your- hah- personal knight. Doesnât even hurt, Iâd- Iâd rather die than let a stupid injury get in the way of what Iâve been dreaming of for aaaages.â
The dual points of pleasure make your toes curl, every part of your body shaking-
Gojo was out of control now. Crazed.
High-pitched bouts of giggles escaping him, muffling around where his candy-glazed cerise lips were latched around your clit and sucking. He makes sure to hold fatal eye contact while he hollows out his scorching cheeks and drags the fleshy nub.Â
 âM-making out with your pussy- your pretty, pretty pussy, my princess.â Your heartbeat echoes in rapid staccato with the vicious thud! thud! thud! of his neatly crowned fingertips pecking your g-spot. Each of his puffed-out gruffs making your tongue loosen in a please, âMaking you s-so loud, making you feel so good.â
And without even realizing it, heâs rovering the papping brims of his fingers to give your clit a spank. Letting the syrupy beads slide allll the way down his tongue - letting you watch.Â
âSâall me.â Gojo slurs out. âMe- me me me meââ Steady rivulets of slick bubbling from the edges of his tongue when his sinful motions get faster. Harder. âGonna ask who m-made you feel this way nâ itâs me. Your Satoru.â
More ravenous.Â
Swirling around slow probes of his sensory tips, it glazes his skin all the way down to his knobbly wrist in a thick coat of sap. Memorizing every gooey ridge and crevice inside your tight channel - shit, Gojo feels his ruddied tip spurt out a jetstream of buttery pre in his pants.Â
He thinks he might just burst in his pants if you donât finish right this second.Â
But luckily - or unluckily - for him, you do. Right this very second, after being wrung dry underneath only a few more lapping slashes of his ferocious tongue, tweaking your buttony clit until you cum.
And oh, youâre so pretty when you do.
Your head throwing back with a broken moan of Toruâ! It takes every ounce of trained will in his drunken body to not break off from your gooey pussy and watch the way your beautiful face twists.Â
Fucked out.
âO-oh, shitââ Youâre practically sobbing at this point, wrist aching with just how hard you were pushing Gojoâs readily used face into your fluttering core. Your vision blurs with sparks nâ stars, â-H-how are you so good. Unfair, unfairââ
Babbling away such nonsense with that smart mouth of yours, Gojo thinks he sees utter heaven when your hot juices flood inside his mouth in generous heaps.
Lugging down an open palm underneath his chin to greedily collect the leaking beads that sprinkly in a shiny sheen off of his chin, he finds himself moaning. âShhh, your knightâs here. Give it tâmeâ use me, my princess.â
And use him you were.Â
Riding out each white-hot peak of your high with slobbering grinds all across Gojoâs beautiful features. Your clit catches on the poking ridges of his mouth and nose and you squeal- âNgh- b-better when youâre shut up like th-this, Satoruââ
Just for that, heâs spanking your goopy pussy thoroughly.Â
All the way until those shots of electricity down your bowed spine are nothing more but prickly tingles, all the way until your thundering ears calm down and you can hear each damp thwack!
All the way until your high has bated and yet, Gojo is still snogging each swollen fold of your pussy like a feast. âMâsensitiveââ You sniffle, and he doesnât even seem to hear you. âFuh-fuck, Toru, keep doing that nâ mânot gonna let you ngh fuck me.âÂ
Thatâs what finally gets his attention.Â
You can feel your lips burst with a slight giggle when all it takes is a quick nanosecond for Gojoâs plumpened mouth to jerk away from your cunt with the snap! of wiry slick.
Scrambling onto unsteady feet, heâs teetering over the edge of the wood ever-so-slightly. Muscular body casting a shadow on yours, and you think heâs never looked sexier.
Fawny strands of frosty white curtaining Gojoâs half-lidded eyes, thick thighs pressing against yours shivering; and even from your position homed towards the end of the table, your eyes catch sight of such a massively outlined bulge.Â
Staggering.Â
One that made your hands ghost down Gojoâs tensed abs, and heâs throwing his perspiration-dampened head with a whine.Â
âNeed you, Satoruââ Youâre managing out, strangled and messy. Youâre sure you sound just as yearning as you feel. Fingers tug-tug-tugging impatiently on his gauzy clothes, âWant- you- out of these-âÂ
And whatever the princess wants, the princess gets.Â
Itâs as if on command - Gojoâs shedding his billowy shirt like it burned him. And very, very soon were his snug pants to follow, your layers, his sanity-
âHngh- please.â Heâs gruffing out, flinching just as soon as you cup his cheeks to smear away the remaining traces of slick glimmering on top of his blushing skin. Your touch was electric. Tonality painfully hoarse, âLet me fuck you- wanted it for so long. Let me fuck you please.â
Your drenched pussylips stream out a damp spot right across where you could feel his inflated vein poke between your folds. And he felt soâŠlong. âYes- yes, please.â
Getting the princess to say please?
Heâs nodding his head shakily - Gojo could pass out, he could cu-Â
Oh, just a few taps of his mushroom tip on the outer edges of your pussy and he spots something creamy topping over your mound like icing. Sweat-slicked brows furrowing, Gojo nudges in even closer to where pooling splotches of cum pours from the strawberry pink divot right in the middle of his head.
Heâs cumming and he couldnât stop.Â
Couldnât do anything but whine at the tender bolts of bliss aching all the way from his toes to his fuzzy head.
âS-Satoru did you just-â
âShut up.â Oh, you would have his head later for this. âShut up- shut up and justâŠâ
Nâ so he curls a hand at his bulky base and draws out a thick swab at the torrents of seed decorating your cute cunt. Making sure the milky sap formulated a glossy cap on his crownhead, before pushing rigorously in-
âF-f-fuuuuckââ he keens out, a thin line of sweat trekking down the side of his temples. And if he pushed just an inch further, Gojo could feel his hooded eyes well up with fucking tears- âTight so tight s-sooo hot- soâŠâ
Youâre mewling, âDeeper- c-câmon.â
He was fucking you like he didnât even realize it - like he was enchanted by each mindless rut pulled from the carnal depths of his hips.Â
Two warm hands latch on in a vice-like grip on the delicious curve of your hips, and heâs holding your body still and pushing and pushing and pushing-
âSh-shit!â Gojoâs voice pitches up embarrassingly high at the end of his slew of swears, buttering up your insides in a muggy few ribbons of pre in response. âBut s-so tight- dunno if itâll evenâŠeven fit.â
He sounded hypnotized.Â
âAre you- ngh! are you alright, Satoru?â Youâre musing out, eyes glassy with a solid combination of lust and utter concern. Before you know it, your hand is reaching out to stroke the ba-dumpâ! thudding against his pecs.
âNo.â
And it takes only the slightest graze of your doughy fingerpads against his flaming hot skin, the slightest touch from you before Gojo rudely swats your hand away and bottoms out-
You donât even know what you were mad at- were you mad?
You really canât even remember. Not when the crowned tip of Gojoâs incredible length was planting a sweet peck right into the sponged ends of your cervix, the entirety of his shaft spearheading you so deep that you think he might just be fucking into your lungs.Â
So big that he didnât even have to try to rub the puffy zig-zag of his veins along your sweetest spots, even the most minute gyrations made your toes curl.Â
Splitting you apart. Stroking the weepy base of your slit with the hot, rounded sack of his breeder balls so right that it made you putty in his hands.
âDonât t-touch me, my princess.â Gojoâs nuzzling his tear-stuck cheek against your own, you could feel the warble of his unsteady confessions. âDonât touch me or IâllâŠIâll cum.â
And when has Gojo Satoru ever lied to you? Well, the upturned jolt of his split-ended tip right into the target of your mushy cervix told you that he wasnât.
Gojoâs sinking down the edges of his teeth into his wobbly lower lip, heâs forcing his eyes to narrow down nâ obscure his crystal clear image of you to stop himself from cumming.Â
âSo beautiful, canât help itââ His breath hitches once heâs pushing apart your trembly thighs and stretching them over the two ends of his broad shoulders. Your ankles pitching down onto the rippling plush of his toned deltoids. âSo perfect.â
âS-sweet-talker.â You whisper, mouth as dry as the Sahara with how his thick circumference was stretching out your rubbery walls until they were seering.Â
But if Gojo heard then he didnât snap back - he was too pussydrunken to.
Moving on instinct, on that carnal twinge inside his brain that forced his powerful limbs to lock your ankles with one hand behind his head. To brace an engulfing palm right beside your head and lower himself down, down, down into a-
A mating press.Â
Gojo Satoru had you in a fucking mating press.
âSo mine.â
And he was pounding all his aching inches into you like it would be the last time. Like he was mazing through your adhesive-like walls and plummeting the leaky end of his cock to knock against your very womb.Â
Gojoâs nose crinkles at the sheer warmth you were coating him in, dripping fresh slathers of slick in rings âround his hilt. He shivers as it drools down his tight balls, âIâmâŠIâm really fucking you- ngh! Iâm fucking you, my princess.â
âYes- yes yes yesââ Your mouth parts ajar, and you donât know what it floods more with - your pathetic whines, or saliva. Coating a treacly river from each curl of your lips, âMore. More, Toru.â
Oh.
You might have just broken him with that.Â
Even through your fucked-out stupor, youâre gaping at the way that the hand beside your head curls into an unyielding fist. It has to.
Otherwise, Gojoâs plump cockhead would be sugarcoating your sloppy hole in much more than just copious amounts of sticky precum. He wouldâve cum.
âM-more?â You hear from above you, your knightâs bulging pecs vibrating with the plea. Oh, was it a plea - strained, shaking. Gojo sounded as if he was two seconds away from simply bursting into crazed laughter, âMoreâŠmore. My princess wants- fuck! More?â
Fat ends of his fingers lock around the sides of your cheeks and force you into such an unladylike pout. âSay it- say it, little royal.â
âShit!â Your core arches up into his hardened one, just as Gojo knew it would when angling his hips juuust right to give your bulging g-spot a long, hard swipe. Your throbbing clit scratching against his pale happy trail. âYes- ngh yes I want more. Want more, Satoru!â
More.Â
And more was exactly what you were going to get. More than you could handle.
Your thighs ache with the struggle to stay open when Gojo tightens his lock around your ankles. Gruffing out a tight, âTake it then.â
He was so sexy, the swelling flex of his biceps enough to make your pussy drool and him slip nâ slide pliantly. Jackhammering away rugged pumps that you feel all the way in your leaden throat.
Your most favorite spots are so bruised that theyâre almost tender, curling the base of your spine with tendrils of bliss that make you yelp.
âO-ohhh my godââ The side of his neck dampens as youâre leaving hot, open-mouthed kisses that make the man pinning you down shiver. His sculpted abs twinging with every massage down your front, âJust like that, a-always wanted to fuck you, Toruââ
âDo you even hear yourself?â Gojo hiccups, the expression upon his features plain pained. Voice dipping into a whine, âDonât know what y-youâre doing tâme.â
But now that you were babbling away, you couldnât stop. Not even when heâs speeding up his vigorous cadence until the globes of your ass are left stinging, âMâseriousâ I always wanted-â
âShut up shut up- shut up- my princess.â You donât think that either of you were even lucid at this point, and every pap! of skin-on-skin is followed by the screeching creak of the table below you. Gojo rolls his eyes down at you fondly, âGotta m-make you cum so you can shut up.â
Otherwise you were going to drive him wild until thereâs no turning back.
Before you can let off a moan - or fervently agree - he thumbs over the perked hood of your clit. Drawing- circles? Hearts? No, his own name.Â
A tedious little S-A-T-O-R-U that makes your gushing walls clench oh-so-tightly around his sweltering length. Tummy tightening into something so close to shattering.Â
And Gojo was rough. Snickering at the way you whine, spilling out wadded volumes of spittle between your parted lips. He breathes, âGonna make you cum- g-gonna make my princess cum.â You swear he nods down at your pussy and grins, âG-gotta be a good girl fâme, mâkay? Gonna be a good- girl- andâŠâ
His hips slap sloppily against yours, overworked thumb stuttering on a swooping U over your sensitive nub. And the tension in the air pulls tight, tight, tight like the most delicate of strings, before crashing- â-cum.â
You donât know who cums first - you or Gojo.Â
All you know is that as soon as your mind explodes with bursts of bliss - his poor cock does, as well.Â
Head toppling backwards, overfilled pussy slopping out waterfalls of sweet, sweet juices, itâs all you can do not to sob.Â
âFuck- fuck fuck fuck fuck-â Your nails rake red, red lines all down his expansive back. Pulling him in even closer until all he can manage are dirty lilâ half-thrusts to pound you through your high. âMâcumming, Toru-â
âY-yeah?â Gojoâs stuttering wetly, sloppily. Pushing the fat battering of his fountaining orifice into the groove of your g-spot over nâ over nâ over. You didnât know how anything could feel so good. âNâ who made you cum, hm? Whoâs f-fucking this pretty pussy, hm?â
âYou-â Youâre prattling, âYou, Satoru.â
âFuck.â Gojo gapes in wide-eyed craze, breath hitching when you lean over to drag your tongue over the sappy trickle of drool escaping his rose-red lips. âG-gonna make me cum again, swear-â
And he does.
âCan- can we hold hands while I hck! fuck you through your high, my princess?â He bats his lashes, a delicate blush taking over the tips of Gojoâs ears when you lace your fingers together.Â
You can feel the splat! of even more heavy seed hitting the bottom of your pussy, swashing a warm second coating to your elastic walls every time Gojo thrusts. He was so solidly inside. Pinpointing specks of pure white with each swab.Â
So full. So much of his voluminous ounces that itâs taken to tipping over from between your pussylips and forming a creamy puddle below you. Youâre slipping all over it with every slither of Gojoâs cock.
But neither of you can even think to bring yourselves to be disgusted. To care for etiquette.Â
Because Gojo drifts his hand over an invisible line where your tummy was being bloated with his length and his cum- and you find yourself aching for more all over again.Â
âThis looksâŠâ Gojo starts, syllables scratchy and jagged. Heâs practically whimpering - whimpering - at the sight of that lecherous cylindrical bulge being fucked into you.Â
Youâre dripping with him, and his cock twitches ferally at the thought of you all round and glowing. What a pretty mama youâd make. â...looks like the n-next heir to the throne will be a Gojo, my princess.â
Oh, you liked the thought of that.
And looking at Gojo Satoru now - eyes still not fully focused with how ruined he was, skin blushed the same maidenly shade of red that his slobbering mushroom tip was, pretty smile directed at you and only you in this lilac-scented haze - you didnât think you wanted it any other way.
But, of course, Gojo would never want it any other way, either. Never.Â
He clears his throat, sapphire gaze hardening; the intensity of it sending chills sprinting down your spine. Burning with a fervent I love you I love you I love you.
Massive hands intertwined with yours pull into your line of vision, and Gojo takes his dear time pressing a lingering peck onto each nâ every single one of your knuckles. But particularly on the one above your left ring finger.
This was it.Â
âMy princessâŠrun away with me?â
.
.
.
âDidya hear âbout that Prince Naoya?â
âOh yes- had his bride stolen away by a knight, I hear. Put a knife to his throat nâ took her away in the dead of night!â
âHogwash! The boy was a looker, she went quite willingly, see- I always did think that Naoya wasnât good ânough for our princess.â
âWonder what happened after? That Zenin bunch was quite furious I hear, that bratty prince is still out for blood. But olâ Naobito and some commander came to the rescue- Somethinâ about corruption and JinichiâŠâ
âBah! Who cares about that? Sâthe biggest royal affair of the century- a handsome knight sweeping away the beloved princess? Theyâre swooninâ nâ calling him the Knight of Roses already. All I wanna know is how the young couple is doing!â
Yaga rolls his eyes at other rambunctious customers churning gossip-mill, a pint clutched tightly in one hand and a scrap of paper in the other.Â
Honestly, he comes to the pub for once to escape from palace duties - and the palace duties seem to want to escape with him!Â
And even after so many months since that engagement party fiasco? News really did trickle down slowly when royal scandals were so often covered.
Oh, whatever. He muses, thumb gliding over the glossy parchment- some new innovation from kingdoms beyond the sea, according to what the eagerly-accompanied writing had said. AâŠa photograph, you had called it.
And Gojoâs surprisingly intricate drawing of you fiddling with the ah- camera gave him an idea of the machinery, though- most of the sketches were of you. All of them, actually.
Yaga gazes on in slight wonderment at the perfect black and white depiction of your smile, rivalling the one of Gojo Satoruâs beside yours. Beaming, sleeves rolled up and fatigued with a day of hard work, so in love.Â
It was oh-so-positively sweet.
The cherry on top? Well, Yaga couldnât quite decide between the matching bands glinting on each of your left ring-fingers, the glimpse of a pretty lilâ cottage behind you two, and the massive bouquet of undoubtedly deep red roses Gojo was presenting you with.
Or perhaps it was the hand you were resting absent-mindedly on the obviously rounded curve of your tummy.
How fortunate, he tucks away the photograph into his coat with a smile and orders another pint. Knight of Roses, indeed.Â
A/N. Yearning is my kink mhm. Hope you have a lovely week <3
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