#just birthed this from my brain
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
A poem I wrote for my wife
Say what you will about my wife
Was it my fault she went this way in life?
Was my queerness too much for a boy to bear
So she had no choice but to grow her hair?
Or did I accept them as they were then
Encouraging choice for my best friend?
Letting her be who she wanted to be
By showing her who I was, fully me?
Did that stir a change, a rapid onset
To grow her hair as well as breast
That let her turn into a gorgeous butterfly,
Given half a chance to grow and thrive?
Did I turn her into something I liked
Or was she always the one for whom I'd give my life?
Whether called he, she, they, or anything else
I'd never have her as less than her true self.
Did I know, back then, who she would be?
No, but there's no other face I'd rather wake to see.
So you took me, so I take you
To be my wedded partner, too.
#acreepywholockian#acreepywholockian blogs#just birthed this from my brain#rehashing the same argument people have that i turned my wife gay or trans#in my head obviously and to no one#but i firmly state the truth that i didnt know until she came out to me#cuz i loved encouraging everyone to love whatever they wanna love no matter the gender or stigma#im nonbinary and very queer looking and her parents subtly hint that they think i turned her into what i wanted#but all ive ever done is be myself and encourage her to be herself#we dont like all the same things but we sure like a lot of the same things and each other#i miss her every day at work#shes the light of my life and best friend#amd id have her as any gender or sex or pronouns#marriage#wedding#wedding vows
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
behold: my least favorite string of words in the entirety of Tears of the Kingdom.
#totk critical#totk#tloz#gerudos#when will my brain return from the imprisoning war....#I just stumbled upon it again doing research yesterday and....#there's so many layers as to why it aggravates me#that it's spoken from the perspective of a masked woman as to embody all gerudos while removing her own identity#in the context of her loyalty to rauru as well#that giving birth to a bad man makes you responsible for his actions (he's not a toddler anymore he's an adult ok)#or more metaphorically that your initial conflict with hyrule makes you Sinful and cursed and you must Feel Bad Now *shame shame*#that she's passing on that ageless guilt with no expiration date onto the shoulders of *a teenager* and it's considered GOOD???#(wind waker shaking crying right now)#ALL OF THAT to prop her up to swear her loyalty to the people planning to go murder their ancient king (sure he's a Bad but still???)#using some sort of weird ass original sin scenario that is arguably not any gerudo's fault but Ganondorf's#(or if it is then it's not shown so ???)#the vibes are so so so off I just really !!!!! don't like#this is stuff like this that makes me reject that it's a good story about alliances being formed in good faith#because this is just manipulative#maybe the alliance angle everyone's stronger together was the intention but the execution is another story entirely#gerudos never benefited from ganondorf's actions also#so it's not even a case of making reparations for the way you benefit from systemic oppression due to your ancestor's actions#gerudos won literally nothing in ganondorf's war#apparently he even subjugated them if they weren't on his side (like.... a king would.... not to excuse it but the double standard here)#so it just instrumentalizes the ageless sin of motherhood + suffering under a bad monarch billion of years ago for war#so uhhh.... yeah that's not... that's pretty bad imo#the gerudo girl could have went “hey girl this man used us and still hurt us to this day let's kick his ass once and for all”#and this would have been a different story entirely#a little cheap but not.... That Bad
252 notes
·
View notes
Text
*shoves him in your face* LOOK AT MY SON [preesh to @yoteako for the sona/oc template]
#behold my child#i birthed him from my mind vagina /game grumps ref#its been a long time since ive talked about my boy#fully blame the sona discord server for giving me redacted brain rot again#erik is just that guy in a lounge chair sitting rent free in my brain with a glass of wine and a book#and when the hyperfixation returns he just sips his glass and goes “back again i see”#curse him#not really#if anyone wants to know about him shoot me an ask in my inbox#i will go OFF on this lad#oc#art#originalcharacter#originalartwork#sketch#redacted asmr#character design#redactedasmr#redacted audio#redactedaudio#redacted oc#redactedverse#pali draws redacted
105 notes
·
View notes
Text
Guys, but what if Red Hood's helmet was never about protecting his identity or hiding his baby face. What if it was just about protecting him from potential head trauma.
Think about it, when Talia found him he was catatonic and suffering from severe brain damage. Brain damage that she tried every natural means to heal before ultimately resorting to the pit. Ain't no way she was about to let the baby bird she literally nursed back to health go out into the world and ruin all of her hard work.
His mommy literally sent him off to become a crime lord and traumatize his father with a fucking safety helmet.
The anonymity of it was purely coincidental, but I'd bet my left tit that she emphasized that aspect of it to get him to use it without complaining about her perfectly reasonable overprotective tendencies.
#lmfaoo#just a thought#thats been living in my brain rent free recently#jason todd#red hood#talia al ghul#tiger mom talia#good mom talia#red hoods hood isnt a hood#its a safety helmet#his mom said safety first#she said i did not birth you from my pit of madness for you to return to your fathers city only to die from a fucking crowbar to the head#again#dont be stupid habibi#i raised you better than this#jason: but mooooom everyones gonna know#talia: how will they know??#💀#we always make fun of jason for his earlier helmets#but i find the thought of him only wearing them reluctantly and under extreme duress due to talias nagging even more hilarious#he used to sit on his favorite gargoyle brooding about the aesthetic sacrifices he makes for his mother#and how everyone is making fun of him for it#and like#he hated those first few helmets#and he lived in dread of every new updated version she came up with#like the one with the lips!!!#the LIPS!!!!#but if anyone made fun of them to his face hed shoot them in their fucking kneecaps because he got them from his MOTHER#his MOM is concerned about his safety#shes such a good mom and she loves him so much hes so lucky to have her and her hundreds of ugly helmets 🥰
293 notes
·
View notes
Text
usuki doodles 💝💛💝💛💝💛💝
#neopets#neotag#my art#usuki#listen i just rly fucking love usukis ok#i've been obsessed with them since 2001#what can u expect from someone who has also been obsessed with fashion dolls since birth .....#of COURSE im going to have furry fashion doll brain rot
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
The Spear Cuts Through Water by Simon Jimenez decided to give me massive diaspora feelings. Just the fact that Keema is so so afraid to die, as young men are wont to do, and that the narrator who lives a "a strange life" and ordinary life who is "sometimes" proud to be of their ethnicity. And that that is who is returns the spear into the narrative, and that is what solidifies Keema's determination to save the 'Old Country' despite explicitly stating his creating the mythos of the Daware and joining the quest for personal glory. And then the narrator in turn 'saving' Jun and Keema in the moonlight theater and how that mirrors oral traditions preserve culture.
#the spear cuts through water#tsctw#this is a bit incoherent but as an asian american with so little personal history with my birth culture due to external circumstances keema#and the narrator's conversation wormed its way into my heart and lives in my brain rent free#just that Keema spend the whole prevous 400 pages playing hero and doing so genuinely heroic things and then despite being so afraid to die#is willing to for a descendant who does not and will likely not fully remember the fully depth of their heritage and his story but that#the old country's stories live on through oral tradition and that he is more at peace with his choice to die for someone ordinary and#simultaneously sharing those traditions but still divorced physically and culturally from the Old Country#I have been thinking this over for like 6 months and I'm still a bi incoherent lol
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
🦴
#blackened bones au just got so wild y'all#mr 'whats a king to a god whats a god to a nonbeliever' jaehaerys targaryen over there who is not king btw#and is instead like a 12 year old hand of the king (sorry tywin) because his oldest brother has a huge case of 'weird flex but okay'#and his extra early elopement and subsequent earlt creation of the doctrine for Reasons#made aegon go you have been promoted u are now one of my elite employees!! took him from cupbearer to hand. as one does#but anyway aegon mr black maegor black magic baby electric boogaloo was unable to produce more than one pregnancy in his wife lol#because the black magic is FUCKED for REASONS (maegor skewed it gay. also for reasons. namely fucking aenys reasons)#and now he has no (male) heir and HE wants to make aerea his heir bc aegon is the chad of this family. also visenya got to him young#rhaena the lesbian is on board for obvious reasons but alyssa is decidedly Not & either is the council bc like. the targs have been wilding#in one decade they balerioned the starry sept and vhagared the sept of remembrance killing like. most of the high ranking sevenists lmao.#lol even. plus jae and aly also eloped cause ofc they did the council was trying to marry her to a hightower. oh and also the doctrine#been a bit of a decade and all that happened in just 9 years. also viserys and lysarra (oc first maegor/aenys daughter) got married#which was the first post doctrine marriage. they're the two crazies. she has a mini balerion. went wonderfully as im sure you can imagine#anyway the targs need to CHILL. give the realm a breather. NOT CHANGE THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF INHERITANCE PRECEDENT.#aegon the chad is not helping them do that. so alyssa uses her big brain. & she's like well aegon is a black magic baby (thnx maegor)#and he's king. so why not get him a Surrogate and make him an heir. for Reasons it can't be any of his fellow maegor black magic babies#(black magic babies can't have kids with each other bc they're barely fertile on their own lol) and his remaining options are aly & vaella#both of whom are out bc they're a) 14 and 11 respectively and also b) married and a future nun. shit happens.#viserys is a no cuz lysarra is Crazy and aegon knows it and respects it. that leaves jaehaerys 😁 the good dutiful fourth son 😁#the og machiavellian propaganda maker 😁 who will do Anything to get what he wants 😁 esp for the good of his house and the Realm 😁#long story short jaehaerys the nonbeliever to hardcore sevenist loser gets valyrian magic gender fuckery & gives birth to the heir <3#a delight to negotiate with alysanne as im sure you understand. truly didn't almost end the marriage he rewrote the law and religion for#shit happens <3 long live the third prince of dragonstone aerys targaryen who is the second shipname baby future king#(the first was aenys. aegon = ae rhaenys = nys. now aegon the uncrowned that WAS crowned named his heir aegon = ae and jaehaerys = rys)#(bc naming his first daughter after aerea and his second after rhaena wasn't enough evidently. he is a crazy person)#(he names the twin [they're twins it is the worst year of jaehaerys's LIFE think renesmee & bella] alystair. for alysanne.)#(he is a crazy person x2.)#and that's on today's episode of:#blackened bones au
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
unironically refer to persephone in hades as my mommy bc i love her. i mean this in an extremely non sexual way in the most familial love way i do genuinely mean she is my mommy and i need her to hug me crunchycrystals irl
#crunchyposts#hades game#the speed at which i am maxing out my relationship with her is unparalleled i genuinely shouted “NO” when i got locked out dshjfghdsj#i am clinging to this woman for dear life. the first thing i do after i die is talk to her and give her a gift. i almost cried the first#time i was ripped away from her in the overworld#my priorities in this game are reuniting orpheus and eurydice and making sure i show my mother how much i love her#every time i see her like the inner 8 year old in me just goes mommy......... my mommys here..........#family crush. on persephone from hades. the first one ive had i think lol#i need to hug her :((((( yk usually my sapphic brain would take over and id be like ough persephone pretty#but now its like thats my MOM shes pretty bc shes my MOM my MOTHER she BIRTHED ME#am i making sense sorry i just gave her 2 ambrosia in a row i love her lol
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Being nonbinary really is like oscillating on a daily basis between “I’m nonbinary” and “I’m not nonbinary, just a cis person who happens to have a slightly different view of gender from my peers, who likes going by multiple pronoun sets, and who actively avoids being perceived as my assigned gender online.”
#It really is like that tho#especially when you’re not even unhappy pretending to be cis#or when you still enjoy having a presentation similar to/aligning with your assigned gender#like yes I’m nb and closeted but even if I wasn’t closeted I wouldn’t mind closely aligning with my birth gender#(presentation wise)#Like even though I know I’m NB some days the brain really goes “you’re cis and just a little different gender-wise from your peers”#like duh brain that’s what being NB is#nonbinary#enby
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
honestly I know I go on about this but being a suppressed language speaker makes you so protective over any other minority languages that have historically been discriminated against, no matter how far-flung you just feel a connection. i'm lucky to live in a culture that is extremely proud of and protective over its language that fortunately is now thriving, but the reality is not all communities have had the same opportunities and ability to preserve their languages as we've had. it's so important. every speaker counts. a language isn't only worthy of being studied and spoken if its "useful" on a global scale
#if i could download a language straight into my brain it would be welsh. then basque. idc about usefulness#i would love to learn welsh. so much. i am trying to work on pronunciation so i can at least read words aloud correctly#like if things had been different historically i might have spoken both welsh and catalan perfectly from birth#i'm fluent in catalan but it was always a struggle and ive put in a LOT of effort to get it to the level which its at now#my dads family straight up never spoke welsh at all. except my cousin bc she learnt it at school and was just good at it#edit- not from birth. u get what i mean
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
one of the things that always made me smile a little while reading project hail mary was whenever ryland would say something about mixing units between metric and customary due to being an american scientist. because quite frankly in my experience of also being american trained in science. i'm far more comfortable working in feet and inches and miles and pounds (which i resent) than their metric equivalents but theres also so much knowledge where i Only know the metric equivalents and can't imagine it otherwise LOL. what a strange little space it occupies in your brain. what if i had to deal with blood lead levels by....idk, ounce per fluid ounce instead of μg/dL? nightmare country
#meanwhile then we have stuff that is calculated like... μg/ft^2 where we MIX the units lmao#i did break my brain a little trying to figure out how you'd even calculate micrograms per deciliter in customary units#because the units are just So Bad for it#and yet. and yet. and yet i am chained to this stupid stystem becuase i learned it from birth and metric just isnt second nature to me#i'd like it to be second nature to me#i can get by on estimating kilometers but sadly i probably won't REALLY fully comprehend the distance unless it's given in miles#which i hate btw
11 notes
·
View notes
Note
Ok stupid question but I had to ask BC I love the way you answer things haha 💓💓 (Sorry if that was worded weirdly)
So Jonesy (I think that's the dog's name in House of Wax) from all the Sinclair brothers who do you Jonesy likes the most and who do you think likes Jonesy the best?
it's not weird at all!! now that my HOW brainworms are back, any excuse to ramble incoherently about this dumbass movie and the characters is like. PURE gold. lmao 💀
okay, so imo, vinny is definitely the favorite. the first place where we see jonesy in the movie is in the wax museum and that is def not a coincidence!! they were hanging out!! jonesy just got bored of watching her dad labor over the fine details of the wax titty & wandered upstairs.
they're best friends!! I just know it!! that shot where vincent's turning wade to wax? and jonesy jumps up on the bed? the CUTEST. rip wade 🙏 but?? I adore that sm.
and he takes the puppy w/him when he goes to murder blake & paige. unhinged dog dad behavior if I've ever seen it. I can 100% see them both quietly coexisting in the same space together for hours on end—vincent sculpting and sketching, jonesy napping next to him. padding upstairs in the middle of the night to have a midnight snack. UGH
I v much also subscribe to the line of thinking that lester doesn't live in corpsetown & has a lil shack of his own in the woods. but he absolutely hustles up to the house routinely to bring jonesy weird roadkill snacks and play w/her in the backyard. if anyone in the family is committed to getting her energy out, it's v much him. they're just outside for hours n hours tossing a mangled deer leg around and kicking up dirt. I feel.
as for bo. well. he v much strikes me as the kind of guy who pretends to be fairly ambivalent about the fact they have a dog running around. if jonesy ever stirs up trouble or chews thru smthn, he's the first one to be like, "UH??? it's your fuckin' dog?? I ain't never ask for this??"
v much onery dad energy. he catches vincent giving jonesy some food off his plate and immediately starts talking about how he's spoiling the damn dog and THIS is why she knocked over the garbage can & got coffee grounds and eggshells all over the kitchen floor.
never mind that he's always giving her scraps of whatever random concoction he's eating. she's chowing down on eggo waffles and beef jerky and hostess snacks whenever he's around. but no, it's vincent who spoils her. sure, jan.
he wants a huntin and fishin dog, but he's not much of a hunter or a fisher. so he gets a couch potato that sits next to him while he drinks beer and rewatches old spaghetti westerns. and he totally doesn't care about it or like her. totally.
#I'd love to find out the true origin of the name jonesy tbh. it's fanon. and I know it's a ref to alien.#but like? whomst started using it first? bc everyone has adopted it @ this point#obsessed how this one headcanon took over the whole community omg#that's def a claim to fame lmao#it's cute!! love that our girl has birthed so many cute fan theories#even tho I think? the puppy in the film is also a boy? don't quote me on that but. I THINK#and even tho I'm v in love w/these boys having a female dog. the idea of the pup bein a boy and this whole dumb town just bein Boy Central?#kinda love that idea lmao#@ this point calling the dog anything else in a fic would feel like cognitive dissonance from the fanon. bc it's so v widespread#EDIT: I literally just googled it and found the source! @slash-em-up#and it's not an alien ref actually. she's named after jocelyn jones from tourist trap. v interesting#sinclair brainrot hours#asks#anonymous#long post#when I first got into this fandom I thought about mixing it up in a fic & naming the puppy smthn else.#I almost never mention her in fics bc it bugged me that we didn't have a canon name lmao 😭 bc my brain is wired strangely ig fhsjsgshsgsg#but I love knowing the fanon lore. v nice v cool v tasty
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’ve been consuming a lot of secret admirer AUs, so enjoy this doodle I made
#I’m so sickkk#ughhh#it’s ok I’ll just continue to obsess over atla#Also in this AU they are best siblings#and Ozai and Ursa are good parents#I cannot have a modern AU where they aren’t#this one fic just changed my brain chemistry#and now I can’t have an AU where Ozai and Ursa aren’t good parents#not sure if Zuko’s scar is just a birth mark or from some unrelated accident#zuko#azula#atla#avatar the last airbender#my art#hyacinth’s drawings
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
send help. it's supposed to be 91 degrees tomorrow. on my day off :(
#a sock speaks#work tag#food tag#it was high 80s today but I didn't even notice bc the air conditioner at restaurant job is punishingly high powered#I was wearing my long sleeved undershirt and leggings without any discomfort#but I have to run errands tomorrow and my car has no AC. the house also has no AC but is okayish at staying cool.#I wanted to make pizza today but didn't have time. might be too hot for pizza tomorrow :( but my ingredients are aging in the fridge#I finally got a paycheck but it's for the 2nd period I worked. I'm missing the first one and need to talk with the regional manager#and he's only in on Thursdays#also gotta request a day off to go to Portland with my cousin in 2 weeks#also gotta request off for orchestra which also starts in 2 weeks#also my aunt is trying to recruit me for a caregiving job and I'd have to take 3 weeks off to get trained#it'd be super easy to schedule both jobs once I'm trained but the training is a big time commitment#also restaurant job scheduled me for all graveyard shifts this week. if I can't adjust my sleep schedule I'll have to give a firm no on it#also gotta go to the bank to deposit my check and. uh. all of August's tips (terrifying)#also gotta call a vital records office in Maine about my mom's birth certificate bc we're trying to take her to Canada for her birthday#I don't think we have enough time but my sister wants to do it#also I want to finish knitting this sock that I started in June. I just have the toe left#also I finally confirmed the color and pattern for a baby blanket I'm preparing as a gift so I gotta get yarn#also I need to buy blackout curtains to fit my windows so I can sleep in the day if I work nights#also sometime this week my sister is cleaning the church. I want to go with her so I have an excuse to get ice cream from a shop nearby#also I need to clean my room and I should hang up the art prints & postcards I've been collecting for months#most of them are green to match my decor but some are just characters or scenes I like#oh! I also owe a postcard to a school friend#I had caffeine for the first time in several days and my brain is buzzing. there's so much I want to do and I have time to do it#and I'm excited about it!
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
me emotionally switching from 50 year old dad to middle schooler every 5 minutes this entire year bc the hormonal imbalance is desecrating my rat brain
#i miss my default 50 year old twice divorced emotionally seasoned man brain setting#im blaming the birth control right tf now lmfao#like Yes i was so manly im growing hair Everywhere and my ovaries were actively trying to kill me#but now my whole ass brain is now back to actively trying to kill me Every Single Day not just a week in a month lmfao#i thought it would just enhance the crazy bitch disease and be EXTREMELY pissed off but bruh#im not bleeding gallons and bed ridden from the physical pain but literally at what cost sksksk#im just bed ridden from emotional pain which might??? be worse lmfao#ANYWAY taking friday off bc these bitches made me work every saturday in april so i had n o time#still got like 5 pages left of the comic but im at The Good Part so i should move fast af#i just have to have the time to sit down and Focus (rare item)
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
...
#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload?#me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃#listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook#i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort#to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop#being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol#i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like#let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and#make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works#ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil#ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations#bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess#its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively#health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by#medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary.#like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think#of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf#my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its#bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror#when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the#most me coded character to ever exist#unrelated
8 notes
·
View notes