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king0fcrows · 10 months

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#I have always been very femme and enjoy feminity #the sparkle glitz pageantry #I love it it makes me feel so good #but the way I love it feels like loving a costume #and underneath there’s this quiet neutrality #it doesn’t feel like masculinity it feels like a shadow #neither femme nor masc #just being #and it feels good too #and I don’t know if this is something all women feel sometimes #when they get tired of the pagentry or …?#I like it when people call me they #just as much as when people call me she #I feel like I don’t always have to carry around the costume #even if I love the costume

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hildegardladyofbones · 2 months

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One of the best things about Disco Elysium by far is that it does not fear ugly women. The world is full of ugly men, but ugly women are so hard to come by.

#I'm not calling the characters ugly btw #i don't believe any one can be ugly #i do not care for beauty standards and thus i don't rank people based on how “ugly” or “pretty” they are #but the characters in DE do not meet the conventional beauty standards and look like actual people with unique faces #and thus would be considered “ugly”#and that is so important to me. i go feral whenever media represents how people look like in real life and not how they look like in the #fictional parallel universe where everyone is a model and where a majority of the movies take place #because irl you don't have to be a model to be desirable #the most attractive man in any video game I've ever played has a receding hairline and a big nose and thick glasses and a small chin #and not only is representing realistic people. just good. in general. but it makes the character of Dolores Dei stand out so much more which #works for the game so well. she's barely human. she's a deity- a myth- a legend. the only version that exists of her now is the one with #glowing lungs. she's perfectly beautiful because she's inhuman. the fact that everybody else looks so human only highlights how inhuman she #has become yk?#if everyone was as conventionally attractive as her then she wouldn't stand out. we wouldn't get why she's so special.#disco elysium #disco elysium analysis #media analysis #beauty standards #this is only one aspect of how this game portrays real people btw. as someone interested in character design this just immediately stood out #to me #the first time i noticed it was when i first met garte and the second time was when i met ruby because neither are conventionally desirable #oh my fucking god the nerds who complain about a woman with a model face having body hair in a video game would perish if they played this #mainstream game/movie studios catering to western masses could never

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hysteriafossil · 5 months

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guess who finished tlok tonight and immediately had this come to him in a vision!!!!

#i. really like tlok. like a lot #i understand why people dont like it #and i can accept that OBJECTIVELY its not that great #but i had a fantastic time with it #anyways yeah. gay people #tbh. would not call zhu li and varrick normal. most queer straight couple on the planet.#hes a gay man. shes a lesbian. theyre in love. do you get it.#i dont have that many thoughts abt wuko. i really really like it though.#wu is like the webkinz milk cat to me. i need to throw him against a wall really hard.#and of course. korrasami. what is there to even say there #one thing i will say is before watching it i TOTALLY thought asami was a fire bender and also evil #like i kept thinking “yep this is when she turns evil and then theres enemies to lovers” but nope #not a bender or evil and honestly im glad #she totally wouldve been justified in becoming evil though. i sure wouldve #love her.so much #korra too ofc #i have SO MANY more thoughts but im gonna run out of space #last thing i will say is i am a guy who will just always prefer media i can criticize #love atla. but theres nothing there for me to really sink my teeth into or like bitch about #i love it when media is KIND OF BAD and i can RANT ANGRILLY about it #the legend of korra #tlok #legend of korra #korrasami #wuko #zhurrick #korra #asami sato #mako tlok #prince wu

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yardsards · 2 months

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im like the lorax when it comes to women's body hair. we should let it grow.

#eliot posts #the other day my roommate was talking abt how she hates shaving #but does it anyway bc she doesn't want people to be mean to her about her body hair #and i was like yeah i mean i used to #also worry about that bc my mother was always so fucking cruel to me when i didn't shave #but as an adult i find that it's extremely rare that anyone even mentions it (tho my body hair is pretty light so that could be a factor)#but even when people are shitty i find that i no longer give a shit about what what those idiots have to say about my body #but i understand that that can be a hard step to take so if you need to keep shaving for your own comfort then i won't judge #but on the inside i was just like #*ibuprofen hand meme* ''let's get called disgusting hairy d*kes together <3''#i had a great time showing off my pit hair at the pool today!#(i get read as a woman when im swimwear cuz i can't hide my body as much. so i get read as a hairy masculine woman.)#i show off my leg hair every time i wear shorts but like. my leg hair is Pathetic #i look practically prepubescent vis a vis my leg hair (my mother still calls it disgusting lmao)#but my pit hair is pretty good #i occupy a weird gendered place in society where i am more of a man in identify but society genders me as a woman #the only time i feel remotely okay being seen as a woman is when i am seen as a BAD woman. a woman who cannot/will not be A Proper Lady #it's not an entirely ACCURATE view of me but there's Something in it

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natsmagi · 2 months

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honestly the more i hear about engstars and its TLs the more i absolutely dread the inevitable release of poltergeist and what may ensue from it, bc if if the translators themselves are already invalidating arashis identity then i Really Truly do not want to see how theyll translate natsume and tsumugis microaggressions/transphobia towards her. esp since ive noticed a rise in people being comfortably transphobic towards her, and i REALLY do not wish to see natsume and tsumugi being stupid fucking morons be used as evidence to discredit her

and i think this is all the more reason why its VERY IMPORTANT for engstars to DIRECTLY ACKNOWLEDGE arashi and her gender. bc sometimes characters are STUPID and RUDE and APATHETIC. enstars is a story with NUANCED and FLAWED CHARACTERS, and when a character is being a fucking asshole youre meant to PROVE THEM WRONG. but they dont even acknowledge arashi as a girl themselves. so, if you do use engstars, please keep pressuring them bc omfg this is so bad and i can only see it getting worse

#a bit of a serious post sorreys its kinda me venting im just preparing for the worst #We should be legally allowed to beat the shit out of ntmg for what they said to arashi #i dont remember the exact quotes verbatim but tsumugi basically just expressed confusion abt her gender identity #n natsume flatout said something like shes lying to kids by calling herself a princess #so.#not good.#having characters show bigotry is not Necessarily a bad thing. but that is ONLY WHEN that bigotry gets disproven #but. engstars arent doing that.#theyre not disproving it.#they keep pretending like her gender is. well. Nothing #so i worry that this story is just gonna fuel the flames and make everything so much worse than it already is #anyway. if u play engstars please do keep pestering them for blatantly ignoring and misrepresenting arashis identity #i try to stay out of whatever goes on on that app but. Man.#she deserves better #But hey knowing them maybe theyll just fuckin cut out the dialogue alltogether to further act like trans people and their issues arent real #nat rambles #im a bit peeved as u can see sorry i just know how this fandom is and how they cant handle nuance or flawed characters #and im REALLY not happy with happyele REWRITING THE TEXT #and getting RID OF SAID NUANCE #GRHAGGRAHGRAGHHGHGH #sorry.#its like 3:30am i just needed to get this off my chest #maybe ill delete this but god.#free my girl

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cassandracain52 · 3 months

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The Batfamily on a roadtrip:

Bruce: The Driver. You really thought his control freak ass was gonna let someone else drive? Be so fr. Has a migraine the size of the WatchTower and has been seriously contemplating pulling over, getting out of the car, and just walking. Not anywhere particular, just walking away. Has already had to pull over twice to swap seating arrangements around and they've only driven 3 1/2 hours out of 11. (They will do this at least 3 more times before they reach their destination)

Barbara: Shotgun. Declared that as second oldest and second most experienced vigilante that the front seat was her birth given right. No one contested it(successfully anyway). Has been helpfully navigating the fastest route much to Bruce "I know where I'm going" Wayne's annoyance. (Her way was in fact more efficient and she is incredibly smug about it.)

Jason: Behind the Passenger seat. Wanted the front seat but wasn't willing to physically fight Babs for it which was what she assured him it would have taken to get her to move. Brought a backpack full of nothing but snacks that he is only sharing with people that aren't actively annoying him aka Cass. Keeps playing words with friends with Roy on his phone and is Kicking Ass

Cassandra: Middle Left. Volunteered for the middle seat because she wanted to sit next to Jason aka the Snack Source while still being close enough to comfortably talk to Babs and Steph. Is one of the few enjoying the drive and just in general living her best life. Somehow painted both her own and Steph’s nails perfectly while the car was in motion. No one is sure how she did this and they were watching

Stephanie: Middle Right. Was originally sitting Middle Back next to Tim but caused the first seat swap when she got bored and decided Tim made suitable entertainment(imagine like in Detective comics #1000). Bruce declared the car a "No Flirting Zone" shortly after. Pouted for all of thirty seconds before she realized she got to sit next to Cass and abandoned Tim without a second thought. Is also the person pointing to the window and going “cows!” Whenever they pass some

Dick: Behind the Driver's seat. Chose his seat while everyone else was fighting for shotgun because he wanted to be able to see Babs during the drive so they could talk without shouting.(he knew good and well she was winning that fight). Has had a few arguments with Jason but they didn't last or get out of hand with Cass between them. Did manage to steal a bag of chips from Jason’s snackpack while he was on his phone. The roadtrip was his idea and he refuses to admit it was not well thought out.

Tim: Back Left. Was thoroughly betrayed when Steph abandoned him to be left with the two youngest bats and said so at length. Only quieted when Jason threw a pack of gummy worms at his head with a demand for silence. Brought an abundance of handheld electronics despite knowing he gets car sick. He threw up on the side of the road 90 minutes into the trip and Dick confiscated anything that had a screen until they reached their destination. He is his own worst enemy. Has since resorted to playing the license plate game with Duke

Duke: Back Middle. Was originally in between Cass and Dick but had to move to sit Back Left next to Damian when Steph took his spot. He stayed there for exactly 45 minutes before Damian caused the second seat swap when he attempted to strangle Tim with his headphones because he was "breathing obnoxiously". Is now a human barrier and he hates it. Jason offered him a small amount of sympathy by offering him some Sour Patch Kids. Duke accepted them. Bruce was more sympathetic and gave him DJ control. Is mostly just talking with Tim who is bored since his electronics were taken.

Damian: Back Right. Attempted to attack Stephanie with a pillow because he “couldn’t listen to her and Drake anymore and she was closer” before the first seat swap occurred. Did not regret his actions in the slightest. Warned his father that nothing good would come from him sitting directly beside Tim, was ignored, and then moved when "nothing good" did indeed come. Despite these to things, he actually spent the majority of the drive with his headphones on full volume and messing around on his phone while he pretended to be anywhere other than there.

Alfred: In The Car Following Behind Them. Yeah there was no way he was getting in that car. He knows a recipe for disaster when he sees one. Didn't hesitate to "offer" that he would happily transport all the luggage and supplies and meet them there. Was already loaded up and ready to go in a separate car before anyone could question him. Somehow got there first and had made dinner for them when they all finally showed up with half the car at war with the other half. Peace was made only in the name of Alfred’s cooking

#do not ask me what kid of mutant car/minivan they're in #just accept it and move on #or you can think of the car as actually being an 8 seater and Cass and Steph are just sharing a seatbelt #I use to do that with my sister so I know it can be done #also babs was technically batgirl before dick was robin hence second most experienced #ik that's probably been retconned but whatever it's still canon to me #batfamily #timsteph #again I meant it when i said i would insinuate timsteph as much as possible #cassandra cain #dick grayson #jason todd #bruce wayne #damian wayne #barbara gordon #duke thomas #alfred pennyworth #cass and steph's friendship is so special to me #when cass called steph “bestie” in Batgirls #them and babs too #just the batgirls are all iconic tbh #I tried to leave it up to interpretation on whether or not Babs could walk #just cause I like her no matter what but Ik lots of people prefer her as oracle even though she hasn't been just oracle for a while now #also basing the timsteph thing off detective comics issue 1000 when she just randomly tells tim she “kinda wants to make out”#Just cause she was bored #told you i would do a batfamily one #fanfic #headcanon #Plot twist: Tim was breathing that loud on purpose #For the sake of this scenario evryone in the car had no other option but to be in the car

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helios-two · 3 months

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cindy + studcoms compilation

#cindy the skull #steban the student communist #disco elysium #their dynamic is so funny to me. like as much as she ribs at them you can tell she still has a soft spot for them #and that they like her as well. or well i would say steban certainly moreso #steban also does mention getting cindy in the room regardless of whether she was mentioned earlier which i thought was nice #side note have you seen the disco elysium tvtropes page #like i found that first screenshot while looking for all the times cindy said communist #bc on her section it says that she supports communism “in spite of herself” so i was looking to see if she ever really mentioned it #in that sort of light but from what i was able to find (and from what you can see in the screenshots) she doesnt #and then it says TWICE on dros' page (among many many other things)#that he supports pederasty bc the commune legalized it #when he was calling gay people pederasts as a slur. & he uses it as a slur multiple more times in that same #conversation outside of that line #and they misspell dobreva's name as deobreva every single time its written (including in the section title)#and they listed her cause of death as being by firing squad #even though her suicide with abadanaiz is like #one of the two or three things we actually know about her #anyway i did actually create a tvtropes account because of this i hope you know that #just realized i forgot to tag ulixes #oh well

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moeblob · 3 months

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I changed my mind, you guys can take the doodle page of OCs on main.

A villain, his wife, and their daughter. There is so much info I could ramble about them but I think the biggest thing to know is I got so angry at someone acting like a wife holding a husband responsible for things he said is a reason to not get married. And I decided in my spiteful rage at the spousal hate for no reason... what if there was a husband who loved his wife and the fact she held him responsible? They're just super in love and she's willing to be the memory bank and he appreciates her so much.

So here's a family that loves each other a whole lot because I got mad at a tacky "i hate my spouse" meme.

#my characters #also im still plotting names for them which isnt shocking with me #but he calls his wife babe or baby and then his daughter is sweetheart or sweetie or other variants #and he just straight up has a goldfish memory for what he says and he needs the reminders #and when they first met she didnt really have the whole star motif in her outfits but he tells her #that he loves her freckles and they are a constellation in his heart and shes like damn thats so cute #and starts wearing lil star themes but never too much #she just really thought it was cute that her bf said that #then they get married and its fiiiiine he gets to kill people and do his weird lil experiments

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thedreadvampy · 3 months

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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yunmeng-jiang · 8 months

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that man does NOT think of wei wuxian as his gege

#jiang cheng #wwx #twin prides #i have a whole post about how they both think of themselves as having an older-sibling role #but even if that wasn't true jc still always calls him by his full name and the one time wwx tried to call him shidi jc yelled at him #their relationship is not that simple! it's a huge thing that wwx occupies a weird in-between role in their family!#he's definitely not a servant but also definitely not a full member of their family and that's super important to the story!#even if jc WANTED to think of him as his older brother he would need to get past seven layers of trauma to even realize he wanted that #and then he would have to admit it to himself and then work up the courage to admit it to someone else #and even then he probably still wouldn't say it to wwx's face #sure yanli calls wwx her didi but things are much simpler from her point of view #plus she's one of those people - like lxc - that can hold an opinion deep inside herself and be at peace with it even if it conflicts +#+ with what the world says and what she's been brought up to believe #jc is not like that. he internalizes way more from the outside world and if he feels conflicted he just kind of implodes #he's spent his whole life being told that wwx is not his equal and is someone to compete against #and also secretly believing that wwx is eventually going to abandon him because he doesn't think anyone truly cares for him #plus wwx treats him like a bff who is also a liege lord rather than a beloved younger brother #he would Not form a secure attachment to wwx lmao #it also really annoys me that when people write/conceptualize him as someone who thinks of wwx as his real gege +#+ they tend to completely erase jyl and minimize her importance to jc. he HAS an older sibling who he trusts unconditionally and confides +#+ in and takes comfort from! that person already exists! and they ignore her in favor of the protagonist #it also really bugs me when they have him mourning wwx those whole 13-16 years but don't put in a single word about yanli #this kind of turned into a rant about jyl... i have a lot of feelings about her especially since i'm the oldest sibling in my family #anyway. that man does not think of wwx as his gege #haterade #(kind of)

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willyhoos · 7 months

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a very self indulgent twipri au i made... vampire!zelda x vampire hunter!link..

in which a rancher from ordon is suddenly afflicted with lycanthropy, and hunts down the cursed hylian queen who is absolutely, DEFINITELY responsible for it...

(spoilers: he's Mega Wrong)

a bit more info about the au below the cut!

"Link, go assassinate the Hylian queen so we can go back to living normally." instructions unclear i have fallen in love with her

midna is somewhere probably maybe once i figure out what to do with her .

#tloz #zelda #loz #link loz #zelda loz #my nyart #so .#my first au huh #poor zelda isnt evil btw . much like in twipri shes kind of Stuck in a very very cursed kingdom with not much she can do #she was probably very confused when meeting the ~hero of legend~ and he says hes here to kill her #she was like WE ARE SUPPOSED 2 BE BESTIES!! AND ALSO SOULMATES. why are u calling me ebil :(#especially because she feels horrifically guilty about not only the state of her kingdom #but also like. shes a vampire. She Eats People #so for link to call her a monster... she kind of agrees i guess #but no she had nothing to do with links curse lol.#he just assumed she did... and she politely told him otherwise #he does not believe her #and of course #when he DOES fall in love with her #he assumes hes being enthralled or something and is like YOU CANT FOOL ME !!!! YOURE INTENTIONALLY POISONING MY MIND......#he just outs himself like a giant doof lolololol #anyway #also. ik. the elephant in the room.#i have no idea how midna plays into this... she'll find her time... maybe

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yourlocalsewerdragon · 13 days

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revisiting this site every now and then to reminisce in how much it shaped me as a person and defined me as a literal child

#cuz i was looking thru old youtube playlists right #and i found this one video edited by wooly abt the time spicy went crazy over a kuroo x joe crackskip (hilarious btw)#(also i cant find spicy did they deactivate forever help)#but like something about the interactions. and seeing myself during that time. just hit really really really hard.#like that was a little girl. she was 12 or 13 or whatever and the people on this site were her entire world #and she'd wake up every morning and check her dashboard and send asks and break the post limit and that was like #a significant part of my childhood. and then one day i just stopped logging on.#and i never even realized it but i talked to some of these ppl for the last time and didnt even realize that that was the last time #the people who i swore id meet in person one day. i knew everything about them and they knew everything about me #and now theyre just memories. and i refuse to call that era of my life cringe because i wouldnt have had it any other way #sorry im really senti. i need to find people again i miss them #and now we've all grown in different ways. yk the meeting people twice thing? yeah.#when u all met me i was second yr middle school and now im second year high school #theres so much i had on this site. some days i want it back

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bunnieswithknives · 5 days

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sorry if idk this but what do you think about Wordgirl now in 2024 do you still like it do you still want to make art or talk about it or are you just done with all of it forever and plus i seen that you haven't made art of it since 2022 so you just done with all of it oh yeah and what about The Magnus Archives + Wordgirl ao3 fic too like is that just going to be and i know that your working on 2 au's now just wanting to know that's all

My interests tend to come in intense bursts and then fade. Unless something like, big happens like it gets a reboot its unlikely I'll be coming back to it anytime soon. As for the fic I don't have any current plans to finish it unfortunately.

#Its so shocking whenever anybody mentions that fic to me #like its just such a specific combo of interests how are there this many people interested in it...#I have some fragments of unfinished chapters for it laying around but I was struggling to get them to work #and I definitely dont have the motivation to finish them now #If youre curious the chapters were going to be Slaughter avatar miss Power and Web avatar Mr Big #and possibly Flesh avatar Butcher but I never got around to starting that one #The Miss Power chapter was basically going to be about her having kind of lost her thread #I wanted to leave a lot of ambiguity as to what happened with her home planet #but she hadnt been in contact with them for agessssss and her radio is damaged and her ship is in bad shape #the chapter was just going to be her being like 'pfff I dont interpersonal connection Im doing great out here. Murdering. All on my own'#Well she has her little squirl thing but she treats him like an animal #mr giggle cheeks or whatever #anyway I wanted it to imply that whatever happened her bloodthirst was destroying her #The Mr Big chapter was from Lesley's perspective #She would have been one in a long long line of assistants that Mr Big went through like candy #Lesley is his favorite though because. while she is terrified of him. shes still willing to push him. to be honest with him #but she also knows exactly when to step off. when to lie to appease him #( its always a tossup as to whether he wants a sweet lie or the harsh truth that day. He can always tell either way #its a gamble he does to be cruel. She always picks right though. or maybe he's more lenient with her than he should be)#He likes that she knows exactly how to push him without ever stepping over the line #He likes that her guilt and revulsion are slowly eating her up inside but shes too selfish to leave #She likes being special. She likes the idea of ruling the world alongside him #She'll always be second in command but shell be so much higher than everyone else #and shes willing to do anything to get that #Mr big doesnt think shell ever make it that far #but he likes her anyway #shes the one assistant he'll be sad about dying #OK damn apparently I did still have things to say about this old fic DAMN #still not gonna finish it tho. they call me the struggler becaus.e writing is a struggle...

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box-dwelling · 14 days

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Sometimes a ship post is just a vent post but hear me out:

Astarion thinking he's being manipulative when he isn't.

Like hes really genuinely upset about something that is of like minor inconvenience to Wyll. Blood drinking is a great example.

He's absolutely starving but he doesn't want to admit it and A) admit weakness or B) risk being viewed as too dangerous to have around because he's hungry. So he's just suffering in silence for a while until some how wyll notices what's up, gets him to admit he's hungry and then immediately offers to let him feed. Just because of basic and kindness it doesn't even have to be at the love stage yet, though this would absolutely probably persist past it.

But in his brain he just can't comprehend someone actually showing him compassion or kindness? Even wyll? So even though he did absolutely nothing manipulative just admitted to his needs he convinces himself that he is just such a master of manipulation he doesn't even have to try.

#wyll ravengard #astarion acunin #wyllstarion #wyll x astarion #bloodpact #bg3 #baulders gate 3 #listen sometimes this vampire is just therapy for me #like there is unfortunately a little too much about that bitch i relate too. its bad #in fairness i also relate insane hard to wyll. but like theres just something deeply ptsd eupd about astarion and it destroys me #like there is something that happens when you are used to having manipulative to get your needs met.#or if you're called manipulative when they are. it basically stops you from being able to recognise that you can have a nice thing #without that happening. you can have the means of survival. sometimes people just care and want to help #anyway i can also see astarion doing the thing i did where like. he thinks he being manipulative but hes actually just making friends?#like the romance aspect yeah thats actually manipulative but him being like “hm if i talk to karlach she will like me and view us as close #and besides shes good company “ and just my brother in christ that is called making a friend and having a friend #“im so manipulative i dont even need manipulate her to do something she doesn't already want to do”

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wikitpowers · 4 months

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anyone ever think about how kit is literally ty's best friend? like kit was the only one who ever showed that he truly cared about ty as a friend, that he accepted him exactly as he is. he's the only one who laughed with him, not at him and the one who understood that ty works differently than others and didn't view him as weird or strange because of it, but rather loved him for all of those things?

nope? just me? okay then

#and ty never thought that kit would leave bc their friendship just felt so different from all the others #like i bet when kit leaves ty remembers all the times people who claimed to be his friends turned away from him #and i know that kit leaving hit so much harder bc of it #like it actually broke ty in a completely different way #bc he was convinced that this time it was different and so special and-#oh no im making myself cry goodbye #side note: ofc ik livvy is ty's best friend <3 but she is also his sister so it's different from other friendships #i hope i made this clear! like ofc SHE gets ty in a completely different emotional way (they make me so freaking sad </3)#but others who have claimed to be his friends have hurt him so badly until ✨kit✨ came along :(#thats what i call friends-to-lovers <3 #god pls dont let them be parted for much longer #i am going insane #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #the dark artifices #the wicked powers #tda #twp #tsc

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moeblob · 5 months

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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