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puppyeared · 1 year ago

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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

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andthen-light · 1 year ago

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okay girls im going to be a little hashtag critical here but i have been ruminating LONG ENOUGH and i really really do not like that scene in the graphic novel murder on the rockport limited where lucretia recognized the umbrastaff. i understand what they were trying to do and i understand you have to change things for the medium but its kind of a disservice to both lucretia and taakos characters imo. lucretia works so hard to keep the boys from questioning things like why would she have a reaction like that. like they couldve alluded to her recognizing it but a scene like that is so in your face and it takes power away from the scene in crystal kingdom where red robe barry recognizes it. and wrt taakos character like. hes never Particularly trustful of lucretia like on a personal level but overall he trusts the bureau and lucretia until reunion tour. adding in a scene like that at that point in the story makes no sense like u cannot convince me taako would not start questioning what the directors really up to and why she had such a personal reaction.

#taz balance #main tags for this 1 coz im curious if anyone else has similar thoughts. any of the other girls really freaking autistic abt this show lol #and again i get tht its partially the medium just. i dunnooooo like #the foreshadowing in balance already feels good feels organic. and i get they gotta allude to the bigger behind the scenes plot for new #readers but they do that already with the scenes w the red robeeeee likecjdknf #does this make any sense. do i sound nutz #ugh god girls once we get the animated series (🙏) i am going to. explode i hope they make some different decisions kfjfjdnf #creatively speaking #i rlly do think the medium has a lot to deal with it tho like i just dont think balance works in a graphic novel #like the plot is overall tje same but it doesnt have the same story feel. does that make sense #UGH AND ANOTHER THING. i get tht by showing her reaction adds to the freaking angst or whatever but part of why her character is so tragic #is that we dont see that! she keeps her emotions in check the girl does not let ppl in bcoz she feels she cant! and like #when we as like the readers the audience or whatever see her react like that so strongly and so angrily its like. shes no longer mysterious #and finding out who lucretia really is by the end of stolen century doesnt have the same impact. bcoz we already Know shes hiding something #its not just hinted at #ugh WHATEVER im normal about this show im so normal

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#tfw u spend the day being catastrophically depressed then u remember how kush1na uzumak1 is treated by the plot of #narut0 and u get so fucking angry that u stop thinking abt how miserable u r for 2hrs as u furiously draw out an idea #it makes me so fucking mad. but like in a way that fun bc its like who cares its not that serious #and when i get depressed i just like. i dont give a fuck abt anything. there is a film between me and everything and nothing can touch me #except apparently my fucking insane feelings about narut0. like im genuinely so embarrassing when ppl irl make the mistake of talking abt #narut0 to me irl. like i get SO excited. i move my arms a lot and stamp my feet and just get real enthusiastic and my voice goes all weird #and i cant get my thoughts straight bc i have so so so much to say. which is like fine. its just embarrassing to me personally #bc i kno i tent to stay on the subjects im interested in for way longer than most ppl would probably enjoy #and after i watched star trek into darkness in hs i was like at my peak star trek phase and i was talking a mile a minute #and then my sister was like: y is your voice all weird? and it was like she slapped me in the face. slapped me thru time. u bitch 😭#this is y im not allowed to enjoy things 😭 also bc im annoying abt it. ugh. anyway. point is i got so mad abt the misogyny of kishimoto #that i forgot how fucking awful i was feeling for a minute. so thank u for hating women so much u fucking bastard lol #when will i post the idea im planning? who tf knows. its gonna take. well idk how long itll take #unrelated

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evisxerate · 1 year ago

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Can't stop thinking about how much I wanna start playing w/ my gender expression outside the house but holy shit is it scary to exist in front of other ppl lmao

#idek where to start anyways #wearing more fem stuff has helped but im struggling to understand how i can merge my presentation if that makes sense #its also hard bc i love looking hypermasc too #and i dont leave the house a lot so i dont have a ton of opportunities to dress up #idk man lol I'll figure it out its just nice to talk about #i guess this is also me kinda solidifying for myself that im genderfluid and genderfuck n stuff. feels good honestly #on that same note im once again thinking of changing my name. same thing i was already considering before tho #i wish i was more confident and would just Do Shit that i know would make me happy instead of worrying abt what other ppl think #ugh #roach.txt

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faaun · 2 years ago

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eye pain is the WORST kind . worse than teeth even maybe

#esp when u cant rub ur eyes or itll maoe things worse #typing this w my eyes closed i hope it is comprehensible #anyway whwt the FUCK i am in so much pain from one eye only and its like . im aftaid #the flap they made during frmto lasik has moved or smthb. and itll wont end #bc whenever i open my eyes/blink iy is painful #resolved to do that very rarely . anyway eave me x . avcording to my doctor/surgeon i actually had #a scar that was imperceptible initially on each eye and thats why thos whole thing has been so #excruciatingly painful . like apparently ur notnsupposed to rly feel anythiny in femto lasik but it was #literally the worst pain i have ever felt in my whole life (i have a rly high pain tolerebce due to reasons);#anyway i have a feeling this may be due to the wounds/scars too idk...#also i had fat grafting to fill in my under eyes and like . it was suchba slight procedure and was done when i was under #anaesthesia for another procedure...that i forgot abt it. bc i dont rly touch my under eyes. anyway during lasik they #use this device which puts pressure around ur eye sockets which ahould have been fine #but it was putting a lot of pressure on a newly grafted area of my face and i was like . oh i see ! i want to scream !!!!!#but i couldnt say anything bc it was cutting a hole in my eyes and i was like yeah talking rn is a bad idea. but afterwards the nurse was #like . you look like you are literally going to pass out oh my god are you ok ?? and i told her abt the under eye thing and she was like.#YOUBSHOULD HAVE SAID THAT EARLIER like yeah ik im sorry 😭#personal #anyway lol its fine i just want to rub my left eye sooooo bad it is so . annoying /painful UGH

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lavellane · 2 years ago

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ok. ok. i think im finally (mostly) settled on elspeth's ending and her handling of the landsmeet in particular. illegible hysteria below

i spent like 20 hours of this game hyping up an alistair/anora alliance but i dont think i can do it in practice im too weak Lol. BUT i do like the idea of trying it anyway and it falling apart bc everything always falls apart in this universe. so yeah, alistair does do the dual in the end, despite what i said the other day (he's the one who at this point wants to be king. so why not) much to ella's horror. the detail i mentioned about loghain being the only person to defeat her in her tourney days still carries symbolic weight, because it was ELLA who trained and mentored and levelled alistair up through the blight. shes like babe if i cant beat him you shouldnt risk it !! and so him then BEATING loghain regardless is a nice lil "student surpasses the teacher" moment and also drives home that ella is a good commander and theyre both stronger than they were.

ofc this means alistair obviously goes rogue and does what he does at the end of the fight — regardless of the promises of mercy ella made to anora and their attempts at an alliance lol. which sucks and its not as neat a solution, but emotions were high and its understandable and also L + ratio + loghain sold elves into slavery. ella got her vengeance over howe earlier so shes like sigh ok anyways. SO. the alliance is a bust, but alistair is hardened anyway so its not the end of the world. he rules alone post canon with ella still as adviser and his mistress, BUT :) im thinking about him refusing to take a wife in this path, specifically because he's trying to convince ELLA to marry him and make it official. she always rejects him but its in an ahaha.... unless 👀 kinda way that encourages him to keep trying. i mean the only reason she doesnt feel like she can is bc Duty and Responsibilities and Obligations blah blah blah..... ALL of which she could still honor while being queen. so yeah. completing her story and having her reaffirm her grey warden duty + alistair's king duty, and their mutual dark ritual sacrifice, but with the open ended possibility that a happier ending IS possible at some point ! when she's ready ! maybe after she cures the taint :) who knows

#oc: elspeth #ok im feeling better about this actually. i hate feeling paralyzed by lore it happens wayyyy to often bc my brain is broken #i think the reason im not feeling the anora/alistair choice anymore is bc it requires alistair to make that sacrfice PLUS the dark ritual #like the ending was supposed to feel like it's ELSPETH bearing the brunt of the angst FOR ali and yet that route just #fucks him over way too much and ella by extension. i do like it in theory but i wish the dark ritual didnt have to be involved sigh #but whatever this ending fixes all of that ! and the ritual actually suppports this choice imo #alistair feeling less beholden to c*ncieve an h*ir bc hey idk if u forgot but i actually have a fucked up kid out there somewhere lol !#really the only loose end im :/// about is anora #bc she was important to ella :/ very important #and having that whole aspect of her story finish with 'oh alistair exiles her or puts her in prison and we all move on' just. ugh.#i WISH there had been even the slightest mention that anora knew how to fight or was interested in it at least #bc if ella could conscript her into the grey wardens THAT would be a lot of fun lol #like 'your boyfriend killed my dad and stole my throne but you tried your best but also fuck off' is suvh a good dynamic :(#idk. i'll have to think abt how i can fuck around w canon to make that ending more satisfying since that is ofc what i Do lol <3 #im just shouting into the void w this mostly but i love her so much and im having fun so.#i think ive realized thru fixing up this worldstate is that i love angst but with a healthy serving of hope on the side #ella's hope that her love for alistair can fit with her duties as commander #cillian's hope that anders can be redeemed #ashara's hope that she's not too far gone to forgive solas. and that her love can still save him despite everything #man.#ANYWAYS THANKS FOR READING IF U DID LOL

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fappellmoan · 2 years ago

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is it really really stupid to give her the gift. i know she’s not worth it and im making myself feel like shit over and over and i need to stop and it doesnt matter how sad or angry i am about it she’s not just gonna dump him and even if she did i wouldn’t like. want to be the second choice (not that i inherently would be. weirdo dream scenario) and it’s just not gonna affect her much to not see me anymore and i have to be okay with that. and im truthfully not rn but i have to be cause that’s the reality. anyway lost my point there

#like. i just cant imagine class being over monday and just being like. ok bye forever ig. or not rlly saying anything #idk guys im sorry i know ive gone on and on and on nonstop for months #it just sucks #even if i think back to monday like. it's classic baby steps of leading me on and i fortunately for once didnt nip at the bit right away #but just the little ways she looked at me and smiled or joked around. kinda flirty. just for her to yk #post the bereal today and hes in it and its like 'wait let me get a shirt on' so just blatantly fucking yk. didnt even have to do my sleuth #work. and like. i know maybe ive overreacted to a lot of it and over thought it and she really didn't intentionally do a lot of it #and wasn't ever confused or anything and i just told myself that to justify being sooooo bonkers over it. idk #so it's like. with all that in mind. no i should not give it to her i should just walk out of class and not talk to her again #but the wounded part of me the 17 yr old in me is desperately asking why it's so easy for someone to get over me #but she was never into me! or at least not enough yk. she has a boyfriend. and that yk. shouldve been enough #but i got so lost in all these little signs and feelings of tension and #i guess. lol look at me abt to say this. doesnt help to dwell (lol!) but who knows if it was mutual some of those times when it just Felt #tense. yk. or if she just has problems and really liked the ego boost #cause boy did i make it fucking easy to enjoy my attention! and i never ever ever shouldve done all that bc she wasnt mutually engaging #at least not till like. october. and only briefly. and i just. ugh #anyway :( whatever. i know the answer is no. i know it's no i know i shouldnt #but as i was saying. the wounded part of me wishes i could make her feel even a fraction of the hurt or even just fucking regret #but not pity. but regret for being an asshole. if i could just say something as my final word or something and still be dignified #but i just dk how that would happen. so. yeah #hopefully this is one of my runner up last posts about her #film girl saga

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cryptidapprentice · 3 months ago

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ugh

#cryptic ramblings #in the tags #every gd time i think/talk abt my celebrity crush i feel like i sound like some creepy stalker fan 😭😭#but very genuinely my crush is like. 'we dont have class together but i think youre cute and seem interesting. id like to get to know you-#'-would you like to go out sometime?'#like i keep comparing it to anime bc thts the main place i see it happen tbh (esp bc im usually a friends-first kinda person w crushes)#like in my mind im like 'based on what ive seen i think we could be pretty compatible personality-wise!!'#n then i pull back n im like dude. i sound like a stalker or smthn idk #i just wanna know what the guy's like when hes not On for the cameras yk?? (and again my brain goes 'thats some stalker shit')#(but its also like. im not going out of my way to find things abt him?? like im not tryna look up where hes living rn or anything like that #(all i know abt him is the stuff ive heard him talk abt in the (v few)#interviews ive seen of his)#so id like to THINK im not a stalker #but it feels like the fact that this celebrity crush is essentially just 'a crush that so happens to be on a celebrity' makes me seem so...#parasocial?? like Actually?? but also im not like. under the assumption that like. we're bonded or connected or whatever #plus like. i myself am a performer/actor just by no means in any way as professional as him (but id LOVE to be a professional ykwim??)#so im kinda like 'oh we're peers but at different points in our careers' on some level (but i also know THATS kinda nothing...)#ugh idk idk ive just been thinking abt it a lot n i wanted to get that off my chest lol #i would not mind thoughts n opinions on the matter in my dms 👀 i just feel sooo 😖😖😖 and anyways ive been on my lunch break too long #post over

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tkbrokkoli · 4 months ago

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#aaaaaaaahhh i missed sm on tumblr i just quickly checked some blogs and it made me sad and happy at the same time #but i rly gotta focus on studying for my exams ugh. even tho i was away on the weekend w some of my friends lol. it was so fun #i haven't had sleepovers w friends since i went to highschool which is over a decade ago #it was so good and fun even tho i didn't get a lot of sleep. but i caught up on sleep on the days since and yesterday and today ive been #feeling p energized c: today i. registered? or maybe declared is a more fitting word. that i wanna change my name and gender marker #and now i have to wait until the end of the year to actually change them. but it's in motion!#i also made an appointment for a chest ultrasound so now i just need a psychiatrist to be able to get top surgery w the surgeon i picked #i recently had a job interview for a student job as a mentor! it won't pay a lot but a bit money is more than nothing #and i enjoy being a mentor so i hope ill get the job. haven't heard back yet #also i found out that all the fellow students that i have become friends w are queer. i am friends w almost all my fellow students that #are queer except w one person. it's funny bc when we all started becoming friends we didn't know that the others were queer.#well i outed myself in front of professors and the class multiple times bc I didn't pass back then so it was obvious that im queer #but i didn't know abt the others. we all just gravitated to each other which is nice. one of them isn't even out to family or friends #at home and another one told me I'm the first person they've come out to so i feel p honored that we can be open and ourselves w each other #we watched so many queer movies and shows on the weekend i loved it #i never would've thought i'd come this far. look at me being mostly mental-illness-free medically transitioning and having a social life #being more comfortable w myself than ever #now i just gotta get a nice degree and a well paying fun job (i've had a shitty fun job before) and tackle all those medical issues i have #like exhaustion. but one step at at a time. i truly feel so good rn!! :D hope you guys are doing good as well #personal log stardate

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coridallasmultipass · 7 months ago

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#ughhhh i started writing a quick bro / dave for todays date but im def not gonna finish in 45 minutes nooooo #its my ki.nk and i wanted to savour what i was writing by dragging it out hffffffff #wish i thought to start it before last night ughhhhh #but ughhhhhhhh dudeeeee its hapeninggggggggggg #god im so fucking thorsty for it #no one writes it the way i want it #and now ive gone and made it silly by trying to do it for today #but i cant just take those parts out bc they're so... baked... into the plotline #hfffffffff why didnt i just make this its own thing ughhhhhh (bc dave would never wanna do that sober thats why)#hffffffffffff screams #writing sm. ut is so time consuming for me #(tbh writing is on its own lol)#but to write. my fave thing. for the first time. its a lot of pressure for a fic that was supposed to be a quick joke #bro ended up being fucking smitten as hell too bc thats how i feel abt this ki. nk lmao #i dont think im even gonna get hi tonight lmao its okay a holiday doesnt mean shit when its something i do on the reg #im so tired hhhhh im just wasting more time typing out more tags bc im too tired to write fic words lol ugh #delete later / /#maybe i will so i can just go the fuck to sleep rn and write more when im more awake. date be damned. im not finishing in 30 mins lol #and even if i did finish in 30 mins i sure as hell aint proofreading and posting within 30 mins #ok yeah gonna get ready for bed and set the writing down for when im not gonna write something rushed ill regret and have to undo later

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akc-g · 1 year ago

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just saying even if im not dying or whatever it is still so annoying being sick enough u can barely leave ur room for a month str8 while having to be an active student.

#like the chances are everythings fine ive just been overresearching stuff in case it isnt #bc its easier for me to calm down if i know what to expect w the worst case than trying to convince myself its not That Bad #im banking on chronic tonsillitis bc my tonsils have gotten so big (i have permanently big ones so when im sick its a nightmare) -#- that my throat has felt like it was abt to just close twicd #but ive also had either a swollen lymp node or lump on the side of my neck for almost a month str8 w a lot of building pain #so we will see #im waiting to hear if i qualify for medicaid n if not what my options r bc id like to be able to afford this but at least i can afford #the urgent care trip when im home #ive been nonstop bitching abt this on my twit priv but ig for here too #n bc sometimes bitching on here feels less annoying lmao #mostly ive been struggling w classes bc of this bc im too exhausted to get to classes n then too exhaysted to feel i can put effort2hw #n im fine im not doing that bad but ugh this hapoening immediately after losing eric is. ahhhh lol #av.txt

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#love that when ur stressed and having a bad time it makes ur menstrual pain worse so you feel even more awful #like. yes. id love to get things done but unfortunately i need to go home immediately at 2pm bc i feel physically ill. vibes wretched.#im considering sleep here at 6pm but 2 b fair i think i only slept 4hrs last night. woof. tomorrow is gonna b interesting #i think the allergic reacting is abt over now tho. like im not really itchy anymore. the rash is still visible but i think its just dry now #bc of the cold. so was i ever reacting to the tatto0? or was it all the medication? im so interesting in what happened #would i not have had a reaction if i hadn't got a bunch of holes poked in my skin? or was it just a coincidence #that the rash started on that arm? ugh. so frustrating. and i think the psychiatrist forgot to actually book my appointment from when we #last talked so idk. maybe if i watch t4skmaster over and over it will heal my soul #ay. its all very frustrating. and i still dont have fucking autoclave access. fuck off. just give me the fucking key code #i just wanna pour plates 🫗 lol that actually looks a lot like pouring solid media. i dont wanna have to steal someone else's card to open #the door. who even locks up an autoclave??? they didnt at my old school and u could wheel a body into that thing. im pretty sure it was #bigger than this one. also there's another unlocked on on campus. why?! i ask ppl and fucking no one knows. that's just how it is #ugh. i should go to sleep. my tummy hurt #unrelated

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be-good-to-bugs · 1 year ago

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in another life id of done wrestling

#the bin #literally always wanted to. maybe cause im a lesbian lol #but alas i have joint disorder and also other disorders so its not possible :(#its fun. i did some once and it was fun and i always wanted to do more but didnt have the opportunity #literally i dont think anybody would guess this about me based of how i am usually bc of my demeanor but like #ugh. it makes me sad #i have like 0 interest in most wrestling stuff bc theres just. so many issues with it (misogyny for the most part) but womens wrestling is #cool a lot of the time. idk. wrestling that really puts the performance part into it. cause its like. not just ppl beating each other up #tho it is that too (and thats fun also lol)#i dont talk abt it much anywhere but i should more i think #my sisters sort-of-ex-boyfriend/current best friend is really into wrestling and its made her interested so ive been thinking abt it more #bc im finally gonna have someone to be into ut with me #like. just LOOK at womens wrestling and tell me its not cool. u cant. its gr8 #and the clothes are super cool like wow #also its like so fucking gay like oh my god #why does god hate me and everything i wish to do and be?#me as a child deciding not to do wrestling bc my body is in constant pain for some reason and i feel dizzy a lot so itd a bad idea #and then doing gymnastics instead which just fucked up my joints real bad #well. at least i didnt get to do ballet. i wanted to so bad but itd of messed me up even worse 4 sure #tbh the main reason i didnt do wrestling is bc i knew my mom wouldnt get it and would prob say no and think its weird cause she had #expressed that she didnt get it before. but i guess in the long run its good #ugh whyd my childhood crush have to do gymnastics. my being gay only made my joints worse! noooooooo

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nomaishuttle · 1 year ago

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i did spend $78.62 today Its true .

#the diner i went to was wayyy more expensive than i was expecting ill avoid doing that next time.. i just saw they had philly cheesesteak #and i blacked out bc i was so excited #so next saturday ill prolly just eat at home :] or order delivery ir something of that nature. just something small...#the cafe was wayy cheaper than i was exoecting tho it was only 13.96 for a london fog breakfast sandwich And brownie... which is so cool #compared to the diner where i judt got s philly cheesesteak combo (w/ peach smoothie 🤤 (the smoothie wasnt actually that great but it also #wasnt bad)#and it was . 24.55.......#it was a very filling meal tho like im still full i almost couldnt finish my fries. so not super complaining #just in the future i might try 2 eat a little lighter..and also eat somefing less greasy bc i am feeling a bit sickly from the grease #BUT ! thats ok. thats all i have 2 go 2 bed now or ill lose a bedtime point #im sososososo glad that the sheet system is working tho like genuinely i think ive been doing a lot better :] altho maybe im only #thinking that bc today was nice LOL. whichever it is im happy abt it !! ik its only myyy abt to be 4th week doing it. buttt im still happy #ive tried 2 do stuff like this b4 and it just hasnt worked....#tbh the sheet is working so well bc i can just auto calculate math ... so im kind of getting the feeling that transferring it 2 an actual #real life sheet With the cutesy metallic stars wont be helpful. but i want them the cutesy metallic stars...#i could just use the sheet in conjuction. and the irl sheet could just be a fun reminder visualization thang... :]#im genuinely like hopeful. i didnt meet anybody or rly talk 2 anybody today but thats ok . its so nice t just get out of the house..#im hoping once i start going 2 the library every week maybe other regulars will like talk to me yk...#esp once i ermmm get school finished. sincw obviously nobodys gonna talk 2 me while ive got my bigass headphones on doing schoolwork.#ugh sigh i have 2 confiscate my bedtime point its 2 late niw. oh well... gn noww

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stupidrant · 11 months ago

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I salute to you and thank you for your service 🫡😔

u guys weren’t there in 2018 fighting the atreus annoying and useless allegations like i was. i was on the front lines

#(long rant ahead) i wasnt but i can imagine how terrible it first was #then it got worse for those sticking around since 2018 with rag coming out UGH #atreus/angrboda fans will always have to be battling it seems 😔#I lurk a bit so ive seen older reactions to him and im just like man! who knew an 11 yr old is 11!#idk being a new fan i have a completely different outlook on everything so i dont hold the same contempt as others do #alot of this “fandom” intentionally ignores things bc they dont care and thats fine or whatever but if u dont care for anything or anyone #outside of kratos why are u around 😭😭#Like we are no longer there anymore bro he has a home with family thats alive and thriving #The extreme negativity is one of the reasons why i was hesitant to be here in the first place #Not the first fandom and probably not the last im associated with but this one i think is the first one where i genuinely feel everyone #is miserable with EVERYTHING.#Matter of fact i dont even consider myself part of the fandom LOL #Im just here enjoying what i enjoy #It really sucks liking a character(s) thats almost universally hated for some(dumb) reason #Like… everyone is just negative and i see that even on twitter to the point i just have to mute/block ppl.#I dont tend to care (or try not to care) abt things like this but i dont think ppl realize being in that state can leak into #Smth you dont want. Yes not everything is glitters and butterflies but to stay in that negative mindset is just crazy to me.#ESPECIALLY over a fucking VIDEOGAME CHARACTER like girl bye😭😭😭#I have my own gripes with my other fave games and fandoms i been in but this fandom takes the cake of being a drag #Sms taking a lot of risks and continue trying with atreus gives me hope for him and angie. Idk what theyll do with them #From here on out but they realize no matter what they do its gonna get some level of hate.#I dont even know if ill like their characterization next game either but with what ive seen so far i think they are in good hands.#Im sorry for the really long rant you guys i just needed to say this LOL #When it comes to atreus/angrboda i get a bit passionate but also since sunny/laya are around my age and knowing how gamers are #Its just really aggravating seeing shit like this #Not to say i cant get crazy myself (cuz i can im ngl) but alot of times i just have to take a step back and BREATHE.#Theres a small change ive seen with the hate towards them (ppl have been getting kinda annoyed with it since thats all they talk abt)#But collectively i hope one day ppl genuinely like them. Not out of pity or anything either. But bc they enjoy their characters :)#Im manifesting that it will happen LOL #manifesting all good things towards atreus/angrboda🕯️🕯️🕯️

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maplesyrupsainz · 1 month ago

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˖⁺｡˚⋆˙loyal…but not that loyal | CS55˖⁺｡˚⋆˙

pairing: carlos sainz x barcelona footballer!reader y/n (she/her)

genre: social media au

warnings: idk shit abt football!!! also so short sorry

summary: in which your boyfriend is your biggest fan whilst also being your biggest hater

a/n: i havent posted im ages omg sorry im making my comeback w some cs55 fic which is fitting <33

request!!!: Hi, can you please do a smau where Carlos Sainz is dating a barcelona player and he still supports her even tho he's a Real Madrid fan

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fc: alexia putellas

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user1 sooo excited for this season!!

user2 carlos cameo woohoooo

user3 i love y/n omg

user4 coolest girl ever

user5 obsessed w her & carlos even tho he's a real madrid fan hahahaha

user6 he's loyal to his girl but not THAT loyal

yourteammate my favourite girl boss <3

yourusername hehe 🙆‍♀️ love you

alexandrasaintmleux slaying girl

yourusername need to see u soon

alexandrasaintmleux lemme come to a game 🥅

yourusername i'll get you on the pitch

charles_leclerc 🤨 you sure you want that?

user7 omggg LOL

user8 love their friendship

carlossainz55 love you, not the shirt

yourusername there's still time baby. join us

carlossainz55 no thank you you're beautiful though

interview ->

transcript -> interviewer: how is life off the track? carlos: it is good as usual! i am looking forward to another break soon. interviewer: you have any specific plans? carlos: well, let's just say i have a lot of football to catch up on. my girlfriend will make me cheer for barcelona.

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user17 carlos🙏🙏🙏🙏

user18 ugh he's so hot

user19 y/n mention 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

user20 a good day for y/n nation

landonorris "a while" it's been a week

yourteammate clock him

carlossainz55 a week is not a while in england?

yourusername aww he just wanted an excuse to post pics of me

landonorris valid i suppose

user21 i see my man getting weak for a barcelona player ....

user22 dw he knows his roots

user23 i love y/n off duty she's so cool

user24 one day he's gonna post a pic in a barca top & it's gonna break the internet

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carlossainz55 dont get her hopes up i beg

user25 LOL carlos 💀

yourusername my pretty boy 😘😘😘

carlossainz55 my beautiful girl ❤️

user26 ugh. me when

user27 see. he's getting weak

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yourusername loving the season so far ☀️

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user32 PHEWWWW 🥵🥵🥵🥵

user33 omg. y/n thirst trap this is not a false alarm

user34 i took the pic xoxo

alexandrasaintmleux Y/N you hottie

yourusername oh stop it you !!!!

alexandrasaintmleux sexy footballer body 😍

charles_leclerc what is happening here?

yourusername im stealing your girl, that's what

user35 valid tbh

user36 she can run me over

user37 goddess <333

carmenmmundt oh helloooo 👀

yourusername yes i am single

carmenmmundt oh that was easy.

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user38 hahahah omg y/n stealing all the f1 wags

carlossainz55 oh baby

carlossainz55 wow

carlossainz55 i feel like i should be barking maybe?

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carlossainz55 god i would do anything for you

yourusername mmmm do not tempt me right now

user39 the flirting in public kills me

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