#julian rambles

[three-of-swords]

I really adore I Was A Teenage Exocolonist but fuck if I don't wish literally any of the male romance options weren't just a tad fucked. Wanna date Dys? He'll pretty much be miserable forever because he's a changeling child. Wanna date Cal? Tammy better be dead, otherwise you're a monster. Wanna date Vace? First of all, why. Second of all, too bad, your relationship doesn't work out regardless of whether you do everything right or not. Wanna date Rex? You better be willing to share him with anyone who asks. Wanna date Sym? You better hope Dys doesn't show up at your doorstep and force you into a three-way poly. In the epilogue. Where you have no agency in the matter.

Cal is the option with the most normal, healthy dynamic, but even THEN you either need to let Tammy die or break up a completely healthy relationship.

(But Julian why not date Anenome or Tang or Marz) bitch I'm gay, and the only reason I'm not going for Nomi-Nomi is that I'm PRETTY sure they're not on the market for one way or another.

The Dys/Sym/Sol relationship wouldn't bug me if it wasn't so obvious it wasn't an equal relationship (Dys obviously loves Sym more and his xenophilia makes it more obvious).

Sol goes through so much shit in the game, ESPECIALLY if he's forcefully medicated (or as my partner calls it, "psychically lobotomized). The least I can do is get the poor guy some dick that isn't attached to a fuckpuppy or a guy whose personality revolves around said dick.

[knivesandteeth]

Something about Garak being this cruel interrogator who's weighed down by so many sins that he committed for his dad/god/homeland and Bashir being this aggressively kind healer weighed down with the lies and sins he never committed but poison his blood. Something about the inversion of the confessional dynamic, Julian being drawn in wanting to confess the sin of his creation to the devil and earning penance by healing. Something about secrets weighing you down to the sea floor until you see your form shift into the monstrosities seen on the deep sea level and how unburdening yourself allows you to rise, to become a person again even in the pain of decompression. How Bashir never fully gets this, hence his two season depression arc. Something about garashir being about being built by our fathers for the shadows and walking blind and blinking from Plato's cave together, hand-in-hand.

[zipstick]

glad somebody made this joke (from kiell's twitter)

[catboyelimgarak]

Garak lying to a dying Tain that there was no one there but them, and letting Julian be there for Tain’s Shri-tal, was the moment Garak devoted himself to Julian. He told Julian (in a Cardassian way Julian didn’t know at the time probably) that Tain’s death meant he, Garak, was choosing to give his entire being to Julian. Garak lied to Tain — the man he was trained to follow and take orders from since childhood for the protection of Cardassia — as an act of untethering himself to the man, and a bit of Cardassia too. He knew he would be free after that, and he took the initiative of devoting himself to Julian, so he would not have to suffer being without a chain/anchor in the ocean of space for long —even IF he wouldn’t be that lost for long and knew he’d be with Julian soon enough once back on DS9. He was exiled from his home and losing the only other source of direction, but he chose to take the leap and be/have Julian as his new holder. And being with the man he found himself in love with was just his own personal win.

[not-equippedforthis]

love how when you're getting into/observing a fandom you barely know you can judge which episodes are The Most because every other fanfic is about them. what happens in Our Man Bashir guys. whats Doctor Bashir I Presume guys. whats Internment Camp 371. guys.

[toothlespoggers]

U don’t understand. He’s a Nindroid. He has a soul. He has ice powers. He’s TRAUMATISED. He does not value his own life. He is borderline suicidal. He is SOFT. And he loves people too much. But OUgh he’s actually a little fucked up even tho he’s calm and calculated Caus he toucheda forbidden stick and it made voices in his head and then he was like a genocidal murderer for like 60 years and he had no memory of anything and then he was dragged out of that situation and nobody even asked if he was ok and he never questioned that because he’s lived his whole life with the expectation that he’s fine and he’s got everything under control and he doesn’t even know what mental health awareness is because no one ever talked to him about it because no one ever asked if he was okay, not physically but mentally. Because even if people cared no one ever thought he was not okay, and so Zane never thought he was not okay so he’s lived his life for probably a hundred years or so by now, always moving forward and never addressing his problems or traumas or demons, which is DESTROYING HIM, from the inside out. He has absolutely NO SELF WORTH. His entire existence is based around his role as a ninja, he has been trained from when he was a “teenager” that his worth is based around his ability to preform, that the most important thing is to save lives and the world and stuff. Which it is but like he’s never been allowed to do anything else and on the rare occasions he and his friends relax they immediately get scolded and told to keep fighting. He’s never had a sick day. He literally sacrificed himself to save the world. He rebuilt himself, and immediately the next opportunity he gets, he sacrifices himself again, and he tries to do that over and over and over again because that’s his job he states that he is expendable! He says that multiple times. He always volunteers to take the hits because his view on his humanity his person hood is so WARPED, that he believes he has less value than a human. That he is a TOOL. To be used by those around him because people sure, they’ve treated him with kindness on many levels but it’s kind of shallow when they never care enough to prevent him from getting hurt, they use him, he almost dies, they fix him and then put him back into the line of fire. His entire worldview is based on fighting.

The only person. Who has ever asked if he is okay and treated him like a human being. Is a STUPID GOSH I LOVE HIM BUT JES SO DUMB. FROG MAN and Zane is SO NOT USED TO IT that he has to repeatedly inform. This man. That he is in fact. A robot. Because he expects that to change the way people interact with him. He’s a machine, he doesn’t need a break, he’s built to serve a purpose. But frog man, does not listen.

Frog man is kind, frog man is good.

FROHICKY TRIES TO PLEASE ZANE SO MUCH THAT HE GIVES ZANE A FROHICKY PLUSHIE. SO THAT ZANE CAN VENT HIS FRUSTRATIONS AT THE PLUSHIE. SO THAT HE WILL FEEL BETTER. AND ZANE SAYS “I do not experience heightened emotions.” see see this this proves one of my points urghhhguugh FROFFS BARKS GROWLS HE DOES. WE ALL KNOW HE DOES, ANY NINJAGO FAN WITH EYES CAN SEE THAT ZANE EXPERIENCES HEIGHTENED EMOTIONS. HE JUST KEEPS FUCKING LYING TO HIMSELF AND OTHERS BECAUSE HES GOT THIS ROBOT MINDSET EVER SINCE SEASON 3 HES JUST BEEN ENTIRELY CONSUMED BY THE IDEA THAT HE ISNT HUMAN AND SO HE HAS TO BE DEFINED BY THAT IDEA. He has so many inconsistencies all relating to this weird brain he has this weird weird robot brain it’s SO INTERESTING. I WILL BE GATHERING INFORMATION AND I WILL BE MAKING A FULLY RESEARCHED FULLY COHERENT RANT ABOUT ZANE IN THE FUTURE. BUT RIGHT NOW I HAVE OTHER STUFF TODO BUT URGHH THIS CHARACTER MY BRAIN IS TINGLING SO MUCH URGHH

[starboymp3]

love the ds9 episodes where julian and someone who doesnt like him very much go on a mission together and get into some life threatening situation and almost die together and then they come back as good friends. becoming ride or die with julian bashir speed run

[gaybravado]

When coming up with Julian, a big inspiration was Gen Kobayashi’s design for the Storyteller from Paranormasight: The Seven Mysteries of Honjo. So, Julian’s grandpa/mentor, the original Fool, is basically a silly AU version of him.

I've turned my asks on, so if you like, you can ask me questions about OCs or art.

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

Malak who really wants to bond with Julian better, and in an attempt at making communication easier starts to adopt Julian's habits and mannerisms - except they're the wrong mannerisms?

Malak who figures out how to make his croak sound like it's stuttering whenever he gets unexpected positive attention?

Malak who starts trying to loudly perform some kind of musical number for his people whenever he wants to make them smile?

Malak who, when he feels a surge of affection, practically tangles his feathers trying to lavishly dote on his loved ones and in the process impede whatever Julian is trying to accomplish?

... Malak who saw how stressed Julian was about finishing some research, and took the liberty of dipping his talons in the ink pot and walking all over the parchment until it seemed sufficiently covered ...

[a-little-ray-of-fantasy]

April has come to an end, so to properly celebrate the ending of Autism Acceptance Month, I made a collage of 25 fictional favorites of mine that I've headcanoned as autistic.

BTW the only exception is Barnaby who is officially confirmed as autistic, therefore they're at the centre of the collage. ^^

So, yeah! Keep on spreading the love, everyone!

[three-of-swords]

Seeing shit like what’s going down with Elliot Gindi makes me grateful that the only VAs I’ve interacted with have been nothing less than friendly and approachable but also appropriate??? Not gonna lie, when I look back at meeting Matthew Mercer with my partner of the glass shop, I was cringe as FUCK. I was INSANELY inappropriate with how I idolized him, not to the level of being into him sexually (and I wasn’t a minor even if I had been), but I’m getting tired of seeing people blame the girls who “let this happen.” It’s a power dynamic. The one who has the power is the one that’s in the wrong, especially since HE is the adult in the situation. Comfort characters are a thing. Being attracted to a voice is a thing. Wanting to be closer to someone who brought you comfort is a thing. Stop blaming the victims, stop blaming Tighnari, and also maybe stop getting pissed at people who are upset that Tighnari is tainted for them now, also. A character being tainted by a shitty creator is a very valid thing to be upset about. There’s a reason I don’t buy Harry Potter merch anymore, and a reason I feel uneasy watching FMA:B’s dub.

[hannibard]

In almost all yennskier fics there's an element of geraskier, them being exes or Jaskier having unrequited feelings for Geralt, and while that's fine and all, I'm desperate for some fics WITHOUT geraskier, with Jaskier having to deal with all the angst that comes with being in love with your best friend's girlfriend/ex bc even if Yennefer loved him back, Jaskier is too loyal to Geralt to ever do anything about it.

Imagine them all traveling together post Voleth Meir and Jaskier and Yennefer desperately trying to hide their feelings while failing a bit more each day.

Imagine the secret lingering looks and gentle touches and maybe a kiss or two when they're left alone and can't hold back.

Imagine Jaskier writting song after song about her and having to lie when Geralt and Ciri ask who it's about. Yennefer would pretend not to know.

Imagine Jaskier going back to his usual manwhore self, sleeping with any willing person around except Yennefer and imagine Yennefer slowly giving in to Geralt's attempts to get back together, hoping her feelings for him will rekindle one day. Imagine the jealousy!

[ds9jack]

Why does it seem that so many people think Julian Bashir is cis on here? Your cisgender king canonically has a womb and a deadname

[not-equippedforthis]

love the 2 minute long fancam of the starbase at the beginning of every ds9 episode. vogue. 50 different camera angles. stunning. serene. don't worry about the exploding reactor core we'll get to that

[rubinaitoart]

Discord shenanigans with Brainrot.

@iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia

[who-the-fuck-are-you-bruh]

I love devorak family in the most devious way possible. What I mean is, I romanced both Julian and Portia and I would've dated Mazelinka and Tasya if only they were available. That family consists of one(1) pathetic man and tons of bad ass women which is exactly my specific type