#ju meets alex

[brasiliangp]

last one 🤭 my phone camera sucks sorry about that’

[gh0stsp1d3r]

Hi lovely!! Could I request a fic where hobie's gf dies in his universe during a canon event, and how he would react to seeing another version of her again, alive, on Earth-1610 (or any other universe) Ty x

Ima start adding songs to every one of my fics song of the day is Alex g (this is sad asf.)

Haunting

He didn’t know how to grieve, he just had to move on. He tried so hard, but no matter what he couldn’t get you out of his head. You haunted him.

He walked through HQ, talking with Gwen and Pavitr.

“Whys Miguel want us to meet this new recruit anyways?” Gwen asked.

Hobie shrugged “Who knows.” As they all walked through the door.

Their eyes fell on you. Pavitr and Gwen looked at each other as hobie froze.

You were talking to Miguel, he nodded as you spoke. It’s probably the most calm they’ve seen him.

“Well, there they are. Thank you for the information…” he mumbled, taking it all in.

You were talking about Miles, he asked for any information you had.

You and miles were both spider people in 1610, you weren’t an anomaly though.

Hobie swallowed as you turned back, looking directly at them.

“I’m gonna uh.. I’m gonna go. I can’t do this.” He said and started to turn back, when you narrowed your eyes at him.

“Hobie…?” You mumbled when you were closer. You had a hobie in your universe, but he died.

And in his universe, you had died.

He swallowed again, tears threatening to spill.

“Y/n..”

“You’re not my Hobie.. are you?”

“And you’re not my Y/n.”

You let out a shaky laugh. “Uh, and you guys are?”

“Gwen…” the girl said, holding out her hand. You shook it.

“Pavitr.” The other guy said, doing the same, he seemed happier.

“I like your costume. It’s a nice purple.” Gwen said, feeling the tension.

“Thank you. I like yours, it’s very pretty.”

She smiled, and they walked around for a bit, they gave you a tour.

Hobie stared at you the whole time, not taking his eyes off your eyes, face, hair. Any of it. He was scared if he did, he’d lose you again.

Soon after you were gonna leave, Hobie walked up and talked to you.

“Hi..” he said.

“Hi…”

“You’re… I hope you know that you’re beautiful.” He mumbled quietly.

You laughed, and smiled. “You are too. You’re the same as my Hobie.”

“You’re the same as my y/n.. except she wasn’t really spider woman.. but..”

“My hobie wasn’t spider man. That’s funny.” You said.

“Yeah, it is.. I was jus’ wondering if uh… you’d wanna hang out sometime? I might not be your hobie but I still wanna… know you better Y’Know..?”

“I’d love to.” You smiled. The same exact smile as his Y/n had.

“Great. I’ll uh, see ya around!” He said, running away and almost tripping on his shoes as he did so. You giggled at him and he laughed back.

Even if he wasn’t the same Hobie, you already knew you loved him.

[fairytsuk1]

movie night w lex. do whatever u want w that topic ☺️

movie night with alex …

it starts innocent enough. you two were dating, living together and oh, so in love. you’d come to him that morning donning his big grey hoodie with sleepy eyes.

“let’s do a movie night, ‘lex,” you murmur into the expanse of his back as you hug him from behind. “…just wanna spend the night in, you know?”

what you did know was that, yes, you were looking for some quality time with your boyfriend. but also, yes, you were hoping to be pounded into the couch as you cried for more. what could you say! alex just did something to you. to your delight, he happily agreed.

you like to think alex has no idea about your ulterior motives. you lead him into your trap like a spider carefully crafting its web. you make popcorn with a sway in your hips and make sure to bend down extra low when looking for the remote. alex had yet to say anything, do anything and it was starting to make your bottom lip jut out a little more than usual.

“so, what’re we watching? please, nothing scary! i’ll die right here,” alex welcomes you into his arms as you burrow into the warmth.

“it’s not scary! we’re watch The Dark Knight,” a classic. you know he’s seen it before too; no need to compete for attention.

alex breaks out into a boyish grin, nodding along with the choice, “okay! sounds good, babe. its been so long since i watched this, i honestly can’t remember the last time…”

you lose yourself in how his soft lips rub together as he speaks his mind. he was always especially sexy to you but the low lighting and being so close that you can smell the mix of Paco Rabanne cologne and his normal scent. he’s intoxicating, and your hand is on his thigh before he can even finish his sentence.

alex’s eyes meet yours, and there’s a swirling mix of surprise and arousal dancing around in the gleam of his brown orbs. his eyes flick down to your lips, plush and glossy, before flitting back up your eyes. your hand’s moved an inch higher and alex’s breathing starts to pick up.

“kiss me,” you plead quietly.

he takes you in. your soft voice begging for him to do something—even though you were the one who had orchestrated all of this—all because you needed him. you weren’t begging for sex, you were begging for him. he couldn’t help but grant your wishes.

“needy woman,” he teases with a grin full of mirth.

your back hits the plush of the cushion as thunder roars over Gotham. needy squeaks bubble out of you as alex presses his weight against you, half-chub growing harder against your thigh as the pink muscle of his tongue traces your teeth. he tastes like buttery popcorn, like Coke Zero and you’re moaning at the feeling of his kisses, “jus’ missed you.”

“i know baby,” alex gasps as your finger tweaks his nipple. “wanna fuck you too, mmph…”

it’s so heated. both sets of hands grapple for purchase against plush skin and soft stomachs, alex breathes into your neck as he grinds his hard-on against your clothed pussy. you know your underwear is stuck to your sticky folds, clit pulsing and begging for the feel of his rough finger pads swiping over it in tight circles.

“you’re so fucking wet, been waiting for me?”

you grind your hips against his palm with a hiss, “i didn’t pick a movie we’ve seen before for no reason…”

he chuckles after sucking a hickey into your collarbone, “right.”

alex lays on you. his weight pins you against the soft cushions, bulge rubbing against your thigh eagerly. you open your legs wider to feel his hips grind against yours. he knows your body like the back of his hand, he knows how much you love it when his lips glide over the column of your throat, over the softness of your tummy. his nose brushes against your clit and you trap him between your thighs with a yelp.

“be good for me,” he mumbles into your flesh, pulling your panties to the side and taking into your gorgeous pussy, “keep your legs open.”

“fuck, i’m so sensitive,” you say, breath shaky.

“you can’t help it,” he croons, tongue dipping into your hole and flicking against your clit. “you just want me too bad. how can i say no to you, gorgeous?”

he digs in, tongue lapping at your folds as you cry for him. your hands scratch against his scalp, his groans falling on deaf ears as he grinds the flat of his tongue against your clit and makes you see stars.

“feels so good! i-i love your mouth so much,” you practically drool, hips bucking against his face.

alex grins as you grind against his tongue. he watches you from below, loving how you squirm and make eye contact for one second—till your eyes are rolling back into your skull. you’re babbling, twitching and gasping for air when alex pulls away.

“god, your body is fucking lethal,” he groans, hands fumbling to undo his sweatpants and tug them down.

your hands fly to his, eager to pull him closer and kiss him. you can taste yourself on his lips and your cunt throbs, “fuck me, i need you. please, wanna feel you inside me.”

alex has to bite his lip to stave off the rush of empathetic pleasure from your words. his hands are gentle as they rub the sides of your waist and stretch the back of your thighs as he urges you to “hold your legs, just like that.”

your feet dangle helpless in the air, your boyfriend gripping your hips as he pushes his cock in between your folds. his fat head catches on your clit and you whimper, bottom lip pouting, “alex, c’mon…”

“i’m sorry,” he mumbles, eyes transfixed on how your hole clenches around nothing. “you just get so cute like this. can’t help it, makes me wanna tease you.”

his eyes meet yours accompanied with a little smirk. he kisses your ankle and it makes you blush, before he’s stuffing you full, inch by inch. the both of you are a cacophony of noises, the squelch of him bullying his cock into you and your pathetic mewls of yesyesyes!

alex rolls his hips, gliding against your walls as his fills you balls deep. his hair falls in his face, necklace dangling and you’re looking up at him like he hung the stars and moon for you.

“how are you always so fucking tight?”

he wheezes into your neck, hips rolling again and again. his balls slap against your ass and your gasps grow louder and louder, “oh god. oh my god, fuuuck. alex, alex!!”

“i know, baby,” he shushes, grinding against you every thrust as he fucks into you harder and harder. “you love how i fuck you, you fucking need it, right? tell me i’m wrong.”

you practically sob into his neck. your nails scrape helplessly against the smooth plane of his back as alex starts to fuck you in earnest, hips angling to drive into you.

he holds you in place as he pounds into you. you’re not even sure what you’re whining—pleading for, but you take it so easily; hole swallowing up his cock as your orgasm grows like a tidal wave.

“oh, o-oh, fuck! alex, i’m—i’m so close!”

“yeah? gonna cum for me, baby? fuck,” his hips waver, balls tightening as his hands fist the fabric of the couch. “‘m getting close too, you’re so fucking beautiful. fuuuck.”

your eyes fill with tears as alex works to bring you there. his thumb brushes over your puffy clit, sending electric shockwaves up your spine as you writhe, “ohmygod!! alex, wait! mm, i’m gonna cum!!”

“go on, babe. make a mess all over me.”

your ears nearly explode from the force of your orgasm, walls tightening as you desperately sob put alex’s name. he rocks into you, balls tightening as he fucks his cum into you. it feels so hot, so deep and just fucking good. a soft whimper escapes alex as he relaxes onto your body, softening cock still inside you as you both catch your breaths.

there’s a thundering crack, making you both turn your heads towards the movie. alex shifts, and his sated voice echoes in your ears, “i’ll never be able to watch this movie the same.”

he mumbles into your sweaty chest, and you giggle. you can’t help but agree.

[ashwhowrites]

eddie x bestfriend! reader where eddie gets a new girlfriend to make the reader jealous because he really likes her. So he starts to bring his gf around hellfire and the reader and her get along really well. But it’s only because she’s eddie’s bestfriend and wants to support him even though she’s in love with him. Anyways, eddie gets upset that they’re getting along and realizes that he’s jus theming an asshole and should tell the reader how he feels so he breaks up with his gf and she completely understand, and then him and the reader have a heart to heart, happy ending please!!!

I love this!

⚠️angst for the start! I changed it just a tad bit because I don't like the idea of a girl being used :)

Eddie had feelings for his best friend, Y/N for months. But he was always too chicken to make the move. He couldn't lose her if she rejected him.

So he thought, why not make her jealous? See if she has a reaction. A reaction that would tell him everything he needed.

Eddie had the perfect girl in mind. At the mechanic shop he worked out, there was a female coworker around his age that recently moved to the school. He begged her throughout their whole shift.

"please Alex, just for a little while? I just want to see if she'll get jealous" he begged.

"is this the girl you've been talking about since you started here?" She questioned

Eddie blushed and nodded.

"fine. Only because I know you really like her"

Y/N smiled as she walked into the lunch room, heading for her usual spot next to Eddie. She went to place her tray down when Eddie stopped her.

"sorry Y/N, Alex is going to sit there today" he said, smiling.

Watching her closely, searching her face for a reaction.

"oh, who's Alex?" She squeaked out.

"my girlfriend"

The huge smile on his face made her heart sink. She bit her lip and nodded

"oh wow! Okay. No problem" she politely sat across from where Alex would be, sitting next to Dustin.

Eddie deflated slightly. She didn't look bothered at all.

"hi guys!" Alex waved as she took her seat. Her brown eyes quickly searched the table for the mystery girl.

Alex was taken back, she was gorgeous. She could easily see why Eddie was so smitten with her

"you must be Alex! It's so nice to meet you" Y/N said, holding out her hand. Her eyes looked over Alex. She was breathtaking. Dark hair and brown eyes. She had tattoos up her arms and nose pierced. Definitely Eddie's type.

Alex smiled at her pointlessness. Shaking the girls soft hand. Eddie watched the interaction closely. His body deflating even more.

~~

"Great. She looked perfectly fine" Eddie sighed as he sat in his throne chair.

"I'm sure she was caught off guard. She probably didn't have enough time to have a reaction" Alex explained.

The two went quiet when Y/N walked into the hellfire room

"oh Alex! You play?" She questioned. She was the only girl Eddie knew that played, that's what made her special.

Alex smirked, the tone in her voice went higher pitched.

"oh no! I just wanted to see Eddie in action." She flirted, her hand landing on his knee, turning her head to smile at him.

Eddie looked at Alex confused, she knew how to play? Why did she lie?

"oh okay" Y/N smiled. Pulling out a chair and sitting on the other side of Eddie. Once again across from Alex.

Alex leaned up and whispered into Eddie's ear

"you have her on the line now. Follow my lead"

Eddie nodded, eyes looking over to Y/N who quickly looked away. Waiting for the rest of the group to show up.

~~

This was the worst hellfire experience of her life. Eddie spent the whole camping with Alex on his lap. Teaching her the way of the game.

Y/N tried not to be jealous. He was single. He was allowed to teach his girlfriend how to play. She tried to ignore their big smiles and her giggles as she cheered.

As the group cleaned up and headed out of the doors. Y/N was left behind with the couple.

"she's good isn't she?" Eddie asked, nodding his head to Alex, who still was on his lap.

"oh yeah! Alex you were amazing for a beginner. I wish I was that good when I started" Y/N smiled.

Alex felt herself smiling. This girl was like a ball of sunshine. She felt a tad guilty trying to make this girl jealous. But if it ends with Eddie and her finally together, then it was worth it.

Y/N excused herself and walked out the door.

"WAIT I'M YOUR RIDE!" Eddie shouted after her

"It's okay. I can catch a ride with Chrissy. Alex gets the hellfire ice cream welcome right? I don't want to intrude on the date" Y/N said softly as she closed the door behind her. Blinking back her tears. Wanting to ignore the images of them sharing ice cream and kissing all night.

"the what?" Alex asked confused

"I may have told her when someone new joins I take them out for ice cream as an excuse to take her out" Eddie blushed

"and now she thinks we have an ice cream date. She's so adorable Eddie" Alex sighed

"I know but she obviously likes you so just great" Eddie huffed out, standing up.

"she likes me Eddie because she thinks you like me. It's in her eyes, she's jealous. She likes you Eddie." Alex explained

"if she's jealous why won't she say anything?"

"Eddie. She doesn't want to upset you. She thinks we are actually together. Is she really the type of girl to ruin a relationship just to get what she wants?" Alex questioned. She already knew the answer but it needed to connect in Eddie's head.

"no she wouldn't" Eddie sighed

"don't give up. It's working" she smiled

~~

Eddie and Alex kept their fake relationship going for a few months.

Alex and Y/N actually were becoming really good friends. Alex easily learning Y/N's body language.

Prom was around the corner and Eddie's final plan was set.

"you ready to ask her?" Alex asked as she handed Eddie the flowers

"what if she says no? What if we have this all wrong?" Eddie panicked. Rejection was still a 50/50 chance.

"Eddie listen to me. I've spent months with this girl. She's in love with you. She talks about you all the time. She purposely gives me details of things you like so I can do them for you. She wouldn't try that hard to make your relationship work with another girl if she didn't care. She wants you to be happy and she's fine even if it's with another girl. I'm a girl, I know this. So man up and ask your damn girl to prom!" Alex snapped. Pushing Eddie out of the van as Y/N was walking past.

Alex quickly hid in the backseat

"woah Eddie. What's up?" Y/n laughed as Eddie practically jumped out of his van

"I have a question for you" he breathed out, handing her the flowers

She took them confused

"look I've had this crush on you for so long. I've been in love with you just as long. I adore the way you talk. The way you laugh. How amazing you play dnd. You brighten up every single day of my life and I want to ask you, if you'd be my date to prom? How would that sound to you?" He breathed out. Anxiety filling his body.

He watched as she closed her eyes. Tears filling them quickly. He looked at her worried as she smashed the flowers in his chest

"sounds good to me Eddie. She'll love it" she choked out, smiling fast.

"wait what?" He questioned out loud. She was walking away towards her car and he watched her confused

"go after her idiot!" Alex said through the window.

Eddie looked over at her, confusion still in his eyes

"EDDIE GO!" She screamed.

Eddie jumped into action, throwing the flowers on the ground and running after Y/N and yanking her arm back. Turning her around.

She stood there with tears falling down her cheeks

"why are you crying gorgeous? Don't cry or I'll cry" He spoke softly. Wiping her tears with his thumbs

"Eddie I can't do this. I'm sorry" she cried. Shaking her head as she sobbed harder.

"do what? I don't understand"

"I can't keep acting like I'm okay with you and Alex. I know it's wrong but fuck I hate seeing how happy you are. It hurts so bad. And now you are taking her to prom, and I just always dreamed of you asking me. And I'm selfish. I shouldn't be telling you any of this because Alex is amazing and sh-" Eddie cut off her rambling with his lips.

Wrapping his arm around her waist and cupping her jaw. Kissing her passionately. She kissed back. Tangling her hands in his hair as she pushed herself against him.

Once she realized what she was doing she shoved him off of her. Eddie stumbled over his feet at the action

"Eddie! Oh my god we shouldn't have done that"

She just helped Eddie cheat on his girlfriend

"Alex and I aren't together. It wasn't real" he spoke fast. He needed her to understand right away.

"what?" She was confused

"Alex works at the mechanic shop. I asked her to pretend to be my girlfriend to make you jealous. I was asking you to prom. Not asking if it was good enough to ask her. It's always been you and no one else. I'm sorry I didn't just tell you. I was scared. Scared you wouldn't li-" this time she cut him off. Smashing her lips back on his.

He hummed as she threw herself in his arms. Holding her tightly as he kissed her back.

She pulled back with a smile

"I love you too and I'd love to go to prom"

Eddie silently cheered in his head.

Eddie finally got his girl

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[gofishygo]

mito mito mito hihi 😋

i’ve been having some thoughts n i felt like sharing w the class newayssss

so i was having bubble tea earlier and i started thinking,,,,what cod characters would like it? i feel like price def wouldn’t,,simon wouldn’t mind it but he does def think its too sweet and proper tea is superior and blah blah blah (i acc don’t know im kinda divided on that like i hc him as a sweet tooth but bubble tea,,,ehhh i feel like he wouldn’t like it all that much like he’d be all grumbly about it,,, idfk

johnny and gaz i think would like it lots ,,

i also think alex wouldn’t like it abd farah would (i js like hc farah as this secret softie ok leave me alone 😞)

but THAT got me thinking,,,, what other food preferences would they have ?? i think gaz would rlly like sushi (saw a fan art of him on a sushi date w the reader and i forgot who made it but ):$/:)/&!:!!!!! it was so cute) and i also think gaz would handle spicy food well ?? and he would like seafood in general methinks (tryna think of some select seafood items he wouldn’t like but im drawing a blank bc im vegetarian shusbssjnsuen)

idrk ab simon and johnny and price,,,,,,out of them 3, i feel like simon or johnny would have the biggest sweet tooth (they’re on like completely dif ends of the spectrum character wise but shh i js know it) but they all eat A SHIT TON like the food could be burned or too salty or smth but if they’ve js come back from a mission then they’re eating that shit UP. and asking for seconds. and thirds. they would still give u food feedback if it’s some other day tho

also johnny is extremely passionate about haggis. no i have never tried it yes i js know he is ok moving on

KONIGGGG hmmmm,,,, i have no fucking idea lmao i think? a lot of german cusine involves bread and stuff,,,so……………i think he’d have rlly bland meals idk

i’ve been rlly into keegan lately but i cant come up w anything for him aaaa

also gaz would be the only one who knows how to use chopsticks. the others would learn fast being in the military and all but gaz and chopstick skills js make sense???

ANYWAY im soso sry for rambling sm lmao this is a lot of words,,,,,and this isn’t a req by any means !!! js needed to hear ur thoughts bc food is js calling to me like “ok but would blank character like this” like. urgh. ok im done now i think but yeah food preferences for cod characters of ur choice

ALSO !!! THE IOS SHARK STICKERS REMIND ME OF U,,,,,look at them$:!!;&:!3 OK IM ACC DONE NOW BYE BEY MITO HIPE U DONT FALL ASLEPE READING ALL THAT

AHHH hi weebun !! ^^ i was literally having bubble tea with my sister like a few hours ago and when i checked the inbox n saw this i BOLTED !! sorry for never responding to this, i forgot inbox existed..,

notes: shittily wrote as this as a warmup/just general yap :> sorry for messiness and incoordination.., platonic, no warnings !! unless ur lactose intolerant idk

so you'll be jus chillin w the 141 on base and then say something like "boba is absolute gas shits better than normal tea" and of course, since the majority of the taskforce is british, you get absolutely fucking jumped for it. like- keep in mind, you say this price, the NUMBER ONE TEA AND BISCUTS DEFENDER, so you do end up getting toilet duty for a week with the explanation of 'uncordial behaviour.'

but after your deployment, you are the one to arrange where the 141 meet up. it's a little ritual you guys have developed to stay connected in between missions, one that makes your friendship seem a bit more real. sometimes the only thing that keeps your eyes open and heart pumping. and since you're an absolute fucking menace, you ask if you can meet around the heart of london- and then drag them all into the nearest bubble tea store you can.

-

price... doesn't end up liking it. takes a total of two sips, nearly chokes on the pearls, and then sets the cup down. he claims he's been around long enough to know that this- like many other foods, is probably some 'trendy millennial bullshit that'll disappear in a solid few', but that doesn't help ease the insane side eye that he gets from the cashier.

but to your surprise, ghost seems somewhat okay with it. his face doesnt really change (from what you can tell- his mouth is still hidden due to some face mask he put on), but he seems neutral, relaxed, even. he mutters something along the lines of how it isn't too bad, but it doesn't beat a cuppa- to which you chose to ignore, and how he'll probably just stick to having an earl grey in the mornings. but a few months later, you catch him at the same boba store, and you cant help but giggle to yourself.

soap fucking inhales the drink. its genuinely concerning, to say the very least. he seems to like.. unhinge his jaw like some kind of snake, and then inhales the whole drink in what you think is a millisecond. and since he's the only scotsman on the team- thinks the whole 'tea n biscuits' ritual his colleagues have is utter stupidity, so not only does he now FREQUENTLY drink boba because he likes it- he also drinks out of utter spite.

gaz is the only one with a seemingly respectable opinion about boba, unfortunately. he's had it before, multiple times- it appeals to his sweet tooth and is the occasional treat after long missions. but unlike you, gaz does not value peace, and seems to keep egging soap on in chugging unreasonable amounts of the drink. (and he doesnt mention it, as he does not want to face the same punishment as you did, but he thinks that bubble tea is sometimes, just sometimes better than his cuppa.)

masterlist (some of my other stuff is better promise)

[autisticandroids]

rarepair fic recs

slipping in my rarepair recs within hopefully like an hour of the deadline. for @spnficrecfest. i'm basically taking rarepairs to mean "anything but The Big Two" so like. if you wanna quibble with calling, say, megstiel a rarepair, that's the definition i'm using.

i actually have a bunch of other rarepair fics on my other lists: casjimmy, samlucifer, sastiel, samruby, and annamary here. crowstiel, deancaslisa, deancasmeg, daphne/emmanuel, and cas/rachel here. draowley here. dagonkelly here. raphael/naomi, deanpala, deancassie, sastiel, mary/naomi, megjo, and rowena/ofc here. samlucifer here. and megstiel on i think literally every list i've made so far. i'd also like to point you in the direction of a dark femslash reclist i made earlier this year.

anyway, rarepair fics in order of wordcount:

i could be kindly by anti_ela, .5k

deanalastair. well, it's exactly what you think.

the replacement by ravenspear, .5k

meg/nick (yes lucifer's vessel nick). meg won't kiss him until his mouth is cold enough.

buy you a round by nevcoleil, .5k

deanhenriksen. they meet again after jus in bello.

vessel by transgenderism, 1k

deancasmeg in season seven. and Gender.

wherever they roam (the sum of our influences) (orphaned work), 1k

deancasmeg. dean and meg met in hell. dean and cas met there too. all three meet again, topside.

aching everywhere by discoxena, 1k, chose not to warn

sammegjo. a seduction, rather than what we see in canon, and that makes it worse in the end.

another perfect moment (that doesn't feel like mine) by lesbiansailor, 1k, chose not to warn

alex jones/krissy chambers. munchausen's by proxy in a wayward sisters setting.

last call by angelszn, 2k

cassie/cisfem dean, in season three. one last phone call.

the pain in the end is all in your memory by filthyfealty, 2k

crowley/transfem dean. an exploration of what it's like to be a demon, and a girl, and dean winchester.

always sere, never blooming by smilla, 2k

deanvictor, after a hunt.

baby steps by angelszn, 2k

missouri/cisfem sam. sam has brain damage, so dean takes her to the only other psychic they know for help. i'm kind of obsessed with sam's characterization in this one, not gonna lie.

and the devil makes four by vaguesurprise, 2k

destiel, crowstiel, meanstiel, oh my! cas likes demons.

new religion (bring you to your knees) by electricskeptic, 2k

megstiel. meg realizes just how faithless cas is in season six.

the wrong game with the wrong chips by a_diamond, 3k

endverse cas/risa. they talk about being dean's discard pile.

the thing about glass slippers by krisomniac, 5k

deanhenriksen. dean allows himself to be temporarily transformed into a woman in order to go undercover and seduce henriksen. she likes it.

end of days (orphaned work), 5k

megstiel and deancasmeg in a pacific rim au.

one night by reapertownusa, 7k

deanhenriksen. a last encounter, three weeks before the deadline.

proxy by bleedingink, 8k

samcasmeg. three people in two bodies, and enough tension to cut with a knife.

grace by nerdylittleangelenthusiast, 13k, violence and mcd

crowstiel. a season twelve mpreg story. cas is on the run with kelly, and crowley is so sweet on him. abandoned but i would rec it anyway.

masters by twisted_slinky, 15k, noncon and violence warnings

deanmeg and megstiel. a story about meg from season three to season seven, as recounted by the demon herself. remember when meg said "i apprenticed under alastair in hell, just like your brother, so dean, can i make crowley do whatever i want?"

the passenger by hansbekhart, 34k, violence and mcd warnings

deanhenriksen. victor survives jus in bello, but just barely. when he's back on his feet again, he goes to meet the winchesters.

[tzyuki]

[ 김규빈 ] ONE & ONLY ꒰ K.GV x F!READER

IN WHICH ✶ — Rumors about Y/n pursuing a Zerobaseone member backstage at music bank start floating around the media after she and ZB1 member, Kim Gyuvin are seen talking behind in one of the episodes of ‘Eunchaes Star Diary’. Some netizens believe it and some don’t, some hated her for touching his shoulder and some didn’t care. Y/n went live to debunk the rumors, saying she wasn’t interested in a relationship at the time. The thing was, the rumors were true. She secretly was pursing Kim Gyuvin, or at least she wanted to. Ever since she first saw him backstage at M Countdown when ‘Love Killa’ team got to perform she was starstruck. She saw him at the vending machine and wished him luck in ‘Boys Planet’. She actually never had watched an episode of the survival show at all, she said it would be too painful for her, but that was the night she started to watch and most importantly, vote for Kim Gyuvin.

#BOYCOTTJUNHYEON | profile three.

﹙★﹚DESCRIPTIONS…

park chaewon (gowon) ; started #BoycottJunhyeon bc he was caught listening to loona unboycotted ver. but only bc he wasn’t aware of the lawsuit bc he didn’t have his phone during boys planet 😭 they bicker a lot (everyone bickers w/ junhyeon) but they do get along well.

kim jungeun (kim lip) ; literslly ricky’s mother bro. saw all the jokes about everyone calling ricky him lip and absolutely died laughed. she’s never talked to him before but wants to at least meet him one day, she probably will through junhyeon.

ju haknyeon ; y/n’s older brother from tbz!!!!!!! he and y/n both have pigs who are siblings bc their mother currently owns a pig farm by herself. the two are extremely close although they bicker a lot. they often visit the pig farm together.

hwang intak ; finally download twitter js to tell elon musk to count his days. and then he realized that his account wasn’t private. y/n is his senior and a year older than her, sometimes he forgets that she’s his senior and almost forgot to say sunbaenim countless of times on live 😭.

moon jaeyun ; friends with matthew, the two trained together before jaeyun debuted in 8turn and matthew went to boys planet. y/n and the others often call him by his birth name Alex 😭.

kum junhyeon ; a redstart trainee who was on boys planet! him and taerae are close and still keep in touch, he does with all the zb1 members but mostly him and gunwook! swears everyone is against him and is praying on his downfall.

m.list — previous — chap one

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[castiellesbian]

Robert Berens:

9.06 Heaven Can't Wait

9.14 Captives

9.19 Alex Annie Alexis Ann

10.07 Girls, Girls, Girls

10.14 The Executioner's Song

10.19 The Werther Project

11.06 Our Little World

11.14 The Vessel

11.17 Red Meat (with Andrew Dabb)

11.22 We Happy Few

12.03 The Foundry

12.07 Rock Never Dies

12.14 The Raid

12.19 The Future (with Meredith Glynn)

12.22 Who We Are

13.03 Patience

13.09 The Bad Place

13.10 Wayward Sisters (with Andrew Dabb)

13.21 Beat the Devil

14.03 The Scar

14.09 The Spear

14.18 Absence

15.03 The Rupture

15.09 The Trap

15.12 Galaxy Brain

15.18 Despair

Sera Gamble:

1.03 Dead in the Water (with Raelle Tucker)

1.12 Faith (with Raelle Tucker)

1.14 Nightmare (with Raelle Tucker)

1.21 Salvation (with Raelle Tucker)

2.03 Bloodlust

2.08 Crossroad Blues

2.13 Houses of the Holy

2.17 Heart

2.21 All Hell Breaks Loose: Part One

3.02 The Kids Are Alright

3.07 Fresh Blood

3.10 Dream a Little Dream of Me

3.12 Jus in Bello

3.15 Time Is on My Side

4.02 Are You There, God? It's Me, Dean Winchester

4.09 I Know What You Did Last Summer

4.17 It's a Terrible Life

4.21 When the Levee Breaks

5.02 Good God, Y'All

5.07 The Curious Case of Dean Winchester

5.13 The Song Remains the Same (with Nancy Weiner)

5.21 Two Minutes to Midnight

6.01 Exile on Main St.

6.11 Appointment in Samarra

6.21 Let It Bleed

7.01 Meet the New Boss

7.10 Death's Door

7.17 The Born-Again Identity

7.23 Survival of the Fittest

[04mxfutbol]

Falling in or out of love? (Ashley Sanchez x Reader)

A/N: This is the fic I had in mind for a while now! I was listening to Labyrinth and the song inspired me lol. (So kind of based on my current favorite song Labyrinth.)

You walked into the hotel, holding your suitcase tightly. Walking towards the receptionist.

“I should have a reservation for Y/N Y/L/N.” You say to the receptionist. Handing her your ID.

“Y/L/N. Ah yes, room 313, your roommate has also gotten here. Rebecca Sauerbrunn.”

Score. You got a chill roommate.

“Great thank you.” You say with a smile, grabbing the key card and walking towards the elevator.

You arrive to your room, opening the door, you hear nothing but silence. You walk inside the room and you’re met with Becky laying on the bed, a book in her hands. Glasses on as she reads. A cup of coffee on the table beside her.

“Y/N so nice to see you once again. Sure feels great to be playing alongside you rather than against you.” Becky says making you laugh.

“I feel the same way about you cap.” You say nodding your head. “So roomies huh?”

“I’m just glad I got you as my roommate, I think I’d quit the team if I were to get Emily one more time.”

“You could never leave us, you love us too much to leave us alone and unprotected.”

“Correct.” Becky says nodding her head. “I know you’re a big fan of being close to the window so I took this bed here. Unpack and get ready for two weeks of pure calmness with me.”

“Oh I’m definitely looking forward to it.” You say with a smile, setting your suitcase up on your bed.

After unpacking your stuff you decided to take a short nap because who doesn’t love naps. You’re woken up by Becky who tells you it’s time for dinner. You both start to head downstairs to meet the rest of the team.

“A secret of mine is I kind of hate elevators.” You whisper to Becky.

“Why?”

“It’s a metaphor.” You say waving her off.

You grab a plate, serving yourself some food. You look around and see Christen sitting next to Alex and Rose.

“Can I join?”

“Of course, take a seat.” Christen says scooting over to make room. “How are you?”

“Fine thanks.” You say.

“Are you sure?” Alex asks you, putting her hand on your shoulder.

“Why do you ask?”

“We just want to know how you’re doing, can we not ask that?” Alex asks.

“I mean yeah I suppose.” You say furrowing your eyebrows. You look down to your food poking it around and then taking a bite. “I want my own home cooked food. This is a little too healthy for my liking.”

“We heard about the breakup.” Alex says and you look up.

“So is their a weekly newsletter about stuff like this going around or?” You say curiously. How they knew who knew. You sure didn’t know how.

“Hey guys.” Kelley says.

There’s how.

“We broke up like almost a year ago, mutually.” You say calmly.

You and Ashley broke up mutually about almost a year ago, agreeing that you both needed some space. From what? Who even knows. But something wasn’t right between the two of you which made you both realize you both needed to step back.

“But you’re doing fine?” Christen asks softly.

“Yes. I’m doing fine, sad most of the time, crying on the floor sobbing, screaming, crying. But fine.” You say with a chuckle.

“Y/N.” Christen says softly.

“I’m kidding, sorry I am kidding. I just like messing with you guys. I’m fine. I’m okay.”

A liar.

Oh how miserable you were for the first couple of weeks, the realization hitting you so deep, especially when you were alone in your apartment.

“I’m trying to get over her. Although I think I’ll be getting over her my whole life.” You whisper. “But I remember we both agreed we needed to break up so there’s that.”

“Oh Y/N.” Christen says pulling you in for a hug.

“I’m better though, every day that passes by I think I am closer and closer to getting over her.” You say with a shrug. “But I don’t know how you guys expect me to bounce back from the break up so fast.”

“We’re not Y/N. We just want to make sure you’re okay and dealing with the break up in a healthy way.”

While Christen comforted you, Ashley was just outside the room with Trinity.

“You look like an absolute mess.” Trinity tells Ashley as they walk out the elevator.

“Gee, thanks for that.” Ashley says.

“You still haven’t been getting enough sleep have you?” Trinity asks.

“No and it’s dragging me down like you have no idea. I get so tired quickly, I barely even have energy to put on nice clothes to look decent.”

“And this whole losing sleep isn’t because of the breakup?”

“Nope it’s definitely not that. We broke up like almost a year ago. Trust me it’s not that.” Ashley says opening the door.

As soon as she opens the door to the breakfast area, she spots you laughing with Rose.

“So definitely not because of Y/N. Right.” Trinity says passing Ashley and going for a plate.

“It’s not! I’m like not even bothered by it.” Ashley says following Trinity.

“Sure. You definitely have me fooled.”

“It was mutual.”

“Doesn’t mean you’re over her.”

“I am.” Ashley says making Trinity stop in her tracks, turning around to face Ashley. “Kind of?”

“Thought so.”

“I’m getting there though.” Ashley says. “Soon.”

- - - -

The following day you had practice until sunset. Your legs completely giving out at the end of it. Grabbing your bottle of water and chugging it as if your life really does depend on it, which it does.

“Hey, tomorrow we’re grabbing some food downtown. Do you want to come with us?” Abby asks you.

“Who’s we?” You ask looking at Abby.

“Sam, Rose, Lynn, Alex, Naomi and I.” She says and you think about it for two seconds. “Oh and Taylor.”

“Yeah I’ll come with.”

“Good it’ll be nice for you to get out.” Abby says patting her shoulder.

The following day you dressed yourself in some of your comfy clothes to go out with the rest of the girls. A smile on your face as a nice little lunch with your teammates would be fun.

“Are you going out?” Becky asks as she lays in her bed.

“Yeah with some girls to grab some food.” You say as you put on your hoodie, more specifically a hoodie Alyssa had given you.

“That’s good to hear, have fun Y/N.”

You walked out of your shared room, bumping into Alex.

“You ready?” Alex asks and you nod your head.

Across the hall, in the room next to Rose and Megan was Ashley with Trinity.

“Come on Ash get up, let’s go shopping.” Trinity says shaking Ashley.

“Does it look like I’m in the mood to go shopping?” Ashley says, Trinity backs away, arms up in defeat.

“Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed.” Trinity says.

“I’m tired.”

“You’ve been tired for almost the exact amount of time you and Y/N split up and you’re still denying that she isn’t the reason why you’re like this.”

“I’m getting over her trust me.”

“No I don’t think you are, you’re only telling yourself that to convince yourself but you are not. You’re not over her.”

“Slowly I am.” Ashley says.

Ashley pulls out her phone going straight to Instagram. Watching Naomi’s story. A picture of you looking at the camera, holding your cup of tea, a smile on your face.

“I’m not over her. I don’t think I ever will be. I thought I was. It feels like there’s a labyrinth in my fucking mind and I can’t seem to get out.” Ashley whispers. “I definitely thought I was slowly getting over her but-.”

“You’re falling in love with her again?” Trinity asks and Ashley looks up from her phone.

“Oh yeah.” Ashley says with a sigh. “I’m falling in love with her again.”

Ashley pulls the blanket over her head as she lets out a groan.

“I’m falling in love again.”

You returned to the hotel after an eventful and fun day with the girls. Going out for some lunch and finding an arcade where you totally beat Alex at mini golf.

You go to push the door when someone opens the door making you fall forward.

“Oh crap.” You shout as you almost fall.

Your eyes meet green eyes. Green eyes you knew so well.

Oh no. It’s happening.

“Sorry I didn’t expect someone on the other side of the door.” Ashley says and you stay quiet.

Oh no. You know this feeling all too well.

“You okay?”

“Y/N you okay?” Sam asks and you nod your head.

“Christen is up in her room right?” You ask Sam.

“Yeah why?”

“Great thanks.”

You run up to the room, obnoxiously knocking on Christen’s door.

“Christen open the door please!” You shout.

“Y/N lovely seeing you here.”

“I need to talk to you about something.”

“Sure thing what’s going on?”

“Have you ever been in love with someone and they didn’t love you back?” You ask Christen.

“Of course.” Christen says and your eyes widen.

“You have? Who wouldn’t be in love with you, with all due respect.” You say quickly.

“You.”

“Sorry excuse me?” You ask as you stumble backwards.

“I’m messing with you, sorry continue.” Christen says and you sigh in relief.

“Respectfully I love you but anyway, I think I may have fallen in love again.”

“Okay? What’s so bad about that Y/N?”

“With Ashley.”

“Oh well how does that make you feel?” Christen asks as she sits up from her bed. You walk over and sit on the edge of her bed.

“Like I’m falling in love again?” You say.

“Right but what’s going through your mind as you say it out loud.”

“I thought this plane was going down.” You say. “I don’t know how it turned around and I’m once again falling in love with her again.”

“Pardon? Plane?” Christen asks confusedly.

“Metaphors.” You say. “What do I do? You’re like an expert.”

“I wouldn’t say expert but I will say that you should take a deep breath. Breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out. Now relax and tell me what your heart says.”

“I want to tell her I love her and I can’t see my life without her.” You say looking at Christen.

“That’s a choice yes.” Christen says nodding her head.

“It’s a bad choice isn’t it?”

“No, no. Don’t rush it. Talk to her and see where that leads you. If you ask me, I think she still loves you.” Christen says softly.

“Thanks for listening.”

“Anytime.”

You get up from her bed, giving her a hug then head back to your room.

Talk to her, easy.

You walk into your room going into the bathroom to wash your face. The light in the room was on.

“Hey Becky I have a question.” You say but get no response. “Becky?”

You pat your face dry with a towel and walk fully into the shared room. Becky isn’t there, instead it’s someone else.

“Hi.” Ashley says getting up from Becky’s bed.

“Oh hey.” You say looking at Ashley. “Becky isn’t here apparently. Weird. I’d look for her in Alyssa’s room.”

“I’m not- I’m not here to talk to Becky. I’m here because I want to talk to you.”

“Me? Oh okay. What’s going on? Is it your roommate? I won’t trade, I’ve been getting the best sleep. Ten out of ten would highly recommend having Becky as your roommate.” You say, face facing down to the floor, your thumb rubbing your pinky because of how nervous you are.

“I’m falling in love again.” Ashley blurts out breaking the silence which filled the room. You lift your head up, looking at Ashley.

“Oh.” You say, you feel your heart break, knowing she was falling in love again. With someone who wasn’t you. You looked back down, biting your lip in an attempt to not cry. “You fell out of love from me, understandable.”

“I feel so stupid but I’m falling in love again.” Ashley says looking at you, taking a few steps towards. “I’m falling in love again.. I’m falling in love with you.”

“Oh.” You say lifting your head back up.

“I haven’t been sleeping well for almost a year. I can’t think, I can’t sleep, I can’t function. Every time I come across any picture of you, I feel like I just fall in love with you over and over again and I can’t stop.”

You stand there in silence, not being able to speak but just stare.

“And I know you’re probably already moving on or already moved on and I wouldn’t blame you. but I-I I’m falling in love with you and it scares me because I don’t know how you feel. I just couldn’t stand and say nothing. I had to say some-.”

You cut Ashley off as you cup her face with you hands, kissing her deeply and softly. You pull away, your foreheads resting against the other.

“I’m falling in love with you again too.” You whisper. “I just also didn’t want to say anything. But being without you has been by far the most painful thing ever. I thought you were over me.”

“I could never be over you. You’re the best of me.” Ashley whispers against your lips. “I want you. Realizing that I was falling in love with you again scared me, I didn’t know if you still loved me.”

“I thought I was but every time I saw you those feelings came back around. I could never stop loving you Ash.”

“I can’t stop loving you and I don’t want to stop.” Ashley says cupping your face, shaking her head as she looks into your eyes.

She knew she was finally getting out of the labyrinth in her head. And you finally knew where the plane was heading, it had landed.

“I don’t want to stop loving you either. Never.”

[whatdoidonow1996]

what is the origin of the band julie, what brought you guys together? how was the name formed? and how did you guys decide to become a band

me and keyan met in highschool, he was a mutual friend of a friend who were jamming together and i had offered to play drums with him shortly after meeting him. after a while and collectively discovering certain artists together me and him had more of a vision for making a band and needed someone who could sing. i had barely known alex through the local oc scene and knew she played music so i messaged her asking her if she wanted to join. the name came from me and keyan playing smash and one of the user names was “ju?ie”. after alex joined, it was more of a shared focused vision and we were also all bored of the oc punk thing.

[ladylamrian]

- Chapter 6: The Unknown

[ Please read past chapters before this one ]

-> Masterlist of this Mini Series <-

Female MainCharacter: Alexis Clarissa Fontaine

Pairing: F!MC×NikRyder

Other characters in this chapter: Katherine, Vera Reimonenq, Cal Lowell, ...

Summary: With help, Alex finds a way and how to escape. But for Nik, it's not easy.

Word Count: 1.7K words

Rating: Teen (Angst, Drama, Adventure)

Warnings: Language

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It took Alex only a few steps until someone forcefully grabbed her, pushed her into a darklit alley while covering her mouth to make sure she scream for help. No matter how much she tried to break free, the person lingering in the shadow was just stronger. More people joined to capture Alex until she ended up beeing pressed against a brickwall.

"Shhh, quiet. It's us, Alex.", a familiar voice whispered and removed her gloved hand from her mouth.

Adjusting her eyes for a few seconds, she recognized four familiar faces. Katherine, Cal, Vera and... Nik??!!! Wait, how can this be? She just saw how Nik left her and now he's standing in front of her, hiding in the shadows. Leaning against the brick wall, the blond disappointedly glared at her, flaring his nostrils. Recognizing the clothes he wore like his black trousers, black boots and the typical leather jacket above his plain, black shirt... His nighthunter clothes. And he carried his crossbow with him. It made her realize the man standing in front of her...

"Nik??! Is that you?", she asked and got emotional, unable to hold back her tears while he just silently stared at her. Clenching his jaws together, he disappointedly looked on the ground, not wanting to meet her eyes. The anger turned into a sad expression on his face.

Vera, Cal and Katherine awkwardly looked at them and freed Alex from their hold.

"Sorry for doing this, sweety. But we didn't want to attract any attention. Girl, I missed you sooo much. Glad to be finally united with you too. You missed me?", Katherine added and hugged her while she strongly hugged back. Both held their hug for almost a minute before breaking apart.

"Now that Nik and Katherine are back from the war, and we found Alex, it's time to return to our world now."

Listening to Vera her words, Alex wondered. "Vera, what do mean with our world? And why did you ran away from me before?"

"Alex, I didn't. We just arrived."

"Yeah, we were all kicking our butts to find you. To hope that you're safe and then... then... The first thing seeing is that my girl smooching and making out with a stranger. After being away for so long, I got to see this??!", he sniffed and wiped his tears away.

"Nik... You're back? It's really you, right? Why are you sad? You're back from the war. Oh, I missed you so...", she was about to embrace for a hug the closer she got, but he lightly pushed her away from him.

"Rook, I missed you every damn second. For you, I was fighting to survive. For the first time in my damn life I was scared to die cuz if I die, I do not want to imagine what would've happened to you. You're everything I have, Alex. But seeing you today like this..."

"Nik, it's not what you think it is. Didn't you see that man? His face? He looked exactly like you? I believed it was you. I can't think of anything more than you. Please Nik, I would never cheat on you. I was blinded by grief and sadness. I... I love you so much.", she begged for forgiveness, wanting to unite with him again. To touch him, to kiss him, to have him by her side. But Nik felt heartbroken and just sadly stared at her.

"Nik, please forgive Alex. While you were gone, she didn't even properly eat anything and was sleeping less. All she was doing is thinking about you and Katherine.", Vera tried to convince while Katherine placed a hand on her shoulder for support. Nik stayed quiet for a moment until he finally spoke. His balled his hands into fists and his voice filled with anger.

"First, lemme find that dude, so that I can tell him to stay away from my girl. Let's see if he really looks like me.", he spoke with distrust and immediately dashed towards the streets of the city to find his so-called look-alike. He was surprisingly quicker than the others thought and tried to catch up on him. When Nik is angry, then he is angry and nobody wants to face him like this.

He finally stopped a few blocks away near a building and recognized the man they were searching for from the professional clothes he was wearing. Again, his back was turned towards Nik. To face him, Nik was about near him when an unpleasant voice ordered him to stand still.

"I order you to take your steps back, before you ruin the balance between all dimensions, Thriced Cursed Son."

Yes, it was no other than the holy Lady Fate standing with all might. Her golden eyes fixed on Nik and the rest of the gang which finally caught up and stood next to the nighthunter.

"Fate, what are you doing here?", Alex innocently asked.

"Daughter of Two Realms, you and your allies must return back to your own dimension before sunrise. If you will not, you will be forever held captured in this world which isn't yours.", she spoke with anger and yet politeness.

"Sure, after I teach that guy a lesson for stealing my girlfriend. Besides, lemme see if he really looks like me or is just a nasty shapeshifter who was tryin' to harm Alex."

"Does revenge matter more than safety? I will forbid you to make any contacts in this world unless you stay hidden because this dimension was constructed by the last wish of the Daughter of the Two Realms herself. She needed answers, so she shall receive them here. In this dimension things are different."

"Wait, what last wish of mine? I didn't. I actually don't know what's going on."

"Try to remember Alex, we tried to find you everywhere. You weren't home. You were gone until we crossed Luc who said you were in his shop and then you disappeared. He leads us back to his shops to find clues and luckily, he figured out that the large mirror was lightly glowing. He traced an opened portal which led us four here to find you. But... but we weren't sure where we were until the Fate appeared and told us this. And I'm even more glad that we found you Alex.", Cal explained.

"I would only wish for Nik and Katherine to return from war safely back home. Oh... Wait, I remember... When I touched the mirror, I was desperate in thoughts about Nik and... and... and wished he would have never become a nighthunter."

When the words left your mouth, it shocked everyone expect of the all-knowing Fate.

"Why would you wish that, rook?"

"Because if you hadn't become a nighthunter, you wouldn't have been involved in the war and kept yourself away from me. I'm sorry, I was desperate. I wasn't thinking clearly. But now I understand why the other Nik from before was different. He wasn't aware of the existence of the supernatural world. Even Elijah didn't recognize him?"

"What??!!! You met my father, rook???! How? Where? I need to see him!!"

"He wouldn't recognize you, Nik."

"The hell, of course he will. He has to. He's my dad, Alex.", he got emotional and begged her to show him.

"Calm down, Ryder. Alex is right. This dimension we are in is different. He might not recognize..."

"So what, Katy??!! I have to see him!!! You have no idea, guys. I need to do this. I have to talk to him and apologize. How many restless nights I had after he died because of that ugly fight I had with him when I was a teenager. He needs to know that I feel sorry, that it was my fault. That I was dumb. That I still love him and I miss him so much.", he confessed as his body began to shake and tears rolled down his cheeks.

"Sorry, but the Fate said that... Hey, where is even the Fate??!", Cal noticed. The Fate was nowhere to be found and already gone.

"Guess, she had better things to do than experiencing this drama show here.", Katherine rolled her eyes.

"This isn't drama, Katy! It's my life!!!"

"Nik, as much as I'd like to help to find Elijah. The Fate told us to leave. Don't get me wrong, I would have loved to meet him too, he's my idol too but..."

"Fine, then you all leave. I'll try to find him myself.", Nik burned with anger and ran away. Into the woods to find his adoptive father, Elijah Ryder.

"No, Nik!! Don't!!", Alex screamed, but he was already gone. The girl turned to her friends who remained on her side and informed them that she had seen last, about an hour ago, Elijah Ryder in the Graveyard Shift. If he's still there was another question, but the time was ticking. Midnight passed. Fewer hours left till sunrise. Till the portal shuts down forever.

The four friends immediately head into the woods to get the young man, Nik back before it was too late.

"I'm sorry, Katherine. I'm glad you and Nik have safely returned back from the war in New York, but this is definitely not how I imagined our reunion. You two hunters must be also pretty exhausted from your journey", Alex confessed.

"Don't worry, we'll find him."

"I hope so. Sooo Vera, you really didn't away from me before?", Alex turned her attention towards Vera who shook her head.

"Nope, wasn't me. Why would I do that anyway?"

"Guys, then in this dimension we exist too and not only Elijah. The Vera in this world ran away from me, the Nik in this world isn't a nighthunter and I also met another Katherine."

"Really? Then we probably should hide our faces. We don't want our look-alikes to think that we're imposters. Shapeshifters.", Katherine suggested.

"Too late to turn back, we're already in the woods. Let's just hope things go smoothly. Any idea where he could have gone?", Cal asked the gang.

"Let's split into two groups to find him faster. I'll search with Vera in this direction and you go with Alex to the other side."

They did as Katherine suggested and parted ways to find Nik faster. While Alex joined Cal, the rest of the girls went in the opposite direction hoping to find the missing and heartbroken nighthunter as soon as possible.

[gonna-need-you-to-not]

Spn Episode Categories

Today in "Is it Autism or ADHD?", I put all the Supernatural episodes into categories by episode name.

ALLITERATION Dark Dynasty Monster Movie Plucky Pennywhistle’s Magical Menagerie Soul Survivor Tall Tales Twigs & Twine & Tasha Banes Various and Sundry Villains War of the Worlds

BELIEVE Clap Your Hands if You Believe Do You Believe in Miracles

BIBLICAL Exodus In the Beginning Inherit the Earth Lazarus Rising Lucifer Rising Moriah Proverbs 17:3

BLOOD Blood Brother Bloodlines Bloodlust Bloody Mary Dead Man’s Blood First Blood Fresh Blood Let It Bleed My Bloody Valentine There Will Be Blood

BOOKS Bedtime Stories Book of the Damned Fan Fiction Meta Fiction Reading is Fundamental Slash Fiction The Monster at the End of this Book

CHILDREN Adventures in Babysitting Children Shouldn’t Play With Dead Things Destiny’s Child I Believe the Children are Our Future Pacman Fever Playthings Slumber Party The Kids are Alright

COLOURS Black Crossroad Blues Paint it Black Red Meat Red Sky at Morning Yellow Fever

DEAD or ALIVE Advanced Thanatology Bring Em Back Alive Dead in the Water Dead Men Don’t Wear Plaid Death Takes a Holiday Death’s Door Defending Your Life In My Time of Dying It’s a Terrible Life Live Free or Twihard Rock Never Dies

DEVIL Beat the Devil Devil in the Detail Devil May Care Devil’s Bargain Devil’s Trap Sympathy for the Devil The Devil You Know

EMOTIONS Everybody Hates Hitler Everybody Loves a Clown Love Hurts Optimism We Happy Few

FAMILY All in the Family Family Feud Family Matters Family Remains

FIRE/HEAT Caged Heat Halt and Catch Fire Out of the Darkness Into the Fire

FIRST/LAST/NEW/OLD First Born Last Call Last Holiday Meet the New Boss Out With the Old

GIRLS/BOYS/MEN/LADIES A Most Holy Man About a Boy Bad Boys Girl Next Door Girl With the Dungeons & Dragons Tattoo Girls Girls Girls Hook Man Inside Man Ladies Drink Free LARP and the Real Girl Man Who Knew Too Much Man Who Would Be King Mans Best Friend with Benefits Repo Man Slice Girls

GODS & MONSTERS Atomic Monsters Good God Yall Hammer of the Gods How to Win Friends and Influence Monster Remember the Titans

GOING SOMEWHERE? Appointment in Samarra Beyond the Mat Carry On Dark Side of the Moon Don't Go in the Woods Exile on Main Street Frontierland Heroes’ Journey Hollywood Babylon Into the Mystic Lebanon Long Distance Call Mystery Spot No Exit Our Little World Phantom Traveller Point of No Return Road Kill Road Trip Sin City Stranger in a Strange Land

GOOD/BAD Bad Day at Black Rock Bad Place Bad Seed Born Under a Bad Sign Damaged Goods Good Intentions Let the Good Times Roll

HEART Angel Heart Heart Heartache My Heart Will Go On

HEAVEN & HELL All Dogs Go to Heaven All Hell Breaks Loose (Part 1 and 2) Heaven Can’t Wait Hell’s Angel Holy Terror I’m No Angel King of the Damned Raising Hell Somewhere Between Heaven and Hell Stairway to Heaven

HELLO/GOODBYE Hello Cruel World Goodbye Stranger

HOUSE & HOME Hell House Home Houses of the Holy Safe House

IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD Don’t You Forget About Me Galaxy Brain Just My Imagination Memory Remains Peace of Mind Wishful Thinking

LATIN/OTHER LANGUAGE Hunteri Heroici Jus in Bello Malleus Maleficarum Reichenbach

MOVIE TITLES/REFERENCES Back to the Future Blade Runners Born Again Identity Hunter Games I Know What You Did Last Summer Real Ghostbusters Taxi Driver The Usual Suspects There’s No Place Like Home Tombstone You Can’t Handle the Truth

NAME A Little Slice of Kevin Alex Annie Alexis Ann Are You There God It’s Me Dean Winchester Ask Jeeves Celebrating the Life of Asa Fox Criss Angel is a Douchebag Curious Case of Dean Winchester Dog Dean Afternoon Don’t Call Me Shurley It’s the Great Pumpkin Sam Winchester Jack in the Box Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets Party On Garth Patience Sam Interrupted Shut Up Dr Phil Simon Says There’s Something about Mary Thin Lizzie We Need to Talk About Kevin Weekend at Bobby’s

NATIONALITIES American Nightmare British Invasion French Mistake

NIGHT Game Night Night Shifter Nightmare Nightmare Logic Nightshifter

NUMBERS 99 Problems Hibbing 911 Magnificent Seven Mannequin 3: the Reckoning Route 666 Season 7 Time For a Wedding The One You’ve Been Waiting For The Third Man Two and a Half Men Two Minutes to Midnight

PAIRS Alpha and Omega Form and Void Freaks and Geeks Gods and Monsters Heaven and Hell Lost and Found Prophet and Loss Scorpion and the Frog Sex and Violence Torn and Frayed Trial and Error

RELATIVES Brother’s Keeper Mamma Mia Mommy Dearest Mother’s Little Helper O Brother Where Art Thou Our Father Who Aren’t in Heaven Rising Son Wayward Sisters What’s Up Tiger Mommy

SAYINGS/EXPRESSIONS Abandon All Hope And Then There Were None Fallen Idols Jump the Shark Keep Calm and Carry On Mint Condition No Rest for the Wicked Of Grave Importance On the Head of a Pin Rock and a Hard Place Southern Comfort Survival of the Fittest

SINGLE WORD #thinman Absence Asylum Baby Breakdown Bugs Byzantium Captives Croatoan Despair Faith Funeralia Ghostfacers Hunted LOTUS Metamorphosis Nihilism Ouroboros Pilot Plush Provenance Roadkill Sacrifice Salvation Scarecrow Shadow Skin Unity Wendigo

SONG Executioner’s Song Song Remains the Same Swan Song

SONG TITLES All Along the Watchtower Dream a Little Dream of Me Folsom Prison Blues I Think I’m Gonna Like it Here Like a Virgin Paper Moon Stuck in the Middle With You

SUPERNATURAL A Very Supernatural Christmas Scoobynatural

TEETH Bitten Citizen Fang Sharp Teeth

THE Benders Big Empty Chitters End Foundry Future Gamblers Great Escapist Mentalists Prisoner Purge Raid Rapture Rupture Scar Spear Trap Vessel Werther Project

THING/SOMETHING Something Wicked The Thing The Things They Carried The Things We Left Behind

TIME As Time Goes By Golden Time Time After Time Time After Time After Time Time is on My Side

TV After School Special Changing Channels Clip Show

UN Unfinished Business Unforgiven Unhuman Nature

WHO/WHAT/WHEN What Is and What Should Never Be When the Levee Breaks Who We Are

YOU & ME Drag Me Away From You Free to Be You and Me

Some obviously qualify for more than one category, so I just picked one 🤷‍♀️

[arabellasbootss]

omg can u jus imagine alex meeting ur parents for the first time and then going upstairs to ur childhood bedroom and RAILING THE SHIZ NITS outta u 👅👅 any era honestly, this thought is making me so unwell

oh my god that’s so hot, like him having to shush you cause you keep moaning too loud and the bed is creaking so he has to go nice and slow 😫😫 i’m going feral for this man.

[ray935sworld]

VR's academy of supernatural riders (Part 3: The broken image of a hero)

TW: This chapter includes a general talk about a toxic relationship including physical and mental abuse. It's in an educational context to make a character aware, not an actual abusiv relationship

Summary: Vale isn't stupid. He notices his brothers disappearances

Or I couldn't help myself but give a way too detailed description of the Vale - Luca brotherhood

Time passed and the relationship between the two lovers grew. But as every action has it equal opposite reaction, Luca and Vale seemed to drift apart.

Vale was a lot of thing. Caring and kind to those in his favour and ruthless to those against him. He could be silly and childish, making the academy boys forget that he is already in his mid-40s and not somewhere around 30. But he wasn’t stupid.

He was way wilder than his younger brother when he was his age, so he recognized the pattern quickly. The retired rider used to tell his mother that he just needed to attend an unexpected meeting or that his sponsors asked to meet him. He made up every kind of meeting as a reason not to be home. Sometimes he said he’d needed a short break between races to be able to focus again.

In reality he was with whoever and did things with them he could never tell his younger brother. Let alone his mom. The local priest would properly passed out during confession if he mentioned even the half of it.

Not that Luca didn’t know. Just maybe, there had been moments in which he forgot his little brother stayed over or was in a hearing distance which caused Luca to grow up, having a high tolerance for dirty comments and sex. But those moments somehow caused them to grew closer cause Luca got the opportunity to make fun of his silly hero. They laughed about it.

But now Luca used the same excuses and always disappeared at a certain hour at the races. He never did it before. Sure, he snuck away or straight up told Vale with a smirk not to look for him. Now it was different and his guts told him not to like that change. He always trusted his guts.

It wasn’t like Luca to keep secrets like that. He sometimes looked sad when he returned. That was usually enough for Vale to turn the world upside down, but he didn’t know where to start. Maro used to stay with the academy until late in the evening, having dinner, talking about the media or the practice, qualifying, the race or whatever came to their mind. Most of the time, it took a responsible adult, Uccio, to tell the young Italians and Vale, to finally go to bed. During that time, the boss knew that the boys still had regular sleepovers in someone’s motorhome or in one of their rooms at the ranch.

Now Luca was gone before 11pm or kept checking his phone – a habit he previously hated. There were moments in which he texted his older brother, he’d be with one of the others. Normally he’d never questioned that. But sometimes those were with him or he had seen them previously elsewhere. He thought about confronting him. He wanted to ask him until he broke down and told him the truth.

But he didn’t want to pressure his boy. He didn’t want to force him to do something he didn’t want to. And he didn’t want to tell him, yet. Vale knew that. He knew, he lied and he did it without hesitation. Vale couldn’t notice any change. The only logical consequence was that he felt the need to lie, as if he didn’t had another option. That didn’t just caused the older one to worry. It actually scared the living shit out of him.

Things took a turn when Alex and Luca spent a week together in Barcelona, far away from spying eyes and the fear of the spite of a certain Italian. They spent some great days, full of sex and kissed and love. Just like now, Alex was laying in his boyfriends lap, reading an article about something. His hand slowly caressing his hair. He leaned down to him and whispered “You are the most beautiful man in the world and it’s unbelievable that I got so lucky that you let me love you” just because he wanted Alex to know.

He kissed him softly. He placed his lips on his forehead. He felt the thin skin above his skull. It was warm. “Yeah?” he asked and as a response he got another kiss, this time on his cheeks, first on the right, then on the left. HE giggled about the sensation.

“Why don’t you prove me how much you love me?” The Spaniard asked. His intention were clear.

“You’d like that, don’t you?” “Yes. Show me how much you love me and my body, Luci.” Luci. He was the only one that was allowed to calm him Luci. He didn’t accept it with anyone else, not even his closest friends, but Alex could call him anything and he’d thank him. “The thing about you is… That I want to ruin you. I want to see your eyes tear up when you try to catch your breath. I wanna hear you scream my name as if it’s the only word you know.”

The sweetness of his voice was replaced with something dark, almost prying. Like a predator. “I want you to be reduced to a mess of happy crying, moans and desperate curses. I want you to beg for me.” His voice was a little bit raspy and his eyes were fixed on Alex. The older one felt like he was looking right at an animal. His gaze was intense, seemingly never leaving him. He actually saw Alex.

“I want to push you further than you’ve ever been just to build you up again.” “Luca-“ He was so close to a boner. It took all his willpower and a lot of disgusting thoughts to stop the blood rushing in between his legs.

He knew he couldn’t win against his lover’s dirty talk. That’s why he started it. He wanted him to win. He wanted Luca to destroy his mind. It was what he wanted and needed. “Luca, please-“ he whined. “Don’t worry, I’ll take such good care of you. I’ll reward my lovely boy for being such a perfect human” His voice was smooth like the sun and it got stuck in Alex mind like honey.

The older one slowly got impatient. He took the hand of the blue eyed one and slowly moved it over his own chest. “You have to” he said blinking his long darks lashes at him. That would do the deal and with that smirk he was sure to get what he wanted. He felt like a greedy kid. He had his eye on candy and he’d do anything to have him. He wouldn’t stop asking, simply annoying everyone that he could.

Then Luca grinned and it was not sexy. It wasn’t his seductive smile. It was a sarcastic smile as if he couldn’t hold back a bad joke he knew he shouldn’t say. “Later, Tesoro” His body lost the little contact his lover and he shared. “Your brother has just arrived and I don’t think you want to give him a heart attack. You’re not THAT close to him, hopefully.”

He smirked when Alex stared at him in a mix of horror and confusion. He hadn’t heard anything. And Marc said he’d only be there in an hour. Was he coming earlier? Did he text Luca instead of himself? Did they plan this? Why would he- “WAAAH!” His thoughts were interrupted by the scream of his brother that mixed with his and Luca’s laughter.

He sat up, shoulder tense and squeezing Luca’s arm. Without noticing it, he pressed himself closer to him. “Awe, is he your knight in shining armour, protecting you?” his brother laughed before hugging him close. The youngest just smiled, happy to see his brother who gave his boyfriend a cuddle as well. No bad blood between them.

They had a short chat about Marc’s flight and ride to the house while moving to the kitchen to prepare something to drink. Marc was sat at the kitchen counter and watched the younger two. Alex was about to grab something when Luca already handed it to him. He just smiled at him and gave him a fast kiss on the cheek.

Marc smiled about them. “Seriously, you guys are so fucking cute, I need to throw up.” He commented and he didn’t miss the darker shade of red that creeped up his brother’s face. “I think I’ll get diabetes if I see you interact to much” “Thank you” Luca just said while the Marquez brother gave the older one an annoyed look.

“Can’t you shut up for once?” “Awe, is somebody embarrassed?” he teased. “I’m sure your pretty, pretty prince is worst in private. He probably tells you you’re prettier than Aphrodite or whatever gay stuff you’re into” “Hey!” This time it was Luca who interfered.

A little surprised the two looked at him. “Carino, you are into Greek mythology.” Alex reminded his favourite nerd. “Yes. That’s why I would never call you that!” he explained. One look at the others and he knew it wasn’t an explanation.

“What the fuck is your boyfriend talking about?” “I don’t know“ They whispered, loud enough for the other to hear. “What?” His voice got defensive and his face even redder. “Aphrodite destroys everyone’s life who is said to be more beautiful than her. And she was originally a war goddess, so I wouldn’t mess with her. Especially when it’s about you” He blushed but the urge to kiss him once more was overshadowed by his intrusive thoughts. Before Alex could stop himself, he turned around to look at his brother. “Did Rossi ever called you more beautiful than Aphrodite? Would explain a lot” The signature Marquez laugh filled the kitchen and mixed with Marini’s.

The next time, Luca thought about his brother was a few hours later. He was sat in the back seat of Alex car. The two Spaniards in front and their racing stuff right next to him. They were on their way to a local dirt track when he heard his phone buzz.

He checked and saw the name ‘Old guy’ pop up. His brother had texted him. It was a photo. He saw a picture of Marco who was busy chasing Rubik through the kitchen of the ranch. The dog had a whole salami sticking out his mouth which he had apparently just stolen. You could see the happiness in the animals eyes and the frustration in the rider’s eyes. Vale had written a short caption saying ‘And that’s why Rubik and Bez aren’t allowed alone together in the kitchen’. He smiled about it.

For a moment he wanted to snap a picture back. But of what? He looked up and saw the two Spaniards. If he sent Vale a picture of them, the next thing he’d hear about his brother would be Marco yelling at him for giving the old man a heart attack. But he wanted to send him a picture of the scene, show him what he was doing. He wanted him to be part of his life. But he couldn’t and that left a weird feeling in his chest. He felt empty and his head to full, as if he was about to explode. He sighed and tried to get ride of the guilt building up in him.

Apparently that realisation had transferred to his face, because suddenly Alex looked at him worried. His eyes were fixed on him for a few seconds through the back mirror. “Everything okay?” he asked with a concerned look.

“Yes, Vale just texted me, sending a picture of Bez chasing Rubik. I’ve just been thinking how to answer” „Does he know where you are?" „I told him I was with friends." „Well, that shouldn’t be a problem, is it?" Marc asked. „Of course not, it’s just...Vale is worried about me” “What? Why?” “Does he suspect anything?” The two brothers asked. “No. But- well, he does know I’m in a relationship. He just doesn’t know with who.” „He's your brother." Alex emphasized. “He just wants to protect you”

A younger sibling would always stay the baby. Small. Young. In need of protection. Even if they are 20, in the mind of the older they’d be 12 forever. For Vale it was even worse than for Marc. The Marquez had grew up together, barely remembering the other as a kid, but as equals. Their minds were almost equally developed, so the difference wasn't really noticeable.

But Vale was already grown when Luca was born. He was able to recall the first time he saw him, running in the room where his mother was, hugging her tightly and kissing her, telling her how much he loved her and checking that she was okay before seeing the little baby in her arms.

He froze.

He had never seen a newborn before. It was actually just a bundle of baby blankets with a red face. The eyes were still closed and his head was covered with a small hat. It was fascinating. He couldn’t turn his gaze away. The baby was so small. Of course he knew that newborns were tiny, but actually seeing one – knowing that this was his little sibling was completely different.

He looked at the puffy cheeks and lips. He stared at the nose, a little bit too big for his face. He would have to grow into his facial features. It would take years. Actually years. He’d see them grow, learn how to speak and walk. He’d be part of their life. He’d always be by his side. He smiled at that thought.

„Valentino” their mother said. Their. They were siblings. “May I introduce you to your little brother? That's Luca… Your little brother" she said smiling and the 18 year old was shellshocked like never before. „I've got a brother" he whispered. He looked up, tears in his eyes as he met his mother’s eyes. None of his championship made him as happy as seeing the baby that was his brother.

“Do you want to hold him?” she asked and he nodded slowly. He sat down next to her on a chair, barely an inch away from the bed as she handed him the little body. He immediately put his hand behind his little head. He barely weight anything. It felt like carrying a cat in his arms.

“Hey Luca” he said with a wide grin, the world forgotten. “I- I’m Valentino but you can call me Vale…” He spoke slowly and calm, not wanting to risk waking him. “I’m sorry, I look like a mess. If I had known I’d meet you today, I’d be dressed more properly” he joked. He was aware that the baby had no idea what he was talking about or what a joke was, but he wanted him to be happy. He wanted to make him laugh and keep him safe. And he started with joking about making a bad first impression to a baby by meeting him in just a shirt, shorts and converse.

He kept holding him,, whispering to him how he would always take care of him and protect him, that he was lucky to have a little brother like him and that he would always keep bad things away from him. After some time, his mother had fallen asleep but Luca was beginning to wake up. He scrunched his nose and somehow Vale knew he was uncomfortable. But why? Maybe he was hungry? But he didn’t want to wake his mother. So he tested another theory.

He softly put him down which resulted in Luca kicking and getting even more restless. He fast threw his shirt in a corner. It was the beginning of August in Italy. It was hot as hell. So he hold his baby brother against his bare chest, knowing newborns needed the body heat. He had made a switch from 38°C to 20°C in a short time. Maybe the blankets weren’t enough. He smelled the little one and he felt his little head turning.

To this day he swore Luca had gave him a little smile, his eyes still closed. He’d still do anything for little Luca. He was there for him through everything. He tried to be there when he stayed with their mother. He tried to help him with his homework or even called his mechanics to get the answers to a math or physics problem. He kept track of his growth on a wall and even got a stool to measure him after he become taller than his brother. He was there when he turned the first time.

Another thought popped up in Luca’s head while rethinking his relationship with Valentino.

„Luca, do you have a moment?" Luca looked up from his phone. He was scrolling through Tiktok, looking for some new music, watching a few edits and rewatching the funny videos Bez had sent him. But the serious look in his brother's face made him shiver. Valentino wasn't a serious person. He was quite goofy and funny. He was always laughing. Now he was close to tears. Close enough that Luca was convinced he knew about his relationship. He knew everything. He hated him, heartbroken that his younger brother, out of all people, could betray him like that.

That was Lucas worst fear. That Vale didn't got angry, he'd be just disappointed. He thought he was about to be thrown out of the ranch and the academy. His friends, the boys that grew up with him, who he spent every weekend together, would have no other choice but ignore him. They were his brothers. They knew everything about each other. But if it was between himself and their career... They had spent too much of their own and their parents energy, time and money to risk Vale's spite running everything. He couldn't let that happen. So maybe he had just spent his last day with Franky, Bez, Pecco, Cele and Migno as something like a family.

Vale would tell him off. He was convinced that was about to happen. It was the only logical reason. The wall against his back felt colder than usual. Was this the last time he looked at Vale as his older brother? Fear peaked in his chest. He maybe an adult but he didn’t want to not be a younger brother anymore. His legs, spread out in front were frozen when his brother sat down next to him. For a moment he just looked at him. He looked the eyes he knew so well. He thought he was about to lose them.

„Do you trust me, Luca?" he asked slowly. It was out of the question. „Yes. With my life" „And... You know I only want to protect you, right? I don't want to see you get hurt" He nodded. He'd tell him Alex was using him. He had to break up with him before he'd hurt him. „Do you know what a toxic relationship is?" Confused he started at him. „Eh...? Why?" „I need you to be aware of such things." He felt like a child. The helplessness and fear still in his heart, he carefully listened to his brother.

„A toxic relationship is... It's when you're in a relationship with someone that hurts you but you stay with them anyway, because... Maybe you love them or used to love them. But it's unhealthy. They are only hurting you. Maybe they use emotional manipulation, disrespect, control, and a lack of support... Victims often feel... I read that there's a feeling of being unsupported, misunderstood, demeaned, or even attacked. When someone control you or… if you feel like you’re caged and you can’t or shouldn’t let go… It can be physical or psychological and you have to be very careful, okay? I want you to understand that you're not allowed to stay in a relationship that makes you feel unsafe or could be dangerous. I want you to tell me if you ever have that feeling – even if that person wants to silence you. If it that person makes you think you can't talk to me or anybody about or shouldn't because it won't get easier. It'll get worst."

He wasn’t sure how to react. This whole thing sounded different to what he expected. It didn’t sound like he was about to throw him out. „Vale, why are you telling me all of this?" „Because... You're my little brother and I want to protect you, even from things you don't consider dangerous." He swallowed hardly. He felt the ball of saliva running down his throat. It felt like a knife when he realized what Vale did. He understood what he was trying to do.

„What do you know?" he failed to keep the anger out his voice when he stood up. He understood. If Vale knew he’d try to break them up by making Luca believe their relationship was dangerous. He narrowed his brother who's facial expression he failed to read for the first time. He was used to understanding his brothers way of thinking. It took growing up with him, texting with him every day since he bought him his first phone - back then it was an old one from the 90s, barely enough to do anything besides calling and texting - to understand. Yet he failed. And it scared him that he failed at a moment as mandatory as this one. „What?" Vale asked confused.

„Don't play dumb!" Fear turned in anger. „What do you think you know? A- Ah, I can’t believe- He's not abusive!" He had nearly let the name slip „Luca, I know nothing, that's why I'm worried." He sounded so honest and sad, it broke his heart. He froze. He wasn’t sure what to believe or how to react. Was he telling the truth? Maybe he was lying.

„What?" he asked quietly. „You disappear at races. You say you're with one of the boys but you're not." „I-" „Don’t deny it! Last week you said you'd be with Bez. But Bez and Pecco were out annoying Dani. You lie to me. And I don't know why...." He sounded actually hurt and the feeling of guilt crept in, deeper than his anger.

"I'm sorry. I didn't... I didn't mean to worry you" he said, suddenly feeling small and helpless like a child while Vale continued. „I don't expect you to tell me everything. I don't mind you lying to me to have some fun. God you know that. I was way worst. But you do it so frequently and you always look... You look sad when you return. Like something is hurting you or someone. And I don't like that. I can't stand seeing you like that. I just wanna make sure you're okay and I don't know how and that makes me panic."

"I... I'm in a relationship" he started to choose his words carefully. "I love that person and they love me... But... I can't... I'm not ready to tell you who it is or any details. I'm sorry..." „Are they treating you right? They don't pressure you into anything or try taking influence? No manipulation? That's all I want to know" „No. No, they wouldn't do that. They always make sure I'm okay and comfortable, they really do. They are kind and loving and... And they love me very much. I'm sure they'd do anything for me. As I’d do for them." „Okay... Can... Does any one of the academy know?" „Yes." „And they approve of them?" „Yes. They like them as well." „Have they met them as your partner?" „Yes. Franky met them" He considered telling him about Bez and Pecco but he decided that that would be too much.

Vale couldn't hide his smile. Franco maybe more laid back then the rest of them together but he was the most protective of the group, considering he was one of the oldest. He met Luca when he was just a child. And the two had got along great together. Probably because they were the only one in that age range at the time when they sat together afterwards.

Since then they were inseparable, especially because Franky tend to enjoy the company of someone closer to his age over a drunk Vale or Uccio. Franky was protective of Luca and Vale knew that, so when Franky approved, he was sure it couldn't be as bad.

Vale assumed it was someone older. Maybe he was an older mechanic. Probably way too old for a normal relationship, maybe closer in age to Vale or even older. That's why he decided to hide it. Luca must think Vale wouldn't approve as if he hadn't dated above his age group when he was in his 20s. Vale smiled about that thought but he wouldn't pressure his little brother. He wanted him to be comfortable with himself, his lover and his brother. He trusted him and he knew if he had trouble he'd tell him so that he could help.

The chat between the two brothers were still open. His side of the conversation was painfully empty. He wanted to text his brother, snap him a photo, just to show him that he was okay. But if he did, didn’t that imply that there was a reason why he maybe wouldn’t be? And there was none. There was no reason to think he wasn’t anything but safe.

“How does being worried about his little brother look for Rossi?” Marc asked. His voice wasn’t cold or disapproving but there was a clear change in his tone. “He asks where I am more often and if I am okay” “So he think someone is hurting you?”

“Marc-“ Alex tried to interfere. “He…” Luca took a second to think about his answer. The moment was tense. “He has no clue who I am dating. All he sees is that I keep disappearing and refuse to talk to him. If Alex wouldn’t tell you that he’s with me, you’d go crazy as well, wouldn’t you?” “Yes, of course” he averted his eyes.

This time it was Marc who let his feelings take over. He didn’t want to paint Vale as the bad guy and make him look like a control freak who didn’t even trusted his own brother. “Sorry, Luca, I didn’t mean to… I just don’t want you two to get hurt- not that I think Vale will hurt you- It’s just-“ “He hurt you” Luca said and Alex gave the two a short look. His eyes were focused on the road but even if he wasn’t, he had no intention in interrupting their very important conversation.

“I shouldn’t have-“ “No, its okay.” Luca said, before slowly adding „I know he was horrible to you but... He can be kind." „I know." Marc said, his voice lacking spite and hate. "He used to be very kind to me... Then I was at the ranch, bet his record and he doomed me as the downfall of the MotoGP." Marc slowly thought back. He remembered that day clearly even though he didn't like thinking about it.

„Funny enough, he was laughing when I bet him. I returned and he hugged me and even kissed me while pulling me off the bike. He was so close and... I thought he was serious. That’s it. But he wasn’t. He just wanted to fuck me and the screw me over." „Marc, I-" Another apology from someone that didn’t do any wrong wouldn’t fix it. „Your brother is a very good actor" “I am not” he added.

He wasn’t sure why. He just wanted to remind him. Marc laughed about his comment. His smile hide the sadness that was portrait just seconds earlier his features. It was the perfect opportunity to change the subject, talk about something easier while the three were heading towards the dirt track. They still had quite a way to go, a good hour.

Alex was just about to say something when his boyfriend asked again."Did something else happen between you two? Maybe in the evening?" Luca knew about the day. He was there, just like the rest of the academy. Vale had made a point in asking them to attend. They made jokes about Marc being introduced to single parent Vale's bunch of children. Everything was perfect. It was one of his favourite memories. He was surrounded with his best friends and his brother was over the moon to have his lover with him.

Seeing him with Marc was different. He only looked at him – of course, when they were racing, he was more focused on the kids, yelling and screaming about their mistakes and correcting them – but once there was no one he had to look after again, he only ever looked for the Spaniard. This of course gave the academy boys the opportunity to do a hell lot of bullshit.

"No.” Marc broke his thoughts “We cuddled and watched a movie." "It's just... I don't know." He sighed and turned his head to look out the window.

He watched the trees of Spain pass him by. How could Spain look so similar to Italy and be so different at the same time?

“It never made sense to me. He loves you. It-“ “No, Luca. He never did. He didn’t love me, not then and not in the last years. Maybe he loved the idea of me, but he didn’t love me. I was young and stupid. He wanted fun.” “I know what he’s like when he just wants sex. That was different. He asked all of us to be at the ranch. You’ve met the whole academy! That’s everything he stands for. That’s- It’s his legacy”

The words of the young Italian woke a feeling in Marc’s chest that he wanted to get rid of. “He isn’t an idiot, Luca. If you want to sell the picture of forever you have to introduce them to your family. Or in his case the academy”

”You think it was just part of an act” Now he sounded hurt and Marc almost felt bad. He turned around to face the man. “You love Alex. Would you be angry if he beat you at racing?” “No! I’d be proud. Always been” “See? You don’t hurt someone you love like that. He wanted to destroy my life and my whole family because I was better than him.”

“It’s Vale. He isn’t… He isn’t- okay, I know he wasn’t always kind to Stoner or Lorenzo but neither were they! It doesn’t make sense! I know he- Something must have happen” „Luca, I know you want to see Vale as righteous, unable to do any wrong. I did too. He’s your older brother and the one that taught you riding. You have a certain picture of him due to the way he behaves near you… I have a different one. Rossi wants to be the greatest. He wants to be the best. Just like I do. He aims to be the unbeatable legend and the only thing that stopped him, seems to be me. Not the fact he can't get the 10th title. No. I'm the problem. And I'm tired of fighting that narrative. Truth is, I didn't help Lorenzo in 2015 and he failed to win against me." „I know. I never not believed you. It's just... He never said a real reason. He only said you'd be dangerous for the academy... That keeping you around would end with our downfall"

He snorted. „And Luca Marini? Am I your downfall? Am I ruining your life by letting you bang my poor, innocent baby brother" Luca couldn't help but laugh. He smiled and was about to respond when said brother laughed as well. „Innocent? I'm definitely worst than him, by the way" And the older one made a disgusted face. Their sex life and especially Alex part was on the list of things he never wanted to know in the top 10.

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Part 15

It's the final race of the season. After Hungary, Baku, São Paulo, Singapore ,Spain and Qatar I've been on a pure continuation of my 1st place finishing streak and I don't plan to change that in Abu Dhabi.

Things have been a little tense between me and Max, but I can't help but think he's got wind of my comments about Kelly and when I said "we've never been friends" it's not untrue but we did have an inkling of a friendship when I first came to F1 but I think it has sort of died down.

The sound of the tires screeching against the runway snap me out of my thoughts and I'm brought back to reality. Looking out of the window the bright sun of Abu Dhabi bares down upon us. My eyes automatically squint as I leave the aeroplane, being blinded by the sun is not what I need.

Me and Charles reconvene as he was sitting with Pierre and I was with Yuki. "Ready for the last race of the season?" he asks. "More than ready, I'm so tired" I reply. This season has been great and I couldn't have asked for better but I'm exhausted. It's been so demanding and the thought of leaving Mercedes has been dawning on me more and more each race.

Abu Dhabi is one of my favourite tracks and the fans always seem to be especially excited on the last race of the season.

"Hey M/N" George calls out, I turn to face him "Toto called a meeting at 2 PM" I thank him and turn back around and sigh, we've only been here 2 minutes and already I have a meeting to go to.

I don't really get much of a chance to settle in before I'm heading to the paddock. The pre-race paddock is quiet, peaceful and tranquil. It makes me wish it was like this all the time, no media and no people.

It's quite easy to navigate the paddock, and I walk into Toto's conference room and see that both Toto and George are already there. I take the empty seat next to George.

Toto waits a few seconds before speaking "It's the last race of the season and it's race week, obviously we didn't have a break between Qatar and now so we can't change much but we are in a great position anyway so I don't think that's much of a problem. You are both doing really well so I just want to say keep doing what you have been doing and it will all be good".

He goes on for a lot longer than necessary and then hands over to the engineers and strategists who gives us all a brief overview of everything that will happen this week.

Given it's Wednesday and race day is Saturday we don't have much free time to do much or train.

Wandering around the paddock towards the exit things have got a little bit busier with loads of shipments and equipment arriving.

Thankfully our hotel isn't far and I just end up cycling back and arrive to find all the other drivers either playing Paddle or in the Gym which doesn't surprise me they are all creatures of habit.

Instead of joining in, I head up to my room to finish unpacking. Pulling everything out of my suitcase I hang things up in the closet, I hear my phone vibrating against the mahogany wood and immediately ditch unpacking.

I answer it seeing that the caller ID is my Mum, "Hey, is everything alright? Are you ok?" I say frantically, "calm yourself, I'm fine. I thought I would just call and wish you luck in your final race week as a rookie and to let you know I will be watching you become World Champion", we talk for ages but time flies by and before I know it, I look out the window and see the sun setting behind the gargantuan buildings that overshadow our small hotel.

I try to locate Charles and find him in the games room with Lando and Alex playing some random farm simulator game. I think it was called 'goat simulator' or something like that, all I know is Charles kept on headbutting things. I come behind him and place my hand on his shoulder which causes him to jump a little.

"Ah mon amour, are you trying to give me a heart attack?" I gently pat his shoulder and laugh.

As it's free practice tomorrow we all decide not to have a late night. Instead we all decide to just stay at the hotel and make use of the hotel restaurant.

Sitting at the table that's covered in a white station table cover there is a cacophony of chatter and laughter, I have Charles on one side of me and Zhou on the other, and throughout the course of dinner it feels like they are both fighting for my attention as the second one starts a conversation with me the other interjects.

I engage in quiet conversation with George and we begin talking about the championship and I see Max dart his attention back and forth. It is evident that he is listening to our conversation out of jealousy, anger or some other emotion.

At 11 PM everyone heads up but I decide to stay down stairs for a while. I decide upon sitting on the edge of the pool with my feet submerged in the warm water and gaze into the night sky.

Hearing faint footsteps behind me I expect to see Lily or Kika by the sound of the high heeled shoes but instead see Kelly approaching me. "Fucking brilliant" I sigh under my breath.

She takes off her shoes and sits down next to me. There is a long pause of awkward silence that is slightly distorted by the sound of the water feature.

"What's your problem with me?" She asks. Not wanting to give her the pleasure of me getting angry I get up and pick up my shoes and turn around but as I do she says something that makes me stop in my tracks.

"Running away as usual isn't that exactly what you did with your relationship with Nyck, it's like your special talent"

I turn back around and crouch down.

"You ask why I don't like you, you are rude, stuck up, insensitive, you act like a petulant child and you're an all round fucking bitch who I can't stand, I can't really give you much more reason than that, now leave me alone, and don't act like you know me or what I've been through because you don't."

Feeling incredibly pissed I walk off leaving her by the pool by herself and heading up to my room I pass Max who asks if I have seen Kelly, I simply motion towards the sign that says "swimming pool".

I creak the door open and see Charles is fast asleep, I walk over to his side of the bed and place a light kiss on his right cheek.

I cautiously climb into bed and place my arm around Charles.

Waking up the next morning for FP1 and FP2 I feel a great sense of relief knowing that this is one of the final times I have to get up this early, don't get me wrong I love racing but not getting up at 7 in the morning to do so.

The paddock is filled with a flurry of people and as I push past all the journalists and their questions I manage to get to the garage in one piece.

Going out in FP1 is great, I feel confident and set excellent times well ahead of most driver's.

Going out for FP2 I feel ready to get this over and done with and go back to the hotel and rest.

"M/N, Verstappen, Leclerc, Perez and Albon behind you now coming out on the track. Verstappen 0.6 seconds"

Looking in my mirror I see the Red Bull appear behind me but I don't pay much attention to him instead focus on the track ahead.

Going into turn 4 he comes alongside me and makes contact with my side pod. I back off to let him pass and overtake him on the straight. But going back into the next corner he comes down the inside line and pushes me causing my car to spin out and catapult into the barrier.

Before my engineer can ask if I'm alright I make it clear I'm frustrated:

"What the fuck was he doing? He just come down the inside like a fucking rocket and pushed me off the track he's a dickehad that's what he is"

Obviously I have to retire given half of my car is over the barrier.

Entering the paddock a plethora of journalists flood over to me all pointing their microphones asking a thousand questions at once.

My media manager manages to arrange some form of order and then the questions start flooding in.

Reporter: M/N what's your take on what happened out there?

M/N: It was clearly Max's fault, I don't know what he was thinking or if he was even thinking because you know if he had a single brain cell he wouldn't have made such a stupid move.

Reporter: Do you think you will talk to him?

M/N: If he wants to talk like an adult, then yes but if he's going to act like a child then probably not.

Reporter: Your team has said you are definitely going to miss out on FP3. Do you think this will impact your performance in Qualifying?

M/N: I don't think so, I feel confident on the track, especially when I don't have a Red Bull driving into me.

Walking off I see Kelly standing on the sidelines and as much as I try to control my anger, however it gets the best of me.

I approach her and she turns to face me.

"What is your boyfriend's problem?" I ask in a spiteful tone, she ignores me, "fine if that's how you want to act, it's fine by me, but know this, I may hate you and may not have the best relationship with Max but even I wouldn't be that selfish or stupid to purposefully ram him off the track"

I storm off and see that the cameras have followed me but by this point I don't care.

Day of qualifying:

After yesterday's incident I don't feel as elated as I should.

Even though I've missed out on FP3, I feel pretty confident that I can get pole position. The video clip of me confronting Kelly has gone pretty viral. My media team has lectured me over and over again about it, I can't help but feel they are the only ones who are happy I'm leaving. I'm sure their job will be a lot easier when I leave.

Making it to Q3 is a great feeling as always and seeing people like Zhou and Yuki make it to Q3 makes me feel even happier as they are in a car that doesn't perform as well.

I manage to get provisional pole and as I'm sitting in my car in the garage Max goes faster than me going in pole. I insist to the team that I go out again but they advise against it saying my tyres can't handle another lap but I don't listen and let my egotism and determination take hold

I cross the line to start my lap time with a literal second to spare. I don't use my brake much coasting in and out of corners. I'm dead set on getting a pole and as I cross the line I wait nervously for my engineer's voice.

"M/N Pole Position for the final time with Mercedes" I cheered into the radio feeling ecstatic.

"I couldn't have asked for anything better guys".

Race Day:

I put on my Mercedes race suit for the final time. It feels a tad conflicting. I'm happy to be going to a new team but sad to be leaving this team behind.

I sit in the car for the final time and turn to face Max who is in P2. We both get a good start and I get ahead of him and manage to create a 5 second gap by lap 8.

The laps quite literally fly by, and time seems to speed up whilst I'm driving.

Commentary: It is the final lap of the Formula One World Championship for this season, it's been a tough year for many, perpetuated by lots of emotions. Winning, losing, devastation, achievements. Everyone and every team has tried their best but it is this one man who is leading his final Grand Prix for Mercedes that will reign supreme.

As he rounds his last corner in that Mercedes, he will cross the line M/N L/N is the World Champion, the first rookie World Champion, there will be lots of celebrations down at Mercedes tonight as George Russell brings home P2 for a double podium."

Crossing the line I'm in disbelief and hear something I never expected to hear:

"M/N L/N YOU ARE THE WORLD CHAMPION, THE WORLD CHAMPION" My engineer booms down his mic.

"M/N it's Toto I just want to say a wonderful well done for your incredible work over the past year you are an incredibly talented driver with a great soul. It has been a pleasure to have you drive for us and we will be sad to see you go but wish you the best at Aston Martin"

For the final time I push my radio button to speak to the Mercedes team.

"Thank you guys, this is probably the best feeling I have ever felt. This season has been a whirlwind that I will never forget. I have absolutely loved working with you all, you're all hardworking, dedicated individuals who make this sport as great as it is. I'm sad to be waving goodbye to Mercedes but you guys will always be my family, I will always have the utmost respect to you all.

I just want to say thank you Toto for your support over the past year and for giving me an amazing opportunity. Thank you George for being the best teammate and friend. Thank you Jack for being such a great engineer. And thanks to everyone in the garage, pit wall and back in the factory for all your hard work and dedication, I wish you all the best, I love you all."

I frantically jump out of my car and embrace my entire team with the fireworks exploding in the night sky behind me. I quickly head to the cool down room to place down my helmet and get a quick drink and wait for my turn to be interviewed.

Reporter: Now here comes the World Champion, How does it feel?

M/N: I can't really put my feelings into words. It's a feeling I can't really describe, my childhood dreams have come true.

Reporter: Mercedes are constructors champions, you are the World Champion and George is P2. What is the atmosphere like at the team?

M/N: It's pretty amazing, we couldn't have asked for a better result coming into this season and you know we've all worked really hard to achieve this result so yes very elated and pleased.

Reporter: Now obviously you are leaving Mercedes, are you going to take this success with you next year at Aston Martin?

M/N: Let's just say next year Aston Martin will be at the top of the constructors.

Reporter: Do you have any final parting words for the Mercedes team?

M/N: Nothing other than thank you so much and I wish you all the very best.

Walking away I'm guided to the podium by Event staff. Standing on the podium I cast my view over the sea of people below me all cheering and ecstatic, but I don't feel as happy as I should. There's something within me that's stopping me from being as happy as them. For the final time in this season me, George and Charles cover each other on Champagne as the fireworks explode illuminating the night sky.

Stepping back onto the podium, Charles places his arms around me and places a kiss in my lips. Pulling away he smiles from ear to ear and laughs at how flustered I get. But the crowd gets great satisfaction out of it erupting into cheers.

Entering the Mercedes garage for the final time I'm met by a cacophony of cheers and people clapping. I hug every individual and thank them for their hard work and all that they have done for me over the past year.

We take the final team photo and I clear out my driver's room of all my Mercedes equipment and walk back into the garage and find the team with a trolley.

"What's that for?" I question "This is your ride to your new team" Toto replies.

Before I know it they are strapping me to the trolley that is used to transport tyres. My engineer and the other engineers and pit crew begin pushing me out of the garage. I take one final look back and smile at George and Toto, a tear forming in my eye.

They push me all the way down the pit lane, past all the garages who stand outside giving me a baffling look. We get to the Aston Martin garage and they literally deposit me, hugging me before leaving.

Fernando and Lance unstrap me from the trolley and there is an awkward moment where no one knows what to say until Ferando speaks up.

"You will enjoy it here" he declares, "I'm sure I will" I reply.

I'm guided to Mike's office by Lance and Fernando and all 3 of us take a seat. "First of all great last race for you Fernando P4 and P6 for you Lance it's been a great season we have finished 4th in the constructors Championship so it's been a great season, now I would like to welcome M/N to the team, it will be a pleasure to have you with us, now do you have anything you would like to say"

"Ermm... it's a great honour to be racing for such a great team next year, I can't wait to get to know the team more and it's an honour to be filling your shoes Fernando".

Concluding our meeting I leave the paddock amongst the flurry of spectators and head back to the hotel to pack my stuff in order to catch my flight to Italy where I have brought an apartment. My mum has sent over all of my belongings already.

Charles has offered to come and help me set everything up so we head to the airport together.

Sitting in the airport lounge I look up and see Charles justvstaring at me, "can I help you?" I question "Just looking at the new world Champion" I respond. "We'll I'm very grateful Red Bull were shit this year, it really helped".

The flight is long and tedious but the in flight entertainment of watching Charles playing games on his phone and getting angry when he loses is extremely engrossing.

We arrive in Italy at 2 in the morning so we just head to the apartment.

Arriving at the mahogany door I lift up the plant pot to find the key to the door, I switch on the light immediately and see an overwhelming amount of boxes scattered everywhere.

We head straight to the bedroom where there is thankfully already a bed and deposit our bags.

"I think we should just head to bed and leave this stuff until the morning I say, " Charles nods in agreement and we both head to bed, exhausted from the overwhelming emotions of the race day.

We end up sleeping in until 1 in the afternoon and with half of the day gone m, we decide to begin unpacking. We delegate a room each. I head into the kitchen and Charles stays in the bedroom and unpacks all my memorabilia and clothes.

Charles POV:

I stand at the door entrance for a while looking for a place to start. The room is covered with cardboard boxes.

I decide to start with all the stuff that goes into the closet and thankfully M/N's mother and auntie have labelled all the boxes as to where they go.

I start ripping the tape off a massive box that's packed with clothes but it's mostly racing teams T-shirts. I see teams that haven't been in F1 for nearly 20 years or longer.

Hanging each one individually is a banal task and just when I think it's coming to an end there's a whole load more "How many T-shirts does one man need?" I question myself.

Finally I reach the bottom of the box and see a grey box. I reorganise it as the one M/N hastily took away from me. I know he took it away for a reason but I want to know what's in there.

Looking behind my shoulder to check he isn't there I take the box out and sit on the edge of the bed placing it next to me. I take the lid off and I'm greeted by a box full of paper.

The initial document has a title in Bold capital letters that says "CONFIDENTIAL POLICE DOCUMENT". I question why he lied to me. He said it was stuff from his childhood.

I begin reading each paper individually, my eyes opening more and more as I read the details of what really happened between him and Nyck.

This isn't what he told me, well it is but he played it down a lot so I still feel like he lied to me.

Then I get to a page that just stops me in my tracks it's read "Mr L/N has indicated that Mr De Vries had repeatedly had non consensual intercourse with him on multiple occasions during the course of their relationship"

I'm absolutely horrified but not as horrified as I am when I get to the last page:

"Conclusion: M/N has decided to drop all charges against Nyck, on grounds that this process is too mentally tough, therefore no sentence or criminal charges will be imposed on Nyck and no further action shall be taken"

I hear footsteps approaching but I'm frozen. I hear his voice "so for lunch I thought we could-" he stops immediately when he sees me sitting on the edge with the paper in my hand.

"Why did you lie to me?" I say.

"What do you mean?" he dumbly questions.

"Why did you lie to me?" I repeat in a louder tone of voice.

"I didn't I just -" he pleads "save it".

We look at each other for a while trying to find the right thing to say but he's the one to break the silence "I didn't tell you because, I don't know how to casually bring that up or speak about it without needing therapy after. I hate the fact I didn't tell you everything but you would have looked at me differently you would of treated me as this frail, incompetent, damaged reject just like Yuki, Zhou, my mother, family, friends even AlphaTauri at the time for fuck's sake. Do you know what it was like to be on a F1 junior programme and have to leave because they thought I was too damaged? I'm sorry it was selfish and stupid of me but I didn't know how to tell you."

"I think we need space" I say.

He doesn't say anything, he just stands there "fine, but just know you're doing exactly what stopped me from telling you in the first place" he says.

I head for the door taking all my stuff and begin to search for flights to France so I can go back to Monaco.

M/N's POV:

As he closes the door behind him, I don't really know what I feel, I don't know if I'm angry, upset, annoyed. Instead I begin unpacking and cleaning like a mad man and by 9 PM I have my apartment fully set up. Apparently when you are seething with rage you can accomplish anything.

As for the police reports and documents I burn them all, ordinarily I would shove them in the bin but I wouldn't put it past the media to dig them out of the bin like they did with my tax report once.

Unlike last time I'm not going to lounge in self pity or depression. Instead I decide to go out and have some fun for once in my life without thinking of the consequences.

I get dressed in a shirt and a pair of blue levis and head for the nearest club. For most of the night I'm sitting by the bar by myself sticking to my zero alcohol rule however I can't lie the temptation was strong.

I'm approached by a group of guys and girls who ask me if I want to join them. I happily agree and spend the night chatting away with them. They are on holiday but are actually from near my hometown so we have a lot in common.

They don't know who I am, and it's nice to be seen as an equal human who doesn't have some higher status because I drive a fast car. They don't know much about what I do until some Ferrari fans approach me, clearly out celebrating Charles' podium and Ferrari being second to Mercedes.

"Hey can we get a photo please?" I agree and they take the photo and thankfully don't ask where Charles is.

"What was that about?" one of the guys asks, "erm I'm sort of a racing driver?" they all clearly know nothing about racing as they start listing all these different racing series "Which one do you do, IndyCar, NASCAR, Formula E, Porsche Cup?" one of the guys asks "erm Formula 1 actually".

Despite having no knowledge of racing by their faces I can tell they know F1 is the pinnacle of motorsports however they don't treat me any differently the whole night.

We take a photo together and part at around 2 AM going home.

The next morning I wake up to the sound of my phone ringing, I sleepily answer it "hello" I say. "Hey M/N it's Yuki sorry for waking you I was just wondering if you wanted to go on a boat trip today as I'm back in Italy" I think for a moment and agree to it not wanting to be confined to the walls of my house.

I lay in bed for a while scrolling through instagram when I see a post with the photo from last night captioned "When in Italy 🇮🇹- going to a nightclub with an F1 World Champion. @M/N_L/N is a great person to go out with"

Eventually I gather the energy to go and get ready. It's quite a warm day as its approaching Autumn but it's not too hot. I'm as usual running a little late but I manage to get there just in time.

Boarding the boat I'm greeted by Yuki, Zhou, Lance and George who are patiently waiting for me, "This is one thing I won't miss about you" George elaborates.

As the journey gets underway we are sat on the bow of the boat overlooking the horizon when Yuki begins to interrogate me. I would be pissed off if this was anyone else but after years of friendship I've learned to just accept it.

"So you and Charles eh" he says "what are you on about?" I say in such an unconvincing tone.

"Well he came here to help you set up and all that and next thing he's back in Monaco with his family and you are going out at night and mixing with tourists"

"He found the box" I declare, the only thing he can come out with is "oh".

"I think it's over", "how many times have you two broken up now? Twice? You will get back together"

"I think it's over for good, maybe I'm just no meant for relationships and plus he was wasn't my type way out of my league"

"What is your type?"

"Short, cute, has anger issues, good cook, great sense of humour"

I turn my gaze towards him.

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I actually had no idea how I wanted to end this 😭 Anyways, hope you guys would like this piece of angst I've made!! ✌︎('ω')✌︎

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A bad quali day for Logan Sargeant. Again. It seems as if his luck had ran out after he had gotten his p10 start in the Netherlands.

Logan barges into the Williams garage and he throws his gloves on the floor. Benny immediately rushes after him, anchoring down his shoulders.

"Logan, the fuck's wrong with you?!" Benny exclaims with his brows furrowed.

"I'll tell you what's wrong - The world is full of evil people who do shitty things. But I can't deal with that right now because I have to go drive a machine around a track for 3 hours straight." Logan complains as he takes off his helmet and his balaclava.

"What I saw were the same people that love me for! That is until I fuck up or I crash out on the track or I just have to fight back a-and you're just gonna ship me back wherever I fucking came from!-" Logan's voice starts to crack and his eyes began to tear up.

"Logan!" Alex's voice boomed from the entrance of the garage. Logan's breathing had gotten heavier, his throat began to hurt. The two of them maintained eye-contact for a while without saying a word. Alex's expression softened at the sight of how vulnerable the other had looked.

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The american had spun out the track, leaving him stuck into the barriers. And the Vegas fans weren't all that happy at him. Some of those 'fans' were throwing their empty cups and food baskets at his cockpit while he was struggling to get out.

"You're a waste of space! Leave F1 already! Give Lawson that seat!" They shouted at him from the grandstands.

"FUCK!!"

Logan shouted in his helmet. It was a loud, unpleasant yell that quietened down the track. Even the commentators had to pause. It was described to be similar as how Ricciardo had shouted during Japan 2018.

He walked back to the garages, his head hung down all the way. His breathing was uneven, his heart was still racing from the collision. His ears were ringing and his vision was fuzzy. He couldn't think straight. The audience in the stands were shouting at him - positive or not - but it all sounded like white noise to the american.

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Logan finally gave in. He crumbled and ran towards the thai, falling into his arms. He cried and cried like there was no tomorrow. All those months of bottling up finally released at that moment.

"I-I just can't anymore. I keep messing up. Why do you guys even try for me anymore?" Logan's voice is muffled as he spoke into Alex's shoulder. His eyes were red and puffy as he pulled back to meet with Alex's eyes.

The garage was in pin drop silence.

"Logan, you've got people that support-" Benny chips in, taking a step closer to the two Williams drivers.

"I hear people all the time! Talking 'bout 'hang in there!' or 'don't quit!'" Logan bursts.

"They haven't been in my shoes. They always say they have, but they don't know what I'm going through. What I will ask you is - Can you give me one more day?" The american's voice was wavering and his lips were quivering.

Alex gave Benny a hand gesture for him and Logan to be alone for a bit. The thai slung his arm over Logan's shoulder and led him out of the garages and headed back to their hospitality.

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"Logan, you know you can tell me anything that's on your mind, yeah? It's only the two of us now, so take as much time as you need." Alex spoke, taking a seat on the couch opposite of Logan.

Logan sat down on the couch with his elbows on his knees. His hands were folded together as he hung his head low.

Taking a deep breath, Logan spoke up. "It's just... everything. The pressure of next year, trying to prove myself at Williams. I have one shot at it."

Logan ran his fingers through his hair as he leaned back against the couch. "And just now, I made another mistake in quali. It's just eating me up inside."

His eyes began welling up again as he continued. Logan turned to Alex with pleading eyes. "I don't know what I'll do if I lose this seat. Racing is all I have."

A single tear rolled down his cheek as his voice began cracking. "I'm scared, Alex. I'm really fucking scared that I won't be good enough."

"Hey-hey-hey, Logan. Look at me. Breathe." Alex spoke gently as he went to kneel in front of the american, holding him lightly by his wrists.

Alex saw his lips quivering, hands shaking ever so slightly. Logan took a few breaths as Alex instructed, trying to hold back the tears welling up in his eyes. The way the thai looked at him with such care and comfort was enough to make the dams break.

He pulled Alex into a tight hug and broke down into his shoulder, sobbing uncontrollably. All the stress and pressure he had been bottling up for months came pouring out.

"I'm sorry," Logan hiccuped between tears. "I just don't want it all to be over." He clung onto Alex like a lifeline. For the first time in months, Logan let himself be truly vulnerable. All the fear and doubt he had been hiding was laid bare in the thai's arms.

"Don't be. Don't be sorry." Alex muttered out softly.

"What exactly has kept you to hold these feelings up for so long?" He spoke as Logan continued to hold his body close to Alex's. His voice was quiet, no louder than a whisper.

It took Logan a few moments to compose himself enough to speak. He kept his face buried in Alex's shoulder, taking in the comfort and safety he found there.

"I didn't want to be seen as weak," Logan finally admitted, his voice still shaky. "In a sport like this, showing any signs of weakness can ruin your reputation."

He took a deep breath, trying to calm the trembling in his body. "And I was afraid that if the team sees me struggling, they'd replace me in a heartbeat. I had to keep pretending I was fine."

A sad smile formed on his wet lips.

"Pretty stupid, huh? Look where trying to do it alone has got me."

Alex swallowed, his heart felt like it had shattered upon hearing his words. He held onto Logan's fingers, gently massaging them.

"Logan, look at me. Listen to me." The thai spoke.

Logan felt soft lips touch his forehead.

"I'm proud of you."

Logan's breath hitched in his throat at Alex's kind words. His forehead tingled where soft lips had pressed against it in a comforting kiss.

That simple show of affection and pride meant more to Logan than he could express. Fresh tears sprung to his eyes as he looked to Alex, bottom lip trembling. No one had ever said that to him before.

"You... you are?" Logan asked in a small voice, as if not quite believing it was real. All the years of building walls and pretending to be strong were crumbling down in Alex's embrace.

He gripped Alex's fingers tightly, anchoring himself to the other man. In that moment, Logan wanted nothing more than to believe that Alex meant what he said. Alex gripped his fingers back, massaging it in circles with his thumbs.

Logan sighed shakily, eyes closing as he focused on the comforting feeling of Alex rubbing his hands. His whole body felt wrung out like a damp rag after finally letting everything pour out.

"I'm proud that you've fought for so long. I'm proud that you're here with me right now. I'm proud of you." Alex softly spoke, a small smile on his face.

"Thank you," Logan whispered, opening his red-rimmed eyes to look at the thai again. "It means everything to hear you say that. I'm... I'm just glad I've got you to lean on."

He glanced down at where their fingers were intertwined, taking strength from Alex's warm and solid presence. For the first time all season, Logan felt like a massive weight had been lifted from his shoulders.

Lightness filled his body instead of dread. Logan knew as long as he had Alex in his corner, he wouldn't have to face anything alone ever again. A small smile found its way back to his lips.

"See? Feels better, doesn't it?" Alex said, chuckling a bit. He swiped his thumb to wipe the tears off the american's cheeks.

"Yeah," Logan breathed out a watery chuckle in response. "I feel like I can breathe again."

He leaned into Alex's gentle touch, eyes fluttering closed as thumbs swept away the saltwater tracks staining his skin. Logan couldn't remember the last time he'd felt so comforted and at peace.

Opening his eyes, Logan gazed at Alex with a mixture of gratitude and affection. "Don't know what I'd do without you, mate. You're my rock."

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