#josh left for d&d an hour-ish ago

[mieczyhale]

OKAY

PLANS / TO-DO LIST

1. Hang up more laundry, set aside the stuff Josh needs to fold

2. Work on sorting the new jewelry section now that I have acquired more push pins

3. Send my timesheet to Carol & Karen bc the one on the church computer has not been updated and I would like to get paid

4. Check the discords did this earlier but this is gonna be an ongoing thing so.. putting it here was kinda silly huh??

5. Continue my links & articles journey (i know!! i'm way tf behind!!! i've barely been at an actual computer in days so it's been impossible :/ ) Started making progress but Josh is snoring and I forgot to grab my fucking headphones, which means I can't take in shit. Will continue this tomorrow (actually today now, it's 12:10 AM) when I don't have an inconsistent lawnmower next to me. I love him but jesus fucking christ Made more progress, hoping to make even more tonight (as long as josh doesn't snore again)

6. Throw down the mountain of dirty laundry

7. Clean up any trash

8. Re-glue the shorter perch of the cat tower so it STOPS FUCKING WIGGLING

9. Finally post that stupid / silly stucky "comic" I did based on a tumblr post bc its been done for weeks at this point, I just keep forgetting

10. Nair the legs bc while shaving isn't necessary (I rarely care and Josh doesn't give a fuck) I feel like having some smooth goddamn legs I can rub together comfy cricket style, but actual shaving comes with The Horrors. so.

hmm... i think that might be it. but like quite possibly not so.. might update later with more Tasks

[uchukiyoo]

“I have something to tell you”

-Prompt : You have a secret to tell to Seungcheol, your boyfriend, that would change your lives.

- Pregnancy au ?  idk lmao

-Pairing : Reader X Seungcheol (S.Coups) - Seventeen

-Genre : Fluff ? 

-Word cound : 850-ish

“Have you told him yet?” Joshua asked  as he looked at your belly

“No…” you replied, letting out a big sigh

“What?? Are you kidding? Girl…you have to tell him!”

“I know! I wanted to but…”

You pulled your phone out of your pocket

“Look…Yesterday, I was about to call him to tell him but look at what he sent me. This video is just him having fun with his friends, it’s been so long since he visited his hometown, Josh. I don’t want to ruin this moment.”

“How could you ruin his holiday by telling him he is going to be a father Y/N?” your friends asked, gently patting your hand

“Because…he doesn’t want to.”

Joshua could now understand why you were so scared of telling Seungcheol you were pregnant. You two had been dating for about 3 years now but you never really talked about having kids even though, Seungcheol had mentioned before that he didn’t feel ready at all to be a father.

All of this happened by accident. You had discovered your pregnancy a few days before he left for Daegu, to meet with his family and childhood friends.

“He doesn’t want to have kids or at least for now. And neither do I…I don’t know how it happened but-” You continued

“-It did happen and now you have to tell him Y/N. Even if you don’t want to keep it, he deserves to know and who knows, maybe he’ll change his mind.”

“I don’t know…but I’ll call him tonight, I swear…”

“Do you want me to stay with you?”

“It’s okay…I’ll call you if I need a shoulder to cry.” You joked

“Alright, I’ll get going then, bye girl, and call me if you need anything okay? Take care”

“Yes…bye Josh, see you tomorrow.”

He grabbed his jacket and placed a kiss on your forehead before leaving your apartment.

You unlocked your phone, took a deep breath and tapped on your boyfriend’s name on yourcontact list.

Unexpectedly enough, he didn’t respond so you left a voicemail.

“Hey cheol-ah…I hope everything is fine and that you have a great time with the boys, I called you because I wanted to tell you something but…I’ll call you back a little later…bye, love you”

Not even five minutes after you hung up, you felt her phone buzz against your thigh. It was Seungcheol

“Hey babe, I was taking a shower sorry…you wanted to talk?” He said with a cheerful tone.

“Yeah…I need to tell you something…” You started

“What is it? You miss me too much that’s it huh?”

“Seungcheol I’m serious…but I can’t tell you on the phone…I’m coming to Daegu.”

“What? Right now? Are you sure?”

He sounded genuinely concerned

“Yeah…It’s too important. I’ll be here in a few hours.”

 And without thinking twice, you took your purse and jumped in her car, on your way to the train station.

About 2 hours and a half later, you arrived in Daegu and typed Seungcheol’s address in the navigation app of your phone but as you tapped the blue icon, you noticed that you had received a text from Seungcheol.

“Y/N-ah, be careful ! I could feel that you were stressed out so please be safe, text me when you arrive”.

You decided to call him.

“Hey…I’m in Daegu, I just arrived, I’ll come to your place.”

“Where are you exactly right now?”

“I’m outside Dongdaegu station-“

“Okay I’m on my way, wait inside the station it’s getting cold outside, I’ll be quick! See you in a bit”

As you felt a little tired, you sat down on a bench.

Gosh my back hurts…you though as you put your bag next to you.

Seungcheol arrived a few minutes later and put his jacket on your shoulders before kissing you.

“I missed you babe…but right now, I’m quite worried about you, what’s up?”

“I know…I’m so sorry. I just couldn’t tell that on the phone. I needed to see you.” You started

“What is it? You’re scaring me!” He replied, grabbing your hand

“I... I’m pregnant Seungcheol…” You announced, feeling tears roll down your cheeks.

“What? You mean “pregnant” as in… “pregnant”? Like baby pregnant?” He looked so chocked

You nodded, unable to speak

“Wow…I- I wasn’t expecting that…”

You cried even louder, as you felt like you were ruining his life

“Hey… babe…why are you crying? Do you not want it?” He softly asked, lifting your chin up.

“D-Do you?”

“Of course! You know…I always say that I don’t want kids but you know, it was because I thought you would be against it. And…to be honest, I’m getting old so…and I wanna spend the rest of my life with you…”

“So we’re having this baby?” You asked, looking him in the eyes

“I mean only if you’re ready…”

“Then I guess we’re going to be parents” you simply said, laughing through the tears

“Oh my fucking god I’m gonna be a dad! Wait…I am going to have a kid! God I love you so fucking much Y/N” He exclaimed suddenly, pulling you into his warm embrace.

“I love you too Choi Seungcheol

Today i give you some cute stuff XD This is a lil something i wrote a few months ago, it’s clearly not the best but i’m currently working on something bigger and better ! Hope you’ll like this lil OS tho ! Have a nice day !

(english isn’t my first language, sorry if there are mistakes :/ )

-Sun  ☼

[smallblueandloud]

TV Show Meme

pick 5 shows, then answer the following questions. don’t cheat. tag 10 (or however many) peeps.

i was tagged by @everythinghappens-love just now and @asthewheelwills several weeks ago (i’m very sorry, it’s been... busy).

(also, i was going to do emmys edition, but i’ve seen at least one full episode of a grand total of... two emmy-nominated shows, so uh. not gonna happen, lol.)

1. Doctor Who

2. Agents of SHIELD

3. The West Wing

4. Frasier

5. The Good Place

1. Who is your favorite character in 2?

oof. i mean, i’ll pretend this is a hard question, but daisy. hands down. i mean, not only is she gorgeous, she’s really unconventionally smart, super powerful, and full of longing to have a family.

(also, she’s ridiculously easy to write)

2. Who is your least favorite character in 1?

um. i mean, if we’re talking about davies!who, i don’t really... have a least favorite character? i love them all a lot, and they’re all super nuanced and it’s just... really wonderful

if we’re talking all of nuwho, either missy or river song. nothing against them personally, their writing was just. really horrible.

3. What is your favorite episode of 4?

the inkeepers. it’s hands down the funniest episode in the whole show.

i hunted for a gif of any moment and couldn’t find one, so i’ll leave you with a quote:

Frasier: All right, stop it! Get a grip. You're not being asked to do anything that none of us hasn't done before in our own kitchens in our own homes! Now quick, Niles, kill five eels!

Niles: Wait, wait! What?

Frasier: I'm serious! Every restaurant critic in Seattle is out there and they all want anguille, so start killing eels!

Niles: Wait, wait. How do you suggest I do that?

Frasier: How do I know? You're the chef. Throw a toaster in the damn tank for all I care!

[a few minutes later]

Frasier: Not to worry, Gil, the eels are on their way.

Gil: Our mouths are watering, Frasier.

Frasier: Our chef is in the process of...  

The lights flicker, a humming sound is heard from the kitchen.

Frasier: ...frying them now.

4. What is your favorite season of 5?

probably season 2. i don’t know why, but the idea of the six of them being a team in the afterlife when there’s no one else to help them is... i don’t know. i really like it, can’t tell you why lol. (oh, and the montage of the different attempts is my favorite scene in any tv show, ever.)

5. Who is your favorite couple in 3?

josh/donna, obviously :D

6. Who is your favorite couple in 2?

i’m gonna cheat and put my favorite ship from aos, which is, as all of y’all know, fitzskimmons.

i have nothing to say except that i love my babies

7. What’s your favorite episode of 1?

turn left! definitely, for sure, always and forever.

god, it’s like someone wrote, combined, and filmed the dhr and donna fics of my dreams.

8. What is your favorite episode of 5?

it’s a tie between 2x10 (best self) and 3x07 (the worst possible use of free will). i turn on the former whenever i’m feeling down/bored/sick, and the latter... look, i’m cheleanor trash, okay? moving on.

(no gifs because i’m starting to feel guilty for the length of this post)

9. What is your favorite season of 2?

s3, because it has the most clips of normal team life (from what i remember, haven’t gotten there in the rewatch i’m doing for the fsk rewrite yet lol). also, the storylines were interesting and they actually put time into developing the friendships, which i’m missing a lot these days.

10. How long have you watched 1?

HA. huh. uh. four-ish years, i think? yeah. it was around the time that i discovered queen, and i would play bohemian rhapsody on repeat as i read fanfic (which means that now, sometimes, i hear a certain queen song and am hit with a very strong, very specific urge to read 10rose fic for the next 72 hours.)

11. How did you become interested in 3?

my mom made me watch it at first, and i was hooked by the first episode. it’s just... so smart, and so fast, and i love it very much.

12. Who is your favorite actor in 4?

is this even a question? david hyde pierce. obviously.

13. Which you prefer, 1, 2 or 5?

wow, you really just... went for my three favorite shows, huh? i guess as a measure of overall quality, the good place. for characters, agents of shield. and for plot, definitely doctor who.

14. Which show have you seen more episodes, 1 or 3?

doctor who! although-

as it turns out, i have watched 100 doctor who episodes, exactly. (go me!) on the other hand, i’ve watched 68 episodes of the west wing. so that answer’ll change pretty soon, lol.

15. If you could be anyone from 4, who would you be?

frasier? frasier? you want me to become someone from frasier?? uh... okay, uh...

niles, i guess? just because his apartment is... truly magnificent, lol. also he gets to marry daphne

16. Would a crossover between 3 and 4 work?

surprisingly, yes? i think this is the best combination on the list, actually. frasier knows... uh... i don’t know, sam? he went to school in *googles frantically* new jersey, so that could work?

honestly, i have no idea, but i need toby ‘i am a know-it-all’ zeigler and frasier ‘i am a pompous ass’ crane to be in a room together. it would be hilarious.

17. Pair two characters in 1 who would make unlikely but strangely okay couple.

clara/yaz. i will not be taking questions at this time.

18. Overall, which show has the best storyline, 3 or 5?

oh, oh man. you had to choose the two shows with the most cohesive storylines?

sorry, tww, but i’m gonna have to give it to the good place. the storyline and pacing are *chef’s kiss* divine.

19. Which has a better theme music, 2 or 4?

uh? i don’t even think that’s a choice, since frasier barely has any theme music and anyway, i hate letting frasier crane win at anything (lol). agents of shield!

i’m tagging @paperairplanesopenwindows, @aethersea, @florchis, @skyler10fic, @cassiesinsanity, and *flounders* @nereb-and-dungalef, just based on who i’ve been talking to recently. feel free to ignore this, or, conversely, if i didn’t tag you, feel free to pretend i did!

[johnradams]

Comet is the only thing I care about if it doesn't win I'm gonna cry

Like. I can't even explain it I'm too invested in this show. I'm going to infodump about it because I'm so sad that DEH might beat it out for the tony and it doesn't even deserve to. -While you are walking in it gives you a Cold War / modern Russia vibe. The walls of the imperial are covered in posters and I remember reading the word pussy a lot which made me happy. - The guy at the merch stand was so sweet! No one else was there yet so I just was like " are you open?" And he helped me pick a shirt ( the red shirt with the family tree/ prologue lyrics was his favorite and I bought it bc I love it too.) - All the ushers were so nice! I was wearing a shirt that said " so broke can't pay attention" and a lot of them read it and told me it was funny. - the usher for my actual seat talked to me about DEH and I told her I loved it but it annoyed me when everyone kept saying ' oh yeah it has 9 tony noms' and I was like " well... comet has 12!" And she laughed and we Bonded™ - did I mention I was alone for like the first hour I was in the theatre because I ran in at 7 without my mom and sister. They wanted to eat their food and I was like "NO COMET" - I was hungry because I'd skipped dinner?? The comet gods threw food at me. - The girl who talked to our section was the best. Also I was the only person who read war and peace in my section which made me feel Important™ - Natasha's "NO!" When Andrey tells her he's going off to war and prologue starts - the door!!! - o Sonya - private and intimate life gave me chills. Gelsey Bell gives me chills. She was so genuinely scared and I just wanted to run down there and hug her and tell her it would all be okay. - an old woman was chose for bolkonsky's lover and she was so happy it was so sweet - "I KNOW THEYLL LIKE ME!" *pause* "EVERYONE HAS ALWAYS LIKED ME!" - getting stools into those tables took a little while but it was the best thing I ever saw. - no one else was so powerful. It's one of my favorite songs that I've like, ever heard, and Denee rocked it. Honestly the little things I noticed from her I applied to my singing it ( it's a song I'm working on in vocal) and it helped so much. God bless Denee Benton. - The opera was AWESOME. Gelsey again as opera singer made me die. Her voice is so strong and good and perfect. - stop touching dolokhov stop touching dolokhob Helene stop stop stop - the whole " where is dear Pierre" thing with Marya gently reminding Helene that she IS married to Pierre made me smile - WHEN THE RIP TBE BLOOD OFF ANDREY I CRY - Anatole get back behind that door you little shit - you are not allowed to walk down stairs like that Anatole stop -Helene please stop looking at your brother like that he's your brother stop - Natasha stop looking at him - Anatole stop looking at her - stop whispering in french Anatole you smooth fuck - GIVE HER HER FLOWER BACK ANATOLE PUT IT BACK PUT IT BACK PUT IT BAAAAAAAAACK. - you will NOT go to that ball Natasha u sit down and pick up a coloring book or something you literal child -when Pierre says " oh dear Andrey's betrothed." Anatole shakes his hand and goes " ehhh " like he's saying not for long - the entire scene before the duel hurts so much Pierre doesn't understand except he does - *shot comes from Fedyas gun* Pierre, with his arms out ready to die stays still for a few beats before doubling checking to make sure that he has indeed survived - HELENE LOOKS SO PISSED AT HIM. - dust and ashes is my anthem I have never related to anything so hard. Protect Pierre. Get him medical help. I want to see him loved. -DENEE BENTON STRIPPING-ISH ON STAGE TO JUST A CORSET AND UNDERWEAR ( I'm sure she has a Leo under it)?? MY GAY LITTLE HEART DID NOT SURVIVE. - Helene takes the necklace Andrey put around Natasha's neck when he left. Nat looks distressed until it is replaced by pearls and she gets distracted by the shiny. - the ball is so painful please Anatole no more - when Anatole and Natasha stand together In front of 9 flood lights then the door closes? I die - the door closing makes it final and I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it - Natasha's costume change is great you can see how teeny Denee is - Natasha gushing about how much she loves Anatole to the crowd makes me cry - Pierre you gentle giant plz stop drinking -that's right Sonya. Roast her. - Natasha no longer says " he's my master and I am his slave." In the genius annotations of the off broadway cast Dave says that the line might change because he knows how it looks to have an African American woman sing that about a white man. He said it was up to Denee to decide what she was comfortable with, and in the show it wasn't there. ( I'm glad Denee stopped saying something she wasn't okay with) -oh Sonya nothing is your fault you little gerbil please calm down and realize you aren't responsible for Natasha -THE PLAN FOR NATALIE ROSTOVAS ABDUCTION HAD ALL BEEN- - balaga is such a fun song. I didn't get egg shakers but everyone who did seemed to have a good time! - during the abduction when Anatole says not yet and pauses, Lucas draws it out a ton. One of the people next to me tried shaking her egg to get it started up again and he just looked at us and said " no." -Natasha is so excited to go with him I hate it. Also the violin is amazing as it always is in that show. - yOU WILL NOT WNTER MYYY HOUSE S C O UN D R E L. - Denee runs up to what looks like a sink (?) and you can see her miming taking arsenic. -Pierres reality check kills me. He's been telling himself he's worthless nothing matters and he probably hasn't gone outside in a long time, and then someone's asking for him for his friend. -what?? whAt? WHAT??? - Anatole sobbing in Helene's lap is good and terrible at the same time. She strokes his hair, and it makes me die. - DRAG HIM PIERRE. THREATEN THE BAD MAN. - when Anatole leaves Pierre and him throw his bag around for a bit. - Natasha very ill is so sad I cried then -in Andrey and Pierre, Andrey is so tired. He's holding the letters with anger, like he doesn't want to touch them anymore. It makes me upset because only about 25 songs ago he clutched them to his heart. - when Andrey says ' never speak of that' he holds Pierre up on his tip toes by his shirt. On " again" he punches Pierre in the chest and runs down to his fathers throne. He sits there and the tension never leaves him as he grips the arms of the chair. Mary tries to fret over him, but he waves her away. - Natasha and Pierre is the saddest song too. Natasha is so small in her room plain, baggy white nightgown and no shoes. The emotions in that song are so high. Natasha climbs up the stairs as Pierre starts the " if I were not myself" part of the song, and hesitates with each kind thing he says. - Pierre stops after "I" and I think he only continues because he sees that Natasha has heard him and that she tenses at the word. - "UNABLE TO FIND THE SLEEVES." - the comet is a good prop I love the comet #gayiconthecomet - the stage door was so amazing. All the actors were the sweetest. I'm super terrible at names so I apologize if I just call someone their character name. -Paul Pinto came out and instead of saying " I loved your performance and my friends did as well" I said " my friends love you and told me to say hi" he looked a little hurt and said "oh, well tell your friends I said hi, I guess." I have hurt the best man on this planet and I can never make it up - I told the guy who plays dolokhov that he was amazing and I cried very hard and he said " oh well that's what we always want, isn't it?" - PEARL ( an ensemble member) SIGNS IN PURPLE. I ASKED HER WHY SHE SAID IT WAS BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO BE DIFFERENT SO I WOULD REMEMBER HER. - josh came out even though he had somewhere to be. He went to the end of the line and worked his way up. - josh has the kindest eyes, he could stab me and I would apologize for getting blood on his knife. He also has a baby face and a beanie. I love him. There's more, like a lot about the set so if you want to hear me infodump about comet please let me know kids

[goodnight-stabs]

Biscuit

(Meant to post Friday, April 5, 2019)

A week ago today, we were at the hospital. I was in labor. Hard to believe it’s been a week already.

Last Thursday, they told us they wanted to induce. She wasn’t growing anymore inside. At that point I was still expecting to go into labor natural, spontaneously. Inducing labor felt to me like I was taking some degree of agency away from her.

But the doctors were pretty insistent. Of course, this was the week my regular OB was away in NOLA. But I think that bothered James more than it bothered me. There would still be a qualified doctor delivering the baby, so why fret.

They told us to report to the hospitalfriday morning 7am. They told us to get some rest tomorrow. Induction could take 36 hours. They told us to go out for a big meal. I wouldn’t be allowed to eat once I was admitted.

I remembered that dream I had a few weeks ago, that I woke up from crying. I had dreamt that I was hungry during labor. Starving. So hungry I could barely focus on the baby. That made me cry. The idea of that extent of deprivation freaks me out. I wanted t be present in that moment, but all I could think about in the dream was pizza. And it made me cry.

That night we went to Donovan’s. We both had the shepherds pie. And dessert. I took half of my pie home and had it for breakfast Friday morning. 6am. And a donut. And my last decaf iced coffee for a long while.

Then we drove to the hospital. Not screaming in pain, not frantically forgetting the route. We just followed the GPS, like normal.

The L&D Admitting clerk was a Rockstar fan. Nice guy.

There was still plenty of waiting once we got to the room. I ate the other donut. And we waited. It was a warm-ish day, and overcast.

The nurse who administered the cervidil was rough. James found a Friends marathon on TV. They had me on an IV and I had to pee every 30-40 minutes. I timed it by the episodes.

By around 11am I started to get a stomach ache. It wasn’t until one of the nurses asked that I realized those were contractions. I thought maybe the second donut wasn’t sitting right. Novice.

The pain was getting more intense, or more frequent, or more persistent. Why could tell. Around 4pm the nice nurse (they were mostly all nice, actually) came to check on me. At that moment, I was gripping the hospital bed rail and trying to take cleansing breaths” through clenched teeth and whimpering.

She offered me the epidural.

I had been trying to hold out as long as I could before taking it. No particular reason. I wasn’t one of those moms-to-be who wanted a drug-free, hypno-baby, aroma therapy, mindful visualization deliveries. I definitely wanted the fucking drugs. But t I wanted to know how far I’d made it first.

4cm.

Not bad, in my opinion. My friend’s wife made it to 7 with hypno-baby.

Now I’m glad I asked for the epidural when I did, because it was still another 40 minutes before it came, and the contractions were getting worse. Or maybe I was just getting worn down.

But once that epidural kicked in, holy shit what a difference. Modern fucking medicine for the win.

6pm.

James had gone out to get something to eat, when the doctor came in to check on me. He told me to pick a number between 1 and 10. 7? No, a better number.

Turns out I was at 10cm. It was time to start pushing.

But I had to get James back first. And then the nurses’ shift change.

So we’ll just hang back for now.

I called James.

(The following is a dramatization)

“Hey, can you come back?”

“Yeah is everything ok?”

“Yeah, it’s just time to have the baby now.”

*James hurries to pay his check, leaves most of a freshly poured Guinness on the bar, and the local crowd cheer him and wish him luck*

They said I pushed for about 45 minutes. Not continuously. So it wasn’t too bad. Until the very end - the doctor hadn’t come back yet, and the baby was almost out. They told me to wait. Not to push anymore. With a baby almost out of me. Just hang out like that for a minute.

Because of the epidural I couldn tell along the way how it was going. Except by what James and the nurse were telling me.

Nurse: “Oh wow, that’s a lot of hair!”

Me: “Wait, really?!?”

James: “Yeah” 😄

(How was I supposed to know? Not like I could see anything down there!)

Most of the rest of the process was kind of chaos (from my view), excess noise I was filtering out. All that mattered to me was getting to that final push, and meeting my little girl.

Suddenly everyone was yelling to push, keep pushing, don’t stop you’re doing great!

And she arrived. 8:13 PM, Friday night.

We were both disoriented, and somewhat covered in fluids and goo. Finally meeting face to face, but we’ve already known each other for so long.

The doctors and nurses swirled around us, doing whatever they were doing. We didn’t care, we just held onto each other. I’m Mom now.

She latched on and fed almost right away. As if she knew what to do better than I did.

The nurse who led a bunch of our baby classes stopped by to say Hi. Doreen. I didn’t get a chance to talk to her, another nurse was talking to me about something else. Something more urgent, baby testing or shots or something. But that was really nice of Doreen to stop in.

They tried to feed me. Someone brought pound cake, cookies, pretzels, packaged snacks from the pantry. I wasn’t hungry. I’m Mom now.

Eventually they took us upstairs to our room, where I stayed for the next two whole days. I didn’t leave that room. Where would I need to go? She’s in this room and she needs me. It was the only place I needed to be.

My Mom and Josh came by to visit. They brought a balloon and some cookies. My Mom met her Granddaughter.

They sent us home on Sunday, March 31st. Her due date. Logan was freaked out, because we left him alone for a couple of days, because we brought home this new strange person. He’ll come around, in due time. To his new sister. And I’m Mom.