#jic you were wondering

[dailyscug]

[aro-kai]

Reading this with the Anekdota theory (rescued thrall of angband 👀) of Gil Galad parentage Hits Different omfg

Part 3/? Part 1, Part 2

[kurishiri]

ikevil as family feud moments bc they a dysfunctional family

i dunno how y’all still finding my crown receiving the reward for being the most dysfunctional found family post /lh /nm but i made this too, so i hope you enjoy 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ again this is all made in good fun!

[that-dragon-lady]

Dragonself post!!

This is probably a post I will update often, so bear with me. But consider this a little journal for reference of how I feel my dragon form is.

I don't 'see' myself the way I've heard other dragons say they see their dragon forms. For me, my conclusions are drawn from just... feelings. Things I feel are right, and have felt recurringly and/or for a long time. Some elements of my appearance are things I've felt going back to being a child. Others are things that I've grown into over time.

Basics

- I am a western/welsh style dragon; four legs and two wings, fully covered in scales, arrowhead (or perhaps more spade-shaped?) tail tip

- Magically inclined. Couldn't tell you how exactly, I just feel connected to magic somehow. This feeling has often felt tied to emotion, and I often lean into healing and light-based magics when given the choice (e.g. in ttrpgs)

- My scales are largely silver I believe. I have a pair of recurved horns, and those and my talons I think are a darker grey or purple-grey

- I have feathers! On my head and down my spine, and on my forelegs. Perhaps other places too

- my wings are membranous BUT with rows of feathers on the top half/leading edges

Visuals (with notes)

Probably my closest representation, this is a piece done by a close friend of mine for myself and my partner. Physically this is very much my structure, limb- and body-wise especially. My tail is a little different (arrow/spade-head, maybe shorter?), and my wings too (partially feathered, bigger). I also have ears not pictured here, and more feathers, but regardless, I adore this. The little feathers along my spine here are my favourite.

Made with Monster Brain Soup's dragon builder! I love this one, it feels like a good 'cartoony' version of myself, and has FOOT BEANS! The foreleg feathers are great here, as are the ears! The tail tip I'm not sure on, I don't feel it's quite right, but it's close. Not certain of the colours really but they're definitely in the ballpark.

This is one done through Flight Rising. I feel a lot of similarities with the Skydancer breed. The plant-based diet, empathy magic, enjoyment of flying, and ESPECIALLY the part-feathered part-membranous wings.

Structurally I am much less dainty. Aforementioned horns, arrowhead tail, ears all apply. The fur here is feathers on me, and I lack antennae. My scales are pointed not rounded, and my belly is scales, not fur. My wing fingers don't narrow like this either; my wing membrane remains wide finger to finger. I'm not 100% on the belly colour, but I'm sure there's blue in there somewhere.

The beaky snout is a good shape, but not wide enough. Again, too dainty. I'm comfy with (if not fully sure of) the side horns. And although I said no antennae, I DO feel I have the forehead gem. A pearl in my case. This is one of the things I've felt the longest, so much so that I can't recall when I first pictured it.

One thing I ADORE here in addition to the feathers is the colouration. The silver and purple. The purple feathers are something I have felt I've had since my teen years, and the constellation patterns and stars... it's hard to explain. But they feel like they belong there, on the undersides of my wings. So that is special. The darker swirly patterns under the stars, not so much. I don't have those. But the stars and constellation markings, yes.

This one mostly has a few elements I feel, rather than the whole picture. The ears and eye ridge are very close to accurate, and the shape of the belly scales are pretty perfect! The purple-tipped scales I'm uncertain on; I think they're something I just like aesthetically in this case. I also like the snout shape of this one quite a lot.

This is another I absolutely adore, big thanks to @melissa-titanium from the dragonkin group for this one! Saphira from Eragon has long been a dragon I've felt represented by; her head shape and feathers always felt very 'me,' so that formed the basis for this sketch of my dragonself. And my ears are here!! Lots of love for this one 💜

[defness]

→ drawing the same pose over and over again and feels cringe

→ realizes that these drawings are simply pre-ref drawings to figure out one's design so I can Draw Them

→ no longer feels cringe

[kosmicvoid]

had gods worst autism breakdown bc i couldnt find my cinnamon toothpaste and i almost started crying in the middle of the walmart oral hygiene aisle

[sunflowers-and-sweetviolets]

if the material world causes suffering, why f/o, answer me that guruji

[fairywinds]

i have to prepare something about phone addiction for school and i was wondering

[arthenaa]

Hey bro I like your writing and I was wondering if you could give us some Mizu x Filipino!Reader hcs🥺👉👈 ̶(̶t̶o̶t̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶g̶o̶n̶n̶a̶ ̶u̶s̶e̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶p̶r̶o̶j̶e̶c̶t̶ ̶m̶y̶s̶e̶l̶f̶)̶

I have to make this poetic I'm so sorry but also making it modern!au and canon setting teehee (ALSO DOUBLE UPDATE?) slight nsfw ig!! mdni.

canon divergent, just think of this is as that scene from Goyo where Remedios and Gregorio Pilar do a wholeass pining scene idk

Absolutely met you at some fancy ass noble party

You're a child of a wealthy Senor who's in great partnership with the Lords from the Commonwealth

Mizu's camping in and disguising herself in the party to find more intel on her next target and then she bumps into you

at first you're like very inquisitive of where she came from (considering that you view her as a man at this point), how she enjoys the party and what not

then you're suddenly like ik what you're doing. you're not from here.

Mizu's thrown off bc haha this is an international gathering of sorts and like ppl here are mostly foreign

you're like well its bc you're so obvious when it comes to occasions like this that I've already spotted you from a while back

and so youre like dancing and all and Mizu has no choice but to extract info from you

she reveals that shes looking for a white man, and that he may have connections here in the ph

and coincidence cuz you, who's also a part of the resistance, have been tracing the weapons provider of the spanish army.

so you guys work together. you give her intel, she helps you hunt down the provider and their little goons

it kind of starts like an enemies to lovers .... kind of a forced situation where Mizu has to deal with the resistance in order to get to what she wants but rlly theres no other way around

falls in love w your love for your country

despite your privileged upbringing, you're deeply interconnected with your roots, and have been fighting for the filipino people

you guys fight over the simplest of things, like how she doesnt wear things right or holds weapons correctly

you definitely bond over weaponry though and its history. the first time you've seen her katana, you were so amazed. in return, you showed her a kampilan—a sword carved and forged by your grandfather. she had so many questions.

yeahh overall i think what pulled you together was your shared anger and desperation for justice. No matter the situation, whether it be a resistance against oppression or looking for the man that caused a hellscape within your life, y'all resonated with the emotions and trauma that came with that.

BEST BELIEVE THE SEX WAS GOOD and rough and yes hbejawhejehe mhm

anys thats all. you're like PARA SA PILIPINAS and shes on her knees.

modern au hehe

met through int sch program. mizu is a transferee from japan who joined their uni's international program and got linked w ur sch

she was in one of ur classes and like yeah, she was nearest to u so she had no choice but to ask u for sch stuff

YOU THOUGHT SHE WAS PRETTY CUTE but like u wanted a good impression so u tried to help her as much as u could

even gave her a tour of the campus

showed her a few iconic eating places that she could go to jic her budget was on a limit or wanted good filo food

you wanted to expose her to the culture as slowly as u could just so that she could adapt and pace herself

definitely stuck by your side since then

you learned that she's going to study here for 3 years before going back to japan for her masters, and you're like wow thats so cool and shes like thanks

definitely a gamer

you guys hang out at one of the comp shops nearby (IF NAGAARAL KAYO SA TAFT .... guys suki ako don HAHAHA)

loves learning abt history, esp filipino craftsmanship

you definitely treat her to various street foods

mizu : what's this

you : we call it kwek kwek, but u can call it neon balls

mizu: neon balls????

showed and taught her how public transpo works once, and she gets a hang of it a week later

knows her way around manila than you do (author is projecting mb)

knows basic filo words when navigating. you teach her the slang.

basically friends to lovers guys omg, ayon sana all eme

you do that lips thing where you point w ur lips and at first, she was so confused (this is during your relationship)

she thought you were asking for a kiss and she kissed u and you were like ?!@!?@??$?

mizu: ha

you: I WAS ASKING FOR THE,ASd MUGWTF

mizu: ahhh my bad haha

walks u to class teehee

hangs around in empty class rooms esp comp labs and you guys watch movies there

momol sa dorm, momol sa clasroom na madilim, momol sa may agno charot

MOMOL = MAKE OUT MAKE OUT LANG

revels in simple pda like linking ur pinkies together, thigh against thigh when seating, and just yk so landi. landi niyo.

you have her id pic on the back of ur id and she yours on her clear phonecase

EWWWW GAY PPL (affectionate)

unintentionally matching

loves gifting u jewelry esp necklaces (likes to see it when u guys are in the bedroom, splayed on your chest and just yk decorating your collarbones so nicely)

holds your hand and helps you cross the street omf

pays for ur commute fee when riding the jeepney

memorizes ur kwek kwek and fishball sauce combination

loves exchanging one shoe w u for funsies

loves taking pics w u w the cats on campus

OVERALL A CUTIE TEEHEE!

A/N: DEDICATED KAY DELULU RECEIVER!! eto para sayo sorry ginutom keta ng sobra huhu @ianiralvs may isa pa kong utang sayo na req mo hihi gagawen ko pa yon to muna HHAHHAHA

[pebiejeebies]

Made her “normal” vs monster/bestial comparison!! + height comparison + color palette comparison

(This is an oc for the Objectfied comic au im making! I will explain her role soon..!)

(Adding this just in case you aren’t interested in reading my infodumping below :P I basically got a bit too excited and wrote down a lot of details abt her lol—)

The full sets of her pronouns jic: Xe/Xem/Xer/Xeirs/Xerself — She/Her/Hers/Herself

Aaand.. maybe I’ll sneak in a neopronoun :3c Cub/Cubs/Cubself

Now let’s get onto some character design study! Let’s start with her limbs!

I was going to make her limbs white, which aesthetically didn’t look nice, so instead of white limbs, I thought maybe I make it the colors OF the stripes, with the white slightly showing, and if your wondering how her limbs turn from normal to tiger.. let me demonstrate..!

That’s basically how her limbs change color, her limbs originally have dark stripes with a slightly lighter rest of the skin, depending on how much she turns into a tiger is how much the colors show!

The paws on the normal limbs are different from the tiger ones, I couldn’t make the paws the exact same color as the limbs so I made it lighter (since I didn’t show it in the reference above, I didn’t put it’s color in the palette)

Her tail completely shifts into nothing just like her fur on her neck, I thought it would be cool if I added small stripes along her neck where the fluff comes but I thought it was a little too much, since the limbs were already showing off the cool stripes, yk?

Plus, if you noticed, the more normal version of her is more awkward and shy, to the point she doesn’t even know what pose she should make! But the more she shows off her bestiality, the more confident and proud she is! Since tigers are very strong and confident, I thought it would be cool to make her lose/gain that confidence based on how normal/bestial she is!

Her claws can unsheathe, which is why I demonstrated it in the reference above btw

To disguise her stripes, she said she was just born with this “odd beauty mark pattern” which wasn’t exactly a lie, some people would fall for it, and some got suspicious but didn’t think too much about it

And uhh about my older sonas, (Fuorzy, Bookmark, and Portal) I’ll see which ones I’m gonna stick with since I think I’m losing my hype for Bookmark

And to end everything, she is one of my (favorite) sonas now, as she really shows off everything I have!

I am a white tiger therian, very VERY skinny, I have glasses (my old ones were circle glasses), freckles, I always feel confident and happy when I shift into Xue, aka my theriotype, and in reality I am a very shy and awkward person!1!

Soo.. WOAAH!! HI OBJECTIFED VERSION OF ME!! :D

I thought it would be such a perfect idea to add my theriotype in my sona because I got SO MUCH therian energy off of Dynamite! Which inspired me to make my own oc and lore and au and… yeah you get my point.. <:D (I actually shifted earlier today and yesterday after months of nothing which felt so refreshing, I thought I lost my connection for a while!)

Woah! That was a bit too much hahahahhahahaaaaaaa— uhh I hope this feeds you well! I think I got possessed by a grammar demon or something but wow I didn’t even misspell that much, I may have worded some things wrong but bear with me, it’s a struggle I deal with every day :,)

Ilysm if you are still reading this/p, I’d love any fanart of my ocs so tag me if you draw xer! <3

(Tagging @ch0cocrave, @facelessthefreak and @hollow8007 since y’all rebloged/commented on the first post <3)

[milimeters-morales]

you should think about Miles (any version but i’m talking comics) having trouble sleeping during storms because he’s so energized by the electricity in the air and ground from so many lightning strikes…. i’ve talked about this before but i never went into detail about my specific version of how he’d approach this. more detail under the cut

i think he thinks about it either from Ganke or some random person online saying “hey if spidey has those electric powers does that mean they could call down lighting like Thor” or something similar. At first he brushes it off, but then he starts genuinely considering it. So while he’s excited about possibly using lightning in fights, Ganke points out that his body probably can’t handle it striking him or running through his body (referencing his time being tortured with electric shocks) and would just pass out/die. This hasn’t happened yet, despite it seeming like it could be very common for Miles, so he suggests wearing a rain poncho or something. They argue over whether this would actually prevent him from getting struck by lightning for a few hours before Miles decides to do it to shut the convo down.

After this conversation though, Miles starts to take note of how his body behaves before/during/after storms with lightning, and starts actually noticing that he’s more energized, agitated, and unable to truly sleep/stay asleep due to twitching/jerking/spasming limbs. He’s a bit more reckless too, and has a bit less control over his venom, which is almost or entirely white in color during these moments. He tries to talk to his parents about it, and they (jokingly) suggest he sleep next to a big appliance so it’s constantly sapping his excess energy, but the trauma from the fire that destroyed their last home makes him very worried about the possibility that he’d somehow cause a fire if he were to suddenly let out a burst of electricity while trying to sleep due to lightning striking nearby, and his venom traveling to some electric appliance.

So he got to a point where he’s worried about being more susceptible to lightning strikes that might kill/hurt him and others that are close, fearing another fire in his home if he’s sleeping and lightning strikes too close, and wondering what he’s going to do since he doesn’t think it’s right to wait until a storm is over to resume Spider-Man activity. Because what if people need his help? But what if he’s risking their life? So he wants some time away from home, but doesn’t wanna worry his parents.

Of course all this worrying is natural, esp when it’s a power you are still learning about, and shouldn’t be brushed off, but he feels like he hasn’t really progressed in it. Ganke is saying he should just try and see, and then come to a conclusion to either stay indoors during storms or go out, and his parents don’t have a lot of advice because they’re just normal humans, Shift (afaik) doesn’t have electricity powers? i actually cannot remember a single time Shift showed he inherited that, maybe it just hasn’t shown up yet though. Anyway, Miles is just high-key stressed but follows Ganke’s advice, and has been following that advice (while testing to see what affects his likelihood of getting struck… jic) ever since. At this point, it’s faded into a background anxiety stream.

And about asking Thor, I don’t think Miles sees a point, because Thor is a god for this and can handle it whereas Miles is still a human in the end. That’s sort of like asking a fish how to not panic when you breathe in a little bit of water on accident. So it’s just one of those things you’re worried about a lot but can’t really do much about right now, someone get Miles anxiety medication stat

[idkbutimgabby]

🤍 Good Days ♠️

word count: 1k

trope:

-fem!reader x bestfriend!leeknow

warnings: angst, character death, car crash, drunk driving, cuts (? not sh just a tw jic) grieving, cursing, fluff

Having a best friend is something you can't describe. Having someone you know will always run to you first, someone you would trust with your life and who you know would trust you with theirs. You can't even begin to spew some shit about how much you love him; it would be pointless. Words can't describe it, truly.

The person who stuck with you through the years, through the hardest times of your lives, and the best. The person who sat next to you during your first week of kindergarten because he saw you crying when you got lost on the first day. The person who you've never seen cry, because he doesn't like how it makes him feel.

The person who was there when you were sick, and who stayed up all night while you were asleep doing your missing assignments, because he knew you hated asking for extensions. The person that saw you grow up, and the one you saw grow up. The person who held you as you cried, wiped the tears from your cheeks and rocked you both to sleep.

The person you cheered on as he pursued his dreams of dancing. The person who cheered you on as you got into your dream school, joining a program you've been waiting to join since day one. The person who was driving you to your graduation, excited to walk across that stage and watch you walk across it, finally being able to acknowledge how far you've both come.

The person who was taken from you, when a driver under the influence ran a light and crashed into his side of the car. The same person you cut up your hands to shove all the shattered glass away from.

The person you've cried for countless times before, but this time you couldn't shed a tear. The person who you saw stop moving, whose pulse stopped even after your desperate attempts to save him. The person you slumped over, holding his body and ignoring the sharp shards of glass puncturing your skin and clothes.

The person whose body you held until you felt his spirit drift away. You think about that moment every day.

The person whose parents asked you to speak at his funeral and deliver the final speech, because who else could do it but you? You're not a public speaker. You couldn't possibly remember a speech, and you didn't want to write it out because your hands would have been shaking too much to read the words anyway. Instead, you just wove your speech around one memory that still sticks in your mind, all on the spot. You cried everyday after the accident, but you made it through your speech, driven by the fact that he needed to hear everything you had neglected to tell him while he was still there.

"I remember one time that he asked me the question, "Would you still love me if I was a worm?" It was a joke. I rolled my eyes, probably slapped his arm. But I return to that moment when I grieve for him. And I wish I had told him everything that question brought up in my mind. I think that was one moment I realized how big a part of me he really is. I wish I had told him that I would love him until the worms swallowed up every last bit of him. That when I'm six feet under the ground, with the worms eating my brain, they'll see visions of him; his beautiful face, crooked smile, bunny teeth, and glittery eyes. They'll smell what he smelled like; the vanilla and orchid scent that always calmed me down, and still does. They will hear him call my name, voice of honey, where you were always able to hear his smile. They will experience the greatest of wonders, as they feast on the corner of my brain that houses him. They won't be able to move an inch without bumping into a piece of him. Then, I'll fade away, as will he. And they'll go back to eating, gnawing away in awe at the wonders they experienced, the wonders that were my best friend."

The person who got you, understood you in a way that no one else will. The person who your family accepted as another of their children, who was treated at your house like a prince. The person who snuck through your window at night anyway to hang out, just because he wanted to know what it was like. The person who always did the most for everyone else without making it obvious because he didn't like making a fuss over it.

The person who always bought and wore jewelry and clothes that supported a cause or charity, and encouraged others to do the same. The person who had three cats he loved more than even you. The person who always cooked for you when you mentioned a new food you wanted to try, and who fed you bites just because he wanted to and thought it was cute.

The person you loved the most. The person who loved you the most. The person you'll always miss, who you'll never forget, and who you'll go to hell and back to make sure no one else forgets about him either.

Your beautiful best friend. Simultaneously angelic and feral. The oddest person. The sweetest person. Now unburdened, cutting through the sky and watching over you. Forever your best friend, forever a worm. Forever your worm, actually.

You love him.

i kinda like this one 💞 I'm so sad I don't have the original authors name but I did get some of the speech from a poet on Instagram just letting you all know.

thank you for reading 💕

🎸

[redux-iterum]

Asking off anon jic you don't wanna answer publicly. I spent some time clicking through the name generator so I could find the lore bits you mentioned (bc I am obsessed with world building, I will read anything if there's interesting world building and I really enjoy the world building y'all have going), and it mentioned the one about an incident involving Moth Flight and kittens. Did Moth Flight have kits like she did in canon? Did she do something to them, like Bluedusk did to hers? Or was the matriarch just mad about Moth Flight dropping her kids off one by one with the other clans (assuming she did that like she did in canon)? Because I'm not gonna lie, I didn't love Moth Flight's vision. I was really hoping that, since Moth Flight is the one who made the "medicine cats can't have a mate or kits" rule, she or Micah (her mate, who was also a medicine cat ((also if you read MFV, I'm sorry for rehashing it))) had like, neglected a clanmate who was super sick or super hurt in favor of tending to the other/tending to one of their kits when they weren't as hurt or sick and it resulted in the death of that clanmate... just... something, you know? But instead it's like, Micah died before the kits were born and Moth Flight had a wonderful support system, nothing bad happened to her clanmates as a result of her having kits, the kits were fine, there was no indication at all StarClan was mad about this, literally nothing. She just went "this sucks so no one else should ever do this" and it's like girl you have anxiety please talk to your father and maybe you'll calm down. I feel that way about a lot of the rules in the warrior code, especially post TBC when they changed the "no mates in other clans" thing. Anyway. Yeah. Interested to hear the lore in depth, if you're willing to share. Or if I get a plant fact back, that's chill too.

The incident between Daisy Bloom and Moth Flight didn't pan out like it did in MFV. QH Moth Flight never had a mate or kittens, but not from any notions of celibacy, she just didn't bother. So the kittens in this incident I'm purposefully keeping vague weren't hers.

Also yeah, canon is full of bullhonkey.

[vickyvicarious]

(In order to not derail op's thread, and jic they've not finished reading the books, hope this is ok) The madness/mental illness discussion between Laura and Jonathan made me think about the in-between of Jonathan leaving the hospital and then being validated!

One thing is, pre-Hawkins death, Mina states to Lucy that Jonathan has been working hard, but that he is weak still and placid, and also that he has nightmares. It tells on them both, because Mina cannot get a full night's sleep due to him waking up screaming and she needs to soothe him. Journal aside, Mina says she is so worried about his nerves that she doesn't communicate with him about how tired she is herself. It reminds me of Walter wanting to protect Laura from distress.

Post-Hawkins death, Jonathan gets worse. "He says the amount of responsibility which it puts upon him makes him nervous. He begins to doubt himself. I try to cheer him up, and my belief in him helps him to have a belief in himself. But it is here that the grave shock that he experienced tells upon him the most. Oh, it is too hard that a sweet, simple, noble, strong nature such as his—a nature which enabled him by our dear, good friend’s aid to rise from clerk to master in a few years—should be so injured that the very essence of its strength is gone."

Not a very traditionally ''manful'' picture, but Mina never goes there. Still, he throws himself into work. Mina says her belief in him helps Jonathan believe in himself. Maybe Laura would have benefited from being believed in.

What prompts Walter to do something drastic is when Laura weeps in her sleep. What prompts Mina to break the seal later is when Jonathan faints in public and loses the memory of it.

The way Mina treats Lucy and Jonathan in illness seems equal. She keeps their secrets upon their request too. Walter and Mina take similar active roles for their spouses, though Mina isn't necessarily masculine for it.

An interesting imho comparison could also be when Mina chooses to consult Van Helsing while Jonathan is away for his first work trip and how they communicate throughout it, and Walter with the sisters.

Aside, when she asks Van Helsing to help Jonathan, he says, "I promise you that I will gladly do all for him that I can—all to make his life strong and manly, and your life a happy one." Van Helsing promises to make his life manly, though Mina had asked to make him "well again". So he kind of made it about gender, though it wasn't for Mina.

(I also wonder if we can call Jonathan ''cured'' really, as he doesn't actually return to his former self, but it'd get too long!)

(Tagging @animate-mush because the WIW substack has ended now, hopefully you're all caught up... but regardless no spoilers past where we were last week.)

Anon, you sum up my thoughts incredibly well: "Maybe Laura would have benefited from being believed in."

I think that is perhaps the most major difference between the recovery period for the two of them. Because while they both have remarkably similar symptoms, and both their spouses hide stuff from them for a while... when things come to a head Mina chooses to believe in Jonathan. Not just in supporting him as he goes back to work (which you're right, he has little choice about doing - an external gendered element there, where societal pressures/norms mean Jonathan kind of has to get to work and Laura is never expected to at all); Mina trusts Jonathan with information, with an important role in what follows.

There's obvious contextual differences. Jonathan knew he could access his lost memories and explicitly didn't want to unless it was necessary. He put the power to decide that in Mina's hands (and it was his request but still her choice to share in his ignorance until she needed more information). When she reads his journal, she's trying to better help him within parameters they have both agreed to. When she eventually tells him everything is true, she's trusting that this will be validating for him and help him heal, help him be more "well again" (though you're right both that he never returns to his former self, and that Van Helsing is the only one who brings gender into it with his assumption that Mina's looking to make Jonathan more manly).

Laura never had an equivalent - both in terms of a discussion with the ones leaving her out for the sake of her mental health, and in the sense of some record she knows she can fall back on. She didn't have a hidden journal when she was being drugged or in the asylum. Most of the information Walter and Marian gather is from other people.

I think there is a period where both Jonathan and Laura have information hidden from them for their own sake. And I don't think that was inherently wrong or anything; in fact I think it was somewhat needed. Jonathan got the chance to explicitly ask for that period of ignorance. We don't quite have any such dialogue from Laura, but the narration still tells us that there were certain topics that were very confusing to her or which she didn't like to linger on (and her experience with Mr. Fairlie even after getting out of the asylum can't have helped), and there's that scene where she says she will "try to get better", showing recognition of how unwell she currently is. I think they both need this time to focus on recovering, and their spouses/loved ones want to support them so they can do so. Again, the societal gender role divides them here: Jonathan has to work and in fact has to take on new/more challenging work, while Laura doesn't and can devote more time to rest and recovery. There's benefits and drawbacks to both of those, in my mind. Jonathan got support from Mina and reassurance that she (and Mr. Hawkins) believed in him, which was helpful. On the other hand, it stressed him out more and he was still suffering from his nightmares, etc. Laura got more time to take it easy without having other stress added on, which was helpful. But on the other hand, she didn't get the same level of trust and belief in her ability to, if not 'return to normal,' at least to be productive and helpful in some way.

Yeah, I'm talking about her drawings. I think that is where the big divide comes. Because when she wants to contribute and help with the household, Walter decides to lie to her and play-act that she is bringing in money. I get that he's trying to avoid letting her stress over money, but it feels so condescending. He's treating her like a child rather than being honest with her - right after she asks him not to treat her like a child. Maybe being honest would just be telling her that she's not well enough to work/that it wouldn't be safe, and that he has the money handled. Maybe they'd come up with some other way she could chip in. At least she'd be involved in the discussion as she clearly wanted to be. And while I don't think she would be involved in the hunting down different accounts or confrontations that follow at the end of the book any more than Marian was, I think they should have told her what was going on. That doesn't necessarily mean giving her all the nitty gritties especially if they're triggering to her; but giving her the chance to speak for herself, to add her thoughts, even to ask to be left out if she thinks she can't handle it. She never gets that. There's no reevaluation later on.

Both Jonathan and Laura were denied validation in a way that made them doubt their sanity. Jonathan's experiences were supernatural and he fears he lost his mind. Laura was lied to and gaslit about her own identity, outright told she was suffering from delusions. Revealing that the supernatural things he remember are real was validating for Jonathan in itself, even as he still had all the accompanying trauma. Laura's (official/public) validation isn't possible until after the villains are defeated and everything is over, which in a sense stretches out that middle period. Similarly, Jonathan getting the information leads right into him getting a change to assuage his feelings of guilt and seek revenge, which could be cathartic for him. Laura probably wouldn't have the same opportunities or even desire to do so, and so maybe looping her in wouldn't have been as helpful. But it feels cruel to me never to give her the option. After a certain point, it's no longer just trying to spare her from distress, but it feels like believing she isn't capable of handling any at all.

I guess that's what feels most gendered to me. Walter, and to an extent Marian too, don't treat Laura like an adult or an equal after her experience. This does happen throughout the book, but it gets so much more egregious after she's rescued from the asylum. Marian talks about women/is kind of treated like an exception to women in general, and Walter is leaving both women out in key moments. So given how women were typically seen as less capable, to me it feels somewhat bound up in that rather than just being about her specifically (I think she handles/is capable of a lot more than she's given credit for). Mina doesn't do really that, she doesn't really bring gender into her treatment of either Jonathan or Lucy in the same way. And while others in Dracula do, it's shown to be more of a mistake.

[delanceyposting]

Hi guys heres some of my delancey brothers hcs while i take a break from Drawing because i have So many. Grammar may not be the best because irdc rn. Tws for child and spousal ab*se, s/h

•oscar is the older brother (18-19) and morris is the younger brother (17-18)

•their father was ab*sive towards them, and also abused their mother.

•they dumped them at the refuge when they were 7/8, where they stayed until they were about 14/15 before ending up with Wiesel. You may be wondering; how did they end up with Wiesel? The answer is that i have not thought that through yet.

•Wiesel pities them. He still treats them like his employees rather than his nephews, but hes a lot less harsh on them than others.

•theyre highly affectionate with eachother in private (cuddling/holding hands/etc) (NOT IN A WEIRD WAY)

•they sleep in a bed together, and they cant sleep without the other next to them. It started in the refuge when Morris would climb into Oscars bunk in the middle of the night. The rest is history

•they get anxious when theyre apart for long periods of time

•morris hates other people (except for Oscar ofc) touching him. Whenever someone tries to sling their arm around his shoulder or pat him on the back he physically recoils.

•oscar is incredibly protective of Morris and will beat the shit out of someone if they hurt him bad enough

•oscar only allows himself to be emotionally vulnerable around morris

•morris calls Oscar ‘Ossie��

•oscar reads to morris at night. Its not that he cant read himself, but he likes when oscar does it more.

•oscar is more emotionally closed off than his brother. Morris is more likely to be the one to say “i love you” first or instigate any form of affection (again, NOT IN A WEIRD WAY. THIS IS BROTHERLY AFFECTION)

•morris has a history of self harm (bashing his head into/punching walls, purposely getting into fights and then letting them soak him, picking at his skin)

•morris is covered in cuts and bruises, oscar also has some but not as many as his brother

•they carry shivs around with them. They hardly ever have to use them, considering they use their fists most of the time, but its jic

•morris is more noticeably dependent on oscar, but in actuality, oscar is more dependent on him.

•oscar takes it as his obligation as Morris’ big brother to look after him

•morris can read oscar like an open book

•oscar has mild ocd, morris has an anxiety disorder

•abandonment/trust issues.

•theyre both aromantic (possibly demiromantic in certain context but theyd have to trust them a LOT)

•theyre not frequent smokers, but theyll split a cigar once in a while

•they like to play card games and billiards in their free time

•hes not an expert, but morris can play simple piano pieces

•morris can also sew. He mends all of their clothes.

Thats all i can think of right now, but i may edit this post later on if i think of anymore. Enjoy Delancey Nation

[pulim-v]

❤️ (secret third thing) 🩷 💛 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚 alr do you think that’s enough to fund fgcc becoming a show. 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚 jic. 🩵 💙 💜

WOW AN ANON FOR THE ANON ASK8 GAME I WONDER WHO THIS IS GOOD THING THEY REMEMBERED TO PUT ANON ON

❤️ - I have feelings for you - same bestie same I love you I love you I love you

🩷 - let's kill someone together - ibuprofen meme etc etc also who are we planning on killing? I'd prefer to go for right wing politicians and the people who aren't letting the 6/1 work scale die here but that's a bit too high-profile for my tastes

💛 - you are like a wet cat - I'm literally dog coded tho???????

💚 - one million dollars. For you - with 70 million dollars I'd most likely buy a house for my parents a house for me and then funnel everything else into art and gaming supplies. So there would be funding for FGCC but it'd come out in 2050 after I played every pokemon game

🩵 - you are amazing and I love you/p - I LOVE YOU TOOOO BESTIEEEEEEEEE <3<3<3<3<3

💙 - you don't seem mentally stable. At all. - whaaa? I'm totally mentally stable it's just like. At a stable low level yk???? Like if my blood pressure were at 180/120 but like 24/7