#jfc I hope any of this makes sense

[aprillikesthings]

BUT WAIT I HAVE MORE THOUGHTS (yes some of this was in the tags but I wanted to talk about them more)

So like, looking at the last few episodes of s3 from an outside-the-story/writing/narrative perspective, the point of the "perfect reality" was to remind us of what Catra (and also Adora to some extent) really wants, before making it feel even further away.

And like a lot of people: I remember, the first time I saw those episodes, asking myself "why the fuck would opening a portal do that" and yeah the in-show answer is "because weird magic/technology stuff" and that's about it.

BUT ALSO

In the episode where Catra throws the switch, it's the last in a run of terrible decisions; she just keeps escalating and making shit worse in part because she's in complete panic mode.

And my own unhinged/horny feelings about CorruptedByThePortal!Catra aside, I get why the corruption happened. (I mean, aside from *waves hand* magic.)

Because the portal was like ":) ha ha I know what you really want :)" and then Catra tries so hard to keep her grip on it, but of course it's breaking into pieces and disappearing because it's not real, and it's Adora pointing that out to her repeatedly and forcing her to acknowledge it, and Catra hates her for it. From Catra's POV, Adora is rejecting her again, by refusing to play along and pretend things are still "perfect" just a little longer.

We, the audience, can obviously see that's not what's happening. But one of the things I love about this show is that I can see why Catra would feel the way she does.

Like, that's what often breaks my heart about so much of Catra's arc: that from Catra's perspective, she feels like she's stuck in this spot where she loves Adora, but Adora keeps rejecting her and/or making her life worse, and so she's frozen into this untenable situation of desperately wanting Adora and hating her fucking guts at the same time.

And Catra's been trying to (metaphorically) cut off bits of herself for a while at that point: her affection and care for others, any desire she might have for love or friendship or kindness. Those things have repeatedly hurt her, so she keeps trying to get rid of them.

The things Catra says to Adora while corrupted are obviously untrue, and she knows that! "If you hadn't gotten captured, your sword wouldn't have opened the portal." Girly you're the one who captured her!

But Catra still cannot bring herself to face how badly she's fucked things up. She blames Adora instead.

And that's what breaks Catra into pieces and corrupts her—the fact that her self-image is just so shattered, like her cognitive dissonance has taken physical form.

And Adora has a guilty martyr thing going on, so for like the first, what, minute and a half* she just lets Catra treat her like shit. She already sorta blames herself--like if only she'd tried harder she could've convinced Catra to change sides. But eventually her brain catches up and she goes "wait wtf" and she fights back and tells Catra she's wrong.

"And you? You made your choice. Now live with it!"

(And then Adora punches her. Which, tbh, she 100% deserved.)

Anyway it takes another season and change for Catra to be able to even start to face up to the fact that she herself is most of the reason she's alone.

(*lol I've watched that bit so often you'd think I'd know but I'm always distracted. I already admitted I'm unhinged and horny about it. Anyway I, uh, rewatched it just to know for sure and it's almost exactly 1:30 before Adora starts fighting back)

(Help help I can’t shut up about She-Ra)

This is just now occurring to me and I feel silly but

Okay so the last couple episodes of s3, when they’re in the “perfect reality,” and for that first bit before it all (literally) all falls apart, Catra and Adora are affectionate and constantly touching

And like, from a storytelling standpoint I get why they did that??

It’s the halfway point of the whole show, and the two of them have become more and more antagonistic (and they’re going to spend an entire season not even interacting), and Catra’s just done pretty much the worst thing she does in the whole show (and is a vicious little shit even in that episode once she’s forced to acknowledge what’s happening)

But still, they took an episode to remind us: yeah that is. Not what either of them actually WANT.

(No, obviously Adora doesn’t want to rejoin the Horde, that’s not what I’m saying lol)

But what they want is to be together!!!

[lesbianyosano]

Wait so is this like. The manga version also? Or is this like a full metal alchemist oh shit we ran out of things to animate let’s make up our own story now???? Very confused

i have. no fucking clue to be honest but if i were to guess the manga will be similar?? bc im assuming asagiri and harukawa had the chapters done for months now, early enough to give them to the anime team to animate and 111 is just one of them

i really didnt like this episode i think the pacing was bad and rushed so im hoping theres some more info in the manga?? but also. it would suck so bad if we were now behind the fucking anime and unless we get like 3 fucking chapters next month thats whats going to happen

and with the 2 hours later thing, i dont think its an anime thing bc of how it resembles the fit fukuchi is wearing in that last doa official art, but 2 hours????? girl what on earth is going on. this arc has been so pong and exhausting and the writing has been decreasing in quality and were all tired so the idea of sth huge happening soon is just really not that exciting to me. i want to see the political repercussions and the page not another fight, at least not now

but yeah tldr i dont think this is an anime only resolution, at least not entirely. a lot of the things make sense ig (like bram regarding his body and dropping the vampires, i feel like thats the only thing that could have happened) but maybe the pacing will be better and maybe therell be some useful info

[nyarlathotep-thecrawlingchaos]

Oh look more headcanons

Who'd have guessed

Not me for sure

Okay sorry I'll shut up.

I'm highly music-driven and have been for many many years of my life.

And I'm presently unreasonably obsessed with The Fratellis after suddenly remembering they exist after like fifteen years of not hearing a single one of their songs. Don't ask me, it just happened a couple months ago and I decided not to question it.

So this is really stupidly niche of me, but these are their songs/lyrics that I associate with the Best Boys™, in a Character X Reader sense. The songs that are typically playing halfway on repeat when I'm writing any of them lately.

The song-links go to Spotify. It's not necessary to listen to them, the lyrics here are the main catalyst, but if you want to listen I'm not going to complain.

no but please I hope you like the music that I like I have no one to talk to about it and as a half-assed musician it's literally killing me and

Anywho.

Zoro

Living in the Dark

I was nothing less than torn, crying out to be reborn

Come back, baby, you could make me happy,

Maybe you could prove me wrong

You're the only one who could ever save me,

Maybe you could prove me wrong

I've been living in the dark down here too long

The song itself is far more upbeat than I'd generally associate with Zoro, but the lyrics speak to me on his behalf. The upbeat tempo is the equivalent of what you do to his heart when you're near him; it's strange and unfamiliar, but it's nice. He's iffy about being close with anyone, and he won't admit it out loud but he wants to be.

He's been alone for years, for damned near all of his life, and you're like the light at the end of that tunnel. He might try to push you away or be aloof and impersonal at first because the thought of being vulnerable frightens him a little, but he wants to be proven wrong. He wants to let you in, and he's willing to try.

Sanji

Sugartown

I get the strangest sense we were lovers past-tense

Like a dog in heat I just can't be indiscreet

And when I see you there, I whisper my prayer, so sweet

I'm getting shakey on my feet, I'm incomplete

And if you just can't do me right

Then, honey, please, do me wrong

I'll be your one man band, I'll be at your command

Just say the word and I'll be your Renaissance man

This entire damned song is the anthem of Sanji. It's like a 1950's bop, the type of song that you can't help but smile at. It's sweet and cute and pining, just like our favorite chef. He's just utterly obsessed and hoplessly devoted to you and every single thing you do. He can't keep his eyes or his mind off of you at any given time.

Just the sight of you entering the room takes his breath away, puts stars in his eyes. He would do or give absolutely anything to have you and to keep you forever, and he's going to make sure you know it.

Shanks

Babydoll

Babydoll, do you believe they'll catch you when you fall?

And when morning comes, the sun is gonna shine

Don't forget, your minor keys your half-lit cigarette

'Cause when morning comes, I know that you'll be mine

So let me in

I'm ready to beg and to sing for my sins

Not leave it to chance and sweet coincidence

I don't know. The soft yet slightly playful tone of the song in general just screams Shanks to me for no reason I can completely put in words. This particular portion of the lyrics is what I associate most with him.

He knows he wants you, and he wants to make sure you know it. Not to beat around the bush about it, but not pressure you either. Just make sure you know how much he cares about you and be as gentle and sweet as possible to prove it...and he knows it's going to work, and that you're already his whether you know it or not. But jfc also imagine that goddamned voice of his calling you babydoll please excuse me I need to go touch grass now

Mihawk

Medusa In Chains

I'm not your miracle man, I'm not your spirit guide

Before this whole thing began I had some sense of pride

Just one more night with your lips, your company is hard to eclipse

Weak-kneed, yes indeed, guardanteed, make my heart bleed

Give me a reason to breathe, don't let my sun go down

I'll make you stand and recieve, I'll be your sacred ground

Be my Medusa in chains, petrified

Only your beauty remains

The entire song. The ENTIRE SONG screams Mihawk to me. Slow-burn and seductive from start to finish. I get the same exact chills from this song that I get when he delivers that "Magnificent" line.

Lyrically relevant too. Falling for you in spite of his pride (and he has a LOT of pride to get past). You're like nothing he has ever experienced and he's utterly and hopelessly addicted to you. As much as he wants to fight it, he can't. In the same breath that he's trying to push you away and retain some grip on himself he's also pulling you back for more. He hardly even knows who he is anymore when you're near.

[coquelicoq]

i do love that they're very meticulously defining in footnotes every single word that does not appear in the list of the 1500 words most frequently used in written french, but when it comes to the passé simple they're just treating it like it's self-evident. there are two pages in the back of the book listing the 3rd person forms for irregular verbs and that's it. these are second-year students. do they even know what the passé simple is?? i don't think they even told me about it until like french 4 or maybe even 5. how were they teaching french in the 50s i wonder.

to self-soothe i have started reading a 1957 textbook for second-year french learners. as one does.

[carlyraejepsans]

i lowkey disagree w u on ur position on fictional ships and certain portrayals of topics such as incest and pedophilia, but oh my fucking god to have the fucking. AUDACITY to accuse someone of real life pedophila and incest because they MENTIONED being NEUTRAL on a certain topic?? like you didnt even say you think fictional incest is cool and rad or wtvr u afaik (which. even if u did that ask would Still be abhorrent) but ur explicitly Neutral and are VERY carful to tag shit and i just. 1/2

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i cannot fucking imagine accusing someone of such a horrid act with such conviction bc u SLightly DIsagree on a topic. jfc. i block tags and if ur conversations ever drive me over the edge id Unfollow. im so so sorry people are such fucking assholes man. i hope people gain some sense abt these topics im so sorry

yeah no i completely respect your opinion. and i do know where it's coming from. to tell you the truth (basic decency of tagging triggers aside), i DO find most of those fanon portrayals to be cheap and uncalled for a good majority of the time, at least from a literary standpoint. things like dating a minor or your own sibling have serious implications on a character's moral code and interpersonal dynamics where most characters would... not fucking do that! and the moment you don't engage with those implications, it becomes either incredibly ooc or altogether shallow. some people act like a topic being problematic makes it inherently complex and rich, when it can be as tropey and flat as any other "safe" topic. being problematic doesn't make you interesting etc. my point isn't arguing over literary value, it's more like... there's people behaving horribly and cruelly towards the AUTHORS, and making disgusting assumptions like the one that was made against me, all because of fiction you can always filter out at the end of the day (assuming basic tagging etiquette is respected ofc) and like. that's too far. nobody deserves to be treated like this.

not to mention, the "incest fiction recs"/"pro incest posts" those freaks mentioned were literally 1) me gushing about revolutionary girl utena, a deeply feminist and self-aware series that unpacks the misogyny behind anime incest tropes by treating that abuse REALISTICALLY as patriarchal manipulation from a male relative and showing how the female victim suffers and emancipates herself from it and 2) me being annoyed that hs showed one of its characters suffering from csa without acknowledging it AS abuse, even when it would've been not just the morally decent thing to do, but also a genuinely good addition to his character arc (apparently it does do that in the endstory, but i didn't know it at the time). those are both posts about realistic, condemning, and well-thought depictions of incestuous abuse in fiction—which is the only way i ever enjoy the topic btw—but that didn't stop these people from deciding i had an incest fetish and harassing me for weeks on end to the point of accusing me of sexually abusing my teenage brother. like you said, it would be a ghoulish way to treat someone even if their assumption had been right (and it wasn't), but it's like they saw the topic being mentioned and that fact alone was unforgivable, regardless of context. and this crap happens to people all the time! if that's not fucking stupid i don't know what is

[outrunningthedark]

I feel like queer fans feelings are being brushed aside for the (potential) feelings of Oliver and that really really isn’t sitting right with me. We can acknowledge one without completely brushing side the feelings of others.

Literally I don't understand what is not computing for these people??? No, Oliver doesn't deserve the harassment he gets. (Apparently this cannot be stated enough, jfc) Yes, it MAKES SENSE why he hasn't brought attention to what's going on in canon because he knows how the fandom would react. But that doesn't mean fans AREN'T allowed to side-eye his behavior thus far. He talked a big game about not caring about any negative reaction and then...showed that he most definitely cares about the negative reaction. We can hope that things will change now that 9-1-1 socials are more closely monitoring the situation, but it won't negate the way BuckTommy was handled in the immediate aftermath of Oliver bidding goodbye to the homophobes. Especially when PEOPLE STARTED WATCHING THE SHOW BECAUSE OF BI BUCK. [And lbr, if Oliver WAS posting BuckTommy, most of the very fans in my inbox and in other areas of the fandom who are acting like it's nbd would be throwing a party because "Buddie Bones lmao"]

[childotkw]

i love the hadrian breaking into another dimension au, it has so much potential for chaos lol...

especially depending on the timeline? i had this funny thought that if it were during 6th year, aka when dumbledore started to get serious with the horcrux hunting, he would just like... probably yoink any found ones lmao? just, mail them straight back to voldemort or something lol.

also like. im crying laughing at how scandalized everyone would be if they ever found out hadrian is not particularly on their side in the war. would he like, particularly care about hiding that part? or would it be more a case of, he doesnt really care since it wont be him dealing with the consequences (i hope so, because that would be the extra funny option)? (thats not even to speak if they ever found out who he's romantically involved with lmao, dumbledore would probably be done in by a hearattack on the spot if he did)

im sorry with spamming you with questions (though thks is still me holding back) ive just gotten over two back to back 20h flights (16h layover too) for a work trip and the only thing thats kept me from straight up Perishing was thinking about this shiny new AU of yours hahah

Lmao I'm glad you enjoyed it!

I think I was originally planning end of fifth year / sixth year for this one, so the timeline would work out for the horcrux hunting. Not sure if Hadrian would get involved in the actual hunting, but he might tell Harry that "hey if you wanna get Voldemort to stop being a dick, why not hold his soul pieces hostage rather than destroy them? Slap that bitch with an unbreakable vow while you've got leverage?"

Harry does seriously consider it, since he's not exactly keen to be a killer (even though he will do it if push comes to shove).

But oh yeah, a lot of people aren't happy when Hadrian declares himself Switzerland for this upcoming fight. He wouldn't advertise it, but he's certainly not hiding his opinions - which rubs a lot of people the wrong way because you're harry potter too, aren't you? why aren't you trying to stop voldemort as well?

Hadrian just disengages when people try to start those arguments because they refuse to listen when he outlines a) not his world, not his voldemort, not his problem; b) why kill voldemort when you can strong-arm the asshole into working with you to improve the wizarding world?; c) some of voldemort's points do kinda make sense, he's just being an extremist.

I think Hadrian would clash particularly hard with Hermione and Ron whenever these arguments take place.

Them finding out that Hadrian is fucking his version of Voldemort just disgusts them - but Hadrian doubles down whenever they try and use that against him and goes into explicit detail of how much he and Riddle get along until they leave him alone.

And don't apologise for the spam! I love it 🥰 but also omg jfc you need a nap my darling. I hope you got to fall into a good bed for a bit to recover xx

[cozza-frenzy]

Hey everyone, I just want you to know you're loved. I've never stopped treasuring those of you I know as friends, and for a long time none of us were aware you were friendS-plural. <3 I hope this rough spate of fusions goes through as smoothly as such a thing can go, and that whoever's there in the aftermath of this bout gets the chance to relax and rest and have a bit of peace. Also that people stop being fucking douchebags in y'all's askbox jfc.

Honestly, I really hope it does too. Things are really rough right now for all of us, but I think a pattern is starting to emerge and things are starting to make sense. I don't know how many of us will remain when it's all over, but we have 8 or 9 of us confirmed still around. Me (Terry), Taffy, Chaos, Martin, Dagwood, Roy, Vivien and "Thirteen" have all made themselves known. Jenova still seems to be around but I haven't actually seen it yet. The others are... not gone in the sense that they're dead or don't exist, but not separate any more. I'm equal parts happy and sad over this; I'm happy because it feels like we're finally finding our way to some kind of peace. But they were my friends. And I'll miss every single one of them. We'll be okay. - Terry

[sunshine-zenith]

Aight so, I’m a blood donation phlebotomist and whenever I see fictional blood drives in media, I have Thoughts. Here are a few quick thoughts on the blood drive in F&C’s episode “The Star”

We don’t actually see the blood drive, which actually saves my sanity a little bit. The charity ball seems to take place on one of the top floors, and let me tell ya, hauling our equipment through elevators kinda sucks — there’s a lot of it, it’s heavy, and we typically only have 45min-1hr to set up, and elevators really cut into that. Gary and Marshall had to run up/down a set of stairs to get to the elevator, too, so unless the blood drive was in an off screen office or like someone’s room (since Marshall, Gary, and Hana all change pretty quick off screen, meaning rooms gotta be close by), it’s kinda impossible to have a blood drive in this specific scenery. I’m hoping the actual blood drive was in a lobby or something, because otherwise I’d lose like seventeen years from my life just imagining the set up.

I’m kinda hoping the blood drive was in the afternoon, before the charity ball, since this seems to be taking place in the evening. It’s not fun having to drop blood off at the lab at three in the morning

The posters? Fire, love them. Collection staff (the ones who set up, break down, do the mini-physicals, and of course the phlebotomies themselves) typically aren’t sent with posters because we are not given enough time, space in the trucks, or frankly money to deal with that, but it’s not unheard of for the people in our organizations who actually set the drives up to go out themselves and add a little pizzazz. Alternatively (and more likely), Hana just commissioned a bunch of posters with blood puns for this event

Everyone is dressed up and thats lowkey stressful. They’re just asking to get blood on their nice suits and dresses

The fact that there’s a bunch of food at the charity event? Love that. Seeing that would save me from worrying about our donors (entirely too many will jump off the bed, say I’m fine, bypass the canteen area, and pass out in parking lot. Jfc just take the fucking cookie and sit for a sec dude, dropping a pint of blood is not a total non-event, c’mon). I’m guess this is a closed blood drive (meaning only people from this event can donate), and most of the people attending seem to be in the food business, so there’s a social obligation to have at least some for the sake of networking, so win-win

That said, if you’re hosting a blood drive as part of an event, this event has/is centered around food, and you don’t give the phlebotomists any, you’re a dick and there’s a good chance that if you make this a regular blood drive, it’ll be constantly understaffed because of angry call outs. We talk, y’all, and we remember

Also one this I’m horrified by? The alcohol — listen, at least one person at every blood drive makes a cheap date joke. We don’t follow you home, we can’t stop you from making the choices you mark when you’re out of our care. TBH I did this myself once, donated blood then had alcohol later, and I was alright, just super tired super quick (and I frankly have zero interest in doing this again). Everybody is different, every body is different. Some people are fine

Some people end up super sick and dizzy after like one drink because, again, dropping a pint of blood is not a non-event. Just make smart choices, y’all

Imma say having alcohol at a big important charity event right after donating blood isn’t a smart choice. Because networking and business and you’ll be quickly shitfaced at best. Is that the risk you wanna take?

That mascot tho. (Brilliant Ricardio cameo). We have a masco, I think most blood banks do, but we typically don’t haul it around with us. A big charity event though? Yeah, it makes sense that someone would bring it. I personally would rather throw it out the window than wear it myself, but it’s still fun to see

I haven’t seen anyone mention this on social media, but I want to point out the amazing timing of this episode in regards to blood donation qualifications.

CW for references to sexual activity and the now lifted MSM blood donor ban

In August of 2023, this year and like a month before this episode came out, the FDA finally officially lifted the MSM blood ban (earlier this year the mad cow disease ban was also lifted, too). Gotta acknowledge this: Now we we have to ask about specific sexual behaviors (anal sex with a new partner), which can result in a three month deferral. Super fun to ask conservative grandmas in churches btw. I’m queer, a lot of my coworkers are queer, you have no idea how much this means to us, let alone the population affected by this ban. I’m kinda surprised there wasn’t any nod to the MSM ban at all, though — Gary and Marshall are a MLM couple, after all, and even if they aren’t sexual active yet, it’s still something that hung over a lot of MLM individuals. I know the blood drive was a super clever nod to the whole “in another universe he’s a vampire” thing, but still, characters curse on the reg, there’s blood and gore, and there’s a focus on adult specific issues like rent and starting a business — you’d think there’d be an ambitiously worded nod to this specific MLM issue or something. It can take over a year to get an animate episode ready to air — when F&C started production, the ban was still very much a thing. Maybe the creators were aware of the ADVANCE study on removing the MSM ban that would’ve been going on at the time, and were being optimistic about how long it would take, or maybe there was a line that was cut when the ban was lifted. Or maybe the creators just wanted the Vampire->AU Blood Drive gag and hoped no one would think about it

[alpinefrsh]

jfc I think I’m driving myself insane/pos. I genuinely cannot wait for the turtles to find out about Tommy’s absolutely f’ed up past life and just be like ‘oh what bullshit is this!? >:(‘

Also, I think I have an idea of how you’re going to do the ✨Trauma Reveal✨ and if I’m right I am SO excited!! (I’d be excited either way)

Another thing I’m really excited to potentially see (don’t know if you’ll touch on this exact thing) is how different their world’s morals are!

Rise being a kids show, means that most of the villains are pretty one dimensional and, unless they’re actually important, tend to never really be treated seriously or ever get treated like actual people (unless there’s a redemption arc planned, like Barry).

But with the SMP, because all of the characters are written by individual real people and are treated like people, all of the ‘villains’ are actually just really bad(or good) people with enough questionable motives to earn them the title of ‘Villain’. (Minus JSchlatt and Dream ofc. They’re genuinely just evil)

I can totally imagine Tommy getting stressed or upset about the turtles labeling these characters as ‘villains’, and somewhat frantically trying to explain to them how morally gray people can really get. Because for Tommy, all the villains he’s seen were people he actually knew and could’ve been good friends with. My point is, Rise’s version of a Villain is vastly different from the SMP’s version of a Villain and I find that incredibly interesting, just in case you couldn’t tell ;)

Analogy over, that was way too many words but i started typing and couldn’t stop. Hope the writing is going well! Can’t wait :D

Raahhhh so many people would be added to their 'to punt' list (if only they weren't a universe away, lmao).

I'm gonna be honest, my current plan for how they find out about his past is slightly batshit and entirely evil (in the sense that I will be very mean to Tommy). We draw closer to that fic every day and I'm very excited about that fact.

Yeah, that's deffo one of those things where if it comes up it comes up, but I don't have any particular plans for it. I like to think he'd enjoy hanging out with Hypno and Warren (bullying. He would enjoy bullying Warren), they're rather flamboyant in their crime, I imagine Tommy's theatre kid ass would appreciate that.

But yeah, If I remember correctly, c!Tommy's of the mindset that most people aren't really evil or bad per se, they just make really bad choices sometimes. Like c!Wilbur. I remember c!Tommy once had a chat with Foolish about his stance on the concept of forgiveness and what he thought about Wil's past and current behaviour.

Never worry about using too many words, I happen to be a big fan of those things. Not gonna complain about that, it was very enjoyable to read :D

It was fighting me for a while, but I've finally found an approach that I'm happy with, so things are thankfully starting to go much smoother now o7

[bellysoupset]

HI THERE it's 🍉 anon !! i havent been on tumblr for ages but as soon i was back i came to check on your blog and i love all the new stuff you've put out here and i did read all of it in one sitting

ALSO i have lots of updates of stuff that has happened between my girlfriend and i. we went on a trip together and it was filled with so much tummy stuff conveniently for me?? on the first day we got really hungry because we went on a four hour car ride without any food and when we got to the town where we'd stay we just couldn't find a place to eat. i got hungrier than her because for some reason she can go hours without eating but i really can't (im supposed to be bulking up also) and she would PAT my stomach or rub it up and down if she noticed i was getting restless. later we were cuddling together and my stomach growled audibly and i apologized but she said it was okay because i was hungry. that same day we had sort of an argument (which strangely reminds me of some of your fics where two characters argue but one of them's sick 😭) and then during lunch i sort of ate more than i could handle. we went to our bedroom together because she wanted to talk about the argument and stuff but then she noticed i was feeling full and she did that rubbing my stomach up and down thing again and. hopefully she didn't notice the way that flustered me. later my mother in-law said that i "had barely touched my food" and my girlfriend actively said "no, he ate way too much" which. jfc. especially because i know my stomach had been looking full and she could tell. we went for gelato afterwards anyway 🤚. on our last day during breakfast i ate my fill then finished what she couldn't and then my mother in-law bought us ice cream which we didn't ask for but she was like "pleaaase eat it" so i grabbed an ice cream sandwich and ate it. THAT was a mistake. i got carsick on the way back and i kept my hand pressed to my stomach like all the way home and my girlfriend kept looking at it. i loved traveling w her but being honest this stuff REALLY made my trip

anyways keep up w the good work !! really love your characters and the plotlines. it's a nice way some sort of outlet if that makes sense. cant wait to read your next fix

🍉 anon

🍉, anon. Please imagine me cradling your face between my hands, squishing your cheeks and looking deep into your eyes: how does it feel to be living a fanfic?

Every single moment you described was the cutest thing I've ever heard, I'm so so in love with this!! I hope she's a sweetheart to you as well, anon, because you sound like one.

(and the carsickness because of too much ice cream was HOT. I'm kicking my feet and blushing here)

[morning-sun-brah]

Okay so I've just GOTTA know... how the hell do you write the way you do?? I haven't been able to get sucked into any written work since high school, trauma brain and all. I used to live in books so it's been hell, but your writing got me back into reading, and makes it so I can get lost into that little world again, which I've craved but been able to have for like... so long. Writing is something I've always been into, but I let my fear of failure and need for perfection stop me. Just... do you have any advice for beginners?? It would mean the world to me, but I understand if it's an annoying ask! Thanks for reading no matter what!

Well I am just a mess reading this (in the best way possible).

First of all, thank you so much omfg. And of COURSE it isn't annoying! This is so flattering I'm about to cry my dude.

As far as tips on writing, I feel like I am not the person to ask because I'm just this little weirdo on the internet who likes turtles lol. But!! In an attempt to try and give real advice here is my response... and it got a little wordy so it's all under the break lmaoooo.

~Gin's rambling attempt to give writing advice~

Practice! Literally the only reason I can string coherent words together is because I've been doing this as a hobby for like two whole decades.

Also!! Read! Consuming other fics and books really helps. Sometimes you find a way of saying something that sticks with you. Sometimes you sit and think "I would have done it this way/said it this way." Sometimes you come out on the other end and go "Wow I am a hack that was amazing." Sometimes you finish something and go "Wow that was fucking terrible I'm amazing." Sometimes you read something and it fires off your brain, and you are left itching to write your own story. But however you feel, it's all GOOD FOR WRITING. It helps you grow! It literally helps you find your voice!

Other little things; When I write, I truly immerse myself. I am playing out in cinema format what is happening in the "scene." How is this person reacting? How do they look- down to facial expressions. How are they feeling? Is this something they would say? (would they fucking say that??? is something I think to myself every time I open a doc) And when I write it all down, I try my very best to convey that "scene" that played out in my head. I try to capture that character's voice, their mannerisms, their habits.

Does this even make sense? I sure hope so.

Also, flow. Make sure we're moving right along. Keep track of where hands, legs, and torsos are. If they were sitting when the scene started, and you need them standing to kiss or fight or do a thumb war, at some point you need to make sure you say they stood up. If a hand was on a cheek, it can't suddenly be on an ankle without telling the reader what happened.

I also just think adding little details helps with immersion. When we talk to people, we don't just stand around. We fidget. We pick our nails or scratch our arms or shuffle our feet. All those little details can add to that immersion (or I think so, I'm no expert). "He blushed and rubbed the back of his neck before saying..." - Wow, what an awkward little shit. "They scrunched their nose and gave a near-violent eye-roll" - Oh ok they are annoyed! "She shifted her feet and replied"- cool she's being a person, I shift my feet too, neato.

Anyway, nothing I wrote 20 years ago is as good as it is now. I'm highly convinced that I'll think the same thing in another 10 years, about anything I've published recently. But it is getting better, and it's because I keep at it. Having friends in the fandom and beta readers really helps. Make sure you find someone who you know will be positive but honest. And remember, YOU are always going to be your own worst critic.

God why did anyone ever let me have access to a computer. Why the FUCK is this so long? Does it even make sense? Jfc, I'm going to post it and eat a fucking cookie.

I believe in you anon. Also, I love you and thank you so much for making my whole week. I'm going to be so obnoxious about this shit, everyone expect to hear from my ass an annoying amount (kidding, but seriously I'm so fucking flattered thank you so much. This kind of shit makes me wonder what the fuck you're all reading because I swear I am just a silly gal with seasonal depression who needs a haircut).

((Also, anon, I wish you nothing but the best. Take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, and know that I am sending you like a million hugs))

[zhansww]

Shi Ying is just 18 years old but he already carries himself like an immortal, with maturity and such elegance, composure and confidence. He's an all-around very attractive character. And yet — and yet — we're supposed to believe he falls for a girl who is his age but acts and sounds like a damn toddler. It just makes no fucking sense. This "love story" is already literally the worst I've ever seen (and we're just a quarter of the way thru jfc) and it makes me think about how hard it must be for gg or dd to suffer thru filming that or any other of the shitty love stories they filmed. God, am I glad dd doesn't do that anymore. And I seriously hope Sunshine With Me will be easier to watch. Or even better, that gg will stop taking such roles, too, no matter how good everything else is in the script o.O

[snowandwolves]

yooyoyo it's the lengthy ask anon (i nearly typed "ass anon" and that should give you a clue as to how crazy this week has been jfc) back again with some qs because the lighthouse au will forever be in my heart 💕

is there anything you learned about Ava through writing this fic, particularly being in her pov?

uh do you think they ever revisited that conversation about public acts?

is there any particular places you see them visiting together? places Ava visits by herself?

what made you pick "Somebody to Love" as the heartbreak of the century?

did they ever play with the ouija board or the um other things they found in the everything shed?

how did you come up with the idea of Suzanne restoring the truck?

do you think Bea ever gets good enough at cooking that she has dishes she confidently makes for Ava?

which martial arts does Bea have proficiency in?

do you have an idea as to what distracted Bea to leave the rations storage door open?

also after that, when Ava went into town and showed Mary, Cam, and Lilith that "proof of life" pic, just how much shit did they give Bea?

as always, pick and choose or ignore, i totally don't mind - i hope your week has been good and if not, that the weekend gives you some respite! (or at the minimum some yummy veggies? lol'd hard at your tags about broccoli bc i couldn't help but think about Ava making that comment about her asshole in chapter two lololol)

hard relate on the crazy week because that has been me this past week and this is genuinely the first day i feel like i have room to breathe lmao i hope you’ve been having a gentler, slower time this week though! 🥺 right, ok, on to the questions 😂

1. just like,,, how complex of a character she is. in the show, you know she loves life, you know that she’s a glutton for experiences, you know that she wants to live more than anyone else. but when you really get down to how much she’s had to survive to get to that point—all the pain and suffering and grief—you can’t help but love her more. especially, when i had to ask myself how she must’ve felt. that… was an experience lmao

2. yes. ava had to shop for underwear at some point…?

3. GRANDPOP OLIVER! i was genuinely so sad i couldn’t find a way to get him into the story, but in my head, he’s alive and kicking and prone to bursting into tears in the presence of his pseudo-granddaughter. ugh, i wanted to write that reunion 😭

4. this is gonna sound nerdy, but with ava’s age and her mom’s, i figured it was the song that would make the most sense considering what music was like at the time. I Will by The Beatles was also a contender though.

5. ouija board is a horrible idea in a huge ass compound where there’s no other person for miles and miles 😂 as for the uh other things, i’d say they’d have a conversation about it but bea would prolly be like “who knows whose bodily fluids that leather has soaked up”

6. genuinely have no idea 💀 i was like “oh they prolly need a car but also no one to do maintenance here so,,, maybe suzanne knows how” and just went with it 😂

7. yes!!! ava would teach her how and they have fun with it while they google recipes and the cultural background of each dish together. i’m thinking bea would make her waffles from scratch and ava cries into it because she used to have it with her mom 🥹

8. aikido is one. i remember doing research for that for sixth to the ninth hour lmao as for the others, imma say she’s prolly a jack of all trades type (though this is more because i don’t know which to pick. she seems like she could do it all)

9. actually i did think about this 😂 bea definitely didn’t mean to. it’s just the door gave up being a door and it didn’t close properly. she didn’t think to check because she didn’t expect the door to… not door 💀

10. a hell of a lot. so much so that bea put her phone on do not disturb as soon as ava got back with the groceries 😂

ok but what are your thoughts on celery 😭 jk, thank you again for this anon!!! 💙

[russellradio]

Hullo!

I finished S1 of 9-1-1. Thoughts as following:

Poor poor Bobby, jesus christ. I'm glad there seemed to be hope for him at the end of the season. I did see a gif on here of him talking to a Black teenager about him bringing a kid into the marriage, so I kinda guessed the Athena ending(and presuming that sticks?)

Buck is indeed beautiful, and I sense much character development in his future, also guessing the Tommy that Abby mentioned is Tommy Tommy?

I like that it's not just them putting out fires(was there even any fires in S1?). I find the patient(not patient but what is the word?) stories really interesting and I like the way they use the 911 calls to introduce them.

Abby needs a hug, I was very glad she knew how to pronounce Ireland correctly. I hope she comes back, cos Connie Britton is wonderful(Tami Taylor for life)

I like Hen and Athena's friendship, yus women supporting women. And I'm glad Hen got back with her wife at the end, cos gurl what were you thinking.

No real opinions on Chimney yet(other than intrigue at the name) but we shall see.

Buck and babies is a combo I am always here.

My heart did almost leave my body during the plane crash episode, jfc.

Onwards!

lauraaa 💓 I can't even tell you how happy I am that you started watching and you like it! I will be bothering you on instagram again (while trying not to spoil things but I guess I already have)

I think you'll really love buck's character development and the fact that he loves kids/will put his life on the line for them is definitely a theme

if you made it through s1 trauma, you can make it anywhere 🫶🏻

but: tommy is in fact not tommy tommy, just a random name coincidence

[wikiangela]

the boys 4x04 thoughts

oooh Homelander is gonna kill them all isn't he

god, ill never stop being in awe of Antony Star 🤩 he's just so good

oh Butcher 😪 how are they gonna save him, if at all??? I mean, I heard s5 will be last so I wouldn't be surprised if they killed him but not just yet??

I feel so bad for Hughie - but ngl, I don't see how this connects to literally anything else going on, idk, im not that invested lol

ooooohhhh godolkin four mention!!!! I miss them 😭 (rip chance perdomo 💔😭)

so they're all stuck wherever they are, vanished, yeah, but cate and sam are still out there, right? or did they get locked up too?? 👀👀

I feel so bad for colin and im dreading him finding out, its gonna be so bad 😭

it feels so shitty that frenchie is just dating this guy and now asking about his family, while he's responsible for their death

omg his mom went after little nina while frenchie worked for her??? oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck

he's never seen frenchie's ankle when they were hooking up? come on lol

firecracker is so annoying - jfc bringing this shitshow at the starlight house front door smh - I mean, I get why, theyre all horrible, but its just so awful

and Butcher's back in? lol okay I like that

omg I almost forgot about Homelander's thing lol its so ominous and tense 😬

god, I feel for young John - honestly its no wonder he is how he is now 💁‍♀️

this time im all for homelander killing them all sns

the way kimiko has to text hughie bc only frenchie knows how to communicate with her smh - did any of them make any effort to learn even the basis 😫 it bothers me too much this season 🤣

Hughie wants to give V to his dad.... so that's how it connects lol Im not sure its a good idea hughie 😬😬😬 "haven't you learned anything" is a valid question 🤣

who tf is watching them 😬

is that the girl who knew kimiko??? oooh that makes sense, i forgot she did that 🤣

ngl im loving kimiko and hughie team up, we dont see enough of the two of them lol

aw, Butcher being honest for once 🥹

"he's up there with God" is soooo funny bc he played God 🤣🤣🤣

ewww firecracker wtf??? 🤢🤢 WOW she's gonna spin in to her favor isnt she 🙄🙄

ah, catholicism, when you confess you fucked a minor and they still praise you 👏🙄

why are they looking at her like that wtf, clearly she was a child who couldn't control her powers yet wtf

I really hope A-Train doesn't get caught 😬

why the fuck is Ashley there oh no - they're gonna keep each others secret tho right???

omg homelander is such a psycho 😳😳😳

choosing to watch the boys while eating is not a good idea, and yet i never seem to learn lol

oh my god??? annie had an abortion and they're broadcasting it to the public???? fuck you firecracker 😤 yesss kick her ass!

this won't be good for her public image but i bet it was satisfying in the moment lmao

wait, what the hell happened with Butcher and ezekiel??

I hope Homelander kills Barbara ngl

ooooooh frenchie told colin!!! oh my god 😳😭 valid reaction tho lol - killing his family is one thing, but dating him all this time without telling him??? yeah, thats psychotic and so bad and shitty, and frenchie deserved this - still feel so bad for him

uhhhh, why are we trusting deep to give you a lobotomy?? ew ew ew i cant look 🙈🙈🙈

oh Annie 😭😭😭 i feel so bad for her, hughie is right, thats such a violation 😤

things just got sooo much more messy 🤩

omg Butcher took some V! is that why whatever happened to ezekiel happened???

she gave him V.... what the hell