#jeez we're done now lol

[the-amazing-fag-of-gumball6663]

Doodle Page 👍

Bonus Mr. Small x Larry stuff along with a doodle of them with their adopted son, Rob

[project-sekai-facts]

VBS event teaser commentary

Welcome back, it has been *checks calendar* 8 months since I was last able to do one of these jeez. Anyway, this will be a bit different to the ones I've done in the past, since rather than trying to predict what the event will be about, we already know. This is more of me trying to guess what will be in this event and what will be in VBS' next arc.

(TL by Project SEKAI ENG on twt)

(TLs from here onward by lozy bug on YT)

This event will have VBS finally surpassing RAD WEEKEND!!! This has been their primary goal since the start of the story, however more recently it has become more of a stepping stone for them in order to go beyond it. BREAK DOWN THE WALL has a lot of talk about how RW is a step for VBS before they go and do their own thing. It also is the obstacle blocking their SEKAI from expanding fully, in the form of a wall (hence the event title), which is also referenced in the event synopsis. The wall has started to crack with them honing their skills and resolve, but won't fully crumble until VBS can go beyond Nagi's dream.

Now all the way back to LUTF. Specifically the Nagi flashback section. So Nagi's dream was always for RADder to go on and reach a worldwide stage. They were popular in Japan and doing tours, and they had plans to do stuff overseas, but Nagi fell ill and died before any of this could become a reality. Nagi is like, the most important person in VBS' story. Ultimately she's the one who started it all. She decided to hold RW which inspired a whole generation of young people, passing the torch and hoping that they would go beyond what she achieved and do the things she always dreamed of. Without Nagi, there would be no VBS and no Street SEKAI.

So VBS' current goal is to go beyond what Nagi did, which entails VBS reaching around the world. However, the first step right now is to surpass RW. Now for what a lot of people have been asking me all day: is this rushed. Well, we won't really know until the event is out. But, imo, not really? It's been pretty obvious we're leading up to it, and while I thought we would have a few more events, this placement makes some sense (also WLEs are clearly leading up to a soon-ish big lore event so we need to get those sekai expanding lol).

I think some aspects could get rushed though or will happen offscreen. Again. Which was kinda an issue with On Your Feet, their last arc ender (though this was no fault of the writers i'm pretty sure they were not intending to wrap everything up at that point in time but plans were changed kinda last minute... you can tell bc events got insanely long for a bit and some units clearly needed more or less time than they were given). Mainly what comes to mind and what i've seen people talking about is Toya's song writing, and Arata's Whole Thing (& Souma!).

Toya's song writing is undoubtedly going to happen offscreen or in a card story. If it happens in the event itself, it probably will just be something that happens in passing and not given any focus, since this isn't his event. As for Arata (and Souma)? I think Arata will probably come back in this event, just because it feels very wrong to surpass RW without him. How they're going to bring him back? No idea, it was set up in BDTW and vaguely in Toya4 that he would come back in a future Toya event but this now feels like something that won't happen. However I still think the emotional baggage (aka his feelings about Souma and what Taiga said to him) will be dealt with in more detail in a future event, probably Toya5. Also then you can deal with Souma's stuff too, like the song he wrote for Arata that has been a thing since woao. Seriously, this is Toya event stuff, the only way they can get it in here is if they pull an Our Happy Ending and give Toya a dedicated chapter and try and squeeze it all in there. At the same time, I wouldn't be surprised if Arata stays MIA or is limited to a small appearance. It would be a bit disappointing, but there's a lot for the Squad past RW, so he can be there for event that surpasses the event that surpassed RW ig.

So what's next? I seriously suggest reading the epilogue of BDTW, it's only 6 minutes long and talks a lot about VBS' goals from here on out.

Their new SEKAI area takes inspiration from many places worldwide and their cultures and music, and the graffiti is all the names of famous street music events. They conclude that it's a place for teams that take the world. There's also an interesting scene earlier in the event that Miku reflects on here - Nagi's ghost (possibly her actual ghost, possibly a physical incarnation of An's imagination) was walking around the SEKAI, and she was looking at this one specific blank spot on one of the walls. Obviously, that spot was meant for RADder, but they never got to carve their name. VBS' new goal is to do exactly that. Maybe we'll see some travelling from that (where on earth they'd get the money i don't know), or maybe we'll deal with everyone's feelings and unresolved plot points first and Then get on the worldwide stage stuff (probably in the same arc. two if they decide to continue this past 6th anni).

[supermentaleyeliner]

obx s4 e1 🏍️

i just watched the first episode of OUTER BANKS SEASON 4 (part one) so here are some raw thoughts & notes <33

( not proofread, literally just rambled. but hope u enjoy it & if you make it to the end - the real end - ur a real one <3 wtf was that ?? lol )

first of all, how is everyone so gorgeous in this season like thank you <33333 my babes are looking better than ever in the perfect balance between tired to the max and serving (renewed 2024). cleo is hot as fuck like always, mah john duo is looking so damn sharp and good, pope is literally king so i don't need to explain, and sarah just full on pogue life now ugh <3 and KIARA. MA'AM. i'm not a fan of kiara (sue me) but she is GLOWING this season. like, just like the girls of the cast said, they're def putting effort into their looks and boy is it working. kiara's outfits and hair through all the flashbacks and time jumps in this first episode has been heaven. and now that i've got curls i am feeling so inspired by her. and just every piece of her clothes?? the girls as a whole?? man i haven't felt this happy recently like damn. alr moving on (i'm not)

+ the emotional length & setup we got already. all that stuff with 'doesn't mean we're pogues' at the shop from jj & kie, just jj's face all along as they were dealing with the maybank property (wtf happened to luke tho am i forgetting something), his burstout after they made poguelandia 2.0 and his "home" come true, kie looking at him with the new perspective(which i surprisingly don't hate this season, he deserves it), and ofc some peak jj maybank behavior with the auction & enduro, oh god we are so back to what obx is, and we're really getting the jj focus & depth we badly wanted throughout the whole journey. i love my boy.

RAFAEL CAMERON. that man appeared on the screen and shattered my heart. such a big jump between the pogues scenes and him and i was 200% in for both of them. i announced my stance that i would not gaf if rafe and sofia broke up at the end of the season or sofia did shit to him or something (sorry) and barry was just there for him, and i still stand by it, but thank god THANK GOD he had someone to be there with him when he was doing ward's ashes. i was full on tearing my heart out crying screaming when he said those lines to his dad because oh he was the awful-est to you. and that bitterness at the race. but then sofia yelling "you got this baby" or whatever it was. Gah. pls take care of my boy. pls. am i reading a fic because he's finally got someone to love, someone who loves him.

since i didn't see wheezie, sofia, or barry at the premiere (i think) i was sort of worried, and wheezie and barry haven't shown yet (obx has the best side characters like be for real even rose has an interesting role and all the side villain-ish people haunt you forever) -- but it's only the first episode of the first part and i'm willing to have patience !! i was so angry to hear it was coming out in two parts but i'm not gonna be having much time to binge anyways so i won't complain, i'm just way too happy with what i got till now and god i'm so thankful. all that stuff with tua and kaos yeah fuck you netflix but jeez. at least i have this and heartstopper ---- no, no, no, thank motherfucking god they didn't set these on fire. ugh i'm so happy right now. okay. gonna stop talking now. GAHK. so cute so perfect so happy i can't !!!!!!!!!!

...

(seriously tho rafe pulling that move near the end of the race?? i rly didn't know who to cheer for with rafe and jj doing that. i mean for the plot i gotta stand for jayj but i love rafe. don't we all on tumblr. but honestly i love rafe for doing that. bahaha my man like-- how am i supposed to explain this but like-- yeah sucks for the pogues i was really rooting for their life but rafael cameron my man - how i love saying that name - that's my man. that's my bitch that's my spontaneous asshole.)

(oh i'm not done yet -- i'm pretty happy with how the whole story of the first episode led us back to the end of the last season. to see an at-the-time-not-understandable time skip with them in their kooky - beautiful but just kooky for some reason - outfits ;; only to finally see with the release of this season that was actually them at their low after all those stuff. but they still dressin up, like they businesspeople mannnn, i love it. i love where we're finding them for season 4. and then right back where we started with the old adventure 'i'm definitely not going in there' 'pls stop ur tales jj' 'i've been looking for you' 'afternoon, sir' vibe ?? oh god that was so good, that was something ELSE. overwhelmed overemotional to the max. GAH FUCKING POGUE LIFE FUCKING P4L WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY)

(and i fucking love the soundtrack like what is it with this season. i need a playlist asap but since i don't have spotify and can't listen to the official stuff i'll just have to make or find a list of everything in the show and add each song myself--- jesus christ i haven't even finished the one for tua))

[tumb1rprincess]

Looks like we're getting into the "how much does someone's nature play a role in what they do" debate here. Like, John said it felt so natural to want to kill Oscar, but does that make it any less wrong? If a monster does horrible things because their nature, where do you draw the line of what's acceptable and what's not? Do you draw a line at all? TMA asked this question a lot and it will be interesting to see Malevolent's take on it.

This whole situation with John’s lying doesn’t have an easy answer. Like Arthur has every right to be angry, who wouldn't after something like that? But John is obviously sorry about what happened and hearing how lost he sounds is so sad. And then you remember that he was stuck in the Dark World again, beaten down so hard that he had to beg Kayne for help, and then he couldn't even talk to Arthur about it. Like, that's got to lead to a lot of trauma. At least in the prison pits, Arthur and John still had each other, but in the Dark World, John was alone. And Arthur even tells him that he gets why he made the deal and he wouldn’t have been mad about that if John had been able to tell him. Things seem okay with them now, but I don’t know, I feel like this isn’t 100% solved yet, they’re probably going to fight over this again in the future.

Okay that part with the owl was hilarious. Like, jeez John, you've picked up a lot since you've come to Earth, but you don't know what a fucking owl is? And he's just convinced it's a bad omen or something sinister and Arthur's just like "Hey, a new friend! I wanna pet it." I'm fucking dying.

lol Arthur going through the bag reminds me of cleaning out my purse every now and then. I’m like “Why the hell have I been holding onto this?” or “How did this get in here?” Although it was interesting to see everything they’ve accumulated since this series started, they’re like physical reminders of everything they’ve done together. I am laughing though at the idea of Arthur using a gun in medieval times, how long until his modern stuff freaks out the locals or something?

READ OSCAR’S LETTER GOD DAMN IT! Uuuugh, another mystery that’s going to bother me. I wanna know what it says damn it!

Oh claustrophobic tunnels, I have not missed you. And we got maggots to boot, yay. One damn of a creepy cliffhanger to end on.

[chemicallywrit]

Happy Audio Drama Sunday!! When I was a non-teacher adult I thought to myself, surely as a child I exaggerated the desperate need for summer break. Now that I am a teacher adult, I can admit that I was. Wrong. I need a break, but luckily I have time for this.

Here's what I listened to this week!

@ourstoriedinsight's season finale was this week and wow. Wow. The way this show so effortlessly dances on ideas of trust, truth, and ethics while telling a story of four (five? Sir George count?) ridiculous and reluctant heroes who have only a dead friend in common is staggering. This episode especially, as you can see how they really drew together against (and then with) Sage. I love them, your honor. And I would also let Rain be my lawyer. Everyone listen to Our Storied Insight.

Jeez louise @camlannpod, can you give a girl a break? I am so glad Gwaine’s okay, and I’m fascinated by the mistrust Peredur has for him, even after they tried to track him over hill and dale. And I am SO worried about what's about to happen next. I wonder what Dai's going to do about it. I wonder if he'll do anything (please, Dai, do something).

This week's episode of Josie’s Lonely Hearts Club had me rolling. Look, I knew the title going in ("It's French for A Horny Party") and I still cackled when the line appeared in the episode. Josie, I hope you continue changing for the better. Also it inspired me to make beans and rice for dinner and that was a wild success.

When Karim Kronfli showed up at the beginning of the season of Among the Stars and Bones, I was excited, but holy heck. The performances in this show. Oh, right, and the twist at the end--you know, I really should have expected things to get a million times worse, based on how last season went, but this is a MILLION times worse. How are they gonna get out of this one folks???

@keepitsteadypod KEEP IT STEADY IS BACK KEEP IT STEADY MY BELOVED. Things are REALLY going places between Zach and Gabe now and neither of them know it. I love high schoolers, they're so dumb. Admit you like each other, dummies. Shoutout to our great good school nurse trying to fight for kids, and I thought the reveal about Zach's past was remarkably done. I love this show.

In relistening news, Life with Althaar again (what's up, @geminicollisionworks!). I rarely relisten to shows, but this one is worth my while every time. Listen to Life with Althaar, a silly space sitcom that gets Not So Silly when the story decides to commit to the bit. Althaar, I would die for you.

Inn Between is truckin right along with 5.9 this week, which I found absolutely delicious to watch the actors bring to life. It’ll be outdone only by the episode next week. In zombie news, boy oh boy, this week we're doing some recording for The Dead that I'm very worried about but ready for the challenge of. It involves directing singers in a language I do not speak! Lol pray for me. If I can make it til school ends, maybe I'll have some other news as well! Keep a weather eye out.

Hey, want to help me satiate my sudden summer cravings for fun drinks? Buy me a ko-fi!

See y'all next week!

[alicepao13]

Hudson and Rex S02E16 - Flare of the Dog

Ah. Title puns. Okay, fine, that's decent, in my opinion anyway. What a good episode, though. I'm a fan of whump. Did I mention that?

"You know that real cops drink their coffee black". You've only had lattes all season, what the fuck???

Jesse is once again manning the office on his own. I hope they're paying him some overtime at least.

If you actually pause the screen when the arsonist is ready to throw the Molotov cocktail, then it's case closed.

RIP Charlie Hudson.

What do you mean, he got away without a scratch (and a busted ankle)? That blew up on his face! Oh, I know. Rex's tongue has healing properties.

I'll take your word for it, Joe. Since we didn't see it at all.

Dude expects to be instantly fine after that. Again, you're lucky you have your face intact.

Why no Sarah, by the way?

Um, are you serious? He just woke up.

I imagine it was the part where you told him to shake it off. Make up your mind, Donovan.

That might be the most thirsting anyone has ever done in this show.

Bud's wife is so sweet. And the scene is so sad.

That's putting it mildly, actually.

A firefighter who appears for the first time in an arson case AND flirts with Sarah? Yeah, who else could have done it? This is how I mostly find the culprit now. Through extensive experience in crime show plots.

"This is a secure area. I'm gonna have to ask you to leave". We are the police, Miss Red Herring.

We're stealing brownies now. Rex and Charlie are so bored.

Nurse: "Looks like you're diagnosed with lateral malingus". Charlie: "Malleolus". Nurse: "Yeah. Mallegolus. Magolus". I'd be feeling so safe in that hospital after this.

You wish. They're actually from the guy who tried to murder you. Charlie's disappointed "Ah" after that is closer to "ew".

Rex, my favorite judge of character. Except for that one time with Eva, although I believe they said that he was drawn to her because she was sick and he could sense it? Something like that.

Rex: What is your wannabe murderer doing in your hospital room and flirting with my wannabe mom, and also can I bite him?

Charlie: *notices the flirty vibe* I was literally gone for like half a day, what the fuck happened?

Oh I forgot that Joe's shotgun survived until S2 apparently. Might not be the same one, though.

Show, don't tell. In what way, shape, or form has that been showcased so far?

Jesse: [Charlie] would agree that this is a Bible verse. Charlie: I'm guessing it's an acronym. Oof. Tough loss.

IMHO means in my humble opinion? Not in my honest opinion?

It won't hurt you to sit your ass down for a few days. Or, well, it will, but it won't be the rest. Just the murderous psycho.

That's cute.

Good news, Jesse. You get to interview someone.

Oh, he's totally doing this on purpose.

*Charlie sees Sarah's caller ID* Charlie: Hey Sarah ☺️☺️☺️ Rex: ☺️☺️☺️ Sarah: I'm here with *longest pause ever* Asher. Charlie: 🙄🙄🙄 Rex: 😠😠😠

"Maybe the police should stick to investigating and the fire department should stick to inspections". Yeah, I bet you'd love that, Charlie. Jeez, the jealousy.

Charlie: Rex lost a partner. Rex: Don't tell my tragic backstory to him!

I think I can see the makeup cover work for John Reardon's arm tattoo.

Jesse: "This is nice. You know, you and I just figuring stuff out together. I like playing the Charlie". Sarah: "I'm the Charlie in this situation". lol. Also, what was it with that look, Jesse?

And now the mafia is involved.

"You could take Rex". Subtle way to get your partner to look out for the woman you like.

Listen, I might be making some shit up but I'm not making this up.

I'd say it actually looks pretty bad but given the very bad makeup work I've seen lately on 911 that should be better than this show, I'll just say this: Either get your actors to agree not to get tattoos in easily visible places or work the tattoo into the story, which is the normal thing to do. There's nothing in Charlie's backstory that suggests he'd never get a tattoo so I don't see what the problem was, and they eventually did it anyway.

"I'm gonna get all the head rubs I can before that guy runs away with my mom."

They took our case! Oh, well, we'll still investigate.

Drama queen Charlie Hudson, everyone.

She declared St.John's to be in a state of emergency for that? Just for that?

Okay, seriously, the "special police" sounds ridiculous. I hope that's not actually a thing, Canada.

Jesse: "And this is where I remind you that every time I go out in the field, something bad happens. I've been shot! I've been drowned!" This is actually a level of awareness that most crime show characters are incapable of displaying. Including Charlie.

"Our greatest weapon is Rex and Rex runs on snacks" lol

Jesse: Rex track! Charlie: Not now, Jesse. Rex: Rex don't track?

You know, yay for the whump and all, but I'm not a foot fetishist and we've seen Charlie's feet get too much screentime.

What's he looking at? God?

Charlie is in danger! *cut to commercial*

Jesse: I'm the Charlie. Rex: Fuck this, I'll just solve the case like I usually do anyway.

I like that in the scene where Sarah realizes Asher is the arsonist, one of our classic background tracks is playing and right on the moment she comes to the realization, it abruptly stops. It's the little things.

Oh, yeah, we're fucked.

Delicious. Finally some good fucking whump.

Asher: "Stop, Charlie. It won't do you any good". Well, he'll die for sure if he doesn't try so it won't do him any bad either.

Ouch. One with the floor.

"I'll toast at your funeral, Charlie". Motherfucker, up until that point you hadn't reached piece-of-shit levels because I've seen too many villains but after that, I wanted to watch you die.

"I'll take care of Rex for you". Like anyone would let you. I half expected him to say "and Sarah".

Sad AU where the reveal didn't happen, Charlie was killed and no one suspected Asher. Asher and Sarah started dating, Sarah adopted Rex, who of course never warmed up to Asher but he brushed it aside as, "he's just missing his partner and he thinks I'm replacing him in some way," which to Sarah doesn't even make sense, because she didn't know that Charlie liked her but Asher had realized it the minute he had stepped into that hospital room. Time goes by, and Sarah is noticing more and more things about Asher that don't add up, odd phone calls, smoke smell when he's not on duty, and such. She goes to Joe to share her suspicions and along with Jesse, they quietly reopen the investigation. The truth is, of course, shocking. That man had been to Charlie's funeral, had dated Sarah for months. There is no good ending, I mean, how could there be in this case? After arresting Asher, he tells Sarah that he's certain Charlie had a thing for her, which makes her feel even worse. Then Sarah goes to his grave with Rex and tells Charlie that they finally got his killer. But even as she tells him, she can't stop thinking of all the times that she'd gone to Charlie's grave with flowers and Asher had insisted on accompanying her and Rex, Rex's low growls and whines every time Asher went with them, and she now knew it was because Rex could tell: Asher had been practically dancing on Charlie's grave. [Sorry about that.]

Oh, I enjoyed Jesse whacking him. It wasn't much but it was something.

And closing the episode by making friends at the fire department and making Rex an honorary firefighter.

We literally never saw them again.

Aside from everything else, I also liked how the rest of the team took up roles that they don't usually do when Charlie was incapacitated. That was fun to see.

[not-5-rats]

I love the idea of Sugarboo bitching to their friend about Seth before going to talk to him (they tell their friend that he isnt actually that bad when they get back though) and their friend getting super annoyed at him for being...the way he was lol, then one day that friend comes over for an evening

(f/n = friends name, SB = Sugarboo but 'SB' = sugarboos name)

SB made them promise not to say anything rude and at first they did pretty well...but it was tricky for them. Ever since they were kids f/n had always defended SB, against bullies, creeps, their parents, anybody! And that wasn't ever going to change, not even now. It doesn't matter who this guy (Seth) was he had decided to be a dick towards SB and now f/n was gonna let him know what they thought about that.

It started with small things like calling SB Jo (Jolene) or Doll (Dolly Parton) in reference to what Seth called them when they met, saying that SB seemed quieter recently, noting how happy SB is with Al and that they've never seen them so peaceful in life (giving Seth quite the look as they said it).

Seth picked up on it but Al/SB suprisingly didn't so he convinced himself he was just overthinking it.

Later on Al and SB had to head out to the shops to get drinks, Seth said he would stay here and f/n decided to stay as well. When they first left the two spoke about how f/n and SB met, what f/n had been up to recently, what the trio had been up to and that's when they started making more obvious jabs at him

"So...heard you were quite dramatic when you introduced yourself"

"Oh, I'm guessing 'SB' told you all 'bout that huh?"

"You bet, they told me everything, everything you said, all the ways you put them down, made them feel they didn't belong, didn't deserve what they had. What they worked so hard to get"

He stared at them for a moment, he knew what he had done was rash and rude but he didn't know it had affected them that much

"Listen I know it was stupid, I didn't think about ho-"

He was cut off by f/n talking again

"No, I'm not done talking. Honestly woulda thought you'd learned some manners by now"

They rolled their eyes before continuing

"You made 'SB' feel like shit, worse than they've felt in a very long time. They have been through so much and finally after all this time they had found something, someone, that mad them happy. Gave their life thay purpose they had been searching for...but then you decided that you had to try and destroy all of it"

They paused their gaze falling to a picture SB had taken of themself and Al after baking, both of them covered in flour, smiling as Al wrapped his arms over SBs shoulders from behind. It was printed out and framed on the wall. They went to say something then their eyes drifted to a picture just below it, this one taken by Al. It was a photo of Seth and SB curled up together on the couch, they were both asleep but it was clear they were happy. f/n stopped and sighed

"You were a right asshole, and I'm holding it against you, I still don't like you at all...but 'SB' seems happy with you around"

There was silence for a minute as f/n looks back at Seth

"So I'm not gonna dig into you too much, but know this"

f/n leaned forwards in their chair, glaring over at Seth who was sat on the couch (Al and SB had previously been sat next to him)

"I am 'SB's closest friend, they mean the world to me and I don't want any harm coming to them. So if I hear that you've done anything that could lead to them getting hurt, I'll make sure they drop you faster than you could ever think possible"

Silence. Until it was broken by the sound of the front door opening and SBs voice could be heard from the hallway

"Heyyy! You two still here?"

"Hey babes! Yeah we're still here, been waiting for you two slow coaches to get back!"

The two appeared at the doorway, Al holding a carrier bag

"Jeez you are so impatient f/n-"

f/n shrugged and smiled as Al and SB took their seats back on the couch

The night went on as normal except Seth was off in a way the whole time, when f/n was leaving them and SB spoke on their own by the door

"Seems you've got a nice couple of boys here"

"Yeah, I love them. Being around them makes me happy"

f/n smiled and gave SB a pat on the shoulder

"I'm glad, really I am. Well I best be going. See you another time though?"

"Of course! Message me when you get home!"

They bid farewell. Yet during their little conversation Seth had been talking to Al, telling him he was worried SB was still upset by what had happened, Al was confused and even though he told him that SB definitely wasn't upset about anything that happened Seth wasn't totally convinced.

That night he brought it up with SB when Al was getting ready for bed and they told him the same thing, they weren't upset, sure they had been at the time but they weren't anymore. They're not the kind of person to hold a grudge. Then they asked him what brought this up, at first he shrugged it off but eventually he broke and told them about the conversation he had with f/n. When he was done explaining they looked at him and mumbled

"Oh really? I'm gonna go make a call, tell Al I'll be right back"

They then went and called f/n...what a convo that was. f/n explained that they were just worried about them, they didn't fully trust that guy and they didn't want anything to happen to them. SB told them that they can take care of themself and they don't need them watching over them anymore, they're not kids, they're an adult. The two made amends, f/n agreed it was out of line for them and SB told them that they appreciated the thought. They hung up and SB went back to their boys

"So...how'd it go?"

They got into bed and snuggled up between Al and Seth

"All good, f/n's just a bit of an idiot don't take anything they say too seriously hun"

[hikennosabo]

trimax vol 11 random thoughts

we're back to 6 chapters in this volume, huh!

i dont know if i'm ready for this, i still feel emotionally caught up in volume 10. but as always, i must press onward.

chapter 1:

CHAPEL JUMPSCARE?!?! WHY DOES THIS VOLUME OPEN WITH A SCENE OF CHAPEL. I THOUGHT WE WERE DONE WITH YOU!!!! GO AWAY!!!!

and we're back to legato!! yay!!! i feel like i haven't seen him in forever!! he's looking a little worse for wear...

HELPPPP HSDKLJFDKLSFJS SHE'S SO MEAN TO HIMMMM

"there's no reason why i shouldn't just kill you" SHE'S SO MEAN!!!!!

it's really such a funny dynamic and i agree that legato is very bullyable but where does this hostility come from, actually? does she view legato as a rival for knives's attention? does she just think he has rancid vibes? it seems kinda one-sided too, legato hasn't expressed the same degree of annoyance regarding elendira... or we haven't really seen what he thinks of her at all, iirc? he just kind of ignores her goading... which honestly makes this dynamic funnier LMAO

and now we cut to--wait, LIVIO CAN DRIVE?! ...actually, now that i think about it, he probably drove chapel around, right? chapel probably couldn't drive in the condition he was in...

WHAT'S WITH THE SWANKY-ASS CAR, THOUGH???

i am happy to see brad again. i am always happy to see brad

^ me when i see brad

vash is clearly so so so tired. he decided to trust livio because he trusts wolfwood who trusted livio, but he's also mad about it. he's still very raw and very angry with livio i think. and also just fed up with this conversation in general lol. he's low on patience.

"at least let me punch him," says brad, after he already did it! livio would take the punch either way, he thinks he deserves to get punched... (ourgh...) but if you're going to ask for permission, do it beforehand!

i've been physically holding myself back from making more ff7 comparisons than i have already, but this is not making it easy. also y'all are literally in a narrative i know this shit is NOT going to work.

knives using his sisters as a shield... again... well, maybe "using" isn't the right word in this case. i actually expected him to destroy the cannon, but his expression... he knew it wouldn't fire.

i'm wondering about the plants' will now... how much self-awareness do they have? is it like, collective? are they more of a hivemind compared to the independents? ummm... hmmm... uuuummmm... i still feel like i don't know enough about plants!!

also does this mean they could have refused to fuse with knives if they didn't want to? not like knives is a stranger to using force, but in the scene where he fused with that first plant, he did ask... ummm... gaahhhh... my soupy brain...

i don't remember who in stampede said non-independent plants don't have free will... but it's an assumption everyone in this world seems to have been operating on...

"it's possible that the plants could rebel against humans. if that's the case, then there's no way humanity could survive." <- yeah no kidding! so you gotta be niceys to them!

chapter 2:

i'm apprehensive about the earth humans arriving, they're gonna make this situation even more complicated...

YOU'D BEST START BELIEVING IN SCIENCE FICTION, NAMELESS RANDO, YOU'RE IN ONE

UUAAAGH MERYL AND MILLY :( one of them (i can't tell who's talking) mentions her family... ARE their families okay?? hmmm... if they were, they'd probably be in this city, right? so i guess not... or maybe the situation is just too chaotic to find them even if they are in the city.

we never learned that much about meryl and milly's families, but i liked what we did get. that bit all those chapters ago, which touched on meryl's feelings about her own family (jeez that was FOREVER ago?!)... i thought it gave an interesting dimension to her.

THE REUNION.. CAN I GET A HUG?? CAN I PLEEEAAAASE GET A HUG??

oh holy shit he is giving MAAAAJOR sephiroth vibes here and i love it. he is beautiful and terrifying. and he's losing his shape... a physical representation of him losing himself...

and the ark itself is giving... something... i don't really know what to make of this grotesque display. it's... a lot.

chapter 3:

actually, what are the earth humans planning on doing exactly. are they gonna gather everyone up and ferry them back to earth? provide resources and technology so they can continue living on noman's land? i mean obviously we have to deal with knives first but what about after that?

OH?! BRAD TO THE RESCUE?! UNEXPECTED BRAD & LIVIO FRIENDSHIP?!

girl me too.

of course she immediately picked up on what really happened, not like brad's lie was any good to begin with...

OH, CUTE!!! what's in vash's coat! a lil figurine... what else does he have. the communicator pen, a swiss army knife, a key, the coin case... and some miscellaneous things...

"to tell you the truth, it wasn't a priority of mine" about the coins... it wasn't a priority of the author either dw

BRAD LIVIO FRIENDSHIP CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE!!!! i love this, brad is trying so hard...!! he's so sweet... this is not a friendship i expected but i'm loving it so much!!!

:( vash crying over marlon's words to him is making me feel a type of way. it's something he needs to hear, but...!! "i don't know what else to do..." asking for help is easier said than done... he doesn't know how. i can relate...

and now we get... a big explosion and...!!!!

YES.... YES!!!!! LEGATO!!!!! MY SWEET (not an adjective that describes him in the slightest) LITTLE (also not an adjective that describes him) BAGWORM HAS FINALLY EMERGED FROM HIS COCOON!!!! i missed you so much honey i can't wait to see what fucked up shit you do next <3

oh also zazie's been cut in half. ehhh they'll be fine.

chapter 4:

oh fuck. this concept has been knocking around in my head for a while, and now it's been confirmed canon... it's never quiet for him anymore...

baby knives!!!!!! :(

someone: "you're nonbinary? but what's in your pants though?" zazie:

okay but jokes aside 1. GROSS!!!, 2. would this have even worked? legato and elendira recognize the danger so maybe it would have, 3. zazie says "we will use your powers for our purposes" which is... what? eliminating the humans, i suppose, and then... what?

huh... wait... is this how his powers worked all along or is this a new thing?? it's a new thing, right??

carve strings?? out of iron?? with what, his bare hands??? and he's moving by... puppeteering... himself?? that's... insane. i'm impressed.

i actually love seeing him up and moving around again, but i guess this means i can't call him a bagworm anymore... initially i called him a jolly rancher (because of his hair color in stampede and also because my friend called him "chewable"), then he changed to bagworm... which i guess was an upgrade since at least bagworms are alive?! i need another weird pet name for him. maybe i should just call him a moth now...

he's sitting like a frog :)

and he's imbuing the bullets with his power...! i see, that's how he defeated that big guy 2 chapters ago! ...and then livio startles him so much he leaves a hole. i'm sobbing.

handsome!!!! also "new hair, new outlook" hits different when it comes from vash, huh?

i am not gonna lie, the coin case has been such a nonentity in this story that i was temporarily VERY confused because i forgot it had come with the other halves already in the case.

also... elendira doesn't get one? why? is it because it's legato's game? so she refused to play... because she hates him...? LOL

and then. a random guy shows up. and gives them the last coin. why. listen nightow i know your initial plan for the coins went out the window and you need to wrap up this plot point now but like. is this REALLY the best you could do? LMAO

chapter 5:

oh boy... so much information here... the sudden reveal of another independent... and what to glean from all this about the relationship between plants and humans on earth... aaahghgh i wanted more information about this but now i have to wrap my head around it!! aaaaghh... my soupy brain...

"our generation was wired with neural blocking programs"... to prevent them from fusing? or is there more to it? hmmm. this is giving like. sci-fi advanced AI vibes. with a program that blocks them from going terminator. except the plants are made of flesh. or something. i'm... not sure how to feel about it, honestly.

i love seeing vash and livio being silly together. lord knows we need what silliness we can get.

vash going to press the switch and livio freaking out about it is SOOO funny BUT meryl DID tell vash that there were no explosives in the coin case. so he could've pressed it!!!

why is he flirting.....

i'm joking but also i'm not. but i think the only way these two would actually kiss is if they were playing a game of gay chicken.

...but come on, "let's kill each other, just the two of us"?? buddy...

also his uh... companion... helper...? is here...? is this the same one that was assisting him when he was a bagworm? ????? i still have no idea what they are or what to make of them.

?!?!?!?! RUDE?????

i mean she IS a bitch but i'm saying that as a COMPLIMENT. a compliment!!! as in "my wife is a bitch and i love her so much"!!! BUT VASH IS BEING RUDE!!!!

uagh, i had to post the full page, this is so lovely. i like seeing vash and livio bond; it looks like vash is warming up and happy that his choice to trust livio is paying off. and livio is trying really hard to live up to that. they both feel the impact wolfwood had on the two of them... it's very sweet.

this exchange is SO funny. just doing some diy with explosive items :)

uhhh, something something humanity's relationship with god!

right, this happened in the final fight in 98. "he cancelled me out..."

oh my god, FINALLY a fucking HUG around here!!!!!

they're sweet. :( also we need more hugs in this manga. EVERYONE needs a hug. what we really need is a big cuddle pile.

so much buildup... i'm scared. chronica turning off her "limiter program"... is this the same thing that prevents plants from fusing or is it something else? what is she gonna try doing?? ughhh, the apprehension is killing me...

chapter 6:

she's so cute... and she's soooo... COOOOL!!!!!

i love elendira, she is really cool and strong and funny, but... we don't really know anything deeper about her. what makes her tick? why is she following knives? are we gonna get a backstory? i wanna know everything about her!! i've wanted to know since her introduction!!!

and of course livio can live through getting impaled so many times. that's NOTHING to him. and his interaction with the kids is cute. and his reunion with jasmine is sweet. not going to say aaaanything about nightow's inconsistent timeline again...

actually no, i lied just now. it would be one thing if he had just... changed his mind midway though the manga and then stuck with it. but he's ACTIVELY going BACK AND FORTH on this. "six years" was LESS THAN 10 CHAPTERS AGO but if it still holds true then jasmine should NOT be this old. these chapters were published WITHIN THE SAME YEAR. RRAAAAAGHHGHGH

*cough* anyway. livio is such a big sweetie... i never disliked him, but my impression of him has changed. in stampede i didn't really know what to think of him. he didn't have a personality, he was just brainwashed. and his manga self was stoic and cool before. which... didn't seem like it was brainwashing, necessarily? i don't know?? maybe it was just an act he was putting on. he went goober mode as soon as the fight was over. perhaps no longer being beholden to EoM allowed him to embrace his inherent silliness. i liked his cool and stoic self but i LOVE his big silly teddy bear self. he's so... uwah. he makes me smile.

now that we're getting closer to the end i'm getting impatient... i feel the urge to just read the rest of it all in one go... but i mustn't... i must show restraint...!!!

[destinyroundabout]

CHAPTER 1 ACT III

"Skeletons, Puzzles, and Time powers"

The trio continued walking through the forest, encountering, the strange variety of monsters.

PAPYRUS: STRANGE, NO ONE HERE APPEARS TO BE PREPARING FOR GIFTUMN!

Allison: Giftumn?

sans: yeah its an annual thing we do at the harvest village. what, humans don't have that? man ya'll are missing out.

PAPYRUS: INDEED BROTHER! GIFTUMN IS THE BEST TIME OF THE YEAR! WHERE MONSTERS GATHER AROUND, PREPARING FOOD FOR A GREAT POTLUCK! OH SANS, REMEMBER OUR FIRST GIFTUMN? WE WERE ARGUEING OVER WETHER WE SHOULD BRING HOT DOGS OR LASAGNA! SO OF COURSE WE DECIDED TO DO BOTH...

While papyrus was rambling, dings popped out of the ground amidst the crowd of monsters.

Dings: Psst, kid, over here.

Allison: Oh hey dings. Why are y-

Dings: SSSHHHHHH. Quite down, why do you think I'm whispering?!

Allison: Jeez, sorry.

Dings: Take a look at this!

Dings pointed to a mysterious glowing object. Allison felt an unusual but familiar presence from it.

Allison: What...Is that thing?

Dings: Have you ever played a video game before?

Allison: Yeah?

Dings: Well, this star acts as a sort of save point. You touch it, and boom. Whenever you're in danger, you can always reset back to your previous save point! They're littered all over the underground. Only YOU can see them, so you have to keep them a secret.

Allison: ...Uh huh. Sure.

Dings: I'M SERIOUS. Look just- touch it.

Allison: ...Whatever you say Mr flower man.

Dings: Call me that again and your soul is being split in half.

Allison: Shiver me timbers.

Dings: Grrrr...

Dings was frustrated by his inferiority

Dings: NO ONE ASKED.

Lol. Anyways, Allison proceeds to touch the save point.

(This save point provides you with a sense of unease yet comfort for the rest of your journey. You're filled with DETERMINATION.)

Allison: Determination...

Dings: Looks like skyscraper over there is almost done yapping. See ya on the flipside kid!

Dings goes back into the ground.

Allison: That is one weird and grumpy flower.

PAPYRUS: AND THAT'S WHY THE CITIZENS WONT LET ME COOK ALFREDO AGAIN.

Allison: Wow! That is...quite the story papyrus!

PAPYRUS: WHY THANK YOU DEAR HUMAN...SAY I NEVER GOT YOUR NAME.

Allison: Oh, it's Allison. Allison M-

sans: zzzzzzzzzz...

Allison: Oh-I forget sans was here. How long has he been asleep?

PAPYRUS: WHO KNOWS, NORMALLY I'D THROW HIM AT THE NEAREST LEAF PILE TO WAKE HIM UP, BUT SEEING HOW HE HAS BEEN TAKING CARE OF THE FOREST AND VILLAGE...I THINK HE DESERVES IT.

Allison: Awwww that's cu-....uhhhhhh

The trio arrive at a strangle puzzle. It had three basketball hoops and a single bone lying at the centre of the room.

PAPYRUS: NYEHEHEH! ALLISON, WE'VE ARRIVED AT THE FIRST OF THE MANY GLORIOUS PUZZLES YOURS TRULY HAS SET UP!

Allison: There's more of these?!

PAPYRUS: I KNOW! ISNT IT EXCTING!!!

sans: oh we're here now.

PAPYRUS: OH HEY SANS.

Allison: So what am I supposed to do here? Throw the bone at one of the hoops?

PAPYRUS: PRECISELY! GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT!

Allison: Alright! I'll just grab the-

Allison: ...bone.

I feel like it's too early for that dog to show up.

PAPYRUS: ...LET THIS BE A LESSON AB

OUT WHY ROCKS ARE SUPERIOR THAN DOGS ALLISON.

Allison: That pet rock thing wasn't a joke??

sans: welcome to the underground kid.

PAPYRUS: NEVERMIND, HANG ON-

Papyurs puts down sans and reaches for one of his basketball shoulder pads.

PAPYRUS: HERE! USE THIS INSTEAD.

Allison: Well, at least it will be serving its actual purpose.

Allison shoots...AND SHE SCOOOOORES WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

PAPYRUS: NOT BAD HUMAN! YOUR REWARD SHALL BE EVEN MORE PUZZLES!!

Allison: ...wait what stopped us from just skipping this pu-

sans: don't question it.

PAPYRUS: THIS NEXT PUZZLE IS A LITTLE TRICKY! SO IT'S FINE IF YOU CAN'T...

The room is filled with random sheets of paper.

sans: oh yeah remember when I said this morning I spilled ketchup on the printer and it printed a bunch of sheets?

PAPYRUS: YOU NEVER MENTIONED THAT AT ALL!!!

sans: yeah exactly

PAPYRUS: (SIGH) WELL I SUPPOSE WE CAN SKIP THIS ONE. I FELT LIKE IT WAS TOO CHALLENGING ANYWAY.

Allison: What was it anyways?

PAPYRUS: JUNIOR JUMBLE!

sans: I still think crosswords are harder.

PAPYRUS: SANS WE ARE NOT HAVING THIS ARGUMENT AGAIN!!!

sans: hey I just speak the truth.

PAPYRUS: AND LOWERCASE!!!

Allison: Idk I think junior jumble is harder.

PAPYRUS: NYAHAHA! TAKE THAT BROTHER!

sans: oh well.

Allison: Psst, I think crosswords are much harder but I was just being nice.

sans: yeah thanks for that. yesterday he tried solving the horoscope.

Allison: I see.

PAPYRUS: ALRIGHT, NEXT PUZZLE! THIS ONE SHOULD BE EASY!

It's a bone maze...that's it. A maze made of bones.

Allison: I'm gonna ignore the fact that this maze is made of out bones.

PAPYRUS: OUR BUDGET IN THIS FOREST IS...LIMITED.

sans: we have a budget?

Allison: Well, better start walkin-

sans: hold it there kiddo.

PAPYRUS: WHAT IS THE MATTER SANS?

sans: why don't we make it more interesting? here.

sans gives Allison a snowball. Where did he get a snowball from???

Allison: Uhhh...

sans: ya gotta make it to the end of the maze before the snowball completely melts. shouldn't be a problem.

Allison: Sure...yeah...lovely.

This went on. For 5. Whole. Hours.

Allison: (HUFF) (PUFF) I DID IT! JESUS CHRIST AND HOLY MARY I DID IT!

PAPYRUS: WONDERFUL HUMAN! AND IT ONLY TOOK YOU FIVE HOURS, 36 MINUTES, AND 7 SECONDS!

sans: I'm surprised you managed to do it.

PAPYRUS: I'M SURPRISED YOU STAYED AWAKE THE WHOLE TIME!

Allison: How many puzzles are...(huff)...left?

PAPYRUS: ONLY ONE! COME INTO THE NEXT ROOM WHEN YOU'RE READY!

sans: by the way here.

Sans hands Allison some cinnamon buns and hotdogs.

Allison: Oh thanks! I was starting to get hungry.

sans: those actually heal your hp ya know?

Allison: Really?

sans: yeah. It'll be useful for combat.

Allison: Huh...(Oh, a savepoint!)

(The curiosity of what the last puzzles will be fills you with DETERMINATION.)

Allison: Ummm...Papyrus? Where's the puzzle?

PAPYRUS: NYEHEHEH...I'M AFRAID YOU'VE BEEN JAPED ALLISON! FOR YOU SEE, YOUR SKILLS IN PUZZLES WERE IMPRESS. HOWEVER, WE HAVE NOT SEEN YOUR SKILLS IN COMBAT!

Allison: W-what are you saying...

PAPYRUS: HUMAN! I CHALLENGE YOU, TO A TRAINING DUEL!

Allison: Oh dear lord.

sans: good luck.

END OF ACT III

[discluded]

I know this is old news by now but. As a queer person, this was it for me. Something about Apos energy here just screams *I’m extremely satisfied in my personal life thank yew 😉* and I was done.

https://at.tumblr.com/nattaphum/mile-and-apo-behind-the-scenes-of-the-dream-salon/wya5wvh8ca6q

Well, that and Mama Ps social media.

Apo's face is always sooooo smug about his mans it's 🤨😒😒😒 okay we get it. we're all peasants compared to you

lol this was immediately followed by Apo leaving when P'Seoul (the host) called Mile handsome... jeez no chill

uh... I don't know who Mama P is 😂 do you mean Mile's mother?

[dirtyoldmanhole]

halfway done with chapter 21.

JEEZ that is the coolest, fucking SPOOKIEST take on both gameplay mechanics of transformation (legit having the enemies forcibly transform into higher class versions of themselves? wat) and also the lighting. i'm really getting the sense we're honing in on the endgame with the high drama stakes.

(too bad xander/saizo/takumi/leo are like the four horsemen of the apocalypse in basically soloing the game between them lol. i should've cranked the difficulty one higher but honestly i'm glad i didn't because right now i'm just like .... single minded BLITZKREIG lol. i don't think i've ever been so focused on finishing a mainline FE in my life.)

i am half a mind just to blitz through the rest of that game to That Chapter tonight...... eeeep. eep eep.

also bonus:

SHUT UP XANDERRRRRRRRRRR----

(this game is dropping so many hints man)

[the-firebird69]

I feel like an idiot but I want to find out how fast this can go if that c7 can go 180 I mean come on doesn't even have curiosity 180 out of a freaking lawn mower that's ridiculous but then again our friend can run 120 miles an hour so what that's his dumb it's probably a John Deere okay LOL it says no I think it's a Troy-Bilt and really he wants to issue these stupid cars as troy-bilts and boy that's a good idea these guys like it they wouldn't let him remember the name and it sounds good he says it might be timing I got to do this works I can't figure out how that would work he says with my car and go faster he's and he wants to know that's me I want to know how fast that's ridiculous so I might show up for the race with my car on a lawn mower chassis yeah and I might beat him but they did extend the challenge

John Cena

We don't think you can do it you barely got him something and it cost you that's just way too heavy we're going to try it using our cars I have the c8 now and he has the GT both of them are very fast and with the light weight it should go faster I've never heard of anything that was that fast it's not true it might even go faster with these designs and will he says about 10 or 20 mph and that's stupid 200 mph on a lawn mower it has to be done and it's this cow manure and other things that bja and his are up already he says it's not very hard to make you have BG make the shell and you can make molds from a clay or whatever makes it out of wood he probably should make it out of wood that's also symbolic he doesn't need to have the exact design you can get it pretty close and for the lawn mower chassis and he's smiling and saying I might do that but wow 200 miles an hour jeez

John Cena

We think ours will go faster with this particular Hull and were going to put it together. So we're getting together our stuff and we're going to build it and we're going to make several versions and we're going to arrange for a race off Vegas and yes we can get away but really we're going to do this he says if we don't get away we'll leave the prototype and they might stop and we want them to have it now I'm starting to see it we use their methods but the best stuff we can find for a decent and yeah we think it'll go fast with a 45 two steps up with a differential super cool everything with the John Cena cenerraider shell and new tires rim suspension so use the chassis and the drivetrain new controls and interior and I think it'll go plain Jane it's like BG and his new cars it's very light and it's effective but only one seat and no finishes it says Matt finish and we'll do that to make it look decent and really we think we'll get 220 mph and it won't be able to beat us we have two people who want to be the test pilots and he says that she should do it it might help us get away he wants her to do it because she's angry and frustrated needs to beat them at something so she's going to go ahead and do it he beats them at buttering his toast correctly. Everyday. We're going to get this going

Frank Castle hardcastle

I'm owed too many lawns I mowed too many lawns I can't stand this it's perfect

Bja

Oh boy I'm going after my old people by accident now I have to stop them and I can't he's saying it might be back proper inside or Interrupters and we fight all sorts of stuff this is great I designed this car built it and I have to be the one to do this he says sometimes people say they're good or they don't then again it goes the other way and out in Vegas fighting over the house with the rising Sun this actually blows we're going to do that video and I think it's to fight over racing or something

Trump

It's actually you guys going out there beforehand and to try and get your cars out there and you can't and you have these other cars they have nothing to do with it at all and what he's saying is you meet up and put them on the same car carrier and they said you're crazy but okay they might try that he says the only other way to do it cuz you put a different body on it and you take the body off and you put the new one on it when you get there they say this is nuts too so they're going to try both

Duke Nukem Blockbuster

I might do it that way but I have easier stuff but not really that sounds great and just bringing their panel or two time and you're driving in it's like a Toyota Corolla that's kind of the weirdest thing I've ever heard showing up for the car that's like a race car it's not that powerful insanity to put a shell on it you're going to drive down the strip with a damn thing can you imagine this sounds like fun

John Cena

We have to put a special permit out there nobody's going to get there

Mac daddy

We probably do that

James kahn

Olympus

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Wednesday, April 3rd, 2024!

9:47pm: Had a ft call with him and idk it's always fun in the moment bc I truly don't like or respect his gf so I hardly remember she exists.... But does he also forget she exists?? Lol. Idk man life is crazy.

He told me basically no matter how happy his partner makes him, he's always going to compare the partner to me. He said he liked that I have him his space and time to be quiet whereas she constantly needs direct attention. Idk this isn't the first time he's said this to me, it also doesn't really sound like a bad thing/ dealbreaker? I mean jeez you got what you wanted man and it's still not enough 🤷‍♀️ I think we just think differently tbh. But we both agreed the whole not being able to talk to each other is making it like pent up emotion when we do talk to each other, it is like an addiction and like taking a hit of something. We know full well that we're capable of normal conversation with each other but 90% of the time, shit just escalates and it's like a crazy boost to the brain. I think for me, it's literally bc I don't have any other source of this type of attention, but for him? He said it's like compulsive behavior which is wild to me bc he actually could get this from another person? He's putting 100% of the blame on himself though and I'm glad because I don't feel like being responsible for his shit tbh I am not the one that needs to feel some type of way about it, I'm not doing anything wrong. He also said he likes me because (I forget the words he said) he said I'm basically always down or willing which he said really flatters him lmao 🤣 that's kinda funny, he said that's it's like "oh for me? ;)" and that he just enjoys it.

The weirdest part of the call though,,, he didn't remember sending me d pics literally last week? 🤔 I don't know what was up with that. I think he really just goes somewhere else in his mind when he's doing this emotional cheating stuff. I am pretty convinced that he has some type of compulsive disorder at this point. It's cool that he's becoming self aware and everything.... But do I want *this* crazy as my husband, father of my children? Too early to say really. He really does too much and seems somewhat mentally unstable. I think we still want to see him in his single era, definitely want to see him outside of his parent's house again era and also see that post-gf side of him. Would he still call me like that if he wasn't literally cheating on his gf now? Hard to say 🤔🤔🤷‍♀️

Long story short, this is fun bc I'm still getting my lick back tbh, anddddd for a husband I could probably find someone who wouldn't do this to me or anyone else and who is not mentally unstable 💀 no offense but like been there done that tbf. The one thing I MUST NOT DO to preserve my self respect is hypothetically let him jump right back into my life if he breaks up with her bc at the bare minimum we need to see what happens when he's single with his thoughts. That will probably help him with constantly needing external validation from women if he doesn't have that option constantly yk? Right now he's got it made, but I feel like I'm more on track for the long haul, and he's living up life like there's no tomorrow still. One day at a time (for us both).

11:16pm: Still thinking, I brought up again how I could never be tracking my bfs location bc I just... What tf is the point it clearly doesn't work lmao. But he said it helps him like a reminder to not do bad things, like it really prevents/ discourages him from cheating and ig being sketchy in general..... Again I am literally not going to be the one pulling my hair out trying to police my partner's every move, how long they sit in the car (jeezus) where they go and for how long like wtf she clearly doesn't have a life outside of him and that's just sad af. Plus omg he's basically saying he needs to be *constantly reminded* to not cheat ffs??? 💀 Literally couldn't be me, and if they want to cheat....... They literally will bro you can't stop it 😬 I digress, that will never be my damn problem 😂 give yourself an ulcer bc ur bf is at work too long 🤢👁️👄👁️ yuck yuck yuck. And the fact that he goes "I totally understand where she's coming from 🙂" as he literally pulls his dick out on facetime 💀 SIS IT DOESN'T MATTER that you're tracking him it's just..... Whyyyy put yourself through that girlllll you know what you got yourself into omg why is she so stupid 💀💀💀

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #190

Did you enjoy high school? In some ways yes, in many others, no. There were days in high school where I wanted to be dead, like I was extremely depressed, but I also enjoyed having a social life. I miss old friends, I cherish times we laughed together and were just kids, but I would also never go back. I had good relationships with my teachers, too, so that helped.

What’s an unusual food combination you like? Waffles lightly slathered in peanut butter with normal syrup on top of that. It's fucking heavenly.

What’s the longest stretch of time you’ve spent completely alone? A few weeks, somewhere close to a month. This was when my mom went to New York while her mother was dying. I can't remember what it was, but it was a new YouTube hyperfixation that let me get through such a long period by myself; I tend to get lonely if I'm by myself for merely one full day, but I was totally fine during this period because I was into something.

Did your parents allow you to drink soda when you were a kid? By a certain age, but definitely not regularly.

Did you ever go through an emo or goth phase? Emo for sure, but I still consider myself a goth at... heart, lol, because I definitely don't have the money to dress like one, nor do I wear makeup. My heart's there though, haha.

How many times have you stayed at a hotel in the past year, and where? Not even once.

Do you take a walk every day? No.

Who was your favourite musical artist when you were 15? Do you still listen to them? Ozzy Osbourne, and yes, he's my favorite artist of all time.

When was the last time you ate at a food court and what did you get? Oh jeez, I have absolutely no idea.

How do you like your eggs cooked? Scrambled, especially with cheese.

What's your favourite place to go on vacation? I don't go on vacations enough for this.

Have you ever done your own compost? No.

Would you ever get a tattoo on your hand or foot? Yes; I already know I want some on my hands, and feet will probably happen eventually, at least little stuff. I've never really seen foot tattoos I like, but with how many I want one day, it'll likely happen.

Do you open your doors and windows on warm days? We tend to keep our back door out onto the porch open if it's nice out, because it's a meshed-in porch that Roman absolutely loves sitting out in. We'll open windows if there's a nice breeze and we're kinda hot.

Are the blinds/curtains in the room open or closed right now? I keep them open during the day because it helps my depression to feel less closed in.

Were you mean to anyone in high school? No, I minded my business and treated others how I wanted to be treated.

Have you ever accidentally started a fire? Not me specifically, but as a child, we once tried doing that over-the-stove popcorn and it set on fire; I remember Mom or Dad had to use the fire extinguisher.

What is the last note you edited in your phone's notes app? One where I have gift ideas for Girt.

Who is your favourite coworker? You can tell me about one from your past if you don't have one right now. I have so little job experience that I don't really have an answer.

Do you know anyone who's adopted a child? I have an old school friend who was adopted, but I don't know anyone who did adopting. Well, my sister's husband legally adopted her daughter from another relationship, but I don't think that's what you mean when talking about adoption.

What was the last video game or board game you purchased? I think the last game Mom was kind enough to buy me was SOMA.

Are any of your siblings taller than you? Bobby's way taller than me, and Ashley is a bit taller than me. I think Nicole is right about my height. I know Misty is shorter, and I thiiink Katie might be too?

Name a song that reminds you of a past relationship: "Another Life" by Motionless In White. Once upon a time I couldn't listen to it, but I can now, I just feel an ache.

Have you ever seen a building on fire in real life? Yes, a house burned down in my childhood neighborhood.

Have you kissed anyone and their first name started with an F, D, or L? A "D."

Have you ever been in therapy for anything? I've been in therapy since the 6th grade.

Is there any part of your sexual/romantic history that you have not told your current significant other about or that you will not tell future partners about? "I mean, I haven’t told him every detail, but not because it’s a secret or anything, it’s just not relevant to our relationship." <<<< This, it'd be weird if I just dumped random details on him that had zero bearing on our relationship. I wouldn't keep anything secret though, I think couples should be very open about their sexual pasts for safety reasons.

Have you ever developed feelings for someone whose sexual orientation was incompatible with yours? HAHA YEAH, kinda. In middle school I think I mighta liked this guy William, who ended up being gay. I was never totally sure if I liked him more than a friend, though.

How many relationships have you been in that actually got sexual? Three-ish, barely.

Who performs the most random acts of kindness out of everyone you know? My mom, easy.

Who’s the most romantic person you ever went out with? Jason.

Last person to tell you that you smell good? Probably Girt.

Last person you told that they smell good? Girt.

Who did you have your first kiss with? Do you remember what color his/her eyes were? Jason when I was barely 16, and yeah, brown.

Which edible flowers have you tasted? None that I know of.

What was the last video you added to your favorites on YouTube? It was some photography advice.

Do any of your family members have an upcoming birthday? No, no more birthdays in the family 'til mine next year.

Is your favorite animal endangered? No, oh my god I don't think I'd be able to function if meerkats were endangered, lol.

What is the middle name of the last person you texted? Marie.

Have you ever come close to drowning? No, thank goodness.

What’s the cutest thing your S/O does, but denies it’s cute in any way? He's such a scaredy-cat with horror stuff and it's honestly adorable, brooding six-foot man can't get past the first Necromorph scene in Dead Space 'n' shit like that lmfao.

Have you ever dined alone at a restaurant? No.

Have you ever changed in front of the last person you kissed? No, I'm too self-conscious.

Have you experienced any severe side effects of medications? Yes; a few have made me vomit, and a certain form of Wellbutrin makes me manic and also causes frequent bodily spasms for me.

Have you ever had a big YouTuber reply to a comment you left on their video? I don't think so, but I do know I've had some heart or pin a comment.

Have you ever given a lap dance? No.

Do a lot of people tell you that you are funny? I wouldn't say a lot.

Have you gone to a tanning bed lately? I've never been to one once and I never will.

What did you do on the Fourth of July? Mom, Girt, and I made hot dogs with corn on the cob, we later made s'mores outside, and we watched some Black Mirror.

Do you have nice legs? No.

Have you ever been to Ohio? Once, yes. That's where my dad is from.

Do you like The Goonies? I remember nothing about it now, but I did like it when I saw it.

Do you prefer hardly toasted at all or burnt toast? Very, very barely toasted.

Do you have any unusual skills? Not really.

Do you have any bug bites right now? No.

Is there anything annoying you at the moment? No.

Are there any forms of art you personally find pointless? I don't think they're objectively pointless, however I personally don't get a lot of abstract art. Like, stuff that looks like random paint splatters on a canvas and costs thousands of dollars and stuff.

Do you have any projects on the go right now? Not really, no.

Are you a hat person? Nah.

Has anyone ever approached you in the street and asked to take your picture? No, I think that would freak me out, though from a photographer's perspective I know it should probably be a compliment lol

What song's stuck in your head? None currently.

Do your feelings get hurt easily? Kinda, yeah.

Have you ever seen a cougar in the wild? No.

When was the last time you took a selfie? Idk, it's been a very long time.

Do you have any nieces or nephews? I have quite a lot, but only three are regularly in my life. That doesn't disqualify the others or mean I don't love them too, but my relationship with Ashley's children is definitely different than, say, Misty's.

Do you have a good relationship with your cousins? No, I barely even know my cousins.

Are there any upcoming events for you to look forward to? Yeah, this weekend Mom and I are going to a family friend's surprise party.

How many siblings does your significant other have? One sister.

Have you ever done three or more shots in a row? I've never done shots, I know I'd absolutely hate it.

What was the last zoo you visited? Sylvan Heights Bird Sanctuary, if that counts.

[pretendstoread]

i smoked a cigarette and i wasnt even that drunk

there were a few things i wanted to write about today but theyre lost to me now and i wish i at least wrote down the general Idea. but i've at least noticed that ive been actively Indulging in more...taboo? things i wouldn't normally or were too scared to try. i've smoked two cigarettes this summer (woah!), had two shroom trips (WOAH!), had sex with a man for the first time (JEEZ!!), i'm smoking weed more often (hmmm....), and i'm thinking of testing the waters with (recreational?) adderall. this is not to say that i'm going downhill, or self sabotaging, or actively trying to harm myself and others. in fact, i quite like this sort of indulgence i'm in. let me do some unhealthy things right now. i don't think i Deserve it but i just....idk...i kinda need it?

i've always been in this need for control--to have it, to be in it. it's very hard to do new things that way because i don't know what i'm getting into. i'm at the whimsy of the uncomfortable zone. i focus too much on the potential negative of a situation: i'm going to have a bad trip, i'm going to make a bad drawing, i'm going to humiliate myself because i am New To This. and that's where i lack grace and freedom and embracing the Fun of being new.

it sucks that being new at something, trying new things, meeting new people, putting yourself out there in some capacity makes me feel like a burden. if i'm not the responsibility of someone else (i.e. a supervising coworker, a babysitting friend, an experienced lover) then i'm a burden to my own ego. even if i'm alone in my room trying to shake my ass i still feel incredibly embarrassed by my own reflection. seeing such failure (seeing my own body) is maybe worse than sharing it with someone else. there's a humor in that vulnerability that brings me closer to whoever i'm sharing that with: coughing while smoking a cig, readjusting on a dick, spilling a nutcracker in your hair while tripping on the beach are all moments that, while silly and messy and unprepared, bring me closer with the person on the other side of that. it shows a little bit of humanity and humility.

that is not extended to moments with myself though. i dont really know how to fully explain it. maybe it's some degree of not being comfortable with myself or perfectionist problems i have and self-perception etc etc etc. but have you ever failed yourself so hard you don't even want to try again? there is no one else to laugh along with you or reassure you or empathize. when i fail myself, I Fail Myself. yknow? ehhh not really something i want to think about further.

random things i have Happy Feelings for:

came home last night after being in a weed comatose at nat's and hammered nails into my walls so i can hang my belts. it was a random spurt of energy that got something i wanted done but for some reason never tried to do in my free time (i realize i am wayyyyy too adaptable to my own traps of inconvenience. i put the bag of toiletries in my room to Force Me to unpack them and ultimately left it in the way for a couple weeks before just stuffing the whole bag in the closet.)

really liked todays episode of the sopranos: s1e12. junior and tony both deal with mortality in different ways. not much more to say on it right now

also between this episode ^ (isabella the madonna hallucination), honestly themes of the show in general, and watching contrapoints content i've gotten a little interested in reading more about freud LOL. he kinda makes a lot of points??? like we all know this we're just freaked out about the mommy sex stuff. there's a tangent contra video on gamergate and an article she sourced talked about Gamers feeling threatened about their Space, their Games, being taken away by The Woke Mob--AKA women, aka MOMMY. the looming fear of mom coming in your room and saying it's time to stop playing. getting grounded and no video games for a week. mom said it's my turn to use the xbox. that fear recurring in these sad adult men being forced to look at their own flaws. their lack of perspective. stupid sluts coming in and ruining the fun, taking away our games. i found that psychoanalytic perspective reallllllyyyyy interesting

finding a new perspective on chores and self care: there's no rush with it. this is not a thing that needs to be Taken Care Of right this second. my whole evening should be dedicated to doing things on My Terms. i spend 40 hours of my week, every week, doing things on another entity's terms. i do shit when i wanna!!!! and it's for ME!!!!

[gregorovitch-adler]

The Resident Patient - 2

Ooh, Stam-o's intro is here! I like it hehe.

"Just a light-hearted tale of some friends having a sleep over." Yeah, I think not. 🤭

Poor John got kidnapped in the end of Part-1.

"What did you see, John?" Love it when Sherlock calls him John in this version!

John being sassy about the supposed ghost attack is amazing lol. Love his overall characterisation.

"He wasn't on his tippy-toes, was he?" That delivery in Sherlock's voice was funny.

John says "tippy-toes" is childish and lame, forgets to edit it out. Again. Typical him.

I love the fact that they played the mic recording multiple times to analyse that thud and the sprint. Maintains the sense of thrill and intrigue quite well.

"You are beginning to echo his fear, are you not?" Sherlock was actually quite considerate of Avery when John tried to be dismissive of him and his "illusions".

So, we're still on with that condom case? 🤭 How many times are condoms going to be in crime-solving in this adaptation? First The Solitary Cyclist, and now this.

"Nobody does need me." - Sherlock Holmes.

Yeah, no. Millions of people in the real world disagree with you on that, dear.

"The only crimes that happen here are tax evasions and high-end sex-work. You don't strike me as either." (Paraphrasing).

This episode is filled with banging one-liners. 😂

Side note but Blessington's voice actor has done a great job in this adventure.

John is back with his ramble-y self again.

Damn, Sherlock. Those words were harsh! Even I thought he was saying all that to John for a sec lol.

"What's exactly going on in your mind? Wait, not exactly. The Watson-friendly version." - 🤭

Perfect, now he fancies a sleep over at the bloody clinic.

He's an idiot, your honour.

But he's our idiot.

Oh, they're staying in one room but on two single beds. 👀

"I breathed in. Then, I decided it was best to breathe out, a few seconds later."

The writing team wrote a banger of an episode this time. Don't get me wrong, I've enjoyed all episodes of this podcast so far, but this one is particularly standing out because of all the sass.

Did John just talk about wanting to change with Sherlock right there in the room? Maybe I'm reading too much into it.

"You have a sharp mind, Watson. You're brilliant, and your thoughts are never stupid." (Paraphrasing).

Aww. 🥺 I love them so much.

Aaand he calls him stupid again. 🤭

"Fill a brother in." I really like it when Sherlock's voice expresses happiness or laughter. Love his voice actor's job too, especially in this episode.

"If you don't convince me, you have to wear the jacket." - I love their banter a lot.

Sherlock is here with the jacket of shame! You have to wear it now, Watson.

I can't believe John is seriously suspecting Percy in this case. Let's see what happens next.

Hey, Sherlock? John was already scared to death in the beginning of this episode, because he was actually attacked in the end of the previous one. Can you tone down with your horror narration? Ffs.

They got locked in! Even the window wouldn't open.

Good thinking on Sherlock that he decided to use that "disgusting jacket" to protect himself from the shards while smashing open the window.

This case is really exciting.

Poor Sherlock is starting to sound disheartened now.

Jeez, what a twist! Avery hanged himself?! Wtf??

Onto the next part of this case, then. Another cliffhanger.

I missed the intro/outro music. Here it is, again. Lovely.

See you next week. Bye!

I finally got down to listening to Sherlock&co.

1.) I really like this new take on he Holmes adaptation. It's different and interesting. Sounds fresh.

2.) Their voices are distinct, but personality wise, Sherlock is quite similar to BBC Sherlock's Sherlock. But not John.

3.) John is so hilariously awkward and I get so much second hand embarrassment listening to him. 🤭 But I quite like this new way of characterising him. He is authoritative when he truly needs to be. But the rest of the time, the intro and outro of his podcast are record so pathetically lmfao. Love this John Watson.

4.) Mariana from Hudson's instead of just Mrs Hudson? I thought her character was going to be based on Mary Morstan from ACD canon (because of her name), but not really. She's a completely different character altogether. And Sherlock keeps calling her Mrs Hudson and she keeps correcting him saying it's Mariana from Hudson's. XD I can't say much on her character because I'm just on The Illustrious Client right now, but she sounds likeable.

5.) I love how they chose this story (The Illustrious Client) as their first one in the series of podcasts. I really liked that one in ACD canon too. The plot was quite intriguing and I like this idea a lot.

6.) John always calls him Sherlock but Sherlock calls him Watson sometimes. Many a time, actually. What's that about?

I'll probably make more posts as I keep listening to more. That's all for now.

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