#jay: lmao you're literally an angel

[byfulcrums]

I read a fanfic where the flashfam killed Eobard and he just kept on coming back so eventually murdering him and hiding his body became family bonding time

[puma-riki]

✮⋆˙Can't Feel My Face˙⋆✮

Synopsis: Rockstar! Heeseung as your boyfriend

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: none

A/N: REUPLOAD ON MY NEW ACCOUNT

Heeseung | Jay | Jake | Sunghoon | Sunoo | Jungwon | Ni-ki

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Rockstar! Heeseung is a global sensation. His fame is international, his name alone sends shockwaves through the music industry, and he has fans from across the globe who worship the ground he walks on.

Rockstar! Heeseung sells out massive venues in every major city. Fans are captivated by his performances which are a magnetic display of raw sensuality and dark captivating energy

Rockstar! Heeseung has designer brands tripping over their own feet to have him model their product. His face on their advertisements promises sales to skyrocket.

Rockstar! Heeseung is highly sought after both in the industry and by fans everywhere.

Rockstar! Heeseung is also off the market and pathetically shameless about it

Rockstar Boyfriend! Heeseung has been dating you since before his debut

He boasts about you every chance he gets to whoever will listen, his fans, interviewers, hell even the paparazzi that follow him everywhere.

"Heeseung! You did so well today, the energy was insane!"

"Ah, Thank you thank you. My girlfriend was in the crowd with you guys, so you know I had to make it memorable."

"Fans are dying to know what the inspiration behind this album is! Your new album blew straight to the top of the charts upon release and it truly is a masterpiece. So what's the story behind it?"

"Ah, Thank you so much, truly. My girlfriend actually was a big inspiration behind this album-"

"Heeseung! Heeseung! Where are you headed after the show tonight!?"

"I'm going to my girlfriend's!"

His fans (like anyone) know about you and actually find your relationship sooo cute. Often at his shows and fan meets, his fans will actually be the first to bring you up.

"Heeseung, I made this for [name], could you give it to her next time you see her?"

"Of course, She'll love this actually!"

Being famous also means he earns money faster than he can spend it.

That being said he loves buying you stuff, whether you're with him or not.

He could be in a whole different country and he'll see something that he thinks you'd like or would look good on you or something stupid that just reminds him of you and he's already swiping his card.

"Heeseung, you don't have to, this is too expensive for me."

"Which is why I'm buying it, If you like it there's no reason you cant have it, angel"

You will be all over Heeseung's social media and even his YouTube channel, which his management runs.

Heeseungs personal social media is mostly edgy promotional stuff, but he likes posting pictures of you and him together.

His YouTube is primarily for behind-the-scenes chats. Behind-the-scenes photoshoots, music video shoots, and even concert performances.

And you're in majority of these videos because Heeseung tries to bring you literally everywhere with him if you're able to come with him

In an interview he'll gush about how nervous he is to shoot something because you'll be watching from behind the cameras

"You look amazing in this collection. What do you think?"

"Thank you, but I think [name] would look 100 times better in this collection than I do!"

And the editors will add a little note like "Gushing about his girlfriend, [name]"

Hee[name]luvr23: editors thought we were new lol

User27578: if you don't know [name] then do you even know who Heeseung is LMAO

You appear so often that you'll even get your own little interview segment.

"What are my thoughts on today's shoot? I think Heeseung does everything well, his expressions and stage presence is always so intricate. He couldn't possibly mess anything up today, he looks great."

You basically gain your own fanbase from Heeseung without doing anything

Like you have fan accounts and everything Heeseung eats up those edits of you

Backstage moments at concerts are also not free from Heeseung's constant talk about you, cameras present or not.

"Everything's ready for you, we're just waiting to start. Are you ready?"

"Yeah, definitely. Oh by the way, [name] picked out my outfit for tonight. She said it would make me look more rockstar-like. What do we think?"

"Well, she's not wrong."

HeeHee1015: EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU [NAME], GOOD LOOORRDDD

[name]'slovebot: just put [name] on his styling team already HE LOOKS SO GOOD OMFGFDSHWAKJ

Heeseung, being the music prodigy he is, spends a lot of time in the studio with his producer. His music is a hypnotic blend of dark sultry beats and atmospheric melodies that pull his listeners into a world of sensuality and introspection.

His sound is smooth yet edgy, weaving elements of R&B and synth-pop to create tracks exploring themes of love, desire, and inner conflict.

His lyrics cut deep. Filled with vulnerability, seduction, and desire also WHINY ASS HELL.

So what's this cheesy pop boy band love song doing in there?

While a lot of his songs are about you and follow that dark and sultry vibe, he does like to explore other genres of music and make something that's just special for you.

His producers know good and well why there's songs like that sprinkled in his edgy discography.

But that doesn't stop them from asking just to give him a hard time.

"This one really stands out from the other tracks. What's the story here?"

"Oh, it's uh... you know, for [name]. Just felt like I had to sneak it in there. She's on my mind all the time so it only makes sense."

like it's okay we can all see you blushing behind that mic no need to be shy

He also LOVES to sample voicemails and voice messages you send him, he also asks you to come into the studio to record adlibs and/or to be on background vocals.

He thinks your voice is heavenly someone save him

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Heeseung is hunched in front of his computer in his studio late at night, working on a new track for his album. Your voice plays through his headphones as he's tweaking it to fit into the intro to his song. He's oblivious to your knocks on the door.

You peek through the door and spot your boyfriend, repeatedly clicking his mouse as he works and resting his chin on the palm of his hand. You smile softly and step into the room, shutting the door behind you.

"Boo." You say, slipping heeseungs headphones off his ears. He jumps slightly before smiling and swiveling his chair around towards you.

"Hey, is this my voice?" You ask furrowing your eyebrows as you hear the song blasting from his headphones.

He only grins and pulls you to sit in his lap, "Come listen," You pull the headphones over your ears as Heeseung lets the track play from the beginning. Sure enough, your voice is being played in the intro of his song, muffled because its an old voicemail you had left him, however long ago you dont remember.

"You're really out here sampling anything into your songs." You playfully roll your eyes and slip the headphones off your head and place them on his desk.

"Hey, its not just anything. Your voice totally fits the vibe of this song. And it makes the song more..." He trails off trying to find the right words, while you run your fingers through his hair. It's already tousled and messy from the amount of times he's run his own hands through it. "...more personal. It makes it feel more intimate and real."

"mmm, really?" You hum, a finger trailing from his temple down to trace his jaw. The way Heeseung always weaves pieces of you into his music makes your heart flutter and your heart race.

Heeseung's arms tighten around your waist, trying to bring you impossibly closer. His lips purse into a line as he looks at you with star-filled eyes, something he does when he wants something.

"Hey, I was thinking, actually... could you record a few lines for the backtrack. And maybe you could hum like you just did." He sounds almost breathless when he says the last part, he doesn't mean too but you're so close to him and you look so gorgeous.

"you're ridiculous," You playfully roll your eyes, resting your hands on his shoulders. "It's almost 3 in the morning, Hee. You should go to bed and come back to this tomorrow."

Heeseung is a simple and weak man so who is he to protest. "Okay, how about a kiss in the meantime then?"

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His friends, love you to death like that's gang, but Jesus Christ if they hear one more thing from Heeseung about you then you're gonna be out of a boyfriend.

Jay: Remember that after party in Tokyo?

Heeseung: Oh yeah, I remember before that [name] and I got lost trying to find this ramen house and ended up walking around the whole city before we found it.

Sunghoon: Bro, we were talking about the party.

Like I said before, Heeseung tries to bring you everywhere.

He gets so excited when he brings you as a plus one to red-carpet events and gets to match outfits with you

Will just about die if you try to step away from him, so reporters can take photos of him.

"What are you doing all the way back there??"

"I'm just giving you space so they can't take photos of you, Hee"

"But I want you up here with me."

pouty and utterly pathetic

and also captured on camera because fans go crazy over Heeseung pouting over you even being 2 steps away from him. Like okay, my turn when?

Your #1 hype boy

Always redirects attention to you when you guys are interviewed at these events

and you're a bit embarrassed because like?? YOU'RE the plus one, HE was invited here lmfao

"Heeseung! You look so good tonight. Who's you're date!?"

"My girlfriend, [name] We're matching tonight but I think she definitely pulls this look off better than me!"

Then he makes you twirl for the camera and the camera will zoom out to show both of you and Heeseungs eyes are GLUED to you and everyone can see the love and adoration in his eyes.

Also super attentive during these events and also when you're out in public with him in general

"Are you good? Are you ready for all of this?"

"Is this okay with you?"

"Let me know if you're uncomfortable, okay?"

"Just say the word and I'll take you home, angel."

Atp I think he's more eager to go home than you are.

If you thought he couldn't be more affectionate than he already is well, [loud incorrect buzzer]

While Heeseung likes to brag and gush about you in public, he tries to keep the PDA minimal.

Behind closed doors is a different story though, good luck lol.

Will be all over you, he'll follow you around the apartment and latch onto you like you'll disappear into thin air

After Heeseungs had a particularly long day, which is pretty much every day with flying to another country and back on some days and having dragging schedules on others, All he wants to do is come home and laze around with his girlfriend

His favorite thing is laying in bed with you at night, whether your both scrolling on your phones, talking, or something else.

He likes that you both can enjoy each other's company without having to do or say anything.

He likes being able to lay on you most of the time, but he's definitely not complaining when you're the one practically lying on top of him.

Sometimes when you fall asleep before him, he'll go live to talk to his fans for a few minutes and he likes to sneakily pan the camera down to his chest where your fast asleep.

No particular reason he just thinks you look cute and likes to flex that he has the most gorgeous girl on the planet lying in bed with him.

[name]luvr: SHES SO CUTIE OMFG

user6738: Heeseung can you gtfo of the way, I'm trying to admire your gf

lowkey fights with his fans over you (all jokes ofc)

"Heeseung will you let [name] know that I saved 100 kittens from a fire today and drove them to new homes in my lambo (I'm 6'2 btw).. okay well I saved 200 kittens, now what?"

"are you 6'2 tho, do not ever let me catch you in the streets br- ow!"

"You're being too loud, Hee"

There must be something in the morning air because he is crazy.

The morning sun filters through the curtains of your apartment. You and Heeseung are still in bed, no plans for the day. You're awake just teetering the edge of sleep and being fully awake

"Do you want anything for breakfast? I could make something"

The thought of you leaving him and the warmth of your bed right now just about kills him because he hugs you closer to his body and buries his face in your neck

"I'd rather just have you right here."

Oh!

"Wow, smooth talker." You playfully roll your eyes

"Only for you."

[luvtonique]

I wanted to address all of the controversies about me and put some explanations on them because unfortunately we live in a day and age where people just see the dirt without ever wondering how the dirt got there. They think "Man that guy never washes his car look how filthy it is" because I just fuckin went offroading 10 minutes ago but they didn't know that.

Aight let's start with numero uno, the thing I'm called the most, the big word for good ol Jay: Transphobe!

This is the one with the most hilarious backstory of them all which to this day baffles my goddamn mind.

I used to be a hated artist because I drew violent shit, I was known for Lil Miss Rarity which is a super violent comic. Naturally this lead to people saying that I was "killing children" because I was drawing violent (and sometimes pornographic) images of a children's cartoon show (My Little Pony).

So in my quick rise to stardom, I had a lot of hateful people attacking me as well, and I had fun with it. I called them out, called them stupid, etc.

Well, one of them was Dumbo. Dumbo spent 6 full months making posts about me that are still on their blog to this day. Every single time I made a post, they reblogged it or reposted it, to call me a shithead, call me an ass hole, wish I'd kill myself, etc.

One day I was doing a fundraiser to put away money for a potential emergency because my mom had hurt her spine really bad and was in the hospital. I had a goal of $300 and raised $1200.

Dumbo, of course, was saying hateful shit about me still, and said, I quote, "I hope that whore dies in the hospital lmao"

So, I looked into who Dumbo was. The Brony fandom was, at the time, all about Love and Tolerance, so I did some sleuthing and found out they were an artist on DeviantART taking full color commissions for $10. I commissioned them on my DA account, and asked them to draw Lil Miss Rarity. They and I had a very polite conversation, and since they drew the picture very quickly I tipped them 100% and told them to up their prices because their art is very good.

They thanked me, not knowing it was me (despite that it was literally my main account), and I walked away.

Then, they checked my gallery, found out it was me, and went into a rage, making a post that says, "LMFAO, Jay just begged for money and then turned around and used it to commission an artist for double their asking price, what a shithead!!"

So, I took the screencaps of all of their death threats over 6 months, compiled them all, and showed my massive Tumblr following in a huge callout post against them. In the middle, I referred to Dumbo as "he/she/it/clown" and everyone (AND I FUCKING MEAN EVERYONE) completely ignored the 6 months of death threats and how consistently polite I was to them, and sided with Dumbo in a moment that labeled me "Transphobic" for the rest of my life.

Another instance is I called Kris from Deltarune he/she, and was called transphobic for that, and got the amazing quote "That's a real-ass child and you're misgendering them deliberately," to which I replied, "That's not a real-ass child that's a fictional character you fucking retard"

NEXT UP: ABLEIST.

I grew up in Los Angeles in special ed classes and have a mentally retarded brother, I have the pass to say retard, fuck off.

NEXT UP: RACIST.

I grew up in Los Angeles with a father who called himself "N*gger Bob" (he's white) because he was a super racist who believed being asked to help take the trash out was "akin to slavery." He also beat my retarded brother half to death for having a black girlfriend.

I was in LA during the Rodney King riots, I was in LA right in the middle of the Crips and Bloods trying to kill each other and having fuckloads of gang shootouts that I overheard when I was chilling in the Ceritos (spelling) mall.

I know what racism looks like.

A white boy saying the n-word while playing Fortnite is not what racism looks like.

A white boy singing along with Busta Rhymes (hi that's me) on a livestream and casually dropping n-bombs because I'M SINGING ALONG WITH BUSTA, BITCH, is not what racism looks like. I had three black friends growing up, Davion, Julian and Smalls, and also Undrier but Undrier was retarded and I didn't consider him a friend he just followed me around and called me "Day" because he couldn't pronounce J's. But me, Smalls and Davion would stand on Davion's aunt's porch and eat zucchini cornbread and listen to Woo Haw and headbang and sing along til the fucking cows came home.

But now that I'm grown up, my upbringing apparently doesn't matter, my FUCKING SKIN COLOR DOES (you know, racist ideology!) and I'm no longer allowed to say the n-word despite having casually spent my entire childhood surrounded by black friends who were completely okay with me saying it. I grew up in the hood, motherfucker! Bellflower born n' raised, bitch! Wes' Side!

But I'm <skin color> and since <skin color> isn't allowed to <thing that's designated for only other skin color to do>, I'm racist.

NEXT UP: PEDOPHIIIIIILE

I was molested when I was 13, which thankfully didn't leave too much emotional scarring on me. Anthony Sevarino, the dude's name was, and he shoved my hand in his pants and showed me his dick during a camping trip and said he was gonna fuck me in my bed. I was so shocked by this happening that I didn't even tell my parents who were in the same motorhome literally asleep 10 feet from me.

Growing up, I always had a really emotional trigger to seeing harm come to children, I hate it. I cry and shake uncontrollably when I see children getting hurt, no matter what. It's the only thing I have I'd call a "trigger."

I saw that episode of Rugrats where Tommy cuts his finger and then he's scared to do anything anymore because he might get hurt, and that made me fucking bawl, it still does, seeing Tommy cry super fucking hard over seeing his finger bleed- holy shit it's making me teary eyed right now just typing that.

So, naturally, I don't want children to get hurt and am extremely against pedophilia, child predatory behavior, MAPs, grooming and these FUCKING PEOPLE WHO KEEP CASUALLY TALKING TO 13 YEAR OLDS ON DISCORD FOR FUCK SAKE.

"But Jay! You drew foalcon! Those fictional ponies are underaged!"

What, you mean that tag that's still extremely popular and always has been in the brony fandom?

Yeah can't imagine why I, a very popular artist in the brony fandom from 12 years ago to 10 years ago, would ever draw something so insanely high demand and so insanely popular. Can't fucking imagine.

Never mind that I haven't drawn it in 3 years, removed all my old images of it, and even announced I'm not drawing that shit anymore, I'm still losing friends when they find out I did once, because "I can't associate with a pedophile I'm sorry." (See: "I can't differentiate fiction from reality and also can't allow a person to move on from a troubled past that they had.")

Also never mind that the few crowdpleaser foalcon moments in Lil Miss Rarity were officially written out entirely (the part where Twist and Sweetie Belle kissed).

But you know what's amazing? Being part of the brony fandom and being an artist willing to draw anything meant that people would come to me and literally confess that they're in possession of the "real shit" and wanted to know if I was interested. Seven of them, seven, are in prison now because of me and my buddy "Z" contacting the FBI with their confessions and the shit they shared with me thinking that I was a "safe person" to admit that shit to.

My position in the fandom as an artist who gets to know their commissioners personally and was willing to draw that type of shit was literally fishing out real actual predators and putting them in prison, but I was still getting called a pedophile, and still get called it today. It's fuckin great man.

NEXT UP: TRANSPHOBE (PART 2)

I was trans. Shaved my hair half off, dyed it blue, called myself Jynkx, cussed out my family, moved to Ohio with a guy who wore diapers around the house (with his brother living there) and collected loli figurines, and dated a transgirl who was catfishing and manipulating me for 9 fucking years. I have a Discord server to this day with pronoun selection roles, my best friend is trans (I met her when she was cis and helped her come to the decision to transition and it has since improved her life and happiness), and almost every mod in my Discord server is trans.

The problem, of course, is that the trans activist community hates itself more than any other, which makes perfect sense if you think about it. This is a group of people who encourage hating cisgendered people, and encourage people to hate the body they're in and to transition to a "different body." It's been proven multiple sources that there are entire "Femboy Cults" (search that on YouTube) who are actively seeking out depressed people to manipulate them into starting HRT, and cutting off their family.

WELL GUESS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?

Bridget, as you all remember her, was a manipulator who lied to me for 9 years of dating to make me depressed, hate myself, hate my family, give her thousands of dollars, and kept promising we'd meet some day while turning down every opportunity (such as conventions we were both already going to) to meet (yes, I went to conventions she was at and didn't meet her).

I was a victim of manipulation, was surrounded by horribly manipulative and narcissistic pieces of shit who warped my mind and made me believe I was depressed because I was "an egg" and needed to go get on HRT and change myself. And I almost did! I came within a hair's reach of shoving a hormone-altering drug into myself in hopes it would cure my depression, and then went "Wait a second, I'm not depressed because I'm a woman trapped in a man's body, I'm depressed because femboy-obsessed manipulative pervert rapists want me to turn myself into their fetish." I broke up with Bridget, I moved home from Ohio, I waited for my hair to stop being blue, and I became proud of myself for escaping that horrible situation and bettering myself mentally.

So how's this make me a transphobe?

I DON'T FUCKING KNOW, YOU FUCKING TELL ME YOU FUCKING INSANE BOOGEYMAN-BELIEVING ASSHOLES WHO BLAME EVERY OTHER PERSON FOR YOUR OWN INTERNAL LACK OF FUCKING SELF WORTH.

WAKE THE FUCK UP. YOU'VE BEEN MANIPULATED BY THESE FUCKING TRANS ACTIVISTS WHO ARE JUST SICK FETISHISTS WHO WANT TO TRANSFORM LONELY MEN INTO "FEMBOYS" UNDER FALSE PROMISES THAT IT WILL FIX THEIR MENTAL PROBLEMS. GET OUT WHILE YOU FUCKING CAN. I DID AND I'VE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER IN MY LIFE.

Next up: HOMOPHOBE

I draw LGD (Lesbians Getting Dicked) because I think it's hot when girls who like girls have sex with guys. I've drawn some pretty offensive pictures of it such as a pic of two lesbians being told "Pride month's over, ladies, time to be straight again" while being surrounded by hard dicks and looking scared.

Why'd I do this? Well because a lesbian friend of mine also likes that shit and we did that as an art trade.

But why do I draw it on my own sometimes? Because it's hot. It's fucking fictional porn, it's not real, it can't hurt you. I tag it LGD and only post it in servers you need accounts to see. You don't like it stop going out of your way to look at it, and if someone slams it in your face in your private "We Hate Jay" Discord server (which there are many of. I have moles who tell me.), that's not my fault y'fuckin dipshits. I properly tag and hide my stuff so only people who want to see it can see it. If someone showed you a picture of my spread asshole, you should get mad at them, not me. They're the one who SAVED IT TO THEIR COMPUTER AND SHOWED IT TO THEIR FRIENDS UNSOLICITED, YOU MORONS.

Anyway.

Next up: AN ASS HOLE.

I've spent 13 years being called all of the above names no matter how much I've catered to their activism and was even part of their activist movements directly. Fuck you.

Next up: A NAZI

Lmao.

I said on Twitter, "I hate that no matter what you say on this site, someone somewhere will get mad."

And that, without any further comment from me literally at all, turned into a massive amount of people including "Wootmaster" (Added note: I talked with Woot in private and he gave me the okay and apologized, we cool) calling me racist and a "Bootlicking Nazi." I literally did not add to it. I literally just said the opening line and left it for 3 days.

That's why I deleted my Twitter.

That's why people think I'm a Nazi.

Because I said "I hate that no matter what you say on this site, someone somewhere will get mad."

Next up: I DON'T FUCKING KNOW I BET THERE'S MORE.

You see why I make angry rant posts like this one?

Because this is how I've been treated for 13 fucking years.

I've been attacked, called names, labeled evil, told I'm phobic against the movements I was literally part of and being an activist for, had money stolen from me by perverts who got arrested for drilling a hole in the bathroom wall at a brony convention to jack off to his female roommates (he pretended to be trans and bullied them into letting him room with them in their "Safe Women's Hotel Room" and then did that shit and got arrested. But not before he stole money from me! Six thousand fucking dollars!), lived with a fucking probably actual child predator who would show me his loli figures and foalcon posters every day and try to convince me to like them and showed me his dick multiple times...

I literally was smack dab in the middle of super ultra liberal activism and trans activism for over a goddamn decade, right down to blue hair half shaved off and calling myself Jynkx.

And I come back, snap out of it, and get cussed out and called transphobic and "the reason trans people are being killed" because I don't like the flowery 1-dimensional LGBT representation in World of Warcraft and have a 9 year running best friend I went to multiple conventions with decide instantly that I'm a Nazi racist communist because I didn't disown my mother when she voted for the orange guy, and because I called one of their friends "Insane" for identifying as fae/fie and thinking they're a goddamn gaelic woodland sprite. (Btw he was my most frequent commissioner for loli shit and used to jack off while I was drawing it for him.)

You see, people.

I've spent 13 years surrounding myself with and getting personally connected with the lives of my commissioners as a brony/furry artist who was deep into LGBT and Liberal activism.

And in those 13 years I've come to realize that I surrounded myself with the most fucking disgusting and evil people on earth, who no matter how much I would shill for them and do what they asked, I would still be the label-covered punching bag whose reputation is now so utterly in the trash that literally no matter what I draw, say, or do today, I still have people on shady Discord servers n' shit calling me a fucking lolcow and a pedo and a transphobe and a Nazi and a racist and a homophobe and an ass hole.

I have learned in 13 goddamn years that you can't appease these fucking lunatic psychopaths.

And so I don't anymore.

So who am I really?

I'm an incredibly easy to talk to artist, I'm a dude, I love roleplaying and drawing pictures for people, I like writing song lyrics, I love hearing about new inventions and innovations, I love goats, I love dogs, I think cats make bad pets but I don't mind cats, I'm making a video game about an elf girl, and I want you hateful people who I've lived rent-free in the heads of for over a goddamn decade to leave me and my fanbase the fuck alone.

Love you all.

~Jay

[writingmochi]

ｌｏａｄｉｎｇ ｉｎｔｅｒｆａｃｅ．．．

you have reached year 2

lissie: greetings, visitor! this is your flight director speaking~ welcome to the two-year anniversary of this blog (freaking awesome if you ask me). thank you so much for reading, indulging, and/or interacting with this blog, me, or my works. the sentence before cannot describe the gratitude i'm expressing towards all of you. this is a yearly recap for me and maybe for new visitors who come to know what has happened on this blog for the year.

before we get to it, i'm doing a survey to get to know my audience better (and more research). if you have spare time, do fill in the survey so that i get to know more about the visitors, the works, and the audience on tumblr in general! (average time is around 3 minutes~)

survey link! (survey closed)

leggo!

all research done (read: works written and released)

troubled pixies | txt's taehyun (2 parts; 52k [novel])

smirch episode 2: jay | enhypen's jay (27.4k [novella])

isobel | txt's soobin (43.3k [novel])

pizzeria run | enhypen's sunoo (17.9k [novella])

total: 4 works (1 two-shots, 3 oneshots) and 140.6k words written

all the navigators connected (read: mutuals i got within the year. check last year's recap if you didn't find yours!)

@it-rains-blue (via @itz-yerin)

yerin! the other biggest bamtori i know here! gosh i hope you're doing well irl and online... hope for the best for your confession cafe >> check it out folks @the-love-cafe

@heart2beom

hey jazmine! i notice you haven't posted in a while now. so i'm hoping your doing okay, okay?

@tyunlatte / @wave2tyun

alex! if you are lurking, i hope you're doing so good irl! live your life for the best (edit: alex's back!)

@lovejoshua

1/6 angels: ilem istg! hi! you've been like one of the constant presence when i check the discord server. hope you treat yourself well!

@junniieesbby

2/6 angels: whenever i see a heart, it always reminds me of you, angie. i think you're busy currently, so the best i can say is that hope you have a good rest cause you need it and always hydrate ;)

@hanniejie

3/6 angels: hey lex! i just saw the band au teaser on your blog and i wanna punch myself for not noticing that sooner! /j hope you have a great time writing that one :D

@txt-yaomi

4/6 angels: sof!! i gotta have to consult you more for street spirit cause just the way you work with the album for angel is just *chef's kiss*

@talesofyuan

yuan~~ ngl i can't wait to read your kei lovesick series (tho i'm hoping to staying loyal to yixiang) can't wait to see more of your &team fics. check the blog out for &team content, folks!

@choistick

5/6 angels: saph !! thanks for the tag and hope your hiatus is treating you well~

@robin-obsessed

6/6 angels: lee~ i've just seen that you also like riize like akfjbaieufiw okayyyy i hope you have a good day/night whenever and wherever you are!

@dido-of-the-endless

hi nida! tbh you have so many side blogs i'm confused in which one you post your writing (so i'm tagging your main account). feel free to consult me if you have any wips you wanna let out lmao >.< n thanks for joining the txt hub server, i won't know you if not from there...

@pyeonghongrie (via @pyeonghongrie-main)

rie! thank you so much for letting me in the cult (mueheheheh) and hope we can interact more here or on the server

@aduh0308

welcome to the roster, ada! thanks for letting me join the soobin collab and nice to see you!

director's journal entries (read: all the rants i have thought out the past year. some are genuine, some are sarcastic):

wow… i freaking broke tumblr huh

i shouldn't have been too ambitous fook me

bruh my body's crumbling…

i swear i hate college for not allowing me to write

i broke tumblr twice w/ a txt fic alsnskdams

tumblr can’t handle things :(

is my mind running too fast or is it just harder for people to understand me? annoying much…

i’m literally a step away from going out of the kpop fandom. this kind of fan behavior is sickening

^ and the fact is: i’ll probably survive

kinda wish someone could appreciate my writing just like i do for other people here

is there something wrong with how i write asks? i should have put more tone indicators…

the desire for me to revert back to web 1.0 is crazy. like, me owning a blog? ughh yes pls!

i’m getting freaking frustrated!!!

AGGHHHGHHHHHHHH

… will i ever … :")

*queue yoda's voice* you pushing back more wips i see

how the fuck have i made fewer works yet the wc is 20k away from last year's result? (166k for 12 compared to 140k for 5 works)

^ it's quality over quantity now darling

^^ and the fact that the year 3 count will get higher because of the fics you've delayed

notable moments from the past year

established @a-dream-bookmark, a rec blog + kpop writer & reader network

reaching 200!

started writing for ateez!

joining @kflixnet, @k-labels, and @cultofdionysusnet networks

what’s next?

lissie: if you haven't seen it, i'm starting a new big-scale series called terra incognita for enhypen's jake, do check it out if you like cyberpunk, or dystopian fics! also, i an doing the wips that i promised will be released this year (will prioritize evaluation and subterranean homesick alien first)

lissie: once again, thank you so much for following me on this journey! cheers~

[withleeknow]

omfg your plushie collection STOBIT this is exactly the combination I'd get my hands on and THE MIFFYYY- don't tell me she's wearing a van gogh's starry night jumper flipping heck 🥺🥺

the snippos from mubu! we.tl/t-nG3tRG3Zbs (sorry these files are huge 🫡💟) tickets were originally seated but standing in the new venue and girlie, let me tell you, I am much too old for that shit 😴

I fully freaked tf out seeing jay and jake esp. but oml everyone there was absolutely jaw-dropping (visuals + vocal-wise) + I have to announce I've jumped down a p1h rabbithole since my return sorry not sorry

ALSOOO HAPPY HOBI DAYYY OH MY BEAUTIFUL RAY OF SUNSHINE IS BACKKK i'm so happy my chaotic bias line is in full reunion mode 💛☀️✨️ this is the most 2seok moment to ever exist: tinyurl.com/3kh9fswc

more microwave moments: idk if you've seen txt's promos for sanctuary - I keep being attacked on my IG they look like literal angels 🥺✨️

now we're both back the microwave is fully in motion ♡ have this happy goofy 🐈‍⬛ moment: tinyurl.com/2jpn5fnd - no i don't think i'll ever get over his proportions or his smile *sighs whimsically*

SHE ISSS oh my gosh isn't she just the cutest thing 😭 and there were other options too lookkkkkkkkk 🥺

sometimes i think i could go for a standing ticket at a concert once in my life just for the experience but then i would spend the entire time miserable bc i'm short and wouldn't be able to see anything and also i would likely be trampled lol. but gahhhhhhhhhh the snippos 😭 oh i can just imagine how amazing it must've been irl, i'm so glad you had a good time !! they looked so good :((( and the jake pc, beautiful !! the sunghoon ending is foul lmao atp i've just accepted that my enha microwave line is (in no particular order) jay sunghoon heeseung like ya girl is fully going through the devastation with those 3 🫠

(i have virtually zero knowledge about p1h you're gonna have to educate me 🤣)

2SEOK WAHHHHHHHHH 😭 my god do i love them (and then jin started fighting a bug lol)

the next live is gonna be of taejoon or better yet joon and his maknae line, right before their 12th anniversary 😭 i can't wait until we get all of our tannies back together :((( alsooo how are we feeling about ks1 concept photos 😭

the txt concept photos so far SLAPPP so hard. they literally look like angels fr. beomgyu my little unhinged chaotic angel 😭 simply beautiful. i think those concept photos are my favorite ever of theirs 🤌

he is so beautiful 😔 the nose, the jawline... i'm obsessed. i can't wait to get my hands on a 🐈‍⬛ album in a few weeks (also thinking about getting a 🐧 version but i'm trying to resist temptation lol) !! i'm so happy for you that you got to see him irl, truly a full circle moment for the microwave 🥹

[ginevrastilinski-ocs]

Any 5❤️ headcanons?

My babies, you know I have a soft spot for them 🥺

Okay, correct me if I'm wrong, but in my mind Cian is the first born. Then we have Queenie and Ace (first pair of twins) and then Jess and Jax (second pair of twins). And I hope we can agree that Jax is the youngest because... he has the vibes of the gremlin child who annoys his siblings as love language lmao.

Now, the vibes for the second movie are just 🥺 Listen, the reunion. The fucking reunion in Descendants 2. Let's start with Queenie and Ace wanting to kill Ben because he hurt their baby brother (even if Ben did nothing, sweet angel 🥺). And then the reunion with Jess (and Cian I suppose? I don't know his plot for the second movie but I can picture him going back with Jess) and it's just... they're all together for the first time since Jess, Jax and Cian went to Auradon. I'm crying 🥺😭 Jax and Queenie kicking Uma's ass in the battle, that's what I wan to see. Queenie finally takes the power she deserves and Jax is just being an overprotective boyfriend. Yes, yes, yes. And when Uma shows up at the cotillion? The potential of having both Cian and Jess ready to beat Uma and throw her into the sea! (And generally I love cotillion because Ben/Jax content there is that strong 🥺) (Also Jax, Jess and Cian want to take Ace and Queenie out of the Isle but they decide to remain for the others kids so they find a way to at least communicate with each other? 🥺)

Also, they have the best taste. Like... Helena? Amazing, she could kick my ass and I would thank her. Jay and Carlos? Two idiots with one brain cell but they're the sweetest. Evie? A total queen, we all love you, keep doing whatever you're doing because it's amazing. Ben? Yes, he's also the sweetest baby and the world needs to protect him. Violet? Brilliant, amazing, awesome, beautiful, I just want her to sit on a throne and rule ther world. They literally have the best taste!

You can see how much in awe I am for them? I used too many times this 🥺 face but they deserve it.

[theangel-aziraphale]

Oh did I mention how many angels and demons are on earth now? Seems our community gets bigger and bigger…

AziraCrow Immeadite sort of Family??

// BTW if you see these slashes -> // <- it means I'm out if character!

I want to add the lovely character/entity blogs who have joined the roleplay / i've interacted with / seen, so keeping up with things is easier! Also, if you're lost, go to the notes of a post to follow along with the rp for ease! :o) That's what I do! Or subscribe to everyone and read through the rps like its the newspaper xD Gonna split up the list a bit so it’s easier to read!

Aziraphale adopted (There were no papers involved so this is all in spirit <3)

@thewonderfulwizardofaz : Aziraphale's memory storage (like Gabriel's fly!)

@thedemon-crowley : Of course, the one and only Crowley <33333 my irl fiancé!

@imthebentley : Our Bentley <3

@imaziraphalesbookshop : Our (My 👀) bookshop! <3 <3

@bentleysbeetle : Bentley and Aziraphale’s beetle? (Bentley’s sibling Aziraphale’s adopted child/beetle x’D)

@asmodeus-fallen-principality : Asmodeus / Demon!Aziraphale <3 v they’re together!

@samael-your-guardian-angel : Samael / Angel!Crowley <333 ^ they’re together!

Morningstar-Affliated

@fanfiction-i-like : Asked to be adopted and bakes!

@angel-and-the-serpent : Also asked and enjoys human sports (is there any other kind?) and painting! (Also a Morningstar!)

@echosghoast : Echo, retired chaos enjoyer and new found hugger! Technically both a Fell and a Morningstar! (More a morningstar because uh Aziraphale doesn’t know how to parent lmao and accidentally unmade Jay’s corporeal form (long story. He’s made of Glitter and Azi was trying to help and has traumatised himself as a result so is afraid of parenting Echo in case he hurts her. 😬)

Lucifer has no self control (ly <3 <3) soooo here’s all his other kids! <3 <3

@morningbloodystar : Lucifer (from the show!!!?!💕)

@chloe-decker-lapd : Our coughs I mean Lucifer’s wife. (I love her Luci you can’t stop me - although ACAB 😭 why do they have to write police officers who would have gotten fired for being so good?! RIP me!!)

@three-surnames : TRIXIE. BABY G.

@ask-eric-the-disposable-demon : Eric the sweetheart but mischievous demon! <3 Technically hell-affliated!

Heaven-Affliated

@helphowdoiusethis : Jay, God of Glitter and was created by an Aziraphale and Crowley!

@tiny-anon : A small 6 year old imaginary friend who can’t grow up. Speaks in small text and is easily frightened.

@violet-yimlat : Loves Chaos and identity theft! Likes teasing Aziraphale 😔

@e-w-w-morningstar: Eddie W.W. Morningstar!

@janeway-lover : Very caring older sibling, someone force her to nap i s2g!

@fallen-starmaker : Alistair Morningstar! A fallen angel!

Hell-Affliated

@the-angel-muriel : A literal angel, the sweetest person and incredibly smart <;3

@inspector-constable-bookseller : Another Muriel! Give them some love! <3

@bookshop-bookclub : very cute, I believe it's muriel's account

@the-archangel-squad : The unfortunate squad of archangels.

@sandalphonsgoldteeth : Bestie is always crying?????

@you-all-forget-my-name : Saraqael! Tired of their job and who can blame them?

@michaelwiththegoodhair : A Michael… 🙄 (I am biased sorry Mikey)

@ask-the-archangel-michael : Another Michael… Aziraphale was being so passive-aggressive, like I do not know what happens to him when he interacts with michaels (it’s me and my disdain that’s what. blame the autism lmao)

@urielwiththegoodhair : A Uriel!!! <3 <3 <3 (Can you tell I’m biased af LMAO)

@the-nightingale-sang : Was a Piece of God

@the-almighty-queen-bee : Was a Piece of God

@the-almighty-god : The mysterious Almighty …

@gods-suggestion-box : Also in the name! (The Metatron also has access to it…)

@supremearchangelaziraphale : In the name! The uh metatron sanctioned account! (Not mine!)

@the-metatron : He’s a strange old man now? We turned him back into a human. (See Below)

@enoch-the-human : we only went and done it?!

@one-coming-is-enough : The one and only Jesus Christ!!

@the-unmighty-god : The mysterious Aunt Frances

@mr-crawleigh : Sort of AziraCrow as one person?

@the-almighty-lucifer : A different universe Lucifer where Hell won. Not on the best terms with Azi after the Jay incident (which is understandable of course) (same universe as god-in-the-basement)

Neither Hell Nor Heaven Affliated

@totally-a-sheep : Luc the demon, as he’s now revealed… another mischeif maker…

@ligur-duke-of-hell : reincarnated wifesband Ligur <3 <3 Welcome back!

@duke-hastur : The Duke of Hell - Hasta La Vista

@duchess-shax : Rudest demon that ever was… 🙄 tch…

@furfurs-fotos : Best photographer in hell Furfur!

@fishyfiles : dagon!!! <3 <;3

@former-prince-of-hell : a beelzebub!

@house-of-buzzing : Another beelzebub!

@lower-management : Another Beelzebub!

@g00brielandbeez : Gabriel and Beelzebub duo!

@god-in-the-basement : A different Universe God where heaven lost (same universe as the-almight-lucifer)

Mortals (?)

@dottieandsadie : … shudder Purposefully written scary alt universe aziracrow wives? (Are they bearding? I have no clue lmao)

@bowie-the-radio-ghost : A cute ghost! <;3 <3

@puck-the-devil : Puck from Gargoyles + Midsummer Night’s… A mischief maker…

And some honourable mentions :3 <333333333 people who talk to everyone rather regularly and help us make it more fun!! 💕🌍💕

@the-anathema-device : Anathema!!! <3 <3

@nutty-and-accurate : Agnes Nutter?!

@adam-n-dog : The Ex(?) Anti-Christ!!

@good-omens-therapist : THE Good Omens therapist!

@multiple-crows-in-a-trenchcoat : A normal human person.

@iwilltrytobereasonable , @kleenexwoman , @lauranalanthalasa , @vibranium-love , @professional-termite , @iamnot-theboynextdoor , @turquoisedata , @quiet-musings, @ivedonesomefalling , @local-ragamuffin , @tujhse-raabta , @annaglover , @foodfightonthemoon

Sorry all but I've run out of mentions for this post! I'll pin a reblog with more if I get some :D //

A short introduction is in order.

I am Mr. Azaria Z. Fell, co-owner of the A.Z. Fell and Co. Bookshop in Soho, London, now Supreme Archangel of Heaven.

If you'd like to query the more demonic side of things, might I suggest @thedemon-crowley?

// Character bio for Aziraphale? Got inspired by sam and momo's! //

Name: Aziraphale / Azaria Zerah Fell (on earthly documents) Age: God knows. Literally. Before time began years old Gender: Trans + Non-binary + Agender (He identifies with trans men a lot cause technically he makes the effort to look like a male too! I think he even has scars on his corporation to reflect that but otherwise has natal looking parts) Attraction: Demi-sexual Crowley-Romantic (kidding. Well, not really. But he has had flings and has loved humans before, like Oscar Wilde, for example. Oscar helped him cope with Crowley disappearing after their fight in the 1800s!) Appearance: Looks similar to TV Aziraphale, but has medium toned skin and afro-centric features (he just looks more like me because I can and I will!) Dresses exactly the same, but has earrings and a small gap in his teeth! Also, small dark moles in random places. The earrings he wears are tiny gold hoop earrings which he never takes off (autism jewellery style) The rest of him is the same as the book or TV versions of Aziraphale! Some additional headcannoned history elements may pop up here and there because, as neil said anything not in the book, it is headcannon territory, baby!!

// Hello, I’m Lio (Pronounced like Leo!)! I will advise that I am an adult running an ask blog, so there may be some adult themes discussed, and therefore, I believe this blog will be for 18+. Minors *who are uncomfortable about sex and adult related themes* are not advised to interact with this blog for their own comfort. BUT if you want to, then this post will inform you of my stance on it! But tldr I interact with blogs. owned by minors i just don’t want them to interact with posts that are suggestive or downright discussing adult content! Ty <3

Tidbit: Crowley's OP and I are engaged irl and have been together for a very long time. Our relationship has followed all the story beats Good Omens. However, we both grew from it, and here we are today! Hopefully, we can afford our own version of the South Downs Cottage one day!

My good omens blog is @abastardworthknowing :) I also follow from @savourybiscoff! :P hello! <;3

< Important rp-related books >

bold text <- all posts with hidden messages that I've shared!

aziraphale posts <- is my original post tag!

aziraphale reblogs <- is the reblog with no comment and only tags!

correspondence <- is my reply tag to other blogs or asks!

[bearseulgs]

enhypen's reaction to walking in on their s/o changing (ENTIRELY SFW)

gn!reader x ot7

genre: fluff, comedy

wc: 777 (angel number omg)

warnings: the reader is changing (obvi) but it's nothing bad like the boys see NOTHING

requested!! tysm

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ Heeseung ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

RIP HEE

YOU WEREN'T EVEN DOING ANYTHING YET???

mans just walked in on you taking off your belt and unbuttoning your jeans

as you started pulling down the waistband of your jeans (bc you don't gaf, he's your bf and y'all're both adults), he looked up from his phone and SPRINTED out of the room

he left the door wide open too 💔💔

like hun you ain't fixing anything

you literally didn't know what to do bc wtf was that

he came back to close the door and left you to change in peace lmao

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ Jay ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

you had just gotten back from a shopping trip with your bffs and wanted to try on your clothes

you weren't fully dressed but you had on pants and, if you have a chest, a bra so like it wasn't a big deal

and you had gotten a cute shirt that you were practically dying to wear out of your bags right as Jay walked in

sees the shirt and just says "that's a nice top" before leaving

very boring reaction, 0/10 terrible performance 😐

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ Jake ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

i hate him (affectionate)

you were getting ready for work when he woke up and walked into the bathroom to take a shower and found you putting on your pants

stops dead in his tracks BUT NOT IN AN EMBARRASSED WAY he just watches you zip and button them like a creep 🤨🤨 jk he just loves you

you were finished changing and noticed he hadn't moved and you just stared back

like dude why is he watching you??? you're literally just vibing???

snaps out of his trance and goes to take a shower like nothing happened like what???? is up with this man

anyways

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ Sunghoon ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

bro i love him sm

tries to be all cocky but he's just so 🥺🥰

you were getting ready for y'all's date when he walked in to y'all's shared bedroom

you were looking through your closet for a cute shirt that complimented your skirt/bottoms well

and he loves you and loves your body bc you're so good looking but he gets flustered really easy

so he literally just turns around and stares at the wall until you finish

you noticed and asked him what he's doing and he's like "i didn't know what to do so i just looked away"

10/10 very respectful 🤍🤍🤍

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ Sunoo ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

you couldn't pick a pair of shorts for your day out together and it was getting to be the time for him to pick you up

you were still in your pajamas, which consisted of a rather large shirt and rather small shorts that were hidden by your top

and he walked in wondering wth was taking you so long to find you looking for nice shorts to wear

but he didn't know that you had sleep shorts on still and thought you just had a shirt on

so, like Hee, he ran out but he actually shut the door thank you sir 🙏🙏

you didn't know he walked in so you looked up wondering what slammed your door before going back to picking out a fit

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ Jungwon ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

so you were going to the pool yippee!!

your friend had one in their backyard and they happened to live next door to Won's grandma aw lucky

he didn't know y'all were swimming that day so he walked over to drop off some food his grandma made for your friend's mom bc he was at his gram's that day

and he went out back to say hey to find you taking off your shirt HOW SCANDALOUS 😱😱

didn't know you had a swimsuit underneath and hopped the fence to go back to his grandma's 😭

y'all don't speak of it

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ Ni-ki ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

y'all were both at a sleepover for your bff's birthday yay :D

and before y'all watched the movie everyone decided to change into pjs

bc like,,, how else would you watch a movie at a sleepover??? with normal clothes on??? pshh nah

and he didn't know you were currently in the bathroom changing yourself so he walked in to change

you were already in your pajama bottoms (and you had a sports bra on if you have a chest) so like you didn't care who walked in

but Riki full on gasped and covered his eyes before leaving the room and walking into the door frame on the way out lmao

you just stared at your dramatic bf walk out as you put on your sleep shirt before exiting the bathroom and telling him it was his turn to change

he apologized so much while you and y'all's friends just laughed at his embarrassment 💔💔 i'm sorry Riki

a/n: my first time actually having the inspo to write without music playing?? woot woot!! also i don't see wearing a bra and pants as sensual or anything, esp if it's a sports bra, so if you do see it like that i'm very sorry!!

©️ bearseulgs 2022

[heessseungi]

🎄 enhypen when you put up your christmas tree with them !!

genre: enhypen x reader, fluff, soft, christmas!!, headcanon

a/n: merry christmas !! have a good holiday best friends, i jus wanted to post something christmas themed to end 2021 (apart from pas de deux on tuesday LMAO) hope you enjoy !! likes and reblogs would be appreciated <33

🎄 HEESEUNG

definitely the type to be an idiot on purpose

would purposely choose the ugliest ornaments or ones that don't match the theme 💀

'heeseung what are you doing that's so ugly??'

'i thought it looked nice!!'

giggles at your highly judgemental reactions but you don't say anything to him cuz you think he's being serious 😭

you leave for a second cuz you need to get more heavy decorations

by the time you're back heeseung has changed everything and surprises you with how beautiful it looks </33

you stand there 🧍‍♀️ in awe bc how did he manage to do that so quickly ??

he thinks you look cute ;(

it's practically done now

he picks you up so you can place the star on the top !!

lowkey drops you by accident but only a little it's fine

back-hugs you whilst the main lights are turned off and you're admiring the christmas lights on the tree flashing ;(( 💔

tells you how much he loves you CRIES

lots of kisses too bc duh

🎄 JAY

very peaceful with jay

he doesn't talk much you kinda just do it

puts christmas music on in the background ✨

he's so concentrated it's SO cute

holds your hand and guides you to his side of the tree to ask your opinion on it ;((

you move a few things around while he snuggles his head into your shoulder and holds onto your waist from behind <//3

he's just appreciating the simple things

you carry on with your side

(with a tired jay clinging onto you)

after you're done you cuddle on the couch next to your tree 💔

jay's so sleepy

'we did such a good job on the tree!'

he doesn't even reply he just hums in agreement

he falls asleep on your shoulder while you pat his head ;((

🎄 JAKE

you thought heeseung was bad but-

this boy is a cute idiot but not on purpose this time.

if you could send this boy to mars rn you would

is the goofiest mf

wears the baubles on his ears like earrings ??

literally laughs at EVERYTHING

'look at this angel!!' proceeds to laugh at how small it is

but you can't stay mad at him <33

'jake i know you're having fun but could you please help me?'

apologises and actually starts putting up some ornaments

but after five minutes he can't help but be silly goofy 🙄

you watch him chase layla around with a dumb christmas themed party blower 😭

mentally facepalm yourself bc what is this man child doing ??

you end up doing it by yourself while jake messes around 💀

he makes up for it tho bc later you bake cookies together <33

🎄 SUNGHOON

clingiest boy ever.

kinda whiny too bc he just wants this to be over so he can cuddle you <//3

puts up ornaments with one hand

the other is wrapped around your waist 😭

a for effort ig❤️

he kinda sort of just

gives up.

'y/nn please can we just do this laterr'

you don't like leaving stuff

but sunghoon is just 💔

so you go to bed and nap together :((((

once you wake up sunghoon actually decorates it properly

a king who sticks to his word <33

he honestly did quite well too it has a colour scheme and everything

kisses on the cheeks for sunghoon !!

🎄 SUNOO

okay so this boy could literally just be an interior designer atp

not only does he help you decorate the christmas tree (really well too !!)

he also helps you decorate the whole house ;((

twirls fairy lights around your staircase bannister

lights up candles

also puts a wreath on your front door

'sunoo you didn't have to do this :('

but he wants to

bc he just loves you so much!!

he hugs you after

it's one of those long-lasting comforting hugs

just engulfed in his arms awe

he gives you small little forehead kisses too ;((

he also gives you your first present to put under the tree ??

yeah in conclusion sunoo would literally be an angel sent from the heavens above 💔

🎄 JUNGWON

all is going well

you are both just quietly hanging up some decorations

jungwon kinda takes this seriously

a bit TOO seriously

'y/n, why did you put a red one there, i already put a red one next to it?'

you don't take him seriously tho 💀

you just move your red bauble somewhere else

until you unintentionally do it again 😭

'y/n!! i told you not to do that!!'

>:((

he's too cute when he's angry

so you just giggle while apologising to him 😭

he forgives you after

you hug it out <33

kisses too !!

🎄 RIKI

this boy is lowkey a grinch at first

he just wants to carry on playing his video game 🙄

but you pester him to help you bc you just wanna spend time with him awe

'fineee' ugh silly boy 🙄

you give him a lil' kiss on the cheek to thank him muah 💋

appreciates it but won't let you see him blush 🙄

at first he's doing a kinda bad job

you have to tell him which decorations go where

after a while though he starts enjoying himself

you catch him smiling to himself whilst humming to the background music you put on 💔

he get's really into it too

like he can't choose whether a gold or silver bauble would look better on that branch 🤔

'see i told you it wouldn't be that bad'

'didn't even have fun anyway 🙄'

says that while back-hugging you and placing his head on your shoulder :,)

🎄 TAGLIST !!: @faatnaa @cb97curls @blaqpinksthetic

[sundrop-writes]

Your comments are my favourite thing omg <3 along with the reaction images lmao

Jai: “Hank.” Dawn says his name sharper this time, capturing his attention as he stares at Dick with fire burning in his eyes. She nods toward Rachel, who is staring at all of them with confusion.  -> Dawn: hank. there is a child in our presence right now, let's not get into love triangle bullshit (though that triangle hardly exists atp)

Sunny: Dawn talking to Hank like he's an untrained dog will always be fucking hilarious to me lmao. and you're right, it's really not much of a love triangle!!! it is just two very emotionally immature men posturing over a woman who only wants one of them, and communicating very, very poorly

Jai: “You’re an asshole.” Dick replied, still feeling the ache of a fight or flight response tearing through him as he tried to calm down. -> And you're still a dick (pun intended), but I don't judge

Sunny: I SHOULD HAVE PUT THAT OMG. "you're still a dick" THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN PERFECT OMG. missed. fucking. opportunity

Jai: “Y/N,” Dawn smiled, walking over to give you a hug after you had set everything down. You embraced her tightly for a moment before she pulled away with a smile. Dick rolled his eyes at this - still annoyed at your presence. He would never admit it, but he was upset that Dawn was much happier to see you than she had been when he had arrived. -> I would've - out of pettiness - kissed Dawn in front of Dick to piss him off, but I also wouldn't out of respect for Hank (rip king 🙏)

Sunny: this FUCKING HILARIOUS OMG sjljskjaaha. we respect Hank, but we don't respect Dick. and I totally agree - making out with Dawn full on the mouth is on the agenda. I really need to write a Dawn fic soon

Jai: “Rachel. Hi.” You cut off Dawn as she made the introduction, giving a gentle wave toward Rachel while she nodded shyly at you. -> RACHEL, MY BELOVED <3333 SWEETEST ANGEL THAT CAN KILL YOU (my best girl, tbh. well, it's either her or kory, depending on my current mood)

Sunny: I really want Rachel and the reader to have a good relationship because they have similar powers and I want Rachel to have someone older who can guide her and help her feel more safe when using her powers

Jai: “A large black coffee for grumpy pants.” You said, holding out a cup towards Dick. -> YEAH. TELL IT HOW IT IS.

Sunny: did you just call Dick 'it'? OH MY FUCKING GOD. (that is hilarious)

Jai: “Dawn, I got your stupid fru-fru coconut ice cream. I had to go to three different stores for it, and-” -> get yourself a man like hank who'll go to multiple different stores to get your favorite ice cream. a true man (take notes, dick)

Sunny: YES HE SHOULD TAKE NOTES. and this is what I fucking love about Hank. he is the most loving and high effort person, but he is so quiet about it, and sometimes he's downright grumpy about it. like when Dawn said 'I thought you were up here drinking' and he said 'I was up here building this (the dove house) and drinking' - like he had to be a grumpy asshole and add on the fact that he wouldn't do something for her unless there was something in it for him (drinking beer). but he did something nice for her - built the dove house - for their three month anniversary, which most people don't even consider to be that big of a deal, and it is something that she loved so much and it was so fucking thoughtful. like AAAAH I LOVE THEM

Jai: “Well, isn’t this a real goddamn-” “A real goddamn summer camp.” You cut him off, literally stealing the words out of his mouth. “God, I fucking hate it when you do that.” Hank sighed -> and you should be used to it by now but you know....... I get it

Sunny: just imagine what it was like when they all used to live together. Y/N probably annoyed them all so much

Jai: “You know, you always were my favorite.” He replied, quickly changing his tune as he came to grab the treat from you, a snarky smile spreading across his lips. -> of course I am, who wouldn't like me (don't answer that)

Sunny: okay but Hank would probably kill for you, let's be real. he is intensely loyal, and even if he's annoyed by someone, he will defend them to the death (cough - Jason - cough)

Jai: You almost added on ‘apparently they like me more than they like you, anyway’ - but you didn’t feel the need to kick him so badly when he was already down.  -> and as they should,I'm a goddamn delight to be around. also also at least I didn't get with his ex not long after they broke up, dick (violating bro code)

Sunny: OKAY THIS IS FUNNY COMING FROM YOU MISS 'I WANNA MAKEOUT WITH DAWN RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM'. how long would you wait to get with Dawn if she broke up with Hank? hmmmm. do you really blame Dick for not waiting? it is actually HILARIOUS how he talks about it in the show, he literally told Garth "I was right there after her crash and burn with Hank" - so I am CONVINCED that she went to Dick for rebound sex after she broke up with Hank, and then their hookup blended into a FWB thing, and that turned into a situationship, which kind of blended into a relationship. there is NO WAY that he asked her on a formal date. they were fucking. but like Dick didn't wait either because LOOK AT HER

Jai: “Okay, okay, I get it now.” Dick smirked sarcastically, crossing his arms firmly over his chest, making his biceps bulge inside of his button down shirt in a way that was far too appealing. -> literally the description of how he's looking right now like... you wanna fuck him so bad

Sunny: like I said in the A/N, he looks SO GOOD IN THE NAVY BUTTON DOWN. I CAN'T HELP MYSELF

Jai: “You don’t like me spending time with Dawn.” He declared, continuing to smirk at you as though it were the most obvious thing in the world. -> OH....... the idea of me being jealous of you and Dawn turns you on? ofc it does, you fucking hornball

Sunny: he likes the idea of jealousy because he wants the ATTENTION. lmao

Jai: You were never going to tell him - but Dick and his controlling nature had gotten people killed before. -> *cough* Jericho *cough*

Sunny: WELL YEAH (and maybe someone else in the story who knows why I may reveal)

Jai: You liked Dawn. She was one of your best friends. -> Yeah.... sure.... "friends" (at least in my mind, we aren't just friends)

Sunny: omg. maybe I really do need to write some Dawn fanfiction soon lmao

Jai: No matter how angry you were with him, you couldn’t let him die. -> Yeah. She's gonna lose her mind when he dies in season 3, huh?

Sunny: HONESTLY I never even considered this until now. I wasn't even thinking about the moment when he dies in S3, so this inspired me to go and add some stuff to my notes about it and OH. BOY. omg. it is gonna be intense

Jai: “My mother - she died when I was about your age.” You told her, knowing that it was likely something she needed to hear. -> Yay! Bonding with Rachel over dead moms <3

Sunny: the entire Titans team is bonding over dead parents <3 except for Tim. it's weird being the outlier for NOT having dead parents lmao

Jai: “So, wait - are these kinds of powers… genetic?” She asked eagerly, seeming to perk with interest at this. -> She's just like me fr, I would also be intrigued as well

Sunny: it is so interesting to think about if superheroes were real, would powers be genetic? would they be able to isolate the genes that powers come in? fucking wild to consider

Jai: It can always be comforting to know that you’re not alone. -> FOUND FAMILY <33333 (we just need kory and gar, and we'll be all good)

Sunny: I am so excited to have the reader meet Kory and Gar. I can't wait to show how her personality meshes with them!!!

Jai: “I don’t appreciate the attitude.” You ground out, looking up at him to find nothing but pure fear staring back at you. “Now - Shut. Up.”  -> yes babe, put your man in his place “What kind of voodoo bullshit is she doing?” Hank huffed out, having just made it down the fire escape himself. “Be quiet and let her work.” Dick told him, waving a dismissive hand in Hank’s direction. -> Yes, babe, defend your girl

Sunny: I needed to put these two lines together because this FUCKING SENT ME OMG. it's literally like "shut up Dick." "okay, speak now Dick" like lmao. he's only right when he's cheering her on. it's all growth. I am excited to show more of the reader and Dick working together under pressure in future chapters <3

Jai: AGH. SOOOOO EXCITED FOR THE NEXT PART (will still try to be patient, of course, I respect your process)

I always appreciate your patience <3 and like I said, I expect this fic to be a compilation of my work over years, so I am being patient with it myself in order to make it good

One Moment Per Episode With Dick Grayson

Season One, Episode Two: "Hawk and Dove"

Summary:

Even though Dick denies that he needs your help, you can't let other innocent people - like Hank, Dawn, and Rachel - get caught in the crossfire of his stubbornness and annoyance toward you.

So when you have a vision of Dick fleeing back to some of the only friends he knows, you don't hesitate to chase him. And yes - you make sure to bring coffee this time.

Dick Grayson x Fem!Powered!Reader. Childhood Friends/Exes to Lovers. Emotional Angst and Bantering/Humor. Set during Season 1, Episode 2.

Word Count: 6,000

DC Titans Masterlist | AO3 Link

Detailed warnings and author's notes below the cut.

Warnings: the reader uses she/her pronouns - I still want to warn that some people might accuse this character of being an OC/might consider this an OC, but the reader received a great reception in the last chapter, so you guys might like her uniqueness if you read this; as usual with my stories, the majority of pronouns used in the fic are you/yours; and other than clothing style and a scar that informs her backstory, the reader's looks are not described and are left vague (as far as race, body type, hair colour, etc. - those things are not described); the reader character does have powers - the reader character is psychic and can see glimpses of the future in dream-like visions; the reader actually has a vision in this one (and there is more descriptions of her visions in general) (looking back, I wish I would have opened the first chapter on a vision of the apocalypse but oh well); the reader and Dick are 'exes' - their relationship was never official (they never explicitly called each other boyfriend/girlfriend), but they used to have sex often (and they both have feelings for each other that they never openly spoke about), and they are childhood friends, so there is a lot of emotional history there; this fic uses Y/N; this whole chapter (and this whole series, really) involves intense criticism of Dick's character - the Titans version specifically - so if you don't like that and if you don't like the Titans characterization of him, then turn back now; mentions of canon-typical violence; non-graphic descriptions of Dick having an infected wound as a child (speaking to his characterization); mentions of non-canon character deaths - happening in non-canon branching paths in the reader's visions (things that don't come true, but have the opportunity to come true if she doesn't interfere); mentions of gun violence; lots of stereotypical monogamous jealousy going on here - some canon, and some not (not the kind of thing my poly ass typically writes, but it does well with Dick's toxic personality, so I like it) - Hank being jealous of Dick and Dawn's reunion, and Dick trying to evoke jealousy from the reader over his past relationship with Dawn (though I have made it clear in the text that Dick doesn't have feelings for Dawn anymore); Dick accidentally pointing a gun at the reader (because of mistaken identity); this time there is equal pining and horniness between Dick and the reader (mostly because I am a simp for Dick in that navy button down shirt, unf); mentions of Dick's past trauma (the death of his parents) and his PTSD reactions because of it; mentions of Dick and the reader having sex in the past and their sexual desire toward each other and some mild sexual themes, but there is no explicit smut in this chapter (there might be some in future chapters); the reader gets injured in a fight with The Family; mentions of Dawn's canon injuries and subsequent coma; I believe that's it for this part.

A/N: I actually wanna say that this chapter was complete and ready to be edited in my drafts, and because of the comments and feedback I got on the last chapter, I actually went in and made some additions to this chapter. People really seemed to like the banter between Dick and the reader character, and there wasn't much of it in this part, so I made sure to add more of it - because if you guys tell me that you like a certain aspect of a fic, I will play up that aspect in future chapters or in future fics. That is why commenting matters. Writers listen to your detailed feedback and put it into future stories - we aren't just looking for comments to stroke our egos. So if you guys like this chapter and the banter in it, know that you helped shape it from what it originally was!

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Dick had basically told you to fuck off - he didn’t want to be involved, but he already was. 

The events were already set into motion around him, and there was nothing he could do to stop it now. So - rather than turn around and go all the way back home, you had simply gotten a hotel room in Detroit, waiting for him to ask for your help, or waiting for some signal that he would truly need you. 

You fell into an easy sleep, and soon - that signal came to you. 

… 

A rooftop. Two old friends. Tense smiles under a beautifully bright day that didn’t suit them.

“She killed someone?” Dawn nods toward Rachel, who is sitting beside the large dove house that Hank built, looking at the gentle animals in quiet fascination. She feels peaceful in their presence. “She’s just a kid.” 

That’s what he wants. He wants everyone to underestimate her. 

“Whoever they are, they’ve got people in the department.” Dick replies. 

He’s talking about the people who kidnapped her right out from under his nose - the ones who nearly succeeded in making her a ritual sacrifice. Just one of many forces that were coming after her. One of many forces that seek to harm her. 

“We needed somewhere safe to regroup.” He adds on. “And think about what I’m gonna do.” 

Somewhere safe? 

“What about Bruce?” Dawn poses. 

Of course Dick wouldn’t go fleeing back to him. Daddy issues. He thinks of Dawn and Hank as his true family. The Titans have always been his true family. Since losing the Circus, it’s the only family that he’s known. 

Oh. Somewhere safe. Of course. 

Dick visibly shudders at the thought of going back to Bruce. “He’s no good with kids.” 

That's an understatement. 

“A cop, huh?” Dawn gives him a small grin. “That’s one I never would’ve figured.” 

Well, he seeks out order. But he's a stubborn, bull-headed person who demands to be the leader at all times. He’s terrible at following rules that he hasn't made - terrible at falling under someone else's authority. He thinks that being a police officer is bringing forth real justice. 

It was never meant to last. 

Dick knew this. He doesn’t like admitting his own faults. So, he rushes to change the subject. 

“How are you?” He asks Dawn, clearly curious. 

It’s almost as though he wants her to say that her life has been notably worse without the Titans. Just like his has been. 

It's been too long since he's spoken to her. He loves running without looking back. It’s something that he’s very good at. 

“We’re great.” Dawn answers, flashing him a smile. She's insistent on this ‘we' - reminding Dick that she's not alone. She's not a single person anymore. “Hank’s feeling the life a little. Age waits for no man, and all that.”

Of course. This should have been obvious to him, but he’s a little too absorbed in his own problems to consider it. 

“How bad?” Dick asks the obvious question. 

“Two fractures, three concussions in the last year, and a herniated disc.” Dawn replies honestly. 

Dick has been through worse. He acts like it’s nothing, but it’s not. He’s the type of man to attempt to put a band-aid on a bullet wound. While traveling with the Circus, he stepped on a nail once, and tried to hide it from his parents - pulled it out himself and only told them when the wound began to fester and get infected. 

Fiercely independent and stubborn, even back then. 

“Jesus, Dawn.” 

Yet, he acts as though this is surprising. He acts as though this isn’t the norm when you exchange your bodily safety for the safety of others. 

“We’re still good out there, Dick.” She presses, sounding as though she is trying to convince herself. They need the team. That’s what’s missing. The downfall of her confidence. “Really good. But one slip-up-” 

“You should quit.” Dick declares this firmly, confidently. He always believes his own authority as fact. “You both should.” 

Deep down, he knows that both Dawn and Hank will never quit. Like himself, they do not take well to ‘retirement’. They will die doing this job or they will find quieter ways to keep doing good - but they will never rest. Rest feels too selfish. 

“That’s the plan.” Dawn replies. It feels like a lie coming out of her mouth, and she smiles around the discomfort of it. “As soon as we take out these gun suppliers he’s obsessed with. One more chance to do some good and then he promised he’s out.”

Suddenly, there was a flash of something else. 

Guns. Piles and piles of guns. Dawn being shot in the head from behind. Bright red blood soaking into white hair. A sneak attack while they have their guard down. Hank, overwhelmed by grief, unable to consider his own life as enemies surround him. 

He is forcefully pulled off her limp body. 

His screams bounce off the concrete walls as he is chained up and tortured. 

Things never go according to plan, do they? 

Dick gives her a sharp look as he considers the possibilities. Almost as if, due to his paranoia, he too can see the future. 

He wants to offer his help, or tell them simply not to go, but Dawn steals the words off his tongue. 

“You could help us out.” She remarks brightly. 

Yes, he could. He should. 

Another flash of similar events. 

This ends just as bloody. Similar howls of pain echo through the warehouse. Hank is limping as Dawn supports him, but all three of them are alive. They all make it back to the apartment alive. 

Dick is working on his personal definition of justice. It’s not exactly clean. (But it works.) 

But still, he hesitates. 

“I’m out of the life, Dawn.” 

Liar. 

Suddenly, Hank appears. He is surprisingly quiet for someone so large. 

“The hell are you doin’ here, Dick?” He barks out the name like poison - in a harsh, jutting way that many others have done before him. 

Everyone becomes tense. It’s an unwelcome reunion. 

“Hank.” Dawn speaks his name curtly - a reminder. Mind your temper. 

“I had a situation.” Dick tries to explain himself, being far too vague. 

But again, how does one cleanly summarize encountering a young girl with powers like Rachel’s and being so unsure how to handle it? And of course, Dick hates to admit being unsure of himself. He hates to admit needing help. He prefers to phrase things delicately - as though this were a choice, a fun day trip, rather than the desperate fleeing that it truly is. 

“Nice little reunion you got goin’ here.” Hank says sarcastically. 

“You know it’s not like that.” Dick replies. 

He is right, but poor at defending himself against Hank’s flare of jealousy. He is so walled off that he doesn’t dare to admit he doesn’t have eyes for Dawn anymore, even in the slightest. That relationship was nice, but those feelings died out long ago. He simply can’t see her in a romantic light anymore because his heart belongs to someone he believes could never want him in return. 

Follies for another time. 

“Sure looks like it to me.” Hank grunts in return. 

“Hank.” Dawn says his name sharper this time, capturing his attention as he stares at Dick with fire burning in his eyes. 

She nods toward Rachel, who is staring at all of them with confusion. 

It’s her. She’s the reason why we’re all here. She’s the reason we’re all going to be alive years from now. 

“What the fuck?” Hank is confused. Reasonable. 

“Can we just go back inside, please?” 

Good idea. 

… 

You woke up in a cold sweat, fumbling around numbly to turn on the lamp of the hotel room that you were staying in. Having your mind widen across the astral plane could be absolutely exhausting. 

Of course Dick had gone back to them. 

Looks like you were headed to DC. 

…

“Dawn, you can’t hit this job. Look at the number of security contractors here-” 

“Come on, don’t change the subject.” 

Dawn was cut off from speaking any further by a loud thud coming from the front door. Something almost akin to a knock. Hank (who had gone out to pick up some beer) had a key, so - that definitely wasn’t him. Rachel was in the guest room watching Game of Thrones - 

Dick and Dawn exchanged a look, both thinking the same thing. 

There was someone at the door. Someone unannounced.

And whoever was at the door might be someone looking for Rachel - someone seeking to harm her. In the kind of silent communication that had only been developed over years of working together as a team, Dick gave Dawn a nod and she calmly raised from her chair to go and check on Rachel. And then he grabbed his service pistol, flicking the safety off and cocking it - he swiftly walked to the front door, and while pointing the gun at whoever was outside. 

It was a clear warning, and also ready to fire if the person tried barging in. Dick opened the door slowly, and peered into the hallway, his heart beating rapidly in his chest as he waited to see who it was. 

You. 

It was you. 

He let out a sharp breath of relief when the information fully penetrated his brain - the fact that it was you standing there, and not someone intending to do him or Rachel harm. Not an enemy. 

You were standing there as innocently as ever, wearing a red dress with a beautiful paisley pattern on it - still sporting those same brown leather boots and that same cozy jacket. Again, you looked so damn beautiful, and it shouldn’t have been comforting, and Dick shouldn’t have been filled with want. You were holding a paper tray full of coffee cups - which you had pressed against your breast for balance, and in the other hand, you had a large brown bag that seemed to be full of pastries from the smell. 

“Fuck.” He swore sharply, his arm still holding the gun up stiffly - his body still filled with the conflicting fight or flight response pumping through him, unanswered. 

You let out a bright laugh at this, seemingly amused by Dick’s tense aura. 

“Your greetings get more pleasant everytime I see you, Dick.” You said, nodding toward the gun that was still extended in your direction. 

He let out another tense breath, and forcefully unlocked his forearm then, in order to put the gun down. He put the safety back on and tucked it into the back of his waistband as he opened the door fully to let you inside. 

“You really are such a warm and welcoming person.” You added on, sarcasm ripe in your voice. 

“You’re an asshole.” Dick replied, still feeling the ache of a fight or flight response tearing through him as he tried to calm down. 

He knew that you hadn’t meant to scare him - or maybe you had, seeing as you hadn’t apologized, and seemed to find the whole thing entirely amusing. But at least you weren’t someone that he actually needed to shoot. So that was a plus. 

“I am not.” You replied snarkily, stepping past Dick and making your way into the apartment. “I’m nice. You told me that next time I should bring coffee, and I did. That’s the farthest thing from being an asshole.” 

“Dick, what’s going on?” Dawn called out, stepping out from the guest room with Rachel hot on her heels. 

Realization spread across her features when she saw you placing your goodies on the counter as Dick closed and locked the front door. 

“Y/N,” Dawn smiled, walking over to give you a hug after you had set everything down. 

You embraced her tightly for a moment before she pulled away with a smile. Dick rolled his eyes at this - still annoyed at your presence. He would never admit it, but he was upset that Dawn was much happier to see you than she had been when he had arrived. 

“Another friend?” Rachel asked, hovering at the edge of the kitchen, slightly hesitant of you. 

“A good friend.” Dawn confirmed, shining her smile toward Rachel. “Rachel, this is Y/N. Y/N, this is-” 

“Rachel. Hi.” You cut off Dawn as she made the introduction, giving a gentle wave toward Rachel while she nodded shyly at you. 

“A friend who’s not supposed to be here.” Dick added on gruffly. 

“Grumpy grumps don’t get danishes.” You said, holding up the large brown paper bag. 

Dick sighed and rolled his eyes, wanting to protest about you distracting from the larger point with pastries - but technically, he had asked you to bring them. 

“We’ve got… a medium vanilla latte for Dawn,” You pulled the cup out of the tray, now doling out the coffee orders. It was something that you knew partially from memory, and partially from the omnipotence that came with your powers.

She took it with a quiet ‘thank you’. 

“A small black coffee with extra sugar for Rachel.” You offered her the paper cup, and she loosened up on her hesitance toward you, eagerly leaning in to grab it. She smiled at the fact that you knew her preference and didn’t question her for drinking coffee at such a young age. 

“Thanks.” She said brightly. 

“A large black coffee for grumpy pants.” You said, holding out a cup towards Dick. 

When he reached for it, you teasingly swiped it back before you actually gave it to him, and he heaved out another sigh. 

“Are you gonna tell me what you’re doing here?” He asked sharply as he popped open the lid on the cup and took a sip. 

You decided to ignore him. 

“And an Americano for Hank.” You went on speaking about the coffee, rather than answering Dick’s question. “What kind of sociopath drinks watered down espresso anyway?” 

“He-” Dawn spoke up, about to tell you that Hank was at the store, not even there to enjoy it while it was still hot. But then, there was the sound of lock and key in the door and it came bursting open. 

“Dawn, I got your stupid fru-fru coconut ice cream. I had to go to three different stores for it, and-” 

When Hank saw everyone gathered in the kitchen, including the surprising addition of you, he glared as he kicked the door shut behind him. 

“Well, isn’t this a real goddamn-” 

“A real goddamn summer camp.” You cut him off, literally stealing the words out of his mouth. 

“God, I fucking hate it when you do that.” Hank sighed, a visible stiffness running through him - similar to the way Dick looked when you said ominous things. He was creeped out and defensive at the same time. 

“Would a pecan cinnamon roll make you feel better?” You posed, pulling a smaller bag out of the bag of pastries and offering it to him. 

“You know, you always were my favorite.” He replied, quickly changing his tune as he came to grab the treat from you, a snarky smile spreading across his lips. 

Dick reached for the brown bag sitting on the counter to get one of those danishes you had mentioned. You saw this out of the corner of your eye, and you snatched it away from him. You had meant what you said. He tensed up visibly but didn’t argue. 

Dawn giggled, pointedly looking between the two of you before she reached into the bag herself - of course, only for you to slide it closer to her. 

Dick sighed harshly and tried to move on from the subject. “Now, are you gonna tell me what you’re doing here?” 

…

It wasn’t long before Dick sequestered you away, demanding answers. He dragged you into Dawn and Hank’s bathroom, actually. This left Dawn to awkwardly fill the space with Rachel, who was wondering who you were, and was asking more questions as she sensed the tension between you and Dick. Meanwhile, Hank scarfed down his pecan bun without a single care about the circumstances of your visit now that he was fed. 

You sat on the edge of the bathtub with your arms crossed, looking at Dick with firm calculation, just like you always did, waiting for him to speak. He shoved his hands in his pockets - something that made his whole stance tense and broad and horribly appealing. It was something that reminded you that he had stayed perfectly fit since you had last seen him - and he had nothing but fine, firm muscles under that shirt. 

You forced yourself to focus as he stiffened his jaw and stared right back at you. 

“Well?” He scoffed. 

“‘Well’ what, Grayson?” You nagged back, knowing fully well what he meant. 

He sharply rolled his eyes. That seemed to be a reaction that you invoked from him quite frequently. 

“Why the hell did you follow me?” He sighed, his breath too tired to be as fully demanding as he intended. 

You wondered when the last time he had slept was. He was someone who wore insomnia strangely well, especially considering that Bruce had driven him to be sleepless since his teen years. It was something that he was accustomed to by now, so he never got the ‘bags under eyes’, ‘half dead’ thing that most other people did when they didn’t sleep. He simply looked like himself. 

You hated how much internal destruction and self abuse suited him. 

“Who says I followed you?” You replied, your natural instinct toward snark acting up again. “Maybe I just felt like dropping by. Dawn and Hank are my friends, too.” 

You almost added on ‘apparently they like me more than they like you, anyway’ - but you didn’t feel the need to kick him so badly when he was already down. 

Dick let out a quiet growl, reaching up to firmly pinch the bridge of his nose with his finger and a thumb. 

Already, you were wearing his patience thin. 

You knew that you couldn’t tell him the truth. 

One thing you knew for certain - Dick Grayson was a control freak. It was something that had been carved into him by trauma and fully solidified by years of training with Bruce. 

That night, so long ago - having his parents slip out from his grasp when he had been so young, while performing a routine that they were known for courageously doing without a safety net. A routine that they were so certain of and knew so well, having never factored in the act of murderous sabotage that ultimately killed them - it made Dick want to obsessively control every single aspect of his life and everyone else’s around him. 

Not only did he want to help those around him avoid danger, but he wanted the people around him to behave exactly how he imagined that they should at all times. 

He was constantly on the lookout for frayed ropes - for the unexpected variables that might be the downfall of someone that he loved. He felt that his parents’ death had been his fault, that he hadn’t been diligent enough that night, so he needed to be hypervigilant in every other aspect of his life to keep more people from dying. 

It was part of the reason that you bothered him so much. You were always unexpected - always a wild variable that he had to chase down. Whether it was your actions, your words, or your reactions to the things that he did and said - he felt like he could never predictably nail you down, and he absolutely fucking hated it. (It was probably also one of the reasons that he got such a fantastic release from fucking you - but that was a box of emotional issues he was not yet willing to open.) 

But - being the control freak that he was - he liked to try and control the outcome of your visions. 

Yes, you did see the future in your visions. And yes, the version of that future that you saw could sometimes be changed. It was part of the reason that you tried to interfere to stop bad things. You had seen many things before that had never come true - both good things and terrible things. 

But you had warned Dick time and time again that the future is not random. You never saw simple flashes of random possible outcomes and one of those realities might come true. No - you saw people’s intentions. You saw the results of the choices that people make. 

If someone intended to commit a murder - you would see death. If they changed their mind - you would see life. If someone interfered to stop that murder - the future could change in a lot of strange ways because of it. 

Life is a winding path with a lot of branches to it, and when someone makes a choice, some of those branches die off. 

Dick Grayson’s controlling, all mighty, ‘need to interfere’ mindset certainly had a way of changing the future. He constantly felt the need to use the information from your visions to force people into making the ‘right’ choice. But sometimes, on the path we choose to avoid our fate, we run headfirst into it. 

You were never going to tell him - but Dick and his controlling nature had gotten people killed before. 

You had discovered over time that it was better to simply not tell him things - to hold back information until it was the right time for him to hear it. 

“Do you actually enjoy being irritating?” Dick rasped harshly at you. “Or is it just something that you’re good at?” 

You shrugged. “Probably both.” 

He let out another stiff breath. 

“Look, I’m here for Rachel.” You said, trying to correct course. “She’s mourning, she’s confused, her powers are out of control. She needs someone to help guide her. Someone who might be able to show her how to keep her powers under control.” 

“O-kay.” Dick said, clearly dubious, not fully convinced. He looked at you with his brows firmly knit, and you felt the need to further convince him. 

“Look, I’m not stalking you if you think that’s what it is.” You added on. “I had a vision, I saw you and Dawn on the roof-” 

“Okay, okay, I get it now.” Dick smirked sarcastically, crossing his arms firmly over his chest, making his biceps bulge inside of his button down shirt in a way that was far too appealing. 

Focus - you reminded yourself. Focus. 

“What?” You replied, genuinely confused. 

“You don’t like me spending time with Dawn.” He declared, continuing to smirk at you as though it were the most obvious thing in the world. 

More than anything, this left you utterly fucking confused. 

“What?” You chuckled, repeating the word like a gaping parrot - a nervous, awkward edge in your voice. 

You liked Dawn. She was one of your best friends. 

And you didn’t give a rat’s ass if Dick and Dawn spent time together. Especially because you knew that Dick coming here was him fleeing to a friend while in crisis, not him looking for a hookup. Especially not while Dawn and Hank were together. Dawn was nothing if not intensely loyal. 

And nothing would have happened while Hank was in the apartment. You had never seen Dick and Hank fight - but Hank was just a bit bigger, and because of his upbringing, he had absolutely no qualms about fighting dirty, even when he was fighting a friend. So you knew who you would bet on in that fight. 

So - what the hell was Dick talking about? 

Even with your strange sense of omnipotence, you couldn’t tell at the time - Dick was baiting you. Hard. He wanted you to flip out, to get jealous. 

It was the emotionally stunted thing to do, but he wanted to see some sense that you cared. 

At least Hank going full cave-man mode upon seeing Dick meant that he thought what he had with Dawn was precious and worth protecting. It meant that he saw Dick as a threat. 

When you continued to stare at Dick with nothing but confusion, gaping like a fish, he flailed, realizing what a terrible move this was. And for some stupid reason, instead of dropping the subject altogether, he dug himself deeper into the hole. 

“You know, the thing with me and Dawn is all in the past.” He said, mentally squirming, waiting to see how you would react. “There’s really nothing going on between us.” 

“Yeah.” You smoothed your lips into a firm line, completely uncaring about this line of conversation. “Good for you.” 

Perhaps mistaking the annoyance in these words as the jealousy that he was so urgently seeking, his tone completely changed then. Like a child throwing a tantrum, he had gotten the negative energy that he wanted from the interaction - so he kept on digging in. 

“Okay, you know what?” He snapped. “If you’re not gonna tell me why you’re really here, then I’m just gonna have to assume that you’re bullshitting.” 

“Oh, I’m bullshitting?” You replied, resisting the urge to break into a grin. 

He had seen solid proof of your powers on many occasions. He had seen you do things that couldn’t be proven by science. So why was he only accusing you of ‘bullshitting’ right now?

“Yes.” He replied stoically. “You didn’t see anything - you don’t actually know anything. You don’t know shit. You’re probably just guessing, and making shit up as you go along and hoping people will believe you.” 

“Okay.” You shrugged. 

You were unphased by this declaration. You knew by now to trust your visions - even if Dick was revoking that trust. You knew that you had solid information, and if you didn’t follow it, the lives of the people that you loved were at risk. 

You guessed that this was just Dick throwing a tantrum because you wouldn’t share that information with him. 

Dick ground his teeth. Unconsciously, he was still intensely frustrated that he hadn’t gotten more of a reaction out of you. Whether it was the information that he was looking for - or some greater sense of anger or urgency that he felt when you were around. But he needed something. He needed to know that you still felt something because of him.

You were always so damn calm. Far too calm for his liking.

“You’re just guessing.” He pressed on. “It’s not that hard to know I would come here. You just fucking followed me because-” 

“So you’re saying that all the military tactics Bruce taught you never paid off, and you’re intensely predictable when fleeing under pressure?” You chuckled, pointing out the flaws in his own logic. 

Dick flinched. 

He hated how uncomfortable your words made him. Squirming in that discomfort - he went low. 

“And you’re admitting that you’re just a bullshit carnival psychic like your mother was?” 

It was a tender wound. 

The moment that your face fell - shifting from mild amusement at your own joke to intense pain and hurt - Dick’s insides recoiled with regret. 

“Y/N-” He sighed. 

“Nope.” You cut him off sharply, shoving past him. 

He let you, finally allowing you to escape the tense air of the bathroom so you could go out and properly catch up with Dawn while drinking your coffee. 

… 

No matter how angry you were with him, you couldn’t let him die. 

Even as you laughed and chatted with Dawn, and got to know Rachel a bit, you couldn’t get the flashes of horrifying possible futures out of your mind. 

… 

Where is Dick Grayson? Where is Dick Grayson? Where is he? 

A crazed family singing showtunes. A skipping rope being used as a whip - knives plunging through flesh. Torture. Pain. Screams. 

You saw Dick fleeing with Rachel in the night, believing that he had made the right decision to protect her. Believing that he was keeping you, and Dawn and Hank safe. You heard a sharp screech of tires as he was cut off on a dark backroad by an old-fashioned station wagon with wooden paneling. A car crash. Dick flew through the front windshield - and as he bled to death, his last moments were spent hearing Rachel’s cries for help as she was dragged from the car. 

Bad decision. 

Dick spoke about ‘some job’ that Hank and Dawn were planning and instantly, there were flashes through your mind of Dawn shot in the head, laying on the floor in a pool of her own blood - Hank’s screams of anguish as he was chained and tortured. 

They need his help. 

Why were you there? 

To stop those bad decisions. Hopefully. 

You couldn’t explain it all to Dick - you couldn’t play it all out for him so simply. He was a control freak. If you told him all the details, then he would insist on making a choice. He would insist on running the play. And he might make one of those stupid choices. You had to avoid making the same mistake that your mother had. Don’t give those stubborn, powerful men too much information and trust them to use it wisely - because they most likely won’t. 

“You should go with them.” You told Dick, your voice curt - the first time that you had acknowledged him in hours. 

He seemed shocked by you even looking in his direction, let alone speaking to him after the comment he had made. 

“Look, Y/N-” 

“I’ll stay with Rachel.” You added on. 

When Rachel eagerly agreed to this, it seemed to seal the deal for him. 

He acted as though it was his plan all along. 

Whatever made him feel better about it. 

… 

You and Rachel ended up on the rooftop. She gravitated toward the doves - she found them calming, as she told you. 

“How do you know Dick?” She asked you, clearly unable to keep down that curiosity that was naturally biting at her. 

With the cool night air whipping at your cheeks, you found it easy to be vulnerable with her. 

“We grew up together.” You told her. 

“You were a part of the Circus?” She asked, giving a small amused grin at the thought. 

“Yes.” You confirmed, mirroring her smile. Sometimes the nostalgia was painful, but unlike Dick, you didn’t try to forget it. “My mother was a fortune teller - a psychic. She was considered one of the best. People would come from miles around, or even follow the Circus from place to place just to have their palm read by her.” 

Rachel laughed at this, clearly amused. 

“So what - she had a big crystal ball, and she would read the lines on your hand to tell you how long you’re gonna live?” 

You shrugged. 

“Something like that.” You confirmed.

There was a beat of silence. Knowing what Rachel was going through, you felt the need to confess something to her. 

“My mother - she died when I was about your age.” You told her, knowing that it was likely something she needed to hear. 

It can always be comforting to know that you’re not alone. 

Rachel looked at you with large, piercing eyes - heavy grief still dancing there. It was still so fresh. Your heart ached for her. 

“What happened?” She asked. 

With her powers, you were surprised that she didn’t already know. 

But you thought it apt to explain it to her. 

“My mother didn’t just do card tricks and read palms.” You said. “She was special. Special like us, special.” 

A distinct look of dawning came across Rachel’s features. 

“She had powers.” She said softly. 

You nodded. 

“So, wait - are these kinds of powers… genetic?” She asked eagerly, seeming to perk with interest at this. 

Suddenly, a million long-dead questions about a father she had never known overtook her like a tidal wave. 

Obviously, her mother had been perfectly normal. Had she gotten her powers from her father? If she found him, would he be able to tell her who she truly was? 

“I suppose so.” You answered meekly, hating that you didn’t know for certain. “I hate that I can’t say for sure.” 

Rachel’s face fell at this.

Then, something occurred to her. 

“How did your mom’s powers kill her?” She asked. 

“It - it wasn’t really her powers that killed her.” You began to explain. “It was more… the way she used them.” 

Rachel looked at you expectantly, and you continued. 

“Before she died… she saw what happened to Dick’s parents in a vision. How they died.” You explained. “She tried to stop it, and the people who were intent on killing them weren’t too happy about it. So they killed her too.” 

It was a fate that you were constantly trying to avoid - stumbling into death while trying to save those that you loved. It was one of the reasons that you put up with so much attitude from Dick Grayson. You would much rather have him alive and giving you lip than have him dead because of some mistake that you made. 

Rachel looked pensive for a moment - watching the birds as they rested in their large cage. 

“Is that why you’re helping us now?” She asked quietly. “You’re trying to keep us from getting killed?” 

“I’m doing my best.” You remarked, anxious hope ripe in your voice. 

…

Clustering voices. A tense argument. 

It was broken up by - 

“Hello there.” 

The faux sweetness of a dangerous stranger. 

Fear shook you. The sound gave you a sense of deja vu. You recognized them from a far off vision. 

Before you could warn the others, it broke into a brutal fight. 

You used all the training you had, but you were distracted by Dick being thrown off the roof. Something hit you in the head, hard - you heard Dawn cry out for help, and you saw a cluster of blonde hair and limbs as she went flying. 

Rachel screamed and reached out for you and you desperately reached back - you were dizzy and blinking heavily and didn’t even remember being knocked down. 

“Dawn! Dawn!” 

You heard Dick shouting urgently and then you realized in horror that she might be dead. 

Dawn. 

You were sluggish and felt wetness on the side of your face that must have been blood, but you forcibly peeled yourself off the ground, stumbling toward the sound of Dick’s voice - toward the fire escape. You tripped down a few of the stairs, your blurred eyes only focused on the shape of them - him crouching over her body, blonde hair splayed across the pavement, limp legs. 

She’s not dead. 

She can’t be. 

When you made it to her, you fell to your knees beside her. With the last of her energy, she locked eyes with you. 

Fear. Anxiety. Terror. Trust. 

She knew that you would help her. 

Her eyes drifted closed, and Dick panicked. 

“Dawn, Dawn!” 

“Be quiet.” You barked at him. 

You needed to concentrate. 

“You’re telling me to shut up?” He griped back, his fear and panic foaming up through his lips as intense anger directed towards you. “Shouldn’t you have seen this coming? What happened to-?” 

“I don’t appreciate the attitude.” You ground out, looking up at him to find nothing but pure fear staring back at you. “Now - Shut. Up.” 

You placed your hand gently onto Dawn’s forehead - you concentrated hard, focusing your powers on her. You couldn’t do anything about her physical injuries, but you could preserve the parts of her that mattered the most. You could keep her spirit alive. You could lock her memories away in a safe place so that she would be whole when her body healed. 

“What kind of voodoo bullshit is she doing?” Hank huffed out, having just made it down the fire escape himself. 

“Be quiet and let her work.” Dick told him, waving a dismissive hand in Hank’s direction. 

For once in their lives, both of the men sat in silence, actually deferring to you and following your lead. 

They trusted you to do something good for her, rather than doing more harm.

...

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[bluejaem]

♡ … › #enhypen's reaction to their enemy having a crush on them [hyung line]

PAIRING. hyung line × gn!reader

GENRE. humor, fluff ig, highschool!au

WARNINGS. cursing

[☆] — HEESEUNG

y'all were just bickering as usual and you randomly went "just because I like you doesn't mean— .....shit."

pls, he's a smirking mess right now

he just goes "what did you say? Could you repeat that? I didn't get you."

says all that even though he clearly heard every single word that you said

that was a major ego booster for him lmao

and when you do repeat yourself,

he gets all giggly <//3

and when he comes back to his senses, he is like, "wait– aren't we enemies, though?"

earning him a smack on the back of his head by you 🗿

[☆] — JAY

so like, you had just realized that you may or may not have caught feelings for this guy lmao y/n pls

and you were trying explain the whole thing to your best friend

bUt this mAn- he was totally not eavesdropping on your conversation 🤡

when he heard his name being mentioned, it was like this magnetic force was pulling him towards your conversation

"I think I might have a crush on jay?"

HIS EYES GO FUCKING WIDE👁️👁️

you're like going on this whole rant as to why you might like him

but you don't realize that your best friend is hinting that the guy you're ranting about is literally standing behind you

he just suddenly appears in front of you

"So, miss y/n, you have a crush on me?"

[☆] — JAKE

You always write stuff in your diary, and this time it was about none other than your enemy, Jake sim

he was just fooling around in class but when he saw you so focused on something, he just had this urge to go annoy you

He slowly walked up to your table, but you never realized the fact that he was there

and he had been reading whatever the fuck you were writing

— honestly, I don't know why we hate each other. he's such a sweet guy, I mean, that's what I've heard.

and his smile is so fucking cute. Gosh, who am I kidding, that smile is to die for.

so like you're finally done writing and you look up

only to see jake, sMILING LIKE THE ANGEL HE IS

*in the most aussie accent ever* "my smile is cute, huh?"

[☆] — SUNGHOON

same thing over here, you guys were bickering again lmao

and like the whole fucking class was done with you two

but when they heard you accidentally confess, it was all *gasp* "oOOh" 👀👄👀

and sunghoon be like: *insert shocked pikachu face*

the whole class is literally staring at you, and you're just like clueless rn🧍🏼‍♀️

when he sees that you're flustered, he's so sure of the fact that you like him

and that pikachu face turns into a fucking smirk

Sir, the amount of DISRESPECT-

"All you had to do was ask. who knows, I might even take you out on a date?"

The rest of the class was again all like "oOOh" 👀👄👀

a/n: this a repost of my work which was posted on another account!

© BLUEJAEM, 2021

[bloom-bloom-pow]

maybe like enhypen reactions of finding twreets about them even though you're dating already?

OMFG this is so cute :(( thank you anon!

you would constantly tweet about the love of your life, before and during dating, and one day he finds the account...

heeseung

would 10/10 go ¿qué?  🤨

someone's tweeting about him ???

he scrolls more to see that it started years ago

kinda blushes and everyones like oooehh whats heeseung doing in the corner 😳

and he's like ...reading thirst tweets

AYO HUH??? 🤠

he realizes that doesn't sound right either 😐

very impatient to tell you about this hilarious account he found

he meets up with you at lunch and hands you his phone, full of love tweets

ur like yeah babe that's my acc 😃

and he would go fake emo like "..oh."

"WDYM OH ????"

"NONO WAIT I- 💀"

jay

was scrolling through twitter one day

almost choked on his spit when he found a certain account 😍

you're like ?? ayo u okay ??

and he's like ..yeah yeah.. 😗😏

and he's like wait it sounds like you

he scrolls and makes SURE that he's gonna roast you properly

as he should 😣

and soon he makes you "listen to a poem that he wrote" 😯😯

"jay park is my soulmate. just look at his pretty eyes, i literally melt when he wears black jeans. they make his-"

you turn red and your mind goes absolutely blank

"for what it's worth, i think you have gorgeous eyes too 😉"

jake 

highkey flustered (but when is he not)

once he found that he would be all ‼️‼️

he's like oh my god do they know i'm taken :((

sends screenshots to the boys' gc and realizes it's not the boys 🤨🤨

he fr fr thought sunghoon was making a fan account 😳

he finally goes to you, promising he didn't kiss someone else's cheeks, almost in tears 

ur like JAKEY MY ANGEL AHHH 💀💀

ur like omg thats my acc.. my bad 😬

he would be SO relieved (yay!)

10/10 gives you a reassurance hug 

"awhh baby, i'm right here! i'm yours and you're mine 🥰"

sunghoon

when he found it he was lowkey not surprised 

he finds it and immediately knows it's you but keeps it to himself 

because he needs assurance sometimes ykyk 😭😭

nothing like tweeting how perfect your bf is to confirm thAt.. 

he would nonchalantly catch you off guard one day and be like 

"omg look at these tweets lmao"

u would go from ❓❓to ‼️‼️ SO FAST

the panic in your eyes would make him giggle 🥺

ur like oh god he'S LAUGHING AT ME 💔💔

he shows you one of the notes on his phone and it's just all the reasons why he loves you 😎

"aww mr. sunghoon park is in love with me 😆"

"..mmhm.. more than you'll ever know..."

sunoo

all he's thinking is uh oh uh oh uh oh 

he doesn't really talk and he just goes through his day like 😐😐

u tell him he's killing ur vibe after many "what's wrong bubs?" and "ah, i'm just tired.." 

you confront him soon after and go all 😠😠 

he just gives you a quick nod and shows you all the tweets

you're like 😮😮 bubs look at the dates !!! 

and he's like 🤨🤯 they always posted on the days i took you on dates !!! do you think we have a stalker..? 

(everyone facepalm right now)

u show him your phone, which was logged into the account

at first he's confused but when it clicks he gives you one of those big bear hugs

"thank you for loving me.. i'm thankful to have you in my life ☺️"

jungwon

he was honestly looking for these accounts if you ask me,,

he's unpredictable n spicy what can i say ??

didn't know what to do for once in his life

decided to think outside the box and be forward when he knew you would be on your phone

man is just smart like that ykyk

don't tell anyone but he read it ALL and went 🥺

would dm and write comments which would result in you saying "wonnie why are you on my page? let me simp for you in peace 😔😔"

and he's like omg aHAHA SIMP 😶😶

ur like ..wait i just exposed myself 🤠"

"you sure did, sweetheart! but don't worry, my ‘fantabulous squishy out of this world hugs’ are coming right up 😉" 

ni-ki

didn't even want the drama in the first place

mans was tagged so he couldn't ignore

so he read it and started tearing up 

awooga thats our baby boy 😣😣

he was like i hope this doesn't cause drama ahh

decides to call you and rant 

tbh YOURE the one who's going oh no- what have i done i gotta hiDE 🙈

internally you're shaking and know you're DONE FOR if he finds out it's you 😓 #learnedhowtoroastbyjay

..he never did find out that it was your acc..

"see!! they posted about me again what do i doooooo 😩😩"

"hmm.. you love me still right?" 

"more than anything, angel 🥺"

thank you for requesting! <3

[enhyphen]

🌷 — 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒆𝒏𝒉𝒚𝒑𝒆𝒏 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒊𝒓. . .

⭐ — 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓𝒔. . . ot7 !

💗 — 𝒓𝒆𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕. . . hi bubs !! since you always do justice to any fluffy scenario... could you write how enhypen would do your hair ?? like styling and stuff 👉🏻👈🏻🌸 tysm angel !! 💫✨

🌈 — 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒆. . . thank you for the adorable request bby !! ur so precious I can't 😌🍓💗 I hope you enjoy !! p.s. because there's so many gorgeous hair textures out there, these are vague as to fit anyone reading !! ily 💫

as always, the scenarios for the hyung line (heeseung-sunghoon) members can be romantic or platonic, whereas the scenarios for the maknae line (sunoo-niki) are purely platonic !! 🌷

heeseung. . . hair !! clips !! KING 😍🌷 puts them everywhere he can but then he runs out of room on your head so you put some clips in his hair UWU also tells you how pretty your hair is every.. millisecond ?? he just can't stop ?? HES SO CITE STOPDDNDK

jay. . . "baby" "what" "..can you do my hair ??" ".... I THOUGHT YOU'D NEVER ASK" literally wanted to do it since the first date pleAse fksFNKDK 💗 he just thinks it's so pretty and he adores seeing it shine in the sunshine outdoors .... he's such a softie don't let him fool you

jake. . . AAAA !!1!!1 ..sorry that was just a peak into jake's brain when you smiled at him while asking him to brush your hair. GIVE THIS MAN A COMB he's going in fnkfdNFK no but he wants to do it everyday now (and you're like 'wtf my hair will fall out' but he like coesn't care 😌🌈 ah romance LMAO)

sunghoon. . . (•‿•) smile and wave boys FNSK he is one picky mf and will not leave your hair until he's satisfied with the 'do he's created for you ( ꈍᴗꈍ)💗 that rhymed fnskDNFK anywAys ,,, takes a gazillion pictures bc he thinks you've never looked better EVERYBODY SAY THANK YOU SUNGHOON

sunoo. . . Y'ALL don't even pretend to not know about THE Hairstylist's™ abilities 😗✌️ we've seen him do sunghoon's hair, now get ready for... HIM DOING HIS 🍓🌈BABY'S💗✨ HAIR !! truly gives it his all. you've legit never looking cuter I cAN'T Y'ALL ARE SO CUFNSFNDK

jungwon. . . a LIL confused but give him time, give him time .. it's gonna look GREAT ... but don't look in the mirror for a bit fndkFNKF no I kid, he's such a lil prodigy and there's no exception when it comes to hair 😌🌈✨

ni-ki. . . he LAUGHS bc he thinks you're joking ur not bc he doesn't even do his OWN hair, how tf is he supposed to do his bestie's ?? whatever, he'll just brush it out a bit .. and then maybe add some ribbons or clips .. and then he'll. OH no he's on a roll now— he's found his PASSION 😭✨💗

[sankyeom]

aaaa hi belle it's caelin again i hope u remember me 😼 kinda late because i had to go on an impromptu trip and the internet was so whack, i was barely able to open tumblr </3 here to rant about anti-romantic bcz i absolutely loved it ☝☝

ok first of all you're so ?? good at writing 🤞 ?? like i knew the direction the plot was proceeding in— and i don't mean this in a bad way yk, predictable plots are fun to read since the anticipation is over the roof— what i mean is that the way you present makes everything like 5-10 times engaging, doesn't matter how common or unique the plot is

coming to the plot, you ate it, ma'am. devoured. slayed. left no crumbs. getting your best of the net and flannery o'connor as we speak

im loving the ynhoon dynamics ?!?!?! they're so adorable. everything is so healthy and they're such a green flags fr im glad they tried to get to know each other instead of simply believing the rumours spinning around ( heavy on this from yn's pov like she knows hoon's a fuckboy but my girl knows how to pick hints and join the dots, she's down to genuinely know the 'real' him instead of the fuckboy sunghoon, i love that for her )

and sunoo, jungwon and niki scheming ( and failing ) help that was adorable. we love protective best friends. the reverse psychology going down the drain got me in tears please, they can't outsmart yn me thinks </3 as for heeseung, jake and jay . . . bestie . . . they're stupidly smart or smartly stupid, there's no in between lmao. loving how jake is absolutely definitely certainly ready to climb up yn's bestie list ( tbh same, jake ) only to get her drunk bye

besides, i really like how there's no third-grade-high school antagonist with unrequited love ( saerom ?? saerim ?? serum. serum is an exception that man is problematic but not really i'm glad he stayed out of their business most of the time ) it's literally just sunghoon and yn and their miscommunication but also a lot of communication because yn is straightforward and talks it out ( except that one time. well i can't blame her i'd get the same idea if someone i just kissed ran away )

always supporting the un-fuckboy sunghoon agenda he's too pretty and cool to have chick flings, he deserves a permanant solution 😍👊 anyway i'm running out of things so say </3 but glad you wrote anti-romantic !! it was fun to read. hoping you're having a good day / evening ^_^

hi caelin!! yes i definitely remember you, we talked about my gamer wonwoo au last time 🥰

first of all, thank you omg you’re literally so sweet i’m blushing !! i’m pretty proud of how my writing has improved, especially in terms of smaus, so i’m very grateful that you are enjoying my fics so much 😌💛

i always think that it’s important to write about open communication and happy, healthy relationships because we see so little of it in media?? like i feel like the conflict for tv shows and movies is always so toxic for couples and just super unnecessary. thank you for recognising and loving that part of sorry, i’m and anti-romantic 🥹

i almost didn’t put serim in the story as a conflict, but i kind of wanted a tangible example of the mc being afraid of commitment and thought the story could use someone who has known her and hooked up with her, if that makes sense? like i wanted someone who wasn’t a closer friend of the mc’s to be surprised by her dating someone but i didn’t want him to have too much power in the overall fic lmao 😂

you are a literal angel and i am so grateful that you took the time to write this, thank you again caelin!! you are an absolute sweetheart and i am always here for a quick chat about anything that’s on your mind 💞💞

[tiredbiostudent]

Hi! Could you maybe recommend some music, I keep listening to the same three songs and would love to find something new, doesn't have to be a specific genre. Also, you're blog is wonderful!

omg this is so sweet my heart is 🥺 rn but also, idk how much I can help because I also genuinely will listen to one song for an entire week straight and haven’t had a ton of time to find new music lately! but here’s some genre breakdowns of artists I love and some songs by them, or just individual tunes:

[edit: sorry this got insanely long!! I can maybe link spotify playlists if I ever get around to making some ‘:) but tl;dr my fave artists are frank ocean, sigrid, hozier, ben howard, cezinando, khalid, childish gambino, nas, lorde, the lumineers, rhcp, girl in red and travis scott]

1. guitar/rock indie-arcade fire: neighbourhood #3, the well and the lighthouse, we exist, afterlife, the suburbs, ready to start, SUBURBAN WAR!! (listen to the entire suburbs album if you want to feel rlly nostalgic about ur childhood)-ben howard (my favourite artist ever, I saw him live and it was phenomenal): rivers in your mouth, time is dancing, I forget where we were, only love, black flies, oats in the water, she treats me well, towing the line, follaton wood-rhcp (long time fave): under the bridge, by the way, californiacation, scar tissue, otherside, goodbye angels, dani California, snow (hey oh), tell me baby-city and colour (another old fave who I’ve also seen live and is amazing!! if you like hozier and the lumineers you’d like him, a bit of a less intense sound though): sleeping sickness, what makes a man, waiting…, constant knot, the golden state, killing time, wasted love, runaway, map of the world, blood, the grand optimist :’), northern wind, hello I’m in delaware-the scientist by coldplay.. if u haven’t been emo about this song since 2003 wyd-haven’t listened to her in forever but cosmic love by florence + the machine >>-girl in red (her music is great but her LYRICS r literally my soul): i wanna be your girlfriend, summer depression, i need to be alone, 4am, girls, say anything, bad idea, i’ll die anyway, we fell in love in october-harry styles: adore you, fine line, golden, sunflower vol. 6, sweet creature, lights up, to be so lonely, sign of the times, HIS COVER OF ULTRALIGHT BEAM-hozier (ANOTHER fave, fucking insane live too. sir ily): work song, in the woods somewhere, sedated, cherry wine, almost (sweet music) [song equivalent to a warm summer evening], movement !! holy f-, as it was, be, wasteland baby!-broken by lovelytheband-the lumineers (my guys!!!!): cleopatra, sleep on the floor, angela, long way from home, sick in the head, my eyes, white lie, donna, salt and the sea, slow it down, stubborn love-where’s my love by syml-mitski: washing machine heart, old friend, nobody, lonesome love-sam roberts band: bridge to nowhere, brother down, if you want it-saturn by sleeping at last-sufjan stevens: mystery of love, visions of Gideon (I don’t stan cmbyn but literally these two songs are the only thing I listened to from dec 2017 to feb 2018), the hidden river of my life, futile devices, Vesuvius-love will tear us apart cover by susanna and the magical orchestra-vance joy: mess is mine, Georgia, my kind of man, Saturday sun, we’re going home, lay it on me, take your time, I’m with you !!, like gold, crashing into you-remember when by wallows !!!

2. chill indie/pop-billie eilish: idontwannabeyouanymore, ilomilo, my strange addiction, bury a friend-cezinando (also my fave artist, and noen ganger is probs my fave album of all time): ingenting blir det samme men samme for meg, selv du, haper du har plass (if u can make it thru this song w/o crying on public transportation you are much stronger than I), tommolen pa vekta, er dette alt, usynlig-sigrid (the LOML and my other fave artist- seeing her live was the best day of my life no cap): dynamite, plot twist, fake friends, strangers,  don’t feel like crying, raw, focus, I don’t want to know, her cover of sex by the 1975 changed my life fr, mine right now, BASIC !!!!!, in vain, never mine [this is highkey bc I’m a bonafide sigrid stan but I cannot recommend her ENOUGH she has one of the most incredible voices ever, is an insanely talented songwriter, and her music is so hype and beautiful and yeah :’)]-khalid (I love his voice sm, also the ceo of vibes): bad luck, cold blooded, 8teen, my bad, better, hundred, Saturday nights, suncity-run by elsa and emilie-lorde (my bby): bravado, buzzcut season, the love club, the louvre, supercut, 400 lux, ribs, white teeth teens, a world alone-fy faen by hkeem & temur (have been listening to this song for 3 yrs straight no cap)-btstu by jai paul-8896 by lapsley-joji: slow dancing in the dark, will he-moon by kid francesoli-aloha by mome (another all time fave)-karpe diem: hvite menn som pusher 50, lett a vaere rebell i kjellerleiligheten din, gunerius, spis din syvende sans-astrid s: 2AM matoma remix (one of my fave songs ever tbh), hurts so good !!!, such a boy-myth by beachhouse -mgmt: kids, electric feel-nostalgi 3millioner by tomine harket & unge Ferrari -lykke li: sex money feelings die (did I listen to this song for 5 months straight last year? hm), I follow rivers-one direction (ofc): story of my life, 18, night changes, drag me down, literally all of Take Me Home which is unequivocally their best album I will take no criticism on that-berlin by ry x-dancing with a stranger by sam smith and normani-taylor swift (not rlly a fan but wowww some of her songs): call it what you want !!!!, false god, begin again, all you had to do was stay, clean-kamikaze by Susanne sundfor-tame impala: let it happen (the og and the soulwax remix), the less I know the better, gossip-head over heels by tears for fears-somebody else by the 1975 (apparently I was the only one who only discovered this song in 2019 but it’s like all I listened to from October-December)

3. rap & rnb-brockhampton: rental !!!, face, bleach, sweet-childish gambino: ii. zealots of stockholm, heartbeat, les, the “hardbone with a hard r” remix of bonfire and redbone drooooool-drake (yikes dude but ngl. chill bops): feel no ways, u with me?, hold on we’re going home, passionfruit, you and the 6-vince staples: bagbak, lift me up, norf norf-frank ocean (LOML frank I’d die for you. also my fave artist *proceeds to list his entire discography*): SEIGFRIED!!!!, songs 4 women, nights, chanel, ivy, thinkin bout you, sweet life, pyramids, lost, bad religion, pink matter, forrest gump, in my room, swim good, dust, american wedding, provider-jorja smith: blue lights, february 3rd, on your own-ransom by lil tecca-nas (fave to end all faves): take it in blood, represent, the message, halftime, affirmative action, street dreams, one love, hate me now, cherry wine, new world-mobb deep: hell on earth, survival of the fittest, party over, shook ones pt ii-travis scott: (astroworld is the only thing I listened to summer-fall 2018 no cap) astrothunder, coffee bean, Yosemite, butterfly effect, houstonfornication, skeletons, stop trying to be god, stargazing, highest in the room-kanye (don’t roast me for this): can’t tell me nothing, ultralight beam, fade, hold my liquor-drip too hard by lil baby-(all a product of tiktok) bop, toes, suge, panini remix by da baby-migos (lmao): notice me, slippery, pure water-walk man by tmg sfdjhfkdjfsdfs-go loko by YG-the weeknd: reminder, as you are, hurt you, privilege, tell your friends, starboy, sidewalks, high for this

(I also love old school rock music but haven’t listened to it much since highschool- my fave bands are led zeppelin, CCR, boston, fleetwood mac, pink floyd, blue oyster cult, styx, the who)

[itwasjustmisplaced]

Alright, Taryn. I feel like you could use a break from all the panic and negativity. So how about a change of pace. You've been carrying a lot of the burden of getting this fandom through this mess and you're a definite favorite blog, but who are you're favorite blogs/bloggers? You just started a new job. What is your ultimate goal? Do you want to be in office someday? Is there a specific marathon you want to run? Who are your top five ships ever? What one scene would you erase from ED forever?

This truly one of the sweetest asks I’ve ever gotten. I’m legit crying over it. I’m so moved and I love these questions, so here we go.

Favorite bloggers: @memorieswarm @isaacdingle @isabellaofparma @bartsugsy @robertssofttouchxaaronssoftlad @lovethedales @thisdamndesire @holyscrap @evak-malec  @dinglehorton @dingleminyard @rbertsugden @victoriasugden @sugdingles @aviewfromtheclouds25 @rocketdocket @escapingreality51 (I am sure I am forgetting a few)

I think the ultimate goal is to get to work in the Senate and then the White House. I just really needed to step back for a few years, so I could you know have a life for a bit. Plus, politics in the US since I’ve been aware has been the definition of a rollercoaster. I remember every election since 1996 so really think about that. I’ve been through hell and back, but 2016 kind of broke my soul. And no I don’t want to hold office someday....lord....no.....yikes. Imagine if they found this blog for oppo research??? Lmao.

I don’t think I will ever run another marathon because it took over my life and the first one was not good, but if I did it would probably be either the Twin Cities Marathon or Grandma’s. I have lots of halfs I want to do, but literally, 10 milers are my jam. (Just realizing I haven’t run in like 2 weeks and that is not good but I’ve been doing other things, like yoga and barre and spin)

I’m gonna do Top 10 ships and only one from each show:

Robin Scorpio & Patrick Drake, General Hospital

Robert Sugden & Aaron Dingle, Emmerdale

Nathan Scott & Haley James, One Tree Hill

Josh Lyman & Donna Moss, The West Wing

Piper Halliwell & Leo Wyatt, Charmed

Buffy Summers & Angel, Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Matt Saracen & Julie Taylor, Friday Night Lights

Joel Graham & Julia Braverman-Graham, Parenthood

Luis Lopez-Fitzgerald & Sheridan Crane, Passions

Shawn Douglas Brady & Belle Black, Days of Our Lives

So it’s like a three-way tie between the ONS (duh), the scrapyard scene and that time Jai shook Kerry in a wheelchair of a scene I would erase. The ONS cause it was poorly executed. The scrapyard scene cause it was so plotty and hamfisted set up for Aaron being a suspect and it still bothers me to this day. And well that scene of Kerry and Jai haunts my dreams cause it was the DUMBEST scene we’ve seen in recent memory.

This was so much fun though, nonnie. Thank you for the change of pace! It was honestly needed