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its my birthday today :) !!!
#koba art#do we fw the jaya and hiccstrid creatures#i also bought jay's titan mech as a treat#i am loving it ... I can make jay and nya hold hands and kiss
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have you ever had any enha interactions? like at concerts and stuff
yes 🙂↕️ let me humble brag for a second because I got really happy remembering these :’)
last time I saw them, heeseung put his hand up to his ear in the “call me” motion (imactuallystilldead) when he passed by my section and when sunghoon walked by (when they went into the crowd) he walked past me but I waved at him to come back and he did and now we have a blurry video together with him holding my hand KFBDMANAK
the last time I was close to the stage too. jay and jungwon kept looking at me too (my friend has a video of this bc jay kept coming over to our section when and I swear we made eye contact like 3638382 times) and jungwon too. I think he was happy me and the people next to me weren’t really on our phones the whole time. jake during sound check kept interacting with my friend and I because we just screamed fuck all and had a good time and everyone around us will SILENT and STOOD STILL 😩 unfortunately very little sunoo and ni-ki interactions but I kept yelling “my sons!” whenever they danced in front of me
I have a lot of enha stories like enhypen are my forever people and for all of the drabbles I post, I really do love them and I’m grateful for everything they’ve done to and with me
also I hope I don’t come off as bragging because I’m really not trying to push these in anyone’s face I just got a rush of emotions seeing this ask :( I love you enhypen
#ask#I STILL REMEMBER#HEESEUNGS FUCKING SMIRK#LIKE IM DELUSIONAL ENLUGH BUT NOW??;?:?:?/?/!/&#im sorry sunghoon running back to hold my hand and take a video with me will be forever engrained in my brain#his cheek was so close to mine bc people were pushing him 😒#but whatever we bumped shoulders#sorry hoonie baby#jungwon laughed @ my friend bc she kept blowing him kisses throughout the show when he looked over LMFA#LMFAO*#wish I could post videos but unfortunately I want to remain anonymous here#enha are my bfs and best friends depending on who the member is#jay is so beautiful up close like goddamn…kiss me#anon
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"Go to hell" is basic. "I hope your proseka fav's room makes no sense" is possible. It has happened before. It's terrifying.
#jay rambles.txt#an shiraishi#project sekai#in other words: every An and Akito focus I succumb to The Horrors#on one hand I want them to FINALLY show us An's room. for fuck's sake. it's been three years#all of her emotional turmoil always happened at WEG give her some damn privacy#on another hand. what if it's Boring. what if it's Bad. what if is not what I want from An Shiraishi's room#my condolences to Akito fans out there we hold this line together#let's hold hands
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awwrghh.. peace and love on planet earf
janey you are absolutely an artist that is 'so good' the way you use colors and shapes makes me want to bite through 5 layers of drywall and I mean this in the most positive way possible
Kordian......
SHUT UP YOU ARE LITERALLY SUCH A GOOD ARTIST AND I ADMIRE YOUR ART SM...!!! YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU Y.. YOu make me want to explode into dust......... YOUR ART IS SO SHAPE AND SHINYYYYY
#proceeds to explode and die#thank u...#also coincidentally i just finished drawing that for an ask on my sideblog and decided it would be funny to put it here#jay we are holding hands
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ninjago seabound hurts. so much. what the fuck
#ninjago seabound#i think this might be the thing to get me drawing again#we shall see#also im very close to crying haha#she turned. into the sea. to save him#and like. the city and all their friends too but he was quite literally dying and the only answer was for her to become one with the sea an#and she#and he sees her after having the water taken out of his lungs. he sees her out the window and she sees him and they put their hands on#either side of the glass. and he doesn't yet know what she did. what it would cost#in the fight later. he sees her explode and takes on kalmaar with blind fury#and then she's back- as a dragon now- and she explodes again and comes back as a bigger dragon and#how can he think anything but good things? he knows what she did now but she's so strong. so invincible. ofc she'll overcome the odds#she'll keep herself together! she will. he has to believe that#and then she wins. and its all over. and everyone's saying they'll just have to get used to her watery body for now#until they find a way to turn her back.#she doesn't understand. she doesn't remember who she used to be. is actively losing the battle to retain her self#and they plead. all of her friends. her master. her Brother.#and him. Jay. her boyfriend.#and there's a moment. a single brief moment where she turns back.#she smiles and holds jay's hands. she caresses his cheek.#and just as quick as she came#she left. jay screaming her name as she dives back into the sea#and then the funeral. because what else do you call it but a funeral.#they call all of her friends and family. they pour seawater in an urn. they hold a service of sorts.#and i'd like to imagine each person feels responsible in some way. for not doing more. for not being as convincing to her.#some feel it more than others. Wu is- was her master. Kai her brother.#and Jay. Jay was her-#out of all of them Jay beat himself up the most. because what good is love if you can't convince them to stay?#woah sorry about that i was possessed by angst#also i feel like you could tie in Jay's abandonment issues with his birth parents here if that wasn't clear <3
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How much time has passed?
concept in which the endless canyon inhabitants incorporate the hatchling into their community in the dream ending
initial sketches + speedpaint under cut!
#outer wilds#outer wilds spoilers#echoes of the eye#echoes of the eye spoilers#outer wilds echoes of the eye spoilers#eote#eote spoilers#jay art#i love outer wilds. can you tell.#and as we all know the strangers are my favorites ever. its almost like eote came to me at the perfect time in my life#if u havent played the game yet and u havent blocked the spoiler tags. im sorry. um. please play love u#anyways i love being self indulgent. wat if these fuckers were thai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#happy new year to any other seasians reading this. holds ur hands#i hope we all have a beautiful year love and joy forever
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Bro, hear me out, Beowulf is so Gillion Tidestrider coded.
#gillion tidestrider#jrwi#jrwi riptide#beowulf#just read Headley's translation#it's the power and the honour and the sea and the monsters#the being chosen by god and yet still losing the final fight#it's wiglaf (chip/jay) standing with him#it's being in a dark and doomed land and holding back the darkness but it keeps getting closer#it's the masculine bravo in Headley's translation#*bravado#it's “Bro! Tell me we still know how to speak of kings!”#it's the magical weapons and the superhuman feats and the joy of fighting and the choice to fight with bare hands#it's knowing your fate is in the balance and that bad things can happen to you however god-blessed you are#it's fighting to defend your people and community#it's being known and loved and mourned and missed#and it's failing your community by being mortal and human
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a sliver of the act 2 opening of "lolita, my love" demonstrating a more thorough understanding of the novel in a wildly more entertaining way than either of the movies managed in 2+ hours
#humbert humbert#lolita my love#alan jay lerner#musical surpremacy 4 ever!!!!!#or until someone with multiple brain cells makes a movie adaptation#loleeta#lolit4#like yes the musical holds your hand when it comes to deconstructing humberts bs#but CLEARLY we need that as the past 70 years have unfortunately proven
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VINDICATION
FINALLY A LOVE TRIANGLE THAT HAS THE GODDAMN GUMPTION TO CHOOSE BOTH AND THEN BOTH TO CHOOSE EACH OTHER
Never forget this is a book about aliens destroying the world and the world responding by making big ass robots (in this case made out of alien husks) and needing paired pilots to drive them to kill the aliens.
These paired pilots just determined a third is what they needed to make them a balanced match.
#triangles are the strongest shapes#Zetian x Shimin x Yizhi#ULTIMATE THROUPLE UNLOCKED#iron widow#it was the holding hands while watching over her in the hospital and dozing off on each others shoulders#it’s Yizhi saying he knows there’s enough room in Zetian’s heart for both him and Shimin#because his heart has enough room for Zetian and Shimin#THIS IS HOW YOU RESOLVE A LOVE TRIANGLE#it’s literally childhood best friend vs bad boy and Zetian was like por que no las dos#and if you lived in Australia and have seen that Old El Paso ad then we can be friends#xiran jay zhao#spoilers#lgbt+#polyamorous ship#poly ship#the vermillion throuple#thinking about it. surely they have all the qi types now#oh is this why Zetian was wavering between Fire and Water as her secondary type?
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I just got back from spending time in Nawash for some training with work, and there was a lot of special moments that I can't share or don't feel ready to talk about, but there's one from the first day we got there that I do really want to share
That first night, we were all gathered around the fire, just kinda taking the time to relax and get to know each other bc we all work remotely and this is the first time we're meeting in person. While we're at the fire, a family from toronto comes over and asks if they can join us bc their 3-year-old wants to watch the fire
The parents are bilingual and speak both english and mandarin, but the little boy only speaks mandarin, and his parents said he'd been lonely while they were on holiday bc none of the other kids could speak mandarin and they didn't want to play with him bc of the language barrier. At this point, the little boy is standing near me, throwing small sticks he's finding on the ground into the fire, and I'm like. What the heck. I know a tiny bit of mandarin, maybe i can interact with him a bit, give him one moment of friendship at least
Me: *pointing at his really cool dinosaur hat* 你的帽子好看啊!
Him: 🥺😄😁 谢谢!你看看!这是我宝贝!你看看,你看看!
He comes right over and sits on the log beside mine and shows me his little orange ball. And then he puts it on the log in front of him and starts pushing the ball off the log onto the ground
The first few times, I just pick the ball up, give it back to him, and then he pushes it off again, but eventually I change it up a bit. When he pushes the ball off, I pretend like I can't find it
Me: 宝贝在哪儿?
Him: *giggling* 在这儿!
I "find" the ball and give it back, then he pushes it off again
Me: 在哪儿?
Him: 在这儿,在这儿!
We played that for a solid hour, and he kept giggling and laughing the whole time, and his parents both looked so happy that he was finally having fun on their trip. And it's just. That's the whole point of languages right? To talk to people, make new friends, build connections. Make a lonely little boy laugh as he points at his very visible orange ball and tells you "it's right there!!"
There's a lot of (lowkey condescending) people that ask me why I "bother" learning languages they see as useless or too difficult, and that's exactly why I love doing it. Bc you never know when the tiny bit of mandarin you know will make a kid laugh, or when your "useless" irish will make an old lady smile bc she misses home, or when the bits of ukrainian you picked up 5 years ago will help a refugee family find the foodbank. Language is at the heart of every culture and every community, and it's never a waste of time to learn a new one. The more languages you learn, the more people you can talk to, the more connections you can build and smiles you can share
Anyways thanks for coming to lecture, pls grab a new language on your way out so you too can make a smol child laugh
#it was actually so cute how excited he was just to push the ball off and have me ask 'where is it?' just so he could go 'it's there!'#we did both go rogue a couple times and hide the ball in our hands instead of pushing it off/picking it up#in that case the person holding the ball would ask 在哪儿?and the other would point at a hand and say 在这儿!#if it was in that hand we'd go back to pushing it off/picking it up#but if it wasn't in that hand the ball hider would open their empty hand again and say 没有 and hide the ball again#the little boy laughed and laughed the whole time and his mom took a bunch of photos bc it was the first time he'd smiled that whole trip#and like. ive felt stupid and silly for learning chinese and mandarin before but it's all worth it for the joy it brought that kid#even that time i failed at reciting my speech and made a fool of myself in front of the ambassador of china#even that's worth it for how it helped make that interaction possible#languages#story time#jay jabbers
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I miss Tyler. I miss Tyler. I miss Tyler. I miss Tyler.
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Scary boyfriend privilege? No. Scary sons privilege.
Bruce who can’t go anywhere without his newly adopted ward. He follows Bruce like a sunny shadow, grin always in place.
“Dick, can I hold your hand when we cross the street?”
Dick, very sweetly, “No.”
Bruce sighs, but accepts easily. Some guy scoffs at that and asks Bruce if he’ll let his kid just talk to him like that. His kid. His heart hurts in a very good way.
He’s about to say something, but Dick interrupts him, his teeth bared full, “Weren’t you on the news for hitting an old lady with your car?”
Bruce freezing. Dick goes back to his gameboy. They hold hands when they cross the street.
It’s both scary and comforting how little he changes when he’s an adult.
Jason, on the other hand.
Although he refuses to admit it, he does follow Bruce around, too, when his dad actually has to leave the manor. It’s when Alfred says he needs sun.
“You signed a contract, sir.”
Bruce sighing, “I signed it when I was 4. In black crayon. Those don’t count.”
Damian gasped, as if discovering a vile fact, sending an accusing glare Bruce’s way. “They don’t?”
Bruce needs an excuse to haul ass fast and that’s how Jason ends up chaperoning his socially awkward, disaster of a father in his quest to pick up food.
He’s a titanic presence next to Bruce, glaring off whoever stares a little too long or too appreciatively, strong arms crossed and his eyes hard and sharp.
Bruce gently taps his bicep and he hates the way he melts. “Do you want the chicken nuggets with or without apple slices?”
“Without.”
“Jay.”
“FINE.”
Give Jason his “he asked for No pickles” moment. It has to embarrass Bruce enough to jump in traffic, thought.
Damian has his own league and none of them can really compete with it. I think, during parent’s night, he drags Bruce off to proudly showcase his gallery of portraits.
Bruce is very moved when he realizes they’re almost all him.
There’s portraits of Dick, too, and Alfred, and a comically bad one of Tim. “Damian, they’re very beautiful. Thank you.”
“I painted them with the blood of your enemies.”
“…Thank you.”
#protective sons >>>>>>>#dick grayson#jason todd#damian wayne#bruce wayne#bruce wayne is a good dad#batdad#battinson#batfam#dc#dc comics#text#text post
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ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁 .ᐟ ENHA REACTING TO YOU SUDDENLY STUFFING YOUR FACE IN THEIR NECK
𝓅airing ∿ hyung line! enha x f!reader ᰔ 𝒽eadcanons ; fluff, established relationship 𝓌: skinship, kissing?, pet names 𐙚 𝓌c 934 ᝰ.ᐟ 𝓇oro's note. first enha hc hope you guys like it >.< hehe looking for moots #needthem ﹒ ꒰ 𝓁ibrary ꒱ + 𝓂aknae ver
LEE HEESEUNG
“tired princess?” Heeseung hummed quietly as he felt you nuzzle your nose against his neck. his finger’s paused on his controller as he tilted his head to look down at you, a fond look in his eyes. the two of you were sitting on his couch in his room, enjoying the quiet atmosphere of his dorm at night. you shook your head no, your words coming out muffled against his neck “uh-uh just missed you” your words brought a smile to his lips.
“after this round we can get in bed” he promised as he placed a soft kiss on your head, wrapping his arm around your waist and holding you closer, his hands still holding his controller rested on your side as he skillfully played his game. you were practically sitting on his lap by now, your arm draped over the front of his chest, your fingers fidgeting with the collar of his shirt. you fluttered your eyes closed, letting your body melt in his warm embrace, mumbling out a tired “mmkay”
rest of the hyung line members below >.< !!
PARK JAY
“you okay baby?” jay asked you sweetly, pausing his strumming and relaxing back against your chest as you hugged him from behind, your face smushed against his neck. you took a deep breath in against his neck, smelling his cologne before answer quietly “mmm just wanted to be close to you” you were laying under jay’s blanket in his bed, watching his back and side profile as he sat on the edge of his bed, strumming his guitar. he was in arm’s length but that was too far for you, you missed the feeling of his body against yours.
jay eternally awed at your words and sleepy tone, he wanted to be close to you too. jay pulled away from your touch making the corners of your lips curl into a sad pout as you sat back on your knees, watching as he got up from his bed and put away his guitar. but your pout is quickly changed into a smile and giggle when your boyfriend playfully tackled you back against the bed.
your head falls back on the soft pillows while jay takes his place laying between your legs, this time he was the one to stuff his face in your neck breathing in your scent. your arms wrap around his shoulder to pull him closer, one of your hands tangling in his hair to play with it. jay hums happily at the feeling before whispering against your pulse point – the feeling of his warm breath sending chills down your spine as you closed your eyes “my precious girl”
SIM JAKE
“Oh?” jake flinched in surprise at the feeling of you suddenly pressing your body up against his side, he was so into the show playing on your bedroom tv to notice you moving closer to him. jake slips his arm around your waist to pull you flush against him, your arm draping across his chest to softly hold his nape while your leg draped over his midsection.
you tried to keep your hands to yourself as the two of you watched the show, but the longer you looked at him the harder it got for you to hold back. he looked so good, his arm behind his head, his glasses resting so prettily against the slope of his nose, his pretty lips formed into a concentrated pout as he looked at the tv.
jake moves his hand from under his head and swiftly pulls off his glasses and tosses them behind him onto your fluffy carpet, not caring at all if they broke. you were the only thing on his mind right now. you let out a surprised giggle when Jake turned his body towards you so he could lay on you, stuffing his face in your neck. and in turn you wrap your legs and arms around him to pull him closer to you if that was even possible. both of you hum happily at the change of position. “My little koala” he mused teasingly with a chuckle against your neck.
PARK SUNGHOON
“what are you doing you little minx?, hmm” sunghoon hummed with a teasing smirk at your sudden touch, his phone making an obnoxiously loud click when he turned it off before letting it fall by his side on the bed. He was scrolling mindlessly on his phone, both of you were ready for bed but just couldn't fall asleep. you roll your eyes at the ‘pet name’ your boyfriend called you and nuzzled your face against his warm neck, sassily replying “Is it a crime to wanna be close to my boyfriend”
his eyes soften at your words and his smirk is replaced with a smile, he brought his hand up to softly caress your cheek with the tip of his fingers as he whispered “no i suppose it's not” you smiled tiredly at his soft touch, your legs tangled together under the soft sheets. you rest your hand on his chest while he slipped his hand under your shirt and held your waist, pulling you flush against him. you placed a feather light kiss against his neck before mumbling tiredly “love youuu”
sunghoon felt his cheeks and ears warm up at your words, grateful that you couldn't see how flustered you made him by saying that, little did he know you could feel how his heart sped up. sunghoon cleared his throat and moved his hand from your waist to softly pat your head affectionately, kissing the top of your head and whispering sweetly “love you more”
𝓇oro's note. maknae version should be up tomorrow! — I really hope you guys liked this hehe :3 this was my first time writing something like this and I had a lot of fun omg , I'm looking for some enha mooties mwah x ꒰ 𝓃av ꒱
likes, reblogs, comments and feedback are heavily encouraged !
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( reaction ) tying your hair up prank ! ୨୧ 一 엔하이픈 ՞
⸃ ⸰ ⌁ tying your hair up in front of them to get their reaction ヾ
boyfriend!엔하이픈・ fem!reader g ・ smut cw ・ no actual sex , needy jake , talks of oral sex wc ・ 1k | click to library
request. can you please do enha's reactions to their partner doing the "tying my hair up in front of my boyfriend" prank
「 ୨୧ authors note 」 i hope you like it <3
﹙ 𐙚 : heeseung ﹚ .ᐟ
heeseung saw you set the camera up, but knowing the both of you often filmed yourselves together he didn’t think anything of it , especially when he saw you reach for the scrunchie on your wrist , he just thought it was about to go down and he was for it. “heeseung can you hand me that charger?” you asked , he was confused. the camera? the scrunchie? but no head. “what’s wrong?” you asked him trying not to laugh. “nothing.” he had a look of suspicion on his face as he passed you the camera. you couldn’t help but laugh as he handed you the camera. “baby you should see your face.” he rolled his eyes with a smirk. “why can’t you ever be serious?” he was about to stand up to get your phone for you when grabbed his wrist. “no keep it there.” now he could tell you were serious, he sat back down. “was this stupid prank just a way of you telling me you wanted to give me head?” he smirked.
“well baby the camera is rolling, how about you show the camera how you suck my dick like a good girl.”
﹙ 𐙚 : jay ﹚ .ᐟ
jay is different; he won't take notice of you doing something like tying your hair up, and he didn’t even notice you set the camera up so you’d have to get a little creative. “baby.” setting the camera up , he finally looked up from his laptop. “how can i help you princess.” he genuinely wanted to know what you wanted , he didn’t expect you to tie your hair up , rubbing his thighs. “oh?” he said, assuming what you wanted — but it was completely different. “what do you want to eat?” you held back a laugh , as he turned around in his chair, facing his laptop. “i don’t care.” he grumbled under his breath. “baby.” you laughed spinning his chair around. “don’t be upset.” you pouted , kissing his lips. you were about to reach for your phone when he stopped. “no don’t stop it.” he said caressing your cheek. “how about you make it up to me.” you nodded. “good girl.”
“now get on your knees and suck me off.”
﹙ 𐙚 : jake ﹚ .ᐟ
in jakes mind: your hair tied up = he’s about to get head. he didn’t even notice you set the camera up , just you taking the hair tie from your wrist , tying your hair up. he’s like bet — unbuckling his jeans, ready to pull them down. “jake what are you doing?” now he’s confused. “what do you mean?” you try and hold back a laugh, but he’s just staring at you with those puppy eyes. “why are you pulling your jeans down?” now he’s even more confuse. “are you not about to give me head?” you had to force a laugh down. “then why would you tie your hair up.” he pouted , he’s not even embarrassed he’s upset. “jake.” you laughed , pointing to the camera. “stupid camera.” he reached over pushing your phone down bitterly. “jake!” you scolded the boy. “your phone will be fine , i won’t.” he groaned. “im hard now.” you rolled your eyes. “already?”
“well i was already hard but seeing you tying your hair up made it worse.”
﹙ 𐙚 : sunghoon ﹚ .ᐟ
he saw you set the camera up and knew you were on some shit; however he allowed you to continue. “hey hoonie.” you sat down on the bed. “hey?” he watched you closely still unsure what you were doing. “it’s so hot.” you said , reaching over his body to the nightstand, grabbing a scrunchie to tie your hair up. your position and the way you sat; all sizes pointed to head, but the camera was saying something else. “you’re the one that said you didn’t want to film our sexual encounters but im not against it.” he said sitting his down , ready for you – but you never came. “well hurry up , we have somewhere to be soon.” you wanted to laugh , but the way he was nonchalant about it sorta made you want to do it. “this was supposed to be a prank.” he stared at you blankly , before speaking. “well then you better turn that camera off.”
“because now im hard as fuck and it’s your fault so fix it.”
©️LUVYENI
#enhypen smut#enhypen hard headcanons#enhypen hard thoughts#enhypen hard hours#enhypen x female reader#enhypen x reader#lee heeseung x reader#lee heeseung smut#jay park x reader#jay park smut#jake sim smut#jake sim x reader#park sunghoon x reader#park sunghoon smut
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okay i think maybe my relationship is like. rescueable as long as i stop!! doing!! fucked up!! shit!! like apparently my irl communication skills are not at all like. refined?? i guess?? so ive done like rly fucking inexcusable stuff twice (laughing at her when she said something serious (worst thing ive ever done that will haunt me forever), calling her girlfriend a terf and then going on an extremely defensive rant abt transmeds without giving her any opportunity to talk (second worst thing ive ever done i don't even think her girlfriend is a terf!! i never have!! i got very carried away and that will also haunt me forever) (second worst bc i had literally any explanation for my behavior whatsoever like still absolutely fucking inexcusable but the first one was like what the actual fuck there is zero reason that is ever appropriate and the second one was like. i got carried away abt something that is actually upsetting to me but it was not an appropriate way to deal with or engage that conversation whatsoever)). so i have to make sure that i don't fucking pull that shit again. im going to try to be rly conscious abt like. staying calm during important conversations bc i think that's part of the issue. i don't like reign my shit in and think abt what's appropriate and i have to be careful to do that. i can absolutely have proper appropriate conversations abt important things (and we have done that) i just need to focus on. only doing that. like that's abt moderating my tone and keeping an eye on my emotions and if im getting too upset / defensive (and i told her that if i ever fucking do that rly defensive thing again she can just tell me to stop and i will and won't be upset. i usually don't realize im doing it (part of the problem)). so im going to try to be really careful abt that bc i think the only way to rebuild that trust is going to be to just. not do anything like that again.
and then second thing is that i don't initiate enough so im going to work on dealing w my anxiety and just. doing things. and we talked abt what she's okay w me initiating in public (bc i know im okay with more than she is, so i was letting her initiate which i did tell her but now i have guidelines so i can also initiate) and now that we've had that conversation i think ill be able to deal with some of my anxiety by being like. no u should do/say that to a) show u can initiate and ur listening and b) show that u want stuff and ur into this.
so that's the big stuff. communicating appropriately (or more importantly not saying or doing rly inappropriate fucked up shit) and initiating more. and being rly fucking grateful she's giving me a chance to fix stuff / improve. also i told her to stop implying i can't consent bc like wtf but i think the initiating will help with that too.
also im going to ask my roommate (who has known me irl for 2 years) if there's any other like. shitty communication stuff she's noticed that i should keep an eye on. so far its managing tone and emotions.
#this is probably way too much information but that's too bad it's my tumblr i can post whatever i want <3#no one i actually know follows me here which is extremely intentional and on purpose so i can post shit like this#and know it won't be misinterpreted or get back to the wrong person#anyways#i rly want to fix things definitely#two big guidelines (bc i need rules lol):#1. communicate calmly and intentionally#esp abt important stuff#2. initiate more#which includes everything like holding hands in public and talking abt stuff and etc#and then i guess we will see how she feels abt stuff bc ultimately i hurt her (multiple times)#so she has to feel better abt things for this to work#okay that's all my over sharing for now lol hope u all like my relationship drama#aka jay has their first ever close healthy irl relationship (i am not exaggerating)
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I really like how we hold hands as we go to sleep.
#jay#holding hands#hands#sleep#we sleep facing different ways but our ankles are hooked together and fingers entwined#the intimacy!
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