#jakelogic

[cookieholix]

Chapter 8 has been published!! Oh, but be careful! Things seem to be HOT 🔥 🥵

[jaketeachesdeath]

European Moose

Absolutely massive, this skull weights just over 2.5kg. That is just 1% of what a smaller female weighs, 1% !

This skull is also 0.33% of skulls added to the #jakelog . This is the 300th skull added and marks the completion of Book 10!

03/03/24

[hacked-by-jake]

Jakelogic deactivated? :(

I know she's been gone for some time but ... deactivated :(

Oh :/ You're right. Well, it's always sad when someone leaves us. Jakelogic has always given me a lot of joy. But tbh, I think, as you said, since she wasn't active for a long time, you could have expected it. I just hope she's doing okay and I hope she will have a wonderful life. She deserves it. She will always be a part of the fandom. 💚

If you, jakelogic, maybe still read this, we will always love you and thank you for being such a wonderful part of our fandom. 💚

[artic-willow]

Duskwood AU "Criminal On The Loose."

Chapter 1 (N) "Not A Kid Anymore."

Taglist: : @jakelogic @i-desire-jake @jakeismylover @digital-corruption @pennyl4n3 @saddah-mo @booklover-01040 @rw47vr-key7vr @red-writes-stuff @layanasstories @zmayadw @hacked-by-jake @spookycolorpeanut @leverageduskwood @lyricsofravensong @juan-nonetheway @robbybarnes @lois-carroline @captainwanderlust78 @jake01040-duskwood @silentblogsstuff @youngphilosophertragedy @slow-hazel @sasnayaandra  @lem-onchan  @futaba-01040 @duskwood-fandom @aisling-things @oceanipebble @withjake-blog @duskyducky @roxiuuu @duskwoodx @miraculous-duskwood-girl @riaduskwood @nala-raines @lyon-amore @justubi @renneiscent

!TW: MENTION OF DRUGS, BAD WORDS!

*Azure’s POV*

The anxiety suffocates the air.

We are standing, in an almost isolated place with trucks parked at the end of the curb, with a German Shepherd pulling my arm so hard that it comes off.

I've seen worse, I could have been a lot worse.

-"So, what should we do?" Nuna murmurs in a playful voice, as if there is joy in this moment.

-"Dan lent us his dog, he's a dog who smells drugs." Charlie highlights the last words.

Nuna seems to go blackout for a moment.

Her eyes are glued to the ground and they look like two wells of water without an end. It looks like she is just scared, or maybe she is getting tired of living like this like me?

I can't blame her, everything sucks. Since we were born, we have been labeled slaves. We have never seen the light of freedom, of joy...Of having a normal fucking childhood. All we have seen since birth is death and violence.

A dog who smells drugs, cute. But...These types of dogs are on the side of good, not bad.

Since we have been criminals, practically, all our lives, it seems that all good things have slipped before our eyes. It's frustrating, but there's nothing we can do about it. But damn, Nuna is younger than me…Another broken heart. At her age I was already learning how to use a gun. Disgusting, just a broken heart. Just a broken soul. 

Oh how many times have I daydreamed about escaping this place but failing like a wingless angel. I would like to savor the taste of freedom, not of a prisoner.

Why do we have to live like this…? Why am I scared for every second of my damn life..? Why me…?

Charlie feels much less well, he can't deny it either. His eyes are dry and his mind is destroyed by everything. We didn't recover at all.

-"We will have to walk up to a small street, where Richy and Jessy have hidden drugs that we must then sell." Charlie sighs, a long, wild sigh. As if he too can no longer live like this.

- "Do we have to...?" Nuna is completely petrified, even here I can't blame her even a little.

What if the police find us and run after us? What if someone gets hurt while we run away from the police? We absolutely cannot rule out that the police will find us, because they will.

Charlie turns, looking at her menacingly. -"Are you still opposed to what they want?" Charlie lets out another heavy sigh, his eyes rolling for how many times he says that until he will vomit. -”If adults ask, you obey. End of the discussion. "

One of the phrases I hate the most. it's a fucking nonsense.

Why obey? In any case we will die one day, because they don't give a shit if we get hurt or are going to die with our heads. Nobody would care...So why obey them to adults if they are the cause of our malaise? Yet...It could also be the other way, why rebel if we don't have an escape route?

Nuna has heard that phrase so many times that she can now exchange it as daily bread.

She clenches her fists, her face wet from the little tears rising slightly just to look at Charlie with a look of hate. -"I do not care."

Though devoid of any swear words, the fragile but threatening voice makes me shiver. it's as if she highlights her hatred in all the words that come out of her mouth. 

It almost makes me think that...She too wants to stop living like this and rebel.

Charlie looks shocked too, but that feeling of shock can use it in his favor. -"Do you REALLY think we will have an escape from this shitty situation?"  His face is no longer annoyed, but slowly turns into a crooked and lethal smile. The smile you make when you want to say something threatening by bringing the facts to light and expecting to be right. 

Nuna makes a whimsical face, -"It's just that you don't see a way out, do you?"

The answer doesn't seem to make sense. But...Actually...Who says we don't have a way out? Or maybe…It’s just she who can see the way out.

- "Nuna! Shit!" He grits his teeth, - "You know how many fucking times I've tried to escape but couldn't?"

?

He tried to escape without us ..?

-"Carlie...If you tried to escape without us, it would mean that you don't care about us." I frown and look at him in the worst possible way. You fucking traitor.

He always tried to be some kind of leader, now what?  We can’t trust him anymore? He is sometimes a friend, he is sometimes the leader, he is sometimes an important member of the family… But sometimes he is the evil one, the hornless devil, a sociopath impotent to feel any kind of emotion. And now all these nicknames are completely foreign to me, who is he for us? 

Charlie is angry. It shows. He growls under his breath and his gaze burns everywhere he moves. -"You already know that I can't show much empathy...And I can't show it like you sometimes do..."

-"Charlie, nothing would happen if you showed us empathy sometimes." My voice is drier than before.

Nuna cries. -"You....You told me that we are not allowed to be children...Playing and having fun as such..." The voice is so much in pain and suffering that it seems that the heart has melted into a pulp inside of me.

Charlie saying that being a child is a way to show ourselves how useless we are, or at least as he said it he made us understand this.

I take Nuna's hand and we continue walking, without even seeing Charlie's embittered face.

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I shake Nuna's hand eagerly as I walk forward with my head cloudy with thoughts. The dog is making me walk faster as he is stronger than me. Nuna looks around lost and trembling.

-"Azure, I think we've arrived..." As soon as she pronounces these words I turn around and a shiver arches my back.

An isolated place with trucks randomly placed near the sidewalks, trucks of various brands of food or drink. It is now a completely abandoned place, with no trace of life and some trucks seem out of order.

Nuna stands beside me frightened by some strange noises, probably crows. -"Azure...What do we have to do…?"

The dog sticks its muzzle to the ground and begins to sniff the ground. -"Finding drugs that our allies had hidden...But in such a place I doubt there are any drugs..." I look around and the dog is about to take my arm off as he is glaring and dragging me towards a van. 

The van behind is open, I let go in pain and fell to the hard floor. -"Shit!" I let out a scream of pain.

-"Are you okay?" Nuna approaches the entrance of the van to peek.

I sneeze, my chest burns from the violent fall.

I look up and the dog is scratching somewhere in the van…From a distance it looked like a mousetrap. I get closer, and for some reason I start shaking. Sometimes it's Charlie who does these things, who has the courage to hold drugs. But he is not here with us, we can't always count on him.

Every step feels like I'm about to sink into the ground.

The dog has now dug and ruined that strange box, it's full of splinters. It's not safe to put my hand in that place...

I reach in with one hand, and pull out an envelope. It was a small bag, the contents inside were white and look like dandruff.

It…It is a drug…Even if it's not the first time I've done it, every time it just feels like a punch in the heart.

The thought of ruining people with this crap is heavy as an elephant on the back...

It's my fault something dies from this shit. It's my fault.

I leave the van crying, almost pushing Nuna.

There are some trees where, before collapsing, I place my hand on the trunk...

Why can't I have a normal life? Why do I always end up screwing everything up?

The world still collapses before my eyes.

I'm tired of living like this...

-"Azure?" Nuna hugs me from behind, I didn't even realize I was crying.

I turn abruptly and hug her, -"I'm sorry you have to face this life...I don't wish this on anyone."

Nuna looked confused, but she understood. -"Hey don't worry, it's not your fault..."

My mouth fills with things I want to say, but no one dares to come out.

-"You know...Maybe Charlie was right, we are not children anymore...Or at least we are for age but we don't think and act like children anymore." The way and the ease with which she says it is heartbreaking. But he's right.

-"Yes…You are right." I dry my tears, she too seems to be about to cry.

-"Can we eat something?" She huffs and holds her belly tightly.

I chuckle a little, -"If we find something, yes."

[yuvon-augold79]

Hey, dear! 💛

How are you doing today? Is it a little better at least?

Feel free to answer when you prefer, don't worry 💛

Hiya :)

Yeah, I'm doing better today, thanks for asking. I just did something sort of stupid by accident yesterday, but it's all cleared up now. My head is fine again, I don't feel foggy or dizzy anymore :D

Thank you for asking, I really appreciate it <3

Have a good day/night!

[zmayadw]

If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 7 blogs in your notifications, anonymously or not! Let's get to know the person behind the blog. <3

Have a wonderful day/night! ✨

Hi there lovelie 😊💚

How are you? I really hope you're doing good!💚

Alrighty, here we go...

1. I'm a Sagittarius ♐

2. I really hated to read books when I was a kid, and now I wish I have more time to just sit in peace and quiet and get lost in a book 😩

3. I never broke any bones 😁

I'm really sorry if these are boring, but I'm running out of things to say 😆

Thank you for the ask, hope you'll have a great day/night! 💚

[rw47vr-key]

Hey, how are you doing, sunshine? ❤️

I really hope everything's ok ❤️.

Angel Elisa?💙Have I told how much much kind hearted and sweet you are?❤️ You deserve the whole world and more love 💙 and I know this lovely community agrees on that,for sure❤️

I got this ask when I was offline and when I saw this today...😭❤️ no I wasn't crying again I swear

Tbh I'm still not in the best mood but then today to my surprise I vented out to my friend through phone(we both were in the same situation haha, the irony) so I'm quite good , I'll be better soon , especially because I have lovely people like you all❤️

Thanks a lot for stopping love💙 and i really hope you'll feel better soon ❤️ and know that you can talk/dm to me anytime ❤️

Take care of yourself and many more loves and hugs to you dear❤️💙

And I'm so sorry @jakelogic , whenever you jump into my ask with such sweetness💙,I feel like I always vent 💀 sorry again(yep I always forget to add important ones💀)

[backtodecember-taylorsversion]

🌺 send this to ten bloggers you think are wonderful. 🌺

really! thank you so much 🥰

[incorrectnessduskwood]

♥️love train! Send this to all the blogs you love! Don’t forget to spread the love!♥️

Oh, thank you so much, love!! Sending lots of love back to you 💙💙

[jaketeachesdeath]

A run through of Book 10

03/03/24

[duskwood-disco]

Thanks for the tag love 💞

@your-friendly-fbi @strikinglight @one-and-only-po @jakelogic @nonenym and everyone else I haven't tagged.

Feel free to do it if you'd like to!

I was tagged by @saddah-mo to participate in this cool Picrew thing! Thank you a lot for tagging me! Loved it! 💚

-> Here is the link to the picrew

Tagging: @booklover-01040 @zmayadw @julesisreading @itsnotzka @julesthoughts @mysteriouslover1516 @angie-01040 (Of course don’t feel forced <3)

[artic-willow]

🌺 send this to ten bloggers you think are wonderful. 🌺

AWWWWWWW THANK YOUUUU <333333

This made my day, really <33 I think the same about you too! ^^

I hope you will have an a nice day/night! <3

[do-you-need-a-hacker]

Hey, happy birthday, darling! ❤️

(please tell me I was right XD, I read it last night from the 3 personal facts reblog 😅)

Cutie sis'

You are... Perfectly right ! 🥰🥳

Thank you so much for being this sweet and caring person that you are 😘🤗💝

[duskwood-jake]

Hii, dear Jake <3

I really hope you're doing alright :)

I'd love asking question n°21, so a question chosen by me if it's not a problem for you <3

21. What's your idea of happiness? Would you consider your life something that reflects your idea of happiness?

Answer just if you're comfortable with it, dear Jake, I don't want to put any kind of pressure on you <3.

Have a wonderful day/night, I hope we'll see each other again soon ;)

(sending you a big virtual hug <3)

Hello, @jakelogic :)

Everything is fine. I hope you doing well, too.

A very interesting and rather difficult question. I hope you don't mind if I answer without a virtual avatar this time. It seems like it would be inappropriate.

What is happiness, then... I haven't thought about it, but right now I'm going to try to formulate the thoughts that come to my mind associatively.

Happiness is an opportunity to breathe deeply. Stop, without fear that at every new second the pursuers may catch.

Happiness is freedom.

Happiness is the opposite feeling when loneliness eats through you. Of course, sometimes loneliness is even good, but sometimes it just starts to go crazy.

Happiness is an opportunity to talk, to trust at least one person completely, without fear of putting them in danger.

Happiness is safety.

Sometimes I think that happiness is a desert island with a man who has captured all my thoughts. And with a cat. But... To be honest, I'm not sure. At least because it's probably not the best option for that person.

As for the second part of the question... I'm not sure that's the case. My life is not so bad. At least because I'm used to it. But even if try to apply the simple associations I mentioned above, I'm not sure that at least some of this to what is in my life now.

Anyway, thanks for the question. Have a good time.

I also hope that we will see each other again soon.

And about the last line:

Second is Nym-0s :')

[yuvon-augold79]

Hey, happy birthday!! 💕

(please tell me that I'm right lol)

I really hope you'll spend a wonderful day and that you're doing fine! 💕

Sending lots of love to you!

Hiya! <3

You are indeed right :D Thank you! I have a good feeling about this particular birthday :)

Lots of love right back at you, and have a wonderful day/night! :D

[lyricsofravensong]

I'm 3000 years late for these, but thank you so much dear @amelia-bluebell-rw47vr and @jakelogic ❤️

And sending it right back to both of you! Gosh, I've missed you very much <3

I'm doing well right now and better all the time as I'm feeling all the love from you ✨

🌙