#jaewon photos

[chergeegee]

Do you have more Thangyu drawings or Platonic Semgyu drawings to share to the class?????????? (please I LOVE your art)

MY CHANCE TO ART DUMP UNFINISHED/ABANDONED STUFF (ALSO TY 😼 IM GLAD PPL ENJOY MY DRAWINGS ESP MY PLATONIC SEMGYUS)

I ALWAYS HAVE MORE PLATONIC SEMGYU ON THE WAY I'm just slow (i dont draw much thangyu anymore sadly) I have more finished-ish art, but I wanna make it look nice when I post it

Anyway here's some stuff:

MY NAMGYU SEMI CAT SAGA I wanted to draw them for my art homework, but I didn't want to embarrass myself so I disguised them as cats lol

Merch that never got made (Semi Namgyu keychains and Thangyu spinning standee)

Abandoned comics (that I'll probably get back to)

Random art/stupid doodles

[zombmay]

Homemade Photocards with my bae !!

(She made the Dori one. (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶))

[jaeducs]

did you guys know that those korean cheerleaders going viral on tiktok are actually dancing to a remix of a 1st gen song?? specifically 'my lecon' by jtl! it's being wrongly attributed to someone else unfortunately, but seriously it's crazy seeing so many celebrities dance to what is technically 1st gen kpop.

jtl is the group that tony, woohyuk and jaewon created after leaving h.o.t. and sm. enter the dragon is an amazing album from start to finish so i highly recommend it.

[making-eggs]

HE FINALLY POSTED

[namgyunation]

rewatching s2 for writing reasons and seeing all of thanos and nam-gyu's interactions again, and omggg i love how much of a loser nam-gyu is lmao.

i'm personally a tragic one-sided thangyu and/or platonic thangyu truther because it's just so much more pathetic and interesting to me to view nam-gyu's loser, kiss-ass behavior towards thanos to be out of desperation to just have a fucking friend and to be considered even the slightest bit as cool / confident as thanos just by being associated with him.

jaewon said that nam-gyu's full of anger and resentment due to being completely disrespected by people his entire life. all he wants is to be loved and recognized, for people to respect him.

he wants it so bad but can never seem to convince people to view him that way. his insecurities and fear always show through, and to me he always comes off as so awkward instead of confident and strong. so when it comes to thanos, bro latched on to him right away. he thinks thanos is cool and craves his attention and validation in what i view as a 'fanboy' kind of parasocial type of way, as he clearly idolized thanos even before the games and rushed to be in a photo with him, despite trying to play it cool at first.

it made him feel good to bond with thanos and have the shared connection of being scammed by mg coin. being close to him and earning thanos's favor made him feel validated, and he had the desire to be seen as an equal to him and better than their other teammates.

nam-gyu is sooo mean to min-su because he seems him as weak, something that he desperately doesn't want to be associated with, and it just makes him an easy target for nam-gyu to feel stronger and better about himself whenever he pushes him around. he's mean as fuck to se-mi because she provoked him. she saw right through how insecure he was when she called out how he took thanos's pill and then tried to lecture the rest of the team, as if he wasn't clearly just as scared as the rest of them. she wasn't afraid to verbalize it, and it pissed nam-gyu off to be reminded of how he comes off to other people. he doesn't hesitate to be an asshole to people.

and yet, thanos repeatedly disrespects the fuck out of nam-gyu: brushing off his ideas, cutting him off, putting him down, and even going so far as to embarrass him in front of the whole team with the noona thing as soon as he tries to assert himself over min-su. jaewon has stated repeatedly that thanos didn't respect nam-gyu and looked down on him a lot.

despite thanos's behavior and the fact that nam-gyu clearly hates people looking down on him and reminding him of his own insecurities, he never directly speaks out against thanos, not even once, despite how clearly uncomfortable it makes him and how quick he is to speak out against other people (se-mi and min-su for example. min-su, especially).

i personally like to interpret it as him being so horribly desperate for a connection, a friendship, even if the foundation of said friendship is mostly built on them being on drugs together / wanting to get back at mg coin. so desperate that he'll let thanos step on him and put him down even though he so clearly hates it and is made uncomfortable by it. because thanos is "cool". because nam-gyu would rather take shit from him over and over than be alone, because at least when he's with thanos, he gets a crumb of validation every now and then, like when he repeatedly picks him in mingle. this is just how i prefer to view them as opposed to 'nam-gyu was desperately in love with thanos and pushed everyone else around bc he was jealous and wanted to kiss on him all by himself'

likeee give me pathetic, loser nam-gyu that clearly has a history of being disrespected his whole life that's turned him into a bitter, hateful person, and yet, when even the slightest possibility of something as simple as a friendship, a genuine connection and mutual respect, recognition from someone he deems as 'cool' is dangled in front of him, he's desperate enough to just let thanos step all over him.

thanos is strong, confident, capable of commanding a room, and not afraid to say what he wants. nam-gyu feels inferior to thanos, and thanos leans into it, but even then nam-gyu is still willing to take the blatant disrespect and let himself be pushed around in exchange for anything ambiguously shaped like a friendship.

[bajablasttacobell]

I love this photo of Roh Jaewon so I attempted to draw it lol

[blmpff]

✨2023: A Summary✨

Post your most popular and/or favourite edit/gifset/analysis for each month (it’s okay to skip months!)

Tagged by @lurkingshan, and also @colourme-feral and @troubled-mind as I was working on it, thank you ❣️

My two main ~things~ are uploading actors' photos, and doing my own favorite X posts from shows I'm watching, and considering I've uploaded 5593 posts in 2023, in this essay I'll focus on my own.

disclaimer 1: I started posting my edits in March, so the first two months of the year will be just actors' pics to not skip them disclaimer 2: as for favorites the answer is always my favorite shots posts because each and every single one of them is my precious baby disclaimer 3: I added SHOWS to each month for my compilation posts for them

JANUARY:

- most popular: First Kanaphan from their trip to Japan I think - favorite: ArmyJoe stills from gmmtv twt

FEBRUARY:

- most popular: Fluke and Thor TWE bts - favorite: this MosBank

MARCH:

- most popular: Our Dining Table promo picture - favorite: Midnight Museum ep5, The Eighth Sense ep2, first Shared Location

APRIL:

- most popular: P'Jojo explaining the use of thai soap opera cliches in Our Skyy 2: Never Let Me Go - favorite: T8S x train ride, Jaewon calling Jihyun his boyfriend, shadow kisses, Midnight Museum moon shots 4/4, the post where I save links to all the shows/movies I make posts about - shows: Our Dating Sim, The Eighth Sense, Destiny Seeker, Midnight Museum, Blueming, Bed Friend

MAY:

- most popular: P'Jojo posting about Only Friends getting the green light - favorite: Man's hands, this Between Us scene, this ONHCT scene, OS2 x Win's Adventures - shows: OS2: The Eclipse, OS2: NLMG, Happy Merry Ending, ABAAB, Love Mate, ONHCT, Dear Ex, Please Tell Me So, A First Love Story 1, A First Love Story 2, Step For You

JUNE:

- most popular: Cooheart in a bridal dress at Bangkok Pride - favorite: Fluke's hair poll, IQ subber in House of Stars, ODT Tane - shows: Star Struck, Our Dining Table, Love Tractor

JULY:

- most popular: NeoMark Only Friends Q photo - favorite: these two Tokyo In April Is parallels, this Semantic Error scene - shows: Step by Step, La Pluie, House of Stars, My Ride

AUGUST:

- most popular: P'Jojo talking about sex scenes in Only Friends - favorite: ML Shin being Shin, this scene in SMC - shows: Tokyo In April Is, Sing My Crush, Egoist, Low Frequency, Stay Still, Sonnet 18

SEPTEMBER:

- most popular: the epic journey that was Red Peafowl cast announcement - favorite: Leehyun repeatedly calling An his boyfriend, Joohyuk x Sungmin, hyung, EarthBank - shows: Laws of Attraction, Love Class 2, Marry Go Round, Minato's Laundromat 2, Hidden Agenda, Bon Appetit

OCTOBER:

- most popular: P'Jojo roasting Boston - favorite: IFYLITA dream dancing, bloody Papang, bloody GG kiss&murder - shows: My Personal Weatherman, Only Friends, Grand Guignol, Semantic Error: The Movie

NOVEMBER:

- most popular: new YinWar show Jack&Joker pilot - favorite: this Mermaid's Jade scene, this The Devil Judge scene, these Playboyy posters - shows: I Feel You Linger In The Air, Mermaid's Jade, Kiseki: Dear To Me, Pure Vanilla, One Room Angel

DECEMBER:

- most popular: Babe causing Billy to malfunction - favorite: JellyfishBolster compilation, this AobPuen, DFF I've been impaled - shows: Sweet Home 2, Shadow, To My Star s1, Absolute Zero, Bake Me Please, Moonlight Chicken

Tagging everyone who wants to do it and haven't already, this site helps!

[1-800-jewon]

Let me in(20 Cube)!

“I’ll give you my lo lo lo love.”

Pairing: Yang Jaewon x reader.

For: @biteyoubiteme. MDNI!!

He doesn’t know how it happened, all he knows is that he likes that he got this far. It all started with him entering silently into your room through your window. He made sure to sneak as silently towards you as possible and then a glow from his eyes is all it took. Once he got you where he wanted you, he gave you a few commands. Now here you were, jerking him off while letting him use you. He had you on his lap, trying to focus on jerking him off while he fingered you. Eden enjoyed hearing your moans as you gave little squeezes. He then pulled his fingers out of you, relishing in your broken whines. “Don’t worry my pet, gonna give you the real deal now.”

Eden was happy, here you were under him and taking him nicely. His lips ghosted your neck, fangs peeking out. He felt as you squeezed him, causing a hiss to tumble out. He knew you were coming soon, waiting until you released all over him. Then, as you came, his fangs sank down into your skin. He watched as he came inside you and drank your blood. The sweet red liquid dripping down your chest. He looked happy with what he had done to you. Yeah, Eden would say he had everything now for sure. “Heck, if I’d have known you be this easy, I’d’ve taken you years ago….” He gave a small thrust as you moaned and tightened around him. If it were possible, he’d have taken you centuries ago.

Hope you like it! Also, it was Yeo One(Pentagon) and Eden(Nine.i)’s birthday but Google didn’t have good Changgu photos so…���. Yeah!

[bbiwon]

here's the thing: jaewon doesn't like saying no. and it's not because he doesn't have a backbone, silently obeying everything anyone ever wants of him; it's the situations like these, where saying no would have him come off as a complete tool. it's situations like these where he says yeah, sure, because he thinks that whom he talks with is simply lost (and who wouldn't be, with the vast size of the mall ), only to realize he's alike a fish caught in a net. except that struggling to pull himself out of it, once he realizes just what he got himself into, would also have him coming off as a complete tool. so here he is, after saying that fateful yes, trailing behind his companion, on a mission to take instagram worthy perfect photos.

"what about the fountain?" he inquires, eyes focused on the led display and the pictures that cycle through it. "or is that, like, so overrated nowadays?"

[90sloverwithinsomnia]

12 Steps of Christmas - Chapter 2/12

This is one of many archived fanfics featuring 1st and 2nd generation K-pop acts that I've come across recently. It's all in good fun, and maybe a bit cringeworthy! Just to clarify, I don't post fanfics, so I hope to the people that post and read K-pop fanfics makes sense. Credits go out to the original creator hgiel.

*Note: Nothing in their post will change (unless necessary), other than being posted here, and the (Link) will be provided to the page that i found it on.

Characters:

Moon Hee joon, Ahn Chilhyun (Kangta), An Seung Ho (Tony), Lee Jaewon, Jang Woohyuk, Kim Jong Il, Jong Min, Vanness Wu

Summary:

The 12 hours of an H.O.T Christmas.

Chapter 2 - 2:00AM-3:00AM:

Time: 2:04AM Location: Hee Jun’s house Sub-Location: Hee Jun’s dream

Hee Jun suddenly found himself on stage with a guitar, when he turns to the left, he sees Freddie Mercury.

“Oh my God! It’s you!” Hee Jun gasps.

“That’s right Hee Jun, I’ve come back from the dead to rock with you! Are you ready to rock?” Freddie Mercury asks.

“Yes, I so am! Then can we tongue kiss?” Hee Jun asks.

“I still have AIDS.”

“Then let’s just rock!” Hee Jun cheered.

Time: 2:19AM Location: Jae Won’s house

Jae Won punches the numbers into the phone once again and waits.

After a few ring, the recording picks up. “HO HO HO! This is Santa! I’m on my way around the world still, so sit tight if I haven’t arrived yet. But remember, you have to be fast asleep! HO HO HO!”

“Come see me Santa, please.” Jae Won whispers into the phone.

Time: 2:28AM Location: Kang Ta’s house

Kang Ta stands on his roof, doing Taiichi.

Time: 3:27AM Location: Military Base, Barracks

Woo Hyuk wakes up suddenly to his bed shaking. It doesn’t take long until he realized the man on the top bunk over his is masturbating.

Woo Hyuk kicks the bed, warning him to stop. The man leans over the side to look at him.

“I’m sorry.” He apologized. “I just miss my girlfriend so much. You want to see her?”

Before Woo Hyuk could say no, he was handed a photo of a rather plain looking girl.

“Nice.” He lies, then hands over a picture of Tony from under his pillow. “Here is mine.”

“She’s pretty.” The man notes. “Can I use this for a few minutes?”

Woo Hyuk sighs. “Just hurry it up."

Time: 3:41AM Location: Military Base gates

Tony tip toes up to the gates, then starts to tunnel under them.

[rubyyvonne]

HWARANG

 ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁

Stage Name: Hwarang (화랑)

Birth Name: Song Jaewon (송재원)

Birthday: April 23, 2001

Position: Main Rapper, Main Dancer, Composer

Height: 182cm

MBTI: ENFP

Nationality: Korean

Emoji: 🦊

Notes

Hwarang was born in Uijeongbu, Gyeonggi-do, South Korea.

His family consists of parents and an older brother born in 1998.

His education consists of Chungdam High School and Shinhan University.

His nicknames are Small Fish and Deer.

He was a contestant on Under Nineteen and ranked 32.

He is a former DSP Media trainee and trained with MIRAE.

He was a back up dancer in KARD's Enemy music video.

He was a trainee for 7 to 8 years, 6 of which were with DSP Media.

He went on hiatus in March 2024 after he confirmed in a fancall that he went to a club with his friends.

He officially left the group on August 11, 2024 and terminated his contract with Yuehua Entertainment.

Concept Photos

It's Me, It's WE

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SHINING UP

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ON and ON

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The Calm Before The Storm

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Into The Tempest

↓ Version 1

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Voyage

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[p0pprince]

ɴᴀᴍᴇ: daniel   hwan.    [   hwan jaewon      /       korean name   ]   ꜱᴛᴀɢᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ:  DΔWN. ɢᴇɴᴅᴇʀ: cis-male. ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ʙɪʀᴛʜ:  december   18th. ᴩʟᴀᴄᴇ ᴏꜰ ʙɪʀᴛʜ:  queens     ,      new-york. ᴩᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ: park   jinri  [  mother      ,      deceased   ]    ,    hwan daesung  [    father  ,  deceased   ]     ,    park    sooyoung  [ an    aunt     who’s     raised    him    since    the     age    of    two     years     old          ,          alive   ]   ꜱɪʙʟɪɴɢꜱ  :  only    child.

ʜᴇɪɢʜᴛ: 6′1 ( 185  cm ) ᴡᴇɪɢʜᴛ: 148 lbs. ʙᴜɪʟᴅ: slender     /     toned  [    workouts    regularly     ] ʜᴀɪʀ ᴄᴏʟ��ʀ: dark     brown. ᴇyᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ: light    brown. ᴠᴏɪᴄᴇ-ᴄʟᴀɪᴍ:  the     weeknd.

ᴇᴅᴜᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: the     juilliard     school. ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ/ ᴍᴀᴊᴏʀ/ᴀʀᴇᴀ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴛᴜᴅy:     majored     in    dance       ,        new    york    city     ballet      [  where    daniel’s     ballet    career     took     off  ] . ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ᴏᴄᴄᴜᴩᴀᴛɪᴏɴ:  musician [      international    popstar        ,        labeled     ‘    the     prince     of     pop     ‘      by     the     world   ]   ᴩʀᴇᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ ᴊᴏʙꜱ:  professional     ballet     dancer. ᴍᴀʀɪᴛᴀʟ ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴜꜱ: verse    dependent. ᴏʀɪᴇɴᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴ:    bisexual. [    open     ]

discovered    𝖆𝖈𝖈𝖎𝖉𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞     in     a    karaoke     bar        ,       a    video     of     him    singing     a    near     identical    rendition     of    rock     with     you.         the    voices    were     so    similar     to    that     of    the     late    and     great     michael     jackson         ,        the    video      soon    went    viral     and     attracted     many     music    labels    to    found     out    the    name    behind     the     unknown    face.          the     Internet     soon     figured    out    that     the     possible    protege    to    the    idol    was     an    up    and     coming     ballet    artist    who    occasionally    dabbled    his    hand     in    songwriting.  

 the     clips     were    only     30     seconds        ,         but    viewers    demanded    full     length    durations     of     his    songs.          the     entertainment     industry    knew    they     found     a    gem    in     daniel    ;     he    could    dance         ,          sing         ,        and write     his      own      music.           the      real      question     was      could      he      win      an      audience      over  ?   daniel      was     a     natural      ;      he     had     the      look       ,     the      charm        ,        the      way      he      articulated      his     words      to     make      even     the     cruelest     of     people      to      feel     flustered.           daniel     won     grammys         ,           topped      the      billboard      charts         ,         wherever      you      went     in      the      world     ,        you      could      hear      or      see     his     music. 

with     all      the      new      found     success     and     fame        ,         daniel     strived     to      remain     humble     within     the     depths     of     hollywood ; kind to all who's worked with him , takes the time to take photos with fans , and you can even see him taking the subway occasionally in new york.         outside      of     the      public      eye          ,           you     can      find      daniel     reading        ,        at     art      museums     and     galleries. he also dabbles in some cooking every now and then when there is free time in his schedule.

[froggy-seok]

Dongho:

man. he is absolutely riddled with guilt. that is not even an understatement one of the only times he cries is because he FEELS RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT’S HAPPENED TO JAEWON. i need to like. shake him by the shoulders or pput him in a blender or something.

yeah anyways that doesn’t go away post-canon. like at all. if anything i think it gets worse! one BIGGG reason for this imo is that dongho would very much take the mental stance of “nothing physically happened to me, so therefore i am fine” and just. act like he’s fine. even though he is #losingit !! he would be the last to start going to therapy for this exact reason.

I think he personally holds himself responsible for a lot of what happened in canon, mostly because of the fact that he was the one to find out about jaewon’s scandals first, he was the one to do something after the saesang break-in, but also he was the one who was a bystander when anything happened to the others. he had to see daejae in the hospital, jaewon seemingly getting hurt by their management, and also minsoo immediately after the break in??? it’s responsibility because he didn’t (couldn’t) do anything, whereas the bridge is more like. responsibility because he thinks he was the main reason/deciding factor for jaewon.

also. i do suspect that someone Probably got a video or at least a photo of dongho kicking jaewon out of the group. they were in public when that happened. i suspect if it did exist, it would get released pre-redebut and any backlash towards dongho would mostly get settled by that tell-all interview (dongho would likely address it/explain his thought process) and they’d be close enough post-canon that people. probably wouldn’t make too much of a deal out of it after the interview? but i do believe that in general, some people would legit blame dongho (and the others but we’ll get to that) for “not noticing” or “not doing anything” about the truth behind wyld. definitely not enough to completely trash his reputation, but enough that he’d be aware of it.

mostly due to everything already discussed, I think dongho would have the worst sleep schedule in mayhem post-canon. just kind of a clusterfuck of insomnia/nightmares/probably telling the others they can come to him if they can’t sleep. a lot of dongho not sleeping well would be. mostly guilt related imo? i do think he’d just generally have a lot of nightmares about the bridge/the news broadcast of that/other related stuff (idk. jaewon’s funeral. that sorta thing.) and as a result, would check on jaewon A Lot at night. he’d probably say he’s just checking on Boba or something, but it’s mostly him making sure jaewon’s where he’s supposed to be (in bed) and hopefully asleep.

so like. dongho’s just kinda tired post-canon. definitely naps a lot (cue old man jokes from minsoo), insane coffee consumption, all that jazz. he and jaewon probably wind up spending a lot of late nights just sorta. hanging out when their horrendous sleep schedules somehow line up.

they get along well post-canon, dongho has absolutely apologized a few dozen times (and jaewon’s definitely forgiven him/told him he doesn’t have anything he needs to apologize for), and I think they’d wind up with a duo single (if not a mini album).

this next thing is more my variety of headcanons that consist of a somewhat insane reach away from canon (and are somewhat based on my experiences/wanting to make my fav characters like me (🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈)) so please just like. disregard if you don’t agree LOLLL

there are obviously a lot of reasons why dongho would generally look more at ease/happier as LiT goes on, but I am still going to draw a connection between that and the fact that his hair gets longer throughout the series. a lot of his character arc in season 2 is loosely framed around him going after his own dreams instead of what his parents want/expect from him, but the important part there to me is that he still held himself to their expectations for like. a while. he did need a push to persue his dream (jeongmin buying him the plane ticket to seoul), and i don’t see why that wouldn’t also be applicable for other areas where he maybe is still following expectations that aren’t really want he wants for himself, even unconsciously so. it’s never outright said if dongho starts growing his hair out because he just wanted to or if the stylists suggested it, but i wouldn’t be surprised if it was the latter, mostly because there is very little other change made to his wardrobe (on or off stage) while still at HCE. he only starts wearing more gender-nonconforming/androgynous clothing when he’s under SHC, aka when mayhem get new stylists, but his hair is still long. it stays long over their hiatus. obviously men can just. have long hair and wear androgynous clothing, BUT. it would not surprise me if dongho has some sort of suppressed gender/sexuality crisis going on. i say suppressed because while he seems to be very chill about the styling, he’s not incorporating it into his personal wardrobe. the hair is a bit more deniable (or even a bit safer) and that is the thing that he keeps over their hiatus. no one pressures him to keep it. and OOOHHH kang dongho i know what you are. actually i don’t his gender is lowkey an enigma to me and probably to him as well!! i definitely think he would keep growing his hair and slowly get a more androgynous wardrobe, i dooooo think. that minsoo would likely pick up on some things. they’re like. absolutely still roommates (i think) so if anyone’s going to notice it’s minsoo. i really don’t think dongho would talk about it to anyone in mayhem though! slight tangent: i do think that despite probably having beef with him, dongho and minseok would get along well eventually. dongho would talk to minseok about it all for sure. minseok would keep that secret like his life depends on it. while i don’t have like. a nice way to tie this all off, it really does play a big role in how i interpret/write dongho (specifically post-canon) and it REALLY does become prevalent in some fic(s) i have planned. he is very queercoded to me though, and i do in fact think he has feelings for minsoo. that is all.

long time no see my uni professors want me dead and i want to write fanfic so here’s the start of a thread of character analysis/headcannons about post-canon lost in translation

Jaewon:

ok first things first this guy goes through so much head trauma in canon what the fuck is up with that?? i don’t feel like verifying all the occurances right now but off the top of my brain i count four different times (ceo park literally stomping on him, jaewon hitting his head on a door knob (and yes rhat is mostly humor but also im counting it), jaewon hitting his head on the floor of the club (club situation with minseok and dae), ceo park hitting him over the head with glass bottle AND stomping on his head (two for one combo)) and as far as i recall, jaewon doesn’t specifically get treated for head trauma in any of these situations? yes he gets hospitalized twice, once with a visible bandage on his head, and while i can understand not wanting to get super medical i am also just like 🤨🤨🤨🤨 someone check him for a concussion please???

so i know this sounds insane but keep the previous stuff in mind: i honestly to god think he’s got a TBI (traumatic brain injury)/some sort of brain damage by the end of season three, and my main reasoning for this is his behavior in the episodes when he is hospitalized/leading up to the trial. YES he has dealt with a lot mentally by that point and that could also explain his behavior, BUT!!!! his behavior in those episodes (specifically when he snaps at daehyun) just feels. off. INTERESTINGLY ENOUGH THEY ALSO LINE UP WITH SOME SYMPTOMS OF A TBI!!!! specifically behavior/mood related symptoms but yeah the point still stands. He’s irritable and i’d even say a bit aggressive (behavioral symptoms) but he also seems to be swinging between being angry to anxious/lonely to just straight up apathy (specifically during the bridge scene.) which are all common mood-related symptoms. FURTHERMORE. he is back to normal (basically) at the trial, and many of the symptoms mentioned are like. shorter term symptoms? so. TBI is definitely a possibility and a very likely one in my opinion bc ceo park kinda fucked him up ngl!!!!

anyways. the headcannon that comes from this. spiel of medical stuff. ok the headcannon is that jaewon has a TBI, but more specifically there are long term symptoms of those, A LOT OF WHICH DO NOT WORK WELL WITH BEING AN IDOL. given that he does redebut with mayhem and there is no mention of him having severe medical repercussions, i have sorta cherry picked things that like. make sense but also still Theoretically let him be an idol?? anyways here we go:

i think that post-canon, jaewon would likely still have issues sleeping (partly due to like. stalker trauma, partly TBI), but I also think he would end up with some form of chronic migraine situation/sensitivities to light & sound AND I KNOW YOU’RE THINKING “HOW DOES THAT WORK WITH BEING AN IDOL” well lemme explain.

- CEO Choi (SHC’s CEO & MAYHEM’s new CEO) seems to be like. very willing to pull strings and just generally help his idols/models? just from what we’ve seen he really does seem to care about MAYHEM :’) and i really do think he would like. ensure MAYHEM have an altered promotion schedule/whatever else is needed if the options are having jaewon be able to be in the group or not having him promote when he wants to be with the group.

- as someone who has dealt with chronic migraines! yes they suck but 1) you can. sorta self manage a lot of stuff? (i.e. sunglasses/hat for light sensitivity, headphones/earplugs for noise sensitivty) and there’s a point to which you can just. deal with it? not optimal but tbh you don’t always have a quick fix. THERE ARE SOME EXPERIMENTAL THINGS OUT THERE THOUGH!!!! i got a daith piercing (not officially considered a cure but it did work for me), and a more researched option are these red/pink tinted glasses?? i haven’t had to try them but. jaewon would kinda rock some pink sunglasses. SO THE TL;DR is that there are options, i absolutely think jaewon would find a way to be active with MAYHEM, and more than likely he (and mayhem) would have more rest days/rest periods built into their promotion schedules.

THE SECOND THING: jaewon’s reputation post-canon. i do think he would end up doing some sort of exclusive tell-all interview (likely with a magazine/newspaper instead of a recorded interview?) prior to redebut. mayhem would likely also get interviewed for it, both to confirm some parts and to just reiterate the fact that they didn’t know what was going on???? at all??? so between that and the lewsuit (and HCE being bought out), I do think it would generally be received as the truth and mayhem/jaewon’s names would be cleared.

I do honestly think jaewon would end up being one of the most popular members, if not the most popular. part of this is previous fans of his coming back, part of it is just that he sort of has that it-boy factor??? (handsome + cute, dyed hair, is close to and is supporting his family, sorta tragic backstory) BUT ALSO. AND THIS IS A KEY POINT OF IT. he would absolutely say that he took on the wyld reputation For Mayhem. a side effect of that (not completely/necessarily a bad one?) is that he would sort of become a martyr-type figure to a lot of fans. very much in a “oh he took on so much hate for them to get their chance” type of way. some people would obviously take it too far, but generally he would kinda be given a break by kpop twt 😭 (also like. duh. the whole bridge situation.) very little hate towards him, i do think a lot of people would probably kind of pity him a bit??? (even more so if he did end up being open about any ongoing physical/mental health stuff) and his photocards would cost so goddamn much. HCE-era jaewon photocards or a downpayment on a car, you decide.

but yeah post-canon jaewon? adored and can do no wrong in mayhem twt’s eyes. they are right.

[usertoxicyaoi]

“Remember what happened during our trip? What did it mean?” THE EIGHTH SENSE (2023).

[jaeducs]

are you kidding me i'm going to throw up.

[sollucets]

ok. ok ok ok im sorry i physically can’t resist. have a snip i’m writing t8s its too late for me

💜 …

Despite their noble intentions (“a study date, hyung, don’t you have that paper?”) neither of them are being all that productive. It hasn’t been long enough since midterms for any real sense of urgency to set in. Jihyun is a freshman and shouldn’t have to feel any of that anyway, but Jaewon knows he ought to be at least a little haunted by this overly long assessment paper. Even so, he’s not finding much motivation to work on it today. Not when he could be looking at the other people dotted across the park, or the just-turning-orange leaves, or their blanket against the still-green grass, or the sure movements of Jihyun’s hands while he’s drawing.

Raising his phone, Jaewon flicks through filters before trying a couple of angles of a particularly large tree near the riverbank. Then, transfixed, he snaps a few pictures of the way Jihyun’s fingers, a little pink from the cold, curl around his pen. There is an ink stain at the base of Jihyun’s palm above his wrist, and Jaewon will keep that just for himself, or his private Instagram, maybe.

“Hyung,” says Jihyun after a moment of this, and Jaewon startles slightly, glancing up from the screen to find his boyfriend watching him with an inscrutable expression.

“Mm?”

“Hyung, do you…” Jihyun starts again, mouth curving down. His eyes flick to Jaewon’s phone before he visibly takes a breath and says, “Do you ever use a real camera, these days?”