#jacob summers edit

[summerskin]

do you know what you want, riley? do you? because i've traveled a million miles and a million more years just to watch you eat breakfast. [x]

[lioncunty]

a last dance before the feast?

[akashicpoint]

NO MORE HEROES RANKED LADIES

[peonies-and-dreams]

Lots of people get lost in Saltburn.

[morgana-larkin]

okok, hear me out. Melissa Schemmenti x androgynous teacher reader. reader is always wearing feminine outfits to school, BUTTTT when she's outside like going out and stuff she dresses more masculine (she's like wearing jorts or baggy pants with oversized metal band t-shirts or something tight and fitted and some piercings that she hides when teaching. like snakebites and a tounge piercing). AND THENNN, when the whole crew goes out they don't recognize reader, cause they always thought she was the more feminine type and Melissa has very naughty thoughts about reader. oh, and make reader a lil' bit taller than Mel so it adds more to the plottt

it's up to you if it has smut or not but I just needed someone to write this and YOUUU are the best writer I know!!

Hey Anon! Thank you so much for choosing me for this prompt and thank you so much for the compliment! It's not directly mentioned but it's implied that reader is slightly taller than Melissa. Not edited in the slightest and I hope you like it!

On another note: I'm sorry to everyone who sent prompts to me months ago, like in the summer. I'm getting to them slowly but surely. I have close to 40 prompts right now but yours will get done at some point.

Dirty Thoughts

Warnings: Smut, seductive dancing, switch reader and Mel

Words: 3.4k

“Hello everyone!” You say with a smile as you walk in the breakroom.

“Hey Y/n!” Janine says. “Are we still doing that combined class on Monday?” She asks you and you nod.

“What combined class?” Melissa asks you both.

“We’re doing a combined lesson with our second grade classes.” Janine says.

“I already asked if you wanted to join in with your class but you said no.” You remind her.

“Well maybe I wouldn’t mind doing it now.” She says.

“Behind on your work?” You ask her and she sighs and nods. “Alright, we’re doing it in the library, first period after lunch.” You tell her and she nods. You then go to the coffee maker and you miss Melissa checking out your legs in the dress you’re wearing.

“New dress?” She asks you and you look at her and nod.

“Ya, I got it last week. Do you like it?” You ask her and she nods.

“You look cute.” She says and you look back to the coffee maker to hide your blush. 

“Y/n, do you want to come out with us tonight?” Jacob asks.

“Depends, who else is going?” You ask him.

“All of us, so the three of us as well as Barb and Melissa.” He explains and as soon as he said Melissa you already knew your answer.

“Sure, what time?” You ask them.

“We’re meeting at the bar at about 8.” Janine tells you and you nod. 

“Sounds good, same bar as last time?” You ask them and they nod. “Melissa, Barb, I’m surprised you’re joining this time.” You tell them.

“Need a night out.” Melissa says before taking a sip from her mug.

“Fair enough.” You say and you go to take a seat with the trio but Melissa stops you.

“Hey Y/n, why don’t you come sit over here for a change.” She suggests.

“At your table?” You ask her and she nods. You look at her confused before sitting down at Barb and Melissa’s table.

“We were just discussing whether Melissa should go out with this girl tomorrow.” Barb tells you and Melissa looks at her before showing you a picture of the girl in question.

“Her name is Stacy and she’s a few years younger than me.” Melissa tells you.

“I always knew you were interested in both.” You say and then look at the girl. “I don’t know, I don’t know your type but she doesn’t seem like she fits.” You say and hand the phone back to her. “But if you’re questioning whether you should or not then it doesn’t seem like you’re interested in her.” You add and she shrugs.

“Ya, but dating at my age is hard. Sometimes you have to go out with someone who’s kinda interesting cause there ain’t many options left.” She tells you.

“Melissa, have you seen yourself? You could do better than someone who’s kinda interesting, so much better.” You tell her and you see a blush creep onto her cheeks. “Also a lot of people my age or a bit older want someone who’s older, around your age, you just have to know where to look.” You add.

“And a lot of people my age don’t want some youngling.” She tells you and you just shrug and go on your phone.

*After School*

You get home and you finish grading the last few tests before you go have supper. After dinner you go have a shower and pick out your outfit. You put on a tank top with AC/DC on it, fitted skinny jeans and put on your pair of converse. You also put in your nose ring, tongue ring and then apply some lip balm. You look at the time and see it’s 7:30 so you head out the door. You arrive at the bar 15 minutes later and you look around and don’t see anyone from Abbott so you sit at an empty table and get your phone out. 

“No, I'm telling you it’s true.” You hear Janine say and you look up and see them all entering.

“Hey guys!” You shout out to them and they look at you and you see Janine step forward and stare at you for a couple seconds.

“Y/n?” She asks you.

“Last time I checked ya.” You jokingly say and you see everyone else looking at you weirdly. “What?” You ask them all.

“You’re wearing a band t-shirt and pants, and you have a nose ring and a tattoo on your shoulder?” Jacob says and you nod.

“Forgive us dear but you always wear skirts and dresses at school, so this is new information for us.” Barb tells you. 

“Well ya. At school I like to dress more feminine but when I go out I like to dress more masculine or look really gay.” You explain to them and you look to see Melissa staring at you with her mouth open. “See something you like Melissa?” You ask her and put her on the spot.

“Just, um, didn’t know that you’d wear something other than those cute skirts and dresses.” She says, stuttering a bit and then takes a seat beside you.

“You like it when I wear those really short ones?” You ask her and she looks at you. “What would you say if I told you I got shorter ones when you started staring at my legs?” You ask her and she tilts her head.

“I’d say you’re insane and definitely not school appropriate.” She says and you chuckle.

“Neither are those low cut tops you like to wear.” You counter.

“I’ll get the first round.” Janine announces and gets everyone’s order. 

“I think you like my low cut tops.” Melissa counters and you look at her.

“What makes you say that?” You ask.

“Because you like staring at my chest, that’s why.” Melissa says very confidently.

“Well I’m very gay and boobs are something that I like, so obviously I like to stare at a girls chest, and you have a nice rack.” You say to her and she quirks an eyebrow at you.

“So it’s not the fact that it’s my chest, just that it’s a chest with great boobs?” She pushes.

“Here’s your drinks!” Janine exclaims and puts the drinks down on the table and you reach for yours and take a sip. 

You’re able to avoid Melissa’s question as Janine starts a conversation with the entire group but you see Melissa glancing at you every once in a while.

“I’ll get the next round.” Jacob offers and you all give your order to him before he leaves.

“So about my question from earlier…?” Melissa asks and you turn to look at her.

“What question?”

“When you stare at my chest is it because it’s my chest or just a chest with a great rack?” She asks and you freeze and scramble to come up with an answer.

“Both…?” You tell her and she tilts her head. “You have a great rack which is why I like to stare at it.” You stumble out and she turns away from you to hide her smirk.

Jacob comes back from the bar with the drinks and Melissa glances at you taking a sip before taking a sip of her own drink. She can’t help but imagine what it would be like if she can run her hands under that loose fitting shirt of yours. Or under one of your dresses or skirts.

“What are you staring at?” Melissa hears and realises you’re looking at her and she was lost in thought. 

“Nothing, just lost in thought.” Melissa says and then sees something in your mouth that she didn’t notice before. “Do you have a tongue ring?” She asks and you nod before sticking out your tongue.

“Drives the girls crazy.” You tell her with a lower voice and she shivers a bit. 

You turn around to contribute to the conversation that’s happening and Melissa can’t help but get lost in her naughty thoughts about you…again. She thinks about that tongue ring of yours and what it would be like if you ate her out with it on. You happen to look over when she’s lost in thought again and you look down to see her rub her thighs together and you smirk. 

“I’ll get the next round!” You announce and you startle Melissa a bit. “I might need some help though, Melissa do you mind helping me?” You ask her and she nods before getting up. You get everyone’s order and then you go up to the bar and order all of them. “So what were you thinking about?” You ask her and she looks at you.

“What?” 

“I know you were having some dirty thoughts, you were rubbing your thighs together. Your beautifully thick thighs.” You tell her and step closer to her.

“What I was thinking about is none of your business.” She says and you look down slightly into her eyes and she stares up to look into yours. 

“Can I kiss you?” You suddenly ask and you see her breath hitch before she nods. You lean forward until you feel her lips on yours and you kiss her. She immediately kisses you back and she even takes it a step further and slips her tongue in. She runs her hands through your hair and pulls you closer to her and begins kissing you roughly.

“Your drinks are ready.” You hear and immediately pull back and look to see the bartender looking at you both. 

“Thank you.” You tell him and hand him the money before you both take the drinks. 

“I was thinking about what it would be like if you ate me out with that tongue ring of yours.” Melissa tells you and you look at her with a smirk before walking back to the table and give everyone their drinks before you lean over to Melissa. 

“Some girls have said that it gives more stimulation. I could be licking the entrance and the ring can be teasing the clit.” You tell her with a wink.

“Good to know.” She says, more breathy than normal. You both stay and have your drinks and engage in the conversation before a song comes on that you like and you turn to Melissa.

“Want to dance?” You ask her and she looks at you before nodding. You both put your drinks down and then go to the dance floor. 

“So does anyone think those two will end up together by the end of the night?” Jacob asks the table.

“I thought they were together.” Gregory says and they all look at Barb.

“Melissa hasn’t told me anything, but if they aren’t already together then they will be very soon.” Barb tells them.

You bring Melissa onto the dance floor and you bring her close to you before you start dancing. You both were already quite close as there’s multiple people dancing around you both, now Melissa is pressed up against you and you can’t help but look down and see her boobs from this angle. You then trail your eyes up until they land on hers and she knows what you were staring at as there’s mischief in her eyes. She leans forward near your ear and her breath on it causes you to slightly shiver. 

“Would you like to touch them?” She asks you and she pulls back. 

“Touch what?” You ask, yelling a bit over the music and she quirks an eyebrow. She then turns around so her back is pressed up against your front and she grabs both of your hands. She places one on her stomach and the other over her boobs and you widen your eyes. “What are you doing?” You ask her as you lean down to her ear and she turns her head towards you. 

“It’s called making a move.” She tells you.

“Well I know what it’s called but… wait a minute, are you hitting on me?” You ask her and she winks at you and nods. “Why are you hitting on me?” 

“Because I like you.” She tells you so simply.

“Wait, you like me like me, as in a crush?” You ask her and she nods. “I like you too.” You tell her and she smiles. 

“I know, all your awkward flirting at school gave it away, but you wanting to kiss me definitely confirmed it.” She tells you. “So, why don’t you show this girl a good time on the dance floor and then a good time in bed?” She asks you and you freeze. “Did I make you short circuit?” She asks you with a smirk.

“Well you placed one of my hands on your boobs and then you just told me that you want to have sex.” You say to her. “So yes, I guess my brain is trying to catch up after crashing.” You say and she starts moving her hips seductively. “Melissa, if you keep going how you are, then I won’t be able to show you a good time on the dance floor.” You tell her and and she takes the hand off that was on her boobs and she sticks one of your fingers in her mouth. She hears you moan before she takes your finger out and turns around.

“Maybe you could just skip right to the bedroom.” She says and you look at her. 

“Oh I won’t last that long.” You say and bring her to the bathroom. 

You bring her to one of the stalls and lock it before you kiss her. She immediately puts her hands in your hair while she kisses you back. You pick her up and she wraps her legs around you while she deepens the kiss. You lift her shirt up and kiss all over chest. You then quickly unclip her bra and pull it up and dive down to one of her nipples. You hear her moan out when you give it a hard suck and she squeezes your hair. You give the nipple a loving kiss before you go to the other one and give it the same treatment. 

“Y/n, Y/n.” She tells you as she pulls you away from her chest. “My chest is not where I need your tongue.” She tells you and you smirk before you drop her legs and get on your knees. 

You pull her leather pants down and you see her underwear with a damp patch on it before you smirk. You peel her undies off and you see her very wet centre. You lick a strip up her centre and she feels your wet tongue and tongue piercing on her and she can’t help but feel really good by the sensations. You then flatten your tongue on her centre and start licking up and down, your tongue piercing is rubbing her clit at the same time. You put one of her legs hanging over your shoulder before you insert a finger inside of her. 

Melissa is trying very hard not to make any noise as there’s other people coming in and out. She ends up covering her mouth with one of her hands as a few gasps and moans fell out of her mouth. She’s leaning against the stall door and you switch to sucking and licking her clit while you add a second finger inside of her. Melissa keeps your head in place with her free hand and you don’t mind as you’re enjoying the view. 

You’re between her beautiful thick thighs that you’d love to kiss all over. You look up and you place your free hand on her nice wide hips before trailing it to her soft stomach. You trail your hand up and cup one of her big full boobs. You look further up and see her face is down slightly and you can see it on her face all the pleasure she’s feeling. You start sucking and fingering her faster and a loud gasp slips out of her. You then feel her legs shaking, her hand in your hair tightens and she’s clenching around your fingers. Then she comes with a gasp and you pull your fingers out but you lick up all her juices.

“Mm, you taste sweeter after you come.” You tell her as you take her leg off of you and stand up. She looks at you as she’s trying to catch her breath. She then pulls you in for a passionate kiss and you happily kiss her back. “I’ve wanted to kiss you for the past year now.” You tell her after you pull away. 

“Then why didn’t you?” She asks and you shrug.

“Didn’t know if you felt the same and didn’t want to ruin the friendship.” You say and she smiles softly and tucks a strand of hair behind your ear. “Have you wanted to kiss me before?” You ask her and she nods while smiling. “Why didn’t you say something before?” 

“Same reason as you.” She says and then kisses you. “Now come to my place, you haven’t come yet and I want to hear all your noises.” She says as she pulls her underwear and leather pants back up and you nod. “Can you clip my bra please?” She asks and you nod before she turns around.

“Considering I unclipped it, I guess it’s fair I clip it back.” You tell her and she snorts as you clip it back and then she puts her shirt back in place.

“Let’s go say goodbye to everyone and then leave.” She says.

“Don’t you live with Jacob?” You ask her and she thinks about it before she brings you out of the bathroom and back to the table with everyone and grabs her purse. 

“Y/n and I are leaving so I’ll see youse on Monday.” She tells them and then looks at Jacob. “I wouldn’t come home for an hour.” She tells him and he looks between you both.

“Actually make that 2.” You say and she looks at you.’

“2? Now I’m curious.” She says and then leaves the bar while holding your hand.

“Weren’t they on the dance floor, which is the opposite way from where they came from?” Gregory asks and everyone thinks about it.

“I think I saw them enter the bathroom but it can’t be right as it was like 10 minutes ago.” Jacob says and then it hits everyone. “Oh.” Jacob says and then everyone changes conversation.

On Monday morning, everyone comes in and sees you in the process of covering your hickeys on the couch while Melissa is getting coffee. 

“Good morning to you both.” Barb says and Melissa smiles at her.

“Morning Barb.” She says and then grabs the two mugs full of coffee and brings it over to the couch. While bringing the two mugs, everyone tries to hold in their laughter as they see Melissa walking a little strangely.

“Melissa, did you get an injury? You seem to be walking differently.” Jacob asks her and she looks at everyone after she hands you the mug.

“Ya, I pulled something on Friday night.” She tells everyone and then you groan before glaring at Melissa as everyone takes a seat on the couch.

“You know if you’re going to leave hickeys then next time put them in less obvious places or not as dark so I can actually cover them up.” You tell Melissa and she shrugs and then you see everyone passing $20 bills around. “Were you guys betting on something?” You ask them and they nod.

“Betting on when Melissa would do something about her feelings for you.” Barb says and you look at Melissa who’s rolling her eyes.

“I thought I was told that the bets were off after I figured it out.” She says to all of them.

“We kept the bets, we just lied to you.” Janine tells her.

Melissa shakes her head before she takes your concealer and foundation and starts helping you cover them up. Ava walks in and sees the scene and she smiles before she goes to Mr. Johnson for $20.

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[madebyrolo]

Placeholder - Jacob Black x reader

One shot

Inspired by the Radiohead song “India Rubber”

She/her

Y/n has had a crush on Jacob since middle school, entering high school they start to get closer but then Bella his longtime crush comes back to town.

comment Bella slander I love it but #teamedward #jacobishotter

*not proof read or edited*

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Did it all for you to say, you never wanted me that way.

I’ve had the biggest crush on Jacob ever since middle school. We were at La push and him and his friends were playing soccer and 12 year me went crazy for some reason. We went to school together but it wasn’t easy being friends with your crush. It wasn’t until summer before freshmam year once we started getting closer. He got a car and he would give me rides to school. Those school rides turned into hangouts.

First he brought his friends along, we would go get pizza, go to the arcade, bowling or the beach. Though it wasn’t until the fall when it would he just us two. He called them friend dates although I would wanted it to be more.

Then came spring. The daughter of Chief Swan came back in town. Jacob and Bella were best friends when they were young cause of their dads. Bella was 2 years older than him. She was 17 now and he was 15 and a lot has changed since she’s was last here. Jacob had a crush on Bella it wasn’t hard to tell. As soon as he heard the news from his dad that Bella was back in town he started spending time with her, catching up and trying to be the best friends they used to be.

Now the dogs have had their meat, I think I’ll go plug in the mains.

He and the rest of the boys went back to school on the rez too so she hardly saw him and now she was forced to ride the bus. With that Jacob and y/n daily hangs out turned to after school only. But sometimes he would cancel cause and she quotes “reconnecting with Bella” so now it was weekend only.

Soon the summer came around and Bella got a boyfriend and basically kicked Jacob to the curb. Now y/n had her Jacob back. They caught up after her time was stolen by Bella and Jacob acted like nothing happened. The same cycle happened again. Hanging out as a group, then alone, then Bella. Everyday, after school, weeekend only, then cancelations.

It was fall and Bella broke up with Edward. Jacob was back to following her around like a lost puppy. Y/n noticed Bella was treating Jacob like a place holder and y/n didn’t like it. Even though it pains her that Jacob has feeling for Bella, doesn’t mean she can play with him all she wants. She know he’s wrapped around her finger and she takes advantage of that.

Jacob was blinded by love, although he knew that he was temporary to her, he loved that he was at least hers for while. Edward leaving Bella in emotional mess was the shitiest thing he’s done but Jacob took it as an opportunity to swoop in and take Bella for himself. So he went to the one person he knew for advice, y/n. He pulled up to her house and texted her he was outside.

Y/n excited that Jacob wanted to hang out because it’s been weeks since they’ve did. She excitedly put her shoes on and headed out her door. Once she got in the car she was ready to list some ideas for what they could do but before Jacob ask her what set her down an emotional spiral.

“Y/n I need help” he turned to her

“Yea what’s up.”

“I wanna make Bella a little basket because she’s been really upset with her breakup”

Of course it’s for Bella y/n thought

“Uh sure”

“Okay what would you if you were going though a heartbreak ?”

“Um well candy always a good one, you can put in her favorites. I love gummy worms-”

“Bella hates them, she thinks they’re too chewy” he cut her off

“Um well like I said her favorites. I candle and a nice soft cute blanket. Maybe something sentimental between you guys of some thing” y/n told him

“Yes the sentimental things that’s good!”

There was silence between them

“Y/n Im gonna be honest with you, I feel comfortable and trust you enough to say this” he said with a deep breath

“I have feelings for Bella and I want to ask her out” yup and there it is. Her heart sunk. Y/n always knew but now that she has the confirmation makes it worse.

“I never felt this way about anyone before. She’s perfect, everything I want in someone. She’s self preserved, she’s smart and-”

Y/n couldn’t keep listening to him. He was praising her. He was in love with her. Every word he said she could hear the “love” in his voice. It was soul crushing. The boy she loved was in love with someone els. She always thought she would’ve ended up with him, she was so positive. They were close, she finally had him all too herself once he stopped inviting his friends. But then a Bella came. Bella, Bella, Bella all about her.

She snapped out of her emotions trying not to tear up infront of him but once she heard the sentence she broke.

“ I love her y/n.”

With that she couldn’t stay silent anymore.

I tumble like a clown. Before your baying hounds. I suffocated myself into your hands.

“Enough Jake, I’ve had enough! Can’t you see she’s doesn’t care about you? She’s using you. She’s waiting for Edward to come back you’re just a placeholder, it’s been like this since last year?! Once she met him she left you. She’s in love with him not you, she loves the attention she gets not you, she loves the “security” she gets from you not you! She knows you won’t leave cause you’ve been obsessed with her ever since you were younger. she loves the idea of you not you. you know she’ll never stop loving Edward but you don’t wanna admit it!!” y/n yells at him.

Jacob has tears slowing filling up his eye, his knuckles turned white from gripping the steering wheel out of anger. He knows it’s the truth.

“Get out.” he says calmly trying not to lose his temper.

“Just know with me you’ll never be a burden. You wouldn’t be 1 or 2 in my life, you’ll be my life.” y/n says as she slams the door. Jacob speeds off.

Time skip 2 years.

Who would’ve guess Edward came back. Bella and them are graduating and everyone in school got an invite to the Cullens graduation party. Even though Y/n somewhat resented Bella even though she’s with Edward. Her crush on Jacob died out but you never really get over your first love. She decided to go to the party because a party’s a party.

It was 8pm and y/n was the party. She was hanging out with her friends now and the newly seniors while she was a newly junior. They were drinking, singing terribly and playing truth or dare. Y/n gets up to get a refill feeling a bit tipsy but she’s not wasted. As shes in the kitchen she runs into an old friend. Jacob.

When you spare your make up smile, im instantly your biggest fan.

He looks at with the most innocent smile acting like they’re fall out never happened. It’s been 2 years. They’re 16 now and they grown into their more mature selfs (and body’s) Jacob obviously spoke up first

“You look nice” he said staring at her.

“Thanks you too” she replied sipping her drink.

How was I supposed to know that you’ve practice it before.

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[haggishlyhagging]

The book list copied from feminist-reprise

Radical Lesbian Feminist Theory

A Passion for Friends: Toward a Philosophy of Female Affection, Jan Raymond

Call Me Lesbian: Lesbian Lives, Lesbian Theory, Julia Penelope

The Lesbian Heresy, Sheila Jeffreys

The Lesbian Body, Monique Wittig

Politics of Reality, Marilyn Frye

Willful Virgin: Essays in Feminism 1976-1992, Marilyn Frye

Lesbian Ethics, Sarah Hoagland

Sister/Outsider, Audre Lorde

Radical Feminist Theory –  General/Collections

Freedom Fallacy: The Limits of Liberal Feminism, edited by Miranda Kiraly and Meagan Tyler

Radically Speaking: Feminism Reclaimed, Renate Klein and Diane Bell

Love and Politics, Carol Anne Douglas

The Dialectic of Sex–The Case for Feminist Revolution, Shulamith Firestone

Sisterhood is Powerful, Robin Morgan, ed.

Radical Feminism: A Documentary Reader, edited by Barbara A. Crow

Three Guineas, Virginia Woolf

Sexual Politics, Kate Millett

Radical Feminism, Anne Koedt, Ellen Levine, and Anita Rapone, eds.

On Lies, Secrets and Silence, Adrienne Rich

Beyond Power: On Women, Men and Morals, Marilyn French

Feminism Unmodified: Discourses on Life and Law, Catharine MacKinnon

Femininity and Domination: Studies in the Phenomenology of Oppression, Sandra Bartky

Life and Death, Andrea Dworkin

This Bridge Called My Back: Writings by Radical Women of Color, Gloria Anzaldua and Cherrie Moraga, eds.

Wildfire:  Igniting the She/Volution, Sonia Johnson

Homegirls: A Black Feminist Anthology, Barbara Smith ed.

Fugitive Information, Kay Leigh Hagan

Talking Back: Thinking Feminist, Thinking Black, bell hooks

Feminist Theory: From Margin to Center, bell hooks

Deals with the Devil and Other Reasons to Riot, Pearl Cleage

Pilgrimages/Peregrinajes, Maria Lugones

In Search of Our Mothers’ Gardens, Alice Walker

The Whole Woman, Germaine Greer

Right Wing Women, Andrea Dworkin

Feminist Theory – Specific Areas

Prostitution

Paid For: My Journey Through Prostitution, Rachel Moran

Being and Being Bought: Prostitution, Surrogacy, and the Split Self, Kajsa Ekis Ekman

The Industrial Vagina: The Political Economy of the Global Sex Trade, Sheila Jeffreys

Female Sexual Slavery, Kathleen Barry

Women, Lesbians, and Prostitution:  A Workingclass Dyke Speaks Out Against Buying Women for Sex, by Toby Summer, in Lesbian Culture: An Anthology, Julia Penelope and Susan Wolfe, eds.

Ten Reasons for Not Legalizing Prostitution, Jan Raymond

The Legalisation of Prostitution : A failed social experiment, Sheila Jeffreys

Making the Harm Visible: Global Sexual Exploitation of Women and Girls, Donna M. Hughes and Claire Roche, eds.

Prostitution, Trafficking, and Traumatic Stress, Melissa Farley

Not for Sale: Feminists Resisting Prostitution and Pornography, Christine Stark and Rebecca Whisnant, eds.

Pornography

Pornland: How Pornography Has Hijacked Our Sexuality, Gail Dines

Pornified: How Porn is Damaging Our Lives, Our Relationships, and Our Families, Pamela Paul

Pornography: Men Possessing Women, Andrea Dworkin

Pornography: The Production and Consumption of Inequality, Gail Dines

Pornography: Evidence of the Harm, Diana Russell

Pornography and Sexual Violence:  Evidence of the Links (transcript of Minneapolis hearings published by Everywoman in the UK)

Rape

Against Our Will, Susan Brownmiller

Rape In Marriage, Diana Russell

Incest

Secret Trauma, Diana Russell

Victimized Daughters: Incest and the Development of the Female Self, Janet Liebman Jacobs

Battering/Domestic Violence

Loving to Survive, Dee Graham

Trauma and Recovery, Judith Herman

Why Does He Do That? Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men, Lundy Bancroft

Sadomasochism/”Sex Wars”

Unleashing Feminism: Critiquing Lesbian Sadomasochism in the Gay Nineties, Irene Reti, ed.

The Sex Wars, Lisa Duggan and Nan D. Hunter, eds.

The Sexual Liberals and the Attack on Feminism, edited by Dorchen Leidholdt and Janice Raymond

Sex, Lies, and Feminism, Charlotte Croson, off our backs, June 2001

How Orgasm Politics Has Hijacked the Women’s Movement, Sheila Jeffreys

A Vision of Lesbian Sexuality, Janice Raymond, in All The Rage: Reasserting Radical Lesbian Feminism, Lynne Harne & Elaine Miller, eds.

Sex and Feminism: Who Is Being Silenced? Adriene Sere in SaidIt, 2001

Consuming Passions: Some Thoughts on History, Sex and Free Enterprise by De Clarke (From Unleashing Feminism).

Separatism/Women-Only Space

“No Dobermans Allowed,”  Carolyn Gage, in Lesbian Culture: An Anthology, Julia Penelope and Susan Wolfe, eds.

For Lesbians Only:  A Separatist Anthology, Julia Penelope & Sarah Hoagland, eds.

Exploring the Value of Women-Only Space, Kya Ogyn

Medicine

Witches, Midwives and Nurses: A History of Women Healers, Barbara Ehrenreich and Deirdre English

For Her Own Good: 150 Years of the Experts’ Advice to Women, Barbara Ehrenreich and Deirdre English

The Hidden Malpractice: How American Medicine Treats Women as Patients and Professionals, Gena Corea

The Mother Machine: Reproductive Technologies from Artificial Insemination to Artificial Wombs, Gena Corea

Women and Madness, Phyllis Chesler

Women, Health and the Politics of Fat, Amy Winter, in Rain And Thunder, Autumn Equinox 2003, No. 20

Changing Our Minds: Lesbian Feminism and Psychology, Celia Kitzinger and Rachel Perkins

Motherhood

Of Woman Born: Motherhood as Experience and Institution, Adrienne Rich

The Reproduction of Mothering, Nancy Chodorow

Maternal Thinking: Toward a Politics of Peace, Sara Ruddick

Marriage/Heterosexuality

Compulsory Heterosexuality and Lesbian Existence, Adrienne Rich

The Spinster and Her Enemies: Feminism and Sexuality 1880-1930, Sheila Jeffreys

Anticlimax: A Feminist Perspective on the Sexual Revolution, Sheila Jeffreys

Black Macho and the Myth of the Superwoman, Michele Wallace

The Sexual Contract, Carol Pateman

A Radical Dyke Experiment for the Next Century: 5 Things to Work for Instead of Same-Sex Marriage, Betsy Brown in off our backs, January 2000 V.30; N.1 p. 24

Intercourse, Andrea Dworkin

Transgender/Queer Politics

Gender Hurts, Sheila Jeffreys

Female Erasure, edited by Ruth Barrett

Testosterone Rex: Unmaking the Myths of Our Gendered Minds, Cordelia Fine

Delusions of Gender: How Our Minds, Society, and Neurosexism Create Difference, Cordelina Fine

Sexing the Body: Gender and the Construction of Sexuality, Anne Fausto-Sterling

Myths of Gender, Anne Fausto-Sterling

Unpacking Queer Politics, Sheila Jeffreys

The Transsexual Empire: The Making of the She-Male, Janice Raymond

The Inconvenient Truth of Teena Brandon, Carolyn Gage

Language

Speaking Freely: Unlearning the Lies of the Fathers’ Tongues, Julia Penelope

Websters’ First New Intergalactic Wickedary, Mary Daly

Man Made Language, Dale Spender

Feminist Theology/Spirituality/Religion

Beyond God the Father: Toward a Philosophy of Women’s Liberation, Mary Daly

Gyn/Ecology: The Metaethics of Radical Feminism, Mary Daly

The Gods and Goddesses of Old Europe, Marija Gimbutas

Woman, Church and State, Matilda Joslyn Gage

The Women’s Bible, Elizabeth Cady Stanton

Pure Lust, Mary Daly

Backlash

The War Against Women, Marilyn French

Backlash, Susan Faludi

History/Memoir

Surpassing the Love of Men, Lillian Faderman

Going Too Far:  The Personal Chronicles of a Feminist, Robin Morgan

Women of Ideas, and What Men Have Done to Them, Dale Spender

The Creation of Patriarchy, Gerda Lerner

The Creation of Feminist Consciousness, From the Middle Ages to Eighteen-Seventy, Gerda Lerner

Why History Matters, Gerda Lerner

A Vindication of the Rights of Women, Mary Wollstonecraft, ed.

The Elizabeth Cady Stanton-Susan B. Anthony Reader: Correspondence, Writings, Speeches, Ellen Carol Dubois, ed., Gerda Lerner, Elizabeth Cady Stanton

The Suffragette Movement, Sylvia Pankhurst

In Our Time: Memoirs of a Revolution, Susan Brownmiller

Women, Race and Class, Angela Y. Davis

Economy

Counting for Nothing: What Men Value and What Women Are Worth, Marilyn Waring

For-Giving:  A Feminist Criticism of Exchange, Genevieve Vaughn

Fat/Body Image/Appearance

Shadow on a Tightrope: Writings by Women on Fat Oppression, Lisa Schoenfielder and Barb Wieser

Beauty and Misogyny: Harmful Cultural Practices in the West, Sheila Jeffreys

Can’t Buy My Love: How Advertising Changes the Way We Think and Feel, Jean Kilbourne

The Beauty Myth, Naomi Wolf

Unbearable Weight:  Feminism, Western Culture, and the Body, Susan Bordo

The Invisible Woman:  Confronting Weight Prejudice in America, Charisse Goodman

Women En Large: Photographs of Fat Nudes, Laurie Toby Edison and Debbie Notkin

Disability

With the Power of Each Breath:  A Disabled Women’s Anthology, Susan E. Browne, Debra Connors, and Nanci Stern

[jeridandridge]

Hii, I hope you’re good!

I have a prompt: Melissa and the reader do all kind of stuff together, like shopping, going to the drug store, cuddling but they’ve never kissed or professed their love ‘cause Melissa believes the reader would never go for her because of her age and the reader is too insecure to believe that a woman like Melissa Schemmenti would like her back. Can you make it with a happy ending?

Thank you ❤️

The Yearbook

The Abbott family finds out you and Melissa are dating…. Except it’s news to you both too.

On the last day of school Jacob comes running down the hall towards the front desk where all the teachers are gathered for the last day of the school year.

“Melissa I’m so sorry, I told the kids to edit that out.” He pants keeping his distance, looking afraid of the woman.

“Slow down, kid.” She shakes her head. “What are you rambling about?”

Before Jacob can answer you come walking in ready for your last day.

“Hey guys!”

That day you had no intention of walking into a tense moment, you thought it would be an easy last day then you’d go to Melissa’s later for dinner to celebrate the start of summer and your summer job you always took at a local bookstore. When you see Melissa you feel your stomach flip as you shoot her a smile.

“Hey yall, there’s Abbott’s cutest couple.” Ava joins the group all smiles, ready to tease her younger friend.

You give her a curious look, eying the rest of the group, including Jacob nervously holding the yearbook.

“Gimme that,” Melissa huffs.

You watch carefully as she flips through the book, looking over her shoulder down at the page. A black and white picture of you two sitting in the break room together, Melissa’s arm slung around the back of your chair with a proud smirk on her lips as you grin for the camera. Underneath the caption reads Abbotts cutest couple.

You were confused at first, so what if you two were affectionate? You were friends after all. She’s not harsh with you like she is with others, but she’s not with Barb either. You know you’re not special.

“What the hell? You’re in charge of this, how’d this get in here?” Melissa hands the book back to Jacob putting her hands on her hips.

“I’m sorry! I told the kids to take it out and they must’ve put it back in. I’m really sorry, guys. I know you didn’t want people to find out like this.” Jacob sighs.

You look at him at the rest of the crew curiously, Janine looking like she’s about to burst while Barbara tries to hide a knowing smile.

“Huh.” You hum crossing your arms, keeping your eyes on the wall across from you.

The redhead turns her head looking at you over her shoulder with soft eyes. “They think we’re dating and all you have to say is ‘huh’?”

“That’s why we think you’re dating! You can’t even hide it with those heart eyes!” Jacob smiles between you two.

“Okay, calm down.” You wave him off. “And Janine, you look like you’re about to have a heart attack.”

“I’m sorry I just love love.” She mumbles.

“I’d hate to burst all your bubbles,” you start off looking at everyone, “but Melissa and I are not dating. We’re good friends.”

Hearing a snicker you and Melissa both look over at Gregory who immediately sobers back up. “Sorry, I was just thinking of that one time you fell asleep on the couch in there and Melissa threatened me with a plastic knife to not wake you up.”

“And the fact she stays at your house. Often.” Barbara adds.

“You stay at Melissa’s too after a girls night.” You shrug as the older woman quirks a brow at you.

“I don’t sleep in her bed.” Barbara shoots back getting “woos!” From everyone.

“Woah! Alright, everyone get outta here.” Melissa waves everyone off, not leaving any room to argue. Melissa made a good point, and you knew she couldn’t be into you. It didn’t matter if you were completely in love with her. You thought you were good at hiding it for the most part, when you tried to hide it that is, but apparently not.

As everyone goes on about their business you shoot Ava a look as she points between the two of you with a smirk. “Get to it, girl. I ain’t that afraid of Melissa.”

“Well that was weird.” You chuckle. “I’ll see you after the rugrats head out?” You smile at the redhead, all of a sudden nervous.

“Yeah, hon. I’ll see ya later.” She nods curtly walking down the hall. Watching her go you let out a shaky breath. Great.

As the kids sit watching a movie you Scroll through your phone, realizing you and Melissa have a lot of photos together and you loved having them. Your favorite was from last Halloween. She was dressed as Wanda and she looked amazing in her cape and crown. You were practically drooling all day at her and you two looked good, her in tights and you in your tightest black suit as Black Widow, you both standing like you’re about to fight.

Thinking about what Barb told the group you hum looking at the Disney movie playing on the tv for the kids. You loved waking up cuddled into the redhead, sometimes she held onto you like you were the most precious thing in the world and other times you held her close to your chest letting her know she’s safe with you. You were screwed and you knew it.

At the dismissal bell you say goodbye to the kids for the summer and head back inside for Melissa’s room halting when you hear her talking.

“It ain’t possible, Barb. I’m- she’s so young and has so much fire in her, she’s probably horrified of that thing. You heard her reaction to it.”

“Melissa, do you remember what you told me when you broke up with Gary?” The woman’s voice can be heard over your heart pounding in your ears.

“Yeah,” Melissa laughs sadly. “He’s not her.”

“And that woman’s been at your side ever since. I know it’s hard, but don’t deny yourself the chance to be happy.”

You let out a shaky breath at the new information. She was just as scared as you were and you knew it. You knew she had a tough wall to break down and somehow, you did it.

“That doesn’t mean anything, Barb.”

You can’t take it anymore. Dropping your bag by the door you walk in with a huff.

“Yes it does!” You let out In a watery huff, your eyes already burning from the tears. “I don’t know how much more obvious I can be with you.”

Barbara gently squeezes her friends shoulder and gives you a smile. “I’ll leave you two alone.”

Taking in a breath you meet Melissa’s eyes with a quivering lip and a shrug. “I wish you would’ve told me.”

“I didn’t know.” She whispers playing with the sleeves of her shirt.

“I didn’t try very hard to hide it. Not even when you were with Gary.” You almost laugh. You two openly flirted, spent practically all your free time together, hell you did everything a couple does minus the sex.

Trying to hold it together you swallow hard, your heart practically skipping a beat when Melissa looks at you with watery eyes and a smile on her pink lips. Not saying a word Melissa pushes herself off her desk and walks over wrapping her arms around your neck, sniffling as she holds onto you as if you might evaporate into thin air.

Wrapping your arms around her waist you pull her even closer, taking in the familiar scent and warmth while rubbing her back. “Go on a date with me.”

Melissa lets out a laugh pulling back to meet your eyes, a genuine smile on her lips. “Yeah, hon. I’ll go on a date with you.”

[bisasterbuckley]

Username Tag Game

Rules: Pick a song for each letter of your URL and tag that many people.

Tagged by @eddieisinlove - Thanks for the tag!

Blowing Smoke - Gracie Abrams

Is It Over Now? - Taylor Swift

Sailor Song - Gigi Perez

Afterglow - The Driver Era

So It Goes... - Taylor Swift

Taste - Sabrina Carpenter

Eat Your Young - Hozier

Rituals - Jiovanni Daniel

Bad Omens - 5 Seconds of Summer

Underwater - Nights in Stereo

Can't Help Falling in Love - Elvis Presley

Killing Me - Jacob Whitesides

LA Devotee - Panic! at the Disco

Enemy - Imagine Dragons

You're On Your Own Kid - Taylor Swift

my music taste is basic, it's fine 😅

15 (no pressure) tags: @swiftiefirefighters @ody3truther @buckstattoos @buckleyobsessed @team-118 @bpdbuck @daffi-990 @buck-star @bambi-buckley @queerprincesseddiediaz @eddiediazpriestfucker @pocketsizededdiediaz @buckleyanddiaz @lives-in-midgard (edit: oops that was 14, my bad 🤷‍♀️)

(feel free to ignore if you've already done this/have already been tagged!)

[lilithslittleworld]

New Moon (If Edward Had Never Come Back Edition): Chapter 1

This is the first chapter of what I would like to be my version of New Moon without Edward returning, aka Bella ends up with Jacob.

Disclaimer:

Harry Clearwater doesn't die (or at least hasn't yet).

This first chapter is what would be the book's Chapter 17 but without Alice returning.

Really just fluff in this chapter><

Songs to listen to while you read:

Rosyln by Bon Iver

Glimpse of Us by Joji

Apocalypse by Cigarettes After Sex

Sweet by CAS

Sunsetz by Cigarettes After Sex

K. by Cigarettes After Sex

I had been stupid, ludicrous even, to believe that Edward would ever come back for me. He had meant those words that had been spoken in the forest back in September. I shivered at the thought of the months that would follow that soul-crushing conversation. By that first summer without him, it began to settle in my conscious mind that the hope I was holding within me was useless weight. He had left Forks and me with it permanently. I owed my life to another love that had blossomed because of his abrupt departure. 

Though I had known Jacob Black since our very early years, I had never really considered him a friend. He was more like a family acquaintance, that would show up unexpectedly or whenever Charlie had Billy over. It’s not that he wasn’t friendly, I just had never gotten to really know Jacob, beyond the mud pies we had made with our tiny, chubby toddler hands. But all of that had changed when Charlie had decided to send me to Florida with my mother following Edward’s abandonment. I bargained with him, using Jacob as the chip that would allow me to stay in Forks. By that point, I was spending more time at La Push than at Charlie’s, which he didn’t complain about. The wound Edward had left in my heart, the one that had made me double over in pain for innumerable weeks, had begun to stitch itself together with Jacob’s company. He had pulled me out of the numbing limbo and eased me back into the world and life. 

At first, I denied any idea or thought that might have to do with Jake, in any sense that strayed away from friendship. I had spent so long setting firm boundaries with him. The internal battles of guilt and confusion were constant. I didn’t even know why I so desperately wanted it to be false, why I wanted to repress any feelings in return to his very clear ones. I wasn’t scared of him and I certainly didn’t owe anything to Edward, he was long gone. It was the fear of hurting Jacob that pushed me away from entering that realm. I knew I wasn’t an easy person to handle and to be fair, he wasn’t either, but I still felt that my baggage was much heavier. I knew that sooner or later, the love I had for him would consume me and eventually, us both. I just didn’t know when. 

*********

I heard Charlie’s cruiser pull up into the driveway as I finished grilling the steaks on the stovetop. 

“Hey, Bells,” Charlie spoke, as he shut the door behind him and took off his jacket. 

“Hi, Dad, dinner’s just about done. Just give me another 5 minutes,” I called back over the sound of running water as I began to clean up.

“Sure thing, there’s no rush.”

Charlie was easy to please, between keeping him fed and spending the little quality time we had together, he had no complaints. He had loosened up significantly since Edward had left, not forgetting the time I had run off to Phoenix and told him I didn’t like living with him in Forks. I winced at the memory of his pained and confused face as I had run out of the house screaming. He had also calmed down after my sudden spiral into depression when the Cullens had moved away, though it had taken him a long time.

“Smells good,” Charlie commented, peering over the stove and then sitting down at the table. 

“Thanks,” I smiled, pleased with myself and his reaction. I knew that Charlie appreciated my cooking, he had told me almost instantly after moving back with him. 

We ate in silence until Charlie broke it by mentioning Billy. 

“Billy says he hasn’t seen you down at the reservation this week,” he noted, trying to sound indifferent.

This was exactly the topic I didn’t want him to bring up but knowing Charlie, he was bound to, even if it was unintentional. I had been wrestling with my feelings for Jacob for over a month now and had ultimately started to avoid him. It wasn’t an active decision but rather a passive space that I had placed between us, as I gave myself time to process. 

“Oh,” I mumbled absentmindedly, “You know how time consuming being a senior is.”

“I’m sure you could still find a little time to see him,” Charlie went on, clearly not having believed my lie. 

“Yeah you’re right Ch-Dad, I’ll stop by next week. I’m sure letting him catch up with his own homework isn’t that bad of an idea,” I said, picking up Charlie’s dirty place and stacking it on top of my own before making my way to the sink. 

“It’s only Thursday, you could stop by this weekend. I might be out fishing with Harry on Saturday anyway,” he hinted. 

I continued to wash the dishes silently, hoping he would drop the subject. It had been very clear from the beginning that Charlie had preferred Jacob over Edward and honestly having endured his heartbreak, I too began to agree with his favoritism. But this wasn’t something I wanted to talk about with my dad, especially not now, not undecided.

“You know, Bells, it’s been almost a full year since..you know,” Charlie fumbled with his words as he stood by the doorframe, rubbing his hands across his creased forehead, “there’s nothing wrong with…um..feeling things for someone again.”

“Dad!” I shrieked, mortified at the conversation that was beginning to unfold before me.

“I’m just saying, you and Jake seemed to really enjoy each other's company and he’s a good kid, Bella,” his voice had a hint of concern, probably remembering what Edward’s betrayal  had done to me. 

“I know, Dad. I just have a jumble of feelings in me at the moment and it’s not exactly the conversation I wanted to be having tonight, especially not with you,” I answered truthfully, hoping it would send him away to watch whatever game was on TV. 

“Okay, kid, just wanted to let you know,” he smiled back, clearly as embarrassed as I was before heading off to the living room. 

“Night, Dad,” I called out to him after having finished all of my tasks in the kitchen for the night.

“Night, Bells,” he replied, as I ran up the stairs to the privacy of my own room. My heart raced at the thought of being alone with my thoughts but I had decided to not censor them as much. Or at least to try not to. 

I sprawled across my bed, facing the white ceiling above me, listening to the rain softly fall. 

Plink, plonk, plink, plonk.

I had once reached a point of tolerance with the rain and the cold, as everything I loved most had resembled it. But now after everything, I craved the sun and its warmth more than anything. I sighed, rolling over on my side. The moon was out, not quite full yet, but its light shone dimly behind the clouds. I wondered if Jacob was out with the pack tonight, I knew the rain didn’t bother him. 

Jacob. His name swam around my mind, along with his face. The boy that had saved me after jumping off of that cliff, who had cared for me during all of my most painful moments. The boy who had brought back the life in me. He wasn’t so much of a boy anymore. My Jacob had gotten mixed in with Bad Jacob after becoming a werewolf. He wasn’t nearly as naive and sweet as he had been during my first year in Forks. He was different now but so was I and though his attitude and ever changing moods were annoying, I liked who he had become. The fact that he wasn’t fully human didn’t alarm me in the slightest but he had loathed himself for weeks before he could stand to talk about the matter with me. He was my best friend and the love I felt for him was unlike any other. 

Unlike any other, I thought again. Could it be that that’s why I had been avoiding my own feelings? Because it didn’t resemble the love I had had for Edward? My head spun as I tried to piece everything together. Could it be possible that I was indeed in love with Jacob? Why was it so hard for me to accept? There was no one but him. He was my entire world, my whole life was tied to him and I had refused to acknowledge it. We were no longer the shy acquaintances we once were when I had first moved back to Forks. Our time spent together had become meaningful, intimate. 

I could see it all so clearly now. I was in love with Jacob Black, my Jacob. My own little sun whose warmth I loved so dearly and craved even deeper. How could I not love him? He had shown me time and time again that he would not leave my side, no matter the circumstance. After saving me from the ocean’s pull towards its floor, he had begged to see me open my eyes again, to breathe. His warm hands had frantically searched for a response from me. He had cried as I took my first breaths and pulled me close to him, rocking me softly as he repeated my name.

Now it was me who was crying, the tears had been silently flowing down my cheeks for the past minutes, as I replayed my most tender moments with Jacob. He had not given up on me, even with all of the changes to his life, as he had once promised me at the movie theater.

“But don’t get mad at me for hanging around, okay?” he had patted my hand, “Because I’m not giving up. I’ve got loads of time.” 

And suddenly my legs were moving beneath me, my heart beat erratically as I made my way down the stairs, overcome with emotion and excitement. Downstairs, Charlie was still seated in front of the TV but I didn’t even care. 

“I’m going to see Jake. I won’t be out late, I promise,” I said frantically, grabbing my keys and opening the door, not bothering to grab a jacket despite the weather. Charlie didn’t even protest, he simply chuckled and gave a thumbs up. 

The drive to Jake’s house was tortuous. My truck fought to keep up with the speed I was trying to enforce. My mind raced as I sped. I hadn’t even thought of what I was going to say, I hadn’t even really known how I had gotten out of the house and into my truck. But as I neared the road that wound up to his house, I decided to say anything and everything that was on my mind. Who cared about embarrassment at this point? Before I knew it, I had parked and was making my way to the door. To my disappointment, Billy answered.

“Bella? Is everything okay? Did something happen to Charlie?” he asked, his face clouded with worry. 

“Charlie’s fine, I just really needed to talk to Jake,” I replied, trying to keep my voice steady. I put my shaking hands into the pockets of my jeans. 

“Jacob is out back, he just got back from Sam’s,” Billy said, pointing to the little clearing in the woods behind the Black’s house.

“Thanks,” I said, walking briskly in that direction. I could feel his eyes watching me even after I had turned around in search of Jacob.  

I was clearly out of breath at this point, something I could easily blame on the brisk pace of my walk if needed. As I walked, I started to see the light of a fire in the distance. Jacob was sitting in front of it, his bare back facing me.

“Jake?” 

He turned at the sound of my voice almost instantly, his eyes lit up when he saw me but nothing more than a slight smirk emerged from his face.

“Got tired of ignoring me?” he snorted, rolling his dark eyes. I knew he would probably never admit that my avoiding him had upset him. 

“It’s not like you haven’t done that before,” I shot back, my cheeks suddenly warm. I knew he hadn’t enjoyed the space I had created between us but I was surprised at his tone. 

“Jesus, Bella,” he shook his head at me angrily, “That was different. I was trying to protect you from myself!” 

“Look, Jake, I drove up here to talk to you about something pretty big but if you’re going to just pick fights with me I’ll go back home,” I challenged cooly. I realized I now had the upper hand in this situation. Jacob’s face went still. 

“Did the leech come back?” he asked, clearly repulsed. 

“Of course he didn’t,” I assured him, hoping to sway him back towards my conversation and my terrain. 

Jacob’s body eased slightly at my words and his face was no longer clouded with anger. “Oh. Sorry, Bella. I’m listening, if that helps.”

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to steady myself, looking back up at him when I had finished. His gaze pierced into me, those beautiful, dark eyes searching mine for some hint or clue as to what I had to say. 

“I’ve been avoiding you,” I confessed, “but it’s not for the reason you think. It’s not because you’re a werewolf or that at times, you’re insanely annoying.” 

Jacob rolled his eyes at both statements but stayed silent. 

“I think it’s because seeing you made me feel things. Things I wasn’t sure I wanted to feel,” I continued, my pulse quickening as I reached the peak of my full confession. 

Jacob’s mouth now curved into a grin. He knew where this was going and he was clearly enjoying it. 

“I want to hear you say it,” he said, stepping closer to me, his smile never leaving his face. 

“I’m in love with you. As much as I tried to deny it, I am. It’s you, I-I think it always has been but I just didn’t know it till now. You’re the sun, Jake, how could I live without you?” I said, tears had begun to form in my eyes but I was determined not to let them fall. It felt so good to finally say those words out loud and I knew it felt good for him to hear them. 

“Bella,” he gasped, taking my face in his hands and pressing his lips against my own. He ran his fingers through my hair, sending shivers down my spine. My own hands were tangled in his hair, pulling him closer to me. His lips moved against mine gently, but with a sense of urgency behind them. His free hand had made its way down to the small of my back, pushing me even closer to him. He was so warm everywhere, his lips, his hands. I could even feel the heat of his body through my clothes and it felt good against the cold, rainy night that surrounded us.

“I knew you loved me,” he whispered, after he had pulled away and pressed his forehead to mine, “I told you I would wait,” he chuckled.

“Oh, Jake, how couldn’t I? You saved me,” I said, cupping his face in my hands. He was so beautiful and warm that I thought I’d melt.  

“So did you.” His voice cracked as he said it and I could feel the tears that had escaped on my hands, “I’m in it for the long haul, Bella. You’re it for me. I knew it from the first day you came back to Forks. I’ll be here by your side everyday,” he promised me, kissing my hands that were still holding his face to mine. 

I buried my face in his arms in relief, letting myself sink into his warmth. He felt so comfortable and safe. And better yet, he was mine and I was his. 

[worlds-worst-ships]

Do you ship it? (:| edition)

Another spooky season idea from @amplexadversary, thank you again Morg, I would totally invite you to a halloween party. Actually, there's an idea...

[skinks]

SPOILERS FOR SALTBURN

I haven’t seen Promising Young Woman but I did just see Saltburn and now I’m so dubious about Fennell’s politics that I’m basically obligated to see PYW to confirm my suspicions. It’s not that I think she’s conservative necessarily, but more that she’s so upper class London nepo baby rich that she could aspire to socialist feminism as much as she likes but it’ll never land because her background precludes her from ever having anything relevant to say about class.

There were things I liked about Saltburn. The editing, performances, black humour, costumes, sets, cinematography (NOT the aspect ratio - will explain) and the ballsiness of certain “transgressive” scenes I did appreciate. This is what makes it so frustrating and disappointing as a film. If you turn your brain off, it’s a wild ride, quite hypnotic and lovely to look at in that specific dreamy way that the dark, cool interiors of a house get on the hottest days of the summer. I hated the 4:3 aspect ratio though, it was POINTLESS. Why was it used? Surely it would have made more sense to capture the grand expansiveness of the titular estate in widescreen? It just felt twee for twee’s sake, like it was shot to produce compositions ready-cropped for big gifs on tumblr.

The “shocking” “transgressive” “erotic” stuff is not particularly any of those things. I mean, for me anyway. It might titillate the type of new-puritan gen z-ers who self censor it to “seggs”, but there was only one sequence that felt really “wow, I haven’t seen that in movie before!” levels of Going There. And even then these scenes always felt self-consciously affected, like Fennell only included them because she wanted to write a movie with fReAkY stuff, as opposed to the freaky stuff coming organically from the characters. I remember sitting in the cinema to see Call Me By Your Name feeling like I was burning to a crisp at the scene where Elio huffs a pair of a man’s used swim trunks - because it felt so authentic to this expression of a character who is at critical levels of desperate teenage horniness. In Saltburn, when Oliver gets down on his knees and slurps Felix’s jizzy bath water, it’s like… okay? Why? What does he want? We saw him lie about knowledge of the fancy plates to ingratiate himself to the dad, we already have reason to distrust anything he says, so it’s hard to believe he has any authentic desire for Felix. And that’s the main problem with the whole movie - the writing is fairly atrocious.

There’s no mystery. There’s no ANYTHING. There’s a tiny quick-cut flash montage of future events in the movie right at the start of the thing, so already we’re going in with no doubts that Oliver is gonna go nuts. So we know that bad shit is gonna happen, and yet the movie pulls out a big Twist Ending reveal like we… weren’t supposed to know that he’s been bad from the beginning? We don’t need all these flashbacks to show us he’d planned his dastardly deeds offscreen the whole time when we’ve already seen him commit OTHER dastardly deeds ONSCREEN. He’s given zero motivation. He tells us he did what he did because he hates this rich family, starting with Jacob Elordi’s Felix, but he had planned the whole thing from before they ever even met, or saw how the family treats the other two main victims of class in the film, Pamela and Farleigh. When Oliver starts spinning his web, Felix has never been anything but genuinely kind to him. Felix never did him any personal wrong except being born handsome, popular, and rich.

That’s the other glaring issue. Fennell has said this is supposed be another one of these “eat the rich” satires, but…. beyond the usual foot-in-mouth clueless social blunders, the movie portrays none of the rich family as even all that bad. Oliver isn’t even all that poor! His family are revealed to be extremely comfortably upper-middle class! This is not Parasite!!! The worst ethical thing they do is cut off Farleigh from family money - but it’s obvious to the audience that this is actually Oliver’s fault. So all we’re left with is this main character who’s the worst of the lot, with no reason to do what he’s doing except for being an asocial loser creep. If you’re making a class satire in Britain and your message at the end of the film is “those creepy disgusting middle class will pervert and mutate themselves to have what the beautiful victimised rich people do” you’ve… uhh. Failed. Somewhere along the line.

It wants to be The Talented Mr Ripley, but it is confused and stupid. Given Fennell’s background and social circle, is it any wonder? It’s like she’s looked around at her fellow Eton Oxford lot and thought “so the poors hate us because we’re a bit silly and old fashioned, right? no wonder they’re jealous, we’re all so sexy and our houses are so nice! Of course they’d do anything to have this!” She hasn’t seemed to conceive of the fact that the working class in Britain hate the upper class because millions live in genuine poverty while they get to obstruct social change because of archaic birthright. That many people in Britain don’t actually want to be the upper class, they want an end to them.

The thing is, I had fun watching it. I laughed a lot, and then left the cinema distinctly unimpressed, as one often does after interacting with people who go to private school and are perfectly charming but clearly still think they’re better/smarter than you because they have generational land, or multiple houses. I worked for 6 years as the stable groom for the heiress to a publishing fortune, I’ve met plenty of these people, believe me. All this to say, that this is deeply frustrating because I would like to turn my brain off from the dodgy politics and just appreciate a movie that goes out of its way to be visually stylish and includes a scene where a sobbing Barry Keoghan gets naked and fucks the fresh grave of his boy best friend. Now that’s entertainment

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[morgana-larkin]

Ok, so I thought of a series for something a bit dark. I thought of what if Melissa is in a manipulative relationship with Joe and doesn’t quite know it. Then you start at Abbott. I thought of it as both me and my new girlfriend have had that experience and couldn’t get the idea out of my mind. This is the first chapter and let me know if you want me to continue. Not edited in the slightest and I hope you like it!

Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6

Just Tired - Part 1

Warnings: descriptions of a manipulative relationship, tiny description of straight sex, small outbursts from Melissa, small masturbation part

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Melissa pulls up to the parking lot of Abbott Elementary. She takes a deep breath before she gets out, grabs her things and walks in.

“Another development week, another year.” Melissa breathes out as soon as she walks in and immediately walks towards the break room.

As she passes by the office she sees a woman walking towards Ava’s office and you look up and both of you lock eyes for a second. Melissa continues walking to the break room and immediately gets a cup of coffee.

“How was your summer, Melissa?” She hears Barb ask and she shrugs.

“Same as always.” She says as she sits down. “Joe worked so I got the house to myself during the week.” Melissa tells her. “How was yours?” She asks Barb.

“Oh it was fantastic! Me and Gerald went on a cruise and I let loose.” She says and Melissa nods as she listens to the story.

Both of them head to the gym for the start of the year assembly and they find 2 free seats. They both sit down and start a conversation and then a young woman comes up to them.

“Hey, do you mind if I sit next to you?” You ask them both.

“Yes, I do mind.” Melissa immediately tells you.

“Melissa.” Barb warns her. “Of course dear.” Barb tells you and you sit down next to Barb.

“Hi, I’m Y/n Y/l/n, I just started as a second grade teacher.” You introduce yourself.

“I’m Barbara Howard, kindergarten teacher.” Barb introduces herself and you shake hands with her and then you turn to Melissa.

“I’m Melissa Schemmenti, and that’s all you need to know.” She tells you and you tilt your head and turn to Barb.

“She likes to keep to herself. But you will be working near her as she’s also a second grade teacher.” Barb tells you.

“Oh how amazing, do you have any advice?” You ask Melissa.

“Good luck.” Is all she says and you sit back in your chair as you’re getting nowhere with her.

“Alright everyone, due to a lot of teachers quitting last year, 22 new teachers were hired for this year.” Ava explains to everyone. “So let’s make them feel welcomed or not, whatever you feel like.” She adds.

Half an hour later and you get handed a binder and you look at the second grade curriculum.

“How are we supposed to teach all of this in a year?” You mutter out loud and you miss Melissa rolling her eyes.

“Just teach what you can dear, no teacher ever manages to teach everything to the students.” Barb explains to you and you nod.

“Thank you. Do you happen to have any tips or advice?” You ask Barb.

“Just do your best to get through the day, and try to do everything you can to help your students.” She tells you and you nod.

“Oh my god, you teach second grade?” You hear from behind you and you turn around and see another fellow young woman.

“Yes I do, I just started.” You tell her.

“I just got hired to teach second grade as well! My name is Janine Teagues.” She exclaims and you introduce yourself and shake her hand.

You and Janine end up talking together after the meeting and get introduced to a new 8th grade teacher named Jacob Hill.

“So what do you think of Abbott, just as a first impression? Cause I think it has potential for great things!” Janine says.

“I like it so far. A bit different from the school where I was shadowing a teacher but it could be good.” You tell her and she nods.

“So I was thinking the three of us can have lunch together in the break room on the first floor.” Janine suggests and both you and Jacob agree.

Melissa watches you talk to the two of them and she’s unsure what to think of any of you.

“What do you think of some of the new teachers?” Barb asks her.

“I doubt they’ll make it to next year. If any of them do then I’ll be surprised.” She tells Barb.

At lunchtime Melissa walks into the break room and sees you, Janine and Jacob sitting at the table beside where she and Barb eat and she sighs. She looks and sees your poorly looking tuna sandwich and she scoffs.

“Is there a problem, Melissa?” You ask her as you heard her scoff.

“That’s the worst looking tuna sandwich I’ve ever seen.” She explains to you and you look down at your sandwich.

“Well I’m not much of a cook.” You tell her.

“That’s obvious.” She says and then sits down after grabbing her lunch.

“You’ll have to excuse Melissa, dear, she’s Italian.” Barb tells you.

“Sicilian.” Melissa corrects her and starts eating.

At the end of the day you are locking up your door and start walking and see Melissa walking right beside you.

“Oh hi Melissa.” You tell her and she rolls her eyes.

“Listen kid, I don’t speak to newbies as most of them leave and I highly doubt you’ll make it to next year due to your enthusiastic attitude.” She explains to you. “So don’t try to make friends with me or acquaintances as it’s not something I do with newbies.” She adds and you nod.

“Ok, noted.” You tell her and sigh.

Melissa goes home and steps inside and she takes a deep breath. She puts her stuff away and then she goes to get herself a glass of wine and sits down on the couch to relax. An hour later she gets up and starts getting dinner ready for her and Joe.

“I’m home.” She hears 20 minutes later.

“I’m in the kitchen.” She says back and a minute later Joe walks in and goes to the fridge for a beer.

“Is dinner almost ready? I’m starving.” He says and she nods.

“It’ll be ready in about 5 minutes.” She tells him.

Melissa finishes getting supper ready and then they both go to the kitchen table to eat.

“So how was your day?” Melissa ask him.

“There was 2 car accidents but nothing else.” He tells him and he continues eating.

“Do you want to hear about my day?” Melissa asks him and he looks at her.

“Did anything interesting happen today?” He asks her.

“Well it was my first day back at Abbott.”

“Was that today? I thought it was next week.” He says.

“Next week is when the students start, this week is development week and a lot of new teachers sta-”

“Melissa, if you don’t mind, I’m pretty tired today.” He cuts her off and she nods and continues eating.

After dinner, they both sit on the couch and Melissa tries to initiate some cuddles but he refuses.

“Melissa, I already told you that I’m tired.” He says, slightly irritated.

“But I just want some cuddles.” She tells him and he sighs.

“I’m too tired for any type of affection.” He says and then goes to get another beer from the fridge.

Later that night, Melissa has her glasses on and is reading something on her phone when Joe comes in from the bathroom and joins her on the bed. He gets close to her and he puts an arm around her waist and she looks at him before she takes her glasses off and puts her phone down on the nightstand. She goes to lay down but his arm doesn’t move and he starts kissing her. He immediately deepens the kiss but then she pulls away.

“I thought you were too tired for any affection?” She asks him.

“That was when I just got home and you were bombarding me with wanted affection. But I’m in the mood for sex, unless of course you think I’m not good enough for you.” He tells her and she looks down.

“I didn’t say that.” She says softly.

“But I bet you thought it.” He counters and lifts her chin up. “Do you think you’re too good for me?” He asks her and she shakes her head. “Don’t you want to have sex with me then?” He asks and she nods. He kisses her before he pushes her on her back and he gets on top. Melissa barely registers anything he’s doing until he pulls out and flops down beside her. “Wasn’t that amazing?” He asks her and she nods.

“Good night.” She tells him and she falls asleep.

The next morning she gets up at 6am and she quietly goes to have a shower. Once she’s in the shower she reaches down and starts circling her clit. She holds onto the shower wall for balance as she feels her orgasm building quickly. She lets out a muffled gasp, as she’s biting her lip, and then she comes. She takes a few seconds to get a hold of her breathing and doesn’t realise the few tears that escaped her eyes. She doesn’t remember the last time Joe made sure she came during sex, she always satisfies herself the next morning or whenever she needs it. She tried bringing up the fact that she never comes during sex and he always called her crazy and dismissed it so she stopped trying.

She gets out of the shower not too long after and she wipes the mirror so she can see herself and she sees her eyes are a bit puffy but she doesn’t know when she even cried. Joe never likes it when she cries, he always tells her she’s too sensitive and should harden up and keep her feelings to herself. She finishes getting ready for work and then she grabs her things and heads out the door and starts driving to work.

She makes it 2 minutes before she sees someone kicking their car in frustration and when she gets closer she recognises you. You seem to kick your car one last time before you put your head in your hands. Melissa decides to pull up in front of you and she gets out.

“Car troubles?” She asks you and you look up and see her.

“Oh, hi Melissa. I’m fine.” You tell her and look away from her.

“You kicking your car doesn’t make you seem fine.” She counters.

“Just ran out of gas.” You eventually tell her and she hums.

“Been there. Look, how about I drive you to work as we’re headed to the same place?” She offers. “Then you can get some gas at lunch and I’ll bring you back to your car after work.” She adds.

“I thought you don’t do anything for newbies.” You tell her.

“I don’t make friends with newbies but if you don’t want my help then I can just go.” She says and starts to back up to her car.

“Sure, I’ll come with you, thank you.” You tell her and she nods before you grab your stuff, lock your car and then get in Melissa’s car.

“So did you forget to add gas?” She asks as she continues driving to work.

“I didn’t forget, more like I didn't have enough money.” You confess and she hums.

“So what are you going to do?” She asks you.

“Take the bus or bike to work.” You tell her. “I mean biking isn’t too bad until I get my first paycheck. It’s only like 30 minutes by bike.” You tell her. “I appreciate you helping me out.” You tell her.

“It’s not a problem.” She says softly. The rest of the car ride is done in silence until she pulls into the parking lot.

“Thanks again and I’ll find another way to get home.” You tell her.

“It’s not a problem hon, I can just drive you home after work. Where do you live?” She asks you.

“Oh it’s no need, I don’t want to inconvenience you.” You say as you grab your things and begin to walk into the building.

“I’m offering, just tell me where you live.” She says and you look at her before giving her your address.

“Oh, you live like less than a mile from me.” She says. “I’m driving you home and that’s the end of that.” She tells you and you nod as you know better than to argue.

“Thank you.” You tell her again as you both reach the doors and head to the break room.

For the rest of the day you don’t end up speaking to her and you decide that it’s best to just act like you don’t know her and just hang out with Janine and Jacob.

Melissa notices that you listened to what she said to you yesterday as you don’t attempt any conversation with her, and it seems you’re doing the same with Barb as well. She likes that you listened to her and you’re keeping your distance instead of annoying her and attempt a friendship. Your classroom ends up being right across the hall from her so she sees you moving around the room as you leave your door open. At the end of the day she locks up and sees you down the hall talking to Janine. She starts to walk up to you and hears the end of the conversation.

“Sorry Y/n but you live the other way from me and I need to save gas right now.” She hears Janine tell you and you nod.

“Ok, I understand, have a good night.” You tell her and then she leaves.

“Trying to get away from me?” You hear from behind you and you turn around.

“Well you seem like the type of person who doesn’t do things for people you just met.” You tell her.

“I already offered to take you home, and I stick by what I offer.” She tells you and she begins walking to her car. “Are you coming?” She asks you annoyed and you follow her out and to her car.

“I’m sorry if I upset you somehow.” You tell her as she starts her car.

“I just don’t like people who go behind my back.” She tells you and you look at her.

“I didn’t go behind your back, I just tried to get you out of something that you don’t have to do.” You tell her and she shoots you a glare before turning back to the road.

“Whatever.” She says and she finishes the conversation just like that. You feel a tension in the car between you both so you look for something to break it and you notice a ring on her finger.

“Are you married?” You ask her and she looks at you quickly before looking at the ring and she sighs.

“Yes, for 15 years.” She tells you.

“Oh, congratulations.” You tell her and she takes a deep breath.

“Thank you.” She says and you hear the slight hesitation and the tiredness in her voice.

“Is it a happy marriage?” You ask her as a joke but you seem to hit a nerve.

“Of course it’s-it’s happy, I wouldn’t stay married if I wasn’t happy.” She tells you with anger but also more hesitation. “He treats me nicely and I love him.” She tells you and you look at her weirdly.

You’ve never heard anyone describe their marriage like that and you have questions but she’s an extremely closed off person so you keep the questions to yourself. You decide to just keep quiet for the rest of the drive. She pulls up to your place and you quickly thank her and get out as fast as you can but also not trying to look like you’re running away from her.

Melissa picks up on your trying to get out quickly and she sighs loudly after you get out. She waits until you enter your house before she goes home.

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i have a handle on my drafts again sooooo here's a plot specific starter call for some muses i'm really eager to use. underneath the cut i'm gonna place a list of muses + a plot or plots i'd really like for them.. if you like i'll come to you for who, but you're also welcome to reply! whether we plot it out a bit more or just jump in is up to you.

adrian — falling in love with the his kid's nanny pls. he's divorced and a workaholic, someone force him to be better.

aurelio — arranged marriage, possibly with the families being in the mafia for the drama of it. / normal people plot hehe.

dawson — figure skater/hockey player im BEGGING you. / accidental pregnancy also.

dove — this plot where dove is the one being given a makeover.

jacob — best friends to lovers, preferably with the backdrop of a beach town and the summer and lots of drama.

joseph — forbidden love with the sibling of a family his brothers hate. would love for it to get intense and messy.

kendra — visiting her hometown so her children can see her parents and running into her hs/college best friend who she has now realised she used to be in love with lmao. her circumstances are up to you, could be married, could have figured herself out earlier than kendra did.

lachlan — uncomfortably close best friends, completely lacking in boundaries, both completely unaware that they're in love. literally will f*ck and still don't realise it's weird. inspo. / bandmate's gf who he claims to hate and is irritated that she's on tour with them but he has feelings for her and also knows she's only with them bc her bf cheats whenever they go on tour.

lucien — fwb that gets complicated. assumed unrequited feelings, friend drama, pregnancy scare? you name it.

mason — i would really just love a badass woman who can hold her own who pushes him to break down his walls and we can explore lots of drama within his family and their town but i want them to get married. not a specific plot just like. vibes at this point.

niamh — football player/popstar, come on now.....

river — sense8 plot, psychic link soulmates aka my favourite ever.

ronan — would love something veronica/logan inspired / would also pay someone to use sherry-lee watson against him.

sully — roommates who cannot stand each other but... :) very much jess and nick from new girl inspired pls.

warner — jess and rory type plot pls. he has a poor rep in their small town and she's the people's princess. she's the only one who tries to see the real him.

wyatt — frenemy neighbours to lovers, preferably with fake dating. inspo.

revan — princess/criminal fantasy plot pls. / new recruit he puts through the ringer but actually likes. inspo.

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[cto10121]

Twilight Clown Takes Special Edition—Bella Would Live Her ~Best Life With Jacob

If Bella had met and loved Jacob, and only Jacob, here’s exactly how it would have panned out:

Jacob being too poor to attend even community college, Bella would have probably not have gone to college, either. Or if she (or Jacob) do manage to attend, time and distance would have led her and Jacob to break up. Considering Bella’s original plan was to suffer through high school then go to college in a sunny area, she may just choose to follow up on that plan and stay just friends with Jacob (best case scenario btw)

If Jacob still transformed into a werewolf in this universe, that would mean many worried days and lonely nights for Bella. And yes, danger, since young werewolves are volatile. Bella would essentially be another Emily, making food and darning clothes for the wolf boys—something she did romanticize, but that was not her original ambitions, however sketchy those were

She’d have kids, either with Normal!Jacob or Werewolf!Jacob. Something, by the way, that she has never thought about and would not ordinarily want (her fantasy had been having an older brother). As with Edward, she would have Jacob’s children out of love, but these children would not be like Renesmee, who would mature in just seven years and is already in control of her faculties. Normal children require a lifetime of care, and Bella’s own childhood experience has been her taking care of her mother. She would definitely grow to resent them in the same way her mother resented her

Bella’s relationship with Jacob in New Moon is characteristic of a typical teen summer affair—hanging out, eating pizza, joking about ages, making Simpsons references. This is enough if you’re a teenager, but will definitely not hold water as an adult. Which leads us to:

Personality. Bella is a white bookish Austenite who is interested in seeing New Zealand or visiting New York. Jacob likes cars and will probably become a mechanic. They literally have nothing in common in terms of hobbies they share or even talk about. Jacob is not academically ambitious, either. And in this universe, Bella never gets an appreciation for motorcycles or thrill-seeking, so they can’t have even that.

The Quileutes. Very cool bunch and close-knit, and Bella would have found her family with them, no problem. But they are a still a poor community, facing deep institutionalized racism, so Bella would have fewer resources than even her life with Renée. Bella is low-income, so the shock would not be that great, but culturally she is still middle class. Charlie is Chief of Police, and Renée made her take ballet lessons, for crying aloud. And Bella’s children would be enrolled in the reservation school with limited resources and she would suffer for them and their future. Bella may try to enroll them in Forks, which would have been a little better, but that would cause racial tensions, among other things

Speaking of racism…sorry to be a Debbie Downer, but there are two ways Bella could go with this. Either she becomes the fiercest ally for Native American rights and/or her family…or she doubles down on the white individualistic strain of her personality and excepts only Jacob and her immediate family from her prejudice. The latter is not at all likely, since familiarity and intimacy always lessens prejudice, but I just want to lay out all the possibilities here, especially considering the scandals of police brutality of the later 2010s

And lastly, Jacob himself. Jacob has shown a lot of good qualities and he is definitely not useless at providing, either as a regular human or as a werewolf. He took care of his father, so that’s big. But this saga has proven beyond the shadow of a doubt that he is no feminist. He’s not going to do the dishes. He’s not going to do the laundry. He’s not going to help raise the kids beyond typical dad expectations or even pick up after himself. That shit will all fall on Bella, 100%

Conclusion: Bella would have grown bored and resent Jacob. Either that, or she would fall back on her Cinderbella social conditioning and gotten stuck there, sacrificing herself in every respect while stubbornly burying her head in the sand. More realistically, she and Jacob would fight constantly, especially about money. They probably would have divorced.

(And if Edward ever came around in this universe when Bella was a middle-aged mother of three in La Push, she would have pounced on him like a cougar. Pun intended.)