#ive made a few bags now but this is my fave

[kojidesu]

omg hiiii tumblr!!! do you like the frog bag i made 🥺

[poppinlovemp4]

what are your thoughts on each nct member

im crying there are 22 of you here thats fewer people than nct. who's sending me this. anyway im bored so ill answer... really long obviously there are so many guys

i dont have any thoughts on the wish members ive never streamed idk any of their names and i'll keep it that way bless their hearts. or not idk

jisung: idgaffff his dancing is overhyped and he's charmless to me and i hate deepvoice rappers forever

chenle: probably nicest voice in dream but that's a really low bar. dont really have other thoughts. i've heard he cares a lot about basketball which can either be charming or offputting i dont know enough about him to say

yangyang: thats OOMF top 3 in ncity to me <3 i really did not care about him all when i was first entering weishenville sorry for my anti-kpop rapper bias but he's soooo fun to watch onstage. imo the only one other than ten obviously who's got a good handle on #It. and he has the cutest smile ever probably. and i like him :-)

jaemin: idgaf i literally cannot think of a single thing to say here

haechan: seems like an unsavoury bloke from what i've seen of his scandals and i hate his voice so so so badly like when i first listened to 127 on purpose i had to pause and look up a lyric video to see whose voice i hated so much. good performer though

jeno: least fave nct member and i dont like many of them. disband

renjun: hope he's feeling better these days. no further thoughts

hendery: thats OOMF but kind of less than the rest of wayv sorry.. he's like one of the only idols ever i think is genuinely funny the way he speaks and acts is so 😭 i really dont know how he comes up with any of it. was sincerely baffled when i found out he wasnt wasian

xiaojun: he's all right

mark: ive literally never been impressed by any performance ive seen from him idk WHERE people get the all rounder genius idol thing from it's not showing #ToMe!!! the originator of many fave reaction images though so he's okay in my book

jungwoo: idgaf. wait no back when djj was announced people kept comparing him to xiumin in cbx to justify his place there (as in 2 main vocals / guy who isn't a main vocal) and he is not xiumin he could never dream of having my beautiful sister's charisma uniqueness nerve or talent! other than that idgaf

winwin: saw the news today hope he heals all righttt and it's nothing too serious... as an idol he brings nothing to the table except cuteness and that's not very important to me so i hope his career in cn thrives bless

jaehyun: tbh when nct first debuted i hated him so badly for literally no reason like his face just made me so mad. and look at us now <3 he is my entire 127 tag. i liked his debut so i'll continue following his solo career and he's also funny to me but i can't say that without feeling like jaehyun tote bag tweet

ten: thats OOMF another top 3 member <3 he's EVERYTHINGGGG imo the only nct member who's like absolutely a star & built to be a soloist.. i cannot wait for his second albummm i love his vision he is so so so so insanely talented it boggles the mind. and also so cool... i rarely think idols are cool but he is so cool

doyoung: he's a crazy ass hater with an evil spirit but i kind of fuck with it idk if i had to pick a second fave 127 member it would probably be him he's funny to watch. i streamed from little wave a few times also

kun: thats OOMF every time he's mentioned that he was the one who pushed for a certain song/production choice (new ride being in gmt, the strings at the end of omy) it's been one of my favourite parts of whatever the final product is so i really appreciate that. ten's kinda right about him he's so old but it's really charming to me

yuta: idrgaf. i thought his solo debut was interesting ill be giving his future stuff exactly one stream and perhaps more if the execution improves

taeyong: i think it's so funny how everyone buys the cutesy act he started going hard on immediately after his bullying scandal came out😭 loved his work on baby don't stop & call d. hated his work on everything else. every time his verse on rv's cover of be natural comes on i take a moment to curse him out

johnny: from chicago and yet so deeply charmless he gives this beautiful city a bad name. disband

[artemismn]

wowww an essay thak you !

im assuming you picked the last option, which is like You need to do more than fanfarm

i agree with that one too, and i do think reading stories and having an understanding of the character you produce matter more than what you have of the character in the game. overall.

when i think of producing wataru, and what i want of him, i want lots of itabags and a truck full of nuis and every keychain thats ever been made

i also want a deep understanding of his character, i want to know him more so so so bad. ive read maybe 1/3 of the wataru stories so far

in the game i have 70k fans and am only missing a couple of his cards

ive been crazy about wataru everu day for over a year too

i was seeking peoples opinions and views, thank you for delivering so well 🙂

Hello! i’m glad that i didn’t annoy you with that essay in the notes haha

I actually picked the 3rd to last option, that the only requirement to produce is to like and pay attention. it most closely aligned with my view point that all you have to do it engage with the character on a regular basis, even if it’s not as grand as having a full ita bag or having 10k+ fans. since even if it seems small to me, like i said in my reblog, there’s so many different ways to enjoy a media like enstars that i feel like i don’t really have a place to draw a line on what’s “enough” to be a producer! i mainly used hyperboles in my “essay” to explain my point. honestly, as long as someone isn’t claiming to be a producer of a character then consuming literally 0 content of said character, not participating in any events, not pulling in gacha, and not even talking about the character regularly (basically not engaging at all) then i’m not going to say they aren’t a true producer of a character ^^ though i do understand your perspective.

my perspective probably comes from my relationship to enstars throughout the years. i started playing in late 2016 at age 12 and now in 2023 i’m 19 lol. i’ve always been a fineP, with tori being my first fave then wataru turning into my number 1 fave shortly afterwards. over the years my level of interest has fluctuated, with there being times of obsession and times of hiatus, but i’ve always come back to the same characters, to wataru and fine as a whole, you know? even during the times of hiatus, there’s never been a time where i didn’t consider myself a wataruP/fineP. same thing with the friends i’ve met through enstars, i’ve watched them leave and come back to the game (perhaps come back more casually), but i don’t see their love for their faves leave them. in my eyes, i still see them as producers for those characters.

sorry for giving my whole enstars back story lol, your post/ask just got me thinking about my relationship to enstars! ^^ very introspective topic.

to me, wataru is a character that has always brought me happiness. when i think about what i want out of wataru, what i think of first the is comfort and happiness he provides to me. i want to see him and i want to understand him as a character. he’s someone i relate to very much. i want his cards and i want to get merch of him.

right now i have all but one of his cards on enstars!! music (i missed his 7th anniversary card during a hiatus waahhh). i only have about 43k+ fans though (going for rank B rn) because like i said in my “essay”, collecting fans wasn’t really an aspect i really considered much or cared about, at least not until recently haha. (he’s on all my main teams, but they all got maxed out so i didn’t progress far after that). i was planning on making an ita bag for him/fine a few years back (even bought the bag for it) but uhh yeah that adhd slump hit and ive ran out of spoons for it ^^; it’s fine though i’m happy with my nuis and scattered merch

anyway thanks for the ask 👍 i think your perspective is very interesting and i liked hearing about how you view your relationship with wataru! sorry that this turned into another, even longer, essay i love talking about things. have a nice night/day :)

[gusherguy]

ooo, ok, a prompt or just idea: ive always been interested in the image of someone getting sick (the cause is dealer's choice, though im a fan of overeating especially) and puking into something that they know wont hold it all but theyre not able to stop and having it overflow, making a mess and them getting even sicker

(Thank you for asking me to write literally one of my absolute FAVE scenarios 😍. Characters: Aspen, they/them 22. Nick, he/him 19. -Nico)

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Nick frowned as his faint queasiness suddenly became full-on nausea. "Mmnn..."

He didn't get carsick often, so he hadn't worried about his friend Aspen driving, but all that food he'd eaten at the buffet suddenly wasn't sitting well. He burped quietly, rubbing his stomach and trying to ease the feeling.

Aspen looked over. "You good?" they asked.

Nick started to nod, but the motion made his stomach lurch. "I - urggh. I'm not feeling so good, I think- urp!" With the burp, salty saliva filled his mouth and he realized he was seconds from losing his lunch. "I'm gonna be sick," he said shakily.

"Ohh boy. You think you can wait till we get off the highway?" Aspen said. "Can't really pull over here-"

"Hrrrp. No time." Nick got out before his shoulders heaved and a gush of sour puke surged up into his mouth. He swallowed over and over. "I need - hrrrp! - I need a bag." He burped again and the vomit came right back up, refusing to be forced down. His cheeks bulged with thick mush. Nick pressed a hand to his tight lips, refusing to let a drop come out.

"Oh crap, uh, hold on-" they looked around desperately for something he could use. An old chip bag with nothing left in it was the only option, and they pushed it into Nick's shaking hands.

Nick opened his mouth and let out the vomit he'd been holding. His shoulders hitched and he burped up another wave into the bag.

"Easy, the bag's pretty small," Aspen said. "I'll be able to get off the road soon, okay?"

Nick was acutely aware of how small the bag was as his stomach twisted and more puke surged up and out. "HHHuuUUEEEhhh!" He belched wetly and tried to swallow the next wave back. But it was no use; he was at the mercy of his lurching stomach.

The bag quickly filled, becoming a warm heavy sickening weight in his lap. Nick shuddered and groaned. His head thrust forward involuntarily as he threw up. He spat and tried to catch his breath, quietly burping and heaving a few times.

The bag was dangerously full now. Nick knew he had to stop vomiting or it was gonna spill everywhere. But his stomach was still a huge, sickening weight, churning and overfull. "Urrrp...guh." He tried to let go of the bag to press a hand against his mouth, but the motion let the other end of the bag dump a little sick over his hands. The feelings of the slimy chunks made a gutteral retch burst out of him and he spewed violently. "I need - grrk! - I need another bag," he gasped out.

Aspen glanced quickly at him as they wound through traffic. "I'm sorry Nick, that's the only one I got," they said. "We're almost where you can get out of the car."

He burped miserably, feeling sick crawl up his throat. "I can't - I...I'm gonna-" he gagged wetly and it gushed into his mouth. Nick stubbornly held his mouth closed and his cheeks bulged.

"Hrrrrp. Ghhh! Hrrrp...." He heaved and couldn't hold it back anymore. Vomit sprayed from his mouth and nose. The bag instantly overflowed with fresh sick and spilled all over his hands and lap. The gross sensation made him burp up wave after wave of thick puke, only making things worse.

"Damn it..." Aspen softly cursed. They looked over with concern and sympathy and sighed. "It's alright Nick, you're doing good," they said. He obviously couldn't help how sick he was, and Aspen didn't want to make him feel any worse.

Nick nearly sobbed, but heaved up more sick instead. "Ngghhh...urrrp! Ugh, I f-feel so hHHHURRRRGLLL!" His body clenched and gurgled up a spurt of vomit that ran down his neck. He was utterly covered in sick, all over his arms, pooling in a warm, vile puddle between his legs, thicker chunks stuck to his shirt and jeans. The smell made him keep gagging until the car came to a stop.

Aspen helped him stagger out of the pool of sick and finish emptying his stomach on the grass by the side of the road.

[boogiepilgrim]

thanks for tagging me, @highlyycaffeinated!!

tag game

name: bethany

sexuality: bisexual

hogwarts house: gryffindor lol. im not like a super huge megafan of hp, i do like it tho. and we all did the quiz thing when we were 13 didnt we

percy jackson godparent: now ok i had to go and do a quiz for this one bc i had no idea what this meant cause i never watched or read percy jackson. maybe thats shameful of me idk. anyway i got hades lol

cats or dogs: dogs. i love cats too, but i do have a slight preference for dogs. ive always had both all my life tho and loved them all individually and wholly

current time: 2:53pm

favorite animal: hmmmmmm. foxes are one of my faves. verie special. might be my number one fave. gorillas are probably second. dogs too but thats a given

when i made this blog: a few weeks ago? fkjhrdkjhjfdkg i only made this one a few weeks ago but i kinda fuc with it more than my actual blog recently. i made my main one in like 2013. a very large mixed bag of shit on there

reason for url: boogie pilgrim.. hustled to get it. to get it togetherrrr...down on the jive talk! down on the weatherrr! boogie piiiilgrimmm, oh.... bwother, i never felt better..... loooww liiffe’s complete.. when uve lived that waaay out on the siiidewaalk... ((walking on the sidewalk evry dayyy....)) it’s the title of a banger off my fave elton john album. perhaps not even just my fave elton john album but my fave album period. classic mood thru and thru

thanks, dude. and aaaa i dont know who to tag  i dont wanna be annoying tagging the same people all the time. if u see this and wanna do it, feel free..

[jeongfm-blog]

               hello  everyone  !  my  name’s 𝒍𝒖𝒎𝒂 (  pronouns  they  /  them  )  and  i’m  super  excited  to  be  here  !   it’s  been  a  while  since  my  last  city  rp ,  but  since  it’s  one  of  my  fave  kinds  of  rp ,  i  figured  i  would  give  it  a  whirl  once  again  !   some  boring  facts  about  myself  is  that  i’m  a  sucker  for  golden  hour  despite  not  even  having  an  instagram ,  i  spend  too  much  time  watching  youtube  videos  (  i  recently  got  back  into  watching  my  girl  jenn  im  and  now  i  remember  why  i’m  so  obsessed  with  her  ) ,  and  i  have  books  on  my  shelf  that  i  got  for  christmas  and  haven’t  read  a  single  one  !  i’m  super  excited  to  introduce  you  guys  to  my  pride  and  joy  𝒔𝒐𝒇𝒊𝒂  𝒋𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒈  as  well  as  to  plot  and  interact  with  everyone  !

full name : sofia jeong.

nickname(s): sof and posy by her dad only !

birthday : february 9th, 1997.

zodiac : aquarius.

moral alignment : neutral good.

gender : cisfemale.

pronouns: she/her/hers.

sexual orientation : bisexual.

romantic orientation : biromantic.

height : 5′6″ ( five foot, six inches ).

hometown : ascot, brisbane, australia.

nationality : australian.

ethnicity : korean.

language(s) spoken : english, korean, and conversational portuguese.

occupation : social media influencer.

aesthetics : bright computer screens at two am, a pristine instagram theme, morning dew, perfect lighting, clear lip gloss, glass skin, selfies in small circular mirrors, freshly dyed rose gold hair, oversized tees and denim shorts, soft skin on white sheets, foreign languages, bright early mornings, staring in awe into someone’s eyes, honeyed laughter, music playing in the background, late night drives, early morning hikes, iced coffee on cold mornings, vanilla scented body lotion, the sound of pencil on paper, highlighter gleaming in the sunlight, perfectly styled hair, and soft pink on crisp white shirts.

i. background.

taemin jeong was a freshman at the university of queensland, studying computer science, when he met his future girlfriend grace kim, who was studying architecture. he was awkward and bumbling while she was sociable and graceful ( no pun intended ), but somehow the couple was a perfect match from the moment they met in freshman algebra. they made their friends sick with their love and moved through the challenges of college with one another. 

the summer before their senior year, they moved into their own off-campus apartment. this same summer, grace discovered that she was pregnant with their first and only child, who the couple later named sofia. when the couple graduated, sofia was three months old and featured in a lot of their graduation photos. 

after their graduation, though, things for the couple began to fall apart. while taemin wanted to marry grace and have a family, grace was feeling trapped as she wasn’t expecting to have a child so soon. so, one day when taemin took sofia to visit his parents, grace packed her things and one picture of their daughter before leaving a note for taemin.

to put it lightly, taemin was heartbroken upon discovery that grace was gone, but he couldn’t sulk for long as he had a wide eyed seven month old to care for. so from that point on, taemin focused on his career and sofia. he thankfully had the help of his parents while he worked long hours to save money, but after two years they moved into their forever home.

growing up, sofia’s life was pretty normal, despite the fact that her mom wasn’t around. there were times where things were tight in the one parent household, but for the most part sofia has no complaints about her childhood. much like a lot of people, sofia was a kid who liked filming weird videos with her friends and doing absolutely nothing with them other than leaving them on the computer for her dad to find.

the very first beauty youtuber that sofia ever watched ( like a lot of people ) was michelle phan ! she absolutely fell in love with michelle and began wanting to do her own makeup videos as well. she made a really crappy channel when she was like ... twelve and let’s just say that the video she made was horrific ! like most youtubers, her channel’s name was like like sofiaposybeauty60 or something ugly like that.

a few years later, when she was about fifteen, sofia tried her hand at youtube once again. this time she made a twitter and instagram to correspond with it, hoping that she could build something of a platform. her videos were of terrible quality and her makeup was probably really bad, but she did it anyways. she’d post her makeup looks on instagram and when that grew, so did her channel.

skipping along because i talk too damn much, now at twenty two, sofia has five million subscribers on youtube and 1.6 million followers on her instagram. if i were to compare her to an actual youtuber, i’d say she’s a mix between jenn im and sophia chang. she’s very much into staying in her own lane and her videos are pretty ~aesthetic and chill. she has her own online clothing store as well called ( something, idk yet ).

anyways, sofia made the move to barcelona from brisbane about a year and a half ago because she wanted a change of scenery. she came to barcelona previously on a trip with some girlfriends and after a while of planning, she made the move ! she currently lives in a cozy little apartment with her eight month old goldendoodle named rockie !

ii. appearance.

sofia’s appearance is pretty much canon to rosé’s ! her hair is currently strawberry blonde and is always a variety of such. she likes to change her hair color every so often, but this is the one that’s been around for a while. sofia hasn’t had dark hair since she was about thirteen years old, which is when she first dyed her hair from black to brown. since then, she slowly began to lighten it to where it is now.

when it comes to her sense of style, it’s very much inspired by model off duty. it includes a lot of denim, a lot of black, ankle boots, and sneakers. she’s a big fan of tote bags and is usually always seen with one ( since she’s always carrying around a camera, her laptop, and other little things ). it’s no surprise that she has a container in her closet full of them, but she of course, has her more luxury ones in her collection as well.

for the most part though, when she’s just lounging around her apartment, sofia is super casual. it’s fuzzy socks. it’s oversized tees that swallow her physique. there’s no makeup on her face. she has on her glasses and her hair is piled onto her head in the messiest of messy buns. she’s a huge fan of jewelry though and is hardly ever seen without rings on her fingers and her favorite necklace around her neck.

iii. personality.

vociferous, precisian, and beguiling : when it comes to her positive traits, most of it entails from her career on social media. prior to being on youtube, sofia was more on the quiet side and kept to herself, but since then especially with doing vlogs, she’s more comfortable being the one to start a conversation. she’s a big perfectionist, also stemming from her career, but it’s trickled into behind the camera as well. she doesn’t like to half ass anything, no matter what it may be. and finally, sofia is as charming as ever. she can charm the pants off of anything with a little eye glimmer and a hair flip, she’s got them in the bag.

advantageous, negligible, and censorious : as for her negative traits, sofia is advantageous in regard that she knows how to work people into believing that she’s the best choice for them. it’s how she’s gotten most of her sponsorships -- sometimes her manager jokes with her that she doesn’t really need him. sofia is super petty as well, which is actually bad -- she’s the girl who doesn’t let ignorant comments slip on her instagram or twitter, but sometimes all it does is get her into trouble with her public relations team. finally, sofia can be critical of people at times, even if she doesn’t mean it in a malicious way. maybe it stems from being analyzed constantly herself, but she can sometimes immediately regret it after it’s been said unless it’s someone that she doesn’t get along with.

iv. wanted plots.

i’ll have a wanted connections page up every soon with a couple of detailed plots that i’d like to have, but i’m always down for ( but not limited to ) enemies with benefits, ex friends, best friends, flirtationship, failed relationship, best friends, squad, almost relationship, good/bad influence, family friends, someone who appears on her channel, slow burn ( !!! ), workout buddies, neighbors, confidants, and above all else, chemistry !  

[iwritesometimes]

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“thank you to the gorgeous @wordssometimesfail for tagging me in a get...”

s o n g r e c s

so THANKS (much belatedly for tolerating my fucking out of control need to word vomit about music at literally all hours of the day and night; forcing others to listen to songs i like is literally one of the few joys that makes life worth living. also, idk if this was intended in a “hey cool, song recs” way or a “hey, yeah, link me those songs” way, but @filigods, BABY YOU’RE GETTIN THOSE LINKS and also more because i am insufferable.

below the cut: links to just Some Music What I Think Is Cool, organized...pretty dubiously, but an attempt will be made. also, now and at all times, anyone who feels so inclined should always link me to music they’re liking right now or that they loved in the past or that they think is just the bee’s knees...anytime. ANYTIME.

okay so the songs i mentioned the other day are all in here, but i wanted to organize it a bit more than just a random grab bag to give you some direction so that you know what you might be into, if you’ve never heard of some of these (my music taste isn’t all that niche but i’ve gone through a lot of phases in my life XD). particular “omg please listen to this before you die” faves will be in italics.

best of pop/pop rock

stuff by Keane, My Fave Band:

“Crystal Ball”

“Won’t Be Broken”

“Sovereign Light Cafe”

“Bedshaped”

“My Shadow”

stuff by Tokio Hotel, my first RPF subjects

“Übers Ende der Welt”

“Spring nicht”

“Wo sind eure Hände”

stuff by Elliot Minor, classically trained and sadly disbanded

“Parallel Worlds”

“The White One Is Evil”

“The Broken Minor”

“Solaris”

“Shiver”

“Electric High”

stuff by Dino Merlin, Bosnia’s Elton John

“Zid”

“Sarajevo”

“Majka Ruži Kćer”

“Heroes of Earth” by Wang Leehom (listen to more of his stuff - he’s insanely talented and has albums in several different genres)

“Sun Goes Down” by David Jordan

stuff by Gorillaz, you’ve definitely heard them but may not have heard these

“Stylo”

“November Has Come”

“Feel Good Inc.”

“Broken”

“Busted and Blue”

“Du erinnerst mich an Liebe” by Ich + Ich

stuff by Josh Groban, HE’S GOOD ADMIT IT TO YOURSELVES

“Never Let Go”

“Remember When it Rained”

“You Are Loved”

“Weeping”

“Tigerlily” by La Roux (whole album’s great, but this one’s gayyyy)

“Grace Kelly” and “Origin of Love” by Mika

“Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk” by Rufus Wainwright

“Make This Go On Forever” and “Set the Fire to the Third Bar” by Snow Patrol

stuff by Owl City, the fluffiest synthpop to ever make me happy

“Fireflies”

“Swimming in Miami”

“Meteor Shower”

“Strawberry Avalanche”

“Running Up That Hill” by Placebo covering Kate Bush

“Velvet Sky” by Los Lonely Boys

“Chasing the Sun” and “Satellite Call” and “Eden” by Sara Bareilles (WHOLE ALBUM!!!)

“Kiss Me” by Sixpence None the Richer

“Sad Clown” by Jars of Clay

stuff by Michael W. Smith, i can’t help i was raised on CCM please forgive me

“Cross of Gold”

“Lamu”

“Secret Ambition”

“Breathe in Me”

“Love Me Good”

“Faith My Eyes” and “High Countries” by Caedmon’s Call

stuff by Daft Punk, FUCKING SUPERB YOU FUNKY LITTLE ROBOTS (listen to all of Discovery and Random Access Memories!!)

“One More Time”

“Aerodynamic”

“Give Life Back to Music”

“Technologic”

“These Dreams” by Heart

“Even Rats” by The Slip

“To Build a Home” by The Cinematic Orchestra

“Mandolin Rain” and “The Way It Is” by Bruce Hornsby and the Range

“I’m Still Here” by John Rzeznik

“Ue o muite arukou” by Kyu Sakamoto

“Love Me Dead” by Ludo

“Just Communication” by Two-Mix (Soundcloud link because it’s not on YT?? however, this bitchin cover is!!)

“The Book of Love” by Peter Gabriel covering the Magnetic Fields

best of rock/rap rock

stuff by linkin park, baby’s first rock band (meteora and thousand suns, BEST albums)

“Forgotten”

“Somewhere I Belong”

“Breaking the Habit”

“Iridescent” (accidentally called this “The Radiance” in the op)

“The Messenger”

“Welcome Home” by Coheed and Cambria

“Televators” by The Mars Volta

“Isolation” and “Life Must Go On” by Alter Bridge

“Nemesis” by Arch Enemy

“Like a Stone” by Audioslave

“Lonely Boy” by The Black Keys

“In One Ear” and “Ain’t No Rest for the Wicked” by Cage the Elephant (whole album!!)

“Jordan” by Buckethead

“Paralyzer” by Finger Eleven

stuff by Gackt, j-rock boy of my dreams since 2003

“Mirror”

“Vanilla”

“Returner”

“Orenji no Taiyou” (with Hyde)

“Through the Night” by Masahiko Arimachi

“Magick” and “It’s Not Over Yet” by Klaxons

“Deliverance” and “In Mist She Was Standing” by Opeth

stuff by Panik, my good good german boys who just couldn’t make it work

“Revolution”

“Geht ab”

“Grau”

“Perfekt”

“Morgencafe”

“Bevor du gehst”

“Careless Whisper” by Seether covering Wham!

“Seasons” by The Veer Union

“Cold” by Static X

“Change (In the House of Flies)” by Deftones

“System” by Chester Bennington

“Whipping Boy” by Train

“Chevette” and “Some Kind of Zombie” by Audio Adrenaline

“Colossal” and “Witchcraft” by Wolfmother (whole album is great)

“Whiskey in the Jar” by Metallica and “Turn the Page” by Metallica covering Bob Seger

“Gravedigger” by Dave Matthews Band

“Iris” by the Goo Goo Dolls

“Icky Thump” and “Blue Orchid” by The White Stripes

“Crazy Bitch” by Buckcherry

“You Shook Me All Night Long” and “Big Balls” by AC/DC (there is NO CORRECT VERSION of Big Balls on YT...sorry for the spotify link)

best of choral (most of which i’ve sung so i’m biased)/instrumental/soundtrack

Lux Aeterna and “O Magnum Mysterium” by Morten Lauridsen

The True Story of Cinderella (i was the queen in this :3)

Knock Knock and indeed anything by P.D.Q. Bach

“i thank You God for most this amazing day” and “Lux Aurumque” by Eric Whitacre

“Magnificat” by Arvo Pärt

“Set Me as a Seal” by René Clausen

“Cloudsong” and “The Heart’s Cry” by Anúna

“You Are the New Day” by The King’s Singers covering Airwaves, aka, the greatest love song of all time

“Castle in the Mist” and “You Were There” by Michiru Oshima (voc. Steven Geraghty)

“Prologue” and “The Farthest Land” by Ko Otani (the whole soundtrack is sublime, please listen to it!!!)

“The Mighty Rio Grande” and “They Move on Tracks of Never-Ending Light” by This Will Destroy You

“On the Nature of Daylight” by Max Richter (also, there’s a great mashup of this with “This Bitter Earth” by Dinah Washington)

“To Zanarkand” by Nobuo Uematsu (obviously, listen to everything the man ever wrote, but ofc my fave is the FFX OST)

“More Streets” by Zpiderflower

“I Was Born for This” by Austin Wintory (from the stellar Journey OST)

“The Ballad of Fiedler and Mundt” by Disparition

“Sex (Daedalus Remix)” by Slugabed

Castlevania malarkey

Best of “Bloody Tears”: official 1, official 2, official 3, fanmix 4

Best of “Vampire Killer”: official 1, official 2, fanmix 3

Best of “Simon’s Theme”: official 1, official 2, fanmix 3, fanmix 4

Super Castlevania IV (PLEASE listen to the whole thing but my faves): “Forest of Monsters”, “The Submerged City”, “Clockwork Mansion 2″, “The Library”, “Dracula Battle”, “Ending”

Castlevania: Symphony of the Night (ditto above): “Dance of Illusions”, “Dracula’s Castle”, “Marble Gallery”, “Lost Painting”, “Dance of Pales”, “Wandering Ghosts”, “Final Toccata”

“Clotho”, “Atropos”, and “Lathesis” from the Columns OST

Zelda shenanigans

“Title Theme (Wind Waker)”

“Dragon Roost Island”

“The Great Sea”

“Main Theme (Breath of the Wild)”

“Riding (Day)”

“Riding (Night)”

“Stables”

“Kakariko Village”

“Rito Village (Day)”

“Tarrey Town”

“Maze Forest”

“Hyrule Castle” and “Hyrule Castle Interior”

okay i gotta quit - i’ve had this tab open for like a week and a half now and i just keep adding stuff. this is enough to get anybody started. i hope y’all find something you like. :)

[typicalmidnight]

iron man 2 running commentary

okay so watching iron man 2 for the first time and i have a feeling im gonna have lots of commentary to share so it will all be under the cut! i’m gonna keep updating it as i watch!

*starts watching iron man 2 without watching iron man first cause it’s not on netflix and is only 2 minutes in but completely confused*

*questions my intelligence because i was able to understand the other marvel movies without watching other ones first*

*wonders if somehow i haven’t seen enough tony stark on tumblr to understand but i’ve somehow seen enough of other things to understand other movies*

*cue suprised and upset anon* sorry anon!!

okay anon!! help me pls! is the guy in the very beginning of iron man 2 someone from the first movie, and if he is who is he?? or is he new in this movie? edit: nevermind i looked it up

omg the first scene we see iron man is so cooool i love it!

holy sh*t he just landed on a stage omggg *freaks out so much because WOW*

im not even 7 minutes in yet but WOW IM SHOOK

i litterally just watched that first scene of tony/iron man in awe the whole time

“the possibility of world peace” BAAAAAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAAAAAA there’s a whole lot in store for the world, and i can guarantee it wont be peaceful lol

the stark expo is year long?!?!!?!!??? wow....

oooh oooh oooh that’s happy!

tony with kids awww

OMG THATS PETER PARKER RIGHT

STAN LEEEE OMG AWWWW

wait what did tony do??

AHHHHH pepper!!

does tony like pepper yet?? are they dating??

god tony. his sense of humor omg.

pepper isnt impressed lol

tony is so savage we stan a queen lol

you’re right, it isn’t canada cause we’re AWESOME and dont have ppl trying to get rid of iron man

rhodey!! i know who that is!

litterally everything tony says is amazing

oooooh whats tony up to?...

world peace? dream on tony

did he just say f**k you to tony stark? UM NO YOU DID NOT

oof the scenes with this bad dude are boring

wait i take that back HE JUST CUT A TV IN HALF!!

“wake up, daddy’s home” god i love tony

i think im getting too excited about everything lolll

tony insulting that robot arm thing gives me life

whats that thing in tony’s chest?? im guessing it has something to do with him being iron man and was part of the first movie

im confused about the relationship between pepper and tony

oooh shes ceo congrats to her!!

is this actually good tho?? the look on her face isnt great

oh okay its good she was just suprised

are those like fake documents or something?

OMG ITS NATASHA!!! AHHHHHHHH I LOVE HER SO MUCH SHE’S LIKE MY FAVE MCU WOMAN OTHER THAN MJ

i got way too excited there and hit my wrist on my wall and now it hurts

wait he doesn’t know nat yet??? HOW?!

also ummm natalie rushman?? that name kinda suits her?? ish idk

NATASHA IS A QUEEEEEEN!!!! I STANNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i also got so excited about nat that my eyes started to water

“i want one” okay tony nat could knock you out in a second and she for sure doesn’t need a man! also PEPPER!!!!!! LIKE WHAT ABOUT HER!

its the grand prix! it looks just like it does in cars 2!! lollll i was super shooketh about that when i made the connection

OMG ITS NAT AGAIN YAY!

WAIT is tony gonna drive that race car??? is he gonna race??? OMG i hope he does

also my wrist still hurts

wait pepper is suprised?? tony you didnt tell pepper? TONY YOU DIDNT TELL PEPPER??? TONY COME ONNNNNN

OMG TONY WHY PEPPER IS CONCERNED NOW

also is nat working for tony or something

oof its 12 am i should sleep i have school tmrw

haha bish that reporter lady left cause ur boring and nobody cares about you

AHHHH TONY’S GONNA RACEEEE

omg tony is racing tony is racing TONY IS RACING TONY IS RACING!!!! TONY PLS DONT DIE OR SOMETHING

hello my name is leea and i’m a huge drama queen that loves and cares so much about tony stark

OMG ITS THE VILLAIN GUY ACKKK TONY IS GONNA DIE

im still super dramatic lol

and also 100% convinced tony is gonna die even tho i know that wont happen

IM GETTING SO MUCH ANXIETY FROM JUST WATCHING THIS AHHHH

THE VILLAN GUY IS GOING SOMEWHERE ONTO THE TRACK OR SOMETHING ACKKKK

i hit my elbow and my head (not too hard dont worry) and the elbow is the same arm that i hurt my wrist so now my arm hurts from my elbow to my hand

WHAT IS THAT GUY DOING HE JUST WALKED ONTO THE RACE CAR TRACK

i litterally pressed play and then pressed pause two seconds later ooooof

peppers face omg she is shooketh lol

WTF IS HE DOING??!!!!!! also wth is he wearing on his chest?

OOOOOOOOOMG he has his slicy electricity weapon thingies TONY IS GONNA DIE AHHHH

HE JUST HIT A CAR OMG I HOPE THE PERSON IS OKAY

^big example of me being a drama queen and innocent and sweet at the same time

HAPPY HAS WHAT IM ASSUMING TO BE IRON MAN SOMETHING

TONY IS ABOUT TO DIE!!!

i paused it right before he hits the car omg the suspense!!!!!

ANXIETY LEVELS RIGHT NOW

OMG TONY NOOOOOOOO

IM BREATHING SO DEEP AND FAST RIGHT NOW IM PANICKING FOR TONY (it’s called hyperventalating. future me remembered the word lol)

dude WHYYY would you take off your helmet??!!!!

there is a dude coming to kill you and i think a helmet would help protect you idiot!!

OMG THERES A CAR COMING AT THE VILLAIN GUY

WHAT IF IT HITS HIM AND THEN HITS TONY

THEY JUST EXPLODED OMG

i just choked because i was like WHAT JUST HAPPENED

there are cars exploding behind him and this dude just doesnt care!!

why have i started saying dude?

owww my wrist hurts

typing hurts

owwww

its actually really not that bad im dramatic

is pepper gonna save tony????

does the case have the rescue armor ive read about?????

HE JUST TRIED TO KILL TONY

*facepalms* tony WHY did you just hit him on the head with whatever that was??? what did you think it would accomplish??????? this dude just sliced your car in half and tried to kill you, do you think you can take him out by hitting him on the head??? just get tf out of there!!!

OMG HES GONNA KILL TONY

i just hit my head again (not hard it fine)

OMG DID HE JUST HIT TONY

I THINK HE JUST HIT TONY

IM NOT OKAY

AND I DONT THINK HE IS EITHER

AHHHHHHHHHHH

okay i’m going to bed cause its almost 1 am and i have school. anyway, this is the 100th comment which is kinda good to leave off at! i’ll finish watching tmrw and keep posting!

okay i’m back! about to start watching the movie!

ahhhhhh poor tony!!! i’m only a few seconds in but already panicking for him!!

omg hes getting ready to kill tony!! and tony is just lying on the ground!!!

pepper and happy come save him! ! ! ! ! !!!!!!!

or nat!!!!

ahhhhhhhhh tonys gonna die!!!!!!!!!!!!!

with every second i freak out moreeeee

oh thank GOD tony moved!!!

that car just exploded omg tony almost diedddd!!!

AHHHHH TONY IS ON FIRE

how tf is he so calm!!!!????!?!?!?!?!?

i mean hes not that calm but way calmer than any normal human should be in this situation

is he just like used to people trying to kill him??

OMG thats soo saaaaaaaddddd

OKAY HERE COMES PEPPER AND HAPPY

please run over him!!!

OMG THEY ALMOST HIT TONY

but they hit the bad guy yay!!!

awww tony is bleeding!

well i mean thats kinda expected lol

oof tony is mad

OMG PEPPER IS SO PISSED

shes acting like a mom lol

OMG THE GUYS WEAPONS ARE POWERING ON

THEY’RE ALL GONNA DIE

TONY JUST GET IN THE CAR

OMG THE DOOR

TONY GET IN THE CAR AND HAPPY GET TF OUT OF THERE!!!!

tony just GET IN THE CAR

OMG THE AIR BAG

HE JUST CUT THE WINDOW

THIS SCENE IS SO INTENSE OMG

okay pepper i love you but JUST GIVE TONY THE CASE

tony your armor is taking WAY TOO LONG to get on!!!

AHHHHH LOOK AT THE ARMOR!!!!!

ITS SO OLD

like not old

but compared to his current suit

the “it’s nanotech. you like it?” one

its nothing

AHHH HE HIT TONYS ARM

AHHHH TONYS GONNA DIE

AHHHH PEPPER IS SCREAMING

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#drama queen much? #yes thats me

AHHH COME ON TONY

love how i’ve only gotten 3 more minutes into the movie and i’m already at 47 comments

OMG HE JUST WHIPPED TONY TO THE GROUND

omg poor tony!!!!

can everyone just leave my dad alone PLEASE

YAY TONY!! NOW THE BAD GUY IS ON THE GROUND!!!

oh thank god tony is okay hes not dead he won for now

eww he just spat out a bunch of blood

“you loose” how??? like what???

ooooooooooh wait no is tony gonna get in trouble.......

i forgot to say this yesterday but this whole scene with the guy on the track and stuff and the exploding cars in kinda similar to cars 2

i guess you cant have a racing scene in a movie without a car exploding tho

what is up with that guy with glasses?? like hes weird i dont trust him

why arent there subtitles translating whatever language they are speaking in (french? idk)

ya its french

ofc tony talks about the technology lol

and critcizes the bad guy’s

tony this guy tried to kill you WHY are you sitting down next to him??!!?

that guy is weird and kinda creepy

okay just f off senator dude nobody likes you, your opinion isnt valid, and i wanna punch you

“these suits exist now”????? wtf b*tch no they dont!

wait what ever happened to nat??

pepper is really responsible shes great i love her

what does that note say???

omg is that a bomb or something??!

why do guards always help prisoners escape like seriously

is that guy gonna take his place or something??

also he kinda looks like haymitch from hunger games

omg wait WTF WAS THAT

ALSO GUARD WHAT THE HELL

i was right! it was a bomb!

why did they throw him in a truck??

omg why are they in an airport?!

are they gonna help him escape??!!

why is there a table and people....

is that glasses guy sitting at the table?

i was right it is glasses guy!

i didn’t trust him from the start

why is he helping him tho...

friend? fan? what is going on?!!!???

YAYYYYY theres nat!!!

“erratic behaviour”??? what are you talking about???? he just saved himself from being killed how is that erratic?????!!

awwww poor tony

i beleive in you tony, and i love you, but no honey, you don’t know exactly what you’re doing you need help!

“software sh*t” aaaaaaaaaaahahahahhaahhaaaaa

make iron man look like an antique? ya no way is that gonna happen

is nat his assistant or something im a bit confused

aww tony is like so depressed i feel so bad for him!!

stannnnn nat

back on watch? what does that mean...

omg tony is so drunkkkkkk nooooo

ohhhhh tonyyyyy noooo come onnnn

you’re so drunk dude stopppp

god tony you’re so drunk pleaseee

wait why is rhodey fighting him anyway?

wow this is my 101 comment today and i’ve only watched 20 mins today

omggggg people are recordingggg this isn’t gonna end well

*sighs* oh god tony dont yell at them whyyyyy

omg tonys in the fire place!!!

omg that just happened. they just fired at each other.

also just saying tony, he does have what it takes to be war machine cause he continues to be...

ohhhh is tony okay??

im confused tho why did they start fighting in the first place?

okay i just looked it up, it was because he was being irresponsible and drunk, and putting people at the party in danger, and he wouldnt stop

ngl its getting kinda tiring to keep updating this but i’m gonna keep going cause i want this record for myself, and i’m not gonna quit something

ok i’m gonna continue the movie tmrw cause its prob gonna be a snow day (lol i left off at 111)

[kay-emm-gee]

I’m two seasons behind on the 100. Ive been torn about catching up because I was super unhappy with how the show runners were being, you know, terrible people. But I follow you and have for a while and I value your opinion, is it worth it to catch up?

This is a tough question nonny, which is why I’ve taken some time to think about how to respond! And it’s tough because the short of it is…it depends? But that’s basically a non-answer, so I’m gonna go a different route and give you two answers with different perspectives instead ;) 

Answer #1: A more generalized opinion without my own I-love-this-show lens

S3 had a lot of problems: poor storyline balance & pacing, harmful tropes, insensitivity with regards to how characters were represented. No denying that. S4 had degrees of that as well. Either way: they have their big issues. Them’s just the facts. 

However, S3&4 also had a lot of great character-growth moments for the mains, fleshed out storylines for veteran minor characters, and introduced some awesome new characters, all of which I feel have made the story of the show richer. 

Essentially, it’s really a grab bag - you get the bad along with the good. Being aware of the nope-ish things that are coming can hugely help in dealing with those difficult moments when you do come across them while watching. But it really depends on where your personal ‘nope’ limits are and whether you feel comfortable with separating those ‘nope’ limits from the rest of your viewing experience. Certain characters do get more attention than others, certain characters do get better storylines than others. For me, the ‘nope’ moments weren’t out of balance enough with the ‘yay’ moments, and I headcanoned a lot of things to put some of the ‘nope’ moments in perspective. But this is because my media consumption strategy tends towards not letting the things that make me unhappy with a show entirely color the things that I like in a show (I get more into this in Answer #2). So what your own ‘nope’ limits are and how you cope with those ‘nope’ moments will definitely influence your enjoyment while watching (p.s. if you have specific questions about particular aspects, I can try my best to address those via asks or messaging!) 

Finally, I think it’s important for me to say: as much as you may ride-or-die love a show, your loyalty to a show matters far less than your own mental/emotion health. It is TOTALLY fine to start catching up and change your mind if you’re not happy with the show’s direction, and or to not catch up at all and in either case be like, “Ya know what, I love S1 & S2, and that is enough for me.” S1 and S2 are never going to change in their awesomeness, and if that’s where you wanna hang out with your faves, then all the power to you! 

Answer #2: A very biased opinion that is based in how much this show means to me and how I personally choose to consume media 

Hell yeah, watch it! I love the characters as much in S4 as I did in S1 (if not more). Clarke is still my sassy, brave fave whom I want to wrap in a blanket and protect from all life-or-death decisions. Bellamy is still my big-hearted, bold fave whom I want to have a goddamn break from saving everyone else so he can just, you know, like, chill out and be celebrated for the good bean that he is. Raven is still my lovely genius bb who deserves ALL OF THE GOOD THINGS in the world. And so on and so on for Monty and Harper and Miller etc. 

Did I always like where their stories went? Nope. Was I pissed at some points with the choices the showrunners made? Yep. But, I still had a lot of moments where I was laughing and crying and screaming at my screen because of good storytelling, because of awesome character moments, because of exciting new developments in relationships and plotlines. For as many things as I disliked about S3-4, there were just as many things that I did like. 

I will be honest that as we were heading into S4, I was not excited. I only watched a few episodes live and took my time catching up during the later episodes. I actually didn’t watch the S4 finale until like…two months ago? Life things got in the way, but I’ll be real honest - during S3 and S4, with the bellarke fandom freaking out every 5 secs about things that were just…not a big deal, i pretty much lost all interest in the show and the fandom and hugely disengaged. But, the break from both did me good - I honed my fandom experience and got enough distance from the drama to be like “you know i still really do, deep down, adore this show as much as ever.” 

I say that in a few sentences, but in reality that conclusion took me about a year to get to. And once I got there and rewatched S1-S4, I realized that the parts of S3-4 that I hated before…I still hated (time doesn’t change poor storytelling decisions), but they didn’t put a damper on the things I did still love about the show as they had when I originally watched S3-4. Also, the parts I just hadn’t liked or annoyed me before…didn’t bother me as much. Essentially, watching The 100 without the constant, crowdsourced cloud of worry/negativity that really pervaded fandom in S3-4 totally changed my opinion on a number of things, and that was enough to make me fall back in love with the show.

As I said, there’s still plenty of things that I just am very NOPE about in those seasons. The majority of those ‘nope’ things are the very big issues of poor and insensitive representation that have been widely recognized by the fandom (and honestly, also by the cast & crew at this point). But I am also of the very strong opinion that (a) no media I consume is ever entirely devoid of problematic aspects, and (b) that being thoughtful about social justice issues in something I’m watching and enjoying the thing that I am watching aren’t always mutually exclusive. For some people, what happened in S3-4 turned them off the show completely. That is a *completely* fair and valid take. If media makes you uncomfortable, run fast and far from it so you can be happy & healthy. For me, S3-4 definitely had issues that I recognize, acknowledge and am not remotely happy about or comfortable with. But, again, it also had some really awesome moments that did good things for its characters, and I was able to process those two categories of emotions simultaneously, because that’s just how I operate. 

I still get a lot of joy while watching the show, and also while participating in fandom (though my fandom circle is much smaller now). I have no idea how long it’ll stay that way for me, but at the moment, I’m very much looking forward to S5 and believe that at its heart, this show still has a lot to offer its viewers. 

[nerdperson524]

85 questions tag from forever ago

tagged by: @nerdylilbunny i think..im sorry ive lost track of who tagged me in all these

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

— What was your last…

1. Drink: milk

2. Phone call: my grandmother

3. Text message: my aunt

4. Song you listened to: “As Long As You’re Mine” from Wicked

5. Time you cried: two nights ago

6. Dated someone twice: nope

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never had a kiss

8. Been cheated on: nope

9. Lost someone special: a friend from middle school that i think my awkward middle school self scared off. you know who you are.. hmu bro i saw you at orientation

10. Been depressed: hahahahahahaahahhaha literally all of high school

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

— Fave colours

12. dark purple

13. dark blue

14. black

— in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: yesss @fangirl-writes-poetry

16. Fallen out of love: yes

17. Laughed until you cried: yes just a few weeks ago actually. hmu if you wanna hear about it

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes and i really didn’t care because the guy who started it was a douche bag but i wanted to hear the dramaaaaaa

19. Met someone who changed you: yep

20. Found out who your friends are: yes yes yes @MEG @fangirl-writes-poetry

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: back to the “never had a kiss” and i hardly use facebook so

— General

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: well like all of them are family or people I know because stranger danger and all that

23. Do you have any pets:  there is a dog living in my house that i refuse to call my own

24. Do you want to change your name: i wanted it to be Daniella once, but now I might save that for my kid

25. What did you do for your last birthday: went to an escape room.

26. What time did you wake up today: 10:15 ish

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching Good Mythical Morning on Youtube

28. What is something you can’t wait for: TO MOVE INTO MY COLLEGE DORM AND OUT OF THIS HELL HOLE IN ONE MONTH AND 10 DAYS

30. What are you listening to right now: the annoying sounds of an 11 year old making dinner and seething about how she blames me for every damn thing when she an effing hypocrite who did the exact same thing and sorry i didnt mean to rant oh wait yes i did

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: dont believe i have

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: “guy in my class. thinks he is better than everyone else and disses me for reading” lol i relate so hard to this last response. Torkelson. Hate You. also the annoying younger sister mentioned above.

33. Most visited website: tumblr, youtube

34. Hair colour: my typical answer is dirty blonde but it has gotten much darker over the past few years so imma go with a few shades darker than dirty blonde

35. Long or short hair: medium long with an undercut

36. Do you have a crush on someone: ummmmmmmmmm

37. What do you like about yourself: nothing--- oh wait they said i cant say that----can i say my eyes?---okay yeah my eyes cuz theyre...gray

38. Want any piercings: i want the piercing but none of the cleaning part of it so no

39. Blood type: idk. i really should know these things

40. Nicknames: Bug, Lou (both reserved for family, fight me), Court (I despise this one because the people I hate most are the ones who use it), Courtney, Nerd, just call me courtney or tag me

41. Relationship status: single

42. Sign: gemini

43. Pronouns: she/her

44. Fave tv show: riverdale, the flash, supergirl (and ive watched everything available for these on netflix so I need some show recs)

45. Tattoos: nope but I want several

46. Right or left handed: right

47: Ever had surgery: wisdom teeth out. tonsils and adenoids out....my mouth must hate me

48. Piercings: yeah just my ears

49. Sport: i like to watch baseball and forget football (american) HOW BOUT THAT HALFTIME SHOW?!?!?!? GO MARCHING BAND!!!

50. Vacation: what was the question

51. Trainers: again, um what was the question

— More general

52. Eating: nothing but im starting to get hungry

53. Drinking: nothing

54. I’m about to watch: idk....netflix

55. Waiting for:  TO MOVE INTO MY COLLEGE DORM AND OUT OF THIS HELL HOLE IN ONE MONTH AND 10 DAYS

56. Want: love and affection from someone more than just family or friends

57. Get married: eventually

58. Career: chemical engineer hopefully

— Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs until i experience kissing

60. Lips or eyes: eyes

61. Shorter or taller: taller...but average

62. Older or younger: slightly older or same age

63. Nice arms or stomach: igaf because I like a nice personality

64. Hookup or relationships: relationships

65. Troublemaker or hesitant: more hesitant

— Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger: nope...whats with all the kissing questions...clearly im missing out

67. Drank hard liquor: nope

68.Turned someone down: yep. Torkelson, Rodgers, Edens (kinda regretting that last one..he was Longbottomed)

69. Sex on first date: nope!!

70: Broken someone’s heart: i dont think so.....but maybe I have

71. Had your heart broken: yeah...

72. Been arrested: nope

73. Cried when someone died: uhhhh no because i literally cannot cry in public and i just dont get emotional about things from outside of myself...if that makes any sense

74. Fallen for a friend: no...yes...maybe...@middle school awkwardness

— Do you believe in

75. Yourself: yeah hardly---oh I cant say that either?---no comment

76. Miracles: sometimes

77. Love at first sight: I want to

78. Santa Claus: OF COURSE SANTA IS REAL THERE ARE CHILDREN PRESENT

79. Angels: i want to..kinda

— Misc

80. Eye colour:  blue/gray

81. Best friends name: Olivia, Meghan

82. Favourite movie: dont do this to me

83. Favourite actor: i dont dwell on these things

84. Favourite cartoon: Teen Titans (thats it...no “GO!”), Danny Phantom, all the old good stuff from my childhood

85. Favourite teacher’s name: Antone, Russell, Holt, Shaw, Messinetti, Cancemi, Roach, McGill, Freels

tagging everyone who wants to

[insarations]

these are actually hella fucking cute y’all

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? more cereal

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? oh yes :) but gotta  get me some hot chocolate or blanket

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? usually just a scrap of paper or whatevers close

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? i put soy milk and sugar in my coffee....just sugar in tea

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? ya :/ well at least if my mouth is open...I have terrible teeth

6: do you keep plants? no

7: do you name your plants? noo lol

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? painting/drawing/crafting..sometimes writing or poetry

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? very much

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? usually side, sometimes back

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends? too many to name

12: what's your favorite planet? hmm...never thought about it strangely. saturn for looks. but mars cause idk..it holds the most possibility

13: what's something that made you smile today? my cats

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? uhhh....idk

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! A day on Venus is actually longer than a year on Venus... wrap your head around that ;)

16: what's your favorite pasta dish? ooooh all of them lol but probably lasagna... ooh or alfredo

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? just darker...dark brown or black

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up when i made us play hide n seek in a hotel room and i hid behind a curtain. or when i peed on my friends foot cause she got stung by a jellyfish XD

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? I used to :/ I dont' really anymore..probably should

20: what's your favorite eye color? um idk really it depends on the person..I usually like brown or blue. not that green isn't nice but again depends on the person lol

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. ugh I really don't use bags or purses or anything like that much. currently my black vans drawstring

22: are you a morning person? nah, never will be. i'm used to getting up early but still hate it

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? SLEEP

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? yes..a few people

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into? umm i dont think ive broken into anywhere

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? i got rid of all my own shoes but the ones ive had a while i wear the most are my black slipon vans

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? mint

28: sunrise or sunset? sunset

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? only she could do it, cant even explain lol

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? more than a few times

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. I LOVE SOCKS lol absolutely not all white socks. I like fun patterned socks..especially my vans no shows... sometimes sleep with them on

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. oh gosh dont let me start

33: what's your fave pastry? uggghh too many. recently something amazing I tried... lobster tails from carlos bakery. but really..any pastry lol

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? lots of them. the main one I can think of is a small little grungy horse named Wickee lol...got him at this amusement park called Wickee Watchee... idk where he is atm :/

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? ooooooh yesssss...from time to time

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? 21 pilots

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? I mean I like it clean.... but it's messy most the time anyways lol

38: tell us about your pet peeves! ugh so many. the #1 thing probably is when I'm walking like in a store and someone just stops right in front of me..like i'm tryna get somewhere please move haha but otherwise I just had selfish spoiled people and attitudes and people who think they're better than everyone else

39: what color do you wear the most? black and gray

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? um honestly I don't have any jewelry besides my liprings. There is this necklace that was my grandmas but I don't really wear it anymore

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving? It's called Pawn by Robin Roseau

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! Starbucks. it's amazing. it's life. that is all.

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? this girl

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? um hmm on and off lately and I think i'm getting there again...but probably really completely like...last spring

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? as much and often as I can

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. oh you don't want me to do that

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? donald trump. oh food. hahahahah omg. i thought it said thing. hahahaha. i cant even answer now.

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? roaches. yes still same. I HATE THEM

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? eh neither like or dislike..rarely ever buy cds never records. But I did recently buy the Gwen Stefani Christmas album ;)

50: what's an odd thing you collect? nothing really odd. oh well.... unique boxes. I guess thats strange lol

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? so many songs.

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? uh hmm.. probably the spongebob mocking one lol

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? honestly..dont kill me...no

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? myself XD

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point? gotten out of the car and walked a mile home XD

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? just being genuine and truthful and sweet and trying to be funny even if you're not really

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? BEAUTIFUL. I didnt actually listen but I did in my head. BEAUTIFUL SONG

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? uhhhh..... dont really have a group of friends XD

59: what's your favorite myth? hmm too much thinking

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? depends, most the time...the Footprints poem

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received? given um...idk I used to get a buncha stuff from the dollar store for my fam every year lol received? a rock from my ex bf -_-

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? nah not really a juice person

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? yes organized

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? black

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with? yesss....

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? uhhh eh..not for me

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? either calm or sad or sleepy or a combo

68: what's winter like where you live? it's florida. not usually cold. this week is as cold as it gets...low is like 38 but usually it doesnt even get there

69: what are your favorite board games? clue, monopoly is alright too

70: have you ever used a ouija board? no

71: what's your favorite kind of tea? not huge on tea but I like mint, or something fruity like berry or lemon or peach

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? with certain things

73: what are some of your worst habits? leaving drinks or bottles half finished out or like letting my room get messy

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. funny. sarcastic. sometimes an asshole. good time. gorgeous. fun.

75: tell us about your pets! They're two cats, sister, Lamb and Rue...they're 2 and 1/2 years old..and sweet and mischevious and fluffy and soft and cuteeee  and I love them more than anything

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? not really

77: pink or yellow lemonade? dont really like lemonade much but they dont make much a difference to me

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? fanclub :)

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? wrote a song for me

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? white..nah I didnt choose

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. honestly my minds going black lol im tired

82: are/were you good in school? yes for the most part..had my moments but overall good

83: what's some of your favorite album art? so many I could name. coldplays is always really colorful and abstracty. and imagine dragons.

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? already have two. want a lot more..too much to name and i dont even know still what all i want

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? nah

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? YAS. many. but first came to mind, Skillets Rise

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? Silver Linings Playbook. Paper Towns. Shrek. All the disney movies. Avatar. Wizard of Oz. many more

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? all of them haha... pop art, impressionism, renaissance..just all of it all special in they're own way

89: are you close to your parents? eh idk i cant explain..neither close nor distant. like we live together and talk alot but not really the close relationship as some do..im very different from them

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. Knoxville. the city I went to college in... interesting place with lots to do..best of both worlds. beautiful mountains and hills and views. but also the downtown areas are cool..lots of fun stuff

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? going to savannah ga for my bday. not sure where else yet but i'm sure there will be other places. i'd really like to go to phoenix..boston..new orleans..california..portland ugh so many places

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? CHEESE AF

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most? just up in a bun which is boring but its too messy and long to put up with lol

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? my dad

95: what are your plans for this weekend? nothing really so far. probably will go to lunch or something with my friend

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? procrastinate

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? myer briggs- INFJ (advocate) sign- aquarius house- ravenclaw

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? legitimately...like 3 years ago...hated it...too much walking and pain XD

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. ugh sooooooooooo many. pretty much any song by skillet or gwen stefani/no doubt recently..dusk till dawn by sia, new rules by dua lipa... also songs by ben howard..lots of indie stuff

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? 5 into the future... i've already lived my past, and i've made a lot of progress...wanna jump to even more progress hopefully

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Freezer Burn (Part 1)

Okay so this is a fic in progress. It was supposed to be a one shot but it is getting too long so I am going to break it into two parts. Pidge and Matt are my fave characters and they don’t get enough whumpage so let’s have at them!

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People send me requests or something- I am inspired!

“Is she out yet? I feel like she should have been out by now.” Hunk asked, worrying his lip between his teeth as he eyed the large ice planet on the monitor.

“She still has 20 doboshes until the gap closes, so she should be fine.” Shiro said calmly, but he’s sure no one missed the tense edge to his voice.

They were at a desolate ice planet that was positioned almost identically to the Blade of Marmora base- trapped between two immovable objects that only had an opening every few doboshes. They had seen an atomic abnormality in the planet’s decay and debris, and Pidge- a true green paladin- had insisted they check it out in case it spread. The team knew that communications would be cut off, just like with the Blade, but Pidge had insisted that they needed a sample from the planet’s surface so they could find a way to cure it in case it made its way to other planets in the system.

Of course, she wanted to collect the sample herself since the opening was too small for Blue, and of course she had insisted to go alone since it “was a simple mission” and she “didn’t need anyone contaminating her research”.

That was over half a varga ago, and she still wasn’t breaching the surface.

Everyone was starting to get antsy, and Shiro was starting to feel it as well.

Shiro worried about everyone on the team, that was for sure, but Pidge was different. Pidge was so young, younger than all of them. If he was being honest, he wasn’t exactly sure how old she was, Lance claiming she had to be 16 to get into the Garrison, but he remembered Commander Holt talk about how his daughter was in middle school, so Shiro had a feeling she might have lied. Either way, Pidge was way too young to be in this war, even more so than the rest of them, and he always had a soft spot in his heart for children, especially those who his mentor Commander Holt loved so much. He supposed he worried about her because Sam wasn’t there to do it at the moment.

Ten more doboshes past before an alarm began to blare through the bridge.

“Oh quiznak!” Coran cried, frantically pushing buttons and pulling up screens.

“What? What’s wrong?!” Shiro shouted over the alarm, his eyes alert as he ran to Coran’s control panel.

“The gap is closing!”

“What?!” Lance screamed, lunging to his feet and closer to the panel. “I thought she had ten more doboshes!”

“Apparently the debris has caused a miscalculation! The gap is-”

With a flash of light, the gap closed.

The paladins stood in shock.

“Pidge…” Shiro whispered, his stomach quickly tying into knots.

“Coran what the hell!” Keith yelled, storming over to the palored man with fire in his eyes. “You said she had ten more doboshes! What happened?!”

Shiro put his arm out to stop him, Keith seething as he met his gaze.

“Keith, yelling isn’t going to fix this. We just- we need to wait for it to open back up. Coran?”

With a grim expression, Coran pulled up the numbers. “Accounting for the error in calculation, it should open up in half a varga.”

Half a varga. That wasn’t too long, Shiro assured himself. Pidge was smart. She could survive for a little over 40 minutes. She would come through the opening right away, and he could relax again. Until then, he would just have to keep his cool. Not panic. But what if-

“Will she be okay in there?” Hunk asked quietly, his hands wringing together in his lap as he seemed to be on the same train of thought as Shiro was.

“She should be fine as long as she has her suit.” Allura said calmly, already rationalizing the situation. “It should protect her from the cold for as long as she needs.”

“So we just wait...?” Lance said uncertainly.

“We wait.”

-

Half a varga on the dot, the gap reopened, and with bated breath, the paladins watched the monitor in search of the Green Lion’s energy signature.

Nothing came.

His heart began to descend into his stomach.

“Shiro…?” Hunk whispered, fiddling with the coms as if he could will her to appear.

Shiro tried to hide the panic in his eyes. “Lance, do you think Red could make it a few minutes in that environment to retrieve her?”

“We can do it. I’m sure we can.” Lance said determinedly as he jumped from his chair and headed towards the hangar.

“Be careful, Lance.” Allura said as he stepped into the chute. “We don’t need another paladin stuck down there.”

With a nod, Lance was off.

No one moved from their spots, staring at the screen as Lance disappeared into the planet’s atmosphere. With bated breath, Shiro stood at attention, the thought of losing Lance as well as Pidge too real in his mind.

After a few doboshes, a distorted communication came through.

“-Elp! Please- I do-”

“What?! Lance, what’s happening?!” Shiro shouted, everyone on their feets as the communication became more clear.

“Her suit! Her suit isn’t functioning!”

Everyone paled.

“Shiro she’s blue! And wet! She won’t answer me! Please- I don’t know what to do! Pidge- Please, Pidge!”

“Lance, is she shivering?” Shiro called frantically, his composure cracking at the sound of Lance’s panicked breathing.

“No! She’s completely still!”

A pit settled into his stomach.

“How’s her pulse? What do her eyes look like?” He called again, recalling every bit of knowledge about the onset of hypothermia.

“It- It’s fast! Really fast! And her pupils are blown out, and-and they won’t follow anything! Shiro, please! She’s barely breathing!”

Hunk was sobbing at this point, and Keith was frozen in place, but Shiro knew he had to take action. He quickly turned around to face his team.

“She’s hypothermic. Hunk- go turn the temperature up. The equivalent of 90 degrees. Keith, go get clothes, blankets, anything warm. Allura, warm up some water packs and bring them to the infirmary. Coran, make sure the infirmary is equipped to check her vitals, and warm up an IV bag with the fluid Pidge says works like Saline.”

“Does she need a pod?” Coran asked quickly, heading towards the door with determination.

“No, the pods are cold. She needs warmth, and we need to do it gradually to keep her from going into more shock. Lance, get anything wet off of her and use the emergency blanket in the cockpit to keep her warm. I’ll meet you in Red’s hangar.”

With a nod, he ran towards the bridge doors, his heart hammering in his chest.

-

The screen went black,  and Lance quickly began removing Pidge’s armor. Survival was more important than modesty at this point as he tore through pidge’s undersuit and wet undergarments. He quickly wrapped her limp body in the blanket, cursing as it was too short to cover her legs and feet. He quickly maneuvered out of his armor to press his chest against her, his hands coming to wrap around her feet. Tears were streaming down his face as he realized the ends of her toes were a deep purple along with her fingertips and the tops of her ears. Red had turned up the heat in the cockpit, and Lance began to pray in his native language, begging any god that would hear him to let her pull through.

Pidge was so small in his arms, he thought. She was so small and fragile and he was stupid to let her out of his sights for even a tick. She was the closest thing he had to a little sister up here and he was losing her- losing a member of his familia. He was sobbing into her frozen locks as he began to rock her back and forth, the prayers dying into a mantra: “Por favor… Let her live… Por Favor…”

-

Red sped into the hangar with Green in her mouth, both of them dropping unceremoniously as the hatch opened and Lance sped out, Pidge’s limp and frozen body pressed tightly to his chest as Shiro ran up to meet them. Hunk was following close behind him, Keith at his side as they brought up an assortment of clothes and blankets, but all the yellow paladin could focus on was the mess in front of him. Seeing Lance’s disheveled form as Pidge’s frostbitten feet dangled from his arms quickened their pace, The four of them quickly tearing off the blanket and throwing on various layers of socks and gloves and what seemed to be the equivalent of wool clothing from Allura’s closet onto Pidge’s body, flinching at the icy temperature of her skin as they placed their palms on any exposed skin they could find.

“Pidge- Pidge can you hear me?” Shiro asked franitcally as he picked her up and began racing to the med bay.

There was no response.

Hunk heard Keith curse, and he was sobbing uncontrollably as they reached the med bay.

This was Pidge. His Pidge. She was supposed to be yelling at him for messing with her equipment, stealing bites of his culinary creations off of the pan as they chatted about an experiment they could work on together.

Not this.

Anything but this.

The bundle in Shiro’s arms remained stoic as he lowered her onto a table covered in a heated blanket, Allura quickly bringing heated water packs up against her neck, armpits, and pelvis, along with any other creases she could fit them. The rest of the team huddled around, tears in their eyes as Pidge refused to stir.

“Shiro-”

“Hunk, put your hands on her face. Coran, check her temperature.”

The two did as they were told, tears dripping off of Hunk’s face onto Pidge’s forehead as he cradled her cheeks in his hands. They were so cold, and all Hunk could think of was how she looked dead.

“85 degrees farenheit according to your Earth calculations… That seems to be far below normal.”

“Yes, she’s extremely hypothermic.” Shiro said flatly, his hands traveling across the cocoon Pidge was wrapped in as if touching her would bring her back.

“I- Is she…” Lance said, tears streaming down his face.

“Not yet. As long as we can keep her from going into cardiac arrest she should be okay.” Hunk blessed the stars that Shiro was here. The emergency medical training students received the last year at the Garrison had an extensive course on how to help a hypothermic person, and since Shiro graduated with perfect scores, he was sure he knew what he was doing. Allura brought some sort of altean hairdryer and began running her fingers through Pidge’s icy locks.

“Lance, did you see anything down there that might give us a clue what happened?”

Lance nodded quickly, sniffling as he wiped the tears from his cheeks.

“Green wasn’t functioning. I think she might have crash landed. Pidge must have gotten out though, because she wasn’t in the cockpit. There was a crack in her helmet, and there was a hole in the ice over some sort of ocean. She must have fell in trying to check her surroundings, and the water must have gotten into her suit through the crack and made it malfunction.”

Hunk nodded at what seemed to be solid observations, grateful that Lance was smarter than most people gave him credit for, when he heard Pidge groan.

Everyone dug closer into her side, calling her name in distress. Coran brought a light to her eyes, and was relieved when her large pupils followed it from side to side.

“She’s responding.” Shiro sighed with relief, still not letting go of his grip on the bundle of blankets she was wrapped in. “Pidge- Pidge can you hear me?”

Her head lolled to the side to look him in the eyes, her body beginning to shiver in the bundle of warmth.

“Body temperature rising to 89 degrees. Her heart rate is returning to normal.” Coran said softly, his composure returning at the sight of color returning to Pidge’s ears.

“M-M-Matt…” Pidge whispered softly, her breaths becoming deeper despite the clattering of her teeth.

“Allura, open a wormhole to Matt’s location. Let him know what’s happened.”

Allura nodded, handing Hunk the hairdryer as she rushed out of the room. He dutifully began running his fingers across her scalp, a stuttering breath coming out of his chest as she seemed to dig into his hand.

“You’re going to be okay, Pidge… I promise…”

-

Allura quickly approached the bridge, bringing up communications with Matt’s squadron as she wiped the tears from her eyes. She couldn’t let members of the coalition see her like this- sick with worry and guilt. She should have told Pidge not to go. That it was too dangerous to go without communications. She could have pulled rank- This was her castle, after all- but she hated to douse Pidge’s curiosity. It was part of what made the girl who she was. If Pidge found a path she wanted to go down, who was she to stop her? It was what made her perfect for the Green Lion.

She was perfect for the Green Lion, Allura thought to herself as the communication began ringing through. She was going to get better and be back in her lion in no time.

“H-Hey Allura!” Matt beamed through the screen, his cheeks tinted red. She had to admit, Matt was endearing in his admiration for her, but there were more pressing matters at hand.

“Matt, she’s alive I just want you to know that first.”

The boys face dropped instantly, and the fear she saw in his eyes made her heart break.

“What happened” he whispered. “Where is she- what happened?!”

“We are wormholing to you right now. She is hypothermic, but Shiro seems to think she is getting better.”

“What’s her temperature- Allura what happened?”

“89 degrees was the last Coran reported.” She heard Matt cuss as tears began streaming down his face. It was almost as bad as seeing Pidge cry. “She seems to have fell into water in an ice planet and was stranded there for about half a varga. We couldn’t get to her, Matt- I’m so sorry.”

“I-It’s okay Allura… Just bring her to me… Please.”

Allura nodded as she brought up the stands to begin the wormhole jump, honing in on Matt’s coordinates.

-

Commander Olia gave Matt a somber look of acknowledgement as he raced towards the landing dock, his heart pounding in his ears as he scanned the skies for the castle.

Pidge was hurt. She was hurt and in space and he wasn’t there.

It was his worst nightmare come true.

If his dad were here, he would be telling him to stay calm- that Allura said she was stable and that he didn’t need to panic- but his dad wasn’t here, so he was going to panic to his heart’s content. He just wasn’t as level headed as him.

As the castle’s shadow appeared in the clouds, he held his breath. He needed to calm down- at least a little. If he went in there panicking, he might scare Pidge even more than she already was- and despite not showing it, he was sure Pidge must be scared right now.

He tried to swallow the lump in his throat as the castle landed, rushing towards the platform that was lowering to the ground. Allura motioned to him, her eyes red and puffy. It made his heart hurt to see someone so kind and beautiful in pain. She gave him a soft smile as they ascended, a whisper of “She’s okay” on her lips.

His legs couldn’t move fast enough as he raced to the infirmary, but they came skidding to a halt when the doors opened.

There lay Pidge- his Pidge-  on a table, wrapped in blankets and hats and covered in water bottles, shivering in her small frame with blue lips and a listless gaze.

He couldn’t help the sob that slipped through his lips as tears began to stream down his face.

“Matt, she’s asking for you.” Shiro said softly, his eyes full of empathy as Matt snapped back into reality. His breath stuttered as he rushed to her side, brushing through her hair as her eyes, wide and unfocused, latched onto him.

“M-Matt.”

He started sobbing harder.

“Hey Pidge…”

Shiro brought him a chair, Matt mouthing a soft ‘thanks’ as he scooted up next to Pidge’s head.

“D-don..t… c-cry...” She whispered, her eyelids drooping as she blinked slowly. Matt quickly wiped his cheeks before plastering a big grin on his cheeks.

“It’s okay. I’m just not used to seeing you like this is all.”

She nodded at that, shifting in her cocoon as if she was trying to get her hands out. He placed a hand on top of her, squeezing at what he assumed was her wrist.

“Don’t move, Pidgeon. You need to stay in there and get warm.”

She frowned at him. “D-don’t c-c-call me th-that.”

Matt let out a snort.

“Oh so you’re finally going to let me call you Pidge, but Pidgeon is still off-limits?”

She made an affirmative grunt as she tried to focus her eyes on him.

“Alright, that’s fair.” He said softly, looking to Coran as he ran some sort of thermometer over her forehead.

“92 degrees.” He said calmly. “Are you starting to feel better, Number 5?”

“T-Tired…” She said under her breath, and Matt and Shiro both startled at this.

“Pidge, you can’t fall asleep.” Shiro said with alarm, his hand pressing on her blankets. “If you fall asleep, you might not wake up. Once we get you to about 96 degrees, then you can sleep.”

“No…” She said drowsily, and Matt pressed both hands to her cheeks.

“Hey, you can do it. Just listen to me and think warm thoughts, okay?”

Her eyes traveled to him again, and he racked his brain for something to help her stay awake.

“Ok, let’s think about warm things.” He said after a moment, his hands rubbing at her hairline and working back towards the crown of her head. She leaned into the touch and blearily stared up at him.

“Remember when… Oh! I got it! Remember when we went to the beach a few summers ago for spring break? You were making that sand castle?”

Pidge nodded.

“Th-The o-other kids… Th-They kn-kn-knocked it d-down…” She said, a frown on her face.

“Yeah, and I got so mad at them! I ran them off and we had to start from scratch, but this time we put rocks all around it so people wouldn’t come near it. We both got horrible sunburns because we refused to go back and put on sunscreen.”

“W-We buried Dad.” She said with a chuckle, obviously pushing herself to talk.

“We did! He said he was the sand man! And chased us around once he got up and threw you in the water!”

Pidge let out a chuckle at that, and Matt’s spirits soared.

“Yeah, and what about that time we had movie night when Mom and Dad went out on a date? We were supposed to go to bed at 10 but we stayed up until 3 watching the Space Battle marathon on the science fiction channel.”

“W-we had… Hot C-Cocoa.”

“And a blanket fort!” He reminded her. “We sat in there eating all kinds of candy and junk food after that and you had such a sugar rush that you were vibrating! Then you crashed so hard I couldn’t even wake you up to get you into bed.”

“I was f-faking. I just didn’t want to g-get up.” Pidge said with a smirk.

“What?!” Matt cried, pinching her cheeks as she let out a snort. “That’s so mean, Katie! We got caught because you wouldn’t let me clean up the fort!”

A cheeky grin stretched across her lips, the color coming back to them after talking. Matt spared Coran a glance. The altean nodded and ran her temperature once again, the relief on his face palpable.

“She’s at 96 degrees.”

Everyone in the room let out a sigh of relief.

“Is it weird that I’m g-getting hot?” Pidge asked after a moment. Matt chuckled.

“No, you are under a lot of blankets. Let’s sit you up, eh?” He moved to unbundle her, slowly sitting her up when she began to cough. When it didn’t stop, he began rubbing her back as he looked to Shiro in alarm.

“Coran, scan. Now.” Shiro said as her coughing finally died down, inspecting Pidge as she started to catch her breath.

“She seems to have some water trapped in her lungs.” Coran said with a frown. “Did you inhale any water?”

Pidge nodded. “I fell in the lake, and my helmet was cracked, and I accidentally breathed some in. I got a- Oh! The sample!” Pidge looked around. “I got a sample of the ground and the water, just in case.”

Matt smiled. Of course she did.

“I think it’s in Green. Is she-” Pidge asked, her words dying as a cough racked through her chest.

“She’s fine. Just a little banged up.” Shiro assured her. “Right now we are worried about you. The water you were covered in seemed to be pretty dirty, and you must have inhaled a lot if you are still coughing.”

“It just kept sloshing in when I was trying to get out.” She said quietly.

“I’m worried you might get sick, Pidge.” Shiro said softly, pressing his hand to her face as if he could tell if she was getting worse. “I think it’s best if we go hide out somewhere until we can make sure Pidge is ready for action.”

“Shiro, I’m-” A deep cough shook through her, causing her to wheeze after a moment. “Fine…”

Matt chuckled. Pidge always refused to admit she was sick until she was in bad shape.

“Can’t we just stick her in the pod?” Hunk asked, not liking the idea of Pidge having any kind of respiratory problems, especially in space.

“Unfortunately, Number 2, the pod cannot heal bacterial infections. We will need to come up with some kind of medicine that is acceptable to your weak human bodies.”

Matt frowned at that. If she was going to have bacterial pneumonia, she was going to need to be treated with antibiotics, or it could be fatal. Chemistry was his strong suit though.

“I can help. I know a good deal about medicine and what not. If I can construct something like Penicillin, we should be okay.” Matt said as he squeezed Pidge’s leg, the girl not oblivious to what was going through Matt’s mind. “Plus, if Pidge is going to be sick, you are definitely going to want me around.”

Pidge jabbed him in the side, glaring at him as Coran told her not to move.

“What? What is wrong with Pidge being sick, other than the obvious?” Ketih asked.

“You’ll see.”

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I need to write more but it shall be done eventually!

[montpahrnah]

I was wondering - in the ask about bands you hate, you mentioned you can't really stand man-fronted bands, and I would really love, love, love, to get into woman-fronted bands (or, like, bands that aren't all men, bc I hate how unbalanced my music is) (also your tag 'in general men need to shut up' made my day)

hi there! i put this under a cut just because it got slightly long…

this is something that’s so interesting to think about, and also infuriating on so many fronts–obviously men dominate everything, they’re the ones who get all the attention and press and critical slobbering while women are still treated like curiosities, as if our art somehow comes from a lesser place. this is and has always been just as true of indie music as it is of the mainstream music industry and anyone who tells you otherwise is full of shit. a few years ago i read an interview with joanna newsom that really struck me–i can’t find it atm but i remember her trying to think of a man she’d ever been compared to, and the only one she could come up with was devendra banhart in her early days–but where he was taken seriously, her work was (and is) constantly discussed in terms of little-girl fairytale fantasies, and it unsettled her.

and you run into this thing on sooo many best-of lists, like you would think women didn’t start making music until circa 2000–i remember reading pitchfork’s ‘70s/’80s/’90s lists years ago and realizing as i checked out the albums that women barely featured at all. as i’m skimming them now, you get slapped with this on the first page of their best albums of the ‘80s list:  Kate Bush began and ended her career with sappy sentimentality bathed in new age-isms and unicorn fantasies. SOMEhow this doesn’t apply to led zeppelin, or king crimson, or bowie. what a PUZZLE, what a mystery, right!!!

anyway–whatever genre, whatever era, i promise women are there, and they’ve always been there. i know i said that in reference to men-fronted grunge bands, but i get the feeling you’re asking more generally? here are some faves, and also some links:  the slits (i heard it through the grapevine is one my favorite covers ever; check out typical girls too)the bags (survive)kleenex/liliput (i’ve always loved ain’t you)the raincoatsx-ray spexpylon (gyrate)x (los angeles)young marble giants (brand-new-life)esg (my love for you; esg is one of the most criminally overlooked bands out there imo)

newer(ish) stuff:  sonic youth (cinderella’s big score is in the top ten songs i would be alright w/ getting murdered to)holeL7babes in toylandmy bloody valentine (loomer)sleater-kinney (the woods is probably my favorite s-k album, but you can’t go wrong with any of them; i’ve been crawling up so long on your stairway to heaven / and now i no longer believe that i wanna get in is v apropos!)suffrajett (love me more)against me!magik markersslant 6 (don’t you ever)g.l.o.s.s. (we’re from the future; sadie switchblade has a solo album that i didn’t know about until a few weeks ago)pill (love and other liquids)new bloods (deadly nightshade; osa atoe started shotgun seamstress several years ago, a zine chronicling black punk musicians)priests vagabon perfect pussy (iv)no joysheer mag (compilation lp)

there u go!! i hope some of these work for you–if you’re looking for specific genres, i might have recs in that vein too. and if any of you guys have recs for anon or me PLEASE send them this way! that is what i live and breathe for…

[supernovabucky]

Unknown King - part V

Pairing: Bucky x reader

Great Gatsby AU

Summary: After moving to New York, aspiring author Y/N gets more than what she bargained for when she befriends her mysterious neighbor. In a blur of riches and beauty, she finds herself falling for the man who remains unknown.

A/N: Here’s part V and let me tell y’all this is gonna turn into a huge sugar daddy bucky fic. Just be patient. Also please understand that the house is huge! and I am not descriptive at times but I will in future parts!

Word count: 1.5K

Part I Part II Part III Part IV 

Masterlist

You stuffed your last travel bag into the trunk before slamming it shut. You didn't get any sleep. You spent the entire night packing your things up and cleaning up around the house. Bucky wasn't home so you hoped to make a quick escape without him noticing. But you know he'd notice soon. You hated yourself for doing this, leaving this way. Without a single goodbye, but you knew it was for the best.

You took a deep breath and gazed at his house. The sun loomed overhead happily. You wiped your nose and grabbed your keys. Before you could open the car door, Bucky abruptly stopped his Porche in front of your car. He stepped out with a smile on his face, but it quickly faded when he saw your luggage loaded car.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"Traveling," You forced a smile onto your face.

He frowned, "with every single on of your bags?" He closed the car door and walked towards you. "What happened?"

You shook your head and smiled sadly, "I'm traveling to California."

Bucky crossed his arms, "I went to The Report, they said you packed your things. What happened?"

Your shoulders shuddered as you covered your face with your hands. An overwhelming feeling came over you and you cried silently into your hands. You felt Bucky's arms wrap around you as he pulled you into a hug. You clung onto his broad frame and cried in his rich smelling shirt.

"I've been having money problems," You admitted. "My savings are gone. I was evicted from my home because the landlord raised the price on rent and I was fired from work."

"Why'd they fire you?" Bucky asked, he pulled away and looked at you.

You looked away, "Because they wanted me to give them a story about you for the paper. About how you get your money. Cole fired me on the spot when I refused."

"Oh, Y/N," Bucky hugged me even tighter. "You pure heart."

"I couldn't do it," You continued. "They only wanted me because I was friends with you." You shook your head. "I've never felt so dirty."

"You're not," Bucky said. "C'mon, you're staying at my house."

"What?" You asked.

"Yeah, I'll have Ace bring your stuff inside, just park your car in the driveway."

"I can't do that, Buck. I could just go home," You said.

"No, Y/N. Please, let me do this. You've been nothing but a good friend and this just tops it all. You got fired because of me. Let me return the favor," he said. "Plus, it looks like you need some sleep."

You hadn't realized how tired you were until you eyes began to glaze over. You reluctantly agreed. You got in his car and he took the short drive over to his home. Bucky led you into the palace and took you to your room. It was a beautiful vast bedroom. Bigger than any room you'd ever had. Bucky told you he'd have your bags in your room in no time. You nodded and kicked your shoes off. Without a second thought, you collapsed onto the bed and fell asleep instantly.

You woke up in a room that wasn't yours. The sun had disappeared, replaced by the lonesome moon and it's stars. The cream colored walls now looked white from the rays. The sheets under you were soft, so soft. You came to the conclusion that they were the softest thing you've ever touched. The blanket that covered you fell off your body when you stood up. The bed under you felt like a marshmallow.

You rolled off the bed and your feet touched a carpet. You walked to the window and was met with a view of the lake that Bucky's house sat next to. The moon reflected off the infinite pool, making it darker than it actually was. The houses across the lake were brilliantly lit. Residents of East Egg lived lives almost equal to West Eggers. Rich and luxurious lives.

You walked to the door and pulled it open. The mansion was eerily quiet. You used your knowledge from the tour to try to navigate your way down to the first floor. After a few wrong turns, you were able to find the marble staircase. The chandelier was on. Your feet made no sound as you waltzed down the stairs. The racket of pots crashing made your head turn on the direction of the kitchen. You entered the kitchen to find Renaldo and Anthony working around. It smelled as delicious as usual.

"Miss Y/N!" They exclaimed loudly with smiles on their faces.

You smiled, "Hello."

"Mister Barnes is not here at the moment," Renaldo said in his thick Italian accent. "But we have prepared you a dish!"

Anthony grabbed a plate from a large oven and placed it on the island. It was fettuccine alfredo. Your mouth watered at the exquisite smell.

"A famous Italian dish," Renaldo explained and began to cut some bread. He grabbed a small dish and placed two slices on the plate before setting it next to the fettuccine.

You smiled, "This looks amazing!"

"Indeed," Anthony said. "Go on! Sit, eat."

You pulled out a chair and sat before indulging in the most divine dish of pasta. Renaldo and Anthony went about their business in the kitchen. Though they occasionally asked you if you wanted more bread or pasta.

After you finished your food, Anthony asked you if you wanted dessert. You declined, explaining that you were much too full. He nodded and took your dish. Bucky walked into the kitchen. He was obviously dressed for business. The chefs greeted him and Bucky smiled. Renaldo and Anthony closed up shop, they thanked Bucky and said their goodbyes to you.

"How long was I asleep?" You asked him.

"Maybe ten hours," He replied. "Did you like the food? Renaldo likes to keep in touch with his roots so he's constantly offering Italian dishes."

"I thought they lived here," You said truthfully.

Bucky chuckled and shook his head, "No, they both have families and would much rather live in their own homes. I know cause I asked." He paused. "But anyways I let them go at around 9 each night and they don't get here until noon. They have Saturdays, Sundays, and Mondays off."

You smiled, "Bucky, I can't thank you enough for what you're doing. I really appreciate it."

He shrugged, "It's kind of my fault you got fired. I should've known better than to befriend you, I put you at risk."

"But why?" You asked. "Why are they so bent on trying to find out where your money came from?"

He sighed. "I live on West Egg," He began. "West Egg represents 'new money'. Actors, producers, mafia leaders, drug lords, and so on. East Egg represents the old and respectable money. Businessmen, children of wealthy parents etc. East Eggers do not like us, West Eggers. They think we're frauds and criminals."

You frowned, "Are you?"

"Not all of us," He explained. "East Eggers are just trying to expose us, to bring us into the spotlight and to ruin us."

"So there's like a rivalry," You concluded.

"Eh," Bucky made a 'sort of' movement with his hand. "We have nothing against them, but something is bound to happen."

You pursed your lips, "Bucky, am I gonna be safe here?"

He looked at you, "Yes, of course. I have twenty-four-hour security, a safe room in case of emergency and a plane ready to go any moment if needed."

Your lips pulled together in an 'O'. Then you remembered something, "Oh! Weren't you going to ask me something? Before I left to The Report and got fired."

Realization struck his eyes, "I totally forgot about that."

You sat up, "Are you still gonna tell me?"

Hesitation fell across his face but he quickly covered it up and leaned against the island. "I was wondering if-and it's completely fine if you don't want to!" He exclaimed interrupting himself. "With your situation, I don't want it to seem like I'm taking advantage because I'm not, it's just that-"

"Bucky," You smiled, a giggle rising from your throat. "Just say it."

"Would you like to go on a date?" He said.

You felt your cheeks grow hot at the question he just unfolded for you. Your palms began to sweat. It wasn't because you felt pressured to say yes. Because you didn't. You wanted to say yes. Bucky was handsome and so, so good to you. It almost felt too good to be true, but you took the leap of faith and dove into the deep end.

"I would love to," you smiled.

"G-great!" He stuttered, clearly shocked you had said yes. "Tomorrow at 7?"

"My schedules all cleared up as of yesterday," You laughed.

He chuckled, "Okay well, tomorrow then."

"Tomorrow it is." You said.

Bucky walked you to your bedroom and said his goodnight before turning away and walking towards the East wing of the palace. You closed the door and covered your face with your hands. A smile engulfed your features and you almost couldn't believe what had just happened.

"Oh my god," You whispered repeatedly. "That just happened." You got up and flung yourself onto your fluffy bed. You sunk into the silk duvet and smiled, a feeling of ecstasy flowing through your body.

You felt ethereal.

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[azurera]

I know you are supposted to get one in your askbox. but guess what. i dont give a shit, and i’m bored as fuck so i did them all. my memory is shit atm so i dont remember some answers to some of these. and my grammar is shit but do with it what you want. g’night ya’ll ~

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? more milk, because i can always drink the extra milk, the other way around you would end up with dry cereal and thats just bleh.

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? no

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? everything i can find. most unique thing is probably a 10 Gulden bill (very old dutch currency before the euro) 

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? I trow as much crap in my coffee as i possible can, sugar, milk. more milk than coffee. give it to me cold, add alcohol. i dont give a shit. thea is just nice to have a little suger thats it. let me enjoy the flaver itself. 

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? 9/10 times probably yeah

6: do you keep plants? since a few weeks i sometimes get flowers, so you could say i kind of own plants some times. 

7: do you name your plants? i should 

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? i scream into the void

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? no, because i sound terrible 

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? side mostly. or when im really tired my back. usually not my stomach because .. well.. boobs. 

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends? if i had friends.... no idea tho. i have so many jokes, my life included. 

12: what's your favorite planet? PLUTO. VIVA LA PLUTO. the little rings on saturn are also nice. shit this could have been a nice opportunity to make a uranus joke.. 

13: what's something that made you smile today? i didnt

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? lots of pillows

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! 99% of our soular system’s mass is the sun

16: what's your favorite pasta dish? i dont know. but those swirly things are cute. 

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? every. colour. at. once.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. i try to stack those memories far far away. 

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? i dont 

20: what's your favorite eye color? i dont have a favorite eye colour. but i love eyes that look like space nebulas. 

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. i bought a nice leather bag on castlefest. its very usefull nice and small but it can fit more in it than you think. 

22: are you a morning person? if by morning you mean still awake at 4, then yes. 

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? lay my dead body to rest on my couch and cuddel with my cat

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? probably not

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into? my own house? i dont really break into places. 

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? i have to many shoes man..

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? the really over the top fruity onces

28: sunrise or sunset? sunset, (becouse im not a fucking morning person) 

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? im thinking of to many things at once and yet nothing comes up. 

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? way to many times. 

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. i only own black socks, becouse then you never have the problem of looking for a pair. sometimes im all for socks, i wear them even when i take of all my other clothes just becouse they are soft and then i wear them to bed and they magicaly disappear. but since i wear dresses a lot i also wear panty’s and stuff. so its not always socks. 

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. usually that invloves a lot of alcohol. which means that i don’t really rememeber a lot. (which is also probably for the better) 

33: what's your fave pastry? pie

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? i think it was a little lion called simba. and im sure its in a box somewhere. 

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? yes i love them. but i dont use them a lot becouse a) not many people write me letters and b) i could. write them first. but obviously im a lazy fuck. 

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? i just really prefer silence right now. 

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? i like keeping it clean, but we all know thats not happening. 

38: tell us about your pet peeves! i do not know right now. i think

39: what color do you wear the most? black..... 

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? the 3 things I always wear are a ring my grandma got me, a ring my mother bought for my 18 birthday that she switched her old wedding rings for. and a mjolnor necklace. I just saw so many people with one. and i really wanted to have one aswell, but not just any, so i went and looked all over this fantasy event and i’ve honestly seen every single mjolnor necklace they had, and then i picked this one. 

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving? the girl on the train was a nice book (the film a little less)  it was just nice to have a book that i could go through quickly. 

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! not really 

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? god its been to long... 

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? i still wish for this day... 

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? mmmaybe

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. i can not make one up right now. i need to have the righ feel in the right moment. 

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? PINAPPLE ON PIZZA, PINEAPPLE ON PIZZA, PINEAPPLE ON PIZZA

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? death. yes.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? I only own a few CD’s, and a few LP’s the last one i think was a supernatural christmas cd thing.

50: what's an odd thing you collect? those prayer cards with the picture of the person, you get at a funeral. i have quite a lot of them, so you could say i collect them. 

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? suddenly

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? i like the “you cant xx if you don’t xxx” memes. those make for some good jokes. other than that i make my own memes, fresh and local. 

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? only parts... i should watch them shouldn’t i..

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? u know who u are.. im sorry.. 

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point? i secretly moved out in a pretty dramatic way to prove my mom that i couldnt go on like that... 

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? when they shut the fuck up

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? i do not feel like listening to it now, thats how its making me feel. 

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? im both.

59: what's your favorite myth? nice people are my favorite mythical creatures. 

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? im not really into poetry tho, but sometimes there is one thats just nice, discribing beaty in such a subtle way, that i like it. 

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received? i don’t give stupid gifts. people either get something epic from me or nothing at all. go big or go home. 

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? ive been drinking this strawberry/apple/ bananna juice stuff sometimes, makes me feel like i try to be healthy. 

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? i keep them in an organized mess (just like my life) 

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? its a lovely gradient of light blue/white/ to a bit darker blue. 

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with? so many people, i suck at being social. 

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? ALL THE COLORS

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? sometimes its nice to stare out of the window on those days. 

68: what's winter like where you live? shitty 

69: what are your favorite board games? i like playing monopoly and slowly see the light dissappear from my friends eyes. or cluedo you know, murder. 

70: have you ever used a ouija board? no

71: what's your favorite kind of tea? its this one thea they have at the cinema, the pink one. the rosy stuff. its so good. 

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? i should note it down. but then i forget to read it. so yeah, ill mess up either way. 

73: what are some of your worst habits? i tent to complain a lot, becouse i always hope it will make me feel better when there is to much going on in my head. but sometimes i just keep going, and i dont even know how bad its getting, and i probably pull myself down into some negative spiral and well then we’re fucked again.

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. you fucking pancakes. 

75: tell us about your pets! MY CAT IS THE MOST ADORABLE LITTLE SHIT, HE IS SO CUTE. AND LOVES CUDDLES. AND HIS FLUFFYNESS IS. i can keep going forever. 

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? its getting pretty late. i should sleep. 

77: pink or yellow lemonade? mmmpink? 

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? i hate them. 

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? im trying to think of one. but my memmory is shit atm. 

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? just white. makes it look bigger. 

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. NEBULAS

82: are/were you good in school? soommeeetimessss

83: what's some of your favorite album art? I do like GACKT his album art tho. the costumes he wears are nice.

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? i have been thinking of this design of a music G thingy that looks like a cat. its really cute. but i cant even commit to where i put a sticker let a lone where to put a tattoo. 

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? i have quite a lot of constantine comics, to satisfy the fact that the series quit after 1 season. 

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? no idea

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? stonehenge appocalpyse

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? not sure

89: are you close to your parents? *crying sounds* 

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. i love all cities except the one i live in. Im such a slut for older building and architecture. old gothic churches man. oh my god. 

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? france, for sad stuff, and i hope to see my german potato this year <3 if i can make it... 

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? SMOTHER THE FUCKER IN CHEESE. 

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most? just long, straight now. or either in like a clip. when its to hot  to have it all down. 

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? i saw on my calander at internship that one collegue had his birthday today. 

95: what are your plans for this weekend? convention staff meeting on saturday, looking into something for sunday.. 

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? *hysterical laughter*  

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? no idea, leo, huffelpuf

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? in germany i think. to long ago. i love mountains, and walks, and beaches. 

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. PIANO’S 

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? 5 years into the past to kill myself. :”D absoluutly.

[tumblunni]

Tagged by @branch-chief--faba!

RULES: answer the questions and tag 15 blogs you want to know better.

Nicknames: Bunni, Dan (irl)

Star Sign: Libra

Height: I dont think ive measured my height since i was a teenager, but around 5′6″ or 5′7″ or something? average height i guess

Time Right Now: 15:45

Last thing I Googled: “Endellion” cos its the username someone had in a game or something that was on my dash, and i wanted to know what the name means cos its cool. Apparantly its the name of a saint?

Last Movie I Watched: rewatching Finding Dory and CRYING AGAIN

Last TV Show I watched: Black Butler Book Of Circus, and before that it was ERASED/The Town Without Me. My picky side is so frustrated that the dub changed a cool name into something generic as hell :P

When did I create this blog: cant really remember, is tehre any way to find out? a fair few years I think, i cant recall if it was just after i ran away from home or just before?

Why I choose my URL: I’m bad at remembering stuff so I tend to use the same username and same password everywhere. (Tho spelling the password differently just in case. But cos bad memory i end up having to roll thru every single spelling every time I log in XD) Bunni89 was just the first username I had as a nine year old and it stuck. I wanted to be Bunny cos... it was the name of my plush rabbit doll. And my fave animal in general. I’m not very creative! And then the ‘lets spell it internet speak’ bit and the random number was just to try and find a version of bunny that wasnt already taken. Then I’ve just used that username for the next 15 years and its stuck so much that its even kinda my irl nickname now! Aaaand then just tumblunni because puns.

Gender: agender/nonbinary

Hogwards House: Slytherin cos i always feel sorry for anyone generically written off as a villain for stupid reasons, hufflepuff is probably more likely cos i have no special traits except being huggable.

Pokemon Team:  I try and have a different one each generation, like Ash. But i still keep all my previous teams pride of place in a special box in each game and I love doing postgame stuff and minigames with them. I get really attatched to my mons! I’m so guilty feeling that I lost two mons from my unova playthrough during the transfer bck and forth from friends’s games back when i didnt have a DS for a few years. my poor samurott and leavanny... :( Anyway, my current team in sun and moon is primarina, mimikyu, goloisipod, alola raichu, alola muk and lurantis! I wanted to have a drampa but i bought sun by accident instead of moon. And I also really like mareanie and that mossy anchor pokemon but they were so impossible to find that i only got them late in the postgame. I actually fished up an anchor friend myself but i had to trade for a mareanie :P

Favourite Colour: blue! and just the general aesthetic of black and white with one bright colour highlighting small details. thats a cool!

Lucky Number: 74 is my favourite number!

Favourite Character: TRESH GROMP GROOMPLE GRIMPLES GREMPY GROO y’all know who it be, i am not able to be silent about my faves aaaaand I have a bunch of other obscure minor character villain faves in other fandoms too, and just generally i am lame

Number of Blankets: Two, and a sleeping bag sometimes cos weather is so cold lately. We had like one unbearably hot day and then straight back to ice!

Name: Dan

Birthday: October 12th

Siblings: A half sister I havent seen in a decade... i hope she’s okay...

Favorite Smell: I have a really bad sense of smell and generally i can only smell really strong bad smell,s alas. Tho i do think gasoline smells nice and thats such an EVIL TRAP cos its all deadly gross fumes n stuff!

Pets: Had a cat, rabbit, fish and hamster as a kid, but havent had another pet for years. i really wanna someday be able to take care of one on my own!

Wake Up: consistancy is for the weak

Sleep: see previous question

Type of phone: i have no idea what this phone is, i dont know anything about phones. its some super cheap super bad touchscreen thingie i got in a christmas sale for twenty bucks

Love or Lust: aromantic asexual here giving a big ol shrug at this question

Lemonade or Tea: Lemonade. I am the worst brit, i hate tea XD

Cats or Dogs: Cats

Coke or Pepsi: Coke

Day or Night: Night

Text or Call: Text

Make up or natural: no makeup aaaa its a sticky face prison

Met a Celebrity: nope

Smile or Eyes: ??? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN. how can you compare the two. im just imagining someone smiling and their mouth is full of eyes. WHY DID YOU INSERT THIS IMAGE INTO MY BRAINMEATS

Light or Dark Hair: having dark hair is annoying when you wanna dye it, so i’ll go with light hair just for the practicality 
 Shorter or Taller: oh was all this meant to be about what you find sexy in someone instead of yourself?? cos im average height and i already answered that... 
 Intelligence or Attraction: wait this is a question about what you find most attractive so how does that make sense. unless it isnt...?? thing you most want to be: intelligence or sexyness? well i want everything except sexyness so there u go. 
 Chapstick or Lipstick: havent used either in over a decade 
 City or Country: both have their own good and bad points, ive had different social anxieties living in both :P 
 Last Song Heard: this cool amv for a movie i love pointless fact: it was legit made by the same director and animation team as the first digimon movie, its like the version of the script he wished he could have done as its own property. he also made wolf children!

Fruit or Vegetables: Froooooot

Anime or Cartoons: I like both in different ways. Mostly I just like a certain sort of story/art style/character lineup/etc and i like it no matter which genre it appears in. And i tend to really like the stuff that takes inspiration from both genres cos it seems they’re more likely to have that sort of stuff! Combining all the goodness! 
 Phone Case: wait you can buy cases for phones?? 
 Showers or Baths: showers are conveinient, baths are lazy. depends on how bad my day has been! 
 Dream Job: i dont have any dreams really, im a weirdo. ive never been able to find one. at best i flip through a few current hobbies and have a vague idea that it could be fun to be paid for doing them, but its never a really huge interest and i never try and work towards it cos i know im flaky and ive changed my mind a million times before. I hope someday i can find something that just clicks and i wanna do it forever!

Milk and Cookies or Doughnuts and Coffee: WAIT YOU EAT DONUTS WITH COFFEE?? WHY?? donuts are already soggy! thats weird! milk n cookies forever yo. or donuts on their own, but donuts are too sugary for me, i can never eat more than one without feeling sick.