#ive been trying to practice actual art stuff

[milkbreadtoast]

quick yoojin phone doodles from memory/without reference... im surprised it turned out so accurate considering i havent drawn him much(this is like the 2nd-3rd time) but ig it's bc im always taking notes in my head when i look at my screencaps of him... 😳

[mocury-moto]

wow my artistic confidence just skyrocketed okay good to know

[faggylittlenuisance]

still struggling with the infection so I'm a bit wonky, but somehow doing better and better with coding? the site I'm working on looks absolutely dogshit on mobile but it's actually pretty cool in a browser? and I made it with my own horrible hands :O

[ezlo-x]

Some Ganondorf pose practice

(under cut is me rambling I should actually go to bed)

helloooo it is time for the lovely late night posting from meee

lately ive been feeling frustrated on how i draw anatomy. i want it to be simplistic like idk 2000s MTV or Adult Swim cartoon show art style I'm very tired and sleepy but just know its part of that era of art that I've been searching inspo for. but honestly i feel like i havent done proper body drawings in a while and I love doing it. idk why i just felt motivated to practice drawing ganondorf, I've also been feeling frustrated that the way i draw characters posing has gotten really stiff. so ig the perfect storm was created and a combination of things happened when drawing and i gotta say im pretty proud of it

i took pose refs cause i havent done that in a long while. I took the way i draw totk ganondorf and used certain traits and give em to LF ganondorf and i really love how it turned out. Im also trying to figure out still on how to use my new tablet cause this is actually the first time I'm properly using it (classes didn't gave me much time with it). my mind just went blank i was gonna say more anywayz uhhhhhh imma let this be rebloggable cause i liked how it turned out, IM very shy abt sharing stuff like this but i will share it to you all

enjoy topless ganondorf <3

[calypso-rt]

bookworm IV

-> blurbs I + blurbs II + blurbs III

-> rafe x bookworm!reader

-> When Rafe Cameron Finally Asks You Out (Badly, but Adorably)

Rafe had been pacing the poetry section for ten minutes.

You could see him from behind the counter, nervously thumbing through a battered Complete Works of Shakespeare like it held the answer to life itself. Every now and then, he muttered something under his breath, then shook his head like he’d just said the dumbest thing in the world.

Finally, he marched up to the counter, book in hand, resolve in his shoulders, panic in his eyes.

You looked up, amused. “Everything alright in Elizabethan England over there?”

“I’m fine,” he said. Not convincing. “Great, actually. Super eligible.”

Your brow quirked with a small hint of s smile. “That’s not how you use that word. Did you mean articulate?”

He ignored you. Opened the book. Cleared his throat. “So… I was thinking. Maybe we could, y’know… hang out sometime. Like… dinner. Or a museum. Or a book fair. Or—I don’t know, something intellectual.”

You blinked. “A book fair?”

“I’m trying to meet you where you are, okay?” he huffed, then pointed to the page he’d marked. “Anyway. I brought backup.”

He looked down at the passage he’d highlighted and began, a little too confidently:

“‘Shall I compare thee to a summer’s—’ wait, no. Winter’s night. No, wait. Summer’s day? Shit.”

You pressed a hand to your mouth, trying so hard not to laugh.

“Okay, new plan,” he muttered, snapping the book shut. “Forget Shakespeare. I’ll just be honest.”

You tilted your head, heart already soft. “Please do.”

He exhaled. “I like you. A lot. Like, more than I know what to do with. And I know I’m not exactly a walking dictionary, and I mix up Jane Austen with Jane Eyre constantly, and I still think Tolstoy sounds like a kind of salad, but if you’d go out with me, I swear I’ll try to be at least half as impressive as you are.”

You stared at him for a moment, biting your lip, eyes shining.

“Rafe,” you said gently, “you already are.”

His shoulders dropped with a breath of relief. “So that’s a yes?”

You smiled. “Only if you never quote Shakespeare again.”

He grinned. “Deal. I’m more of a SparkNotes kind of guy anyway.”

...

The moment you stepped outside and saw Rafe standing by his truck holding two museum tickets and nervously fidgeting with the collar of a shirt that almost looked like it had been ironed, your heart already melted.

He looked so proud of himself.

“I got us tickets to the museum downtown,” he announced, grinning like he’d just discovered fire. “You like, uh… art and ancient crap, right?”

You blinked. “I mean… yeah, I do like museums.”

“I knew it,” he beamed, practically bouncing. “I even looked up the exhibits. There’s, like, a whole thing on—on classical stuff. Roman dudes. Swords. Big columns. I think a mummy, too?”

You tried not to laugh at how hard he was trying. “You hate museums.”

“I do not,” he lied. “They’re super… educational.”

You raised a brow. “Name one artist that’s in this museum.”

Rafe squinted. “Um. Monotony?”

“…Do you mean Monet?”

He groaned. “Whatever, it’s the thought that counts.”

And it was.

He held the door open for you like a gentleman, then tripped over the museum security mat and muttered something about how it was “aggressively placed.”

He stared way too long at a Greek bust and whispered, “This guy kinda looks like Topper, right?”

He read one informational plaque aloud with such focus, you’d think he was preparing for a final exam. Then turned to you and said, “Wow. Crazy. I understood, like, six words of that.”

But the whole time, his hand brushed yours when he thought you weren’t paying attention. He watched you more than he watched the exhibits. And when you talked about your favorite pieces, he leaned in closer like your words were the real art on display.

At the end of the exhibit, you stood in front of a sculpture and sighed softly. “It’s beautiful,” you said, eyes soft and dreamy.

And Rafe, without thinking, muttered, “Yeah… it really is.”

You turned to look at him and realized he wasn’t looking at the sculpture.

He was looking at you.

...

For your second date, you told Rafe you’d plan it.

He raised a brow, suspicious. “Are we going to a poetry slam?”

“Nope,” you smiled. “We’re going golfing.”

He blinked. “Like… golfing golfing?”

“Yes,” you confirmed, stepping out of his truck in a pair of very unathletic sneakers and a nervous grin. “I figured we did something for me last time. Now it’s your turn.”

Rafe looked both flattered and mildly horrified. “You hate golf.”

“I don’t hate it,” you shrugged. “I just don’t… understand why anyone would chase a tiny ball across a giant field for fun.”

“Because it’s awesome,” he said immediately, already helping you line up a club and muttering something about how you already have "natural talent" even though you nearly whacked him with the backswing.

Your first attempt missed the ball entirely. Your second attempt sent it flying... directly into a sand trap three feet away. Your third one hit the tee so hard it snapped in half.

But Rafe didn’t laugh. Not once.

He just grinned, clapping like you’d just made the PGA Tour. “That’s my girl. Absolutely nailed it.”

You glared. “Rafe, I almost injured a squirrel.”

“And you still look cute doing it,” he teased. “That’s talent.”

By the time you reached the third hole, you were red-faced, frustrated, and swearing under your breath about “sticks and stupid white balls.”

That’s when Rafe walked over with two little velvet pouches. He handed you one wordlessly, smile sheepish.

You opened it... and blinked.

Inside was a white golf ball, glossy and pristine. Etched in tiny silver letters were both your initials, side by side. His was slightly crooked. Yours had a little heart next to it.

“You didn’t have to—”

“I know,” he said, pulling his matching one out of his pocket. “But I wanted to. Mine’s for luck. Yours is for style.”

You rolled your eyes, but your heart felt so full it could’ve burst onto the green right then and there. You held up the ball. “Think this one’ll go farther than three feet?”

Rafe smirked. “With me cheering you on? Absolutely.”

You swung again. It went straight into the pond.

Rafe didn’t even flinch. “She’s got a wicked curve shot,” he shouted to no one in particular, hands cupping his mouth. “Pro-level.”

And you couldn’t help it. You laughed until your sides hurt, because this date wasn’t really about golf. It was about Rafe. And how, somehow, he made you feel like even your worst shot was a win.

[ink-the-artist]

Any advice on how to create something everyday? I feel like I'm unable to draw anything anymore and I want to keep creating so desperately

Making some kind of art you can actually hold or even use is rly motivating in my experience, like some kind of sculpture or jewelry or ceramic pottery. You can make something with whatever materials you already have, doesn’t have to be anything crazy complicated it could be as simple as modifying some thrifted clothes.

something ive been doing lately is just having a photoshop document open that i use like a sketchbook for drawing anything, whatever self indulgent cringe shit i want, and keeping it to myself. and I'm still practicing and improving my art skills doing this. its this outlet for only myself and no one else and i go back and refine or redraw stuff if I feel like it and it lets me be motivated soley by enjoyment of making art rather than by positive attention from others.

Also you don’t have to create something every day if you can’t. Especially if you’re trying to make something new every day lol, I don’t make a new thing each day even though I work on art every day, I’m usually just working on the same few things for a while.

You don’t have to draw to create something either, you can take a break from one kind of art and do something else

[parkerluvsu]

imagine you and art studying together, and he was too distracted with his games to actually do the homework so he teases you and acts all innocent when he’s really trying to get those homework awnsers out of you…

(sorry i’m not best at explaining i hope this made sense)

YUPPPPP

since he earned a scholarship from playing tennis, it's hard for art to focus on academics, when it's not really what he's in school for!

he tries hard in the first semester of his freshman year.. but then he kind of gives up and coasts on his successful career as a college tennis player. finally his coach makes him get a tutor; you.

art needs the most help in math, because he has such a hard time paying attention. the first time you meet, he seems like the classic jock, not pressured like anyone else to actually try hard at school. for the first few tutoring sessions art just sits there on his phone, humming in response whenever you answer a problem on his homework, or teasing you about being such a "nerd". you roll your eyes, pretty much fed up with doing his homework every day while he just sits and plays stupid games on his phone. you decide to finally say something.

"you know i don't have to do this for you, right? it's frustrating when im literally doing your work for you and you never even do as much as say thank you." art looks up from his phone, initially having a look of surprise on his face, but quickly covering it up with a pout. "im really, really sorry.. its just.. ive been so tired after tennis, and i have so much practice that i barely sleep.." he almost has a whine in his voice, "im really sorry.. it's just.. i don't even think i can do all the stuff that you do, you're so smart.." he looks up at you with those baby blue eyes and you can't help but feel sorry for him. "art.. you're smart, for real. if you just applied yourself to the work you'd be as good as i am in no time.." he nods slowly, putting down his phone. "i guess you're right.. let me make it up to you though, can i buy you dinner or something?" art looks at you earnestly, eyes searching yours for any hints of you giving in. you sigh, "okay.. sure, only if you promise to actually do your work once and a while." art nods happily and crosses his fingers behind his back, "oh of course i will"

you both get up and leave, art satisfied that you're now under his little spell <3

[monhiio]

Life update

This has been going on for seven months now and while I dont regret my involvement still, and I dont think I ever will, this has done pretty serious damage to my art skills ;;

I almost never draw anymore even if I so desperately want to, Ive fallen out of practice and I havent completed an actual piece in months. I still try and push myself some days but it usually just ends with me giving up and feeling really bad about myself :(

Im gonna queue up some of the stuff i have managed to do, because i really miss just.. posting and seeing funny tags

[forecast0ctopus]

Okay I have a lot to say here, but I’m gonna try to make it brief (which is really hard for me, sorry)

WOAH DAWG. Your art has inspired me more than I can even express. My hardcore Star Trek phase started right around this time last year. Like, obviously I knew what Star Trek was, but I’d never seen it, so I started with TOS, and after the first three episodes, I was like, yeah, okay, Spock and Kirk are super gay, but their boyfriend Bones is obviously their boyfriend, too. 

So I looked up the fated “McSpirk”, and your art popped up. Boom. Life changed. 

To make a long story short, I practiced and practiced, and slowly (kind of) learned how to draw them (totally based off of your style, yeah, I’m sorry bro there’s like a lot of plagiarised versions of your drawings in old sketchbooks. 😬Don’t worry though, they’re really bad, so no one would mistake them for the original)

And ALSO like a good chunk of my fanfiction has been inspired by your art. So… thank you!

Now, I think, I’ve developed a style of drawing them that’s just far enough from yours that maybe it’s not too obvious that I learned how to draw McSpirk from meticulously studying your art? Probably not, though. But the point is basically: your art is fantastic and so soo edible. 

Ps. I ACTUALLy am a liar, because I’d seen your reanimator fanart before your Star Trek stuff! I was waaayy into reanimator a while ago (still am, just more fixated on other things), and your art was all over my pinterest. And you draw American Werewolf in London, and Merlin, and Psychonauts, and Twin Peaks?? Holy cow dude, you’re the whole damn package. 

Okay, so that was more of a five-paragraph essay than an “ask”. Sorry, not great at tumblr. 

In summary: you’re iconic. There is no McSpirk fandom without you bro. Please never stop drawing, because the day you do is the day I eat the sun like an evil pagan god. 💪💪💪

WOW :0 firstly, thanks so much!! i really appreciate all of this and im glad to know you like my stuff so much :D anyways longish answer for a longish message under the cut..

now i just wanna say – absolutely no issues with copying other people's work to learn, its not like trying to pass things off as your own and its just part of the learning process.. even less of an issue with art styles, you kinda just look at things and go hey i like the way that looks im gonna figure out how to draw [whatever specific element] like that now.. and eventually you frankenstein so many techniques together that you get your own thing out of it lmao. for example i learned how to draw hands from danny phantom and im afraid im stuck with that for life dgfhj anyways i think it rules that youve been drawing them and im kind of honored that you like my stuff enough to use it to learn... and if you've got any links to the art and fics youve mentioned, id love to see 👀 also ive gotten the comment abt finding my stuff on pinterest a bit and IVE LOOKED idk how you guys find them fgdjh i think ive found on there a couple merlin things ive done and thats it... dont mean to sound conceited or anything but i just think its fun when i see my art places i dont post..... incredible when it pops up in edits occasionally love it when people have the same array of interests as me since they all kind of feel entirely unrelated to one another in genre and subject matter so i never expect it.. ESPECIALLY psychonauts augh ive been trying to convince people to play that game for 11 years and ive only gotten through to like maybe three people fsbhjk anyways guess weve both got great taste in media 🤝🤝🤝 thanks again for such a kind message, i appreciate it more than i can articulate!! <333

[kroovv]

previous anon here: dorian's predatory business practices are a lot like wattpad's if you know anything about that—they pocket a huge portion of the proceeds for every VN they publish and only give very few pennies to the actual authors, essentially using other people's work to line their own pockets, while pretending to provide a great platform for artists. Last I heard they also have terms that say whatever you upload to them becomes their property IP. it's the kind of situation where they convince artists its the easiest option for publishing a VN, when in reality there are other ways that are just as or even more simple that allow u to keep full ownership of ur work. I also have a grudge against them specifically because they bought up an indie VN studio that I was a fan of, put previously free stuff behind a paywall and otherwise ran it into the ground, and their social media people were very unprofessional and sent threatening messages to fans for making fan content.

Renpy takes some learning, but it's really simple once you know how it works. And besides renpy there are other VN engines that are even simpler (Unity even has a VN library called Fungus thats very simple and straightforward to use) TyranoBuilder is also a popular one. As for chapters, there are absolutely people on itchio updating their VNs a chapter at a time, although i dont know if its in the way youd want; pushing each separate chapters as updates to the main game, or releasing each chapter as a separate game come to mind as options.

(i'd honestly even offer to convert the game to renpy for you since ive been working extensively with renpy for the past 2 years and am very familiar with it and how to work it, if it meant i could save one artist from the clutches of dorian, but that feels too much like overstepping 😅)

So i am not sure if maybe they have changed things, but with games self published to them they own 0% of that IP so I will own Gravehearts 100% only if they where to buy it from me then they’d own it but i personally do not see that happening lmao. From what i understand about it is it is like Webtoons but for VNs anyone can upload to it but they still own it like how i still own Horizon Walkers even though it’s on Webtoons and Tapas. They do take a % of what you make so that is why I would love to also have my own app or game on itch as well!

I have a decent following for my artwork but who knows what that vendiagram is for people who like VNs is, so if i where to publish the game somewhere by itself i don’t know how well it would do because I don’t know if i have the audience for it, also i don’t know if people would even see it when i post about it cause social media sucks. So like posting HW to webtoons so that people who read comics might see it that’s what I am kind of hoping for with posting Gravehearts to Dorian.

Again with Gravehearts i own it 100%, with publishing games there you can chose when and where people pay for things, and people do paywall love interests and main story stuff but i fully do not intend to do that because I don't want to do that. So I will not be putting any main story or love interests behind paywalls the only thing I would do as paid stuff are optional scenes with a character where you can get a nice full art piece of them from it! (Im also trying to figure out if i could put some kind of code on the image so people can download high res versions of it as phone wallpapers! So you’re actually paying for something more tangible)

However like i said previously i would love to make my own app for it, or something like an app or on itch, but i could maybe try do it in tangent with Dorian, so people who don’t want to support them can still support the story somewhere else! But it might take a little while for me to be able to do something like that because it’d be learning a whole bunch of new stuff and it is just me but I will do my best 👍

[lovelettersto-mars]

Six sentence Sunday, but it's Monday and I'm supposed to be working on an essay ‼️

Hello everyone, I've been slacking lately, absolutely. Unfortunately burnout has hit was earlier than normal, which, for context burnout for me usually happens towards the end of the year but it's PRACTICALLY APRIL. I have a couple essays I'm supposed to be working on but I've decided to be creative and do some writing on the side. artsy character stuff .

Anyway, an exert from the fic, Kind of sort of TW??

Baz:

Its an itchy, burning feeling in my stomach. Almost like acid reflux, but more sinister.

He's kissing me, and kissing me, and kissing me. Its all I ever wanted from him. Why does it hurt so badly? Why aren't I enjoying it?

He doesn't love me. He doesn't want me. He sees me as something to kiss. Someone with no emotion behind their eyes. And I can only blame myself. I've led him to believe that

He likes to kiss me. He likes "this" whatever this is.

But will he ever love me like I love him? He likes me, he likes this. He likes kissing me.

But will he ever feel what i feel?? sometimes I feel unlovable, because it feels like no matter what, no one is ever going to love me as much as I love them. No one is going to return what I put in.

I love Simon with everything, With a fatal dosage.

Will he love me back with everything? I'm just so sick of feeling so much for people and barely getting anything in return. Am I defective? Am I overbearing? What's wrong with me why doesn't anyone seem to feel things the way I do? But he's kissing me and it's good, so good. And for a minute I try to ignore the itching doubt in the back of my mind. But it's clawing inside, trying to make it's way to my throat, trying to make me voice my anxiety. But my sensibility holds a steadying finger to my lips, reminding me that we're not dating, we're not in love.

I'm just a bloke he likes to kiss

Yeah, uh, sorry ... Next exert because it's getting actually written finally:

His hands find their way under my shirt, up my back.

And I feel his fingertips like fire against my skin, burning their way through my muscle and bone. Every touch feels like I'm being torched, and for one anxious moment, I almost feel like I am.

His hands circle my waist, and he pulls away, just long enough to ask me if he can take off my shirt.

Realistically, I know he won't care if I say no. But the ache in my chest grows deeper and deeper, and feels as though it's restricting my chest. I can't breathe well. I don't want him to worry, or care. I'm wearing another shirt underneath, but if I say yes to the first layer, he'll want the second gone. And when I was younger I wouldve wanted him to tear away every item of clothing, screw the consequences! But younger me didn't have the true secret, snd shame, hidden under the long sleeved shirts.

I've taken too long to answer....

Yeah uh yeah that's writing I've done :D

Kind of triggery explanation under the cut, I just wanted to talk about the inspirations for the fic, and tell y'all that I'm mentally well rn lol

I really like using Baz as a sort of... Outlet? For my own issues.

I have a very weird relationship with... Relationships. I'm on the aroace spectrum, and I'm also heavily autistic. I always wondered why I felt so unlovable, and so unable to love the right way. Anyway turns out, not only am I just autistic, I'm also demisroace 😐 I genuinely thought I was defective and hated myself for it, and I always wondered why my experiences with love and sex were always so different to my peers.

Anyways, obviously throughout a lot of the art and writing I make of Baz Ive given him self harm scars. This is because I like to project. Also because I see a lot of myself in him, which makes me feel a lot better about my issues when I make my favorite character go through the same thing.

Anyway we have demisroace Baz, with self harm scars on his arms hes terrified of his partner? seeing.

Anyway I'm all good as I've stated, I just wanted to share a bit more of my story through fanfic :3

[postmail]

hey guys i love you. its my birthday in three days have some queeshmael (and other assorted stand-alone ishmaels and queequegs) moby dick fanarts that ive drawn over the course of like... several months that i never posted because i thought they looked like shit. and tbh i still do. but also theres beauty in everything and also also i need to lead by example of fearlessness in posting shitty ass fanart just for funsises. just because it makes me happy. some of these are outdated but idgaf. enjoy inconsistent character designs lol

its under the cut cause uh wow thats actually a lot more than i expected? whoops?

okay funny story i actually lied up there a little bit i drew this several months ago and was so madly in love with how it turned out that i never posted it because i didnt want the inevitable lack of attention to sour it for me. its a little outdated now but i still love it, i just want to put here so i never lose it. ishmael please go to therapy

newer art yet somehow even more outdated designs? i think i was trying to be a bit more experimental and didnt like how they came out. i still dont like the designs very much but looking back now i dont think the art itself is actually that bad.

never posted because i just couldnt get the anatomy quite right. i actually kind of miss when i colored grays like this idk how i forgot that actually wait i should start doing that again-

this one was for mermay, just pure silliness and cringe for the soul. more of that awesome gray shading line stuff that i need to start doing again, but i didnt like how queequeg's face looked. and also i think i felt a bit silly about this? like i thought it was too cringe or something? idk why tho its kinda cute to me now. best of wishes to ishmael in his goal to fuck that fish man

more inconsistent queequeg designs! i really liked this one when i first drew it, but i thought it was too small to post on its own, being just a itsy little doodle for shading practice. now i can post it :). wonder who it is thats talking to him?

another little drawing! this one i never posted because 1) i fucked up when drawing it and accidentally drew it way too small and 2) i accidentally made it waayy too similar to another moby dick fanart by another more popular user and i didnt want other ppl accusing me of copying or smthin... i jusr didnt think this piece was particularly worth the risk of that. i think its fine now tho.

incredibly shitty doodle i really only made for myself ft. incredibly innacurate drawing of a sperm whale. ngl i still think the joke is funny tho.

shhh dont tell the cringe police about this one but this is a queeshmael fankid i made. her name is rachael and she cannot make normal facial expressions to save her life. she loves listening to her dad infodump its interesting to her. she knows so many incorrect facts about whales! whoopie!

this might have been a valentines special? idk. i was gonna redraw it but then i forgor. let this be a lesson to you: finish your drawings, or else you'll only have the older version to show to people (its okay i still like this a little bit)

oh shit i ran out ok bye guys hope you liked your gay whalers peace and love on planet earth

[myxineye]

So... What's the deal with your worldbuilding project? Feel free to condense it all down into one sentence and I can figure out the rest through binging, lol.

Seriously, your OCs are interesting, your worlds are fascinating, and your style is *chef's kiss.* Really inspiring stuff here for my own various works.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! honestly Vivid in Vitro just started around the idea of "angel hunting" and "wouldn't it be cool to eat angels?" and it kinda spiraled from there :p

I'm not actually sure what to say when talking about VIV (I've found posting about ocs makes me feel worse about them lol, so I try to avoid that usually :p) -- at the moment, I've been working on concept art for VIV since i desperately need practice in that area, but i've also been working on music and comics! i'd like to make a short game about VIV sometime in the future, but i havent done game dev in a while so that'll take a while to get going LOL

idk what to share so here's just the main characters lineup so far (some of them are still in progress), the first three pages of a short comic ive been taking forever to finish, and the main environments i've been working on :0

[starcorvid]

People I Wish I Knew Better

got tagged by @quartzitedeca, thank u so much this was so fun to do!

Favorite Colour: honestly i have a favourite shade of pretty much all colours on the spectrum but im a huge huge fan of sunflower yellow specifically, it makes me happy every time i see it

Currently Reading: oooh rn I've got a few!! reading through The Lotus Empire by Tasha Suri (trying to refamiliarize myself with the cast currently cause i finished Oleander sword like two years ago skfhdj) as well as Manga in Theory and Practice by Hirohiko Araki and a few graphic novels and non-fictions which are currently stacked beside my desk cause i ran out of space again lmao. working at a public library means it is so hard to resist the temptation of starting 'just one more book' sjfgbfj

Last Song: Y fait chaud by Lisa Leblanc - we just got thru our first heat wave where i am and i needed this banger to help me thru it

also Bark Like a God by Sloppy Jane - dont really know the artist but the song slaps!!

Last Film: i dont actually watch movies that often so im not quite sure, but i think it was Wallace and Gromit, the wererabbit one? got high with some friends for 4/20 and we had a watch party, i was so captivated by the shapes of it lmao

Last Series: Jojo's Bizarre Adventure: Battle tendencies! i started watching Jojo with my roommate and got obsessed with the voguing evil gay men so now im making another friend watch it wiht me

Sweet//Salty//Savory: honestly it really depends on what the circumstances are, but i do have a huge sweet tooth

Tea or Coffee?: tea tea tea!!! specifically Rooibos, its my ride or die

Working On: not a whooole lot right now tbh, ive just started a second job and i have been so so busy unfortunately

but i HAVE been working on my part of the ow reverse mini bang, and i have a few thumbnail sketches for stuff im waiting to get to when i have the time, as well as some worldbuilding and concept art for a personal portfolio project ive been working on for a while!!

uuh im tagging @kirtini @ancientaliensblog @ultimatefeldsparring and youreading this!! feel free to answer this if and when u feel like it!

[sixthemeowmeowidk]

YOUR SUCH A GOOD ARTIST I LOVE YOUR C! TNT DUO ART SM!!! (≡^∇^≡)

thanks oomf 😭

sorry to vent here yall but i was legit abt to post abt how unmotivated ive been at drawing

i havent been drawing much recently coz i lost confidence in my art idk i guess im just wondering why do i even draw at all my art isnt good enough where i can do anything with it i feel like its in its awkward stage where its just like, okay. Its okay but its not good and its not amazing its just okay. And idk ig ive just been disappointed in myself bc it feels like despite all the efforts it didnt rlly turn out the way i wanted like i was drawing for so long for it to just be okay and ig im just bummed i also just started feeling like drawing is a waste of time if it doesnt bring me anything and if i cant move others idk maybe im tripping or smth i just dont know why my art has been so stagnant i realized im quite delusional and im not as good as i perceived myself to be and infact ive fallen quite far im kinda just lost on what to do because it feels like drawing is a waste of time but i cant dettach myself from art bc ive made it apart of my identity and i have no other hobbies i want to fully commit to coz i dont want to start all over again on learning smth new i cant give up on all my efforts but it feels like im just not good enough like ueah i get that i am skilled to some degree but the skill isnt enough im not moving ive been on the same level for so long ive been moving at such a slow pace and i just dont understand why my art doesnt have the same charm that others do maybe its bc people can tell that i dont enjoy drawing maybe its bc they can tell that im only doing it for my own gain and that i dont try hard enough to draw for fulfillment or something idk

idk its a lot of stuff and im sure ill prob get over it and draw again but i just feel like i cant do anything with my art or maybe im not smart enough to think things through or maybe im jst making excuses for myself its honestly so embarrassing to admit this but idrc i kinda wish i was never a artist in the first place i just feel like all of this is a waste of time and that i shouldve done something else that can actually contribute to something

i dont see art the same way anymore and im not sure why im disappointed and confused on what to do i want to improve but i feel like something is holding me back i feel like i need to do other stuff and be useful i feel kinda useless with what i do idk i feel like i cant create the way others do and that it’s obvious my art lacks passion

idek man i hate this identity that ive built up bc it feels like its useless im def just tweaking the fuck out and need to take a rest maybe im burnt out from drawing so much but i wish i wasnt because i really need to practice im scared ill get left behind and i miss my chance to be as good as i want to be or need to be and ill miss my chance to be useful i feel like every artwork i do is half assed in a way thats hard to explain but yeah

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i posted a speedpaint on my tiktok and it started getting likes basically instantly and that made me so anxious omfg xD it seemed to like slow down or stop now but i never get likes like that that fast so wtf lul is it just cuz its creepy or what

i'll share here cuz why not, not sure where i wanna post my art mainly but the first one is the one from the speedpaint i posted and the other one i'll prob post the speedpaint of tomorrow, ive been trying to practice to do commissions but i dont rlly have a consistent style tho, but im usually better with furries than ppl so i'll probably do that most o(><)o

i kept trying to draw full body stuff so i could draw more fashion related things but i kept messing it up so,,,, headshots it is then o(；△；)o these drawings dont fit my blog theme at all but this sorta clashing is my life so i wont stop myself hehe, maybe i'll actually finish something more cute tho. i also wonder how i should price any commissions, i'll probably make it as cheap as possible with factoring in the physical stress drawing does still, but i love it so nothing will stop me