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terrisas really funny ithink
#kingdom hearts#kh#my art#image id in alt#kh fanart#Saix#saïx#isa#terra#kh terra#terrisa#Moonrocks#<-? I think people call them that sometimes. I think its cute#Kh saix#kh saïx#kh isa#Not tagging this xemsai because its only a little bit about it. I mean xemsais the joke but ykwim#Ok for real though ive been thinking about them these last few weeks and actually they're really cool 2me#Like theres whole “came back wrong” dynamic since isa remembers everything and terras basically a whole different person#And adding onto that saix and xemnas relationship wasnt exactly. Normal. So i could totally see something like isa-#-subconsciously reverting back to how he acted in kh2 while terras like ‘? You dont have to do that?” And like theyre both AFFECTED by-#-xemnas but in different ways and terra can see how xemnas was through isa and augh#Anyway. This is still an akusai house but i think isa can have an unhealthy one sided attachment to a person he barely knows out of their-#-resemblance to someone he ‘sacrificed himself to’ (kh character files words not mine).#It improves the biodiversity.
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Im unable to go to school for art, bc my parents cant afford it and my family in general wouldnt be too supportive of it (I live with them)
I dont mind that, I still do art as a hobby, but it kind of hurts. I like what I am in college for actually, but I just love art
Is there a way to better my art while not having the tools art students have? I dont care if its harder, I would just like hope :/
hi !! so i can totally relate to this
i did not grow up with a wealthy family, i got into my highschool (which was a specialty art highschool) thru application. After that, i was kind of lost with art education. I had no money to go to a big art school, so i did community college.
here is what my art looked like in highschool
However, that was kind of a waste. It was pretty much a repeat of what i learned in highschool and to be honest the entire time i was in highschool i didnt improve at ALL. not one bit. This continued into college. In fact i didnt improve at all in college either except for the times i took a gap.
as of this point in the timeline my art looked like this
now i havent been in college now for a couple years, and let me tell you my art has gotten the biggest improvement ive ever seen. Hell i didnt even finish school, I owe money and cant return until i pay it. But honestly ? its hard to find the motivation.
What im getting at is all of my improvement has been done thru my own means. School did not help me improve. And everything you learn in art school can easily be found online via videos and tutorials.
So what made me improve so much out of school ? Honestly ? Passion. I hated being told what to do, I always have. I do not like cookie cutter assignments, boring studies, all of the subjects that are rinsed and repeated every semester. I stopped caring, and during the last bit of time i was in school, I went to my professor. I said I didn’t care, I hated the assignments, I had no desire. You know what she told me ? To ignore them then. She pushed me to make what i WANTED to make, she made assignments specifically for me, she gave me full creative freedom. THATS WHEN I IMMEDIATELY IMPROVED. School isnt what helped me, what helped me is being given an environment where i could be passionate and raw and make art i wanted to make. And you dont need thousands of dollars and a studio to make that happen.
You don’t need those tools. And remember, when it comes to art school, its never the students who are naturally talented or only have technical skill that succeed, its the ones that give a shit. the ones who love art, who love to create, and have a story to tell.
one you realize that it gets so much better.
Anyways, as a last update, heres my art now that im out of school and doing my own thing
#sorry im sappy#im really passionate about art#its everything to me and i have strong opinioms#in another life i am an art professor#i just want to share my passion with others#i hope this was helpful at least a bit#do not hesitate to dm me if you need more advice#ask#artist#my art#artwork#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#illustration#original art#digital artist#digital drawing#art process#art school
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here’s a super duper fast, i wrote on my phone blurb for you bc ive been slacking.
CW: mean!noah, Noah’s a yap and his mouth is filthy, a smack (just on the thigh), pet names (whore, slut, pet, baby) uh??? i think that’s it?
NSFW under the cut ◡̈
his hand had your cheeks gripped tight while his thrusts slowed almost to a full stop.
“know you missed me baby, but need you to be quiet okay? the guys are downstairs and Jesse is in his room.”
you nodded as much as you could, trying to lift your hips off his bed to get him to move again.
“you that fucking needy? can’t wait for me to fuck you so you gotta do it yourself. well come on then. be my good little whore, use me. take what you want.”
he was quick to move his hands to your waist, moving your lower half against him. finally stilling his movements to let you take what you needed.
tears built up as your movements stopped. “can’t do it.” you whined.
Noah huffed at you, faking his annoyance. “don’t know why you even tried. had to go and be greedy, couldn’t have trusted me. i know what you need baby, you know i do.”
his thrusts started soft and slow. a contrast to his harsh tone he’s had with you all night.
everything felt too much all at once, you were so close and he knew it. he felt you squeezing him. your hand moved down to your clit, before you could move your fingers to give yourself what you wanted.
SMACK
“move. your. fucking. hand.” each word followed by a hard thrust. “so fucking desperate to get off, want me to smack the wall next? get Jesse in here, since you wanna go and act like a messy whore.”
“no - just.” he watched as the tears fell. “wanna cum. please. need to.”
“know you do. i’ll let you now, but only because i hear them coming up the stairs. let me have it baby, wanna feel your needy cunt squeeze me some more.”
#bad omens smut#bad omens headcanons#noah sebastian smut#bad omens blurb#noah sebastian headcanons#noah sebastian blurb#noah sebastian fic#noah sebastian
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personal finance question! ive always thought FIRE was about working as much as possible and then like. being a millionaire by 30 after years of asceticism. which i now realize was an unfair understanding.
setting aside that some of us are coming to this late and havent been hustling as hard as they can since their late teenage years—how do you balance enjoyment now with retirement (and freedom!) later? really want to get into this, but also want to live my life now, yknow? not that “living my life” has to require spending money, but sometimes it might?
Oh yeah I love demystefying this shit. What you're describing is sometimes called "Fat FIRE" -- its for big earners and hard working grindset sigma males who want to (and can) stack a ton of money and then live pretty comfortably at an earlier-than-average retirement age. This is also more on the "RE" retire early end of the spectrum. What most of us here are likely to be more interested in is the FI part of the spectrum -- financial independence. That means assembling one's life around a relatively low cost of living, with a large savings, so that you can no longer be exploited by an employer quite so easily, can afford to quit a job or work less for a period of time if necessary, or get to pursue work that is more meaningful to you but earns less. This is also sometimes called "Lean FIRE" -- and there is a subreddit specific to it that is worth checking out.
Even Mr Money Mustache (who is a bit more of a "Fat FIRE" guy, given his lifestyle and earning potential) always reminds people that the whole *purpose* of the FIRE movement is to not have to work yourself to death doing shit you hate to maintain an artificially inflated lifestyle. It should be about finding some freedom -- not soaking up every single paid gig you can possibly fucking get and saving as much as humanly possible at the expense of enjoying your life.
We pursue FIRE because we're disabled and cant work full time, because we're environmentalists and want a lower footprint, because we dont want to have to take on gigs that morally compromise us, because we want out of the conventional capitalistic life path, and so on. The goal isn't to make as much as fucking possible -- it's to be able to not weigh every decision you make in terms of income!
It's also not binary either -- you don't have to be a hard-core early retirement person with a like million dollar index fund goal, or whatever, you can just aspire to like, have a couple tens of thousands of dollars in savings so that you can take a few years off working if you ever need to or want to, and pursue that goal while also contributing to mutual aid and buying yourself a gaming console or a trip once in a while. Your priorities and the particularities of your situation are what matter here -- and you having a little more freedom to make decisions around that you're happier with.
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Your art for it is so cute, what's Kamen Rider SD? I want to get into it :D
yesss.... fall into my trap... mwhahaha >:3c (also thank you ^v^)
SD in general means Super Deformed, it's a chibi style that's not unique to Kamen Rider (Gundam also has a bunch of SD stuff, mentioning it here bc i love those models :3)
But since you're asking in relation with my art, here's the ones I made art for:
SD The Great Battle
A series of videogames that's a crossover between Kamen Rider, Gundam and Ultraman characters, all in the SD style. An original character called Fighter Roar joins the team from the second game on. They're very fun and wacky game that don't really have a coherent plot but we love them for that :3 In IV they get a giant robot (Compatible Kaiser my beloved) and in V they're cowboys. I love the cowboy outfits so much. Games one to five have english fan translations, now I need someone to translate Gaia Saver because apparently that one has the Rider Killer lore....
Kamen Rider SD: Strange!? Man Spider (or simply Kamen Rider SD OVA)
If you've been around the fandom you probably already know this one. It's a 30 minutes short where RX and the other Battle Riders (Ichigo and ZX) have to rescue RX's crush from shocker, with the help of the Mechanic Riders (V3, X and Super1). Wild Team (Stronger, Amazon and Nigo) appears for like. 3 minutes total at the end but they're my darlings and I love them. Other very important thing in this short is the Rider Carrier, a giant robot grasshopper that acts as their base and I think every version of the riders shoul have a giant grasshopper base not just the SDs u.u This short is apparently an adaptation from the Mighty Riders manga, but I haven't investigated it yet so I can't confirm that. It's also connected to a couple more SD videogames, Sortie!! Rider Machines and Run! Mighty Riders (the team names come from here as far as I can tell)
Kamen Rider SD: Hurricane Legend / Kamen Rider SD: Legend of the Stormy Age
(listen. I know the direct translation is the first one. But the second one is on the back cover so if they gave it an official english title I'm using that :P)
This is probably the one you're asking for, but I wanted to use the excuse to talk about the other two :P
I'll be honest, going in blind on this one is probably the best experience. Do not look up panels you will get spoiled. The basic plot is V3 and Riderman travel around to recruit the other Riders to defeat Shocker. I want to talk about it more but again, I had so much fun going "WHAT!?!" while reading it that I must resist- Might post more about them but will tag it as spoilers
Other SD stuff that I care less about, for completionist sake:
• there's a third SD manga (Kamen Rider SD: Roaring Laughs School) that I know nothing of (I think it's a 4koma gag manga? I'll be honest I'm not very interested in it so I haven't done much research);
• the most recent SD game is SD Shin Kamen Rider Rumble, a game for the movie, but that one seems to be simply a side scroller so again, no interest from me;
• Lost Heroes 1 and 2 technically use chibi-ish versions of Riders, Gundams and Ultramen, and are part of the Compati Hero series (the same series as The Great Battle), but they don't have SD in the title;
•there's. sooooo many sports games in the Compati Hero series. I like the Battle Dodgeball ones :3 Also speaking of Compati Hero, special mention to Super Hero Operations because that's the next one I wanna play, I get to meet Zubat, Metalder and a bunch of others there :3
#kiri.text#kamen rider sd#.....should I tag each series.#sd the great battle#kamen rider sd (ova)#kamen rider sd: legend of the stormy age#...whoops it's been two hours since i started writing this i got carried away#also anon if you get into any of this feel free to come back and talk to me about them! :D I need someone to talk about them with!!!#anon or anyone that wants of course
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Do you think patrick ever put on a queer/gay movie as a subtle way to get art out of his shell, like "yeah dude ive wanted to watch this movie for ages" and its okay its chill, look how hot they are, look how happy they are
"Is kissing boys different to kissing girls?"
Oh he definitely did… I’m sorry this is so long nonnie!!!
CW: 18+ NSFW | period typical internalized homophobia
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Patrick’s lying in Arts bed with his headphones on going through his catalogue of dvds trying to figure out what B movie they can watch and make fun of while they get high. The whole time Art is using his back as a writing surface to finish his math homework.
Patrick pulls his headphones off and drops them on the ground. “It’s Friday. Do you have to do that now?”
“It’s Friday night, we have the tournament Saturday and Sunday so when exactly?” Art says distractedly, erasing.
“On the bus like I do.” Patrick smiles and turns to look at him. Art pushes his shoulder back down. Patrick shrugs and focuses back on his dvds.
“Stay still.” Art demands.
“Forgive me if I’m just trying to get you to have a little fun in our last few months at Mark Reballato Tennis Academy.”
“You know I do actually plan to graduate, right?” Art says dryly.
“So you can go to Stanford?” Patrick says wrinkling his nose in irritation.
Art puts his notebook down on Patrick’s back. “You know Tashi’s gonna be there right?”
Patrick shrugs. “So, just two overtalented people wasting time…”
“Aww so you’re calling me talented?” Art teases.
“You are,” Patrick says. “When you don’t think too much, which Stanford should help you with. I’m sure they don’t over think anything there.”
“Whatever man,” Art sighs. If anything it’ll help my tennis. I think you’re just scared I might steal her away.”
“Not even a little bit, but speaking of her… do you remember how you let me put my tongue in your mouth?” Patrick smirks.
Art goes all quiet like he’s doing homework again but Patrick doesn’t hear the pencil scratching paper.
“You always bring it up like you think I want you or something.”
“You wanted something, I felt it,” Patrick says pushing himself up as Art grabs the notebook off him before it falls.
“Come on man, don’t be gross, that was for her.”
“How is that gross?” Patrick asks, mildly amused, mildly irritated.
“You know what I mean,” Art says. “‘m not gay.”
“You know there’s nothing wrong with it right? Not to mention I’ve seen you before…touched you before… and…I mean remember what we did after she left? Didn’t I make you feel better?”
“We don’t always have to talk about it.”
“We don’t never have to talk about it either.” Patrick counters.
Art takes a deep breath and rests his head against the wall trying to find a way to change the subject. “Dude, if you’re gay just let me have another shot with her.” Is what he comes up with, dumb pretty smirk on his lips.
Patrick rolls his eyes. “Yeah whatever, fine I’m gay…actually that reminds me of this movie you can gayly watch with your gay best friend.”
“I’m just joking. You don’t have to—“
“Well I’m not joking, come on, put this away, loser,” Patrick grabs his notebook and stuffs the papers inside.
“Okay Jesus, Patrick don’t wrinkle it all up.”
“I’m not, chill out. Get the smoke detector.”
Art sighs and climbs off the bed. He steps on Patrick’s bed and reaches up to disconnect the detector from its place on the ceiling. He puts it in the bathroom. Then he shoves a towel beneath the crack in the door.
All the while Patrick’s combing through his dvd case for one random movie he borrowed from Netflix at the start of the year and he’d forgotten to mail it back so they charged him. (That’s sadly how he ended up with a lot of his dvd collection.) He’d watched it once by himself because he thought the main guys were hot and he wanted to jerk off in peace without Art voicing confusion at the idea of him jerking it for a man.
But it had been surprisingly deep for one of those campy queer movies. And of course it was about a guy in love with his roommate which… even for Art’s ability to delude himself wouldn’t be subtle at all.
“What’s this?” Art asks.
“The movie we’re gonna watch. This guy is a male hooker but he ends up getting hired by this old guy who mostly just wants his company.”
Art frowns.
“Come on, relax. You can be straight and watch it. Movies don’t turn people gay and you’re not gay…so what’s the big deal?”
Art looks like he wants to argue but decides it’ll just be easier to surrender. Patrick rolls the joint while Art puts it in the dvd player.
It’s not all his fault. Art was raised with apple pie and Americana. He’s a J Crew catalogue wearing, red blooded New England boy. His family is pretty liberal but in the way that they support all of it as long as it remains out there faceless and unknown… far away from their life and their home. Art’s expected to play a sport, go to an ivy, marry a beautiful girl and likely start a career in politics if tennis doesnt pay off. So this idea that life could ever deviate from that makes him glitch out.
All the tension they have between them is so much easier to just bury. Like none of it matters. It’s not supposed to change the trajectory of his cookie cutter life anyway.
Art sits on his bed next to Patrick they’re both leaning against the wall Patricks feet dangling over the mattress, Art with his legs crossed. Patrick lights up the joint and hands it to him.
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They’re pretty baked halfway through and Arts fidgety. It’s at a scene where the main character is touching himself watching his roommate in the shower. “He’s hot right?” Patrick asks.
Art takes a breath. “Dude.”
“Yeah I know…you’re not gay.” Patrick smirks, but even in the dim glow of the tv he can see the way Art’s already starting to show in his boxers.
The third roommate catches the main character watching and wants to suck him off. Then while third roommate is sucking him he starts fantasizing about all three of them hooking up, kissing sloppy on the bed.
“Is this porn?” Art whispers. “Are we really watching gay porn?”
“No I wish… unfortunately they don’t show you that much but imagine if me and you and Tashi were roommates.You watching her shower… while I…”
Art makes a strangled noise and Patrick rubs his own cock, smiling to himself. Art’s just getting there but Patrick’s been hard for the last 30 minutes.
“Patrick,” Art whispers. He’s starting to touch himself over his boxers.
“Give me the joint,” Patrick says, softly. It’s their third one. “If you drop it on the bed again we’ll both be in trouble.”
Art hands it over and Patrick puts it out in the ashtray on the nightstand. He moves closer to Art reaching over to help him. Art leans back, letting Patrick take over. Patrick reaches into his boxers. “Mm Patrick… have you seen her naked?” Art asks.
“No,” Patrick whispers. “Just her underwear. But…I’m not supposed to talk about it.”
“I feel like I can still taste her lips.” He moans while Patrick plays with him. Patrick can’t help but ease his other hand into his own pants. “I wanna…ah… I wanna… see her all soaped up wet and…” Art continues.
“And…?” Patrick breathes.
“Fuck… can you… can we…do what we did after…”
Patrick smiles and nods even though Art likely can’t see him. He gets on his knees and Art scoots towards the edge of the bed. Patrick takes Art’s boxers down and starts sucking him off. touching himself the whole time.
“Mm fuck,” Art breathes.
He barely lasts 2 minutes before he’s filling Patrick’s mouth with so much jizz. Patrick swallows it down, while listening to Art moaning for him. All the hair on his arms standing up. He rests his head against Art’s thigh making quick work of himself, using part of the sheet to keep it from getting all over the floor.
Patrick settles where he is on the floor, breathless when he’s done. Looking up at the television like it was fucking nothing even though his heart is still racing.
Main character has moved so far away from the threesome fantasy. He’s now angsty and worried about his best friend who’s apparently being pursued by someone else. Some other more wholesome gay man. Patrick ponders rewinding but when he looks up at Art, he’s lying back on the bed, hand casually on the waistband of his boxers, tapping his bare feet on the floor just watching.
Patrick rubs Arts leg idly.
“Who’s this loser?” Art asks of the more wholesome gay man.
Patrick laughs. It’s exactly what he thought on his first watch through.
They end up watching the rest of the film. Again, it’s surprisingly more emotional than the premise (male hooker wants to fuck his roommates). Main character ends up learning to be more open about his feelings in his time chatting with the elder gay client. And the emotional part is hearing the elder gay man talk about what he went through to fall in love with his partner when it was much more taboo and unacceptable. And how even though they meet late in life they still lived such a full and happy life (if too short) before his partner passed. And main character’s roommate even gives him a chance and they go out on a date.
Art’s rubbing his eyes when it’s over.
Patrick gets back on the bed next to him. “That was nice right?”
Art’s clearly trying to hide his feelings so he just nods and when he feels okay to use his voice he says. “Seems kinda deep for you.”
“Well I can be deep,” Patrick smirks. He curls his fingers into Art’s hair. “I mean it’s cool right? They were happy.”
”I always wonder where they imagine movies like this to happen? San Francisco probably.” Art laughs, lightly. He looks away from Patrick and Patrick puts his hand back by his side.
“Well I think it could happen anywhere but good thing you're going to California soon.” Patrick says, just as light.
Art looks at him again and then looks at his lap. “I mean it wasn’t just her that made me feel…” he murmurs.
“Me too,” Patrick says.
“So I don’t know…I mean I’m not gay but…but maybe I’m something else…”
“I definitely am.”
Art sighs. “You make me something else.”
“Is that so bad?” Patrick asks.
Art rubs his hands on his thighs and then leans in and gives Patrick a kiss.
(Had to google if Netflix existed in 2006 😭😭 it did but they mailed dvds. Also I made Patrick lie. Movies definitely make you gay. Look what Challengers has done to me!!)
#challengers#challengers 2024#patrick zweig#art donaldson#tashi duncan#challengers fic#art x patrick#artrick
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𝓖𝓮𝓷𝓲𝓮 𝓘𝓷 𝓐 𝓑𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮 「IV」
⤷ pairing : wooyoung x reader ⤷ au : non idol! | strangers to lovers | slow burn ⤷ genre : fluff | crack | angst ⤷ word count: 1.847 words ⤷ summary: Wooyoung, frustrated by his argument with Minyoung, finds comfort in his genie.
𝒯𝒶𝑔𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉 ➜ @chanceonceli @soso59love-blog
── .✦ Wooyoung sat at his desk, absorbed in editing pictures from a recent wedding he had attended. The glow of his computer screen illuminated the otherwise dim room, his fingers quickly tapping across the keyboard as he fine-tuned each photo. Every now and then, he would adjust the exposure or crop a picture just right, but his mind wasn’t entirely focused on the task at hand.
On the couch behind him, Minyoung sat, clearly not amused. She fiddled with her phone, scrolling through social media absentmindedly, her bored sigh echoing across the room. She had been quiet for the past while, but the lack of attention from Wooyoung seemed to be wearing on her.
“Are you almost done?” Minyoung asked, her tone tinged with impatience. She swung her legs off the couch, sitting up and crossing her arms. “I’m getting tired of waiting for you to finish these stupid pictures.”
' well, these stupid pictures pay for our dates ' He thought, continuing to click. He glanced over his shoulder, his eyes briefly meeting hers. “It won’t be much longer,” he replied, though his voice lacked its usual enthusiasm. It wasn’t that he didn’t care about his work, but something about the tension between him and Minyoung made it hard to concentrate.
Minyoung let out a irritated groan, her expression shifting to one of mild annoyance. “You’ve been at this for hours. You always get so lost in your work, Wooyoung. It’s like I don’t even exist when you’re doing this.”
Wooyoung’s fingers paused over the keyboard for a brief moment as Minyoung’s words hit him. The frustration in her voice wasn’t lost on him, but he couldn't help the frustration building inside him as well. He kept his eyes on the screen, his mind racing as he tried to focus, but the distance between them seemed to grow with every passing second.
He swallowed hard, his jaw tightening slightly. He was tired of hearing the same complaint, tired of feeling like he was being pulled between his work and her ever-growing expectations.
“I’m doing this for us, you know,” he said quietly, his voice strained as he clicked through the pictures.
Wooyoung turned to face her, his eyes narrowing slightly as he watched Minyoung stand up abruptly. The sound of her scoffing echoed in the room, making the tension even thicker. She grabbed her purse off the island, her movements sharp, almost as if she was preparing to leave.
Wooyoung couldn’t help but feel a flash of irritation. He had been trying to explain himself, trying to make her understand that this was all for them, but it seemed like nothing he said was working.
“Where are you going?” Wooyoung asked, his voice more sharp than he intended, the frustration bubbling up despite his attempts to stay calm.
" i'm going out, call me when you're done with the stupid pictures," she spoke before slamming the door.
Wooyoung stood there for a long moment, staring at the door Minyoung had just slammed behind her. The echo of the sound seemed to reverberate through the room, and the weight of her words hit him harder than he expected. "Stupid pictures."
His hands clenched at his sides, the frustration now spilling over. He had tried to explain, to make her understand that the work he did was important—not just for him, but for them. Yet here she was, dismissing it all with a few sharp words and a slammed door.
Wooyoung eye glanced at the bottle that stood out brightly, the sun hitting it perfectly to make it glow.
" i mean... she is my genie.." Wooyoung mumbled, getting up from his chair to grab the bottle.
Wooyoung’s eyes lingered on the bottle for a moment longer, the bright glow almost as if calling to him. He picked it up, the smooth glass cool against his fingers, and for the first time in what felt like days, he let out a sigh of relief. It wasn’t that he was turning to her as a solution to all his problems, but more that she was a constant in the chaos of his life. And right now, with everything feeling out of control, he just wanted someone to talk to.
" yn?"
The bottle emitted a soft hiss as green smoke swirled from it, filling the room with a fragrant, calming scent. In an instant, Yn appeared before him, dressed in her simple dress.
“Master Wooyoung,” Yn greeted, her voice gentle but carrying that ever-present warmth he found so comforting.
Wooyoung smiled, ignoring the master part. Wooyoung hesitated for a moment, trying to figure out how to explain everything that had been going on. Minyoung, the argument, the tension—it was all too much to untangle in one breath. But when he looked at Yn, there was a quiet comfort in her presence, and it was as if all the words he had been holding back came rushing forward.
" i think i'm ready to make my wish ynnie" Wooyoung mumbled,
Yn tilted her head, a gentle smile spreading across her face as she took in Wooyoung's expression. The nickname making her feel warm and fuzzy on the inside, a feeling she missed. Yn stood up straighter as a smile was placed on her lip. She noticed how stressful Wooyoung looked.There was a hint of something vulnerable in his eyes, something that told her this wish wasn’t just a passing fancy. It was deeper, a reflection of the heaviness he’d been carrying.
"Whenever you’re ready, Wooyoung,” she said softly, her voice inviting him to speak without hesitation.
Wooyoung took a deep breath, feeling an odd comfort just standing there with Yn, her calm presence grounding him. His gaze shifted from the floor to her, as if he was finding courage in her gentle smile.
“I know it’s strange, but…” he hesitated, gathering his thoughts. “I think I’m ready to make a wish. I wish I could make sense of things—"
The sound of the doorknob jiggling open interrupted Wooyoung. Yn looked at Wooyoung, curious as Minyoung stepped inside. Not realizing that yn is standing there, she made her way towards the kitchen island.
" i forgot my keys. I'm still mad at you" Minyoung said, still not glancing at Wooyoung and yn.
Wooyoung heart sank as he registered her words. Minyoung looked at Wooyoung now, before her eyes shot to yn.
" and who is this?"
Wooyoung felt his chest tighten as he watched Minyoung’s gaze shift to Yn, her expression transforming from irritation to suspicion.
“Minyoung,” he started, his voice calm but careful, “this is Yn. She’s… someone helping me with some things right now.”
Minyoung’s eyebrows raised, skepticism evident in her gaze as she took in Yn’s presence, her attire, and the way she stood next to Wooyoung. “Helping? Since when do you need help at home, and from someone I’ve never even heard of?”
Yn took a small step back, sensing the tension in the room but keeping a calm and respectful demeanor. “I’m here to support Wooyoung in any way he needs,” she replied softly, offering Minyoung a polite nod.
Minyoung’s lips tightened. “Support him? Is this some kind of joke? You can’t just bring in random people and call it ‘help.’” She crossed her arms, her gaze shifting back to Wooyoung. “Are you even serious about us, Wooyoung?”
Wooyoung clenched his jaw, struggling to stay calm. " of course i am Min-"
Minyoung shook her head, clearly unimpressed. “You know what, I don’t even want to hear it right now.” She grabbed her keys from the counter and turned to leave, throwing a quick glare at Yn as she headed out the door.
As the door slammed shut behind her, Wooyoung let out a heavy sigh, feeling the weight of the confrontation settle around him. He turned to Yn, whose expression held quiet understanding.
" i'm so sorry yn. Can we reschedule that wish?" Wooyoung asked, pushing his hair back.
Yn’s gentle smile didn’t waver as she nodded. “Of course, Wooyoung. Whenever you’re ready, I’ll be here,” she replied, her voice reassuring.
Wooyoung felt a surge of gratitude, noticing how understanding she was despite the awkwardness of the situation. He gave her a small, appreciative smile. “Thank you, really.”
He reached for his coat and keys, glancing back at Yn before heading out. “I’ll be back soon, okay?”
yn nodded her head ready to head back to her bottle before Wooyoung popped his head back in. " don't go back to your bottle, hang out for a bit yeah? I feel awful for having you go back and forth the bottle when i need you."
Yn’s eyes brightened at his words, a small smile appearing as she nodded.
As the door clicked shut, Yn released a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. Her gaze traveled around the room, drawn to the details that made up Wooyoung’s space. The apartment was cozy yet modern, with small personal touches scattered around—a couple of framed photos on the shelves, a stack of books on the coffee table, and his camera equipment carefully organized on the desk.
She walked over to the shelf, inspecting the photos with a soft smile. There was one of Wooyoung, mid-laugh, with a group of friends around him. It was a snapshot of happiness, a glimpse into a world she didn’t yet know but felt strangely connected to. Moving on, she ran her fingers along the spines of his books, wondering if he would let her borrow one or two someday.
As she wandered, Yn felt a sense of curiosity and contentment that she hadn’t experienced in a long time. This wasn’t just the home of her master; it was Wooyoung’s world, and she was beginning to feel like she was, somehow, a part of it.
Before long, her eyes wondered to the door. Her heart thumping against her chest as she walked closer to where Wooyoung had left. Yn’s gaze lingered on the door, curiosity bubbling within her. She took a few tentative steps closer, her heart quickening with each one. She knew it was against the nature of her role to leave the apartment without being summoned, yet there was something about Wooyoung’s world beyond that door that tugged at her, an inexplicable pull that urged her to take just one small step outside.
Yn paused just before the door, her fingers hovering over the handle. She could feel the pull of her bottle, the familiar safety and comfort of it, but something held her back. Something about the way Wooyoung had spoken to her—his gratitude, his sincerity—made her hesitate.
She turned back to look at the empty room. For the first time, she felt a strange connection to the human she was bound to serve. It wasn’t just about magic, wishes, or commands. There was something deeper now, something that made her hesitate.
"Maybe… just for a moment," she whispered to herself, and before she could think too much about it, she opened the door and stepped into the hallway.
#ateez x reader#ateez imagines#wooyoung x you#ateez oneshot#ateez#ateez scenarios#ateez wooyoung x reader#wooyoung ateez#ateez wooyoung#ateez jung wooyoung#wooyoung x reader#wooyoung fluff#wooyoung angst#jung wooyoung#wooyoung#── .✦ genie in a bottle
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Bit ooc but I have a question. How you do go about planing out your PLA comic? Like how do you actually turn your ideas/ storyline into comic form? Is it chapter to chapter or do you have the whole idea already planned out? Trying to find my own way in comic making so I’m just wondering if you could give any advice. Feel free to ignore if you don’t feel comfortable answering
So, at first this was al i could think to send.
because its incredibly accurate to my process.
Jokes aside, a lot of how i work is back and forth chaos, fighting with ideas until im happy with them. I will start with a list (usually not written down because im unhinged and keep a ot of it in my brain) and organise it in a way that makes sense to the situation, in this case workign with a game with an established plot...not that its a very strong one.
with a set of ideas, and a game to work around i will ramble and rant to a few choice people who i bounce well off, and also stare into space for hours on end building the ideas. This process can be days, it can be years. For context, i have some notes from 2019 about things i wanted to include that are still relevant. I have been scheming how to break and rebuild this OC for ages. Theres no correct time frame, so long as you simply do the work.
Once i have a fairly loose plan, i start to solidify the benning and the end. What is required to make a character compelling, what makes them believable, what makes them human in a way that we recognise. this isnt always a positive thing, people like to call characters who do bad things problematic, but its human nature to make mistakes and be damaged or difficult, the process of the story is not always rainbows and sunshine. For me, this hits even harder, as im trying to tell a story from the perspective of someone fundamentally broken, so showing those breaks and cracks has to be done wisely.
This is the point where i make notes about things that need to change from the start to the end. And ill say one thing, this story in particular, I have not solidly planned the middle. I am allowing space for me to come up with new ideas at points. Being locked into a dead set of ideas can be quite limiting, and as creators we consume and process things constantly to generate new stories. Id be a fool to make a plan and stick to it. everything i do is vague guidelines.
However, I know exactly how the story ends in Hisui, and where it goes to from there. And i think me personally knowing the end goal makes it easier to plot steps towards that, and some of those steps are anything but progressive.
If nothing else, the end was the only thing i saw clearly, and it has only become more complex and loaded and emotional as the rest of this has fallen into place. If you can see the goal, you can work out how to get there with time.
Regarding the chapters, i tend to draft plan up like 3-4 of them at a time, and then go in order to sketch out one after the other, so i have plenty of time to change things while i adjust. its constantly a process of seeing what you make, seeing issues, and scrapping whole parts just to redraw something better or new, unique even. I dont think a single page ive posted has resembled the very VERY first draft thumbnail ive made, and thats just how i do. Every panel, how big they are, the angle you hand the viewer, the way you light things, the expressions, this all dictates SO SO much.
Taking time over it is kind of the job, and let me stress, this is normally a job done by a team, especially the highly popular comics. one inks, one colours, one shades, one handles text, one edits, theres so many people behind it, so dont be bothered by the pace at which things are made if youre working alone like i am. One person means longer production times, if you can, spread the workload out, but its not required. Its why i always say it doesnt matter how long it takes to make, so long as youre still making.
I think its also worth noting, comics are consumed quickly, the bakcgournds and small details can be lost in the ace of the storytelling, pick and choosing your battles is wise, save your time on panels where you want the reader to shift along quicker, keep that pace high, and add in more detail and depth to panels you want to champion or get the viewers to hang around on more. its ok to let go of a "perfect" image in favour of getting content out, if youre being driven nuts by it. Again, time be damned, be happy with it. And if you can let go of petty details, id suggest doing it when possible, so long as it doesnt effect the storytelling.
I mean what else can i even say. This work is a passion project, I love it, more than i can even put into words, and i think you kind of have to, to make comics without monetary motivation. sure you can get lucky and find ways to make it big, but for most of us, its the love of the story. So maybe try not to be your biggest hater, its easy to slip into the behaviour, so try be gentle on yourself and the process. I should take that advice myself haha! but i really do mean it. This is HARD work, so be kind to yourself over it.
anyway, with a rough idea, a bunch of sketches, and time, they get inked and fussed over, i make a billion changes to layout and story, and eventually posting can happen but not after fighting with the monster that is creating. Idk what else i can say. This is not work for the feint of heart, but anyone can learn to do it.
Good luck, comic artists can always use it!
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hi!! i love ur work !
so random request but i was wondering if you could write how denki or sero would comfort you if you were clearly going through something, like distancing , sleeping all day, being overly quiet, the whole thing. ive been going through alot lately and it would be greatly appreciated if you could! completely understand if not!!
✮ that funny feeling
ft. denki kaminari x gn reader
warnings: depressive themes
notes: anon i’m so sorry it’s taken me forever to get to this 😭 i hope you’re doing better!!! also yeah bo burnham title bc i cannot EVER title things ugh (divider from @cafekitsune)
denki kaminari is observant when he wants to be, meaning that he notices almost immediately when you start to distance yourself. at first, he kind of assumes he’s done something to hurt your feelings. it starts with cancelling your plans once, then twice - taking hours to respond to his texts, then avoiding them all together. choosing to eat dinner alone in your dorm instead of with him. when you skip class for the third day in a row without so much as a “hey, won’t be there today” text, he thinks he’s really fucked up. how could he possibly fumble you this hard and have no clue how it happened?!
when he realizes no one has heard much of anything from you lately, denki resolves to find out what’s going on asap. he’s knocking on your door before he even considers that you might prefer a check-in over text, but you crack open the door anyway. if he’s shocked at your appearance he doesn’t show it - from the looks of you, that’s probably the last thing you need right now. he smiles big and his shoulders relax a bit seeing that you’re at least alive although in a brief panic, he definitely did worry about that for a second or two. “you mind if i come in?”
you sigh deeply and open the door wider for him, your face flushing in embarrassment as he steps inside and closes the door behind him. there are clothes strewn about the floor, papers and trash littering several surfaces, and probably a dozen empty water bottles on your nightstand. “i uh, just wanted to come check on you - i’ve been worried, y’know?” and you do know, and you feel awful about it, on top of everything else. you fiddle with the hem of your hoodie, sitting on the wrinkled edge of your bed. you nod, clearing your throat a bit before speaking. “i dunno,” you shrug, the bed dipping under his weight next to you, “guess i haven’t felt that good lately.”
denki tilts his head to the side, offering you a small smile. “really? you could’ve fooled me, you look incredible!” his voice is tender and you know there isn’t any underlying insult - he genuinely just wants to make you laugh. you do, although it’s more like a sharp exhale, but his smile grows wider at the small success. he gently pulls you to his chest, wrapping his arms around you securely. you sigh and busy your head into his chest, instantly feeling lighter than you had in weeks. “you want me to order us something to eat while you go have a shower?”
“…yeah, that sounds nice.”
#mha x reader#mha#denki kaminari x reader#denki kaminari#mha denki#denki x reader#bnha denki#denki x y/n#denki headcanons#mha kaminari#bnha kaminari#kaminari x reader#denki fluff#mha fluff#mha fanfiction#mha x reader fluff#mha x gender neutral reader#x reader#fluff#comfort#comfort fic
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now that I've finished datv.. i have some first pass thoughts
spolers below
first of all why is this game trying so hard to rehabilitate in-universe controversial aspects? I mean like. Slavery in Tevinter. It's swept under the rug with a few lukewarm platitudes and codices about how it's being addressed off-screen. Previous games have established how horrific it is, but the tevinter we see in veilguard doesn't reflect that at all. it feels dismissive of a lot of major setting and character development. Same with the antivan crows! they were described as a brutal, cruel organization but now they're the underdog protectors? Sure, there was family drama and a few mentions of how cut-throat things HAD been before, but we don't get to *see* any of that. illario was weak as an example of this bc he was the only thing to be shown as bad. There's no tangible impact.
it seems like a feeble attempt to make sure the players understand that the writers do not condone the unsavory aspects of the setting and characters, while making everything a Teachable Moment. honestly half of the game felt like a psa on extremely basic ethics, like surface-level shit children already know.
on top of that, idk why the game is trying so hard to therapize the player via companions' emotional journeys. The extremely basic and direct "your feelings matter and it's okay to feel your feelings! " scenarios were so repetitive and cringe. Sesame street level bullshit. am i crazy for expecting a more mature and nuanced approach to emotional struggle??? I swear previous games were better at this
also fuck all of southern thedas, it's cooked. hope yall didn't care!
Anyway.
ive only played through Neve's romance and i chose her bc she talks and acts like an adult and not a flustered teenager like harding, or a quirky mpdg like bellara. I liked it, it was fine. no strong feelings about it tho.
I didnt consider Taash as a romance option bc they act like a petulant child most of the time and that's just not fun for me.. and I don't love that Taash seems more like a prop for Gender Ideology 101 rather than being a fully complex character who is working through a gender identity crisis. I am not trans and cannot fully speak to this but as someone who knows more than the absolute basics of gender ideology, their story felt patronizing.
the boys are... fine, I guess. I wrecked treviso so I think i got locked out of some Lucanis stuff but his possession just isn't as compelling as previous characters who have been possessed. Davrin is fine, inoffensive. Emmerich is funny I do like him, Manfred is delightful.
I played as an elf bc I hoped it'd be extra relevant to the story, what with the Big Bad(s) being evanuris. it didn't matter at all. the crossroads doesn't even look different for an elf character like it did in Trespasser.
I expected everything to drive torward making Solas out to being a Good Guy Actually, and it kind of did. but super aggravating for have phantom varric to say that after being actually murdered by him like damn!! you are just gonna let that guy walk all over you bc yall were friends for a short while a decade ago. Where was that sympathy for Anders??
varric being a figment of rook's imagination the whole time was a fun reveal, tho.
siiigghhh. but listen. there were things I liked about the game, too. the gameplay is fun. the environments are GORGEOUS. the characters look good, i think the art style is fine actually. the character creator is great (except those qunari fiveheads RIP)
a lot of the banter and jokes did genuinely make me laugh, and i did like exploring maps and interacting with the new companions generally.
I havent given a lot of thought to it but I think a lot of the plot-related issues i have could've been solved by just setting the game like, 100 years in the future. All of the questionable and unsavory aspects of the cultures the game tries SO hard to diminish and write off would've had time to be organically rectified in-universe. I guess.
well. whatever.
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YIPPEE YAY!! hi guy. beauty that is The Tagging Games <3
favourite colour: green!! used to be mainly that super eye-strainy yellow-green radioactive colour but all shades of green are sooo gorgeous to me i cant pick favourites. well theres one i like the most which is 'green leafs on trees when the sun shines through them' its very specific but its my favourite colour of all time forever...
last song: i had to go through ten pages of tf2 fight songs on last.fm for this. its such a funny bit but by god. anyway it was kuso breaking nou breaking lily by maximum the hormone. listened to that album for the first time a while back and this song is like my all time favourite from it, used to loop it constantly a few weeks/months ago pff
currently reading: cuckoo by gretchen felker-martin! ive yet to finish it but its really good i like it a lot... ive gotta hurry the fuck up i have to take it back to the library in like 3 days lmfao. really want to take a shot at drawning the main cast and the body horror.
currently watching: metalocalypse babyyyyyyyy. honestly wanted to just rewatch aotd again but wanted to finish rewatching the show first. supposed to be rewatching all of jjba but i hate part 2 i dont want to look at it.. also need to finish the golden girls lmao.
currently craving: b&j's cookie dough... i dont even like the cookie dough that much the vanilla ice cream is just so fucking delicious... havent had it in forever though because the price is absolutely fucking ridiculous lmao
coffee or tea: i love iced coffee and i love tea... fuck... i have to go with coffee simply because i like my iced coffees too much. tea is delicious though where would i be without it during winter.
hobby to try: all of them must be done i need to start my projects... drawing, writing, reading more, and uh, squints, making character edits that counts right. i need to learn how to use shotcut lol. been meaning to get into clay stuff or to learn to knit but i always forget to get on it lmao.
current au: cant think of any for the life of me tbh. OH SHIT YEAH my psychonauts metalocalypse au i forgot completely about that. i think dethklok being psychics would be so fucking funny they'd be so terrible. i can imagine revealing their horrors using their mental worlds so easy. i grin sinisterly. psychonauts aus are just so good always. also theyre so fun to design!! besides that all the current others are co-owned so if i was gonna mention them i'd want to make a big thing about it. like a really shitty gender reveal. (they're all really shitty, but you get what i mean right) congratulations, it's a freak!
tagging: friends and mutuals yippee yay! im shy tagging my mutuals so if you dont want to do this per some random internet fellow giving the say-so, then no pressure LOL @brookiesandcream @its-me-im-bumblebee @the-archivists-plus-one @classic-heavy @ruthytwoshakes @maplemaplemaplemaplemaple + anybody else who feels up to it, get silly w/ it!!
Get to Know Me (tagged by @slingbees)
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rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better and catch up with
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Favorite Color(s): ORANGE!!!!! but also yellow!
Last Song:
youtube
Currently Reading: them Guardians of Ga'hoole books because when I was in the hospital I read one of them.
Currently Watching: I'm going through Red Vs Blue with some friends.
Currently Craving: this peach monster right beside me. don't tempt me.
Coffee or Tea: I haven't been drinking much of either recently, but coffee.
Hobby to Try: Start animating at home.
Current AU: I guess I've been thinking about that Simpsons comic where Smithers gets cloned, fucking hilarious they just start killing each other. Other than that, I don't know.
TAGGING:@sleepypuddding @funkyjunkyfangz @beeframennoodles100 @danklemckspankle @potatoqueensays @notevenhodgepodge @butchbarneygumble @lorogy662 @calpalsworld anyone else too!
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PRETTY CVNT
#tw eyestrain#tw: eyestrain#eyestrain#fakeman friday#oh yeah this is for fakeman friday#idk i just love drawing fakeman having mental breakdowns#ive been meaning to do this for a while but like#idk im bad at working with eyestrain lol#rayman#captain laserhawk#fanart#digital art#captain laserhawk a blood dragon remix#clhabdr#clh fanart#clh fakeman#fakeman#rayplica#rayplacement#clabdr#netflix series#netflix#pretty cvnt#ubisoft#captain laserhawk fanart#mental breakdown#lil bro is not okay
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Hero.
#legend of zelda#echoes of wisdom#loz eow#loz#zelda#tri#josh art tag#been meaning to do a full on stained glass drawing for like 2 years now lol#ive had ideas but none really stuck with me until this one#and the reason why is cuz this one was more of a scene! it wasnt just a normal drawing made to look like stained glass#it had what is supposed to be a literal window with someone standing before it looking up at it#also i find the timing of this drawing funny#cuz i just recently changed my shading style to resemble stained glass even more so than usual#cuz for years now ive gottem comments saying#my style reminds people of stained glass#and sometimes i see it sometimes i dont#cuz my shading style changes and sometimes it really did look glass like#but other times i dont think it did?? but i still got those comments??#maybe its like the way i do lineart or block out shapes?#idk but recently when i was growing tired of my previous coloring style i remembered those comments#and decided to lean into it#but now just a little while after that#here i am doing a legit stained glass illustration lol
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Different standards
#didnt mean to do this one in quote unquote colour but it wasnt legible without it so. heres a treat i suppose#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#isat loop#isat bonnie#lucabyteart#coughs up a lung. anyway. ramble time as per usual. this is what i was warming up for btw in case it wasnt obvious#besides being another entry in the 'letting bonnie read loop for filth on accident' series. this is mostly self indulgent musings on#headcanons (and i will just use that word here.) ive previously rambled about in other tags and posts#namely: in the scenario that loop integrates into the party as a New Person for quite a while before The Truth Come Out. i feel they have#a decent chance at really scoring a slam dunk in becoming a guardian figure for bonnie? loop's demeanor is already colder and a tiny#bit more level-headed than siffrin's in the way they seem to discuss bonnie with them. namely pointing out that bonnie#never really hated them. it seems to be one thing they're genuinely at peace with? they've seen by now the truth that bonnie#was just scared and upset. and likely now knows that what bonnie wants is to be treated with grown-up respect within reason. plus loop#already scores bonus points with bonnie since they didnt 1. fuck up bad like sif did in act 5 and 2. saved sif in the party's eyes#... but then when it turns out that this clean-slate relationship with a stranger was siffrin being deceitful? must have been odd.#bonnie seems to really dislike being lied to. the question is whether they'd see it that way? would they feel betrayed there?#anyway. this is set after all those emotions are at least settled some. loop able to be more physically affectionate... and yet#still not letting themselves be quite as close as they'd like perhaps. perhaps...#anyway translucent pyjamas because i dont care if you're comforting a crying child you've GOT to SERVE!!!#and also i feel like the party probably wouldn't let loop stay completely naked for that long. especially not post-reveal anyway
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Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?
thank you so much !!
i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]
and the obligatory bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#fall of x#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#for clarity on of this tag ramble im calling magneto max OK ok#sorry it took me a while to answer- ive been busy this week !#but yah like i said theres a lot of Fall Of X moments i wanna poke at#one i really wanted to doodle around was max's time with the shadow king from Resurrection of Magneto#the third issue is prob my fave in general if im so tbh .... but i wont prattle bout that ill go back to my previous prattle#i dont think i have a comic in mind prob just a doodle with shadow charles....#i mean if im devious enough i can def turn it into a comic but for now i just know i wanna do something with that#honestly even this moment i might revisit when i have more time to draw something. a lil better#i dont hate this its a sound start- but i THINK i wanna draw a smooch. a lil kiss. idk we'll see#cause im cheeky like that. 'will this be the last time i see you' 'girl idk we can kiss about it though' etc etc#god not to get off topic but im so curious what will happen with these two ... but thats for a diff post i guess#honestly if you guys have any runs i should read lemme know !! i just finished way of x and bar that ive just been reading the 60s issues#i have a couple on my list i wanna check out but im always excited to look into recs if yall think theyre worth it !!#but ya. thats all from me for now#my time is so finite this week i hope i can draw these sillies again soon .. i have a lot of ideas i fear#maybe i can sneak in one more doodle tonight ... <- doubtful
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ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.
when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!
that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.
but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!
joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.
and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.
tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.
#aromantic#aro positivity#aspec#aroace#aro#aromantic joy#arospec#when i saw its important to 'love' yourself - pls understand i am in no way trying to exclude loveless aros from this#that was just the easiest way to express what i meant! when i say 'love' i mean positivity/respect/happiness. etc. i just used that word bc#it works for ME which is why i said it. but feel free to replace it with whatever works for you! <2#also sorry if not everything im saying makes total sense i tried my best#this is something ive been thinking about for a while and have been struggling to articulate#i maybe should have read some theory for this abt community building but im too tired + overwhelmed w school reading right now so sorry.#if anyone has additions on that front though please do add them#also ngl im kinda scared to post this. i hope i explained what i mean well enough. like i get wanting to vent and express self hate BUT.#there is nuance to this and it is not unilaterally healthy i think. also i dont see any other online community fostering the normalisation#of selfhate the way the aspec one does! which makes me feel weird abt it especially.#anyway. this is basically my personal philosophy towards aromanticism#mossy posts#⚙️
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