#ive been looking at it tooooo long

[blargberries]

finale vash 🌺💙

[cheekylittlepupp]

listen this is very random but...I used to think people edit his eyes brighter in this scene but lord...

[nomairuins]

i unlocked a new voice earlier btw but i cant do it that much bc it requires me to be nervously laughing and breathing very heavily and it had me gasping for breath for like 30 minutes

[ribbononline]

Howdy just wanted to let you know how much I love your fantasy AI and how cute the designs are!

Assuming you meant Fantasy AU haha- Thank you! Ive admittedly been playing with their design a little in the background (And it hink I posted some sketches before? though im unsure if I tagged them) since some of them looked. a little too human ((sorry archie i LOVE selkies but untransformed it truly is just a fur coat. which. isnt great for a more tropical setting)) but the core of it has never changed lol I love modern fantasy

The designs are half inspired by Pokémon now, though not tooooo intensly.

Max is still mosty faun, but leant a little more into full furry for him I guess. Cope old man.

Archie has been changed from selkie which HORTS but alas i lacked the skills to draw him cool. He's just a general mercreature now. He has legs but he's half fish in design he can breathe underwater. You get it

Others I've had thoughts on:

May gets to be torchic in harpy form. She's a rare case, as she can naturally do some magic! She can Breathe Fire. Very fun for her parents. She can't fly, but she can kind of flutter- which is great for parkouring around! Active kid. Due to lacking arms/hands she uses her legs/talons for most things instead

I want Courtney to be Meowstic inspired, probably with some/devil/demon inspo for the monster part? But I admittedly haven't thought of a design Im happy with yet. She also has some natural magic! Again, not supposed to be very common. She can levitate stuff and throw around psychic shockwaves if she's mad. She tried studying to be a witch for a little while, but she didn't really like it.

Lisia is Mostly Just Regular Lisia except the cloud fluff on her outfit is part of her lol. She's a combination of Swablu inspired and a full on wind spirit. She looks normal most of the time but if a strong wind catches on her physical form literally temporarily blows away into clouds. She can control the condensation in the air around her- which is almost entirely useless, except she can use it to create rainbows behind her. Great idol trick

Zinnia gets some fun dragon traits, and also lives up to her Lorekeeper title. While there's plenty of common spells written down and going around, Zinnia has access to and protects a lot of more powerfull forgotten stuff. Most imporantly Delta Magic, which... Functions via Totally Not Mega Stones, and allows the user unlimited access to type magic for as long as it's active. It's pretty draining, but it's the only time that actual world changing magic can be made to happen, rather then more mundane or minor stuff

[torialefay]

I knew it! My guess was right!!

Chris just confirmed he has been doing laser hair removal for the past five years on his face and body.

And he doesn't even get anaesthesia when he does it?? He raw dogs jt on his face??

It's why his armpits are so smooth BUT it's not permanent so he has to get it done regularly- even after five years.

Han admitted he straight up still uses a razor hence why you see a lot of 5 o'clock shadow in his lives.

I wish we saw Han with more facial hair honestly because he looks so good with a bit of stubble.

god i love hannie with a bit of stubble 🤤 i literally foam at the mouth every time. he just looks SO good it's ridiculous. i hope he knows that

okay that honestly makes me feel better that chris confirmed it bc like okay at least now i know there's not a magical armpit remedy that ive been misisng out on to get mine to look that good. idk idk but going once a month seems lowkey exhausting. like of he doesn't get to go, what then??? what if he's gone for a long time & cant schedule it in??? is he gonna grow smth back out??? idk how this works but i'm so curious now. lowkey though, he seemed like he liked getting it done or smth, and i just wanted to scream at him like (noooo you don't have tooooo 😭). but if he wants it, then i guess 🙄

[coquettluvr]

ajax : heaven and back

"y/n, come to my party tomorrow evening 8 pm, please cutie?"

- ajax

"im busy tomorrow ajax...."

i lied

i lied because, ajax had a crush on me. but i never really felt the same for him and so i had to decline the invite to his party.

i didn't want him to get his hopes high, because breaking a guy's heart, is the last thing i would want to do.....

but just after a while of me declining his invite, i started getting too many messages.....all at once.

"y/n, why would u decline?" - diluc.

"y/n, don't be so stubborn pls. im sure we'd have fun" - dehya.

"y/n? parties are fun no? i'll pick you up and drop you okay?" - kaeya.

"y/n, ajax is rich. we'd have so much fun, now come on, reschedule your plans" - alhaitham.

ugh. this is why i hate popular guys. they get away with everything. ajax must have asked them to convince me and now everyone is asking me to come to the party.....but i know for a fact that ajax will roam around me and irritate me there by asking me questions.....

i didn't want to go but so many of my friends were requesting me to the point that i couldn't deny.....

and i did feel like i needed a moment to relax myself from the work stress ive been dealing with. maybe going to the party isn't so much of a bad idea i guess?

i take my phone to text ajax even though my heart denied.

"hey ajax....im coming to your party" - me

"sure cutie" - ajax

time skip, tomorrow 5:30 pm

"y/n, what are you wearing tonight? - ajax

"ummm i was thinking of maybe wearing a black slip dress?"

"oh? then i would wear a black suit for you so that we could match eachother, cutie" - ajax.

🎀

after about half an hour, kaeya rings up my door bell and allows me in his car to go to ajax's venue and we arrive there together

"heyyyy y/nnie!!!" ajax exclaimed in an excited tone and allowed me to follow him to take a look around his new house.

after a while of me praising his house interior and room decor, i heard Jean calling us around to play a game of truth and dare.

And honestly, i enjoyed that game a lot but.....i knew that ajax was here as well and i would probably get teased by his name constantly. but honestly, i let that slide because i needed to relax myself by this party and not ruin anyone's mood....

but who knew this party could get wayyyy tooooo relaxing?

"21! oh me? awh okay i choose dare" i said....knowing that this dare would not be easy at all, but....i liked to take risks soooo why not ?

"okay y/n, if u could choose one boy from this room to fuck with, who would you choose?" kaeya asks

but as soon as he asked this, alhaitham was quick to correct him "hey kaeya, she chose dare, not truth"

and that's when i knew that i messed up by choosing dare.

and then, amber moves forward and says

"okay, y/n i dare you to have

seven minutes of heaven with ajax

WHAT.

"its a dareee, you have to do it" "comeonnn y/n u gotta do this" "ajax is prob hard rn by thinking of it haha" "it's a dare, u have to follow the rules" "u can't back off now y/n"

everyone starts chanting the same words with the repeated meaning

i think to myself, can they all shut up?

i refused to have those "seven minutes" with ajax, but honestly....rules are rules right? i had to follow them considering the fact that others accepted their dares too.....

ajax holds my hand and we both go into his room together and we could feel the tension building up between us....

"y/n uh i don't know what to say- honestly if you are uncomfortable with the dare, then we can just refuse........orrr if you would like to atleast try being with me? please y/n? ive had a crush on you for so long and i just wish we could get together one day.

if my love is true, then we will"

i could feel ajax sliding his hands around my waist and holding my neck with his other hand.

he pins me up against the wall and starts leaning in closer towards me. i could feel the adrenaline rushing as i wanted to feel his lips on mine so badly....i never thought i could feel this way for ajax but maybe.....maybe his love was true and i could feel it between us, just like he said.

and then. our lips intertwined

his soft lips with his rough kisses really turned me on, too much. and maybe. maybe. in this moment, all i wanted was ajax. and it did feel like "heaven" right now.

the kissing gets more intense as our tongues play with eachother by intertwining and sucking eachother's lips.....

and as our time was running out, his kisses were getting deeper and deeper, and so, my moans were getting louder.

ajax goes lower, towards my neck and starts giving his love bites

"agh- ngh ajax- ah" i moan.

"i can't stop now, y/n...not because i have to complete the dare, but because i can't let go of you and im not in the state to ever let go of you. i love you and these loves bites are a sign of me being yours"

and that's when i realised that ajax is kind of just like my type......dominative and rough actions....but with soft words. i love such men.

and i couldn't deny that i was catching feelings for ajax right now at this moment....

he starts to move his lips towards my chest, and then, he slips my dress's strap and my boobs which were covered with my black lace bra were clearly visible to him.

i could see ajax's erection down there...

he places my one hand on my boobs and starts to kiss and suck it. he then starts to suck my nipples which made me moan because he was getting even more rough and more intense.

ajax couldn't control it anymore and so, he starts to take off his belt and unbutton his pants.....

his dick...i loved his light brown creamy base with lightish pink tip so much. i wanted leave my kiss marks imprint on it.

"get down on your knees y/n" he said in a deep breathy but in a needy voice.

and so. i did.

i lick his tip and kiss it at first which makes him moan loudly in pleasure.

"agh- y/n....i missed you so much."

"aghhh uhmmm mmm y/n, uhh mmh continue it"

i move his dick back and forth before taking it in my mouth and then, after that, i start to suck it.

i take it in my mouth and he lets out soft deep moans...

his moans are so good it's turning me on so badly.

i lick, suck and kiss his dick continuously until our "seven minutes" were over.

he moans loudy "aghh y/n stop omg this agh- uh- mgh- ngh"

his hot cummage was in my mouth and he forced me to swallow it whole

before putting his pants back up, he slid his hands inside my skirt and he kept moving it further upward until he could feel my pussy. he starts to rub on my clit while i moan and enjoy the feeling of it, a little too much.

he continues rubbing it and satisfying me until i reach my limit....i moan and beg for him to stop

"ngh mmh ajax ah-"

these past seven minutes really felt like heaven for both of us

and then. we share one more kiss after it.

"i love you so much y/n. can i be yours now?"

"i love you more ajax, im all yours now"

[winterrhayle]

COWBOY CARTERRRRR ★𐚁𓃗

this album is literally . everything omg like i've literally been going crazy over this album and it's not even been a week yet and i apologise for the babbling but i need to get some things off my chest or i will actually lose it so !!!! gonna yap about every single track now !!!!!! (some coherent thoughts, and some not so coherent thoughts) : 

★★★★★

AMERIICAN REQUIREM - (im obsessed with all of the stylisation ii in the album titles bc its act ii) this song is basically a thesis statement for the whooooole album the main lyrical part is : 'used to say i spoke "too country" / and the rejection came, said / "i wasn't country enough" / said i wouldn't saddle up, but / if that ain't country, tell me what is? ' and obviously it goes without saying that the vocals on this track are PERFECT and angelic because, this is beyoncé she could never underdeliver. ive heard so many people say that the layering reminds them of bohemian rhapsody and I AGREEEE

after ameriican requirem, this section of the next fourish tracks reminded me of self titled (2014) in the sense that it explores the different aspects of beyoncé as a person (being a black woman, career, motherhood, self love etc) LOOKA DER LOOKA DER LALALALALALALALALALALAAAAAAAAA. THIS INTRO IS EVERYTHING TO ME ITS SO CINEMATIC AND BIG AND ★BEYONCÉ★

BLACKBIIRD - second song on here is a cover of blackbird by the beatles, featuring tanner adell, brittney spencer, tiera kennedy, and reyna roberts (all up and coming black country artists!!!!). i didn't know this until like, the day the album dropped and i was looking into it but blackbird was written by paul mccartney about black women in the 60s experiencing struggles with the american civil rights movement. and in england 'bird' is kinda slang for girl, so 'black bird' = 'black girl'. and that song was intended to bring hope, such a perfect track for this album , specially with the features beyoncé included 🤞🏽

16 CARRIAGES - my favourite out of the 2 pre release singles. its about her entering the music industry at 15 and the struggles due to that and growing up so fast, whenever this comes on i will NEVER EVER SKIP ITS TOOOOO GOOOD

PROTECTOR  - i love how this is featuring rumi🥹 whenever beyonce talks about motherhood, or writes a song for her kids (like here, blue, bigger, brown skin girl etc) it always gets me tearing up on first listen. first of all i LOVEEEE a voice memo intro, and this whole lullaby is just <333333

MY ROSE - ive seen a lot of people saying that they dont like how this album is so long, but me personally, i love that there are so many tracks, even short ones like this that add depth or a vibe. also i love any song that says lalalalalalalalaaaa so that got me

SMOKE HOUR ★ WILLIE NELSON - IM OBSESSED W THIS INTERLUUUDEEEEEE the feel of changing the channel on a radio is so cool and adds a really fun atmosphere and really works well for themes here

TEXAS HOLD ‘EM - everyone hates this song BUT I DONTTTTT its a real life boogie and a real life hoe down frfr

BODYGUARD - this ones so fun and lighthearted, aside from the parts where shes like ‘i dont like the way shes looking at you 😒😒😒 someone better hold me back’ and that line leads so well into the next tracks:

DOLLY P / JOLENE - HAAHAHAHAHAHA THE DOLLY P INTERLUDE TOOK ME OUTTT WITH THE BECKY WITH THE GOOD HAIR REFERENCE😭 and the lyric changes on jolene with her warning becky instead of begging,, iktr !!!!!!! and ‘you a bird go on and sing your song jolene’ 😩 i really like that beyonce brought in dolly because shes like. THE country star. and its kinda wild that people are still dissing beyoncé for releasing country music and saying she doesn’t belong when the literal dolly parton is advocating for her

DAUGHTER - one of my faves on here, it feels so cinematic and i will always appreciate an i killed my husband country song. the whole vibe of this song is really sinister im obsessed and the visuals are already there in my mind like,, ‘your body laid out on these filthy floors / your bloodstains on my custom coutures’, ‘so let's travel to white chapels and sing hymns /

hold rosaries, and sing in stained glass symphonies’ , ‘i sashayed my dress / did my best impression of a damsel in distress’ , etc etc etc. i would literally quote this entire song if i could i think its lyrically the best one. my favourite part is the refrain about her father and choir boys and the titanic its so real. AND VOCALLLSSS HELLOOOO????? SHE JUST . CASUALLY SINGS CARO MIO BEN??????? oh beyoncé the woman you are whoooo is doing it like you

SPAGHETTI - as soon as i saw this title i knew this song was gonna be fun like first of all, the intro talking about genres being restricting, and then the song going straight into that instrumental???????? AND SHES RAPPING ?????????????? THANOS ????????? CUNTY COUNTRY PETTY !!!!!!!!!! YALL BEEN PLAYED BY THE PLAGARISTIC WHEWWWW NO SAUCE NO SAUCE

ALLIGATOR TEARS - the jump from spaghetti to this was so violent 😩 i had to calm myself down so fast on first listen LMAOOOO. ok so from what i can tell i think this song is saying that she’ll do anything for x (idk who this is to, maybe jay z?) and x doesn’t need any fake tears to get her to do things for them bc she’ll do anything for them regardless. ‘you say change religion 🕺🏽

now i spend sundays with you’

SMOKE HOUR II / JUST FOR FUN- oh my god i so badly want KNTRY radio to be real😭 just for fun feels so nostalgic to me for some reason, and so does ii most wanted tbh but i’ll get to that. i think that willie jones’ voice works SO well with beyoncés, they both sing so softly on here and its like the type of ballad you’d sing around a campfire all happy and sleepy

II MOST WANTED - as someone who never watched hannah montana as a kid, i still really appreciate this song, i know a few songs from that song even though i never watched it so miley’s voice reminds me of my childhood soo much and this song omg🥹🥹🥹🥹 the harmonies and the lyrics and the friendship <333333 the electric guitar specifically stands out to me it reminds me of something but i can’t quite put my finger on it?

LEVII’S JEANS - I DIDNT KNOW THAT POST MALONE COULD SING LIKE THAT ?????? WHAT ? i literally live in england but whenever this song comes on suddenly im line dancing and i am wearing my metaphorical cowboy hat ,,.,,, denim 🕺🏽on 💃🏽denim🕺🏽on denim🕺🏽on 💃🏽denim  AND HE SAID YOURE MY RENESSAINCE !!!!!!!! RENEIGH IS BACK IN EMPLOYMENT

FLAMENCO - i NEED a longer version of this song desperately 😭 right about NOW�� its another nostalgic sounding one

THE LINDA MARTELL SHOW / YA YA - ADDICTED TO THIS SONG WITH THE BEYONCÉ COWBOY CARTER ACT II RODEO INTRO W HER DOING THE DIFFERENT VOICES !!!!!!!!! WE SHAKIN !!!!!!! WE SWIMMIN !!!!!!!!!!!! WE JERKIN !!!!!!!!!!! WE TWEKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM A SUCKER FOR SAMPLES AND SHE SAMPLES 2 SONGS HERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SHE SAID SWEAT OUT THE SHEETS LIKE DRUNK IN LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO HEAR THIS LIVE excuse my excitement but this song is THAT GOOD AND THEN THE TRANSITION INTO OH LOUISIANA IS CHEFFS KISS 

OH LOUSIANA - perfect sample!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO MY ‼️ DADDY ALABAMA ‼️ MOMMA !!!!!!!! LOUISIANA !!!!!!!!!!

DESERT EAGLE - when the eagle sound came on i was so happy i was waiting for that sound this whole album😩 RAAAHHHHHH 🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅 

RIIVERDANCE - this one was stuck in my head for the LONGEST TIME. i need more love for this song, BOUNCE ON THA T SHII DANCE DANCE !!!!! NO HANDS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  IM A LESBIAN BUT IDC IM TURNING THIS UPPPPPP !!!!!! BOUNCE ON THAT SHIIII DANCE DANCE RUNNING THRU THE RIVERRRR RUNNING THRROUGH THE RIVER WITH YOUU BOUNCE ON THAT SHI DANCE DANCE

II HANDS II HEAVEN  - icl when this is playing i still have riiverdance lyrics repeating in my head because the transition is so smooth and the tempo stays the same i LOVEEEEE IT. dont juddgeeee me baby you would never juuudege me baby !!!!!! stallion running no candle in the wind !!!!!!!!!!!!!! this whole post is gonna be so incoherent and im not rereading this sorry to anyone still reading 😭 im just listening and vibing tbh i’m on day 6 of looping this album and im losing my mind, also this song is so sleepy in a really good way and then im woken up byyyyyy TYRANT

TYRANT - I LOVE DOLLYS VOICE IN THE INTRO !!!! AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THE COUNTRY TRAP !!!!!!! THANK YOU COWBOY CARTER FOR GIVING ME THIS !!!!!!!!! and i always appreciate a becky with the good hair mention !!! TOP 5 ON THIS ALBUM FOR SUREEEE also is ‘on the run run’ a part ii on the run reference??? bc that’s so perfect considering theres so many ‘ii’ references on here ALSO i love the higher singing on the outro and on the one by one you hang them high line

SWEET ★ HONEY ★ BUCKIIN’ - ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ MY FAVOURITE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ ON THIS ALBUM !!!!!!!! DARE I SAY… I LIKE THIS MORE THAN PURE / HONEY !!!!!!!! I LOVE A MULTIPLE PART SONG !!!!!!! THE SWEET SECTION IS SO FUN TO DANCE TO AND THE HONEY PART IS MY FAVOTUITE PART OF THIS ALBUM AND THE BUCKIIN PART IS 10000/10 BUCKIIN BUCKIIN BUCKIIIN WOAHHHHHHH also also doesn’t ‘pretty as hell, au naturel , dinin' on farce’ melodically remind you of ‘all my pretty girls to the floor’ from pure/ honey????

AMEN - feelin like im at church again, and it repeats parts of american requirem 😩 i love a tie in omg this album is already such a classic AOTY PLEASE

★★★★★

overall, i think that this is simply the greatest thing to ever grace my ears. i dont think ive ever seen an album with so much thought, care and research put into it, and beyoncé is truly an albums artist and i really really really admire the work she puts into this. since i was really young i really loved her and watching her music videos (watching the self titled music videos at 8 years old is such a core memory for me LOLLL) so every album release is so special to me, and i feel so well fed w this album and i am so intrigued about what’s coming for act iii!!!!!! sorry again for all this talking, this was the cut down version of my thoughts ☠️

overall faves as of right now : sweet honey buckiin, daughter, ya ya, tyrant

[aurirorii]

my carat journey ♡︎

sypnosis: (im sure the title makes this self-explanatory but) in which i tell you all about my first impressions and journeys as a carat. (i like summed it all up so its super short)

a/n: i havent been a carat for tooooo long but nonetheless it makes me feel pretty happy to see ive come as a carat as well as how the group themselves have grown over the years c:

how did it start.. oh right. when i first came around seventeen or seen something about them it was actually back in may of 2021 from a clip i saw on youtube i saw of them on knowing brothers. this clip was when the mcs of the show were trying to guess all of the members’ names and it was the8’s turn.

i remember watching minghao doing that flip or wtv (sorry i dont remember what its called lol) n after he was all cool and stuff. and lowk i was like ‘oooooo.. hes kinda cute’ hehe. and honestly that was kinda it.

you see, it was in 2018 i was actually a k-pop stan yk during the prime era of kpop. obviously over the next 2-4 years i had lost focus. but, when i came back, that video was one of the many i had watched on youtube about kpop. and when i came back, i became a skz fan. i remember felix was my ult bias and that was that.

but that was until i came across an episode of going seventeen. pretty infamous right? god, i remember watching that episode when they were planting rice (ver-paddy) and i was hooked. i had never laughed so much, it was like my spark had come back. i say that because when i re-entered the kpop fandom, i wasn’t at the highest point of my life. so laughing that much over one video on youtube made me so happy. that was when i knew that i needed to find out who this group was and where i can watch more episodes.

that was when i realized that the group i was watching was seventeen: the group with that one cute guy with gray hair and glasses (the8)! also when i realized that vernon was in seventeen (i knew and recognized vernon bc if his cover with jeongyeon, do i need to keep explaining? i didn’t think so).

although, when i started looking into the members, one caught my eye and it was safe to say it was not the8. it was LA boy hong joshua. idk what it was really but i thought he looked so idk— beautiful. so thats what it was for me. i started stanning the group and having joshua as my new ult bias in june 2022. sadly, over time, my interest in skz started to decline. it wasn’t that skz wasn’t great, they are, y’know how it is right?

that was how my journey started. i started listening to their music, getting into going seventeen, binge-watching like all the seventeen related videos i could find on youtube, and most importantly: going through hell trying to learn all of the members.

oh. my. god. hey, you know, it took some time, but i got there! (i always messed up woozi and hoshi) um.. anyways. as time went on, obviously i was able to experience the feeling of waiting to watch their new comebacks and such. and honestly, i don’t mean to be one of those people, but seventeen genuinely brought my spark back. i had, and still, never been so interested in something until them.

around 5-6 months later, it was in novemeber 2022 when i was pretty settled into the group when my thoughts and views started to change. i was starting to focus on new members. i honestly don’t remember at all how this started but jeonghan caught my eye. and i was hooked.

idk.. hes js so.. im sure u know what i mean!!! i mean who wouldn’t? like, have you seen jeonghan? oh lordy lord. he was so beautiful yet fine yet cute yet literally all of the above. i sound like one of those crazy fans. PLEASE GUYS I PROMISE IM NOT LIKE THAY JUST HEAR ME OUT A TINY BIT. let a girl be delulu PLS. ok now im gonna continue being delulu for a sec thanks.

i do admit i still fangirl a bit over him, just a teensy bit!!!!! (i fucking watch edits on tiktok HELP ME I HAVE A SAVED COLLECTION IN MY FAVORITES ermmmm i js want to be organized!!!! …..) please guys im just a girl.

uh. yeah! but in all seriousness, i’m so happy that i was able to come across such an amazing group. time has passed so much and it’s crazy for me to understand that i’ve been already been a carat for almost 2 years. (pls help me ive watched like every gose episode and inside seventeen episode like 50 million times each, but honestly i’ll never get tired of it).

i’m so proud of seventeen after everything they’ve gone through. watching them win their first daesang made me feel so happy for them, they absolutely deserve it. from practicing together in a small, green walled room to selling out almost all of their shows and stages they perform on, seventeen has grown so much as not just a group but individually.

i just know that if seventeen’s predebut self saw their lives now their joy would just be through the roof. as one of the most looked-upon sunbaenims in their industry, i’m sure most people can agree seventeen tops their line of style when making music.

and i’m also so glad i decided to be a carat. i love the fandom, like i can be on tiktok for hours just laughing watching carats post the funniest memes and compilations as well as making the stupidest tweets. i can very much vouch carats are one of the most funniest, supportive fandoms out there.

so yeah, that’s about it!

[iworshipsappho]

hiihihihihiiiii uve said in the past to sendu asks abt ANYTHING and hence the button saying ask me ANYTHING i will now ask ANYTHING so yes hihihihi

havve u ever had it where itslike. theres parts of life u think r soooo poetic but uve never felt like u can find a way 2 likeee.SHOW that properly so ur just like. fuckin paving stones dude r sick. metaphors bro.

sorry i started this ask with a goal in mind and i think i hit my sleepy bar halfway thru so if this makes no sense feel free tooooo yeahhhhh ok yep poetry n shit

hihihi i just woke up so whatever im gonna say is gonna be incoherent as well 🤝

also yes, that feeling is sooooo mutual there are times when ive looked out my window and been like just damn, there's so many people doing so many things with such differnt lives and ive just been rendered speechless, ad to have that happen to me as a writer is just very fhdsfdskjgslg. thatts not th eonly time tho like when i see sunlight filtering through my curtains or like baby crows in nests or a litter of pups just like playing on the road side, im hit with such a sense of like !!!!!oughfddhjg!!! that i have no clue what to do with myself other than smile like a maniac for the rest of the day or like stare at whatever is happening with like what i think would be a face of longing. life is just so so beautiful at times and to have that happen is just such an indescribable experience and yeah. totally get that feeling 100% valid i feel ya fhsdjfdkgdk. petry and shit fr man😌😌

[lady-wren-of-tella]

Okie so one of my current interests is a game called five nights at Freddy’s(fnaf)!! I’ve liked this game series for a long time, it’s honestly one of the longest fandoms that I’ve been in!! Plus fnaf has also been a thing that I’ve liked for so long, I honestly don’t think that I’ll ever stop loving it cause it’s basically apart of my childhood and it’s still something that I love. But anyways, recently a teaser trailer for the movie came out and oh my godddd!!! It looks so good, I’m so bloody excited for the movie!! It’s been in the works for so long and now that we got a teaser trailer AND it’s coming out this year?! AAAHHHHHHH I’m kicking and screaming!!! And and, today a gameplay trailer was released for the new fnaf security breach dlc called ruin and ohhhhhhhh it looks so good as well!!! The design and atmosphere of the game is great, I can’t wait when it comes out so that I can watch gameplay of it!!! And and, I might be able to play it too since my older brother is gonna buy it when it comes out so yayyyyy!!

Okie okie, so my next interest is another video which is Resident Evil 4 remake(re4 remake) and ohhhhhhhh it’s such a bloody pretty game!! The graphics and gameplay is amazingggg!! And and the characters are so pretty too!! My favorite characters from the game are Leon, Ashely, and Luis- and you can call me a simp but I would gladly marry those three because god damn do they look so so pretty and beautiful!! I’m not too far into the game since I’m only watching two friends stream and play it but I’m currently rewatching their stream vods to refresh my memory. But ahhhhhhh the game is so gorgeous and everything about it is so great!! Asmskachkasjkwchajl and and the merchant in re4 remake, aaahhhhhhhh- I like wanna be his friend so bad!! I wanna give him a big ol’ hug each time I see him!! Currently I can’t play it since it’s on the newer gen consoles but whenever I can I’ll definitely 100% play it!!

Finally, my last current interest is an anime called Trigun!! I only recently got into it but ohhhh myyyy godddd does that anime have a grip on me!! The only reason I got into it was because I kept seeing a bunch of TikTok edits of the reboot version of the show which is called Trigun Stampede(I’ll refer to it as TriStamp) so I caved in and I started to watch it and I don’t regret my decision. I was not disappointed!! I loved the characters, the animation, the story- I just loved everything about it!! Then after I finished watching TriStamp a few weeks later I decided why not and I watched the og Trigun. And ohhhhhh myyyyy goddddd, my love for the show grew ten times more!! It was the same show and the same characters but just something about it was so different!!! I just loved it so much!! And and I also watch the movie as well(called Trigun: Badlands Rumble) because I just needed more content!! I’m genuinely so hooked with this anime, the brain rot I have of it is unreal. I recently got two funko pops of my two favorite characters from the anime and I plan to get the rest of the characters but I like wanna get more merch lol xddd Last weekend I saw two figures of two characters from Trigun, I didn’t get them and I regret not buying them but hopefully this weekend me and my brothers will go to the same mall and hopefully, hopefully they’ll still be there that way I can buy them!! There’s also gonna be a TriStamp figure and I want it so baddddd, and and there’s a Trigun and Trigun Maximum deluxe edition manga!! Shubsjjcknskhwkmkfnrk I wanna buy that tooooo!! I’m hoping I’ll be able to get both of these things sometime in the future(maybe even for Christmas but I doubt it.) but ahhhhhh just- the brain rot I have is unbelievable and this show just lives rent free in my mind rn

i've heard about the fnaf movie!! one of my irls loves fnaf and was telling me all about how excited they were for the movie. I dont remember him mentioning anything about the new game being released, but he was super excited about the movie.

ive seen so much abt resident evil (specifically about that one guy named leon) . it actually looks really interesting tbh

IVE SEEN REALLY COOL ART FOR TRIGUN ON TWITTER!!! the one guy with the yellow glasses has such cool character design and its so cool to see how different artists put their own spin on it

[gxnic]

general kento nanami headcanons

cw: gn! reader. there’s nsfw stuff but that’s separate from the sfw stuff

a/n: hey y’all, so this is my first *real* post here on tumblr. i’ve written fanfic b4 and have posted it before (albeit i’ve deleted everything i’ve ever posted fanfic wise) but i’ve never posted on tumblr! i wrote a small drabble and posted it to test the waters and that’s about it. since this is where i read most of my fanfic i figured lol why not writing is one of the casual hobbies i’ve always had anyways. about the headcanons, ive seen the jujutsu kaisen volume 0 movie three times already and it hasn’t even been out for a week, so i’m in a jujutsu kaisen writing mood. i have a nice one shot planned for both yuji and gojo (separately. obviously.) so if u want u can look forward to that, but for now i thought i’d start off lighter. hope u enjoy! :)

masterlist

sfw

ok so

starting off strong

coming from a plus size woman herself anybody who’s ever said nanami wouldn’t like a plus size partner is completely fucking wrong????

like omfg

he would love the feeling of your soft body in contrast up against his hard and rough muscles

this man definitely tries to live a healthy lifestyle. work out regularly, eat healthy, the whole shebang

however he’s the type of man who finds it extremely classy when somebody isn’t afraid to indulge in the simple pleasures of life

and he just wants u to be happy while doing it

don’t get me wrong he would encourage u to be healthier but when u ask if that was his way of trying to politely say you need to lose weight he would be genuinely flabbergasted bc no that’s not what he meant at all that thought literally never even crossed his mind he just wants you to be healthy and live a long life

doesn’t mean he won’t also indulge himself with u tho lmaoooo

like i feel like he acts all committed to this super strict diet and routine but in reality he doesn’t stick to it that often regardless of the fact he feels like he should bc life is short who cares? certainly not nanami

anyway pls never talk negatively abt ur body bc he will ask why it even matters every single time before complimenting u cause ain’t no way ur ever gonna talk badly abt urself and him just let it slide

long story short no matter what ur body looks like he thinks ur beautiful like weight ≠ beauty in his mind

anyway on a completely unrelated note

he snores lolllllll like rly loud

and he sweats in his sleep a lot too idc

it’s cute tho

blanket stealer too and when u guys wake up and u tell him he was hogging the blankets in his sleep he gets all embarrassed and won’t look u in the eye and denys it even tho he knows he does it he just can’t admit it

which usually isn’t that big of an issue cause y’all are glued together in your sleep anyways

cuddling alllll the time deadass

he always likes the air conditioning to be set pretty cold D:

like he’s definitely the kind of person who knows immediately if someone changes the temperature even one degree

he’s a good cook tooooo omg

for some reason i feel like he excels at italian food don’t ask me why i don’t know

like nanami would make the most fire pasta

but yeah he’s a good cook

he’s also rly flexible

i mean for the record think of what he has to do for his job of course he’s flexible

but he in particular is super flexible like he can do all that cool contortionist shit if he tried (which he won’t cause he’d be too embarrassed)

also he spoils u

like duh that much is obvious ofc nanami spoils his s/o but like….

yeah he totally spoils u.

he’s not really a religious dude tbh

like if ur religious that’s cool he’ll accept that he’s not gonna shame u and he’ll happily listen to u talk about it

but most of the time he’d just rather talk about something else

most of the time he’s just calling you by your first name but on the rare occasion when he does call u a pet name that’s when u know he’s feeling affectionate and wants ur attention

he doesn’t call u very many pet names either he’ll call you “sweetheart” the most, “beautiful” too and also maybe “darling” on the days he’s feeling extra affectionate

like it’s super easy to tell when he wants to just say f everything and be all over you

he doesn’t rly like pda so he’s super touchy at home

he likes to hug you from behind

his favorite cuddling positions either consist of him being the big spoon or him laying down on your chest

like i can see after a rly long day he wants nothing more than to come home get dressed comfortably and crash right on top of you laying his head in ur chest and putting his arms around you and feeling your hands through his hair

he would find the rhythm of your breathing and your heartbeat very comforting

especially after the horrors he’s forced to witness on a daily basis

you’re a comforting reminder that he’s alive

he’s just really obvious with how much he loves you

like even b4 y’all got together it was really obvious he thought he was super badass and hid it rly well tho LOLLL spoiler alert he didn’t

the thing that sold it the most pre your relationship was the way you’d always feel and catch his eyes glued to you

+++ it’s not easy to fluster nanami, but considering even the simplest of gestures from you turned his face and ears pink? yeah duh ofc he likes u

he tries to cover his face when he blushes too but he’s rly bad at it LOL like he’ll put his hand over his mouth and extend his thumb and fingers over his cheeks to try and hide the redness but it never works

like he’ll stay composed but his body’s reactions give it all away

hear me out i feel like he’d like a friendly talkative s/o

like maybe not somebody who’s as eccentric as gojo 24/7…

but definitely somebody who’s lively as long as they know when to be serious and is capable of remaining composed in a situation that calls for it

he would appreciate it to no end if you were able to get him to lighten up a little and be less of the stick-in-the-mud that he knows he is

he’s the slow dance with you in your kitchen in your pajamas type guy

but honestly no matter who u are

just one glance at u and he’s smiling to himself thinking abt how in love with u he is

you’re his biggest motivation, after all, and no matter how long the two of you are together you never stop giving him butterflies

nsfw

oof oof oof oof oof

oh to engage in the devils tango with this man

whenever mappa animates him loosening or taking off his tie it’s always so focused on and detailed like whatchu tryna say huh?

yeah he ties your wrists together with his tie lolllll

like ok listen

i don’t think he’s sex dungeon level kinky

but i also don’t think he’s completely vanilla either

he’ll blindfold u, tie ur wrists together, maybe your ankles if he’s rly feeling it

he can be reallyyyyyyy rough too

generally he tries to be gentle but if he’s ever really pent up or angry or frustrated abt something he wants to rid himself of that anger in a healthy way and sexual release is a go to for him

those are the circumstances where he’ll be rougher with u

he usually apologizes after though

and if u were the one to ask him to be rougher he’ll do so with pleasure but he’ll definitely still seek reassurance afterwards and ask you if what he did was to your satisfaction

he’s generally the more dominant one

he likes obedience

he’s okay with you taking the lead too but he prefers if it’s nothing too extreme

he feels bad asking u but god he loves getting sucked off so much :(<3 sweet baby

especially after work when he’s feeling especially exhausted and he’s had a bad day and he’s lazing around he loves nothing more than some good ass head and then cuddling to sleep

he’s a giver too don’t think anything less

he’s always between your thighs before he’s actually inside of you whether it’s his mouth or his fingers

he’s cool with using toys on you too, he actually really likes it

he doesn’t see sex toys as a threat he sees them as his best friend god healthy masculinity is so hot

u can use ur imagination to think about how he’d use them on u >:)

also nanami isn’t a one night stand guy

like hear me out i don’t think he sees sex as some crazy sacred act or anything

it won’t take all that long after you guys get together for him to be okay with dicking you down

but he doesn’t fuck anybody he’s not in a stable relationship with

meaning that, yeah, he isn’t a virgin, but he probably has some awkward first time story with somebody he slept with once and since then he’s only slept with one other person he was in a relationship with

like… he has experience, but not a lot of it

don’t get me wrong tho his stroke game is crazy

he 100% puts in the effort to figure out what you specifically like and don’t like

it’s definitely always a focus of his to first and foremost please you

he teases u but also praises u

like full on degradation? no not his style

but teasing yesssssss he loves it he loves seeing you squirm from just his words

like god just imagine his chest up against your back with his arms running down your sides and hips while he’s whispering teases into your neck goddddd i wish i wish

he also likes it when u scratch up his back hehe

he likes it when you leave marks on him and he leaves marks on you in places people can’t see

he doesn’t think it’s classy when people walk around with hickeys and such on full display however knowing he has marks/you have marks on your bodies that only the two of you know about is something that turns him on

also, if you’re fem bodied, he’s a hardcore tits man. i will die by this.

boobs in his face yesssssssss

[deus-ex-mona]

MAKE A HOLIDAY: Chapter 6

the jig is up (not clickbait)

previous part (chapter 5)

next part (chapter 7)

IV: I’ve long since noticed that you guys have been sneaking around me.

IV: You’ve been arriving on-site earlier than usual, and you’ve even been contacting the staff yourselves, haven’t you?

IV: Care to explain what’s going on?

DAI: Wha… You knew?

IV: Of course I did. Or, rather, how could I not have noticed it?

DAI: Then why didn’t you tell us that you noticed it?!

IV: I was just waiting to see what you guys were up to.

RIO: So in other words, we weren’t able to hide it from you at all.

MEGU: You’re kidding~. How embarrassing!

YUI: You saw right through us, and yet you kept quiet about it. Your personality sucks.

IV: I don’t think the four of you are any better, with all of that sneaking around, though?

YUI: Ugh… Well, you have a point, but…

IV: In any case, I found out about it, so you guys should just come clean about everything.

IV: What are you trying to hide from me?

DAI: Fine. I give up…

DAI: We were trying to take over your work for you, IV.

IV: …Eh?

MEGU: We’ve been talking about how pale you’ve looked as of late, y’know?

YUI: We figured that you may be overworking yourself.

RIO: We’ve been leaving all of the backstage work to you, after all. So we decided that we’d try to take over the parts of your work that we could.

YUI: Yup, yup. We just want you to get some rest.

IV: …I see. So that’s why you’ve been arriving on-site early, and contacting the staff yourselves.

DAI: But in the end, you beat us to each and every thing, and we couldn’t get anything done at all.

IV: You guys don’t have to worry about me, though…

DAI: Huuh?! Don’t be stupid! Who wouldn’t worry about their friends?

MEGU: Exactly! Isn’t it a given that we’d be worried about you?!

RIO: IV… It’d be terrible if anything happened to you.

YUI: Yeah… So you should just get some rest…!

RIO: Such are our feelings on the matter. It’d be pointless to tell us not to worry about you.

IV: …Sorry. That came out wrong, didn’t it?

IV: I’m sorry for worrying you guys. I understand how you feel.

IV: It’s just that… you guys should be focusing on something more important instead.

DAI: There’s no way that something more important than you exists!

IV: I’ll explain, okay? Follow me, please?

YUI: This is… the venue for our next live?

RIO: Yeah. The stage has already been set up for us.

MEGU: It feels as though we’re just about to get onstage, right?

DAI: Why’d you bring us here?

DAI: You have a reason for it, right?

IV: …We’ll be standing here in a few days’ time.

IV: We’ll be firing up the crowd from this very stage as Full Throttle4.

IV: No one else will be up there with us.

IV: None of it will be possible without you guys.

YUI: …

IV: I know we haven’t talked about this before, but… could I share my thoughts with you?

DAI: Why’re you even giving us the choice not to listen to you? I’ll hear you out, so spill everything, got it?

MEGU: It’s rare for you to want to talk about something, IV. I wanna hear it tooooo!

IV: Thank you.

IV: The topic I want to talk about is Full Throttle4.

[novannna]

could we get slordan + 🏳‍🌈? love youuuu and congrats on 100!!

tysm die!!! ily tooooo

you've kinda already seen a few parts of this, ive been screaming ab it in smgh a lot, but whatever, its v sexy

Sloane slipped her feet out of her slippers, letting a sigh escape her lips as her toes sank into the carpet. They carefully undressed, letting their probably priceless gown drop to the floor. Sloane couldn’t bring themself to care about it. She pulled a pair of pants up, and pulled her hair free, letting it tumble down her back in dark waves. Sloane cracked the window open, hands clutching tight to familiar holds. It was scary the way Roidan was starting to feel like a home. Their fingers knew where to grip each brick, their feet instinctively twisted into place. The simple climb was an afterthought. Much like it had been in Tempsa.

Sloane felt almost as if Tempsa was just a distant memory, a wonderful dream from which she was now awoken.

It was wrong. It was wrong, Tempsa wasn’t a memory, it was her life, and this was just some horrible nightmare she needed to go through. She needed to go through with it, and then she could go back to her life, go back to everything.

But that stupid traitorous heart in their chest wanted to stay in the nightmare. Wanted to stay for the one person who knew everything.

The one person who hated her more than anything.

God, why did her brain have to be so damn complicated. It was a war of emotions, and Jordan was at the center of everything.

Wasn’t she always?

Wasn’t that just the way it was?

Sloane’s foot slipped in their confusion, and banged loudly against the wall, sending a shower of rocks down, clattering loudly against the balcony below.

Sloane cursed.

Jordan’s balcony.

The door cracked open, and Jordan’s stupid, perfect head popped out.

“Fancy seeing you here,” Sloane muttered, trying desperately to force any of their terrible emotions away.

Emotion was weakness, after all. Emotions were dangerous. Emotions were weak, distracting, illogical, useless, and utterly terrifying.

Emotions were for people destined for nothing.

Emotions were not for Sloane.

And yet, with every breath Jordan took, Sloane could feel their heart twist. Why was part of her so naive to think that they could ever have a chance to be more than enemies?

“What are you doing?” Jordan asked. That oh so familiar suspicion and hate.

Sloane tilted her head, an invitation she shouldn’t be extending. “Care to tag along and find out? I promise it isn’t anything too illegal.” They extended a hand out to her, Sloane’s brown eyes searching deep into Jordan’s.

Jordan narrowed her eyes, and swung up, ignoring Sloane’s empty hand. “I’m going. To make sure you don’t ruin another life.”

Sloane sighed. The sharp pang of disappointment rang through her body. “Then keep up. And don’t get caught.” They pulled herself up to the roof, and ran along the top, feet falling lightly along the stone.

Jordan followed, her footsteps heavy and uneven, pausing with each step afraid of the ground below.

“You aren’t worried you’ll fall?”

Sloane shrugged. “I’ve always wanted to fly.”

“I’ve thought about falling before,” Jordan said, her voice surprisingly soft. “Those few seconds in the air seem so nice. So free.”

Sloane nodded. “And then you hit the ground, and you’re more trapped than you were before.”

“But those few seconds of pure, unrestrained freedom… maybe it's all worth it.”

Sloane tilted her head up, stopping for a second to let the cool air caress her skin. “What if we had never met?”

Jordan stopped as well, hands spread out for balance. “What of it?”

“Do you think you’d be the same person? Better or worse? All we’ve ever done is fought, but you can’t deny we’ve both altered the courses of our lives by meeting.”

“I think I would’ve wasted my life trying to be the perfect lady my mother wanted. I’d never have risked everything to be what I am now. Whether you like it or not, I’m a warrior because of you. You made me into a formidable opponent. Without you, I'd be stuck living out a useless life.” Jordan paused. “Be it better or worse, who's to say? Who’d you be without me?”

“Without you?” Sloane hesitated. A world without Jordan seemed so hard to imagine. “I imagine a much easier world, not needing to check my shoulder whenever I turn a corner. You’re the only threat I’ve seriously worried about. A constant thorn in my side, if you will. In a world without you, I’d be much better off. I’d never have to be here.” I can’t imagine a world without you. I can’t imagine my life without you. Sun to my moon, shield to my sword, thorn to my rose.

Sloane could hear their heart pounding in their ears.

Emotions clouded their mind. Emotions like these were dangerous. They’d only ever stop her from succeeding.

Emotion meant weakness, weakness meant failure, and failure was not acceptable.

Especially now.

Now, when failure meant the end of everything.

They were walking a dangerous tightrope now, by keeping Jordan close. Each quavering step led her closer to the goal, led them closer to the end.

But Jordan was like a strong wind, blowing, causing Sloane to halt everything, try and regain her footing.

Maybe, they could just let it all go.

Let herself fall.

Let herself fly.

Stupid fucking emotions.

God, she couldn’t be here. Here with Jordan. Nothing but the stars to witness them.

Sloane couldn’t do it to themself. It was too cruel to let herself imagine anything with Jordan.

She shouldn’t even be thinking about Jordan.

But here they were, talking, slowly letting those carefully built walls down.

Brick by brick, right?

“Where are we going?” Jordan asked, breaking the perfect chaos of Sloane’s mind.

Sloane nodded to the clock tower. “Up.”

“Are you mad? We’ll fall to our deaths.”

Sloane couldn’t help but grin. “Only the slightest. You don’t have to go.” Sloane smirked. “Not if you think it’s too hard.”

Jordan stiffened. “I didn’t say that,” she hissed, shouldering past Sloane, and gripping the stone. Sloane could see the tenseness in her shoulders, the quickness of her breath, the frantic darting of her eyes. Jordan was terrified.

“I’ll see you at the top.” Not her problem, was it?

“Wait.” Jordan’s voice was pitifully small. Nothing like her really. It wasn’t confident, or brave, or snappy, or strong. It was more like the way she sounded when she played her role of the dutiful daughter.

Sloane should ignore it. Mark the fear away, save it to use against Jordan later. Head over heart, right? Don’t show weakness, only strength.

Stopping to help counted as weakness, didn’t it?

Sloane needed to ignore it. They never should have let Jordan come.

“What is it?” Sloane asked softly, facing Jordan.

“I- I can’t go up there,” Jordan choked up. “Not the clock tower.”

Sloane didn’t press. They could see the pure terror and pain in Jordan, just from the thought. Pressing would only cause more hurt. They should be pressing, looking for a weakness, looking for a way in. But she couldn't.

Just another failure.

“That’s okay.” Sloane sat down on the roof, and dangled their legs off the edge. “I wanted to go up to look at the stars. But you can see them pretty well from here too.” She patted the spot next to her. “See?”

Jordan hesitantly laid down. “Why are we doing this?”

“Stargazing?” Sloane shrugged. “I don’t know, I think it’s fun.”

Jordan laughed, surprising them both. “No, not that. Why aren’t we fighting?”

“Do you want to?”

“Not particularly. I just want to know why.”

Sloane glanced away from the sky, looking towards Jordan. She was surprised to see Jordan’s fierce brown eyes already staring into her.

“We spend so much time hating each other, and for what? Neither of us get anything out of it.”

“You want to be friends?”

“I can’t see the harm in it. But, maybe not even friends. We’ve both caused so much hurt for that to be that easy. More like… more like a new beginning. Let us have a chance to ignore everything we are for a night, let us escape the world.”

“And we go back hating each other when we part?”

“If you want to. But I’m not backing down, and I doubt you are either. So maybe, just tonight we forget. Everything we are, everything we’re supposed to be.”

“Sloane?” Jordan asked softly. “We’re both disappointments aren’t we.”

Sloane sighed. “Yeah,” they whispered. “But they don’t know what they're missing out on.”

“You said you wanted to stargaze, right?” Jordan abruptly changed the subject. “You like the stars?”

“Yeah. They’re so far away, but still shining bright. These constellations… they aren’t mine. But they’re still fun to look at.”

“Show me the different constellations.” Jordan looked away from Sloane, her brown eyes reflecting a sea of silver.

Sloane laughed softly, and obliged, her long fingers tracing a pattern across the sky, connecting each small dot into a bigger picture.

They could feel Jordan’s warmth, just a hair breadth away, hear her lungs filling with air, and then exhaling.

Sloane’s heart rang in their ears, her hands yearning to reach out, slip into Jordan’s.

These emotions… she couldn’t be feeling them. Sloane was perfection. The perfect thief. No attachments. No emotions. She could do anything. Slip in, slip out. Leave nothing behind.

But this time, they knew it wouldn’t be like that. She’d leave behind a heart, ripped out of her chest, ripped out by the pain of choosing between Jordan and everything she was supposed to be.

Sloane was falling, falling, falling. Falling away from the golden girl she was supposed to be, that perfect thief, that unremorseful sinner, that person the other thieves looked up to.

But these emotions… they weren’t going away. Jordan wasn’t going away. Sloane couldn’t make her leave. Couldn’t bear it.

But that wonderful beat of her heart when Jordan was near. That flush in their cheeks, spring in her step. Sloane was alive, alive in the most wondrous of ways.

Sloane was flying, flying, flying. Flying away from who they were supposed to be, away from all the expectations, away from the pain, away from all the impossible choices.

Sloane wasn’t weak, she wasn’t a failure, she was Jordan’s, every inch of her.

If only Sloane believed it could be true.

[swiftslingeringquestion]

Tour Thoughts:

1. Uh opening>>>>

2. What did we do to deserve this woman

3. I DID SOMETHING FUCKIN BAD LIVE. that is all

4. the transition to Gorgeous..shes so clever I gotta GO

5. the MASHUP. I think T wants us dead but like idk, thats just my professional opinion 

6. LOOK WHAT YOU MADE HER DO. T popped OFF and I've been waiting 13 years for this. 

7. UH are we gonna discuss the massive snakes on stage, above and BEYOND 

8. End Game, more like End ME am I right hahahaahimdeadhahhah

9. I needed King of My Heart to be done right and I was more than satisfied oh my -

10. VOCALS VOCALS

11. Delicate is my own personal song sorry guys its mine and I cried. (Im totally, obviously kidding, not about the crying part though....) 

12. SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE. She did an amazing job with balancing the old and new songs

13. The fact that I wanted to dance hardcore to the acoustic version of Dancing With Our Hands Tied is kinda concerning but you can bet your ass ill be doing some type of embarrassing dancing when I witness it live (cough cough, August 11th)

14. UH. was that All Too Well??

15. YEAH. that was ALL TOO FUKIN WELL. WOW um. SORRY FOR THE ALL CAPS BUT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT SINCE RED TOUR OH MY FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17. !!!!!!!!!

18. !!

19. !

20. fuq

21. still not over all too well

22. Stil not over it

23. give me a minute

24. I think Ill be okay soon, hold on

25. OKAY I think I can carry on

26. her SPEECHES. ugh I love her more than I can explain

27. the THING! SHES FLYING! ITS SPARKLY!

28. Dont Blame Me - VOCALS

29. BADDDD BLOOD YEA THINGS ARE GOING GREAT THANKS FOR ASKING

30. WAIT, I HEAR A BANJO

31. is that...shouldve said n-

32. YEAH UH OKAY WAIT 

33. DEEP BREATHES - SHOULDVE SAID NO OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY

34. Piano, nice, im dead

35. speech, ugh nice speech 

36. she's so BEAUTIFUL 

37. long WHAT 

38. LONG LONG LIVE OH MY 

39. GOD

40. friend I came to the show with: “why are you crying” oh don't fucking worry about IT  

41. I want my money back I'm paying for her to single handedly KILL ME

42. different tune, she's not going to transition into New Years Day - she's NOT

43. kay she IS

44. BYE

45. please dont ever become a strang- WOW

46. *tries to secretly wipe a waterfall of tears*

47. I just want to hug this woman with my whole heart, what do I have to do for that?

48. long live man, that shit will mess you up

49. the POEM

50. MAY YOUR HEART REMAIN BREAKABLE BUT NEVER BY THE SAME HAND TWICE

51. “NO NOTHING GOOD STARTS IN A GETAWAY CAR”

52. outfits outfits outfits, can T dress me?

53. wow I love Taylor I hope she sees this and wants to meet me - lol, long shot 

54. MY BABY’S FIT LIKE A DAYDREAM WALKIN WITH HIS HEAD DOWN, IM THE ONE HES WALKIN TOOOOO SO CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT YEAH CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT TO

55. MY BABY’S FLY LIKE A JET STREAM HIGH ABOVE THE WHOLE SCENE LOVES ME LIKE IM BRAND NEW, SO CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT YEAH CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT TOOOO

56. I WANT TO WEAR HIS INI- you know the rest

57. I really should reply to my boyfriend’s text from an hour ago, but Taylor > boyfriend 

58. OOOHHH OH OH OH UH IS THIS WE ARE NEVER EVER GETTING BACK TOGETHER

59. IT IS

60. YOU GO TALK TO YOUR FRIENDS TALK TO MY FRIENDS TALK TO MEEEEEE (I feel bad for whoever has to sit next to me at this show)

61. WAIT WAIT WAIIIT

62. THIS !!!!!!!! IS !!!!!!!! WHY !!!!!!!!!! WE !!!!!!!!!! CANT !!!!!!!!!! HAVE !!!!!!!!!NICE !!!!!!!!! THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

63. The SET. wowza

64. NO DONT GO SING MORE

65. august 11 august 11 august 11 august 11

66. you can't see it cause I'm in my room but I'm doing a hand heart - I'm fine its fine everything's FINE

67. how does she expect me to still be living? to sleep? what HA. 

68. this woman is amazing and the best decision Ive ever made was to look up to her, I'm proud of my 7 year old self

69. GOD

70. IM SO PROUD. GOODNIGHT. this was so long, sorry, but like also not because UGH SHE. DID. THAT.

[finelinevogue]

hi! hope you're well <3

i am OBSESSED with the love island series ive been looking for something like this for too long tbh, even better that its by my fav tumblr acc!! i was wondering if you had set days of when you post new episodes/ blurbs bc i cannot wait to read more! 

love u smmm <3

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hiiii i’m really good! hope you are too 💖

thank you very much thats so kind of you!!! face tumblr acc what?!? no way! i don’t have a schedule as such but i try to post the episode content as close to when that episode aired as possible!

love u tooooo

[hazyaffection]

why will you stop posting by august 2018?

1. Tumblr is blocked in Indonesia (fuck) (only accessible by mobile; the same reason why i havent add the links on my description box). Yes, i also stay at Singapore for college but im gon be extra busy once i get there. So by august im planning to stop rebloging other people’s post and then reblog all of my poetry. Might still post new poetry tho

2. The guy ive been writing about…. well its kinda hard to explain but we ended—quite a long time ago, but i just digest it now. I realize that all these time ive been seeing us like its just gonna be alright in the end. like we will come back to each other in the end. yes, i write like ive moved on and tbh i do. but theres still this little point that kept shouting out loud his name and been reserving a spot on my heart specially for him. doesn’t work like that, obvs. he has another girl alr—since a long time ago also, btw, im just stupid. and im glad. and i don’t want to write about that anymore. I cannot. Cause it doesn’t make me feel anything anymore.

I write before that this is the closure he never gave me and the one i had always wanted. I lied. When i said i wanted a closure, i know i meant his voice saying goodnight after hours of late night phone call. This one isn’t that. But clearly this closure is the one that i need.

But dont worry folks! This mean im opening my heart this time for real. Im still torn whether i wanted the forever kind of love or a quickie next. Im gonna let loosssee once i go back to sg!!! (Ive been keeping my heart closed even though theres some real juicccyyyyy possible story i shouldve took)

Thank you for this experience. Writing about you were messy, but everything always look like it’s fun in retrospect anyway. Sorry for holding this for way tooooo long. My number won’t come up on your screen on the middle of the night anymore. Don’t worry

Anyway i also already write a goodbye notes for u guys but its stil on my queue sooo yeahh!!!