#ive been art blocked and tired

[to00fu]

toji from gege's early drafts

[joshuamj]

Hero.

[strawbie-doodle]

MILES MORALES!! ☆⌒★⌒☆⌒

[charlotte-family-apologist]

Sorry I've been somewhat mia lately irl life is beating my ass and it's probably not gonna lighten up until November

To all who've sent me asks I've seen them I'll get to them don't worry it just might take me a while 😭

[daily-lea-crosscode]

regularly scheduled lea posting will resume soon i am just very tired.

[crow-quet]

TO REITERATE: I will NOT be taking any requests that are incestuous or anything that contains an adult x a child. I am NOT a proshipper nor do I support proshippers. I have tried to be polite but firm because I am a public figure here technically and I don't want to abuse any position I have or be mean.

However, that being said, I have been clear in multiple posts that I do not condone that sort of behavior or even tolerate it anywhere near me. I am no longer going to be polite.

Enough.

[koheekyat]

What no sleep does to the brain

[beebundt]

i have. 35 attacks left. to revenge. ive gotten like. 15 out of 45 or smth i dont remembor the number

i naur realistically i dont have to revenge them all but also. i really really do love and appreciate the arts wahhhh. i want to hang all of them on my wall to look at forever. and i def want everyone to know i appreciate and that every art is rlly meaningful to me 🥺

[fluffa-mocha-bean]

I get bored and draw her~ (⑅∫°ਊ°)∫

[spock-smokes-weed]

gonna get heavy for a min so scroll if you don't want to see that

it's really hard to open up to my parents about being suicidal because they always freak the fuck out about it. this is probably an ironic thing to say, but I wish I could just tell people "hey I really want to kill myself" without it being a big deal

like YES i know it's a big deal. That's why I'm talking to you about it! the last thing I need is you panicking and screaming at me "why do you want to kill yourself?!!?" gee idk cheryl, if i knew that I probably wouldn't want to kill myself.

suffering with extreme depression is bad, but my parents going in total freakout mode is somehow so much worse. because it stops being about me and what im suffering through, and becomes about not upsetting my parents.

so every day I just have to get up and tell them "oh yea im fine" when I have casual thoughts about wanting to die because I know if I told them, it wouldn't make a damn difference. i would just have to bottle those emotions right back up because my parents have the emotional maturity of toddlers

im just so fucking exhausted, ya know? I don't think I'll ever act on it cus im a coward and dying is scarier than being alive, but moving through life drained of all your joy, having your brain hold death and suicide over your head, is a miserable existence. I just want to be fucking happy again but the mountains look so large to scale

[extravalgant]

poses so um hey. 😏 how do we feel about more kane art

[narzissenkreuz-ordo]

maybe if i make enough to-do lists i can turn my life around (doubtful, but im gonna try anyway)

[sheila--e]

Day 21. Woah! She's bisexual! I didn't know that!

[papyrus-please-one-chance-please]

Not my usual content but as much as I'm against abusive ships genuinely if you need help or someone to talk to my dms are open. I used to be a proshipper when I was way younger so I know that sometimes you do stupid shit because of trauma. My dni is for people who aren't willing to get help or who do it for fun or whatever and that's for my own safety but if you're seeking help it's important to reach out

[benilos]

Hey yall. Please stop trying to message or send asks about Darks Verse. I dont care if someone i reblog here or on my sideblog has drawn or written for it. Half the time im not following that person and I dont care if they did. Any time i think yallre finally leaving me alone someone has to bring up Darks Verse and im sick of it. I have not wanted anything to do with those two for years and there are STILL people bringing them up like they can start some beef. From what ive heard those two arent even on tumblr anymore. Please leave me and those two alone, none of us want to be involved with each other nor speak to each other so seriously, stop. And please stop with the creepy ass praise baiting in your asks saying "i told them how bad those two are for you 🥰" Bitch i dont care. I do not care. I dont want yall doing this shit. I do not want you trying to "tell other people about them" for me. It isnt for me, its for your weird parasocial shit. Stop. I do not want to be involved with them, and I have not for years. I have had them blocked for fucking years, stop bringing them up. You are just causing unnecessary drama when that beef is years fucking old now. Im fucking sick of it, i have their tags blocked for a fucking reason. Stop.

[ladowasnthere]

She's angry with me.

I've yet to find out why, but we've been together long enough for me to tell.

Through years of practice, I've grown to recognize the signs of her ire.

It always starts slow. Through her small acts of passive aggression, the ones that make you wonder if she's just having a bad day. Choppy pacing, the occasionally blank, you assume she'll get over it soon.

She doesn't. She's steadily gets angrier, letting it simmer in the back of her head as you ignore her in favor of another. She pretends she doesn't mind, she still converses, allows you her attention (even if you've withheld your own). Just know all of her suggestions will be vague, that she'll go silent when you try to press her further, and she'll stare at you innocently if you dare ask her help.

Normally, it is at this point I'd notice the progression, and it is also at this point I'd know to stop and treat her fondly, in hopes she'll forgive me and bless me with her ramblings. Yes this is how it would normally go, if I weren't a fool.

(Ah, I can feel her over my shoulder now, laughing at my novice recollection. You'll have to forgive any mistakes I've made, she still refuses to interact with me beyond her taunting.)

Instead of heeding the warnings presented, I barreled forward, throwing myself into my work, and neglected her completely. She would usually understand this, if it hadn't been for the special attention I was giving to another of her kind. Practically abandoning her for another.

(I've done it before, went too far with another, being neglectful, now they refuse to sing for me, let alone guide my hands)

This is my apology of sorts. Although it is more akin to a plea for mercy- I'm merely begging for her to forgive me now that I've realized my mistakes. I know now my place is in her hand, as she feeds me ideas and illustrates my world.

My dear Muse, forgive my trespasses against you, for I cannot hope to live without you.