#ive always liked the idea of doing RPs but im not good at writing but Of Course i love drawing

[todayisafridaynight]

you had a jojo ask blog????

three, even

[toestalucia]

SHIPPING INFO. answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

what’s your OTP for your muse(s)?

im easy...........and like too much.......personally ! i prefer akira with the older wizards, ive talked about being in those ship tags ummmm a lot<3 i cant narrow it down further......the twins are an exception but ive been over that in the past. atm i like emu with mafuyu, rui, nene & akito a lot :D theres def more (like honami i think would be cute! and i do like her with tsukasa too, but emu tsukasa besties....), but im like twice her age so i think about that stuff so rarely LOLLLL i thought hard about the rest of my muses but.......?????????? eight/machina....perhaps...........sofia/forte.......yeong/tara......(cagli teehee)

what are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

i lov drama. with gran it comes natural cuz welcome to ur 'assuming things w/out asking' and 'thinks way too much into the future where they dont want to settle down' captain. i think akiras the most tender of all of them? and most likely to actually bring up issues? sofia is fun because i think about the event where she Doesnt speak in opposites and micah ends up rly confused........being accepted with her weird speech patterns..... natsume too, either staying at the accepting his weird behavior (jumping, scared expression, running) or having the 'i can see youkai' convo....yknow.....its good...i know tanuma alrdy had a convo like that (UNREAL CONVO i miss it) but yknow. Overall ! anything. mostly. theres some 'ohhh angst' topics im not interested in, so i think most stuff stay on the more lighthearted/loving side tho

how large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

feel like a fraud everytime i say that i personally wont write akira with some of the 20yo's cuz im always close to deciding to make akira closer to 30. and then i say i like akira with figaro & oz......the ancient ppl......

are you selective when shipping?

rather than selective i just dont ask ppl........and i have no interest in making relationship calls nor liking them........i want to see where the writing goes first cuz i knoowwww i sometimes say gran would say x but then i write it and y happens yknow LOLLLLLL i'd be open to jumping into stuff on discord or something tho i think ? i think i could jump into romance stuff no problemo then cuz it'd feel slightly separated from here...?! cuz idk but theres something when i open this blog that i......its a very slowburn......if ure willing to spend some months writing so gran can become more accepting of the idea then its go go go. does this make sense. well either way im not sure tbh. grans a bit added difficulty too considering how i deal with their age LOLLL since cygames is pushing 15yo still. which gives me a headache seeing how the summer events etc are explicitly yearly.....i cannot write act3 gran as a teen, not when theres a political engagement with alliah like cmon....i refuse..........but since ure following this blog uve alrdy read this stuff in my rules/about LOL

either way akiras easier with romance. i just dont approach ppl about it. whenever i make that farmsim blog i wanna be more casual with this stuff tbh...T_^ for funsies............write some yearning...

how far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

not far at all. LMFAOOOOOOOO i use that tag very liberally. its unlikely im writing that stuff anyway....

does one have to ask to ship with you?

:DDDDDDDDDD if i ask u we've probably written for years & years && its starting to reach crush-territory anyway (hello kaitlyn) but man idk what it is....romance is just difficult to write on tomblr rn for me...gran does not make this easier. the issues r endless. can i offer u akira.

how often do you like to ship?

(person whos always in ship tags) (smiley face) (smiley face) (smiley face) can u get into mhyk for akira....or farmsims....................ill ship everything in there.....

are you multiship?

YAAAAAA the idea of having 1 ship on my blog doesnt excite me. even tho i dont write romance atm. LMFAOABKAJD

are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

do u wanna hear about the akifi doujins ive read. or the akifau art where faust puts a flowercrown on akiras head.

what is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

THIS IS HOW DIANTHA/CLARISSE CAN STILL WIN. i am also a sabrina/leona fan. 'did they interact' no but they should. ppl who lost their husband(s). ppl who both should be AT THE CLUB. me/canaria. me/crystal

finally, how does one ship with you?

u like my posts & listen to my ramblings and i twirl my hair and send u more asks and then it just happens. foolproof.

tagged by: @convxction faty my beloved my everything u should do it for ur multi too.... tagging: @shiningstages kait i think u should do this for ur multi and ramble............

[i-had-a-bad-feeling]

Masterpost/Intro!

Well!! I guess I’m editing this to make it kind of an intro post😭 yall know next to NOTHING ab me🥲

So!!! I’m Starrie or Star, either one works! I’m biromantic-asexual and A MINOR!!!!!!! I have NO PROBLEM talking to adults, but if it makes you uncomfy, you do you! Any other questions can be put in my asks <333

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I am in so many different fandoms- if they’re green, I’m well-versed and super open to theories, headcanons, anything really! If they are orange, I KIND OF know them, but I’ve kind of fallen out of the fandom/im very behind. If they’re red I am either only a little in the fandom, or I’m still learning!! If they are purple PLEASE J REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT THEM BUT I DONT KNOW THAT MUCH PLEASE TALK TO ME!!!!

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[horrorknife]

hi! its the bastard from earlier, you're plaguing me with visions

COMPARING THEM TO PREY ANIMALS !?!?!!! I LOVE PREY ANIMAL COMPARISONS YOU HAVE NO IDEA !!!!! I'm putting these 2 under a microscope and chewing on the slides

YOU R SO SO RIGHT !!! Hoffman's need for direction is something I will never shut up about,, even if Adam can't directly give instructions (personally I see him following along as much as the next guy) he would be such a good anchor. GOD !!!

old man cutting up apples imagery save me. I know you probably didn't mean it literally but that domesticity is nice 2 me and oh my god aughhhh

New dynamic to rot my brain I guess. need to draw about it... pawing uselessly at my drawing tablet....

I have this like, idea in my head that Adam offers his cigarettes to people whenever he has spares. he gets denied like 90% of the time and most of it is just habit from when he hung around more people who DID smoke (I can't see most of the Jigsaw crew smoking) but do you think Hoffman would join in??? or would he just let him exist like that?? would he start hating it but grow more favorable to, at the very least, the smell (association and all)

like whenever I think of Lawrence / Adam I always see Lawrence as not completely attempting to cut the habit out but definitely making an effort to lower it. Also very vividly see Lawrence smoking once in a blue moon when shit gets rough because he needs the edge off and something something associations. I'm just curious how you view Hoffman in Adam's relationship to that. Hoffman has his own issues with substance abuse (drinking relentlessly and all) so like. lots to think on!

going to you like you're the end all with these two (you are in my head sorry this can't be undone. you answered a single ask now I'm your problem)

HIIIII im so glad to see you back!! <33

I LOVE THE PREY ANIMAL THING...i think all jigsquad members are inherently prey animals (that trait never leaves u even after ur test) but adam and hoffman exhibit it the most i htink........i love the prey animal thing idk i just. thats always the wording ive used for it thats always the comparison ive made...i think it actually started w adam for me lol because he's SO prey animal in like the whole of saw 2004. scared fighting back biting thrashing doing all he can to live...

YES you get itttt! adam is VERY much a follower and not the orders guy. hes very wallflower/voyeur/watcher/etc. that doesnt mean he cant give hoffman direction tho! all hoffman needs is to feel like hes in control + be nudged into a lane. and i think adam is perfect for that bc he has that innate vengeful streak hoffman does i fully believe this. (adams characterization is VERY specific to me and im extremely picky with it bc i have done so much personal/rp writing building up of him and SO MUCH character analysis...............akjfngdkjfngjf character analysis is like. one of my special interests)

i would love to see your art and ideas oh my god. please . Please. also i am thinking about drawing the apple cutting metaphor cuz........i kind of got super attached to it as soon as i typed it LOL i have such a clear image in my mind.......

I LOVE THAT HC!! i have a similar one ahaha except i think he's a consistent Smoke Bummer. i think hoffman smokes also, and i think them taking smoke breaks together is so..............Yeah........i dont think hoffman minds it at all. actually i think he probably has a tendency to chainsmoke too. i agree about lawrence as well!! i actually just drew a pic of chainshipping smoking together :-) lawrence would def try to get adam to cut back but he's susceptible to it because i think it's also a way for them to bond and manage THEIR horrible mess of a relationship too. often times adam has to step up to lawrence's playing field but i hardly ever see people putting lawrence on adam's? and i think that's so much more impactful for their dynamic, bc lawrence Doesn't usually want to get on adam's level to understand him bc hes stubborn and Has To Be Right. for adam that would be huge because everyone in his life has treated him like shit forever and he doesn't think lawrence will do any differently, but if lawrence were to be the one extending the branch? Hoo Boy. yeah.

I REALLY HOPE YOU COME OFF ANON I WOULD LOVE TO DM ABOUT THIS STUFF!!! GENUINELY!!!! PLEASE TALK TO ME i love talkign about my special interests with people!!!!!!!!!!

[peacockrulz]

youre so right about narration!! i could go on all day really, its the biggest thing for me that takes a fic from good to great, especially with characters like j- characters with a persona of sorts, characters that lie to themselves or are in denial, or characters with a lot they need to sort through, and j is sort of all three in some capacity. i cannot wait for hostile takeover to update! if you ever decide to try writing a fic id love to give it a read! ive noticed you have a lot of interesting ideas about characters and their dynamics through your fanart, something i think could translate to writing well. you also clearly have an understanding of what makes a fic good- though i know from experience its often easier said than done. still, id love to see you try! this is actually my first time rp-ing canon characters, ever. right now im playing j (thanks hostile takeover) in a discord server, though i might try n soon because i reaaallly struggle with characterizing him. ive been roleplaying my whole life really! i started with roblox warrior cats though... im shuddering with you id kill for more dollxn art from you though. no pressure but you get them it seems. its been a while since i listened to final girl but its definitely their song suggestive lyrics or not i hope they die and go to robo-hell together <3 - juzi anon

*sigh* putting this under a readmore because HOO BOY did I maybe went full analyzer on this one. thanks for your time Juzi Anon <3

I've read alotta fics in my time on the internet and honestly? I don't think I've ever read a fic that hooked me on a character narration quite like Hostile Takeover's J. J's awareness of every part of what shes doing and how shes doing it makes it even more subtle when you realize that despite all of that, she has so little awareness over what she thinks. Like she doesn't question it. Uzi's narration makes a point to show how she censors her own thoughts, she doesn't allow her mind to wander to certain parts of the past, shes completely aware of how some thoughts sound and decides against saying it all together. Meanwhile, J will go on and on about how much better the job would be without V's constant talking back and N's inability to do anything right, and in the same paragraph be constantly thinking about the argument with V, and what got V so messed up to begin with. J is like a rock, a precipice of confidence. But the moments where she doesn't know what to do, (like when she thought she was going to die in that church tower from the rising sun) its almost like she has to put on appearances even in a moment where shes completely panic-ed, that she still somehow has to pretend she knows what shes doing, even with no one around. Its why the fic made me rethink J in general, I've loved J for while but Hostile Takeover was the first time I actually was able to SEE what J could be as a character story. It really puts into perspective how important narration can be in telling a damn good story. (Sorry this became a J paragraph. I could analyze fics for the rest of my life and be happy lol)

Haha maybe one day I'll finally sit down and write. I'm not really the greatest at translating my thoughts to text, for some reason its easier for me to illustrate my feelings about a character then to write it out. The only reason I can draw fanart like that is because I analyze these characters to death lol. Looking at all the angles of two characters and then asking the question of 'what would it take for them to be on friendly terms' is a pass time I indulge it frequently!!!! Thats why I like rarepairs, sometimes they're dynamics are alot more unique than most, even if they're 2 characters that have never once canonically interacted (which is my favorite. Alot more creative thinking with that one yknow?) Still, maybe I'll get to it :O (prolly would practice writing analysis post first. because I always have to stop myself from doing it on other posts XP)

I've also grew up on roleplaying (my brother is into roleplaying and that got me started on it lol) used to roleplay on roblox even before I could read (which. isn't a joke actually. who gives a 5 year old unrestricted internet access???) funnily enough I can't even say I ever completely grew out of it, I still visit alot of roleplay maps on roblox (including WCUE!! never actually roleplayed there but I think its fun to spec) but mainly I used to roleplay on animal-based mmos like FeralHeart in my younger days.

Iffff,,, I could say anything about N's character,,, to hopefully help inspire some ability to write him (and sorry this gets its own paragraph) I would probably say that he is a very self-destructively selfless person, whos never gotten over anything or anyone in his life (I.e when V was in stasis during their time in the manor, N constantly visited her and would draw pictures of the two of them together ((as lizards)) and is kinda implied to have been reading books to her during this time. Even after getting 'digitally lobotomized', while N couldn't exactly remember V as he knew her back then, he still carried that affection he had for her all that time ago. He never stopped caring about V, even when he forgot) while I wouldn't describe N as in anyway 'innocent' or 'naive', N still has a habit of unconditionally caring about pretty much anybody lol. He had like, what, a 27 minute conversation with Uzi? And while it wasn't enough to completely convince him, it still was something that made him hesitate ("I really enjoyed our time together,"). And while I'm here (having mentioned Uzi) I would also say N is a very lonely character, seeing as he was often belittled by his peers (J) or in some cases completely ignored (V, but she had her reasons and thats a different discussion) a funny part of N's character is just how much he IS like Uzi. A person completely isolated by his kind because of how he is, who was never given an explanation as to why, why everyone is so oddly cruel to him. The biggest difference though being that N never fought it, he completely accepted getting knocked around if it meant he could stick around. It took someone else to point out how fucked his situation was to make him think twice about it. Uzi is the type of character to go down kicking screaming and punching(asterisk but thats also a different discussion), and N, despite being in such a similar place to her, isn't that kind of guy. While I wouldn't say N is the type to take everything lying down, there is something to say about just how much he is willing to take before getting angry, yknow? Overall, I think N is a very loving, loyal-to-a-fault, kinda guy, but his compassion for those around him is often times the reason he gets so tunnel-visioned in the first place (i.e causing explosions and throwing rocks and debris everywhere in a mass, angry panic, trying to go save V.) and its why he is so willing to get himself hurt in the first place. ("I really enjoyed our time together, but I can't have you shooting V with that thing.") (Or yknow, cutting his arm off, but thats alot less selfless-ness and alot more self destruction) His patience and understanding is one of his biggest strengths and somehow always the reason he gets hurt. Basically I think he need to go a lil insane as a treat.

((Oh its also good to note that his unconditional love for everyone around him is also the only reason why he has lived this far to begin with (the characters this includes: V, Uzi, AND Cyn.)))

I also think the above, is the reason why I enjoy NxDoll so much. it takes SO MUCH for him to hate someone and yet Doll did the one thing that would make him do it (hurting someone he cares about the most). I just knoooowwww if they saw eachother in that church it would've been ON. That fight would've taken out the whole god damn BUILDING. it would be two people fighting for the exact same fkcing reason!!! REVENGE!!! the horrible chain of trauma contuines with them!!! killing one will only leave the other with what remains!!!! And yet I also see them as two people who would really benefit from being on friendlier terms. Both becasue N's softness is just not something we ever see Doll treated with, and because Doll's avocation for justice might just be the thing N needs to get a god damn backbone for once and earn himself some self-appreciation.

But I also think its more fun when its enemies AND lovers.

They should make eachother worse <3

[voxiiferous]

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Tagged by @e-m-p-error

NAME?: Well I’m Bug online and to the vast majority of people in my life, save like… my professors.

PRONOUNS?: she/they

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION?: Discord or Tumblr IMs, I do like that Discord is the more functional messaging service though.

MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: Vox! I started writing him a year ago and now I don’t think I’m ever getting rid of him (also Hellaina, and currently at least, that will probably change as they always do, Metatron and Astaroth)

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: Ive been roleplaying on Tumblr since a few days after my 13th birthday, and I just turned 21 a few days ago… soooo 8 years pretty much exactly.

BEST EXPERIENCE?: Probably any time I click with muses/nuns who are just willing to toss a ton at the wall and see what sticks. Fun au’s, weird character combinations, the lot.

RP PET PEEVES?: Honestly probably not having enough to work with. I try to aim for at least a line or two of dialogue or action per paragraph. And also when it’s realllly obvious you’ve not read my rules or even a cursory look at my characters bio. 

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT? : I’d probably file it under angst, but I love a good tense scene. Conversations loaded with history, or the moment when a characters gets dangled in front of a much larger fish, the moment after night together where that mayyybe the best idea (or just before).

PLOTS OR MEMES?: Both are fun! I think memes are a great icebreaker and way to toss characters at each other, but I really like building relationships through plotting. So probably those two things working in tandem?

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: it’s those 3-5 paragraph replies that really let me sink in and gnaw on a character that I live for! Vox especially is good for those because the internal dialogue is often so at odds with what he is actually doing.

TIME TO WRITE?: I do a lot of my writing before I have stuff I should do (ie. classwork) but my actual best and best time to write is evening/night. (Like right now I should be doing assignments and am instead filling this out).

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: I would say there’s parts of me in all my muses— like Vox I also have a deep and abiding love for public transit, like Dia’s I’m sort of morbid and a bit gothy. Except Jayden. Jayden is a baffling creature to me. There’s always lots of differences though, “what the fuck Vox?” Is a common enough statement that @novinare can vouch for.

[poryphoria]

OOH! OK OK!! ABOUT THE HCS UMM HOW ABOUT SHERIFF?? AND/OR AUDI? :O

OOOOOOOOO ive actually been thinking abt audi a good bit lately bc i picked them up in an rp server a bit ago and once i start writing for a guy i guess im just cursed to absorb them as a blorko

so the way employers work to me, all 4 of them are given a certain "domain" to preside over and work with- conductor has time, stygian has death, deliberator has karma and auditor has society. however, as society did not always exist within nevada (u know, since with all periods of evolution there was a time where the animals were Just Animals), Auditor did not always exist!

the maker only brought them about once nevadeans began to band together in organized groups and figured stuff out like agriculture, making them the youngest of the four employers. despite this, they lie pretty flagrantly to the agency and pretty much any non-Employer that'll listen, claiming to have powers they don't or that they've been around since the dawn of creation. agency clones, for the most part, actually straight up don't know the other 3 employers exist (based off the way sanford & deimos react to mentions of the employers in m:pn)! and, because they're the most involved employer in nevadean society, it's not like the other three are ever around to correct or object, since their respective jobs keep them away from Nevada pretty much full-time.

also because of such hands-on involvement, which krinkels has described before as "ill-advised", theyve picked up a ton of nevadean mannerisms- employers are extremely different from nevadeans in a VERY obvious way, the most noticable being that they really don't do much idle behaviors. they truly are focused beings created for a single task, and it's extremely evident in their lack of behavior. however, auditor's broken past this over the years- their siblings find all their idle fidgeting and noise-making and expressions rather strange.

because they're the youngest, and because they so frequently remain in their simple, humanoid form for ease of communicating with the agency members, they are significantly weaker compared to the other employers. it's more difficult for them to access their more natural form, and even when they can, they have less energy to work with combatively. of course, a nevadean facing off against them would never know the difference- but in a fight against any of the other 3 employers, they'd likely go down first without any form of extra aid. (which is likely why they were so desperate for the keystone fragment!)

more personal hcs, but them & phobos have a sort of father-son relationship to me, in like a real fucked up cycle of trauma way. they were the one who selected Phobos to man Nexus personally to prove to the other 3 they were a capable decision-maker (which was swiftly pointed out by the other 3 as a horrible idea, being that Phobos has an original S-3LF- and original S-3LFs are historically known for being corrupt leaders). to further try and prove the other 3 wrong, they made Phobos out pretty much exactly in their image, and you can outright see the resulting parallels in the series- DOWN TO THE PEOPLE THEY'RE BETRAYED BY! THANKS, CHRISTOFF AND HOFNARR!

phobos & audi cant fucking stand eachother half the time and their relationship is super terse, cut and dry businessy, though they always act really pleasant around eachother in that insufferable corporate "im trying to one up you" way. phobos actively defies auditor at every turn he can get just to prove he answers to no one, and auditor delights in using whatever means they can to force him to do anything, just to remind him who put him in that position in the first place. the agency and nexus used to be competitors as much as they were eachother's suppliers, and auditor delights in knowing they've outlived Phobos and Nexus as a company. (they figured they would, being an employer, but they enjoy the satisfaction nonetheless!)

and, since you asked about sheriff as well, ill say this- auditors relationship with sheriff is definitely an ill advised one. sheriff's whole life is really only gonna be a blip to them- of course, between enmeshment and cloning tech, they could find ways to keep him around forever...

but would he really want that?

does he get much of a choice, at the end of things?

NAWW don't worry about it tho. they're happy for now!!! :o)c

[heartsbreaking-migrated]

a lil nico unfiltered thought moment (its not really a rant or negative, just words about my experience in the rpc i guess )

i think the part that's getting in my head about rp recently is like i feel like ive pretty much aced the writing and the graphics part (i mean i can always improve, but i'm confident enough in my abilities that i don't generally feel insecure about it) but the actual social part feels incredibly difficult to me in a way it didn't used to when i wrote on a different site as a teenager. i had a friend group there and like for the main few years it felt like i could just be myself, i understood the social structure and how things worked and even when i was at my worst there, i didn't feel like there was something completely impossible to me that i didn't understand

but here im just kinda lost, and i don't understand the social structure of the rpc at all. like i don't understand how people have groups of friends, i don't understand how people get to the point with anyone where they're so close their muses are interconnected or where they feel comfortable enough with people to just ask for a ship or a specific plot. and maybe its cause i've only been here for three years and there are people who have been writing here for ten+ but i'm sorry i don't plan on being here for ten years and i WANT to have these experiences. i want to understand because when i see groups of muses forming or niche fandoms i'm apart of having rpcs my first thought isn't 'those are potential friends i could make, i should try and interact' it's a trauma response of expecting disappointment so i don't let myself try. it's 'i'm going to be rejected if i try and engage with this group so instead i'll watch from the sidelines until it eventually goes from interest to jealousy to anger to passivity. and i know im limiting myself by not trying a lot of the time, that i'm sure of because i'm only just now starting to work through that. i guess a lot of it's probably a confidence thing, i'm confident in my writing but not in my ooc interactions and i'm also not the most talkative so unless i have a plot idea or something specific to say, chances are our ooc interactions are going to be pretty sparse and i think it takes a lot more of an outgoing person to get to that point. so thats something to work towards maybe

i love my friends, i love my rp partners, nothing about the dynamics i have with people are inadequate, i just see the way people interact here and it's not the way my interactions with people here feel and maybe its a me thing/a trauma thing/a comfort level thing thats entirely on me and I could be the one thats not letting my dynamics progress to that level. i'm completely open to that concept that the only thing stopping me from the types of interactions/experience i want to have on this site is me. im just not sure how to push through that.

i'm doing a lot better than i was two months ago or even one month ago, this like social aspect just kinda feels like the final frontier to me. it's what gets me down when i'm depressed and when i'm feeling good like i am rn it something that just moderately bugs me

anyway if you read this i hope your day is going well and you find $20 on the floor

[mothersmalice-a]

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name: rubi! ive had two or three aliases over my time online, rubi's just the one that feels most like second nature to me. i also adore taking to some variations of my tag. ( ie. ivana, ruben, ru, etc. ) preference of communication: im almost always on disc.d ( dearest creature#1962 - feel free, im literally always open to rant about dynamics, ideas n whatnot n id absolutely adore talking to some of you ♡ ), alongside tw.tter, since its easier for me to keep tabs on with mobile. anything ooc is always easier to do with me through either, i hate tumblr ims. most active muse: marisa's been rattling around in my brain for a good while now, and even when im not writing for her ill normally have an idea or two about her simmering. i haven't had this much enjoyment from dissecting and delving into a muse in a very long time, along with the fact my perception of her is always changing with every re-read / rewatch / discussion. bedelia is also always around to me even if im not currently writing her, she's very fun to play off of and even gives me a good grounding point to bounce from if I'm stuck with other muses. experience / how many years: about eight years or so now ? i've always enjoyed writing since i was younger so developing that through my own writing and picking up muses while growing up has been a nice learning journey. platforms you use: tumblr, tw.tter and disc.d. best experience: when my mutuals and i are writing something more prolonged n they come at me with something absolutely devastating. got hit with something someone was brewing for weeks once unknowns to me and oh boy connecting the dots left me a wreck. rp pet peeves: people who create certain muses and expect their dynamic to adhere to your muse without any regard for your portrayal. im always for original muses, but not talking to me first when certain muses of mine just. do not fit certain dynamics is a big no no. fluff, angst or smut: depending on the context i adore fluff and angst equally. i thrive off of writing domestic fluff just as much as i would heartbreak or any other darker subject. i love the bittersweet nature of lyra and marisa's first time bonding or AUs where things are more domestic for them just as much as her reconciliation with asriel, or the intensity of the torture scene with the witches. if it exists and it hurts or its tooth-rottingly sweet i want it all. smut is a sore spot for a few reasons, alongside the fact it just isn't what i care about / have focus on for my writing or my muses, so it would be very, very rare for me to even consider, and even then only ever with close writing partners. long or short replies: it can really depend on the day and what muse im writing. i thrive more with longer replies for characters like marisa, because it's easier for me to find a voice and get into her head. short, bantery replies normally leave me lacking in what i feel a character is like, and shorter comedic interactions just aren't what i'd consider to be my strong suit in writing, so i linger towards longer replies. the biggest thing about long replies is i burn out very easily though, so i try my best to find a middle ground. best time to write: at night, on weekends or early morning before my classes. any time i have to myself where i can just draft things for a little bit, ideally. are you like your muse(s): christ i hope not, im way too sensitive to take to being called moral filth lmfao. i think what's so compelling about marisa is i'd love to inhabit some of her strengths, though. i adore her guile, and her femininity and her ability to take everything head on. she's so unbelievably driven and intelligent in what she does and okay come on im a lesbian why do you think im really here writing for her.

tagged by: @secondbetrayer, @evebeforethefall ( thank you. ♡ ) tagging: @toxicmalicex, @viciousgold, @dustserpent, @mryscross, whoever else sees this and wants to. ♡

[atlantis54]

2 3 19 and 21 for the writers asks!

2. well, at first, but after a while i think i'd just give up lmao. that plus i tend to be pretty disorganized so unless im keeping it in a folder or smthn that wip is going straight to the shadow realm /j

3. hmm... i guess it'd have to be having a brainrot about my wip ideas over the course of at least a few days and then losing all motivation when i actually sit down to try and make it real. it happens a lot-

21. probably not. ive been into writing since i was little, and its a hobby thats stuck to me for years, so having to quit something i enjoy doing so much sounds like a nightmare... that being said, im always welcome to take breaks from writing. a hiatus is fine but flat out quitting is a no

and finally, ask 19, which is really, really long, so ill just put it under a read more for the sake of everyone lmao

19. i started when i was really little. what age? cant remember. i had a very early love of reading and writing, so i decided to start writing stories! i originally started on paper, writing stories about whatever scenario came to mind. it didnt matter if i finished them or not, i still enjoyed it, yknow? however, the thing i loved most was making comics which combined my love of art and writing.

after a long while, i stopped with the random scenarios and started focusing more on developing coherent stories that were tied together. surprisingly, i didnt start writing online until i was around 8 or 9. it started in powerpoints of all things where i rambled about the ideas i had for my OCs and (again) random scenarios, as well as getting my friends to do roleplays. i still miss the pokemon rp me and my friends made in 3rd-4th grade ;w; good times

eventually, i moved on to the much more sensible word documents (this was when i was 9, 10 or 11 i think) where i began the creation of my Kirby fanon universe. the fanon lore that ive made for Kirby is probably the most headcanons ive ever had for anything (as Kirby was my first fandom), so this is like the beginning of a legend to me.

finally, i signed up for Fandom Wikia with the goal to share my stories with the internet. i began my migration all over the place, going from Fandom Wikia to Wattpad, then to Tumblr, then to Comic Studio, then BACK to Tumblr... its been a crazy ride. but no matter where i went i made sure to share my stories.

now, im trying to improve on my writing skills. upon rereading my older fanfics, i realized they were... well, not the best. currently, my writing to-do list is to finish the Daily Life section of my Danganronpa multiverse crossover fic, begin writing an idea for an owlbit fic, and to begin the rewrites of 2 of my older works. its a little daunting of a task, but im sure that i can do it! besides, my fanfics arent particularly popular (i only have 27 followers on wattpad rip) so i dont have to worry too much about people begging me to get on w/ the chapters heh

anyway, thank you for the ask! have a duck as an apology gift for having to read that big wall of text :D

he got the. hat

[wifeymakesgifs]

Hello! Me again! I also love commentary youtubers. I'm even subscribed to your three favorites! I love reading too so when the secret part is over I definitely have recs for sapphic stories that aren't solely romance if you're interested! Anyways onto todays questions: What's your fav trope? Fav plot bunny you never got to use? Go to sentence starter? Fav character name you've created? Did you ever write fanfic? Fav fandom? Do you rp in fandom rps? In a canon rp what character do/would you play?

rfjkenfkjewnfnewf OMG REALLY??? love your taste, bestie!! and yesss, im all up for book recs, because like my goodreads is a little dry atm and the last book i tried to read was Mexican Gothic, which I didn't really vibe with :(

Putting under readmore BECAUSE GOOD GOD I LOVE TO TALK

FAVOURITE TROPE: im a big fan of ship tropes, like grumpy x sunshine, lovers to enemies to lovers???? and some more im forgetting.

PLOT BUNNY: i dont think i have any! im usually just going with the flow of things. and some plot bunnies are just partner specific that i could never replace, so i never think about them anymore lol!!

GO TO SENTENCE STARTER: i hate writing starters, so if you can teach me to write a good starter, i will kiss you anon! like, i genuinely suck at them to the point where i depend on my partners to keep it going, bc.....it SUCKS and i just feel bad for everyone involved

FAVOURITE CHARACTER: i think i answered this already!!! Here we go!

FANFIC: ......perhaps. once upon a time i did. it was Big Time Rush fanfic and I'm sure it no longer exists (it was on Wattpad and it was eons ago, so if my account is still standing, then i guess it will be there????). it never went anywhere, and i am not like....I do not think about it anymore looooool

FAVOURITE FANDOM: oh BOY IM IN SO MANY like....my tv tag on sydsweeneys might give you an idea??? but i am like in the Shadow and Bones fandom, just anything Leigh Bardugo writes tbh. Then there's Marvel, Harry Potter (fuck JKR it's my own canon at this point, so fuck her terf ass pls), i tried to get into DC and there's only two characters i'm okay with writing lol, some TV shows that I'm into and would create content for them on and off, and the audiodrama scene <3 im in Wolf 359, The Black Tapes Podcast, The Magnus Archives, Unwell and Wooden Overcoats! Also these are great recs if you're into spooky shit or just funny British humor!

CANON RPS: it's been a hot minute since ive joined those because I cannot stand tumblr roleplays and jcink sites take a lot of brainspace to keep going. Same with fandom rps. I used to be in those Marauders rps, but the cattiness and competition and always talking about who plays James Potter better gets on my nerves, to the point where I just....indie that shit instead. It's easier that way. As for what kind of characters I play??? Love me a nice anti-hero or villain character. It started with the whole "im not like other roleplayers, i dont need to play good guys" to now me just....really liking giving everyone a redemption arc!

i'm a simple bean, i write my simple bean nonsense and just try to have fun with it, bc otherwise roleplay would be another chore i have no interest in anymore :(

[jackassbroadcast]

Hello im a Tommy enthusiast who watched that one stream where he monologued to foolish for like hafe an hour bc i heard it was a cool stream or wtv to realize how much amazing character moments it had that barly anyone in this damn fandom is talking about so ill fucking do it

(Only after finishing this i realized i wrote 1.7k words LOL OOPS)

If u dont know what in talking about its this stream (apologies for linking a clips channel the actual vod on foolish's channel is deleted by now)

Also heads up /rp /dsmp every time i refer to someone here by name is their character unless stated otherwise bc writing c! Before every name Is tiring LOL

Also // suicidal idealization , death mentions

The conversation starts off with foolish and tommy mining for Wilbur, and foolish questions how simply mining will solve the problem to which Tommy reponds with "they dont get solved, do they? It just ends uo with some madman screaming 'Hes solved it!' And now look at him." And how he wants to "prevent the problem before it goes outta hand" something that clearly references Wilbur and his destruction of lmanburg, which paired with him collecting stone for Wilbur as the way to stop said problems he believes if he does anything he can for Wilbur and support him by his side enough this time around, that he wont do anything like thay again, which as im writing this makes be realize by doing that we learn hes blaming himself for what happened to Wilbur in November 16th and pogtopia and a whole, by not being enough for Wilbur in his mind.

The conversation continues, foolish off hand asks why would tommy want to stop Wilbur? Weren't they friends at some point? To which tommy leads foolish to lmanburg and tells him the story of the nation (how it was him and Wilbur's nation, how they made it to espace dream's iron fist and how they held an election "which puts your life on the line, which is good- if you're confident but- perhaps we were too confident", how they lost)

Tommy: "You know the phrase: 'treat other how you wanna be treated', foolish? People dont ever listen to it. Wilbur- he decided he wanted to be treated poorly so he treated everyone around him poorly "

This Tommy quote, to me at least, so so amazingly strong in conveying how understanding he is? To the world around him. Like-

I have not seen one person bring this quote up, and yet its (at least to me) shows such growth and understanding in Tommy i saw little to nothing like it in other streams. It shows he understands, he knew Wilbur didnt change just because, he knows he was struggling, that he thought everyone around him were againt him, were going to abandon him the first chance theyll get- and he thought he deserved it. So he, as a last way to defend himself against that, hurt them first, abandoned them first, so theyll see how much of a 'bad' person he was and take him out- and tommy saw right through that, possibly understanding it more after exile.

This next qoute was talked about much more but i still wanna bring it up

Foolish: "Do you believe in second chances?"

Tommy: "Oh, no I don't really believe that its not really a thing for me foolish its just that-" *sigh* "- i believe everyone has a little bit of good in then and this is not about giving him a second chance or a third chance- its not about *chances* foolish. Its about not giving up on the poeple you care about. "

Which. I mean. I dont know how healthy that mindset is, but comign from Tommy it makes so much sense.

Techno, tubbo, eret, sapnap. These are all people Tommy used to be extremely close to, had either a war or had been betrayed by them, and yet still found it in his heart that he still cares for them, with all of these, they did horrendous things, that hurt tommy physically and mentally, while also not being once or twice, but a contentious thing, but while tommy is to this day still effected by their actions he still found it in himself to forgive, because he knows he fucked up too, a lot, and he knoes they learned from their mistakes just as he had (except c!techno FUCKKK c!techno mf doesnt learn SHITTT) and he knows, when the time comes he knows hed want the people he hurt to forgive him too. (And he wants Wilbur to do the same)

Next qoute i will cut to a couple parts because its really so good and full of character i had to bro

Foolish: "Do you consider yourself to be the good guy or the bad guy?"

Tommy: "It really depends who you ask, isn't it? Yknow? If you asked dream he'd say im *his little toy that he plays with* you know? It doesnt.."

This part really stunned me when i first heard it because, and correct me If im wrong, but i dont think tommy ever acknowledged how dream sees him, and  how right he has his viewpoint too. Just the fact tommy is so *painfully* aware of how dream doesnt even see him as a person anymore but just a toy to mess around with for a while than just throw it away when it get too boring really hurt me. Someone give this kid a hug

(Continued) Tommy: "...foolish, honestly? I used to consider myself 'the good guy', you know? The fuckin'- second in command! But these past- these past like six months or so, foolish, everything got so much harder than it was before. Because before it was just us vs bad guys, it was all so clear! But- its not been 'clear' for so long, right? It wasn't; 'these are the bad guys! These are the good guys!' Now it's : 'he's doing this and it makes him a bit worse-' i mean, it all got so complicated, so- i don't know. Depends who you ask."

He says this, in response to foolish asking if hes a good guy- but its awfully similar to if Wilbur asked him if they were the bad guys. Because foolish just asked about him, and yet in his answer tommy made sure to keep using the words "us, he's, guys" as if hes not really talking about himself, as if hes explaining how Wilbur was wrong. Which he was. Also something interesting ive noticed, he says "the last 6 months or so", which indicated that with Wilbur he knew better to follow his word and leadership- with Wilbur he was always on the right side but when he lost him he felt much more lost alone, and couldn't trust himself enough to be on the "right side" .

Foolish: "I dont know, it all seems strange because just from, you know- hearing from others and, you know, learing a little bit, its seems like you've been the hero, you've been the villain, the conqueror, the savior, and, even now, i have no idea what you exactly are."

Tommy: "that's up to you to decide, isn't it? Im just- *uh*  i dont know. These days, foolish, I'm a little weaker than i used to be"

Foolish couldn't be more right with what he said, another example of this we see where a character acknowledges tommy never sticks to one thing us Charlie when calling him "tommy fron nowhere" which shows more how he cant stick to one thing, during the course of him on the server he had been friends and enemy with nearly everyone, been on pretty much all sides, and while never really intentionally, being in the center of conflict. When foolish says he doesnt know who tommy is anymroe at this point and all Tommy says in return is that "hes a little weaker than he used to be" does to show he misses who he used to be, with lmanburg, with Wilbur, when he knew who he was, now he doesn't know who he is anymore, but still so desperately want to be more demonstrated by the lines coming rigth after that one:

(Continued) Tommy: "..I'm not- I'm now who i want to be, but-"

Foolish: "Being honest with you, Tommy, that's the same case for me as well."

Tommy: "...heres the thing, foolish, unlike you i dont really have a choice. I have to try and be who i want to be, because if i dont, very bad things are gonna happen in this server. And now that Wilbur's back i can't- quite frankly *no one* can risk that. So i dont really have a choice."

Tommy want's to change- he wants to be better than he is now, to be closer to who he used to be, no matter how impossible that might be, but he also sees it as an immediate thing, he wants to change now, or asap, which is why hes collecting stone for Wilbur in the first place- old him would've done that with ease just because Wilbur asked and he wants to have that back so badly, asap. The way he talked about this reminded me of when he tried getting over his trauma stream before he went in the prison to kill dream: he knew he wasnt the best but he tried getting over that asap to go kill dream asap. He didnt wanna take the long road of years of healing and instead thought he could get over it just like that, and that experience clearly didnt teach him anything because now hes trying to slide back to the relationship he and Wilbur used to have and ignoring the drastic changes they both had plus the bad moments that were the reason they feel out in the first place, or maybe he knows, but at this point, after everything that happened to him and the server, he doesnt care anymore? He knows hes not the same he was and he'll never be the same, because thats not how it works, but his mentor, president, big brother is back after so long tommy felt so lost and alone he thinks maybe, this time around, with Wilbur, he could try and be better again.

[enderspawn]

an incomplete sloppy guide to ethical rpf

rpf (real person fiction) isn't inherently bad, as long as you learn how to do it respectfully-- after all, you are writing abt Real People. also note: rpf doesnt have to be an irl fic (where a CC is a CC in story), just a story using real people as the characters. that fantasy au where they all team up to fight god or whatever? rpf baby.

the line blurs a LITTLE with dsmp and other self insert-ish rp, but where i usually draw the line is if they're closer to their characters characterization or the ccs/their personas characterization. again, main point is rpf doesnt always equal irl setting.

im too lazy to properly write a full like essay or paper abt this, so instead heres a few key steps to follow to make sure ur not being Weirdchamp abt it all.

also keep in mind: these are rules ive gathered over my years of yt-based fandom(s) that also assume its a situation where ppl Can contact ccs enough to like. get their word on shit. idk how to handle big celeb rpf lmao good luck w that on your own.

tldr for ppl who dont wanna look under the cut: 1. respect cc boundaries at all times no matter what, 2. keep in mind that this is all fiction, nothing based in fact and that you are Not Their Friend, and 3. dont share it w ccs

until proven otherwise, assume everyone IS NOT okay with being written about. doesnt matter if they're a cc in the public eyes, see if they're okay w it to begin with. some are, some arent.

the above statement also includes a CC's family (including parents, spouse, siblings, etc) unless specifically specified otherwise as okay.. make OCs to fill those positions if you really need them, give em alternate names or whatever. but family of CC especially deserve privacy

never include a CC's kids. genuinely, idk a single cc with like... a kid old enough for that not to be creepy. again, give em an oc kid or get rid of the kid entirely.

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if possible, check the cc's boundaries or ask to see whats cool and what isnt. some people aren't gonna be cool w shipping, some people are, some people have their own sets of limits.

again, you are writing about other real life living people. make what you write something they're okay with existing. if you break those boundaries ill break ur fucking kneecaps

some ppl aren't gonna be cool being in fics with certain topics or themes in them. if they say so, respect that.

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be aware at all times you are writing rpf. aka, fiction. what you write is 100% not real and fictionalized. never incorporate any forms of "truthing" into your rpf or rpf consumption. you dont know any of these people, you are writing things based on the persona they show you. you have no idea how this person actually is.

dont fuckin ship minors. also if you ship minors with adults go straight to fucking jail bc thats illegal!

dont make nsfw of minors. again, straight to fucking jail bc thats legit just child porn and you CAN and should be arrested for it!

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never show a CC your rpf fanfic. i can guarantee, majority of the time they dont want to see it. don't bring it up to them, dont ask them to see it out or read any, let it be a FAN thing.

writing rpf is a fandom privilege, not something you are inherently given or deserve. it is something the cc allows to happen, and they can take it back at any time.

[abunchofraccooons]

Yk what

fuck it

PROJECT IDEA RANTTTT

Ok so the first idea which ive admittedly had for awhile

Is making videos based off of the Gregaverse Creators Shinanigians series 

Little edit like things where the comic is the same nothings changed except for instead of a comic its a little video

However i have 21 left to do and there are 25 in total so doing them all will take a bit of work but i think i can manage(somewhat) 

They could be dubbed or i could just add music and sound effects to the video w/ the regular text bubbles showing up w/ no dub 

I like the dubbed idea better but then again for any of this to work i need every creator includes consent so thats why i didnt wanna talk abt this one

I cant promise everyone can consent and this is a pretty cool idea but im not gonna post my friends w/o their consent thats just rude imo

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Second idea

Youtube channel

Yk like those youtube animation channels that post storytimes and rants and some other stuff?? yeah i wanna do that

Origionally i wanted to be a streamer and my friend saying that id be a funny one when i mentioned it in a call made me want to be one more

However my schedule is absolutely everywhere so i wouldnt be able to do steady streams like id like to

So a youtube channel works better!!

I can premake videos and have them ready to post on a schedule like id like it to be 

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Third idea

DT COMIC SERIES

Itd be like the books up to a T so basically you can read the comic or the book and get practically the same story

Except the book will have more extra details and the comic would be more.. graphic

Itd be fun to do 

A great comic idea

Plus i already have atleast 20 pages worth of story done and posted maybe more

I like it but itd prolly be started way after i catch up w/ my current projects

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Forth idea

A Gregaverse creators series except its based off of persona rps 

This one is a good one but i think itd take a bit of me warming up to before i can manage it

Its a great idea 

I love it

However i have alot of anxiety w/ writing a character right so writing another persons persona?? anxiety through the goddamn roof

But the rp part makes it simpler due to the fact that well they play their own character and all id have to do is write it into a story fill in a few blanks and boom!! story

Again my friends consent but itd take awhile to start anyways due to the fact im drowning in WIPs so i wont have to ask for awhile

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Fifth idea  

Songs

I can write i can sing so songs would be a great outlet for me

In theory

Ive tried this before and became very dysphoric over my voice in the recordings as it sounded wrong to me

Not to mention my phones microphone is shit so id have to wait a long time until i can

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Sixth idea

Comissions!!

I want to do comissions for a multitude of reasons 

I need the money for my savings  I want to start making money independently Itd cure boredom Plus itd get ppl some costum content!!

I already have ideas for prices and what i would comission

For example my favorite ones of these ideas is picture oneshots

I draw you a picture based off of who and what you want the story about then write abt a 3-4k word oneshot abt the drawing

The price idea for that one was 15-25USD but i think itd be worth it

The comissions would mainly be writing though as im still working on my art skills 

I dont think theyre good enough for professional comissions so id prolly have the main focus on writing and stories

However i did have the idea of including added pictures

Such as you commissioned a base story of 5 chapters and decide “yk i rlly want an art peice abt this spesific part” 

You could ask and pay for it!!

It be maybe 10-15USD per picture bc i plan on making this pictures extremely detailed

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Thats all the ideas for now so-

I might reblog w/ more ideas but feedback is always welcome

[dawgsprite]

why do you like izo so much

at first like. it was superficial bc i just really liked his design and he hadn't been released on na yet so i didnt know much abt him-- but id honestly liked his design and wanted to learn more abt him for a looong time before i actually got to know him. and i still do love his design-- a little emo, a little disheveled, wild eyes and nice thick hair and goes over his eye and good expressive faces and so much clothes and just... chefs kiss. everythings so good abt how he looks. i love lacks art and all the extra stuff they do of okada too is a blessing to look at-- i especially love this one of him as an idol. this is both from an aesthetic place and a gay place ftr.

and like, the more i learned about him, the more i liked him? i like a fiery personality, but especially one that hides more complexity and insecurity under the surface and like. okadas a fucking well of insecurity. maybe it's a little bit of projection but i also like him more than enough for just... himself. i like the idea of someone who wields such an overinflated ego in an attempt to hide a lot of insecurity and struggle and inferiority felt from both his time as a servant but most prevalently his time alive. (I also love the messy relationship he has with ryouma (and oryou though id argue theirs is more straightforward), and some other stuff associated with that tho i wont bring my headcanons into things here... even if my icon makes them apparent! tho ill mention i do have one very big okada ship that is 100% from a crackship origin that is genuinely one of my favorite relationships to have been able to write.)

ill also admit that i get attached to certain characters more bc i actually rp them lmao. i won't get into all the nuances and shit from writing him for like, a little over a year? maybe two? but it adds a lot of connection to him on an emotional level when im able to develop his character outside of what he gets in canon. (im always a lil salty that he's the butt of the joke 90% of the time in game, but i understand why, so i guess i just have to shrug it off LMAO)

but this is a short answer. i could ramble for ages about why i like his character, all the different specificies and nuances and intricacies to his design and personality, but ill save you too much! i just really like okadas design, i think there's a lot to like in his personality, and ive just plain gotten attached to one of my main muses in roleplay.

as a thank you for this question (i hope it was genuine and not just a like. why do you like this asshole question skdgjhsdkjg) here is a picture of the nendoroid that neme bought me i think for my birthday last year! he sits next to my gawain figure on my desk :)

[disasterghaster-moved]

JUMPS in on this screw anon; while my memory is eh on details, I do know that you and I have rp'ed on and off for ?? likely almost a decade now. I think I just, came across the hinabn and stuck around with the group early on, and when I got this rendition of enya going. many a thing happened, but I know some of the quieter threads we had were instrumental in helping me really develop enya better. I was younger, throwing out whatever came to mind without much care for the details. but when I came up against you, the care you put into your threads and words, however small; I know I was nervous early on. lot of "man I wish I could write like that" thoughts! I dont think I managed to ever match you, but you always seemed to care about every thread it really encouraged me to keep trying, even when I felt like I wasnt good enough - I could try and learn from reading your half.

I will admit that, after one of my earlier gaps, I shied away from re-interacting - not because of you specifically, more so I didnt want to fall back into old habits in general, thinking that avoiding old rp groups might help.

I remember a bit later on, I refollowed without saying anything, then unfollowed again. my reasoning was I couldnt think a way to interact, and because you rp with such a solid group that has such an incredibly well-developed setting and rapport, I didnt think I would even be worth the time (and a hint of "I followed u why wont u interact with me" assumption, twas a dumb thought but there nonetheless). but you have always been one of those folk that I know I can still find you down the road; bit of a "oh yeh, I remember interacting with her, I wonder how she's doing" and the writing has always brought me back in. which is also why Im a bit greedy in getting a lil thread going whenever you offer it ehehe <3

and I cant say it enough, your writing is fantastic, even the smaller threads. the way you can capture emotion in words and your use of language in general has always been inspiring to me. its definitely pushed me to do better and to really think about the emotion a character would be feeling and how to get it out without your usual "he was sad" deal. having a character for decades helps, but the way you make something as small as talking about pizza feel real is the big Why for my following.

I know a bit on how you feel, but Ive always had a feeling thats a part of the tumblr experience; people are shy and timid, more so with well-established blogs. I know I follow a few blogs that I dont/cant see a good way for enya to interact with but just love to see their character and read their threads. possibly putting out a "like this to discuss thread ideas" mayhaps might bring some of the quieter followers out, or directly message some that you have a loose concept about. unfortunately, even if we're all a bunch of shy nerds who love writing our characters, we're afraid of rejection. its hard, but sometimes reaching out to them is the only way to break that worry

however, I do think you have such a solid circle that, while it may get difficult finding things to write, its a good base of people that love and support you and will continue to do so however much longer we got in this place <3

this got long and wordy and I apologize!! sdfgh

Ssssso much information and worrrrrddddssss, ya neeRRRRRRRD.

But all points and nice things taken.

I do have to think about how to do 'outreach' a bit more. I've always struggled with just popping into conversations with people I'm not familiar with. Some of that, too, is difficulty with 'small talk' a lot of the time and the social stamina thing--not making excuses so much as explaining why I have a big deficit in that department. I know that could be worked on and maybe there's some work arounds.

Like how I've been trying to post more ask memes and starter memes and stuff.