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#i think in 2025 its time to seriously consider exit plan forever#all the reading ive done on ending things indicates most people do end up better by just drastically changing their circumstances though#so its never too late to just burn it all down sell everything you own and run away to become new again#thats always an option#but you cant escape the weight of memory#it hurts to know you get one shot at a secure point in your life when you are cared for unconditionally and its childhood and#if thats not how ur childhood went then theres never another point when you can be truly safe and secure again#whatever#im so scared of death because im a coward but as each year drags on its like oh wow this cannot be all this cannot be it#and it isnt#its something wrong with me probably#or definitely#i should sell everything i own change everything about myself and abandon everything for the road again#everything tends towards chaos but why is it always so sad and the concept of justice is just not real#evil gets more evil and gets rewarded and theres never any consequences ever its very. what do u do
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alternate apocalypse ending or something who the hcrist knows anymore
#mcu#xmen movies#xmen#xmen apocalypse#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#almost posted this to the wrong blog omg i wouldve thrown up#this dumb as hell forgive me chat#unrelated i thought today was sunday but no it's. 4AM saturday THAT MEANS ITS CHERIK POSTING TIME#i thought of binning this like five times but ive convinced myself i like enough of this to keep it#at the very least im making myself chortle at the mini charles in the corner. like yeah that about summarizes it donnit#anyway the reason why we're here. highkey just wanted charles to grab his waist SORRY#and this was the first thing i thought of so. Apocalypse But Erik Directs The Ending jvlkeajl#my god i was gonna say something else but. i forgot#oh wait no i remember hold on. uhhh something something charles shouldve fought harder or whatever erik said in dofp#dofp IS before apocalypse i know this but it applicable. probably. im not gonna think bout it on whats essentially a shitpost#ok im sleeping now bye. ive got more doodles i wanna do but my god im sleepy. or at least i should sleep
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Saying that the gpda should go care about something important, as if they aren't - for the first time in DECADES - taking a definite stand against the sports governing body publicly for all to see, is something.
This goes beyond the jewellery, the underwear, or even the swearing. And their issue about being told not to wear jewellery and bring told what underwear is more about the fact that they were told by the media, rather than by the governing bodies themselves directly in a meeting where the drivers could share their perspectives.
They publicly called out the FIA President for his hypocrisy and for how he has spoken about the drivers both to their face and behind their backs.
Most importantly, they have publicly expressed their feelings about monetary fines, publicly stated that they have no idea what the FIA does with the money they receive from fining drivers, and called them out for it. There is zero transparency from the FIA in an issue we now know has been raised since at least 2021. What is the FIA hiding? Because there is no reason why the drivers should not be allowed to see where that money goes, or at least no legitimate reason.
#f1#formula 1#formula one#fuck the fia#like we know next to nothing about what was discussed in saudi arabia the year there was explosions seen from the track#but we know even though they didn't want to they were forced to race#they didn't have the power#this time is different#either they know something or they are very very pissed off or both#but come hell or high water they've not come to play#its one thing if that money goes into things like safety or is used in other areas of the sport like young driver academies etc#but given the secrecy from the FIA it probably ain't something good#max verstappen#charles leclerc#sebastian vettel#<- i remembered how many drivers are involved and i love to see it but i do not love to type it lmao so tags will end here#gpda#edit: i was drowning in assignments i say as if I'm no longer drowning in them lmao but I wasn't keeping up as well with f1 news at the time#so please correct me if I'm wrong!#but didn't the drivers only find out there was to even be a ban on swearing when Max was publicly punished for it with no warning?
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its not hard to click someones profile before you follow them btw
#Ok i know u guys are probably tired of me whining aobut this#but like almost every single follower i get i look at their profile and its this exact scenario..over and over...#and im starting to wonder am i doing something wrong? like is there something i can do to prevent this? is it on me???#because like. this many people can not be so... oblivious to clicking one button? before you follow me? or are you just ignoring it#im tempted to just give up on monitoring this but i know thats a bad idea#i really dont want to have to put a warning on all of my posts cos thats annoying and i just dont like having to do that/the look of it#whatever ill be 18 in 2 years so its only a matter of waiting and it wont be like this for long but. come on.#its so unbelievably irritating to have this happen over. and over. and over#i dont mind reblogs/likes from 18+ blogs on my posts! but following me is stupid!#SO i dont know if making a little frustration induced comic will help this cause but oh well#after this i suppose ill just go back to blocking people........#i hate blocking people!! its really tough but like. You did this to yourself following me#facepaw#my art#doodles#oc: rory
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Haven't watched Last Life in a long time so I decided to draw them from memory
#please dont execute me if i forgot something or got it wrong 😔#last life#life series#last life fanart#ethoslab fanart#ethoslab#bdoubleo100#bdubs#bdubs fanart#life series fanart#ethubs#half of team best but i probably shouldnt tag since its not all of them#i found a new brush ive been playing with lineart using and its vrry fun ^_^#can you tell i really like these two#fox ethoslab#i gave bdubs antlers becuase over christmas i volunteered at my local zoo and worked with a ton of reindeer#also it seems fitting#i love drawing bdubs with a square ass face idk its so funny#if i feel like it i might end up posting the doodles on the sides of them#i like using one camvas for multiple drawings#it might be cool to do a glow lichen moment with bdubs and his moss cloak i dont know 🤔#anyway#my art#digital art
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Thinking about the what if El was never interested in Mike romantically, she just assumed she was discourse on the tag today and how it's very possible what could make El fully realize this, is when in s5 she see's Will's love for Mike in real time, for the first time, and she's just like damn! That is not me!
#byler#no but arguably that already happened..#remember that! you're the heart#el listening: you're the what now?? im sorry but that's corny as hell. could not be me!#i feel like this could be how el confronts will in s5 about lying to mike#i think it's interesting they had that talk with will and el about her lying to him with will calling her out#if to not circle back to it in some way for her to be like hypocrite much?#tho i doubt that's how it would happen#i have a feeling el is going to understand in will's case in contrast to her and mike's argument#like will and el are siblings so yeah they fight#but i just get the feeling she's going to sense something is up with them (already does)#and something big will happen and i feel like she's going to see the truth before they're able to#and i think will is probably going to realize last because he really does not think it could ever happen now#and also because of el i think will would feel like its wrong unless he was confident she would be okay with it#so i could totally see will not allowing himself to be happy in that sense even if he realized mike could return his feelings#but by then mike's already made his peace with el and they're good#UGHHGHHG s5 arrive now!#no but isn't it kind of side eye that they've never shown us el be confronted with mike and wills friendship at all?#like in s1 and s3 at the end Mike mentions will in his plans with el#and that's about where it ends#we have not seen her exposed to their dynamic and like reacting to it before#UNTIL THE END OF S4!!!
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something something headcanon Michael wrote a good amount of the Fnaf songs as a way of coping with the horrors™️ so like in his handy dandy notebook, right next to his plans of arson and vivid drawings of nightmares, it reads "I can see you there, warmth and life, why don't you share, it's been many years, stuck here living with out fears-" and it doubles as Michael trying to categorize all the information he's learnt and helping him process all this information and it gives this really funny visual of later on, Gregory asking Glamrock Freddy something from the past of Fazbear Entertainment or his previous family drama and then Freddy just starts humming and muttering "....mmm all stay strong, we live eternally, all is well in mmmmm pure insanity, mmmmm-AH!- here is your answer, Gregory! :333" no because imagine he shows Gregory "Too Far" (by CK9C) and Greg's like "Thats......a lot of yelling." "I was going through a rough time haha." -listens to it further before taking of the headphones- "...You good man?" "I'm really not, but we ball, Gregory."
#fnaf#michael afton#five nights at freddy’s#glammike#glamrock freddy#Do you see the vision chat#Fazbear Entertainment probably published all these songs by finding Michael's notebook in the rubble lol#“Gregory you do not understand theyre using the wrong octave gregory!! its not my artistic vision gregory!!”#screw it im making it a part of silly salvaged lol#william in his little peepaw area finds a copy of the notebook thats up for display in RockRow's museum and he bullies Mike relentlessly lo#“really? thats the best Rhyme scheme you could come up with? PLEASE!”#“When me and Henry worked on the Diner's music at least the lyrics were clever! here in this verse you're just calling me evil!”#“If you're going to be in my shadow please try and keep up; I'm not Peter Pan Michael.”#And then Gregory's like “Yk I thought your music was pretty alright Freddy :D” and then all is right in Freddy's world#he is however fine with CC and Lizzy dunking on him. yk. sibling things#one day Freddy catches Vanessa humming to like....Left Behind or something and he laughs to himself#also shoutout Welcome to Freddy's by Madame Macabre#BANGER SONG FRFR
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Sun reference sheet for art fight!
ID: ( beings made of stardust au sun reference sheet. "Sun" is spelled out at the top. On the left is a full body drawing of him in black biker shorts and a black cropped sleeveless turtleneck. He's waving and smiling. Beside him on the left is written "normal clothes worn on ship". Near his feet, it says "doesn't usually wear shoes! They have tough pads under there". On the top right there is a headshot drawing of him smiling, showing off his dull teeth. "Dull teeth" is written on the right. On the left of the headshot, there is a drawing of his hand, palm facing out. There is a marking of the sun on his palm and lighter pads on his fingers. Beside it says "pads on fingers". In the center, there is a doodle of the marking on Sun's palm. Under it says "on palms and shoulder". On the right of that, there is a drawing on sun in a frilly purple outfit. He's sticking his tongue out and standing with one arm behind his back, holding onto the other. On the right of it, it says "likes frilly clothes". On the bottom in the middle, there is a drawing of sun with his hands just barely together. He wears a short, cropped shirt and a clip-on earring. Above it says "wears clip-on jewelry" and below it says "breathes through skin so they wear little clothing".) End ID
No notes version under cut!
Do not repost my art grr
#sundrop#security breach sundrop#beings made of stardust tag#beings made of stardust au#beings made of stardust#art fight art fight art fi#its 2ammmmm<3#maudiemoods art tag#maudiemoods fnaf fanart#let me know if that id needs anything! i think its good?#maybe too much but i don't think theres such thing when it comes to describing something?#im probably wrong jdndje#but definitely lmk if its wrong jdjsjjs
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#iirc the datv embargo lifts in a few hours time#its exciting for sure!! ◕‿◕#(theres some good info out there about what u can expect etc)#everyones level of comfort/preference for spoilers or what they consider/dont consider spoilers or do/dont want to see beforehand#is different and thats valid#for me rn my pref is not seeing much more of the game than i have so far so i will probably not be watching/reading most of those bits of#coverage which are described as 'spoilery' due to this#im just at a stage personally where in the main the last thing I'd like to see now is just a good look at the CC and the CC options#and then just any of the more 'generic' stuff like any new official screenshots that get tweeted or if theres one more trailer or something#(know what i mean? maybe generic is the wrong word but like vague or general or something). and thats about it#so if i'm quieter on here or not postin about sth new that you've seen or focusing more on less-new stuff like V&V eps i didnt get a chance#to listen to yet or i dont know the answer to something etc thats why ^^#i've turned off asks and submit as well jic#sry for any inconvenience caused by that and for not following/posting everything in the coming weeks hh!!#its like a push and pull between wanting to be hyped with everyone/overanalyze every new crumb/wanting my blog to be useful and#not wanting to know much more about the game besides CC than i do atm hh#ultimately we will only get to go into this game and play this game for for the first time once so yea :D#(and in case it helps to know for your own curation purposes my datv spoilers tag is 'dragon age the veilguard spoilers'!!)#mj and the world
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I STILL CAN'T GET OVER HOW IN THE BEGINNING, CALE PUSHED EVERYONE AWAY. You may say it's because of how "dangerous" and "trouble packed" their journey will be in the story later on— BUT. I JUST CANT HELP BUT FEEL LIKE MAYBE , JUST MAYBE. He didn't want them to be affected by his "curse" (side effect of WS) whether he knew about it or not. Just consider the fact that he KNOWS what will happen to them and how they'll be fighting for a better world and it'd be MUCH better if he's not there. Just in case he worsens whatever will happen.
He's such an unreliable narrator <3 the Worst Kind Ever.
#cale henituse#you will always be famous#TCF#trash of the count's family#and you might say OH he probably doesnt really /know/ about the side effect but i raise you this#this b//tch was able to rise up to be a commander and an absolute BEAST of a team leader.#with a 0% LETHAL RATE (probably. actually need to fact check that but its somewhere along those lines)#poor b//stard was tired of everyone leaving him and if he can help it#no one will suffer. even if it is at his expense#my point is: he's a smart ass he probably figured out something was wrong with him when people doesnt really get Close yo him and anyone-#who DID f//ckin DIED#he deserves the world and more#though he'd probably pass out if was given a world#'I DONT WANT TO RULE A WORLD! GIVE ME MY SLACKER LIFE!!' he'd say
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Every time I start thinking about how we don't know who louis truly is because he doesn't even know who he truly is, I go a little more insane.
#staring at my own artwork (the shattered mirror one) just thinking#iwtv is the longest most drawn out commentary on the long term effects of parentification if you think about it#i was gonna write a meta about how armand and louis are a match made in hell in terms of what they need á la control in a relationship#but i realized i atleast know what armand wants even if it is contradictory- but i have no idea what louis wants#the only thint i know for certain is that louis wants kids. he wants a family. and armand def aint giving him that#leaving him to suffer thru postpartum depression on his own... youre a scoundrel armand.#i still hold fast that louis loved that lestat protected him. that lestat had such violent retribution for those who wronged him#armand... doesnt seem to have that. maybe its him thinking louis needs control over his own life... but its probably not that#louis and armand relationship confounds me#iwtv#insane ramblings#interview with the vampire#ldpdl#loumand relationship complexities are just something im gonna have to take the autistic L on cause i dont get them#louis de pointe du lac
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chat i think im gonna be sick
(Powers of X #6)
#xmen#xmen comics#powers of x#charles xavier#snap scans#snap chats#moira stronger than me like ik why we here we're gonna die if not and so that is why she is stronger than me she is committing#i woulda kissed him in this moment too tho she and i are family on that front im afraid i do find him very cute#also. SIDE TANGENT. i loved the art before this of charles slowly processing the horrors of moiras mind ...#EXCELLENT art i must eat it at once#the most devious part of this is after i finished reading i went to go to my brother to talk about What I Read#and the second i pulled up like 'his sad eyes Brother im gonna be sick' he immediately quoted this page I HATE IT HERE#thats why they had to put that dome over charles' eyes so no one could look at his sad eyes anymore#this is in fact something i love and always love seeing but it still hurts i will not LIIIEEE#cant wait to read bout how this all goes horribly wrong ....#while my bro and i were talkin we were talkin bout other in-between stories an i wanna check those out at some point ...#maybe ill check my comic shop sometime in the future idk. for now im gonna throw up !!!!!!!!!!#i will simply spend tomorrow watching the rest of 92 im almost done with it. relatively speaking i will feel healed then probably#i got like two seasons left which is basically the same length as season 3 and then its onto 97#thats just one season for now so ... should finish that quick ..#ok bye i have Being Sick to be
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Some of the folks behind my favorite horror podcast just recently started a new podcast called World Gone Wrong and if you like podcasts at all I cannot recommend it enough
It's a fictional chat show about the end of the world between two roommates currently living half the country apart and they're talking about things like how to werewolf-proof your home against your lycanthropy-infected purse dog and it's so funny but there's something so gentle and empathetic about it that feels so relevant to the way everything actually is. Even though they're talking about pod people.
There's only 4 episodes so far so it's a really quick listen, please listen to World Gone Wrong
#at least 2 maybe 3 of the episodes have made me cry but in like. a good way#something in the newest episode hit me right in my little twrp fan heart and i just instantly started crying#world gone wrong#world gone wrong pod#the link goes to spotify bc it seems most ubiquitous but its also just on podcatchers and on youtube. probably itunes? i dont fuck w itunes#seriously. please listen to this podcast. it is a joy
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It was surprisingly hard to develop a chibi style.
#world of warcraft#anduin wrynn#wrathion#wranduin#varian wrynn#LIKE theres a head to body ratio that cant be messed up and drawing the eyes wrong will make them look weird#And youve got to consider how to put detail in a small area and how to represent different body types its such a hassle#That said chibi styles are so fun to do and you can do fullbody work with (usually) slightly less work then an actual fullbody#so figuring out how your personal style is translated into chibi is so worth it#So this was me making a chibi style#but i drew these in 2021 so i should do a redraw or something#but i havnt drawn many chibis since so its probably not changed much
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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo
#ganondoodles talks#also probably sounds like self pity#but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist#i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think#but the internet never gets to see that much of me#i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere#so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing#i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out#i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with#i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong#im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh#it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again#sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with-#-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it#doesnt sound like a good excuse#... i want to thank those that do stick with me#even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise#there are little things that still make me angry at myself#like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing#and i got two#and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop#i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late#i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom#no matter how much i enjoy the ask#and i love getting asks!!!#im sorry :((
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the only gay rep I truly care about is
1. countless lives are destroyed because two proud people can't fully admit their gay crushes on each other
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2. someone hides being a murderer as a metaphor for also hiding being gay
#miss me with that perfect wholesome gay rep stuff#in theory like yeah its good to have that too but does it resonate with me no#like is it probably homophobic to always make the obsessive weird villains creepy and gay yeah#but is that also by far the most fun yeah usually it is#theres this lesbian couple with basically opposite taste to me in my book club#and we read something with a shitty queer coded villain and im like yay#and they're like thats homophobic#and im like youre not wrong but id rather die than give 5 stars to the h/ouse in the c/erulean sea#i feel the 'bad rep' feels different when its a gay person writing it too... like clearly it is complicated#p
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