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i hate dog training its the devils work i didnt even sign up for this đ
#mom literally got the dog impromptu refuses to learn how to act around it and now im the guy who needs to make sure#that he doesnt clasp his jaw down on any stray piece of garbage and never let it go đ„Č#its so bad. also all the videos ive found all the dogs take to the training so much faster than he does#its so bad though mom loves giving him attention when hes being bad including but not limited to.#yelling at him to be quiet when hes barking (negative reinforcement)#fighting back with him when hes being too rough (he thinks youre wrestling and is having fun)#giving him all of your food when hes overwhelming you and jumping onto you (positive reinforvement for bad behavior)#and i try and tell her these things are bad and shes like um! i know how to train a dog. and its like. girl you dont#he is a demon when youre around#i love box so much and hes so dear to me but. i miss having a cat#so much quieter. less destructive. less angry. less territorial. comes pre potty trained
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Iâm back on the prooooowl, these bitches better have my moneeeeeeyâ-
Backdoor entities headcanons!! + a bit of au lore
Blitz
He/She/it, Bigender
Rushâs sister/brother (goes by both!) + littermate, was separated from from it before they were 14 or so after a certain..incident.
Was Raised by Rushâs sire, who was in a QPR with Rushâs mom.
He never stopped looking for them.
Makes a lot of SHEEEEEEEIT jokes because of her pronouns.
They are only funny to her. (And Rush. And Sally because sheâs a daddyâs girl.)
Holds a lot of confusion and a tiny bit of resentment towards her mom.
Currently sharing Lookman w/haste (polycule with Lookman as the hinge.)
Curly fur/fog but in a raggedy way. Torn lookin almost. With less scars then her brother and Gray-ish.
Teethers are a lil crooked.
So, interesting thing about bbg is she has heart issues. Worse that her brother does, so to counteract this, she has this funky collar thing that buzzes really hard and then injects her with this funky glowing red liquid that makes her stop and take a breath and THEN injects her with an even FUNKIER green one to keep going.
Has a lot of strain on his heart, takes a lot of naps with her brother/with Lookman.
Curi + Lookman made him the collar <3 TCL loves technology and Lookman added the comfy parts to the collar so itâs ez to wear.
Bbg is VERY pain resistant.
also has a tiny vision issue (one of her eyes is bigger then the other).
Makes up for both disabilities with extreme, EXTREME sheer aggression.
Will barrage people with near constant attacks. Exhausting them.
Rush and her donât meet for AWHILE, and when they finally do itâs a bit confusing but then itâs super happy and they pretty much just cuddle like they were never separated at all!!
They still do have their âoh yea we were separated for several yearsâ moments though.
They look at eachother autistically.
Very touchy. Loves to preen Lookman with his teeth.
She loves Sally and Dupe, gives them little rides in her fur and frequently dashes around with them on her back.
Has insane reaction time, would be awesome at rhythm games.
Simultaneously is extremely observant and yet has the attention span of a gnat.
Lookman
It/he
Nicknames includes looksie loo, Looker, Looks, Lookie Cookie.
In a polyamorous relationship with Blitz and Haste, with himself as the hinge.
Extremely skinny, moth-like creature with long, thin wings, fucked up glowy eyes, and just, slenderman lookin headass.
Drinks up blood and fat primarily through its fucked up proboscis straw mouth, but can also drink nectar and would actually prefer some fruit tbh.
Kills you via the large spots on its wings, which by looking at them. Theyâre not really shaped like eyes, more so like the big red star things you see in game.
Very persistent, and arguably the best hunter right next to Haste. Practically on you for the entire experience.
Was romanced by Haste with some raspberries it picked for it outside the hotel.
Loves having its wings massaged and Blitz is happy to oblige.
Has long antennae with little balls at the end of them.
Squeaks like a deathhead hawkmoth when excited, anxious or hungry.
Baby of the group, the other two take good care of him.
Really Chill, all things considered.
Probably the most normal out of all of them.
Haste:
He/Him
Formerly human.
In a poly relationship w/Lookman and sharing him with blitz
Really violent, he probably did something bad while he was a human being.
Has an alarm clock that Curi has to reset the seconds via levers to keep that mf asleep.
As soon as he hears BEEP BEEP BEEP that guy is GONE.
Emits a really toxic gas that kills a human being in minutes.
Makes the person sees red, makes them bleed from the eyes as he speeds over to finish the job that the gas and his teammates started.
Heâs very good at it, and kept the other two fed through the famine.
Works well with Blitz and Lookman, hunting-wise anyways.
Mostly just gets along with Lookman outside of that. Heâs okay with Blitz because sheâs dating Lookman too so-..mean as shit except to literally two people in existence.
Able to throw his head at people.
Heâd bully you if you if he were a real person.
Very spiky
Smells rotten.
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I donât condone Mattyâs actions but Iâm having a hard time with the cancel culture. He screwed up. He admitted to it and apologized. He followed up those apologies with change of action. He has a pattern of actively apologizing when he says or does something dumb. It isnât my job to forgive him but I feel like he isnât just giving lip service over the mistakes.
Iâm a mom to a kid with raging adhd (his words are faster than his brain filter) and a wild dirty sense of humor. I have to correct him all. of. the. time. just to try to make him understand the impacts of his words. Time/place/audience included. Itâs killing me to think that the world is so harsh that there is no room to make a mistake.
*I feel like I have to reiterate that I also understand others feelings and the unwillingness to accept the apologies. This is just me sharing my weirdo alternate opinion.
ok i'll start my answer with repeating my caveat that i've paid as little attention to this man as humanly possible until taylor became involved, not because i didn't care about his impact but because i just dont follow him/his band and the few times i saw him i was like hard pass.
ANYWAY that being said, i think i've missed the part where he has apologized for almost anything? my understanding from convos with my irl friends who are 1975 fans over the past couple weeks is that he thinks he's doing a bit, so when he gets called out he either doubles down or ignores the criticism or condescendingly rolls his eyes at how misunderstood his performance art is. would love to be proven wrong on that, like if he has meaningfully apologized then cool but given that lots of the bad stuff we've been talking about has been within the last few months it doesn't really feel like meaningful change and growth is occurring.
in a general sense though i agree with you on allowing humans to make occasional mistakes as long as they are actual mistakes and they apologize and enact real change afterwards. we all do stupid stuff, its what you do after you are made aware what you did was harmful that matters in the long run i think.
#tw matty healy#i think me putting that tag is attracting the MH fans and is why i keep getting asks like this#but i also want to put the tag so that people who are sick of hearing about this man can blacklist and not have to deal with it#so whats a girl to do
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Hello! I was wondering if you could please write something about how the Fellowship (+ Thorin?) Would help a s/o who's Disabled and Chronically ill. Like she has a lot of symptoms like chronic pain, chronic fatigue, difficulty sleeping, difficulty breathing at times, difficulty walking at times, higher sensitivity to the cold, difficulty talking at times, and anxiety, depression and executive dysfunction?
I've been really struggling with my chronic illnesses lately, namely my Autism, Anxiety, Sleep Apnea, a really bad Overbite, Raynaud's Syndrome, Asthma, etc, so I'd really appreciate an Imagine like this. I have a really weird disorder where one of my legs is longer than the other, and it's been causing me a lot of pain and difficulty walking lately, and people have been bullying me for it a lot too, so I could really use a Comfort Imagine right now. Thanks so much hun!!
It's no problem! I'm glad I can provide some comfort!! For each character, I'll use a specific struggling area, to make it a bit easier!! I hope I got these accurate enough, and of there are any mistakes, feel free to point them out!! You are strong, beautiful and so, so amazing!! Keep being you!! â€â€
Help (The Fellowship// Thorin x Fem!Reader)
Aragorn (Autism)
Aragorn has known you for a long time, so helping with your autism is not new for him
He's particularly experienced in reading your emotions and meeting your needs, whether it's helping you out of stressful situations or calming you down, he's there đ„ș
If there are large and boisterous gatherings in Rivendell, its almost guaranteed that you can become over-stimulated quickly, and Aragorn immediately senses this (spidey senses ÔoÔ)
He's fast to find your hand and give it a gentle squeeze of reassurance
If that doesn't seem to help, he'll instantly stop what he's doing and take you out of the room
If you're someone who prefers lots of space and little physical contact, he is 100% respectful of this and asks if you'll let him touch or hug you (very much gentleman đ)
If ever you're confronted by someone of importance, Aragorn is right by your side to ease some of the tension
Sometimes there are things you find difficult to say or get out of your system
The king seems to know exactly what it is and will help you out by saying it or asking you simple questions that you can easily answer
And he always reminds you, no matter WHAT
YOU ARE NOT STUPID đ€đĄ
You may struggle with some parts of your life, but every day, he's constantly telling you that you're very intelligent and kind
His patience is unending and he'll never let you think down on yourself
Overall, Aragorn is always someone and reminding you that it's all going to be okay â€â€
Legolas (Anxiety)
Most nights, Legolas keeps watch (since elves don't require much sleep) and notices that you jolt awake out of the random
Now, most of the Fellowship notices that you're usually awake and ready to go before anyone else
But Legolas is really the one to address you first
You were a bit nervous to explain, since you didn't want to worry him or the great of the fellowship, amount the other disadvantages you have
He gently encouraged you, and finally, you explained to him your sleep apnea
Yeah, he was very concerned
I mean, his blue eyes widened with terror when you told him that you could basically die in your sleep if you weren't attentive enough đ
Legolas, from now on, sleeps directly next to you, or keeps extra careful watch over you at night
Because he could NEVER see his precious mortal friend become injured... Or worse đ„șđ„șâ€
The other members had noticed a change in his behaviors towards you as well...
Gimli teased him whenever he caught Legolas giving you some extra lembas bread or offered to carry you đđ
You really tried to assure Legolas that it wasn't a big deal when you were awake, since you're aware of your breathing situation
But still đ€
Legolas will always bring you comfort and take great care of you, and that will NEVER CHANGE
Because he loves you very much â€đŠ
Frodo (Anxiety)
Frodo is familiar with the feeling of great anxiety, seeing he had a stress-free life while living in the Shire and suddenly was forced to carry a piece of jewelry all the way to giant ass volcano
It's easy for you two to comfort each other and seek refuge in thoughts and feelings â€
He's not super comfortable with the thought of you having a panic attack though...
Only because he's never had one
It starts to give him a panic attack whenever you have one around him the first time đł-
Any time you begin to breathe heavy or hyperventilate, halfling boy is hot at your heels, rubbing your back and reminding you to breathe gently
(So many hugs, if you're up for it)
After you calm down, he's constantly checking on you, asking if you need anything etc.
Really, he just wants to know if he can help đ„ș
And even with the weight and stress of carrying the ring, Frodo manages to cheer you up somehow
Samwise (Asthma)
Sam has never had to deal with asthma once in his life
He's very nervous when the subject is brought, afraid it might trigger something inside of you đ„șđđ
But you just chuckle, assure him that it's alright, and you have ways of keeping it under control
And now, he wants to know everything about it, just to have the awareness in case something happens
Sam just wants to protect you forever, and this was a great way for him to start
He constantly reminds Aragorn that you'll need breathing breaks and will convince Gandalf to let you ride on his horse
He'll scold Pip and Merry if they are trying to drag you around and be silly, because as he says
"You'll rouse him/her/them up! We can't have Y/N gettin injured!" đ€šđ
Sam is MOM
As always, he's very kind and always makes sure your needs are met â€đ„ș
Pippin and Merry (Raynaud's Syndrome)
Very confused halfings đ€
Also extremely concerned!
You were eating one of the lesser pleasurable nights
It was cold and rainy, and a fire couldn't be started, not to mention the quiet arguments of Aragorn and Gandalf in the nearby woods
And Pip's eyes widened when he saw the tips of your petite fingers begin to pale upon hearing Aragorn mention Orcs
"What's wrong with your hands?!" He squeaked, pointing towards your now white-colored fingertips
You hadn't even noticed, nor felt, considering they were numb anyways
Merry looked over his cousin's shoulder and his eyes also widened, not with fright, but wonder
They were both fascinated with your condition, convinced that you were casting some spell Gandalf showed you
Although you reassured them it was just an extremely frustrating inconvenience that you had, among other things
So from then on, the disastrobus duo did their best to keep you out of the cold (and stressful situations!!)
As a distraction, the pair will tell you great stories of the shire, doing little dances and skits that always cheer you up đ„Ž
Sometimes, they can be a little rambunctious though...
Merry will pick up on this fact quickly, and nudge Pippin to get him to calm down
Even though it may not feel the best
They find your syndrome absolutely fascinating!! đ€đ€
All in all, these two are always up for keeping your beautiful smile on your face and your spirits high!! â€đș
Boromir (Depression)
Throughout the journey, Boromir has always found an easy way to make you smile
After all, he himself has a fascinating way of brightening anyone's spirits
Yours included â€
Boromir may not have great stories from The Shire, like Pip and Merry, but he sure has a lot of positive things to say
He'll often suggest sparring with the two troublemaking halflings, just so you can see him goof up and get knocked over đ„ș
If the nights become cold and weary, he'll give you a warm hug or a nudge on the shoulder
And a few words of helpful encouragement along the lines of;
"Don't fret Y/N. You have more strength than you'll ever know."
"Let our spirits never dampen! We've come this far!" đ
He's also an incredible listener
Boromir wants to hear what you have to say if you ever need to rant or get something off of your chest
And don't think for a second that he would ever judge you đ€
Son of Gondor sees past all of your insecurities and knows you for your beautiful, amazing self â€â€
Gimli (Walking disadvantages)
As you travel across great plains and mountains, your limp doesn't go unnoticed by Gimli
It may take him a while to open up about it, since he's afraid he might offend you in some way
And once he asks you, you inform him that it's a difficulty that unfortunately cannot be changed any time soon
And where you come from, lots of people tease and bully you about it
He did NOT handle it well đł
"wHAT BLUBBERING DULL-MINDED PIGNUTS-" đ€Ź
Although this Dwarf is short and a bit slow at times
He's fascinatingly strong đł
And so, he makes it his duty to be your designated carrier đ„ș
At first, your a tad skeptical...
I mean, he's only around 4 feet tall...
BUT HAVE YOU SEEN HIM THROW THAT HUGE AX AROUND?!
Gimli will happily carry you great distances when you need a break, and even longer
(Sometimes it's just to show off around the others-)
"Gimli, are you sure you don't want a break?"
"Aye lass! The strength of Dwarves is unending!" đ
*struggling to breathe*
11/10, fantastic dwarf, will never let you down!!
Thorin (Executive Dysfunction)
Another Dwarf??
Absolutely
Thorin himself has trouble keeping composure with his time management (and sense of direction đ)
This means that he'll have an undying amount of patience for you and you only
There's just something about you that he fond of, and it fills in that little sassy, brooding place in his heart
Can also relate to you whenever you grow frustrated at the setback of your journey or lack of sleep
Is 100% willing to help you find your lost belongings (and once again, ONLY YOU)
Thorin will literally make the whole traveling party stop so that you can put something in your bag and make sure that you put it somewhere you'll remember
Always happy to give you extra gentle reminders of keeping your pack closed
The company is utterly SHOCKED with how he treats you
I mean, this man has always been extremely stubborn and hard headed
But when you show up, it's another person he can easily relate and share frustrations with
Also a master at organization?!? đ€
The one thing he could do successfully was organizing the damn journey and traveling company, so ofc he's gonna be good at that đ
Yeah, Thorin definitely has a soft spot for you
King under the mountain will never run out of patience and kindness for you đđ
Sorry these took so long!! I hope you like them!! â€â€
#thorin oakenshield#frodo baggins#xreader#gimli#legolas#merry brandybuck#pippin took x reader#pippin took#thorin oakenshield x reader#legolas x reader#gimli x reader#aragorn x reader#aragorn#frodo+x+reader#merry brandybuck x reader#boromir x reader#boromir#headcanons#mental illness#autismn awareness#executive dysfunction#lotr x reader#the hobbit
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Hey... *slide some bills* so about the fluff of facilier You know..
And since I see you are in the art of writing lemon maybe idk *more bills* add a little of that if you want?
I leave you to think about it
You want some fluff? You want some LEMON?? ALRIGHT.
SFW!!;
You can always be physical with him. Punch his side, hold his hand, grab his ass- he's not very bothered. Though warning if you give him a hug that clearly means something, he uh. Might not let go.
Shadowman loves to cook. He got his recipes from his mom, and let me tell you, my dude makes a GOOD po boy, and a mean bananas foster. And hes very generous with his portions- honestly thats the real reason his stomach pokes out of his suit, because my dude just knows food that well.
He does most of the cooking. But if you offer HIM food, well...he's honestly very flattered. Makes the snake as cuddly as a hamster, if only for a minute. Seriously, share things with him, he's mush.
He loves exploring with you, and he's drawn to sprt of hole in the wall type locations. If it's empty, maybe a little creepy, he's interested. Makes not a single date boring.
Having said that, he's not at ALL scared of being in public. He's a smooth talker, and can easily make his way into any event for free, especially if you bat your pretty little eyes at him and ask nicely.
He LOVES to go singing/dancing. With you, he likes the more...risqué songs. But he'll play nice. Until you leave, at least.
He likes to tease, a lot. He thinks your angry face is adorable, and he pinches your cheek when you just wanna punch his stupid pretty face.
Not a bad partner if you have kids. He loves those little shits, and can entertain them (and you) with simple magic. Don't expect too much strictness though, that's not his jam.
When he loves a certain space/person, he decorates them. Rooms that are his are VERY busy, and unless you tell him otherwise, he'll start to decorate your things till its an absolute mess of cute/creepy things.
One of his decorative methods is sewing/drawing. He hand makes his voodoo dolls afterall, so he's pretty talented.
Because of this, you have pretty weird gifts on hand. Rabbits foot, mojo bags- you WILL leave the house with some kind of good luck charm.
If he's not working, you pretty much gotta deal with him. Be it his whistling, him moving your things, or even his shadow just acting like an attention seeking child.
NSFW!!;
Ask him to steal you pretty things. Seriously, he loves it. The more expensive, the better. One time you said you liked the jewelry of a clearly well off woman- you got a total 'copy' the next day.
Don't expect any nice gifts to come honorably. He's sorta flat fucking broke. He WISHES he had the money to pamper you, really he does.
Flirts. Heavy. In public if you let him, he doesn't care who listens. And yes, this ALSO includes groping. And his hands are sneaky too, they find their way to all sorts of places, especially if they're sensitive.
Romantic wise? You're his one and only. Physically? He can't be loyal. Total whore. He tells you about it though, and often times he gets ideas for you.
Ideal for voice kinks. He can purr just right in your ear, in JUST the right way-you almost dont notice his hand sneaking in between your legs.
He has a frenum piercing on his dick. Loves it when you give it just a LITTLE tug.
Play with his hair. Give it just a little tug after petting it- his ass is dragging you to the room, pronto.
King at fingering. Gender be dammed, my guy can find any nook and cranny to get you squirming, and he abuses it. He's awful, and LOVES it when you call him that.
His shadow joins in like, all the time. Keeps you from moving, holds your hands behind your back, pushes your head down onto his dick, he's pushy, mischievous, and had a habit of stealing your clothes.
He has a voodoo doll of you. You thought it was cute at first. Then you realized he takes his frustration out on it when he can't find you. If you're apart, and he's NEEDY, he plays with it. And you can feel every single touch. Every stroke of his thumb against your lips, the very heat of his body against yours. You were at work once, and he was SO needy, he humped the hell out of the poor doll, and you felt every single thrust. You came in your seat, and he reminds you often.
Shadow sort of does the same thing. He takes your shadow, and gets you to touch yourself for his amusement.
Likes being rough with you. Grabbing your arms/thighs too hard, holding onto your throat- he makes bruises, and often.
Praises you where it's due. "Good job, sugar" is a common phrase he coos to you.
He's flexible. Can and will fuck in any place, any position, and honestly, in front of anyone.
Mostly tops. But if you convince him to bottom, hes so lazy about it. But he DOES squirm more, if that's what you're into.
#not transformers#dr.facilier#Dr.Facilier#asks#lemon#i hopped on this like as SOON as i got it#can you tell I've been thinking about this
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Bo Sinclair x Female Reader
THIS is a NONCON fic. Please don't read and then get shocked at what you read. You are reading this at your own risk! You cannot get shocked at the content here if you are sensitive to NONCON and read anyways. I am not responsible if you choose to still read this and it's upsetting. Also, there is Forced Breeding included! Read at your own risk.
When I get an AO3, I will be posting this there.
Underthecut - NSFW, NON-CON, Cheating -forced- Oral -Female receiving- Forced Breeding/Forced pregnancy, Degradation. Tagged as Dark Fic
Sinclair Brothers College AU Part 2 Part 1 is here!
Bo will never forget that morning. Never forgot your angelic face buried into his brother's chest, Vincent's face buried into the top of your head, nose nuzzled into your hair.
His voice had hurt for the three days after all the screaming he had done, his knuckles bruised for weeks after he and Vincent drew blows.
He could still hear your screaming, this shrill piercing scream for him to stop. To stop hurting him, to stop hurting Vincent.
Not one scream for him, his well-being.
Bo left the room with a bruised lip and ego.
The image of you comforting Vincent, rubbing his knuckles, kissing his cheek burned in his head. He replayed it over and over.
Bo couldn't get over how everyone seemed to approve of the whole ordeal.
That friend of yours had come running up to you, congratulating you on finally getting with Vincent. Even her tall British boyfriend paid a compliment.
His own friends even poked fun, how stupid he was not to see Vincent slowly making his moves. Vincent and you at the Dairy Queen, you at his art show, how both of you spent hours at the library.
How'd he miss all that?
Bo walked into his dorm, slamming the door behind him as he whipped off his hat, he frowned as he flopped onto the bed. back against the wall as he took in the room.
The large varnished bricks painted a light blue, years of new coats of paint chipping off in the corners. The yellow fluorescent light struggling to light up the room, no doubt the same light from when the dorm was built.
Bo took in his brother's side. Neat, save for a few books littered around, a few on his desk, three on the floor, two on the bed, and Y/n's cellphone.
Bo shot up, eagerly rushing over to Vincent's bed, hands immediately on your phone. He held it in his hands, smirking at the pink phone case with a bear's face on the back. He swiped his thumb over the screen, he grits his teeth at the image of you and Vincent on your home screen. Vincent held his arm around you as he kissed your cheek.
"Putz," he mumbled to himself, Bo's thumb lingered over your lock screen. He pressed in the four numbers, "Shit. She must have changed it." Bo looked up, going over what your new passcode could be. The old one was the date you and him started dating. Bo made sure it was that, and that way he had access to your phone whenever you were careless enough to leave it about.
Bo smiled as he knew what the passcode was. If his brother was anything like him, he'd be just as possessive, "Ding!" Bo tapped his foot in excitement as your phone opened up, he went right to your gallery, brows turned down in disgust.
Picture after picture of you and Vincent. Some tame, others, Bo whistled at the picture of you sucking off Vincent. He hated it, seeing your pretty little face lavish his brother's cock, but for Bo, it was easy just to picture his own in its place.
Another photo, you with your legs spread, hand over your mouth, embarrassed as your pussy was covered in Vincent's seed.
Bo groaned, "Little fuckin' whore." He pressed his feet into the ground, steadying himself. He was taken back to when he'd do the same to you, make you beg for his cum to coat your needy pussy. He licked his lips as he could hear your little whines and begs.
"Cum on my pussy, Bo." Fuck and you sounded so perfect.
"Cum on my pussy, Vinny." He cursed as your voice played over in his head. Hating how easily he could hear your sweet voice be so dirty for his brother.
Bo kept scrolling, his stomach churned, cock-stiffening as he scanned more and more pictures.
Videos, ranging from thirty seconds to two minutes in length. He pressed one, the image of you riding his brother played immediately.
"Oh, Vinny, your cocks making me feel so full." Bo groaned, he turned up the volume to hear the vulgar slaps of your ass against his brother's pelvis. "Oh, Fuck Vinny." Bo watched as you fell onto Vincent's chest as he lifted you, fucking up into you at a fast pace.
Bo watched till the end, his ears burning as your moans and whimpers wafted through the shitty phone speaker. He palmed his erection as he watched Vincent cum deep in you, his brother's disgusting grunts and growls had him snarling.
Bo's eyes remained on the screen. They widened as Vincent pulled out, carelessly spreading your legs open to the camera, both your face and Vincent are not visible, but your pussy was bared. He watches as his brother's seed leaked out of you, hearing Vincent mumbling at what a good little princess you are, how you were made to used, made to be a good little cum dump.
Bo shook, knuckles going white as he held the phone. Your whimpering approval of Vincent's words, how Vincent scooped his cum back up into you...
Bo snapped out of his anger as a text popped up,
-Hey, meet you at the library, I'll only be able to study briefly, I have a surprise shift at the hospital.-
Bo tapped it, immediately taken to your messages with Dan.
Everything between you and Dan was mundane. Study dates that often included Herbert and just random memes.
He exited out, looking over all the people you've been texting. Your texts with him deleted, he huffed as he continued. That girl dating the tall British guy. That weird Billy kid, Freddy, your mom, your boss, and Vincent.
He sat down on his bed as he went through the texts. Some of the texts were mundane, how are you, I'm good. I love you and can't wait to see you.
Bo froze, laughing to himself, leaning back onto the bed as he read the recent texts,
-Remember those awful cramps I've been having? My doctor said it was birth control. I'll be going off it for a few weeks and will be getting that Implanon thing.-
Bo checked the date, "Two weeks ago." he said to himself as he kept reading.
-So bad news, I won't get that Implanon thing for another month.-
-That's okay. We can keep it safe for now. One day though you'll be off that stuff ;)-
Bo shook his head, of course, his brother would be on that train of thought. Getting you pregnant. Watching your belly grow with babe.
Bo seethed, hand running down his front, cock pulsing at the image of you, begging for his cum, asking him to impregnate you. Your belly swelling with the Sinclair seed, his large hand rubbing over you, kissing your cheek, amazed at the changes in your body.
Your tits swelling, begging for Bo to ease the ache in them. Cock stiffening as he suckles on your tender tits.
Bo's attention was snapped back to reality as the door's handle justled. He quickly exited out of the texts, turned off the screen, and threw the phone on the bed, burying his face into his pillow, grunting as his cock angled into the bed painfully.
Vincent stepped in, sneering at his brother. "She forgot something, I won't be long." He mumbled, hand going for your phone.
"Y'her lap dog or some? She can't come get it herself?"
"I don't trust you alone with her." Vincent gave your phone a once over before grabbing a few books, "I'll be gone tonight, I work late, so you can invite that 'cute' girl from the bar." Vincent coughed as he finished his sentence.
"Yeah, yeah..." Bo eyed his brother, pulling his pillow closer into his face.
"You didn't touch this, did you?" Vincent waved the phone around, giving it a once over.
"Why would I touch her shit?"
Vincent shrugged his shoulders, "Bye," He opened the door, "Oh, and Lester is inviting us to a barbeque, he expects you to be there."
Bo flinched as his brother slammed the door. He sat up, freeing his cock, the images of you and Vincent still in his mind, the image of himself pushing Vincent away to replace Vincent's seed with his own...
"The library..." he said to himself, the image of you at the library, pushed over onto one of the corner desks, hidden away from everyone, his cock buried deep inside, pleading with him to cum inside.
Bo gripped the base of his cock, squeezing to let more of his precum drip out, watching as it fell along the side.
"That'd look a lot better in the place it belongs."
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You and Vincent stood in front of the campus library, he ran his hands up and down your sides, pinching your ass when he dipped low.
"Vinny!" He playfully pinched his arm, kissing his cheek as you giggled.
"Can't help it, you're so cute." He kissed you again, tongue wrapping around yours, he pushed you closer into himself, your moan being suppressed by the kiss.
You reluctantly pulled away, "I gotta meet Dan. I need his help with my paper. Thanks for getting my phone."
Vincent nodded at you, kissing your cheek again, "I know, I don't want you near him, either."
You nod into his chest, inhaling his scent, linseed oil, and his farmer's market shampoo. You hum as he begins to sway you back and forth.
"I gotta go, see you tomorrow," He pulls away, hand rubbing over your cheek, his eye taking in your sad ones. "Be safe getting home."
"I will!" You shared a kiss goodbye as you excitedly entered the library.
You waved to norman at the front desk, he briefly looked up to give a small smile before returning to his large ornithology book on his desk.
You grinned and waved as you caught sight of Dan. He was in his scrubs with his Starbucks in his hand, smiling at you.
"I can help you for the next hour before I gotta go," He began as you sat in front of him, "Then I got my shift an-"
"Yes at the hospital, I know I know." You sat and opened your books, Dan grabbing one to flip through it, scanning for the important passage,
"Here, you'll want to start here, copy it, and then grab two more sources from the encyclopedias. Has to be from the books, not online."
You rubbed your temples, "Yeah, that's, a lot to take in."
Dan chuckled, "That's the advanced course for you."
You tapped your pencil on the paper of your books, "So, you hear about Brahms and his girl? The fight they had!"
Dan perked up, brown eyes filled with wonder.
The two of you immediately filled your time with gossip, the mention of Brahms's girlfriend and Billy was the only thing being studied.
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Bo strolled up to the library, "Twenty minutes to closing..." He shrugged his shoulders as he entered.
He looks around, the lights dimmed, the desk lamps off, save for the few remaining students.
"Can I help you?" Bo snapped his head to the thin, pale man at the front desk.
"Ah, yeah, where are the books on, like art and stuff," Bo looked at the nameplate, "Norman." Bo fumbled with his hands in his pockets.
"In the back," Norman gestured his head behind him, "In section eight hundred to eight hundred and fifty. Don't be long, we are closing soon." Norman sneered as he shuffled the papers on his desk.
"Yeah, thanks." Bo shook his head, as he caught Norman giving him a once over.
Bo clenched his fists as he heard Norman mumble "I don't even think he can read."
He made his way around the library, ducking behind the rows when he thought he saw you, any girl that resembled you had his heart clench in shock.
"No, Vinny, I can't talk right now, text it to me instead." Bo froze, his feet heavy, your voice was curt, he heard you grunt, knowing you just hung up on his brother.
Bo followed the voice, finding you tucked away in the private study area, the tables up against the walls, the lights were severely dimmed, Bo wondered how in the hell you could see the paper in front of you.
He carefully watched his steps, inching slowly behind you, grateful you were distracted in the book, grateful you secluded yourself so far away from everyone else.
A wolfish grin spread over his face, standing over you, he leaned in, hands snaking over you, rushing to silence your mouth,
"Hey, Sweets, miss me?"
Your blood went cold, eyes bulged, you attempted to turn but Bo held firm.
"Miss me? Huh? Ah, maybe you need to look at me first." He whispered into your ear, placing a feather-light kiss.
You retched away, guttural noises being silenced as Bo put a hand around your neck.
"Ah, no no, c'mon now, that any way to react to me? C'mon sweets, you used to beg me, beg me not to leave you, cry whenever I missed a date, moan for my cock to make you come." He chuckled as you squirmed in his arms, the chuckle turning into a soft laugh as you reached for your phone.
"Grabbing your phone for me? How nice of you, Sweets!" Bo whipped you around, slamming you onto the table as he chucked away the books, thankful they didn't fall onto the floor.
You began kicking at Bo, the panic making your blood run hot, giving you a surge of strength.
You knew Bo, knew how much stronger he was, knew you couldn't fight him off. The look in his eyes as his body leaned forward onto yours, chuckling off your kicks.
"Ah, hey, calm down," Bo squeezed on your neck, kissing your cheek as you sputtered out a whine, choking as you gasped for air.
Bo grabbed your phone, your eyes burning as he easily tapped the four-digit code to open it, he went right to the gallery, opening up the video of you and Vincent, "Look at you," The video played, Bo held the phone to your face, forcing you to look, "Taking my brother's cum in your slutty little pussy. Fuck what a good whore you are."
He exited out of the video, going to your texts, "So bad news, I won't get that Implanon thing for another month." He read aloud as he shook his head, "tsk tsk, and I bet you are still fucking, even when it's not safe. I mean, if my brother's anything like me, he won't wanna wrap that shit up."
Tears pooled in your eyes, slowly falling along the sides into your hair. Your eyes pleading with him, 'don't do this, please.'
Bo huffed as he pulled down your skirt, panties coming along with it. He took in your pussy, licking his bottom lip as he caught a glance at your shaved pussy, thankful that his brother has the same taste as him. "You look so good, that pussy nice and clean for me, gonna look good with my seed spilling out."
"I'll let you breathe properly if you promise to be quiet, can you do that for me?" His baby blues stared into your eyes, you wanted to hurl as you saw a sick softness to them.
"I'll, b-be- go-good." You choked. You gasped in sweet relief as bo removed his large hand from your neck. Your phone in his hand was held to your face as you realized he was filming.
"You better open up these legs for me, little whore like you should be used to spreading her legs, hm? Taking my brother's cock while dating me. Well, you can have my cock again, and I'm gonna make sure you'll never fucking forget this. Like I'll never fuckin' forget waking up to you." Bo placed the phone down, propping it up against your books, "With cum dripping out your pussy in Vincent's arms."
You looked away as you heard Bo's belt clink his zipper coming undone, "I can easily scream,"
"Scream? ha, the place is practically empty at this point, who's gonna come as you scream? 'Norman' I can tell he's already too self-absorbed to care for another." Bo leaned down, his breath hot over your cunt.
"Please don't, Bo please, I'll do anything!"
His signature cocky grin spread over his lips, "Oh, you will, first, I get a taste of this," He plunged his tongue in, a soft moan as your taste hit his tongue, his eyes looking up at you, then to the phone.
You squirmed as your walls involuntarily pulsed around his tongue. You squeezed your eyes shut, hips shaking as he flicked his tongue over your clit.
"You taste so good, fuck better than I remember," He sucked hard, laughing as you whimpered. "See, little slutty body like your can't help but react."
Wave after wave of pleasure crashed through you, Bo's large hand roaming your body, dipping under your shirt, sliding under your bra to squeeze your breast.
"Fuck it feels good too, remember how you used to beg me to suck on them?" He pinched your hardening nipple, "Look at the camera." He cooed.
He dipped two fingers into your heat, making you groan as he pressed down and sucked hard on your clit.
You breathed heavily through your nose, fighting the urge to let out a wanton moan. Tears flowed as your hips voluntarily bucked into Bo's face, his tongue sending wave after wave of euphoria through you that not even Vincent could manage.
Bo shook his head, a raspy moan muffled by the lewd noises your pussy made as he fingered you. He looked up, smirking into you, your pussy clenching around his fingers, how you covered your mouth to fight back the deep moan.
You ran your hand through Bo's brown hair, he moaned, taking the action as approval for his ministrations. You pushed on him, your airy moans muffled by your palm as you came. Bo stayed latched onto your clit, suckling and flicking it, tongue deep to your cunt to lap at you, groaning as it pulsed around his muscle.
Bo shot up, licking his lips of your cream, "Ah, see that, wanna taste?" You shook your head, mouth a no. He leaned in, one hand angling his cock while the other grabbed your neck.
His tongue wrapped around yours, muffling the whine as he slammed into you, his cock stretching you out, a slight burn mixed with pleasure.
Bo wasted no time, slamming hard into you, his cheeks pink as he groaned into the kiss, he lifted his head, "Ah, fuck, needy little pussy fuckin' missed me. Ah shit, I fuck." He grunted above you, his body pressing you into the table, "Fuck, it missed me, fuck it missed me."
You sobbed under him, your mind going to Vincent, trying to picture it was Vincent on top of you, it was you and Vincent making love in the library, not Bo. Not Bo sending waves of familiar pleasure through you, his cock stretching you out.
"Please, don't cum in me, Bo, please don't."
"Wah? cum in you? Sure, I can do that, after all, your little pussy was made for it." He sneered at you, a dark look flashed over him.
You punched at him, "I'll scream."
"You scream and that video gets sent to Vincent. Doesn't matter I'm hav-having m-my way with y-you." He stuttered between thrusts, "Just a video of you getting impregnated by his older brother. He won't want you."
You sobbed as tears spilled as you turned away from him, Vincent flashed in your mind. His smile, his light blue eyes, his hands holding yours.
Your body tensed as Bo's cock felt intoxicating, the familiar rhythm, his harsh kisses, mind being taken back to you on his bed, how he'd hiked your legs over his shoulders as he pushed them onto your chest, a cocky grin as he fucked you deep.
"Bo," You whimpered, "Please," you continued "Just not inside."
He slammed harder, groaning as you clenched around him, "Feels like it wants it inside. Don't lie to yourself, Sweets."
You couldn't, the tears fell, you whimpered Vincent's name, "Hurry, Bo."
Bo couldn't hold back, your sexy little body squirming under him, your pussy clenching around him, your spent leaking onto the table, your stifled moans. "Look at the camera as you cum, look as I cum in you," He turned your head towards the phone, tears freely falling Bo licked your cheek.
His breathing, his thrusts, his cock filling you so well, his raspy praise. You stared, "I'm sorry, Vincent." You scrunched your face as Bo positioned in and out, a low groan reverberated from his chest.
Bo laughed as he came, his seed painting your insides, coating your pink walls, picturing it shooting deep into your womb, his little swimmers getting to work.
You fought back the urge to barf, his cum filling you send a ripple of pleasure through you.
Bo hissed as his breathing slowed, the realization of your nails digging into his shoulders, came to his senses. He slowly pulled out, grabbing the phone, to capture his seed dripping out of your pussy.
He wrapped his hand around your throat, squeezing, a threat. He continued to film, "Ah, look at that, good little slut getting bred. Just like she was made too."
Bo brought the camera to your face, "Say, 'Hi, Vincent!' ha" he laughed as you kept your vision off him and the camera.
"it's okay, I know you're thinking of getting that plan B. But you'll be coming with me tonight, I'm gonna make sure my seed takes." Bo released your neck, thumb running over your lips as you coughed.
"Get dressed, we're gonna get a hotel, this is from over." He leaned in to kiss your cheek, "My good girl, mine again." He hugged you as he sent the video to his phone. He laughed as he felt you shake in his arms,
"I wonder what Vincent will do when he sees this, gosh I can only imagine." He hummed and swayed you back and forth, "You'll look great with my child in you, can't wait, ah you'll be so beautiful."
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Hi its me again. I love your writing and the fact that there isn't as much abuse like there is in others. It reminds me of old yandere stories were it was genuine lovesickness. Anyway, how do you think jjba yanderes would react to a darling that is taller and more muscular than them by quite a bit. You can do whoever you like I don't mind.
A/N: Omg ilyđ„ș it means a lot you said all that because I really love this genre itâs my comfort ïżŒtrope anyway thank you for the request n I hope ya like it!! Kira should be a trigger warning in an of itself but dw heâs just weird, not mean. Mentions of his past âgirlfriendsâ, a curse word or two, lil suggestive in someplaceâs Mista murks a few people, tw//gun violence
Characters: Pt2 Joseph, Josuke, Kira, Mista
Joseph was used to looking down on people, standing at a proud 6â5â he was literally and figuratively knocked on his ass when heâd first laid eyes on you, his immediate thought was you were a forgotten pillarman coming from nowhere to get revenge for your masters only to quickly realize you were just a stallion. You were strong enough to put him on his back after one too many cheeky comments. Unafraid to speak your mind and keep him in check, You would stare down at him with that mind melting smirk, all too aware of his frustrations, you assumed he was just being a man, ashamed to be outclassed by someone other than himself, oh honey how wrong you were. You enjoyed teasing the behemoth of a man as no one else really could, at least not as well as you did, throughout your little jabs and snark he always had a retort, a response on the tip of his tongue, eager to do this dance of yours until one of you broke, to you he was a way too cocky dangerously self assured pretty boy who was entertainingly easy to rile up, but to Joseph, you were his everything. Someone he could proudly take home to Granny Erina once heâd finally tamed you. He had a plan, a three step plan to steal your heart just as youâd done his, and this little game of who could annoy the other the most was just step 1. âItâs been fun JoJo but youâre gonna have to find someone else to bother.â Youâd jokingly said one day out of the blue, an odd friendship had formed through the month youâd been in town and it felt wrong to leave without notice, an act of kindness youâd learn to regret. âIs this one of your famous jokes (Y/n)? Not so funny to play with a mans heart like that I nearly believed you.â He finished with a scoff, his signature smirk not reaching his eyes. âItâs true Joseph, my flight leaves tomorrow, I didnât wanna leave without saying goodbye, because as much as we fuck around youâre pretty fun to hang out with.â Your sincerity almost made him feel bad about rushing the next few steps of his plan, heâd have to cram months of planning into a night but heâd accomplished more with less time on his side. He huffed, his grin stretched wide across his handsome features. âThen we outta make tonight count eh?â A thick arm was tossed around your neck, you had to bend awkwardly for this to be possible much to your amusement. âOkay you weirdo, whatever you say.â You let him lead you around town with a grin, unaware youâd be missing that plane, and any other one you tried to take without him.
Josuke watched you eat with the dopiest grin on his face, heâd spent an extra hour in the mirror this morning in preparation for your first official date! Well you didnât exactly know it it was a date and Okayasu was eating rather messily beside you two but still! Youâd actually agreed to come to Toniâs with him! Youâd been an enigma since you transferred to the bizarre town, choosing to keep to yourself, and despite the intimidating height and mass you possessed, he saw through your act in seconds. There was a huge softie under all that muscle, heâd watched you enough to know this as a fact, you were a gem and he was intent on showing you his appreciation and adoration for the rest of his days, a vow heâd silently taken the day youâd stolen his heart, the moment was brief in reality but it lasted forever in his mind, you smiled at him in passing, he could feel time slow down, everyone around you faded in the background, a backdrop to the beginning of your story. He could imagine telling your kids how youâd met, something about the way youâd stare down at him, eyes sharp and attentive, like you truly listened when people spoke, your laugh was loud when it was real and every time he heard it he felt 10 years added to his lifespan. At the same time that icky feeling at another person making you laugh was conflicting, heâd never been in love before but he suddenly understood why his mom had never given up on his dad, love was weird but he wouldnât give it up for anything. Youâd accidentally snapped your chopsticks laughing too hard at a joke heâd tossed out, your face scrunched in embarrassment before chuckling at yourself and switching to a fork, his stand came out on its own, pocketing the shards to fix later, a new item for his ever growing collection, what a cute little memento from your first date! His thoughts swirled happily with the stories youâd be telling your kids. Thankfully neither of you noticed his little pickpocket moment, dangerous plans forming as he stared at you with those misleadingly soft puppy dog eyes.
Kira could die in this moment, happily I might add, as your firm but soft hand was wrapped oh so deliciously around his throat threatening to crush it with ease at the slightest movement. Heâd been watching you for a while now, the longest heâd ever spent on someone he didnât plan to kill, it become sort of hobby heâd picked up recently, the morally upsetting activity bringing peace to his day to day, usually he used his stand to carefully observe your routine, eager to learn all he could about his future spouses likes and desires, but he was getting greedy. Of course he could always introduce himself but he resisted, knowing there was a time and place to get exactly what he wanted. He liked to think he knew everything about you by now, your favorite color, how you liked your coffee, your love for cats, but he didnât anticipate this. You were much more observant than heâd given you credit for, while you couldnât see his stand you could sense yourself being watched, and seeing the large blonde lurking indiscriminately in the crowds throughout the day was enough to set you off. So you trailed off into the less crowded parts of town quickly entering an alleyway, he followed in pure confusion only to be roughly slammed into the wall, his stand came out on reflex but simply stared at his attacker, it seemed almost confused as what to do. âWhy the hell are you following me pretty boy?â His eyes rolled to the back of his head at the feel of your fingers tightening, god heâd never felt this rush of exhilaration, none of his past âgirlfriendsâ could pull such an illicit reaction from him with a simple touch. When he didnât answer you simply scoffed and tossed him aside like it was nothing. You left with a threat to stay out of your sight, yet all he could do was smile, the faint imprint of your fingers burned in his skin deliciously, how lucky could one man get?
Mista observed you with hungry eyes. His stare was unapologetically locked on your form. He made no intention to hide his attraction for you. The day youâd joined Buccaratiâs crew was the day his world flipped. He assumed his new teammate would be no one to fuck with based on what Bruno told him about your stand, but when you walked in? Needing to bend down slightly just to enter the doorway had him sweating in his seat. He didnât know what to say as he watched you happily interact with his fellow teammates, immediately you blended with the group, but all that was running through his mind were all the fun things you could do with those muscles. He usually stayed silent around you, not out of dislike as one would assume from his piercing gaze, but fear of accidentally voicing one of those nasty thoughts kept him quiet. You didnât seem to mind though, always including him in the conversation, you even understood his very valid fear of that dreaded number! How could god plop such a perfect person in his lap and expect him to not do anything about it? Alas, Bruno had specifically told them not to make you uncomfortable with any flirting so he bit his tongue. Your aura was calming, a contrast to your powerful stand, speaking of, he couldnât get his under control. Whenever they could Sex Pistols was out and all over you. They climbed and clamored for your attention, thankfully you didnât seem to mind, always entertained their antics when you could, even giving each one a small peck when they wouldnât let you leave for a mission without Mista, to say he was done for was an understatement, it took one mission going foul for his resistance to snap. His stand moved faster than it ever had, piercing the skulls of the idiots who brought you pain. He left the last one slowly bleeding out kneeling down to wipe the matted hair from your forehead, âYou okay baby? Donât worry honey Iâll make the bastard hurt.â He spoke not breaking eye contact, his hand pointed behind him, grip steady as he unloaded in the poor fool who thought it was a good idea to make you bleed, the wound was small, not even deep enough to trouble Giorno but that didnât matter to Guido, any slight against you was disrespecting the future parent of his children, and what kind of man would he be if he didnât defend your honor?
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learning- d.m
- summary: one where Draco learns how to do your hair, you being a poc- more specifically a black girl with curly hair :)
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- warnings: mentions of being insecure about your hair
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âDraco I love you butâ just not that much,â you said through a grimace, only making him roll his eyes again.
Draco was always one to offer you help on wash days, knowing how much time it took you to do all of that on your own and honestly, you appreciated that.
But today as the conditioner was getting combed through your hair, he brought up the idea of doing it for youâ And no he didnât mean the basic task of combing a product through your hair, but he meant actually doing it.
And it wasnât that you thought he could... Of course not. And as dramatic as it sounds, you didnât want to take the risk. What you mean by that is that Draco is someone you would classify as a mom friend.
Being called a mom friend wasnât necessarily a bad thing, it was one of those good titles that any person would want to have in a friend group. And even though Draco didnât seem like the type, he was always that person to make sure everyone else was taken care ofâ even if it was in his own way.
It could vary from making sure everyoneâs assignments were done in time to them eating enough and the really surprising oneâ comforting people.
And you could tell that he wasnât completely comfortable or familiar with it but he tried his best when he needed to.
You had caught him many times in some corner trying to comfort some first year Slytherins a few days into the school year because they missed their parents and when he did see you, heâd give you a look of âthis never happenedâ.
But being a mom wasnât an easy job, there were times whereâd theyâd get angry because a kid had the great idea to draw on the walls instead of on the paper right beside them. And to say Draco fit that role perfectly was an understatement.
He once not only scolded Daphne for forgetting her sunscreen when you went on a trip to the beach but he also provided her a lengthy lecture on how she couldâve easily have gotten sunburned and we wouldâve had to drive around with a flaky friend.
You couldnât lie that it was amusing to see an adult get scolded by another adult like a five year old but to be on the receiving end didnât sound too fun.
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And you had to admit that sometimes you did miss that routine you had with your mom on early Sunday mornings.
Sheâd tell you to get the bucket of hair supplies and youâd take your place to sit in between her legs, allowing her to start combing and brushing your hair into whatever style she saw fit for the next few days.
The small conversations that were held between you and her werenât important in any wayâ you couldnât remember half of the words spoken now but it meant a lot to you in the sense that it was a calm- ish period for you and her to talk about mother and daughter things.
But every good thing just had to have a downside and this one was a shared experience amongst many people in your community.
Uncooperative hair.
And it seemed that you had one of the most. You tried, really, but you could never keep your head still or neck at a specific angle for too long, and that only led to hair tugging and you in almost tears.
And maybe thinking was a little flawed. But you were still scared that Draco would do just the same if you allowed him.
And thatâs exactly what you voiced and of course, he said that wasnât a good enough argument and continued to go on and on about all of the reasons you should let him and how it would have benefits for the both of you.
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âYou know, it would show how much I care,â he said, providing yet another reason as to why you should let him do it.
âYouâre showing how much you care right nowâ I promise,â you assured, eyes skimming the bathroom to find the heated shower cap.
âBut what if thereâs a day where youâre too tired to do it and then I could do it all by myself?â
He was close to convincing you but he failed to remember the fact that there actually were days where you were too tired to do it but you still woke up very early just to do some style that you had set in your mind.
And even then, your eyes were barely opened so if you had to do it now, you would be too phased.
âWhat about our future kids? Whatâs supposed to happen when I have no idea how to do their hair?â
Kids. They werenât something you actively talked about but it was for sure something you wanted to have in the future. And he was right, even if you didnât want to admit it.
Even if the hair type that he had was far from many black people, it wouldnât make sense for a childâs own father to not know the basic needs of their hairâ including how to do it.
âFineâ but if I feel one tug I wonât hesitate to get up and leave,â you threatened, pointing a comb at him and playfully narrowing your eyes at him to add effect. He only snatched it out of your hand while smiling in success and happiness.
âYou wonât regret it.â
Deja vu; it was the only term that could describe what you were feeling at this moment of finding yourself in between someoneâs legs, waiting for them to do your hair.
And while Draco was a little clueless, it was cute. You really didnât mean to laugh when asked what happened to one of the combs that were missing a third of its teeth, but the look of pure shock on his face was too funny for you to resist the laugh that bubbled out.
And telling the truth, the experience wasnât half as bad as you expected it to be. There werenât too many snags or tugs along the way or rough actionsâ it was calm and gentle. And having to assist him on what product to put on your hair and when to do it was rare.
It was heartwarming really, knowing that he had actually been paying attention when heâd sit there and watch you in the bathroom for an hour or so after your hair had been washed.
That he had been listening when youâd rant about how hard it was dealing with your hair and how it would never look the right way even though there is no right way for natural hair to look.
It was the pure knowledge that he actually meant the words he spoke to you that made you so happy; how heâd hold your face in both of his hands and tell how beautiful both you and your hair were and the only reason you should ever think about relaxing it was if you wanted to do it for yourself and not because it would be more accepted by judge full eyes.
It was nice to know that he wasnât just saying those things because he felt some sort of obligation but that it came from the heart.
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Nothing couldâve prepared you for what you were looking at now; not only did your hair look moisturized but the style had come out somewhat good.
You were a little surprised and Draco noticed that too. âYou look surprised,â he pointed out in a smug tone, eyes finding their way to look into your wide ones through the mirror. âIâm not surprised, I'm justâ how did you do so well?â You questioned, body turning to face his.
âLove donât tell me youâ Di- Did you really doubt me?â He gasped, dramatically placing his right hand over his heart to further feign his âhurtâ.
âOkay, I did doubt you inââ
gasp
âIn the beginning, but now that I actually saw how you did, I regret it. And thank you for being willing to learn,â you continued, this time not getting interrupted by his dramatics.
âIt was the least I could do for you,â he assured, leaning down to press a quick kiss to your cheek. âMe and your mum werenât talking about your abnormally sized head for nothing.â
âHey! My head is a perfectly normal size.âÂ
âYeah alright,â he said unconvinced, cracking his knuckles and shaking his hand. âMy hands had to pay the price too.â
âYou're an idiot Dracoââ
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Skwisgaar's Psychology
After rewatching Metalocalypse a total of three times ever since the news of the potential finale movie I kind of had a realization; I really fucking love Skwisgaar. I also started by halfway through rewatch two realized that his story and background and general psychology is really fucking fascinating to me.
So I am going to do my best to discuss his character and his psychology and how we see him progress through the show....I already did this with Toki a while back and kind of would love to do it with Murderface and maybe Pickles as well, I'd say Nathan, but he's the....least fucked up in a sense.
Skwisgaar let's start has the most dialogue in the first couple of seasons of the show and even then it isn't overwhelming compared to the other members of the band. By season four he speaks very little and rarely.
When we are introduced to him in the beginning of the show he seems to be like the rest of the group; a diva spoiled rich rocker who has been grossly wealthy for so long that he's forgotten how to function as a human.
You also with the first season especially have this running gag that isn't even a running gag that Skwisgaar or Toki will say something weird and then the other will add onto it and they just say weird shit about life and death or the violence of man, it's weird, and strangely endearing.
Which speaking of how those two play off each other brings me to the fact the pilot episode immediately establishes that these two are almost always together. The band goes to a grocery store and everybody splits up, except for Skwisgaar and Toki who go off together when in all reality that isn't remotely necessary. We also learn in that first episode that Skwisgaar gets pissed when Toki teases him and calls him a woman despite Skwisgaar calling him one like a second earlier and also that Skwisgaar is sexually attracted to elderly women.
Two things are heavily associated with Skwisgaar as a character; he is extremely sexually active and he's got his guitar with him in 99% of scenes. Skwisgaar also doesn't appear to be the most talkative, he can be bitchy and throw tantrums like the rest of his bandmates, but also seems to be more prone to crying and becoming anxious or worried for his friends and their wellbeing/safety, in terms of socializing he seems to be a bit awkward and seems the most comfortable communicating through sex and music. He's teasing and can be a dick, but there's no real edge to it. He also while seeming in some regards to be a bit....dumb to be blunt about it seems to actually be rather smart, though often seems to just keep that to himself probably because he knows who his friends are and they aren't prone to listening to people.
Season one wasted no time in introducing the band's parents and this included Skwisgaar's mother, Serveta. One thing that I do find super interesting is that he is the only member of the band who comes from a single mother, technically it isn't interesting, but the theory (probably canon) that their fathers aren't really their fathers at all and that their mothers became pregnant by the Deth Star makes it interesting. To me at least.
With Skwisgaar's mom in regards to the first season of the show we quickly learn that their relationship is strained. She's an older woman who just like Skwisgaar is very sexually active, we see her come onto Nathan's father who is married and sitting with his wife and son, Skwisgaar's reaction to this is to get upset and begin frantically playing his guitar. Skwisgaar spends a good portion of this episode drinking and at one point saying that ever since his mom got there his stomach had been hurting and he'd just been feeling like absolute shit. When we see him bonding with his mom he's brushing her hair and looking like he'd rather be dead or any place else, seeing him helping her groom is weirdly a red flag to me.
We learn by the third season of the show that his mother is intensely vain and in love with herself, she resents Skwisgaar because being pregnant with him and giving birth to him ruined her 'perfect' body and I'm sure the years where he was too young to fend for himself annoyed her because it meant she couldn't party or have men over or run off whenever she wanted, something I get the feeling that changed when he was about ten years of age. In a bonus video that comes with the first season of the show you see interviews with the band on various random topics; one of the scenes that is...uncomfortable to say the least is when family is brought up. Skwisgaar begins to say something, but trails off and becomes visibly upset before saying he's just going to shut down for a while, Toki confesses some more physical abuse before also shutting down.
I'm going to take a guess that Skwisgaar only had his mother when he was growing up and she only had him, I'm sure she has parents and maybe even siblings and aunts and uncles, but it appears that she has absolutely no relationship with them and Skwisgaar most probably never met these people.
The walls of Serveta's home sport dozens of headshots of herself and a couple of pictures of Skwisgaar as a kid thrown up by the front door almost as an after thought. It's likely and most probable that Skwisgaar was thrusted into the position of caretaker and even a husband sort of position when it came to his relationship with his mom; given the task of looking after her, holding her hair back when she pukes after a night of drinking, doing laundry, cooking, cleaning, etc. We know when he was about ten or thirteen years old he came home from school to find his mom having sex with two men, an event that scared him and led to him being chased by wolves and falling into a pit where if he weren't a demi-god he legit would have died. I feel like his mom reached a point with him where she stopped caring whether or not he saw her....personal life, perceiving him as an adult despite still just being a boy and also seeing him as somebody who is taking up space in her home and preventing her from having fun.
When she marries Tyr they're all over each other constantly....until Skwisgaar and Tyr become friends and begin spending time together, then she cheats on him. She was jealous that her latest man wasn't giving her constant attention and got angry at the concept of sharing him with her own child, which is super fucked up.
Skwisgaar throughout the show has a fake persona. He likes to pretend he in some way is like his mom; he likes to pretend he has his head up his own ass and doesn't need anybody but himself, he loves himself more than he could ever love another person. Which isn't true. At all.
I think that growing up with a narcissistic parent who emotionally neglected and emotionally abused him put him in a position where he had to shut down like that. He had to learn at a very young age that crying and yelling and being angry gets nothing done except maybe piss his mom off more, after finding his guitar he threw himself into music and appeared to shut himself off socially, preferring music over human interactions.
Music is something that Skwisgaar can rely on no matter what happens; he will always have a guitar, he will always be able to create music even if it is just for himself and nobody else. People come and go, people physically hurt you, people emotionally hurt you, or make you feel worthless. When we see the flashback to the night Magnus was kicked out of Dethklok Skwisgaar is faded into the background, almost like a ghost with his slumped shoulders and his hair curtaining his face as if he wants to just disappear. When they're auditioning for a replacement Skwisgaar is positive he doesn't want somebody else in the band, that they are fine just being four.
I think it comes from the fact he was terrified of repeating what just happened with Magnus, finding somebody he might think he can bond with over music only for that person to turn into a monster who makes him feel like he can't even do the thing he loves more than anything correctly....Then Toki came in and when they had their duel it quickly turned from a competition into a conversation. Because that's the one way Skwisgaar knows how to communicate, the way he is the most comfortable with; he likes to communicate through guitar and finding somebody who he could speak to through music excited him.
It's clear for obvious age related reasons that Skwisgaar has/had a care taker role where Toki is concerned. I mean he was about 15/16 when Skwisgaar took him into the band so he was a literal child, even when he's older Skwisgaar still looks out for him and is in his own sense immensely protective where he's concerned. Skwisgaar is also that way with the rest of the band even if it's more subtle. He worries about his bandmates, if they get injured or nearly killed it bothers him and he doesn't want anything to happen to them. When the band is going to break up he completely shuts down, because admit to it or not they had become the only family he ever had. I think Skwisgaar is so hard wired from his childhood to care for people that it's something he can't shake and maybe with the band he doesn't feel its a bad habit, because unlike with his mom, his bandmates arent forcing him to look after them. It's something he does because he wants to do it.
Of course in regards to his attraction to older women that definitely comes from issues relating to his mother....I don't think it's in a creepy Freud way, but more so just wanting to feel cared for back. Very obviously he can't exactly approach any of his bandmates and ask for a hug....well except maybe Toki and Pickles if he's super drunk or high, but outside of those two instances....they aren't people he could exactly just ask for validation or comfort or consolation. They aren't....good with that shit. Older women though usually have a tendency to be coddling and kind, Skwisgaar probably learned that as a teen or in his twenties, I think it's less about the sex factor and just feeling important. In terms of sex with people closer to him in age (I will die on the hill that he's bisexual, because he keeps just throwing it out there that he would blow a guy and he had multiple three ways with Melmord) I think it's a distraction for the most part, he uses sex the same way he often uses music, and honestly....He grew up seeing his mother have men over constantly.
Skwisgaar didn't grow up seeing love or healthy relationships, he saw his mom parade various men through the house and maybe she kept some of them for a while and I doubt the relationships were healthy and I'm sure he knew that his mother didn't love any man she dated or married for a short while. Even in the show he isn't fond of love or marriage, the only time he dates somebody is when he moves back to Sweden and finally starts to get his life together in a more healthy sense and that relationship didn't feel like it was based on sex. It was based on physical and emotional affection and it was the only time Skwisgaar ever looked actually happy in terms of intimacy.
Sex is a job, a chore for him; he's the God of Life so it's technically what....it's y'know his thing, creating life. As a lot of people notice....he seems far more sexually active after him and Toki's second fight in regards to music and petty bull shit. Season four is essentially the season where Salacia gets what he wanted aka the band tearing itself apart and you can see them all fall apart individually. For Skwisgaar falling apart means closing himself off, throwing himself more into his guitar and more into sex. He becomes more of a tool and an object as if that's all he wants to be, because being a person who opens yourself up and lets people in and tries to care about people ends up with you being hurt, badly.
Which does bring things back to his super complicated slightly homoerotic to the point even the show had to mention it for a hot second relationship with Toki.
We can gather from Doomstar that Toki was far more into music when he first joined Dethklok which I think worked out great for Skwisgaar, because as I said before; Skwisgaar communicates through music and this gave him somebody that he could talk to without the awkwardness of verbally conversing.
Though that changed clearly and you can feel that Skwisgaar is bothered by it, like in some weird way it feels like a minor betrayal. Toki notoriously never practices or puts in a lot of effort in terms of making music which Skwisgaar often comments on, complains about, or gets on him about. Reasonable. Guitar is part of who he is, but at the end of the day a talent that made him rich, that's what it is to Toki.....Skwisgaar on the other hand his guitar is literally an extension of himself and seeing him without a guitar in his hand for longer than a single scene gets weird.
Still despite the two of them losing the art of communicating through their music....they're close. Super fucking close. If you watch Metalocalypse and tell yourself going into the show that you're going to focus heavily on a single character or on a certain relationship you notice a ton of shit. Like you notice that Toki and Skwisgaar almost always sit together, stand together, talk over one another, finish each others weird sentences or ideas, copy each other to the point they spend an entire episode bickering like children over copying each other, and often spend their time hanging out together. Again. They're really close as if they're a single person split into two.
They're close to the point that inverse their fans just to some extent assume the two of them are fucking and madly in love and I mean I'm gonna be honest just objectively speaking here I would not be surprised to find out they have had sex before at least once or more times. Just saying.
That aside though and just sticking to the platonic here....They're close, Toki means as much to Skwisgaar as guitar does, and that's saying a lot. One big reason I want to bring up their relationship is that his relationship with Toki brings to light Skwisgaar's issues with death or more specifically death where Toki is concerned.
In season one when Toki has a bit of a breakdown and Pickles suggest they kill him, Skwisgaar looks tense and uncomfortable and says that he doesn't like the idea because it's a lot and it makes him feel not so good. In a deleted scene where the band watch Nascar together Pickles ask Toki and Skwisgaar if they were supposed to be dead or in jail or something because it's the same episode where they got shit faced and got into a high speed chase. Skwisgaar when responding about it changes the word dead/death out for sleep, stating they were supposed to be put to sleep but just had to do community service instead (Toki corrects that it was jail, not being put to sleep). In the deleted IKEA scene when Toki stressed says maybe the two of them should just kill themselves Skwisgaar immediately freaks out and later when they return to Nathan and Murderface they both look super emotionally fucked up and when Nathan ask if they had been crying Toki gets defensive and says no while Skwisgaar beginning to cry again says they had been crying. Then of course after Toki ruins Skwisgaar's reputation and becomes Magnus Jr. for a few weeks and ends up having a panic attack and making an ass of himself....Skwisgaar thinks he's having a heart attack and freaks the fuck out terrified that he's dying.
Then finally for a compilation of Skwisgaar not handling Toki dying well; in Doomstar before they go in to save Toki Skwisgaar makes the sorrowful comment that sometimes he wonders if they should have stayed a one guitar band. It isn't him being a dick, he isn't saying this isn't worth it. He's saying essentially that Toki was stabbed, kidnapped and possibly murdered and it's completely his fault; if he hadn't taken Toki in then none of this would have happened. Which immediately leads me to believe that post the funeral episode that Skwisgaar spent those months high and drunk and late at night blaming himself for Toki being taken/murdered. That's a lot of blame to put onto yourself and to say its your fault solely because a few years ago you took this kid in off the streets is honestly heart breaking.
Early on in the series there's an episode where Toki's pissed that he isn't seen as Skwisgaar's musical equal, he wants solos, and Skwisgaar turns him down. Which through the series and within that episode itself we easily learn why Skwisgaar never gives him a solo; Toki has performance anxiety and he never practices and quite honestly knows almost nothing about guitar. It's valid. Either way in this particular episode Toki gets pissed and decides he wants to take lessons, Skwisgaar offers and Toki turns him down because last time they tried...he kind of just ended up beating the shit out of Skwisgaar. (to be fair don't dump a bucket of blood on your friend's head) So he goes off and finds an elderly man to teach him how to play guitar, Murderface being a dick decides to tell Skwisgaar that Toki is super good at guitar now and.....Skwisgaar doesn't react well. He gets pissed off and has nightmares about Toki becoming better than him. He even confronts Toki and his guitar teacher and threatens to kick him out of the band. When he realizes at the end of the episode that Toki is still....really not great with music....he's chill again, everything is forgiven.
I kind of think that episode is a reason people perceived Skwisgaar as a dick or is one reason, but honestly he isn't being a dick. I mean sure, a bit, but they're all dicks. The thing is guitar is a crutch for Skwisgaar, it is super important to him and he doesn't know who he is without his guitar, without his music. So somebody else threatening to take that from him freaks him out and he reacts poorly to it.
Then we get to near the end of the show when the same issue arises except completely different. Toki again later in the series ask Skwisgaar for a solo and Skwisgaar annoyed refuses him, Toki being the mild psycho shit that he is decides to just kind of ruin his life as revenge. Again by this point in the show its kind of obvious if you actually pay attention at all that Skwisgaar keeps telling him he can't have solos because Toki never fucking practices and even in the studio Skwisgaar has to record most of the rhythm guitar parts. He's also known since Toki's audition that the kid is prone to choking up and making mistakes, so he's technically protecting him without just outright confronting him.
Toki writes a book calling out Skwisgaar as an abusive tyrant and an over dramatic bitch. Admittedly Skwisgaar is a slight diva and just like the rest of them can be a total asshole, admittedly to a lesser degree than the others. What's really fucking interesting for me personally about this episode is that Skwisgaar is catatonic and depressed for 99% of it. He doesn't speak. This starts literally the second that Toki releases his book saying that Skwisgaar abuses him, this is before Skwisgaar's career goes down the toilet, his career hadn't been impacted by this yet.
Skwisgaar falls to pieces because Toki, Toki who he's known since he was just sixteen and took in off the streets and they're always practically attached at the hip and have been since day one just released a book calling him an abusive monster.
I do have a feeling one reason this fucked him up is because he might be terrified that he's turning into Magnus without realizing it, that perhaps he has become an abusive monster and has been making Toki feel the way that Magnus made him feel towards the end of his time in Dethklok. I think there also is probably something soul crushing about the person you love platonically or otherwise referring to you very publicly as abusive. Of course all of this worsens when Skwisgaar's career begins to fall to shit, eventually towards the end when Toki is at the top of his ego trip being a prick Skwisgaar does confront him, that in itself is interesting.
Skwisgaar goes in way calmer than I would be in that situation, sure he gets pissed off as they bicker, but again he's waaayyyy fucking calmer than anybody else would be especially since Toki just yells at him through the entire conversation. Of course interestingly is that Toki perceives Skwisgaar in a way that isn't entirely true, he thinks Skwisgaar mocks him and thinks of him as nothing which isn't true at all, when he says Skwisgaar laughed at him he just responds that he never did that and he sounds slightly hurt by that. They're both hurt and none of these men are good with healthy emotions. Skwisgaar never loses his shit on him in the entire conversation, he looks like he could easily go ape shit but instead warns him that the audience will eat him alive the second he fucks up.
Which turns out to be true, Toki fucks up and people begin turning against him which leads to him having a severe panic attack. Like I mentioned before Skwisgaar thinks he's dying and tries to save him, scared out of his fucking mind at the concept of Toki dying. Which....the dude just spent several weeks treating you like garbage and calling you a monster who abuses him, if Skwisgaar was actually a shitty person then he would have laughed at him or mocked him or given him shit about this moment for years to come....but he doesn't do any of that. He is worried about saving him, probably terrified that if Toki dies then their last conversation was a fight.
Their dynamic changes a lot after this, not in a way that's overly obvious unless you watch it closely. They spend a lot less time together and what feels almost out of character initially in Dethcamp is....Skwisgaar easily going along with Murderface and bitching about Toki, because....again can't stress the Scandinavian dudes are always attached at the hip and now suddenly he's easily saying mean shit about Toki. It feels weird until you remember that not long before this they had a massive fight, Toki called him abusive and momentarily ruined his career and most likely afterwards tried to act like nothing happened at all while Skwisgaar probably wasn't capable of doing that.
Occasionally in season four Skwisgaar and Toki will sit together or stand together, still talk or have that physical closeness but it's far between and you see Toki spend a majority of his time with the toxic trio: Murderface, Rockso, and Magnus. Skwisgaar spends his time typically with Murderface and Pickles then near the end spends most of his time with Nathan.
Skwisgaar is a person who grew up in a home lacking affection and love or safety, he didn't grow up with examples of love or healthy relationships and as far as he's concerned relationships are a waste of time and energy because they all end the same.
Of course for as much as he says that, as they all say that....it's bull shit. He cares deeply about his bands and him trying to act near the end like Dethklok was just another gig it isn't, these people are his close friends and his only real family. Seeing Pickles and Nathan fall apart wrecked him and having Toki turn on him so easily gutted him. Skwisgaar is a super emotionally fragile person, he seems absolutely terrified of showing anger or aggression as if it's something he's never been comfortable with or learned when he was young gets you nowhere or perhaps there were men around who were violent and loud and it made him scared to ever be that way. He's the only one of the band we never see really lose his shit or be randomly aggressive and violent, he also strangely enough cries the most out of them canonically. People always make the assumption Toki cries a lot, but like canonically he cries waaayyyy fucking less than Skwisgaar.
I really find Skwisgaar interesting....clearly and this analysis might be a jumbled mess, but there's strangely a lot of things to unpack and things I probably didn't even touch on as much as I could have, because this is already insanely long. I have a deep appreciation of him rewatching this show now that I'm older and far more into analyzing works of fiction.
I hope that this was remotely coherent.
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Can you do 64 or 67 for brettsey please?
Prompt 64 can be found here!!
67. âIf you donât want to talk about it then say so. Donât lie and pretend to be fine when you clearly arenât.â
Matt should have seen this coming.
His mom's not exactly young. He doesn't know where she's been or how she's been doing these past few years, frankly. He's had no record of whether she's been staying healthy-- through no fault of his own, seeing as how his mom's always been less than reliable since getting out of prison. Hell, even before getting arrested she'd been letting him and Christie down in smaller ways.
So when he gets the call that Nancy Casey has passed away from a heart attack at the ripe age of 68, he thinks it's just one more way in which his mother has let him down; one more member of the Casey family carrying their overwhelming amount of secrets to the grave.
He should feel sad, he knows that, but all he feels is numbness and a slight annoyance at having to deal with the funeral and all her belongings.
Her belongings aren't actually all that numerous, he realizes soon enough, which he assumes is a perk of being so flakey. All he gets is a box of things. He doesn't know what things, exactly. He'd gone to her place, shoved everything he could find into a cardboard box without paying attention to any of it, and left before he had the change to boil over with rage at all the things she'd kept from him and Christie-- the apartment included.
He should book time off or something. Or maybe visit her grave. He hasn't been there since the funeral a week ago (at which he, Sylvie, and Christie had pretty much been the sole attendants), maybe it'd do him some good in theory. But right now, every normal way of grieving flies out the door for him. He feels himself reverting back to the Casey family tradition: internalizing your feelings and keeping them secret until the day you die. Literally. It's not fun, not pleasant, and certainly not healthy. But in some weird way, it feels like his own way of honouring his mother, so he doesn't fight it. He should, but he doesn't.
Until Sylvie notices, and manages to tear down his walls in one fowl, beautifully agonizing swoop.
She picks up on it pretty quickly. He drifts off a lot during shift, he looks even more serious than usual, and he refuses to talk about it all that much whenever she asks how he's feeling-- which isn't for lack of trying, but how the hell can he put every complex little emotion he's feeling into words? Doing that will take time.
She's over to the loft one night, petting gently at his hair with her legs sprawled across his lap as they mindlessly watch TV, when she notices the box of his mom's things collecting dust by the by the basketball machine. Stella and Severide are out and Sylvie knows he's not paying attention to what's on anyway, so she turns the TV off. It manages to get his attention and he looks to her, confused.
Her attention isn't on him though, only on the box. Its flaps are taped shut at the top, his mom's name in black sharpie fading slowly. "You still haven't opened the box of your momâs stuff?"
"No," he admits.
âMattâŠâ she sighs, taking her legs off his lap to sit upright on the couch. âYouâve been retreating into yourself ever since your mom passed away. Please donât shut me out. Iâm here, you know that, right?â
âI do. But Sylvie, Iâm fine,â he insists. âMy mom knew exactly what she wanted in life once she got out of prison and I wasnât exaclty a part of that. Itâs been a long time since Iâve seen her, I probably donât know half of whatâs in that box anyway. She hid her new life from me and Christie. Sheâs just next in a long line of people in my family whoâve taken their secrets to the grave, thatâs all.â
âIf you donât want to talk about it then say so. Donât lie and pretend to be fine when you clearly arenât.â
Her tone is sympathetic but has a slight edge to it. She wants him to open up, he knows that. Thatâs, along with the surprising frustration in her eye, is enough to make Matt want to. So he tries.
âI want to,â he assures her. âBut thereâs nothing to say. She was gone before, and sheâs gone now. Itâs just more permanent now.â
âBut donât you think opening that box will give you someâ I donât know⊠closure?â
âI know it probably will, but I've been busy with contracting work and the firehouse has been busy and... I don't know, it just slipped my mind."
She gives him a look as if to say she doesn't buy it for a second, only it turns quickly into a look of sympathy. Because it always does. Sylvie, through thick and thin, good and bad, just always understands him. That goes both ways, which makes it even better, but it also means he knows exactly what she's thinking right now.
"What's keeping you from doing it now then?"
"Now?" His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his arm stretching out against the back edge of the couch and rubbing at her far shoulder. "Well for one, I'm having a relaxing night with you, and I'd rather not ruin that with memories of my less than reliable mother. And second, I just... I'm...."
Matt finds himself choking on his words, unable to admit to himself the one word he's looking for. He doesnât know where this sudden seriousness comes from, this abrupt inability to keep things in. Itâs like an old habit, and normally those die hard. Except Sylvieâs lifting a gentle hand to caress his face, is giving him that warm and comforting look, and he knows exactly why itâs hard.
Itâs hard because itâs her. Itâs Sylvie, and trying to internalize things around her at this point is pointlessâ even if he wanted to. And he doesnât want to. Heâs stripped of all his walls when heâs around her and honestly, he wouldnât have it any other way.
âScared?â She finishes his sentence for him, giving him an expectant look.
He nods, because yes. Matt Casey, a firefighter whoâs faced blazing fires and near-death experiences, is scared of opening a tiny little box. It takes a lot for him to admit that but heâs with her, which makes it ten times easier. âYeah,â he confirms. âI know it sounds silly, but I canât bring myself to look at all the things from her life that she left me and Christie out of. Iâm scared Iâll look in there and realize just how much of a stranger she was to meâ and of how much I miss her anyway.â
Sylvie exhales quietly, eyeing him achingly for a moment while she gnaws at her lip the way she only does when sheâs thinking hard. Then, she gives his knee a comforting squeeze before standing up. He shifts on the couch, elbows moving to his knees as he scrunches his brow in a pensive and painful train of thought of his own. He thinks Sylvie is just getting a glass of water or a tissue or something else, honestly. But when he looks up from his brooding, he sees her over by the basketball machine, picking up the box and bringing it over.
âHere,â she says, placing it on the table in front of them and sitting back down in her spot next to him. Their legs press together, leaving no space between them on the couch.
âNo,â he shakes his head as he responds. âNo, I canât do it.â
âYou can,â Sylvie assures him. âWe can do it. Together. You donât have to go through any of this alone, Matt. So if you have to sit here for a minute before opening it, or ten minutes, or an hour even, then you can do that. Iâll be here the entire time.â
Her eyes twinkle kindly at him and Matt swears, in that moment, that heâs the luckiest man alive. Something about everything she just told him strikes him harder than usual, acting as a sharp and wonderful reminder that theyâre meant for each other.
âI am so in love with you,â he utters softly.
Sylvie lets out a quiet giggle, moving to hold his hand and lace their fingers together. âI love you too.â
She presses a tender kiss to his cheek as he sucks in a sharp breath, his attention now turning to the box in front of them. The box looks back at him, almost as if challenging him. Only now, miraculously, it seems more manageable to him. Itâs still scary, still carries a lot of emotional weight for Matt. But he feels Sylvieâs hand in his and it gives him the strength to do this.
He lets go of Sylvieâs hand for a moment to tear the flaps of the box open. His hand finds hers again as soon as its done, relying on her for more strength as he moves to peer inside the box.
His heart stops.
With his spare hand, he pulls out the first thing in the box, at the very topâ the very thing that made his heart stop. Nothing else in the box matters now, he thinks. Because sitting there, in the palm of his hand, is a picture of him, Christie, and his mom. Nancy Casey sits in the center of the picture, with Matt and Christie at her sides. He remembers the day well; it was his fourteenth birthday, after all. Thereâs a cake in front of them in the picture to prove it. Matt doesnât ever remember looking and feeling so young. Admittedly, he doesnât remember being that happy around his family either. Normally, birthdays were sort of a mess for him, a constant struggle of battling with his father over how they should celebrate it that alwaus left Matt grumpy and hurt. But in the picture, his momâs hand is tickling his side, as well as Christieâs, and the moment captures the exact moment that he and Christie reflexively lean into her chest from the laughter. His momâs smile is bright and wideâ something he rarely saw around his household.
They were happy once. They were a family, no matter how messed up everything got between them. Maybe Nancy Casey wasnât such a stranger to him after all. That fact alone sends those million complicated little emotions swirling around in his chest.
Only this time, he doesnât bury them. This time, they all come pouring out at once and the dam breaks. He doesnât know when the tears started, but they flow now with a painful ease.
Sylvie lets go of his hand and pulls him in, holding onto him tight and close as his head rests on her chest. He feels tears of her own drip on the back of his head as she strokes his hair gently. He so rarely cries like this and yet now that heâs startedâ now that he has someone like Sylvie who lets him be vulnerableâ he doesnât think heâll ever stop.
Only she tightens his grip on him, whispers soothing hushes and gentle reassurances that everything will be okay, and he knows that heâll stop soon enough.
#yâall enough with the angsty hurt/comfort prompts PLEASEE my emotions canât take it lol đ#fanfic prompts#abby writes#prompt requests#abby.answers#brettsey#sylvie brett#matt casey
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âi want to love someone and be lovedâ ; spencer reid - part 2
pairing: spencer reid (criminal minds) x f!reader
summary: spencer decides itâs time to tell you, but he needs some help. 3887 words. part 1
a/n: THIS is the longest fic ive ever written but im actually kinda proud of how it turned out? i hope this is a good sequel :)
Spencer chickens out of telling you the next day.
He avoids you all weekend, actually. You resisted texting him the day after Rossiâs because you assumed heâd be busy â with his big plan involving a girl that isnât you. Youâre not bitter â but Sunday comes around and you message him not long after you wake up and six hours later thereâs no response.
Twelve hours later - thereâs no response.
Monday, you donât have time to say hello to anyone â thereâs a case waiting for you, somewhere in Florida.
Reid avoids your eyes. His body language tells you something is wrong, so you assume whoever he confessed to didnât reciprocate (theyâre insane) and heâs dealing with it. So you donât press.
Spencer pretends to sleep the entire jet ride. Heâs avoiding everyone, not just you.
He spent the whole weekend beating himself up. He drove to your apartment on Saturday, sat outside for so long a neighbour knocked on his window and asked if he was lost, but couldnât bring himself to step foot out of his car.
So he locked himself in his room, away from you and your loveliness and away from his phone because he knew you texted him and he knew youâd send some soft message about being there for him if he needs anything and he didnât need to be reminded of how beautiful and out of reach you are.
Derek seemed to be waiting for him Monday morning, arms crossed as he held a cup of coffee. It was weird seeing him in before Spencer.
âHowâd it go?â He immediately asked.
âHowâd what go?â Spencer mumbles, flinging his bag on the floor by his desk. He slumps in his seat.
Derek raises a dark eyebrow, âYou know what, pretty boy. You had a big thing? Big plan?â
âDidnât work out.â
It doesnât take a profiler to realise Spencer is very clearly saying leave me alone. Leave it alone.
Derek isnât one to leave it alone. Especially when it comes to Spencer.
He sighs and moves a little closer to Spencerâs desk, just in case someone overhears them.
âWhat happened?â
âThatâs exactly it,â Spencer slams open a file, âNothing happened.â
âAnd why did nothing happen?â
âBecause Iâm an idiot that canât even tell a girl how I feel.â
âWhoa- hey!â
Derek spins Spencerâs chair so theyâre face to face. Derek takes one look in Spencerâs eyes and knows whatâs going on â he got too into his head and backed out at the last minute.
âYouâre not an idiot. Why didnât you do it?â
Spencer shrugs, âI got to her apartment. I had flowers, too. I donât know.â
Derekâs evidently concerned â Spencerâs beaten up over this, over whoever this girl is, and he deserves the chance to experience love. Spencer deserves a lot more than he himself thinks he does.
âYou seemed really excited, man. You can still do it. Just cause you try once and it doesnât work out doesnât mean you canât ever try again.â
Spencer stares off into the distance, accidentally ignoring Derek as his thoughts slip out of his mouth, âYeah, it probably wouldnât have worked anyway â I was stupid to think I could get someone like her.â
âHey, no.â Derek nudges Spencerâs shoulder so he looks at him again, âDonât talk like that. Youâre one hell of a guy, Reid. All you gotta do is get that confidence that you had Friday night back, and youâre all set. Donât be so hard on yourself.â
Spencer gives a feeble nod. Derek moves back to his desk, knowing he isnât convinced, but he isnât done yet.
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Later, in Florida, Spencerâs making a coffee in the precinctâs kitchen after waiting twenty minutes for you to leave. Luckâs on his side, for once, and youâve been working non-stop with Prentiss going crime scene to crime scene so he hasnât had to actively avoid you. You smile at him every chance you get, though, and it distracts him.
Someone clears their throat behind him. Itâs Penelope, whom Spencer didnât realise was invited on this case.
She looks guilty. Spencer recognises that face; the face she has when sheâs done something she shouldnât have or knows something she isnât really supposed to. Given current circumstances, Spencer bets itâs the latter reason.
âMorgan told me something he shouldnât have.â
Bingo.
He leans against the kitchen counter, stirring his coffee absentmindedly.
âWhat did he tell you?â He asks, feigning tranquillity. Inside heâs screaming non-stop.
Sheâs got her hands clasped together in front of her, almost innocently, and fiddles with her fingers, âHe told me you needed assistance in the love department.â Before he can object, she continues, âAnd I am willing to do anything if it means our resident weirdo-slash-genius falls in love and gets to experience some much needed cuteness.â
Thereâs no point in lying to her. Thereâs also no point in being mad that Morgan told her about his situation â theyâre kind of a package deal. And, who knows, Garcia might be able to help.
âSoâŠâ She sways, trying (and failing) to appear nonchalant, âWhoâs the lucky lady?â
Spencer shuffles on the spot, scuffing his shoes against the floor. He debates whether he should tell her, since, you know, youâre in the next room over, but Spencer worries that Garcia is so good at her job sheâd somehow find out through hacking Spencerâs phone, or maybe somehow hacking his dreams. His subconscious. Heâs terrified of Garcia and her abilities.
âYou can tell me.â She insists, âIâm much better at keeping secrets than Morgan.â
Spencer turns away from her, she steps closer, and he mumbles your name.
âWhat?â
âY/N.â
âWHAT?!â
Spencer spins, hands coming up to tell Garcia to shut up and Garcia immediately covers her mouth in both shock and hopefully so she doesnât shout again.
âSince when?!â She screeches. âHow could I not have known?! Oh God, almighty Doctor Reid, I feel like Iâve failed you by not realising earlier.â
Her enthusiasm makes him smile, for the first time in far too long. Garcia has that power â this innate skill to comfort those around her and make them feel special, make them smile when the world feels like its collapsing.
âLet me help!â She requests.
Spencerâs clearly hesitant. He knows itâs a bad idea.
âPlease!â She begs, âI just- I have so many ideas of how you can go about this. Let me brainstorm, get back to you, and if Iâm too over-the-top you can tell me no and weâll pretend it never happened!â
He takes a deep breath. Yes, Garcia is the definition of over-the-top, but thatâs one of his favourite things about her. Itâs your favourite thing, too. And he did tell Morgan he had big plans. Anything involving Garcia is a big plan with big payoff.
âThis is between us.â
âIâll take it to the grave. Unless you realise how amazing my ideas are and use one to tell Y/N how you feel and then years later I get to commend myself during my maid of honour speech at your wedding.â
She looks ecstatic, hands now together under her jaw as her eyes twinkle. Spencer canât help but laugh at her eagerness.
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The next day, the team returns to Quantico after a semi-successful case. The general mood is good and Morgan invites everyone out for drinks â Spencer declines, but you have your first full conversation since last Friday.
âCâmon, Spence,â Your head rests against the jet seat and you blink sleepily at him, âI feel like I havenât spoken to you for years!â
Spencer gives you a small smile, âI promised my mom Iâd call her tonight. Sorry, Y/N.â
You nod in understanding, âWill you tell her I say hi?â
âOf course. She loves you.â
You grin at eachother, immediately lost in your own world. Youâve missed him more than you realised, and you have no idea whatâs going through his head, but youâre happy that youâve had this â a Spencer Reid smile that makes you feel at home and on top of the world simultaneously.
Spencer has to tear his eyes away before he blurts something stupid, like sheâs not the only one that loves you.
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âSpencer!â Garcia greets, Cheshire cat grin on her face. âI need to see you in my dungeon, please. Immediately.â
Spencer drops the file heâs holding. Unfortunately, Penelopeâs request caught the attention of the whole team.
âWhat business do you have in the villainâs lair, Reid?â Derek asks. Youâve looked up from your computer, Emily smirking and leaning back in her chair in expectation.
âUhâŠâ
âImportant nerd business. Go away.â Garcia says, eyes narrow as she tugs Spencerâs hand. Heâs whisked away from any further questioning, leaving the befuddled team behind.
He isnât sure what to expect when he stumbles into Penelopeâs second home, but the display in front of him explains why he overheard a conversation about missing evidence boards earlier. Penelopeâs obviously been using the new printer in her cave to her advantage â thereâs at least twenty different pictures printed out on one board titled âdate ideasâ, then the board on the right has a picture of Spencer and you in the centre with a perfectly drawn heart around it. Under and around that is a mixture of love quotes, including song lyrics and quotes directly from romantic movies. He notices âThe Parliament of Fowlsâ on there â Garcia remembers that he mentioned itâs considered the first Valentines poem?
âWhoa,â Is all he can say.
âI know itâs a little intense,â Garcia squirms, âBut! I started scrolling through Pinterest and couldnât stop. I donât know what came over me, maybe some type of love deity, but I started thinking about you and Y/N in a classic love film in, like, black and white and IâŠâ
Sheâs out of breath from animatedly explaining.
Spencer laughs through his nose, almost a scoff, but heâs impressed. He shouldnât have expected anything else from the Penelope Garcia.
As Spencer wanders towards the first board, Garcia follows him like a shadow, âMy personal favourite is-â She points to a picture of chocolate fondue with faceless people in very little clothing, â-this one.â
Spencer awkwardly clears his throat when he begins to think of you and him like that.
âA little much for your declaration of love, though, I get it,â Garcia nods.
He scans the board â heart speeding up when he moves from idea to idea and picturing you and him in each one. He canât help but think no, that one would be good for our anniversary â ah, sheâd love to do that one for her birthday.
âWhatâre you thinking?â Garcia asks quietly. She knows his brain is whirring like her computer drive, so she approaches him gently.
âThis one.â He says. âWhere should we do it?â
Garcia grins behind him. The one heâs referring to shows a dinner table set up outside, brown wooded table with white wooden chairs opposite eachother. Thereâs flowers at the centre, a bottle of wine already poured in each glass in front of a basket of cookies, and the area around is shrouded by shrubbery, fairy lights hanging delicately from every-which-way.
Itâs perfect. You love fairy lights, Spencer loves cookies, and the set-up looks private enough for Spencer to feel confident when he empties his heart and soul to you.
âThe roof.â Garcia says wistfully.
âWe have access to that?â
âYes.â They both know they donât. âLeave it to me. Oh⊠one more thing.â She adds, hesitantly, âCan Morgan help? Iâm a lot of things, including emotionally strong and your love guru, but physically Iâm gonna need some assistance.â
Spencer doesnât even need to agree â Morganâs gonna involve himself no matter what.
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Five oâclock is quickly approaching and youâre slumped over your desk, lost in your work. You need to be lost in it, because ever since Garcia released Spencer from her office right after lunch heâs been sneaking glances at you (heâs not sneaky) and has made several attempts to approach you but decided against it, sharply turning and pretending he meant to go another way instead.
You are beyond confused. You assume itâs to do with the girl heâs been trying to get over â you hope heâs been trying to build the confidence to tell you exactly what happened and maybe, you really hope, heâll invite you over for the weekend so you can slip back into your old routine.
âPsst.â
You assume theyâre not trying to get your attention, so you donât move.
âPsst!â
You still donât move.
âY/N!â
Your head snaps up to Spencer leaning over the divider between your desks. He looks alarmed â which is odd, given heâs the one who called you â and he opens and closes his mouth a few times before he finally speaks.
âAre you busy tonight?â He sits back and, if he wasnât so goddamn tall, all youâd be able to see would be his eyes. His added height means you can see his eyes and his nose. You wanna kiss it.
You smile â this is an olive branch, âI am completely available for whatever it is you might need.â
You sound incredibly eager, which you are. You miss him.
His cheeks move upwards, a smile, âCan I talk to you, later, on the roof? Uh-â He clears his throat, â-I need to tell you something.â
You raise an eyebrow, âYouâre not gonna push me off, right?â
âNo,â He laughs.
âPromise me.â
Now he guffaws, âI would never, Y/N!â
âPromise me, Reid!â
âAlright, alright! I promise!â Heâs jokingly raising his hands in a form of surrender.
You give him another smile and turn back to your work. You feel at ease, now, thinking heâs finally gonna tell you what happened on the weekend â finally youâll be able to help him and go back to normal.
Spencer, on the other hand, is the exact opposite of ease. Heâs about to pour his heart out to you.
He takes a deep breath and looks back to his computer, which is open on a tab titled âHow to Tell Someone You Like Them.â
Step 3: Be Confident.
Spencer opens a new tab and searches, âHow to be confident.â
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Garcia hacks into Spencerâs computer to open a document and type that the roof is ready. She wishes him luck, tells him she loves him, and calls dibs on being the godmother of your future children. As if she doesnât have enough godchildren as it is.
He clears his throat and your head snaps towards him. Youâve been done for a while, playing Tetris on your phone, waiting for Spencer to take you to the roof where he swears he wonât kill you â youâre not entirely convinced.
âUm-â He scratches his neck, âYou ready to go?â
You nod and give him a weak smile in hopes it gives him some type of reassurance.
âWhatever happened, itâs okay, Spence.â
All he does is nod in return, gathering his coat and bag. He doesnât really register what you say, or he wouldâve been very confused.
You follow him up to the roof. The elevator ride is silent and Spencer is jittery; his hands twitch and tap against his legs, heâs bouncing on his toes and he keeps looking at you through the corner of his eye. Youâve taken several deep breaths to calm your racing heart â you hate heights, and this is the closest youâve been to Spencer in a week. This will be the longest conversation youâve had with him in a week, too.
The second the doors open, Spencer leaps in front of you.
âWait!â
You jump back in surprise, âWhat? Are you okay?â
âIâm fine. Completely fine. Just⊠when we get there, let me explain first, okay? Before you say anything.â Heâs pleading, as if youâve already told him no. You look at him with furrowed brows and mumble an âokayâ.
Youâre visibly confused as you trek up the flight of stairs to the roof. Spencer pushes open the fire door and the first thing you notice is how bright the roof is â you always assumed itâd be dark, little light, especially at night like this.
Wait.
Thereâs fairy lights⊠everywhere. Youâre pretty sure this isnât the norm for the FBI roof.
Spencer is equally as awed at what he sees before him - itâs exactly the photo he saw in Garciaâs cave brought to life, but heâs too distracted by you to fully appreciate it. You look like a child on Christmas; eyes wide, pupils blown, mouth slightly agape. Youâre gorgeous.
âWhatâŠis this, Spence?â You wonder, noticing the set table, fingers grazing the roses that sit in a vase in the middle. Theyâre fresh and smell wonderful.
He stands a little behind you, fiddling with his hands, and clears his throat, âWould you like to take a seat?â
You do. When he finally sits, he pours you a glass of wine and you immediately take an anxious sip. Although Rossi is a big fan of wine, you rarely take interest in it only when Spencerâs involved. Youâve come to associate wine with him â a smile peeks out from your glass as you stare at the man opposite you.
âI need to get something off my chest. But thereâs cookies, if you want one,â He picks one up from his plate, breaking it in half and giving it to you. Heâs stalling, but you seem to take the bait and bite into it.
âAre these from the bakery two blocks away?â
âYeah,â He replies, but he isnât really paying attention. He doesnât know where to begin.
You wait patiently for him to open up. Youâre still unsure of what to make of all of this â the beautiful setting, the wine, the flowers, the lights. God, the lights are dazzling in the Virginia night sky. You need context, and you need it now.
âSpence-â
âListen.â
âOh.â
âSorry, I justâŠâ He trails off, âI need to say what I need to say before I back out again.â
You fold your hands in your lap. Youâre ready for whateverâs to come.
âDo you know how long weâve known eachother?â He asks. His head tilts like a puppy.
âNearly five years. Our friendaversary is coming up, you know.â
You realise, then, that this must be a celebration for that â that explains the⊠typically romantic setting. Before you can open your mouth to ask if that whatâs this is, Spencer speaks.
âFour years, three-hundred and sixty days. Thatâs how long weâve known eachother.â
âIf we were dating, we wouldâve been my longest relationship the second we passed a year.â
You donât know why you said it, but it flusters him. He has to pause to take a breath and collect his thoughts.
âIâve been in love with you for four years and three hundred and fifty-eight days, Y/N.â
Itâs silent as you process and he figures out how to continue.
âI knew you were special when you were introduced to us. Hotch already had such a soft spot for you, and you had this way about you that made us all fall in love instantly. I remember Garcia did a background check the second she found out your name and she said you remind her of me and I⊠that freaked me out, to be honest. I thought youâd try to replace me.â He huffs a laugh, but canât bring himself to look you in the eye, âI realised I was in love with you when you drunkenly defended me. Do you remember that?â His eyes flicker to yours for half a second â youâre wide-eyed, âYouâd known me for two days at that point, but weâd already done a case together so we were celebrating. And these guys at the bar were whispering about me, acting like I couldnât hear them, and the second you realised what was happening you stood up, stormed towards them and gave them a piece of your mind. It was incredible.
âYou barely knew me, at least personally, but you thought so highly of me you scolded a group of drunk bodybuilders without a second thought. You made them apologise â it was hysterical watching someone half their size force them into submission like that â and when you were done you asked if I wanted to leave and go get ice cream. We couldnât, cause you vomited on the way there, but I knew in that moment I loved you and I feel so hard, so quickly, I didnât know what to do. And you never⊠you never indicated you thought of me as anything other than a friend so I didnât try. Then you dated Greg who, in my opinion, sucked on his best days, and you encouraged me to date Abigail and IâŠâ
Heâs run out of breath and of things to say.
âI just love you, Y/N. Iâm in love with you.â He adds, âI hope thatâs okay.â
He finally looks at you, then. Youâre just staring and he panics when he canât make out what youâre feeling. Heâs always been able to read you, youâve always hated the saying that eyes are the windows to the soul because your eyes are always your tell, but now theyâre⊠glassy.
Youâre crying.
âSpencerâŠâ You gasp, throat tight.
âItâs okay.â Spencer gives a tight-lipped smile. He knows whatâs coming. He shouldâve expected it. He has been expecting it.
âI love you too, Spence.â
Spencer chokes on air. He takes a gulp of wine.
You give him a teary smile in disbelief, âIâve always loved you, Spence. I thought you knew that â I thought that big brain of yours knew exactly how I felt and⊠you didnât do anything about it so I thought you didnât feel the same. SpencerâŠâ
He slowly moves a hand to place it palm-up on the table. Immediately you place your hand in his, your grip tight as you lovingly stare at him. This feels unreal.
âIâm in love with you too, you idiot.â You half laugh, half cry, âIf youâve really loved me this long, weâve wasted so much time! God, weâre both idiots.â
Spencerâs crying too, now, and he starts laughing with you.
Youâre two idiots in love, sitting opposite eachother on the roof of your place of work in a dream-like surrounding filled with fairy lights and flowers, and you couldâve been doing this for years.
Spencer sniffles, looking at you through his wet eyelashes, âWould you like to be my girlfriend?â
âIf I say yes, will I get more dates like this?â You tease.
âWell, Garcia has a whole evidence board of date ideas she stole from Pinterest. We have enough ideas to last a lifetime.â He giggles.
âPenny was in on this?!â
Spencer gives a heh, âThis is all thanks to her, so yeah.â
âSheâs always had our backs.â
âSheâs also now going to be convinced sheâs cupid.â
You laugh again, and canât help yourself when you lean across the table, still gripping Spencerâs hand, and letting your lips fall on his. Spencer leans into you, lips moving against yours as you both try to suppress grins.
You pull back slightly, Spencerâs lips following you, and whisper, âI would love to be your girlfriend.â
He kisses you again. And again. And again, just cause he can.
Big plan, big payoff. Youâre worth every little stress and more.
#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid fanfic#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds fanfic#mine#garcia is watching everything through the security cameras btw#you think she'd do all this and NOT watch her hard work flourish?#think AGAIN
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i have to get rid of this somewhere and im gonna go here
the two sides of encanto are definitely just juliettaâs side of the family being under constant pressure and pepaâs side of the family trying to help everyone else feel better and just about communication and connection you know?
julietta has to heal and obviously thereâs a lot of pressure on her to be perfect because sheâs literally dealing. with. lives. the woman goes through a LOT like all that cooking every. single. day. and having to be there no matter what. and sheâs done this since she was super young so its just hdnshskdgej considering the fact that abuela probably told her to work faster and make more food and just generally put a lot of pressure (even though she wasnât trying to) on her since a young age.
isaâs and luisaâs pressure is clearly stated in the movie where isaâs trying to live her life according to someone elseâs rules just so she can be perfect while luisaâs trying to lift every weight around her. like their mother, both of their gifts include giving.
mirabel on the other hand struggles with the constant pressure of trying not to mess up when everyone around her clearly expects her to. sheâs the other ticking time bomb of the madrigal family and the poor girl just wants to be included and loved but people wont treat her the same. later on sheâs facing the pressure of not messing up and the prophecy makes it worse.
augustine on the other hand, is different. heâs constantly showing everyone that its okay to mess up and be a little clumsy which makes him the perfect partner for julietta (the fact that theyâre complete opposites goes deeper but seriously theyâre freaking adorable) and the perfect dad for their girls. he knows messing up is okay and is great for the family.
pepaâs side of the family wasnât discussed that well in encanto but like itâs obvious with them too how their theme is healthy communication.
pepaâs gift stemmed from her emotions and its so obviously clear that she feels a lot of emotions but unlike other peoïżŒple her emotions have a outward impact of her surroundings. who wants to bet that she wasnât belittled for feeling things that other people were allowed to feel or that she wasnât regarded as too much or too dramatic or inconsiderate. sheâs always told to keep calm and this canât be having a good effect on her mental health because she literally has to tailor her emotions to fit other people. instead of being offered clear communication and helping her feel better everyone else just tells her to stop feeling anyïżŒthing but happy WHICH IS SO UNFAIR her mood swings are okay they just dont know how to handle them
FELIX ON THE OTHER HAND WOULD NEVER. felix is always. and i mean ALWAYS there for pepa and heâs constantly trying to make her feel better or validating her emotions and just overall letting her be. he never treats her different and doesnât regard her gift as a problem. heâs so supportive and amazing and i just LOVE felix.
camilo shape shifts. like wow. trying to be someone else? understanding someone elseâs point of view? like âmy primo camillo wont stop until he makes you smile todayâ when this is exactly what his father is always trying to do considering the fact that his mom has intense mood swings and anxiety COMMUNICATION AND CONNECTION LITERALLY NO ONE TALK TO ME OKAY ITS SO EVIDENT
dolores can hear what everyone is thinking, she can listen. being a good listener. communication. being someone who understands other people. honestly i feel bad for her because being able to hear so much can get so overwhelming. but dolores is attentive and she cares and she gets peopleâs perspectives and again, that was evident with âmariano i hear youâ ALSO OHMYGOD âdolores i see youâ? throughout the movie a lot of people mostly go to dolores to find out something about someone else like hey dude sheâs a person too literally shut up but she finally gets someone who loves with so much of his heart and now he sees HER. so well thought out.
antonio can literally communicate with animals. heâs so thoughtful and trusting for such a young boy he was ready to trust bruno without any doubts it was beautiful
OVERALL ITS VERY WELL THOUGHT OUT AND I FEEL A LOT OF THINGS RIGHT NOW OKAY
#encanto#mirabel madrigal#la familia madrigal#bruno my beloved#bruno madrigal#pepa madrigal#felix madrigal#luisa madrigal#isabela madrigal#camilo madrigal#encanto antonio#julieta madrigal#disney
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14 Anti LO Asks
1. To the one anon: good question - how is it that the mortals dont know who Persephone is / assume she is a minor goddess and therefore its okay to mess with her but the gods (or Olympians / underworld denizens) know exactly everything about her (despite her being there only every so often and only being 20ish) - enough to say shes "wearing her signature white color" during a murder trial.
Also the reason why Persephone is wearing white is because
A). RS wanted persephone to always be "dressed as a bride" (and have Hades dressed as a groom respectively) to show that their matching / is supposed to be a visual cue that their eventually gonna be together.
B). I believe this is RS way of saying that Persephone (despite murdering some mortals) is innocent because in purity culture White = innocence, virginity, youth etc. (Even though RS explicity ssid she wanted to go against purity culture morals shes very much leaning into them).Â
2. why are Psycheâs eyes yellow even in her human form? Is she sick??
3. honestly? LO is just gossisp girl at this point, espect even GG (at least in the first season) bothered to saturze the rich and was calling out how wealth and power makes them corrupt assholes. meanwhile LO is just GG season 2 and on of being like no no, the poor people are the evil people and the rich people are the oppressed ones! all while also fawning over their  wealth and status and being way into grown men wanting to bang barely legal teens and claiming to be "feminist" somehow.
4. Tumblr is well-known for broken tag system. Check the post' tags before complaining that it's op's fault. How about you guys not tag greek mythology when posting about LO? LO is not one-shot or short fancomic. It's also definitely not considered actual greek mythology. LO is years long webcomic with huge fans. LO has its own tag. Tell your fellow fans to stop using the greek mythology tag.
5. I would argue nyx is the only woman with a unique in design in LO but thats only because she looks like a deformed chicken woman. why was my night mom disrespected this much đ
6. So now that LO is back from break and I can finally read chapter 170 - Why oh Why do ALL the female characters Have to be defined by their male love interests??? (Or really just love interests in general).
I understand LO qualifies as the "romance" genre and there are certain stipulations or I guess themes or what have you that make it romance but for f*cks sake.
Psyche being worried about Eros loving the "fake" her I kinda get, but really? Thats your most pressing concern?? Hera is defined by her garbage marriage to Zeus - King of the gods (of which is why she is Queen of the gods). Hestia + Athena are now defined solely by their relationship to each other (not the TGOEM or their respective traits of being a goddess of the hearth + goddess of war, strategy etc etc).
Aphrodite is defined by giving Persephone "relationship" advice (e.g: telling her to curb stomp Minthe because "nymphs dont take things from gods" - doubly implying that people are things to own) And by her jealousy of Persephone in the first place because Hades made a comment about how he thought Persephone was prettier than her. And also because of her "house of debauchery" (Artemis' Â words) - and relationship with Ares.
Persephone is defined both by Apollo raping her and by her fated future status as Queen of the underworld (so her relationship with Hades). Hell, even the minor characters such as nymphs are defined by this relationship status / standard. Minthe is defined by her mean spirited personality yes, but Also because of her abusive relationship with Hades prior to the introduction of Persephone. Psyche is defined by her relationship woes with Eros. Daphne is defined by her relationship with Thanatos (and because shes a flower nymph) but also mostly because she looks like Persephone.
Rhea is defined by her marriage / relationship to Kronos (lets ignore the whole "fertility goddess power" plot for a second). Even Aetna is defined by Haphestus creating her! Is there not a single character (especially female) is isnt defined by their romantic love interest???Sorry. Maybe I'm overthinking this, but thats definitely how ot comes off as of late, in regard to the latest chapters.
Okay, same anon as earlier - I take it back somewhat - we have Artemis and Hecate that are not defined by their romantic relationships - but rather their lack of one.
However the way they are shown - it still comes off as a standard - "Artemis is stingy / a stick in the mud" because shes not romantically involved and is "barbaric" (according to Hera). And Hecate is still somewhat defined by her being Hades' employee (and cheerleader for him and Persephone to be together).
So technically yes, we have at least 2 characters that are not defined by their romantic interests / relationships, but they are still held to the standard of their "un-ladylike / undesirable" because their not romantically involved.
(I guess I should count Demeter, but only because shes more defined by just being "Persephone's overbearing mom" )
7. i think whats also kinda weird about this trial is like?? persephone is obvs framed as not liking the attention (bc duh) but she didnt like the previous press either, she wanted to be private, but wouldnt being with hades force her to be in the spotlight that makes her uncomfortable? also the citizens of the underworld already dislike hades, why would they want a uncontrollable felon as their queen, even if she found innocent? idk the whole thing just makes the endgame less plausible, tbh.
8. love that rachel was able to find a random deity name to name her random nymph the greek word for "beans" meanwhile apparently cant google actual greek names for even one off characters? like andrew, ellen, george, alexis, damian, luke, phoebe, sophia, and so any other english names are also greek, but she cant even bother with that? what exactly is her "research" if she cant even bother to spend 30 seconds googling greek names? at this point LO seems determined to be as un-Greek as possible.
9. wait so everyone in LO went from having no idea who persephone was, to her only showing up on ONE magazine cover, to now being the most well known person with a signature color? all in the span of two weeks with no genuine public outings? how does that make sense? also white isnt even her signature color if 90%+ the female cast and even a lot of the men ((including ZEUS) all wear it too.
10. the fact the courthouse WASNT the areopagus, aka the place in greece where they say the first ever trial ever happened and where the court system was invented, is just another point of rachel talking out her ass about being "respectful" or "researched" on greece and their mythology. its literally one of the most famous mythology spots ever with some fantastic stories to it and she's just like "nah! boring rectangle will do!" like why even both with mythology then if its this devoid of it?
11. Anons are saying Hades in the FS chapter is leaning down and talking to Persy like a child. Say it aint true.
(I wanna see. I thought RS was finally giving Persy adult proportions). đš
12. So wait, hold up. I kinda get where RS is coming from with the law school in the underworld (because Hades is supposed to be a kinda Judge, jury, executioner situation in the afterlife when it comes to mortals and their "punishments" and whatnot). However, is RS stating that the ONLY law school / courthouse exists in the underworld? If so, why? Why wouldn't Athena be there then. She's a goddess of strategy and justice (among other things).
Also is RS really implying that Hades owns not only the banks and underworld but the law too? She really wants Hades to be a Gary Sue along side her Mary Sue - Hades controls everything that matters and since its his realm and blah blah blah rules, Zeus, king of the gods cant do anything about it.
(Which is dumb. Because you would think that because Persephone committed the crime in the mortal realm / on, or near Olympus that therefore she would be brought back there to dole out justice under Zeus jurisdiction because she committed the crime in His Realm).Â
13. FP Spoiler ahead:
Why on earth couldn't the reporters have Greek names? There is so much wrong and bad with this story, yet this irks me so much. It is Brenda all over again.
14. i dont really get the point of the trial plotline, tbh. even persephone says she should be punished and held accountable, but hades is framed in the right for trying to go against that and weasel her out of it. so?? plus zeus has legit reason to punish them? persephone is a danger to others, demeter and hermes both committed treason to cover it up, and hades was harboring a fugitive of the law and is now trying to force the system to let her go. how is zeus in the wrong for this?
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La Squadra personal character hcs:
(WARNINGS: mentions of parental neglect, divorce, death, child abandonment)
Risotto Nero:
Risotto is a 7'0 (totally not my size kink showing) olive tan Sicilian guy, abandoned by his parents after he first opened his eyes due to his strange appearance and cared for by his grandmother. (cough cough credit to tenthgrove for the amazing story) Grew up close to his cousin since he had very few people in his life, that's why he was crushed by his death. After getting his revenge he felt like he couldn't return home, and turned to Passione instead. I feel like he's got a thick accent and deep sultry voice (much like the one from the fan made italian dub on youtube!!) His eyelashes are definately long and white, and I feel like he has many brown sun spots like I do! He often bumps his head on door frames, tells a dark joke but nobody knows it's a joke so they just think he's incredibly fucked up, and when he gets into a car you can see it shift from his weight. Has no preference for tea or coffee, he will drink what's available to him. His hands? Big and rough, they're scarred all over and he wears silver rings. Has a few piercings like snake bites and an eyebrow ring. Dick piercings. His favorite food is pasta alla norma.
Prosciutto:
Prosciutto is from Florence, he grew up with his parents there for a bit before moving to Palermo with his mom after they divorced. His favorite memory of growing up is staring down at baby Pesci in his crib. He's 30 years old, 5'9, and has an overbite + tooth gap. His voice is somewhat deep and has an accent, but not as thick as Risotto's. Has a terrible habit of blowing cigar smoke into people's faces, spitting while yelling, and taking way too long styling his hair in that weird triple bun style. Is more of a coffee drinker than tea, he enjoys a good black coffee or an espresso. His hands are very pretty, like slim yet thick fingers and soft to the touch because he moisturizes them with the finest lotions and creams. Sometimes he likes to wear a corset in the privacy of his room, he thinks they're extremely beautiful and he has a collection of really detailed ones. His favorite food is bistecca alla fiorentina.
Pesci:
Is Prosciutto's half brother related by their mother. Pesci is from Palermo, and grew up with no father figure since he left and was no where to be found after he was born, Prosciutto made sure to be a big brother figure to him because of that, their relationship is unbreakable since they only had each other from the start. He's 22 years old, 6'0 and has a blotchy birth mark on his cheek. His voice is neutral, neither high nor deep, but he does have an accent slightly stronger than his brother. Has a habit of chewing on the inside of his cheek when nervous, tapping his feet on the ground, and let's people talk over him even though he hates it (my boy is socially anxious). Prefers tea over coffee, coffee upsets his stomach. His hands are large and slightly calloused on the palms, but very warm and pleasant to feel. Wears dark green lipstick because Prosciutto said he needed something "striking" about his look. His favorite food is caponata.
Ghiaccio:
Ghiaccio grew up as a troubled teen in Naples, often getting into fights at school which caused his grades to fall unfortunately. His parents were neglectful, constantly screaming at him until they eventually kicked him out when he was 19. He tried his best to survive on the streets for years having no where else to turn, barely living in some run down dingy apartment. Risotto found him in an alleyway when he was 25. He's decently tall, standing at 5'10. He has a habit of falling alseep in random places such as the couch or backseat of the car, yelling and ranting about things he barely finds himself caring about, and using up all of the hot water in the shower. Prefers coffee over tea, he likes the caffeine boost which is why he has a slight addiction to red bull energy drinks (if you look in his trash can you'll see cans piled up.) His voice is actually pretty high compared to his teammates, which is why some people (Illuso and Formaggio) call him "Screacher." Hands are medium sized, his skin is slightly rough on the knuckles and finger tips, and feel chilly to the touch. Has a stash of identical glasses in his rooms incase they break on a mission. His favorite food is frutti di mare.
Melone:
Melone is from Florence as well. His parents were also extremely neglectful, but he never picked up on it while growing up. Some of his odd natures like being clingy & touchy, come from lack of attention as a child, he just wants love and a family deep down. He's 5'7 and his eye covered by hair has foggy vision. Has a bad habit of not knocking on people's door/making his presence known before entering people's rooms, working late at night, shouting "Di Molto!" at inappropriate times. Loves tea way more than coffee because of some of the weird health benefits they have. His voice is light and a bit feminine (much like Enmu from Kimetsu No Yaiba). Another one with very pretty hands, slim fingers with well cared for nails, also soft and supple skin. Enjoys cross-dressing very much, not just in the privacy of his own room but anywhere, he'll even dress feminine to lure in targets at clubs and casinos. His favorite food is zeppole.
Illuso:
Illuso grew up in Padua, right near Venezia. His mother was not in the picture so it was just him and his father, until one day when he returned home his father never came back. He already knew his father was wrapped up into organized crime, it was only a matter of time this happened. Inside he blames himself, thought there was nothing he could do to prevent what happened. He covers his grief up with a cocky and egotistical facade to protect his own feelings, but really he just wants someone to give him affection. He's one of the tallest members of the group, being 6'3. He prefers tea over coffee, because he doesn't like the bitterness of it. Has a bad habit of passing through ANYBODY'S mirrors including the bathroom ones, acting like he's superior, and leaving lights on in rooms accidentally. His voice is quite smooth and pleasing on the ears but not actually that deep. His hands are average sized, thick fingers but smooth skin since he also used lotion. Likes to paint his nails, not just black but any color he feels like. Hot pink? Sure why not, fuck it. He likes the sparkly colors too. His favorite food is calamari.
Formaggio:
Formaggio grew up in Padua just like Illuso, with his father in the house. His mother on the other hand, was always out clubbing or partying. Unlike the others, his father was actually a pretty decent influence on him, teaching him the important things in life were the people around you. Because of his father's lessons, he cares for his team like brothers and is always trying to lighten the air by cracking a joke. He's 5'11 and has more freckles and sunspots than the rest since he used to be outside constantly as a child and teen. Has a bad habit of leaning one of his arms on everything next to him (including people), talking with his mouth full, and leaving beer cans everywhere. Doesn't have a preference for coffee or tea since he barely drinks either unless it's coffee in the morning sometimes. His voice is deep, lazy and slow, though its a bit rough when he laughs you could still probably fall asleep listening to him talk. Rough hands, calloused on the palms a bit, as well as a few burn scars on them. Secretly likes to watch soap operas and telenovelas, he'll tell you it's "lame and unmanly" but you'll still catch him crying on the couch eating a pint of ice cream because he was watching the series finale of Rosalinda. His favorite food is rigatoni specifically with red sauce.
no sorlato today guys đ but I will be writing theirs in the future, I hope you guys enjoyed this since it's my longest writing I've done yet!! Illuso and Formaggio have the same hometown because they were childhood buddies change my mind.
#risotto nero headcanons#prosciutto headcanons#ghiaccio headcanons#pesci headcanons#melone headcanons#illuso headcanons#formaggio headcanons
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Tillâ The End of Summer - Chapter 9
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Pairing: Choi Yeonjun x Reader
In a Nutshell: College!AU, Rich Kids, Friends to Lovers, Fuckboy athlete Yeonjun, Overprotective Best friend Soobin, contains all of TXT and other Idol cameos, Omnipresent perspective.
Synopsis: You and Yeonjun are caught up in a cat and mouse game because of unspoken feelings and endless pining for each othersâ attention. With the summer break approaching and lots of college parties, will you finally get a chance to explore your feelings for each other; even though the world and Yeonjunâs reputation makes things complicated?
Word count:Â 11,5K
Genre: Angst, Fluff
Warnings: Mentions of a broken family, abusive parents, conflict and death.
Yeonjun followed his mom inside of the house he used to call home before he left for college. The familiar scent of amber and vanilla welcomed him as he stepped inside. Â
The heels of his shoes made a loud ticking noise on the luxurious black marble tiled floor with each step he took. The place hadnât changed much. The only thing different being the flower arrangements and the emptiness of the massive Villa. Â
It used to be way more lively in here. There were always all sorts of visitors in the house, if it was staff, family members, or friends of his dadâs; there was never a quiet moment during the day, which made the silence even more confronting and saddening. Â
He sighed putting his bag down, stretching his aching body as a result of the long drive.
âYour room is exactly how you left it.â His mom says timidly. âI guess somehow I wished youâd return home someday so I didnât have the heart to change anything about it.â
Yeonjun looks at his mother a little puzzled. All of the emotional confessions are taking a toll on him and he isnât quite sure what he should be saying to her.
Just as the silence was starting to get awkward, they get interrupted.
âYeonjun? Is that you?â a voice sounds from across the hall.
Yeonjunâs ears perk up and as he makes eye contact with her, his lips curl up into a loving smile.
âYes, Lita imo, itâs meâŠâ he says shyly as he let the older woman hug him tightly. Lita is the head housekeeper who has been working for the family since Yeonjun could walk.
Sheâs the one who packed his lunches and sat with him at the dinner table when his parents were too busy working. The only person he truly missed from the household was her. So, seeing her again after all this time made his heart swell.
He just wishes the circumstances were a little different. Â
She sighed as she held him at arms-length and studied him for a second. âDid you grow even more? When does it stop? Youâre getting scary tall. And where did your baby cheeks go huh?â she says pinching his cheek, making sure to baby him like she used to. Â
âAh-ah-ahâ he whines as she let go of his cheek. They were beaming at each other and his mother noticed. A faint smile also on her face as she watched their dynamic.
She never really noticed how close they were until now. Â
âIâll go make your bed. You must be tired from the trip.â Lita says, patting his shoulder before she makes her way up the stairs and into his old bedroom.
Yeonjun watched her go up with a small smile and sighed contently.
He followed his mother into the formal living room and sat down on the couch, letting his fingers graze over the velvety material.
âSoâŠwhere is he?â he asks looking at his mom.
âHeâs in the hospital.â
âDo we goâŠtonight?â He asks, uncertainty evident in his tone of voice.
âYes, but letâs have some dinner first alright? I told Lita to make your favourite.â
âI canât believe you stole the tournament bus,â Taehyun says clicking his tongue.
âItâs not stealing if I have a key.â Soobin argues back. âBesides how else were we all going to fit in the same car.â
The small bus had space for exactly 7 people, so you were glad it was even an option. Soobin being the team captain and all had its perks. He has keys to almost every facility and even the fucking school building. Â
âI hope this little stunt doesnât get me suspended,â he says nervously biting his lip.
âNo one will notice itâs missing hyung, itâs summer break.â Hueningkai retorts as he leans forward to pat Soobin on the back. Hueningkai was seated next to Taehyun in the middle row, while you and Beomgyu cozied up together in the back seats as Mia assisted Soobin with navigating in the front seat.
If the situation was any different, this could have accounted for a fun road trip with your friends, but the reality of things was a lot more somber. Â
âNo, baby no! Itâs a left here.â Mia panics as Soobin misses the exit.
âYou said the next one!â he whines, slightly raising his voice.
âThis is the next one!â Â
âUgh, great. That at least an hour detour,â Taehyun states yanking the phone from Miaâs grip to inspect the route.
âDonât get annoyed with each other already, weâve been driving for only an hour,â you say interrupting the couplesâ arguing. Â
Everyone was tense. None of you knew what the fuck you were even driving towards, where you would stay, what you would do when youâd see him. Â It was a permanent decision made on temporary feelings and you were anxious, to say the least, and given everyoneâs attitudes, so were they. Â
âWell originally it was only 5 more hours, but thanks to someone it turned into 6.â Soobin says, which made Mia glare at him venomously. Â
âWeâll be lucky if we arrive before midnight with breaks included.â Taehyun states calculating quickly as he passes the phone back to Mia.
Beomgyu was asleep with his head on your shoulder, ignoring all the banter. You envied his ability to fall asleep anywhere at any time and sighed as you fixed a piece of his hair.
âItâs not the end of the world guys.â Hueningkai says calming them down. âI know weâre all nervous and every second counts, but we donât even have a plan for when we get there,â Â
âThe plan is to be there for him.â Soobin says tightening his grip on the steering wheel.
âNo matter what.â
Yeonjun stood frozen on his feet with his hand on the doorknob to his fathersâ private hospital suite. The amount of security he had to go through was of insane proportions. If his mom wasnât there to confirm that his dad indeed had a son, he was sure he wouldnât even be able to enter on his own.
He let go of the knob and inhaled sharply before turning around to face his mother.
âI canât do this,â he says with a shaky voice while his enlarged pupils dart to his mothersâ equally dark ones.
âDo you want me to go with you?â She asked putting a comforting hand on his shoulder as her brows furrow in concern.
Yeonjun thinks about it for a second but shakes his head in reply. Â
If heâs gonna do it, heâll do it by himself. Though the presence of his friends would have helped, that wasnât an option.
âIâll be right here if you need me.â His mother assures, and for some reason, that small sentence of encouragement was all he needed. Hell, it was the most encouragement heâs gotten from his mom his entire life, so he took it with both hands.
He nodded to himself, his demeanor shifting to a much more confident one as the look in his eyes changed while twisting the doorknob.
He peaked his head through, knocking on the door softly. The view of his father was blocked by the figure of a nurse but as she turned to look at who was at the door, his father was in full view.
His mom was right, his condition was bad.
The once so powerful and unbreakable businessman Daniel Choi looked everything but those things.
He had lost a lot of weight, his cheeks sunken, hair gray. His lips were chapped and dry, as was his skin. All in all, he looked sick, and far more dead than alive.
Yeonjunâs eyes widened at the sight. There was no way that Yeonjun wanted to show empathy towards the man but somehow, he felt bad for him. Â
âYeonjun, right?â the nurse says as she smiles at Yeonjun warmly.
He just nods in response and notices how his dad has only been staring at the wall in front of him, not responding to anything that was going on.
Yeonjun closes the door behind him and walks towards the nurse, keeping his eyes on his dad.
âHeâs sedated to cope with the pain. He can hear you and see you. He responds if you get close enough, though it might take some time for him to process what is going on around him.â
Yeonjun nervously bit his lip, the sudden wave of emotions he was feeling becoming too much for him. He didnât anticipate this, he thought he could have at least had one last normal conversation with him.
âDoes he even remember me?â Is the first thing he says, the sound of his voice made Danielâs head snap into Yeonjunâs direction and it startled Yeonjun.
His fatherâs fingers started to twitch in response. His movement became more demanding and the nurse immediately went over to him to calm him down.
âAll heâs been asking for the past few weeks is you, Yeonjun. I think heâs surprised to see you too,â she says as she gives your dad a slight smile, patting his shoulder in an attempt to calm him down.
All Daniel was looking at was Yeonjun. He kept trying to lift his hand to motion to Yeonjun that he should come closer, but the message wasnât quite clear.
Yeonjun didnât know what to do, he stood awkwardly frozen in place as he watched his dad become more and more restless.
âDo I need to leave?â He asked a little distressed.
âNo, I actually think he wants you to come closer, itâs okay. You can sit next to him on the stool. Heâll appreciate it,â she says holding out her hand as she motions for him to approach.
He took a deep breath and looked his father in the eye once more as he walked towards the bed. Â
His dad seemed to calm down as Yeonjun sat down beside him. His eyes scanning his son's face. He was able to grab Yeonjunâs hand, which surprised him, but he didnât have the heart to pull away.
âIâll give you two some space, if anything happens; press that button above his bedâ the nurse says pointing toward the rectangular looking remote.
Yeonjun nodded, giving her a last look as she walked out. When the door closed behind her, he averted his attention back to his father. Sighing loudly as he looked at their intertwined fingers.
âYou must really be out of your mind if youâre voluntarily holding my hand.â Yeonjun thinks out loud, speaking under his breath as he stares at their hands.
He felt tears prickle his eyes. His bottom lip trembling as the first tear escapes his eye.
He felt his father squeeze his hand, which made him look up at him.
âI really do hate you.â Yeonjun says in between sobs. âI do. I hate you.â
His father just looked at him, blinking a couple of times to show that he understands.
âSo why the fuck am I even crying,â he huffs. This is a rhetorical question of course. He knows exactly why heâs crying. Heâs crying because heâs powerless.
Yeonjun tears turned into frustration as he yanks his hand from his dadâs grasp. Angrily wiping his tears away as he collects himself. Â
âYou can hear everything right?â Â
No response.
âCan you blink once for yes and twice for No.â Â
One blink.
Yeonjun sniffed nodding to himself as he organizes his thoughts. âOk. So, we can communicate,â he thinks out loud.
His confidence returned, he rolls his shoulders back and places his hands on his thighs as he straightens out his posture.
âWhy did you want me here?â Yeonjun asks getting straight to the point.
Daniel cocked his head to the side to show confusion, but his fathersâ confusion to the question only confused Yeonjun more.
âYou wouldnât tell mom why you wanted to see me. So why did you.â
His father tried to speak, but it was to no avail as he gave up quickly. Sighing in frustration at the fact that he couldnât form words.
âRight, thatâs not a yes or no question.â Yeonjun realizes, crossing his legs as he buries his face in his hands, lightly massaging his own scalp to release the tension in his brain.
After a few seconds he looks up, catching his dad staring at him intensely. Yeonjun uncomfortably shifted in his seat, noticing how his dad was getting more restless as he tried his best to form words.
âT-t-table.â
Yeonjunâs mouth fell agape to the sound of his dad's voice. âThe table? Which table?â he asks getting up. Looking around frantically to catch any clues to what his dad is trying to tell him.
He followed his fathersâ gaze and quickly walked towards the expensive-looking mahogany table in the left corner of the room.
His eyes fall on an envelope with his name on it. His fingers ghost over the paper material, scanning it thoroughly as he picks it up.
He looks back at his dad who was still staring back at him. Yeonjun nodded. Taking the envelope with him as he sat back down on the stool.
âYou want me to read this?â he asks, which earned one clear blink.
âAlright.â Yeonjun sighs as he opens the letter. Â
âTo Yeonjun.â he reads aloud. Â
I donât know whether or not you will read this when Iâm dead or alive, but thatâs not the point. After youâve read this, make sure no one else does.
Even if you think I didnât show interest in your life, I watched your every move. I know about your schoolwork, your team, your friends, the girl you like. I know it all. Â
Iâve had people watch you for me ever since I found out I was dying. Which has been years now. I made them write me reports on your character, your skills, and the way people perceive you and I have to say, I was surprised, to say the least. Â
You have proven yourself to be a leader rather than a follower. You are passionate, hard-working, smart and competent and will do literally anything to fight for your goals.
The only reason you are all of these things is because you had to work for it. You were never emotionally cradled as a child and from an early age you were aware that success is something you donât just gain without a bead of sweat
You have seen the world at its darkest before you could feel what true happiness is, and that was not done unintentionally.
Your upbringing might have been tough. But itâs what you needed to become the ruthless and determined person that you are today. Â
That same ruthlessness and determination are what Choi Enterprises needs. Which brings me to the point of this letter.
There is no other person on the planet that I entrust with the future of Choi Enterprises other than you.
I donât trust your mother and therefore I cannot let the company fall into the hands of your mother and her cunning family. Â
For your entire life, all I did was make sure you were ready for this moment. And even though it came earlier than anticipated, If you sign the attached documents. Itâs all yours effective immediately. Â
Power comes with a price that I was willing to pay. Â
And I hope that you will too.
- Â Daniel Choi. Â
Yeonjun blinks a couple of times to let it all register to him. He lifts his head from the paper and looks at his father's hopeful expression.
âYou spied on me.â he says in disbelief.
âYou spied on me, but you couldnât send me a birthday card?â Â It was a figure of speech, though his dad got what he meant.
Anger filled Yeonjunâs senses. The audacity this took from his father is on another level of crazy.
He got up, kicking the stool he sat on aggressively, making it fall to the floor with a loud thud.
His dad didnât even flinch. He just kept staring at Yeonjun with the same look from before.
âTell me.â
Yeonjun says as he inches his face closer to his father.
âDo you regret it?â
Daniel cocked his head to the side in confusion and waited for Yeonjun to continue.
âDo you regret being an abusive piece of shit? The whole, you needed to live through it to become strong shit isnât cutting it for me. Do you regret it? Yes or No.â
Yeonjun was seething. He was inches away from his dad, fists balled, wrinkling the letter and attached documents in his left hand as a result of his strength as he anticipated his fathersâ answer.
The look in Danielâs eyes went cold followed by two blinks.
âNo.â Yeonjun scoffs. âOf course, you donât.â Â
Yeonjun took a step back, clearing his throat as he swallowed his anger with it.
âWell in that caseâŠâ he says inspecting the papers in his hands. He held it in front of his line of sight, making sure his dad can see what heâs about to do.
He held on to each side of the pile of papers, ripping it in half slowly. Â
âTake that contract to your fucking grave.â He spits as he throws it into the nearest trash can. Â
His dad started to panic, convulsing aggressively in his bed. Gulping for air as he tried his best to move and speak at the same time.
Yeonjun pressed the distress button and stormed out of the room, not bidding his dad another look. Â
He slammed the door behind him, startling his mother who was waiting for him in the hall.
âYeonjun!â she yelled after him. She quickly looked back to the room her husband was in, shocked with the sight of multiple nurses trying to hold him down.
She didnât hesitate to run after Yeonjun, catching him in the hallway.
âYeonjun wait a second!â Â
He halted his long strides, breathing heavily as he turned around on his heels.
âWhat happened in there?â his mother asks wide-eyed as she lays a hand on his shoulder in order to calm him down.
âI donât want to talk about it,â he says clenching his jaw, shaking his mothers hand off of his shoulder.
âOkayâŠwhenever youâre ready.â she tries carefully, trying not to tick him off any further. Â
âLetâs go home. Youâve been through enough today.â Â
âHyung are you sure you put in the right address?â Hueningkai asks wide-eyed as he got out of the van first.
âThis canât be it,â Taehyun says with his mouth agape. Â âThis isnât even considered a house. It looks like a damn palace.â Â
âI knew Yeonjunâs family was loaded but thisâŠâ Mia remarks.
You get out of the car, your mouth going dry as you look at the biggest house youâve seen in your life. It was modern, yet rustic. The home had huge windows and white pillars and there was a huge stone staircase that lead up to the front door.
âHow many bathrooms do you think they have?â Beomgyu gulps, his eyes darting from one side of the house to the other.
âReally? Thatâs whatâs important right now?â Taehyun argues
âIâm just curious,â Beomgyu says rolling his eyes.
âWell..letâsâŠ.knock?â Soobin says with uncertainty peeking through his voice.
You take a deep breath, calming your nerves as you didnât know what you would walk into. You werenât sure how Yeonjun would feel to see you again or to see any of you right now. You had hoped the 6 turned 7-hour drive wasnât for nothing, and that you could talk to Yeonjun with a clear mind.
Soobin took the lead with the rest of you trailing behind him. He sighed looking back at you guys before he built up the courage to ring the doorbell.
All of you were dead silent, anticipating for the door to be opened.
After a few more seconds, the large double doors open automatically, with a timid rather small lady standing in the doorway with an equally confused expression on her face to match yours.
That canât be his mother? Right? They look nothing alike.
âEhmâŠcan I help you? Itâs close to midnight? You do realize this is private property?â Lita says looking at the group with suspicion.
âEhm, Hi mam, my name is Soobin, these are my friendsâŠwellâŠYeonjunâs friends. We kind ofâŠfollowed him here.â Soobin stammers incoherently. âBut with good intent! We justâŠwant to be there for him becauseâŠwellâŠwe think heâs having a hard time and-â
âSoobin.â You say shutting him up. âI think she gets it.â
Yeonjun heard multiple voices at the front door and came down the stairs out of curiosity. As he turns the corner, seeing a raven-haired tall figure at the front. He knew exactly who it was.
His eyes widened as his pace quickened, walking towards the voices a little faster.
You saw Yeonjun emerge from behind the lady, and when his eyes landed on all of you, he stood frozen on his feet next to her. The first one he made eye contact with is you.
The two of you stared at each other for a few seconds before the smaller lady interrupted the moment.
âYeonjun, do you know these people?â She asks with a much kinder tone as she speaks to him.
âY-yes, these are my friends,â Yeonjun says breaking eye contact with you, looking at the rest.
âHow did you find out where I lived?â
âY/n found out actuallyâŠthere was a box in your room with the address on itâŠunder your bed,â Mia says jumping in.
Yeonjuns eyes landed on you once again, giving you a small smile which you reciprocated, not knowing what else to do. Â
âHyung, if you donât want us here, Iâm so sorry. But the way you left, we were worried and-â
Soobin couldnât finish his sentence before Yeonjun pulled him towards him with a hard pull. The two hugged for a few seconds before Yeonjun let go, putting his hand on Soobin's shoulder as he looked at all of you with pure affection.
âI canât believe you came all the way hereâŠI donât know what to say,â he says scratching the back of his head, still a little lost for words.
âHow about, come in. Itâs freezing.â Beomgyu says giving the older one a bitter smile as he chatters his teeth dramatically to show that he was cold.
Yeonjun chuckled, stepping aside so all of you could enter. And so, you did. Â
All of your jaws dropped at the interior and detail that went into the decoration of the place. The hall was huge and connected all of the separate rooms and wings together. Apart from the dark tiled floors, the colour scheme was light. Different shades of whites and nudes made up the interior. It was stylish, yet classic at the same time, with pops of colours from different flowers in huge vases.
âDo I need to prepare the guest rooms?â Lita asks a little flustered at the sudden appearance of 6 more guests. Â
AhâŠso sheâs the housekeeper, you think to yourself as you snap back to reality.
Mia nudged you, mouthing a subtle âMarry himâ to you, which you roll your eyes at.
âUhm, yes. If you donât mind. Thank you, Lita.â Yeonjun says bidding her a quick nod as Lita walks off quickly.
Yeonjunâs attention focused on all of you again, and Hueningkai barged his way through, ready to hug Yeonjun tightly. Â
âHyung, are you okay? What happened?â he asks as he rubbed the older oneâs belly while he still clung onto him like he always does.
His mother stood at the top of the stairs, unnoticed by any of you. She looked at the dynamic of all of you, especially looking at how clingy Hueningkai was with her son. She didnât peg Yeonjun to be the type for physical affection like this.
A smile crept on her face, moved by the fact that his friends would go to these lengths to be there for him.
She tied her robe around herself, making her way down the stairs. And as she did so, Beomgyu noticed. He nudged Taehyun and motioned for him to look up, so he did, followed by all of you as you fell silent. Â
Yeonjun looked in the same direction all of you were focusing your gazes on, and immediately understood why you fell quiet like that.
As she made her way down the stairs, you got a closer look at her face, and the resemblance she had to Yeonjun was almost scary.
âYeonjun? Who are these people?â Her voice was clear and warm, a little raspy cause she was probably asleep before you invaded her home.
She scanned everyones faces but when her eyes landed on you, they lingered on you, and it made you feel incredibly self-conscious.
Your paranoid ass started to get insecure, thinking she knew something about your relationship with her son, but her attention was quickly averted as Yeonjun spoke up.
âIs it okay if they stay here?â he asked politely. Â
âOf course, make yourselves at home. Any friend of Yeonjunâs is welcome here. If you all move to the living room so you can talk, Iâll go make some tea.â
âThanks, mom.â Â
This whole dialogue confused all of you. To your knowledge, their relationship was questionable. But this seemed like a regular Mother and Son dynamic.
His mother disappeared in the massive hall as Yeonjun motioned for all of you to walk towards the living room. He knew he had a lot of explaining to do but he was dying to know why you were here after everything he said to you.
He was sure that no matter the circumstance, youâd never want to see him again. Yet here you were, looking at him with those big doe eyes of yours. Â
As the rest of the group admired the rest of the house, walking towards the living room, Yeonjun stopped you by tugging at your elbow lightly. Â
Your heart raced as he touched you, you looked down, hooking your pinkie in his before you looked up at his face.
His eyes were sad, apologetic, and insecure. âIâŠdidnât expect you to come with themâŠâ he says looking at your intertwined fingers.
You sighed, rubbing comforting circles into his palm with your thumb. âLetâs talk later ok?â you say giving him a small yet reassuring smile. He nodded, letting go of your hand, leading you into the formal living room.
He caught Beomgyu playing with an antique object and Yeonjunâs brotherly side immediately kicked in. âIf you break that youâre gonna have to work all of your life to repay my mother,â he says sternly as he sat down in the chair opposite from the couch all of you were seated on.
Beomgyu quickly let go of the weird-looking object and cleared his throat. âOk, spill the beans hyung. Whatâs going on?â He asks as he sat down on the armrest of Yeonjunâs chair. Â
Yeonjun sighed, not quite knowing where to start.
âFirst of all. I owe all of you an apology,â he starts choking up a little.
âHyungâŠâ Taehyun says, his eyes getting sad as he watched Yeonjun protectively.
The mood in the room suddenly shifted as Yeonjun sighed. You could swear his eyes were getting watery, and there was nothing more that you wanted than to hold him in your arms right now. You wanted to comfort him and tell him everything was going to be okay, but you had no idea what was going on yet.
His mother emerged from the entrance with a tray full of teacups and cookies. She put down the tray and stood beside Yeonjun in silence.
âIâm sorry for acting the way I did on the night of the party. The way I acted towards you guys was uncalled for, especially towards you⊠y/n.â
You lock eyes with him again, and you feel his mothersâ eyes on you as well.
Hueningkai sat down in front of Yeonjun on the floor, putting a comforting hand on his knee. Â
Yeonjun gave him a small smile. Out of nervousness, Soobin grabbed Miaâs hand and squeezed it as all of you anticipated his next words.
âThat night, I stayed at my uncle's house. The next morning my mom showed up to talk to me. It took some time butâŠwe found some type of middle ground and I agreed to come back home with her for a while.â Â
âSoâŠwhat was the family emergency?â Soobin asks a little confused.
Yeonjun inhaled sharply, rubbing his temple. He fell quiet for a second, suddenly noticing the room full of people that cared enough about him to drive all the way across the country to comfort him in a situation they didnât know of, even though he was being a complete asshole. Â
He didnât know what he did to deserve them. He looked at them individually and his heart started to swell with the intense amount of love he felt for them.
He looked at Beomgyuâs arm around him, Hyukaâs comforting hand on his knee, Soobinâs worried and glistening eyes to match Taehyunâs, Miaâs protectiveness, and your patient yet scared facial expression.
He bit his lip, getting emotional and he felt Beomgyu pull him closer.
âMy dad is counting his last days,â he says looking at the floor.
You didnât know about anyone else, but this was the last thing you expected.
The room fell silent apart from a few gasps. Your heart sank to your stomach and tears start to prickle your eyes as you watch him struggle to contain his emotions. His lip was slightly trembling, his hand covering his mouth as his eyes were big and sad.
âOh, YeonjunâŠâ Mia sighs as she rubs Soobinâs back to comfort him as well.
Soobin isnât one to cry but seeing the people he loves the most go through pain is absolutely heartbreaking to him. He wiped a single tear from his eyes and so did Taehyun as he sighed loudly.
Yeonjun huffed, wiping the tears from the corners of his eyes to look at his friends. âDonât cry. Stop, please.â He starts. Â
âItâs going to sound awful, but Iâm not sad that heâs dying. My dad wasâŠis a horrible person. He was abusive, manipulative, and unreasonable. There was no one I feared more than that man. Every time I closed my eyes at night I wasnât scared of aliens and monsters under my bed, I was scared of him coming into my room to yell at me or hit me. I think Iâm sadder about the fact that Iâll never get an apology out of him for ruining me. Iâll never hear him say that he was wrong for the things that he did to me as a kid and thatâs the hardest pill to swallow.â Yeonjun confessed all in one go.
You swallowed harshly, trying to suppress a sob. Taehyun noticed that you were having a hard time, so he put his arm around you, making you lean into him by subtly pulling you towards him.
âI went to see him today, and even though we couldnât really communicate the way I hoped we would, he made it clear to me that he wasnât sorry.â Â
âWhatâŠâ Soobin says in disbelief. âHe wasnât remorseful at all?â
âNo.â Yeonjun shook his head, contemplating if he should tell them about the contract and the company, but given the fact that his mother was in the room; he decided against it.
He didnât know if he could trust her, for all he knew she could be after the money and the company herself. Knowing his mother, she could be just as ruthless as her dad when it came to business matters.
âYeonjun, weâre here for you. Seriously. If you need anything at all just tell us. We wonât be leaving unless you tell us to.â Soobin states confidently as they look each other in the eye. His words made Yeonjun feel assured, and he bid Soobin a small smile. It was nice knowing that he wouldnât be going through this alone.
He took a deep breath, shaking the sadness off of him. âThank you guys for coming, seriously. I think I needed all of you more than I thought I would.â
âOf course,â Hueningkai says.
âAnytime, weâre family,â Beomgyu says as he squeezed Yeonjunâs shoulder.
You heard a small scoff from the left corner of the room and saw his mother with her arms crossed. Â
You narrowed your eyes at her, raising your brow.
âFriends are friends, family is family,â she says, genuinely believing her own words.
Everyone was looking at her by now, as was Yeonjun who just sighed, ignoring her.
You donât know why, but suddenly you feel a surreal amount of anger boiling in the pit of your stomach. You scoff at her statement which made Mia give you a warning look.
âWeâve been more of a family to him than you have been his whole life,â you say clear as day before you can think of the damage that youâve just done, and just like that the atmosphere turned cold.
Yeonjunâs eyes widened, looking at you in shock.
Soobin uncomfortably shifted in his seat and Taehyun gave you a âbitch what the fuck was thatâ look.
âExcuse me?â his motherâs tone changed completely. The once so soft-spoken woman turned into the ice queen herself and gave you a look that would normally make you run the opposite direction, but you held your ground by staring back at her fiercely. Â
âWhat she means isâŠâ Taehyun jumps in quickly. âThat we truly are a family, weâd go to hell and back for each other and thatâs a factâŠmam,â he says as politely as humanly possible.
You try your best not to roll your eyes, which Yeonjun noticed. He had an amused smile on his lips, which his mother then noticed and suddenly it clicked to her. You were the girlfriend who wasnât his girlfriend. The girl that stole her sonâs heart, and the girl that talked back to her in her own home.
âItâs getting late. I suggest everyone gets some sleep. You all must be tired from the long drive. We donât know what is waiting for us tomorrow and if you are sticking by his side like you all say you are, then we better get some good nightâs rest.â She says almost diplomatically, perfectly enunciating every word as if she rehearsed it.
You honestly didnât even think of sleeping, you wanted to talk to Yeonjun, clear the air between you two, and comfort him to your best ability. He just told you his dad was dying, and his feelings were disregarded so quickly that it shocked you.
In your household, a revelation like this would result in hours upon hours of talking about your feelings, whereas in Yeonjunâs home. Feelings are seen as a temporary burden. It was scary how quickly the mood switched from emotional to almost business-like, but Yeonjun didnât know any better. He was wired the exact same way as his mother because thatâs how he had learned to deal with his feelings.
Itâs like he only allowed himself to feel true emotion for a little while, seeing it as impractical to be vulnerable. This household really did feel like a business deal, which made your heartache for Yeonjun even more.
Soobin was the first to get up, stretching his tall body before he helped Mia to her feet as well.
Lita emerged from the entrance to lead all of you upstairs to your respective guest rooms. Â
Soobin and Mia shared a room, as did Hueningkai and Taehyun. Beomgyu and yourself, however, got rooms to yourselves with attached bathrooms in a whole different wing than the others.
From the outside, his house looked enormous, but from the inside, it was even bigger. You were already getting lost in the halls even though you were in a group. You had no idea where you came from every time you turned a corner and Yeonjun noticed how lost you were, chuckling to himself a little as he walked closely behind you.
You were the last one to be appointed to a room, as everyone else was already settling down.
âThis is where youâll be staying miss.â Lita says as she points to the door across from Beomgyuâs room.
You nod sheepishly, turning the doorknob. Your mouth fell agape at the sight of the room. You could swear it was as big as your apartment. The interior was classic, yet modern. And looking at the way the bed was made you were almost scared to wrinkle the bedsheets.
You swallow harshly, trying to act as nonchalant as possible.
âThis will do, right? If not, I have a bigger option at the end of the hall.â
âN-no, this is fine, more than fine,â you stutter.
Yeonjun stood behind Lita, leaning against the doorframe with a shit-eating grin on his face.
He was enjoying your flustered state, as it took a lot to get your smart-ass anywhere close to dumbfounded. Â
You saw the playfulness in his eyes, and you cursed at yourself for being so obviously impressed with everything.
âIf you need anything just give me a call with the house phone. The number is on your bedside table. Goodnight.â Lita says giving you a warm smile.
âGoodnightâŠâ you mutter timidly as you close the door behind you after you watched Yeonjun walk off with her.
You lean your head against the doorframe, your mind spinning with all of the things that happened in such a short time frame. Â
You sigh, throwing your bag on the bed. You decided to take a quick shower. The attached bathroom looked like one out of a magazine, so it took some time for you to adjust and figure out how to set the right temperature for the faucet. Â
You really needed that shower to clear your mind and relax your muscles. You were basically clenching your butt cheeks the whole night out of nervousness, and you could already feel the muscles in your body getting sore. You sigh, finishing up your routine and slipping into an oversized shirt to sleep in.
During your whole routine, all you could think of was Yeonjun, and how badly you wanted to be alone with him right now. Â
You stare at the ceiling as you laid on your back, completely engulfed in the soft sheets and pillows of the bed. Â
You were wondering how he was doing, if he was thinking of you or if he was asleep. Â
You sit up, turning on the bedside lamp as you reach for your phone, ready to text or call him but your actions were interrupted as you heard soft knocks on your door.
Your eyes widened, knowing damn well that it was him.
You put your phone aside and crawled out of the bed with lightning speed.Â
When you opened the door and locked eyes with him, you launched yourself at him, wrapping your arms around his frame to hug him tightly.
He was surprised by your affection, wrapping his arms around you as well to hold you even tighter.
He closed his eyes as he buried his face in your hair, appreciating the moment.
God, he missed you.
You walked backwards, still in his hold as he closed the door behind him skillfully with his foot.
He let go of you slowly, grabbing your face as he searched for answers in your eyes for questions he hadnât asked yet, but when you looked at him with the same longing facial expression as his, he knew enough.
He inched his face closer to yours, pulling you in for a soft and needy kiss that you yearned for so much. You stabilized yourself by holding on to his wrists as he kissed you with so much passion and hunger, that your mind went foggy. He pulled away slowly. Leaning his forehead against yours as you both try to catch your breath.
âHi,â you say shyly, smiling up at him.
Your cuteness made him chuckle softly. âHey,â he replies, letting go of you reluctantly. Â
You sit down on the bed and pat the spot next to you as a way of telling him to sit there. He complies and you face him, looking into his tired eyes.
You remove a stray piece of hair that was prickling his eyes and sigh.
âTell me how youâre feeling, honestly,â you say taking a hold of his hand.
He takes a deep breath, knowing he canât bullshit with you. âIâm not sure,â he confesses.
âItâs like one second Iâm fine, and I forget whatâs happening and the next Iâm sad and angry. I feel bipolar,â he says letting himself fall flat to the bed. Â
You sigh, scooting closer to him. âThatâs perfectly normal. Iâm glad youâre still able to feel something given everything youâve been through.â Â
He sighs loudly pulling you down with him, so you were situated on his chest. You comply, knowing that he needed you close for comfort, and to be really honest with yourself, you missed the feeling of having him close like this. You stay like that for a while, enjoying each otherâs presence in the silence before he decided to break it.
âIâm so fucking sorry y/n,â he says in almost a whisper as he plays with your hair, lost in thought.
You stay silent, getting sad as you think back to your explosive fight. âI should have never slapped you,â you admit choking up. The fact that you did was something you couldnât get out of your mind nor forgive yourself for. Especially after Soobin told you about his abusive childhood, all you could do was hate yourself for it. Â
Yeonjun noticed the crack in your voice and sits up immediately with you still in his arms. Â
âY/n if I was you, I would have done more than just slapped me in the face, I deserved that. Itâs okay,â he says shushing you, caressing your cheek in order to calm you down.
You take a deep breath, blinking away the fluid in your eyes before you start to speak. âNo, itâs not. And letâs not sugar-coat it. We were both wrong, and we were both right at the same time. I just donât understand how we go from paradise to hell in a matter of seconds Yeonjun, itâs what scares me about us.â Â
He just nods, not being able to counter act your statement because you were right. Â
The not being able to live with or without each other was a level of toxicity that you swore youâd never fall for. But yet here you are, wrapped up in the arms of the man who basically told you his best friend could have you now that heâs done with you.
You canât even tell him how many times those words rang through your head like a painful mantra, but thatâs the last thing that you want to burden him with right now.
âI forgive you,â you say breaking the silence. âI really do. I know you only said those things to push me away because youâre afraid to let me in, but youâre not the only one thatâs scared Yeonjun. So am I. I donât think Iâve ever felt this way about anyone and thatâs justâŠâ Â
âScary,â he says, finishing your sentence.
âYeah..â
Yeonjuns shoulders fell, giving you a kiss on your forehead. âWe can figure out what all of this means for us later, but for now Iâm just really, really happy youâre here right now.â Â
You nod in agreement, kissing his jaw affectionately before you wrap your arm around his waist again, and suddenly his mind flashed back to the little altercation between you and his mother.
âI canât believe you talked back to my mom like that.â He snorts as he pulls you back down again, making himself comfortable with you laying across his chest.Â
âIâm sorry but it was the fucking hypocrisy that did it for me,â you huff a little annoyed as you think back to the moment.
Yeonjun just chuckles, and you feel his chest vibrate as he does so. âI donât know. I get what you mean but sheâs been trying. I canât move forward with her if I donât give her a chance to change butâŠI donât trust her yet,â he says lost in thought.
âWhat donât you trust her with?â Â
Yeonjun bit the inside of his cheek, contemplating if he should tell you about the whole ordeal with his dad this afternoon, but since he wanted your opinion on the matter, he decided to tell you. Â
âI told you guys I went to visit my dad, right?â He says rubbing your back absentmindedly.
You nod, looking up at him. âWhat happened?â
âHe wrote me a letter saying that heâs been keeping tabs on me, and that he wants me to take over the business because he doesnâtâ trust my mom.â
âWow, wow, wow. What?â you say sitting up again.
âYeah, that was a very rough summary,â he says propping himself up on his elbows to look at you.
âHe kept tabs on you?â
âHe had people spy on me. Itâs scary baby, he even knew of you.â Â
Your eyes widen in shock. Itâs like you were suddenly involved as a pawn in a very complex game of chess and you didnât know what to think of it. Â
âAnd he wants you to take over Choi Enterprises?â
Yeonjun just nods, looking up at the ceiling.
âWellâŠare you?â
âItâs never what I wanted. And Itâs not like I want to grant his dying wish or anything like that butâŠâ
âBut?â
âIt is my birthright.â Â
You blink a couple of times, letting his words register. If Yeonjun was seriously contemplating whether or not to take the position of acting CEO, you were sure he wouldnât need some lame college degree to back him up. Heâd drop out of school; move back to his hometown and youâd never see him again. Selfishly itâs not what you wanted, but it wasnât about you. It was about him.
âIf I just let my mom run the company, I could always roll in if I wanted to, but if I would go behind her back and acquire the position myself, itâd break the little trust we built.â
âWhat if your mom is just using your good heart to get to that position herself?â You ask thinking out loud.
âYou think sheâd do that?â Yeonjun says genuinely interested, not offended at all by the assumption. If anything, he was happy to have someone to talk to, so he could look at the situation from multiple perspectives.
âI meanâŠwhat do you really know about her?â You ask tracing patterns on his chest with your fingers to keep yourself occupied.
Yeonjun looked at you, biting his lip as he got lost in thought again. Â
âMy dad did mention something in the letter about her, and her quote âcunning familyâ being after Choi Enterprises, but I donât know it justâŠseems like a stretch. My mom knows I donât have interest in the company.â Â
You halt your movements, laying back down on his chest as you make yourself comfortable.
He looked down at you lovingly, giving you a quick kiss on your lips when you looked up at him again.
âMaybe ask him about it. I can come with you if you want. First thing in the morning.â Â
Yeonjunâs brows raised in surprise. âYouâd do that?â he asks a little baffled at the fact that youâd voluntarily throw yourself in a lionâs den for him. This wasnât just like visiting a relative in the hospital, there was so much more at stake that even Yeonjun himself couldnât fathom right now.
You nod, not having to think twice about it. âAnything for you.â
The two of you fell asleep like that, wrapped up in each othersâ warmth with your arms and legs tangled together. It was the best sleep both of you had gotten in the past couple of days. Though it was a short night, you were well-rested.
At around 8 AM you texted Soobin that Yeonjun and yourself went out to talk to each other in private when in reality you were going to visit the hospital to see Yeonjunâs dad. You were sure everyone was still in deep sleep and that youâd be back before theyâd notice, but it felt better to at least let someone know that you left the house together.
The car ride was silent, nerves eating at the both of you as you held hands while he drove. He was nervously biting the inside of his cheek like he always does, and never let go of your hand the whole way.
As you walk through the endless halls of the hospital and pass security to the VIP section; you started to get more intimidated by the level of security present. They let Yeonjun through without a word and you trailed behind him with big eyes as you held onto his hand tightly.
He sighed, turning around to look at you as he stops in front of a massive double door. âLast time I saw him I stormed out in anger. Even when heâs not responsive he makes my blood boil and I honestly donât want you to see me like that if it happens again.â He confesses as he looks at you seriously. Â
You sigh, squeezing his hand as reassurance. âI donât care. Iâm not leaving your side.â Â
Yeonjun nodded, taking a deep breath before he prepared himself as he opened the door to his fathersâ VIP area, but the sight he was welcomed with, was the last one he expected.
You noticed how he froze, and you frowned, standing on your toes to peek over his shoulder but your heart dropped to your stomach as you saw and heard what was going on.
Doctors and nurses were frantically trying to resuscitate Yeonjunâs father. Â
âCLEAR!â Â
The loud and continuous beeping of the heart monitor, followed by the charging sounds of the defibrillator was all the confirmation you needed to know that he was flatlining.
Panic was evident, and you knew that despite all the efforts of the doctors, chances were little to nothing that theyâd be able to bring him back, given the state he was already in.
Your gasp was noticed by a few nurses and doctors which made one of them groan in disapproval. Â
âHow did they get in here!? No one is allowed inside.â The doctor huffs before he charged the defibrillator again.
âCLEAR!â
Yeonjun watched his fatherâs body contort as the joules of electricity were charged through his chest, but it was to no avail. Â
âSir, Iâm going to have to ask you to leave.â One of the nurses says as she blocks the view.
Yeonjun pupils darted from his father to the doctors. He was in pure shock and unable to comprehend was going on before you lightly tugged at his hand.Â
âYeonjun,â you say in almost a whisper, trying to snap him out of it as you squeeze his hand.
âI-Iâm his son,â Yeonjun says in an attempt to stick around. The same nurse from the day before gave him an apologetic look as she slowly pushed him out the door, while another doctor closed the curtain.
âIâm really sorry Yeonjun, but itâs protocol. You have to wait outside.â Â
She closed the door behind her and left the two of you completely paralyzed in the halls of the VIP ward. Â
Yeonjun turned around, leaning his back to the wall as his legs became weak. He slowly crouched down, and the sight broke your heart into a million pieces.
He wasnât crying, he didnât even look sad. He was just frozen.Â
He looked into nothingness as he listened to what was going on inside of the room.
You quickly crouch down with him, not knowing what to do other than hold his hand and caressing his face with your free hand.
He still stared at the wall across from him as you pulled him close, making him rest his face on your shoulder as you whispered sweet nothings to him while he had to listen to what was going on in the other room.
The continuous beeping noise of the heart monitor followed by the sounds of the defibrillator sent chills down your spine as you held him to your best ability.
He didnât respond to you or react to anything else, and when the noises halted after a minute or so, you knew they called it.Â
He closed his eyes, suddenly tightening his arms around you as realization struck him.
âTime of death, 8.43 AM.â
You were seated in the family room of the hospital, handing Yeonjun a plastic cup filled with water.
He snapped out his thoughts and accepted the cup, taking a sip from it while avoiding eye contact with you.
He hadnât quite looked at you yet. He was continuously staring into the void and it was starting to become scary. You wished heâd just say something, but he wasnât able to, so you gave him time.
You promised you wouldnât leave his side, and you were keeping that promise by handling the communication with the nurse, so he didnât have to. You had called Soobin to tell him what was going on and you were sure theyâd all be here in no time. Â
You sat down across from him, trying to give him some space to gather his thoughts but it was like he wasnât even in the room with you.
You sigh, taking a sip of your own cup of water and just as you were about to speak, his mother walked in followed by your friends.
She stepped aside as the boys enveloped Yeonjun in a tight hug, while Mia stood beside you, squeezing your shoulder lightly to show support.
Yeonjun sighed into the hug, loosening up a little and his frozen state seemed to vanish. Â
Again, he wasnât getting emotional, but he closed his eyes, letting his friends hold him in silence for a while.
The sight made your eyes water a little, but you choked back your tears, not wanting to be the one to start crying when no one else was.
His mother turned her attention to you, and you looked back at her while Mia was protectively standing next to you, still with her hand on your shoulder.
âThank you for handling the communication with the staff. That must not have been easy, and I apologize for the fact that you had to do that. That should have been me. Iâm sorry.â
You were taken aback by her apology and quickly shake your head in response. âNo, no, please. Donât mention it. Itâs the least I can do.â
She gave you a simple nod and averted her attention to Yeonjun. He got up from the chair and walked over to his mother, opening up his arms for her.
She hesitated but went for the hug anyway, closing her eyes as she inhaled his scent, letting him hold her for a bit. The physical affection making her tear up.
He rubbed her back, patting her hair.
âItâs ok mom, you donât have to be afraid anymore.â
Everything happened so incredibly fast that you werenât even able to process what the hell was going on around you. The Choi family had people for people who worked for those people, which meant that the funeral was basically held within the next day.
Lita made sure that the boys, Mia, and yourself had something appropriate to wear for the ceremony and you were in Yeonjunâs room, dressed and ready just half an hour before the service would start. Â
You were seated on his bed, watching him fix his tie in the mirror.
He had been super quiet and detached, and you wanted to give him space, but he was adamant about the fact that he wanted you around. He hadnât shed a single tear and didnât even really talk about what happened. It was mostly you doing the talking for him.
Having to explain what you saw was rough, and you were worried itâd trigger something inside Yeonjun, but it didnât. He kept himself composed and strong, and you were curious how long he could keep that façade alive.
You snap back from your thoughts and watch him struggle with tying his tie. A small smile crept upon your lips and you get up from the bed, walking towards him to do it for him.
He looked at you lovingly, holding on to your waist as he watched you tie the knot expertly just like your father taught you.
âWhat canât you do?â he asks amused, looking down at you.
You look up at him through your lashes and scoff. âGet you to open up apparently,â you say as you finish up, giving him a soft pat on his chest to let him know youâre all done.
He blinked a couple of times, biting his lip.
âI love you.â Â
Your eyes snap up to his in shock, making sure you didnât just imagine that. Â
âW-what?â Â
âI love you,â he repeats, giving you a small smile as he fixes a piece of your hair.
âY-Yeonjun I-â you stutter.
His confession was loud and clear, though it took you some time to process. You had no idea where it was coming from, but as you looked him in the eye; all he showed was confidence and sincerity.
âI think I knew the night of our fight, I wanted you as far away from me as possible to protect you from myself, and my uncle out of all people made me realize that thatâs something you do out of love.â He explains making sense of his words.
âI donât know what love feels like y/n, but when I look at youâŠthe way you handled this whole thing. Sticking by me and supporting me emotionally even though I see you struggle with your own emotions itâs justâŠâ He sighs, organizing his thought before he spoke again.
âI couldnât put into words, how much I care for you and appreciate you, and thatâs when it clicked that thereâs a whole ass expression for that feeling,â he says, letting his hands travel to your waist again.
âI love you y/n. So, fucking much that it hurts,â he admits, closing his eyes as he leans his forehead to yours.
You sigh contently, letting your hand travel up to his cheek, softly caressing it before you peck his lips softly. Â
âI love you too.â
Yeonjun didnât expect you to say it back to him, but you meant every word you said. His eyes snapped open and a huge boyish grin crept upon his face, his eyes glistening with pleasure as he pulled you towards him roughly, which made you yelp in response. Â
âYou do?â He asks beaming at you.
âYes Yeonjun, now wipe that grin off your face. We have a funeral to attend,â you say as you playfully roll your eyes. Â
He snorted, letting go of you reluctantly, stealing a chaste kiss from you before he opened the door to his bedroom.
âAfter you, my love.â Â
You were warned beforehand that the funeral would be more like a business event rather than a private family gathering. The ceremony took place in their back yard, so luckily you didnât have to worry about running late.
The number of people you were introduced to, given the fact that Yeonjun paraded you around like an accessory was overwhelming. The only people that really stuck out to you were his uncle, Namjoon, and his wife Hye-Jin.
They were so happy to meet you that it felt like they already knew you personally.
Yeonjun basically had his game face on the whole night, it was a side to him that you hadnât seen before and you realized that you missed the carefree, peer pong playing college boy from before.
As Yeonjun was talking to some stockholders, you decided to find your friends again.
âSoâŠyou and Yeonjun hyung are officially a thing now?â Taehyun asks as you join their table, completely exhausted from fake smiling to all the people you just met.
âDonât think I donât notice how he sneaks into your room every night y/n. Your room is literally right across from mine.â Beomgyu says as he gives you a bitter smile.
You roll your eyes at him as you smack his arm, earning a small yelp from him.
Soobin looked at you expectantly waiting for you to answer Taehyunâs question and you just nodded.
âWe worked things through, Iâll tell you the details later butâŠwe havenât had the boyfriend, girlfriend talk yet.â
âWell, the timing is a littleâŠâ Mia starts.
âYeah, exactly.â Â
Hueningkai sighs, throwing his head back in annoyance. âWhat is going on, first Soobin hyung and Mia, then Beomgyu hyung and Ryujin and now Yeonjun hyung and you? Is there something in the air that I donât know about?â
The group started snickering softly, trying not to be rude given the fact that you were at a funeral. Â
âMaybe I should just start dating Taehyun.â He says jokingly nudging his friend.
âActually, Iâm kind of talking to someone too,â he says waving off the confused looks of everyone as he smiled at all of you.
âIf itâs Yeonjunâs mom, I swear to god.â Beomgyu says.
âEw, no. What the fuck.â Â
âCan all of you please behave? Please. Just one night.â Soobin begs as he rubs his forehead, which made Mia chuckle, patting his back in comfort.
Soon after the music stopped. A spokesperson of the family took the stage, telling everyone to take a seat. Yeonjunâs eyes found yours, and he basically told you in sign language that he couldnât join you guys, as it is expected that he sits at the front with his mother.
The ceremony was simple and short. There were multiple speakers and every once in a while, you checked Yeonjunâs facial expression to see how he was holding up. Â
You noticed how the same hollowness returned if he didnât have to act like the perfect son to all the attendees, and it worried you. Â
After his mother took the stage, shedding a few rehearsed tears, they lowered the casket, and the ceremony was basically over with. Watching his mother put on such an academy award-winning performance, made you realize that apart from you, your friends and the immediate family, no one knew what kind of person Choi Daniel really was.
It made you sick to your stomach that he was being honoured as if he was some type of hero.
A few hours pass before the last guests leave the house. Your group was seated together in the formal living room, and when Yeonjun enters with an exhausted look on his face, all of you fall quiet as you stare at him.
He let himself fall onto the lounge chair and loosened his tie, slouching down in his seat as he threw his head back.
âAre you okay?â Mia asks, being the first to speak up.
âIâm just drained I guess,â Yeonjun says rubbing his temples.
âWell, we are leaving tomorrow, so we can go back to our normal lives asap. I feel like Iâve walked into some K-drama.â Taehyun retorts as he sits down as well.
Yeonjun lifts his head, biting his lip as he looks at the group of people he cares about the most. âRight, about thatâŠâ
His eyes find yours and you can already see that heâs sorry about something.
You cock your head to the side, waiting for him to continue, and then he sighs.
âIâm not coming back with you guys,â he says apologetically. âAt leastâŠnot for a while. I canât just leave my mom in the midst of all of this. There's so much more that needs to be taken care ofâŠâ
Your heart sank a little, but it was understandable for him to stick around longer.Â
Mia narrowed her eyes at Yeonjuns words, and the guys just hummed understandingly.
âHow long will you be gone for then?â Hueningkai asks.
âTill the end of Summer I think,â Yeonjun replies, his eyes finding yours.
You understood the circumstances, but you were shocked, to say the least. Even though youâve been together non-stop since the incident, he hadnât talked to you about it.
He gave you a sad look when you avoided his gaze, which Mia noticed as she looked at you two.
Yeonjun decided he had enough of the gloomy atmosphere and decided to crack open his fathersâ expensive collection of aged wines and scotches. Â
Since they were at home, he let the minors indulge a little too. Everyone was letting loose a little. The old playful group dynamic returned slowly but you were still lost in thought about Yeonjunâs decision to stay behind.
He noticed how you sat far away from him and sighed. He walked towards you. Asking you to come with him to the kitchen and you agreed. Feeling that it was best to talk about this before you make matters worse by overthinking.
You took a seat at the breakfast bar, waiting for him to start talking, but he just looked at you with concern.
âIâm sorry I didnât tell you,â he says.
âI was justâŠspeaking to so many people today and I realized I canât just pretend that this part of my life doesnât exist anymore. Especially now that heâs gone.â
âYeonjun, Iâm not mad. I justâŠdon't get why you would tell me you love me when you knew that you werenât going to come back with us," you say as you play with your fingers
His eyes widened and he got closer to you. Taking a hold of your hands after he made you look up at him by tugging at your chin.
âHey, Itâs just a few weeks. Nothing will change the way I feel about you; I promise. I just need time to unravel all of these family secrets. I never got to ask him why he didnât trust my mother and after today I justâŠI have to figure it out.âÂ
You nod, understanding completely. Somehow you wanted him to ask you to stay here with him for the rest of summer, but the fact that he didnât was all that you needed to know.
âDonât be sad okay, weâll stay in contact,â he says as he caresses your cheek.Â
You nod and lean into his touch which made him smile. He inched his face closer to kiss you softly. Â
You didnât know what, but something was off about him. He looked at you with affection but at the same time, his eyes were hollow, almost soulless. Â
A small knock on the wall snaps both of you back to reality, your heads snap back to see Mia in the doorway looking at you both seriously. Â
âY/n, Soobin needs your help with something.â She says as she gives you a small smile.
You frown, and so does Yeonjun, but you decide to go see for yourself, not thinking much of it.
âAlright then?â you say as you get up from the barstool, walking towards the formal living room.
Miaâs gaze followed you out the door, and before Yeonjun could walk back to the living room with you. She stops him.
âYouâre not coming back are you?â She asks, looking him in the eye sternly.
Well, fuck.
Yeonjun sighs. He should have known. Mia sees through anyoneâs bullshit; and given how protective she is of y/n. He knew he had to tell her the truth before she beat it out of him.
âIâm not sure yet,â he admits, avoiding eye contact with her.
Miaâs shoulder fell, her eyes getting sad. It was just an assumption she had, but she didnât expect him to tell her the truth this easily.
âYeonjunâŠyou canât do that to her.â
âDonât you think I donât know that?â he says raising his voice a little. He glanced through the hall at the group, making sure you didnât hear him before his gaze returned to Mia.
She stared back at him in disbelief, waiting for him to explain himself.
âI justâŠI need time. I canât be what she deserves the way I am now. It could take weeks, months, maybe even years but you have to believe me that Iâm doing it for her,â he says trying to make Mia understand.
âIf there was another way, Iâd do it, but after today my world turned dangerous. There are too many people after the company. Money makes people do crazy things and I donât want her anywhere near it. Y/n has to be protected at all costs. I have to handle this on my own.â Â
Mia exhaled loudly, trying to gather her thoughts as her hand lands on her forehead.
âI love her more than anyone Mia. I do. You have to believe that Iâm doing this in her best interest.â
Mia just shakes her head, swallowing harshly before she makes eye contact again. Â
âWhat about the guys.â
âThey have each other, and y/n has you. You have to promise me youâll be there for her.â
âYeonjun...I-â
âPromise me.â
Mia sighs, defeated in a game she never even played. She closes her eyes, nodding at his request.
"Ok, I promise.â Â
Chapter 10
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âKent v The Shitty Knee Itselfâ- Ted Lasso
A sort-of-sequel to "Kent v Linebacker," but this can still be read on its own. Part 2 of 3 of my fics about Roy Kent's shitty knee.
Part 1 // Accompanying AU
WORDS: 1649
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Roy Kent is old as shit.
His daughter is a fucking toddler. His son is in preschool.
And he has fucking arthritis.
âWhat the fuck do you mean Iâve got fucking arthritis?â Roy Kent explodes at the doctor, who waits patiently for his outburst to finish. âIâm in my fucking forties! Iâve got two fucking babies at home! What the fuck am I supposed to do when my fucking daughter needs to piss and weâre all sprinting into the bathroom? I canât fucking potty train on a shit leg.â
His wife rubs his shoulders comfortingly; the news is less surprising to Keeley, who gave a damn when the doctors mentioned arthritis could develop, and who is also extremely endeared by her husbandâs priorities, which apparently lie very firmly with teaching their daughter to pee in the toilet.
Roy shouldnât be shocked either; heâs had a limp for a long time now, and progressively worsening pain. Heâs been elevating his leg whenever possible, to the point where Ted pulls chairs up for him or sits down first so Roy doesnât feel awkward (on good days, Roy scowls at Ted and stays standing, but these occurrences are increasingly few and far between). Itâs been a long time coming, and as much as the great Roy Kent hates to admit weakness, his shit knee is getting shittier.
Keeley had forced him to go to the doctor when Roy scooped up both their children, one in each arm, and proceeded to fall on the floor in a heap of small limbs and curses. He again made the case that he was fine, but thereâs a limit on how much Tylenol one person can take in a day, and Royâs exceeded that limit for weeks.
He walks like heâs on a hill, wobbling as he drags his right leg behind him. Keeley remarks on how uneven his gait is, and Lily, his precious fucking baby, demonstrates just how wonky Roy is by limping around too. It makes him laugh, but then his gaze meets Keeleyâs, and he realizes thereâs not much he can do aside from accept his fate and ask Dr. Patel why his knee is failing him (again, the fucking thing).
Arthritis. Fucking hell.
âThe majority of your symptoms can be mitigated by limiting any strain on your leg. This includes walking, lifting, twisting, standing, stairs-â
â-breathing, blinking, fucking doing any shit worthwhile-â
âWe can also prescribe medication, but given the amount of pain you reported, I think the best option to look at is a walking assistant.â
âWhat, like a cane?â Roy snorts. He feels Keeley still behind him, then he looks up at Dr. Patel, whoâs gazing back at him, entirely serious.
âA fucking cane.â
âItâll alleviate the weight on your leg. Ideally, you wonât need it every day, but itâll make a difference when discomfort gets too high.â
âFuck no.â Keeley squeezes his shoulder. âFine. Fucking hell.â
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Itâs an adjustment. Roy walks back to their car, cane-less for the time being, limping, and imagines a cane in his hand. Imagines being able to straighten up, and not going to bed in fucking agony after a long day.
He also imagines showing up to the football club with a cane in his hand and Jaime fucking Tartt the fucking muppet smirking at him with his stupid fucking face, and he wants to turn around and tell Dr. Patel heâll never use a fucking cane in his fucking life. Then he imagines having a stick to beat Jaime with when heâs being a prick, and Roy grins to himself at the thought.
Thatâs what he tells Keeley on the way home: heâs on the fence. That thereâs a stigma he doesnât want, that he remembers this the pitiful looks he received after his first injury and after surgery. Itâs fucking bullshit, that heâd be looked at differently just because of a fucking rod in his hand, or because his stupid knee is fucked.
âSince when does Roy Kent care about what other people think of him? I mean really,â Keeley tells him, patting his thigh. âEveryone decent wonât bat an eye, and anyone who does is a prat.â She shrugs. âItâs a flawless system, really. Good way to sort people out.â
Roy grunts in agreement and drums his fingers on the door. He sighs, leaning his head back.
âWhat if I canât keep up with Lily and Ollie? What the fuck am I supposed to do with little kids?â
âWeâll adapt,â Keeley promises, offering her hand. Roy takes it and presses it to his lips. âThey already know they canât run from you, or bowl into you at full speed-â Roy snorts at this. â-so now we tell âem that they gotta be patient.â
âTheyâre gonna be the most patient kids on the planet,â Roy muses, but his chest feels lighter. His wife is fucking amazing.
âTheyâre fucking perfect, they are. And besides- they donât love you cause you can lift them or up throw them around or run around after them.â She squeezes his hand. âThey love you âcause youâre you, Roy. Youâre their dad.â
Roy nods silently. Sheâs right, as always. His heart is warm, much lighter against his ribs. âThanks, babe,â he tells her, and Keeley beams at him.
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They adapt. Roy remains in awe of the resilience of children- Lily and Oliver donât give a damn that he uses a cane, except they quickly have to delineate that itâs not a toy, so Oliver doesnât hit anyone with it, and so that Lily doesnât hit Oliver with it. Because of this, Roy has to be careful not to threaten anyone at Richmond with his cane while his children are around. One day, his kids will learn to do as their dad says, not as he does, but for now, his babies swear and scowl, and pick up on every bad habit Roy shows them. Itâs fucking adorable.
The first month is the hardest. Roy and Keeley decide to grant him some grace- he doesnât have to do shit like garden or mow the lawn, or anything too strenuous. Itâs uneven, in the beginning, and Roy goes to bed every night feeling like a shit husband for everything thatâs unloaded on Keeley. They fight about it, eventually, and Roy apologizes to Keeley with tears in his eyes. They find a balance, which involves a chair in every room in their house and somebody hired to do the lawn. Their roles have shifted, but itâs a pattern heâs familiar with by now. Heâs gone through so many major changes with Keeley: switching careers and marriage and injury and parenthood twice over. And using a cane isnât any harder than having a newborn and a toddler, so they manage. After all, theyâre unstoppable together.
Nobody on the team makes a comment on the cane, except Ted leaves sticky notes on it whenever Roy isnât paying attention, and Roy wouldnât mind so much if they werenât positive fucking affirmations, the corny twat. Then the rest of the team follows suit, and they sign it and put stickers on it and all sorts of supportive shit, and Roy tells only one person this, but he kind of fucking likes it (against his better judgment, of course).
Commentators and the press are not nearly as kind. Thereâs any number of articles written about him and how old it makes the football world seem. Roy wants to fucking kill all of them, but Keeley reminds him that all the pricks have shown their true colors, and one day he finds a picture of a particularly insensitive reporter that has been utterly defiled and left out in the locker room. Roy tucks this away in a drawer in his office, and heâs almost nicer at practice that day.
Beard and Ted match his slower pace as they walk out to every match, which isnât subtle even from the offset, but they donât say anything about it and neither does Roy. He also realizes that heâs never the only one sitting in a group of his friends, even if itâs just him and Ted, or Keeley, or Rebecca, or Nate.
Yoga gets much harder, then he and the yoga moms spend a night researching yoga for people with shit legs, and yoga gets easier again. If they want to do a challenge night, Roy shifts into the role of yoga instructor, which heâs fucking great at, thank you, and so what if he gets to drink more wine because of it.
And his fucking knee feels better. His medication works, but the cane helps the most. Ted and Keeley had told him ever since his initial injury to be kind to himself, to rest when needed, and to not be a stupid stubborn prick about his health. This mindset turns out to have a few merits, and maybe itâs even a good habit he can teach his kids.
It says a lot about him, this cane that accompanies a man in his forties. He needs it because he was a professional footballer who injured himself preventing a goal in one last game. Who needed surgery cause his energetic maniac of a son ran into him. Whose wife told him to use it with pride, because heâs Roy fucking Kent and his family and friends love him so screw everyone else. Whose coach used it as a tool to force positivity onto Roy, whose team and kids decorated it with messages of love and smiley faces and the two worst signatures heâs ever seen (though he credits Oliver and Lily for trying). Itâs a symbol of persistence, of the pain heâs endured, of those who rallied behind him.
Roy Kent. Married to Keeley Jones. Father of Oliver and Lily. Coach at Richmond AFC.
And he happens to use a cane.
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