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â⊠The hell is this?â
Zenin Naoya looks out into the ruins of an empty city that seems like something straight out of one of Mai-chanâs favorite post-apocalypse films, and frowns hard.
KrrrgkHSSS-!
âQuiet,â he snaps, and stomps down, twisting his heel.
Beneath his feet, the tricky cursed spirit responsible for teleporting him to god-knows-where groans pitifully one last time, and then falls silent. Naoya would like nothing better than to put it out of its misery immediately, but given that he currently has no idea where he is and the cursed spirit is the one responsible for bringing him here⊠well, if need be, heâll need to force it to bring him back, somehow.
Naoya sighs, and returns his attention to his surroundings again.
⊠Heâs still in Japan, thatâs for certain. A lot of buildings look halfway-to-completely destroyed, but there are still street signs written in Japanese that Naoya can make out.
But itâs quite strange. Because such devastating destruction on this scale is something that people would notice, and Naoya has not heard anything about any cities being leveled by cursed spirits or curse users recently.
The last one whoâd attempted to do such a thing had been swiftly torn to pieces by Shiki-sama. Their decapitated head âwhich remained alive and animated, somehowâ currently still hangs over the Disciplinary Pit. There was a marked decrease in the number of people who dared to test Shiki-samaâs patience following her new addition to the Pit.
Naoya has never been cast into the Pit before, and he has no desire to change things on that front. Not just because the new addition to it is creepy, but also because if Naoya was cast into the Pit, then it would mean that Shiki-sama was disappointed in him. Couldnât have that happening now, could he?
⊠Shiki-sama wouldnât throw him into the Pit if he was late coming back from a mission, right?
Naoya pauses, and scowls. This wasâ
âŠ!
The young man whirls around.
Thereâs âthereâs some strange cursed energy that suddenly appeared out of nowhere, apropos of nothing. Thick and roiling, all bloodthirst and malice, overwhelming and cloying in such a⊠in such an unrefined way. Naoya remembers Shiki-sama releasing her cursed energy, less a distinct weight pressing down upon an individual and more just the simple surety of you are going to die, and although this cursed energy that Naoya is sensing is⊠considerable⊠it still does not hold a candle to his clan head.
But it is definitely unnatural, and not the sort of thing that your average sorcerer can deal with. Most people are weaklings, and as such must look to those who are strong to protect them. People who are powerful, unstoppable forces of nature âlike Shiki-sama. Toji-kun.
(And one day, Naoya will also be amongst them. He knows he will be. Itâs why Shiki-sama chose him as her heir, isnât it?)
Naoya locks the cursed spirit beneath his feet in a trap-barrier, then bolts for the source of the unsettling cursed energy. Special Grade, definitely. Was it responsible for the destruction that Naoya saw in his current surroundings?
Naoya rounds the corner andâ
âHah?â
⊠What the fuck?
Fushiguro Megumi is the source of this vile cursed energy? And heâs⊠fighting Maki-chan? Wait, why does Maki-chan have burn scares all over her body? And whoâs the pink-haired boy jumping into the fray, too?
The sight is so surreal that Naoya finds himself staring at the sight for a moment, dumbfounded.
But the details click together swiftly enough; thatâs not Megumi-kunâs energy that Naoya is sensing, and Megumi-kun isnât fighting using any of the techniques that Toji-kun had taught him. Megumi-kun also has a wide, deranged grin splitting his face âwhich is not an expression that Naoya thinks Megumi-kun would ever be caught with.
Thatâs not Megumi-kun.
⊠Thereâs something possessing Megumi-kun?
Holy shit. Thereâs still someone this suicidal out there? Didnât they realize that Toji-kun would absolutely murder them for this?
Cursed energy swells, and rises. A different cursed energy signature âone that does not belong to the combatants, or to Naoya. One that causes the surrounding temperature to drop drastically, and between one moment and the next, there is a gargantuan, towering wave of ice that sweeps outâ
âprimarily targeted at Maki-chanâ
And Naoya moves.
#writing#zenith of stars au#new au this time!#tangentially related to zenin clan head shiki au#au of an au#here we go again haha#zenin au-naoya meets canon cast#current timeline here is right after megumi was possessed by sukuna
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Do you have any Teruvid headcanons??? If so... *Grabby hands* đ„șđđ
Hey! Man, Teruvid, huh? Well, I have to be honest and say I donât know if I fully grasp what the dynamic would be like, but Iâll see what I can do! Non-despair AU as always, just to keep consistency with my other ship posts :v Or, perhaps a better term would be "non-killing game AU"; it's hard to imagine Teruvid without despair lmao.
CW: Toxic relationship, gaslighting.
How this relationship would start is hard to imagine, really. Especially outside the stress of the killing game. Teruko never believed Davidâs cheery persona was real, so she didnât like the guy from the start.
However, outside of the killing game, David wouldnât be actively trying to kill anyone, and Xander and Teruko would probably still be friends, so it actually works out better than expected. Presumably, the way this works outside the killing game is that David eventually realizes Teruko doesnât believe his façade and chooses to start dropping it around her, eventually enjoying her company just because he doesnât have to keep up a tiring act. Teruko doesnât like him at first, so I imagine it would be David confessing. Something like, uh...
David: We both know no one will ever love us the way we are. And we wonât love each other either, and this is going to end horribly. Teruko: Then why the hell are you even asking? David: Itâs for your benefit, you know. More than anyone else, you must be well aware your luck will ruin any relationship you ever have. Teruko: ⊠David (fake smiling, stars in eyes): But most of them will try to be optimistic, wonât they? Thinking themselves above your luck, wishing that if they just try hard enough, this time, it will work out. How hopeful~. Teruko: ⊠And? David (smirking): And that just means it will hurt them all the worse when it all comes crashing down. And you'll feel even more miserable after all's said and done than you did in the first place. That wouldn't happen with me. Not that I'll let you, but you wouldn't care if you hurt me anyways.
Yeah I canât see this relationship being healthy in any way lmao.
Like, they hate each other even together, thatâs the Vision of Teruvid shippers right? They would both be miserable the entire time itâs happening, since they both reinforce the worst and most damaging views the other holds. If the Ultimate Inspirational Speaker canât even inspire himself to think things can get better, then Teruko has no reason to believe they will. And if Teruko never tries to change despite hating her life, then that confirms to David that people canât change. The relationship is held together by the illusory comfort of confirmation bias; neither has to challenge their worldviews like they would in a relationship that genuinely made them happy, so they feel at peace in their shared misery.
Speaking of, the most common intimate interaction is venting to each other about whatever bullshit they got going on, be it unfortunate events or Speaker business annoyance. Now, neither is particularly good at giving comfort, but theyâre also both bad at receiving it (they donât understand the concept that people can feel genuine affection towards them, of course), so they settle on just⊠not comforting each other. Just a simple âsucksâ after a long rant, or even laughing at each otherâs misery, but again, illusory comfort in being able to vent out their issues without having someone actually worry and care for them, because they donât know how to handle that.
Other than that, lots of just cuddling while doing random shit. Theyâre both horrendously touch starved, so they never stay physically apart if possible.
That said, though, theyâre not very public with their relationship. Obviously; if Teruko never seemed to like David, then theyâre suddenly together, thatâs gonna raise a few eyebrows. And David still tries to keep up the Speaker persona outside his one on one interactions with Teruko, a persona that Teruko dislikes due to its disingenuity, so they never really hang out in the presence of others.
Their closest friends know, except none of them actually realize that Davidâs persona is a lie. They think theyâre keeping it quiet not to attract attention to Teruko, given David is a public figure and all. Because of that, they actually think theyâre good for each other, thinking that Davidâs optimism and Terukoâs pessimism balance out to be pretty functional. This fundamental misunderstanding of their relationship makes David and Teruko both feel even more alienated from their friends, which feeds into the codependency. They need each other, because theyâre the only ones that get it.
Indeed, this is a serious âthey would make each other so much worseâ situation, I canât see Teruvid in any other way. Unless they both get some serious therapy, and even then, the way Iâve described the relationship, it would fall apart if either of them were any more stable. So, uh, yeah.
I kinda struggle to come up with much more than this for these two, so I hope that was okay! Thanks for the ask!
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i need like 3 ibuprofen and a very long nap
#drama king#i hate being vulnerable but that depressive episode always hits hard#again im so sorry to clog yalls dashes like this#i just have nowhere to put my feelings without burdening someone#but here i can just tag a post as something and people can choose not to see it#god i couldve actually done something with my life#its over before it even began#ill never end on a happy note#ill be miserable to my very deathbed#and now everytgings gotten to be too much#its boiling and bubbling over like a pot of milk of the burner#that milk is ruined now theres no saving it#the only way to fix things is to start over completely#and yet someone is gonna let that pot of milk simmer for a while longer#until it gets worse and worse and it keeps making a mess#spilling all over the floor and ruining the stovetop. staining the counters and ruining the freshly cleaned dishes#that pot will never be the same#itll be ruined forever. stained by the milk and some idiots mistakes#and yet that pot will keep sitting in the cupboard#its ruined now and no one will ever use it again#but it didnt get thrown away#because nobody seems to want to throw it away despite the fact thats its useless now#it just takes up cupboard space now#why bother keeping the pot around? is it sentimental value? a deepseated guilt? pity?#and logically the milk bubbling over wasnt their fault. but leaving it for so long was#why am i rambling about pots and milk. this is useless
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ughhh the stupid fucking tooth is rly stressing me out. i never shouldve moved to fucking washington i wish i could go back in time and hit 18 year old me in the head with a hammer .
#and also 17 year old me. and 16 year old me. and 15 year old me. all of you have a part in this. cunts.#bc i would e hust had the crown done if i didnt get fucking stranded in wa for 10 months. ive just been kicking it with my sanded down toot#sincee. over a year now and i dont think theres any saving it bc i think its got cavities so theyll probably just have to extract it#and then i check online and ill have to also get it replaced with a fske one or my fucking bones will dissolve or whatever (dramatization)#and like. cant lie. the fact i did all that for a guy who Didnt fucking love me. ok. ok. ok. in love connor is not allowed to make decision#ever again bc actually fuck that guy. like. obv for more than just the tooth thing#i was just so stupid . and ik you have to make mistakes to learn from them but this mistake might be rly expensive idk if the state#insurance will actually cover it or if therell be copays I dont have moneyyy i dont have a fucking job. i need to get my stupid ged. STUPID#FUCKING PAST CONNOR DROPPING OUT OF SCHOOL I HATE YOU YOU RUINED MY LIFE. but its wtvr. its fine bc that guys dead and now its me. YIPPEE#a2t#for my tooth stuff#dental tw#idk . i used to have a mut who needed that tagged but idk if theyre still with us. in that ive lost many mutuals in my years so they may be#gone DNRNFJFNJF but jic. if u r here sry i thot you werent.. sry...
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Okay so basically the United States MINT of all people is going to be working with DC to make a line of coins! These coins sadly won't be in circulation (the things I would do to live in a world where I could get Batman coins from the supermarket) as they're collectors coins, but will be releasing over the course of the next 3 years, 2025-2027.
Designs haven't been released yet (the same is true for all 2025 designs) but we know there will be 9 coins in total (3 each year) with the first year featuring (of course!!!) Superman, Batman, and Wonder Woman.
Although we know the first three heroes to be featured, the remaining six have yet to be decided, and it turns out the Mint is putting out a survey on their site to gauge which of a group of culturally significant heroes people want to see most! (link to the form is mentioned in the article above)
The considered group includes: Supergirl, the Flash, Green Arrow, Black Canary, Captain Marvel, John Stewart GL, Aquaman, Hawkman, Jamie Reyes BB, Robin (Damian?), Cyborg, and Batgirl, of which 6 will be selected.
As someone who does a bit of coin collecting myself (mainly circulation coins like the quarters sets, but I also have a couple proof and collectors coins) I think this is a really cool and interesting idea that showcases the history of the comics medium and these characters and their influence on American culture. Really excited to wait and see what the designs look like for the coins already announced!
#ABSOLUTELY INSANE TO ME#sorry just. only thing that could make this crazier is if these were circulating. i would fucking die actually lmao#i mean you could buy something with one of these legally but like youre an idiot if you do that so likeeee#someone showing up with the solid gold superman collector coin and its only legally worth a dollar lmao#not that someone would do this but future generations/archeologists finding a coin in some ruins and it just has like. batman on it#amazing to me#also just the transition from us currency having all fake people (lady liberty some random native american guy etc.) and then going to real#people and presidents then expanding that to honor people that they believe should be honored (think the harriet tubman coin set right now)#and representing beauty and innovation and culture through representation of the states#only through that lens to swing back around and have fake people on the coins again in the form of the freaking dc trinity. insane to me#no one ever gets me when im nerding out over coins its okay. at least its not postage stamps (i actually do have some special postage stamps#its like 1 sheet though it was for the 2017 eclipse and the image changes from totality to the moon with the heat of your finger theyre so#cool okay) anyways i like dont really know that much abt coins lol i originally saw a post abt this on reddit đ lol and had to check this#was real which is insane. anyways my dad got my all my coin stuff ive got a proof set from the year i was born albums to hold the 50 states#and national parks (america the beautiful but its 90% natl park designs lets be honest here) quarter collections as i find them irl#(dont have an album for us women yet sadly but do have some of the coins) as well as a few dimes and other circulation albums i havent used#much. and then i have a few collectibles like the hubble telescope $1 coin the 50th anniversary apollo 11 one and the 2021 anniversary peace#dollar. though like not the gold ones or anything like that lol but yeah. i talk abt coins every once and a while with friends and i know#things but then my dad is in the car and its like nevermind lol.#also put a ? after damian's name bc theres a chance it could be dick and they just used the wrong picture. because some of the character#bios had names but his didnt and seemed very dick grayson (acrobatics mention âbatman's partnerâ etc) but not so specfic exclude either one#and the pick was damian. but then the ollie pick was goateeless for some reason so who knows#culturally dick is more important but dami is current so idk#dc comics#blah#ive really been learning so much today. first all in announcement and subsequent leaks and now this. what a ride#also love how im anticipating and know future comics things lol. when did that happen haha. ive really transitioned from only reading back#issues and never knowing current events to following a lot of releases lol and somehow finding out about the freaking coin collection...#crazy how that happens#cant scroll up at that first image without losing it a bit still actually. what a world we live in. anyways take your bets who is gonna be
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âmaybe if i, an 8yr old, managed to talk sense into my groomed and deeply traumatised 13yr old brother, maybe he wouldnât have accidentally almost killed himself and become a villainâ and no one in that room disagreed with him??
#none of them?#not one of them went hey maybe it wasnt on us literal children to try and help him?#this is where the endeavour redemption completely lost me#it was as well written as it could be up until this point#natsu still hating him fuyumis trauma response of lets just bury everything and be a normal family shoutos conditional forgiveness#especially when endeavour said ill buy you all a house and you never have to see me again#i could live with that. i hate it (make him face a lasting consequence for the love of god) but i could live with it#he doesnt deserve forgiveness and he deserves every ounce of emotional pain hes experiencing bc holy shit he irrevocably ruined five lives#but then they really turned around and said yeah us victims share the blame for how touya turned out#what the fuck#reis level of blame is debatable since even if she was mentally stable she was still always in the mindset of hey this guy Bought Me#and his continued Buying Me will fund my parents who Sold Me to him#even before any anbuse happened she was never going to be able to stand up to him#endeavour groomed touya just like afo did with shigaraki except even worse bc it happened from day dot#then he completely cut him off from the thing he groomed him to be and dumped him on rei until he got the child he wanted#dabi was never anything but endeavours fault and the fact that the narrative is trying to make them all share the blame#and frame it as a see endeavour when we all share fault and support you isnt it easier for you? cant you stand up and solve the problem now?#its the most classic victim blaming ive ever seen and were supposed to just take it and be like aw theyre facing dabi as a family#fuck off#and even then he still freezes and makes shouto fight dabi#you cant do it so i the 16yr old you also abused will fight my brother the kid you drove to accidental suicide for you#and when he finally gets over himself (after shouto is nearly killed dont forget that) and decides hes finally strong enough to fight him#were supposed to cheer that moment?#yay hes finally going to look at touya! were the fuck was he an hour ago cause he aint done shit against afo#the family needs to share blame and support him so he can face the blame and support himself fuck off#go beyond plus ultra#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#endeavour#dabi#todoroki shouto
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I used to have a really giant family like tons of tias and tios and cousins and i say used to cause like it seems like after my grandparents died on both sides both families seemed to never speak again and i had no chance to even try and keep hold of those ties i was in elementary school watching my parents marriage crash and burn in real time dealing with major death in the family and then subsequent family abandoning me at the tender age of 11. Hell my brothers were older and jumped ship it was just me and the horrors
#my moms dad and my dads mom were like the heads of their families and they both died really close to each other#but my grandma and a tio on my moms side died within 3 days of each other after being in hospice literally 3 doors away from each other#for months and my parents both took the roles of like taking care of everything and being the descision makers cause no one else would#which im sure was super traumatizing in everyway possible but their siblings both seemed to resent them in ways#when they didnt want to be those people but had to be and they arent even the oldest siblings they are both like 3rd youngest#but like it just ruined the families and me and mom and my dad were all at the hospital or hospice center for months#we were there every day and night i remember it so much i can get anywhere in any hospital in my town using the stairwells#like i knew them that well#it also likely ruined my parents marriage which was bumpy before the intense major tragedy#which like yaknow what fair it was a lot to deal with ontop of like trying to crawl ur way out of the recession#but after all was said and done i talk to no one on my dads side i bearly talk to my older brother#and i talk to like my nina and two tias on my moms side and occassionally a few cousins#when theyre arent being fucking insane and unhinged#idk i loved having a huge family the like going to 5 houses on christmas type#going to birthdays or weddings and seeing everyone taking at least 45 mins to say bye to everyone#and now its gone and i wont ever get it back#and its by no fault of my own cause i was literally 11 and every adult decided i was gonna pay the price too#like i think abt when i get married its not gonna be what i thought itd be or when i get my first movie in theatres#im not gonna have the major family celebration ill have all my friends which im so greafull for#but its not the same yaknow#and id love to have that relatiomship with my family again but like where do u start when its been over 10+ years#like they remember 11 year old me if they remember me#and thats part of the problem#like on my moms side specifically i have some family who acts like theyve never met me before when i used to see them every weekend#and it was a major failing on my part as an 11 year old for not keeping in touch even tho we did my mom calls everyone and she tried#but people didnt want to return it#and as for my dads side its the same and if it was a moral failing for me as an 11 yr old to not reach out and they didnt like my mom much#my grandma fucking loved her but the rest of the family didnt and like i lived w my mom and was fucking 11 i couldnt go anhwhere by myself#and i didnt like not being places without a parent and i hated sleepovers i refused and they took it so personal#and they stopped talking to my dad and bad mouthed him and still do nd ill never allow that around me my dad isnt perfect but hes a good man
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not to be melodramatic and an Irredeemable Media Guy but we're still so mad about jobless reincarnation. like the release of that anime was super important because it helped us find out which of the anituber male feminists we liked were actually full on posers (all of them.) like yeah we should have seen it coming that these people have no actual literacy within the realm of misogyny in media and just go "panty shots of 12 year old girl bad" over and over because the moment the misogyny pretends to be deep and introspective and looks pretty suddenly it's a Masterpiece. like we hate to judge people for their tastes but we're making an exception. if you think jobless reincarnation is unironically a masterpiece we do not like you
#somehow a singular anime entirely ruins our ability to enjoy an entire community of people#maybe we could be wrong because we didn't see some of it. maybe the mc because redeemed hero in the last three episodes and its so#legendary how the writers managed to pull it off#but using context clues we really doubt it. we're sorry guys.#because not only is the mc a joke#but at a fundamental level the anime proves time and time again that the writers are just fully misogynists#and we dont really see how the ending could have ever felt right or paid off. because it revolves around women#and the writers do not respect women#we feel like a woke twitter guy right now but it's sincerely one of the worst things we've ever seen#made worse by people we had faith in beforehand saying it's a masterpiece while ignoring everything with the female characters
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I want a cat. I want 5 cats. they'll help me actually live by being what I need to take care of so I have to take care of myself
#i just want to be less of an emotional and laborious burden on my family. i hate making them take care of me when i fall off on health#idk im sad and hungry#i still think it could be feasible to maybe turn the bedroom into a better use of space and we'd maybe all be able to sleep in it at once#and the whole other side house can belong to them and our side with us#idk. maybe they'd think it's not responsible enough to stuff our shit in one place but like#idk man i just want away from you people I'm tired of your voices I'm tired of your faces I'm tired of having to be around u worry about u#i dont fucking care i just don't ever want to see them again#idk i just hate how more and more i just get an anxiety response to them and it just gets worse over time#like its to the point now where like i dont even want them to talk to my children unsupervised. you dont get to influence them#like they fucking ruined their first and only attempt at having a kid im not fucking letting you do it again i dont trust you to ever#do any errands for me and my kids alone with them. like theyre not talking to them! sorry! you guys had nothing good to say in any emotional#level and anytime you guys have kids over all you do is make fun of them! so! you dont get to talk to my kids ever!#im genuinely so sad that its come to this but also like its not like theyve even done anything for me. its not like they know me#i dont fucking like them either like#i just want to never have to hear or see them ever again they bring me that much distress#i kind of just want to disappear in general because i feel like these thoughts r cruel so i may as well just kms bc im only gonna get worse
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Mean!Logan who absolutely will NOT kiss you on the mouth while heâs fucking you. Youâre crying and begging and so so desperate for it but he just will not give in, loves to watch you cry and cry even while your whole body shakes and your eyes roll back from how deep he is in you
Logan won't kiss you
send me mean!logan requests!
contents/warnings: mean!logan, teasing, dacryphilia, don't like don't read.
a/n: anon i hope you know this made me moan. shit the first line almost had me creaming my jeans. thank you <33333333333
It's a tease, being given so much and yet nothing at all. Logan's strong hips are steadily thrusting against your own, driving his cock in and out of your cunt that begs for nothing more, but you're being held tantalizingly close to the precipice of your orgasm solely from the denial of a kiss.
Logan's mouth is heaven.
Whether against your own or against another part of you, your sensitive nipples or your throbbing pussy, his mouth has always brought you to completion. You yearn for it now, with sharp aches and pleas from your drooling cunt as he fucks into you, but he refuses to give you what you want- what you need.
"What's'a matter?" He drawls, and by the condescension in his voice, by the sharp, rigid smirk on the mouth of his that you want so bad, you know he knows, "What gives, you don't like me or somethin'?"
"Logan," You whine for mercy, tears beading in your eyes as you grip his biceps and attempt to hoist yourself up to kiss him. He deflects skillfully, pushing you back down to the mattress.
"No, no, don't be greedy. My dick isn't enough? Looks like it is." He muses, eyeing the way your cunt slobbers on his length, coating it generously in your thick, slick arousal.
"Look at you, you're ruined," Logan scoffs, panting through the continuous motions of his hips, "And you still want more."
"I want a kiss," You feel pitiful whining like that, and he laughs like you are.
"Oh, princess wants a kiss, is that it? All this cock and what you really want is my mouth?"
"Yes," You gasp, tears flooding down your cheeks at the contempt in his eyes, even if its staged, "Please Logan, please, I jus- I just want one kiss, please." You try yet again to raise your head, but he won't take the bait- he sneers like you're nothing but an annoyance.
"No." He decides simply, hips only snapping faster and faster, harder and harder into your cunt, "You have enough. Use it."
You do. You clench around his cock, thighs squeezed together so that your entrance is as tight as possible. You feel every inch of his impressive length as it pounds in and out of your pussy, you feel pleasure in every fiber of your being, and yet- it's the visual of Logan's tongue flicking out over his lips after a hefty exhale that finally sends your brain and body into overdrive.
His lips, thin and a shade pinker than his skin, look so enticing, and the way that his tongue laves over them leaving translucent saliva behind sends sparks between your legs like nothing you've ever felt without Logan's mouth. You wish it was yours, you wish his tongue was dipping into your mouth the way it does so often, licking every inch of your skin, tasting every part of you there ever has been.
You cum hard and you cum almost painfully, writhing on the bed covered in tears and sweat. There's surely a pool of slick beneath your ass on the bed from where your cunt has drooled onto the sheets but Logan will clean it up later- if you're lucky, from you with the mouth you're still fantasizing about.
"There, that wasn't hard," Logan hums, crooning tenderly like he's taking care of you as he finally dips down to press a firm kiss against the slack ring of your mouth. It's late, but better than never. You exhale shakily as he kisses you, a balm to soothe the hurt feelings of his denial, and he chuckles as you twitch beneath him. He leaves his cock buried in your warm, twitching cunt- he hasn't finished himself, but he'll feed his cock down your throat later- anytime you cum and he doesn't you offer to help him out. Watching the way that your eyes blink hazily at him post-kiss is certainly helping him along, and he won't take long up against the warm wet seal of your mouth.
"Poor thing is sensitive." He nudges his nose against your own, muscles bulging as he keeps himself hovering over you, "Can't handle being used, hm? Gotta be loved?"
"I love you," You whisper pitifully, chasing his mouth with a desperate, sticky kiss of your own, "Logan, I- I love you, mm-"
"Alright, alright." He mumbles through your sloppy attempts at kissing him, muffled by your lips, "Alright, crybaby, 'love you too."
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What does life in North Korea look like outside of Pyongyang? đ°đ”
Hey, I'm back again with a very scary "tankie" post that asks you to think of North Koreans as people, and to consider their country not as a cartoonish dystopia, but as a nation that, like any other place on earth, has culture, traditions, and history.
Below is a collection of pictures from various cities and places in North Korea, along with a brief dive into some of the historical events that informs life in the so-called "hermit kingdom."
Warning: very long post
Kaesong, the historic city
Beginning this post with Kaesong, one of the oldest cities in Korea. It's also one of the few major cities in the DPRK (i.e. "North Korea") that was not completely destroyed during the Korean war.
Every single city you'll see from this point on were victims of intense aerial bombardments from the U.S. and its allies, and had to be either partially or completely rebuilt after the war.
From 1951 to 1953, during what has now become known as the "forgotten war" in the West, the U.S. dropped 635,000 tons of bombs over Korea â most of it in the North, and on civilian population centers. An additional 32,000 tons of napalm was also deployed, engulfing whole cities in fire and inflicting people with horrific burns:
For such a simple thing to make, napalm had horrific human consequences. A bit of liquid fire, a sort of jellied gasoline, napalm clung to human skin on contact and melted off the flesh. Witnesses to napalm's impact described eyelids so burned they could not be shut and flesh that looked like "swollen, raw meat." - PBS
Ever wondered why North Koreans seem to hate the U.S so much? Well...
Keep in mind that only a few years prior to this, the U.S. had, as the first and only country in the world, used the atomic bomb as a weapon of war. Consider, too, the proximity between Japan and Korea â both geographically and as an "Other" in the Western imagination.
As the war dragged on, and it became clear the U.S. and its allies would not "win" in any conventional sense, the fear that the U.S. would resort to nuclear weapons again loomed large, adding another frightening dimension to the war that can probably go a long way in explaining the DPRK's later obsession with acquiring their own nuclear bomb.
But even without the use of nuclear weapons, the indiscriminate attack on civilians, particularly from U.S. saturation bombings, was still horrific:
"The number of Korean dead, injured or missing by warâs end approached three million, ten percent of the overall population. The majority of those killed were in the North, which had half of the population of the South; although the DPRK does not have official figures, possibly twelve to fifteen percent of the population was killed in the war, a figure close to or surpassing the proportion of Soviet citizens killed in World War II" - Charles K. Armstrong
On top of the loss of life, there's also the material damage. By the end of the war, the U.S. Air Force had, by its own estimations, destroyed somewhere around 85% of all buildings in the DPRK, leaving most cities in complete ruin. There are even stories of U.S. bombers dropping their loads into the ocean because they couldn't find any visible targets to bomb.
What you'll see below of Kaesong, then, provides both a rare glimpse of what life in North Korea looked like before the war, and a reminder of what was destroyed.
Kaesong's main street, pictured below.
Due the stifling sanctions imposed on the DPRKâwhich has, in various forms and intensities, been in effect since the 1950sâcar ownership is still low throughout the country, with most people getting around either by walking or biking, or by bus or train for longer distances.
Kaesong, which is regarded as an educational center, is also notable for its many KoryĆ-era monuments. A group of twelve such sites were granted UNESCO world heritage status in 2013.
Included is the Hyonjongnung Royal Tomb, a 14th-century mausoleum located just outside the city of Kaesong.
One of the statues guarding the tomb.
Before moving on the other cities, I also wanted to showcase one more of the DPRK's historical sites: Pohyonsa, a thousand-year-old Buddhist temple complex located in the Myohyang Mountains.
Like many of DPRK's historic sites, the temple complex suffered extensive damage during the Korean war, with the U.S. led bombings destroying over half of its 24 pre-war buildings.
The complex has since been restored and is in use today both as a residence for Buddhist monks, and as a historic site open to visitors.
Hamhung, the second largest city in the DPRK.
A coastal city located in the South HamgyĆng Province. It has long served as a major industrial hub in the DPRK, and has one of the largest and busiest ports in the country.
Hamhung, like most of the coastal cities in the DPRK, was hit particularly hard during the war. Through relentless aerial bombardments, the US and its allies destroyed somewhere around 80-90% percent of all buildings, roads, and other infrastructure in the city.
Now, more than seventy years later, unexploded bombs, mortars and pieces of live ammunition are still being unearthed by the thousands in the area. As recently as 2016, one of North Korea's bomb squadsâthere's one in every province, faced with the same cleanup taskâretrieved 370 unexploded mortar rounds... from an elementary school playground.
Experts in the DPRK estimate it will probably take over a hundred years to clean up all the unexploded ordnanceâand that's just in and around Hamhung.
Hamhung's fertilizer plant, the biggest in North Korea.
When the war broke out, Hamhung was home to the largest nitrogen fertilizer plant in Asia. Since its product could be used in the creation of explosives, the existence of the plant is considered to have made Hamhung a target for U.S. aggression (though it's worth repeating that the U.S. carried out saturation bombings of most population centers in the country, irrespective of any so-called 'military value').
The plant was immediately rebuilt after the war, andâbeyond its practical useâserves now as a monument of resistance to U.S. imperialism, and as a functional and symbolic site of self-reliance.
Chongjin, the third largest city in the DPRK.
Another coastal city and industrial hub. It underwent a massive development prior to the Korean war, housing around 300,000 people by the time the war broke out.
By 1953, the U.S. had destroyed most of Chongjin's industry, bombed its harbors, and killed one third of the population.
Wonsan, a rebuilt seaside city.
The city of Wonsan is a vital link between the DPRK's east and west coasts, and acts today as both a popular holiday destination for North Koreans, and as a central location for the country's growing tourism industry.
Considered a strategically important location during the war, Wonsan is notable for having endured one of the longest naval blockades in modern history, lasting a total of 861 days.
By the end of the war, the U.S. estimated that they had destroyed around 80% of the city.
Masikryong Ski Resort, located close to Wonsan. It opened to the public in 2014 and is the first, I believe, that was built with foreign tourists in mind.
Sariwon, another rebuilt city
One of the worst hit cities during the Korean War, with an estimated destruction level of 95%.
I've written about its Wikipedia page here before, which used to mockingly describe its 'folk customs street'âa project built to preserve old Korean traditions and customsâas an "inaccurate romanticized recreation of an ancient Korean street."
No mention, of course, of the destruction caused by the US-led aerial bombings, or any historical context at all that could possibly even hint at why the preservation of old traditions might be particularly important for the city.
Life outside of the towns and cities
In the rural parts of the DPRK, life primarily revolves around agriculture. As the sanctions they're under make it difficult to acquire fuel, farming in the DPRK relies heavily on manual labour, which again, to avoid food shortages, requires that a large portion of the labour force resides in the countryside.
Unlike what many may think, the reliance on manual labour in farming is a relatively "new" development. Up until the crisis of the 1990s, the DPRK was a highly industrialized nation, with a modernized agricultural system and a high urbanization rate. But, as the access to cheap fuel from the USSR and China disappeared, and the sanctions placed upon them by Western nations heavily restricted their ability to import fuel from other sources, having a fuel-dependent agricultural industry became a recipe for disaster, and required an immediate and brutal restructuring.
For a more detailed breakdown of what lead to the crisis in the 90s, and how it reshaped the DPRKs approach to agriculture, check out this article by Zhun Xu.
Some typical newly built rural housing, surrounded by farmland.
Tumblr only allows 20 pictures per post, but if you want to see more pictures of life outside Pyongyang, check out this imgur album.
#dprk#north korea#i've had this post unfinished in drafts for almost a year#also sorry about the spelling and potential formatting issues it's a nightmare to edit at this point#it was literally just meant to be a collection of picture and then the writing just sort of happened#enjoy the brief heritageposts history lesson i guess
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yeaaa sasha and levi have a complicated relationship â°ïž novel incoming so im sorry lmao
so when they were in middle school sasha (and teddy) figuratively saved levis life. yeah he physically fought the bullies to the point of getting into trouble himself but he also became something for levi who was new in town and extremely sensitive and felt all his emotions at 150% to lean on (and for a long time hide behind), and sasha who had lived his whole life just letting everything happen to him would have an active role in someones life.
levis situation made it so they spent a lot of time together and they actually got on well, esp because they all did (at this point different) sports. and from day 1 levi thought sasha was so. cool. (and at this point sasha was taller too). hed follow him anywhere. listen to the same music. wear the same clothes etc. and it was so good for sasha to make a friend other than his sister and teddy. and soon levi was able to express his loud personality (hyper competitive, confident, overly sensitive, no filter, you know right) and the three became inseparable
in time their dynamic as this "savior" and the "saved" gave them a lot of codependency, but they didnt see it like that. it was natural and they loved each other. they started dating in like the transition from middle school to high school and it was Serious like when uni started theyd been dating for over 4 years and they were like this is who im spending my life with/if it ever becomes legal then this IS the guy im going to marry
so bc levi was so happy during those years he was able to thrive when it came to his ambitions like he was working hard with volleyball and getting 10s after 10s in his studies and prep for med school and he does get accepted. so then uni starts and whoa? levi has to leave bc the only med school in the country is on the other side of it. uh oh....
they both dont know how to function without the other at this point but sasha doesnt voice any of his feelings (bc hes developing intensifying insecurities abt how he feels hes failing at... well, life, bc of the developments of both of their lives) and they say good bye with a promise that theyll call and visit as much as possible.
and levi struggles HARD in the beginning. the studies are hard, balancing volleyball with them is hard, and hes new in town again and his security is gone. but, he IS a different person from 7 years ago. he started gaining his independence quickly and adjusting to life in the capital and when he visited on christmas everything was already clear. sasha felt like he was slipping away from him bc he himself had no other things and no other futures he was working towards other than this relationship. levi didnt need him anymore and in fact he was becoming a doctor and hed be the one having to take care of sasha. even though they were finally together again sasha felt like they were worlds apart. even the way levi spoke was changing and becoming literally hard to understand.
so when levi returned to school it all started Actually going bad. bc sasha had let passivity poison his entire being instead of confronting his issues he started to withdraw and levi alone couldnt keep them going. eventually theyd only ever fight and levi for the first time let his meaner qualities target sasha. and it hurt him even more that no matter how awful he was sasha rlly didnt care enough abt him anymore to get angry back?
it WAS gradual though and this went on for SO. LONG. bc neither knew how to let go until finally at the end of their second year levi said enough to the limbo and once and for all ended their relationship. time passed and now levi after fighting so hard made team captain. and he hears sasha is also his teams captain and levi feels even more resentment bc he has had to crawl through blood and tears since middle school but sasha whos never aspired to anything can just become captain bc ????? (he has no idea). also sasha feels some type of way abt levi getting into a new relationship so "fast" and with the guy he knows became his roommate in their 2nd year... even tho he rlly has no business to lmaooo
so to finally answer the question in the post: levi feels so bitter and resentful and sasha is just swallowed up in his self loathing and rlly just doesnt want to see him again
which oc currently has a complicated relationship with an ex?
#notes to keep in mind for reading this!!!: 1. bc this is mostly covering the 'complications' aspect of their relationship there wasnt#rlly a chance to empasize how truly important and good the relationship was and how much happiness it brought. and they spent#their youth together so they still miss each other painfully much too. spoiler for this story i havent written hdkdjfkf but they do make up#at the end and its one of my fave parts everr. they probs wont ever be friends as close as they used to be bc they dont have nearly anythin#in common anymore and the memories will always be somewhat painful but theyll get closure#2. even tho they had a dynamic in their relationship it wasnt a POWER dynamic. again i have to emphasize it was a good happy relationship#and their dynamic worked until it didnt. simple as that#3. the timeline of one difficult first half a semester leading to the downfall of everything is very important#and you can rlly pinpoint the time during which i created this story đđđđ#this story was truly a way for me to cope with how difficult and life ruining starting uni was for me and in time i just built around that#again SORRY for this awful wall of text hdkdjsjdkd the whole life story isnt EXACTLY relevant to the post question#but i was like where else am i gonna get to talk abt this lmao#also this is the first time ive added a read more i hope it works.......#well now after posting i see that it doesnt actually work in the notes themselves which would be the most important lmao this is the worst
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@itachisrealm 27 with sukuna... kisses đ„șâ€ïž
Sukunaâs broad arm around your shoulder gently uses its hand to cup your jaw and pull you into a kiss, warm lips meeting yours in a manner that has you mewling happily. You strew your own arm across his body and curl into his side for another kiss, one he deepens eagerly.
âI love you,â you hum against him. Sukuna merely responds with a nibble of your lip, making you giggle softly.
The movie drones on in the back, but youâre curled more against him now, with your head on his shoulder and your legs over his lap, burrowed into his side while his hands cradle you close. Sukunaâs always been one to show his affection, rather than say it; heâs the textbook example of physical touch and quality time, not that youâve ever complained.
âHey,â he says again, a few minutes later. When you meet his eyes, he leans over to press another kiss to your lips, this time sweeter and more gentle than the prior. You hum happily before he pulls away with a kiss to your nose.
âYouâre awfully affectionate right now,â you tease, relishing in the way he grumbles. âWhat did you do?â
âCanât a man just be affectionate with his insignificant other?â
âYouâre my non-statistically significant other,â you prod. âBesides- I donât mind. Iâm just not used to it.â
âYeah, well⊠you know.â
ââŠno, I donât.â
He groans and drops his head to rest in the curve of your neck, âI just⊠want⊠to be close to you right now. Savor it, it doesnât happen often.â He presses small kisses to the base of your neck, warm hands splaying out over your hips to cradle you.
âAww, honey,â you tease softly. He stiffens, and youâre quick to lace your fingers in his hair to soothe him. You could tease him further, make him blush more and be even more of a mess.
But you do love when he gets like this. It is rare that it happens, and youâd hate to ruin it with some silly teasing and nonsense that you donât mean.
You turn your head to press a kiss to his temple, âI love you.â
âI love you.â
#sukuna#sukuna fluff#sukuna x reader#sukuna x reader fluff#sukuna x gn!reader#sukuna imagine#sukuna jjk#sukuna ryomen#sukuna ryomen fluff#sukuna ryomen x reader#sukuna ryomen x reader fluff#sukuna ryomen x gn!reader#sukuna ryomen imagine#sukuna ryomen jjk#jjk#Jjk fluff#jjk imagine#jjk x reader#jjk x gender neutral reader#jjk x gn!reader#jjk x reader fluff#jjk x you#jjk x y/n#jjk x yn
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When They Call You Clingy So You Distance Yourself| Maknaeline Pt1
Warnings: Cursing, Mentioning of Blood
Pt2 Pt3 Hyungline (xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx)
JISUNG|
There was nothing you loved more than Jisung's singing. Well maybe Jisung himself.
But from the moment you heard him sing you knew that it was game over for you. You didn't know what you had done to have God bless you with the off chance of running into the chubby cheeked boy on the street during a last-minute girls' trip - the result of a horrible breakup.
And you sure as hell didn't know what you did to have him become smitten with you at first glance, softly asking for your number - even though it was obvious you weren't going to stay long.
But after a week of non-stop texting and meme exchanging it was obvious the feeling was mutual so long distance was something you were willing to try.
And it was the best decision you had ever made. Two and a half years strong.
The last year you had spent in South Korea had been filled with wonderful memories too, and you quickly found yourself getting used to living life with Hanji.
"Sungie!" You burst into the studio and Jisung jumped in fear. "I brought you something!"
He turned around with wide eyes and his mouth opened slightly. "What is it?"
You handed him a couple of his favorite snacks and an energy drink. "I figured you were tired since the guys told me you didn't come back to the dorms..." You wrapped your arms around him and peeked over his shoulder at to what he was scribbling in his favorite, beat up notebook. "What are you writ-"
Jisung quickly closed his notebook. "N-nothing."
"Lemme see!" You giggle reaching for it again. He quickly pulled away. "Jiji you always show me your songs!" You said, not noticing his growing irritation.
"Y/N stop I don't want you to see this one." He said grabbing his notebook.
"Why not?" You whined, trying one last time to grab it. "Thats are thing you show me your songs even before you show the guys!"
Your hands folded around the broken metal spine and part of the papers themselves and Jisung pulled away with an extreme amount of force.
The small part of metal that had no home in the small holes of the spiral bound book hooked its way into your hand. And with Han's forceful pull, ripped open your skin as well in a thing but deep wound.
You hissed in pain slightly from a small paper cut on your middle finger, which was ironic considering the much deeper gash in the palm of your dominant hand.
"Dammit Y/N!" He snapped looking at his ripped pages.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to..." You said quietly.
"Well you did!" He mumbled turning his back on you looking for tape on Chan's cluttered desk.
"I'm sorry."
"Its whatever." Han mumbled, his back still turned to you.
You hold your wrist, you hand bloodied. "Jiji-"
"Y/N I want to be alone right now." His voice was firm, and you could tell he was trying to hide his growing anger. You wanted to respect his wishes but your injury seemed to throb even more by the second, even more blood spilling out.
You nodded but opened your mouth to speak again trying to ask him for help with your gushing hand. "I know but-"
"FUCK Y/N!" Jisung screamed slamming his hands on the table. "Just leave me alone! Stop being clingy for two seconds and give a moment to breathe! You just ruined something extremely important just because you don't know when to stop messing around."
You bit your cheek, trying to stop the tears that were pricking your eyes from falling.
You knew that Jisung was only calling you clingy to to get you to go away. To hurt you enough so you'd want to leave. He had done it before.
And even though it was a bad habit, it was proving really hard for him to break.
You quickly made your way out after watching your boyfriend for a few more seconds as he started tearing small pieces of tape from the dispenser.
And even still you couldn't help but have your heart flutter at his concentration as he bent down to carefully place pieces of tape on the ripped pages.
Dammit. Why do I always have to go and ruin things... You think to yourself as you head out to your car. Grabbing an extreme amount of paper towels to soak up the red liquid streaming from your hand.
You go to wipe your tears, but only smearing blood on your face causing even more tears of frustration, sadness and disappointment to fall from your eyes.
Fuck. I'm gonna need stitches.
You drove to the hospital, continously blinking to keep your vision clear through your emotional state. You were so focused on the road and replaying the whole situation that had just occurred in your head you didn't realize your phone was ringing.
Once you computed the ringning you frantically reached for your phone, so you could talk to Jisung - apologize, just talk things through - not remembering the state your hand was in and feeling it rip open even more, causing your phone to slip and a strangled cry of pain escape your lips.
Incoming call from - Jiji *heart emoji. angel emoji. squirrel emoji.*
Your phone had fallen in between the crack of your seat and you tried grabbing it while keeping your eyes on the road.
Incoming call from - Jiji *heart emoji. angel emoji. squirrel emoji.*
"Holy shit can't I-"
You heard the blaring of a horn and by instinct you turned opposite of the direction you heard it coming from, only to have the noise covered by metal crunching on metal.
Missed Call from - Jiji *heart emoji. angel emoji. squirrel emoji.*
Beeeep.
You have one new voicemail.
"Jagiya - I saw blood on my paper. Were you bleeding? Look, I know you probably don't feel like talking to me and that's valid. I say a lot of mean things to get space- and I know how wrong that is of me. Just...call me back okay? Let me know you're okay...there was...a lot...of blood. A lot...I'm worried. You can be mad but please just let me know, okay? I feel bad. I had a reason for hiding the lyrics; but it just seems stupid now. Because you got hurt because of me...I know I'm ranting but I'm worried sick. So please just...text or something. At least tell me you have the cut bandaged or something. Because baby if I would have realized sooner you were bleeding that much...God I feel like an idiot. Just call me, okay? Or you know what text if you don't feel like talking...just let me know your safe...the guys are worried too...you left a trail...God I feel so bad. Maybe I'm exaggerating but it looked like so much...I love you. Okay? I love you."
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FELIX|
You heard your front door unlock and looked behind you to see Felix walking in.
He slipped his shoes off and immediately headed towards the game room you had set up from an old study when you and him had frist started dating.
Your desk was still in the corner, but you had set up all of Felix's extra gaming things throughout the rest of the room. Stringing up LED lights and making it as aesthetically pleasing as possible since had taken a liking to filming some of his lives in that room once your relationship had gone public.
You got up from the couch and followed Felix into the room. He didn't seem like his usual cheery self. And his determined steps into the game room differed from his usually excited steps and leaned more towards annoyance.
"Lix is everything okay?" You asked, coming to stand by him. You placing the energy drink you were sipping on by him as you reach out to give him an embrace.
"I'm fine Y/N." He mumbled, trying to shake his PC awake. Then trying to turn on the LED's and lamp next to him. When they didn't turn on he tried plugging his phone in to the extra charger that he always kept plugged in at your home, groaning when that too didn't work.
"You seem upset love, you know I'm here for you."
"I said I'm fine." He snapped as he got up and started looking at the different wires connecting the lights and other various things in the room. "This damned thing."
You got up and looked at the wires yourself. "Let me see-"
"I got it, Y/N." Felix said sternly as he moved his makeshift desk back carefully from the wall enough to squeeze back there and look at the outlets.
At the same time you notice the extension cord didn't look like it was fully plugged in. You let out a small noise of acknowledgement and crawled under table to plug it in.
It was too bad Felix didn't notice your other hand resting on the ground for balance, as he stepped on it while trying to get a better look.
You yelped in pure shock, your head coming up to bang against the underside of the table- and Felix jumping back in surprise - and reaching out to balance himself but instead knocking over your drink onto his extremely expensive keyboard.
You had never heard so many profanities string from his mouth at once.
"I'll go get towels-"
"Are you fucking slow Y/N?!" His voice was harsh. Nothing like the gentle tone he always used with you. "Maybe you are. Would explain why you'd think a fucking corrosive drink could be easily cleaned from a keyboard. GOD." He groaned slamming his fist down.
"Felix I didn't-"
"I didn't know! I didn't know!" Felix mocked. "Well no shit you didn't know. Who in their right mind puts an open drink next to a set up that probably costs more than your monthly wages."
You felt your chin start to tremble and you tried to take a breath.
"You know maybe if you weren't clinging to me 24/7 this wouldn't have happened. Now thanks to you I have to find replacements." He grumbled pushing past you.
You turned to follow him like a lost puppy.
"Dammit did you not get the hint?!" He shouted turning back towards you. "You really are slow holy shit." He spat out.
You watched him make his way towards the door grabbing his keys and just walking out in his house slippers that's how angry you had made him.
"I can fix it..." You whimpered, trying to wipe your tears as you collected an arrangement of towels both dry and cloth. "I-I can f-fix itttt..." You whine as you hold the towels with shaky hands trying to mop up the mess.
"I-I'll fix-fix it-" You keep repeating to yourself until your vision is so blurred by tears the they flow over into the crevices of his precious keyboard. You try to soak up the mousepad he had customized, and the fabric of his chair.
"I'll...fix it..."
Soon enough those three words didn't sound like words you had said them so much.
Your hands were red and raw from scrubbing down the table so much. And you could barely even breath through your desperate cries.
His words kept ringing in your head.
He sounded so angry. You had never seen him like that. And it scared you. It scared you so much.
So much it had you considering if his accessories were the only thing he'd ever consider replacing.
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SEUNGMIN|
You sat in the dressing room, waiting for Seungmin to come back stage.
Tonight was the kickoff concert for their mini tour. Just ten destinations. A mix of normal venues, mini music festivals and things of such.
Ever since you and Seungmin had become a thing a little over three years ago, you had made it your mission to attend all of his concerts. While at first you flew under the radar of attendance- you soon became the "Where's Waldo" of sort when your relationship became public- stays doing everything they could to spot you in the crowd.
Tonight was no different other than the fact that everything went abswolutely horrible.
Malfunction after malfunction. Although most of the Stays were too preoccupied with the the visuals and the improv to really care about the mistakes on the crew end of thing.
And you had come backstage to tell Seungmin the same thing that all the Stays in the crowd had been thinking.
You did great.
Most of the time on Seungmin's shorter trips you stayed out of his way. Calling him and just infroming him of the different places you were visting in the cities, and asking if he would like any specific souvenirs. Thats the way you balanced out most. Thats the way things had worked and you figured they would continue to work...
Until Seungmin came in,.
"What are you doing here?" He asked throwing his jacket on the closest chair, and immediately going to strip off his shirt.
"I just wanted to come in and see how you were doing." You said quietly- gently.
"Appreciate it but you're not exactly helping my situation. I come into the dressing room for a breather - some space but your in here." He sighs grabbing a towel and trying to soak up his sweat.
You frown and look at him, his puppy eyes clouded with frustration.
"I just wanted to tell you that you did good...none of that was your fault. I just wanted to make sure you were aware of that..."
"Y/N. You're getting overwhelming. Seeing you home, at the studio in the audience- I can't catch a fucking break. Its like you're acting as my fucking shadow- clinging on to me wherever I go. Normal couples don't do that." He said as he stepped behind a portable stall to change completley.
You opened your mouth but closed it quickly, not wanting to start something you knew Seungmin was more than likely to finish.
"Like everytime I see you it's such a burden really..." Seungmin came out drying his sweaty hair with a smaller towel. "Like don't you ever get sick of seeing me all the time?" He gives out a smile and a laugh, but his eyes don't crinkle the same way they usually do.
You bite your cheek. "No...why would I get sick of seeing you? Why...would I ever see you as a burden?"
Your boyfriend looks at you in the reflection of the mirror, and turns to see the pain in your eyes.
"I came back here to comfort you Min...but instead you want to find ways to tear me down? So effortlessly at that?" Your voice is growing in pitch by the second but getting quieter and quiter. "I've spent three years supporting you in everything that you do. I've spent money to surprise you on trips Seungmin! When you know I don't have the money to do that!" Seungmin flinches when you use his full name. It had been so long since he heard anything other than a nickname fall from your lips when talking to him. "I always put you before me...am I really that much of a burden to you Seungmin?"
The quiet boy just looked at you.
"Dammit say something!" You exclaimed.
"I...don't know what you want me to say Y/N...I appreciate you coming to my concerts. I do...but don't you have another life outside of me?"
You clenched your jaw. "You're geniunely asking me that? When we've spent over three years together?"
Seungmin sighed. "You know I don't mean it like that..."
"Then how do you mean it?"
He fidgeted and opened his mouth to say something but bit his tongue and thought for a second more.
"You know what...maybe you're right Seungmin." You grab your purse and coat.
"Where are you going?" He asked, a bit of panic creeping into his voice.
"Away." You mumbled. "You're right Seungmin. I don't have a life outside of you. And maybe that's why this doesn't feel so right anymore."
You reach for the door and you feel both his hands wrap around your arm.
"B-Baby...y...you don't mean that...you don't." He pleaded softly. You watched as his brown eyes searched your face for any bluff. "We're right...we feel right-we we fit right..." His voice took a little pitiful whine to it and you felt as if you just kicked a puppy.
Right now he looked like a kicked puppy.
You had to turn your face away so he couldn't see your walls built in anger break.
Because no matter how petty you could be you wouldn't do that to Seungmin.
Would you?
"Seungmin...you think you can just go and say those things...the things that effortlessly hurt me?" You took a deep breath. "It's like you put no thought into how you crack my heart."
Not break. He couldn't break it...
"Jagiya...please...please stay?"
Couldn't my ass. He damn well could. And two could play that game.
"I'm leaving." You said pulling your arm from him roughly, knowing that you ripping yourself from the embrace you relied on so much would hurt him the most.
"You don't mean it...we're both frustrated...Jagiya..."
You decided not to look back as you walked out the door.
Knowing just how quickly your resolve you fold if you saw just how easily Seungmin's heartbreak was painted on to him.
You knew you'd fold the second you saw how his heartbreak mirrored your own.
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JEONGIN|
Please leave a message after the tone.
You groan as you guide yourself to the counter, holding onto it trying to find unwavering land in the battle of dizziness you were fighting.
Please leave a message after the tone.
"Pick up..." You groan as you try to hit the call button for Jeongin, your vision was clouded and you mistakenly pressed your second most recent call.
"Y/N? What's up?"
"Ji...Jisung...grab Jeongin for me?"
"Y/N...he's a little...irked right now. We were poking fun at him when you called but I think we went a bit too far... I don't think its the best idea..."
"Jisung, please?"
You heard Jisung shuffle around, and you heard the crunching of leaves as he made his way towards the sound of loud laughter.
"Innie! Your girlfriend is one the phone!"
You think you're hearing things when you hear Jeongin's distinct groan- but you don't have time to think about it before you hear all of his elder group members "ooh" and "ahh" at the youngest member.
"What is it?" The annoyance in his voice is evident.
"Innie...I don't feel good." You say steadying yourself on the counter. Your hands are slick with sweat, just like the rest of your body.
"Y/N I don't know what you want me to do about that." He says, covering the mic to yell something at the members- who are making kissing noises and mimicking romantic music in the background. "I'm hours away and I'm not gonna be back until Monday."
You whimper as you lower yourself onto the ground, your head swimming with dizziness - all while feeling as if someone tigthened a rubber band around your noggin.
"Stop being so dramatic and take medicine if its that bad." He finally says. "It's embarassing to have you blow up my phone while I'm on a guys trip - and even more embarassing for you to blow up my friends phones as well."
Something about the way he says my makes your heart sting slightly. As if you hadn't cultivated friendships with the guys as well.
"Maybe if you had answere-"
"Just stop Y/N! I'm not a baby! And having you cling to me...its making the guys think that. I mean don't you see how annoying that looks? Childish? Being clingy is downright childish."
You can't really focus on Jeongin's angry rant because you vision is getting blurry, and your head is throbbing so horribly, and your body is getting so clammy you can't focus on anything other than how shitty you feel.
"I think I'm gonna pass out-"
You hear Jeongin's exasperated huff. "You always have to make it about you don't you?! I'm trying to tell you how I want you sto stop blowing up my phone so damn much while I'm with the guys and you're here being dramtic. We're adults Y/N. We don't have to rely on each other for everything! So just lay down if your feeling that bad. I don;t cal you for everything."
You groan into the phone. "Jeongin-"
"Holy shit Y/N, can't you take a hint? For fuck's sake...I'll talk to you Monday." He said before hanging up, his tone exuding the aura of a typical "too-cool-for-anyone" teen boy or more specifically a hormonal attitude filled PMS monster.
You take a second to breathe, the nausea that was hitting you in waves only coming in faster and stronger.
You scrolled through your contacts and just clicked on one. Your fingers were trembling and you could barely press the speaker button before dropping your phone to the ground in a moment of weakness.
I'm gonna pass out...just...a minute longer...wait until someone answers...
You decided to not delay the inevitable and just lay on the cool ground that you'd end up on anyway. Might as well save yourself from an uneccassary bump.
"Hello?"
"I think I'm gonna faint..." You groan.
"The fuck? Y/N? What? I'm on my way I'm at the studio I'll be there in a minute..."
You give a small hmm and lean more into the floor if that was possible.
It brought you back to when you were a child, and would decide to randomly nap on the ground.
Maybe I am childish...
Maybe he was right...
You're mine clears as your mind goes static then black as if a switch turned on.
"Y/N? Y/N!"
When you open your eyes your blinded by lights and instantly annoyed by the beeping of mulitple machines.
"Y/N-ie!" You see the smiling faces of Chaeryeong and Yeji. Then Ryujin, Lia and Yuna's faces pop around you too.
"The doctor said your blood sugar was extremley low." Yeji said grabbing your hands. "He said that they're gonna run a few more tests on you too see what the cause of it was."
"We were worried sick when you called Chaer so we all came!" Lia exclaims.
You smiled gratefully, your head still throbbing slightly.
"Thank you." You said quietly.
"I called Changbin." Chaeryeong commented. "I thought it was best that one of the Kids relay the message to your boyfriend."
You pop up in bed, the sudden movement dizzying you. "What? What did you say?"
"I just told him we found you past out in your kitchen. At that point we didn't know what caused it...so all I said is we were bringing you to the hospital."
"Your boyfriend has been calling your phone for the last hour and a half." Yuna says nodding towards your phone.
26 missed calls.
"Hah...so he calls me clingy and childish then proceeds to call my phone 26 times?" You groan as you throw yourself back onto the hospital bed.
The ITZY girls look at you with sympathetic looks, Yeji squeezing your hands gently as well.
"Fuck it." You mumble, a fit of anger bubbling inside you as you swiped away all the call notifications, an insurge of pettiness filling you. "Clingy and childish my ass. I'll show him what that actually looks like."
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TWENTY-SIX MONTHS
Before Todoroki Shoto came Pro Hero Shoto. You would be a fool to think he would pick the first before the other. You would be a fool to think that you, a citizen with no name, could ever stand by his side.
â starring. baby daddy!todoroki shoto x fem!reader
â tags. miscommunication trope, angst, pregnancy and giving birth, friends with benefits, vague relationships, running away, slight single parent!au
â warnings. ages are unmentioned, but shoto is in his late 20s/early 30s, smut, soft sex, cunnilingus, praise, p in v, use of petnames (baby, pretty girl), reader gets called a good girl once, shoto is highkey a munch
â word count. 8.2k
â requested? no
â notes. this one ruined me tbh LOL i have a nasty habit of slipping btw present and past tense so the tenses in this one might be all over the place :')))
Whatever you and Todoroki Shoto had together, you knew it wasnât romantic.
You were his outlet. His source of relaxation when being a hero became too much to bear on his shoulders alone. You were fantastical. You were illusionary. With you, he was no longer Pro Hero Shoto, Number Three Hero. With you, he was just Shoto. And for your moments away from the world hidden beneath wrinkled sheets and closed curtains, that was enough for him. When morning came, and those curtains had to be drawn, he would become Pro Hero Shoto again, and you would wake up to an empty bed.
For you, he was everything.
For you, he was your hero before he became a Pro. He saved you from succumbing to the stress of standing out to survive as a support class student. He saved you from your insecurities and false ambitions, and he saved you from living a life you didnât truly want. Todoroki Shoto was your best friend before he became the man shrouded in shadow â the man you hid away in secrecy to bed whenever he wanted.
He told you he would be gone for a while. A mission in upper Kyoto that took him away from your arms while you stayed safe in Tokyo. He assured you that he would be fine and return to you as soon as possible. If you were a fool, you mightâve taken those to heart and swooned under the pretense of love. But you knew better.
Before Todoroki Shoto came Pro Hero Shoto. You would be a fool to think he would pick the first before the other. You would be a fool to think that you, a citizen with no name, could ever stand by his side. In your eyes, Shoto put his work before himself. Admirable, strong, ever-the-reliable Pro Hero Shoto. The nights he spent with you as just Shoto made you wonder who else got to see his true self.
The second month of his absence came, and you were sick. An illness had overtaken you, leaving you bedridden for days on end. At first, it had just been nausea. You put it off as motion sickness â you often had to take the train to and from anywhere. Perhaps your stomach had simply met its limit and was taking it out on you with lashes of sickness and vomiting.
After a week of being washed away in your bile, you realized that you had yet to bleed that month. Rather, you realized you hadnât had your monthly bleeding for a while. You werenât stupid. You knew what it all meant, and you knew the consequences of your actions had finally caught up to you. You hid away from the world, only leaving to purchase tests from the store.
The answers mocked you. PREGNANT. TWO MONTHS+.
You considered getting rid of it. To keep it your dirty little secret. Shoto would never have to know â no one would ever have to know. But as you stared at your reflection in the mirror, your hand resting atop your stomach, you felt at peace for once. As if you finally had a reason to keep going.
Five months had passed since he was gone, and you felt it now more than ever. You never explained to any of your friends or neighbours who was responsible for the swelling of your tummy, nor about the packages of furniture fit for a nursery that showed up on your doorstep. They never asked. No one knew your trysts with Shoto, and you planned to keep it that way.
For his sake.
You wished. You desperately wished that he could stay by your side, that he could support you through this time of anxiety and worry. You daydreamed of welcoming him home, your little bundle of joy wrapped in your arms as you kissed Shoto on the cheek â a reward for working hard as he always did. You thought about spending more than just nights of pleasure with the two-toned man, about wearing his ring and raising your beloved child together.
As a family.
Thirteen months had passed since you last saw Todoroki Shoto.
Thirteen long, gruelling, and lonely months were spent mourning his absence, even though he was still alive somewhere. It felt like the clouds that followed you for weeks parted only when your son was born. He looked like you. He had your nose and your eyes. He had the same rounded cheeks you still adorn, even well into adulthood. His voice was like bells on a clear sunny day, and when he lay in your arms, you declared that you would love him for all you were worth.
Even if the tuft of red and white on his head brought you immense heartache.
A selfish part of you wished that nothing of your son, whom youâve named Yami, would resemble his father. That way, you could truly hide his origins â your past that you refused to uncover. But the bigger part of you was overjoyed. The moment you laid eyes on his hair, matted down with blood and amniotic fluid, you sobbed uncontrollably. The nurses and midwife recognized the two-toned hair immediately and watched you with pitiful eyes as you clutched Yami to your chest.
You moved away the second you were discharged from the hospital, baby carrier in tow. You wished your neighbours well and thanked them for being so kind to you in the years you lived among them. You were gone within that same week.
You lived peacefully in your new home, tucked away in the countryside of southern Japan. You opted to stay away from TVs and the internet, worried that seeing his face might make you regret the rash decision to pick up and leave. Yami was growing quickly, already large for a four-month-old. His hair grew out, more red than white.Â
You didnât know if Shoto had made it back from his mission. If he did, you werenât sure how long he had been back or whether he had sustained any injuries. You didnât know if he went to your apartment to search for his fantasy. You didnât know if he thought of you at all.
You didnât know if he was alive.
The longer you spent away from the man, the more your heart yearned for him. Whenever Yami would quiet down for his nap, you stared out the window at the acres of empty farmland. In the vastness of space, you could only think of him. The man who had taken your heart from the tender age of fifteen. The man who possessed your life in his hands, though your essence seemed invisible to those blue and grey eyes.Â
The fool in you wondered if he ever had feelings for you â if he ever burned for you the way you did for him.Â
You felt like a dessert. Scorched inside and empty. Golden sands represented himâburning to the touch and yet all-encompassing. Even without him by your side, he was always there. He surrounded you, dragging you in, and you let him.
Yamiâs babbling would always break you out of your reverie, the pangs of guilt and sorrow gnawing away at your still-beating heart. The routine remained the same, day after day. After he woke up from his nap with an incoherent cry for his mother, you would settle him onto your lap and cry. You sobbed into his soft tufts of hair, apologizing for taking him away from his father, for hiding him away from the world just because you were a coward.
Yami was your darkness. He was your uncovered secret.Â
Two years and two months had passed since you last saw Todoroki Shoto.
Yami was seventeen months old and starting to look more and more like his father. He took his first steps earlier than any parenting book had told you he would, and it wasnât long after when he said his first word. It seemed the world was against you, and the universe was punishing you for keeping Yami away. You broke down for the first time in a while when that first word hit your ears.
âDa⊠DadaâŠâ
You werenât alone in your silent, unspoken wishes to be at Shotoâs side. Poor Yami, who had never met his father, spoke Shoto into existence with that one word.
âMy baby,â you sobbed, hugging Yami tightly to you as he babbled, repeating those two syllables over and over. âMy poor baby. Iâm sorry. Iâm so sorry. Mommyâs so sorry, my babyâŠâ You rocked back and forth, crying endlessly. Yamiâs hands grasped at your clothes, hair, and face. His little round features twisted into a grimacing cry as he watched tears pour from your tired eyes for a reason he didnât yet understand.
The day he spoke his first word was when you showed him a picture of his father for the first time. Recognition flashed behind rounded eyes, recognition for a man heâd never met.
While you were grocery shopping â Yami balanced on your hip, a paper bag full of produce in the other arm â you heard Shotoâs name.
âDidnât you hear? Pro Hero Shoto is here! In town!â
âIsnât that weird? Why would such a hotshot be here, of all places? We arenât even on most mapsâŠâ
âWho cares?! Do ya think I can get an autograph?â
You break out into a run without paying attention to the rest of the conversation. You hold Yami to your chest, supporting his head as you run with all your might. The paper bag of fruit and vegetables lay forgotten behind you, surely to be crushed by any passing vehicles. You run until you canât run anymore, chest heaving in exhaustion. Using your object manipulation quirk, you open the front door to your house without taking your hands off Yami.
You whisper sweetings into his ear, telling him everything would be okay. Maybe you were telling yourself.
Not long after you returned home, the door rattled with a gentle knock. The very door you locked moments ago. You hold your breath, not wanting to see anyone. You didnât want to see him.
Your name was spoken in that soft voice you missed so much. Before you could stop him, Yami started sobbing, his high-pitched cries alerting the person outside that you were there. You shush Yami desperately, rocking him back and forth in an attempt to calm him down. You kiss his forehead, silently begging him to stop crying.
Your name was called out again, this time panicked and louder. Yamiâs cries increase in volume, and you feel your eyes water all the same.
The door hinges begin to frost over, and itâs knocked down in seconds. The loud noise scares your son, causing him to sob uncontrollably as he grasps painfully at your hair. You hide him behind you as you face the intruder head-on. Without blinking an eye, you use your quirk to lift the door off the ground, pushing it against the intruder, hoping to push him out completely.
The door is pushed away easily. After all, you are no match for Pro Hero Shoto.
He has gotten larger in the twenty-six months since you last saw him. His shoulders grew broader, his hero uniform barely hiding the dense but lean muscle that hid beneath it. His hair was longer, falling into his eyes as if he didnât have time to take care of it. The man in front of you looks different from the man you knew, but it is undoubtedly him.
He breathes out your name, steam rolling off his left side and icicles glistening atop his skin on his right. He steps over the forgotten door, into your house, and into your safe haven, large and commanding of your attention. You try to make yourself bigger, to hide Yami from his eyes, and perhaps to hide your shame as you stare at the father of your child.
âI looked for you everywhere,â he gravels, his voice deep and crackling with emotion. âI came home, and you were gone. Do you have any idea how fucking scary that was?! No one knew where you were, and your apartment was empty. I didnât know if you were safe, I didnât know if you were aloneâŠâ Shoto steps closer to you, anger seeping into his expression. âFor fuckâs sake, I didnât know if you were alive!â
Your heart hammers in your chest as he grows closer, his fists clenching angrily by his side. His eyes search you desperately, searching for any sign of injury or abuse. They trace over your wrists and ankles, perhaps looking for signs that you were held here not on your own will, that you didnât leave him just because you wanted to.
You pick your brain for the right words to say. You have thought about this day for years, and now that heâs in front of you, you donât know what to think. Your mind is a mess of shame and joy, your heart struggling in a fight against itself. Analyzing him, your eyes rake over his body. There were a few more scars you donât remember, some fine lines on his face that werenât there before, but it was him.
As your brain wraps around the fact that Shoto was really there after over two years, Shoto collapses to his knees in front of you. He all but crawls over to you as he shoves his face into your thighs. Hot, stinging tears hit your skin as he cries into your lap, his hands reaching to hold you. Large, calloused fingers grasped at your thighs, pulling you closer to him.
âI was so scared,â he admits, his body shaking as he cries silently. âI thought⊠I thought a villain had taken you.â
Your hands hover behind you, keeping Yami hidden. His cries have thankfully subsided the second Shoto entered the room, but you werenât sure for how long that would last. You can feel him grabbing at your shirt, trying to peek around you. Resisting the urge to wipe away Shotoâs tears, you grip onto your son tightly.
âHow did you know I was here?â You lick your dry lips, wincing at how raspy your voice is. The first words spoken to this man in over two years are painted over with wariness and caution, very unlike the words of encouragement and longing you had given him your last night together. âNo one knew I was here. Not even my family, so how did youâŠâ You trail off, unsure if you want to know the answer to this question.
Shoto pulls away from your lap, looking up at you with bloodshot eyes and tear-stained cheeks. âI searched for you every day. I never stopped once I realized you were gone. I was in communication with every hero in this fucking country, hoping that one day one of them would spot you.â He hastily wipes his cheeks, his trembling hands remaining at your side.
âWhy did you go?â he asks in a whisper. His voice, low and cracking, is broken as he speaks. âWhy did you leave me? Did I do something? Was IâŠâ Shoto swallows thickly as his insecurities taint his mind. âWas I not good to you? Did I make you leave?â
His endless questions send you for a loop. In front of you was not Pro Hero Shoto, but just Shoto. Your Shoto, the one you long for in your dreams. The one who paints your every happy memory and the one whose name you whisper into the dead of night.
And yet, as you feel Yamiâs tiny hands grab your arm, you canât answer any of his questions.
âDadaâŠ!â
The both of you freeze, and the world stands still for a moment. Shotoâs trembling gaze slowly left yours, meeting the eyes of the toddler behind you. The first thing Shoto notices is his hair â bright red with streaks of white bleeding through. He feels his heart stop and start again, his hold on you finally slipping as his body goes somewhat limp. He falls back onto his heels, fully kneeling before you now.
Snapping out of it, you turn around and take Yami into your arms, facing away from Shoto as you shush the poor baby, calming him down quietly. Shoto can only watch as you handle him with a gentle care he isnât privy to.
Without sparing another glance at Shoto, you start to walk away. He calls out your name hastily, and you can hear him clamber to his feet. Swallowing harshly, you look at him over your shoulder. Shoto looks out of place in your cozy living room, too large for the space. And yet, he appears small. His shoulders are hunched in as he reaches out to you with a face that begs you not to leave.
âHe⊠needs to be put down for his nap,â you whisper, kissing Yamiâs temple. âWe⊠can talk after.â
Before you can regret your words, you head into his nursery, painted a soft yellow. You coo at your son, gently resting him in the large crib that took up most of the roomâs space. You hum a lullaby to him as you stroke his hair, looking down at him with nothing but love.
Even long after he fell asleep, you donât move. You stay there for a while, watching Yami so closely you donât notice the presence at the door.
Shotoâs voice comes in a whisper. âHe⊠He is mine, isnât he?â
You can only nod, shame filling your soul as tears slip from your watery eyes. âHis name is Yami,â you speak, your voice cracking.
Shoto flinches but waits patiently as he watches you come to a stand. He doesnât rush you as you place Yamiâs favourite stuffed animals by his side, leaning down and kissing his forehead before approaching Shoto.
âLetâs talk in my room,â you whisper, glancing at Yami before shutting the door behind you.Â
The two of you enter your room, the stifling air suffocating you as you shuffle over to your bed. Shaky hands reach for your pillows as you keep your back to the Todoroki, fluffing them to keep yourself busy. Your throat feels grating as you swallow down harshly. The room feels both hot and freezing, which you assume is his doing.
He doesnât say anything either as he stares at the back of your head. Your hair looks different from the last time he saw you, and the clothes over your body arenât articles he can remember you own. He thinks back to that night when quiet goodbyes were whispered between sweaty sheets. He wonders what went wrong.
His eyes wander, his frightful gaze tearing away from you only to look around your room. There are remnants of you everywhere. Family pictures hang from the walls, and old posters he vaguely remembers from your apartment are pasted against grey paint. It was you, but different. It wasnât as colourful as your old room, and your trinkets are either out of sight or gone altogether.
When his eyes rest on you once more, a million questions run through his mind. Why did you leave him without a word? Images of your child, the very one who bore a striking resemblance to himself, flash in the forefront of his mind.
âHow have you been?â you croak out after too many beats of silence. Hugging a pillow to your chest, you turn ever so slightly, only glancing at him from the corner of your eye as if it were painful to even look at him. Perhaps it is.Â
Shoto can only stare at you in disbelief, his brows curling upward as his heartache shines through. âHow have I been?â he repeats breathily, his low voice raising half an octave. His mouth opens, but the words die on his tongue. Only after an excruciatingly long moment does he find the words again. âIâve been miserable. You were gone.â
You wince at the strain in his voice, gripping the pillow even tighter. Your knuckles whiten under your tight hold. âIâm sorry,â you whisper pathetically, swallowing the lump in your throat painfully.
âWhy?â he asks again, his voice cracking as he takes a tentative step toward you. âWhy did you disappear?â Shoto reaches for you, stopping just short of grabbing you by the shoulders. He canât tell if he wants to shake you until you see sense or hug you and never let go.
âI had to,â you urge, finally meeting his eyes. Your breath hitches, and you regret turning to him, but now you canât look away. Those mismatched eyes that used to bore into yours with unreadable emotion as he draped his body over yours were tired, dull, and pained.
Shoto is the first to break eye contact, staring at your floorboards as he attempts to string together his thoughts. âWas it me?â
With furrowed brows, you shake your head no. âShotoââ
âIf I knew,â he rushes out, interrupting you. His gaze drops to your stomach, and he imagines what you mightâve looked like, swollen with his child. âIf I knew, I wouldâve come back sooner. Fuck the mission, you needed me and IâŠâ He cuts himself off, bringing his hands up to your shoulders. His grip is tight enough to force you to look at him straight on, yet gentle. You think you can feel them trembling over your clothes, but you arenât sure if youâre imagining it or not. âIâm so sorry,â he almost cries. The pillow in your hands falls to the carpeted floor, but neither of you cares to pay attention to it.
âShoto, no,â you whisper, cupping his cheeks as you press your lips together. You thumb away his unshed tears. âThatâs not why I left.â
âThen why?â he breathes.
You purse your lips, biting at the inside of your cheek as you reflect on those lonely nights spent under cold blankets. âYouâre a hero,â you speak slowly. âI never had a place in your life, Shoto, not really. Iâm a nobody. If⊠If I stayed, I would have been holding you back. You deserved more than that.â
Shoto narrows his eyes at you. âI deserve you,â he blurts, his tongue stained with vexation at the mere implication of your words. You watch as his lower lip wobbles momentarily before he steels his expression. âIt isnât your place to decide whether or not you should be in my life. Thatâs something for me to decide, but you took that away from me.â
âTook what away, Shoto?â you exclaim, raising your voice for the first time that day. âThe sex? The comradery? You could have easily found that in someone else.â It hurts to admit, but you know itâs true. During those days together, you were a mere placeholder for someone better than you. Someone who could relate to him more than a nobody civilian could ever hope to.
After all, Pro Hero Shoto could have anyone he wanted.
Any anger left in his body dissipates as his body tenses. His face scrunches into something painful, mouth ajar and eyes wide as his grip on your shoulders tightens slightly. âWhat?â he whispers, the word dripping from his tongue like ice water. âWhat are you talking about?â The room feels like itâs dropped a few degrees, and if the frost that clings to his skin is any indication, it might have.
Averting your gaze, you try to wedge yourself out of his tight hold, but he doesnât let you, taking another step forward. Youâre practically chest-to-chest as he shakes your shoulders gently. âWhat are you talking about?â he repeats with an urgent tongue. âSomeone else? What are you talking about?â
You heave a sigh. âDonât play dumb, Shoto. Youâre⊠you. You could easily find someone to replace me.â
âIs that what you think?â he breathes harshly, steam rolling off his skin, melting the frost. âThat youâre just some replaceable body in my bed? Do you really think that lowly of me?â His expression twists as he reaches up to cup your jaw. His touch is burning, and yet you find yourself leaning into his palm.
âIsnât it the truth?â you murmur, your voice catching. âIâm not anyone special, Shoto.â
âYouâre my girlfriend,â he spits out, angry at the notion that you were a nobody. âYouâre special to me. Isnât that all that matters? I couldnât care less about the fact that youâre not a hero. That never mattered to me, so donât give me that bullshit.â
Your eyes snap open as you stare at Shoto in shock. You feel your body freeze over, and suddenly, your lungs are empty. â... What did you call me?â you croak.
Shoto stares deeply into your eyes, his own darting back and forth as he tries to read you. âMy girlfriend.â His voice wavers as he tries to understand why you look so confused.
âWe werenât dating,â you cry incredulously. âWhat are you talking about?â You watch Shoto as realization washes over his distraught expression and something within you cracks. âShoto, what are you talking about?â you ask again with a frantic pull to your voice. Shotoâs hands slip from your shoulders.
âWerenât we?â he whispers quietly, any strength sapping from his body as he limply stands before you.
With your heart beating faster than ever, your breath leaves chapped lips in uneven puffs of strangled air. âWe never talked about being anything more than justâŠâ You trail off, the past couple of years draping over your shoulders, weighing you down heavily.
âYou thought I was with you for the sex?â Shoto doesnât know how to feel or how to act. His face twists as several emotions run through him before his mind settles on heartache. His multicoloured eyes try to meet yours, but youâve already looked away. He moves his body, craning his neck to take a good look at you. He wants to see you. He wants you to see him. He utters your name in a broken whisper. âIt was never just sex for me, baby,â he declares, his voice cracking in sorrow. âYou had to have known that.â
He moves closer, cradling your face as he gently forces you to look at him. When he sees the indecisive glaze thatâs taken over your eyes, he feels his heart break just a little more. âPlease tell me you knew. That you know it was more than that.â
You blink away tears, your chest rising and falling quickly as you meet his intensive gaze. âYouâd only come to me at night,â you mutter, caught between wanting to lean into his touch and wanting to pull his hands off of you. âYou never stayed. You were always gone in the morning, Shoto. What was I supposed to believe?â
Shoto fights back a wince as he mulls over your words. He sighs, absentmindedly rubbing your cheeks with his thumbs. âI was so busy with hero work,â he murmurs in horror-filled realization, frowning at himself. He shakes his head, his shaggy hair falling into his eyes. âThatâs not an excuse. I should have tried harder to be around. But it was never just sex for me.â
His throat bobs as he swallows thickly, his forehead coming down to rest against yours. His eyes flutter closed, wet eyelashes sticking together as he lets out a trembling breath. âPlease believe me, baby,â he pleads quietly. âIâll be better. Iâll show you I love you. Iâll make sure you know this time, so pleaseâŠâ
Those three words pull the air from your lungs, but when he opens his eyes, youâre left truly breathless. Love, sorrow, and regret swirl in his blue and grey hues. You donât remember the last time youâve looked at Shoto like this. âPlease come back to me.â
âShotoââ
âIâll stop being a hero,â he interrupts you, a deep frown tugging at his lips. âIf thatâs what it takes.â
You make a face, your brows knitting together tightly. âDonât be stupid, Shoto,â you hush. âBeing a hero is your life. Iâd never ask you to throw that away for me.â
âYouâre my life,â he presses. One of Shotoâs hands moves to cup the back of your head, carding through your hair. âOur child will be my life. You matter more to me than anything else.â
Sighing, you close your eyes as you lean into his touch. âIâd be even more upset if you gave up,â you murmur. âI understand that being a hero leaves you with little free time. Soââ
âNo,â Shoto cries out. âDonât make excuses for me. I shouldâve tried harder. I should have realized things between us werenât clear.â He pauses for a moment, his brow bone tensing as he bites at his lip. âDo you love me?â
With a softened gaze, you knock on his forehead with a weak fist. âYouâve always been it for me, Sho.â
Shoto smiles at the nickname, a slight tick of the corner of his mouth. If you hadnât been so close and hadnât known his expressions as well as you did, you mightâve missed it. He leans closer, his nose brushing against your cheek as he kisses your tear-stained skin sweetly. âI love you,â he hushes, tugging you closer. His fingertips trail up your spine until theyâre entwined in your hair. âI love you.â
A shiver runs down your spine at the sensation as you curl into him. Your hands trail up his broad chest as you wrap your arms around his neck. Inhaling deeply, you stare at him in hesitation. âIs this real?â you murmur, your mind swirling with the vivid dreams youâve procured over the years. âYouâre really here, right? And you reallyâŠâ
âI love you,â he says again. He says it one, two, three more times, whispering into the side of your neck and he nudges himself into the empty space. His lips, which are cold against your blistering heat, brush against your earlobe as he all but whimpers your name. âThis is real. Iâm here, baby.â
You canât help but believe him, your eyes closing as he presses kiss after kiss on your skin, moving down your neck until heâs reached your collarbones. He nips at the spot, his tongue jutting out to soothe the darkening mark heâs left behind. âSho,â you scold weakly, your nails scraping against his scalp gently as you brush his hair out of his face.
Shoto grins boyishly at you, his hands resting on your hips as he guides you backwards, stepping over the forgotten pillow you dropped. âLet me show you,â he breathes out, looking down at you with wide eyes until he has you sat on the edge of your unmade bed. âLet me show you how much I love you.â
Then, he pauses, a brief flash of bashfulness flickering behind his embering gaze. âPlease?â
Youâre reaching out for him before you can answer, tugging him down to your height. You donât reply with words, pressing desperate lips against his as you pull him over you until heâs pinned over your trembling body. Strong forearms rest beside your head, his skillful tongue swiping along the seam of your mouth. You almost moan at his tasteâa taste you never forgot.
Shoto slants himself against you, your bodies resembling a mess of limbs. He flips you over with ease, strong hands gripping your hips to seat you atop his shaking lap. The shivers that run down the expanse of his body donât go unnoticed, and you peck his lips once, then twice, before pulling away. Heâs staring up at you breathlessly, lust-blown eyes dark but widened as he takes in the sight of you.
âAre you okay?â you whisper, stroking along the edge of his scar. Shoto leans into your palm, his eyes briefly fluttering closed, relishing in your warmth that he was deprived of for so long.
âIâm okay,â he murmurs back, brushing his lips against your palm. âIâve just missed you so much.â
Your heart aches at his soft-spoken admission, and you kiss him again to tell him I missed you, too. This kiss is sweeter than the last, softer in its closed-mouth motions. His hand reaches up to palm your jawline, his other remaining on your hip. He sighs into you, breaking the kiss to leave fleeting pecks over your cheeks. âMy pretty girl,â he whispers into your skin.
His hand trails up and down your side, as he gently pushes you against his growing erection. You let out a whimper at just how hard he already is, the tent pushing against your clothed cunt teasingly. Grinding your hips down, you relish in the gasp Shoto lets out. Busying his hands with the hem of your loose tee, he pushes himself off of the bed to chase your lips.
Shoto kisses you with a fervour you damned yourself for running away from. He kisses you like he needs your taste on his tongue to live, like youâre a lifeline, and heâs teetering on the edge. Gentle teeth scrape against your bottom lip, just barely grazing your swollen skin. Pulling away to rid you of your top, Shoto bites his lips at the sight of your bare chest. He lays back, propping his head up on your pillows. Tracing a hand down his strong pecs, you tilt your head back at the sight of his complete enamour.
Red cheeks hollow as he takes in a shuddering breath, looking up at you with nothing but love and adoration. âYouâre perfect,â he breathes out, his hands tracing your sides so slowly. His thumbs, calloused from years of hero work, barely graze the underside of your breasts before his hands trail back down to your thighs.
âTake these off fâme,â Shoto urges, tugging gently on the fabric of your shorts. Those dark eyes never leave your face, as though heâs committing it to memory.Â
You donât hesitate to obey his request, shifting off of his lap just enough to tug off the last of your clothing, fingers dipping beneath the band of your panties to take them off as well. Shivering, you sit back down on his lap, biting down on your bottom lip as you lean back. Shoto makes it clear how much he appreciates the view youâve given him, his lustful gaze caressing your entire self. His eyes land on the apex of your thighs, and his bitten lips part in admiration.
A wide hand rests on your tummy, just below your belly button, as he gently pushes your hips back and forth. His other hand finds its way to your ass, gripping and rubbing the skin there in tandem with your movements.Â
You let out shallow breaths at the feeling of his rough jeans against your bare clit. Youâre sure youâre sopping wet already, soaking the front of his pants with your slick, but you canât find it in yourself to care when heâs looking at you like heâd cry if you stopped grinding down on him.
His eyes stay glued to where your hips meet, and he whispers your name lovingly. âCâmere,â he rasps out as he sits up with haste, wrapping those big arms around your midsection and pulling you even closer to him. Shoto kisses the tops of your breasts, moving up and up until his lips meet yours again in a searing kiss.Â
âMissed you sâmuch,â he gravels out against your lips, reaching up to cup your left tit. You whimper out when his thumb brushes against the hardened bud, his tongue following shortly after. His lips curl around your nipple as he kneads into you. Breaths leave your throat in shortened huffs as he bites down gently.Â
Pushing you gently, you find yourself on your back again with Shoto hovering over you. He lets go of your nipple with a pop, lips shiny with saliva as he kisses down your stomach. Arching into his affections, all you can do is lay there and bask in his gentle touches and sweet kisses.
âSho,â you whimper out when he mouths your skin lower and lower. Strong hands push your hips up until your dripping cunt is in front of his face, and your legs are dangling over his shoulders. Your back arches deeply, his fingers digging into your sides to keep your bottom half suspended in the air. Itâs almost embarrassing how wet youâve gottenâyou canât recall the last time youâve felt this aroused. âPleaseâŠâ
Shoto smiles at you softly, looking at you through his lashes as he brushes his lips against your clit, making you jolt. âPatience, baby,â he chuckled. âI havenât tasted your sweet pussy in too long. Let me take my time with you, yeah?â
When he asks so nicely, how can you refuse?
He leaves open-mouthed kisses where your inner thigh meets your pelvis, kissing and licking just around where you need him most. Pathetic moans slip through your wobbling lips as you press them together, trying not to be too loud. Your body is goo in his hands, and he knows this well. He easily keeps your back arched up off the bed, his beefy arms not straining at all.
When his lips finally close on your weeping cunny, you cry out louder than intended. âShh,â he whispers, sitting back just far enough to leave you whimpering for more. âDonât wanna wake the baby, do you?â Those teasing eyes meet yours again, and his teasing expression softens ever so slightly at your already fucked out look. âBe good and quiet fâme, love.â
âOkay,â you stammer out, screwing your eyes shut when he kitten licks at your slit.
Shoto kisses your inner thigh with a grin. âGood girl.â
Without missing a beat, he attaches his lips to your pussy once more, his skilled tongue licking and prodding exactly where he knows it makes your legs shake in pleasure. He eats you out with such expertise as if it hasnât been over two years. You wouldnât be surprised if he had a map of your body memorized.
Long, thick fingers push at your entrance, just barely pushing in before pulling out. âMore, please,â you beg under your breath, arching into his mouth. âPlease, Sho. I can take it.â
Shoto hums as he sucks on your clit gently, drawing circles over the bundle of nerves immediately after. âI know you can, baby. This pussy was made just for me,â he sighs into you, the loud slurping noises coming from the point of contact making you curl in on yourself. âYou were made just for me, baby.â
He finally pushes two fingers in, curling up just how you like it. He groans as his tongue moves with ardour, his eyes rolling back behind closed lids as he savours your taste. âFuck,â he mumbles. âMissed this sâmuch.âÂ
Shotoâs fingers push in and out, in and out, your slick gushing around them as the filthy sound of your clenching cunt fills the room. His lips are glued to your clit, drunk on your wetness as he fingers you deeply.Â
âIâm close,â you warn him, gripping the sheets tightly. Your body jerks, your thighs shaking and closing around his head as you feel the string in your tummy grow taught. âShoââ
âI know,â he growls, kissing your clit again as he looks back up at you. He watches your face twist and scrunch in pure pleasure, moaning at the sight. Pushing a third finger in, his eyes slip closed at the feeling of you clenching tightly around him. âCome for me, baby. Need to feel you come.â
His voice drips with honey, coating your body in its warmth as your back bends. âFuck,â you cry, slapping a hand over your mouth as your thighs tremble hard. âIââ
Before you can say anything else, youâre cumming around his fingers harder than you ever have in the time away from him. Fat tears line your lashline as he fingers you through your orgasm, lazily licking figure eights around your clit as he continues to push his fingers into you gently. He doesnât stop, making you come again and again until youâre weakly pushing his head away.
His tongue laps your pussy clean, the lower half of his face covered in your slick when he finally sits back. You watch with lidded eyes as he wraps his lips around his fingers, his tongue jutting out to lick them until theyâre no longer soaked with your essence. Moaning, you reach up for him, grasping weakly at his clothed chest. âNeed you,â you plea, pushing at his clothes in a sad attempt to take them off.
Shoto only chuckles, leaning over to kiss you. He tastes of mint and musk, the taste of your come on his tongue making your eyes cross. He holds you tight, pressing you against his chest, and his hands run up and down the length of your spine. His head tilts, his mouth ajar as he licks into your wet cavern.Â
Leaning back, you kiss and lick at his face, cleaning him of your juices. He only sighs blissfully at your ministrations, stroking your hair out of your face as he presses his lips against your temple. âI love you,â he murmurs. âGod, do I love you.â
You leave one more kiss along his jaw, settling back onto the mattress as you look up at him. His hair is messy, tousled from the many breathless kisses youâve exchanged in the last hour. His rouge-tinted cheeks make him look younger than he is, yet you can see fine lines at the corners of his eyes and between his brows.Â
âI love you, Sho,â you declare softly, tucking his long bangs behind his ears. He gazes at you with more affection than you think youâve ever seen him express, and it takes everything in you not to combust on the spot. You trail one hand down his chest, dropping down to his tented pants. Palming his clothed hardness, you glance at him pleadingly, smiling at the moan he emits the second your hand grazes his hard-on. âI need you now, please.â
Shoto nods, kissing the crown of your head before leaning back. You watch with careful eyes as he undresses, his hands moving with less grace than heâs known for. As he fumbles off his shirt, you unbuckle his belt, throwing it haphazardly across the room. You barely register the thud it makes as you tug down his pants. His hard cock slaps against his abdomen, coated with precum.Â
Fully nude, you sit back to admire Shoto in his entirety. There are many scars you donât remember littered over his muscled body, and your fingers trace them gently. âI almost forgot how pretty you are,â you say, sitting up to kiss his collarbone.
âPretty?â he repeats, laughing softly as he grips at your waist.
You hum. âVery pretty, Sho.âÂ
Unable to wait any longer, he manoeuvres you back onto the pillows, adjusting you as he places one beneath your hips. âGotta have you now, baby,â he groans into you, reaching down to fuck into his fist. You watch with wide eyes as he rubs himself for a moment more, pushing your thighs up against your chest.Â
Pushing his angry cockhead against your slit, he thrusts shallowly against your soaked pussy. A low moan rumbles out of his throat when his head catches on the hood of your clit. He uses a thumb to guide his length to your entrance, a whimper of your name tumbling from those bite-swollen lips once he finally pushes into you.
Your jaw drops as a wanton noise claws out of your throat. Shoto is sure to move slowly, only moving in an inch of his dick at a time before pulling out. You had forgotten how thick Shotoâs cock is, the stretch of your swollen pussy around his length burning through your body. âS-ShoâŠâ
He groans at your voice, dropping his head to your shoulder as he fucks into you slowly. âI know, baby,â he lets out breathlessly. âI know. Youâre doing so well fâme.âÂ
His hips finally press against you after some time, his dick pushing against your pulsing gummy walls. He stills, letting you get used to the intrusion as he kisses you again and again. Propping himself on his elbows, he shakily brushes your hair out of your face, kissing your forehead. âYou okay, baby?â
Nodding fervently, you wrap your arms around his neck, pushing his chest flush against yours. âYeah.â Your voice comes out weakly, barely above a whisper. âYou can moveââ correcting yourself, you look up at him with pleading eyes. ââplease move.â
Without another word, he pulls out slowly, only to thrust back into your hole nice and deep. A loud groan leaves his lips as he settles into a quick tempo, his hips slapping against the back of your thighs as he starts to really fuck into you.Â
Barely keeping your eyes open, you watch his expression twist with gratification, his brows tilting upwards as his lips part. With lidded eyes, he watches you, too. âYouâreâfuckâso pretty,â he whimpers, pressing his forehead against yours as his thrusts become faster. âMissed you. Missed you sâmuch.â
Sitting up, he grabs at your waist as he fucks you zealously. His thumb flicks at your clit, rubbing tight circles that leave your legs shaking. His cockhead rubs at that spongey spot in your cunt with every thrust, making your eyes roll back. âSho,â you cry out, the thought of keeping your voice down long gone in your pleasure. âSho, Shoâ!â
His mouth opens as he lets out a stunted shout riddled with lust and overstimulation. âYouâre so fucking tight,â he grins down at you, his stomach flexing with each movement of his hips. âFuck, baby. Can feel you clenching around me sâtight. Are you close?â His words come out harshly, exertion tugging them from his throat sluggishly.
His thumb never stops over your clit, moving in tandem with his hips as he slams into you. Unable to form coherent words, you can only cry out in vague confirmation, grabbing at his forearms. You can feel your slick dripping down the slope of your ass, soaking into your pillow and the sheets beneath you.Â
Shotoâs smile falters as he feels his own orgasm near, his rhythm becoming desperate as his eyes screwed shut. His head drops, his mouth opening slightly as he chases his high. When your cunt grips tightly around him, heâs sure heâs going to lose it. Harsh breaths heave out of him, his flushed skin causing his hair to stick to his forehead.Â
âCome for me again, baby,â he begs, barely able to pry his lids open to look down at you. âPlease, come, please, please⊠Gotta feel youâŠ!â
Whether itâs from his words, the whimpering tone that tugs at his voice, or the way his cock throbs inside you as he nears his own high, you feel your orgasm crash over you in waves. âShoto,â you sob, your body jerking violently as you come hard. He lets out a high-pitched groan as he releases inside you, his thick seed filling you up in seconds. His hips tremble and twitch as he keeps shallowly thrusting, pushing both you and himself into overstimulation.
âI love you,â he mewls, pressing his lips against yours in a hungry kiss as he wraps his arms tightly around your middle. Without pulling out, he slumps over you, knocking the air out of your lungs.
Laughing quietly, you weakly push at his shoulder. âYouâre heavy,â you complain, still breathless from the countless orgasms heâs pulled you through. âGet off, Sho.â
âNo,â he murmurs into the nape of your neck, cuddling into you tightly. âDonât wanna let go.â
You roll your eyes. âYou can hug me without crushing my ribs.â
Huffing, he rolls off of you, taking you with him as he lands on his back. You both groan lowly at the movement, his dick twitching inside you once you settle onto his lap again. âYouâre insatiable,â you comment, feeling him thrust weakly up into your wetness.
Shoto only grins up at you, showing off that rare smile you missed so dearly. âYou canât blame me,â he tells you, wrapping his arms around you. âI have so many years of love to show you.â He kisses your shoulder. âI meant it. Before, I mean. You are everything to me, and I know our baby will be too.â
Your eyes wet again, fresh tears bubbling at the corners before dribbling down your cheeks. âShotoâŠâ
Looking up at you, he stares with an indescribable look in his mismatched eyes. âI wanna be in your life. I want to be in his life, too, if youâll let me.â Leaning up, he kisses you sweetly. âSo, please, come back to me.â
You only manage to nod tearfully before the shrill cry of your baby echoes throughout the house. Shoto eases you off his messy cock, watching as his release dribbles out of you. He lets out a breath, kissing you sweetly before moving you off of him gently. No words are exchanged as Shoto throws his clothes back on, wrinkled and unkempt. He pauses to wipe you clean, using your shirt, after throwing you an apologetic glance.
A smile reaches your eyes as you watch Shoto bound out of the room to get your child.
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Why Can't I Keep My Fingers Off You? [Part 2] - G.S.Â
Synopsis. âBesides, Toru, just because it worked for you doesnât mean itâll work for me.â âWanna bet?â For Satoru, convincing you to take the aphrodisiac chocolate too wasnât the hard part - the hard part was being shoved into that bathroom stall, cock throbbing, mind spinning - trying not to beg for mercy.Â
Pairing. Gojo Satoru x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, unprotected sex, slight femdom, overstimulation (male), lots of cum, you absolutely ruin Satoru, semi-public sex, subby! Satoru, aphrodisiac sex, multiple rounds, shutting up Gojo Satoru by making him cum in his pants, pet names (darling, my girl), swearing.
Word count. 3.7k
A/N. Can be read as a standalone, but PART 1 HERE.
Bros this was mad hard to write oml. Art by @_3aem on X.
Satoru had everything he needed to absolutely ruin you tonight.
Overpriced Cartier glasses? Check.
Jet-black Hellcat freshened up, ready with a little surprise for you inside? Check.
You, all dolled up and brows furrowed adorably at him? Holy shit, check.
âToru, if weâve missed our reservation because you had beef with the neighborhood cat againâŠâ
âHe was looking at you wrong! I had to defend your honor!â Dramatic protests falling on deaf ears, Satoru speeds through the darkening city streets, still grumbling under his breath about âcats these daysâ.
With your fiancĂ© being absolutely swamped with missions recently, youâd been anticipating this night for weeks now.
Little did you know, Satoru had just as much - if not more.
Soon enough, the neon lights of that upscale, new restaurant youâd been absolutely dying to visit recently come into view.Â
Okay, itâs time.Â
âYâknowâŠâ he begins, glancing at you with that familiar mirthful glint in his eyes. Laughter bubbling to his throat at your knowing stare, he plows on âRemember that one night where I just so happened to come across your special chocolate?â
âYou mean swiped from my secret stash?â
âSemanticsâ he waves off. âBut anyway, I was thinkingâŠâ he voice trails off mischievously as he swiftly turns to grab the mysterious black bag sitting on the backseat that youâd been eyeing suspiciously ever since you got in the car.
Oh shit, so thatâs what he was onto. Eyes widening, âToru, no.â
He whines, a pout forming on his lips. âCâmonnn, no oneâs gonna know except me. I want to make this night unforgettable, my girl.â
You raise a brow, âUnforgettable? Toru, your idea of unforgettable will end up with both of us arrested.â Â After the madness of last time, youâd ignored his sticky note for a reason!
Letting out an exasperated sigh, you try to justify - probably to yourself just as much as Satoru, âAnd just because the aphrodisiac worked for you doesnât mean itâll work for me.â
He wiggles his eyebrows, twinkling eyes still undeterred. âWanna bet? Iâll do the dishes for all of next month. Weâll never know till we find out, darling.âÂ
You narrow your eyes at the hand already snaking its way inside the bag, faded finger marks from last time still searing into your skin. Catching Satoruâs gaze - behind the amusement, something else shines darkly.Â
Shit.
Goosebumps erupt down your spine.Â
A beat passes. One. Two. Only the revving of the engine filling the tense air.Â
â...two months.âÂ
Itâs all Satoru can do to not jump in joy in his seat right now - knowing his girl, youâll probably take back what you said and immediately bonk him on the head for being so ridiculous.Â
âDeal.â he mutters lowly, pulling up to the driveway.
 A flash of hot pink. In the short time it takes the valet to reach your car, Satoru has already split that too-familiar chocolate, holding out the bigger part to you, eyes gleaming with excitement. âI swear thisâll be a night you wonât forget.â he grins, biting into the chocolate.Â
God, he was going to be the death of you.Â
The decadent flavor washes over your tongue, a slight tingling on your tastebuds. But, itâs still just chocolate, right? You scoff - at least you wonât have to do the dishes for two months.
Now, Satoru knows he wonât have to do the dishes for two months.Â
Ah, how heavenly youâd be, splayed out and begging for mercy underneath him. Heels clacking against the polished tile and your hand warm in his as the maĂźtre dâhĂŽtel ushers you both inside, dick twitching in anticipation. Shit, was the chocolate working already?
He risks a glance at how youâre faring - nope, still normal. Thatâs okay, heâll be driving you crazy in no time.
---
Okay, maybe he wonât be driving you crazy in no time.Â
How dare you sit there so gorgeous and unbothered, sipping slowly on your wine while heâs here mind whirling around how heâll fuck you right here right now on this table without getting arrested for public indecency.
Fuck, it was hitting him hard.
Cock aching, heat rushing to his cheeks, eyes bleary - he sighs in frustration, resigning himself to do the dishes for two months.
Why did he even think of this? Damn his big fucking ego, he shouldâve never taken that chocolate again. Maybe if he eats you out just right he could lower it to-
A feathery touch on his thigh. Too light for any sort of friction - just enough to set his skin ablaze. So deft that Satoru thinks he mustâve imagined it.
Until there it is again. Soft caress dancing delicately up his thigh.Â
You.
A shiver creeps down his spine, blood rushing straight to his dick. Probably for the first time in his life, Satoru is speechless - maybe because youâve reached underneath the table, teasingly sliding a heel along the top of his thigh.
ââŠdarlingâŠâ
âHmm?â
He blinks away the haze in his eyes, raising them to meet yours. âWha-â
Oh. Oh, fuck.
What has he gotten himself into?
Eyes half-lidded, brows furrowed, and looking into his soul with a predatory glint that jolts the great Gojo Satoru right to his very core - and to his throbbing cock. Heâd be lucky to make it out alive. Maybe he should just beg for his life right now.
Minutes tick by - or maybe it was seconds - Satoru is clueless. Mind only focused on the heel inching closer and closer, dangerously near to where he needed you the most. A smug smirk curls your pretty lips as his mouth drops into a soft oh.
The air crackles with an unspoken tension - his hips trying to subtly move you towards the erection furiously straining against his pants. He needed it so bad. Itâs fucking pathetic, he knows. But he couldnât give less of a fuck as your sole grazes his aching head. Pressing down. Hard.
âFuck!â
Stomach flipping - before Satoru could fully process what the fuck was happening - he cums embarrassingly in thick spurts that pool on his pants, soaking right through the fabric, probably smearing on your new heels.
Head spinning, he bites his knuckles hard enough to draw blood, muffling the desperate moans threatening to escape his lips.Â
He grinds his hips in shallow, mindless motions in a desperate attempt for more friction.
Instead, he gets the opposite.
âBehave, Toru.â you warn, swiftly resting your heel back on the floor, voice strained with something that makes his sensitive dick quiver animalistically.Â
You huff out a chuckle at the almost-inaudible whimper of disappointment that rips from his throat. Itâs laughable, really, he was supposed to be the one ruining you. This was so not fucking suave.
Face burning - whether due to the chocolate or embarrassment at the warm patch on his pants, he doesnât even know - Satoru wishes the Earth would swallow him up whole. Would it be overkill to just teleport outta here?
The only thing that snaps Satoru out of his little reverie is your pretty lips forming into a tut. âNow now, Toru. Itâs rude to make a mess at a restaurant. Why donât we go to the restrooms and get you cleaned up, hm?â
Oh. Shit.Â
A firm grip on his arm, his hands desperately covering his crotch.Â
He was not going to make it out of this alive.Â
Honestly, it wasnât hard to bribe the waitress into letting you follow into the restroom after your fiancĂ© - and put up an Out of Order sign promptly afterward. The actual hard part was trying not to rip off his clothes and give into your desires before you two even made it there. But you couldnât let anyone else see him like that, of course.Â
You were sure that if you had Satoruâs powers then you wouldâve hollow purpled everyone here and taken him already.
You were going to ruin him.
Mind running a mile a minute, Satoru wouldnât even be surprised if heâd just teleported to the restroom. If he was in a better state of mind he mightâve even admired the decor.
âMy girl.â he breathes out, voice ragged. Itâs all that is said before your lips are on his.Â
It was like a fever dream - the bruising urgency of your lips, your aching pussy, and the heat of the stall as your quickened breaths mingle in a desperate dance. Your tongue intertwining with his.Â
Manicured nails ripping his shirt open, you donât have half the mind to register the designer buttons hitting the floor.
Satoruâs lips hazily chase yours as you pull away delicate strings of spit snapping just as quickly as your sanity.Â
Your mouth waters at Satoruâs chest in all its chiseled glory, creamy skin peeking out from whatever remnants of the shirt were clinging to his sculpted shoulders. You wanted to ruin him.
âYou dirtied my heels, Toru.â you frown, mockingly innocent. A choked-up gasp leaves his throat as you snake a hand down to firmly grip the erection straining against Satoruâs wet pants. Unmoving. âWhat shall we do about that, hmm?âÂ
âAh! Please, my girl.â
âPlease what? Use your words, Toru.â
âPlease. Wanna cum so bad.â
Satoru learned the hard way that he could never turn back after uttering those words.Â
Though, he already had an inkling once you immediately slam him against the stall door, fumbling with his belt, nails digging hard into his prominent v-line. âIf you say so, Toru. Better not stop till youâre shooting blanks.â
The only thing that registers in his mind is the deadbolt echoing throughout the empty bathroom and his still-rock hard cock throbbing in your hands.Â
âAh- hah! Fuck.â low groans leave his throat at each jerky movement down his length.Â
Head thrown back, pants bunched underneath his heavy balls, your tits pressing against his body as your hands urgently move along his veined length - up, up, up.Â
Your thumb harshly teases his flushed head, spreading the precum from his leaking tip lewdly. âOh God.â
His knees buckle, hands slamming against the top of the stall hard enough to make the walls tremble, desperately trying to keep himself from collapsing. Mind spinning, he doesnât even know if heâs on planet Earth anymore.
âToru~ Gonna let me join in on the fun?â your dangerous purr sends his cock twitching, breath hot against his ear.
Your cunt quivers, slick soaking your panties and trailing down your legs at the pornographic moans spilling from his lips as you fucked his thick cock with your fist. You wanted him so badly it was driving you insane.
Straddling a muscled thigh, your clothed core meets the fabric of his pants. It was already ruined, so what was another stain?
You grind your hips down on him, hard. Humping him like an animal in heat.Â
Your slick seeping into the fabric of his leg. Harsh texture stimulating your needy cunt so painfully good. Swollen folds parting, mewls of pleasure leave your swollen lips as your clit catches on the rough fabric of his overly expensive pants. Over and over.Â
Distantly, you register a strong hand tugging roughly on the thin fabric of your panties - easily ripping it and letting it fall to god-knows-where.Â
Your hand doesnât let up either, milking Satoruâs cock mercilessly the way youâd been dying to ever since you stepped foot into his restaurant. Your head spins, hips moving so animalistically on Satoruâs thigh.
A hand reaches down to sensually massage his heavy balls, squeezing and pressing hard circles - just the way you knew he liked it.Â
âOh, my girl. Always so good tâme- Ah! Hngh, gonna-âÂ
Satoru doesnât get to finish his sentence before heâs pumping hot ropes of seed that decorate your pretty hands. Hips fucking up into you desperately.
Youâre not far behind, juices squirting all over that expensive fabric, pooling on the tiled ground with a drip! drip! drip! that bounces off the walls of the restroom.
You two were so fucking loud.Â
But right now, you wouldnât even mind if anyone walked in to see your Satoru so debauched - as long as they see you fucking the soul out of him as well.Â
It wasnât enough.
âYou said you wanted to cum, didnât you, Toru?â
A shiver runs down his spine - all the way to his dick. âWhat? W-wait, darling. Fuck- Oh!â the strained words tumble out of Satoruâs kiss-bitten lips as you push down his soaked pants, kneeling to leave a trail of hot, open-mouthed kisses down to his twitching, thick base.Â
âI wonât be merciful, Toru.â
Ah, you could do this forever.
Nipping teasingly till youâre satisfied with the bite marks decorating his pelvis, you pool the saliva in your mouth, spitting a long stream into his furiously flushed head.
Once. Twice. Mixing enticingly with his precum, trailing down his length. âAh! Hngh- oh, darling. So sensitive-â he bucks his hips into you, moaning loudly.
âYou can do it fâme, Toru.â you murmur darkly against his twitching tip. Satoru keens as you take him until his fat head hits the back of your throat, pulsing around your warm mouth.
Your fiancĂ©âs choking on his breaths more than you as you hollow your mouth, bobbing up and down at a ruthless pace. Gagging, you shove his throbbing dick all the way in with a desperation that eclipses the need for air, till youâre nose-deep in those tufts of snowy hair.Â
âOh, darling. Jusâ like that. Losing mâmind.â he whines.
Your pussy quivers at Satoruâs slightly salty taste, making you moan around his rock-hard length. Drool and precum dribble down the corner of your mouth, mixing with the mascara running down your cheeks. It was debauched. It was messy. And it was exactly how you wanted him.Â
Tonguing Satoruâs sensitive slit in a delicate dance, you feel drunk off his sinful moans as you suck on him desperately. Breathless. Craving for more.Â
Looking up to see a delicate streak of tears falling down his pretty face at the overstimulation, your cunt clenches around nothing. Fuck, you could just devour him.
âCum, Toru.â
It was too much for him-Â
Tight balls twitching sensitively, he cums onto your ready tongue. Fucked out whimpers leave his lips, tears clinging to his long, white lashes as he paints your pretty mouth with his thick, white seed.
Ah, he was always your favorite taste. Tasted so good - so good that you could cum untouched.Â
And you do.
Eyes rolling to the back of your head and pussy clamping down on nothing as you reach your high.
You milk his cock ruthlessly, relishing in the thick cum flowing down your throat. But it still wasnât enough.
Removing yourself off his dick with a lewd pop! you reach a hand to grab Satoruâs flushed throat, nails placed right over his thundering pulse. With a single tug, the great Gojo Satoru is on his knees before you, in the bathroom of some fancy restaurant.Â
Walls still quivering, you stand over him, connecting your sweaty forehead - and your mouth - with his.Â
Kiss-bitten and smeared with your lipstick, Satoruâs lips are soft - or maybe thatâs the cum coating yours. A part of you delights in his half-lidded, fucked out gaze as your eyes bore into his - does he even know what heâs doing anymore?Â
Hot seed flowing down his throat, Satoru can do nothing else but kneel there and take it. He feels lightheaded, all the blood in his brain rushing to his cock as you suck on his tongue. This was driving him insane. You were insane.
And he fucking loved it.
âYou d-drive me insane, my girl.â his words muffled by your hand still around his throat. His voice cracks with sensitivity in a way he would definitely be embarrassed about if he were in the right mind.Â
Yet, how could he ever be with the slow, feral smile that spread across your beautiful face?
Leaning down, you whisper lowly against his ear. âIâm the same, Toru.âÂ
Maybe itâs your words, and the hot breath that sends shivers down his spine. Or maybe itâs the way you lift your dress so alluringly - cunt dripping on full display, slick trailing down your legs.Â
All Satoru knows is, heâs surging forwards. Heâs got your front pressed against the cold wall, cock twitching to life and bullying its way through your swollen folds.Â
Mindlessly, a strong hand smacks against the stall as Satoru tries to keep himself steady. Too drunk off of you - off of your whimpers of his name, and the feeling of your plush walls clamping down on his throbbing erection, struggling to accommodate his size despite being so dripping wet.Â
He doesnât give a fuck.Â
âHngh- Sâtight. Oh, fuck! S-sucking my cock back hah- in s-so needilyâÂ
Ramming in and out of your hole at a merciless cadence, Satoruâs balls smack your clit so animalistically. You two feel like a pair of fucking animals.Â
Shudders of overstimulation and pleasure wrack his body. Chest heaving, his blown-out eyes roll to the back of his head at the rapid, desperate thrusts inside your warm core.Â
Pulling out all the way to slam back in mercilessly, Satoru could pass out at the sight of your ass jiggling as it arches to meet the rhythm of his hips.Â
âGod, mâgirl. Gonna- gonna cum ah! Fill this pussy the way you want-â he groans raspily into the heady air of the stall, exhausted cock shooting wispy strings of cum that fill you up - some missing as he pumps into you, spilling out to paint your swollen folds white.
Before he knows it, a low hiss leaves his throat as you remove yourself off of his furiously pulsing cock - only to shove him seated on the commode.Â
You take a split-second to admire your gorgeous fiancé - face flushed as much as the prettily leaking tip of his throbbing cock, eyes dazed and miles away, curtained by his sweaty white locks. A delicate trail of drool made its way down the corner of his ruby, kiss-bitten lips. Exactly how you wanted him.
What a fucking picture. Maybe you should take that chocolate more oftenâŠ
âToru~ Remember what I said? Youâre not tapping out, are you?â you hum, eyes narrowing at the way his erection twitches so ferally at your dangerous tone.Â
âAh- donât know- Canât, please.â
You loom dangerously close, a hand reaching out to mockingly push his cheeks together, drool pooling at your fingertips. âIâve told you before, Toru. Use your words. Please what?â
âM-mercy, please!â pathetic pleas muffled by your hand.
âMercy?â
âMercy!â
âNo mercy for you, my darling Toru.â
The great Gojo Satoru, begging for mercy, will face none at your hands.Â
You straddle his muscled legs, shivering with sensitivity. âAh! Hah- Oh god. Oh god oh god oh god-â he whines nonstop as his quivering tip teases your swollen, messy folds. In one, fluid motion, you sheath him fully in your dripping cunt.
Ah, you feel so full.Â
You relish in the way he twitches instinctively inside you. Steadying yourself using Satoruâs shoulders, you drag your cunt along his length, his prominent veins grazing that one spot inside you. Pulling out till his thick head teases your entrance, you drop down - inch by inch - over and over.
Satoru thinks he could cry right now - or maybe he already is. He doesnât know, nor does he care - not when youâre so beautiful and fucked out, nails digging into his shoulders and heart eyes palpable in your gaze as you ride his sensitive cock into insanity.
He canât stop the ragged moans that escape his swollen lips, head thrown back and hips bucking up exhaustedly into you to meet your every bounce. A hand is at his throat, pulling your face to his, âDonât run away, Toru~â
He felt so raw. More a feral beast than a man as he watches his abused cock get swallowed up over and over by your wet pussy.
If he thought his dick was broken after this time then itâs really unsalvageable now.
He wanted to run away. He wanted more. He wanted you to keep looking at him with that fucking predatory gaze that made a carnal part of him twitch so good. He wanted to cum.
âI wanâ- I wanna cum, please, my girl.â Satoru gasps out, teary eyes blown and looking up at you so delicately.
âCum?â
âYes.â
âCum, Toru.â
Maybe it was the glint of fondness in your eyes, maybe it was the piercing of teeth as you bit down hard into the crook of his neck. Or maybe it was the way your snug cunt clamped down on him so sinfully as you cum as around him. But Satoru is immediately bucking up into your hips - reaching his climax, if you can even call it that. Poor, exhausted cock cumming dry. âAh- Cumming- Mâcumming hgnh-â
Satoru doesnât even know if he feels his orgasm, just waves of pleasure that overwhelm him as he rides it out on your cunt.Â
Ah, he thinks if heaven was a person then it would be you.Â
Maybe heâs died already.
âToru? Open your eyes, darling.â
Slowly opening the eyes that he didnât even realize he had furiously scrunched closed, Satoru slowly blinks his vision back.
An angel?
âNo, Toru, your fiancĂ©.â you huff out a laugh. Oh shit, he said that out loud?Â
Head still reeling from, well, everything - the great Gojo Satoru can do nothing else but sit there, exhausted and fucked out of his mind as you slowly remove yourself off his twitching cock. Heâs never felt so vulnerable - so ruined.
Ah, someone remind him to never let you have a bite of that chocolate every again.Â
A low hiss leaves him, along with a few tears that later he swears were never there.Â
As you tenderly clean both yourselves up in the humid stall, Satoru thinks heâs never been handled with so much care. Ah, he loves your gentle hands. He loves you.
âI love you too, Toru.â you whisper into the intimate silence. Oh, shit, he said that out loud again?
Your beautiful laugh, âYes, you did, Toru.â Throwing away the used tissues, you grin âYâknow theyâve probably brought out our food by now.â
Absent-mindedly, âMhm?â
âI was thinking I wanted chocolate for dessert.â
A/N. Oh Satoru, you poor, innocent foolâŠ
Also this turned out longer than expected. Reblogs so so appreciated!
Plagiarism not authorized.
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