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#its oke she arent gonna be alone!
pageofheartdj · 2 years
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Don’t worry, Camila. It’ll be easier with five of them xD
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barredandromeda · 18 days
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what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group
#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever#im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point#and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn#selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too#we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right#get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure#what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye#AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care#she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us#what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not#taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg#just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg#why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend#and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic#and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc#but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever#if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die#sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP#id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh#post#nickpost#will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1#i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it#sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh#nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone#living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!!#its 11:11 make a wjsh#adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway#its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her#bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships
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trainingdummyrabbit · 2 months
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white night angela
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PARADISELOST ILU PARADISELOST MY BESTFRIEND PARADISELOST. genuinely one of my very top favorites despite how little i ever bring her up Ever. she is like... Everything 2 Me in a way im not quite sure i can describe. ok.
Design- GENDER. ok. the way that she looks so weightless, the hair thats reminiscient of feathers, the fucking. bloody angel look. the little snake around her shoulders!!!! come ON! something about the fact that her eyes are just about always closed again; and further than that, the fact that they only open during Attacks, in which they are completely flat red. hashtag girl. girl just LOOK at her. ok? ok. something about the collar is fucking me up but im not sure i can detail it.
Theme- i have TALKED ABOUT THIS MOTHERFUCKER!!!! the religion floor realization kills me to death and im never over it. the tangle of shepherd and lamb, leader and that who wishes to follow, savior and the damned. like... listen. something about her desperate desire to not be alone manifesting as some split between Her and One Of The Most Feared Abnormalities, in such a stark difference to how she usually acts where you cant really tell the lines between one and the other until you snap her out of it. how she manifests that which she wishes to have As Herself in conjunction with how she is completely convinced nobody would dare to stand with her. the image of complete and utter calm in the face of the turbulence that she clings onto like a lifeline despite it all. its quite literally all of her struggles pushed to an Extreme. this motherfucker is the reason i can never talk about anyone about angela without it being an hours long thing how the FUCK do you summarize this even. speaking with words that arent hers, yearning for someone to lead her to a happier place where she would never be alone again, to lead, to follow, to have, to take, to give. and still, despite it all, she is still just... confused, lost, and afraid. its something so shockingly simple for what a grandiose image thats projected of herself, and the conversation beforehand really drives it home. i will literally be here for hours. anyway if you want that other post its [here]; i dont think i could say it any better or differently or more youre just gonna have to take it ok. thanks.
in conclusion uh, i think she might actually be one of if not The one thats the most important to me? like... personally. ithink she was the first one i drew something Completely for, the one that kicked me into thinking abt her for hours on end every time she came up... something about her just kills me to death. shrimply. she is so very important. and most importantly: She Should Be Allowed To Kill.
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guess who watched the from s2 finale? me, and i’ve got some shit to say (spoilers ahead))
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(warning: spoilers + cursing + super long post (summary at the bottom))
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-alright let’s go, boyd wyd just standing there
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-why are you looking for randall’s body- like- what’s the point in that
-jUMPSCaRE oh sHIT HES ALIVE
-oh fUCk julie’s screaming now
-oh shit it’s gonna be marielle next
-SHIT I WAS RIGHT
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-boyd why are you back in that place
-oh fuck she hearing the music??? oh shit is something bad abt to happen??
-screaming?? OH JULIE AND RANDALL AND MARIELLE
-yo her nose gon bleed??
-WHATS HURTING THEM SARA WE MUST KNOW
-language kenny
-NEEDS THEM FOR WHaaT
-oh fuck boyd brought it that’s not good for his conscience
-too late for whAt??
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-tabitha. tabby. the tower is nOt the answer. don’t please don’t
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-reggie that smile fake af you better not do something dumb
-FUCK YEA MARRIGE
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-jade what are you doin- *gets jumpscared by jade smashing the glass* oh ok
-oh it’s the bartender dude
-jade having the same shit as boyd w/ khatri?? (rip my dude)
-interesting method
-nO NOT THE TUNNELS
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-awh no don’t be upset boyd :(
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-reggie. oh shit. this can’t go well
-fUCKING SHIT YOU JUST WH-- REGGIE YOU ARENT RANDALL
-oh fuck who’s he gonna shoot
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-jade you brave dumbass
-alright who else thinks that string gonna get cut or some shit
-oh fuck don’t lose your flashlight
-NOT THE FUCKING DOLL AGAIN
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-boyd i understand your pain but i don’t think cursing out god is gonna help
-donna oh my gOD what an icebreaker
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-awh no poor kristi :(
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-boyd!!! it’s marrige!! don’t miss the marrige!!
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-oh fuck jade
-what the fuck those kids saying anyway?? ahncewy?? encehwy??
-oh yay it’s another vision
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-yo vic them trees move again??? oh hey clinking--
-OH MY GOD VICTOR GIVING TABBY THE SNACKS I CaNT
-THIS SWEET TRAUMATIZED OLD MAN LOOK AT HIM OH MY GOD HE DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER
-aaand now he’s alone
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-*gasp* YAY MARRIAGE
-oh my god ellis you’re so fucking adorable
-a literal golden retriever
-boyd istg if you don’t show up to your sons wedding imma hurt you
-YAYY HES HERE
-AWWW HES GONNA WALK HER LOOK AT THIS IM GOING TO DIE
-*is just dying of fluff overload the entire time*
-uhhh boyd you good
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-oh fuck
-REGGIE DONT YOU DaRE
-FUCK
-FUCK
-oh he’s dead. go boyd
-BOYD YOU FUCKING IDIOT YOU GOT SHOT AND YOU STILL GOIN THERE??? BOYD. BOYD YOU NEED MEDICAL ATTENTION BOYD-
-oh fuck we back here
-yo that old man still there??
-OH SHIT ITS JULIE AND MARIELLE AN RANDALL
-wait hol up- does that mean the same thing happening to jul/elle/randy happened to the old man???
-SMASH THE MUSIC BOX S M A S H I T
-FUCK ITS YOUR DEAD WIFE
-fuck don’t listen to her
-FUCK she makes a good point
-FUCK SHE COULD BE LYING
-GOOD ON YOU BOYD SMASH THE FUCKING BOX
-THEY LIVE THANK THE FUCKING GODS
-oh wait oh shit what abt tabby don’t you dARE HURT HER-
-nah man am i the only one concerned abt randall being left alone shit didn’t go well last time
-p l e a s e jim where is your wife
-the buzzing oh shit i knew something was off
-…quiet before the storm???
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-TABBY FINALLY
-my fibromyalgia could not handle those stairs mmMm
-those damn children’s voices
-how that shit even turning smh
-oh we going up
-those windows don’t look safe tabby
-what a beautiful view
-OH THERES A KID
-biw (boy-in-white) wdym- oh don’t you dare- OH FUCK TABBY OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK
-DONT YOU DARE END THERE
-oh my god she’s in a hospital room
-wait what
-oh fuck don’t tell me she was in a coma and it was all her imagination
-wait no that wouldn’t track
-wait
-oh fuck
-don’t tell me it kicked her out and left her family in there
-don’t do this to me or her
-OH FUCK OH SHIT
-OH MY GOD
-*incoherent sobbing*
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as a summarization: what the fuck
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Abbott Elementary S03E08 thoughts
Melissa schemmenti angry slut
THIS COLD OPEN I WAS CRYINGGGG
Barb’s protective goggles
“We gonna be down about $700
The squeeze my cheeks kid
Every one getting hit in the damn face
Ava pushing gregory
Greg vs tariq 🥵
Barb shooting in the wrong basket then saying “i’m carrying this team”
Gregory flipping the table
Just PERFECTION
“Why dont u look better” ava really says what i wanna say to people
What IS up with melissa to be snappy, always on her phone, hookups, staying out late
Heyyy manny 🤭 he’s foine I’m SORRY
But if Janine’s meant to be in once a week whys she not seen her abbott friends - not her and jacob not seeing each other 😓
“Girl was there a fire?” See this delivery is why slr has an emmy
Ok I KNEW melissa would hookup with burt hummel. I cant deny the chemistry and at least he’s a better actor than g*ry, but lets keep it casual yeah?
RICHARD TYLER WILLIAMS 💀
The delivery on “interesting 😀”
Tariq hosting the panel?!? I love that for us
Badass janine get it girl! She is ON IT
Not ava and crystal speaking over each other 😭
“I don’t think this is on 🎤 “ “IT IS” ijbol 💀😭
Barb is stroppy and sad ☹️ but why wouldn’t melissa trust her! I get it! But also it’s casual so maybe I get not saying anything too! But barb is so sad (jealous) that melissa didn’t tell her (jealous)
CASUAL GHOST
No bc whys that ur face after ur friend tells u its just sex BARB? I get being upset at not being told but why are u upset its just sex … unless… jealousy
Why arent they clapping abbott 🙁
Why is tariq scoring 😭😭
“Give it some razzle For the love of god gregory give it some dazzle”
Janine just caring about the gossip she’s me
Friend of over 15 years!!! I appreciate the work wives lore but that is literally inaccurate I’m sorry
“Since your lips already touched” GASP (also br*no could never deliver a line like that I’m just saying)
The workwives having a marital spat while ppl are just trying to get their certifications
Is it different? Mmm lowkey bc melissa should know what’s going on in her house but also she can acknowledge that actually barb was validly upset but we know Melissa is stubborn sooo
On her roof? Ew! I dont need to know honestly
Janine not reading Jacob’s text 😖
MANNY CALLING JANINE BIG TEAGUES TEEHEEE 🤭 KICKING FEET TWIRLING HAIR
Gregory sit down 😭 honestly that speech alone could give tyler an emmy nom
MR BOHNSON FROM BABBOTT BELEMENTARY HELP
“You talked to me about gary” aww 🥺☹️
“Because that was a real relationship that YOU approved of” ok poignant emphasis on you - Barbara’s opinion is so important to her 🥺 that’s her number 1
“Awwwmygod congrats” “thank you baby”
Melissa’s true apology 🥺
MELISSA DRAGGING BARB CLOSER TO HER EVEN THO BARB WAS STILL MAD i feel like that was lisa and sheryl
“Look how coy this boy is” jacob always gets great ppl as love interests bc first zach and now i love this guy too “i even showed captain robinson” aw 🙁
Janine aced it! Quintas physical comedy is soo good
Wait is mr j wearing a jacket over his uniform 😭
Cancelling on the fireman for barb 🥺
I fear burt hummel doesn’t want it as casual as mel
“Ok did he just make me fall in love with him” 😭
BI AVA BI AVA!! Wbk but BI AVA (but yk im a hardcore barlissa truther so shipping them w ava makes me gag)
MR JOHNSON PANEL beep beep beep that to my face!!!
Wish they ended on barlissa at the bar tho :(
Ok overall I honestly didnt love that ep at first
And the big reason is i didnt think the panel needed so much and i wanted barlissa to have more
Their conflict didn’t feel as real and earnest as other examples
It got wrapped up surprisingly quickly - they fell out more over safety scissors and ‘yous’
And I’d’ve liked them to share a vulnerable moment away fro everyone else.
It just felt eh
Also being away from school felt weird too
Based on teaser clips i thought it could be a lisa emmy consideration ep but no - could be for tyler though
Barbara’s jealousy is v v interesting tho 👀
After a few days I like it more
I still feel a bit confused tho
OH MY GOD I FORGOT TO MENTION KEEGAN MICHAEL KEY HELLO??!?? What a guest actor to get oh my god
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loife1m · 8 months
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@aylin-hijabi @tastetherainbow290 @tinadablackthorn(who re blogged the last post) @queenie-blackthorn
basically, I’m texting in the dance group chat right. And I’m like: hey guys, what’s the location of the place” and blah blah blah right.
and yk, lemon dude’s friend (who’s in charge of it) sends it to me.
(WHY ARE THE PHOTOS ARENT WORKING I HATE THIS)
And I’m like: ok besties gonna go pick that up 🥰 gonna have to step outside and socialise
lemon dude: you do that???
me: stfu
Zoe: I don’t think we’ll hear back from her guys
me: OH MY GOD. BE QUIET.
person 1: since when did lemon dude fit in the category of loife’s 'oh my god be quiet’??
lemon dude: we’re besties 💅✨
lemon dude: that was my sister
me: “we’re besties 💅✨” indeed but u didn’t have to say it like that lmfao
me: me and lemon dude besties forever arc guys
lemon dude: go pick the costumes up loife.
me: no I’m not going alone like
me: EVERY TIME I STEP OUTSIDE-
person 2: ITS SOCIAL SUICIDDEEEEE
me: omg ily let’s be friends
Zoe: idk I could go with u but I have to give the participants names at the same time.
zoe: someone else go supervise her
me: well excuuuuusee me 🤨
zoe: lemon dude
lemon dude: I have the chore of supervising her???
lemon dude: jk pls don’t kill me
me: come here I won’t kill u 🥰🫶🫶🫶🫶
lemon dude: guys I’m scared she never uses that many emojis
me: are you calling me dry
lemon dude: no maam.
me: come supervise me if ur so mature
lemon dude: haha no
lemon dude: I’m too scared to socialise
(I was lowkey disappointed and panicking)
zoe: no u have to go
zoe: if she fucks something up while communicating we won’t be getting our costumes
lemon dude: I’m no better tho
lemon dude: I cannot socialise.
me: come let’s go
me: we’re going on a trip on our favourite rocket ship 🤡
lemon dude: fine
and that’s how we’re going to go together in 5 minutes 🤭
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lunarmothmann · 2 years
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finally watched the roller coaster safety tutorial so here were my thoughts throughout
~OBVIOUSLY SPOILERS FOR RIDE THE CYCLONE IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT BUT I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT~
- VIRGIL. HE PLAYS BASS. I LOVE HIM.
(its a bit of a mess so bear with me)
- how the hell did they make Jane look headless in the intro, thats so cool
- the expressions on everyone's faces when Jane is introduced is hilarious
- OCEAN AND HER WHITE GIRL DANCE MOVES
- i hate that they got rid of Ocean's riff at the end of What The World Needs
- Karnak is the expert of giving information just a little too late
- BORTHDAY.
- "your cousin was in grade 4, he had to get his stomach pumped" is unironically funny
- GIVE JANE A HUG ISTG SHE HAS HER ARMS HELD OUT AND EVERYTHING
- i think Noel might be a masochist, just saying-
- Noel's life is honestly really sad. I feel so bad for him
- NOT HIM CALLING OCEAN A SUCCUBUS LMAO
- ngl he makes the dress work
- MISCHA??? HELLO??? THATS KINDA FRUITY
- that chair is a paid actor bc its been through so much in just this number alone
- HELP CONSTANCE TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM JANE IS SO FUNNY
- "not in my Bible, baby. BONSOIR" I am struggling so hard to keep my composure while typing
- THE HIP THRUST WHEN OCEAN SAYS "teen sex KILLS"
- THE PORN MUSIC. HELP ME IM DYING OUT HERE
- "im not mad at you, im just frequently disappointed" you know what I felt that
- I dont agree with them saying Mischa as the angriest boy in town, he was just mistreated and had a hard life :( he has so many nice moments with the other kids
- OCEAN AND HER FAN THAT ISNT EVEN TURNED ON-
- seeing Mischa talk abt Talia makes me so sad
- Talia is such an underrated song, this makes me wanna sob
- idk why but Ocean touching Mischa's cheek at the start of Talia did something to me I cannot explain
- the projections are making this so emotionally distressing to watch
- THEN THE FUCKING UPBEAT POP SECTION
- CONSTANCE'S GUILTY LOOK AT THE VIRGIN LINE
- oh god here comes Space Age Bachelor Man
- DID RICKY STICK HIS FINGER IN OCEAN'S MOUTH????
- what the hell i am so uncomfortable
- I hate those cat masks so much
- "it gets weird" ITS BEEN WEIRD WHAT
- WHAT IS HE WEARING. im not even gonna talk abt the fake abs.
- this choreography is so sexually charged and im so confused
- Jane makes me so unbelievably sad why cant they treat her better
- no comments, just The Ballad of Jane Doe.
- ok one comment, the ACTING. the VOCALS. ITS ALL PERFECT.
- THE BIRTHDAY SCENE IS SO SWEET LIKE THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE JANE FEEL BETTER
- the new birthday song 🥺
- Jane's little sway aww
- BORTHDAY PT 2
- Savannah with the greenest eyes 😭
- THE BOOB PUNCH. "you just punched me!! in the freakin boob!!"
- Constance's favorite ride was the one that killed her :(
- IM SORRY CONSTANCE DID WHAT?
- THE TATTOO WAS WHAT????
- oh no this is so sad
- the impromptu dance moves during sugar cloud bc they arent being controlled by Karnak are so cute
-Ocean's white girl dance moves pt 2
- RECORDER SOLO WOOHOO
- OCEAN SOUNDS SO BROKEN WHEN KARNAK TELLS HER ITS HER DECISION TO MAKE THE FINAL VOTE
- "you knew all along I couldn't do it" "what?" "choose myself" IM DYING OUT HERE HELP
- "id gladly take my seventeen years over nothing" WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME
- the sad little "democracy rocks"
- is the video meant to show Jane's life as she crosses over? or is it just showing imagery of life overall bc of the theme of this show
- It's Just a Ride after everything I just witnessed is like a punch in the gut
- they seem so happy :,)
- im in physical pain over this show.
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okthatsgreat · 27 days
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Reversing it, what would your Danganronpa OCs be as DnD characters?
HEHHEHEHEHEHEEHHEHEHHEHHEHHEHEHEHEH. so fucking awesome. kicks my feet giggling
billie: starting with her is so fucking funny because she is just a npc. born to be a halfling npc with the commoner stat block. shes not even necessarily an important npc either shes mostly just somebody the dm would make should a player character ever need to ask for directions. if i were to really try to give her a story i reckon she would resent how horrible she feels as a boring commoner and TRYYY to become an adventurer but she really doesnt fit into any category LMAO
erin: GLAMOUR BARD!! pippy would fucking THRIVE in this universe where it is way more acceptable to take out her instrument and start randomly playing something. still just as annoying but you cant hate her for this... race wise i can see her as a gnome BUTTT honestly just a regular human might make more sense for her lore lmao. as a race that is notorious for having a fleeting lifespan in comparison to a lot of the other fantasy races she would be far more paranoid with keeping up her persona while also lamenting the fact she cant stay young forever
naomi: STARTS AS A SCOUT ROGUE DEFINITELY that skirmisher ability........... possibly turns into a phantom rogue later on down the line! she would be an extremellyyyy agile adventurer and definitely stock up on so many goddamn invisibility potions. either a wood half-elf or (more likely) a tabaxi for that feline agility ability, paired with bonus action dash she would FLY out of any combat she finds herself in hfjkgds. kinda like her as this more humanoid looking cat with brown and ginger spots Yknow
mika: definitely would not be an adventurer, still an npc but with a better stat block than billie!! human merchant that seems kind of jealous of you when you walk in but will give you a cool amulet if you are patient
rie: eloquence bard/pact of the archfey warlock :)) she is extremelyyy charming and able to weave her way out of so many situations with her words alone, in a way that exceeds normal bard limits. like shes definitely got multiple people suspicious about her and accusing her of dark magic already LMAO, and they arent WRONG, she definitely took a pact with an archfey, but her success is what is keeping her family afloat so she cant complain that much. i think she's an elf :) that beauty is ETERNAL baby!!!! theres no ending this torment!!!!!!
ryobe: ok its actually a bit of a toss up for me here because ryobe's stats are definitely high charisma/high intelligence, but im not super suurreeeee what that would translate to class wise....... im honestly thinking yet another bard LMFAO. possibly a glamour bard/arcane trickster rogue multiclass???? which isnt the best optimisation but. yknow GDFKGFD. i kinda like him as a satyr, gives him a reason to prioritise fun as much as he does
sae: path of tempest barbarian that THINKS shes a beast master ranger that kinda sucks at magic for soooo much of her life. the last time she went into any sort of rage was when she was a kid and even then she was in denial bc her rage manifests in this terrible storm so she just assumed it was natural and nothing to do with her LMAO. its a mix of both "that cant be my doing. surely" and "i can not be an angry person i canttttt be a barbarian" that prevents her from reaching her full potential for while, and even when she does comes to terms with the fact shes a barbarian its still badddd bc her rage is explosive as FUCKKK. she'd be one of the more physically intimidating races like a half-orc i think. maybe a firbolg but most likely half-orc
yoshito: life domain cleric of ilmater 😁 ohhhhh buddy your saviour complex is gonna SUCKKK in this universe, but he would definitely be an adventurer that tries to help out as many people as he can as a roaming cleric!! he would mostly act on his own but possibly joins a party at some point for the more dangerous quests :) im thinking he's a drow half-elf?? his mother and himself both came from a place theyre not fond of but they both found ilmater or something and now it motivates him to help others out
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officialbillhader · 5 months
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Thinking abt 2022 on my flight back from Europe i was flying alone and they hadnt taken my carry on to just put in the cargo hold like they do a lot so i asked if the flight attendant could put it up there for me and he said no we arent allowed to pick up bags and i was like ok ill just ask one of the men around my seat. Then a really mean different flight attendant was the one helping ppl in my section and i came up and i know i didnt ask him for help bc i was already told by a different attendant that they cant help but he was so mean and bitching abt his bad back and how he cant keep lifting bags and im standing there like ok i didnt ask you to? But he did anyway then yelled at me for not helping him lift as if i could actually help and he made me cry i felt so bad. But its not like im some stupid girl who packed above what she can carry (which ok i am but whatever), its also that i am physically disabled and cannot lift my arm above my head at all. Bc i cant do this i should be forced to pay $100 for a second checked bag? No. I was just gonna ask a passenger for help. Thats all. Problem solved. Its what i did on my way to spain. He was so mean and for what, to be miserable?
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weirdcat1213 · 11 months
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AJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJ HAPPY DAYS AJJAJAJAJA :D YEY TRIGUN BOOKCLUB :D
THOUGHTS :D
chap 1:
-happy days and everything is going to shit...yeap thats trigun
-i just noticed they have separated rooms and that makes me sad for some reason
-i love to see that rem was nice to everyone but was also getting annoyed by that guy, shes not perfect and I LOVE HER
-ngl, im not sure if the other guys did something
-its so cool to see the scientists joking around for a bit but then getting to see them in silence cuz IT IS a weird situation to be in. you are alone in space and something happened "on its own"..... It makes the situation more serious
-LMAO HER FACE I LOVE HER SM
-it hasnt even been that expanded in 98 (im sorry for the spoiler ig) or stampede (YET), but rem is so funny. shes more than a living saint and im glad we get to see more of her here. shes the only mom ever
-NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RIGHT
-also i thought knives *fixed* the thing, i forgot he caused it lmao
-arent they adorable? :3 pls dont touch them :3
-"it could end in disaster" you dont say....you dont say....
-NOT THEM SAYING YES IMMEDIATELY I WILL CRY
-BABY KNIVES WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU (ik what happened to him)
-"if you can love someone with all your heart then its alright".........im gonna take so time to think about that cuz....yeah, i guess thats true isnt it?
-oh that doesnt age wel...not even story wise but life wise....if we could only talk with each other
-ok so...is that a fucking ghost? and if it is, did she really appear when knives's faith in humanity was at its peak? really :c?
-OH ITS MY TIME TO GET SICK :D
-OK NO THATS SO INTERESTING CUZ HERE IS VASH WHO IS CURIOUS ABOUT TESLA AND WANTS TO READ THE REPORT BUT IN STAMPEDE (spoilers coming im sorry) IS KNIVES WHO WANTS TO READ IT. DID HE LOSE THIS FAITH *WAY EARLIER* THAN TRIMAX KNIVES??? HOW TF IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE?????
-great....scientific....discovery.....you say......... so the scientists were ready for another tesla situation....
-pls no pls no pls no. you teach her how to speak and then you do that shit. stop
-by looking at the pictures and descriptions we can say that the scans began on her 13th day of life (multiple scans as the chapter mentions), and 87 DAYS LATER they started to ask themselves if that was correct to do from a moral standpoint...87 days. and just after they started to question themselves she started dying. just 10 days later...fuck
-"we have no desire to rest" WHAT ABOUT YOUR "SUBJECT" THO ASSHOLES
-its never not gonna make me sick how they killed a child in 100 days. thats all it took.
-ajjjj :c im fucking sick
chap 2:
-same vash same
-ily rem but no, thats too fucked up to forgive
-knives, my poor baby :c
-"i wish i could cut myself from everything too" oh mood, i mean what
-ok but rem trying to pick vash up and he refusing has to be so fucking heartbreaking for rem cuz thats her fucking child no matter what
-imagine your child who loved you so much rejecting you like that. i would literally shatter
-"you can continue the experiments with us" vash stfu i swear. catch me actually crying over that line btw im not ok
-INTERESTING how rem says she felt powerless (and i get why) but during the whole thing the crew had so much power over her life
-it fucks me up this is a one year old trying to die of starvation. yeah he looks older and etc etc but hes still less than 2 years old. life is pain. why nightow.
-also idk if im interpreting the panel right but i think he *was* going to eat but saw rem in his room so he stopped
-or are those different days? idk
-alright, today you are eating you sick son of a bitch :]
-NO STOP THAT YOU FUCKING CHILD
-the panel being blurry on purpose, 10/10
-hes sitting the same way rem did- oh im ending it all
-i feel kinda weird saying this but i just fucking love that story: the metaphor, how she tells it. it really feels like a parent trying to teach a kid something. its sad but feels comfy. i could literally read/listen to her telling that story of the train in her dreams over and over
-[pause for crying]
-its "separated ways" cuz that talk with rem lowkey divided rem i think. knives would be way different if he had heard what rem said. damn it why did he had to faint
chap 3
-"king of loneliness" pls i want to stop crying
-i know he didnt block the memory, i feel it
-yey creepy knives is here....yeyyy....
-amazing transition btw, gives me the yibbies every time
-HES RIGHT THO MF, YOU ARE AFRAID
-why he looks so cool while being creepy stop it knives stop it
-idk if im understanding it right, but i think knives did the thing he did in the first chapter but for all ships. it comes full circle
-god i hate when hes right
-im sad to say he looks beautiful and epic. also for the life of me i could not say if that plant agreed with him or not
-yknow what i think she didnt agree to that
-age of chaos wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :D
[i took a one day break cuz the volume made me too sad BUT IM BACK BABY]
chap 4
-yeah ig my baby has been to so many funerals if you think about it
-YEAH TO THE RESCUEEEEE
-wolfwood: you dont wanna mess with this guy he will break you
the guy in question: :c
-aw his cute little and stupid face :3
-i love to see vash having a good time :') god he needed that
-oh man we're getting sad again
-also yes they take those people who did whatever they did but the bartender is also taking vash in, even the demons get to drink there huh, nice
-why tf is this guy so wise, why is he saying what vash (kinda) needs to hear? amazing, im devastated
-wait so the feathers or whatever hurt??? because of the face he made. SO DOES IT HURT???? NO :C
-knives can you not-
-ITS HIM IN ALL OF HIS FUCKED UP GLORY :D
-SHUT UP VASH, GEESUS
-the final panel its so cute and then there's the fucking speech bubble that says "dumbass" its true tho xd
chap 5
-NOT THE FUCKING FEATHER i dont want to go there
-he looks so tired :c
-oh shit i forgot about that panel of his face wth
-OH SHIT WOLFWOOD NO
-OH THATS CREEPY AS HELL YO WHAT
-"the last thing i want to do is be a burden to him" STFU WOLFWOOD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
-SHES HERE OH SHIT OH SHIT
-"youre the one who needs to be careful" I WILL CHEW GLASS
-FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT
-OH GOD OH NO ITS HIM GET OUTTTT
-elendira ily sm
-thank you wolfwood for saying trans rights lmao
-HES ASLEEP. KILL HIM VASH KILL HIM
-oh no his glasses :c
-ah fuck hes awake noooooooooooo
chap 6
-LEGATO IN THE METAL HANDBAG :D WHAT WILL HE DO
-dont you bring tesla into this >:[
-idk whats happening but KILL HIM
-*sigh* i hate when knives is right
-DONT YOU DARE SAY THAT AFTER STAMPEDE MF :C "if they come for us lets just run as fast as we can" YOU ARE MAKING IT SO HARD TO READ THIS MAN
-also yey he regained his eye :3
-:cccccccccccccccccccccc im so happy that talk was in stampede
-also yeah vash hates knives with a burning passion but EVEN THEN he still was willing to give him a chance and live together with him, i cant do this anymore really
-im picturing legato kind of jumping in his metal handbag to move around as if he was in a sleeping bag cuz i think thats way funnier lmao
-:cccccccccc vash pls
-ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :c his armmmm
-oh geesus oh god no OH HELL NO
-ohhhhh i see. look at legato being useful lmao /J
-THE ARK IS HERE WOOP WOOP
well that was certainly a volume
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ok seriously though this is like. the absolute most a scene has ever deviated from the script? like in most other scripts the apparent changes arent really that major, only a few specific lines are either added/removed and modifications with how certain things are worded (though the initial implications behind the words are still similar). but with this scene they decided to just...completely do away with an entire voice over segment? and lucas not being in the script but in the show he’s so CLEARLY there with the one holding max in his arms?
like you cant tell me it doesn’t completely change the context of the scene either because the voice over being included would’ve solidified that el initially drew strength and motivation from mike’s words in order to save max. but in the actual show theres 0 indication of mike’s role in the revival of max at all, in fact it shows how el wasn’t even actually thinking about him? she was completely focused on max and max alone 😭
also there’s no way the writers posted this without being aware that people are obviously gonna notice the blatant difference between whats on the script and whats actually transpiring in the show? like its such an obvious contrast and they just decided to ditch what couldve been a *major* thing for milevens...like what were they Thinking and Intending when they posted this
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It kills me to love you (kai anderson x reader) part 4
he stood there nodding his head. "i understand" he said looking back "plus im no side bitch" i said turning around to look at him "its one or the other" i said moving past him "can you please leave im trying to get ready" i said. "to go where?" he asked. "no where i just wanna feel nice today" i said shrugging my shoulders. "ok...we have a meeting later at 12." he said looking at me before leaving. i hummed and got ready. i did my makeup, hair and got dressed. by the time i was done it was 9:30. i smiled at myself in the mirror. i ignored the band-aid on my head. i left my room and went downstairs. i walked into the kitchen and fixed me a cup of coffee. i finally felt relief as soon as the warm liquid hit my mouth. i smile again as i sip my coffee. "good morning" winter said looking at me. "morning" i said back. "how are you and ivy doing" i asked "were fine..." she said "and oz?" i asked "hes fine too...hes visiting ally today" she said "are you really gonna be his second mom...i think you'll be great at it" i said "ivy wants me to...but i dont know...its just everything thats been happening with kai and all the killings we do...i dont want him to be exposed to it...hell me and ivy are both in this cult and nobody to take care of him when were gone" she said "yeah that is true...but i think you should be there for him. i wouldnt want him around allison...shes fucking crazy...she has so many phobias..." i said taking a sip of my coffee. "i know...ivy wants me to with her to pick up oz later..." she said. "she keeps saying it'll be fine but im scared allison will cause a scene and we really dont need that" she continued. "yeah...she'll be screaming "you fucked my wife you fucked my wife you bitch" i said laughing a bit. winter also laughed. "you look really nice" she said looking at my makeup and hair. "thanks...ok guess what meadow did this morning" i said. "what..." "so i woke up to see her in my room for some bullshit reason and she hit me with her bag so i fought her" i said "oh shes got some balls. i know how much you hate her...do you still have the hots for my brother?" she asked "yeah..." i said "dont worry i wont tell." she said walking closer. "i know you wont" i said smiling "well i should get going...ivy will be here any minute now..." she said backing up "ok then be safe" i said turning around and going out front. i sat on the porch with my coffee. kai has a really nice yard its so clean and the flower bed is beautiful. he has some really good yard guys. i finish my coffee and go inside to clean my dish. i lean over the sink as i wash my cup. "got a nice ass Y/N" i heard a familiar voice say. i turned around to see samuels looking at me, leaning on the island. "arent you gay?" i said "im not gay im masculine" he said a bit pissed. "sooo you like dick up your ass but your not gay? so...winter is masculine cause shes gay?" i asked "mind your manners" he said "mind yours and stop staring at my ass before i cut your dick off" i said pulling a knife from the drying rack. "what the fuck" kais voice over took the room "what the fuck? uh WHY the fuck are you everywhere!" i said looking at him "my house" he said "not rea- yeah its your house" i said realising i was about to cross a personal line with kai. he sighed a bit before leaving me and samuels alone again. i set the knife down and left to go to my room. i pulled out my phone and decided to just scroll on instagram for a while... i heard a knock on my door. "come in" i said looking. kai peeked his head inside. "meeting lets go" he said before shutting it. i stood up and left the room and followed kai down to the basement. no one was there yet so i just leaned against the wall in my usual spot. "Y/N...c'mere" kai said. i walked over to him and waited for what he was going to say. "wanna help me with something tonight? its really easy" he said "so your giving me easy shit now" i said chuckling a bit. "well i thought you deserved a bit of a break from working with meadow...but if you dont wa-" i cut him off "i'll do it i swear any day ill do it" i said a bit eager
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jaya string of fate au
ive mentioned string of fate au a few times here. ive finally put it together into a post. okay so the reason why ive taken so long to transfer this is bc ITS FROM JULY OF LAST YEAR. i wasnt sure if i should lightly edit it or rewrite it. because it started out as me complaining about rebooted and then me fucking craving fanfiction and hurt (i do this 24/7) and then it morphed into this au that also doubled as character/relationship analysis and me fixing rebooted with my bare fucking hands in the context of this au
anyways. jaya string of fate au with emphasis on the heartbreak of s3. half of this was written half a year ago. man i was so mad about s3 back then lol
been thinking about s3 again. whats even more frustrating about the bad het drama. is that they didnt even give jay and nya a proper break up. granted their get together wasnt on screen either BUT IF YOURE GONNA OH SO RUDELY TEAR THEM APART LIJE THAT. THE LEAST YOU CAN DO IS DO IT WITH MORE FUCKING PURPOSE. THE WRITERS JUST PITCHED A WRENCH INTO THE WORKS AT BULLET SPEED JUST BECAUSE! JUST BECAUSE THEY WANTED DRAMA. BUT FOR WHAT!!!!!!!!! MAKES ME FUCKING MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL IT DID IS DO JAY DIRTY AND NYAS CHARACTER DIRTY
nyas fucking integrity spit on. you didnt have to make her be like that. it just really fucking made her look BAD. god i wont say jay was a perfect boyfriend but he didnt deserve THAT.
anyways. i want a canon compliant jaya breakup fic set in s3 (present jem speaking: I STILL WANT THIS BY THE WAY.) im so certain nobody has written this. i think heartbreak could be a form of whump if you make it hurt enough.
well. technically. it would be more emotional hurt fic rather than whump. but im a guy who has his definitions twisted. this is whump to me. also im a guy who thinks unromantic things as romantic but also loves love thats void of romance above anything else. i can do both. anyways.
i want jay to feel absolutely crushing heartbreak. i want jay to be hurt. i want him to feel it in his chest. unfairness— rending, jealousy— twisting, want— squeezing. all he yearns for is to be with nya. because he loves her. but apparently... nya doesnt feel the same way. and it hurts
i want to consume heartbreak. i think itll be crunchy on the outside but soft and squishy on the inside. absolute chewable pleasure. lightly salty and bittersweet. i also wanna squeeze jays heart like a stress ball and maybe cause arrhythmia. scratch it a little (a lot). jay is my emotional and physical fucking chew toy
and so to make heartbreak a bit more whumpy tho... i thought up of red string of fate au...
in this version of this concept, the red string of fate is something that needs to be tied by the pair together. and the feelings behind it is what gives the string color. but sometimes if a love is fated to be, the red of the string is instantly, intensely vibrant, almost glowing 
but you dont know who your soulmate is until you actually get together and tie the knot. it is not preexisting, the string does not connect people together for them to find each other before they even know the other exists. it only exists when two people make the decision to bind each other to themselves. most people dont find their soulmate but because its so often the case ppl are content with someone who isnt bc you dont need to find love in your soulmate alone, love is abundant in other places. but that isnt to say the red string of fate isnt romanticized in society tho. anyways. nya likes jay and their string is a pleasant warm red thats a little pink. its typical color for those who arent soulmates but its ok
jay is a little smitten in a slightly overbearing way tho. i think they are a couple who are a little bit mismatched in terms of showing affection. and also nya is very independent type so jays chivalrous tendencies grates on her a little but she lets it slide bc to her, jays positives outweigh his negs. hes cute and funny and they both can geek out and bond over tech stuff. thats a part of the fun. 
but then the match maker thing happens and nya doesnt immediately start considering cole as a romantic interest. but she does start... considering things tho. why cole could be her match. and if he really is her soulmate. why isnt jay her perfect match? its less nya becoming interested in someone else and more nya examining herself to think about what she actually wants for herself and what she wants in a person and if jay really isnt the right guy for her in the end. she doesnt know if cole would actually give her what she wants more than jay does. but she does grow more aware of the mismatch between her and jay
but before anything could be done about her doubts and dismiss it all and just carry on with their relationship, jay finds out in the trailer and is devastated. and intensely jealous of cole.. because hes been a bit insecure about his and nyas relationship for a while now also. he jumps the gun too quick before nya could reassure him so then that Fight happens and things get messy and ugly really fast. jay makes himself look really bad in front of nya which unfortunately reinforces her doubts in jay and she thinks. maybe they shouldnt be together after all. 
and so one night nya talks to jay alone. she explains herself. how shes been feeling about them. how she wants to focus on herself. and that hes too much for her and hes stifling her and she thinks it would be better if they cut things off and go back to being friends. and then she cuts the string that binds them together before jay could even object. it stings for nya but for jay it feels like his heart was sliced in two. literally. he feels a sharp pain that makes him clutch his chest. for nya, she had more time to process the severance. because she was sorta falling out of love for a while. her side of the string has become desaturated and dull. which is why she doesnt hurt as much
she doesnt realize how much jay truly loves her and how much it would hurt him when the string was cut. so when jay falls to his knees, tears falling, she just turns and walks away because she thinks its just from the heartbreak. she knew she was breaking jays heart
she doesnt realize how much hes literally hurting, how she left his heart bleeding. she knew but she didnt know. its most painful experience jay has ever felt in his life. a searing ache. theres a sudden painful void instead where there once was nyas love. its loss that was much too abrupt
heartbreak cant kill a person but it can leave them wounded. and with an abrupt disconnection like that, its why jay hung onto those feelings for nya for months after even tho he never acted on them. his half of the string refused to wither away and he didnt want to discard it either. how could he when he still loved nya. but he couldnt do anything about it though. nya made up her mind. and jay knew her well enough that she would probably hate him more if he chased after her. and so... he kept his feelings close to his chest and his sad, loose thread wrapped around his finger tight all the way until skybound...
okay. now present day jem speaking. that was the end of original story i had written on twitter... its meant to be a missing scene (inbetween seasons) fic + au. canon compliant except for the fact its set in this au. so skybound more or less carries out the same way. except minor details being changed...
such as nadakhan approaching jay. he tells him he cannot fix or create strings of fate. but he can give him other means of winning nyas heart... 
although this isnt a part of the “fic” i do imagine at the end of their divorce era.... nya who had casted away her old string, remakes her string to tie to the end of jays (and her) old one where she cut in. the thing is making strings of fate is something anyone can do regardless of being fated to be or not. what the string of fate is in this au is more of an oath... an intention to be together to the end of time. the two people are choosing to bind their fate to each other. nya, who had felt stifled in a relationship and decided she didnt need to be in one back all the months ago, realized something in skybound.... the string of fate isnt a contract or a shackle. not like how she thought... its a sentiment of how much you care about somebody to want to be connected forever. till death do us part. and jay very sincerely wanted that. he wanted to be with nya forever. and nya realizes... despite all his flaws, she really cares about him. she does want to be with him forever. she wants to be together with everyone, all her friends, her family forever. i think she doesnt know the nature of her feelings for jay. they are a bit conflicted and shes not sure how to sort out her desires from her feelings. but i think she decides to give jay a second chance of sorts. when they tie the loose ends the color on nyas side is an ambiguous grey barely tinging pink 
she tells jay she doesnt want to just get back together. she wants them to start over. and jay isnt sure what that means. and by the color of the string hes not sure if it means theyre dating again either. its a very ambiguous ground theyre standing on. but... jay takes the fact that nya retied their string to mean something. that nya isnt rejecting him anymore. that she cares. that he means something to her. it gives jay hope. his feelings for her havent changed... but he decides that to just be. and take things slow. hes happy even if hes confused by what nya wants. hes connected to her again.... and that means so much to jay
i think that their relationship from the end of skybound and onward is a bit more slowburn. well its a weird sorta slowburn. because theyre together but not really. its about them figuring their relationship out. and also nya falling back in love for reals. i love navigation of ambiguous relationships. i think for a while for nya the term “girlfriend”/“boyfriend” is more loaded than the term “soulmate”. thats how fucking weird their relationship got. whats not ambiguous is that nya does love him. she wouldnt have retied their string if she didnt. whats ambiguous is the nature of that love.... its not quite platonic but shes hesitant to call it romantic. whatever. they have time to figure it out
okay. that turned out so much more aro than i was intending. but i do like leaving it like that tho. feelings are difficult to navigate arent they sometimes? how they figure it out is up to whoever. love is love. they are more than “just” friends. but romance itself is a difficult and different beast than love. but jay and nya.... they meet halfway somehow. even if it takes a bit of work
ALSO. LOOK AT THIS ART BY DAN @rotten-dan he drew it for me several months ago when i first finished this au’s original thread which ended at the breakup skdjgthulkd. HEARTBREAK!!!!!!!!!!! YEEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you again dan for drawing this for me 
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also. heres some bonus supplemental worldbuilding that doesnt pertain to story stuff but fleshes out how i picture the world in this au to work. most of this was written to answer dans questions about this au lol... not necessary to read unless if youre interested in my take of string of fate concept lol. or unless youre interested in the bit about bruiseshipping in this au at the very end
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the string is often attached to the ring finger. so its a very romantic gesture when couples tie it together to each others fingers. like putting wedding rings on each other but its more of a cute fluffy thing rather than binding. not ceremony but its a Thing. its the same level of formality as asking someone out. and string is like. supernatural. its not completely physical but its definitely exists and can be touched. but not as if a literal string is tied to them if you know what i mean? like if the pair are far apart then the strings middle isnt visible but the ends that are tied floats towards the direction of their partner. the string is like. metaphysical. its a perceivable, somewhat tangible representation of love
but if desired the string can be cut if the parties want to separate. but it usually hurts. like a lot of breakups do.
okay so. the thing is with like. almost all soulmate aus. is that they know about their soulmate. or that the evidence of who it is is instantly visible. and like..... that sorta kills part of the fun? of falling in love?
so what if they dont know until they decide to try each other out first. thats the like. the thought behind the set up for this
like. theres sometimes the occasional dumbass whos going off constantly try to find their soulmate but ultimately a soulmate isnt someone you can simply Search for and find. so those kind of people end up being pricks who never will find a soulmate in their life because they dont want to work things out with ppl who arent their soulmate. the pursuit of a soulmate will usually end in disappointment
but sometimes. for the people who do find their soulmate. its because they gravitated to each other in the first place. 
like they fell in love with each other naturally. they liked the person for who they are. and so they decided to get together because they enjoy the other person so much. so when they realize they are meant to be they laugh like oh of course! they were meant to be. theyre like the hallmark movie couple of couples and the few of the very lucky ones
not being soulmates doesnt mean you can only fall in love with your soulmate tho. you can fall in love with anyone. regardless of whether theyre your soulmate or not. and even if theyre not. why does that fucking matter? the important thing isnt that they arent meant to be, but that they love each other anyways. isnt that more romantic? fuck fate the one i love is you
usually nonsoulmate relationship take more work. because the instant perfect chemisty of fated couples isnt there. buuuut. isnt that how love is like in reality? love is work sometimes. love is sometimes hard. but love is also worth it. so making the decision to work for it is more easy the more youre in love. not always the case. but in the healthy couples its usually the case
previously that the feeling behind the thread gives it its color. so. the string can end up being a different color if the feelings felt arent romantic love. most people dont know this though bc ppl who usually tie it are couples. and also it takes both of them to tie the string. every single relationship has a theoretical string color. its just most people who actually want the string are couples usually couples. and so for example, most aros dont ever even think of trying to tie it with someone bc they dont want that kinda bind. but if a curious aro wants to try it out bc they are questioning about their best friend if the two of them agree just to see. their string could actually be a different color than red. because the feelings behind it are platonic
its also entirely possible for a string to be entirely black between enemies hfhjskl. but however those kind of pair would usually NEVER tie the string together bc you know hbghsk. enemies. but if they were. it would be that color. but maybe some insane enemies who are obsessed with each other would do it tho. you know fated enemies and such
..... i have thoughts about bruiseshipping in this au also. theyre best friends, they can bind each other if they wanted to. they have the mutual sentiment required to. but due to the culture surrounding the red string of fate specifically, they never think to. even if they did consider it once they didnt ever bring it up bc awkward!!!!!! the string of fate is the symbol of love. couples treat it a bit frivolously but it is a loaded thing. the string of fate is conversely isnt strictly about love but its just often the case when you want to connect the souls of two people for eternity its usually because of love. theoretically i think their string color would actually oscillate between black and their standard representative color (maybe ill go with light blue lol....) depending on if theyre fighting or not. because it would be funny if it did. also. i think they might try it only after jay and nya retie their string of fate. because then they see its an option to tie strings of fate nonromantically. so theyre like... hey.... do you wanna like... just see? and thats that. two besties bound. jay has two strings of fate now
hysterically it would be funny if all the ninjas did it to each other. it would be a mess. but a colorful one. you know those ship charts where ppl draw lines for their otps and notps. its like that but its not shipping its just relationships and also every single person is connected to every single other person. not saying it has to happen in this au its just that the image of it is so fucking funny to me i had to say it. it would be useful tho if they wanted to find each other wherever they are. practical
maybe they should do that. idk
anyways. thats the end of my au. the post is longer than my og thread of it hjhklkjlkghjf. anyways. thats my weird subversion of string of fate au for jaya. writing the endgame jaya part tonight made think again. damn. im so fucking aro. i think the way i write romance always turn out not so romantic because of it. but also. THIS IS PEAK ROMANCE. SUBVERT BORING ROMANCE TROPES INTO SOMETHING LESS AMATANORMATIVE AND MORE INTERESTING FOR YOUR ENRICHMENT. I RECOMMEND IT. ITS MORE FUN. thats my biased aro ass speaking tho. but for reals. subvert tropes. find out what makes something truly romantic. anyways thanks for reading all of this. i am very fond of this au..... especially for the breakup scene lol...............
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im gonna ask you to share your poland headcanons :]
WAHAHAHA ANNOOOOOOON THANK YOUUUU IVE WANTED TO TALK ABOUT HER FOREVER
ohwhere do i start... i suppose i'll talk about her personality first?
ok so let me set the record straight. she is a bitch. she's incredibly stubborn and once her mind is on something it's incredibly difficult to get her to change it, even if she knows its wrong. she enables the worst in people and rewards them for it. you know that one scene in angels in america where roy and belize are arguing about azt and roy starts hurling slurs at belieze and once belize does the same roy gives him the azt? yeah poland would do that. she will start fighting with anyone to bring them to their breaking point. it's a skill she learned while still in the same house with the bastard known as the ussr.
speaking of, she hates russia more than anyone. genuinely. it's actually kind of scary how far it goes. she pretty much allout refuses to speak with his friends and if she seems him, hoo boy you better be ready to hold her down. the hatred, i suppose its justified considering the.. how do i put this Hostile and imperial history between the two. i genuinely believe the last time the two ever had a positive interaction was during smolensk and even that was only because at first russia was the only one around to comfort her.
ok lets talk about her with closer friends.. while yes she fucking loves to push people's buttons when alone with someone she likes shes actually a very understanding and loyal person. she will actually listen to you rant about something you're passionate about for hours. if you are in trouble she will be the first to help you. however, if you look at her funny please know you've made an enemy for life. she holds long and petty grudges unapologetically.
speaking of pettyness, lets talk about the ussr and her relationship with him. i think about them a lot just because they hate eachother so much. completely genuinely i believe she only stayed in the warsaw pact for two reasons: to somehow destroy the ussr oh and also taking care of eg since shes still a teenager. im like, 99% sure the two got into arguments daily. they genuinely hate eachother more than anyone, and whatever the fuck perestroika didn't help. at best she was tolerant of him, at worst she was actively trying to kill him. she hates him for everything he stands for as well as his treatment of eg. despite her thing for long and petty grudges, she could tell that that girl could do no wrong from the start. the two have a very mother-daughter like relationship
she has both of her wings and they work just fine! although for a long time they didnt lol. i believe during ww2 they got fucked up during the destruction of warsaw (since that was pretty much the moment that armie krawoja lost its footing and poland became a guaranteed soviet puppet state after the war) and it took until her eventual leaving of the warsaw pact for them to be fully functional again. it's a fun little metaphor for freedom, i guess.
the cross she wears on her neck isn't actually because she's super religious. it was originally a small postwar act of spite against the soviet union, but eventually it kinda just became part of her outfit. she still isn't super religious, most countries arent due to their inherent personification of a whole ass landmass. unless it's like, the vatican or something JAJA
she is a hardcore alcoholic. it's, uh, not good, but it has quite literally been going on since pre-interwar. although she has gotten better with not downing like, 3 bottles of vodka in 1 sitting. she mostly just drinks beer at this point, unless she's like, really stressed for whatever reason. hey, old habits die hard. if i were being constantly harassed and assaulted by my neighbors i too would probably have some sort of addiction to a substance at this point. a random poland fun fact, the national drink is vodka.
her signature item (an item of which a country has associated themselves with and can now summon at will) is a hussar sabre as gifted to her by her father (the polish-lithuanian commonwealth). she cherishes it greatly and can use the sword quite well in combat. 10/10 would bring it to a gunfight.
due to her time spent in annexation for like, 100 years, she's pretty good at playing piano. on her spare time she'll play it rather leniently. admittedly, she doesn't have many hobbies. she sort of reads most of the day when not out with people.
wait how have i got this far without talking about her friends. she's good friends with the folk in the lublin triangle (lithuania (whos also her sister lol) and ukraine) and the visegrad group (czechia, slovakia, hungary) as well as all formerly in the eastern bloc. she would die for them and genuinely wishes nothing but the best for them. theyre also one of the few people who can actually tolerate her for long periods of time.
while it doesn't tend to show, she is very wary of france and britain specifically due to ww2. france especially, actually, considering the whole duchy of warsaw situation. for a long time she genuinely believed france was going to help her get her freedom. as you can see, that did not turn out, and nowadays the relationship between the two tends to be strained, only amplified by the russo-ukrainian war. she tends to interject on anything france is saying in an eu meeting with a sarcastic remark, especially if it's about war. she doesn't forget and she doesn't forgive.
uhhh i hope this suffices? i felt like this basically the entire time i was writing this
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edit nope nvm im adding more i forgot to talk about interwar poland
ok so. interwar and postwar poland are basically two seperate people at this point. like, not literally, poland didnt fucking die in the war lol but personality and appearancewise they're completely different. as opposed to current poland's rather brash, loud, and belligerent personality, interwar poland was very quiet. he's much closer to that "fanon" poland. while, yeah he still was pretty fierce. it was much harder to get him to that point than it is now. he was pretty pacifistic all things considered.. he also at the time worked at a library doing archival things.. nowadays her job primarily consists of doing paperwork, which she doesn't mind all that much all things considered.
edit 08/08/23: her """"government assigned"""" username is probableLiability.
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malka-lisitsa · 10 months
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MY EXPERIENCE IN THE ROLEPLAYING COMMUNITY
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⭐️ my roleplay pet peeves
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Oh youre just setting me up for hate arent you Kenz?
Biggest one is people who do not actually know their characters. God OOC actions drive me INSANE. JUST MAKE AN OC.
People who pick a single aspect of their character and reduce them completely to that. Example: People who play Elena like a Saint, people who play Katherine as a slut, people who play Stefan as ONLY RIPPER AND OR DEPRESSED RIPPER ADJACENT.
People who play villain characters and then cherry pick what they would and wouldnt do, yes my guy you are writing a monster who has and will continue to do terrible things. You do not have to write them out but they absolutely did happen and you dont get to just take that away bc they make you uncomfortable. Write a different character if you dont like that one being shitty like that.
GIANT GIFS
"Removed from canon and written in-" Just say AU interpretation.
one line in reply to three paragraphs. try a LITTLE BIT guys.
PEOPLE WHO CANCEL PEOPLE AND ACTORS WHO DID SOMETHING FUKKIN YEARSD AGO AND HAVE BEEN UNPROBLEMATIC SINCE. CHILL. PPL MAKE MISTAKES. FUCKING CHILL.
pr0n blogs
People who come after people for writing a villainous character doing villainous things. If it's IC THEN ITS IN CHARACTER. GET OVER IT. GOD are you also gonna write a letter to the show writers? And the actor for having the AUDACITY to do it on tv? Actually if you do this to rp blogs you probably would, please dont. Leave ppl alone.
banned FC lists (even tho I myself will not rp with other Ninas fc characters)
I WOULD put Anon hate on here but really I like tearing them apart. I actually havent gotten any in a while and I do hope shes doing ok. I hope you found peace hun, glad to see you've evolved.
PEOPLE WHO CHANGE FC OF CHARACTERS FOR NO REASON. (and for reasons Idk it just irks me when ppl change canon fc Idk.)
Theres more but I already look like an elitist and I absolutely am, wont even deny that fact. So there you go LKMNFDSK<F NSF.
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thueenz · 8 months
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Have you "come out" with your identity to your parents/friends? How did you do it? Completely ok if you don't wanna answer or give too many details. Hope ur safe and happy
hi! i don't mind answering at all ! ! im gonna put this under read more for the sake of not throwing a wall of text on peoples dashes
i have come out to my parents, and as for friends, ive only ever had to come out to one because the rest are lgbt in some way LMAO 😭 i dont know anyone close to where i live so thats a bit of a cheatcode. in an evil way because the con is i dont know anyone near me wouldnt recommend to be fair BUT !
it was like, years ago now, so the details are a bit foggy, but i literally just sat them down while shaking in my boots and told them , said i had something i wanted to tell them all and came out, it wasnt too complicated for me since my family is like...well, theyre not hateful, i'm not going to call them allies considering the first thing they told me was that they found my identity too hard to grasp 💀
i eventually confronted them on that and it didnt do much either, they use the proper pronoun more often in front of my friends but never really when im alone and they have a bunch of other issues with that stuff, theyre like, the type that think theyre progressive but arent lol. I.e i used he/him for a friend for months and they did too but they heard the friend is trans and immediately stumbled using she/her constantly and were like oh well im not used to it 🥺🥺 girl wtf youve been using he/him for months!! so stuff like that yk?
as for the One Cishet Friend I Met On A Game, i also just sort of did the same thing? he was a lot more accepting though, very sweet, he was googling what pronoun to use in his native language for me so that was a lot more touching after my last experience 😭
it's a bit annoying but i dont really put much mind to it! i dont really care what my family thinks anymore on that even if its bothersome, ive got a lot bigger fish to fry with my family LMAO and boy are they frying... theyre positively cooking
i hope that answers sorry i don't have many details i have poor memory also it just wasn't very eventful aside from me being very anxious each time
HOWEVER this gives me the chance to share my favourite story to share with people because its so stupid. OK SO! about a year before i came out? idk, my mom literally asked if i was gay 😭😭 and i was closeted so i was like shaking in my boots and i was like no why.. and she said because i never had a crush on a fictional male character, like my sister liked shrek as a kid so she "knew.." she was straight it LINGERS IN MY MIND ITS SO FUNNY LMAO like please diagnosed as gay by your mother because you didnt get a crush on shrek. DIAGNOSED AS STRAIGHT BECAUSE YOU DID GET A CRUSH ON SHREK ?? I literally like men too though so she was right but also not but also what the hell LMAO
i hope youre safe and happy too! ♥️♥️tyvm for being sweet feel free to send any more asks if i didnt cover something! i havent eaten breakfast yet so im a bit scattered im gonna do that 🫡
anyone whos read this far gets a gold star 🌟
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