#its obviously diferent if you watch other people

[sora-of-uranus]

thematically for me the final life series would have to end with either Grian or Jimmy winning (circular narative for grian, Canary curse ending and it being a big final huhrah) Emotionally however I need joel to win one. Please.

[thequietkid-moonie]

The diference between love and obsession

[ YANDERE COMPARISON ] [ Aventurine ]

[ Honkai Star Rail ]

⚠️ This contain a little bit of spoilers

⚠️ Yandere, I don't support nor try to romanticize this toxic behaivor, is just for entretaiment

The obsession inmense love I have for this man is half to be propotional to the amount of things i have wrote for him, I mean this is the first one 💀

I'm not sorry for what I have just wrote, this is the way I want it see Aventurine and no one will change my mind, take it or leave me enjoy my Aventurine

Aventurine's love is sincere, caring and almost shy, even when Aventurine doesn't even try to hide and is loud about his atraction for someone his love is the complete opposite, he is a gambler, he knows how to hide what he truly feels so the others in the table won't notice his weakeness when playing, but love is diferent

Aventurine's love make him weak and vulnerable, make him truly wish get something, and that something is your safety and happiness, Aventurine's love is loving and caring and thats all he has for you, when he is in love what he wants to most is your happiness

Aventurine's love makes him a mess, it take him a while to fully comprehend his feelings, he is able to reconize the attractions and is evident with it, but when he relice that he is truly in love he becomes a flustered mess, its being so long since last time he had someone who was close enough to his heart to love them and he doesn't know what to do or react

Aventurine's love make him feel freedom but also make him like a teenager in love, he is flirty, teasing and even touchy with you, putting his usual facade to cover up the complete mess he is in the inside, carefully selecting his words to don't mess things up and hiding at his best the inmense blush that threaten to come out everytime he is the one who makes you smile and laugh

Aventurine's love is what lead him to wish more, what lead him to slowly start finding more reasons why living is good and what lead him to slowly find a meaning to life, if he can find someone to truly love again maybe life is not as bad as he thought before

Aventurine's love lead him to care for you, directly or indirectly he is always watching over your well-being, wanting for you to never lack on anything and be only happy, wanting to be able to protect you and take care of you (if you let him and are comfortable with it), but also wanting to be protected and cared by you. Aventurine's love is what make him aware of how truly hurt and lonely he feels and is what makes him crave for your comfort, what lead him to wish for you to care for him, however those are unspoke desires, he will not dare to talk about it unless he is completely sure you reciprocate his feelings

Aventurine's love is what make him fear for your life, his luck has never being exactly kind to him, giving him all he has now but taking away what he truly cares for, so he obviously fears for you, Aventurine will find a way to protect you with his luck and from it too, but if at the end if you decided that he is not the one you love he will accept it and cheer for you, he will be hurt but he will not dare to take your freedom away from you

Aventurine's obssesive love is troublesome for both parts, is like a torture for him to be away from you, the raising anxious thoughts of something bad happening to you hunt him down, leading him to seak your precence in a desperate way

Aventurine is lonely, he has friends and people around but his is truly lonely, last time he had a person that mean for him was when he was a child, or that was until he met you. Aventurine's obsessive love grow slowly, at first you were only another acquaintance, but as time pass and he got to know you better he slowly grow to love you, to need you, to want you

Aventurine's obssesive love make him desperate and needy, he is working by one of the most powerful corporations in all universe, having all the riches he could ever want and yet nothing of that could compare to you, the one and only thing that actually gives a meaning to his life by now

Aventurine is painfully aware of his obssesive love, he knows his feelings are something unhealthy, he noticed them as they started to grow and is being painfully aware of them but those feelings slowly grow and consume him, it makes him feel bad diferent ways and yet, he wants to do things right and win your heart over in a good way, he wants you to truly love him

Aventurine tries to win you with everything he has, trying his best to hide his desesperation, putting a facade of simply attraction at first, slowly making his way towards your heart with his flirty attitude, with beautiful and genuine compliments and even gifts, but if at the end he is not enough to be able to win your heart the right way it will be Aventurine's obsesive love what lead him to forcefuly make stay with him, desperately keeping you close

He is so desperate for your love that it will reach one point where he doesn't care anymore, Aventurine's obsesive love will lead him to be reckless, he is willing to give you all he has and all he is as long as you stay with him, he is willing to stop gambling and even spend all his money on you, he will give you all you ask him as long as you stay at his side

Aventurine's obsesive love is what lead him to idealize you, he had met you as a simple acquaintance, you were just someone he cross paths at first, but at this point you are his all, his only and real reason to stay alive, you are what give a meaning to his life and he need to keep you at his side at all cost, willing or forcefully it doesn't matter as long as you stay at his side, where he can make sure nothing harms you, where he can love you and keep you safe

Aventurine's obsesive love makes him so desperate and needy to the point that he can even accept that you don't truly love him, if you accept to show the affection and care that he craves so much by faking it he will take it and pretend that is fine just to easy the pain of his heart

[bratz-kitten]

Nikola Stojanovic’s degree theory 

— you can learn more about his theory here and here. he was the maker of this theory, i’m simply passing the knowledge i’ve researched on him in a more simplified way!!! trigger warning for mentions of death and violence for the 11º, the 15º, the 18º and the 22º degrees 

according to nikola’s research, each degree is connected to the sign it rules: 

aries degrees — 1º, 13º, 25º - taking action, fighting spirit, not giving oneself up to fate, struggle, war, can indicate abuse, labor, diligence, leadership, beginnings, etc

taurus degrees — 2º, 14º, 26º - money, food, the earth, stability, luxuries, voice, singing, etc

gemini degrees — 3º, 15º, 27º - communication, gadgets like televisions or phones, self-expression, books, siblings, neighbourhood, etc

cancer degrees — 4º, 16º, 28º - home, nurture, traditions, loyalty, faith, mother, water, etc

leo degrees — 5º, 17º, 29º - attention, life, fame, light, children, creativity, self-expression, monarchs, entertainment, strength, hair, etc

virgo degrees — 6º, 18º - to diminish, to make smaller, improvement, health, work, routine, pets, to be of service, etc

libra degrees — 7º, 19º - fairness, law, business, partnerships, fashion, beauty, charm, luxury items, music, art, etc

scorpio degrees — 8º, 20º - the 8º specifically is connected to death, wealth, to take from others, manifestation, secrets, insurance, sex, jealousy, pregnancy, etc

sagittarius degrees — 9º, 21º - abundance, expansion, wisdom, college, travelling, to explore, etc

capricorn degrees — 10º, 22º - to take control, public attention, coldness, fear, depression, rationality, ambition, father, etc

aquarius degrees — 11º, 23º - divorce, surprises, high places, high tech, new technology, humanitarianism, organizations, friends, networking, etc

pisces degrees — 12º, 24º - sleeping, drugs, alcohol, lethargy, the unconcious + our psyche, emotional dejections, feet, madness, shadows, unclear, endings, etc

0º represents the basic characteristic of the sign - it acts in its purest form. for example, if you have the 0º in aries sun, aries here acts in its most potent, pure way. 

that way, if you, for example, have your ascendant in pisces at the 13º, you’ll express aries characteristics + all that is connected to taking action, to fight. now, knowing this, this theory can manifest itself in different ways. 

i’m going to give an example that he talked about in his website that i found simple to understand yet powerful. when nikola was discussing with another astrologer, he wanted to talk about his degree theory, so he took a look at the birth chart of the wife of the other astrologer, and after a minute of analyzing it, he said as follows: “Your wife called a carpenter to the house and ordered a larger bed to be made. When the carpenter had finished the job, you went to bed and realized that the work was not properly done. One measure was right – the bed was long enough - but the other one wasn't – the bed wasn't wide enough, it was still narrow”. the look the other astrologer gave him told him that his brief analysis was absolutely correct.

his reasoning behind it was that the wife’s 12th house (which rules sleeping, beds, bedrooms) cusp began at the 21º of aries, and the ruler of that house, mars, was at the 6º in virgo. aries simbolizes to create and the 21º, a sagittarius degree, simbolizes to enlarge. so, his wife wanted to create (aries) a larger (sagittarius/jupiter) bed (the 12th house). because mars, the ruler of the 12th house, was placed in virgo (someone who renders services, a worker), she called the carpenter to the house. her mars was, however, in virgo at the 6º which is a virgo degree (virgo simbolizes diminishing, making smaller), which meant the measure of the bed had to be smaller than needed. therefore, the cusp of the 12th house (the bed) at the 21º (sagittarius - larger, longer) signifies that the bed was both long enough (enlarged), and mars in virgo at a virgo degree (6º) meant that it was not wide enough (it was narrow). nikola established connections between degrees, the signs, the planets and the houses where they fell and the aspects that they made in order to make this kind of predictions. 

he also found a few degrees to be connected to significant things. 

THE 2º DEGREE - SUPREME POWER 

nikola, through the research of the birth charts of many people throughout history, observed how those who contained planets, houses and aspects (+lunar nodes, arabic parts, vertex and of course, the four cardinal points: the IC, MC, AC and DC) in the 2º degree were those who made remarkable achievements, who wielded extreme power and were highly respected. he got to this conclusion by analyzing the birth chart of queen victoria - other rulers at the time had more powerful aspects than she did, but allas, they weren’t the ones to almost rule the entire world - it was her, so he began noticing the pattern between power and the 2º. literal jesus himself had his mercury in pisces in the 2º. i myself have four degrees at 2º, so it’s nice to know my dreams of starting a revolution, overthrowing the government and achieving world domination are supported by the astros

THE 5º DEGREE - EROTICISM 

this degree is connected to beauty, desire, sex appeal, receiving sexual attention. many sex icons like marilyn monroe, jean harlow and mata hari had it present in their birth chart. nikola talks about this being the best degree in his eyes. considering that it’s a leo degree, it’s all about living, having fun and enjoying life. 

THE 11º DEGREE - DIVORCE / SUICIDE 

both the 11º and 23º degrees of aquarius indicate divorce, but, according to nikola, the 11º is connected to suicide.

THE 15º DEGREE - CAR ACCIDENTS 

this degree, when connected to scorpio + the 8th house, can indicate car accidents.  

THE 18º DEGREE - PURE EVIL 

simbolizes a bad destiny. to nikola, this is the worst degree you can have. it can indicate rare deseases, tragic accidents. he says there’s no good about this degree but i absolutely disagree. not to be a hopeless optimist or to pretend to possess half the knowledge that he does but i think it’s pretentious to assume that a degree is literally all bad and that there’s nothing we can do about it — that takes away from our free will and our inner strength. Many, many people have this degree present in their charts (i believe nikola had it himself), it’s all about facing hardships but, well, that’s life.

THE 22º DEGREE - TO KILL OR BE KILLED 

nikola has found this degree in the birth charts of murderers + people that were murdered. his significance of “to kill or be killed” is quite literal. now, i want to remind you that this is the worst case scenario and that this degree can manifest itself in many diferent ways - just like the 18º and the 8º. the death can be figurative. for example, donald trump’s chart: he has his sun in 22º, and his mercury in 8º - and I’m afraid he’s quite alive at his old age and kicking it, even if he’s suffered a public destruction. @saintzjenx in her degree theory post talked about how this placement can also indicate abandonment. i agree, i have my sun at 22º in the 10th house (the house of the father) and my father was very emotionally absent + physically as well (his work has him working at other cities during the entire week) 

THE 29º DEGREE - CLAIRVOYANCE/PROGNOSTICISM 

the 29º indicates someone with clairvoyant potential, someone who makes accurate predictions, with great intuition. it’s to note that nikola himself had a 29º in his chart, and that he became known for the predictions he made using the degree theory (for example, he predicted that america would have its first black president ten years before barack obama was elected). but he does like to say that he has absolutely no intuition, though - what prompted him to study the degrees was his virgo rising, acording to him, his need to study and put his brain to work. still, he observed how many clairvoyants had this degree. other astrologers talk about this being a degree that means destruction (and when you analyze trump’s birth chart and how he has his ascendant and his 11th house at the 29º, you can very much argue about the truth behind that theory) but all in all, nikola talks about this degree as benefic. 

in case you’re feeling bad, remember i have the to kill or be killed 22º, plus the 8º of death, plus the 11º of suicide, plus the 23º of divorce, plus two of the 18º of pure evil! let’s suffer together besties. on the upside i have four of the 2º so we riding to eternal glory! 

but now seriously, i know some of this is very hard bc obviously life isn’t all fun and games but. remember that we all have free will, life isn’t determined and having a lot of these in your chart doesn’t mean impending doom!! i have them and i’m very much kicking it and i’m not intending to stop. it’s all about acceptance, learning how to work with even the worst degrees in order to make the best out of them. plus, the degrees can manifest themselves in a lot of different ways and a lot more matters than just them being present - like the signs that they’re in, the aspects with which they make and how harsh they are, the house where they fall etc etc. 

please do take your time to read through his website + to watch the interviews nikola did on youtube!! he was an amazing astrologer whose theory greatly impacted the way astrology is studied today. he’s fun to learn from, too, which is a plus

[firemama]

Im out here watching people draw sun and moon but as Mermaids and im........ like most of these people split them into diferent bodies and like i understand the appeal and why. But also: yall are totally missing out on how cool that "switch" would be from a biological stand point?!

They could be like dolphins sorta. What with houe a dolphin sleeps one half if the brain at a time? Half brain moon half brain sun.

The body itself is brightly colorer with yellows and reds but like, in the dark ocean water notnonly can you not really see the colors and it just seems dark and bluish, but theres natural bioluminescence thar you can only see in the dark. Its just an easy transition, there doesnt even have to be any magic color changing scales or something, its just....... the effect of natural lighting.

Sun fronting would have the classic lionfish esc crown of big long shimmery fins to be his "rays"....... but when they switch and moon is out, the rays lay back against the head and against eachother,,,, kinda with a jellyfish vibe? Moons hat!

Obviously theyre a carnivore species, but its mostly a nocternal hunting species. Thats why you got a more agro moon: predator drive, u know how it be. Maybe gets friendly... AFTER eating...

And think about the other sea animal effects u could mix into this. Like sonar? Like toxins? Like what is their eyesight like. Do theyvget the Shrimp Colors? Do they have any cool simbiotic buddies that eat their scraps or hang out keepin them clean? Are they an Apex Predator, or are there Predators Of Them? What is their native biome and how far out of that range are they willing to go, depth wise, temperature wise, area wise? Do they inhabit kelp forests or coral riefs or open fuckin ocean?

[pog-mo-bhlog]

The Moorside

So, when I heard about this, I was kinda appalled. I mean, this is akin to making a drama about madeline mccan. For me at least, the Shannon Matthews disappearance was one of those very formative moments where you realize the world is not safe. But I like Sherriden Smith, and after the initial shock, I decided to give it a try.

Here are my thoughts:

Dear god that recording of her call to the police sent a shiver down my spine. I just remember that getting played over and over again on the news.

imagine how surreal it is to watch this if you were actually in that community. like i remember it but only from it constantly being on the news. Imagine remembering your town swarming with police.

I mean i could also say imagine if you’re actually shannon matthews and how horrible this being made must be, but you know, thats another post in itself. 

Do you think there are folk watching this that dont like, know, about whats actually going on?

Oh aye, I’ve just remembered why it felt so personal to a lot of folk in scotland. I think a lot of the Peter Tobin stuff had just happened. And I remember this sense that, obviously there was a significant age difference between Shannon Matthews and Vicky Hamilton, but there was a sense that if Vicky could have ended up in england, Shannon might end up in scotland. That might have just been in my family though. 

omg though that penguin bin. Did every shitty area in britain have a penguin bin?

I’d forgotten about the rampant classism and misogyny in the coverage of the disappearance.

I’m still not sure if i totally approve of this but honestly I’m here for the maddy mccan comparisons. Like, the diference between the way a middle class nuclear family were treated, and the way a poor, working class woman with several children to different fathers is treated.

I am in no way making excuses for Karen Matthews. Just to be clear.

Just the diference in the rewards offered by the papers is staggering. 

Right so, general conclusions:

We’ve not actually seen Shannon properly, except in photos, footage, and from behind and at a distance right at the end. Thats kind of how this drama has treated her story. Because fundamentally, this is her story, but that’s not the story they’re telling. I’m not sure if thats a good thing or not. Not only would it be cruel to Shannon, who is now 18 and probably desperate to leave this in her past, but I’m not sure you could tell the story of her imprisonment. It seems far more about class and community than the trauma of a young girl. And it doesnt sit well with me that this very personal trauma is being made about people other than the girl central to it. But at the same time, from what I remember as a girl only two years older than shannon at the time, it shock the wider world. If not the nation, then working class comunities across the country who saw people like them expriencing tradgedy and not being taken seriously, being treated as guilty until proven innocent. And I’m glad they’ve focused on that side of the story, even if I’m still not sure if its fair to Shannon herself for this story to be told without her. 

[dontexpecttomakesense]

Steven universe ramblings(ATTENTION HIGH LEVEL SPOILERS)

As you know new episodes of Steven universe have been leaked, these episodes aren’t due until January 30th but I have watched them And I’m going to talk about what happens, obviously a read more fore those who want to wait for the official release.

Steven’s dream

Many important things happen here, the first is Steven’s outburst with the gems, while his reasonings are accurate he is also neglecting what kind of effect could have the place over Pearl and Garnet(and it’s obvious that they aren’t comfortable at all with it). While the fact that people you love are keeping secrets from you can be hurtful and frustrating you also have to give them a space to tell every thing instead of demanding so violently. Moving on other things I wasn’t expecting to see Uncle Andy so soon, and Blue diamond came completely out of the... blue(badum-tsh).

Adventures in light distortion

Leaving aside the whole “color-trip” that is the episode, the important part is Steven realising theat his impulsivnes has gotten his father captured, wich is good for him. I mean hes 14 soon he’ll stop being a child he needs to start thinking more with the long therm efects of his actions.

Gem heist

This was a good episode to remind us that gem society is very classist. And holly blue, ugh her voice is like a drill in my head. I don’t think, ther was much tot this episode than this. Maybe to set up the amethyst reveal for the last episode, but not much else.

The zoo

Behold Greg the first person to send an entire colony to the friendzone. In all siriousnes I liked that the made Greg say what he said, consent is important especially on a relationship and everyone withou exeption can say no and should be respected. Also loved how the amethist tried to console the humans insted of just reducing them.

That will be all

Now this is an interesting episode. Mainly because its centred arround the two diamonds we know. We explore a more human side of them seeing how diferently experience grief: Blue is completely swallowed by sadness and Yellow completely represses it. For their behabior is esay to deduce that to them he was a little sister of sorts.

Also we learn that all of Roses kind is bubled in what aperars to be Pink diamond’s room.

Yellow diamond’s song must be one of my favourite of the series, so incredibly hauntening(I love it)

[isaiahsky]

Here's a true story of how two bestfriends, a boy from the East Coast, and a girl from the West Coast, ultimately ended their relationship, because one fell in love with the other. Enjoy. Her name is Lindsey. We met eachother years ago in Shreveport Louisiana. Every day we grew increasingly close to eachother, became bestfriends, and evetually shit got real and we started fooling around, assuming the title "Bestfriends (with benefits)". Details of how we moved to diferent sides of the map are irrelevant, thats a totally diferent story I can provide upon request. Lindsey and I remained very close ever since we separated, even on occasion flying to the other person's city for a visit. We'd book a hotel, toss up the DO NOT DISTURB sign, have incredible dirty sex all over the room, be as loud as we wanted, and let the unfortunate housekeeper worry about the mess when we went out drinking and shopping. We had always crushed on eachother, never at the same time, which is why we never dated. So instead of being frustrated about that predicament, we just fucked we got over it. Around April of 2017, to prevent things from becoming complicated, we came to a mutual agreement to just be friends, no more emotions, no more sex, just friends. It was hard at first, but after several sessions of masturbation a week, i managed to somewhat tame the sexual urges, and disarm the nuclear warhead of sexual frustration in my pants, AKA my penis. Long story short I dealt with the drought, but i digress. In August of 2017, Lindsey made plans to fly to Tampa to see her grandparents for 2 weeks. I lived in Destin at the time so it was 7 or 8 hours away from where I stayed. She asked me to take a few days off to go see her, and ofcourse I did. We were both in a budget, so we made agreed to be simple and made arrangements to just hang out in my hotel room, watch movies, have some drinks, snacks, and catch up, etc. So as planned, towards the end of her trip, I went down there and spent three days with her. Day one, I pick her up from her grandparents' house in the suburbs, take her to my place 10 minutes away, and show her my room. 5 minutes into the evening she decides to start groping me, leading me on, giving me signs that she wants me to fuck her like a rabbit on Methamphetamines. This presents a problem for me. We had a conversation prior to this little vacation about just being platonic, which she is obviously disregarding. What she failed to understand at that moment was, I had made every effort to move on, and get over any feelings I had for her. And I did so successfully. So when presented with hot familiar pussy that Id been craving months before, I was absolutely uninterested for that reason, but also for one more unobvious reason. Small, probably predictable plot twist, I met a girl in mid July named Kelly. Let me be clear, I tell Lindsey almost everything about my life. Everyone has their secrets, but ive always been honest with her. So prior to my trip to Tampa just to keep her informed, I told her about Kelly one day. "Hey, I met this girl, blah blah blah, I dont think it will go anywhere really but, I really like her." She was jealous initially ofcourse, it was to be expected, but we talked it all out and she handled it well and everything was great. Lets get back to the situation in Tampa to see her. Shes groping me and flriting, even straddles me, fishing for me to kiss her and initiate some sticky foreplay. Its slightly awkward for me, because im not very experienced in the rejection department when it comes to getting my dick wet. Im not the prettiest guy in the world, so when a cute girl throws herself at you, you better pull out the fucking catchers gear. I didnt know how to go by letting her down without hurting her feelings, so i just kind of avoided the subject of sex. So when she tried something i just kind of brushed it off and giggled, or joked about about something random. For the most part she caught on with the message, and it was fine at first. But from her behavior, and the more and more she tried to make advances, the more aparent it became that she was actually still interested in me for more than just sex. It doesnt make sense now, but day two I confirmed my theory when she started getting emotional. She randomly started crying and asking me why i wont touch her, or be sweet with her like I used to be. I explained that nothing was wrong with her, its just not what i wanted anymore. After trying to talk her down the entire day, my answers weren't good enough. She was convinced she was doing something wrong, she became really frustrated with herself, and at this moment i am completely unaware to how to help. Eventually I started getting annoyed. She began doing shit that kind of freaked me out. For brief example; we would be relaxing watching a movie, im trying to ignore the bad vibes and help her have some fun. Something funny in the movie would happen, id laugh, look at her to see if SHES laughing, and shed be staring at me with tears on her face trying not to cry. Multiple occassions this occurred. And its fucking awkward. Maybe I was being insensitive, I get it, shes sad, but we both spent money to be there together and i wanted to make the best of it. Fast forward to the 3rd and final day together. We day drink from the morning until maybe 7pm. The advances and emotions persist. The entire afternoon she was severely bipolar, which i expected this but its okay i just want to relax and be drunk. She cried and cried, and then the next few minutes shed be really happy again and dancing, whatever. The entire time I know whats really bothering me, but im too afraid to tell Lindsey how I feel right now. So i hold my tongue and pretend to be okay. I know she remembers i like Kelly, because she kept referencing her. Asking how she was doing, or shed crack jokes about her when i spoke of her. Classic jealousy, completely obvious. Fast forward to around 7 or 8pm of the evening together. We finish day drinking, somewhat sober up, and track down a Texas Roadhouse. We get to our table, order a drink or two, and have a casual conversation while reflecting on the past couple of days. We have an honest conversation about our feelings: "What are we?" "Can we ever truly just be friends?" "Let me tell you what I think." And overall just communicating as friends about the future, and how we can fix this shit hole situation. Finally we actually had a good time together, and it was mutual. It sank in that i was just not interested in her like I used to be, and that we would truly never be together. She still let out a few tears, but like a man i comforted, and we overall enjoyed our last meal together in the same state. Fast forward to the parking lot after dinner, where shit hits the fan. Its relatively empty. I go to the passenger side of my car, open the door for her so she can get in, but we are still engaged in our heart to heart conversation so we end up loitering for awhile. I light up a cigarette, lean back against the car, and she wraps her arms around my torso and just kind of rests there, head on my chest. Ive got one arm around her and one arm free smoking my cigarette. Boom, imagery. We stay like this for a long time as i chain smoke a few cigs, just talking, and finally the conversation somehow shifts to me denying her any sex/affection/intimacy, whatever. This time its okay because she is calm, shes being understanding with every potential controversal thing i have told her over dinner. I believe she can handle this converstaion. She asked me for total honesty, she could tell there was something i didnt want to say to her and it was important she knew what was diferent. She knows i like Kate, but im still a single man, so why am i being so distant with her physically, than i have been in the past. THIS IS WHERE I REALIZE THAT BLUNT HONESTY IS NOT OKAY WHEN ADDRESSING A JEALOUS GIRL WHO IS IN LOVE WITH YOU. I wasn't mean at all, i very calmly and respectively told her exactly what the reason was. I sighed deeply and said "I cant do anything with you, and ive been distant, because all i can think about is Kelly." This may be an outdated reference, but in maybe 1 second, she went from my sweet, calm, understanding bestfriend, to full blown going Jersey Shore on me. She started screaming at me, telling me that she cant believe this, etc etc. Telling me how every time she tried to move on and be with other people, she always felt guilty and cried because even though we werent together, she felt she was cheating on me. And here i am doing the same thing, but im thinking of Kelly, not her. So she put everything i ever did for her in question. Was it truly sincere? Did i ever really care about her? The whole fucking works. During all of this she is sitting on the concrete indian style just ranting relentlessly, and she procedes to get comfortable. I KNOW she plans to dig in for a decent duration because everything that was in her pockets, one by one she starts slamming it on the concrete around her, all in all making a statement to the world that says "fuck everyone and everything." Im a stubborn bastard, so from the time she started flipping out on me, to the time we finally get in the car and leave, like a man, i was still propped up against my car smoking, letting her lay into me with her insults, and ridiculous questions. All i did was stare straight ahead fed up. And I ignored her. She was pissed at me for the obvious reasons, i was pissed at her for freaking out, when all i wanted was to be honest with her. We are adults, let alone we werent even dating, id barely expect this reaction from a distraught girlfriend. But i get it, im the guy, i played with her emotions, now im getting burnt. We finally get in the car, maybe 11p, not once did i say a word to her throughout the whole car ride. At this point im ready to drop her ass back to her grandparents' house so i can check out half a day early from my hotel and drive back to west florida THAT NIGHT. Thats how pissed i am. Im still tipsy, exhausted, but the only thing i want to do is take an 8 hour trip back to my personal bed and sleep all day. But i cant take her to her grandparents' place, she still has some personal belonging in my room. We get back to the room, she climbs in my bed and pouts until she falls asleep. IN MY BED. So what do i do? Ofcourse I refuse to get in bed with her. So after 5 hours of debating on packing up all of her shit for her, waking her up, and taking her home, just like my entire highschool career, i sat at the desk, laid my head down on the table and went to sleep. Woke up that morning at 11, checked out at noon, took her home, still not one word was said to eachother by the way. The first and final words she said to me was "okay drive safe" no goodbye hug, no apologies from either sides, no attempt to fix the situation. She walked past me, i got in my car, backed out of her grandfathers driveway, we looked at eachother one last time, and i drove away. To this day, we still don't speak, the end of a relationship with a girl ive know for a fifth of my life. Love will make you do dumb shit for reasons you cant comprehend. But be careful when you go to tell people how you feel about them. It can really play with their heads and you can lose someone dear to you in the future because you dont know how to keep your mouth shut. Lindsey if you see this, im so sorry.

[alizrak]

Finished watching season 2 with my niece!

I finished watching Rebels Season 2 with my 10 year old niece and it was a wild ride! After the Season 1 finale, she had expected Ahsoka (who became her favorite character on Disney Infinity) to join the Rebels cast full-time but I reminded her that she already 'had a job' in the Rebellion and had other responsibilities... but would likely help them when needed. This post is obviously much longer than the previous review by the sheer amount of episodes in S2 (even if we skipped a couple) and because my niece started to make LOTS of questions at one point, which is great because she has started to slowly take in the lore.

There is one thing though. If I hadn't been there with her to answer her questions, I'm not sure she would have followed certain plot points. Season 1 did great by keeping it local in Lolthal but now that they were jumping around planets and started to bringing more people from the past, she had some trouble keeping track of the whole picture. I don't think she ever had to deal with so much story lore before on other shows. Didn't get all of the episodes but just the most important comments:

Siege of Lothal.

"What's Kanan's problem? He's being very rude. He wasn't like this..."

"She ((Minister Tua)) needs to leave or she might lose her head too"

"Is this a trap?... uhm... but they have to take the risk. Ezra is right, they should help people. Do the right thing."

"Woah! They blew up the ship! They will need to find another way out of the-... why are they leaving without her((Tua))? Aren't they going to help her out of the debris?", "She... uh, she didn't survive the explosion sweetie", "D: [silent gasp] they... they killed her??..."

"Why are they cold?" (Darth Vader shows up) "Woah, woah, woah! No. No-no-no! Kanan is not that good. They need to run. RUN RUN RUN"

"He's really evil. He wants Ezra to kill himself with the Force!"

[squirming on her place] "C'mon Ahsoka, tell them is Anakin. Tell them. You know! They need to know!"

"She didn't tell them... ugh... this is going to be a problem"

The Lost Commanders

"Who is this mysterious leader? How are they going to know WHO it is? Like... are they going to sense him with the Force... or...?", "Yeah, good question"

"Oh, they are clones", "yeah, they were very good friends with Anakin and Ahsoka"... "Ooooh I seee"

"Zeb becomes friends easily with people who also like to fight"

"These clones are good... wait, WHAT? THEY TOLD THE EMPIRE? NOOOO!"

Relics of the Old Republic

"They will have to fight together..."

"Can't they use the Force to... Oh! They ARE going to use the Force to sense them! Good"

"The clones will fight to the end alright... their last fight... (c'mon Kanan, don't leave them!)"

"So, Rex is like Ahsoka's uncle", "Uhm... well, good friends and family, yeah"

Always two there are

"I bet Ezra can find the supplies first"

"Who's that-...! A WOMAN Inquisitor??"

"She's scary!"

"They don't have Kanan with them, there is no way they can fight TWO Inquisitors"

(She got lil weirded out by the Seventh Sister with Ezra but said nothing of it)

"Oh great... Zeb is not exactly that smart. I hope he can come up with a plan"

"RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN!"

"Look! Kanan and Hera are holding each other worrying about 'their kids'! THEY ARE A COUPLE!"

Brothers of the Broken Horn

"Who's that again?", "His name is Hondo. He was a big bad pirate from before, from when Ahsoka was still a Padawan, but he has gotten old and lost his crew", "oh... ok"

"Let's skip this one"

Blood Sisters

"wait... she didn't do that graffiti. This is suspicious..."

"So that's a friend of Sabine... but not anymore?"

"Why did they escape? For money?"

"She's going to join them in the end, right?"

"Wait... wait... Sabine is going to make that robot ((captain)) explode with the ship?? What? BUT HE HAS FEELINGS!"

"Aww... Ezra is so silly. xD"

The Future of the Force

"Why would they want a baby? Can't she have one on her own? That baby is not an Inquisitor baby anyway!", "well, 'Inquisitor' is not a race, is something you grow up to be", "Oh... so, they want to turn them into inquisitors, gotcha".

"Hahahah Chopper is so funny, I bet he makes a good nanny", "Erh...seems like he asked to blow up the ship anyway", "Nah, he's just joking", "yeah... joking"

(Kanan realizes they are force sensitive babies) "WELL DUH! Kanan is usually smarter than that"

(Ahsoka shows up) "YES! PREPARE TO GET YOUR BUTTS KICKED!"

"She's soooo goooood! They don't have a chance against her!"

"Yeah, you guys need to run away, she can handle this!!"

"See? Chopper makes a good robot nanny! I bet he can take care of any babies Hera has with Kanan in the future"

Legacy

"A cat? Force Cats? Is that a thing?"

"They are not dead right?"

"I mean, Kanan is like his new adoptive dad, but it would be nice to have his parents too"

"Are they dead??"

"Maybe they are not dead after all"

"Follow the cat!"

"Oh no... they ARE dead... poor Ezra :(... I want to hug him"

"Kanan is going to be there for him. He loves him too. Ezra's not going to be alone"

A princess on Lothal

"Ezra needs some time to feel better"

"And who's that?... is she a new character?... wait- ITS LEIA! ITS PRINCESS LEIA!"

"They are going to meet Princess Leia!"

"She's so smart~!"

"Ezra wants to show off but still needs a lot of practice"

"Make it look real, hahahaha"

Protector of Concord Dawn

"Sabine knows them?", "She's Mandalorian too, remember?", "Oh, that's right", "They are warriors", "Like the saiyans", "yeah... kind of?"

"They are working for the Empire! Run!"

"I didn't notice when she got into the ship either!"

"So... Kanan is not getting shot down on sight because...?", "They want to hear why he is here at least", "But they know he's a Jedi now, they will hand him over to the Empire"

"She's learning not to kill and be less... 'Mandalorian'. Nice!"

The Call

"Why is space always so cold?", "Well, it can be extremely cold or hot. If you are on the shade of a planet or a ship, you will freeze. If you are without cover, you will get fried..." ((Simplistic explanation, I know... didn't have time to explain about radiation/convection lol))

"You know, if my ship was running out of gas in space, I would just boost in the direction of the base, turn off the motors and just let it go in a straight line. It should keep moving with that", "...that's correct, I think"

"WHALES? IN SPACE?"

"THEY ARE SO PRETTY!"

"Why aren't they listening to Ezra!? He's right! They need to start hearing Ezra more!"

"How can they breathe in space?", "I guess the Helmets have some breathing masks with oxygen inside", * "Mmh... Ok"

"What's up with his eyes? Is he mind controling Ezra?" "xD, hahaha, no. I think they are connecting through the Force", "Ok! but... JUST GIVE HIM HIS HELMET BACK ALREADY!!"

"PUT THE HELMET BAAAACK! PUT IT BACK! BREATHE!"

Homecomming

"What's a Ryloth?", "Ryloth is Hera's planet"

"Hera has a DAD?", "Yep"

"How do I look??.... HAHAHAHA! Kanan is all nervous because he's going to meet his father-in-law! HAHAHA, he even confused everyone's names! Hahahahaha" ((I lost her for a full minute))

"Family first. Yep"

"Hahahaha, Kanan is having a good time"

"What do they want to do again?", "Hera wants to steal that big ship, her father wanted to destroy it"

"TRAITORS!",

"What's that little thing running around!", "That's uh... I believe is like a roomba? Like... in Wall-e? Remember the cleaning robot?", "YEAH! Hahaha, poor thing!"

"Sabine is not going to blow up the roomba robot, is she? She likes to explode stuff too much..."

"You know, if Ezra did that to me and failed the first time...", "You mean the Jedi mind trick?", "Yeah, if he failed the first time, I would got like 'yeah, we should evacuate the ship' to make them believe it worked, so when I leave I give the alarm and catch them", "[slow clap]"

The Honorable Ones

"What's that place?","Geonosis","It's empty?","It shouldn't be"

"What were they building there? Something big?", "Really big", "....??", "The Death Star", "But it should be there...", "They can move it, it's like a huge ship", "ah"

"[roll eyes] Oh, great, Agent Kallus..."

"Zeb is going to get caught"

"[Gasp] What happened to his leg?", "He broke it", ":O"

"They will need to work together... but Kallus is pretty useless now"

"He believes he's a good guy?? REALLY??"

"Well, at least now I know that Geonosis's moon are freezing and have giant beaked monsters in caves"

"Is Kallus going to join the Rebellion? It looks like Zeb and him could be friends"

"Don't throw him around like that Zeb!! HIS LEG!! HIS LEEEEG!!"

"Wait... he's not coming? He's going to stay in the Empire? Why?? JUST GRAB HIM ZEB!"

"No one cared he came back :( "

"Is that a CELL? Is he a prisoner??", "No, that's his normal room", "That's sad"

Shroud of Darkness /or how I call it "Question Galore"

(Kanan/Ezra fight the Inquisitors) "Why are they saying their plans out loud? THEY CAN HEAR YOU!"

"... Why are the lightsabers diferent colors? Why are the inquisitor's and Vader's red? Why were Ahsoka's yellow/green but now they are like white?", "-Woah" ((Had to pause and go into a lengthy explanation about Kyber crystals, tuning, bleeding, purifying...))

"He doesn't like the CRAZY ONES anymore? ANYMORE?", "Well, he did have other girlfriends before Hera", "WHAAAAAAT!? WHEN DID THEY SAY THAT? THEY NEVER SAID THAT!", "It's implied on one of the books", "WHAT BOOKS?", "There is a novel from when Hera and Kanan met when they were younger", "WHAAT! Why isn't that on the show!? IT SHOULD BE!", "It's not exactly a children's book", "That's not fair! WE KIDS ALSO WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! UGH!! [squirms on her seat]"

"Oh... that's Anakin. Awww... :( now he's all evil"

"That's the technique we watched on youtube!! :D If they ever invent real lightsabers, I would so get fencing clases" ((We had watched some lightsaber training youtube videos on Form 1, 2 and 3 to play 'realistically' with our lightsaber toys... don't judge me))

"I don't get it. Why didn't Anakin die?", "You mean when he burned himself? or with a lightsaber in a fight?", "No, why didn't he kill himself?", "I-... -what?", "[offhandedly] Yeah, he became a bad guy to save his wife, but it turned out to be all for nothing. It didn't mattered anymore. He should have just suicide", "[agast] I-... I don't know... He was too angry?...", "...[unconvinced]" [darkside intensifies].

"Why did Ahsoka left the Jedi again?", ((explanation))

"It's all an illusion again?"

"Who is that? A Jedi Guard?"

"Who is he talking about? Who's the darkside calling to?", "Ezra", "Oh, yeah. Pffft, it calls to him TOTALLY", "(w-why are you so sure...?)"

"He... he looks like the Inquisitor. He moves like the first Inquisitor", (( GOOD EYE!))

"Is the Guard evil? Not really, right? He just wants to kill Ezra to keep him from the darkside", "... that's not exactly good either!", "But not evil-evil!".

"Well, he's not wrong. Ahsoka wasn't there to help him. It kinda was her fault too", "Woah, haaarsh"

"YODA!"

(( Yoda goes on about the Jedi shouldn't fight in the war and the cost of wining)) "I don't get it"

"IT IS THE INQUISITOR! WOW!... huh, he looked way better before..."

"Kanan graduated! Good for him! He's still not a good teacher, but he tries hard, and that's what matters!", "Gee, thanks?"

"GO, GO, GO, leave!"

"Malachor is a place?", "A planet" NOTE: HELP, I FEAR FOR MY PADAWAN.

Mystery of Chopper Base

"Woah, they are getting good"

"Whoops, Ezra got offended. Hahaha"

"They... are leaving? To look for Malachor? ... aww... they don't want to leave."

"How long will they be gone?", "They have no idea"

"SPIDERS!? NO, NO, NO!"

"SHOOT THEM! SHOOOT THEEEEEM!"

"I'M WITH ZEB! TOO MANY LEGS!"

"Why are they SPLITTING!?? THEY NEED A JEDI ON EACH GROUP!", "It because they are leaving and they need to learn how to go without them", "I DONT CARE"

"DON'T! It's not going to work! EZRA! IT'S GOING TO BITE YOUR HAND! SEEEE!? SEEE!?"

"I DONT LIKE THIS EPISODE!"

"AAAAAAAH!!! THEY ARE HORRIBLE!"

"I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!", "Cooomeeee oooon, is not that bad!"

"I HATE SPIDERS!"

"THEY ARE TRAPPED! NOOOO, THIS IS A NIGHTMARE!"

"[uninteligible yells while covering her face]", "Yeah, yeah, it's almost done"

"It is very weir Ezra can't connect with them. Maybe Ahsoka can..."

"Awww... so sweet. Hera needs to relax. They will be fine" ((OH MY SWEET SUMMER CHILD))

Twilight of the Apprentice (Oh boy, the rollercoaster of emotions is about to begin)

"They should have brought Rex. Or Zeb for muscle"

"Why did the wall react like that with Ezra?"

"What's that?", "The Jedi had temples... so did the sith. This is a Sith Temple", "ooooooh"

"There was an old Jedi and Sith war? Woah... who won?"

"A new Inquisitor!"

"Ezra can force jump that high now, right?"

"Who's that old guy?"

"Well, if he wants to help him, and used to be bad, but now he also fights the Empire so then he's good right? Unless he is lying..."

"What...!? Ezra shouldn't use the darkside. No... EZRA DON'T LIFT THE ROCKS- oh nooo.....!! He's turning him bad? IS THAT IT?? D:", "Remember what the Guard/Inquisitor said about Ezra?", "That the Darkside called to him. Oh no, no, no. This story is going to end with him turning evil like Darth Vader"

"Who is Maul?", "You know him", "No", "Yes you do. He was the final boss on the Twilight of the Republic in Disney Infinity. I even made a challenge for you with him", "I don't remember him", [silent cream]

"Hey, that's like Kanan's cube!", "Holocron", "So this is a SITH holocron"

"You gotta jump! Wait... he's not going to drop him right? Oh, phew! That's good"

"So just one Sith can open it. Someone who uses the darkside. Uhmmm... so, Ezra is going to be a Jedi that uses BOTH. The Light and the Dark! He can even get a red lightsaber and fight like Ahsoka", "You can't be a Jedi and use the darkside. Jedi only use the light", "But... BUT HE CAN...! AND he's not bad. He won't be a Sith... maybe he won't be either then... what would that make him?", ((somewhere in the Galaxy, Bendu hums))

"Nope. Kanan is not going to leave him alone anymore with Maul"

"Don't split, don't split, don't split. THEY SPLIT! AAAARGH!"

"He won't kill her! He can't. He won't be able to kill her. He's not that cold... WOAH! BUT HE DID!... That should be such a shock for his young mind", "His young mind? xD He's 5 years older than you", "STILL!"

"HIS apprentice? What does that even- WHAT THE-!!! WHAAAAT!! WHAT JUST HAPPENED!?? GO BACK!! IT CANT BE!! NO! HIS EYES! HI EYEEES!! PAUSE IT!! HE CANT BE-!! HE CANT BE BLIND! IS HE BLIND!? IS HE BLIND!!!??", "well...", "IS IT PERMANENT!?", "Uhm", "EZRAAAA THIS YOUR FAAAAAUUULT! HE WILL NEVER SEE HERA'S BEAUTIFUL FACE AGAIN! [RAGE]"

"STOP IT WITH THE HOLOCRON! YOU HAVE DONE ENOUGH!... OOH NOW YOU PLACED IT!... THIS IS YOUR FAAAULT!!"

"EZRA WILL NEVER BE YOURS!! HOW DARE YOU HURT KANAN!!"

"Can Kanan still fight??"

"He tricked you alright Ezra- [GASP]... DARTH VADER! RUN! RUNAWAY YOU HAVE NO CHANCE! I mean all of this is your fault but I don't want you to DIE!"

"UUGH, what is Ezra doing!? He's going to get killed! And all of Kanan's suffering will be for nothing!"

"D: HIS LIGHTSABER! AAAAAAAAH! WHAT IS HAPPENING! THEY ALL GOING TO DIE!"

"YEAH AHSOKA!... ooh-oh... They are finally going to fight"

"But he didn't kill Anakin, he IS Anakin", "He's speaking on a figurative way", "well, I believe 'Anakin' is still trapped deep down on a dark cell on his heart", "O_O woah", "I bet he secretly wants to see how much has Ahsoka has improved and is proud of her... and then kill her", ((daaaamn))

"Are you blind too? OF COURSE HE IS BLIND! IS YOUR FAULT!"

"[eyes widen]... Anakin... deep down, he's still-... oh never mind, he will try to kill her anyway... sigh"

"You should stop crying for Ahsoka and start crying FOR WHAT YOU DID TO KANAN", "Hey, the whole place is going to explode, of course he is worried", "But she won't die. She can't die [straight face, not an ounce of doubt]"

"ALL OF THIS FOR THAT STUPID HOLOCRON! [RAGE]"

"Oh no... No. He had promised Hera they would see each other again! HE WONT. HE WOOONT BE ABLE TO SEE HER EVER AGAIN. THIS IS TOO SAD! I thought Hera was being pessimistic about what would happen to them but she was riiiiiight"

"Wait... Did Ezra just told Rex she is dead with that look? WHAT! NO"

"VADER SURVIVED [GOING NUCLEAR] WHERE IS AHSOKA!? DONT TELL ME HE KILLED HER! SHE CANT BEEE!"

"THERE! SHEEEEES THEEEEEREEEEE! SHE'S ALIVE BUT LOST INTO THE SHADOWS"

"THEY LOST AHSOKA BECAUSE OF YOU EZRA I HOPE YOU ARE HAP-.... what... no... NO! DONT YOU DARE OPEN THAT HOLOCRON-! AAAAAH! YOU DIDNT LEARN ANYTHING! THIS IS YOUR FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAULT!"

"IM CRYING INSIDE!"

Final verdict: "There is more right? RIGHT? THIS CANT BE THE END. I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT"

We have been watching the Seasons 1/2 in Netflix, and as they don't have season 3 yet, I told her I would look for them later. In the mean time, we started playing Infinity again. She got to play Kanan, I got Ezra... and she started chasing me for a while with his lightsaber. "He didn't apologized to Kanan! COME APOLOGIZE TO ME! I LIKED YOU EZRA! YOU LOST ME!". I then took us to a challenge I had previously done for her with Maul... one that I had hoped made the image of Maul fresh on her mind for the season finale but failed miserably... and let her get a cathartic fight with him and Kanan. She reveled in it.

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