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iftitah · 6 months
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i didn't know 'normal' women edited so much of their pics just to make one post
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transmaverique · 2 months
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amab and afab, if they were used as shorthand for the actual full phrases that they signify, with emphasis on the "assigned" part, and an understanding that they are enforcements of normative (ie, dyadic and cisgender and binary) sex, would be like. really useful. but people took the terms and started using them as shorthand FOR normative sex instead of the ENFORCEMENT OF normative sex. so when other trans people (almost always dyadic trans people) ask for your agab they are almost always asking for your Original Genital Situation. your starting point, so to say. and the reason FOR asking is also almost always bc they are trying to also enforce a certain kind of normativity within queer spaces (which is stupid bc being queer is inherently non-normative but here we are). like, you cant be a lesbian if you're ftm, bc you ARE m, so if you ARE a lesbian, then that means you're lying about some aspect of your identity. does that make sense?
it is always always always incredibly.... i do not trust dyadic trans people that use cagab terms, even moreso than i do not trust dyadic trans people that just use agab terms. agab is also coopted intersex language, but the "coercive" part of cagab SPECIFICALLY refers to medical "intervention" of intersex characteristics, such as "corrective" surgeries and hrt. i am deeply fucking suspicious of any dyadic trans person that uses those terms exactly the same as described above, even moreso if they do so bc "all gender is coercive".
like. yeah. that's true. but you use these terms to erase and overtake intersex discussions on the medical abuse of intersex infants. and i cant help but wonder why you would feel the need to do that.
#iirc it was also common to tirf ideology and the baeddel group#< notoriously intersexist group#to say nothing of any other tirf beliefs#both of these misuses of agab and cagab come from the same source#but it is . deeply disconcerting with cagab#bc its like. that is such a lesser known term in the greater dyadic trans community#you would HAVE to have known what it originally meant#either YOU are misusing it INTENTIONALLY#or someone TAUGHT you to misuse it INTENTIONALLY#people that are cruel and bigoted always want to believe theyre good people#so its hard to convince them when they are being bigoted#esp as marginalized people#and especially as a marginalized people that is particularly affected by the same enforcement of normative sex#the more i learned about this the more i learned abt intersexism in trans spaces#the more i notice it. its so fucking pervasive#and like u should care abt intersexism on its own but its like#no surprise that the ppl misusing cagab terms usually are transandrophobic (as the discourse du jour) and exorsexist#these things go together and reinforce each other#anyways it sucks bc ill see a BEAUTIFULLY written analysis of transmisogyny but so often there will be#like one thing. two things maybe.#and ill go to ops blog search a few keywords and lo and behold#they are transphobic. they are intersexist. they are racist. they are aphobic.#all forms of exclusionist politic in the queer community just lead into each other ad infinitum#nauseating... and#i will read the theory of people who disgust me or who are fundamentally wrong abt other ppls experiences bc i think they still have#valuable things to say but i am SO FUCKING TIRED of running into the same goddamn problem EVERY fucking time#i think its just the posts that get circulated the most that are like that#bc i think the majority of people dont actively seek out and learn abt new queer theory as it rolls in#or other ppls experiences in general#so they dont learnt to recognize the red flags or even realize why its bad in the first place
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hollownest-whore · 7 months
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RegretAU ghost teaching Hollow to channel emotions into attacks, void tendrils is very physically taxing though and hollow is very very sick from that outburst
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dirtytransmasc · 1 year
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saw someone say they're we're happy Alicent's and Otto's deaths forced them "realize what they had done" and like...
Otto's one thing, I get the animosity. but Alicent? your getting hot and bothered over her realizing she failed, she failed to save her children, she failed to protect them, to them alive? that she tried so hard, so fucking hard, making every hard decision, trying to get between her children and the fate they were damned to by Viserys and Rhaenyra? that she damned her kids, who were already damned to die to begin with, and had to suffer the guilt of them dying to her own hand? that she's going to drive herself mad with grief over her children, her grandchildren?
like... it's not satisfying (especially for show Alicent) watching a woman go so mad with grief it literally kills her because she fought with everything she had to save her children only for them to die anyway. ever since her father's exile, when Rhaenyra's lies took Viserys's favor, when Viserys ignored the Rhaenyra's sons bastardhood at the risk of the whole house, or when Luke took Aemond's eye and Viserys demanded good will; she knew her children's lives were forfeit. then Daemon killed Vaemond and her children's coffins were built, catching cobweb's all the while. she knew and she fought it desperately, taking risk after risk, living in fear until her moment came, she could out Aegon on the thrown, she could protect her kids, maybe, just fucking maybe they'd be safe... only for it to lead to a war that would kill her entire family.
her death, slow and tragic as it was, is heartbreaking. she didn't deserve it, she deserved to feel safe, to feel as though she could allow her past friend take the thrown without her children being at risk to feel as though she and her children weren't being circled by wolves and picked at by vulture's. she didn't deserve to live alone and die alone. she didn't deserve to have her hands coated in her children's blood.
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faglaios · 1 year
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stop woobifying simon we have to lust over prismo like real men
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skunkes · 25 days
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It’s so nice seeing you happy about something! Ride that high you deserve it >:))
i now seesaw between feeling normal (no more overthinking about inevitable disaster) and getting bursts of happiness when I remember I finally made it happen...! The other secret emotion is ruminating on what if they didn't do it right or they somehow grow back. but im trying to focus on the good...
I'm really happy! ^_^ I'm not even 100% sure on any other decisions in my life regarding gender affirming procedures....or any decision at all actually, I hate deciding. This is the one thing I knew I had to have done or I'd never be at peace until I died. And it's true bc after it was done I realized how much of my thoughts The Fear took up (and that's that ive never been uhhh actively "in danger")
everything I do now is enhanced by the procedure like that one spongebob bit like holy shit I'm doing xyz. While Sterilized. 100000% better than if this wasnt the case
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starjunkyard · 5 months
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"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.
#house md#james wilson#gregory house#hilson#johan being crazy about yaoi md#johan's mindpalace#Im crazy#like im tearing up#this scene is so romantic it genuinely makes me nauseous#the lowlight setting the lingering stares the soft little smile a dam thats finally broken#I need a 12 gauge bullet in the thigh#Please watch this scene screencaps do not do it near enough justice#do you know whats so genuinely actually sickening#its been months since i finished house md#and i have not watched a single show that has managed to fill even a quarter of the gaping bleeding hilson shaped hole in my heart#shows that have actual gay people actual representation and not a single one has managed to alter my brain chemistry the way hilson has#since day 1 episode 1#Like its actually nauseating a little its so over for me for the rest of my life#Like im actually never recovering#people say “they dont make xyz like they used to haha” But Guys they Genuinely dont#Im going through withdrawls#I need my yaoi cocaine so bad but my plug died 12 years ago and i cant fucking Move#House md capital of fatphobia homophobia transphobia early 2000s edgy humour outshining modern shows with actual rep like im sick#Its not even because i want to like i feel like there are worms in my brain. I feel like ratatoullie if the rat was evil#This is not what the stonewall riots were for#I feel like so nausous why couldnt i be crazy about an actual gay pairing like a normal gay person. Im gonna throwup#Why couldnt i like music and girls#Its not even that house md is objectively logically better than these shows like no. Im just crazy#Im so sick they make me so sick i feel like there are worms in my head. My head#Dont know when i will ever be onorlmal again. Sorr
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netdetective · 2 months
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im just gonna go ahead and say as an indigenous person a lot of people are VERY extremely comfortable talking about us like we're some thing of the past. why is every question asked about us in past tense like none of us not a SINGLE tribe or peoples still exist? what is it that makes people think this even while the news talks about our kids killed in residential schools or indigenous groups worldwide being oppressed? is it a more comfortable existence to pretend the people whose land was stolen and taken with blood and flesh to boot aren't around to care anymore? that's literally all i can figure and it's ridiculous that even when some people out there go on their virtue signalling tirade we still don't even get a peep. but no go ahead and keep being silent and acting like we were all wiped out by The Glorious And Illustrious Colonizers while our people go missing and end up killed and our land keeps getting violated and our cultures get worn thin to the point of our languages and practices being damn near destroyed forever yeah just keep pretending we aren't real or something as long as it makes people feel better to not have to consider that they walk upon the blood of our people every day it's not like we're around to care anymore right yeah fuck off
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yuudamari · 4 months
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call me a hater of the state of modern anime or whatever but i think hikaru ga shinda natsu does not need an anime and now that its going to get one i am betting on it sucking cos i trust no current anime director to know how to adapt it properly and adaptations nowadays are 1 on 1 to the manga instead of trying to understand the appeal and the meaning and what the page or the panel is trying to convey and translating that in a new media because paper and tv are not the same media at all and need different shots. May just be me tho.
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mochasucculent · 1 month
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Kinda weird but this is still like one of my fave things I've ever drawn lol, it's just a background study from Shawn James' cover of Arkansas by Damien Jurado (there was a character here too once iykyk lol) but I was Going Through It at the time and painting this was soooo cathartic
#it was the first time that i didnt hate drawing a background lol#and also the song is like a melancholic reflection on a relationship that fell apart#and ill always remember a comment someone made when they reblogged this saying it captured the feeling of the dog days being over#and i was like DAMN wait thats exactly what this is#i had just graduated college and was working overtime and living back with my parents and not doing well with it#and was going through the thought process of like#wait. is this all there is? i just work for the next 40 something years?#the realization that i had taken summer days like the one i painted here for granted nauseated me#and i didnt really recognize it until someone commented that and i was like girl oh naur#for the record working is not all there is#for example: i just got laid off LOL#but real real like there is so much whimsy and joy and freedom in adult life you just gotta make sure you give yourself the time for it#i didnt until like. 2 years ago lol#anyway. normal tags now#painting#study#digital#uhhhhhhh#digital plein air#maybe#its not a secret to anybody who knows what i used to draw that S**** V****** was originally the focal point of this image lol#but i kinda never liked how he turned out and always thought the background looked way better than the character for once#those background leaves could be way better looking if i spent more time on them but i was so thrilled with how the rocks looked#that i was just like alright pack it up boys
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muttmoxley · 2 months
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every day i look at jacob drawfee and want to throw up and die. why cant that be me
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wolfisland · 3 months
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maybe im a bully. but also idk a lot of lsn autistics without intellectual disabilities are like. just baaarely removed from 2000s aspergics. the edgy types who love to throw around the r slur like it being used against them means its theirs. like sorry but you fucking disgust me. youre rancid. you wanna fucking reclaim this foul fucking slur so many ppl fucking Targeted by it want to just fade into obscurity? how fucking cruel are you.
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prettyboykatsuki · 5 months
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plssssssssss do it for all the neet fujos out there 😞🙏
i want to sooo bad anon but i do not want to get asks of people accusing me of all sorts of foolishness
but then on the other hand the idea of rin with a weird bl mangaka who makes gay doujins of him is sooo funny to me and its . ill be real its so hot to think about how much he'd bully his little neet fujo gf about it...spending her whole day fantasizing abt semes and ukes.... writing all those filthy terrible fantasies but falling over herself when rin glances at her or nudges her neck like its so sexy to me when i think about it i become sick
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menalez · 3 months
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what is stoners problem 😭 she wants heterophobia to be real so fucking bad, like it’s so fucking disgusting she disregarded everything you said about those accounts harrassing you, comparing you to tras and just added more screenshots that aren’t even wild 😭 why don’t you combat heterophobia by @ing those accounts instead fkn cop out crybaby
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my favourite is her including these in her receipts of vile misogyny on radblr, and in true fashion exhibited EXACTLY the behaviour i was talking about when i said people are arguing other women are being misogynists over statements that arent misogynistic...
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wikiangela · 4 months
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its 2:30am, i didnt eat dinner (or anything since 6pm lol) im starving and dont feel like going to the kitchen so you know what that means:
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i finally got night peanuts 🤣
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cuntstable · 2 years
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you know how some anime artists online turn kinda ugly to mediocre guys into really sexy bishie yaoified dudes in their art? i feel like dio from jojos is the polar opposite because originally he DID look like that but the adaptions did this to him
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