#its my drug of choice

[the-chaotic-snek]

do i love physics yes, does it make me cry, also yes. Call that Toxic relationship

[drownmeincolor]

I can't believe that tonight is The Bachelor: The Women Tell All episode. Like.... How the heck did the season fly by so fast.

The stupid pettiness actually made me smile a little so I'm considering watching from the beginning.

I hate idiots but I love an arena of them.

Plus I saw the golden bachelorettes in the audience and I felt a parasocial tingle to see them again.

Oh dear Lord. I just know watching this season is going to give me anxiety and high blood pressure but I think I have to.

[micamicster]

Ain't it hard just to live?

Baltimore by Nina Simone (cover of Randy Newman) vs The Wire (2002-2008)

[ellabsbb]

the way we don’t get a buff abby because they choose someone who’s barley 5 feet and 90 pounds to be not only child ellie but also grown ellie.. season two is gonna be terrible and i won’t be watching 😭

[sheisanimposter]

yeah, regularly eating and sleeping sounds cool, but have you ever gotten a perfect score on a paper?

[chicago-geniza]

Current before-bed reading because I'm back on my bullshit (thinking about interwar Poland 24/7)

[pienhime]

i made myself, inspired by @plushygun ! couldnt find a sticker of the mymel i have on my bag and couldnt find my dupe bag so pretend i have it fr

what if more jiraiblr + ryousan ppl also did this and made it into like, a landmineblr game

[carnival-core]

Hey not to make a political post but does it ever feel like we can just never win and the suffering will be forever and we're always going to have to fight with moments of peace being fleeting and not worth looking forward to

[baltears]

turns out i am indeed capable of having a pretty good evening

[bibleofficial]

update on the guy sheltering & doing bloons behind the undergrad building: saw him just now & was like ‘hey i dont care that ur here but could u bin the bottles when ur done so the addicts that live here don’t get searched ? xx’ & he said ‘could u bring me a bin bag ? i’ll have em all cleaned up !’ & i did so praying he does put them IN the bags 😭😭😭

[isdalinarhot]

My commission post got some traction from normal non cosmere blogs which I do not know. But only people who know me personally have commissioned me. Which idk if that speaks to my artistic abilities or rather just speaks to the universal truth of “people on tumblr will spread posts in which users ask for money but very few will actually send money”. And like no hate about that, I know that donating money to a stranger probs kinda feels weird for most people. But god it sure is disheartening

[todayisafridaynight]

love my right-hand rgg men deranged. a little blood splattered even.

[hikeyzz]

i've been sick now for over a month. between my kidneys and stomach i have been in constant pain and discomfort for more than a month straight. fuck. it's been some of the worst, most debilitating pain of my life. which says a lot coming from someone who has lived with chronic pain for the last eight years and had two throat surgeries last fall. everyone in my life is concerned and doing what they can for me, but they can't do much. i can't eat regularly, i have major problems accepting help from others, and i hate people seeing me unwell. so instead everyone just loves me as best they can with calls and kind notes. but when i say that i'm tired of being sick and don't want to do it anymore everyone acts like i'm crazy. would YOU be able to survive this shit without breaking?? sudden illness on top of chronic illness AND mental illness?! don't answer that it'd make me feel worse. i'm just trying to survive this. i am trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and in the end i am still just drained and defeated.

i know i sound like a classic bitch in crisis but i'm not. i'm getting more and more sick every year. i have to question what is worth fighting for and what isn't. i cannot spend my whole life being sick or recovering from being sick. i won't.

[reallybigvampire]

I know this is the substance abuse website so this may be an unpopular take but when I stopped drinking and used that money to go to a physiotherapist instead my quality of life went thermonuclear cause now I wake up with no shoulder pain and extremely hard nipples

[chicago-geniza]

Have been reading a lot at work and surprised myself again, in the sense that. If I split the project into parts it might actually be workable:

On the locus of the "I": cogito/reason, memory, Geist, psyche

On the invention of nation + public; philosophical geography; "civilization"; assimilation

On the conceptual, practical/legal, + discursive tensions between individual & collective a) self-determination, b) representation + expression, c) memory, d) psyche

On aesthetic empathy, Kunstwellen, "Empathy & Abstraction," Jung, early psychoanalysis, Bergsonian metaphysics & anthropology, ethnography, folklore, "authenticity" (circle back to "civilization," nation-building, etc.)

THE INTERWAR AESTHETIC/SOCIOPOLITICAL CONFLICT: REPRESENTATION VS. ABSTRACTION

WITHIN ABSTRACTION CAMP: Paris avant-garde (and Polish/French overlap); THE BIG TL;DR--HOW JUNG, BERGSON, VIENNA SECESSION ART CRITICS, IDEA OF NATIONAL GEIST (IMMUTABLE), IDEA OF NATIONAL CONSCIOUSNESS (PSYCHOANALYTIC SENSE), SYMBOLISM, "CIVILIZATION," AND FEAR OF ABSTRACTION AS TRANSCENDING REPRESENTATION'S INEVITABLE SIGNIFIERS OF DIFFERENCE (RACE SCIENCE IS ALSO HERE) COME TOGETHER: THE BELIEF THAT ABSTRACT ART CAN BETRAY IN ITS USE OF COLOR & FORM THE ARTIST'S SUBCONSCIOUS FOREIGNNESS, UNCIVILIZED NATURE, ETC., & THE BELIEF THAT ONE'S INDIVIDUAL (SUB)CONSCIOUS IS A) IMMUTABLE/ESSENTIAL, B) ETHNO-NATIONAL IN CHARACTER. This was expressed mostly about Jews

In Poland, during the interwar period, these aesthetic discourses re: abstract art corresponded to what were, imo, related debates: one about the Polish language (another variation on content vs. form, representation vs. abstraction, and How To Clock Jews & Ukrainians When They Speak Perfect Unaccented Polish), one about the "right to choose one's nationality," i.e., assimilation and self-determination

CODA: "MY OTHER HOMELAND IS THE IDEA OF EUROPE" - on Stefania, the postwar world order, the emergence of trauma theory, the psychoanalytic turn in historiography, and the contemporary prominence of memory studies, collective memory, collective consciousness, collective guilt, collective national affects, and the politics of commemoration - how "memory culture" can be seen as an encounter between the post-Enlightenment, fin-de-siecle Idea of Europe and the post-WWII, post-imperial Idea of Europe - the nation as collective subject, imbued with reason + will (self-determination), memory (the basis for identity, pro/contra Hume), consciousness in the psychoanalytic sense (experiences via historical process trauma, guilt, even return of the repressed). The staging of history as a psychoanalytic working-through of memory and the transformation of that staging into ritual commemoration become, by extension, constitutive of "civilization" (the nation as civilized person & LITERALLY analysand!!!!!!)

I have to learn German and French, unfortunately

[panuccispizza]

I'm like. yea whatever cool to know abt learning about autism comorbidities for myself. like it just makes sense. then I realize my dad has these symptoms too and I start crying