#its kinda a downer

[tommy-shut-up-challenge]

I need to talk about my perspective because i see this take all over for years and its been frustrating to watch. disclaimer: i have one disability that makes math hard (among other things, but my focus will be on math classes) and one that affects my cognitive functioning. The cognitive one is more recent and makes the learning one more difficult. If I made a spelling or grammar error that makes this hard to read please tell me. I have issues typing and spelling and spell check only does so much.

This is all to answer your question of "why would you want that word in particular?"

So some background. I have a disorder that meant always missing lunch to finish math tests and using a calculator when other students couldn't in later years. My peers noticed, ofc. And tweens/teens are vicious, so i got bullied for being 'stupid,' slow,' and r-word. The slur is the one they liked the best. More taboo ig.

Yeah. The rword means slow, stupid, and all the other words you used. But, and I'm not blaming you for anything here because I used to think like this too, slow and stupid aren't insults. or at least they shouldn't be. When viewing being slow as an insult you also imply it is inferior in some way. That is ableism, and it's so common in our world that people don't even realise it.

The words stupid and dumb also come from the same place, although the meaning has changed enough it's not even remotely as offensive. That's a different conversation that is a lot more complex tho.

you state "with like fag or whatever that at least is referring to your actual identity... the rslur [is] attacking how someone behaves or comes off to others more than what they actually are" I have a disorder that makes me slower at calculations than my peers. I AM slow. That's a part of who I actually am. it's not what I come off as or behave as. My disabilities are just as much a part of my identity as my status as a trans person. Another product of the unnoticed ableism in our world is people not seeing disability as a part of the person who has it and more like baggage they pack around. (See: autistic person vs. person with autism argument.)

I am slow, I am dimwitted, and I am retarded. There is not morality to assign to it, and none of those words should be insults. I am not less for being slow. Stating facts about who I am is not self-depreciation or insulting. I should not have grown up in a world that allowed descriptions of the way my brain works (slowly) to be insulting, but I did so I turned them into labels.

And it did a phenomenal job of protecting me since it took away the words people used to hurt me.

i will honestly never understand the urge to reclaim the r slur like . it’s got the fucking ooze on it why would you want to even touch that

[mafuyuakgae]

even if I came to love humanity in the end, there’s no proof I was ever here, right?

[broareweabouttoviberightnow]

hey yall. I really shouldn't have to like say this. but please don't leave hate comments on people's writin n art n stuff. the back buttons right there. don't like it!! don't read it!!

[relivethisdream]

One of my guilty pleasures is scuba diving through old ass abandoned selfship blogs from like, 2018-2019. Remember To My S/I. You used to love To My S/I

[spooked-skull-studios]

i never want to post my Protocol theories here because im so scared it'll get disproven and someone in the future will make a "looking back at wrong theories" and mine'll be there

bc i know there are vids like this on Archives and im not bashing them they're really fun to look at but my paranoia gets so bad that if that did happen then i feel and maybe even know (?) that my social anxiety would absolutely ruin me. i know its a really stupid fear (ha) but its just a shame that i cant get past the block of anxiety about how people would perceive me if that happened :[

[cloudcountry]

i think i may have created way to much pressure on myself when i tell people to send stuff that theyve tagged me in that i've missed. like yes i'd love to be able to read everything you guys send me but im gone most of the day now and its just not possible anymore. it kinda makes me sad because ive probably missed out on so much because of the sheer amount of things in my mentions.

[skyward-floored]

Another word game: Shattered (Yes I'm choosing words that would most likely lead to downer plots on purpose, it's just a mood)

Cobwebs brushed at Twilight's hair and caught on his sword as he and Four made their way through the dungeon, the light from their lanterns casting unnerving shadows along the walls.

Four suddenly gasped and stumbled backwards, enough that Twilight had to stop him from falling over, and as he caught the smithy and looked to see what had startled him, his own breath caught in his throat.

A shattered mirror stood across the room, glass still trapped in its warped frame, and as Twilight stared at it, a flash of orange hair caught his eye.

[0809sysblings]

new drinking game: go into the comment section of MeMe and/or John Doe and take a shot every time you see a comment that includes at least one of these things

Mikoto doesn't have DID, he just [insert symptom of DID]

"split personality"

Mikoto doesn't have DID, he is faking

"manipulator"

"serial killer"

Mikoto created his alter

"violent alter"

"evil alter"

Mikoto doesn't have DID, everything is supposed to be symbolic

[insert condescending remark about how guilty he is]

guaranteed alcohol poisoning

[dailydegurechaff]

You don't have to reply to this, but I am very happy to stumble across a non-problematic Youjo Senki fanpage. 💖

Thank you very much!! I'll continue to do my best!

[trainingdummyrabbit]

long wistful sighs.

[slutdge]

preparing for my 48 hour bender to make christmas eve and day mildly tolerable so i dont kill myself

[dexaroth]

daron's ref plus a sketch icon! i was gonna hold these off until i finished their page but im impatient :3

[ekuns]

feeling bleh about something that happened on stream...

[powpowpunchout]

Minor update!!

So Tumblr’s dashboard has changed drastically and it’s a nightmare for me to look at and use LOL

I’ve also been getting some weird errors on Tumblr that have never happened before? Every other thing I click on results in the page crashing, and it’s getting real pesky.

I’m probably gonna be taking a step back and wait for Tumblr to [hopefully] fix these issues, or at least make the Dashboard less cluttered. I don’t want to risk trying to post something, answer an ask, or upload chapters only for Tumblr to break again RIP

Hopefully things get patched up soon!! But just wanted to give a heads up that I’ll be pretty inactive for a lil while!

[miscelliteeous]

14/31 I was looking forward to Dark Harvest and its so good at first, and while I haven't read the book yet I read spoilers and to be honest the ending of the movie just REALLY not good compared to the book one, like its such a major letdown and anticlimatic, it ruins the movie for me.

[raccoonskoodilypoopdungeon]

idk how to talk abt myself and my personal life without it being weird