#its genuinely lonely here

[mr-scandinavian]

Where the fuck are all the Chess The Musical fans, are they all just old people or.... like....

[mayo-productions]

I hate this guy get him OFF my screen immediately /affectionate

[jade-len]

i think it'd be funny if someone transmigrated as xin mo. the goddamn evil sword. instead of taking it seriously, they just really fucked around with bingge. and, somehow, ended up having the opposite effect of what it's supposedly rumored to do.

picture this: bingge, on the quest for revenge and power, comes across the almighty xin mo. this demonic sword killed everyone that dared to even try wielding it. and, the few who were lucky enough to have it by their side, eventually succumbed to the swords' will.

it is said that the sword is unlike any other, that it etches into your head and eats away your brain, until eventually it consumes you whole. it whispers, speaking in lust, greed, and hatred. it slowly beckons the wielder into giving in to the worst part of themselves and feeds off of pure sin. but to him, it is no matter; luo bingge will surely tame it.

and then he gets to the sword.

demonic qi practically oozes from xin mo. the aura surrounding it makes every part of luo bingge scream, "run; get away, away from that monster." his gut prods at him, begging bingge that this is probably a really bad idea. it's a little terrifying, how even luo bingge, the determined, vengeful demon, is now getting second thoughts about wielding xin mo from just being in its presence alone.

but luo bingge is too, a monster. so he ignores the screams of plea; pushing every thought of doubt in the back of his head, and tightly grips onto the handle. the world around him seems to spin and shake, tumble and crack, from the amount of force bingge needs to use in order to pull the sword of sin out of its place.

when bingge finally has it perfectly fit into the palms of his calloused hands, he hears whispering. he knows that the sword has accepted him as its new host.

the sword's language crawls up to him, as if it were feeling around his body and mind. checking every nook and cranny for it to settle into bingge's form, truly becoming one with the embodiment of sin. the words flow through his brain like a tragically broken guqin, a melody that holds him in a frighteningly familiar trance - all while simultaneously eating away at his brain in the worst ways possible, akin to a child and their favorite snack. it seems to beckon something, but even with luo bingge's impressive hearing, he cannot make out any words from the tone-deaf musical notes xin mo sings.

and then, it is clear. the land around him settles, and everything is still. xin mo itself seems to be.. content. at least, that is what luo bingge believes.

the language of this wretched sword reflects the state around these two monsters.

luo bingge expects it to demand for bloodshed, for the erotic ecstasy of multiple women, for bingge to steal the last of the finest gems of these horrible, vast lands.

instead, he hears this:

"yoooo damn that shit was crazy. did you see what i did there? man, you know, it feels so fucking good to get out of the dirt. hey, do you know if people can like, feed their swords or something? i'm kinda craving something spicy. we never know, in this wack world! wait, don't hold me like that, buddy. it'll make things real awkward."

but luo bingge is determined to get his revenge, so he puts up with the swords' constant rambling about.. whatever the hell it's thinking.

"wait, dude, did you seriously fuck a dying girl? that's wild. yeah, like i know she was dying but it doesn't sound like you wanted it. yo, listen to me, consent is very sexy."

"HAHA hey, dude, sir, man. you wanna play some 'i spy'? we don't have anything else to do. no? too bad, we're playing it. i spy a loser who doesn't wanna play i spy. hint: he's holding me right now."

"okay i know i'm supposed to be this super evil sword and beg to be used - woah that sounded real wrong - but can you at least clean me when you're done killing shit? if you don't, i'm gonna refuse to respond to you and you'll look like a dumbass trying to wield me."

"i can't hear you lalalalalalala you're not being very it girl right now lallalalaalalalla-"

somehow, this is worse than if xin mo was actually eating away at his brain.

weirdly enough though, as luo bingge starts spending more time with this weird ass, seemingly possessed sword, it starts to become more of a.. comfort to have it by his side than pure annoyance. he finds himself responding to it more, like, actually having full on conversations with it. it puts him at ease, wielding xin mo. the hatred doesn't consume him, instead, it seems to soothe the burning rage (and, admittedly, just replace it with small irritation) that holds onto his darkened heart.

xin mo is actually quite kind and caring, for a sword that's supposed represent and be the literal embodiment of sin. sure, it is a hassle to have it cooperate with him sometimes, and it does just ramble on and on about the most random things ever, not giving a single shit if bingge was in the middle of sleeping with maidens and slaying those who get in his way. for the first time, bingge feels so comfortable around something.

it's.. odd. what was supposed to be the turning point in his life, a big step in his plan for revenge, is now something akin to an... acquaintance. not like mobei-jun, or any of the women he's come across, but an actual, dare he say, friend.

sometimes, he finds himself thinking all of this delusional. is this what people were driven mad by? perhaps they simply could not handle dealing with a talking sword. he understands that xin mo was undoubtedly unbearable to be around at the beginning of their alliance, but it has never actually beckoned for blood, power, and sex. if anything, it does the opposite.

maybe he's the delusional one. maybe this is xin mo's way of getting to him.

maybe, xin mo should be considered a thing. the thought feels terribly laughable, as if he were witnessing a person horribly explain themselves. it also makes his teeth grind together in pure agitation.

"hey, you know, you didn't deserve any of the things they did. it wasn't your fault, binghe. the fact that you're half heavenly demon doesn't make you a monster, or any of that wild stuff.. uh, i'm here for you, okay? i know you don't really like talking about all of this or opening up, but i just want you to know that you can.. talk about it. it's not like i can tell anyone else, anyways.

hey- shit i didn't mean to make you cry! wait, wait it's okay to cry! you need to let it out anyways, i promise it doesn't make you weak. there, there. i don't have any hands, so me patting you on the head with my handle will have to do. there, there.. everything will be alright, you'll be okay. i'll be here every step of the way, even if you want to get rid of me."

xin mo, the demonic sword, is more of a person - a good person - than anyone he'd ever come across.

...and then bingge and the xin mo transmigrator become besties or he falls for the damn sword. knowing him, he probably doesn't even know the difference between platonic and romantic attraction anyways. maybe bingge gets a plant body for xin mo using airplane's wack writing. idk i typed all of this down in one sitting.

(plot twist: it's not that the transmigrator xin mo had the opposite effect, it was literally just a placebo effect. luo bingge thought that, and thus it actually did help him lmao)

[eatanorange]

Can I share a fear rq? can I share a fear with y'all? Can I tell you what I witness and what it manifests in to? Will it manifest the entity looming in the darkest parts of my head? Will you blame me for going insane or will you find some sort of sick, disorienting beauty in my destruction, in my fusing with said entity? Will I still be alone then? Will I be known, then? Will it sicken you to see how full of love I am and how colored by distrust it is? Will you look away when the hand you reach for turns to a blade and cuts yours off, or will you pull back too? Did you already have that prosthetic, there? Is that what you call self preservation?

[fuzzbuns]

When nageki found the little king in the light house and pointed out that he was alone 😂😂😂 Moa cant keep getting away with this

[ping-ski]

not enough people talk about "dont turn the lights off" ngl. this song + the daycare theme song have been ON LOOP for me. on loop while i draw. on loop while i do chores and cook. on loop while i work. on loop if i need to concentrate on something- no ANYTHING. it's such a comfort to me. this song has a DEATH GRIP on me. WHIMSY UNMATCHED. you don't understand how much this song fuels me to keep creating DCA content for myself ohhh my god.

"lights on" doesn't even compare for me (WHICH OFC i like the song + with the recent release of "best friend" im still giddy)

which, i feel the need to add, this song is pivotal for my motivation to write EBY (wip dca fic im working on rn). like idk i feel invincible when this song plays ig lmao.

[ribbononline]

& every time it's you

[soggy-fishsticks]

hey guys, sorry if I might not post art or interact with mutuals as much this week 😭 i havent had a great time these past few days, and I'm pretty out of energy 🫶 but i always have more energy on weekends + spring is just a couple of months away though, so hopefully I'll have fallen out of this funk by then :) so for now, I'll just be spam liking all of my mutuals posts lol 🫶 xxx ❤️❤️❤️

[ableedingpromise]

Genuinely feel like all this unnecessary stress is going to bite me in the ass one day

[dennisboobs]

the thing about dennis is that he is doomed to have to choose between a relationship with someone who doesn't know him, someone who doesn't love him, or someone who doesn't care about him.

[something2believe]

what would it take for someone to care enough about me to show it? and love me unconditionally?

[administer-distractions]

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[man-made-misery]

This is just a rant sorry

[guideaus]

there's a group of people somewhere in the neighborhood chatting and their voices carry over to me perfectly and it feels weird

[trainingdummyrabbit]

31, 60, 24, ask game, dealers choice

uoho.. iwill do my best boss!! ^w^7 ithink im gonna answer for my girl rosie bc . thinking about her..

[24] How hard it is for them to not allow their emotions to cloud their judgement?

honestly. incredibly, incredibly difficult. it gets more intense with time, honestly. she likes to act as though she's got a tight reign on herself and her reactions to things, but the longer she goes, the less and less she's able to really Enact that control. it's Especially egregious for things she sees as an injustice, a cruelty; or something she deeply Wants. shes a very selfish person! she doesnt show it, and honestly probably takes a long time to realize it, but she's very conflicted about it. she Knows what she Should do, but it gets harder to follow it after so long of that being All There Is. she has no real ability to reel in that forward drive. shes capable of acting towards the benefit of the 'big picture,' but. well. shes also incredibly spiteful. there is a thin thread pulled taut and she is fully capable of snapping it at any time. but she wont. because shes polite. shes very polite.

[31] How hard it is for them to own up to their mistakes and wrongdoings?

oh she straight up Doesnt. for small things, she knows and follows the Common Courtesy- apologize, laugh it off, brush it off, move on, etc etc. thats what you Do. (it never matters enough to waste energy on it, making a big deal of it is just uncouth. obviously.) but genuinely? for bigger things? her main tactic is to simply Never Make Mistakes. ...which means she sucks ass at addressing it whatsoever. she will either justify herself into not being at fault (and any sour feelings towards her are just simply because they dont understand. a temporary burden she is graciously allowing them to hold against her.) or. it sticks in. she has no real skill in dealing with something like that; it just kinda. short circuits her a little bit. and it Does bother her! Deeply! if it was unexpected, then it kinda strikes at her pride a little bit. she has a hard time shaking that off without being able to deflect it. but if she wholeheartedly made a decision that catastrophically went wrong, then. thats. Complicated. that's when she's most likely to try to brush off the blame, justify it off. but even if she does, it never really Goes Away. like a dull ache. and she Will double down on it too. even if it doesnt even benefit her. she Has to hold up that bluff, or else ..? Or Else. shes Literally polite though.

[60] If they were to commit a crime, what kind of crime would it most likely be?

embezzlement