#its been rotating in my mind for days.

[mamawasatesttube]

on the one hand i have plenty on my plate already on the other hand what if koncass gender fic.

[daily-odile]

drew a scene from @dunkalfredo's modern/scifi au... it's so good

[starry-bi-sky]

mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.

now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.

He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.

(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)

The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.

The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.

And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.

(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)

The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.

anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)

[kitty-gray]

Things I think about daily:

+ that one time CC said Ty got a mysterious special edition of Sherlock Holmes for Christmas.

[p1x1x]

[holland-vosijk-antari]

[mitchievousness]

KazuRei Week Day 1 - Growing Old

when miri is fully grown and moves away from the family home, the papas move to the countryside and become the unofficial elder gays in the little village

[stormyrainyday]

this entire year has been flop after flop why am i losing so bad your honor i am literally just some guy

[ikuhara]

STILL CANNOT BELIEVE OFF SEASON AND MONSTER SEASON ANIME IS REAL

[princessmyriad]

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[obessivedork]

TBH as a writer appreciating the set-up of a character I ADORE Vivienne but her lack of proper character arc & the inability to argue with her more is as infuriating as with most of your companions in DAI, if not more when you play a Mage because you CAN’T grab her by the shoulders and shake her and say Ma’am if you’d had worse luck and wound up literally anywhere other than the Circle you did wind up at you would be a fundamentally different person please for Maker’s sake admit out loud that you only like the Circles because you managed to etch yourself some limited social power out of the broken and corrupt system you might not otherwise have been able to get for yourself and therefore you have not suffered the true effects of it!!!!

[normal-about-the-dca]

I found an old fic outline from 2021 that I never did anything with!! Now I'm rehyped for the idea since we've gotten much more insight into the Daycare Attendant as a character. It's a reverse-infected au where Sun ends up being Vanny's follower rather than Moon. The accompanying fic would be a short tragedy about Sun's unrequited feelings for an employee and how the virus ruins his and Moon's friendship with them.

[litrallytyrus]

i have not been talking about janrichard enough lately . sorry . i’ll fix it

[dreampearls]

just wanted to add my 2 cents as someone with medical trauma (diagnosed cptsd from medical intervention) with a severe physical chronic illness : i kinda like that collei's physical illness was taken away in one night because she deserves it. i still feel like she's traumatized and anxious, to be fair we haven't seen her be around the source of her main ptsd (dottore) and i hope we never do; she deserves to be happy! ofc we can all have our own opinions i just wanted to put in my 2 cents as someone with a very similar situation to hers! in fact, having your physical illness suddenly gone might make things even worse for a while: because for a lot of us, that's how we define ourselves. who am i without my pain and this illness??? so collei more or less has to find herself again now, which i like. sadly they don't show enough of her but i do feel like she still has massive anxiety and personal issues !

same anon from earlier - i also wanted to add to my point of "collei needs to now learn to define herself outside of her illness" how hard it is because EVERYONE she meets asks her how shes feeling irt to "do you still feel your illness bothering you? how are you now?" which as someone with 189834982892 surgeries to fix an unfixable problem , it just makes it... worse. because no one else can talk abt anything else with you!! idk if the writing is intentional with that or not tho

your last point about collei having to learn how to define herself outside of her illness is so!!!!! heart emoji. i think thats a lovely reading of what happened in the game and affords her way more agency over what was otherwise a narrative that... pretty much ironically stripped away all other facets of her agency (the narrative here in question being the archon quest) i think she also deserves it to live a life free from physical pain too! but at the same time, i fundamentally disagree with the notion that disability should ever be tied to questions of "deserving" or "undeserving" because that's simply not how disability works. additionally, whether or not a character deserves something isn't always indicative of good writing obv; the main problem with collei in the game was that she was used moreso as a damsel-in-distress symbol for sumeru's underlying (& literal) corruption (also a tangent here, but she wasn't even allowed to be a fully explored symbol at that too-- that role ended up being fulfilled by dunyarzad, and collei at best served as an introduction to that) <- ANYWAYS IM DIGRESSING. thank you so much for sharing; i think her ultimately being cured is a double edged sword in a lot of cases (one being a case of erasure of chronic illness/disability; but the other, like you said, being a genuinely cathartic narrative reward for her that she would have a lot of internal turmoil over trying to grapple with and accept!)

i think at the end of the day the main problem though is that, realistically, genshin wouldn't give her this level of thought or nuance when it comes to either case of curing her illness or leaving her be. she's just the free starter dendro character thats just kind of a neat throwback to the few players who bothered to read the manga. but she is so special always and forever

[heartgold]

stream irregular entropy

[theladyfae]

what did anu malik put in the baazigar soundtrack and why is it only affecting me now 30 years later