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[jitterbugbear]

okay this is sooo silly my little sister told my parents that when i tried to order the across the spiderverse art book, my order got cancelled due to ????? mystery and then i got mad and didn't reorder it and this was months ago AND NOW i got it as a present!! wahhhh truly a series of events

[jokeson-u]

so for those of u who dont know. i work full time as an au pair, 8am-9:30pm. the job sucks, im illegally underpaid bc its my cousin ($330 a week), and the kids are nightmares (ages 1, 2 and 3.) before i left for christmas, i was told id be getting a gift when i come back. my family all knew what it was and were saying its rly nice and gonna make me wanna stay longer, my theory was that its some console so i assumed it was a ps5 or a switch bc my mom said its a game but idk. ps5 woulda been too nice which i said in my other posts and my sister told me it wasnt a switch so i rly dont know. anyways. i get back after the holidays. and im given a calendar. of the kids i live with. im so fucking annoyed they just decided to not get me anything i guess

[potensh]

fanks u @fall-dog for the tag! eeeee

are you named after anybody? yes! one of my parents fav singers, maddy prior! even tho i dont go by my birth name anymore its kinda fun. she sings my fav christmas album of all time

when was the last time you cried? when i was at my old place packing up my stuff and the moving truck arrived and i wasn't done packing and i was all embarassed and overwhelmed. got a big hug from me mum tho and it was okay in the end.

do you have kids? noooo but i rly want them. babbie. pls

do you use sarcasm a lot? yes? but i always explain it straight after i say it incase anyone is confused so um. it possibly doesnt land.

what sports do you/have you played? tried a whole bunch in pe and did dance and swimming after school as a kid? i feel like i could have been rly good at soccer if i wasnt passionately against team sport lol

what’s the first thing you notice about other people? maybe their voice? when meeting new people i like. dont look at them at all for like the first bit

what's your eye colour? hazel? i think?

scary movies or happy endings? both both both! love a scary movie and a sweet happy nice time ending

any special talents? i can learn how to do pretty much anything from a youtube video

where were you born? melbourne!

what are your hobbies? art and crafts! zine making and knitting and sewing and painting and drawing! a bit of writing and podficcing! organising and putting stuff in places

do you have any pets? nooo my baby meeshi died last year and the place im moving cant have cats so i havent gotten a new one :(

how tall are you? 175cm methinks!

favourite subject at school? art! it was super challenging in yr 11 and 12 but in the best best way. very fulfilling

dream job? eeeeh i dont rly have one lol. i loved being an early childhood educator, which is what i trained for after school, but i cant do that anymore bc of disability reasons which. is sad. but i like not having a job, and would probably be fine if i never had one again.

tagging @foreverlibrary @colgatebluemintygel @somerubberband if u want to do it!!! <3

[avidaraku]

sometimes I forget how good and sweet and fulfilling fanfics can be but oh my god. Wow. so glad I continued to look through fanfiction.net i've been seeing some rly good gems for khr there ;; reading a dino x haru fic that will absolutely make ur teeth fucking rot and melt i am so in love actually

if u want a sweet couple where it just focuses on their dynamic and makes you love Haru even more? Totally recommend this! (Also I rarely read romance things but like I am melting. I love everything abt Haru and Dino soooo much and I think this author needs some big fucking love <3) It's a collection of loosely connected one shots and one of my favorite chapters from what I'm reading is the Christmas one!

I completely forgot how nice and toasty Christmas chapters can be, and I love how Haru goes all out! >w< she truly is the heart of the Cavallones, and also - I actually learned a few new words from this!!!

also, i just love how this author really does focus on what makes Haru and Dino work so well, despite how slow the progress in their relationship is, every romantic gesture is not summed up in a simple little sentence - it actually does well in expanding why these actions make my little heart want to explode into a thousand corny heart shaped confetti thingys and god. i love how much the others accept her and adore her ;;

Dino also is equally as essential to this shipfic, even if I am fangirling over how well Haru is depicted - I'm so glad we get to see such a loving man out of Dino and how hopelessly in love he is with Haru haha. What a softie!!! Haru is very strongwilled but also it is Dino who ensures that she's able to be herself and they kinda boost each other and its just so god fucking damn ADORABLE I WANT TO EAT MY SOCKS. God.

Seriously if you are into romantic stuff, this is IT. (kyaaa~) also contains some rly good intimate scenes, tho the fic does go on the softer parts. but yeah this fic is so comforting, it's really refreshing to see something so nice like this because it rly does emphasize the love for each other, without making you feel like its all just an obligation to get to X thing thats the standard in a romance ;w; their romance is just so unique to Haru and Dino I rly love this. I need to remember to download this fic....

[sleevesareforlosers]

DISCUSSION GROUP!!!!

i’m looking forward to having some more free time at some point 😭 hopefully i’ll have more time to do sewing and stuff i haven’t gotten to in ages 🤞 & i’m really gonna try and continue my mandatory happiness mindset!!! (<- read abt it in laura jane grace’s book it’s like. maybe everything sucks but u can often choose to look at things in a positive light it’s really really helped me!! like. i can go into things w a positive mindset instead of a miserable one and control that at least yk?)

i’m currently out of town & it’s around the 30s. not bad wish it was snowing but i’ll take what i can get, i can wear my $10 80s windbreaker which i’m happy about!! and if i could be anywhere i’d want to be somewhere with snow but honestly? i’m quite content where i am i love doing big family christmas together.

and. i will be honest as much as i try to seek out new stuff to read/watch/listen to. i love rewatching &c. it’s rly nice and comfortable yk? i’m restarting how to train your dragon actually which is. so lovely <3 and i just did my semiannual big hero 6 watch which was delightful

uno reverse!!!! hope ur doing wonderfully :)

!!!!! fingers crossed for more free time! i've been doin a lot of sewing recently and i forgot how NICE it is so im rlly manifesting you get some more time w ur arts too! and YES thats a good thing to bring w you! i love ljg thats a rlly good philosophy. i should read her book huh

oh thats so fun! not bad weather and ALWAYS a bonus to be wearing a nice windbreaker. im glad ur havin fun doing family + xmas stuff! its one of my fave holidays for like exactly that reason

also okay SO fair of you. i feel like im rlly the same except im not even consistent w my rewatches lol. i SHOULD watch httyd again though. i never watched the third one but ik a lot of my friends rlly liked it

also i AM doing wonderfully thank you!!! for the uno reverse:

im lookin forward to getting cracking on a real job search again in the new year (not gonna start too far out from my current contract ending) and also my boyfriend is gonna come up here again at the end of january so thats like. SUPER exciting. and i think im gonna try and bring forward just like. idk i guess just trying to work on my communication and stuff ive def been working on that lately and i want to keep doing so!

it is currently cold as balls here (-11) and sunny today but its been snowing the last few days so we got like. two feet of snow. which i DO LIKE. i love snow even if its a little functionally irritating. idk where i would be if i could be anywhere rn. itd be nice to see my halifax friends again but itd also be nice to be [where my boyfriend lives] so. yknow. hard choice

and i think it kinda varies actually! im def better at reconsuming whatever media kind but i think i reread books a LOT less often and i try to do the same w movies. but i hardly EVER listen to new music and shows r id say a 50/50? i started derry girls today tho its fantastic

hope you're doing well too matt!!!

[james-fun-in-the-sunderland]

tv + movie: 17, 28, 31, 97, 99 c:<

oh my GOD ive been ambushed by my own PARTNER wtF!!!!! hehe

17. A show that you love to hate?

oh somehow this is much easier for me <- enjoys the potential of things way more than things that are mid or actually good

So alot of like 90s video game cartoons probably fit here, the super mario show, the legend of zelda show, all of the tumblr classics like dr who supernatural or sherlock, but if i had to like choose ONE it would be sonic underground. that show sucks so hard but its so fun and has a bunch of bangers

28. What is your favourite movie from the 80′s?

i looked up 80s movies on letterboxed and like the first page was a ton of movies i love so im . gonna have to rly think abt this... ok ive decided its The Thing. that thang. that movie rocks so hard bro like genuinely (also glad i didnt see a fave from the 70s q on this list bc that would b so much harder o.o"")

31. Favourite movie from the 2010′s +?

Thought this was 2000s so i was GONNA say lake mungo but since its 2010s then It Follows would be my pick!! its such a good movey.... i wanna watch it again i think ive only seen it once but it sticks out so much in my mind its SUCH a good movie

97. Think of a positive movie experience you will never forget?

Well what am i SUPPOSED to put here other than when i went down to see uuuu my partner bc we were gonna see sonic 2 together! and it was so nice being able to grab ur hand SO FUCKING excitedly when shadow came on screen c: <3 and then just infodumping SO HARD and constantly pacing and moving around and u just being like *heart eyes* the whole time like come ONNNN i love u <3 it was nice hehe

99. Best movie soundtrack?

hmm this ones a toughie bc . movie soundtracks all sound the same to me,,, i know its kind of cheating to use a musical but genuinely id just listen to the ambient tracks for the nightmare before christmas... but outside of musicals probably it follows? both of them id just listen to in general but the ost for it follows WOULD give me anxiety lmao the chase music is so o.o""""""\

link back to the tv and movies ask game for anyone else who may want to send numbers n get those qs answered!

[stardustanddaffodils]

oh!!! stardust to your tags on my oneshot absolutely do not worry about it!!! i edited it myself dw, you were busy and stuff i get it ^_^ AND IM GLAD YOU LIKE THE PANTHEON AU SO DO I!!!! REALLY HOPING I CAN GET THE POST ENOUGH NOTES SO I CAN DO IT CONFIDENT THAT ILL REACH AN AUDIENCE LMAO :D and any and all art uou do will be SO appreciated <33

anyways i hope you’ve had a nice day, i know neither of us were feeling it yesterday so hopefully your today was better like mine was!!! sending love <3

hfhdfh i did read over it a few times when i was able but i either didnt have the time to rly look for edits to make or just couldnt find anything i felt could be revised

yeah yeah yeah!!!! as a certified Tiny Blog, i definitely get that. its hard to want to put so much effort into something if youre not sure how itll be received or if ppl will even notice it. for me its usually just a matter of like. the stuff i make will not get noticed much 90% of the time But there are a few people (you, summer, skyy, etc) who i get very happy when you see and like stuff ive made so if you see and like then mission accomplished, target audience has been reached. and if you dont see it, youre usually someone i feel comfortable tagging like hey look i did this pay attention to me ^-^

it works... sometimes?

but yeah pantheon au i love pantheon au and everyone else will too im sure (this is a threat ^-^)

and yeah! today admittedly wasnt too great for me but its over now <3 and i got so many good books for christmas i am ecstatic hopefully ill be able to read again

[cdmodule]

have you had any songs youve been listening to a lot lately?? if you want you can also talk about any characters you associate with them

THIS IS A REALLY NICE ASK YES THANK YOU

Not a song but the entire you are what you is album by frank zappa has been in my brain a lot lately, nate and I listen to it what feels like at least once a week the past few weeks. I heavily associate it with our au too so <3 That adds to it. Its a rly good album but be warned there are some heavy topics in there (like drugs and death in one of them)

Also since Its winter time I started listening to my tony music again (Someone ask me about my tony playlist /th) and Unterm Weinachtsbaum is like. Peak Tony song I am Obsessed with it

THIS SONG MAKES ME THINK OF CLOCK simply cuz Uhr is the german word for clock hah, Its from my fave compilation album series ever (Im gonna get the 2nd part out of 4 this christmas so YEAHH) Listen to Neuer Deutscher Dancefloor if you like german rave/hardcore/dance music you will not be dissapointed

Also. I hope you know that I tried to look into my watch history for what songs I listened to recently and Its nearly all ytpmvs LOL

[steal-this-album]

all the odd numbers for the ask game!!

1. How old were you when you found out you were autistic?

i was 15 years old, as in this year :'D i am self dx but my counselor is Suspecting Something untreated lol

3. Do you have any comorbidities? Or just autism?

i do!! i have adhd and psychosis (both prof. dx)

5. What do you wish more people knew about autism?

that YES allistics, it DOES suck always being the sexiest and coolest person in the room 😔 /j

7. Do you find it hard to make friends?

most of the time nope! especially with other nd people!! i'm a huge extrovert and i love to drag ppl around if given the right opportunity lol <3 BUT if someone new (usually neurotypicals jdgshsj) gives me a Single Red Flag i will just. instantly lose all interest lmao

9. What was your first special interest?

FUN FACTS!!! <3<3 literally had it ever since i could read lmao

11. If you could give any advice to your younger self, what would it be?

question your gender. then do it again. then question your sexuality. then question your ge- (basically. embrace who you are n what you like!! it's good and natural to have "phases"!!! do whatever makes you happy!!!!)

13. Tell us an autistic person that you really look up to.

uhh um uh *points at my mutual* hi @autistic--cryptid i rly like ur stim blogs and ur super nice <3<3

15. Have you ever received any accommodations for your autism in either school or work?

yep! i haven't had an official job yet, but for school i did have an IEP and then a 504 plan for a few years. recently they discontinued it (and set up a more informal plan) because i've been doing good in schoolwork (mostly /pos). atm it's mostly getting alternatives for public speaking, being able to step out of class if it's overwhelming, extensions on deadlines, etc

17. Do you own any stim toys? Which is your favorite?

yes!! and I LOST MY FAVORITE ONEEE idk where it is :[ i have these (first one is my fav i lost, all the colors shown are the same ones i have)

ID: three fidget toys. They are an orange chain key ring, a yellow fidget cube, and blue and pink liquid motion timer. / End ID

i also have a fidget pen but it broke :[

19. What kinds of things are sensory hell for you?

fabrics are a Big Deal to me :'] i absolutely hate fleece sherpa and faux fur. a lot of blankets are just Bad Feeling to me so i like to use bath towels (which also have to be a certain texture lol). also MY CIELING FAN AAGHH when it's on, the blades get in the way of the light and it makes things flash slightly so i can't look up. idk if that makes sense but yea

21. How open are you usually when it comes to being autistic?

somewhat open ig, esp since i don't have a formal diagnosis. i still talk a lot about my Symptoms lol

23. What's the longest you've ever had a special interest for?

uhhh idk how to tell?? for me it's like i've always had them, i just primarily fixate on different ones at different times. but again i've had fun facts pretty much since i could read lol

25. Do you have shutdowns?

yea, more often than meltdowns

27. Do you have any vocal stims or echolalia?

yes a lot!! i vocal stim a lot more with both noises, phrases, and songs, but my echolalia is mostly of noises or single words ^^

29. Are your friends and/or family accepting of your autism?

they're very accepting of my other neurodivergence + disability stuff, so it won't be a big deal lol

31. Do you have a comfort item? If you feel comfortable with it, then show it to us.

YESS THESE MY BELOVEDS!! the coraline doll was made by someone my mom knew and given to me as a christmas/birthday gift, since coraline is a spin of mine ^^ i've had the dog since i was a baby lol, and it makes a lot of Good Noises like rattling (in the paws) and crinkling (on the ears) :D

ID: two stuffed toys against the lap of OP, who is wearing a blue shirt and yellow pants. The first is a hand-crocheted doll of Coraline (from the movie Coraline). The second is a multicolored dog, which is mostly red, and each of its paws are a different color. The bottoms of its paws are reflective. / End ID

33. Foods you are sensitive to (maybe because of bad texture for instance)?

fatty meats :[ which unfortunately comes up a lot bc i'm mexican lol. also tomatoes 😔

35. Have you ever used a weighted blanket?

i have one!! i don't use it that often because my bed is small and i can't move around a lot on it lol, so it gets a bit frustrating to readjust :P

37. Do you enjoy holidays or are they sensory hell to you?

OK WELL. i love the holidays bc yayy fun giving gifts to friends or whatever but i CANNOT STAND the ""holiday"" themed scents. At All. the thanksgiving/christmas Sugar Cinnamon Roll Gingerbread Party Explosion shit is so fucking overwhelming and I Hate It. and my english teacher puts on a wax burner in her room w that stuff :[

39. What's the most comfortable/sensory friendly outfit you own?

actually the one i have on rn is pretty cool lol. the shirt is a very loose and soft button up, and also yellow sweatpants bc yellow is my favorite color and Sweatpants Are Comfy. also shirts that feel crocheted/knitted are very nice <3

41. If you date people then would you prefer to date other autistic people?

i do prioritize all relationships with neurodivergent people lol, so yeah it would be nice :]

43. If you could have any item related to your special interest what would it be?

uhh UHHH hm. if it counts then i want moshi monsters back 😔😔

45. Favorite autistic celebrity?

i see @jupitrr in posts in the wild so fle is a celebrity in my mind <3

47. Do you happy flap?

yeap!!! with my hands and my wings lmao :D i also do i ton of other happy stims, like snapping my fingers, shaking my fists, jumping, groaning, shaking my arms, clapping, and hitting my head lol

49. What's something you find hard to do because of autism?

EYE CONTACT.... also wording my thoughts + feelings :[ a bunch of other things too but mostly those

ask game link

[carcinized]

me again!

the bunnies have been fed and the meds have been consumed. might go do some art :] or do some homework.... yeah thats unlikely shdjljfjlkfjklfhs

my favorite holiday is this week it is diwali and i am so excited and we had a little celebration for it today and it was fun and i wore a rly pretty dress and it was Yellow and made me Happy and i put on makeup bc Why The Heck Not and then i got lipstick on my mask which i thought was rly funny

i also got lipstick on my juicebox and like. that feels like a metaphor or smth deep, like this grown up thing mixed with a childhood thing... i may have to put that in a poem o.o

i have started a cbenchtrio + cwilbur ghost au thing and i am very hopeful that itll actually go somewhere? which may be misplaced hope but! i want to write it and i have ideas that i think i can work with and stuff so! hopefully i actually manage to finish something i am writing....

i kinda love tumblr asks bc a lot of the time conversations are stressful or make me anxious but with asks theres none of that bc theres not rly as much pressure to respond or carry the conversation? i just kinda put my thoughts in your askbox, read your response and smile, and drop a like to say "hey i read this! ily!" and then sometimes i will respond but theres less Pressure to be able to hold a conversation Correctly TM (and like. theres not rly a correct way to Conversation (verb) but. social anxiety uwu)

OH ONE LAST THING do you know the song Breakfast At Tiffany's by Deep Blue Something? i love that song sm :]

hello stardust again :D

oh thats good !!! and oooo art :]]

OOO DIWALI!!! i will admit that i dont know much about it, but i stumbled into a celebration at the beach last year and god it was BEAUTIFUL. i dont know the specifics or anything, and my memory of last year (particularly this time of year) is realllly bad, but i think i remember lanterns? i remember it was colourful and candles and stuff and it was SO COOL AAAA <33 and YELLOW DRESS and MAKEUP so fun!!! :DDD

ohhh... lipstick on a juicebox,,, that is very poetic indeed :O it would be nice in a poem i think. (sidenote: do you ever have those moments where its jsut like??? DAMN that was poetic. my life is so poetic. i guess you do because you just told me of one but it happens to me a lot and im just like woah :OOO and then i put it in a song lyric JDFSKJDSF)

OOO HOW FUN :OO if you do write it i will be very excited to read!! or even if you dont want to write it and simply want to ramble about your idea, feel free to bounce ideas off me via asks or dms!! id love to hear about it :]]]

SAME I LOVE TUMBLR ASKS FOR THIS,,,, its like leaving someone a little note except you get to see their response!! no pressure to keep the conversation going, just a little hey i thought of you hope youre well heres a little thing just for you <3 wish i had something like this irl ashdfkj

i DO!!!! that song is in the same genre of nostalgia to me as like,,,,, the dumb & dumber soundtrack + like. the blue weezer album (also the nightmare before christmas and edward scissorhands soundtracks) because my mom used to play them a lot when i was little :] good memoires :D

[eleventoes]

as i told you | drabble

pairing: jungkook x reader | fluff (do i even write for any other genre at this point) word count: 1.5k warning(s): none synopsis: You and Jungkook are still idiots, except now you’re idiots in love. 

( a look into what happens after as i told you ) ***

The truth of the matter was this: the thought of strangling Jeon Jungkook with your bare hands still crosses your mind more than it should, and that’s not what a healthy, loving relationship looks like, at least not according to Wikihow.

The cheerleaders badger you all the time in the locker room after practice, bombarding you with questions about what the two of you get up to in the apartment (“Sooyoung, you can stop wriggling your eyebrows now,” you’d scowl.) and Taehyung isn’t any better, because he thinks the two of you have cute romantic dates at home, and he gets all dreamy when he talks about it.

Yes, okay, sometimes the two of you can be pretty darn cute, even if you say so yourself. Jungkook likes spoiling you every other week, so he trudges to that famous bakery on the far side of town just to get you those donuts you adore, even when he’s worn out from late night practices. And you hate seeing him tired every time practice gets a little too rough as well, so somehow weekly Sunday morning massages became a thing, even if it evolves into a mini-wrestling match more often than not.

But people around you seem to forget that the two of you share almost everything: an apartment, a bed, a toothbrush (when Jungkook accidentally flushed his down the toilet) and a relentless competitive streak.

“Is that my hoodie?” he squints one morning as he emerges from the bathroom, hair still damp from the shower and eyes still bleary with sleep.

You nod from where you’re perched on the kitchen stool, too preoccupied with the latest webtoon update to spare him more than one appreciative glance. It’s not your fault his clothes are so goddamn comfortable, plus they always smell like that body spray he’s obsessed with, and it makes you feel all homely and tingly inside.

Without looking, you can tell he’s squinting again, and he hovers a little before speaking, “I’m not saying it’s not cute, because it’s cute seeing you waddle around—”

“I don’t waddle,” you throw him your best faux glare.

“But it’s the fourth time this week,” Jungkook cries, a little too dramatically in your very objective opinion, “I’m literally running out of clean clothes to wear.”

“You don’t seem to have an issue wearing dirty ones,” you retort, not because you’re still being petty about him never doing laundry (okay so maybe that’s half the reason), but because it’s true, Jungkook recycles dirty clothes more than he actually recycles.

You should have known something’s up the moment Jungkook narrows his eyes at your smartass remark, because the next morning, you almost drop the milk seeing Jungkook wearing one of your looser t-shirts.

“What the fuck,” numbly, you choke out, because the shirt’s tearing at its seams, and is figure-hugging in a way it was never supposed to be.

Jungkook, that smug asshole whom you love and cherish, only smiles devilishly before slinging on his sports bag and announcing that he’s leaving for practice, leaving you stunned (and a blushing mess, but we don’t talk about that) in the kitchen.

You do end up dropping the milk.

But what ensues is this: the two of you have once again embroiled yourselves in another unspoken challenge. The goal? To wear as many of the other’s clothes until one admits defeat. The prize? Bragging rights, because the two of you are wired that way. Purpose of challenge? None, as usual.

For a week or two, the two of you were practically stars on the campus forums; there’s a whole thread filled with ridiculous pictures of the two of you wearing each other’s clothes. Jungkook showed up to lab wearing your baby pink coat (and almost ripping it), you show up at an art elective class donning his favourite Iron Man tee (the stains were thankfully non-permanent), and you’re pretty sure he was going to wear your cheerleading skirt as an arm band or something, but you’ve been guarding your uniform with your life to avoid that ever happening. Highlight of the entire challenge was when Jungkook wore one of your long flowy tulle skirts to class, because he’s a badass like that, and gave a whole speech about the toxicity of gender normativity when sneered at by one of the TAs.

Yeah, you were proud, but on the brink of tears when he confessed that he spilt coffee on it right after the speech.

The challenge quickly draws to a close when your closets are all mixed up and laundry gets confusing. It got so messed up that you thought you were looking at Jungkook’s wardrobe when you opened your own, and it ends up being a tie, because now the two of you were unknowingly sharing closets.

Not the goal of the challenge (if there ever was one), but then the two of you get all giddy and excited over shopping for a new wardrobe (so that you both can officially share the same closet, duh), and now there’s only one wardrobe between the both of you.

So yes, the both of you were pretty darn cute.

Until Christmas rolls around and Jungkook gets a polaroid camera from his brother, which shouldn’t sound like it’s anything significant at all, up till you walk into his bedroom unannounced one day and stumble upon him and a handful of photos. All of you.

“I swear it’s not creepy,” leaping out of his chair, Jungkook gets to his feet and holds up both hands defensively.

You don’t tell him that him being creepy hasn’t even crossed your mind, because really, you’re just embarrassed and ridiculously flustered by how soft he looked when he was arranging the photos, so you just nod speechlessly.

“I was just trying out the camera, and you fell asleep on me, and I thought you looked,” he looks down and whispers, sounding almost like he got caught with his hand in the cookie jar, “Cute.”

“After that it was just fun to play around with the angles and the lighting, and you’re a pretty good subject,” he continues, albeit a little more bashful that you’ve ever seen him, “I thought I could compile it all into an anniversary gift once I’m done.”

The first outcome is this: two really flustered people and a pretty intense make-out session. The second is as follows: you wanting to capture Jungkook and his beauty the same way he captures yours, you getting a polaroid camera of your own, and then the two of you obsessively taking pictures of each other.

Jungkook slumped upside-down on the couch gaming on his phone? Click.

You and your bedhead looking exceptionally murderous one fine morning? Click.

Jungkook almost exploding something in the microwave? Click.

Your friends have all caught onto this new challenge; some roll their eyes, some scoff affectionately, others scream and claim the both of you as their OTP.

Others, like Kim Namjoon, with a fondly exasperated look on his face, suggest that the both of you stop wasting expensive film like its nothing, and maybe start taking photos together instead. That seems to make perfect sense, and both you and Jungkook cannot wrap your minds around how neither of you have actually thought about the most obvious thing in the world.

(“That’s easy,” Namjoon replies, looking as if he’s nursing the beginnings of a migraine with how he’s pinching the bridge of his nose, “It’s because both of you are hard-headed idiots. And you are perfect for each other.”)

So the two of you get all giddy and excited once again at the home depot store next to campus, picking out a nice corkboard and some nice scrapbooking supplies for the kitchen.

The challenge didn’t have any winners (again), largely because the both of you forgot that it was a competition to begin with, and are now too busy filling the corkboard with cute couple polaroids that anyone would be jealous of (“We would out-couple every couple out there,” smirked Jungkook when he’d put the board up. You’d agreed.).

There’s this one the both of you took at the beach, and the smiles on your faces are wide, and there’s one where the both of you were trying to babysit Taehyung’s puppy and ended up taking a million selfies with the poor dog smushed between your faces. And there’s your favourite: a blurry photo of the both of you attempting a selfie with the camera for the first time, except none of you had figured out how it worked just yet and it ended up being a blurry photo of Jungkook mid-blink and you squinting.

And yeah, maybe the two of you weren’t that couple who’d take each other out to romantic candlelit dinners, and weren’t the type to call each other adorably affectionate pet names, and maybe the two of you get too competitive with each other sometimes.

But the both of you were still pretty darn cute, even if you do say so yourself.

a/n:

yay to uploading after forever; i just can’t seem to let this au go! special shoutout to @fan-ati--c for requesting this, i rly hope you liked it :3

[arthurmango]

Adoption AU

• Hosea and Dutch are 2 Dads™ who have adopted the whole gang; Susan is the housekeeper (lmao) and Pearson is the personal chef; Uncle is the drunk uncle that wont. fucking. go home. please go home youve been here for a month and you STINK

• The rest is all teenagers (or preteens) with ages ranging from 12-18

• Arthur's the oldest at 18 and has to babysit whenever Dutch and Hosea go on dates. Arthur practically lives in his room because of his depression.

• on a lighter note did i mention that they live on a horse farm

• Hosea goes to Walmart with all the kids and John and Sadie immediately scope out the pool noodles; Arthur's wearing pajamas because this boy doesn't fuckin take care of himself because he's just Sad and just woke up (its 3pm)

• Sean is the "i fucked yer mom" 12 year old on xbox live. he also has ADHD so he's Everywhere all At Once but that's okay

• Micah's still in his emo phase and won't admit it (he listens to bvb) he and sean fight over their shared netflix account. Micah is in the prime age of 13.

• Karen's the type of 16 year old that parties a lot. She argues a lot w/ her dads and is only rly close with Kieran.

• Mary-Beth is an introverted 14 year old that writes fanfic. she has a deviantart account and probably listens to nightcore

•Tilly is 16 and takes cosmetology classes online and omg she is the go to girl for hair (she even does Dutch's hair) (+free haircuts)

• Abigail is a teen mom at 17 and the whole gang Loves Jack. She moved in with Hosea and Dutch because her parents kicked her out. She and Sadie share a room and theyre besties

• Swanson is their neighbor & family friend that also won't GO HOME

• Trelawny is his roommate and. he's Daddy material. smash. (he travels a lot and takes the kids on vacation during the summer)

• Javier is 16 makes his own music and its really good!!!!!!!! he'll probably audition for America's Got Talent

• Charles is the second oldest at 17. he's a wildlife enthusiast and wants to be a veterinarian!!! he loves animals and hes vegan. he brings home so many stray animals and Hosea & Dutch just "Charles....this is the 3rd stray cat you've brought home this week. honey. we already have Cain and you have Taima. you cant. okay fine" (he has an etsy btw)

• Molly is Dutch's ex who comes over on Christmas with her girlfriend and its the Best

• Lenny is 16 & makes vlogs for youtube and sometimes he gets paid as an editor for other content creators

• Kieran is 14 and is the newest addition to the family :> Arthur isn't too fond of him at first because he's the Favorite™ but he comes around

• Bill is 17 and is one of those camouflage wearing YeeYee boys who chews dip and ITS GROSS

• Hosea and Dutch are v adamant about that

• Dutch is the Fun dad. Hosea enforces the rules.

• "can i have some money

"what did your other dad say"

"he said no"

*slides a 20* "buy urself something nice"

"DUTCH THAT WAS FOR OUR TAHITI VACATION"

• Strauss is one of those teenager hating old men. he's neighbors with the Van Der Lindes and lemme tell u he's a fuckin bitch

• John......,,,,,,is a fuckin hipster. he went vegan with Charles like. once. that was until Arthur drove him to mcdonalds. for nuggets. he's 17.

• Sadie paints!!!! Charles bought her new brushes and paints for Christmas. she's 16.

• road trips are a nightmare but thankfully they have an rv

• shopping trips......are a nightmare

javier pls get off your phone and restrain ur brother

sadie stop encouraging john

ARTHUR HELP PLS

sean,,,,,,,,please,,,,,,,please stay near the cart,,,,,,,,,,,

karen if u dont stop flirting with the cashier we're going to throw hands

• Dutch is a mango farmer lawyer bc of that silver tongue™ and Hosea is a stay at home dad who homeschools the kids

• John, Charles, and Arthur share a room and most nights p much go like this:

*3 am* "hey arthur where do racoons get their eyeliner"

"i dont know, john. you usually get yours from walmart."

">:("

• they have a rly big house and they own a ranch with all their horses and their dog Cain and the animals that Charles finds

•there was more to this post and i posted it but tumblr boinked uwu so now i've had to rewrite it but i still hope its okay!!!!!!!

[ophexis]

Decade thoughts thing

This isn’t gonna be particularely exciting I’m just emptying my brain. Also probably kinda long.

I’m gonna start with the personal points cuz those are probably the most depressing lol

I only feel disappointment towards myself considering the last 10 years. I started off this decade freshly entering college with ideas and a plan on what i wanted to do, and I’m ending it here...I’ve given up on an art career, I struggle to draw anything and I can barely keep up with my life. I’m having the worst art block of my life and I can’t finish anything. I was relatively active online and now I can’t find anything to post. I feel useless most of the time. I lost 5 years of what could’ve been constant art progress, and I feel it daily.

I have a now stable job at least, and in about two-ish months I will be moving out into my first appartment. At work I’ll strive to try and continue to be more confident in myself and my work experience. My lead, who sadly passed away on christmas eve, did all he could to push me to believe in my knowledge and 3 years of experience at my workplace and I’ll be trying my best to continue in that direction in his honor.

I’ve met some incredible people, some of which decided to stick with me despite what I ended up being. I’m eternaly grateful that they’ve decided to continue to share their lives with me and I love them very much.

I completely cut off a high school abusive friend from my life.

I’ve made amazing friends, but I’ve also lost some from...just my own fault I believe. I’m not a particularely good friend, overall. I wouldn’t blame anyone but myself.

I learned about Aromanticism (and tbh a lot of things about lgbt+!! I barely knew anything before coming here). Been identifyign as aromantic since then, and it’s been the perfect descriptor of my feelings towards romance my whole life.

On some less personal points, some highlights I can think of at the moment, in no particular order:

The glorious return of Star Wars. It was kind of a lonely time without content for a long time, and I had been staying away from the main fandom. But having new stuff has been great, and I got some friends to get into Star Wars with me, and we now have an Edge of the Empire thing going, and it’s been great fun. I got to rewatch The Clone Wars, the Prequels, watch Rebels, and I hope we’ll get to watch Resistance and anything else. The Mandalorian is easily one of the best thing to happen to the franchise since The Clone Wars. I definitely enjoyed the new Trilogy despite some of its faults. I’m planning on flying to Florida next year to go to Galaxy’s Edge. That would be my first trip to the US.

I started the process of building my own set of Mandalorian armor, some time before the serie aired. I’m hoping I’ll be able to actually finish it, and possibly join my local mando mercs clan.

I started playing Final Fantasy XIV, which has been great fun, lead me to meet some super cool people who are still playing with me, and helped carry me through some very rough years of my life. It lead me to my first plane trip, my first visit to Europe and outside my country, and more importantly lead me to meeting some very important friends. I hope I can return soon. Shoutout to EGG, my FC, but also Whitesand, a friendly FC, who hang out with us!!! They’re cool.

Going back further, I played Saints Row, which lead to some of my best times on Tumblr, and more importantly, allowed me to meet Ten. I can’t even begin to imagine what my life would be like right now had I not met him. He’s been ridiculously supportive of me and the things I like, and there’s nothing I could say or do that would properly express how happy I am that we’re friends. 

I started playing DnD! More accurately, I started playing pathfinder, then DnD5, then Edge of the Empire, then a WHOLEASS CUSTOM SYSTEM MADE BY TEN and it’s been great fun. I now have a buncha dice which is apparently a “modest amount” by dnd player standard.

I also, at some point, decided to revisit myself, and allow myself to indulge in some styles. As someone who’s been wearing hoodies and jeans for a long fucking time to avoid being noticed and generally hiding my own form, now that I had money I decided to indulge a bit....and I dedicated part of my wardrobe to kawaii shit. I now have a decent amount of skirts, pastel graphic shirts, dresses, tigh high socks and leggings. And I’ll admit I do not wear them enough, out of severe social anxiety, but I’ve been trying, particularely at cons.

I now have a pretty significant figure collection. I started off with one scale that my brother had given me, and like, one figma, and now I have several scales, many figmas, a bunch of nendoroids, and various other figures. I love looking at them, and I’m still working on making decent displays with them. I have a couple of gunpla to build still.

I started palying Monster Hunter, and I loved every minute. I started with MHgen, then MH4U, then MH3U, then MHWorld, THEN MHGenU. While World has a lot of stuff I’m not super happy with, all the games were still rly enjoyable.

I got me a Switch, a PS4, and now an actual gaming PC. I frikkin love videogames.

There are a lot of things that happened in the decade.

In the next, I’ll keep trying to enjoy art again, despite my lack of progress so far. My life’s about to change with my move and all, so I hope I can...kind of improve on myself, somehow. I know I don’t post anything and don’t talk to anyone, so like I get it. But thanks to anyone who decided to give this a read. You’re all rad and I hope you’ll all have a nice 2020, and I hope many good things happen to you all in the next decade.

I’m going to keep trying.

[historyrepeatsitself]

modern au headcanons p2

hey guys, so after uhh everything crashed and burned as u can see from this post, i did not follow thru in good time with writing a modern au headcanon post… BUT!!! fortunately, i have returned from my semi hiatus to bring you… inspired by this OG post… httyd modern au headcanons part 2!!!

also sorry for the weird bullet points, i did this in microsoft word so the entire thing wouldnt fucKING DELETE AGAIN

·         so like i said with the last one, cami is obviously internet famous for her ridiculously cool youtube channel

·         shes also quite popular on insta but youtube is more her jam

·         her fame started when a video of her pickpocketing stoick and them him finding out and absolutely Losing It went viral

·         it was a vine

·         you can hear hiccup laughing in the background

·         her videos used to mainly feature pranks she did but since then shes branched out

·         she still does a lot of pranks but now her videos also include: parkour, absolutely HORRIBLE karaoke (ft. hiccup and fishlegs), Q&A, playing with toothless for an hour and thirty minutes (yes, it did get a lot of views ((also toothless is a cat in this au))), roast battle vs snotlout (spoiler: snotlout cries), “a compilation of hiccup doing nerdy shit and me calling him a nerd (8 min, 30 sec)”, “reading yalls fanfiction abt me (fishlegs has an asthma attack)”, videos of her doing sports, & more

·         like in the original hiccup and fishlegs have their own channel

·         its literally shit

·         they update it only on lethal amounts of caffeine

·         its usually VERY active during finals week (hence their not great grades)

·         it puts shane dawson to shame

·         “NOT CLICKBATE: OBAMA IS FROM THE MOON????”

·         “NEIL A IS ALIEN SPELLED BACKWARDS??? DID ARMSTRONG USE THE MOON AS A WAY TO FUEL UP BEFORE JUMPING BACK TO HIS COLONY ON MARS??”

·         “MY CAT IS NOT FROM EARTH (VIDEO INCLUDED!!!!)”

·         “got rejected again…. </3”

·         “video of fishlegs on sugar high after i gave him a bunch of candy bc he wouldn’t stop crying”

·         “kids from our school found us” (during the whole video theyre panicking while wearing wigs and fake mustaches)

·         needless to say its very confusing when someone connects that those guys are also on cami’s channel

·         shes pissed but comes around and they regularly star on her channel while she regularly stars on theirs

·         hiccup also has his own side channel where he explains different animal species (natural history stuff) and also does various language tutorials

·         fishlegs reads poetry and sings on his side channel

·         cami has a video where she reacts to hiccup’s channel, he actually gained a lot of followers from it

·         hiccup and fishlegs go to the same school while cami goes to an all girls school across town

·         she actually doesn’t hate it

·         hiccup and fishlegs are public school kids

·         that public school vibe

·         kids from their school are so confused how they know cami and rly jealous

·         cami once stopped by after school (her school gets out a little earlier) and punched a bully for them

·         it was iconic

·         she smacked him right in the face and hauled hiccup’s ass up and dragged them both in the car

·         cami is pretty popular at her school

·         hiccup and fishlegs are NOT

·         theyre honestly a bit like peter and ned from spiderman

·         gotta love that lego deathstar

·         cami does not like legos

·         both hiccup and fishlegs are smart but don’t put in a lot of effort

·         fishlegs excels at English and hiccup is good at science classes (esp bio) and history

·         fishlegs is ok at history but finds some of it a little boring

·         they HATE gym

·         theyre both shocked to find that cami (a dumbassTM) is actually a straight A student

·         shes super competitive so she actually does super well and gets rly rly good grades and all her teachers love her

·         she didn’t for awhile bc she has ADHD for school was HARD but shes gotten a lot better and got tutors and study methods and also shes just super competitive

·         she was on math team in middle school and hiccup wont SHUt Up about IT

·         “hey theres my favorite student mathlete!!!!!”

·         fishlegs doesn’t even try and help him anymore, he does this to himself

·         fishlegs wins English awards every year

·         he also got a 36 on his English ACT hes just SO GOOD

·         hes also a theatre kid lmao

·         he does shakespearean theatre on top of his school theatre too

·         “to be or not To Be”

·         Hiccups not a huge English fan and he doesn’t rly like Shakespeare but he does rly like Oscar wilde

·         Dorian gray is the Shit

·         Fishlegs was so happy when he read it bc they could finally talk about LiTeRaRy ClAsSiCs!!!

·         the trio met bc hiccup and cami’s parents own rival business companies

·         both stoick and bertha are very Rich and Important

·         hiccup and cami sometimes have to go to business dinners

·         they fuck around

·         that’s how they met

·         hiccup bumped into cami replacing the soap in the hand dispenser in the men’s room with silly string

·         he thought she was the coolest person ever

·         she tried to fight him at first but they quickly united against the Evil Boring Dinners With Stupid Old Men

·         they locked this one old racist dude in a bathroom stall once and sent fishlegs a video

·         truly forces of chaos

·         the forces of chaos were unfortunately grounded for that tho

·         stoick is very busy and valhallarama travels a lot so they hang out at hiccup’s bc its usually empty (cami’s house is also kinda far)

·         cami’s parents are divorced but her dad stops by occasionally

·         fishlegs has a foster family and that’s how he wound up meeting hiccup was when he moved to be with his new family when they were in second grade

·         hes rly grateful that hes been able to stay with them for a long ass time

·         theyre actually pretty nice

·         hiccup gets to come over for dinner

·         snotlout is hiccup’s bitchy cousin whos a grade ahead of hiccup and fishlegs

·         he eventually becomes nicer to them at the beginning of sophomore year

·         some bad stuff happens  (might write an angst fanfic idk lemme know (itll prolly be hiccup centric))

·         basically, snotlout kinda realizes hes been a bitch

·         hes sorry

·         things get better

·         until yknow

·         gotta keep things sad cant get rid of all the emo

·         but anyway snotlout does wind up becoming a good friend to the trio!! <3

·         oh lmao when valhallarama came home for Christmas she thought hiccup was either dating cami or fishlegs and she didn’t know which one bc hiccup was so shy she just figured he was dating one of them and just didn’t tell her (theyre all like super close yknow)

·         after seeing hiccup and cami holding hands (a RARE moment, it was bc they thought it would annoy snotlout bc he hates cami (it did)) she assumed it was cami

·         she brought it up

·         LMFAOOOO hiccup laughed for like 10 minutes

·         She then immediately was like oh ok ur gay and its fishlegs

·         that was even funnier

·         “mom fishlegs is weird lmao” (he and fishlegs probably friendly roast each other a lot tbh. they definitely call each other “weirdo” “freak” “nerd” other possibly explicit words, its chill)

·         Valhallarama is so confused

·         she didn’t say it but “child u literally told me that u thought ur little cat that’s missing teeth is prolly from area 51, ur the weird one son”

·         she asks stoick

·         hes just as confused

·         she drops the whole topic

·         it has yet to occur to bertha

·         fishlegs’ family is good as long as hes good theyre chill like that

·         oh and cami’s school has uniforms

·         yes, she does have to wear a skirt

·         yes, several of them were shredded freshman year

·         bertha is So Tired

[96xie]

2019

a whole summary of this difficult year

2019 was full of unexpected good and bad surprises along with lessons and experiences.

january

spent good time with mocha, wayo and brian

had such a good time with guildies from our game

met up with some other ppl from the same game and didnt feel too good bc i was never good with crowds and/or groups that were already well established

tried tinder for the first time because i thought it would be nice to put myself out there for once

feburary

continued my tinder journey and actually had fun with it. it was pretty scary at the same time because it was such a new experience talking to other people and to have them notice you? because i always knew and felt that i wasnt really the desirable one.

actually hooked up with a guy from last months meetup and hung out twice. thought it was going somewhere because he, too, showed signs to progress further ((was wrong because he lied and showed red flags later))

one major red sign to me: no response after genuinely saying thank you for rides and dinner. im the type of person who always says thank you because im honestly grateful for the little and big things. he basically shrugged it off.

also, a huge liar. yah, big no

i brought him to my friends birthday bc they and himself wanted to meet each other, it was fun while it lasted but stuff happened

towards the end of the month, i cut my ties off with him for being awfully mean to me and also cut ties with my “friends” for having really bad assumptions of me.

i was frustrated with myself at that time bc his cats gave me a bad breakout and i felt super ugly. also i wasnt sad over him, but over the fact that i let myself be treated like a second option. eventually i learned that it was good that i didnt let things go further and that i only deserve the very best.

even though i was hurt, i thought it was a good experience, esp since i havent really been in the “dating game” for years. like it was a just a small step to putting myself out there once again

a week later after that a classmate asked me out and got tons of compliments from him and wondered “the universe really works in crazy ways”

march

met some cool people through the same mobile game on a discord server and they were much better than the first group.

also met this really funny dude in the same group. like he was so fun to talk to and he understood my dumb lingo

remember when my classmate asked me out on a date? it turned out a bit weird. but considering this was my first date in YEARS i thought it was a cool experience. got some carne asada fries outta him

i had the dude i was talking to call me so i could leave the date tho LOL ((he helped me lots, esp how to deal with awkward situations with my classmate. also at this point, i really liked talking to him but i wasnt rly sure if i wanted to date other guys bc i had been hurt previously)

this month was pretty much dedicating most of my time talking to him and i enjoyed it alot

also went to pubs for the first time to hangout with my coworkers. such an interesting place

april

tried rollerskating for the first time ever, ended up with a bunch of bruises but it was cool!

also tried 7leaves for the first time and instantly fell in love with mungbean

also went clubbing in sf with my friends and it was such a fun time like i had SO much fun

i got auctioned off of SAD! that phase was just a crazy ride. while there was many that dm’d me, there was only one special person that i only replied to and continued to talk to him on a daily basis

((honestly, i was scared that i was taking things a bit further with him because a part of me was like “are you ready for this?” and “have you really recovered from that guy?” or “can you give this guy your all?” just alot of overthinking))

spent 4/20 at sf with my friends, and overall had a GREAT time. took too many hits and drank so ya gorl was crossfaded. not sure if i wanna do tht again tho

unfortunately woke up with a swollen face and it lasted for a LONG time.

may

so my face is still swollen, still bad, red as a tomato and at this point i was really hesitant to meet up with the guy ive been talking to. i mean!! my skin was SO bad. i felt like i was gonna make a fool out of myself by scaring him away

but,,,, he was still willing to see me despite my appearance and : ( he was so accepting and typing this makes my heart ache bc he is SUCH a good man : (

i met up with the guy towards the end of the month in sj and first thing he does when i walk up to him is give me this great warm hug and so many smooches !!!!!!! like my heart is melting

eventually we became official !!! he got us an airbnb for the night and we jus spent time cuddling on the bed and honestly i : ( i like him so much

june

my birthday wasnt rly that like “wow” it was actually kinda annoying

my bf flew up to sf where we met up, explored the city and slept the night in at an airbnb. next day went to oakland where i introduced my friends to him!

went to my first festival with several with my friends, including ppl from our same guild from our game and it was SO fun

rolled for the first time and it was SUCH an experience. redosed like twice and ended up hallucinating which is something ill def not do again

also i really wished my bf was with me at that time : ( while i had an extremely fun time, i wish i shared that moment with him : (

july

went to vegas for my cousins 22nd bday. shit was wild

also rolled there.

also threw up for the very first time

a fight broke out at the club and that shit was fuckgin CRAZY and it was RIGHT next to our table

also used alot of my money for the whole trip in which nobody really told me about so …. i was like ok.. fuck …

also my skin was still bad during these past months so it was pretty hard masking it

like really hard. with someone with terrible eczema, its just extremely hard to hide it

august

bf flew to sac!!! he met my mom for the first time and we explored the city and stuff

and went on an ikea date! and! honestly i just really loved spending time with him :c

we also spent time with my friends! they came over also! and ate some fuckgin bomb ass waffles

and then took bus down to la to meetup with some friends from our guild towards the end of the month!

it was pretty nice to be able to stay with my bf in his apartment !!!!!

also some scalding tea but thats rly for another time

to make it super short tho: our friend that we’ve known much longer than the girl he met (less than 3 months) dropped our friendship SO quick lol

september

cousin bonding @ beach, too cold for tht doe

towards the end of the month, my bf flew me down!!! so i spent the weekend with him and like always, only had a good time with him!

AND ALWAYS EATING GOOD FOOD!

october

during this fall semester, i took online classes and one of them was a 8week class. there was a topic about mental health and how we can take care of ourselves better and i just thought it was such an important thing to cover. i feel like its not talked about enough

november

spent thanksgiving with my family down in morgan hill and ate good food! honey ham has a special place in my heart.

went black friday shopping first at walmart, lowkey disappointed in myself because i was bummed out the apple watches were sold out. the materialistic part of me jumped out oof

slept at my cousins then went to the mall! didnt get anything besides really good bulgogi fries. i hated going into stores tho cuz everything was literally crowded. hated it !!!!!!!

went to a small festival in sacramento with my friends at the end of the month and this time is 7 of us (than the usual 5)! it was sososo fun.

also took my coworker with me, it was actually amusing to see bc our group were all asian and he’s the only tall white guy

made hotpot at home and we also went out for milktea and waffles again! sooo good.

december

flew down to see my bf again and only had a good time! went to this garden with beautiful lights and ! ugh! SO pretty!

cried in his bed before my flight back, cried on the plane, cried at home and cried before i slept. i miss him

also racked up alot of hours so i could pay for my tuition and my family’s bills. kinda sucks bc im pretty tired but i gotta do what do i gotta do.

christmas was a bit lonely bc my mom went to the philippines and i dont rly talk to my brother but my kuya came the next day and we ate n watched stuff

overall, it was a whacky year. but im so glad to have met ed. he means SO much to me. a part of me was so hesitant to date him because i mean, he’s man with his life set. i dont have a car, im still in school, i have this part time job where im giving my mom all my paychecks and which the only money im keeping is just my tips (not much), i still have issues with myself and other conflicts and honestly theres much to do, learn and grow from. but he’s so supportive, understanding and loving and i love and appreciate him from the bottom of my heart. most of the time i wonder if im doing and if im being enough for him. i worry about that alot but he’s so patient with me. i laugh alot when im with him and i feel so happy.

did i mention that we are long distance? him being in la and me in sacramento. so the only thing thats connecting us is facetime. maybe once every two months will i see him in person but yep. when i had my first panic attack, i really wanted him right next to me. at that moment i felt even more sad because of course you’re gonna want you’re significant other during a moment like that. but anyways, i always miss him and i always want him next to me and i always love him. i want to hurry up and get my education done with so i can be with him. not to sound like omg im so madly infatuated with him type of thing tho. he’s someone who understands me and knows how to love me.

i hope 2020 treats me well despite all the challenges ahead of me.

[sarcasm-is-my-native-tounge]

Adventures in running a table at a charity bazaar

Day 1

-Lady bitching abt how the younger generation is wasteful and just throws everything away... Uhhh okay lol

-As i was carrying a VERY large tote full of books this man walks by with an EMPTY hand truck and says "wow that looks heavy" and walks off. I might kill a man today.

-Two ladies running a pyramid scheme for shitty makeup. "Yeah it's $50 for like a drop of anti-age serum but if you get your friends to invest too it ends up really cheap! Do you and your friends have credit cards?" Yeah ok.

-One lady actually made some super cute christmas decorations I hope good things happen to her she is v nice

-One of the same ladies who is running the pyramid scheme keeps telling me to smile and i am going to SNAP

-Lady in the kitchen kept getting distracted (its really not her fault, people kept going in there and talking to her) and it took her 45 minutes to slap some meat and cheese on some bread for me and i am STARVING HOLY FUCK HURRY UP

-Had to lug a 50lb sandwich board 3 blocks to the main intersection by myself whilst being slapped in the face by several balloons and couldn't see

-My grandmas neighbor has COTTON CANDY HERE AND I WANT SOME

-Other pyramid scheme lady is super nice tho I feel bad she is trapped in that

-No one is fucking hereeee

-Seriously though I kinda really want some cotton candyyyyy

-Old man in the kitchen made some bomb ass homemade chili and its delicous but its not really agreeable with my stomach sooooo i might buy some before i go home

-I doubt I'm getting paid for any of this bullshit and that's fine i guess

-The. Most. Umcomfortable. Chairs. In. Existence.

-At least this provides a distraction from my job interview on Tuesday 😬

-During set up last night, there were a couple kids doing a karate class and when they were done they were super sweet and helped us move tables and such and i heard one of them go DISGUSTANG really loud in an echoey room full of old ladies and I felt my soul leave my body. Teenagers are fuckin amazing

-Man looking through some prints I'm selling. Other lady wants to look too, she asks him to pull the stack he already looked through bc he has been there for like 5 minutes. "Well You can just wait" he says. Another 5 minutes later he is finally done. This lady has had to sit down bc she can't stand too long. He goes "there ya go. Didnt kill ya now did it?" What a fucking dick

-My grandmas neighbor has a hoodie that says Winchester on it and i figured it was like the place or something but as she walked by i noticed that in fact it said Sam and Dean on the bottom and i dont know what to do with this information now

-One vendor brought her dog and his name is Russel Wilson its SO CUTE

-Theres this home made Rudolph... Thing that just keeps staring at me. It is very cursed and i hate it

-God everyone who shows up is either an old lady or a crackhead

-The one crackhead woman was really nice though. I hope she does well

-Every vendor's phone is so fuckin loud what is with boomers i stg

-One lady. Made tote bags. Out of bags of horse feed. Whyyyy

-Evidently as I walked away from my grandma and someone she was talking to, that person was like "oh my goodness she has such pretty hair" which made me feel rly nice thank you embroidery woman

-Oh god that chili smells so good

-Someone brought doughnuts fuuuuuuck

-Im gonna blow all my gas money on food guys god dammit

-I wish it wouldn't be considered rude to watch netflix rn

-Thank fuck the bitch pyramid scheme lady left

-ADORABLE SMALL CHILDREN

Oh my GOD they were so cute my HEART. One little girl saw this halloween decoration and giggled really hard and said "eyeballsss" it was SO FUCKING CUTE. "Can i have a baf boom?" (Bath bomb) Im gonna cryyyy. Those girls have their dad wrapped around their fingers oh my Lord.

-I bought the chili. Burnt the shit outta my mouth. No regrets.

-1pm rolls around and fuckin no one is showing up. I wanna watch TWD dammit

-Vendor lady's sister's purse got stolen outta her shopping cart today apparently Awh 😕

-Now everyone is swapping attempted theft stories lol

-Girl came in named Rehannon. Looked like Stevie Nicks. I am blessed.

-We close in 2 hours and im pretty sure only 15 people came in

-Yeah ive been watching Netflix. God i wanna leave.

The cursed Rudolph btw